A Message To The Fellow Gifted And Spiritually Inclined

My Spirit has lead me to write this post and whenever my spirit gives me a message i definitely know that it is for a reason. I never doubt. I know the feeling and why.

Every now and then there will always be sick envious people who are very furious because they cannot get under our skin and bring us down. They will say and do anything just for a reaction. Believe me, they are truly miserable because we are satisfied, happy and at peace with ourselves and have no worries because we know that our lives are fine and will continue to go right.

I know that i was born to lead not even intending to. I’ve always been a leader not a follower. There are plenty of assholes - as there will always be in all walks of life. They are very insecure and afraid of the truth in all aspects of life. I ignore them because i know what is really behind the root of their problem, they don’t realize how much they give themselves away by their actions.

Anyhow for those who may be unaware of the tactics and wiles of their shenanigans Gifted people and/or people who are very smart ( who know too much ) will always be targeted in life. Don’t fall for the game. Continue to believe in yourself and definitely do not doubt and be discouraged.

I don’t understand why certain people continue on with their stupid bullshit that is so obvious to see right through. And specifically this caul/veil post. And after this i will speak no more on this particular jealousy that some have of my gifts and knowledge. This happened once in the past, someone left a comment however i did not approve it because it was nonsense, but now just to let the record show, regarding this crap about how most topics concerning what i’ve written on my blog concerning the caul and, how the information i wrote can be found anywhere on the internet is very truly a lie because everything i have written is from my own personal experience. I’ve only copied and pasted one article concerning the caul from caulbearer.org and that was for reference to those who wanted to come to their own conclusions.

I am highly educated about being born with a caul due to the fact that i was born with a double veil. Animals are also born with cauls and have psychic ability as my dog did. I’m clairvoyant. I have all the abilities including healing and the ability to make things happen by doing spiritual work. I’ve worked with other psychics and priestesses. I have been foretelling the future since the young age of three and my powers continue to get stronger as i age.

I’ve experienced things that know one will ever come across on the internet. I am so spiritually sensitive that my body physically reacts . I am absolutely aware of everything going on around me at all times and nobody can touch me. Now everyone born with a caul will have their own different experience. So if i or anyone else has not experienced something that someone else has does not mean that it does not exist or that it is not possible. In fact, that is beautiful and it is a blessing. Experiencing things that no one has heard of means that you have a special protection.

Here Is An Example Of Bullshit That I will Not Cater To:

Vasak Says:

August 5, 2009 at 11:04 pm eI despise people like you and if you want to challenge me you will not succeed .So as far as i am concerned you can go and fuck yourself!

Wow Miss LaToya! You have really shown that you are a truly “sensitive” person.

Peace and blessings to you.
M

misslatoya Says:

August 5, 2009 at 5:58 am eSomething definitely has to be wrong somewhere in your life for you to be worried about me and my business! You are the sad one! You are a very ignorant person. I have not stolen anything. People copy my own original writings from my blog and post them on their sights as mere reference or because it is of some interest to them and i do not have a problem with it! I don’t put significance on posting from other sites. It is no big deal. I’m not claiming them as my own , i don’t need to and i don’t want to. My experiences bare much more significance and value than what is posted on the world wide web. And, as far as delusional is concerned- I pay you no mind whatsoever. Everything that i have been taught spiritually has been verified. And i have plenty of other people to back me up even though i do not need any back up. You talk about unprovable things. Nobody has to prove anything to the world, or reveal everything that they know- and without me going into further detail if you were bright you would know this. It doesn’t matter what people like you think. You have no idea who i know and the things that i have accomplished so if you think that it’s all ego and contradiction, i really do not care. Your opinion is of no value to me. I am more special than you could ever imagine just like certain others in particular. I despise people like you and if you want to challenge me you will not succeed .So as far as i am concerned you can go and fuck yourself!

Mordekai Says:

August 4, 2009 at 10:33 pm eI am a natural born clairvoyant with extremely strong abilities and do not need to learn anything from anybody i’ve been taught by spirits and the spirits of my ancestors. So know what you’re talking about before you speak on it!

What a load of nonsense! You “don’t need to learn anything from anybody”, yet you claim to talk to dead people? So these dead ones are as real to you are living people, yet only they can teach you things? Very convenient indeed…just like the priests of religions who claim the unprovable as a shield from provability, lest their lies be seen for what they are.
You speak in the spirit of contradiction, and those who think in such a manner confuse not only themselves but those who are also confused by the rains of unreason and delusional thinking. The net seems to be infested with such sad individuals there days, going on about “gifts”, “powers” and “psychic abilities”.
Miss La Toya, do you deny that the main texts on this blog concerning caulbearers have been shamelessly culled from caulbearer websites that have been copyrighted and in existence for more than twelve years, yet you dare to steal from the caulbearers whilst ignoring the damnation that comes upon the blood of men and women who dare to do such evil? So be it Miss La Toyah, but even if you think you can avoid the wrath of the Force of The All that watches over all true caulbearers, your false beliefs will not prevent what will be taken from you. The choice is yours, and you will receive warnings to change your course, though you may have already missed some of them because of your inflated ego.As always in The Way, the choice is yours.

misslatoya Says:

August 3, 2009 at 12:21 am eYou must have misinterpreted something because i have not been influenced by anyone or anything. I have my own knowledge and my own judgements through my own experiences and know what to and what not to take as the truth. I was born with a caul and can honestly tell you that i do not relate to most of the people who claim that they were born with cauls. I have never been lonely or confused about anything in my life. I don’t know where you get that i’ve been influenced a lot by caulbearer.org, if you are insinuating that i’ve learned things through websites and through other people, you better think again. I am a natural born clairvoyant with extremely strong abilities and do not need to learn anything from anybody i’ve been taught by spirits and the spirits of my ancestors. So know what you’re talking about before you speak on it!

Wing Says:

July 31, 2009 at 2:08 am eI was born in sept 1984. I too was born with a veil.
I read some of your stuff around a year ago LaToya, I can see that the caulbearer.org site has influenced you alot. Which I cant say if its a bad thing or not. But I’ve still been looking for the meaning to everything, I wish I could travel the world asking the elders of all religions, races, about their cultures views on veils. To know the truth.
But I can say, that everyone is born with innate abilities. Everyone has the capability to feel/see things outside of this reality. But our society has been twisting truth for longer than any of us could know. And there are alot of different factions fighting for control of what is truth. So you have to take anything you hear with a grain of salt. Be careful of what you believe. But its always good to have a open mind.
I will also say on a side note, as a general truth for me, caulbeares are truly lonely creatures.
Its hard for me to listen to people (especially women) talk about the most mundane and selfish stuff. Meanwhile I have thoughts of millennium long conspiracies, and the end of our society hanging on my shoulders. It just doesnt mix, especially when youve always felt like you were just watching everyone else live their life while you live on borrowed time.
Thankfully I pick the greatest friends, and I wouldnt trade them for anything, including control of the world. So I dont feel as lonely as I did as a kid, but still some days are harder than others. I just wish I could find a decent woman that wouldn’t lie to me, I always know then they are lying to me. But really thats my own problem and I shouldnt be bringing it up.
In the end, I dont bother my friends with my deep thoughts and feelings, I just enjoy my time with them and try to laugh, but for the most part I have just gotten used to being alone, I will take on the world by myself when the time is right, if I have to. Id prefer to have the help of my fellow brothers and sisters at that time though. But as i see it, I am probably most definitely making up for things in a previous life.
My biggest influences in all this, is my dreams. My dreams have showed me alot of things, some things make sense, and others dont. Other dreams just feel like im preparing for something.
Its a confusing existence. All I know is that when I die, I will die fighting, until the very end, just like all my dreams…

Voodoo/Black Magic Removal And Reversal

I’ve had experience with different types of voodoo for exactly twenty-seven years now. And i can honestly say that the negative side such as black magic is a very sick thing. I have received my calling to share my powers, knowledge and special abilities of my caul with the certain people of the world who need and who are seeking out my help. In my early twenties i would just read and do spiritual work for those that i knew on a personal level. Now the time has come for me to reveal that i have been elevated and that i am indeed a priestess. I have been using my abilities for myself all of my life. I’ve been doing spiritual cleansing and white magic for a little over ten years now. And, since i am a very honest person i have done and reversed black magic on those who came after me. And without getting into the nasty details my results have been extremely satisfactory.

Since i have been on numerous occasions the victim of all types of voodoo such as Brujeria ( the tie-the bind ) , love spells and other spells to try to lower my self confidence, self esteem and to prevent success that i was born to have from coming into my life along with more wickedness, i know all about what voodoo feels like what it can and tries to accomplish and how to fight it. However, Everyone is not gifted and strong enough to conquer evil voodoo such as i have been able to do. And not everybody knows that they are a victim of witchcraft since it appears in one’s life as something occuring naturally. I’ve always had a very strong mind and strong will so that voodoo could not affect me or my actions, and the spiritual ability to detect exactly what it was, who was doing it, why, and where it was coming from, and then how to defeat it.

I have strong positive energy. And i have a tremendous group of strong positive spirits who work with me in my life and who serve while giving me the protection that i need. I will not at all have a problem with helping those who want to conquer those who are doing harm or trying to harm them spiritually. So i will not only be working with those in particular on a professional level but also on a personal level because i have a dedication for destroying those low life who are sick and demented. I know all about them, the way their minds work, and what they set out to do ( They think they are smart when indeed they are dumb ). And that is one of the keys to remember. In my personal experience, they have kept and keep on trying to attack me long after i had taken care of them because they can’t accept defeat.

The only silly thing now that they are constantly trying to attack now more than anything is my reputation, spreading nasty lies hoping that it will stick with their weak spells and weak-mindedness. I laugh at them harshly! I never cared what anyone thought of me, and especially any stupid lies that they retrieve. Obviously they do though! And that is what you have to think about and remember about those who are trying to harm you. What ever they are trying to conquer you with will indeed conquer them. They try to hurt others with things that would hurt them. So what they do is not a reflection on you it is a reflection on themselves, because what they want to take from you or do to you may not even matter to you, but it matters to them. You may be even capable of surviving a downfall that they could never imagine overcoming. These people do not conceive this train of thought.

Many people have come to me for help some real some false-believe me i can tell. I’m only here for those who are in serious need of help. I don’t play games and i don’t have time for any games. I get my work done and once it’s done it is final. If you are crossed up or think that you are crossed up or need some type of spiritual help in life i will give you a consultation, and i do charge a very reasonable fee for my spiritual work depending on what has to be done regarding anyone’s particular situation. Anyone may contact me, if you don’t want your information or email posted here worldwide on this blog you may of course go to one of my websites and correspond confidentially as you probably would like.

http://latoyalawrence.yolasite.com/Spiritual.php

http://mysite.verizon.net/vzerx6is/misslatoya

Envy, Jealousy

Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 5:26 AM EDT

•  It all began with Cain and Abel. And i can very well relate firsthand to that biblical story because most jealousy starts within the home. Years ago my own uncle admitted to me himself that the reason he sometimes was mean to me was due to his envious feelings. My mother had already told me before he did though that he was jealous because i was so very well taken care of. I had the type of mother that he didn’t have. Other relatives besides my uncle have also expressed their envies and jealousies by going out into the streets spreading vicious rumors about my mother and i in the past along with doing a lot of other nasty things.

  And, aside from my unfit family i’ve been the object of much envy and jealousy from people on the outside as well. They were jealous of me when i was a young child going to school, while i was a teenager making it quite well on welfare, and now that i am a woman who goes to work. One of the biggest things some are jealous of is that i haven’t been skanked up. They don’t like that i have never been dogged out by a man so they had to make up lies about me. They don’t like how i was capable of writing books so they had to interfere in my career. I don’t care who don’t like my books and what i write. If any of my literature is considered to be nothing to them that is their problem, not mine. I have God-given talents. Whoever can’t see it doesn’t matter to me because i know it.

  Envy and jealousy has taken an all new high. It has been taken to a new level. Sometimes envy is made very clear. One can detect jealousy in people’s faces and actions but when you confront them about it most of the time their reaction is “jealous of what?” Jealousy is a very ugly thing and sometimes it is over the most little of matters. With some of them who were envious of me it is the home that i came from. I have a share of negative relatives on both sides of my family and i am not anything like them. But in those particular peoples eyes i should have been. When i was a little girl a lot talked about what they believed i would turn out to be, thinking their children was so much more better than me when they weren’t. They couldn’t see that then. Their children’s families was in a way the opposite of mine yet their children still was the ones to fuck up and get fucked up by other people while i was the one who never got messed up at all. They are all very jealous of my character. The person that i am. So they desperately seeked and still seek to destroy me.

Rumors

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 11:27 PM EDT

•  People have been telling lies since the beginning of time so they are definitely not going to stop now. No doubt, a lot of people are very nosey and love gossip. They gossip over anything, usually about a lot of silly shit. Some will say that everybody gossips. There is a big difference between having a discussion and straight out gossiping. Most people who like to sit around waiting to hear and spread vicious rumors are pathetic, miserable people who don’t have a life of their own. They are full of envies and petty jealousies over the people that they talk about. As soon as gossip is spread about them though they can’t handle it and most of the time it is because what’s spread about them is the truth so they get mad and spread lies on others who are above them.

  I have never spreaded rumors. I spread the truth. And i, just like many others, have been the victim of quite a few ridiculous rumors. I’ve heard people say that they would go home and cry over lies that was said about them. I have never shed a tear over lies people told on me. Some of them may have pissed me off very much because i knew what they were trying to do but their talk didn’t affect me because i knew what was circulating was nowhere near the truth. I know that it does hurt a lot of good people when others hear negative things that are false regarding them then they listen to it and may act accordingly to it. Treating them unfairly, and some of them got the nerve because they are the ones who actually have the dirt on them and the ones they criticize are the innocent ones. The way i look at the matter is if you know who you are and you know what you did and did not do you shouldn’t give a fuck. People are going to talk about you anyway. Whether you do good or bad. Fuck them!

  I scoff and laugh at people who spread rumors about me. I’m better than all of them. I can go and walk around anywhere holding my head up as high up in the sky as i want to because i haven’t done a damn thing! And if i had i’d still be strong enough to pick up and keep moving because i don’t do things that i’d be ashamed of.

  People have all type of reasons why they make up lies and spread rumors. Most of the time it is done out of jealousy, hatred, ignorance, and sickness. One time i hung out with this older woman who came out of jail a long time ago. Her name was Venus. The next thing that i knew people were assuming that because i was a good person and that she was a bad person that i was trying to help her get on her feet or something to that nature. The woman herself even went around lying, telling people that i was trying to save her. Save her from what? I don’t know what they were talking about. It was all news to me. That was a petty lie, unless she was really that dumb enough to perceive that through her own misunderstanding. Then, later on, i was suppose to had went with her boyfriend ( had a relationship with him). And then i became a ho’. And so on an so on. See, they are all crazy! And they are suppose to be grown folks. That’s why the dummy and her nigger both have been looking like skeletons for a while now and are rapidly dying from Aids. You know, the truth always comes out no matter how long it make take. I don’t have no Aids and never had any other diseases for that matter. That says a whole lot because they hung themselves with their own ropes. People need to think about what they lie about before they do it. Their shit didn’t add up and now their being eaten up. I knew that they had Aids a long time ago and was waiting until the day for it to really show. I look at Venus and Omar and gloat like crazy. That is what they get for being so jealous of me, a death sentence.

  It’s just sad when people’s lives get ruined over shit that they know is not true. Since most of the time lies spread faster than the truth it gets to them how those who fall for the lies believe in it, and it bothers them how people think of them. I can’t get into any of that shit because it is a waste of energy. It’s not real so why pay any attention to it. The way i keep looking at it is that they are living in a land of make-believe and i am in reality and i got to keep moving on because i’m not a sick person. Some probably are making up rumors about why i write blogs. Is that going to discourage me from blogging? No way! I write because i am a natural born writer. I was told that the gift i have would be used to help people even though i did not set out to do so, i just followed the calling. It’s a talent. I’m not trying and never have tried to prove anything to anyone. I don’t beg people to read my blogs if nobody likes what i have to say they don’t have to visit and read my writings. I didn’t even tell people that i had blogs they found out on their own. I am expressing myself and i’m going to keep doing it. And this may sound crazy but if i never got any visitors i’d still post.

  That is one of the major reasons i don’t and will continue not to be bothered with too many people because they are so stupid and ignorant, jealous and inferior and not worth my time and energy. I’m much, much happier being by myself, doing what i like. Even when i am on my job i keep mostly to myself. So everybody can go on an keep talking while i’ll still be way ahead because i’ve been gone!

I’m Steps Ahead

Thursday, September 21, 2006 at 9:15 AM EDT

• As some may know at birth i was born with a double veil which means that i have very strong spiritual abilities. Aside from already being intelligent the reason i have so much knowledge is because i am a very accurate clairvoyant. This is the month of september, there is only about three and a half more months left before a new year comes in and still my enemies won’t stop endeavoring to destroy me. I’m so tired of having to mention them but they just won’t leave me alone. I don’t write about each an everything they do and have done but i write about a great deal of their actions because they definitely need to be exposed and because i’m not afraid to and will continue to speak on the things going on in the world that aren’t right. While there are some in the world aware of my enemies wrongdoings due to their own experiences or through the experiences of others or through things that get wind there are still a great deal who aren’t aware and God may be using me to get the word out to deserving people who are in the dark. I know i am not the only one who these type of sick people are doing this to it just so happens that i’m a spiritually gifted person who is well aware an in tune with what is going on around me. And i also have a significant source of protection in my favor that my enemies don’t seem and choose to accept. Obviously they have greatly underestimated my strength, knowledge, power and purpose. I am set way apart from them and this world-if not they would have been had me by now. They’ll never get me. No one can stop what the almighty higher power puts out! I am a person who is pure in heart and in mind. I don’t and never have smoked, indulged in drugs or alcohol, and i don’t have sexual relations with anyone and that is my business. It is who i am what keeps me strong and standing. My physical self as well as spiritual but more so my spiritual self because my spirit has got me the way that i am. I’m truly a good person. This is all a part of my character. I live a clean life which causes no strains in my life because i am naturally this way. In the same it is in a way making me a target. The way that i am may be foreign to a lot of people but i feel the same way about them. Their way of life is foreign to me and i may think of some of their lifestyles as crazy nevertheless i don’t care. To me, smoking is stupid, alcohol unnecessary, and men the easiest thing to stay away from. Now, i don’t knock anybody for what they do because i don’t do it, it’s just i don’t stand for any belittlement for the way how i live my life especially since i’m very proud of the person i was born to be.

  This past sunday and monday things got a little heated “as far as my enemies are concerned”. They started their usual crap when they “think” they’re “doing something”. I guess they spent a lot of time indulging in their chanting and candle burning to try to have an affect on my emotions that never really works on me anyway. So when they see me they proceed with talk that is suppose to make me paranoid, nervous or feel down. You see, i’ve always known these things because i’m fed knowledge through spirits and intelligence. Within those two days as soon as i came into their view they began referring to me in a sexual nature. In other words insinuating that i’m a wild sex-crazed person who sleeps around all of the time. As smart as i am i don’t understand why they stay on this particular subject when it comes to them using witchcraft to try to bring me down. With all of the other lies that they can use to say at me they stay on this whore tip. They don’t make any utterances about me being a crackhead, lesbian or thief. It’s always mostly about me being the big whore that they absolutely wish i was. And it’s so interesting since i know i have never actually done any of the things they are describing yet they feel it should bother me. So on monday night when a small crowd finished uttering things about me which never existed i overheard one say to another “It’s not working” and the other responded “It’s okay” or “Don’t worry about it” something to that nature. They gave themselves away! Why should it work on me? What they are doing is crazy. They even got certain people on my job going along with it by acting stupid. How can i get paranoid or feel down about things that don’t have anything to do with me? Shit they all created? Like i mentioned before they have greatly underestimated me. I know they want me to have a mental and emotional breakdown but i never have, i’m far from it and so on to them. I wonder how many people they’ve succeeded with who didn’t know any better. It is such a shame. I hope more an more people catch on to these type of sick peoples games because for so many years they have been destroying the lives of so many good people who may have thought that they were crazy due to the subtlety of this matter.

Set Ups

Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 12:06 AM EDT

• When i first started working at my job my enemies who i don’t even know personally tried to discourage me by attempting to intimidate me in their own ignorant ways. All their efforts were definitely in vain because nobody has ever been able to scare me or to stop me from doing what i have or wanted to accomplish. It is a shame how far people will go when they want to destroy another person’s life due to the fact that they don’t have a life of their own that is worth anything. Most of my days here on earth people have been interfering with my progress through the works of witchcraft and my great-grandmother Amanda Byars was one of the ringleaders. The witchcraft never gave my enemies the results they were looking for as far as controlling me and my mind because i was too strong and good of a person so my Lord protected me in that aspect. But it worked as a blockage in certain areas of my life by preventing a lot of wonderful things that were suppose to come my way. I was born to have strong success through my intelligence and talents which God has bestowed on me. I was supposed to have a totally different life than what i have now. I should be on a much higher level when it comes to setting. I put all my enemies witchcraft to an end! It’s been put to an end for a while now. I’m not going to tell how i did it but their shit is finally over. They can keep trying out of their ignorance and denial but like i said they’re doomed. Just take my word for it! I have a new beginning now with no more interference.

  I’m doing everything that my enemies never wanted to see. I never had a breakdown or a major downfall. I’ve managed to maintain myself all of these years with a healthy growth and more knowledge that they’ll never recognize in me or be able to acquire for themselves. And just to think, that they actually thought they could stop me. They were too stupid to realize that their kind aren’t anything to me or compared to me. And i don’t give a darn what they feel about me. They ain’t shit to be scared or worried about. I can see right through them. But they believed that because there was so many of them against me they would overcome me. To me, it’s not the quantity but the quality of something. There can be just one person who is of substance with true backbone who is able to conquer such as myself while there are millions who are garbage that will fall as they did.

  I’m working at a J.C. Penny’s department store located inside a mall. It’s no big deal to me but the money is good for me while i build back up my writing career that was put to a halt when the witchcraft my enemies had worked on me backfired then affected the success i was suppose to been have achieved. I intend to work there at the store until my career takes off. And, my enemies had the nerve to try to stop this little job that i have. They sent this woman there who tried to pick an arguement with me which i didn’t feed into. So she went and found a manager who happened to be the same male manager that i mentioned in my “Love Spell” post on this blog and i found that quite “fishy”. Out of all the managers who work there. Approximately three hundred people work at my J.C. Penny’s department store and she just so happens to run into that asshole. The woman told lies on me to get me fired but it didn’t turn out the way she and the others who were in on this set up planned. Managers there didn’t believe her story and she was stupid because cameras are hooked up all over the place and there are plenty of co-workers around who listen and see things that go on. 

  Their dirt and lies aren’t going far as the way that it use to when they had binding spells and spells to destroy me in action. Things are reversed now and are still reversing. They have a lifetime of their own dirt to reap. I can just imagine how many good people these low-lifes destroyed and tried to destroy, it is so sickning to me. But i’m a fighter and a conqueror by nature. I am one who will always take a chunk out of them in a battle of good vs bad.
  

Love Spells

Friday, July 28, 2006 at 12:57 AM EDT

• As my faithful readers who believe in me may already know i’m not and have never been interested in men. Nevertheless, there have always been men who were interested in me whether their motives were negative or positive and it didn’t matter to me at all since i’d never had any sexual or emotional feelings or desires for a man. Well, on my job this caucasian guy took an interest in me not too long ago and i definitely did not want to be bothered with him. My second day at work two months ago he’d just become manager over me and it wasn’t so long after that i noticed that he was attracted to me. And right around that same particular time during my first week i lost a set of keys to my locker. From then on my new manager was overly attentive to me in two ways that i immediately caught on to. He’d compliment me on my work as did many of the other managers did and there was absolutely nothing wrong with that. However, giving me praise was just an excuse to lean his way on over to chat with me. I never really gave him too much conversation i kept my words strictly business. He usually talks and jokes around with other co-workers also just like a lot of outgoing people do. With me though he had a purpose, an ulterior motive which didn’t take me long to figure out completely.

  Three days after i lost my keys thoughts of him invaded my mind and i instantly knew that he was attempting to set me up for a downfall. I am very spiritually inclined due to the unique gift i have so my warning took me steps ahead of him. No, he didn’t know me well enough or at all to have a fair initiative to want to harm me though i was quite sure he knew people who know of me who’d just love to stir up some stupid shit. They’ve already spreaded billions of lies about me in the past that have greatly failed to discourage me so why not try to do me in some more until they get it right! Anyway, to make a short story even shorter. My manager’s plans didn’t work by trying to make me attracted then drawing me nearer to him by the use of evil witchcraft so now he’s mad and extremely embarrassed because i know about it. Believe it or not witchcraft is being practiced more so now than ever, it is a way of life for many but i’m not going to get into that particular subject right now. I will mention this though, if i were into men he still would have never stood a chance with me since i smelled his nasty stinking ass. And, the summer hadn’t even came yet. It was the spring and he stunk real bad. I smelled my manager on three occasions. I don’t know if he’d slept with a woman then hadn’t washed for a couple of days but whatever the situation was the odor was terrible.

  Currently, i ignore this asshole as he has tried to pettily annoy me in indirect ways. He’s jealous of me because he was at the job longer and i got a promotion real quick. He’s the type to think that all young black women are loose an stupid. It eats him up inside to see one that has it all together and who could go real far in life. That is totally all his problem! I don’t speak to him, i keep my distance. I never bothered him anyway. He was always approaching me. This past monday he brought some girl where we work holding her hand to try to take the slack off of him but i know that game and he saw it didn’t work with me. He is as guilty as sin and got caught red handed so there is no need to try to cover it up with me to ease up his embarrassment. He’s a nothing, a nobody. He can try to start and talk as much shit as he wants to but he better wake up because i am definitely not a woman that he should fuck with! And he needs to realize this before he regrets it! Thank goodness he’s not my manager any more. Since i got promoted i have a female manager over me.

Black People & Hair

Monday, April 17, 2006 at 9:34 AM EDT

• I come from a family where quite a few of us along down the line were born with a nice grade of hair that is able to grow continuously. Ever since i was a little girl i had a head full of hair. During my early twenties i let my hair grow all the way down to my back and i got plenty of what i thought was ridiculous attention. Since i’m a black person some other black people acted as if i wasn’t supposed to have long hair and were jealous because they had to go purchase weaves. I can’t count how many black people’s eyes use to be glued at the long strands of my hair. “How did you get your hair so long?” “I wish i had hair like that”. “Oh, she think she’s cute cause she has hair”. One girl even yanked my hair because she didn’t have any and, when i’d keep it pinned up people would ask me to take it down. And, the men were just as worse as the women. They all made me sick!

  I have distant family members who told me about the reactions they’d get from others regarding a simple matter such as their hair. Well, i guess it’s a simple matter to us because we don’t have a problem with growing any. And, God forbid if we were to cut it! They cut theirs an people had a fit. When some saw that my hair wasn’t as long as it use to be some actually gossiped about it. “Oh, it probably fell out” or “It probably was a weave”. “Now she done cut her hair”, like it was the end of the world or like i had done something terrible. It couldn’t be nothing positive. That all happened years ago and i’ve decided now to allow my hair to grow long again the way that it use to be if i don’t change my mind. You know, for a different look. It can be tiresome managing long hair that i perm and condition. Shorter hair is less time consuming and much easier to manage.

Gossip & People In The Street

Friday, April 07, 2006 at 4:31 PM EDT

•  Ignorance is everywhere. In all walks of life there will always be people who read things wrong and spread rumors. One doesn’t have to be a street person to not have accurate knowledge of things or to place high value on the relevance of what people think when it comes to gossip. I’ve been around street people all of my life and as far as i am concerned they are the most stupidest kind that i have ever come across. Gossip is the only real weapon they have against people who are deeply bothered by being talked about-aside from their practice of working witchcraft. Of course, all people who constantly hang out in the street are not into or even believe in voodoo but, for those who do it is a major weapon of theirs. A lot of street people are down on their luck and are very envious of those who have it better. Then you have some who may have a little something and, still don’t measure up. They talk about everybody-whether they’re in a higher category or a lower one. If you’re in a higher category, though, and you know it an show it, they’ll work their best to try to bring you down lower than where they’re at. And i know this from my own experiences. Most of the time i am very aware when rumors are being or have been spread about me. The trash have a pattern of making things known to you by verbalizing what they think they know about you. Nevertheless, i am aware of most things because i’m very spiritually inclined to my surroundings.

  One summer i was walking down the street of my block when a kid half my age uttered to his playmate “Everybody knows about her and Omar”, a jealous street guy in his fifties who went around our neighborhood spreading sexual lies because he couldn’t get over on me. “Everybody knows what?” i say and, that is exactly my point! It wasn’t what they knew. It’s what they thought they knew because a lie is the truth to street-trash. And, street people keep their lies up for years, they play on the minds of other street people and people alike because through their prior experience they know what some people will fall for due to the level they are on and the way they think. For some reason trash feel they have the right to speak at you about the things they may have heard, believing it will do some major damage to someone emotionally. The men especially think that they have control when another man is the source of nasty gossip concerning a woman. Not so long ago males i didn’t know would call me “bitch” or “slut” because in their ignorant mind it was suppose to hurt me and if i acted as their words didn’t bother me they’d prefer to believe that i was just putting up a front. But, i was being my actual self. Their words went through one ear and out the other they did not faze me, what a man says or does has no bearing on me. I just don’t understand why as a woman in this society i’m suppose to be the weaker sex when i’m far from it. Omar, the man who was taken advantage of and who was jealous of me thought if people believed his lies about me then treated me unkindly that it would affect me. However, it did not and i’ve never been the type to care and worry over what others thought of me. If people believe him and act on it that is purely their stupidity and, it definitely will not stop me from doing anything in my life. Omar couldn’t handle the fact that i was younger and smarter than him. He made an ass out of himself for chasing after me in the first place, he found out the hard way that i wasn’t the average young girl walking around not knowing too much about life. I do know a lot for my age so he fucked with the wrong one! And i know it! He can tell all the lies in the world he just showed me how deeply his pride got hurt.

  Everyone isn’t as strong and fortunate as me when it comes to people lashing out at them. I’ve always been a loner so i can survive without the approval of others. Some people think that i run my mouth too much but, guess what? I’m going to keep running my mouth. Some think that i’m stupid or headed for trouble because of the way i am but, guess what? I’m going to keep being me. Some even believe i’m crazy and incapable of doing anything other than my passion for writing but, guess what? I’m exceptionally sane, multi talented, highly intelligent and, the world will hear of me one day even though i’m not interested in having fame-then all of my haters will have to hate me even more!

Jealousy In The Family

Wednesday, February 08, 2006 at 1:12 PM EST

• Most jealousy starts at home within the family. And this has been going on since the beginning of time, just like with Cain and Abel. I made a lot of money from the books that i wrote and most of my big bucks never reached me because of my two most envious relatives. They never wanted me to have anything. My great-grandmother Amanda and aunt Tina are two of the dirtiest dogs walking the face of the earth. I call them dogs because they’re not worthy of the title “women”. They’ve tried to have me raped and killed but those things didn’t go through, i was able to avoid those situations. Amanda and Tina used outsiders to aide them in going against me to try to ruin my life. They lied to some people to get them to go along with doing their dirt. And those particular people fell for the lies because some wouldn’t think that a grandmother would go around lying on their grandchildren to destroy them and, since she was old they probably figured that she knew what she was talking about. Some people are blinded by age. Others went along with them because they were in the same category as Amanda and Tina, low-down an no good.

  Amanda and Tina are both dykes. Well, they’re really bisexual ’cause they mess with men too. They have a lot in common. They were beat up and dogged by men before and mistreated by some who were supposed to be their friends, and they are so sick that they both practice voodoo. I’ve never let no man or anybody use and abuse me, people can only do that if you allow them to. Amanda is jealous of  other’s within our family also, not just me and they know about it because we’ve discussed it. She’s talked about all of us like a dog to one another. But we know she’s just mad that our lives turned out better than her’s. Some man that Amanda use to go with had sex with her when she was young and busted her vagina wide open because his penis was too big and she had to get stitched up. I guess that is enough to make anybody mad but, it’s not our fault that she was stupid enough to let some man bang her up so badly. What goes around comes back around and every evil thing that Amanda an Tina did to me and my other family members has caught up with them. They are both dying from AIDS, a disease that the doctor’s can’t cure. My uncle got his too he died from the disease two years ago. I’ve watched them waste away. The two of them are both miserable and are taking their sins slowly but surely to their grave while we-my other family members and i-still have plenty more life to live harmoniously and without regret. And the sad thing about it is that even though Amanda and Tina have a little bit of time left they are still using it to do more dirt. But the good thing is that they can’t touch us anymore. They never really had total power over us it’s just that their ability to work evil has finally come to an end.