A Revelation

All of my life i have been able to sense and see through people. There have also and always been those in particular who i have detested. No one is going to like or get along with everybody no matter what walk of life one comes from. The hatred that i have for those who i speak of goes deeper in the eye than what most if any are able to see. What is felt is not so much a part of my innate human tendency of being snooty but more of a divine awareness of what is here and subordinate.

Some looking at particular people with the “Human Eye”, and who are conscious of what they show, may see a sight they would clearly determine as undesirables and etc. When looking through with the “Third Eye”, however, the sight goes much deeper. They are then identified more in depth.  And they “Indeed” are “The Wicked”, the devil’s children. I’ve seen it in their appearance and have sensed it in their body language. I have also seen these particular people after death in spirit form-confirming the mark made to me of those who are here on earth.

They are very recognizable. Radar picks up on them instantly, alerting, verifying and sending warning of them. When i view them in person or if the thought of them comes into mind due to visions i see their presence literally makes me want to vomit. I keep clear away from these people as much as possible. And I don’t want any parts of them in my life if i can help it.  Understandably, my reasons are of course not defined as ”Fear” since these particular kinds are absolutely nothing to fear even though many of them want to intimidate others out of their own insecurities. Nevertheless, it has everything to do with negativity, and negative energies they continually carry within and without, and which can be detected and rejected. They are all an abomination. A reproach.

( These Particular People Are Warp-Minded. They Act Out In Illogical Ways. Reason Cannot Be Explained To Sick Individuals. I As A Human Being With Strong Spiritual Inclination Would Never Want Their Essence Up In Me, Outward Of Me, Or Around Me. Their Absences Brings About Peace, Happiness And Cleanliness To The Mind, Body, Spirit And Path )

Rituals

 

Sunday, April 15, 2007 at 11:34 AM EDT

This past christmas eve when i was working at J.C. Penny’s a guy approached me. I’d never seen him before. I ignored him of course because i did not want to be bothered. Not too long after and later that night when i got home i could feel him beginning to enter into my mind. I have very keen senses. My brain is like radar. I knew before he approached that something was up just like i do with everyone else.

Whenever a man is interested in me, out to do me harm, and etc. they stay inside my head for as long as their feelings towards me last. I feel their thoughts and emotions and i pick up things going on within their lives. People have no clue how the lord has gifted me. This particular guy has been in my mind for three months and some change. About a month after he first entered into my head i dreamed that he was still conscious of me but seeing another girl. Obviously there was nothing serious going on with him and her because i’ve been picking up on him very strongly all of this time.

On a friday, the 30th of march, i heard his voice as i woke up from my sleep in the morning. His exact words were “I’m gonna fight for the woman i want”. Later that day i went to pick up my check from J.C. Penny’s and on my way back from cashing it out there in Garden City i think i may have saw him, i wasn’t too sure of that until the following palm sunday.

 On palm sunday, the 1st of april, i was at home lying in my bed receiving a few messages and seeing a few visions when one particular vision of this guy appeared to me as the occurrence was actually taking place at that point in time. In my vision i saw him around this man who may deal with the islamic faith because the man communicated with me through telepathic means. He spoke to me in my thoughts and i responded to him and he mentioned Allah which is the name of God among muslims.

Anyway, my deranged admirer stayed around this man while he performed a love ritual on me. I could see, hear, and feel everything that went on. This guy even had the nerve to inquire if i’d ever been intimate with some guy that i won’t mention because i never had feelings for anybody. He’s all in my business!

This past Easter sunday on the 8th of april i received another vision of this guy. He was nervous and worried. I’m not going to go into detail about what was causing his anxiety though. However, i will divulge this-he is still working his ritual. It is still in process right now. He did a marriage ritual and a ritual for me to have his children. I’ve been feeling his shit. It seems that he does certain rituals on sundays and wednesdays. He is also trying to take away my “energy”. He wants to make me weak and draw me to him.

There is absolutely no doubt that i don’t like the way God created things, the way he sometimes goes about things(he works too slow for me at times)but i do believe in him and his power and even though there are things i don’t like about him due to what i may have experienced here on earth(the things that he lets go on) i am still one of his very special children and he has my back regardless. He understands the way that i feel, nevertheless, he is God, he is in control, and he will continue to work things out in his own way during his own time. I can’t complain too much because he allows my third eye and my spirits to show and communicate with me to let me know the outcomes of my situations and they always turn out in my favor.

Almost a month ago now someone tried to harm me spiritually and it backfired right in her face. Soon after the incident the Lord came to me in my thoughts and told me to come to him for anything and that he is my source of protection. So whatever this particular guy is trying to do to me i guarantee that it will not work. It will all blow up in his face. Somebody told me that i should be flattered about what he is doing. To me it is never flattering for someone to try to control the will of another no matter what the motive may be.

Love and affection should come naturally and i am not the pathetic type to get off on somebody wanting me that bad regardless of the intentions. Whenever Obeah, Santeria, Yoruba, Voodoo or whatever you want to call it is being worked and in affect it is very unnatural and unhealthy. It is all black magic and i will continue to be protected by my Lord and my spirits. I can’t wait to see how all of this is going to play out since i have the power to convert negative energy into positive energy.
                     ( All Of The Voodoo In The World Could Never Make Me Desire A Man )

My Confessions

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:17 PM EDT

• I don’t know why I’m calling this post my confessions. I’ve never had anything to hide. What i really mean by confessing is just acknowledging more in depth how i feel about particular things regarding myself.I am a female. A woman. And I’m very glad to be. I am strong-minded, strong-willed, determined, stubborn, confident, opinionated, outspoken and a few other things. When i was a little girl i loved to have fun just like most children and i was very creative. A lot of children have an idea of what they want to be when they become an adult. I knew by the age of ten that i would write and that is the age that i began writing the short stories that i use to. I also knew that when i grew up that i never wanted to marry. I am thirty-one years old now and have never had a boyfriend. So i really did know what i did and did not want early on.

  I also knew that one day when i was ready i would want to have two children, preferably two female children. Two daughters. My two little girls. The only problem was how would i get them? I didn’t want no man on top of me. I thought going to a sperm bank would cost too much money for me at the time since there was no guarantee that conception would occur during the first insemination. I’ve heard of women spending up to six thousands of dollars after numerous tries before actual conception occurred through being artificially inseminated by a doctor. So if i really wanted to have a child I’d have to do what i had to do and that would mean lying down with a man that i didn’t want. It wouldn’t been a problem. A whole lot of men were interested in me during my younger years. They just didn’t understand why i didn’t want to be bothered since most young women are man-crazy and are heavily into a man. I was just the opposite.

  A few of the reasons i paid my admirers no attention was because the majority of them were nothing, nobodies. They were in my opinion unattractive and definitely undesirable as far as their physical appearance and level of mentality. What turned me off the most, though, is them approaching me like automatically without them even knowing me, that i was suppose to have an inclination for males. They made a general assumption about me that was definitely not true. I am Asexual and very proud of it. I’ve never ever had any emotional or physical desire for a man. When guys had crushes on me and expressed their feelings in their own ways it disgusted me where others would think that it was cute or normal. And i am very sure most consider having a crush on someone then acting on it normal.

  I felt if a guy was attracted to me and wanted to be with me he should have kept it to himself because he didn’t stand a chance with me. Then i began to think about it a little bit, and thought about using a man’s feelings for me to my advantage. You know when someone is into you and you are not into them then you have the upper hand. Some of the guys who were interested in me had heard that i was a virgin and probably thought ( in their mind if they were to ever get the chance) by having sex with me they could turn me out or that i would change and become attached to them and fall all over them then a man would have some significance to me. Boy did they have me figured out wrong! Some of those male egos and ignorance’s need to go! There is a whole lot that some men really need to learn. Yes, i was a virgin as far as never ever having intercourse with a man. A male penis had never penetrated my vagina but i had already experienced sexual pleasure without the aid of a man.

  You see, i had discovered my clitoris years beforehand. It is a very sensitive area connected to nerves inside the body that with the educated touch of a finger ( i learned naturally on my own ) there are very nice sensations and climaxes to experience. There is absolutely nothing wrong with self experimentation, getting to know and love your own self sexually before letting someone else take control. But when a man is inside of you he is not the one really in control of giving you your pleasure. It is all up to you and your mind whether or not your body will allow his penis to ignite those sensations. You have to already have an attraction or desire for a man in order to feel any pleasure from him. This particular subject is not embarrassing and it should not be. It is important. When i was a little girl i curiously took a mirror to see what my vagina looked like. What’s wrong with that? Nothing! None of these things mean that you are being a bad girl or fresh. It is being smart and knowledgeable.

  During the very first and only time period i tried to get pregnant by attempting sexual intercourse i felt absolutely nothing, no kind of sensation or pleasure whatsoever from the penis i endured because i had no desire and emotion to be with any male. On the other hand though, i could go and stimulate my clitoris on my own while i was alone and feel all the pleasure in the world because my mind was happily accepting that i was the one who was causing sensations received by myself. My mind and body was and is not receptive to the thought of being touched by a man since nothing about a man arouses me. My body doesn’t want something pounding inside and out, that is just plain stupid! During clitoral stimulation, there is no penetration. Only i can arouse myself as i am in love with myself. And i haven’t ever been with any other man since. That was years ago. And for the future there won’t be another one. My vagina is strictly off limits as it has always been. There is no man anywhere around me or in my neighborhood who can honestly say that they had me or will have me because now i have the money to go to a sperm bank if i really want to. Even if i didn’t have the money i still would not resort to lying down with a man because that is not who i am and because to me it is so unnatural. My clitoris is natural. I was born with it. I know how to take care of myself if i want a vaginal massage, i prefer myself.

  When and if i eventually do get pregnant, like i mentioned before I’d prefer to have girls. My girls because i know they’d be very similar to me i have very strong genes. If i unfortunately get pregnant with a boy I’d be very pissed off and disappointed then I’d go seek an abortion. You see, there is no way in the world that i would want or have anything male growing up inside of me.

  I know the way that i feel goes against God’s will just as fornication. God would prefer that i get married then have children and accept the children no matter what the sex is especially since I’m so spiritually blessed the way that i am. However, i have my own will. And it goes against God’s. Now i live a very clean life as it is. I never went astray. I fornicated on only one occasion and that was done purely to make a baby and not out of any type of lust but i think the act itself left me open and vulnerable to the attack of evil spirits when my enemies worked their witchcraft. Protection comes with God’s Holy Spirit and his spirit is not to be defiled by any spiritual uncleanliness. Now while witchcraft was unable to affect my strength, mind, actions and emotions it was able to affect my progress in life by interfering with my destiny. So it wasn’t so much about my enemies having the ability to attack me it was that at the hands of my own actions i gave them the opportunity by disobeying God and defiling his Holy Spirit. If i had been married the act would’ve been clean.

  Nevertheless, you know what? I still say even though i am spiritually restored now i don’t think that was fair. And life is not fair. I am a very good person and i don’t deny the power and works of the Lord but my heart is hardened against the way God set certain things. The only real big sin that i was and am guilty of is rebellion. I still refuse to want to do it the Lord’s way by getting married to have a child and I’d still get an abortion or want to if i ever get pregnant with a male child. If i did get married I’d just be using the man for what i want. It just wouldn’t work out. I lose patience in just two weeks of being around a man. And like i said before I’d never have any sexual dealings with a man as long as i live so if i lose God’s partial protection again by trying to conceive a child out of wedlock through going to a sperm bank and getting rid of a fetus because it turns out to be a boy then the Lord is just not right. My feelings will never change even if i risk spending an eternity burning in hell for it.

I’m Steps Ahead

Thursday, September 21, 2006 at 9:15 AM EDT

• As some may know at birth i was born with a double veil which means that i have very strong spiritual abilities. Aside from already being intelligent the reason i have so much knowledge is because i am a very accurate clairvoyant. This is the month of september, there is only about three and a half more months left before a new year comes in and still my enemies won’t stop endeavoring to destroy me. I’m so tired of having to mention them but they just won’t leave me alone. I don’t write about each an everything they do and have done but i write about a great deal of their actions because they definitely need to be exposed and because i’m not afraid to and will continue to speak on the things going on in the world that aren’t right. While there are some in the world aware of my enemies wrongdoings due to their own experiences or through the experiences of others or through things that get wind there are still a great deal who aren’t aware and God may be using me to get the word out to deserving people who are in the dark. I know i am not the only one who these type of sick people are doing this to it just so happens that i’m a spiritually gifted person who is well aware an in tune with what is going on around me. And i also have a significant source of protection in my favor that my enemies don’t seem and choose to accept. Obviously they have greatly underestimated my strength, knowledge, power and purpose. I am set way apart from them and this world-if not they would have been had me by now. They’ll never get me. No one can stop what the almighty higher power puts out! I am a person who is pure in heart and in mind. I don’t and never have smoked, indulged in drugs or alcohol, and i don’t have sexual relations with anyone and that is my business. It is who i am what keeps me strong and standing. My physical self as well as spiritual but more so my spiritual self because my spirit has got me the way that i am. I’m truly a good person. This is all a part of my character. I live a clean life which causes no strains in my life because i am naturally this way. In the same it is in a way making me a target. The way that i am may be foreign to a lot of people but i feel the same way about them. Their way of life is foreign to me and i may think of some of their lifestyles as crazy nevertheless i don’t care. To me, smoking is stupid, alcohol unnecessary, and men the easiest thing to stay away from. Now, i don’t knock anybody for what they do because i don’t do it, it’s just i don’t stand for any belittlement for the way how i live my life especially since i’m very proud of the person i was born to be.

  This past sunday and monday things got a little heated “as far as my enemies are concerned”. They started their usual crap when they “think” they’re “doing something”. I guess they spent a lot of time indulging in their chanting and candle burning to try to have an affect on my emotions that never really works on me anyway. So when they see me they proceed with talk that is suppose to make me paranoid, nervous or feel down. You see, i’ve always known these things because i’m fed knowledge through spirits and intelligence. Within those two days as soon as i came into their view they began referring to me in a sexual nature. In other words insinuating that i’m a wild sex-crazed person who sleeps around all of the time. As smart as i am i don’t understand why they stay on this particular subject when it comes to them using witchcraft to try to bring me down. With all of the other lies that they can use to say at me they stay on this whore tip. They don’t make any utterances about me being a crackhead, lesbian or thief. It’s always mostly about me being the big whore that they absolutely wish i was. And it’s so interesting since i know i have never actually done any of the things they are describing yet they feel it should bother me. So on monday night when a small crowd finished uttering things about me which never existed i overheard one say to another “It’s not working” and the other responded “It’s okay” or “Don’t worry about it” something to that nature. They gave themselves away! Why should it work on me? What they are doing is crazy. They even got certain people on my job going along with it by acting stupid. How can i get paranoid or feel down about things that don’t have anything to do with me? Shit they all created? Like i mentioned before they have greatly underestimated me. I know they want me to have a mental and emotional breakdown but i never have, i’m far from it and so on to them. I wonder how many people they’ve succeeded with who didn’t know any better. It is such a shame. I hope more an more people catch on to these type of sick peoples games because for so many years they have been destroying the lives of so many good people who may have thought that they were crazy due to the subtlety of this matter.

People In The Church

Saturday, February 11, 2006 at 8:46 AM EST

• Some people in the church are the worst people out there. They use God as a cover, to hide what they really are. Some feel that everybody has skeletons in their closet and that nobody is a saint because everyone has done something wrong and made mistakes in life. But there is a difference between being unscrupulous and making honest mistakes. And everybody who has done something bad is not innately a bad person. People often have their own interpretations of what is right or wrong and judge others by their own standards. What i’ve observed though, is that people who are too religious and act overly self-righteous have serious issues with themselves. They’ve done things in life that they can’t handle and tend to put their own insecurities on others to mask what they regret. Sometimes what they see in another person is just a reminder of what they could have been. There is just as much gossip and dirt going on in some churches as there is anywhere else in the world. Some people just go to church for a fashion show, dressing to impress. Some go to church to meet a man. And some just keep putting on airs. Going to church doesn’t prove that one is a good person. You can have church in your own home. Having God in your heart is what truly matters. 

Happiness

• Saturday, February 04, 2006 at 11:13 AM EST

  I find joy in having a peace of mind. I find joy in the strength that God gave me. I found joy during bad times because when darkness was around me my light still shined, leading me straight to the path of my success. True joy comes from the Lord. And the joy that i have the world didn’t give it to me and the world can’t take it away.

   

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• It is nice to know that somewhere along the road of discovering ourselves, whether struggles or lessons, We come across realizing that we meet half conciousness of the society we belong too. Keep track knowing God deeply, cause i am sure innate happiness is so intimate that nobody could ever take it away from you. The feeling of security comes with solitude cause God is with you.Godbless.

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Spiritual Level

Wednesday, August 30, 2006 at 9:12 PM EDT

• The term “spiritual level” is generally used to describe a person’s spiritual maturity or spiritual capacity. It acts as a scale to define spiritual growth and gives perspective on where one is in their spiritual journey. It is thought that the higher one’s spiritual level the greater is the amount of God principal manifest in that individual. 

Life As I Know It

Saturday, April 15, 2006 at 3:10 PM EDT

• I do really like the person that i am. I’m honest with myself and i don’t put on any airs. I’ve never been afraid to express my feelings or afraid to face anything in my life. I do realize though that my truths are not everybody else’s realities. Most things going on in this world seem foreign to me. Yes, i am very familiar and experienced with a lot that is happening yet i don’t relate to them. I definitely have my own real world that i’m in. This material world where we dwell is quite disturbing to me because it is not the truth, these things that constantly occur do not have to exist. God and his Holy Spirit have always worked with me, leading me by his voice in my visions, through my spirit guide, and through my angels. I know i’ll always have to deal with certain people’s delusions of what they’ll presume my life is about and the misconceptions about what some believe my abilities to be. I won’t be discouraged because during my times of difficulty i get educated, trained and strengthened more than i ever was beforehand. God is my true comforter, encourager, healer and source of knowledge.

  Some have tried but, no one can take away my spiritual gifts. I can’t even take them away. I’ll always be ahead of my time and people who may think they’re able to hurt or stop me with their sharp words, negative actions and mean attitudes will continue to be in for a shock an great disappointment because i am chosen and unaffected by what is ordinary. Nevertheless, i know there will still be people who’ll think they can hurt me with things that don’t faze me due to their denial. They don’t want to accept my special uniqueness. My hurts an pains differ in cause. I accept and acknowledge who i am, and i love me! No matter what anyone thinks, no one has or is able to bring me down. People’s opinions of me won’t ever interfere with my life as with anything else that they do. Only without God am i absolutely nothing!

  I am very tired of the way a lot of people in the world are and am disgusted that God has me down here on earth. However, he hears, sees and knows all things and i have to continue to believe that he has my best interest for the great work i have to complete regardless of the negative feelings that i hold toward people i’ve experienced. I wouldn’t be here or the way i am if God didn’t want me to be. And, whether i like it or not, i have to accept that i’ll have to keep enduring the ignorance of people who believe they know what they’re talking about when i know that they don’t; i’ll have to hear their silly insults, unrequired advice and worthless analyses.

  I’m a prophetess who receives solid an sensible answers from the Holy Spirit. I’ve learned to believe in my “knowing power” because everything that is revealed to me comes into existence, and it is the only proof necessary for me to understand that God’s plan for me is much bigger than what i can see. I was born a black female with paranormal abilities-that is my birthright. That is who i am and, the only real life that i know. I have a very long life to live, and it is in my destiny for God to always reveal things that are yet to happen. I know how to step out of this life then step back into it-a great method that keeps me on focus!

  I’m a human being who bleeds just like anyone else but often i feel as someone who is just passing through. Particular things that are significant to many others are of very little value to me as is vice versa. I feel happy inside living the way i truly want to live, naturally not letting things bother me. I need my self-freedom which defines me and highlights the life that i continue to live.

Special Wisdom

Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 4:17 PM EDT

• I’ve always been able to take large peeks into the future. And no, that at all does not make me a genius. But it does make me very aware of what i can expect to happen in my life and in the lives of certain others. All of my years here on earth i’ve been criticized, misjudged, lied on, hated and the object of much envy an jealousy among some just like a lot of others have. One thing i know to count on though is that i eventually come out on top regardless of the trials i have to sometimes go through or, peoples predictions of what me an my life will turn out to be. There have been older people in their fifties who were beneath me and who had the nerve to talk down to me, telling me that because they were older than me that made them more knowledgeable and, more experienced when it came to going through things. They were sheer fools when they spoke those words to me! I, one of the people down here on earth who can tell them all about the life that they think they’ve lived and what they will live ahead, am experienced in a way they’ll never know and they need to be more respectful toward people who are able to stir up that type of power.

  I feel i’ve been here before, and when i die i don’t want to come back again. I don’t think i know everything because i don’t but, i do know a lot and nothing in this world really excites or surprises me. I’m just making do until God uses me for whatever it is that he wants me to do. And i admit that while i kill time here, it gets boring going over the same shit with certain kinds of people that i already know the answers to, i’m not learning anything new through their actions and way of life as i watch them. And, maybe i just don’t care! I’d benefit more from those who have and seek foundation we all learn and grow when we’re on that path.

God

Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:56 PM EDT

• It is said that nobody is above God and that we are not suppose to ask ”why?”. Why things have to be the way they are and why whatever else. And i may cross the line when i say this but i feel that i do have the right to ask why because life isn’t fair and because i didn’t ask to come into this world. It is not doing me any great favor by me being here that i should go along with the way life is. I know none of us are perfect in God’s eyes and that none of us truly see things the way that he does because we are incapable of comprehending his knowledge. And me, being human, of course do not like all of the rules that he sets and i guess it’s because we’re all born into sin and are suppose to be sinners by nature. I feel some things that God sees as a sin should not be, nevertheless, it is also said that God gives us his laws to abide by not to make us unhappy but for our protection. Most of his rules i can accept with no problem! There are two or three though that i strongly disagree with. However, there is a term that i heard years ago and that is “My Arms Are Too Short To Box With God!”

  I know that God has his own time frame but i wish he’d hurry an come clean up the earth from all of the sick people and crazy things that continue to go on.