A Message To The Fellow Gifted And Spiritually Inclined

My Spirit has lead me to write this post and whenever my spirit gives me a message i definitely know that it is for a reason. I never doubt. I know the feeling and why.

Every now and then there will always be sick envious people who are very furious because they cannot get under our skin and bring us down. They will say and do anything just for a reaction. Believe me, they are truly miserable because we are satisfied, happy and at peace with ourselves and have no worries because we know that our lives are fine and will continue to go right.

I know that i was born to lead not even intending to. I’ve always been a leader not a follower. There are plenty of assholes - as there will always be in all walks of life. They are very insecure and afraid of the truth in all aspects of life. I ignore them because i know what is really behind the root of their problem, they don’t realize how much they give themselves away by their actions.

Anyhow for those who may be unaware of the tactics and wiles of their shenanigans Gifted people and/or people who are very smart ( who know too much ) will always be targeted in life. Don’t fall for the game. Continue to believe in yourself and definitely do not doubt and be discouraged.

I don’t understand why certain people continue on with their stupid bullshit that is so obvious to see right through. And specifically this caul/veil post. And after this i will speak no more on this particular jealousy that some have of my gifts and knowledge. This happened once in the past, someone left a comment however i did not approve it because it was nonsense, but now just to let the record show, regarding this crap about how most topics concerning what i’ve written on my blog concerning the caul and, how the information i wrote can be found anywhere on the internet is very truly a lie because everything i have written is from my own personal experience. I’ve only copied and pasted one article concerning the caul from caulbearer.org and that was for reference to those who wanted to come to their own conclusions.

I am highly educated about being born with a caul due to the fact that i was born with a double veil. Animals are also born with cauls and have psychic ability as my dog did. I’m clairvoyant. I have all the abilities including healing and the ability to make things happen by doing spiritual work. I’ve worked with other psychics and priestesses. I have been foretelling the future since the young age of three and my powers continue to get stronger as i age.

I’ve experienced things that know one will ever come across on the internet. I am so spiritually sensitive that my body physically reacts . I am absolutely aware of everything going on around me at all times and nobody can touch me. Now everyone born with a caul will have their own different experience. So if i or anyone else has not experienced something that someone else has does not mean that it does not exist or that it is not possible. In fact, that is beautiful and it is a blessing. Experiencing things that no one has heard of means that you have a special protection.

Here Is An Example Of Bullshit That I will Not Cater To:

Vasak Says:

August 5, 2009 at 11:04 pm eI despise people like you and if you want to challenge me you will not succeed .So as far as i am concerned you can go and fuck yourself!

Wow Miss LaToya! You have really shown that you are a truly “sensitive” person.

Peace and blessings to you.
M

misslatoya Says:

August 5, 2009 at 5:58 am eSomething definitely has to be wrong somewhere in your life for you to be worried about me and my business! You are the sad one! You are a very ignorant person. I have not stolen anything. People copy my own original writings from my blog and post them on their sights as mere reference or because it is of some interest to them and i do not have a problem with it! I don’t put significance on posting from other sites. It is no big deal. I’m not claiming them as my own , i don’t need to and i don’t want to. My experiences bare much more significance and value than what is posted on the world wide web. And, as far as delusional is concerned- I pay you no mind whatsoever. Everything that i have been taught spiritually has been verified. And i have plenty of other people to back me up even though i do not need any back up. You talk about unprovable things. Nobody has to prove anything to the world, or reveal everything that they know- and without me going into further detail if you were bright you would know this. It doesn’t matter what people like you think. You have no idea who i know and the things that i have accomplished so if you think that it’s all ego and contradiction, i really do not care. Your opinion is of no value to me. I am more special than you could ever imagine just like certain others in particular. I despise people like you and if you want to challenge me you will not succeed .So as far as i am concerned you can go and fuck yourself!

Mordekai Says:

August 4, 2009 at 10:33 pm eI am a natural born clairvoyant with extremely strong abilities and do not need to learn anything from anybody i’ve been taught by spirits and the spirits of my ancestors. So know what you’re talking about before you speak on it!

What a load of nonsense! You “don’t need to learn anything from anybody”, yet you claim to talk to dead people? So these dead ones are as real to you are living people, yet only they can teach you things? Very convenient indeed…just like the priests of religions who claim the unprovable as a shield from provability, lest their lies be seen for what they are.
You speak in the spirit of contradiction, and those who think in such a manner confuse not only themselves but those who are also confused by the rains of unreason and delusional thinking. The net seems to be infested with such sad individuals there days, going on about “gifts”, “powers” and “psychic abilities”.
Miss La Toya, do you deny that the main texts on this blog concerning caulbearers have been shamelessly culled from caulbearer websites that have been copyrighted and in existence for more than twelve years, yet you dare to steal from the caulbearers whilst ignoring the damnation that comes upon the blood of men and women who dare to do such evil? So be it Miss La Toyah, but even if you think you can avoid the wrath of the Force of The All that watches over all true caulbearers, your false beliefs will not prevent what will be taken from you. The choice is yours, and you will receive warnings to change your course, though you may have already missed some of them because of your inflated ego.As always in The Way, the choice is yours.

misslatoya Says:

August 3, 2009 at 12:21 am eYou must have misinterpreted something because i have not been influenced by anyone or anything. I have my own knowledge and my own judgements through my own experiences and know what to and what not to take as the truth. I was born with a caul and can honestly tell you that i do not relate to most of the people who claim that they were born with cauls. I have never been lonely or confused about anything in my life. I don’t know where you get that i’ve been influenced a lot by caulbearer.org, if you are insinuating that i’ve learned things through websites and through other people, you better think again. I am a natural born clairvoyant with extremely strong abilities and do not need to learn anything from anybody i’ve been taught by spirits and the spirits of my ancestors. So know what you’re talking about before you speak on it!

Wing Says:

July 31, 2009 at 2:08 am eI was born in sept 1984. I too was born with a veil.
I read some of your stuff around a year ago LaToya, I can see that the caulbearer.org site has influenced you alot. Which I cant say if its a bad thing or not. But I’ve still been looking for the meaning to everything, I wish I could travel the world asking the elders of all religions, races, about their cultures views on veils. To know the truth.
But I can say, that everyone is born with innate abilities. Everyone has the capability to feel/see things outside of this reality. But our society has been twisting truth for longer than any of us could know. And there are alot of different factions fighting for control of what is truth. So you have to take anything you hear with a grain of salt. Be careful of what you believe. But its always good to have a open mind.
I will also say on a side note, as a general truth for me, caulbeares are truly lonely creatures.
Its hard for me to listen to people (especially women) talk about the most mundane and selfish stuff. Meanwhile I have thoughts of millennium long conspiracies, and the end of our society hanging on my shoulders. It just doesnt mix, especially when youve always felt like you were just watching everyone else live their life while you live on borrowed time.
Thankfully I pick the greatest friends, and I wouldnt trade them for anything, including control of the world. So I dont feel as lonely as I did as a kid, but still some days are harder than others. I just wish I could find a decent woman that wouldn’t lie to me, I always know then they are lying to me. But really thats my own problem and I shouldnt be bringing it up.
In the end, I dont bother my friends with my deep thoughts and feelings, I just enjoy my time with them and try to laugh, but for the most part I have just gotten used to being alone, I will take on the world by myself when the time is right, if I have to. Id prefer to have the help of my fellow brothers and sisters at that time though. But as i see it, I am probably most definitely making up for things in a previous life.
My biggest influences in all this, is my dreams. My dreams have showed me alot of things, some things make sense, and others dont. Other dreams just feel like im preparing for something.
Its a confusing existence. All I know is that when I die, I will die fighting, until the very end, just like all my dreams…

Acne: Separating Fact From Fiction

Everybody who has an occasional breakout does not have acne. Acne is mainly characterized by having a numerous amount of blackheads, white heads and pimples that continue to manifest due to over-activity of the oil glands that result in the blockage of the pores. Acne is hereditary in certain individuals, and a fact is that this particular skin disease will occur in one regardless of their social, racial, or physical background.

In some, acne usually develops during adolescence. And i say this because there are some who skip puberty and develop acne later on in their adult years. Through out the times there have been many beliefs as to what causes and prevents acne in people. The truth is however, that acne for the most part is brought on by hormonal changes and imbalances as well as a few other reasonable factors.

Women often experience a slight to moderate flare of acne during their menstrual cycle. Pregnancy is known to improve acne in some, but i knew a girl who broke out with severe acne while she was pregnant. So it all depends on the individual and their hormones. Then there are certain birth control pills, which may or may not improve acne depending on the estrogen content.

Although some people are allergic to certain types of food that may cause them to break out in hives and so on. Acne is not always brought on by the things that we may eat. Junk foods, greasy foods and chocolate are not responsible for the true formation of acne.

There are people who actually believe that if a person has pimples or bumps on their face that it is due to poor personal hygiene or a lack of sexual activity. These beliefs are very untrue. You can be the cleanliness person in the world and still be affected with acne. And, sexual intercourse has nothing to do with whether or not a person has breakouts.

A lot of people will also assume that if a person has dark spots or open sores that it is a result from them busting or picking their blemishes. Scarring is the natural result of significant skin inflammation. It is not caused by picking. However, picking may worsen the inflammation of a pimple so that it is more likely to scar. The type of pimple that is especially sensitive to manipulation is the deep red bump not surmounted by a pus head. This particular type has nowhere to drain and is fragile, so the manipulation of it is likely to cause more rupture and inflammation in the tissues.

Unfortunately, for those who suffer with acne there is no specific cure. Some just have to grow out of it and for others there are treatments to help keep their acne under control until it clears with time.

 

Me And A Man

Thursday, February 08, 2007 at 9:15 AM EST

•  I don’t understand why certain people are so concerned about me not wanting to have a man in my life. People have always judged me not for what i do but for the things that i do not do and it is really none of their business. All of this man shit really didn’t get this big until after i severely hurt the feelings of three guys in the past by being very nasty toward them then coldy rejecting them because i did not want them and the outcome has really been ridiculous.

• I have heard in my life of some men not being able to handle rejection very well, however, it is very sad when some get hurt so bad that they can’t move on by continuing to seek revenge through lies perpetuated by those who keep spreading them. I don’t know what these niggers expect to happen to me. I am not going down. For some sick reason do to their stupid egos they want people to believe that my weakness is for a man and that i am the one who has been hurt by a man and i am so tired of this dumb bullshit.

• People really need to grow up and get over the fact that i’m a happy, healthy, successfull independent woman who doesn’t and never has gave a fuck about a man.

Rumors

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 11:27 PM EDT

•  People have been telling lies since the beginning of time so they are definitely not going to stop now. No doubt, a lot of people are very nosey and love gossip. They gossip over anything, usually about a lot of silly shit. Some will say that everybody gossips. There is a big difference between having a discussion and straight out gossiping. Most people who like to sit around waiting to hear and spread vicious rumors are pathetic, miserable people who don’t have a life of their own. They are full of envies and petty jealousies over the people that they talk about. As soon as gossip is spread about them though they can’t handle it and most of the time it is because what’s spread about them is the truth so they get mad and spread lies on others who are above them.

  I have never spreaded rumors. I spread the truth. And i, just like many others, have been the victim of quite a few ridiculous rumors. I’ve heard people say that they would go home and cry over lies that was said about them. I have never shed a tear over lies people told on me. Some of them may have pissed me off very much because i knew what they were trying to do but their talk didn’t affect me because i knew what was circulating was nowhere near the truth. I know that it does hurt a lot of good people when others hear negative things that are false regarding them then they listen to it and may act accordingly to it. Treating them unfairly, and some of them got the nerve because they are the ones who actually have the dirt on them and the ones they criticize are the innocent ones. The way i look at the matter is if you know who you are and you know what you did and did not do you shouldn’t give a fuck. People are going to talk about you anyway. Whether you do good or bad. Fuck them!

  I scoff and laugh at people who spread rumors about me. I’m better than all of them. I can go and walk around anywhere holding my head up as high up in the sky as i want to because i haven’t done a damn thing! And if i had i’d still be strong enough to pick up and keep moving because i don’t do things that i’d be ashamed of.

  People have all type of reasons why they make up lies and spread rumors. Most of the time it is done out of jealousy, hatred, ignorance, and sickness. One time i hung out with this older woman who came out of jail a long time ago. Her name was Venus. The next thing that i knew people were assuming that because i was a good person and that she was a bad person that i was trying to help her get on her feet or something to that nature. The woman herself even went around lying, telling people that i was trying to save her. Save her from what? I don’t know what they were talking about. It was all news to me. That was a petty lie, unless she was really that dumb enough to perceive that through her own misunderstanding. Then, later on, i was suppose to had went with her boyfriend ( had a relationship with him). And then i became a ho’. And so on an so on. See, they are all crazy! And they are suppose to be grown folks. That’s why the dummy and her nigger both have been looking like skeletons for a while now and are rapidly dying from Aids. You know, the truth always comes out no matter how long it make take. I don’t have no Aids and never had any other diseases for that matter. That says a whole lot because they hung themselves with their own ropes. People need to think about what they lie about before they do it. Their shit didn’t add up and now their being eaten up. I knew that they had Aids a long time ago and was waiting until the day for it to really show. I look at Venus and Omar and gloat like crazy. That is what they get for being so jealous of me, a death sentence.

  It’s just sad when people’s lives get ruined over shit that they know is not true. Since most of the time lies spread faster than the truth it gets to them how those who fall for the lies believe in it, and it bothers them how people think of them. I can’t get into any of that shit because it is a waste of energy. It’s not real so why pay any attention to it. The way i keep looking at it is that they are living in a land of make-believe and i am in reality and i got to keep moving on because i’m not a sick person. Some probably are making up rumors about why i write blogs. Is that going to discourage me from blogging? No way! I write because i am a natural born writer. I was told that the gift i have would be used to help people even though i did not set out to do so, i just followed the calling. It’s a talent. I’m not trying and never have tried to prove anything to anyone. I don’t beg people to read my blogs if nobody likes what i have to say they don’t have to visit and read my writings. I didn’t even tell people that i had blogs they found out on their own. I am expressing myself and i’m going to keep doing it. And this may sound crazy but if i never got any visitors i’d still post.

  That is one of the major reasons i don’t and will continue not to be bothered with too many people because they are so stupid and ignorant, jealous and inferior and not worth my time and energy. I’m much, much happier being by myself, doing what i like. Even when i am on my job i keep mostly to myself. So everybody can go on an keep talking while i’ll still be way ahead because i’ve been gone!

Brainwashed

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:51 PM EDT

•  It’s a huge world out there. There are so many people who don’t know what they be talking about. Then, you have many who do know what they are talking about. There are so many cultures, lifestyles, beliefs, opinions and ways that people are raised. When you come into your own is when you really discover what is important since it partly develops into what may define some of your character. Some need to evaluate many of the things that they value or consider a value to them. They need to know where their ideas originated from-whether they made the decision on their own or let someone else decide for them. Do you live by or go along with something because that is truly the way you feel in your heart or because it is the way that most people do so you just accepted it as the way to go or as it is said “the way it is suppose to be?”

  I myself actually have never allowed society or any individual to dictate how i should live my life no matter how negatively or positively they may have decided to view me. I cannot and will not let the opinions of others faze me while i continue to take my journey through this life. Nobody is going to determine how i should feel about things, what i believe in and don’t believe in, and what i should agree with and don’t agree with. No one can tell me what i don’t want to hear because i am going to have the last word when it comes to my life since i am the one living it! Nobody knows me better than i know myself. Now, there is absolutely nothing wrong with hearing another person out if you decide what they are saying is worth hearing. It makes no sense to be oblivious to the diversities in the world. However, you don’t have to listen to it. It’s just vital for you to be aware of it and that it is going on and going on with these people.

  There is plenty of shit going on in the world that is not too kosher as far as i am concerned and i refuse to let my mind be molded and corrupted with some of the things that this society considers appropriate and not appropriate. Of course, i may not know everything but i know a hell of a lot and enough to know that the so-called generalized way of how our life-in-order should be lived is a big mess. Yes, it is indeed true that whatever life is to one is the way they should live it because nobody’s path is the same. We all have our own minds and ways of behavior-thank goodness for that! What i am talking about is being consciously or subconsciously programmed by what is displayed by myths, stereotypes, the media and even small things in life that we are taught. I don’t accept something as a fact as to what is right or wrong simply because it is said that it is the way it’s suppose to be or because so many people feel and are in a particular mode. I am also a person and i do count and my ways and thoughts differ greatly than the majority.

I’m Steps Ahead

Thursday, September 21, 2006 at 9:15 AM EDT

• As some may know at birth i was born with a double veil which means that i have very strong spiritual abilities. Aside from already being intelligent the reason i have so much knowledge is because i am a very accurate clairvoyant. This is the month of september, there is only about three and a half more months left before a new year comes in and still my enemies won’t stop endeavoring to destroy me. I’m so tired of having to mention them but they just won’t leave me alone. I don’t write about each an everything they do and have done but i write about a great deal of their actions because they definitely need to be exposed and because i’m not afraid to and will continue to speak on the things going on in the world that aren’t right. While there are some in the world aware of my enemies wrongdoings due to their own experiences or through the experiences of others or through things that get wind there are still a great deal who aren’t aware and God may be using me to get the word out to deserving people who are in the dark. I know i am not the only one who these type of sick people are doing this to it just so happens that i’m a spiritually gifted person who is well aware an in tune with what is going on around me. And i also have a significant source of protection in my favor that my enemies don’t seem and choose to accept. Obviously they have greatly underestimated my strength, knowledge, power and purpose. I am set way apart from them and this world-if not they would have been had me by now. They’ll never get me. No one can stop what the almighty higher power puts out! I am a person who is pure in heart and in mind. I don’t and never have smoked, indulged in drugs or alcohol, and i don’t have sexual relations with anyone and that is my business. It is who i am what keeps me strong and standing. My physical self as well as spiritual but more so my spiritual self because my spirit has got me the way that i am. I’m truly a good person. This is all a part of my character. I live a clean life which causes no strains in my life because i am naturally this way. In the same it is in a way making me a target. The way that i am may be foreign to a lot of people but i feel the same way about them. Their way of life is foreign to me and i may think of some of their lifestyles as crazy nevertheless i don’t care. To me, smoking is stupid, alcohol unnecessary, and men the easiest thing to stay away from. Now, i don’t knock anybody for what they do because i don’t do it, it’s just i don’t stand for any belittlement for the way how i live my life especially since i’m very proud of the person i was born to be.

  This past sunday and monday things got a little heated “as far as my enemies are concerned”. They started their usual crap when they “think” they’re “doing something”. I guess they spent a lot of time indulging in their chanting and candle burning to try to have an affect on my emotions that never really works on me anyway. So when they see me they proceed with talk that is suppose to make me paranoid, nervous or feel down. You see, i’ve always known these things because i’m fed knowledge through spirits and intelligence. Within those two days as soon as i came into their view they began referring to me in a sexual nature. In other words insinuating that i’m a wild sex-crazed person who sleeps around all of the time. As smart as i am i don’t understand why they stay on this particular subject when it comes to them using witchcraft to try to bring me down. With all of the other lies that they can use to say at me they stay on this whore tip. They don’t make any utterances about me being a crackhead, lesbian or thief. It’s always mostly about me being the big whore that they absolutely wish i was. And it’s so interesting since i know i have never actually done any of the things they are describing yet they feel it should bother me. So on monday night when a small crowd finished uttering things about me which never existed i overheard one say to another “It’s not working” and the other responded “It’s okay” or “Don’t worry about it” something to that nature. They gave themselves away! Why should it work on me? What they are doing is crazy. They even got certain people on my job going along with it by acting stupid. How can i get paranoid or feel down about things that don’t have anything to do with me? Shit they all created? Like i mentioned before they have greatly underestimated me. I know they want me to have a mental and emotional breakdown but i never have, i’m far from it and so on to them. I wonder how many people they’ve succeeded with who didn’t know any better. It is such a shame. I hope more an more people catch on to these type of sick peoples games because for so many years they have been destroying the lives of so many good people who may have thought that they were crazy due to the subtlety of this matter.

Level, Mentality

Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 4:04 AM EDT

• I’ve mentioned before in the past that people believe and think what they want to think even if it is not the truth. And how i’ve always hated ignorant people since i was a child. I’m not the smartest person in the world but i’m very far from a dummy. There are so many people walking around with false knowledge. Plenty of those who are up there in age still have misconceptions about certain things going on in life. And if you dare to tell them that their information is wrong they don’t want to hear it especially if it’s coming from a person that is much younger who knows what they’re talking about.

  One person’s truth is another person’s lie due to the difference in their points of view and how they may see things. I’ve learned in life that many people generalize, they don’t know any other way of life and when they get around those who differ from them in ways of thinking and behavior they don’t understand then choose to classify them by their limited definitions of what they’re use to. As far as i am concerned the world is fucked up period. And all that i know is that i don’t have any time for shit that don’t make no sense to me and i have seen and heard a lot of crazy stuff that is considered normal among many.

  It is very important to have an accurate amount of street-smarts, book smarts, and spiritual smarts to survive in this world. A whole lot of people are getting high these days so they’re in their own world making up their own rules, and whatever age they started experimenting with drugs and then continue on to use them will be the same mind-set that will carry them for the rest of their life. So if a person begins taking drugs at sixteen and is still on them by the age of sixty he or she remains on that sixteen year old level. Even the little children these days are born crazy. Seven and eight year old girls are wearing thongs. I’m thirty-one years old and have never walked around with shit sticking up my ass in between the cheeks. 

Love Spells

Friday, July 28, 2006 at 12:57 AM EDT

• As my faithful readers who believe in me may already know i’m not and have never been interested in men. Nevertheless, there have always been men who were interested in me whether their motives were negative or positive and it didn’t matter to me at all since i’d never had any sexual or emotional feelings or desires for a man. Well, on my job this caucasian guy took an interest in me not too long ago and i definitely did not want to be bothered with him. My second day at work two months ago he’d just become manager over me and it wasn’t so long after that i noticed that he was attracted to me. And right around that same particular time during my first week i lost a set of keys to my locker. From then on my new manager was overly attentive to me in two ways that i immediately caught on to. He’d compliment me on my work as did many of the other managers did and there was absolutely nothing wrong with that. However, giving me praise was just an excuse to lean his way on over to chat with me. I never really gave him too much conversation i kept my words strictly business. He usually talks and jokes around with other co-workers also just like a lot of outgoing people do. With me though he had a purpose, an ulterior motive which didn’t take me long to figure out completely.

  Three days after i lost my keys thoughts of him invaded my mind and i instantly knew that he was attempting to set me up for a downfall. I am very spiritually inclined due to the unique gift i have so my warning took me steps ahead of him. No, he didn’t know me well enough or at all to have a fair initiative to want to harm me though i was quite sure he knew people who know of me who’d just love to stir up some stupid shit. They’ve already spreaded billions of lies about me in the past that have greatly failed to discourage me so why not try to do me in some more until they get it right! Anyway, to make a short story even shorter. My manager’s plans didn’t work by trying to make me attracted then drawing me nearer to him by the use of evil witchcraft so now he’s mad and extremely embarrassed because i know about it. Believe it or not witchcraft is being practiced more so now than ever, it is a way of life for many but i’m not going to get into that particular subject right now. I will mention this though, if i were into men he still would have never stood a chance with me since i smelled his nasty stinking ass. And, the summer hadn’t even came yet. It was the spring and he stunk real bad. I smelled my manager on three occasions. I don’t know if he’d slept with a woman then hadn’t washed for a couple of days but whatever the situation was the odor was terrible.

  Currently, i ignore this asshole as he has tried to pettily annoy me in indirect ways. He’s jealous of me because he was at the job longer and i got a promotion real quick. He’s the type to think that all young black women are loose an stupid. It eats him up inside to see one that has it all together and who could go real far in life. That is totally all his problem! I don’t speak to him, i keep my distance. I never bothered him anyway. He was always approaching me. This past monday he brought some girl where we work holding her hand to try to take the slack off of him but i know that game and he saw it didn’t work with me. He is as guilty as sin and got caught red handed so there is no need to try to cover it up with me to ease up his embarrassment. He’s a nothing, a nobody. He can try to start and talk as much shit as he wants to but he better wake up because i am definitely not a woman that he should fuck with! And he needs to realize this before he regrets it! Thank goodness he’s not my manager any more. Since i got promoted i have a female manager over me.

Skeletons In The Closet

Friday, April 07, 2006 at 5:20 PM EDT

•  I’ve heard some people say that everybody has skeletons in their closet, shameful things they regret and want to keep as a secret. Yes, everybody makes mistakes and may have regrets, nevertheless, everything is not a “Skeleton In The Cupboard”. Some people just don’t want to be alone in the things that they do, and have done. So it’s more comforting for them to believe everybody has something dirty on their slate. I’ve also heard people say that some need to stop thinking they’re better than other people because everybody has problems. Yeah, a lot do have problems but why should that count as to whether or not they feel more superior if they want to? Sometimes it is people who give other people their problems. They don’t always make problems on their own.

  I have never cared what anyone did in their life as long as they stayed out of my business but sometimes there are those who get so insecure about certain things that they wish they could take back, and try to poke a finger at someone else to make them not feel they’re as high as they think they are. Some people have tried that shit with me, insinuating that because i didn’t work for anyone for a long period of time that i never tried to do anything for myself or took care of my self financially. Those rumors came from my jealous an crazy great-grandmother who couldn’t do nothing in her life but iron clothes. How much effort does it take to get wrinkles out? There’s no brain work in it. I don’t pay it no attention, it’s all bullshit! I had my own money before i started publishing books, buying my own and paying my way. I just don’t like authority so i prefer to work on my own.

  A lot of people have their own hang-ups. And they have to deal with their own unresolved issues without using others as a scapegoat. Some think if one was put into their particular predicament of things that they would do or make the same choices they did. I know one thing and, i can speak beforehand. I don’t care what hardships life may hand over there are certain things i know i’ll refuse to bring myself to do-even if my life depended on it! I’ll never sell my ass, i’ll never use drugs and, i’ll never commit a murder for anyone.

Gossip & People In The Street

Friday, April 07, 2006 at 4:31 PM EDT

•  Ignorance is everywhere. In all walks of life there will always be people who read things wrong and spread rumors. One doesn’t have to be a street person to not have accurate knowledge of things or to place high value on the relevance of what people think when it comes to gossip. I’ve been around street people all of my life and as far as i am concerned they are the most stupidest kind that i have ever come across. Gossip is the only real weapon they have against people who are deeply bothered by being talked about-aside from their practice of working witchcraft. Of course, all people who constantly hang out in the street are not into or even believe in voodoo but, for those who do it is a major weapon of theirs. A lot of street people are down on their luck and are very envious of those who have it better. Then you have some who may have a little something and, still don’t measure up. They talk about everybody-whether they’re in a higher category or a lower one. If you’re in a higher category, though, and you know it an show it, they’ll work their best to try to bring you down lower than where they’re at. And i know this from my own experiences. Most of the time i am very aware when rumors are being or have been spread about me. The trash have a pattern of making things known to you by verbalizing what they think they know about you. Nevertheless, i am aware of most things because i’m very spiritually inclined to my surroundings.

  One summer i was walking down the street of my block when a kid half my age uttered to his playmate “Everybody knows about her and Omar”, a jealous street guy in his fifties who went around our neighborhood spreading sexual lies because he couldn’t get over on me. “Everybody knows what?” i say and, that is exactly my point! It wasn’t what they knew. It’s what they thought they knew because a lie is the truth to street-trash. And, street people keep their lies up for years, they play on the minds of other street people and people alike because through their prior experience they know what some people will fall for due to the level they are on and the way they think. For some reason trash feel they have the right to speak at you about the things they may have heard, believing it will do some major damage to someone emotionally. The men especially think that they have control when another man is the source of nasty gossip concerning a woman. Not so long ago males i didn’t know would call me “bitch” or “slut” because in their ignorant mind it was suppose to hurt me and if i acted as their words didn’t bother me they’d prefer to believe that i was just putting up a front. But, i was being my actual self. Their words went through one ear and out the other they did not faze me, what a man says or does has no bearing on me. I just don’t understand why as a woman in this society i’m suppose to be the weaker sex when i’m far from it. Omar, the man who was taken advantage of and who was jealous of me thought if people believed his lies about me then treated me unkindly that it would affect me. However, it did not and i’ve never been the type to care and worry over what others thought of me. If people believe him and act on it that is purely their stupidity and, it definitely will not stop me from doing anything in my life. Omar couldn’t handle the fact that i was younger and smarter than him. He made an ass out of himself for chasing after me in the first place, he found out the hard way that i wasn’t the average young girl walking around not knowing too much about life. I do know a lot for my age so he fucked with the wrong one! And i know it! He can tell all the lies in the world he just showed me how deeply his pride got hurt.

  Everyone isn’t as strong and fortunate as me when it comes to people lashing out at them. I’ve always been a loner so i can survive without the approval of others. Some people think that i run my mouth too much but, guess what? I’m going to keep running my mouth. Some think that i’m stupid or headed for trouble because of the way i am but, guess what? I’m going to keep being me. Some even believe i’m crazy and incapable of doing anything other than my passion for writing but, guess what? I’m exceptionally sane, multi talented, highly intelligent and, the world will hear of me one day even though i’m not interested in having fame-then all of my haters will have to hate me even more!