A Message To The Fellow Gifted And Spiritually Inclined

My Spirit has lead me to write this post and whenever my spirit gives me a message i definitely know that it is for a reason. I never doubt. I know the feeling and why.

Every now and then there will always be sick envious people who are very furious because they cannot get under our skin and bring us down. They will say and do anything just for a reaction. Believe me, they are truly miserable because we are satisfied, happy and at peace with ourselves and have no worries because we know that our lives are fine and will continue to go right.

I know that i was born to lead not even intending to. I’ve always been a leader not a follower. There are plenty of assholes - as there will always be in all walks of life. They are very insecure and afraid of the truth in all aspects of life. I ignore them because i know what is really behind the root of their problem, they don’t realize how much they give themselves away by their actions.

Anyhow for those who may be unaware of the tactics and wiles of their shenanigans Gifted people and/or people who are very smart ( who know too much ) will always be targeted in life. Don’t fall for the game. Continue to believe in yourself and definitely do not doubt and be discouraged.

I don’t understand why certain people continue on with their stupid bullshit that is so obvious to see right through. And specifically this caul/veil post. And after this i will speak no more on this particular jealousy that some have of my gifts and knowledge. This happened once in the past, someone left a comment however i did not approve it because it was nonsense, but now just to let the record show, regarding this crap about how most topics concerning what i’ve written on my blog concerning the caul and, how the information i wrote can be found anywhere on the internet is very truly a lie because everything i have written is from my own personal experience. I’ve only copied and pasted one article concerning the caul from caulbearer.org and that was for reference to those who wanted to come to their own conclusions.

I am highly educated about being born with a caul due to the fact that i was born with a double veil. Animals are also born with cauls and have psychic ability as my dog did. I’m clairvoyant. I have all the abilities including healing and the ability to make things happen by doing spiritual work. I’ve worked with other psychics and priestesses. I have been foretelling the future since the young age of three and my powers continue to get stronger as i age.

I’ve experienced things that know one will ever come across on the internet. I am so spiritually sensitive that my body physically reacts . I am absolutely aware of everything going on around me at all times and nobody can touch me. Now everyone born with a caul will have their own different experience. So if i or anyone else has not experienced something that someone else has does not mean that it does not exist or that it is not possible. In fact, that is beautiful and it is a blessing. Experiencing things that no one has heard of means that you have a special protection.

Here Is An Example Of Bullshit That I will Not Cater To:

Vasak Says:

August 5, 2009 at 11:04 pm eI despise people like you and if you want to challenge me you will not succeed .So as far as i am concerned you can go and fuck yourself!

Wow Miss LaToya! You have really shown that you are a truly “sensitive” person.

Peace and blessings to you.
M

misslatoya Says:

August 5, 2009 at 5:58 am eSomething definitely has to be wrong somewhere in your life for you to be worried about me and my business! You are the sad one! You are a very ignorant person. I have not stolen anything. People copy my own original writings from my blog and post them on their sights as mere reference or because it is of some interest to them and i do not have a problem with it! I don’t put significance on posting from other sites. It is no big deal. I’m not claiming them as my own , i don’t need to and i don’t want to. My experiences bare much more significance and value than what is posted on the world wide web. And, as far as delusional is concerned- I pay you no mind whatsoever. Everything that i have been taught spiritually has been verified. And i have plenty of other people to back me up even though i do not need any back up. You talk about unprovable things. Nobody has to prove anything to the world, or reveal everything that they know- and without me going into further detail if you were bright you would know this. It doesn’t matter what people like you think. You have no idea who i know and the things that i have accomplished so if you think that it’s all ego and contradiction, i really do not care. Your opinion is of no value to me. I am more special than you could ever imagine just like certain others in particular. I despise people like you and if you want to challenge me you will not succeed .So as far as i am concerned you can go and fuck yourself!

Mordekai Says:

August 4, 2009 at 10:33 pm eI am a natural born clairvoyant with extremely strong abilities and do not need to learn anything from anybody i’ve been taught by spirits and the spirits of my ancestors. So know what you’re talking about before you speak on it!

What a load of nonsense! You “don’t need to learn anything from anybody”, yet you claim to talk to dead people? So these dead ones are as real to you are living people, yet only they can teach you things? Very convenient indeed…just like the priests of religions who claim the unprovable as a shield from provability, lest their lies be seen for what they are.
You speak in the spirit of contradiction, and those who think in such a manner confuse not only themselves but those who are also confused by the rains of unreason and delusional thinking. The net seems to be infested with such sad individuals there days, going on about “gifts”, “powers” and “psychic abilities”.
Miss La Toya, do you deny that the main texts on this blog concerning caulbearers have been shamelessly culled from caulbearer websites that have been copyrighted and in existence for more than twelve years, yet you dare to steal from the caulbearers whilst ignoring the damnation that comes upon the blood of men and women who dare to do such evil? So be it Miss La Toyah, but even if you think you can avoid the wrath of the Force of The All that watches over all true caulbearers, your false beliefs will not prevent what will be taken from you. The choice is yours, and you will receive warnings to change your course, though you may have already missed some of them because of your inflated ego.As always in The Way, the choice is yours.

misslatoya Says:

August 3, 2009 at 12:21 am eYou must have misinterpreted something because i have not been influenced by anyone or anything. I have my own knowledge and my own judgements through my own experiences and know what to and what not to take as the truth. I was born with a caul and can honestly tell you that i do not relate to most of the people who claim that they were born with cauls. I have never been lonely or confused about anything in my life. I don’t know where you get that i’ve been influenced a lot by caulbearer.org, if you are insinuating that i’ve learned things through websites and through other people, you better think again. I am a natural born clairvoyant with extremely strong abilities and do not need to learn anything from anybody i’ve been taught by spirits and the spirits of my ancestors. So know what you’re talking about before you speak on it!

Wing Says:

July 31, 2009 at 2:08 am eI was born in sept 1984. I too was born with a veil.
I read some of your stuff around a year ago LaToya, I can see that the caulbearer.org site has influenced you alot. Which I cant say if its a bad thing or not. But I’ve still been looking for the meaning to everything, I wish I could travel the world asking the elders of all religions, races, about their cultures views on veils. To know the truth.
But I can say, that everyone is born with innate abilities. Everyone has the capability to feel/see things outside of this reality. But our society has been twisting truth for longer than any of us could know. And there are alot of different factions fighting for control of what is truth. So you have to take anything you hear with a grain of salt. Be careful of what you believe. But its always good to have a open mind.
I will also say on a side note, as a general truth for me, caulbeares are truly lonely creatures.
Its hard for me to listen to people (especially women) talk about the most mundane and selfish stuff. Meanwhile I have thoughts of millennium long conspiracies, and the end of our society hanging on my shoulders. It just doesnt mix, especially when youve always felt like you were just watching everyone else live their life while you live on borrowed time.
Thankfully I pick the greatest friends, and I wouldnt trade them for anything, including control of the world. So I dont feel as lonely as I did as a kid, but still some days are harder than others. I just wish I could find a decent woman that wouldn’t lie to me, I always know then they are lying to me. But really thats my own problem and I shouldnt be bringing it up.
In the end, I dont bother my friends with my deep thoughts and feelings, I just enjoy my time with them and try to laugh, but for the most part I have just gotten used to being alone, I will take on the world by myself when the time is right, if I have to. Id prefer to have the help of my fellow brothers and sisters at that time though. But as i see it, I am probably most definitely making up for things in a previous life.
My biggest influences in all this, is my dreams. My dreams have showed me alot of things, some things make sense, and others dont. Other dreams just feel like im preparing for something.
Its a confusing existence. All I know is that when I die, I will die fighting, until the very end, just like all my dreams…

A Psychic To Beware Of

( I, LaToya, personally know Doris Johnson. I’ve worked with her in the past. She does have some power, nevertheless, i could see right through her. I’m not going to go into any detail about my story but she tried to take my spiritual energy years ago and i beat her at her own game. I was too smart and too spiritual for her. She’s a con woman. A big liar. And she is in the police database. I’ve got pictures of Doris, and when i told her how i spotted her on a site where she was doing her spiritual work she quickly went and got her photos off the internet along with the site. I fixed her ass!- check out this story below)

Can you prove a curse wasn’t lifted? 

Naples woman suing fortune teller Aisling Swift Naples Daily News Originally published 07:16 a.m., November 10, 2008 Updated 07:16 a.m., November 10, 2008 NAPLES, Fla. — How do you prove a curse wasn’t lifted?

That’s the question a Collier County judge will have to determine when the case of a 54-year-old Golden Gate woman suing a fortune teller for fraud, theft and deceptive trade practices heads to court. Eumathe Dufrene is suing Doris Palm & Card Reading on Airport-Pulling Road, alleging that she paid Tiffany Johnson $80 for a card reading on March 8 and then was asked to provide $300 the next day, then more money over several weeks.

Dufrene said she was asked to pay Johnson for medicine to prevent evil and “grave calamities” from being around her family and children and more money after the first “spiritual loan” wasn’t enough to lift the evil. Dufrene ended up paying $13,200 over several weeks in March, according to her lawsuit filed Oct. 28 in Small Claims Court. Johnson, who has a money-back guarantee, promised to return the money, according to the lawsuit, which includes a receipt showing Johnson’s signature that is labeled “Exhibit 1.”

On March 25, after no money was returned, Dufrene went to the business at 1872 Airport-Pulling Road and asked for her money back. But Johnson claimed the evil surrounding Dufrene’s family was causing complications with Johnson’s pregnancy and asked her to call in a couple of days, the lawsuit says. Dufrene called repeatedly and even returned to the business — to no avail.

Her lawsuit seeks the return of the $13,200 and lists the business, Johnson and Dorothy Johnson, the business owner, as defendants. Johnson and her mother, Dorothy, who is known as Doris, deny Dufrene’s account. They say the money was for readings and future readings Dufrene paid for in advance. “She was constantly calling and constantly coming here,” Doris Johnson said as she sat in her business. “The money was for my daughter’s readings, her time.” She said Dufrene was upset because her son was murdered and nothing was done, and she’d also lost her job and was depressed. “She felt so confused and troubled about her son, her life and everything around her,” Johnson said, adding that Dufrene wanted a curse placed on her son’s killer, but they don’t do that type of work and said Dufrene would have to do that in her country, Haiti. They told her to be positive and to move forward with her life, to rely on God and seek counseling or a doctor. “Whatever was wrong, it was God’s will, but don’t blame God, and be happy, be the best you can, be positive,” Johnson said her daughter told Dufrene and Dufrene’s daughter Vanessa, who always accompanied her.

Tiffany Johnson said she gave birth to a daughter just weeks ago and was pregnant at the time Dufrene kept returning, so she wasn’t able to spend more time with her. She said Vanessa Dufrene came to her before they sued and she offered to provide more readings without charge to help her. Dufrene’s lawyer, Adam Oosterbaan of Naples, denied Dufrene’s payments were for future readings.

“They can explain that to a jury,” Oosterbaan said of the Johnsons. Dufrene declined comment on her lawsuit. There are no other similar lawsuits involving the business filed in Collier County. The Johnsons’ attorney, David McElrath, could not be reached for comment. A spokeswoman for Jury Verdict Research in Horsham, Penn., said the firm doesn’t have information on verdicts or settlements involving palm or card readers or fortune tellers. But published news accounts show a handful of dissatisfied customers have sued fortune tellers, including a case that gained national headlines involving a Jamaican mystic who called herself Miss Cleo and advertised herself on late-night TV infomercials.

In 2002, the Federal Trade Commission settled a lawsuit filed in Miami against two Fort Lauderdale firms involving Miss Cleo’s services. The FTC said the psychic service promised a free reading, but consumers calling a toll-free number were directed to a 900-number that charged $4.99 per minute, ending in nearly 6 million people charged an average of $60 each.

Without admitting guilt, Access Resource Services and Psychic Readers Network agreed to cancel $500 million in customer bills to settle the FTC charges. In 2001, a man settled his lawsuit for an undisclosed amount the day of his trial against a 90-year-old Atlantic City boardwalk fortune teller. He claimed he paid her $200,000 over 13 years to remove a curse. He alleged he’d suffered a nervous breakdown and held Sole Mio Balaam Nicola responsible because he left his wife after the fortune-teller told him that if he did not, he’d be “attacked by snakes.”

In 1996, a Roanoke, Va., Circuit judge ordered Lola Rose Miller, who offered fortunes under the name Miss Stella, to return more than $65,000 that a Roanoke man paid her for six numbers that were supposed to win $3 million in the lottery. She’d already served a year in jail after an undercover sting by a police officer, who was told a glass of water, a dirty sock and $1,200 paid to her would cure his marital problems — and an evil curse shaped like a potato inside his body. She also was ordered to pay $18,000 in restitution to a victim who prompted the police sting.

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Voodoo/Black Magic Removal And Reversal

I’ve had experience with different types of voodoo for exactly twenty-seven years now. And i can honestly say that the negative side such as black magic is a very sick thing. I have received my calling to share my powers, knowledge and special abilities of my caul with the certain people of the world who need and who are seeking out my help. In my early twenties i would just read and do spiritual work for those that i knew on a personal level. Now the time has come for me to reveal that i have been elevated and that i am indeed a priestess. I have been using my abilities for myself all of my life. I’ve been doing spiritual cleansing and white magic for a little over ten years now. And, since i am a very honest person i have done and reversed black magic on those who came after me. And without getting into the nasty details my results have been extremely satisfactory.

Since i have been on numerous occasions the victim of all types of voodoo such as Brujeria ( the tie-the bind ) , love spells and other spells to try to lower my self confidence, self esteem and to prevent success that i was born to have from coming into my life along with more wickedness, i know all about what voodoo feels like what it can and tries to accomplish and how to fight it. However, Everyone is not gifted and strong enough to conquer evil voodoo such as i have been able to do. And not everybody knows that they are a victim of witchcraft since it appears in one’s life as something occuring naturally. I’ve always had a very strong mind and strong will so that voodoo could not affect me or my actions, and the spiritual ability to detect exactly what it was, who was doing it, why, and where it was coming from, and then how to defeat it.

I have strong positive energy. And i have a tremendous group of strong positive spirits who work with me in my life and who serve while giving me the protection that i need. I will not at all have a problem with helping those who want to conquer those who are doing harm or trying to harm them spiritually. So i will not only be working with those in particular on a professional level but also on a personal level because i have a dedication for destroying those low life who are sick and demented. I know all about them, the way their minds work, and what they set out to do ( They think they are smart when indeed they are dumb ). And that is one of the keys to remember. In my personal experience, they have kept and keep on trying to attack me long after i had taken care of them because they can’t accept defeat.

The only silly thing now that they are constantly trying to attack now more than anything is my reputation, spreading nasty lies hoping that it will stick with their weak spells and weak-mindedness. I laugh at them harshly! I never cared what anyone thought of me, and especially any stupid lies that they retrieve. Obviously they do though! And that is what you have to think about and remember about those who are trying to harm you. What ever they are trying to conquer you with will indeed conquer them. They try to hurt others with things that would hurt them. So what they do is not a reflection on you it is a reflection on themselves, because what they want to take from you or do to you may not even matter to you, but it matters to them. You may be even capable of surviving a downfall that they could never imagine overcoming. These people do not conceive this train of thought.

Many people have come to me for help some real some false-believe me i can tell. I’m only here for those who are in serious need of help. I don’t play games and i don’t have time for any games. I get my work done and once it’s done it is final. If you are crossed up or think that you are crossed up or need some type of spiritual help in life i will give you a consultation, and i do charge a very reasonable fee for my spiritual work depending on what has to be done regarding anyone’s particular situation. Anyone may contact me, if you don’t want your information or email posted here worldwide on this blog you may of course go to one of my websites and correspond confidentially as you probably would like.

http://latoyalawrence.yolasite.com/Spiritual.php

http://mysite.verizon.net/vzerx6is/misslatoya

Asexuality/Asexual And Proud

I, LaToya Lawrence knew that i was Asexual ever since i was a young teenager, and i am so very proud to be that way as others are.  There are many people in this society who are ignorant to exactly what being Asexual means. To those who have no knowledge about it, some knowledge to it, or who are just plain interested in learning or learning more about the subject i have posted the accurate truth!

For humans, being asexual does not mean having an ability to clone yourself on the spot like an amoeba. For the most part, it also does not mean to have no sexual organs. So what, exactly, is it?

The definition of Asexuality is a lack of sexual attraction.

A study published by the New Scientist magazine in October, 2004 estimated that 1% of the human population is asexual, and confirmed the existence of asexuality in both humans and other animals.

Asexuality As An Orientation

Asexuality is seen by most asexuals as an orientation in its own right. After all, there is sexual attraction to the opposite gender, the same gender, and both genders, so why not also neither gender?

Some asexuals do not consider asexuality an orientation because it is more of a lack of orientation. They do not feel that they have a sexual orientation at all.

As asexuals are a sexual minority, this places asexuality firmly within the ‘queer’¹ movement. However, many asexuals lead a conventionally straight life and some individual asexuals do not feel they are a part of the ‘queer’ movement at all.

Shortened Name

As all other orientations have a shortened name, so does asexuality. Commonly it is ‘A’ although some people prefer ‘Ace’.

Why Call It Asexuality?

Many people wonder why asexuality is so called, as they reason that an asexual person would not wish to define themselves in relation to sex or a sexuality. However, imagine being asexual, having no sexual attraction to either gender, for your entire life. People will be interested in why you aren’t dating, so they ask ‘Are you hetero, homo or bi?’ What can you say in reply? ‘I’m not sexual’ is the answer, but then you have defined yourself in relation to sex. Simply saying ‘None of the above’ will prompt the question ‘So what are you then?’ to which you have to reply with the aforementioned answer.

Love

Asexuals are capable of love. Romantic attraction is separate from sexual attraction, and it is something that many asexuals feel. Some asexuals talk of a ‘romance drive’, meaning that they feel compelled to form a close romantic relationship with a partner.

A romance drive is not connected to sexual attraction or behaviour, it is more of a desire to form a close relationship with someone. This is possible just as it is possible for parents to love their offspring in a non-sexual manner.

Romantic Orientation

Asexuals who have a romance drive can also identify themselves as straight, gay or bi, depending on the gender of person they usually feel romantically attracted to. Romantic orientation is different to sexual orientation, so a gay asexual person remains asexual even though they prefer to form relationships with the people of the same gender.

Asexual Relationships

Most asexual relationships would be looked upon by outsiders as just being very close friends, and indeed in a lot of cases that is true. These asexuals form close friendships with people, but feel no need to go any further. However, for some asexuals a relationship is a lot more than just friendship. These asexual relationships can be very intimate, but the intimacy is not sexual in nature. Asexuals in these relationships consider that they are ‘more than just friends’ with their significant other, so close is their relationship.

Some asexual relationships can also include physical contact of a sexual nature². Most physical asexual relationships focus more on hugging and stroking than sex, however there are asexuals who do enjoy sexual sensations and acts.

Many sexual people do not understand how a relationship can work without sex as they see sex as a necessary expression of love. For asexuals, sex is not an expression of love at all and to many the idea that it is seems foreign. To help differentiate, if sex is a necessary expression of love, then prostitutes are the most loving people in the world.

Sex

Just because someone is asexual doesn’t mean they don’t have sex or can’t enjoy it: asexuality only means that they are not sexually attracted to people. A good proportion of asexuals have tried sex. As asexuals are otherwise normal people they are physically capable of sex, and some asexuals enjoy sexual arousal. Those asexuals who do have sex or masturbate do not think about people during the act; some enjoy the sensation, some have a fetish, and some just let their minds wander and work out what tomorrow’s dinner will be or when the car should next be serviced.

Many asexuals who try sex find it disappointing, and some find the idea of sex absolutely repulsive. Many asexuals do not masturbate and derive no pleasure from any sexual act.

Sexual Arousal

Many sexual people find the concept of sexual attraction difficult to separate from the concept of sexual arousal and assume that they are the same, and therefore anyone who experiences sexual arousal must also experience sexual attraction. This is not true. As an example, many sexual people are sexually aroused by leather, but they are not sexually attracted to leather.

Sex Drive

Some asexuals do have a sex drive. This idea can also be difficult for sexual people to understand. A sex drive is a desire for sexual arousal, not a desire to feel sexual attraction. The difference here can be highlighted by masturbation: people who masturbate by the application of their hand or other object do not feel sexual attraction to that object, but do it because they feel a need for arousal.

Some asexuals who have a sex drive satisfy themselves only by masturbation; these can come under the title of autosexual. Autosexual does not mean that a person loves themselves sexually, merely that they have no wish to have sex with another person, but still feel the desire to experience arousal. Other asexuals who have a sex drive prefer to satisfy themselves by sharing sex with a partner.

Sexual Relationships

It is entirely possible for an asexual to have a sexual relationship. As stated above, some asexuals do enjoy the sexual sensations and therefore will happily engage in a sexual relationship. Some asexuals are not too bothered about sex, but will go through with it because they like giving pleasure to their partner, and others will because they love their partner and are willing to have sex in order to stay with them. Not all asexuals, however, will be willing to do this. Many do not enjoy any sexual act at all (including kissing), so no matter how much they love their partner, sex will be totally out of the question and they have rigidly defined and defended no-go zones.

Marriage

Many asexuals are in sexual marriages, and there are just as many reasons for an asexual to marry as there are for sexual people. In many cases marriage has happened because the asexual person assumed that they must be sexual, since they have never heard that it is possible not to be sexual. Then there are those who love their partner so much they are willing to compromise by having sex just to stay with their partner. Some want children and want their children to grow up in a traditional family group, and some have been forced into it by their religion and family.

Why Are Asexuals Making Such A Fuss?

A lot of people, sexual and asexual alike, do not understand why some asexuals are making such a big deal out of what they see as a non-issue. If you feel no desire for something, why shout about it? There are no a-football groups.

Being Asexual

The world is sex-mad. Sex permeates every part of the world, it is in songs, books, films, radio, television, adverts, billboards, comics, art and shops. Couples are everywhere, and most people talk about sex and sexual relationships every day. Our culture is screaming at everyone to find their perfect mate, settle down and start a family. Many people, not just asexuals, are constantly hounded by family and friends asking when they are going to find a partner and settle down. For some asexuals it is difficult to relate to most entertainment and many friends because either courting or sex are such large parts of them. In this climate, it is very difficult to ignore the fact that sex and sexuality exist. All that may not be obvious to sexuals, but to asexuals it is blindingly obvious.

Isolation

Because of living in such an over-sexed culture that is today’s world, many asexuals feel isolated. As asexuality is so rarely heard of and is largely unknown, young asexuals growing up notice that they are different to their peers and assume that they are horribly broken, deficient in some way, and need to be ‘cured’. This can lead to self-loathing and withdrawal from society. It often leads to experimentation with sex when the asexual concerned has no sex drive, and individuals can often emerge traumatised.

Another reason for isolation is religion. Certainly, mainstream Christians do not have a problem with asexuals, but some see sex as a gift from God that should be used. Many other religions (Mormons, Islam) see it as the duty of all humans to procreate and view not wishing to do so as a sin.

This isolation is why many asexuals feel that they need to spread the word – they have gone through years of self-hate, traumatising sexual experiences, and being told repeatedly that they need medical help. When they hear about asexuality, having found that they are not abnormal after all, they do not want anyone else to have to go through it too. Spreading the word, of course, means making a fuss to get yourself seen and understood by the media.

Why Do Asexuals ‘Come Out’?

Many families and friends constantly hound both sexuals and asexuals to find a partner, and often to settle down and have children. For some asexuals this can be completely out of the question. Many asexuals find it easier to blend in with society by pretending to be sexual, by nodding in agreement of Kylie being hot, or by laughing at sexual jokes, and in this case they are effectively hiding the truth. In any case, ‘coming out’ can be very helpful for asexuals, as if their family and friends understand then they will no longer be hounded to pair up or be expected to join in sexual conversations.

For some asexuals it is not an issue, either they are lucky enough to have very accepting (or asexual) family and friends, or they just never find themselves in a situation where they are expected to discuss sex.

What Causes Asexuality?

Nothing is yet known to cause asexuality. Examples of common assumptions of causes are:

• Abuse – Abuse is not known to cause asexuality. It may cause repulsion, hatred or fear of sex, but not asexuality. Almost all abuse victims turn out to be sexual, and those who don’t weren’t sexual to begin with.
• Hormonal or Chemical Imbalances – While some drugs do repress libido, and pregnant and pre-natal women lack a sex drive, hormonal problems are rarely the cause of asexuality. Many asexuals have gone through rigorous tests which conclude that their hormones are completely normal.
• Genes – Scientists may have found a ‘gay gene’ which increases the chances of the carrier being gay. There is no known ‘asexuality gene’ but the possibility does exist.
• Social Recluse – Asexuals are normal people. Some of them are popular, some aren’t, some are extroverts, some introverts, and of course some are very withdrawn. It is possible that there is a higher percentage of asexual introverts than sexual introverts, but that is probably caused by the asexuality: most people naturally become withdrawn from the world if they don’t fit in. In Internet asexual communities most of the asexuals are introverts, but this is probably because all the extroverts are out and too busy with their social lives to visit the Internet very much. This is noticeable in a great majority of Internet communities including h2g2.
• Fear Of Relationships – Also trust issues. A fear or relationships or a lack of trust does not lead to a lack of sexual attraction. These issues are separate to asexuality. They can coexist with asexuality, just as sexual people also have these problems.

Some Not-so-commonly-touted Reasons

• Premature Birth – The theory was that premature babies may not have had their full quota of sexual hormones while in the womb. This one was quickly ruled out as research showed that although many asexuals were premature, some were full term and many others were beyond full term.
• Oldest Child – An Internet poll with 53 respondents interestingly shows that 49% of asexuals are the oldest child in a family. This should not be taken seriously as evidence, however, as there are simply not enough data collected on the subject.
• Death of a Loved One – As a child, the death of a family member or close friend can be very traumatic, and it was speculated that this could lead to asexuality. However, most children who have suffered a loss grow up to be sexual.

What Asexuality Isn’t

On first hearing about asexuality many sexual people fail to comprehend what asexuality is. So here are some common misconceptions about asexuality:

• Celibacy – Celibacy is a choice not to have sex. Asexuality is not a choice but an orientation, and while some asexuals do not have a sex drive, others do.
• A disorder – Asexuality is just another orientation. While some people still have a problem with the existence of more than one orientation, it is widely accepted that there are more. Asexuals are just like any other people, and come from all walks of life, all countries, and all religions. Asexuals are just as mentally balanced as the rest of the human race.
• Homosexuals in hiding – Asexuals are not claiming to be asexuals because they are homosexual and don’t want to admit it. Homosexuals who don’t want to admit it, like asexuals who don’t want to admit to it, tend to claim that they are heterosexual. To claim to be asexual would draw close scrutiny of their sexuality and sex life, which is the last thing someone who wants to stay in the closet wants.
• A late bloomer – Asexuality is usually a lifelong thing; if you are born asexual you will stay asexual, and most asexuals do. Most, because as with other sexualities, some people do drift into a different sexuality. It is possible to both become asexual having been sexual, and become sexual having been asexual. If you are 13 and haven’t felt sexual attraction then you could be a late bloomer. If you are 20, you are very probably asexual.
• Frigidity – Frigidity is sexual unresponsiveness. Asexuality is an orientation, and those asexuals who have a sex drive do enjoy sex. It is, of course, possible to be both asexual and frigid, but neither implies the other.
• Sexual repression – People who are sexually repressed are still sexual, however deeply they have buried their sexual feelings. Asexuals are not sexually repressed, but merely feel no sexual attraction.
• Fear of sex – Asexuality is an orientation, not a fear. Some asexuals have and enjoy sex, others do not because they have no sex drive.
• Only for women – Both men and women can be asexual. Currently the statistics show that more asexuals are women, but that could be simply because less men wish to admit to it.
• Nature’s way of controlling population – This was also thought of homosexuals, but studies have shown that even in endangered species there are homosexual specimens. Other studies have shown that the existence of homosexuality is an evolutionary advantage as it means there are a few adults around without offspring who can devote more time and energy to looking after nephews and nieces, and the same could be said for asexuality. There is no reason to believe that asexuality is a way of controlling population, particularly as some asexuals do enjoy sex and do have children.
• A hormonal problem – Although this may be true for a small number of people, it is not the case for most asexuals. Many asexuals have gone through many tests to identify hormonal problems, to find that levels were completely normal.
• Social retardedness – Asexuals are normal people. Some of them are popular, some aren’t, some are extroverts, some introverts, and of course some are very withdrawn.
• Ugliness – Asexuals do not choose to identify as asexual because they are ugly or ‘can’t get any’. Just like the rest of the human race, some asexuals are beautiful, most are average, and some aren’t so good-looking.
• Pickiness – It is not that asexuals are very picky about who they date. Many just don’t feel the need to date anyone, and those who do date are only picky about sexual activity.
• Religiousness – Some asexuals are religious, some very religious, and others are not at all religious. Some statistics suggest that asexuals are more likely to be religious.

Asexual Responses To Common Statements And Questions Made By Sexuals

When an asexual ‘comes out’ to a sexual person, there are many responses widely reported by asexuals that shows that the sexual person just doesn’t understand or wasn’t listening. These are some of those responses and some asexual replies:

• Asexuality doesn’t exist. Why not? How can you know someone better than they do? What makes you the authority on other people’s feelings?
• Are you gay? Possibly, but not necessarily. See above ‘Homosexuals in hiding’ under ‘What Asexuality Isn’t’.
• You need to see a doctor. Asexuality is not a medical problem, nor is it a disorder. See above ‘A disorder’ and ‘A hormonal problem’ under ‘What Asexuality Isn’t’.
• Were you abused? Asexuality does not seem to have any obvious causes. Abuse can obviously lead to repulsion, hatred or fear of sex, but not to asexuality.
• You don’t know what you’re missing. Some asexuals do have sex, some do masturbate. Some asexuals with no sex drive have tried sex. They do know what they’re missing and are quite content that they’re not having it. Those asexuals who have not tried sex realise that they don’t know what it’s like, but they have no desire to find out. One such asexual remarked it’s like algebra. I understand the concept, but have no interest and indeed asexuals will draw an analogy with many things – baseball, synchronised swimming, playing a harmonica, or sky-diving. They understand what it means and how it’s done, but have no interest in anything to do with it.
• You just haven’t met the right person yet, or you’re just a late bloomer. Asexuality is for life, not just for childhood. See above ‘A late bloomer’ under ‘What Asexuality Isn’t’. Most sexuals are aware from their early teens that they are sexual, and most know what their orientation is. Surely an asexual person, just the same as heterosexual person, is allowed to state that they are asexual when they are. Just because they might not always be doesn’t stop them being asexual at that point in time.
• No, really, everyone’s sexual. You just haven’t met the right person. Everyone isn’t sexual, asexuals are not sexual. For many asexuals, the right person wouldn’t want sex either.
• You’ve obviously never had me, f’naar f’naar. Anyone who does not find you sexually attractive is not likely to date you just to find out if you can make them find you sexually attractive. Asexuality, like heterosexuality, is not something that needs to be ‘cured’.
• You must be very religious. Asexuality is nothing to do with religion. Some asexuals are religious, some aren’t. See above ‘Religiousness’ under ‘What Asexuality Isn’t’.
• It’s unnatural. If it was unnatural it wouldn’t exist, but there are scientific studies of other animals to prove that it does exist³.
• You’re just making it up to make yourself feel special. If someone were doing that, surely they would choose something that didn’t open them up to criticism? Many asexuals have been laughed at and even shunned for letting people know of their asexuality. Anyone needing to feel special is probably insecure and will not want that to happen.
• OK, that’s fine. Hurrah, you understand! You’re wonderful!
• Here Is An Article I also Came Across

Asexuals Say They’re Misunderstood in a Sex-Obsessed World

Karl Hodgetts and Victoria Glancy are engaged but are not sure whether they will consummate their marriage. (ABC News)

September 5, 2006 1:05:21 PM PDT

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David Jay has had plenty of girlfriends.

But despite the 24-year-old Californian’s success in dating, he’s a virgin — and he plans to stay that way.

He’s not joining the priesthood or taking any vow of celibacy; he said he simply has no interest in having sex — ever.

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“I’m sure that life is really, really great when it’s all about sex. But life is also really, really great when it’s not about sex,” he told “20/20’s” JuJu Chang.

Keith Walker of Texas was married for four years, but said he had sex only a handful of times.

“I really had no real interest or desire for sex. It was certainly nothing that I would ever think to do.”

Nancy Mulligan, a divorcee from Washington state, said her seven-year marriage was never consummated.

“We did other things. We’d watch out for each other. We were affectionate with each other,” she said.

When ABC News first covered this story, Walker and Mulligan were just friends. They have since become romantically involved, but say their sex lives haven’t changed.

Victoria Glancy and Karl Hodgetts got married in May. They had sex once, but have no real interest in doing it again and still consider themselves asexual.

For the remaining members, giving voice to asexuality is a proud mission.

“I don’t really see any difference between our relationship and other people’s relationships, except you know, we don’t have sex,” Glancy said.

No Libido — No Problem

Who are these people?

From different ages and walks of life, they share one thing in common — not low libido, but no libido.

They call themselves “asexual,” and they proclaim that they are not attracted to men or women.

Jay said his lack of libido was nothing new. He said he’d never experienced attraction — to either sex.

“I realized that I was asexual because when I was young, all of my friends started being attracted to people, and I had no idea what they were talking about,” he said.

It was the same way for Mulligan, who felt isolated for years.

“I thought I was the only one in the world. I had just kind of settled into the rut that I was different and decided to do the best I could with it,” she said.

But now asexuals are building a community through a Web site — asexuality.org. It has chat rooms, sells T-shirts, and says it has 11,000-plus members worldwide.

Symptoms Of Voodoo/Black Magic

Black Magic & Voodoo Witchcraft

Black MagicBlack Magic is on the rise as predicted by Mony Singh in the article he wrote for “India Post” in 1994. Black Magic is dangerous and can destroy one’s health and wellbeing, it can also kill or make the individual commit suicide in extreme cases. The innocent soul seldom finds out that he/she has become a victim of Black Magic.

If you think you have become a victim of black magic here are the indications that will help you understand your situation.

Initial stages of possible Black Magic or Spirit Activity

Your sleep is disturbed

Fatigue and lack of energy to live day-to-day life

You have Fear

Disinterest in life

Hopelessness

You are irritated for no reason

You get angry for no reason

Severe Depression

Dryness of mouth at night

Obesity in some cases

Sudden Chills and Goose Bumps

Tightness around body parts

You start forgetting things in the spur of the moment and experience memory loss

Your access to the dream world is blocked: No remembrance of dreams when you wake up

Your professional career suffers

Irrational behaviour of people towards you.

Blockages in the inflow of moneyThere are many symptoms and it all depends upon the state of consciousness the victim is at and the kind of Spirit World influence that is affecting the victim.

Advance Stages of Black Magic/Spirit Activity

You dream of dead bodies and horrible looking people who want to kill you in your dream

You dream of snakes & dirty places

Waking up suddenly in fear with shortness of breath

Dreaming of falling from Heights

Dreaming of Snakes, Scorpions & Spiders

You see black dots or smoke flying all over

The stomach bloats like a pregnant women’s belly and the area right above the navel tightens up & when touched feels like a golf ball is in there

Tightness and heaviness specially in shoulders and chest

Extreme hunger in case entities have taken charge of your body

Constant headache

Your complexion darkens

Itching, burning and stinging pains in different parts of the bodyFinal Stages of Spirit Possession/Black Magic with very little recovery time left

Cancer of blood or other body parts

Shrinking and malfunctioning of kidneys

Excessive alcohol consumption resulting in liver damage

Substance Abuse

Heart Attacks resulting in sudden death

Medicines do not work baffling the medical practioner: resulting in doctors using stronger treatments

Suicidal attempts or thoughts of self destructionAdditional symptoms pertaining to women only

Bruise marks around thighs & vagina

Rape in dreams by spirits with an orgasm that is real

Irritation in the vagina with Leukorrhea/Leucorrhea

Complete stoppage of monthly periods, irregular periods, painful periods, Dark Blood

unable to conceive due to psychic blocks so as the woman stays barren all her life

blockages in fallopian tubes and/or unable to hold the pregnancy resulting in miscarriage

Unexplained convulsionsAdditional symptoms pertaining to Spiritual People

Your interest in the divine consciousness takes a nose dive, you lose interest in your prayers and meditations.

Body shakes like a pemdulum when one tries to meditate or pray

One gets attracted towards unholy desires like homosexuality, Non-vegetarian food, sex & other vices

Your kundalini shakti becomes inactive in case your kundalini was functioning earlier.In serious cases where demons, devils or evil entities have taken possession of the individual’s body, the individual can commit suicide or become a killer. Sudden violent behavior is quite visible in these individuals.

Important:
The spirit activity increases 2-3 days before the Dark moon nights and the full moon nights. If you are a victim your condition will worsen around these periods. It will help you keep a log of the events around these periods. Please check the dates for the Full Moon Nights and the Dark Moon Nights that are listed at the end of this page.

Voodoo Witchcraft
(Very Cruel & Deadliest of all)Voodoo Witchcraft comes from the African continent & is extremely lethal. In the last few years it has spread into other parts of the world & is being mixed with other forms of Black magic to harm and kill people.

The clothes, hair, nails and picture are used to make a doll that resembles the victim; the heart area of the doll is kept open for the final ritual. A ritual is performed and a heart is pulled out from a live animals body while it is vibrating and placed into the heart area of the doll, at this point the doll is infused with life connecting the doll with the victim with an invisible psychic chord. Once the doll and the victim are connected, 2-3 inch needles are pushed in the doll at specific acupuncture points to break the energy system of the victim. As the pins are pushed into the doll the victim feels as if a needle is being pierced into his body. The victim can be sitting thousands of miles away and will experience the attacks instantaneously. If the victim was made to eat or drink food and/or water that consists of “Masaan” (Ash of the Dead) infused with negatively charged energy by the black magician, the effects are life threatening and gives unlimited control over the victims Mind & Body. The prime focus of the black magician is to destroy the immune system of their victim. In case of a man: head & temple area, thumbs & big toes are targeted to break the immune system. In case of women, breasts and private parts are attacked to terrorize & harm the victim. The individual can be killed using this technique in as little as 28 days (one Moon cycle). If the individual is physically, mentally, emotionally & spiritually strong it becomes very difficult for the attacker to kill the victim within a specific time period and the attacks can continue for years until the victim or the black magician dies. At present many forms of black magic are being used all over the world, the problem is rising at a horrifying rate and the governments are not interested in looking into the problem and making laws to punish the Black Magicians. In the past few years hushed up research has been done at the Stony Brook Medical College, New York. USA and they have concluded that Voodoo witchcraft can kill people. 90% of Vietnam is dominated by the practice of black magic; Parts of Asia including India, China, Indonesia, Thailand, and Malaysia are the areas where the science of black magic is spreading like wild fire. In the west: America, Mexico & parts of South America, England, Eastern Europe & Africa are some of the areas where Black Magic & Voodoo witchcraft is on the rise. Here are some of the effects one can experience on the physical level if one has become a victim of Voodoo Witchcraft: In Voodoo the effects are not gradual but start instantly and the intensity of these attacks increase to higher levels depending upon the weakness of the individual.

Waking up with a jerk and in fear within moments one falls into the first stage of sleep.

A Dark or Grey smoke is seen in front of the eyes when awake.

One’s complexion turns dark & as the time passes it turns to darker shades of black.

Stinging pains in different parts of the body.

Shooting stinging pain in the tongue and one wakes up with extreme pain with a blister on the tongue.

Burning of palms as if they have been put on fire

Lips and other body parts get swollen in the spur of the moment for no medical reasons.

Constant Fatigue/ Low Energy

Mood Swings & extremely negative thinking that can lead to suicides

Jerking/Twitching of muscles or body parts

feeling of ants crawling on the body or body parts vibrate

Heaviness/Tightness in the whole body or certain body parts

In serious cases where spirits have taken control of the house where the individual is residing: one can experience dripping plasma from the walls, unusual activity of the insects & other wierd phenomenon that is unexplainable & unrealistic. Some of the unusual activity is only visible to the victims.

Whether it is Black Magic or Voodoo witchcraft the effets are intensified on and around the Full Moon Nights and the Dark Moon nights As the attacks continue the victim is torn down on multiple levels; gets bed ridden and eventually dies of no apparent medical reason. The doctor’s cannot help him because the symptoms misguide the doctors into giving the individual stronger treatments with every passing day and one day the body gives-up. If any of the above symptoms match your situation, you should immediately get professional help. There are some specific mantras in the Rig Vedas that can start protecting you immediately. Here are some precautions that you can take from becoming a victim

Do not eat or drink any item from anyone unless the person shares that food item with you.

Sweets/Desserts that are filled with “Ash of the Dead” and charged with negative mantra are used to create an opening in your auric shield and that opening is used as a channel to control your body & mind.

Black Magic is done using your picture, clothes, hair, nails, blood, saliva, skin tissue & used menstrual pads

Women get affected with black magic more easily than men, in women the effects can be observed on the surface while in men it works as an undercurrent and is not visible.

Black magic can also be done by touching your body or looking straight into your eyes.

Anything that carries an aura can be charged with negative energies to create an opening in the auric field of the victim. Examples: Clothing, jewelry, piece of paper, stuffed animals or stuffed dolls e.t.c

Black magic can also be done using your name and your mother’s name hence do not give sensitive information to everyone

There is nothing irrational about black magic as it is an ancient science and can be mastered to hurt or heal people hence follow the rule of Trusting in God but staying on Guard Important:

The spirit activity increases 2-3 days before the Dark moon nights and the full moon nights. If you are a victim your condition will worsen around these periods. It will help you keep a log of the events around these periods. Please check the dates for the Full Moon Nights and the Dark Moon Nights that are listed below.
If any of the symptoms listed above match your situation, your life is at serious risk, you should seek immediate help.

Acne: Separating Fact From Fiction

Everybody who has an occasional breakout does not have acne. Acne is mainly characterized by having a numerous amount of blackheads, white heads and pimples that continue to manifest due to over-activity of the oil glands that result in the blockage of the pores. Acne is hereditary in certain individuals, and a fact is that this particular skin disease will occur in one regardless of their social, racial, or physical background.

In some, acne usually develops during adolescence. And i say this because there are some who skip puberty and develop acne later on in their adult years. Through out the times there have been many beliefs as to what causes and prevents acne in people. The truth is however, that acne for the most part is brought on by hormonal changes and imbalances as well as a few other reasonable factors.

Women often experience a slight to moderate flare of acne during their menstrual cycle. Pregnancy is known to improve acne in some, but i knew a girl who broke out with severe acne while she was pregnant. So it all depends on the individual and their hormones. Then there are certain birth control pills, which may or may not improve acne depending on the estrogen content.

Although some people are allergic to certain types of food that may cause them to break out in hives and so on. Acne is not always brought on by the things that we may eat. Junk foods, greasy foods and chocolate are not responsible for the true formation of acne.

There are people who actually believe that if a person has pimples or bumps on their face that it is due to poor personal hygiene or a lack of sexual activity. These beliefs are very untrue. You can be the cleanliness person in the world and still be affected with acne. And, sexual intercourse has nothing to do with whether or not a person has breakouts.

A lot of people will also assume that if a person has dark spots or open sores that it is a result from them busting or picking their blemishes. Scarring is the natural result of significant skin inflammation. It is not caused by picking. However, picking may worsen the inflammation of a pimple so that it is more likely to scar. The type of pimple that is especially sensitive to manipulation is the deep red bump not surmounted by a pus head. This particular type has nowhere to drain and is fragile, so the manipulation of it is likely to cause more rupture and inflammation in the tissues.

Unfortunately, for those who suffer with acne there is no specific cure. Some just have to grow out of it and for others there are treatments to help keep their acne under control until it clears with time.

 

Street People

I know all about the street people. There is not anything that anyone can tell me about them that i don’t already know. I grew up around them and i have them on both sides of my family. I could write a book about those in particular and, it wouldn’t be a very pleasurable one since there is nothing too pleasing about their unwanted existence.

Before i began, i just want to acknowledge that certain misfortunes in life can cause any human being to become homeless. There have been very successful people such as doctors, lawyers and so on who for whatever reason may be have loss everything and had to somehow make a way for themselves out in the streets. I am not talking about them in this post. I’m mainly referring to those with innate tendencies to become bums, drug addicts, drug dealers, and whores that choose the lifestyles of the street. The streets are their comfortable habitat. The only place where they can function.

Most street people are mentally and emotionally disturbed. Many of them are uneducated and unintelligent. Some have come from good homes where they had their parents in their corner, encouraging them to do what was right in their life. And then there are the others who have come from dysfunctional homes and didn’t have any guidance at all. Many of the drug addicted street woman continue the use of drugs during their pregnancies, messing their children up only to bring a burden on society. Many of the drug addicted parents also sit up and get high with their own children.I know dope addicts who have raised their children by “training” them to be thieves. It is just the blind leading the blind.

The street people for the most part are a very sad group of people. And the level that they are on is quite appalling and unacceptable. They are very convincing liars to those who are naive to their schemes. They are sometimes so convincing to some because they believe in their own lies. And aside from being notoriously devious they are extremely malicious, treacherous to a fault, especially when their feelings get hurt.

Through first hand experience and a keen intuitive sense of “understanding” I’ve never been oblivious to the type of people i grew up around. They have always been transparent to me, very easy to read. I will admit with no apologies that i have never at all liked their particular kind. I tried to keep the peace since i sometimes had to be around them in areas when i went to school, work or whatever but there is only so much that i could tolerate when it came to their kind. You see, they are all on that “street-level”. And one with intelligence would have to come down to their level in order for them to be able to relate to them. They are not equipped enough mentally to rise from where they are. And the thing about it is that the junkies think that they are the one who is smart and, that you are the dumb one!

There is a whole lot of information that i could give on the street people, nevertheless, it would take quite a few pages rather then a single post so I’ll just continue on with just a few more brief paragraphs.

From my personal experience with particular street people have been their ongoing jealousy toward me. They are indeed sick but one will never truly know the depth of their sickness until they experience it in such a way as i have. They’ve tried at numerous attempts to bring down my character simply because I’ve talked about them and their lifestyle in ways that they didn’t like and couldn’t handle because it was the truth. You see, when you are not one of them (their kind) and you insult them they get very offended because you haven’t been in their same shoes doing the dirt that they have done. So they automatically assume and know when one thinks that they are better than them.

So to retaliate the street people will endeavor to find a way to “put you in their shoes” by trying to make you the victim of what their life is about by literally ruining you. However, it all depends on the individual target. Most street people are weak-minded and easily influenced so someone else of that nature will be easy to pull down. A strong-minded, intelligent person of substance and back bone on the other hand is a totally different story. They will be unaffected by the nonsense as the street-life is a whole different life and experience from what they are accustomed to but not necessarily unfamiliar with.

Yes, my street enemies have went around my town trying to defame my character by making up outrageous lies hoping that it would affect me. Unfortunately for them their efforts did not faze me, if anything it inspired me to be even more determined to go out and accomplish the many things in life that i do want to achieve. And that also inspired them to interfere with certain jobs that i was suppose to get by trying to give me a bad
 name.

They never stop. They don’t want to lose at their games. But they loss this one because i was never a player in their world. They’d like for me to have no means of financial support for myself so i could become a bum out in the streets. Too bad they don’t know that day will never come for me. I believe in a higher power and, a power that will dig them in the same exact grave they have dug for me. And they are the one’s who will be buried in it.

Why Some Men In Particular Cheat On Their Lover

Everyone is an individual so there are a number of reasons why certain men cheat. Nevertheless, one major reason some are unfaithful and run from woman to woman is due to them not being sexually satisfied the way that they want to be. And exactly what i mean by that is when it comes to a woman’s vagina.

What is general knowledge as well as common sense is knowing that anything continuously in use for a very long period of time will eventually give way and lose it’s durability. And it is just the same with a woman’s vagina. Some women are just sexually worn out. Giving birth to children will also stretch a woman to such an extent, especially if she’s having children over an over. Some women don’t even give their bodies enough time to heal after childbirth before they become intimate again.

A lot of men get very disappointed when they have sex with a woman only to find out that she is loose. Men and women who’ve been in relationships for years have even experienced this great disappointment. There are certain women who for a while now have been going to doctors to surgically get their virginity back. They spend loads of money to tighten back up their vaginal muscles in order for them and their partner to experience the sensations of pleasurable sex.

It is indeed true with some. The tighter the better. That is one of the reasons some men seek out virgins. Pertaining to those on that particular level, aside from the macho crap of being the first to “deflower” a female only to satisfy their own pathetic ego, the other reason is because a virgin vagina provides a man with the ultimate sensation since it has never been in use before.

As An ASexual Person I’m Sharing My Personal Views And Feelings

One thing i don’t hear too much about is people who are Asexual. I personally am Asexual. I’m not into men or women. I would never judge anyone as myself because everyone is an individual. From my personal experience, however, i’ve never sexually desired a penis and i know there are quite a few other women out there in the world who feel the same way that i do who are not lesbians.

During my teenage years i discovered my clitoris and experienced orgasms. I wasn’t at all afraid to explore my body. Why should i have been? It was my body. I had never had sexual intercourse with a man. And after experiencing pleasurable sensations from stimulating my clitoris i still did not have the desire or curiosity to explore a penis.

During my mid twenties i decided that i wanted to have a child. It was then and for that reason only that i settled for dealing with a man sexually. I would have preferred to go to a sperm bank but at that particular time i did not have the money to do so. So i engaged in sexual activity a few times at a very short time period in one month. And the act did not do anything for me. I did not feel any sexual pleasure at all. To me, sexual intercourse is definitely a mind thing. I did not have any feelings for the guy that i dealt with for that occasion. In fact, he disgusted me. He was into me and wanted a relationship. I had to get rid of him quick. Some people will become sexually attached as he did. And, some men are so macho they think their penis can change your mind. But it is not at all in the stroke for me. Sex is all in the mind and can’t no man or his penis do a thing for me! The thought of a man touching me in any way whether it is with a kiss, caress or touch by penetration turns me off.

My efforts didn’t work in the process. His ego got into the way. This guy wanted me to want him. It sometimes takes months before conception occurs but i couldn’t let no man have sex with me over and over again! And when he found out that i was never going to actually come around to desiring him he attempted to pretend that he would conceive a child with me. Just to get back at me. I didn’t have time for any games. I wanted one thing and one thing only, and that was a baby. I considered having sex a sacrifice because the penetration of a man’s penis was and felt so unnatural to me.

I have not indulged in anymore sexual activity since and that was nearly ten years ago. I don’t ever plan on attempting to make a baby with the assistance of a man ever again.

As being Asexual, another thing in this society is really disgusting to me. And that is how some men try to destroy a women by making up sexual lies about them or telling about what may have went on in the bedroom between the two of them. Certain types of people tend to believe men when they fabricate tales of sexual encounters and will join in with the slander by trying to degrade the women. Words like “slut” don’t bother me because the word has nothing to do with me. It is beneath me. You have those though that don’t look at it that way. When most men and even some women call other women a derogatory name like “whore” or “slut” they expect it to hurt deep down inside to make the person feel very low. And in this day and age this society still accepts the act of letting men ruin some womens reputations when it comes to sexual matters.

A man can go around sleeping with hundreds of women while he is considered a “king”. A woman as everybody knows on the other hand will be considered one of the most rotten things in the world. Many still believe that most women will break down to lose their confidence if a man trashes their name by putting them out there as a skank. It gives them a great sense of power. I can’t speak for anyone else personally on this matter although i know i’m not the only woman who feels this way since there are such a wide variety of people in our world, but no man or woman could ever lower or make me completely lose my self-confidence by using sexual gestures that are considered offensive in this society.

I am a human being who doesn’t go along with the many brainwashings and beliefs of what is suppose to maintain and lower a woman’s worth. I don’t think that it is right for a woman to sleep around with many other people if she loves herself. The body is one’s temple and one should want to keep it very healthy and clean. At the same time i do not believe that a woman who sleeps around lowers her value. I just believe it means that she does not value herself!

 

A Revelation

All of my life i have been able to sense and see through people. There have also and always been those in particular who i have detested. No one is going to like or get along with everybody no matter what walk of life one comes from. The hatred that i have for those who i speak of goes deeper in the eye than what most if any are able to see. What is felt is not so much a part of my innate human tendency of being snooty but more of a divine awareness of what is here and subordinate.

Some looking at particular people with the “Human Eye”, and who are conscious of what they show, may see a sight they would clearly determine as undesirables and etc. When looking through with the “Third Eye”, however, the sight goes much deeper. They are then identified more in depth.  And they “Indeed” are “The Wicked”, the devil’s children. I’ve seen it in their appearance and have sensed it in their body language. I have also seen these particular people after death in spirit form-confirming the mark made to me of those who are here on earth.

They are very recognizable. Radar picks up on them instantly, alerting, verifying and sending warning of them. When i view them in person or if the thought of them comes into mind due to visions i see their presence literally makes me want to vomit. I keep clear away from these people as much as possible. And I don’t want any parts of them in my life if i can help it.  Understandably, my reasons are of course not defined as ”Fear” since these particular kinds are absolutely nothing to fear even though many of them want to intimidate others out of their own insecurities. Nevertheless, it has everything to do with negativity, and negative energies they continually carry within and without, and which can be detected and rejected. They are all an abomination. A reproach.

( These Particular People Are Warp-Minded. They Act Out In Illogical Ways. Reason Cannot Be Explained To Sick Individuals. I As A Human Being With Strong Spiritual Inclination Would Never Want Their Essence Up In Me, Outward Of Me, Or Around Me. Their Absences Brings About Peace, Happiness And Cleanliness To The Mind, Body, Spirit And Path )