Proud To Be Asexual/The Liberating Truth About My Asexuality

1037736-200I was a very cute little girl growing up. And young males were always attracted to me. Always bothering me.

Whereas I found the behavior of the opposite sex quite annoying most females would have enjoyed the attention.

When I was coming up in the 1980’s many of the children living around me within my neighborhood were having sex at a very early age.

One of the youngest girls that I knew of at the time was about the age of eight. The boy whom she had had sexual relations with was at the age of either ten, or eleven.

They both lived on the same street that I was living on. Neither one of their parents were good examples of what a mother or father should have been.

Anything of a sexual nature was the last thing that had ever crossed into my mind. I was a very content child, enjoying my life, playing with my barbie dolls, and loving the puppy that I had.

I had a very good mother who took care of me and who had gave me her undivided love and attention. I never went out looking for love, affection, or attention. I did not have to. I was a very secure young person.

If I did lack the love and attention that every child should have, and that every child deserves from their parent. I definitely would not have searched for it by spreading my legs to any young or old man who had acquired to come along. That would have just been totally absurd in my opinion.

As I was getting older and reaching into my late teenage years I had still found the amorous behavior of the males to be annoying. All that I knew was that I was not at the least bit attracted or interested in any one of them and just wished that they would all go away and leave me alone.

I had known ever since the age of fifteen that I was asexual. And I was very proud and in no way ashamed. To me being asexual was just as normal and natural as breathing. I did not know anything else.

I did not have any desire to have intercourse with a guy. I did not even want to kiss one.


There were people around me at the time who had never heard of the term “asexual”. When I’d tell certain people that I wasn’t interested in males they’d immediately speculate or assume that something negative had to have happened within my life.

That maybe I had experienced a bad relationship. Or had seen other people experience bad romantic relationships. Neither one of the conclusions that were drawn were anywhere near the truth.

Another huge misconception that certain people had about me was thinking that they could “change” or “repair” me. Repair what? There was nothing about me that was wrong or broken. If anything, I was very well put together, and perfect.

I could not understand why people would make such a big deal when it came to their romantic encounters, the attractions that they had for other people, and the way that they were just ready to jump into relationships with people that they had crushes on.

While many around me were coupled off I always remained happily single. I use to get so sick and tired of hearing what was going on with this one and that one’s boyfriend or girlfriend. I did not want to listen to that crap. I was not involved in all of that crazy and ridiculous drama. So why should I have gotten myself into the middle of it?

I could have cared less about who was cheating on who. And what so and so went an did, and why. I mean please, these people needed to get a real life. I know that I had one. A life that was not full of a bunch of ignorant nonsense.

As an asexual person myself I do not ,however, represent the attitudes that every or all asexuals have. I would never generalize anyone because we are all very different and have our own unique personalities, preferences, and views.

Nevertheless, us asexuals all do have a common trait. We lack a sexual interest and attraction to other people, regardless of what the sex is of the other person. Asexuality is not a form of lesbianism, homosexuality or bisexuality. Asexual means “without” sexuality.

I personally never understood why a woman would want to let a man stick his genitals up inside of her. It is the most undesirable and unnatural thing for me to process.


I know that most heterosexual and sexually active people would consider my attitude and way of thinking to be strange and insane, especially since sexual intercourse was naturally designed for a man and a woman by their God.

Religion does not at all in any way play a part in my asexuality. In fact, I am into my Yoruban (African) ancestral and orisha worship-but that is another story.

My spirituality itself does innately support what and who I am though. My asexuality is one of the biggest parts of my identity. An identity that my spirituality and I embrace wholeheartedly. The foundation of my spirituality is based on truth, knowledge, love, and respect.

If one does not truly love, respect, and know them self there is no strength nor purpose deeply rooted within them.

I am liberated through my asexuality and my spirituality. The two most beautiful things about my life. I believe in self expression and honesty. In one being true, and true to one self.

Asexual people range in a wide variety because each individual has their own experience. And what some people consider and identify as being asexual also ranges widely.

Even though most asexuals do not seek out sexual relationships many of them are looking for companionship.

Intimacy is not always about intercourse. Some asexuals just want to have a close, loving, and sexless relationship that focuses on a romantic friendship. Doing everything that a girlfriend and boyfriend would do except have sex. Sharing one another’s interest. Having children together, and so on.

Some asexual people will have sexual intercourse with their/or a partner if they want to please them or if they want to have children. It all depends on the situation and circumstances.

There are some asexuals who claimed that they have had sexual interests and had been in sexual relationships at one time in their life.

Then you have the ones who are like me who have never had any sexual interest, feelings, or attraction for the opposite sex.

I did consider wanting to have a child at one time. During my teenage years I didn’t really want to have a baby in my adult years. However, I said if I did, I would go to a sperm bank if I could afford to-or I would just find a man who was interested in me and just use him for his sperm then I’d go about my business.

When I actually did become an adult I changed my mind about having children. I decided that I was ready and would attempt to conceive a child. Nevertheless, it did not work out as I had planned, and the outcome definitely turned out for the best.

I could not afford the sperm bank at that particular time in my life. And the males that were around me were not worth anything. They were not attractive mentally or physically. They were undesirable. So I definitely did not want or need a child running around here on this earth that would constantly remind me of anyone of them.

Now I am thirty seven years of age and again i’ve changed my mind. I absolutely do not want any children. I am very happy the way that I am. I did not need a child or two to make my life complete or anything that would refer to that category.


The thought of children, having my own daughters, was a natural female desire. After all, when us female babies come into the world we’re already born with the billions of eggs that are supplied to us for reproduction purpose.

And that is also why we ovulate to prepare us for a possible conception. Then we bleed (get our menstrual cycles) to dispense of an unfertilized egg so we can again be ready to prepare for another possible pregnancy.

So there is no need for me to explain any of my reasons. For a woman to want to have a child is completely natural. Far more natural than so called copulation.

If I wanted to have a baby out of wedlock and without a man in the child’s life-that would have been my prerogative. And I have no apologies.

As an asexual human being living on the planet life for me is grand. I would not have my life arranged in any other way.

The only thing truly missing right now within my life is a couple of pets. I’ve always loved and had a puppy or dog living with me at one point or another. I am working on getting three puppies to share my home with for the future. And they will all be my three babies.

The Depth Of Jealousy/Lies, Deception, Corruption, And Destruction, Through The Jealous And The Envious.



I have always been a very intelligent, talented, confident, strong, and high-spirited person. I was raised by a good mother who was smart, loving, considerate, and who did everything within her power to make sure that I had all of the things that I needed in life.

When I went to school I passed all of my tests. And when I committed to a goal I worked hard and succeeded. I was very proud of myself and of the things that I could do.

If there were others in life who had made an accomplishment and who had done very well then I was genuinely happy for them, and wished them further advancement.

As I grew older I learned that not everyone shared my sincere and inspiring attitude toward positivity.

There were many people who were bitter, discontented and resentful over the achievements of other individuals-including toward me. And the reason for these grudges was envy, envy that expanded to jealousy.

At first, I didn’t understand the concept of envy. For all of my life I had never been envious or jealous of anyone.

Some believe that everybody has a little bit of envy and jealousy within them but I disagree.

I have been the object of envy and jealousy for many years ever since childhood. And most of the negativity started within my family.

382992-200Jealousy and envy are two of the most ugliest things in existence. These dangerous emotions often cause people to act out in the most irrational ways.

A lot of jealous people are insecure. Some suffer from low self esteem and feelings of inadequacy.

What they consider luck or what appears to come as an advantage to certain others is a misfortune that is unfair unto them.

Therefore these individuals become hurt and distressed, taunted by their own shortcomings, then lash out at the ones who possess what they desire.

They get furious when someone else is more successful than they are, especially if it is in something that they cannot obtain.

As retaliation these people downplay and berate the individuals whom they are jealous and envious of and attempt to sabotage their lives.

Some people classify envy and jealousy to be just about the same. However, there is a difference.

Envy is more so about the hate and resentment. Bitterness due to wanting what the other person has. Hating them for their qualities and achievements-wishing that they did not have them to begin with-and wishing that they could take them away from the person.

Jealousy on the other hand is about apprehension and suspicion. Fear of not being good enough and losing out to another person, intimidated by the other person’s characteristics, success, and possessions. And intentionally not wanting to accept the abilities, accomplishments, or credibility of someone else because of what they themselves may lack or do not understand.

Most jealous and envious people are miserable. That is why they gain satisfaction in trying so desperately to tear other people down. It eats them up inside to see others happy and getting the things that they want out of life.

Once they bring a person down to their level or lower there will be nothing more for them to be jealous or envious about. And that is a good reason to not feed into their pitiful and malicious behavior. It is always best to just keep away from people like them.

What is sad about these people in particular is that instead of wasting time and putting so much energy into attempting to bring other people down they should be working hard to try to build them selves up honestly even though they seem very unable to do so.

After all, when you really analyze the details it is a compliment in one of the worst and highest forms. They only target the people who have things going on for themselves.

623693-200Things that they wish they had going on for their own selves-things that they feel they should have had. These people feel they are the ones who are entitled. And who are we to be the ones to get all of the blessings, and why?

There are so many different forms of jealousy. One that is most familiar is when people lie and spread gossip.

With me personally, in my particular case people were always jealous of my character and knowledge.

I never had any type of dirt on me. I had a great future ahead, one that would bring me great opportunities, success and fulfillment.

I was always a very attractive girl and never had a reputation for running around with men because I was asexual and extremely independent.

And I never idly hung around people who were not worth my time. So certain people thought that I felt that I was much better than they were. And in reality I was a much better quality of person than these people.

Jealous and envious people will go to the ends of the earth and spend an entire lifetime trying to destroy what they cannot measure up to. The prosperity of other people is too much of a reminder of their own failed attempts to succeed.

I had always been an unusual person. I wasn’t average. And a lot of people did not understand me. I did not do the things that everybody else did, especially for a young female. I was too good to be true the perfect child with nothing to hide, just a special gift that I needed to learn about.

My great grandmother and one of my aunts were two no good women who went to an evil witchcraft worker that was located at a Botanica store and had black magic placed upon my mother and I.

For over twenty years my relatives conspired along with others to change and ruin my life through Santeria. They did “Brujeria” (the Spanish word for black magic), a spell called the tie and bind.

Since I was born with extra sensory perception I knew about everything that was going on around me, and I was not affected the way that an ordinary person would have been by the witchcraft. I was too strong mentally for the brujeria to manipulate my mind so when my enemies tried to put negative thoughts into my head I did not fall for the illusions.

They were endeavoring to block me in all aspects of my life and to make me look bad in the public eye. So they all made up vicious lies on me, attacking my character while at the same time attacking my spirit.

I am an extremely sensitive person spiritually so the brujeria affected me on a physical level, putting heavy strain and annoyances onto my body.

Negative voodoo and black magic of any kind is very evil and dangerous and is going around more than people would think. It is a very serious problem that is affecting many people of the world.

There are many innocent people being attacked on account of envy and jealousy.

I did not care about anyone trying to ruin my reputation as they had me harassed in school, on the street, and at my workplace. They knew what they were doing. And so did I. Why should I have fed into their illusions and delusions?

622867-200I had never done anything wrong. I just happened to be born a good person of substance.

These were very sick people. And it is very sad when one has sick people like that within their family who are against them and relentless in their efforts to cause them harm.

I had the brujeria removed. And I have the strong protection of my spirituality around me at all times. Nevertheless, this does not stop the jealous and envious people from carrying on with their evil witchcraft purposes.

No matter what and regardless of how much one escapes from the clutches of brujeria, voodoo, or whatever else that is cast upon them, as long as one continues to do well and live right they will always be a target.

Like I’ve mentioned before, envy and jealousy are irrational emotions and they cannot be reasoned with. Logic has no meaning to people suffering from this affliction. It is evident in their unscrupulous behavior.

As long as one is strong in mind and spirit determined and steadfast in purpose. And in tune with self and spirit, there is nothing and no one who can bring about destruction.










Gifted And Blessed/Experiencing The Nature Of Being Special And Unique


I do not believe in fear. And being afraid to express one’s self.

I was born with a caul (veil), a thin membrane that will sometimes envelop a newborn baby’s entire face at birth.

The caul itself is a message. A sure sign that denotes psychic or clairvoyant ability.

I recognized a lot of the special abilities that I had early on in life. My clairvoyant gifts were strong, accurate, and necessary. They had brought me a very long way here in life.

I’ve always had a strong spirit. I did not care or worry about what people said or thought. Some people would rather have wanted to consider me to be crazy than to accept or acknowledge that I actually had a gift.

Ignorance is a burden that will always cause confusion. Especially when there are those around who are jealous, and limited within the things that exist and in the things that are possible.

As a child growing up in society I did not feel that I belonged here in the world. And I still do not til this day.


I think that it is deep for a person to have to live in a place where they really do not want to be. A place that they cannot relate to. A place that they do not feel connected to.

The world to me is more of a penitentiary than a suitable place to live.

A world that is governed with bias rules and regulations. A world that conforms to a particular style of life and in which shows a favoritism for certain types of people.

And, I do not at all mean regarding race.

I am speaking in general. About the way of life. How things are operated and catered toward those who share commonality.

We have psychologist who judge people by their mindset and behavior. Deciding on what is considered as acceptable and normal behavior according to research. Many people tend to estimate and form opinions based on experience and study.

As soon as something or someone appears to be what is out of the ordinary, people are ready to draw conclusions or experiment on what is not familiar to them.


There are people in the world who have a habit of not being able to mind their own business. Always worried about what someone else is, or is not doing.

I’ve had that problem quite a lot through out the years. People inquisitive as to why I was living my life the way that I did, not associating with anyone and not falling prey to the pitfalls of this society. They made speculations that were just as equivalent to their mediocre mentality.

Nobody likes to hear the truth when they are looking for something to be negative. Finding out that they could be wrong in their assumptions is humiliating to them. Then they feel silly.

Reality is sometimes too painful for some to deal with. So they look for an escape.

Some people escape through drugs and alcohol. And some escape through illusions and delusions that are associated with mental illness by lying to themselves and about their circumstances. These people are habitual, compulsive, and pathological liars.

I’ve come into contact with many personality types within my young lifetime.

I have a very perceptive nature. And always knew that there had to be way much more to life than what was on this material side. Something much more meaningful and fulfilling. Missing pieces to the puzzle that I needed to put together within my life.

Here and there. And little by little things would start to unveil. Then after a certain point in time bigger things began to unravel. Bringing further insight and clarity that later brought to me true freedom.

The freedom to know who I really was. The freedom to completely be myself. The freedom to genuinely live my life the way that I was supposed to.

I truly know the meaning of existing in the world yet not being anything of it. I love not having to live under any biblical law or influence that does not pertain to my lifestyle. Just living In what comes natural to me under the correct guidance.


Spirituality is my foundation. It is what sustains me. I love the peace and quietness of meditation. The serenity and solitude of being alone.

I love living in a sphere that is full of truth, knowledge, and consistency. An extension of my true habitat and a peek into my eternal destiny.

People who are born with certain spiritual gifts often experience the extraordinary. Their minds think ahead. Their eyes see beyond. And their mouths speak of things that are to come.

Strong and positive energies surround me through out my day to day life. They contribute to my survival here on this earth.

By nature I am influenced by spirit. Vehemently inspired to use my gifts and to fulfill out my purpose.

My actions are automatic. As in the way that I write. I do not plan ahead. The plan leads me.

Through experience I have learned to trust in the things that I cannot explain. I am only challenged so that spirit can reveal to me the further things that I am able to accomplish.

And as I continue to trust in the things that I cannot explain, I still know and understand everything that is around me, and why.

My energy is who I am.

A fiery light that burns. Radiating with the natural powers of the occult. And shining brightly amongst the powers that be and that protect me.


Second Sight/Living With Real Paranormal Abilities



file0002042584422Some people will not believe or believe in certain things until or unless they experience it for themselves.

And when some people experience the certain things that they have heard of, the encounter does not always happen in the manner in which they had imagined.

Film and cinema often give people a false or exaggerated sense of what “special powers” or “special abilities” are defined by.

The movie industry also sensationalizes how spiritual energy and occult power work to a degree that inspires delusion.

And they sometimes give a distorted view of the degrees of a supernatural occurrence.

I was born with a caul which is also referred to as a “veil”, the membrane that sometimes envelops the face of a newborn child at birth.

I inherited the gifts of clairvoyance, extra sensory perception.

These special abilities run all through out all parts of both sides of my family, but more strongly and in depth, on my mother’s side of the family.

1266549-200My father’s grandmother had ESP. It was said that no one around her could do anything without her knowing about it. And I do believe that because I am the exact same way.

I know everything that goes on around me and way much more.

My father-a mistake that should have never happened-was nothing more than an undesirable piece of trash just like the majority of his family.

However, the greatness of my mother’s mother’s side of the family more than makes up for the unfortunate circumstance and the insult that was bestowed upon me.

I thank my lucky stars that I did not take after my father or any one of his worthless relatives. I did not inherit any of their garbage ways and degenerate traits.

Through my own personal experiences I do know what is supernaturally possible. And I know as to what extent.

The ranges and intensity of paranormal happenings are mind blowing to the unexpected.

635112-200Many people are skeptical when it comes to the subject of psychic or occult phenomena. There are people who are even sarcastic in their way of thought.

Wondering why, if certain people are so much psychic and clairvoyant then why did they not know this or that?

How come they did not see that coming?

If they were able to foretell the future they should predict the lottery.

What a lot of people in doubt do not understand and recognize is that psychic or clairvoyant ability does not always work in that fashion, in fact, most of the time it does not.

If so, all of us with second sight would be extremely rich billionaires just at the bow of our heads, and at the wink or blink of an eye.

Life does not permit those with the gifts of sight to call out anything by their own will for them to automatically obtain or gain.

Messages and visions and the like happen spontaneously as well as deliberately for some.

597793-200One of my gifts includes automatic writing in more than one form. I do not have to think about what I want to write beforehand, the information just comes out to me by any means at any time.

When I communicate with spirits it is constant and continuously. The interaction is not planned. I do not shut it off an on.

It is just the same as when I receive and feel information about others and things. It is continuously and constant.

The energy remains with and around me at all times yet it chooses when and what to reveal at a given time.

Then there are the revelations that do not always pop up within an instant because there may be other significant factors that lie beneath the surface of interpretation.

Even when I speak to the spirits or energies I may not always get an answer right away. Or the answer may not reveal itself by obvious means. Certain things are complex.

People have their own different powers and at their own different levels. And every psychic and clairvoyant does not use their powers in the same exact way.

I have unique gifts that are rare and a spirituality that I was born into due to my natural abilities of the occult.

618207-200The things that I know and do, I did not learn from anyone. And not too many-if any-are really aware of what I innately possess or the depth of it.

I do know, however. And I live, learn, grow, and make use of my abilities every day of my life. I hear things. I smell things. I taste things, I see things. I feel things. I am telepathic and empathic.

And I communicate with the dead.

I burn candles and I do other things that are associated with my spiritual work and worship/veneration to my beloved ancestors and orishas.

To some people having the gifts and powers of second sight and the occult is a burden. To me it is a blessing, an anointment to be cherished.

Having the ability to “know things” can save one’s life. And it is not all about what we know-but in the way of how to discern.


A True Story Of One Born With The Caul/Living “The Life” Of My Spirituality As A Child Of The Caul

At a very young age my mother always told me that I was gifted and special. I was very intellectually and spiritually advanced for a child. I entered the Charles R. Drew day care center when I was just two and a half years of age. I first learned to read and write by the time I was three since my mother already had been teaching me through books and literature.

I knew and realized that I differed greatly when it came into comparison with other children. I was friendly and outgoing yet at the same time very quiet and a bit of a loner-which was sometimes mistaken as being shy.

I was always loved and praised for my brightness and personality by my mother. And praised and acknowledged for my school work by my teachers.

I grew up very secure and confident but never arrogant or big headed. Certain people who’d hung around me perceived me as more of a humble type person.

I’d see visions through my third eye, dream things that would come true, and I would know things before they’d happen. And while I was so young at the time I just thought these natural occurrences were abilities that everyone had. It wasn’t until I got older that I realized much different.

I was able to sense things about people that other people couldn’t sense. And I could accurately read people, and feel their motives and emotions. I was very wise and wise in ways that quite a few did not appreciate which caused animosity and jealousy, and resentment not just among strangers or acquaintances but also amongst certain family members.

I’ve always had this special connection with the universe, the spirit world, and particular animals (especially puppies and dogs). I had many dogs throughout my lifetime; however there was one very beloved one that remained with me for seventeen years. “Brandie” was part German Shepherd and Collie-extremely intuitive and exceptionally bright-she was rare and one of the best things to ever happen to me. There are animals that are gifted too.

There was always a lot of luck around me. I didn’t do the same things that everybody else did. I had a very strong mind and I never got into any trouble. Mostly everything that I wanted and desired would come to me and others didn’t think that that was fair.

A lot of people fear what they do not understand. And there are some in particular who envy and/or hate the certain attributes that a person may possess. This type of negativity often inspires malicious acts upon intended targets by those who endeavor to cause destruction. And no one knows this better than I do.

file000393697672At the age when I was just seven, my great grandmother (my mother’s father’s mother) took my mother and I to a Botanica store, had my mother read by a Haitian man then had us both “crossed up” through black magic/Brujeria. She wasn’t alone in her mission to try to destroy and bring my mother and me down. This old bag had a group of followers along with her, most who were in her same category-junkies (dope fiends and alcoholics). One of my aunts later joined in with the conspiracy. It was a big thing, and a very not normal situation.

I am a thirty seven year old female of African American and Native American descent with a little bit of European bloodline. I come from a family of strong gifted women (my mother’s mother’s side of the family). Extra Sensory Perception runs throughout both sides of the family, including my father’s side, which I hate to mention since his family was not anything to be proud of due to them being undesirables.

I am the only one to carry on the legacy of my anointed ancestors who reigned as powerful priestesses and who reveled in the beauty of their African Voodoo religion. They’ve protected me all throughout my life, watching over me since the day of my birth up until now, for always and forever.

Some years ago my head orisha Elegba came looking for me. I saw and felt his spirit as he was genuine and of substance. Born with a caul, which is also referred to as a “veil”, over my face I was automatically initiated into the priesthood as I naturally possessed occult powers.

I met a Yoruba priestess fourteen years ago who had informed to me that I had to get into the priesthood or that I would have setbacks in life. She could see that I was a clairvoyant medium who was born to be a messenger. Since then I had also been read by two other Yoruba priestesses, a Curandera, and a Babalawo.

I must admit that they were all legitimate and on the money when it came to what they revealed. I even worked with other psychics who helped me to remove most of the Brujeria (the tie/the bind) until I was fully prepared to do on my own. I certainly always had the abilities; I just had to break through the blocks.

Many believe that Yoruba, Santeria, and the like are evil, demonic or satanic. I can assure that it all is not. And I will attest to this. There is a negative and positive side to everything in life. People choose what roads they want to take and everyone is not being deceived.

No one ever coerced me into becoming involved with my orisha/ancestral spirituality. I was naturally drawn to it because I am of it and it is of me and I went to seek further guidance. This was part of my calling. Elegba, Ogun, Oshun, Orunmila, Ochosi and i go way back. And they have been nothing but loving, very kind and fiercely protective of me.

I’ve never been on drugs. I am asexual, I never ran around having sex, I’ve been a vegetarian for over twenty years. I do not deal with negative people. And I am not relaying this to sound judgmental; I am stating these facts as a definite example of orisha/ancestor worship as a positive thing for those who are inclined.

My ancestors and orishas are all about love and respect. If they were so satanic and demonic I’m very sure I would not be in the predicament that I am in. Satan does not care to help, encourage, or demand preservation. Evil’s main concern is to conquer, deceive and destroy.

There are many “so called” Christians whose life has never been as clean as mine. So I will not tolerate any ignorance regarding my “veneration” from anyone. Like I have mentioned before there is negativity and positivity in any walk of life.

I have been through many trials and tribulations due to the malevolent acts of others yet I wasn’t affected by it. I was just made even stronger and wiser.

I am surrounded by an undeniable freedom and peace. I am shielded through my spiritual connection to the universe. And I am blessed with the gifts bestowed down to me from the caul.

file0001152412322These were always my own original words of wisdom and discovery that came from my own true heart, mind, spirit, and soul. And this knowledge can be enlightening and beneficial to many:

As a spiritual person it is important to know where you come from, to know where you stand, and to know where you are going. Once that is carefully and accurately established then there is foundation.

With observation comes experience. With experience comes learning. With learning comes growth. And once each stage reaches development we can began to teach. Wisdom can be gained at any age depending on a persons mind and what they may have went through in life.

There are many books that one can read and there are many sources of inspiration available for our evaluation but nothing can compare to what we actually accumulate through our own personal happenings.

After we have experienced certain things for ourselves we may be able to understand some one else better or relate a different perspective. You don’t always have to go through the same thing as another to understand them or to relate. The enlightenment gained, however, gives a bigger and better picture to see and grasp at.

In dealing with truth, there is trust. In dealing with trust, there is confidence. In dealing with confidence, there is strength. And when all is met with one another then sealed together, there are limitless passageways to get through in dealing with life.


Sustained By The Universe/The Truth In Knowledge Is Power:(



Nurturing A Beloved Pet/My Puppy Loves And My Doggy Days


I fell in love with canines the very first day my grandmother brought home a pure breed German Shepherd puppy.Til this day I still remember. It was thirty years ago. And I was six or seven years old.

The first moment I laid eyes on the male pup I was excited and happy. I named the puppy Brownie because of his pretty brown colored coat. I brought him straight up to my bedroom and sat him down onto the floor. He was so cute and little and he pooped right in the middle of the bedroom floor. After that Brownie and I were inseparable.

The puppy and I instantly became attached to one another. I fed him, walked him, played with him, and I had him doing tricks.

I taught Brownie how to jump through my hula hoop and I learned just how intelligent and talented my baby shepherd was.


Weeks went by and I watched how Brownie began to constantly grow and develop. I learned a lot from observing my pet’s behavior.

My grandmother had brought the animal into our home because she had intended for it to grow up to become an attack dog. So she didn’t approve of the way that I was raising Brownie. I gave him care, love and affection. And I was teaching him how to instinctively respond to people and the things going on around him.

My grandmother wanted Brownie to stay chained up outside in our backyard all day and night without any communication from others so that he would turn out to be mean and vicious and protect the home.

In my opinion, my grandmother had a few “screws loose”. I don’t feel that one has to mistreat or neglect a dog in order for it to learn to protect you. If you give them good care they will naturally love and protect you.

I refused to give in to what I considered to be absurd. I explained to my grandmother that I felt her way was wrong. And that I would continue to train and treat the puppy in the correct manner in which I saw fit.


All of the care, attention and affection I gave to Brownie had come natural to me. I was a child. And I had much more common sense than what my grandmother did at the time.

Nevertheless, my grandmother failed to accept the logic regarding the situation and not so long after our disagreement, I returned home one evening to find out that Brownie was nowhere to be found. I searched the backyard and allover the inside of my house and discovered that my mean old grandmother had given my precious puppy away.

I ran up to my bed and cried as much as a little girl could cry for the puppy I didn’t think I’d ever see again.

Later that particular evening, it just so happened that I accompanied my mother to a store two blocks away from our home and I spotted Brownie right there outside the market tied to a rail.

The person who had my puppy was inside of the store making a purchase. And as I waited outside for my mother to return, my intuition told me that that was indeed Brownie, but I still wasn’t completely sure.


Then we made eye contact and he kept staring at me and reaching toward my direction. When my mother came out of the store I told her that I was tempted to snatch Brownie back up. But we just left and went about our way.

Two to three years later I got another pet. My mother took me to get this one. We went and adopted a six to seven week old German shepherd and Collie mixed breed from North Shore Animal League. And she was gorgeous. This time no one was ever going to take my puppy away from me.

My mother came up with a name for the new puppy. She named her Brandie. And Brandie also had a very pretty coat. She was three different colors-black mixed in with tan and white.

Brandie remained with me for seventeen years before she was put to sleep. The years that we spent together were the most beautiful years of my life. We had the most special and unique bond and love for one another.

Strangers and acquaintances alike could see the love that my dog had for me. It showed in her eyes and in her body language.

Brandie was very loyal, exceptionally intelligent, protective, obedient, playful and sensitive. And when I say sensitive I mean that in more ways than one. She was extremely intuitive, she had a sixth sense, she was gifted.


I know because I myself was born with a caul (veil) and possess the abilities of clairvoyance. There were on numerous accounts where Brandie expressed and displayed her “magic”. My dog and I were made for each other. We called Brandie a “human dog”. And she was treated just like a member of the family.

During the time I was growing up there were other puppies that were brought into the home. I had quite a lot. Most of them were given to me by neighbors. One of them I had gotten from going back to North Shore Animal league. However, none of them lingered around as long as Brandie did. I’d end up eventually giving them away to someone else.

All puppies and dogs have there own different qualities and personalities. They are all not compatible with certain people and certain other animals. Some are annoying, difficult and destructive.

With all canines it takes patience, understanding and determination. I was lucky to have found my right match. She had all of the perfect traits that I could ask for. And we complimented one another. Dogs do take after and start to favor their owners after a while of being together.

An animal knows when he or she is truly loved and cared for and they never forget how they were treated. They have feelings just as humans do and they deserve the same amount of respect. They do just as much for us as we do for them.

Puppies and dogs are very therapeutic to have around. They are exciting and fun. They cheer us up, they make us laugh, they give us comfort, they keep us company, they make us happy and they keep us healthy. They are our furry friends-true friends.

I cannot imagine my childhood growing up without a puppy or dog. Aside from other things life just would not have been the same.

I am so glad that I had Brandie in my life. And that I had the opportunity to home my other canines as well.

Puppy Passion/A Spirited Puppy Who I Was Meant To Recruit


I am extremely crazy about puppies. They are some of the most adorable creatures that exist on the planet.

I do not at all understand how and why certain people in the world go around abusing and mistreating them.

There is no logical explanation except for them being mentally ill and/or deranged. A lot of people are sick minded. Low and degenerate.

Doing the most despicable things.

For all of my life I have been an animal lover. I had a set of the most cute “teddy bear” hamsters when I was about ten years of age.

One hamster was a pretty light tan color and the other was a pretty light brown and white.

I had both a male and a female. And they would always fight one another for the possession of the wheel that was hooked onto the inside of their cage.

Eventually I had to purchase another wheel to place inside of the cage.

As I thought I had solved the problem between my two competitive pets, I was wrong.

The male hamster would get out of one of the wheels that he rode just to go and push out the female from the one that she rode in.

He would continue on back an forth doing the same routine constantly.

His name was Toby.

I named both my hamsters Tiffany and Toby.

Tiffany could never get any peace.

Toby was always bothering and fighting her when she went to eat, play on the wheel, and while she went to rest.

He’d even chase her around the cage from time to time.

Things got to be a bit more serious as I had began to see Tiffany bleed. Toby would bite her hands and feet.

I immediately separated them apart from one another.

I placed Tiffany inside of a cage by herself and from then on she was much more content and at peace.

The only reason that I could come up with at the time-for Toby’s negative behavior-and still rationalize now til this day is that Toby may have wanted and tried to mate with Tiffany but she continued to instinctively refuse his rodent advances.


I have had quite a few puppies that I shared my home and life with through out the years.

However, the most recent puppy that I had was the most unique and strangest of them all. She was mysterious in her own specific way. Yet at the same time she was very bright, funny, and affectionate.

And I did come to love her a lot within the short time that we spent together.

I adopted the two month old light tan and white mixed Labrador Retriever that had the prettiest dark brown eyes from North Shore Animal League in the month of September 2011.

When I first brought the puppy that I named Lailah home I noticed that she was already paper trained.

I was impressed.

I never had a young pup who would automatically relieve them self on newspaper without me constantly having to make an effort to train them.

Not only was I amazed by Lailah’s intelligence to have already learned where to appropriately poop-and what to properly poop upon-I was also astonished, delighted, and tickled by her gracious and prompt attitude.

When I or my mother would go to clean up behind her she would always run up to us, wagging her tail.

She’d then lick one of us and give us a little nip on the skin with her teeth-as to happily say “thank you”.

If one of us were late in picking up her dirty newspaper that was stained with feces or urine she’d summon to us by barking.

I could not believe how much sense this new puppy of mine had.

How can I say that though when I know I had a dog before who was extremely keen, and have come across other exceptionally intelligent canines who would amaze one with excitement.

It is not at all hard for me to imagine the stories and experiences that many people could tell about their most special and treasured pets.

Aside from the positive advantages that came along with adopting Lailah there was a few negative aspects as well.

Lailah appeared to have an unnatural fear.

She would not go to eat at her bowl unless no one was close by around her.

If Lailah heard someone’s footsteps she would instantly run away to her rest area then quickly make a u-turn run back towards the direction where the person left from.

Whenever I tried to walk her on a leash she’d refuse and pull back fiercely.

Lailah would not budge while she was on a leash and collar.

She also would never leave the second floor of the house. She never walked down the stairs. I had to carry her up and down the steps.

Otherwise she was a very normal puppy.


Lailah was very greedy and loved to eat just like most other canines. She loved to bark, bite, play, and chew onto things just like the rest of them do.

There was just something not right within her spirit that she needed to overcome and eventually she seemed to be making progress.

Every day when I would come home from work I could here Lailah upstairs whining in anticipation to greet me.

And when we’d meet one another inside of my bedroom she’d charge at me with expressions of love, jumps, and licks.

Lailah slept in bed with me every night even though she had her own pillow bed. I was unable to keep her off of my bed.

I had gained her trust.

Lailah had gotten use to her surroundings and to the three people living their within our home.

She surprised me one day when the doorbell rang and she barked. I was so proud of her.

Lailah had totally reacted on her own. By her own natural instincts.

I know that gradually she would have come more out of the acute negativity that was plaguing her due to the love and encouraging environment that I had provided for her well being.

However, Lailah did not get the opportunity to conquer and develop into the true canine that she had the potential to grow up to become.

Due to certain circumstances I had to relocate to a new home and neighborhood and unfortunately my lanlord did not allow pets.

I reside in a nice and comfortable apartment building right now.

One day I will move into another house or find an apartment that I can afford that will allow puppies and dogs.

I returned Lailah back to North Shore Animal League by the time she was eight months old. It was a sad departure.

I will never forget her.

The adoption shelter claimed that they were a no kill safe environment for animals and that they would not euthanize Lailah.

Nevertheless, she had to be evaluated before they were able to accept her back there at the facility. And she was not responsive to their efforts.

Lailah still would not walk on a leash. She was terribly frightened while in the shelter’s care.

Lailah had found a sense of comfort and familiarity at home with my family and I. The animal shelter-even with all of their experience could not understand what she was going through-but I did.

There was not anything that I could do about the situation. I had to sign Lailah back over to North Shore Animal League and get on with my life.

A few months after I moved into my new apartment I had a precognitive dream about the complicated puppy that I was meant to help.

I dreamed that Lailah was sharing a space within the spiritual realm where my other dog of seventeen years peacefully resides.

I know that there are many people in the world who do not believe in spiritual visions and things of this nature but for those who do the experience is real and meaningful.

I get visits from both of my pets now and again.

At least I know now that Lailah is free in any and every way possible from all of the fears that were effecting her character and growth (her sweet and innocent soul).

Lailah is definitely in a much better and safer place.

How I Stopped Constipation/The Essential Benefits Of Turmeric


Normally, i’ve always had a very healthy digestive tract. I move my bowels frequently just about every day, and sometimes twice in a day.

The first time i had ever encountered hemorrhoids i was ten years of age. I remember sitting on the toilet seat of my home straining to defecate. I was constipated and parts of my stool would just not release. As I continued to put strenuous effort upon my rectum i had began to feel sore, sharp stinging pain, and burning sensations.

I developed swelling around the both sides of my anus. Two hard and severely painful lumps. It was bad. So bad that from then on I never put any extra strain other than necessary during a bowel movement. I never forgot the experience of having those terrible external hemorrhoids.

As I grew older i developed prolapsed internal hemorrhoids which sometimes flare up before, during, or after one of my menstrual cycles. These type of hemorrhoids enlarge and protrude outside the anal sphincter. Mine have itched, bled, and caused burning and shooting pains.

One remedy that i’ve found to relieve most of the annoyance is a vitamin named “Rutin”. Rutin is a bioflavonoid that has strong antioxidant properties. One of the reasons why Rutin was effective in helping my hemorrhoid discomfort is due to the fact that it strengthens the blood vessels. I took 500mgs daily.

Aside from that, i also occasionally developed a severe constipation that would reoccur. My stool would get stuck inside the passageway of my rectum. And i could feel the poop as it stretched my anus.

The only solution that i had at the time was to get up from the toilet (if no one at home was available to head out to the store for me or able to bring me up something to eat or drink) with hard stool partially exited out of my behind, to go consume a fruit or vegetable.

Prune juice, raisins, or some quickly boiled plant food usually did the trick. I’d be successfully discharging the stopped up remains of my bowel movement in no time.

This one day though, I wasn’t so lucky. Nothing worked. Not the prune juice or anything else that i tried. I literally had to take one of my hands and pull out a portion of my stool and, it was huge. I had to dig in a little around the inside of the anus to remove extra fecal excess so that i could push out the rest.

After going through that I decided to never be in that situation ever again. At the state I was in I knew that constipation if-severe enough-could kill an individual.

I am a health fanatic. And i take a good load of top quality vitamins. So in my search to add to my collection of supplements when needed, I had come upon Probiotics. And i saw that they were good not only for the digestive system but also for overall health-which I was looking to improve on in certain areas.

The Probiotics worked very well. And every time I go to purchase a vitamin for one reason I end up finding out how they serve to help me out in other ways. And that is always a great thing to discover.

The same thing happened when i read up on the herb Turmeric. When I studied the benefits that Turmeric had to offer I became interested in giving the vitamin a try. And i did.

When I took my first vegetarian capsule of 400mg standardized turmeric extract (root) and 372mg curcuminoids i noticed a change within my body the same day. And after taking my Turmeric supplements for four years straight i have never been constipated again.

Natural Cures For Menstruation/Using Vitamin Supplements As A Sufficient Remedy Against Discomfort During The Menstrual Cycle


A lot of women suffer from constant menstrual pain/cramps that is sometimes severe and unbearable during their menstrual cycles, and many of them heavily rely on over the counter medications that contain ingredients that may not be safe or necessary. The same goes for prescription drugs that are prescribed by a doctor.

The most common forms of over the counter pain medications available on the market are non steroidal anti-inflammatory and acetaminophen. Both of these medicines work uniquely in that one brings relief to pain by reducing the production of prostaglandins.

Prostaglandins are hormone-like substances produced in various tissue that cause pain and inflammation. They are derived from amino acids. And they mediate a range of physiological functions like nerve transmission and metabolism.

And the other functions by working on parts of the brain in which “the pain messages” are received.

Between the two drugs, only one is also able to bring about a reduction in irritation and swelling (inflammation), and those are the non steroidal anti-inflammatory medications. However acetaminophen and the non steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs both lesson fever and alleviate pain caused by and/or associated with stiffness and muscle aches.

When i was in my early twenties I use to faithfully purchase the over counter product Advil (the ones that came in the yellow box). Ibuprofen was the only pain killer that had worked on me.

And in my opinion, Advil was the best pain reliever out there on the market, and i also liked the ingredients that the product contained. The two nice tasting caplets gave me satisfactory results yet they’d wear off over a certain period of time during the day or night. Then i’d have to proceed with further dosages.

From a very early age my mother made sure that i took quality vitamin supplements every day. I began with the “Flintstones” brand. When i turned fourteen i became a strict vegetarian, only wanting to put the nutrients that were of high value inside of my body. I would only eat fresh fruits, vegetables and grains.

I ate soybean proteins that had taken the place of red meat. And when i whipped up my meals they would taste delicious. My vegetarian creations tasted so much better and fresher compared to non vegetarian, fast, and unhealthy prepared foods with garbage ingredients.

I stopped drinking soda and milk and would juice my own fruits and vegetables. I visited a particular health food store that was located in my neighborhood quite a lot back then and started a lifelong course and preference for supplements that were well suited for me.

I only had the strong, intense desire to consume the nutritious and natural things. And the benefits were and still are very rewarding.

Whenever I visited a doctor i never viewed them all as total experts or ultimate figures of authority. A lot of them are indeed very qualified, knowledgeable in their field, and good at what they do. Nevertheless, doctors are still human and make mistakes. They don’t hold all of the answers and they all cannot be completely trusted.

I remember years ago at New York Hospital Cornell Medical Center Located In Manhattan, New York getting prepped up for a pelvic or abdominal CAT Scan. I continuously inquired about the IV dye (Iodine-based liquid) that I was going to be shot up with. I already had drank a load full of Iodine the day before and prior to my scanning.

I made clear that I wanted the hypo allergenic version of the contrast. And I made sure that i was fully informed about every detail regarding my welfare and the procedure. I apologized to one of the medical professionals who had attended to me. I told her that i was sorry for giving her such a hard time.

The woman responded to me in return by saying “No, not at all. You’re smart. Most of the people who come in here to the hospital are stupid. They act like the doctors are gods and just let them do anything and don’t ask any questions”. And i have to admit that i was surprised to hear that. Shocked that she even imparted that knowledge to me. I was still quite young back then. Older people who came there to the facility weren’t as cautious and savvy the way that i was.

I always had a lot on the cap and steadily educated my self through literature and evaluation about the human body and various pills, topical solutions, and so on. I often knew the particular things that were wrong with me before a doctor made the diagnosis. I also gave suggestions that the doctors often agreed upon. And i also knew back then that i had the absolute right to refuse any treatment or medication prescribed to me by any health care professional.

It is very important in life for us to not only observe our surroundings but, to constantly stay aware and gather as much information as possible regarding what pertains to our personal well being.

On my journey of discoveries I came upon two fantastic supplements that I had taken apart from one another amongst the other vitamins that I take.

The first was the M.D. Select Advanced Probiotic 30 billion Enteric Coating “Vitamin Shoppe” brand (which did not need to be refrigerated). I started taking the then vegetarian capsules three years ago for overall health and received a little something extra in return which i did not expect. I noticed an end to all pain during my menstrual cycle. Even when i did not consume the supplement regularly on a day to day basis.

All I had to do was take was one dosage of the 30 billion strains of good bacteria and my pain was knocked out for the rest of the day-and sometimes even for the next entire day depending on the severity of the discomfort. If the pain was worse than usual i’d have to take two, but that was it! And the pain disappeared in less than an hour. I’ll say about a good twenty to thirty minutes.

I had only got a result like that from taking my mother’s 500mg prescription strength Dosage of Naproxen Sodium that she’d share with me during those particular times of the month. I had been stopped my consumption of Advils, they just weren’t making the cut anymore. And they were nowhere near as sufficient as taking one dose of Naproxen Sodium that also killed the pain for the following days to come.

The 24 billion Flora Smart Biotract Delivery “Renew Life” brand is another very good high quality effective product which also does not need refrigeration.

No matter how much relief that i gained from taking my mother’s Naproxen I needed a better solution because this non steroidal anti-inflammatory prescription drug that my mother had gotten from her doctor had harsh side affects.

If administered over a long enough period of time, and depending on how it was consumed (Naproxen was advised to not be taken on an empty stomach or to be taken with milk), Naproxen Sodium could cause ulcers and i wanted to avoid getting a hole burned in my stomach.

Now second and last but not least is 1000 0r 1500mgs of MSM which is methylsulfonylmethane. MSM is organic sulfur. A sulfur-containing compound that occurs naturally in a variety of vegetables, grains and fruits. And, it also occurs in humans and animals alike.

MSM is great and well known for a number of things such as arthritis and joint pain. And along with the many other health benefits-including the detoxifying and antioxidant properties-that come from taking this wonderful and natural vitamin, there are no serious/dangerous side affects.

However, we are individuals and what will work for some may not work for all.

Vegetables, vitamins and minerals may not “always” be definite miracle cures. However, they certainly do aid In making us healthier and making us function much better. They definitely work and provide excellent results right away and in the long run.

MSM is my ” 500mg Naproxen Sodium Substitute”. It is my “Miracle Cure”. The ultimate natural cure for my menstrual pain and cramps. And to me it is a miracle pill because it doesn’t just take away the discomfort for a day-but for the days afterward.

Nutritious Desserts/Healthy Desserts That Provide Nourishment


It is wonderful to know that as a vegetarian one is not limited when it comes to enjoying sweet tasting desserts.

And not just sweet tasting desserts but desserts that are also healthy and agreeable to eat.

As long as we are consciously aware and particular about the ingredients that are used to prepare a dessert, we may consume and indulge in as many variety of sweets that are available to choose from.

More frequently now in this day and age there are more products on the market that cater to the vegan and vegetarian lifestyle.

Certain health food store merchandise tend to be very expensive. Everyone cannot always afford to buy high quality vegetarian oriented foods.

So many people just result to purchasing their items at their local grocery. Which at times can be just as much expensive as shopping at one of those health food stores that specialize in organic and all natural and nutritious health food products.


Whether one chooses the local supermarket or the store for special dietary needs both are able to provide the proper and necessary ingredients to make a favorite and delectable dessert or sweet.

Even if one just wants to buy a dessert that is already made on the shelf. There are brands that are vegan and vegetarian suitable.

For those who like to bake their own fancy recipes there are the basic, simple, and deluxe ingredients to gather for preparation.

I like to be very creative and sample and substitute the old fashion recipes that ordinarily included shortenings (lard) and artificial flavorings.

In my opinion, the baked sweets that are the most natural and “less” animal derived taste the best.

The “vegetarian” ingredients needed to make the most healthy and nutritious desserts are:


All purpose flour, cake flour, pastry flour, bread flour, and prepared graham cracker crusts (for cheese cakes and pies). Some also prefer rice and/or potato flour, and so on.

Baking powder, baking soda, vegetable oil, coconut oil, coconut milk, butter, butter milk, whole milk, cornstarch, white sugar, brown sugar, powder sugar, salt, vanilla extract, maple syrup, and distilled white vinegar.

“Vegans” can also use soy milk, rice milk, soybean margarine or “Earth Balance” brand natural buttery spread (all 100% vegan), soft tofu, and non dairy cream cheeses to bake with.

And, depending on the kind and type of dessert that is going to be made, flavoring options could include cinnamon, nutmeg, pecans, coconut flakes, and whatever else that may satisfy one’s fancy.

I love ice cream. My favorite flavors are vanilla, french vanilla, and butter pecan. My favorite brand of ice cream is Haagen Daz.

The ingredients contained in the Haagen Daz ice cream is all natural. The vanilla is made with
cream, skim milk, sugar, egg yolks and vanilla extract.


The butter pecan is made with cream, skim milk (lactose reduced), sugar, pecans, coconut oil, butter, corn syrup, egg yolks and vanilla extract.

Ice cream is considered as a type of junk food by many people, however, I disagree. I do not believe that ice cream itself is a junk food. It all depends on how the product is manufactured.

A lot of ice creams on the market are not processed very well even though some claim to be natural.

Brands with ingredients that contain mono and diglycerides, yellow 5 and 6 (synthetic coal tar dyes that are made from industrial waste) and other very unnecessary substances, I absolutely stay away from.

Breyers ice cream is another very good brand that is made with just a few all natural ingredients such as milk, cream, sugar, egg yolk, tara gum and natural flavor.

And there are a few more other high quality ice creams that are out there on the market that contain the appropriate nutrition.


Although pizza is not a sweet it is sometimes a treat-and one that has also gotten a bad reputation for being considered as a type of junk food by many people.

I have to disagree again. Pizza that is prepared with the correct ingredients can be a very healthy and nutritious meal or appetizer.

There is the dough, the oil, the tomato sauce, and the cheese. What is so unhealthy about the combination of those preparations?

Pizza’s and desserts that are made with the finest quality ingredients are much more nutrient and less more bad for one’s health than when compared to certain lunches and dinners that contain beef and pork.

Sweets do not have to be copiously poured and glazed with sugars.

The excessive use of sugar in a dessert or beverage is what would most likely contribute to the poor health in individuals. Especially if one is constant with their intake of high sugary foods and sweets.

I for one cannot tolerate high levels of sugar within my diet. Sugar will sometimes sit up inside of my chest area as it is unable to digest properly.

And I do not like a food or beverage that has too sweet of a taste. It is not at all satisfying.

Delectable does not equate gross amounts of sugar. My desserts are just as fine and rich with great flavor with the minor portions of sugars, salts, and butters that I may include.


Less is often more in certain cases as is the same with particular foods.

If a dessert contains too much grease or oil that can also be a problem.

So the bottom line is that the constant intake of any particular ingredient (especially a wrong or bad ingredient) which is used in excess to prepare a food or beverage is what makes the item unwholesome, and not good for one’s health.

Whenever I shop for a product I always check out the contents. I often can tell what is of good quality and worth buying.

Some people just have an eye or gift for spotting the right things.

As a dedicated vegetarian I have to keep my eyes and ears open to all of what is out there. Good or bad. Old or new. And open to the things that are up for suggestion, and that are in the making.

It is gratifying and exciting to be a vegetarian. What is more better than one who takes great pride and pleasure in caring for them self.

I love reading my V.I.P. Vitamin Shoppe packages that come to me free through the mail. I receive health magazines and literature all towards maintaining health, health products, coupons and more.

I even watch out for the health of a pet.

Animals in my care would get nothing but the best of treatment, mentally and physically.

Canines bodies are more sensitive then us humans. Things effect and work faster on them than if it were to be given or applied to a human being.

I am generous as well as cautious in the care of a pet when giving them something to intake.


All of my puppies and dogs had got spoiled. They all ate table food.

And if one of them got sick or got hurt by accident and I could not get them to the vet right away or did not have to because it was not a major emergency, i’d give them some of my internal antibiotics (for a bacterial infection) that I had on hand.

Eye drops (for red irritated eyes), and topical Neosporin (topical relief and healing that I used on my pet for raw skin cause by a dog collar).

These medications had worked just fine on my canines.

It is said by some to not serve a puppy or a dog milk due to the fact that the beverage may cause them to develop tapeworms.

Well one of my dogs that I had for seventeen years loved milk and ice cream. They were her favorite foods. And she never once had any tapeworms.

My dog also loved carrots. She and I use to sit up and eat the fresh carrots all of the time. My dog was my eating buddy.

At times I can eat at just the same capacity as a canine pet.

Whether one eats like a dog or a bird we can rest assured that our nourishment of desserts are filled with the quality that we put into them for the continuous indulgence that we love to enjoy.

Chocolate Is A Sweet That I Cannot Eat/My Mind And Body’s Intolerance For Chocolate. I’d Prefer Peanut Butter Over Chocolate Any Day Of The Week


As some of us know chocolate is derived from the cacao bean which grows in pod-like fruits on the tropical cacao tree called the “Theobroma”. Although there are four major types of cacao trees grown throughout the world (the Forastero, Criollo, Trinitario, and Nacional) a very large percentage of the beans are cultivated in Africa.

There are a few myths associated with the consumption of chocolate, however, I am not here to confirm or deny any of them.

I have heard in detail that dark chocolate is supposedly rich in minerals, high in antioxidants, naturally possessing the good fat (the cocoa butter that is found in the cacao beans), cuts the risk of cardiovascular problems, has properties that reduce stress, relieve cough, relieve diarrhea, boost intelligence, and that prevent diabetes and give protection from the sun due to flavonoids. The nitric oxide production increase is said to contribute to the drop in insulin resistance among some.

I’ve also heard a few other things that I am not sold on. Such as, the chocolate being responsible for expectant mothers able to better handle their stress during their pregnancy. And as a bonus they delivered happier children. And supposedly, in general, chocolate stopped the cravings for particular foods that were fattening, therefore aiding in a method of proper weight loss.


Now for the negative side. Chocolate is regarded by some as containing a very high caffeine content. A cause of migraine headaches, hyperactivity, tooth decay, and acne. And there are those who disagree with these claims, declaring that they are untrue.

I know myself that there are millions and billions of people out there in the world and everyone will not always be medically, mentally, emotionally, and physically affected in the same way as that of another person. Not everyone will come into agreement in regards to certain matters. And that is natural and logical.

We are all different. So are our bodies. None of our constitutions are exactly alike.

As a young child, before I hit my teens, I loved chocolate. I was a chocoholic. It was my favorite flavor. And I just could not get enough of those delicious tasting Hershey candy bars.

Now and then my mother would bake her own homemade chocolate chip cookies from scratch. I’d delightfully eat up pieces of the morsels that she’d position into the malleable roundly shaped cookie dough.


On my birthdays my mother always purchased yellow cakes with chocolate icing until I started requesting for all chocolate desserts for my special occasion.

A time came when my little body would be in the bed balled up in the fetal position, suffering from a very severe and terrible pain. The degree of pain was really unbearable. And it happened a couple of times more before my mother eventually took me to a doctor.

The doctor told my mother that the cause of my illness was due to my consumption of chocolate and coca cola. And that I should refrain from eating and drinking these products.

My mother and I did heed the doctor’s advice. Though later on as I grew older I fell into temptation and I began to consume the chocolate and coca cola again, knowing that I was not suppose to. However, by the time I had entered into my early teens I stopped completely.

The results have been grand, especially since that is the time when I became a serious vegetarian. I did not, and I still do not crave or desire the taste of soda or chocolate. A complete change had come over me.

I know that chocolate is naturally a vegetarian food but it is a substance that does not at all agree with me. And all of the additives that go into preparing chocolate during manufacture to enhance taste and texture just makes the product very unhealthy.


Peanuts are a natural food that I love and enjoy eating. Peanuts are in the “Legume” family. They come from a leguminous plant, which also have fruits that are in the form of pods.

There are two type of legumes. The immature, and the mature ones. Peas and green beans are immature legumes since they are harvested before they mature on the plant.The dried seeds that are found inside the pods that hang from stems of particular plants are the mature legumes.

Pinto beans, black eyed beans, red beans and black beans-all of which I love-have high nutrient properties. Nutrients that include selenium, magnesium, folate and antioxidants. Legumes are very rich in antioxidants.

They are also an excellent source of protein as we know for a fact that we can gain from peanuts. They are low in fat and are a great source of fiber, potassium, phosphorus, calcium, iron and zinc just like potatoes.

So peanuts outdo chocolate in a nutshell.

Now as peanuts are a delight to me they are also a danger to certain others because of the allergic reactions that some may have from eating them.


I know that I definitely cannot eat walnuts. I get sick almost immediately after ingesting them. I get a severe pain that travels down to my backside. I’ve even vomited on account of the walnuts that I ate. We must take precaution because as we know, some food allergies are life threatening.

I remember talking to a paramedic who’d arrived to my home one day to see if I needed to go to the hospital. As a usual procedure he asked if I was allergic to anything. I told him that a doctor told me to stay away from chocolate and coca cola when I was a child.

His words were “It probably was that caffeine”.

I am not a large fan of caffeine. And that is the reason why I do not drink tea unless it is caffeine free, like herbal teas. I love the cinnamon apple flavored. I use to enjoy the decaffeinated black tea by Lipton-It tastes so great with milk-but there is still small amounts of caffeine hidden in there. When something is decaffeinated residue is always left behind.

I don’t like the way caffeine keeps me up if I drink enough of it. I could be wanting to go to sleep and then unable to. And it does give me a headache in the process.

The best bet is to stick with what naturally does not contain any caffeine if one is particular about their concerns.


A thing that I personally noticed about tea is that it fills me up. It takes away hunger. I don’t know if it is the combination of tea and sugar or what. Those who want to diet may consider using tea as a method for possibly controlling their appetite to lose weight. One never knows it just might work for some.

There are so many delicious ways to use peanuts. I have roasted them in their raw state, and spread them on my whole wheat breads in their smoothed out state. I eat them along with their peanut butter in granola bars, cracker snacks, cookies and sometimes just with a spoon.

What a pleasure it is when we know that what we love to eat also serves to us a high nutritional value.The peanut butter taste is so rich with deep good flavor.

My Regimen For Dairy/The Restrictions On My Dairy Intake


Cheese does have an odor. In fact, it stinks. Nevertheless, many of us still resort to including the food in our diet.

Another thing stinks when it comes to cheese. The way in which certain companies manufacture the product. Some cheeses are processed with derivatives from pork. Pig enzymes.

I am a vegetarian so I only eat cheeses that contain vegetable rennet. It is important to know what is being put into our foods today. It is also important to know how these products are being made and why they have to be made in their particular fashion.

Specific food preparations are not always necessary and are able to be replaced with better alternatives.

If everyone was completely aware of each and every detail that went on within the manufacturing process of certain items I am quite sure that they would not want to eat them.

Some of the ingredients that are put into the foods that we eat can make us sick and can contribute to further health problems.

It is bad enough that a lot of food product labels are misleading and not explanatory enough to discern. One has to be careful about the hidden ingredients that are not listed on certain labels.

I have never been allergic to dairy products in any way. However, my digestive system will not tolerate large amounts of butter and milk. I do not seem to have a problem from eating a large quantity of eggs or cheese.

When it comes to butter I definitely have to consume in moderation. I only cook with a small amount of it when I prepare a meal or dessert.

And I can only apply a small amount of butter onto toast if I plan to eat quite a few slices within or through out the day.


I have funny eating habits. I can eat or nearly eat a whole loaf of bread up in one day. I regularly eat peanut butter sandwiches on whole wheat bread.

I do not normally eat three times a day, though when I do eat it is in large quantities. And I am very slim in size. When people would see me go to eat they’d say “You’re going to eat all of that by yourself?” or they would just look at me and laugh.

It does not bother me one bit. I love to eat in abundance. I have a very healthy appetite. And I pay for it with my own money so no one should complain.

When I was a little girl my mother would tell me that my eyes were bigger than my belly. Now that I am much older I see that my belly and my eyes are equal in comparison. I can handle what is agreeable to my body and in excess.

Nobody likes to be sick. In pain with gas. Suffering from abdominal or pelvic discomfort, then vomiting and letting out the nasty bowel waste

And that is why no matter how much I like to eat I take precaution on the things that I can only have in moderation.

I cannot eat too many products at a time and in large portions that contain butter though it is not that way with me when it comes to products that contain milk.

If there are products made with milk ingredients I can eat as much of them as I want. I just cannot drink too many cups of milk straight.

Although I do not have any problems regarding cheese eating too much of it can bring about constipation. I settled my constipation issues years ago with the herb Turmeric. So as long as I take my supplements I do not have to worry.

One snack that I ate constantly was melted swiss and monterey jack cheese atop a split hot onion bagel. Cream cheese spread in between a hot onion bagel was also one of my favorites as well as a delicious piece of cheese cake.

I haven’t had a boiled or scrambled egg in years. I remember that boiled eggs went good sprinkled with salt. And I use to like my eggs scrambled with pepper. I also enjoyed eating egg sandwiches on toast with lettuce and tomatoes.

I do eat some products that contain egg ingredients.

The only problem that I have with eggs is that they may cause me to have and/or pass gas. Other than that a large quantity of egg consumption is not harsh on my stomach.

I love the no yolk egg noodles. They taste so good mixed in with sea salt, pepper, and butter. I usually eat the noodles with my boiled chicken breasts or thighs.

I also love potato salad that is made with chopped boiled eggs. Macaroni and tuna fish salad, and potato salad are two of my favorite dishes.

There are many pleasures in life and food is one of them. It is said that too much of something is not so good. And that may be true for some things in particular. It all depends on what the matter is at hand. I do not think there is anything wrong in being overindulgent as long as it is of our benefit, and no harm comes about in the process.

If we did not over indulge in certain things we would not learn or improve. There is always more than one way to think and to look at things.

The only time to not indulge in what one is interested in is if there is a cause for harm or danger.


If I did not frequently indulge in my love for writing I would not be writing this article right now, expressing the graveness of what we put into our bodies and, how I have to be careful just like many other people do about what to eat in moderation.

Once we keep establishing all of the things we can and cannot do we will continue on living a better and healthier lifestyle physically and mentally.

Vegetarian Meals That Are Delicious/The Life Of A Vegetarian Is Not A Flavorless One


Some people think that going vegetarian means an end to the appetizing meals that usually taste good. It is quite the contrary. There are a number of pleasant foods out there for us vegetarians to consume.

Eating is one of the natural enjoyments of my life. And I love to cook for myself when I am in the mood. Anyone who knows me knows that I eat the things that are very nutritious yet at the same time, satisfying.

Vegetarians are not limited in their options when it pertains to the choices of meal plan.

Potatoes are a fantastic example. There are a wide variety of ways in how to use potatoes. They can be baked, boiled, roasted, mashed, scalloped, wedged and so on. No matter what style or fashion that they’re prepared in they make a great dish.

French fries are one of my favorites. I fry them in pure vegetable oils. I notice that sunflower oil gives them the most distinct and crisp flavor.


Chicken is another wonderful example. There are also a large variety of ways in which chicken can be prepared. Chicken is baked, boiled, broiled, roasted (and also rotisserie), barbecued, grilled, smothered, fried and sauteed.

I like pasta a lot. I eat meatless pasta dishes such as baked ziti, lasagna, macaroni, and spaghetti. I love pizza too.

The cheeses, seasonings, and sauce is what brings out the good flavor in the pasta. Spaghetti, lasagna and ziti taste so much better to me without the meat. That is just my preference.

There is a high quality pizzeria that has been located in my old neighborhood for over a decade now. The establishment even gained public notoriety by the media for being the number one best tasting quality pizzeria in all of New York. I saw footage of the television program that one of the cooks appeared on. And I recognized him from the restaurant.

I’d been eating from this particular pizzeria for years, since childhood. They serve this delicious chicken pizza that is loaded with parsley, tomatoes, cheese, and chunks of chopped chicken. They also serve broccoli and spinach pizza pies.


Vegetables always liven up a meal. Especially when they are mixed in with rice, green peppers, shrimps, onions and the like.

I cannot resist the taste of corn, broccoli, cabbage, cauliflower, collard greens, kale, string beans, green peas and lima beans. And, do not mention salad. There was a nice zesty Italian “Good Seasons” brand dressing that came in a packet that I use to prepare and pour over my freshly made salads. The flavor was simply grand.

Most corn bread and cake mixes have lard ingredients in them (vegetable shortening). I only use the ones that do not. There are some name brand all butter and/or pure vegetable oil mixes. They are just hard to come by.

Popular name brands are not always a guarantee of quality. Lesser known and lesser expensive items can be just as good or effective and, sometimes even better.

I am not into and never have been into yogurt or tofu. I never had a smoothie either and I do not desire to. I’ll stick to my french vanilla and vanilla ice cream milk shakes and “Ensure Plus” health drinks.

My diet consists of a blissful food regimen. One that keeps me essentially happy and healthy. My lifestyle is not at all demanding or compromising. It comes naturally and easily.


The Things That Go Good With Milk/My Solution For Consuming Large Portions Of Milk


Milk is a beverage that I love. I do not drink milk the way that I use to, however, when I do I cannot drink milk straight in large amounts.

There was a time when I could drink as much milk as I wanted and it would not bother my digestive system. Now that I am older things have changed.

If I consume over three medium size cups of milk within a day I will be on the toilet seat stricken with diarrhea.

Some times when I eat or drink certain things they can taste so good that I cannot get enough of what I intake. And when a food or beverage is healthy and nutritious there is not too much harm that can result from overindulging, unless one has a serious medical problem such as diabetes and so on.

I took a notice of how whenever I ate or drank something that I used and combined with milk, I was able to consume as much of quantity as I wanted within one day.

I could eat numerous bowls of cereal with milk and my stomach would not at all get agitated. If I drank four to five medium size cups of hot or cold milk that was combined with my favorite Nestle Nesquick brand “very vanilla” flavored drink mix or Nestle Carnation french vanilla classic instant breakfast drink mix, it would not bother my digestive system at all.

Maybe the comparison has more to do with the ingredients that are in the other products. It is very possible that my body is better able to absorb high volumes of milk that are partially blended with other substances.

As I am particular about the things that I put into my body milk is no exception. I do not drink just any manufactured type of the beverage. I do not buy milk from cows that are treated with the hormone rbst.

I once tried soy milk. I could not stand the taste of it, though.

Milk in general has good properties. I know for a fact that it counteracts poison. And everyone knows that milk is a very good source of vitamin D. I take vitamin D supplements. Vitamin d2 (ergocalciferol) to be specific.

Milk also tastes very good. Especially when the beverage is cold or on ice.

There are the things that also go great together with the consumption of milk, especially sweets. Cookies and cakes, of course. Along with ice cream (shakes), tea and a variety of coffees.

For breakfast or lunch milk goes good with crescent rolls, toast, cold cuts, sandwiches and grilled cheese.

Some people like to dip their fruit and pastries in milk. And some people even drink and use milk as a laxative.

I drink milk only once in a while. I eat good quality vanilla ice cream rather frequently. So i am not exactly a milk fanatic. Yet I am crazy about the ice cream. As one grows they sometimes change. And that can include in ones dietary intake.


I remember when I was a child how I could not stand the taste of strawberries. In my late teenage years as well as now in my adult years, I just love them.

Sometimes our preferences are a mind thing. We may see a flaw, smell a specific odor, or hear about an undesirable ingredient that is contained in one of our favorite foods and get turned off by it. In other instances our taste buds merely evolve.

I been stopped eating cold boxed cereal. Those type of products are not really very nutritious. Hot cereals such as grits, farina, and oatmeal are wholesome and nourishing. I always loved oatmeal. And oatmeal an raisin cookies.

I do not know for sure if I am absolutely lactose intolerant or if my body is just responding to an issue and condition that triggers when I ingest large amounts of milk. Whatever the case or cause may be, I recognized the problem long ago when it began and I discovered a remedy of better tolerance for my consumption of drinking milk.

Living The Life Of A Vegetarian


I was raised and brought up on quality. My mother always made sure that i had the best of things. She never introduced me to any type of junk. And food was no exception. I was a very well taken care of little girl.

I also had my own naturally developed sense of style and taste that helped to distinguished my identity growing up through the years. From the beginning, i was always my own person, not influenced by anyone or anything. I was very observant, very opinionated, and very analytical.

And while other young teens were out running wild, hanging tough, partying hard, and selling their royal oats, I was home deciding what i wanted out of my life.

I knew that i wanted to be a writer and i would write and type up stories on the electric typewriter my mother had bought me. And i also knew that i wanted to lose a little bit of the weight that i had gained.

I was never a chubby child. I had always been on the slim side. It wasn’t until after I turned twelve that i noticed my body starting to fill out a bit. I was never at all self conscious about the way that I looked. My figure was solid and very well proportioned, I had a very attractive shape. However, when i walked my legs would rub together and that felt annoying. I’d also get tired kind of fast. My energy lagged a little.

As I was in the process of change upon entering into my teenage years I decided to change my eating habits. And i didn’t waste any time in doing it. Once I put my mind to something I will see it through.

I was very interested in becoming a vegetarian. The idea just seemed so right for me, it agreed with my personality. A young girl who was clean, healthy, and pure.

One of my favorite music super stars at the time was “Madonna”. I loved everything about her back then. And when I read In a magazine that she was homeless and would eat french fries out of public garbage cans before she became famous-from people who had thrown away the remains of their fast food meals-I was dead set.

Madonna claimed that she refused to eat any left over pieces of burger due to the fact that she was a “vegetarian”. So she did serve to me as a boost of inspiration.

At the start of my endeavor I became a very strict vegetarian. I only ate grains, vegetables and fruits. I drank only water and juice from fruits that i juiced.

When I turned nineteen years of age, I decided to settle and make a few adjustments to my diet. I accepted eating poultry, shrimp/fish (I love whiting), and dairy along with my usual regimen.

I still did not drink any soda. I didn’t have any desire to. And I still don’t til this day.There is no real nutritional value in those beverages. I did, however, start to drink milk again because I just loved vanilla milkshakes. And I drink only concentrated natural juices with textures that are “transparent”.

I am well aware that some people in particular do not consider chicken and seafood eaters 100% “pure vegetarians” but, nevertheless, I do fit into the category. I continue to refuse to consume anything that is derived from beef or pork.

I am very particular about what i put into my body. I check ingredients religiously and I will call up the company in which a product is manufactured in order to find out further detail regarding the quality.

I love breads. The majority of breads sold out on the market contain mono and diglycerides. An ingredient that I am not fond of and will not intake. There are the vegetable diglycerides which I do not prefer either. Certain labels are making an effort to bake breads with more natural contents now. They are starting to come out with bread titled “Simply Natural”.

Nothing beats Nature’s Pride breads in my opinion. It was an all natural brand. I just loved the honey and whole wheat flavors. Since “Hostess” shut down-the company which produced Nature’s Pride-the product was discontinued.

Haagen Daz is my favorite all natural brand of ice cream. The vanilla and butter pecan flavors are my preferences.

I am careful about cheeses that i eat as some are made with pig enzymes.

I purchase “Purdue” brand chicken and “Shady Brook Farms” turkey wings. I love the fact that purdue packs their chicken pretty clean. There is not so much messy slime to rinse and wash off. And their poultry does not have any animal by-products, hormones, or steroids. Their chickens are fed vegetarian diets and proteins.


I’m a constant rice eater. I love “Near East” brand and flavors. And i am crazy about “Uncle Ben’s rice. I’ve been eating that product ever since childhood. Both brands are vegetarian suitable, and Uncle Ben’s rice is naturally fat free.

I’ve been a fifteen year V.I.P. member of the “Vitamin Shoppe”. Every time i enter into their establishment I feel like a kid in a candy store. A great place to indulge in all of the vital necessities that contribute to good health.

I take Vitamin A. Both retinal palmitate and beta carotene. I also take the Vitamin B Complex supplements, Vitamin C, Vitamin D2 ergocalciferol (plant derived), Vitamin E d-alpha tocopheryl succinate, and quite a few more other vitamins and minerals.

How we treat ourselves on the inside will inevitably compliment us on the outside. As vegetarians we constantly and continuously rejuvenate ourselves. A lot of benefits come along from watching what we eat. Our cells function more properly. Our bodies ultimately cleanse and detoxifies-which results in regularity and better circulation. We heal better, and much faster. And we may even look better.

I know that a lot depends on a person’s metabolism and genetic make up but I have tremendous energy as a vegetarian. I am very youthful in my appearance. I have the figure of a teenager. And I feel just great. I’m in the best of health and shape as far as my “way of life” is concerned.

We become incredibly rich within our well-being altogether when the state of our wealth is valued to us for having great health. What better is there to reap the excellent rewards of a lifestyle that is dedicated to loving oneself.

What You Wish On Me Will Undoubtedly Fall Back On You Again, And Again, And Again!

I had read a fictional book in the nineties about a little girl who was born with a caul over her face. The book was sort of interesting, however, in my opinion it could have been better.

The life that I lived was actually way more deeper and fulfilling than what was made up in that novel and much more detailed in grave (serious) content and in the things that are possible.

I was in my early twenties back then and looking for someone else who was familiar with the gifts of the caul, someone who could shed another perspective other than the things that I had heard from the people in my life, and the things that I had already experienced for myself.

So I contacted the company who published the book by the author whose initials are t.m.a. I wrote a letter to her, and I had intended for the letter to be forwarded to her home, through them. Instead, the publishing company returned my letter back to me with her home address stamped onto it.

I wrote three letters to this woman before she responded to me. I explained to her that my inquiry was not a hoax and that I was indeed genuinely interested in possibly gaining a little more insight about particular things regarding being born with a caul/veil.

T.m.a. set up a day and time to call me and we spoke over the phone. When we first talked she expressed to me that she did not know anything at all about the caul. That all she knew is what she heard-what people told her.

Right then and there I knew that she was a liar. I did not believe that. I felt that she had to have been born with a caul to write a book about it. I mean, I did. I would not had wrote my own personal non fiction book mentioning my gifts and experiences without actually having been born that way-unlike some people that we know of (Shannon lee wolf for instance).

Later on in the conversation after she warmed up to me and saw where I was coming from she admitted “I, t. (I’m just going to continue to use her initial/initials) was born with a caul”.

“I knew you were”, I told her”

And she laughed.

T.m.a. also expressed to me saying, “Okay, you know that you’re special. And you have to use your gifts. Our gifts are not for ourselves, they are for others. What are the points in having gifts if no one knows that you have them?”

I have to say that I actually disagreed with her comment because I knew that my gifts were indeed for myself whether anybody knew about them or not. I did not mention this to her though. I didn’t give her too much information, she was a vibe that I was familiar with and did not really take to.

I read t.m.a. like a book. I knew her kind/type but I was lead to her for a reason-and I found out just how correct I was in my judgment of her and why I had sought her out to begin with-I am seldom wrong about people.

I met a priestess through her (which turned out to be in good favor for me. I then met another woman over the phone by her who was born with a caul who couldn’t keep any friends, and who had a very nasty attitude-she wasn’t shit).

T.m.a. and I had talked over the telephone a couple of more times since then but I noticed her attitude started to change. Right after I spoke with the second woman who was sick and miserable.

To make a long story short, I eventually had to tell t.m.a off. I had to tell her about herself/put her in her place. She’d heard gossip/lies (well, they’re all liars-including t.m.a.) from my trashy father’s side of the family who knew her or knew of her, and since they were of the same negative vibe they joined in together.

It is a very complex story but it has to do with their witchcraft conspiracies-and me not being one of them/their kind (thank goodness!).

T.m.a. has been pissed ever since. A year or two ago she felt stupid and was disappointed because an evil spell that she’d done against me did not work. The woman is still at it. She does it non stop from time to time, however, now she is putting extra effort into it.

On Friday, January 25, 2013, t.m.a. and others were working against me, trying to put thoughts into my head about my disposition/attitude toward their kind/class/type of people. They wanted me to feel like I was the bad person; I’m the wrong one, absurd mind games measured by their own lies and deceit.

This past Friday, on February 1, 2013, I felt t.m.a. and a group of others engaged in prayers, meditations, and rituals. Negative sayings, thoughts, and wishes along with their spells to try to block me in my writing career. They don’t want to see me succeed in anything that I do, especially what I was meant to do. They want to sabotage the building of my profession.

I just pitied them in their vain attempts/endeavors. They are just so sad and worthless. They need to feed off of other peoples positive energies in order to gain success for themselves. They try to do a switcheroo, your good energy in return for their negative energy so that they can pull to prevail and push to make you go down.

The next day, on the second of February, I could feel t.m.a. again. This time wanting me to feel that I was out of my league, treading on territory in which where I did not belong-by conducting the occupation of my writing. My own gifts, my nature, part of what and who I am.

I knew their garbage wouldn’t work. They do not have the spiritual power. They are nowhere near as strong as me in mind or spirit. And I was right. So now t.m.a. is trying to weaken me with more absurd spells. She’ll just have to wear herself out along with the others. I am steps ahead of them, knowing their every move.

What is sad is that instead of wasting time and putting so much energy into attempting to bring me down she should be doing spells to try to make herself advance in life. Obviously she is unable to do that, though.

At one time years ago (way back in the early 2000’s) she was suppose to be making a movie about her book with her “so called” independent filmmaker husband-what happened to it?

I have not seen the movie in theaters yet! Then she launched what was suppose to be her own publishing company that she could not afford because she was in desperate need of donations in order to maintain the business, and get it up and running.

T.m.a. is demonic. I saw it in her face years ago when I observed one of her pictures that she posed in with her husband. And the more dirt that this bitter bitch tries to do will just set her further and further back in the ground.