“Tunes” Of Harmony To The Universe


I feel a great freedom that comes along with the balance and alignment with the universe. The power to self express and to reflect back to us all of the essential benefits that life has to offer.

Elements that are suitable and fulfilling to the particular needs of any aspiring individual, corresponding to the aids of a better health and state of well-being.

I find in not being at all afraid to acknowledge and to display what I truly know, feel, or believe effectively welcomes in a change and opens up the doors to the reality that one naturally deserves.

One lives who they actually are by exuding their pure unrelenting energy out into the cosmic field what a very courageous thing to step out onto the limb of chance reaching far away past to an area that is out of grasp, out of sight, then taking that jump into atmospheric range, a giant leap into faith.

An unwavering account of risk, dare to go to the edge. Dare to face the challenge of testing the waves, rowing in the tides, demanding the rewards of fate.

Going that extra mile actually minimizes the distance allowing the separated part of one’s self to connect and to find infinite validation through compatibility.

The outer part of self can only recognize and return to the inner part once confirmation is identified, authenticated by truth.

If sections of one are hidden from their other missing pieces how or why should they find or even come back together as a whole?

Who wants to live in collision with one’s own self? Not me. I wouldn’t.

The great and beautiful lesson that I have learned is the more that I take advantage of delighting in being real, in being myself. In putting myself above the restrictions of what is supposedly permitted by the world.

I embrace the permission to not permit the world to limit to me and to my phenomenal outcomes.



True Words Of Wisdom/Food For Thought

682205_a_roseNow I do not and have never liked a liar. And I do not appreciate being lied upon so I can relate to anyone who would get pissed off by certain untruths yet when one is genuinely innocent then they have nothing at all to worry about.

Even if one has beliefs, behavior, or a lifestyle that others see as wrong or do not approve of. It does not matter what others think of us it only matters what we truly think of ourselves.

I can understand it when someone takes up for their self, stands up for their self, defends their self, and so on. Any self dignified person with backbone should automatically be inspired to do so if the circumstances are justified and calls for it. Even if one just needs to let off that steam.

It is one thing to fight back reasonably or to state an experience to continuously share due to the realities and discoveries of life.

It is an entirely whole different situation when one goes out of their way to try to prove them self. Especially when they know that they are guilty.

It is deep how when certain people tell lies on others it is supposed to be alright (speaking in general). As soon as others tell the truth on them though they cannot handle it.

That is the difference between a liar and a truth teller.

In most instances an honest person who is lied on does not care about what others believe and will not try to convince anyone of anything because they do not have to.

A deceptive person on the other hand will eventually hang themselves by their own constant guilt. The perpetuating tortures of being eaten up inside. Eaten alive.

Caught up into the strings of their own raggedy ropes. Their own ties that loosely bind.

Before they even realize it they are already strapped in a full rip of holes. All tore up, bound, and gagged out.


Significance Of The Caul/A Caulbearer That Cannot Be Defeated

1397581_front_porchThe Trials And Truths Of A Caulbearer

My Love And Light

Update (December 16, 2020):

Indeed I have never been defeated only because of God, and because I have always belonged to God.

Everything I write is genuine as I speak from the truth of my life, mind, and experiences, however the Lord came to me to reveal his true self over the misconception and anger I had toward him.

The Lord summoned me seven months back I wrote just a few examples here as there are plenty more!: God’s Summon, The Lord Never Abandons Us, My Roots, Idol Worship And New Age, Counterfeit Christians And The Truth About Salvation.

I am leaving posts up on my blogs in which I spoke very negatively about God because I have nothing to hide and because I feel it is a great testimony to show before and after how the Lord can come into- or back into- our hearts and change us toward him for the better. –latoya lawrence

Significance Of The Caul/A Caulbearer Who Can’t Be Defeated 


I came across some old comments that I had saved but never approved because they were so ridiculously transparent.

Full of envies, jealousies, and disappointments as to my success as a “special person” and as to the successes within my life as a “survivor”. As a great accomplished (continuing to push forward and prevail regardless of obstacles set before me by enemies) individual with strength, confidence, growth, and much knowledge.

This person in particular who addressed me rather arrogantly and bitterly in a comment was particularly responding to the one and only post regarding the Caul that I had copied and pasted to share for public observance August 26, 2007 http://www.caulbearer.org Order Of The Ancient Way which was removed by wordpress since the owners of the site did not approve of the sharing of their content.

Anyway, this person specifically who I speak of had not read anything else other than this particular post that I had copied regarding being born with the caul.

They had not bothered to read any of the over one hundred prior posts that I had written concerning my life and experiences with the world distinctly and in general.

So when they mentioned that much of what I wrote about caulbearers they had seen on other sites-it was indeed a big fat lie! I did not write the post listed by “Order Of The Ancient”. Nothing but a game that they tried to run on me.

Later came Shannon Lee wolf (Sharon Lassiter) who tried the same thing and failed (But she went a step further by falsely accusing me of plagiarism. And only to draw attention primarily toward herself). The only problem now is that she continues to come to my site to steal my content, facts, experiences, and style of writing (which cannot be duplicated) to put into her own words and to claim as her very own material just like she did with the other particular members of her phony caulbearers united website.

All credit for anything that Shannon writes goes to I and to all the other “true caulbearers” that she has stolen input from. I guarantee that she will not get far. Everyone who is on the level knows the truth about her. Even the certain people around her are aware of her fraudulent schemes-trust me!

This person accused me of purposely attempting to drum up admiration. In reality this person was just infuriated by the attention that I was getting on my site. Jealous, resentful people do not like to see others who are talented do well in the things that they were meant to do.

I am a writer, a messenger, a speaker of truth.

If people are inspired to compliment me or to look up to me that is purely their prerogative. I have absolutely nothing to do with that. If a bunch of people were coming to my blog constantly criticizing me would I have been accused of trying to purposely drum up that type of attention? I think not, so please spare me the bullshit.

People have admired me and my works all through out my life and for many reasons just like many of us congratulate or compliment others who we take pleasure or resource in.

Whether one “praises” or “ridicules” it has no bearing on me.

I am not here to please or to disturb anyone. I am here because I have just as much right as anyone else to live my life and to fulfill out my purpose.

I am not obligated to serve anybody’s “God of the bible”. He is not my Lord or my commander.

My caul birth serves for my own well being as an individual of my own existence of where I come from, who I am, and where I belong.

And no one will ever violate that. No one will ever dictate to me what my life and birth truly signifies within the terms of lifestyle or celestial means.

My worth is not based on the service from me to others.

I am not here to serve anyone. I have no obligation but to myself. I am obligated to love myself, to respect myself, and to be all that I was created to be.

I am one of the very few of my kind who weren’t able to be converted or destroyed by the demonic and their negative disguises and influences. Part of my purpose is for the survival of what I am a representation of.

And through my self service of naturally exercising and utilizing my gifts to enhance my life and profession certain others are able to benefit within certain areas if they choose to, or if they find it useful to their own state of being.

The so called “will” of “God” does not apply to me as I gratefully and fortunately am not of him.

“God” is demonic. I know this for a fact. There are a lot of lies and brainwashes going on out within the world that only a person like me is able to see, feel, hear, know, interpret, and understand. Certain revelations are not meant for just anyone.

All caulbearers are not of one another. They all do not use their knowledge or ability in the same exact method. All do not even have the same beliefs or interests into the occult. Many have different roads, genealogical roots, and are connected to specific spiritual dimensions. And many are very powerful in their abilities and in what they do.

Some caulbearers are just extraordinary people living ordinary lives. And if they follow or believe in “God” it does not necessarily make them bad people. Neither does it make those born without cauls any less good or important in their existence.


Of course, those who oppose the God of the bible will come under ignorant conclusions and judgements by many. It does not bother or affect me at all. It just makes me the more proud and determined.

This person who left the comment also mentioned obeying “Gods’ instruction to stay on the right path.

It is very sad that some choose and need a sad book like the bible in order to know the true difference between what is right and what is genuinely wrong according to their particular nature.

God is just a sick, irresponsible, cowardly spirit who continually wants and needs to be praised and worshipped for his own gratification or self satisfaction.

If one is truly pure in mind and spirit according to their own particular nature guidance, direction, inspiration and truth will innately manifest and lead one down along their correct or destined path. I know. This has been my way for all of my life because of who I genuinely belong to, and I have lived an extremely good life.

That is why I have always constantly come under attack ever since childhood.

Christianity and no other religion will ever strip away the true identity or spirituality that comes from my true African origin.

“Spirit has always been with me”. “Spirit came to me on it’s own”. My ancestors and Orishas have been with me from the beginning and they will continue to be with me til the end. I am gratefully of them.

I don’t give a fuck about the “god” of the bible and I am tired of hearing about him. He gets no credit from me just pure contempt.

My life runs so happily, so peacefully, and so smoothly. Only when he’s around and trying to intercede with his demonic presence and demonic believers, servants, or followers does conflict arise.

I remember when my so called Godmother (who my mother picked out for me during my christening as a baby in a catholic church. And who I have no regard for. She was a dopefiend in the past as well as one who was down with the rest of my enemies).

Lorraine had the nerve to tell me that I defeated all of my enemies with black magic because I always kept the ways of God.

Lorraine’s statement was one of the biggest insults to me (I had never told her or went into detail about how I defeated my enemies. “They are all shocked and surprised, they don’t understand how you did it” Lorraine had said to me at that particular time).

They believed more in their own God more than they should have!-I say.

I know tricks that none of them knew about. Not even the certain person that I worked with. I did the rest alone. And within the present I still work alone with my “spiritual connection”.

I, Latoya, having lived a clean life had absolutely nothing to do with me adhering to the laws or rules of God. I defeated my enemies because I and what is around me is much more stronger and much more powerful than them and what they are.

And God played a big part in my enemies black magic as they were and are all demonic.

Some people have such a twisted and misguided view of the influence of their perceived God, actually believing that we as humans cannot be of any good or of any significant value without him. Nothing but pure bullshit!

I am the way that I am not because of the God of the bible. If I was I’d be in serious trouble!

I am the way that I am because it is within my own nature. Strong, honest, and free with no shame or apologies.

The circumstances around my very existence estimates the true value of my worth and I have plenty of experiences to validate every aspect. So the only one’s that defy and fool themselves are the ones who are in denial and who are blinded by their own ignorance and lack of acuity.

Here is the comment that was sent to me on my blog back in the year of 2008

From Caul/Veil, 2008/05/28 at 2:19 PM
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Furthermore?LaToya, you should question yourself and your inner motives. I see a lot of people praising you here, but you would do much better to help others see what they need to know for themselves. Praise will be a downfall

As a caulbearer, you have a gift of ability and certain attributes that others do not. But you should take care of those. God?s instruction to you through the Bible still applies, and you are not exempt from being contaminated by self agrandizement of free will. The Caul itself is not an ends to a means. It is a means to do good. How you choose to use your abilities is what makes those profitable -spiritually profitable- to others, and should be done without acknowledgement of your self.
You can fool yourself. You can deify yourself. I know. And you have to take great care in listening to God, to know that you are staying on the right path.
Much of what you write about Caulbearers I have seen on other sites. But I don?t need to see that to know that I am different, that somehow I know more, that somehow I can sometimes heal. Just remember, you need God to do all of these things, with the caul or without.

And here is the other comment that was more recent from last year. This one however, was motivated by the connection that had to do with a post regarding Shannon Lee Wolf. If one takes notice though they both are similarly related just different tactics “Just like the rest who’s names I will not mention”. They all had and have their different approaches yet some go away and leave it alone while others continue to effort in vain:

Submitted on 2012/10/02 at 2:30 am

For a hand- pickedt soldier of GOD you sure don’t mention him much . I do recall you talking alot about you’r self though. Seems like you need to take a few steps back and humble you’re self. You seem so full of light and so full of shit at the same time . My name is what you call me. I was born to anwser his call as well. You spend a lot of time on the computer I see . The world needs you. If you have gifts I can promise they were not ment for you to gain “fans” . Instead of promoting “you” or other negetive light why not ask that people go sign up to donate Blood Marrow . Or ask that people in need of someone to talk to e-mail you . You get my point of course . See you’ll probably want to fire back at some grammer error or get ignorant in some way but the truth is GOD . Email all retarded comments to HIM and ill take the positive ones 😉 Also what point is it to have us unite ? That just means a higher chance of some one feeling there self a little to much ( happens some times ) and trying to be some leader or something like that. Our gifts don’t need anyone but …. take a guess …Yep ..!! GOD!! ..

Both comments from demonic creatures who I laugh at without pity. They do not realize what they show. I know what they are, the people who they are affiliated with and so on. Most of the time they are looking for a response, a reaction to aid them out within the mission that they have planned (all in which I can see right on through). For so many of them they sure aren’t too bright-but after all that is why there is so many of them! The blind leading the blind.

The Visions/The Messages/The Knowledge

I Am Blessed So Keep Your God To Yourself


Illumination: Self Love, Self Respect, Self Enlightenment

1235759-200I love myself dearly, madly. I always have, I always will. There is nothing that anyone can do to change that. Self love and self-worth is an esteem that comes from within. No one is able to give it, and no one is able to take it away when the regard is truly genuine.

I have never battled with or suffered from a low self-esteem which is a good thing.

However, not everybody is secure enough within themselves and they act out in particular ways as a result of their own feelings of discontentment.

There is a difference between depression, disgruntlement, or dissatisfaction over longing for a better circumstance and craving for something in which that someone does not have.

Life can be difficult and unfair at times especially at attaining the certain desires that one deserves, earns, and/or in retrieving the specific things that may have been stolen from one.

No one is in the exact same mood every single day.

There is happiness, sadness, indifference, ambivalence, anger, regret, guilt and so on. Whatever energy or emotion that may be negatively or positively plaguing any individual that is affected by a moment, an instance, and a change and also depending on a person’s own innate personality or character traits and flaws.

These mixtures of feelings are a natural part of life here on earth.

Yet not everybody takes the hopeless approach by giving up or giving in to despair. Many people have a very healthy and inspiring attitude toward a trial or during a challenge.

They are motivated to go forward. They learn then gain from their experience and they take that passion to use constructively.

Others on the other hand are not so optimistic; some are full of doubts or irrational fears. They lack the confidence and the initiative that it takes to become successful in whatever venture that they may choose and that they may want to undertake.

It is a fact though that many people do have shortcomings and will never be able to grow, evolve, or to measure up to the certain standards. These types of people are the exact same kind of individuals who will try to bring people of advantage down to their level, or lower below.

Low self-esteem to many is equal to a misery. And misery indeed does love to have company. The self loathing, self-hatred is so debilitating that it causes a vile and morbid jealousy. An extreme malignant stimulation to react in accordance to envious provokes.

It sounds so absurd to me, truly ridiculous, but there are low-grade people now in the current who are actually upset with me for not having been able to reduce my high self-esteem.

The specific things that they see within and without of me is something that many of them wish that they had.

My wonderful and natural attributes what they all resent me for.

If my personal disposition was a little kinder in regards to their state of existence then the hunger to see me fall and fail would not be so intense. Nevertheless, I have to be authentic.

I cannot and I will not put on any airs. I am real to the core and I refuse to let up on being true to the tides even if it is, or appears to be a bit harsh.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with recognizing or acknowledging one’s own ability and capability. We are supposed to take notice of our strengths and fiercely believe in ourselves. If we did not hold onto that faith we would not have accomplished half of the things that we have, and then continuously strive for more or to just maintain whatever it is that we already have.

Those who have a false or exaggerated opinion of their own self importance are just vain and pompous individuals with no depth or genuine purpose. There is usually no radiant talent behind what is merely done for show. One who needs to constantly “prove” or “parade” is just very insecure.

There is nothing more meaningful and fulfilling than when “spirit” places one into the forefront an instrument to draw out and play to those who are particularly “tuned in”.

When I was a little girl I was always very blunt and outspoken. I knew I was and would be a professional writer. I never in a million years thought though that I would be celestially inspired to shamelessly express information, messages, and creativity so openly through my literature.

It just goes to reveal that one never knows the adventurous turns that may be routed through out a dynamic spiritual journey or mission.

I truly enjoy what I do. I never get embarrassed or feel self conscious about any of my ventures. I just feel love, excitement and proudness for the beauty that has continued to blossom and surround me over my courageous years of exploration and development.

The confidence is innate, contagious. I spread it to those who I also love and who I am absolutely proud of.

There are some people who are so low in the opinions of themselves for no apparent reason. They just need someone who can see the glorious light that shines upon and within them. The passions that burn yet that is buried underneath the evils of blockages.

The smothers of darkness that proceed to hold one back from breathing out their striking forces of mind-blowing wind.

All that one really has to do is to ignore the blinders that opposition places over, and focus straight into true sight. There in that particular view reality will be seen. Shadows of obstruction or hindrance will began to fade to clear away all of the lies and smudges of deceit.

As soon as one rediscovers then accepts what is no longer hidden from the shades that had lurked, sheer brightness will sheen, glistening with new life, new direction, and a brand new clarification of a tremendous design.

And nothing and no one will ever be able to cloud this type of luminous visibility.