So Sweet

accessories“She had coffee, I had tea, that little old lady was so sweet to me”.

Last Sunday afternoon on the twenty first of February I got a call on short notice from my job to do an overnight twelve hour shift but unfortunately I was unable to go. Then Wednesday I got another call on short notice asking if I could do a two day twelve hour night shift case yet again I was unavailable for that specific day but I informed that I was able to attend to the case for the next day so everything was settled.

On Thursday morning I was offered another case along with the case that I was already scheduled to go to and I accepted.

The first case was a twelve hour overnight the second was a double overnight and day shift. Then I was told that the first case was cancelled because the supervisors did not want me overworked without getting enough rest (so darn considerate I really appreciated that even though I was ready willing and able and have done far more loads of straight long hours of assignments within the past. I’ve been on jobs within the past whereas managers would try to take advantage of me just because they knew that I was a good reliable worker).

One of the nurses drove me over and out to the facility to where I was going to perform my duties as we were to meet with the administrative employees. There are a multiple of locations affiliated with my workplace establishment within the different areas and it is a great personal and professional experience.

These residential assisted living facilities are extremely high maintenance (no exaggeration) even more beautiful than the other ones that I have worked within and my client was a very lovely lady we hit it off instantly.

She insisted on buying me breakfast, lunch and dinner for the entire time that I was there with her and she refused to let me pay for my own food or reimburse her for what she had charged to her room and/or account.

My client told me that she really appreciated me being there and watching over her and that she knows that I work hard for my money, and she had just met me. I told her that it was my job to look after her she told me to be quiet!

She told me that at first she didn’t want or think that she was going to need an assistant but after she met me she said that she was glad that I came and that I was there.

Sometimes we don’t even realize how we influence people and the positive impact that we may have on their lives no matter how big and how small.

I’ve always got along with people who were older than me those individuals in particular who were on the level I have been very blessed.

I left to go to work on Friday afternoon and just got back home after eleven p.m. last night I worked a total of thirty one hours.

Epitome

lone flowerI was inspired to write this entry due to the many interesting private as well as public messages in regard to the issue of the veil.

As I do not consistently have the time to respond to all within a timely period and do not entertain phony bits of deliberate mechanism I also do not have time for any bullshit and I detest those who want to pretend that they were born with a caul when they know darn well that in reality they were actually not. And the ones that dearly wish that they were yet cannot accept that they weren’t-no matter how much one would love to believe in whatever it is that would satisfy their fancy-that distorted belief itself will not bring about the production of event.

Life is about actuality not fallacy. I hate copycats and I ten times more hate manipulative liars.

I come from generations of power as I am the epitome of one literally having been born with the veil and when one is actually born under those special circumstances there will be someone within this life time who will indeed be able to recognize and verify that legitimacy, which I have said on more than one occasion will also make any of us a natural candidate for being a target.

I do not at all like ignorant stereotypes or generalizations I like authenticity within all forms even if that may defy what is limited within the scope of another individuals knowledge and/or experience.

softI am tired of false imitations of what others believe is to be expected within and among those of a specific classification due to the fact that they simply are not familiar with the range in which inborn tendency can operate.

When individuals contact me I wish some of them didn’t feel that they have to live up to the accustomed outline of what they think being a caulbearer represents, truth and originality is all that it takes not what is popularly heard or mirrored.

It is actually the minority that stands out as I have never understood why anyone would complain of the attributes and conditions that may transpire within the life of a person born with a veil I wouldn’t have life any other way because the spiritual life is the absolute best living arrangement in my opinion but that determination has to come with true discernment.

After all, it is not the talents or gifts of intuition and association with the other worldly that makes life at times especially hard or difficult it is the types of people and universal demonic influence that bring about complication.

I feel that some fear actually coming out and revealing their supernatural circumstances and experiences on account of the judgment and ignorance of others who are not legitimate to begin with. I also feel that some are self conscious as to the details of their situations and would rather just sit back and observe rather than to take part and express their revelations and that is one hundred percent alright if they choose to everyone is not meant to divulge their information and it is not always necessary.

lone rosesThere are individuals that are comfortable talking and corresponding with me as I have never been afraid to challenge and go out side the box with my way of being and thinking and state of genuineness, I am free and apathetic to those, if any, that are opposed to a manner of possibility and truth in which they are not able to deal with and that opens up the doorways for certain others to feel comfortable enough to come forward about.

There is no need to shy away from unconventionality or individuality.

 

Natural Capacity:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2013/04/18/natural-capacity/)

Truth And Trials Of A Caulbearer:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2013/05/22/the-trials-and-truths-of-a-caulbearer/#comment-482)

 

 

kay allen Hi i recently found out ive been born with a veil that explains why Baphomet is always watching me and i have been blocked all my life by my sister who i found out is a witch also my mom.how do we get out of the hand of the enemy
misslatoya
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In reply to kay allen.If one is truly of the light then you are never actually within the hand of any spiritual or physical enemy you are just within a battle that you will have to overcome by conquering the negativity (and negative energy) that may be around or surrounding you (you should never consider yourself as a victim/the word victim should only be used as a figure of speech).

If you actually consider yourself a helpless victim then you will be. Having someone attack you should instantly make you want to fight back (that is just my nature and my perspective).

Even if at first or for most of your life you have not been aware of having been born with a veil there should be a significant indication of preternatural occurrences depending on the levels of strengths that are developed upon within your talents through experience.

So what I am saying is whether or not you were aware of being born with a veil, and if you were paying attention, (how could anyone not as that is what one is as a gifted person you have to notice the things about yourself especially when those things differ greatly from within others) there had to be a connection as well as recognition even if you were unable to put your finger on it.

So through out all of what you have picked up about and within yourself and have been able to interpret, use that, and add that on to what you have come to know now (being born with the “knowing power” because that is what it means to be born with the veil it is the gift of second-sight imparting one with luck and a link to the spirit realm there are all kind of special things that go along with being born in that fashion and I know this for a fact as I was born with the caul from the head and face all the way down to the nape of the neck my caul was perfectly intact due to my mother having had a cesarean section and I came out with the perfect head I was asked as I got older if I had chewed the caul because it is said that if you swallow the remnants of the caul or through a solution from it that it will protect one from seeing bad spirits only good ones one would be able to see.

I know all about these things my doctor and a few of the nurses knew what the caul birth meant too, anyway, that was back in the 70’s) and as you discover and evolve you will automatically find the answers and the correct judgment within the next route to take, however, ahead of anything, you must face truth and then live within your own truth and not let anyone discourage you (no one will be able to cause discouragement as long as there is strong foundation within yourself) as you can follow nobody else’s path but your very own.

You will be able to conquer whatever comes your way if you are “properly” aligned and in balanced with the universe in a “favorable” mode yet that only comes through particular destiny.

Poise

 

swing againTo dwell within a state of a defined and aligned fulfillment what exactly is wrong with that superbly ordained commitment?

As I take swings back and forth beyond the shadows going to and from the mysteries that open up the many of my windows I enjoy the inexplicable nature of my ride that is out of the ordinary for anyone to most commonly describe.

The animation of my soul is not brought forth here as a source within a vessel to control, I am not created for anyone to mold.

The firm strings and board of lane through out the valley of passageway that I comfortably sway upon wherein lead me deep down into the mountains and unto the hills that from above I go therein.

So lucky to have come into contact with you, something that did not happen out of the blue, too good too be true, the things that you can do.

Oh, what I feel for you, if you only knew.

swingIt was guaranteed for us to stay I will never go away.

Too good to be true, oh the love that I have for you, never imagined it could be this way even though you promised me this day, I don’t worry about tomorrow because with you there is no sorrow, too good to be true you are my dream come new.

latoya lawrence

 

Love Letter:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/02/20/love-letter/)

Orisha Oshun:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/19/orisha-oshun/)

Higher Consciousness:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/11/higher-consciousness-2/)

 

 

Tramp

blindfoldEverywhere that I go there have always been males who were very attracted to me all through out my life and still till this day yet I was never fazed by the circumstance. It had made no difference to me as I was very secure and wasn’t romantically interested in anyone in no way whatsoever.

Of course, there are males who can find a female attractive and give her a compliment without having any romantic or sexual intentions behind their observation. I’ve experienced that situation on many of occasion with males and even females who had approached me genuinely out of the kind propensity to express their own opinion.

A lot of people do it “Oh, he or she is so cute”, “Hey gorgeous”, and so on.

Some of that nonsense is at times also bullshit that people use both by men and women in order to flatter and/or to court for reasons that are calculating (some even do it just for fun to cruelly or trivially mock someone) as I have heard and witnessed the most unattractive of beings get called “beautiful” which in a variety of obvious fashions is considered to be pretty within appearance to many, including me.

I could never help whatever male that it was that had became attracted to me it wasn’t my fault especially the ones that were married or already involved within a type of relationship of one or more, however, when their female counterparts catch wind of their mate’s wandering eye and act out upon it within an irrational manner that is an entirely different story completely.

I remember how the assistant manager of a department store where I once worked at was extremely attracted to me and had desired me sexually he was so nervous one time that he had stumbled upon his words as we were talking. He was a married man who’d cheat on his wife but I just took advantage of the position within the store that he had the power to give to me and kept everything on a strictly professional level as I received good recognition on the job for being an exceptional employee whereas other females of a trashy nature would have flirted back and have been gratified and able to have been cajoled.

shoesThe assistant manager was not a good man but he knew that I was not the kind that was “idle” or apt to fall for any superficially inspired game and I do give him the benefit of the doubt for giving me the proper credit that I did deserve in my workplace.

Other degenerate cheats that hooked up with unattractive weak-minded whores that had taken their insecurities out on me I would never give any type of regard to as most of them liked to perpetuate a situation by playing the roles of instigator since I did not want or desire any of them at all.

Instead of laying blame on their own partner that they were sexually linked to or involved with they’d entertain the hunger to unreasonably “have it out with me” (they actually knew better than to come up and approach me) even though I didn’t personally know any of them all. Skanky males always recruit chicks that are dumber than they are in order to train and manipulate them through their own flaws of vulnerability.

These whores with low self esteem allow themselves to be pimped (used and abused) and propositioned. Isn’t it also something how women with derogatory backgrounds have the nerve to downgrade other woman with no history of promiscuous behavior by indeed calling them whores, and their equally warped male counterparts treating their sluts with more respect than they would toward a decent woman merely because their whores cater to their every whim and feed into the core of their outrageous male egos?

I recall a girl that got a job where I worked just to get a look at me because she knew that her man was interested in me and her “player” of a boyfriend constantly fed off of her lack of self confidence. She broke her neck to catch glimpses of me and one day grabbed a paper towel, threw it in the garbage, and then walked out of the employee bathroom the moment she spotted me up at the sink washing my hands after I had used the toilet.

see throughShe was so intimidated by me that she didn’t even use the rest room, knowing that she had to pee, and wiping her hands upon entering into the bathroom without even had wet or washed her hands, later on she passed by the area in which I worked within for me to see her.

At the end of our shift we happened to had ridden the same public bus together and I got a good look of her. Two days later she fought with her boyfriend as she was jealous over me. Instead of being worried over me she should have been more concerned over the job that she was unable to keep. This female only had worked two days spaced apart every other week yet could not hold up the position that she obviously must have not been qualified for.

After I encountered her once more there at the job (she gave me a phony smile of greeting) she disappeared and I never saw her again from then on.

Oh, how these tramps let the men in their lives make the most absolute fools out of them?

 

Lust Spell:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/02/22/lust-spell/)

 

Karma

fluffI almost am not able to define the contentment that is and that has been around me for quite some time now as it has become even more recently heightened and relevant.

While karma has come back to hit me with a powerful blow of ecstasy it is intangible and all so well sowed. I am heavily reaping the rewards of a life and spirit that has reported back to me as being indisputably well done, especially under the many situations that I’ve succeeded to overcome.

It feels so wonderful to be at peace and to genuinely have a peace of mind, all of the things that go along with this deep and meaningful state of euphoria.

I have really been taught another in depth lesson as to how the life that I lived and how the person that I am and that I have become and that I have been for so many years, and by birth, has contributed to the beautiful sensations that I am able to and that I have inevitably come to feel.

These reactions are through circumstances that are impossible to forge because they are indigenous from the laws of life itself.

It is not always about what we do within life but why we do the things that we do and what the motivation is behind our thoughts and within our actions and if we are pure and innocent or honorable within intent then we shall all benefit from the results of our conduct and anything that may have been unjustly stolen from us will thoroughly and generously be replaced once again.

It is also not about living a certain way solely to gain divine commendation but to just live sincerely and let nature weigh out all the scales of balance because that is when and where true fortune is decided by and upon.

I am able to put into sentence and speak all of these self inspired words through my own present and past of experience and I am truly proud and ever so grateful as within all of my own actual works and writings to have the ability to be unique, authentic and completely original in my expression.

I give much praise and veneration to what has natively surrounded and endowed unto me and unto the others within the world who are impacted by knowledge and vision firsthand.

Having peace within life and within one’s self is absolutely priceless as it cannot be bought or brought on by countless amount of dollars and the lime lights of any empty portals of fame, being rich and famous alone does not bring about happiness but if one truly is happy inside then one is able to enjoy all of what is around them no matter how big or how small and no matter how comforting or discomforting.

sleepThere are a lot of people within society who are at utter stages of confusion and disorder and are unable to cope with their situation without the use of drugs and other type of stimulant crutches of preference and dependence, living a life without much guilt and/or regret is a totally foreign concept to grasp for them all and the aspects drastically interfere with their quality of living.

With peace of mind comes advantage a favorable consistency that allows one to remain undisturbed within a world full of considerable disturbance.

There is no better position in life than being secured that definite and assured feeling of safety and ease even when there is always a possible chance of danger as we live in the most unstable of times yet there still is no worry.

 

Planted Seeds:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/19/planted-seeds/)

Elated:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/02/05/elated/)

Peace, Power, Purity and Protection:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2013/06/10/peace-power-purity-and-protection/)

An Accurate Message:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2013/06/14/so-nice-i-just-had-to-sharean-accurate-message-2/)

 

 

 

On The Go

sweet delightRegardless of how hectic the chores of life may bring or become we must always find the time to take care of our selves in the ways that are fit within harmony to our own specific conditions.

When one constantly works the extra long overtime hours that I usually do it is very important to eventually get the adequate amount of sleep as well as the nourishment to eat.

Depending on the circumstances I do not always have the time to prepare my own food at home after I come from work and I rarely pack up food to take with me to my job as it serves as an inconvenience to me since I am particular about sanitary practices within environments inhabited by multiple parties.

I do not like using the shared refrigerators and microwaves that are often shared as they are occasionally unclean and/or disorderly and if I were to store my outside brought food inside of any public appliance I’d securely cover and wrap my items up within Tupperware along with a plastic bag.

So most of the time I will just bring a already unopened snack and purchase a beverage out of the vending machine for during a meal break yet there are also the times where I could go to a nearby store or market that was located near my workplace and buy some fresh fruit salad, hero/round roll sandwich, crackers and so on.

Even restaurants I would sometimes visit or order from if my workplace was not surrounded by any stores and eateries that I preferred to occupy or patronize.

As I am already particular about what I eat and where I eat from nowadays I do not really seek to eat out from restaurants unless it is a day when I know that I hadn’t consumed anything at all and I am not able to hold out for a later time. I am even more so specific about eating out now because I’d rather cook my own grocery shopped and freshly made foods.

If I do eat out from restaurants I am sure to limit my orders to healthy vegetables and salads that I love without the worry of possible disagreeable added ingredients that are normally found in cuisines that are not particularly health conscious of the dishes that are made.

It made me so happy this time around this last past week up until the present how my travel period allowed me to have the time to home prepare and eat my own favorite meals while also having some time left over to chill out at my residence aside from the pampers of taking a nice hot shower.

Even before I arrived home in the morning I still had time to run a few errands if needed be, I was blessed and felt so very good. And I still have that natural unconditional exhilaration.

time to eatWhen the body is kept equip and supplied with the proper and beneficial necessary fuel the constitution in return reciprocates. It is like my body is programmed to fit into my favorably demanding schedules as I am never off balanced or too tired to function accordingly to my job requirements.

I am consistently alert and graceful within presence and attitude.

When I do get home I don’t even fall asleep right away or even at all, to be honest, little periods of in between natural meditations serve as essential within the rejuvenation process. Those significant intervals are lifesaving and propelling.

Even though I have a steady yet fast paced workload and adventurous life I still keep up to date on the news and the situations in relation to my maintenance otherwise I do not have the time for much of anything else, although, I do enjoy my writing!

I treasure the free time that I do get to have when the moments call for it no matter how long or how short the duration and I treasure my rest and the nights of overdue sleep when tiredness sneaks by to creep and gently fall upon me.

 

 

Sustenance:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/06/sustenance/)

Red Lobster Versus Home Cooking:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2013/03/16/red-lobster-versus-home-cooking/)

Busy Bee

bee“Hey, that’s me! I’ve been a very busy bee, out hard earning my money while still managing to be a sweet little honey”. Now I can get a little rest before I move on to the next of my conquests”.

I’ve been gracefully buzzing around within activity and continuity.

I worked a twelve hours a consecutive six day night shift assignment that began from last Thursday to yesterday, not to mention on the first day of my arrival my schedule had began in the afternoon with nineteen hours during the entire day through out unto the next morning so I had an additional seven hours added onto my initial twelve hours yet I do have to admit that I honestly enjoyed every bit of my job as I had an equally wonderful client to manage over.

I do not take on anything that I am unable to handle and with my track record within the variety of my working field there is no supervisor or manager from my past and/or present that would deny that I am a very good and dependable worker with a lot of skill and energy, and my natural efforts have not went unrecognized so far.

The weather was terrible in between last week and now as it has eased up a bit toward the end of my travel back and forth but I made it thoroughly and safely out of my borough of queens to long island that was not too far away from home, and that is all that is really important.

honey toastI love to live a life of peace and contentment and when one is a truly good and faithful dedicated person of their own life and spirituality even through hardships we do not get negatively affected by any tribulation or change and we immensely reap the prizes of accomplishments that were well done.

 

Energizer:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/29/energizer/)

The Resourceful:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/22/the-resourceful/)

 

Shield Of Armors

evil and darknessAbout a weekend ago around the fifth and sixth of this February month I was at home and could literally “feel” and discern the thoughts and verbal utterances among the number of my adversaries. I felt the same negativity repeat this past week falling into the weekend (twelfth and thirteenth of this month) yet to a lesser extent as they had a malignant plan within the scope and within their making.

Friday night into Saturday morning I had received a “very funny feeling” that was around me and that was heightened as to alert me as to something that just was not right.

My adversaries were ultra pissed off and severely disappointed within me due to the fact that I absolutely and without a doubt have no regard for any of them whatsoever.

All of their efforts in their attempts to cause my destruction through their past and continual lies, schemes of manipulation, and so on, have tremendously failed because of my analytical and intellectual vigor, my extremely resilient mind and spirit, my definite uncaring attitude of what they or others may say or think about me, and my sufficient foundation of  spiritual purpose.

My foes that are very low within character and that are highly intimidated and envious of mine were all so eaten up inside, and as they were constantly eaten up alive they had also become even more rancorous and inspired to “discipline” me as my apathetic nature and firm sense of self, along with my additional infuriating stubborn distinctions, catered to them all as just “another serious of a problem”.

By my unique and natural modes of mentality they were and are unable to defeat me and that is again a “big problem” in their sick minds, and within their evil eyes.

plant lifeOn Sunday, February 14 St Valentines Day, at exactly 10:04 p.m. I had sat comfortably in a chair at the facility in which that I worked as something had suddenly hit down within the seat of the chair right behind my tush.

Instantly I had known what the occurrence was and what it was meant to bring.

It was a sign of action intended by the onset of “Brujeria” which I have experienced within the past that was currently unable to come into fruition and boy were they so very angry, confused and afraid. Afterward, my adversaries were also disappointed in how they were unable to persuade certain other individuals to join within their lies and within their indulgence into witchcraft many people have for a while now been on to them.

People are not falling for their lies the way that they use to and not everybody did to begin with.

It was just three weeks ago that my enemies attempted to cross me up within my paths through this same type of mode of evil as I could sense and feel the warnings of the deliberate condition that they had wanted and tried to set before me. The only hindrance that they continuously fail to understand though is no other than their own utter state of ignorance.

They’ve on many occasion struggled to break down my shield but I am a congenital whirlwind of barrier.

Brujeria cannot, and will “never” ever again touch and/or battle up against me. I myself am a protection, the sources around and within me are a protection, the universal aspects that surround the planes of life that are around and within the vibration of force radiate protection.

I laugh harshly at all the inferior low life of fools that honestly believed that through out all of their own shortcomings and envies and jealousies and previous triumphs or attempts at and over the other more fortunate and guiltless of souls that they could just conveniently go run and resort to the aides of surreptitious deceptive witchcraft in order to get the undeserved solutions of their own selfish and unjustifiable way.

candlesThey may have destroyed other people in particular on other specific terms as to their false sense of access to easy measurements to control, however, they cannot win and have not won them all because I am an individual who is here and who is plenty of aware, and I am also one of whom that is within genuine fierce effect, an inborn power that is of a significant and natural of means.

There are us who are especially chosen spiritual warriors within our own right we are out there and we refuse to let the evil prevail among us, and we dare anyone of a demonic nature to try to blow out our flames of divine glow as the darkness is never under any circumstance able to outshine or overpower the light.

 

No Alteration Through My Gratification:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/02/08/no-alteration-through-my-gratification/)

Skull:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/02/09/skull/)

Brujeria:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2012/01/29/brujeria/)

 

Urban Culture

uptown, down townA lot of my childhood was a blast and as I continue to take a “little blast into the past” I cannot leave out a bit of the joys and fun that had also come out from reading!

Of, course, there was Dr. Seuss, Babar (the elephant saga) and many more tales that were geared toward children, however, there was one particular series of books that stood out within it’s own right.

I first came upon the Bank Street Readers books when I was in the second grade and the very first piece of literature written or produced by them that I loved and owned was given to me by a seven year old male classmate, after I had brazenly asked him for it, titled Uptown Downtown.

When I asked him if I could keep the book, “can I have it” were my exact words, he had told me yes but to just take good care of the book and I promised him that I would.

I read Uptown Downtown over and over again until I had come upon the other wonderful editions of their great story books that were told for children.

And still, it was nice to go back and review the prior pages of reread literature after having possessed the other series that had followed behind.

As one of my very favorite variety of books that had made a positive impression on me the Bank Street Readers was so appealing within design as I considerably liked the artistry and style of the pages that went along with the different interesting short stories, other previously published original works (such as Cinderella) and anthologies even though I had not known back then that these books that I had simply just found creative and entertaining had a main intention within it’s depictions.

people readAnd that was the integration of multicultural backgrounds as well as settings that catered to children that were from the diverse yet familiar urban and economical backgrounds that they could relate to.

Among the other Bank Street Readers that I owned and that were of my favorites: City Sidewalks, Green Light Go, My City, Round The Corner, In The City and Around The City.

 

 

In Style

I literally within the present own over fifty brand new Barbie dolls that I had purchased nine years ago. They are stored away for safe keeping and as a lovely collection of my favorite childhood pastimes.

The numerous variety of Barbie paper dolls as well as Barbie dolls continue to have a place within my memory and heart that I will never forget as the days and nights at imagination and play had given me such great joy and preoccupation.

snow flakesI could not imagine not growing up without Barbie and the rest of her crew and luxury of accessories.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I Still Love Barbie (She Still Has It Going On):(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/i-love-barbie-she-still-has-it-going-on/)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Memories

memoriesAside from the malicious onsets and deliberate attacks that from time to time had come into the picture and that were strategized by the many of further plagued and disturbed of individuals I had quite an excellent and fulfilling childhood, upbringing and natural way of living.

It is nice to be able to look back upon the circumstances from the past that imperatively contribute to the quality and value of an experience that demonstrate a congruent result here now within the present.

I reflect so delightfully on occasion all of the beauty and fortunate aspects that I have encountered and that have assisted to produce within me the most precious chunks of who I am as a functioning human being.

I am proud of the background that spawned me, the influences that have taught me and for the rewards that have entertained me. I deeply know how to appreciate where I came from both from the parental and spiritual arrangement in which I was raised up within.

A quiet evening of reminiscing through old photos a while ago was very thrilling and inviting as there were a history of family stories and situations to be recalled, discovered and elaborated upon everything that was interesting had newly been told once again.

Just yesterday I had a jubilant moment reviewing the best of times that I’ve had through out the span and how those great periods of memory can never be taken away as it really made me think about the fantastic connection that still remains.

beansI even in a sense wanted go back and revisit the stages because they had brought up so much temporary nostalgia.

It was hard for me to not realize just how much love and attention I had gotten and received and how well provided for and well taken care of that I truly was both by my mother and by the spiritual elements of nature. I had even been lucky enough with the few special people who have come into my life and that had made a positive and significant impression.

I knew all along but I was recently able to acknowledge with clearer eyes the depth of where my inner combination of viability resides.

 

Elated

thank youI feel so good about myself as an individual and I am so very proud of who I am and of the woman that I have genuinely become through natural development and I cannot lie or deny that fact at all. 

I truly do like, love and respect myself and I am utterly satisfied as to where I do originate from within celestial state of being and occult lineage.

The identity that I was born with and that has expanded through out vital evolution will never be lost or stolen away from my possession.

Pure energy generates from within and radiantly exudes without.

Preservation:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/20/preservation/)

Illumination: Self Love, Self Respect:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2013/05/05/illumination-self-love-self-respect-self-enlightenment/)

The Ties That Mysteriously Bind

coffee and saucerI am not and have never been the jealous or envious type certain people, a lot in fact, have always been very jealous of me and all of this definite fact has not only been recognized by me but by many others who were cognizant of it at a time even before I myself was completely aware, they came and told me some even while I was still very young. I hadn’t even known the depth of envy and jealousy yet.

And with much experience growing up and then looking back I have examined and discerned with a “fine tooth comb” and yes it at times has burned me the fuck up how sick individuals have tried to maliciously interfere and to hold me back within life as well as they have tried and have also failed with others who were superior within their own leagues of existence.

I never dwelt on the ill will and ill intent of those who were inadequate because haters actually deep down inside hate themselves and I knew that they could never succeed within hindering me as I have always had too much fire and intelligence blazing inside of my own indestructible constitution.

I’d laugh at transparent manipulation tactics (ploys that were so obvious to me) and at the collaboration of those weak-minded souls who needed to desperately band together because by themselves they were never shit as they consistently gained their confidence (false sense of security) through the facades of their own pathetic little circles.

sweet treat heartsWhat I didn’t realize as a child as I do absolutely now is that everyone of those individuals have already and those who have accumulated along the way do reap much more worse than what they have sowed as at the first instant of dirty contemplation and deed it is “recorded” and “stored” for inevitable unbeknownst self reimbursement that automatically “tie” and “bind” here on earth and all to eternity.

Devious Contemplation:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/18/devious-contemplation/)

Zone

pavementAbout thirteen years ago when I traveled to another borough other than of my own for service as a standby juror I and a load of other people who were scheduled to be there at the Brooklyn courthouse was dismissed to take an hour lunch break after having had spent the entire morning awaiting to be directed up to one of the court appointed rooms as to be questioned by a judge for the possible selection of jury duty.

During recess, I and an escort who came to keep me company through out the whole boring day left out the building and walked down the streets to view the scenery and to kill some time.

When we reached an avenue full of stores and fast food restaurants my escort wanted to get something to eat so we headed on over to a burger king that had a block that was crowded full of people and we both could feel the dreariness that was within and all around the atmosphere as the tone also had a distinct appearance of gloom.

The negative energy that hovered over and that was settled within the place was abysmal.

When my escort received their order of food I suggested that we take a tour across the street over to the next block that was separated by a wide space of city road as the setting had refreshingly caught my eye it looked like the total opposite of where we were standing and it indeed was just like an entirely different environment once we had finally made it completely over there.

Even the class of people were different they were more like us, refined, and the block was kept up and quiet with only a small number of people strolling around and occupying the vicinity. There was a feeling of positive energy that my escort and I both enveloped from within the vibration nothing dreadful that compared to the revulsion that was noticed and felt upon just straight on over down across to the other street.

in the streetIt was as if hell was literally positioned on one side of a Brooklyn pavement and heaven was positioned and situated merely a short distance away without any intercede or connection.

The matter was thought provoking to us at the time and it is still till this day.

We reflected on how deep the circumstance was and how the situation proceeds within life in general all through the universe and how very lucky and blessed that we are to not share within that unfortunate “lot” (fate).

Yes, it definitely is a free country to a certain extent because none of us are utterly as free as we genuinely would love to be but those grim individuals did belong on their very “own side” of the block that catered more to their own suggestive negative energy that had lingered and spread about amid the location.

It is not healthy to be around and within the association of the conflicting energies of other human beings that one’s own spirit will not harmoniously take on to. One thing that I have learned from a youngster on up was that my body, mind and soul has never lied to me or has failed me yet, and with thorough investigation, and when gut instinct and intuitive warnings tug and nag in graveness, even with just a pinch, there is no room for doubt I naturally know to listen as they are fortunate blessings and they are “true blessings” for all who can profoundly hear the message.

I never reveal everything that I know as I am “in tune” and “set apart” within my own unconventional zone.

Silence Is Golden:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2013/06/10/silence-is-golden/)

 

Color Me Happy!

pebbles and bam bamWho didn’t have an adoration for coloring as a kid? I know that I did I absolutely loved the extremely pleasurable activity.

I had a host of different coloring books along with a bunch of other accessories to keep me a plenty of occupied during my childhood. All of the variety of toys and things that I had and played with were not only fun but they were also made of good quality, constructive and many of them were educational tools to build upon.

creative pencilsAs a very young creative individual coloring was a great form of self expression, aside from writing, the activity promoted a good sense of focus, the shaping of motor skills and the coordination of multiple color combination.

barbie and kidAs an a adult I am nowhere near ashamed to admit that I would love to pick up a coloring book again and relive the enjoyment that I once indulged in as a kid and I am not talking about those thinly sketched coloring books that are geared toward the adults nowadays I am speaking about the old time styled one’s of my generation even the one’s made specifically for children as they are both more stimulating and appealing to me within design pattern.

Many of them are so cute and elaborate.

coloring pencilsWhen I had actually mentioned to someone months back last year that I still have a “fancy” for coloring they acknowledged to me that they did too and not so long after that I heard on the news that there were other individuals who found coloring in their adulthood quite relaxing and therapeutic for them. I had also began to see advertisements on the television commercials for coloring books and pencils that were geared toward adults but just as I had said before I don’t like those type of arrangement of designed coloring books in particular.

barbie and friendI had never thought of coloring as a vehicle catering to therapeutic benefits it had always been a means of artistic fun and the idea for me now is still as another stimulating form of recreation although I do find the activity very beneficial to the senses as it is a lovely way to spend quiet time alone.

Eventually when I get the opportunity one day when I am out and about within an area and happen to come across a wide variety of good quality coloring books and utensils that appeal to me I will purchase them along in my collection of “Word Finds” and “Jumble Puzzle books” to keep me much delightfully occupied.barbie, ken and kid

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Archie Comic Books:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2013/11/14/archie-comic-books/)