I am not and have never been the jealous or envious type certain people, a lot in fact, have always been very jealous of me and all of this definite fact has not only been recognized by me but by many others who were cognizant of it at a time even before I myself was completely aware, they came and told me some even while I was still very young. I hadn’t even known the depth of envy and jealousy yet.
And with much experience growing up and then looking back I have examined and discerned with a “fine tooth comb” and yes it at times has burned me the fuck up how sick individuals have tried to maliciously interfere and to hold me back within life as well as they have tried and have also failed with others who were superior within their own leagues of existence.
I never dwelt on the ill will and ill intent of those who were inadequate because haters actually deep down inside hate themselves and I knew that they could never succeed within hindering me as I have always had too much fire and intelligence blazing inside of my own indestructible constitution.
I’d laugh at transparent manipulation tactics (ploys that were so obvious to me) and at the collaboration of those weak-minded souls who needed to desperately band together because by themselves they were never shit as they consistently gained their confidence (false sense of security) through the facades of their own pathetic little circles.
What I didn’t realize as a child as I do absolutely now is that everyone of those individuals have already and those who have accumulated along the way do reap much more worse than what they have sowed as at the first instant of dirty contemplation and deed it is “recorded” and “stored” for inevitable unbeknownst self reimbursement that automatically “tie” and “bind” here on earth and all to eternity.