Spiritual Attacks

ritualOn Sunday, August 21, 2016 I woke up in the morning sometime around one or two a.m. I estimate as I did not look at the clock to turn off the fan as I had gotten a little chilly. Right after, I entered straight back into my bed to return to sleep yet I was unable to.

I was kept up by insight and warnings of a paranormal means as I often do during those occasional times whenever I am simultaneously experiencing the activity and operations that automatically notify me of circumstances through my presence itself as well as through my thoughts.

A very sick family that a long time ago lived on my old block by the last name Anderson constantly remained within my mind along with another guy that kept flickering in and out the entire time until my mind became solely occupied with precognitive thoughts of him-I don’t know his name but I’ve written about him in particular many times as he spiritually harassed me with another guy for years after he approached me in the year 2008 as I was on my way home from work one night and the other had approached me at my workplace in the year 2006 on Christmas eve. I often communicated with them two telepathically (https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/25/satanic-measures/).

“Anderson’s” is exactly what was stated as spirit acknowledged to me.

Spirit also had informed to me that the certain members of this family wanted to prevent me from continuing to write and publish posts of what I undergo, have undergone, and what I know. I in the process actually saw visions of them literally desiring and trying to interfere to no avail.

Now I have been writing ever since the age of ten and had the opportunity to get published by a mainstream publisher back then, and I have been blogging and writing on the internet for over ten years utilizing my creativity and talent along with my knowledge and ability. I will never allow anyone to stop or to manipulate me within any form or fashion whether it is verbally or spiritually. I have a celestial calling in life driven by innate and divine influence and it shall be carried out wholeheartedly regardless of who objects or who cannot handle the truth.

By succeeding and continuing to move forward we fiercely show the devil and the demonic that they are not going to win over us.

When my aunt Tina poisoned my food years ago and I was rescued by spiritual guardians(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/29/guardian-spirits/)I had received messages of all kinds including information of how Joanne (a member of the “A” brood) had took part with Tina a long time ago against my mother with indulging in voodoo. I mentioned that bitch here as initials JAF, her maiden last name and other last name by marriage toward the end of this post (https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/08/09/vain-attempt-no-one-can-bring-us-down/) she is the dope fiend junkie/prostitute that had sexual incestuous relations with two of her brothers and had slit her wrist. There is a lot of dirt on her brothers and father as well.

When revelations of the Anderson family subsided then the guy that flickered in and out became the sole preoccupation of my thoughts. He was attempting to make me become amorous and lustful by trying to send me romantic fantasies of him while later also trying to spiritually tamper with my vagina once again as he and that other guy had tried before a few years ago and I had written about here as I consistently kept a track (https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/02/22/lust-spell/).

These no-good guys wanted to have sex with me in the past and are envious and jealous along with certain others because I love and respect my self and my body, and they could not talk about me truthfully within any sexual and derogatory way.

Demonic people endeavor to take/steal away our good and positive energy because they operate on such a very low level of vibration with one another that they are unable to naturally generate energy on their own to come up to our high level of vibration so they desperately have the need to rob and to drain us of our good luck and other good attributes to use for their bad purposes. No matter what, though, by trying to get our energy will not bring them up from where they are yet we still have to fight by staying aware and unyielding to their tactics that are intended for our destruction.

 

A Caulbearer That Bears No Apology Unto Being “Unlike”

roses and paper bagTo others some of us unique individuals are considered strange or not normal and mainly because many of us that are within the rare category do not do the same things that everyone else does, nor do we think, feel or react within the same fashion as the ordinary.

As we are very unlike the average and strongly linked to the supernatural we are found to be quite mysterious and interesting as people learn from us and then sometimes even try to copy/duplicate us I’ve experienced this all throughout life.

I have never considered myself to be weird within any of my differences that were innate and that had come natural to me. To me, I was completely normal within my own right, and I was, and still am.

I consistently felt secure and proud within my distinction.

People often look at us as strange human beings because we do not fit into the usual mode of the majority yet what others never seemed to understand is that we may also often look at them as the ones who are ‘bizarre’ as they do not fit into the usual mode of our uncommon minority.

Excellence

 

As I was unable to attend the morning meeting in honor of outstanding employee accomplishments I was later handed an award by the store manager signed by him and my supervisor as I was among a few of the workers to receive recognition for duty throughout the years and it reads:

We express our sincere appreciation to LaToya Lawrence In recognition of your personal commitment, dedication, and performance.

I’ve always received certificates and awards during school and on my jobs and told how very good I was within the things that I do, however, I was never really fazed by it but I come to see how it is such a very nice and sincere gesture of hard-work and achievements not going unnoticed by those who count. And I am very gracious for the recognition.

 

Targeted (Part One)

stems daisyAs good people in the world we will become targeted at times by the demonic.

Like I have expressed before there are a combination of reasons why my enemies who are known and who are unknown to me through out the years have worked and have attempted to work black magic on me and also on my family aside from the obvious envy and jealousy but another reason they had came after me aside for me knowing things through clairvoyance/extrasensory perception was for what I had divulged through a book that I had written mentioning dirt that was done by some of them.

The only people within life that I have ever had any problems out of were junkies and other types of trash as they all operate and function on such a very low level of intellectual comprehension and spiritual vibration. There are some that are within a category all by themselves and that are exceptions; however the majority of them are fixed and stationary.

As a person of higher consciousness I was able to connect or adapt to all types of universal channels, people and situations accept those in which were incongruous with my state of essence as well as existence. I was never meant or destined to intermingle or associate with these types of individuals yet through unnatural circumstances  and certain life detouring events I had to make acquaintance just like so many of us unintentionally have done only to be protected and unaffected by the grace around us due to the fact that instances was beyond our control and because we are a strong group of folk with grave purpose and that had vital divine influence and guidance.

There are sometimes always so much more to a story, detail, and the interpretation. It is the wise mind that analyzes weighs out the facts probabilities and possibilities as well as the never knows. Nevertheless, one does not have to cater to the ignorant mind that draws up inaccurate conclusions within their undeveloped scope of view or faculty.

All that matters is to include and strive for the truth. And liars hate the truth. And one person’s fact can be another person’s fiction depending on the elements and aspects of diversity as well as wavelength. I had to figure out a long time ago as a teen why one would be accused of telling a lie when they are definitely telling the truth aside from the other person’s lack of knowledge (ignorance) and deliberate denial (intentionally lying while indeed knowing the truth).

There were enemies that wanted to shut me up, part of the reason they wanted me to go insane, figuring if I was considered crazy that I would not have any credibility but their Voodoo didn’t work back then because my mind, spirit and constitution was much stronger as I am of the light and have so much legitimate belief in what I know within the universe.

Chapter five titled “The Trip” signified the physical travel along with the mental travel that was endured in this genuine excerpt:

You see, my aunt Charise was sixteen years old in the summer of 1982. A trip to Virginia was organized by a neighbor on her block. Any of the teenagers who wanted to go had to pay a fee. Charise’s money was given up front. There would be no refunds for anyone who canceled out.

Two or three days prior to the trip, Charise and one of the other girls scheduled to go got into a fist fight. Charise beat the girl’s ass. But long before that incident, Charise had decided not to go to Virginia.

“Look, you are going”, Catherine hollered. “After I done spent my money!”

Charise had no choice whether she liked it or not she would have to go on account of her mother.

The trip lasted for a week. When it was over and the teenagers had returned, Pat received a phone call. “Charise is sick”, said Mrs. Boatwright, the neighbor who’d organized the trip.

“She’s sick?” Pat asked

“Yes”, I am going to bring her home”.

When Mrs. Boatwright brought Charise to the house she wasn’t sick in the way Pat thought she would be. Pat figured maybe it was a stomach ache, but it was quite the contrary. Charise was sick out of her mind.

“What happened?” Pat exclaimed.

“I don’t know”, said Mrs. Boatwright.

Charise walked up and down the street talking to herself she was very hyperactive, like she was on a trip.

 

Targeted (Part Two):( https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/08/26/targeted-part-two/ ‎)

 

Targeted (Part Two)

daisy stemsIn Virginia, someone had slipped mescaline into Charise’s soda, and she was raped repeatedly. While she was under the influence of the drug three guys one of whom was Mrs. Boatwright’s son Larry Butler and his cousin “Gerard” whose name was Henry Frasier took turns having sexual intercourse with her. Afterwards, they drugged her some more. Revenge seemed to be the motive hurting Charise was a way of getting even for her having beat up their friend.

Charise was very incoherent and she was hallucinating. As a result of all this Charise spent time in a psychiatric facility. Different types of medications were prescribed and she would have to be on medication for the rest of her life.

No report to the police department was made about what had happened Catherine was in a state of denial in her mind no harm had been done by the assailants.

“Nobody did anything to her”, said Catherine. She didn’t care about her baby daughter.

When Charise was admitted into Elmhurst hospital back in the early eighties we came to find out that Larry’s mother, father and sister worked there and closely monitored her to make sure that she was further incapable of revealing the truth about what was done to her yet Larry and the others went around bragging about the incident and never did any jail time.

In fact, when I had brought this up to someone in the 1990’s they had informed to me how they remembered them bragging about it.

So why not brag about it now? Why is it supposed to be a secret after I wrote about it just as other dirt done by perpetrators?

There is consistently justice within the spirit world that is in accordance to the very physical universe that is around and that is surrounding us and no matter how long that it may take retribution to occur it does come well-served and well deserved even after it is long forgotten about because time frame is totally different within the spirit realm I’ve mention before a few years ago that one of Charise rapist’s got brutally killed while I still lived on that block I remember the day of the funeral as I was on my way home from work (http://www.nydailynews.com/news/crime/queens-da-cops-stop-blood-gang-article-1.352802) charged with fatally stabbing Persian GulfWar veteran Henry Frasier, 40, during a May 10 fight over an NBA playoff game. He had even suffered a long battle with schizophrenia before he died.

One day if not already, all will get their’s, it is inevitable.

Larry and many members of his family for years now have been crackheads but I doubt that is the ultimate.

Chapter three titled “Death” signified my grandfathers untimely demise and the mystery behind it.

In the beginning of August 1977, the family received a phone call, Willie Sr was dead. His body had been found in the Hudson river, naked and decomposed. He was identified after his fingerprints were examined and matched up with his army records.Willie’s face and body looked severely burned his height was the only way that he was recognized. After the river consumed Willie’s body and left him to drift along it’s waters the heat from the sun had cooked him.

During the early seventies my grandfather Willie Mason Lawrence worked as an assistant dispatcher for the New York City Transit Authority and at his job a bottle was thrown down to the ground toward his body by an individual. The glass bottle broke directly at his feet the evil street symbol to signify death.

Willie Sr was a highly intelligent man and his sharpness could not be denied not even by a neighbor on the block where we lived who admitted it to my mother years ago who worked in the same field of work as he did and had known his professional capabilities. My grandfather also had the gift of extrasensory perception that is why he was called “crazy” by assholes he knew too much and told of the harassment that he experienced with these sick individuals.

Trash wants to cover up his murder by saying that he committed suicide, that is pure bullshit. That may be what they made it look like or wanted it to look like but there are members of the family who never believed that and I his grand-daughter LaToya definitely knows the truth as I saw it in a vision a long time ago while I was asleep what really happened.

 

Targeted (Part One):( https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/08/26/targeted-part-one/ ‎)

 

Attune

serveNo matter what I have to keep my self occupied whether it is at my workplace environment, my outside environment or at my home environment.

Even while I am at rest my overactive brain is always ticking with the full force of natural productive energy.

I have a mind that I refuse to put to waste and a voice that I do not hesitate to put forward as it is not wise to hinder our talents and gifts whatever it is that they may be to us and within our capability so I go along with the celestial flow of automatic message and design.

pie slicesSpirit speaks to me on so many levels using me as an instrument to harmoniously transfer the melodies of extraordinary tune.

The Advantage

relaxedBe who you are and live life without letting all of the disguised hassles beguile and live you!

Why spend precious moments wasting time on the circumstances that do not bring about any true value or satisfaction within one’s own purpose and desire?

carefreeFulfillment comes in all shapes, sizes and mixtures and if one isn’t exact and upfront about taking a portion of the opportunity that is within grab all of the available consistency will be put to drain.

Other individual’s unresolved issues are exactly what they are and not an associated factor in the determination of one’s own beneficial succession.

Undeniable

notesI live my life on my own terms not by what anyone else determines that my life should be.

I know what I want and I know what will work for me and if something or someone does not fit into my category and mode of harmony then there is no room for disturbance. I do not occupy discord the friction is not necessary I refuse to hold on to what I do not relate to solely on account of what others may adhere to conform to and neither should any self-loved and self-respecting person with dignity.

I do not need to be accepted by anyone’s specific standard of life in order to maintain because the ability to not be free is completely unacceptable to me. I’d die before I let someone or something “rearrange” my innate state of being.

I am thankful for all of the love and good luck that I have around me and for the courage that is within me to live unbind by the many chains that are disproportionately locked into the grips of the world.

Haven

bedroom bureauI love to go out and enjoy myself from time to time and when the moments call for it aside from when I am out and about within the world with doing my day and night job assignments in the health care field and other field of occupation, however, as a true person born under the zodiacal sign Taurus I am a homebody by heart and I keep my home-life separate in all aspects of relation as my home is an extension of my own personal sociable and spiritual temple where I entertain myself as well as continuously nurture myself.

baby shoesI’d never let anyone violate the sanctity of my spirit or the personal space of my environment.

Fresh, Pure And Wholesome

ice cream and berriesI take good bites out of life; the chunks that I know are going to be the most nutritious and beneficial for me. I eat and live very health-wise. Aside from feeding our bodies we also have to feed our brains and without a healthy constitution our minds will lack the virility that it needs to properly energize and function.

bananaWe are spirits walking around within our shells of flesh yet while we are here on the earth it is very important to maintain that vibrant and flexible shell with love and respect.

Balance

natural healingMeditation is a wonderful and natural process that has come upon me naturally for years and it is such a serene state of reaction into activation. The ambiance of setting is complimentary in revelation to meditating within atmospheric placidity; however, the most grounded of souls can find relaxation within the most hectic of environment through the shield of luminous peace and protection.

Also cleansing oneself physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally is quite invigorating. We constantly rejuvenate when we continue to clear our paths from the build up of negativity and negative energy that may attach itself to us from time to time.

Overshadow

strawberry basketLife is not always a basket of sweet and delicious fruit there are those sour flavors which are not so kosher to the buds and that leave a nasty lingering taste within the mouth that one instinctively has to go and spit directly out in disgust.

And there are quite a lot of unsavory people who outright fit into this category of repulsion.

The energy that generates and that can exude out from other people of this nature does reflect quite miserably and they are indeed not healthy to be around yet no amount of negativity will penetrate to cause any ill or significant affect when one is strong and confident within their own mental and spiritual foundation. One may recognize or interpret the morbid energy for what it is but it won’t affect the state of being or surroundings.

No one can spoil one’s true peace and happiness unless they allow another individual to do so, and no piece of trash, especially, is worth the aggravation nor should be given any of the unnecessary power.

Why let an inconsequential figure or thing that means absolutely nothing to one, to arouse one?

 

Low Life

daisies in a wickerbagThere are many who lie and that try to manipulate through countless and various form of technique as they are accustomed to steal, cheat and sabotage by their deliberate means of sickness and functioning, those who are miserable and who’d none other than like to make another sick and miserable just in the same.

Personal shortcomings render some of these people unable to handle or to cope with the harsh reality of their lives, conflict that is deeply rooted from within allow them to believe in their own states of illusion and delusion that they tend to overcompensate for due to the fact that they often tend to lie so much to themselves as well as they do to certain others. In doing so creates a zone of protection, a safety net identifying their false sense of security that justifies their overall distorted view of what they comprehend as tackle and survival, the only way of life that they know how.

 

Composed

pups and catUnfortunately, in the past, I grew up in a neighborhood full of those trashy undesirables and as I was nothing at all like them within the mind, body or spirit I developed and maintained successfully while they continued on within their inevitable paths to destruction that they were unable to so desperately pull me into.

They always want other people who are above them to fear them when they are entirely nothing to be intimidated by at all they are a very transparent group of disturbed individuals.

They get their paybacks in so many ways as they do not think about what they do beforehand and the consequences that they have to “without a doubt” eventually pay for, however, fast or within the long run.

Everything that I do I am justified for and I relish in the fact that I have the power of universal influence and effect through the natural reflections of celestial advantage. What goes around comes back around again as many times worse and evildoers will so much reap back what they sow even with a little more ruthlessness when I get my claws into the situation.

Preference, Percipience And Inclination

siblingsAlthough within life all of us will never be within harmony with everyone as we all have our very own distinct character and individuality, however, since day one, I have always been able to accurately read people as I am a very good judge of character and I have always been able to sense things about people that other people could not sense.

I have never liked degenerates they are extremely ignorant and are not at all intelligent even though many of them think and actually believe that they know all that there is to know about life and about people when indeed they know absolutely nothing at all but the level of mentality that their circle all share within one another, they are envious and jealous people, they are manipulative, they lie constantly and they are nothing but pure trouble and cause problems among those who are of a better quality than they are.

I refuse to go down to their level in order to establish a worthless communication that caters to their low grade outline of comprehension. I refuse to make allowances for their deficiencies and unwanted existence.

goldenOne definite thing though is, and that is that no matter how much dirt it is in which they do, it always comes back to them even if what they had done did not affect their target in the ways that they may have wanted it to because it is the “principal” that the wrongdoings were done to begin with, especially, when the inspired target is innocent or completely in the right according to their state of being.

The Peace Within

wordsIn my own words as always:

Although a serious person I have always been one to constantly laugh and to consistently find the humor within a lot of things, even within the negativity of people I have to sarcastically mock, that is just within my nature.

We all have our deep moments here and there, however, no situation and no one have ever been able to take away the fun side of me and no one should ever let anyone or anything steal away their joy. I joke around and laugh everyday, even silently to myself sometimes as we cannot always express or demonstrate our amusement out in the open or to just any and everyone.

I’ve been in situations and circumstances in which others would have, or even have, considered being difficult periods that I would just swim on through with such ease and comfort. What may have appeared as a hardship to them was absolutely nothing to me because of my wavelength and disposition. I am as unconventional and laid-back as they come, occasionally too nonchalant.

Everything all depends on how we look at ourselves, the ethereal, the world around us, and the aspects in which that also surround within the universe. We are all distinct individuals in our own right.

white lionsI’ve been through too much far too early on in life on account of others at the age when I was totally innocent and blameless of any wrong-doing on up yet failed to lose my inborn high-spirited persona. I overcame tenaciously and was compensated gracefully.

I have too much love, knowledge and spirituality around me to not have peace and contentment inside.

Laughter keeps us healthy and love keeps us strong.

Love is found everywhere and within anything that attracts our senses gravely and valuably it is the essence of being within relation to our well-being, self love is priceless and the genuine love that is given to us does not come for sale.

Love has our backs and never lets us down and love would never allow anything to break it apart from us.

Love has many origins there is not just one source or vessel in which this intense affection stems and flows from or through.

We find and come across love in so many ways, forms and fashions the most vital thing is to cherish what mode attributed according to what shifts within harmony to our own unique states of existence.

words 2When I look at my life and where I am at and acknowledge the predicaments of others who are not as well off as me mentally, spiritually, physically and lifestyle-wise I recognize how lucky and fortunate that I am and that I never had to undergo anything within their severity.

So I just as those who have shared my experiences and that have walked in my shoes or similar ones we have a lot to appreciate, to be thankful for, and to look forward to through faith and belief in what hasn’t failed us yet. -latoya lawrence

 

In The Eye Of Truth

innocentI have always had credibility, especially among those who counted; people often knew that they were able to come to me to get the truth.

I am real, an authentic person, and that is very rare to find in this day an age as many out there endeavor to continuously lie, cheat and steal as there is no other way of means for them to obtain or to succeed.

These individuals often go far within life to rise and to achieve within the things that they definitely do not deserve and that they have no legitimate entitlement to while the genuinely certified and eligible go nowhere because of their dignified and strong mode of character.

It is about moving trash forward and pushing substance backward blockages caused by the jealousy of those who are intimidated by the demeanor of the more superior, the more adroit.

When people lie on me intentionally or with their highly inaccurate assumptions, opinions or conclusions that are drawn up within their insufficient minds on the basis of incomplete information as well as misinformation, they tend to reveal to me the depth of just how sick and unsavvy in which they really are.

Why go out of the way with fabrications that I can ultimately and fiercely tear down with absolute validity and truth?

Why ignorantly deliberate within the forming of a theory or conjecture without any firm evidence to back up what I am able to inevitably shut down?

Lies that were geared toward me by enemies have been ludicrous and laughable-not to mention desperate-inadvertently revealing and confirming all of the negative and inferior aspects that they are indeed guilty of fools tell on themselves without even realizing it yet the keenly decisive mind and eye that I have can plainly detect every sign of their involuntary admissions within their tall tales.

Ever since I was a little girl I could spot a variety of trash from miles away and I would get very strong feelings about them as I still do till this day, divine warnings and messages of what they are and how they operate and to always stay away from these types of people because they are no good and not healthy to the aura.

I would often get accused of being judgmental on account of my being able to sense and discern about them what others weren’t able to intuit right away or at all. Their kind was sneaky at trying to make me out to be the bad person for having the faculty to read into the eyes of their soul and to call them out for who they really were.

I have from the beginning of my existence felt an extreme dislike and aversion toward their kind one that never did die down but that had intensified with fair reason.

They resent the fact that I never feared them and how they could never dominate me.

Spirit speaks within so many ways and delivering so many of enlightenment through the mind’s eye just almost a month ago spirit came to me revealing that “I’d be surprised just how many people have my back” without me even looking for anyone in general to support me if needed be.

My third eye is open and clear, receptive and emitting, and within communion with the universe, I feel so grounded and free just as I am suppose to be.

 

Lies Do Not Become The Truth

candles and bookMy enemies are the cause of incidents that they blame their targets for in an attempt to make the occurrences appear natural or as some type of personal flaw or disadvantage when all along the situations and circumstances are brought about by them through the mechanisms of black magic/witchcraft that they consistently intend to cover up with lies to the unsuspecting and uninformed.

I remember when they were working their Brujeria at one time back in the year 2004, desiring for me to lose my mind they wanted me worse off than an aunt of mine who had flipped out off of mescaline that was laced in her soda decades ago and that had also been ‘mentally tampered’ with by a man that she had married. She hadn’t been completely right in the head after being with that retarded husband of her’s and often displayed mild non violent erratic behavior out in the street (talking to her self and etc…).

They in particular (These perpetrators have recruited many assholes throughout the years) set out to destroy the entire family-not knowing that they would only be able to get those who were cut out from the same cloth as they was as well as Amanda Byars the grandmother of Junie, Tina and Charise who they genetically had taken after but no one from Catherine’s side of the family like me and others who they did not know-and had done the same thing to my grandfather (Amanda’s son) because he was a very bright, gifted and successful man.

They killed him and wanted it to appear as if he was crazy. I don’t understand what is with these truly sick individuals that want for people who are better than them to lose their minds just so that they can feel better about themselves already being low to begin with.

If they can bring someone who is out of their league down to their level or lower it brings a feeling of great satisfaction. They don’t want to be alone in their degenerative nature it hurts them too bad and serves as a reminder of their own shortcomings and inadequacy, especially when people like us refuse to accept them.

They were unable to make me go insane by working black magic/witchcraft against me, in spite of that fact, they are so disappointed and gung-ho out of their own true states of mental illness and failure at achieving my unmeant downfall that they feel the need and desperation to create the facade of me being crazy because they couldn’t do it literally.

The “crazy” tactic is so pathetic and really doesn’t faze me one bit and it is an obvious method of their “defense mechanism” that is extremely transparent because people like them cannot handle reality.

And they cannot deal with people like me that they are unable to control.

Of course, my enemies are not going to openly admit to all of their negative envious and jealous inspired actions that were done up against me all through out the years up until now and they do not need to as I have constantly been steps ahead of them knowing through preternatural as well as intellectual ability along with basic common sense that is why they are angry and humiliated and have to work strenuously in an effort to hold onto their survival state of illusion and delusion.

I know just about everything that they do!

They try so hard to turn and to twist things around as liars and manipulators always do but the truth cannot be smudged nor distorted within the eyes of those who are able to openly see as I can.

My enemies can ‘masquerade’ from the truth by their ‘inability’ to recognize or ascertain what makes someone or something different yet that ‘handicap’ of theirs is not an escape from the truth that is known and not able to be concealed.

Of course they know the ‘real deal’ but how can they come to grips with honesty and fact when they are so sick that they undoubtedly want to believe within their own outrageous fabrications?

To examine the truth within their errors would only prove the extent of their stupidity.

They are still working against me spiritually and with ineffectual lies but too far gone and in denial to realize that they are merely wasting their time and further digging their own ditch.

 

Caulbearer Connections

petalTrue Calling For This Caulbearer To Answer by misslatoya

Lil Famous Ramsey said 12 minutes ago

Beautiful my Star sister. We are going to lead the new world into prosperity and abundance.

You said 0 minutes ago

Wonderful!

 

roseHomage To Me, My Ancestors And Loas by misslatoya

Kelly said 2 days ago

Really liked your articles regarding the caul. My mom, her mom and myself were all born with the caul. They both passed but I know they still visit me. Sometimes I feel very alone and misunderstood,but after reading about you, I feel better. Thank you!kek

You said 2 minutes ago

You are not alone and that is for sure, neither are you alone within spirit or within the physical sense because your loved ones are indeed around you and there are others out here in the world like us who share that common thread in which connects us together and we definitely understand.

True Calling For This Caulbearer To Answer

Egyptian GoddessEver since I was a child there were many who never wanted to see me getting anywhere in life as they earnestly aspired to create obstacles and destruction.

They endeavored to forward my life into another direction other than where it was naturally suppose to go as they intentionally did their best to impede and to cause unnatural catastrophic occurrences.

Throughout it all, and contrary to what my foes may have wanted and expected, I have phenomenally remained unscathed.

As I continue to prevail utterly intact I am determined and entitled to reach my highest point elected celestially and I will not stop until I get what I am appointed for.

When I published my first novel years ago my envious and jealous great-grandmother Amanda was so scared about the possibility of my success after she had tried so long and desperately by utilizing the negative forces of evil black magic to attempt to drastically change my destiny around.

“How far will this go?” She had asked her nephew in regard to my book, “Will there be a movie made out of it?”

EuropeanOh, it just ate Amanda up the thought of me achieving all of what I was purposed to accomplish here on this earth just like it does all of the other of my undesirable foes who’ve tried and that have continued to provide a helping hand within trying to tame the wild winds of my violent storm of intended success that would hit them all like a vile tornado, my blast of notorious energy is a hurricane that they’d never be able to handle.

I have idiotic foes at the moment who want me to give up on what I do and want for me to believe that there is no use within me to prosper within what I was divinely designed for yet they were not celestially outlined to accomplish anything at all. It is not within any divine plan to tailor any demonic breed of trash into eminence; their only way is through selling their souls to the devil, which he already has contained.

“They are going to make a movie out of your book”, my fathers uncle had told me after he had read it back in 2001 and he was not alone within his perspective.

He wasn’t the only one who had felt that way and who could sense that, I had known that revelation too and had even been approached, it is within the past what was to take place, however, the potential was known and it was addressed.

There are other definite future prospects that are not gone and that are still available for whenever the universe decides to bring forth that connection that envelops all around me I was not meant to be just a writer alone but a professional of quite a few other significant capabilities also. I can see and feel what I am surrounded by.

“You’re going to be very successful”, I’ve been told. “And your enemies are going to be shocked and surprised when it happens”.

EgyptianWhether one is born with a caul or not there are those of us who still have a special purpose within life and that are born and meant to have and to achieve the blessings that were preordained to them.

Even though it is tiresome enduring unnecessary circumstances we still have to fight and stay alert, when anyone tries to stop me or tries to hold me back it just makes me angry and more determined to survive and to attain, an innate instinct that has gotten me as far as I am right now.

Us Caulbearers Never Walk Alone

bosomYes, by nature I have always been a very strong individual mentally, emotionally, and even physically. I have also always been a loner yet I have never been and have never actually walked alone.

I have always been very well-liked by others and I was always able to make friends very easily yet never desired to associate with undesirables who became fond of me only those of my class or level would I choose to allow into my circle if I were amicable enough toward them or interested, however, I was never the type that wanted or needed to be around a crowd as I always found confidence and contentment within myself and within my surroundings no matter where I went.

I held my own ground and had preferred the solitary style of my own nature.

Those who I did become sociable with, depending on exactly who it was because different personalities can also bring about the innate variety that is within ourselves, we had stayed in touch but didn’t have to constantly make contact with one another, although, others do often tend to reach out more to me because they are attracted to my aura and find that they can communicate with me in many ways that they are unable to communicate within others in specific and because I am a fun person to be around but for the most part because I am genuine and unique.

I appreciate people who think ‘big’ and that are able to exchange significant and challenging ideas with me, individuals that are not afraid to climb that ‘higher ladder’ unto infinity, reaching that anomalous spectrum unbounded by restriction, those that have that natural drive and enthusiasm because I am not just a talker or a thinker but I am a doer, a person who makes and demands change.

Like I have said before, I’ve always had people who truly cared for me and that had looked out for me other than family and some who have even went out of their way for me because I was indeed worth it yet the majority of them who weren’t on the level never really knew me for the individual that I actually was as I was never one that was average or ordinary.

Just because people spend time hanging around our presence does not at all mean that they exactly know us all that well.

Insecure individuals as well as those lacking within particular knowledge would rather define us for who they want us to be instead of accepting us for who we authentically are as human beings personality that distinguishes character, ability and all.

Some if not most people in general take for granted and assume what others are like under certain circumstances due to their own limited view of perception and experience within the inner or outer scope of things.

Nothing counts more than self awareness and discovery, the realization of the reality that is around the very structure of one’s very own foundation and direct source of information.

First hand experience is the best hand to learn from, not only to undergo but to properly interpret what we come to know.

As children born of the caul or children that are very spiritually inclined and “in tune” with the universe around us we have a radar that is very well within and beyond the range of frequency, allowing our ‘spiritual antennas’ to receive and transmit energy to the highest and magnificent of degree.

Except for ourselves, other individuals looking at us from the outside cannot see what we are surrounded by around ourselves.

I’ll say it again, I have never been and have never walked alone even when I did not know it, my ancestors and spirit guides have always been there beside me watching over me and providing for me through fashions of arcane communication and relation.

I can recall so many accounts of occurrence, times when I was in the midst of danger and they had come to save my life and/or had prevented serious injury and harm from being done unto me.

One that I’ll end with, though, pertains to the night my dining room was filled with the presence of a large group of my deceased relatives (the place where I had kept one of my altars at the time) and the strong bond that was felt there between us all along with the love and the security. They were all there gathered together in my home all able to visit and to spend moments of vital family union. Only the good members of the brood were allowed to come through.

Later on that night, after they all had left, one of my other deceased relatives had arrived to an empty setting and I was able to see him clearly and a voice had said to me “That’s Uncle Lee”.

I had said to myself, “Oh maybe that’s just a made up reference”, because sometimes foreign entities will come through or those that I am not familiar with to say things that I can’t put together or that just have no purpose that I am not immediately cognizant of, however, this was no foreign spirit messaging me that night I later found out.

I happened to mention the incident to my mother, what I had heard, and the description of the apparition that I saw, and she acknowledged to me that the man’s name was indeed “Lee” (a name that I’ll use instead of his real name because I am very protective and respectful toward my ancestors and I don’t share certain things that are sacred between us), he was her uncle, her mother’s brother and that he would always arrive to gatherings late after everything was over and after everyone had already gone.

Everything that my mother had described to me about my great uncle from his physical demeanor down to his character traits in which I had visioned and had felt within him through my own sight had astonishingly coincided with what my mother had told me and I had never seen this man before and we had never discussed him.

One thing that I know is that I am so proud to have him as a part of the family along with the others who are around me and who all will never let me ever walk here on this earth alone or without their love, guidance and protection.

 

 

 

 

 

 

An Occurrence

spring bearI have an excellent memory and I can remember things from back afar I even have recollections of certain moments when I was just three years of age.

During the summer in the year of 1982 my father Simmie Brown had came and paid me a visit. I was about seven years old, a neighborhood associate (she was about six or seven) and I were outside in front of my house playing when he stepped out of a cab.

He was dressed in a leather jacket with a hat, staring at me as he walked over to approach.

“He looks high”, my young associate had said as his eyes were red and watery. She knew what that particular state of being “high” appeared as because she had older brothers who use to smoke weed.

I headed straight for the door, entering into my home as this man followed in behind me. When I reached into the kitchen I asked my mother “Who is this man?”

“He’s your father”, she had said. I hadn’t remembered him since the last time he was around me I was a bit younger then.

Anyhow, he took my mother and I out to eat and then to a movie theater they both left the choice up to me on which movie to see. It was a toss up between “The Outsiders” or “Bad Boys” so I had chose to see Bad Boys which had starred Sean Penn and Esai Morales.

Afterwards he took us back to his sister’s apartment located within the Bronx and on her living room couch was loaded with an assortment of stuffed dolls and animals. One had caught my eye in particular and it was a Holly Hobbie rag doll that I kept holding and playing with.

daisy and teaAfter some time had passed, a few months later, there was an unexpected visitor that rang our doorbell. My mother was greeted at the front door by a woman who was accompanied by her husband.

The lady name was Dorothy whose nickname was “Cookie” and she introduced herself as Simmie’s sister.

My mother let the couple in and seated them on the couch then came upstairs to wake me up from a nap that I was taking. When she brought me downstairs to the living room I was still half asleep.

When I came to full attention I saw that the woman that I had noticed was holding a stuffed doll in her arms the same stuffed doll that I continued to play with while I was at her apartment in the Bronx.

She had had two sets of the Holly Hobbie rag dolls there at her home a brown faced one and a tan faced one, she had brought me the brown-colored faced stuffed doll the one I had took a liking to.

Simmie obviously had told his sister how much I was fond of playing with the doll and she took a trip out to Queens to meet me and to give me the doll as a present. Dorothy also informed to my mother that she had an aunt that lived not too far away from us who I later got acquainted with when I became an adult in my early twenties.

My mother had long ago met and known Georgia Mae Williamson (Simmie’s mother) and visited her home, and one of her sister’s had remembered seeing my mother and I from way back around in the 70’s sometime as I heard them recall a encounter of them all coincidentally meeting up at the butcher’s market around the corner along with Simmie’s brother Tony when I was an infant.

As a teenager on up I had spoken from time to time to Simmie over the telephone along with the other relatives of his down in South Carolina and when I visited down there in the year of 2001 I got to meet many of them face to face (https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/27/resurrection/).

I had gotten along will all of the young adult cousins of mine, however one who’d I had spoken to over the phone that had wanted to meet me when he once visited New York but didn’t have time because he had to go catch his flight didn’t live down there and didn’t like being around all of the drama constantly created down there by their relatives so I didn’t get to meet him face to face. The up in age male seniors were congenial, the older women on the other hand were nothing but jealous, miserable, lying, underhanded gossipy bitches that no one who was reasonable could stand to be around.

flower in bookBefore I went down to South Carolina I had came into contact with so called Dorothy “Kookie” who this one had spelled with a “K” (the sister that Simmie use to party hard with) and when I brought up about the doll that she had given to me and how I still had it-because I still had a lot of articles from my childhood hanging around-she acted as if she didn’t have any recollection of it. She didn’t even know the directions to my house her aunt’s husband had to show her how to get there when she picked me up.

I know that people do forget but that wasn’t it.

When Dorothy arrived she was not the same woman who had visited me when I was a child. She was indeed in relation to Simmie but she was not the same sister who had come by back in the early eighties. This woman didn’t even know that the “real” Cookie had come to see me!

Simmie was only supposed to have had one sister and one brother so what happened?

Simmie wasn’t all there in the head due to drugs just like most who are addicts (https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/02/the-perils-of-substance-abuse/) and just like most who are trash, and I could always see through him when he’d tell his lies although he did reveal a lot of information to me about his family that I would weigh out because as an intelligent human being I know not to believe everything that people tell me and that I hear some of the information I would confirm whether or not if it was true from was by one of his family members who had dirt on all of them, and one who would speak the truth, and that was one of his aunts-the one that his family would all call “crazy”.

Yeah, we know those so-called crazy ones. Crazy because they are too smart or too tough so people have to try to downplay and discredit them out of fear and corruption.

Anyway, Simmie once told me an interesting story about how his mother was pregnant with twins and how his mother fell down a flight of steps and how one of the twins had died. One of his other aunts denied this actually happened, though, expressing “I don’t know why Simmie would say a thing like that”.

So I had to read in between the lines and figure out the scrambled details for myself.

She, another one of her sisters, as well as the Kookie that I went down south with all told me about the ESP that their mother was born with and that I had inherited on both sides of the family because Extrasensory Perception runs down the lines of generations on my mother’s side as well. They said how accurate and wise that woman was.

chinaI should know I am the very same way and my mother’s side of the family (the kin of my mother’s mother) from down in Virginia who I’ve come to know were very powerfully gifted with clairvoyance and occult and they are my ancestors now. Even my no-good great grandmother Amanda Byars said that her own mother was gifted with second-sight and it was true that woman was also a Blackfoot Indian Amanda showed me her pictures.

That was another thing that I was concerned about within my family tree and that was our nationality when getting familiar with Simmie’s family when I was a teenager because I came from African American and Native American Roots. It was confirmed that Simmie’s father was a 100% full blooded Cherokee Indian aside from the fact that his grandmother was full of Indian as well as African American. I was given loads of pictures of many members of his family to bring home with me.

Simmie’s grandfather was a very light-complexioned man who had white blood in him and my mother had long time ago had his obituary, however, Tina (my mother’s sick degenerate sister) had stolen it to contact other junkie family members of Simmie’s back in the day to serve a negative purpose (to spread her lies but it didn’t matter because birds of a feather flock together).

My grandmother on my mother’s side, Catherine, her own mother was also a 100% full blooded Cherokee Native American Woman.

So I was so relieved to have found out that Simmie’s family had also consisted of African American and Native American ancestry I wanted to make sure that there were no Caribbean backgrounds within the unit. I mean some of them may have dealt with those foreigners and had children with them but it wasn’t within our blood line.

Then I was once told by someone unknown to anyone around my area who lived in another state that recognized my ability how when I was about seven or eight years of age that there was a relative who had something to tell me but that she had died right before she was able to do so.

I couldn’t for the life of me figure out whom that relative could have possibly been at the time when this information was gathered unto me, however, it wasn’t until years later that I considered the fact that it could have been Dorothy. The “real” Dorothy

The idea of possible murder and impersonation within a family is not so far fetched, a lot of dark secrets and cover ups within some of these shady people within Simmie’s family and within certain people in general.

 

My Epithet

islandWriting is my first love and one of the career advancements that I continue to do and head for within the present as well as toward the future but I am a woman of many talents and enterprise so I don’t limit myself to just one or two things.

I achieve to accomplish all of what I have celestially been permitted through divine guidance, opportunity and advantage.

We must never be misdirected from our path of destiny and we must truly know and believe within ourselves to maintain and deliver.

When the time to reach one’s entire peak arrives it will come and it will be in the most unexpected of fashion just be prepared and ready for the responsibility and diligently learn during this preparation period that is selected by “our higher power”.

When what is ordained begins to manifest we will ultimately go into the rewards of fruition.

I am an inventor a visionary, the lead in a play, the artistic mind power behind the big idea or the singer in the band (although I don’t sing), I always shine.

I am sociable by nature with an eye for the electric. Others are drawn to me and they admire me.

I am especially attracted to the art world and I thrive out in the world and appreciate being surrounded by other people the only exception to this is when I am working on something artistic, where I can find myself completely engrossed in a project for hours at a time.

I am a leader, I am competitive, I am unconventional, I am creative, I am confident, I am intuitive and I am process oriented.

I work best when my environment gives me authority over my creative process, offers a combination of autonomy and teamwork is fast paced and sustains open-mindedness.

I work well with inventors who share my creative mind and my ability to work in a sometimes chaotic work environment. When I get together with my inventor colleagues the ideas start to flow, and I feel inspired by putting our minds together.

I also appreciate working with Planner colleagues because as the person who brings “big ideas”, I rely on someone to take care of and remember the details. I and my Planner coworkers make the perfect team, working in tandem to cover all aspects of a project.

As a natural leader and an easygoing person, I am fortunate in that I work well with all types of colleagues. However, I may find that if there are too many other visionaries on my team, I get the feeling that there are “too many other cooks in the kitchen”.

This can be frustrating for me and those on my team as they may be confused about whom to follow. I may find that I have to adjust my leadership style a bit for my action-taker colleagues who prefer solitary work.

I am a team and people oriented person, yet it can be good to remember that there are those types of people who work best alone as I often also do myself.

 

 

Vain Attempt! No One Can Bring Us Down!

pathI received a message from some of my demonic devil-worshipping enemies who think that they are incognito.

They did not think that I would suspect them, however, I know exactly who they are and I know exactly where they are located and I know who they are affiliated with.

This is what they started off with:

“I wonder if you have the courage to read this post. You’ll probably delete it immediately, because you want to keep people in the dark about the truths in your life. Latoya, you say you hate liars. Well, here is some truth for you to chew on. There is not one lie here”.

They would be surprised to know that I know far more truth about them than the lies and exaggerations that they have falsely entertained upon me and upon my mother. I am an old soul with exceptional gifts, intelligence, and an excellent memory.

And I am far above any manipulation tactics by enemies in order to attempt to discredit and/or to destroy. The bullshit is over no one that actually counts is listening to their lies the truth is out about all of the years these people have tried to ruin my mother and I. They were able to get Catherine, Tina and Willie because they were garbage just like they were and they killed my grandfather. But I am a fighter, a survivor, a person of substance and I dare a piece a trash to try to take me down there is no way in hell they will ever succeed!

It is something how these sick people think that they know more about another person’s life better than they do when they actually don’t know anything at all. And what they think or believe no one over here actually gives a fuck. Patricia was never a crack-head and she damn sure was never a dope fiend who skin-popped or whatever that junkie shit. Nobody knows my mother better than me and if anyone wants to fuck with mama they are going to have to fuck with me!!!

But I guess that I don’t know what I am actually saying because according to them I am so deranged.

I also bet that they would be very disappointed to know that I had a genuine laugh off of everything that was written.

But of course that would be expected of me because I am so deranged.

Their addresses were a sincere reflection of themselves and absolutely not anything of me. I don’t even understand why they’ve wasted their time. Their sick mentality and extremely low to non-existent levels of intellect exhibited a sincere form of desperation and outcry.

But what do I really know I am just a basket ball who bounces off a wall so I guess that makes me “Off the wall, right?”

Now I come from a highly respectable, upstanding, well to do lineage from Virginia along with those who were and that are the owners of their very own businesses and who do not take any shit off of anyone, especially trash folk, and I am extremely proud of who I am related to and of the beauty and privilege that I extensively come from.

My enemies do not know these people and have never met these people because they do not deal with garbage and they are the types that if you fuck with one of their very own then you have to fuck with all of the rest of them and that is just how I am too.

But of course this is just all in my head because I am so deranged.

So why is all of the focus on Willie Jr, Tina and their father and mother? What do they have to do with me and what the fuck do I care?!  I don’t understand why they are criticizing them so harshly when they are just as much trash as they are and are indeed no better!

This basketball head of mine has just hit a slam dunk! And I don’t think that I am so deranged after all but I don’t mind to get crazy!

I don’t think that I’ll ever get crazy enough to be a prostitute/dyke and literally fuck both two of my own brothers and a nigger out in the snow then slit my wrist because another nigger did not want me like a bitch by the initials JAF did. That’s a family on 207st that I would consider crazy.

And what about the mother of the guy that JAF fucked out in the snow and how he ended up dead down in his own basement by a gunshot wound to the head that the detectives as well as rumor had speculated was done by another family member who lived there in the home? And also how the mother who was married use to fuck Najee, the manager of the supermarket around the corner of 207st.

I know a whole lot of shit! Real shit! My enemies don’t know who they are fucking with.

And I got a bit little more, the guy who JAF fucked out in the snows light-skinned brother caught herpes from a woman who lived across the street from where he use to live and then caught HIV from the the bitch that lived directly across the street from me.

I have plenty so don’t get me started!

And instead of worrying about me not having sex and not wanting to be with a man and worried about how nice my mother use to dress with her tap shoes that she should have tapped low-life asses in the face with my enemies all need to be worried about all of the diseases including the AIDS that they are carrying around.

Miss Patricia wasn’t crazy enough to catch what you all got!

doorAnd they (my enemies) are scared that is why so many of them are running to God and are trying to be so religious but God can’t help any of them all because they all did their dirt jumping and bumping around with everybody and talking shit and doing evil to other good people and now they have to reap what they have sowed.

So just go and die like dogs.

I hope that they continue to waste away morbidly because they all have something that the doctors can’t cure so of course I understand the need for them to take all of their frustrations out on good people who are clean and healthy and the devil is just waiting for all of their souls to reach down to hell.

I work in the health care field and personally know someone who works for the New York State Department Of Health And Hygiene and she said to me “You’ll be surprised who’s got what”.

I told her that “I already know”. And then I told her that they don’t have any sense and she said to me, “When they are all going down in the ground we’ll still be talking with our sense”.

Clue of the day:(Hardcastle/Owens or Muhammad/Anderson or Franks/I’ll keep all of the rest to myself I don’t want to be a party pooper)-George Owens aka Clark Hardcastle(https://www.facebook.com/clark.hardcastle?fref=pb&hc_location=friends_tab&pnref=friends.all)

George is Clark and they both are Taalib! He never was too bright even though he thinks that he’s the smartest thing in the universe yet never knew what he was actually talking about. He thinks that he’s so intelligent and that is so funny as he is nowhere as intelligent or bright as me or my mother. If he was so smart why did he sleep with a woman who had AIDs? We knew the woman had it back in the day before it had got out to everyone! We knew one day he was going to get his! Nigger use to call my home back in the nineties every Saturday and Thursday then hang up, what a sick fuck! We saw him on our ID caller plus we had *69 him (when the feature first came out he had no clue about it) and got his answering machine with his voice and name yet he still denied it and we weren’t the only one’s he had done it too. He’s such a big liar and not a very good one only the dumb ones he can fool! Stupid ass George also got arrested for tax evasion/fraud (http://queensda.org/Press%20Releases/2001%20Press%20Releases/03-March/03-21-2001.htm)

(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/08/18/in-the-eye-of-truth/)

(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/08/18/lies-do-not-become-the-truth/)

 

 

 

 

Not So Strange To Me But True

mushrooms in the forestWhen I enter into one of my female resident’s room she frequently tells me how very pretty I am and that I must have a lot of boyfriends and a lot of sex.

And I asked her why does she say that and she answered to me because that is all that attractive people do and I found that comment awful strange considering the fact that looks don’t seem to have any bearing on how much sexual activity one gets.

I’ve seen plenty of ugly men and women with girlfriends and boyfriends and so many of them with children just look around everywhere you go, and they had to have had sex in order to have gotten those kids, I highly doubt that the majority of them went to sperm banks.

I told her no that I don’t have a lot of boyfriends just admirers and that I do not desire to have a boyfriend. So she asked me if I was a lesbian and I told her no that I was asexual that I don’t like men or women and that the human penis turns me off. She told me that she liked the penis and that she use to love to have sex and to not tell everybody how I felt because people would think that I was crazy and I told her that she was a very smart lady.

I had been told that before by another older woman to not tell nobody that I never had any feelings for a man and that if I did get involved with one at that time I would just use him to conceive a child but she wasn’t telling me to not say anything out of people thinking that I was crazy but because it would cause animosity toward me with certain men and even ignorant judgmental women.

She just didn’t want me to have to go through anymore unnecessary problems with undesirables than I was already going through and I understood but at that time I had already proudly let the cat out of the bag about how I felt even though some things I guess are better left unsaid and kept quiet just to keep the peace.

In spite of that I have to be free regardless and I don’t have any regrets in revealing the truth.

For all of my life since I was a child I have honestly never cared what anyone ever said or thought about me and it had always showed within my state of being and I know that is rare with most people in this day and age because a lot of individuals are bothered and affected by the thoughts and actions of others toward them.

Nevertheless, within my extreme uniqueness and creativity within thought, personality, and character I have been called a “far from crazy” individual with “exceptional sense” straight to my face by those who felt the need to express what they had observed through my presence and by my talent and knowledge.

mushroom sproutYet my knowledge, talents and presence have not always been appreciated by some, especially the undesirables-but who actually cares-I know that I don’t! That fact is not going to stop me from breathing and surviving, it is not what is feeding me, clothing me or paying my bills. And it is definitely not something that I need to support my peace and happiness!

We all have opinions though and all of our views, of course, are not going to be agreed upon or accepted by others and our opinions and perspectives may even seem or make us appear to be crazy to certain others and vise versa but a wide range of diversity is what makes the world go round even though there is much unneeded and unwanted variety and assortment that the world can do without.

One topic that I do not understand is when it comes to the penis, what is so alluring about it among so many? I always thought that the male organ was such an unpleasant thing to see testicals and all.

I would not even bring up the subject, however, I couldn’t help it because every time I’d assist one of my male residents with a urinal, catheter or diaper I couldn’t help be reminded to think “This is what women go crazy over?!”. “This is what so many women need and desire?!”

The sight of a penis actually makes me want to puke and that nasty shit that spurts out from it (the ejaculations and discharges) I wouldn’t want that going up inside of me constantly or continuously.

It is unfortunately a part of how we come into the world and I am plenty aware that there is so much to human biology that is absolutely amazing but the fact that the soul is the actual sustaining life force and the body is just the temporary living shell gives me comfort in knowing that I am so much more than part of a male’s DNA.

And we can be partially made up of an individual without having any of their traits (https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/09/10/go-figure-food-for-thought/), thank goodness!

As a young girl and as a woman I had always actually wished that life was made up within a different fashion I wished it could be that if I as a female had to reproduce that I would be able to get pregnant on my own without any sperm just by a more pure method and natural independent process. I know that I am not the only woman/girl who feels or who has felt this way it is a huge world that we live in and whatever I may think or feel there is always someone else out there who has had that same thought and feeling. This particular issue may not be that common, but it is so.

mushroomTo me, the only beautiful thing that I read in the bible was Mary getting pregnant by the holy spirit, why couldn’t it had been that way in general getting pregnant without having to have sex and having to incorporate semen?

I do not have any children and I am glad that I don’t. I don’t want any child of mine coming here into the world the way that it is today.

To me sex is sick, and it is also a mind thing, because what is so necessary about having another human being on top of you intertwined thrusting back and forth-that is just my honest opinion.

And that is all it is my opinion!

My Lifestyle Delights!

cupsI am free today and I have the entire weekend off and I am thrilled that I am in the mood to write today and my mind is on my taste buds and how I have been able to grocery shop and continue to find my favorite foods that go in accordance to my vegetarian lifestyle and that were available on the shelves.

I barely eat unless it is within my strict categories of quality and preference.

During and through out the last past three weeks up until now I had bought and fried some fresh whiting that had went deliciously well with my favorite Uncle Ben’s white rice. I also had bought fresh Perdue chicken wingettes and skinless chicken breast tenderloins to also go with my tasty white rice.

I indulged in preparing and eating both Mueller’s and Ronzoni thin spaghetti noodles that I heated and covered in a “Combo” flavored Prego sauce, a sauce with a distinctly delicious taste that is loaded with chunky garden vegetables that blends in entirely well with chopped carrots, zucchini, tomato, onions, green peppers, celery, garlic and spices.

babyI bought out all of the pouches of Betty Crocker corn bread/corn muffin mix that I made with pouring and stirring in my favorite Silk very vanilla soy milk so that I won’t run out of the product any time soon because every time I would go into the supermarket it was always sold out so I beat others to it this time!

And I caught the Cabot brand Monterey Jack cheese on sale and I eat that cheese because not only is it high quality but it is not made with any type of animal rennet just vegetable, and I grilled it over my Thomas English muffins.

I hadn’t really eaten cheese in about two whole years and I don’t eat it too often anymore like I use to yet when I do it is only natural cheeses (mozzarella, swiss and monterey jack) that contain vegetable/plant rennet.

I’ve had my chunks of whole watermelon that I usually eat with a spoon already for this year that I had brought when I got home in the morning-along with my other fresh fruit salads that I’d pick up and buy on the way to work to take to my overnight shifts to snack on.

saucers and cupWe have to live and do what makes us happy and although it is nice to go out to eat once in a while if one can trust the outside service and their sanitary practices there is nothing that is more satisfying than cooking and eating one’s own freshly bought and managed foods.

Like I have said before, to me, home cooking tastes far better than restaurant cooking and it is much cleaner and healthier because you know exactly how it is being prepared and served.

Only The Strong Survive And Only The Wise Surpass

tea for twoLife within this physical world in general is not always such a very pleasant experience to undergo.

However, those of us who are shaped for endurance and that are able to withstand many of the turbulent of trials and tribulations that have been caused or brought on by other unsavory individuals as well as by the negative and inevitable forces that rotate and that vibrate amid the universe and which that inhabit the planet instinctively come to recognize how to sustain even within the most unimaginable of circumstances.

How many times have those of us in particular went and got through something that we didn’t think or know that we could actually handle just to look back and declare that we didn’t understand how we had indeed done it?

In actuality though, we do understand how we stood, maintained, and overcame due to our state of “consciousness” if we are truly awake and if we are grounded and have a stable foundation. And we know that again when the time comes we will still be able to bravely face and bear whatever it is that is ready to take us on.

Each period of and during our challenges we grow and become even more confident and courageous knowing and believing that no matter what the situation may turn out to be whether it is expected or unexpected that it will work out for our benefit instead of within our failure.

It is within the strength and the way of the elevated mind and the spirit, having a genuine peace of mind and peace within spirit also allows one to tolerate and persevere with an ease and unaffected state of being that others whom are “asleep” would not understand and/or not be able to do.

I’ve been told how good of a person that I am and I know that I am that is why I have gotten attacked from an early age and why most people that are good by nature have it hard by others.

It is only when you are truly good and there is not so many of us out there anymore yet we cannot define ourselves by how others see us because good to us can mean bad to someone else but that would not exactly make us bad people. We are just reminders to the bad how bad they really are that is why they have to try too hard to make us look so bad.

No one is obligated, nevertheless, the good need to look out for the good and I have helped so many people all over the world without even intending to and without even realizing it just by staying real, expressing myself, and sharing my experiences!

magicSymptoms Of Voodoo/Black Magic by misslatoya

kindu said 6 days ago

Hello Miss latoya,
I am so thankful to you for enlightening me.
When i feel sad about what i went thru, then i suddenly want revenge. At the bottom of my heart i feel i should wait and see how god will punish them. But sometimes i get impatient.
I will need more time to feel comfortable about it.
If you don’t mind, may i send you my ex-bf and my cousin sister’s picture? If you could tell me why they are after me, and what are they up to? Kindly send me your email id please.

I have never meet a person like you online. So far all the people i meet didn’t bother to answer my questions. You are a very kind person. I feel very comfortable to share my problems with you. Thanks alot.

Thks
Kindu

You said 6 days ago

Whether you feel sad or angry about the things that you were wrongly and unnecessarily put through your thoughts and feelings in regard to wanting revenge are very normal and justifiable, and it is nothing at all for you to feel guilty or ashamed about.

It is very logical and understandable.

And you deciding within your heart to wait for a higher power within it’s own time to take care of your enemies and work on your behalf and on the behalf of anyone else that these people may have wronged just shows that you are a person of good-nature who wants to go about doing things the right way as you see fit to how you see is right through your own morals or state of well-being and that is very commendable.

You will be blessed.

You’re just a person of upstanding character with positive intentions who wants to see the people get back what they deserve and believe me they will even though it probably doesn’t seem like it because it often seems as if the evil people get away with everything while the good people continue to be put through many different unwanted challenges but it just makes us even stronger and much wiser than we already are.

We grow while the negative people remain stagnant and headed straight to their eventual doom. Believe me, those kind of people are not happy.

If you never feel comfortable about seeking out help to do a ritual for your enemies demise with the help of the universes supernatural energies that is alright do not worry about it let the matter take care of itself naturally.

I am sorry about your experiences with other people online and other spiritual advisers that you may have consulted. It is sad but most are not truly out to help or to relate to one’s situation and circumstances they are not very trustworthy and are just worried and primarily concerned about money and financially profiting/gain most of them don’t even have gifts of insight and if they do their powers are not really that strong or accurate because they are not grounded within depth of purpose and authenticity.

And they are not on the correct side of the podium, meaning that on the outside they display a following of the light when indeed they are just followers of the darkness. Don’t trust too many people out there and don’t believe in many of these so called psychics they are not real they are just liars and manipulators. Don’t give out your money to nobody!

I really hope for you the best and you can email me and I’ll see what I can find out for you.spiritualworkbylatoya@verizon.net

 

Still On The Throne

QueenieThe night before last on August 2, 2016 I lay awake late in bed and received a clear vision of the woods during the dark hours and the motive of my enemies desiring to take me there to kill me!

I received a message that one of the reasons that they want me dead is because I know too much about things and the things that are specifically going on with them and their actions. In further reality it is a combination of things.

Well, that is nothing new! I’ve been “knowing” all of my life and had many unsuccessful attempts made upon my life by undesirables.

When I finally went to sleep that night I dreamed that my enemies had me at a house that they tried to prevent me from leaving yet they never physically came into any contact with me while I was there.

See, they want to murder me but they don’t have the heart/nerve like I do. They want to kill me-they will get killed in the process.

They want to also get me out of the way because I continue to cause major well-deserved damage to them and it is driving them up a wall even though I could not imagine them getting anymore sick and crazier than they already are since they have reached beyond the limits of insanity constantly yet still there are many exceptions within their case.

They are severely demented as well as demonic.

Yesterday while I was in the shower preparing to get ready to go out for one of my routines I received a telephone call. The call was from a health care company that I had sought employment from but at the time when they had work for me the hours had clashed with another job that I had been working so I had declined on the offer and was told that they would look for hours that would fit into my schedule.

That was two years ago and I hadn’t heard from them since!

Whenever I’d call and ask the female who would do the scheduling for the borough that I was in she claimed that there wasn’t anything available for the days or hours that I was looking for but all of a sudden I get a call from them now asking me if I am still looking for more work?

May I repeat that this all took place an entire two years ago!

I had even forgotten all about that health care establishment as I have been busy working at quite a few assisted living and retirement residential facilities why are they contacting me now out of the blue?

That particular female I was told does not work there anymore (I asked about her and was informed that she left) but that the company still had me and my information within their system and all that I needed to bring in was my recent physical and have a required drug screening done to further update my file before I start work.

Doesn’t sound right to me smells absolutely fishy considering the recent events that had went on in regard to my enemies and their plotting with those in particular at Sunrise.

I know that my enemies are dumb, however, don’t they know what having been born with ESP means? I mean even one of the junkies from the old neighborhood I use to live in ran up to me one evening twelve years ago acknowledging to me that he knew I had Extra Sensory Perception.

So why do these assholes even continue to plot when I know what they are going to do before they themselves even know beforehand? I will always get a warning or a message.

Some of them actually believe that esp is just knowing things through dreams as they would desperately work their spells to try to block the past, present and future event of scenes that I’d experience during my sleep when clairvoyance is so much more than that.

And it is something that no one can stop or take away.

WarriorAll of this nonsense because my enemies are upset because I have many talents and qualifications that they do not encompass so they never wanted me to reach my full potential let alone hold a simple everyday job.

They never counted on me having other jobs in the midst of them trying to make me lose the ones that they were aware about ( it is not every job of mine that they are able to interfere with, though) so since they are unable to beat me they want to use a company from the past to set me up for a trap now? I don’t think so and they have tried this before (https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2013/01/08/the-real-storythe-real-deal/).

They’ve even started tapping my phone again and interfering with it while it rings they use to do this at my old home from time to time especially when things are not working out in their favor (it doesn’t matter whether the phone is old or brand new because it is not the equipment it is them listening and interceding I’ve even heard one of them at my job at a distance when I was working at Sears reveal to the other “she knows her phone is being monitored” https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2012/08/28/perpetrators-plans-to-tear-down-the-wise-and-strongwhat-they-dont-want-you-to-know/).

This all began with my great grandmother Amanda Byars when I was a child she was so dumb that she literally didn’t even know what a comma was all that she and Ernestine Lawrence (Tina) knew was how to lie on me and my mother and do dirt and she has people carrying on with it even after her own demise and death.

Lies that were told on my mother and I out of much envy and jealousy years ago just to get people to mess with us and to go along with their corruption has gotten a lot of them in trouble and harshly ridiculed by those who came to see the truth and by those who had known the truth all along especially since the truth continues to come out and prevail.

These enemies of mine are not even really friends or all of that tight with each other as they get caught within their own dirt and lies then turn on one another as they have just used each other to begin with it’s one set of trash thinking that they are higher than the other playing on their disadvantages because it is the stupid ones that they go an get, boosting them up just to make a fool out of them.

My problem that I am proud of against my enemies or anyone else is that I was never one that anyone could rule someone could put a gun to my head and I still will not budge. I am nowhere near worried about anyone trying to kill me either I am not worried about anything because I am deep, and I am too spiritual.