The moment I arrived to her hospital bed yesterday and looked at her an eerie feeling had come over me that resembled a feeling of dizziness in a way and that usually only happens when I encounter certain energies and the energy from other individuals that I won’t mention the nature of because all of my spiritual experiences is not anybody’s business, and it just dawned on me today that it was a signal to me of what was around her at the time and of what was about to come.
At one of my jobs recently I’ve worked a permanent shift at a hospital for a hospice patient every day and the night before yesterday on Monday the lady that comes in to relieve me to do the overnight shift said to me in regard to our patient, “I hope she makes it another two weeks because I really need the money”.
Then last night when this lady comes in again to relieve me of my shift she asked me if I think that the patient will last till the weekend, hoping that she would live long enough only to fill up the hours adding up to a nice size paycheck.
This woman who we are looking after is on the verge of death as it is obvious that she may go at any time now has a family that comes to visit her every day that is grieving for her and can’t bare to see her this way suffering and on her way out yet all that this fellow caregiver is worried about is getting paid.
I understand that this is our duty and not any volunteer work and that we are doing our work to actually get paid, but damn.
And the thing about the situation is that she acknowledged to me that she has cared for the woman before at the assisted living facility where she lived and how nice, caring, and hospitable this old woman was to her and claims that if she dies it is going to hit her, meaning that she is going to feel some emotion. Seems like bullshit to me if it was really going to hit her she’d be more concerned about the woman living long enough to spend a little more time with her family and not to earn an extra few dollars, shit, get a second job.
In fact, everyone expressed to me how sweet this little old lady was the first evening I met her she grabbed my hand and kissed it.
I remember this past December when I worked ten hours a day five days a week at an assisted living facility where I watched over a lady who suddenly had a death in the family (her son) and one of her daughters offered for me to stay through out the rest of my shift as family members had gathered together there with her and had planned to take her out for dinner.
I had refused. I cut my shift short; the private agency that I worked for even said to me “You don’t mind cutting your hours short and not getting paid for the rest of the full time hours for that day?”
“No”, I had told her. “Not under the circumstances”, as I was the one that suggested that I’d leave for the day in the first place to give them their privacy and space. To me, it was the principal of the matter whether the family cared or not.
Spirit is and has constantly been there for me. Spirit has never let me down and that is so amazing to me. And it is so astonishing because although that I have tremendous faith in what I know and believe still I never take anything for granted and I think that is why I continue to be carried so securely by spirit.
The celestial support that I unceasingly receive is very touching and so much appreciated and it is also additionally grounding. I naturally and genuinely treasure what is surrounding me and as I am in harmony and in balance with the quintessence of my existence, the alignment of my dimensional position within the universe that is in relation to inclination, I thrive.
The peace that is around me is so wonderful.
I was always a positive individual that exuded positive energy and I always knew what was going to work for me and what wasn’t going to work out from a very early age because I always had a very strong sense of self. And as my energy was always good it was always the negative energies of others that would constantly interfere.
Just the simple condition of not being within the presence of certain types of people (especially undesirables) is so rejuvenating and liberating, and oh so very healthy for the mind, aura and spirit. That circumstance has consistently been a major factor to my happiness and well-being as a highly spiritual individual.
Everything is so clear, clean, and beautiful living in the compatible arrangement of my own preordained nature. A nature of authentic serenity that some of us are blessed with when we continue to choose and remain on the paths that are correct for us.
When we hear and listen to that inner voice of spirit it never guides us in the wrong direction we become one within distinction and within the truths of our lives and where we’re going.
Spirit helps us to make important decisions, gives us the confidence and courage to take risks and to make the most vital of changes that prove to all turn out for the better and I am a living testimony!
Love is so durable and I feel it all around me and I just love the love. Love makes us strong, love makes us powerful, and love makes us who we are! Love is not corny yet it is often underestimated and it is why spirit has us within the first place.
Without the love, care, and protection of the specific energies around those of us in particular we’d be lost and alone as long as we have the loves of the light we will prevail.
I am not the emotional type and I read and watch the news all of the time without being affected in any kind of way personally. I hear others say though that they don’t even like to indulge in the media anymore because of the horrific things that are continuously taking place and that they sometimes even cry.
I know that things like this go on all of the time, however, this is really too ridiculous and out of hand how I just read last weekend that some real sick individual beat (broke every bone in the body), hung (tied it to a tree), and then shot (with a BB gun) a helpless 4 month old puppy out in a public area.
It literally brought a few tears to my eyes and that is rare for me.
Whereas I don’t feel for people in general I do and have always felt for certain puppies and dogs and those that bring vicious and unwarranted harm to these innocent and precious animals need to die a brutal and torturous death themselves.