Sexual Harassment 👮‍♀️♀️👮‍♂️♂️🔒

 

Harassment of any nature is not limited to the workplace, of course, it can take place anywhere.

Periodically, at almost every job I ever had we had updated training.

When I worked at Sears Roebuck for four years there was continuous training for us employees to complete electronically as things were constantly changing or advancing.

Even if the subjects and activities within the lessons and testing were just a recoup of what we had already gone over beforehand.

Two weeks ago, I had to do updated training in one of my workplaces regarding sexual harassment- a subject I am very knowledgeable in, and that I have always passed with one hundred percent correctness in answers after testing whether during orientation or training.

This previous occurrence gave me an idea to write about due to the seriousness in nature on jobs where managers are not taking action when they are supposed to. Where managers may side with a perpetrator, or where managers do not take a matter gravely.

Sexual harassment or harassment of any kind should never be tolerated in the workplace.

Do not be afraid, stand up for yourself at all cost and at all means.

A supervisor/manager is supposed to give immediate attention to the employee once harassment is reported. If they do not, and one does not see any results or are not satisfied with an investigation that was carried out then report your case/complaint to The New York City Commission of Human Rights- 718 722 3131.

One can also call or contact The New York Division of Human Rights 888 392 3644.

Personally, I know from my experience when or if anyone tries to harass me in any way I go into kick- their- ass mode.

However, we must think before we instantly or automatically react.

If we do not fight back in a way that is obvious it is not that we are afraid. We just do not want to risk going to jail for assholes who are not worth wasting precious time of our lives over.

Nevertheless, no matter how a negative situation will turn out it is very important to remember that nobody in this life gets away with anything that they do- even if they ignorantly think they have.

It is alright when something is justified, but people get back what is coming to them and God does not let negative deeds/actions go unpaid.

 

 

Through My Eyes 👀

 

I remind myself of the 1978 Faye Dunaway thriller/mystery “The Eyes Of Laura Mars”. It is said that art imitates life.

I have been seeing accurate visions that were confirmed or that came to be since I was a child, whether while awake or in my sleep.

I am not perfect, just a human being. I would not trust everything that is shown as we are to test the spirit.

Although things can also have dual meanings or reflections I know when to keenly sense the difference from within and between from experience.

This past Thursday night, around 10:40pm, I had a vision of a guy whose energy I have been feeling for a while who I will not name.

Usually when I feel guys’ energy in a certain manner it is because they are attracted to me, jealous of me, have animosity toward me, or whatever, and because they are no good.

I always find out that I was correct in my predictions and judgments.

Their energy can linger for as long as their feelings for me last, or for as long as I need to be aware of the circumstances taking place with and around them regarding me and my life.

In the vision that appeared while I laid awake, the guy was completely naked wearing nothing but a pair of socks.

He was in a bedroom.

I am not sure if this bedroom was located inside a hotel or somebody’s home.

A barely dressed female who appeared partially in the nude lay on a bed dazed, with her eyes barely opened about to pass out from a roofie (flunitrazepam) that was slipped in her drink.

As this girl/woman laid in the bed I could see from her slanted-eye view the guy walk across the room past the foot of the bed to observe her state of falling unconscious.

I was projected as the female at first until the vision further played on.

The guy took out his phone- and I could discern every bit of vile energy and negativity within this individual’s actions and intentions. He enjoyed what he was doing- to record and photograph this female he victimized through eventually having sex with her while incapacitated.

There was another guy who appeared inside the room, though I was not able to get a look at him.

The other guy asked with a smirk on his face in a way as to urged the guy on if he wanted to take a turn to sexually take advantage of the girl.

This guy is an awful, terrible, low life piece of shit.

I do not know if this occurrence took place Thursday night, the exact time it was revealed to me, if it happened sometime already within the past, or if will occur soon.

What I picked up from the dream is what he did to that girl is also something he would like to do to me. That is why I was initially portrayed as the girl.

I do not know the entire situation with this female I witnessed in the vision. However, I was feeling this is what this guy does when the opportunity presents itself for him to underhandedly use a form of rape on girls who otherwise refuse to give him the time or day then probably lies about it later by saying the girl was high or something to that effect- though she would have no recollection- then keep video footage and photos for himself as a trophy/souvenir to look back at, privately show other no good associates to, and gloat over. He may have even blackmailed certain girls with the footage leaving them afraid to come forward.

I cannot prove this, yet I know what I saw and felt is true.

Energy does not lie- but people do.

 

 

I Do Not Want To Be What The World Considers Normal❤

 

I have been told directly when I was a teenager and during my adulthood that I was not “normal” by three people because I am very unique.

Some meant those words as an acknowledgement to me that I was uncommon to them as others have used the term toward me as an insult.

But what these few who said this to me, whether it was a harmless mention or one to intentionally hurt, did not realize is that their words were a huge compliment to me.

It made me feel good to not be categorized as being the same.

No one can drown out my voice or my existence. Though, I have always detested the existence of those who I feel should not exist.

I am one who could never conform to the so-called norm of what is considered normal- to do as others do and to think as others do.

To accept and adhere to the approved dominant set of principles, rules, or standards within the characteristics and behavior carried out by most of society.

It was never my inborn tendency to behave according to socially accepted conventions or typicality.

I often rejected, and refused to comply or go along with what went against my nature or way of thinking, being, and doing due to my unconventionality.

I prefer my original, unusual, different, so-called strange to some, out of the ordinary, original, new-fashioned disposition- because it is the real me.

I never had the desire to join in- that is why I always stood out.

I hated whenever people tried to manipulate or coerce me by subtle means trying to use psychology, head games, or their way of reasoning to undermine, challenge, or change my attitude and ways through passing unfavorable judgment upon me, downplaying me, turning against me, or underestimating me.

These actions never caused self-doubt or fear within me to surrender to just be accepted.

Oftentimes it infuriated me or caused me to pleasantly distance myself from those kinds of individuals.

My resistance has caused in many instances among those who were in opposition or who were incongruent, great friction between us.

This is why I am a leader and not a follower because I never went along with society because it was the thing to do or else, I would be an outcast or labeled or considered crazy.

I refused to be what I was not to please others and lie to myself just to get by.

I have received backlash or so-called consequences for doing things my way that others did not understand or interpreted their way as they could see no other way due to their own social conditioning and/or lack of awareness or knowledge in diversity.

Yet, all the occurrences did was make me more determined to maintain my identity and to continue to be who I am.

If anyone is to criticize me, laugh at me, call or consider me insane for sticking to my guns, then so be it.

Nothing can deter me from loving the person within me.

To me, certain others are the crazy ones.

I could just as easily criticize and laugh at them for seeing things in my own way. The way I feel is everyone has the right to be who they are and live out their life accustomed to how they are as long as they do not impose their ways on me and try to make my life difficult on account of their indifference.

I never cared or tried to force my ways on anyone but others failed to treat me in the same. Some people have a problem with control and some cannot deal with what is foreign to what they know and have been taught.

Something unheard of or unorthodox can be disturbing to them.

I am resilient within my natural purpose.

There are times, places, and situations whereas we as people do not necessarily relate to or agree with things, but we may compromise or make allowances. This is vital in life as we must conform when it is contingent upon circumstances.

Of course, there must be order and harmony within living together to humanely survive here on the earth.

However, when it comes to personal identity, I will not budge for anyone.

If more people were allowed to truly be themselves and fresh ideas were contrived in dealing with problems or situations instead of the same predictable methods that I find tiring, annoying, and of no use or affect as one who these measures does not reflect upon accordance with.

This indeed is a sick society.

A lot of what is considered normal among many is what really is abnormal, but it is accepted because abnormal in relation to normal is what is normal to them.

I am so glad to not be normal.

I choose to be a healthy individual who is not a puppet of this world. latoya lawrence 

 

Kindness And Truth Kills Them

 

Kill Them With Kindness Or Kill Them With Truth?

A daughter of an elderly man I have been working on a case for left me a voicemail and text message as I was unavailable at the time, she called on Monday morning.

The woman divulged that her father was in the hospital and that she would be in touch.

Instead of phoning her back I sent her a text responding, “Okay”.

On Tuesday afternoon, the woman called me again. I answered my phone to speak with her.

She acknowledged to me that her father was still in the hospital, that he would be home in a couple of days.

Then, she went on to say that she was not aware or not, or aware of how the doctor (my supervisor) and I work out or handle situations with other clients I take on in situations where one of my cases becomes temporarily paused.

I kept silent as I knew she was just fishing for information from me to see if I would share whether I had other shifts to take on aside from and in place of her father.

Sure enough, when I did not reply she forwardly asked me If I wanted to come manage her next-door neighbor (Who she acquired my assistance for in the past before the woman was placed into a rehabilitation center after taking a fall. The woman was released last Tuesday and I spent two days of my free time helping her to adjust plus working extra paid hours for her father, and was paid two hundred and twenty-five dollars in hand for my two-day service for the neighbor) the following Thursday.

I told her no.

The woman proceeded to asked me If I was working tomorrow on Wednesday.

I told her no.

She then asked if I would come to help her neighbor again on the side. I plainly but casually told her, “No. I don’t want to”.

The woman ended the conversation with “Okay, that is alright. Enjoy your days off”.

This woman uses her father as an excuse to call when all she really wanted was to get me to come over to her neighbor’s house to use me for her own advantage even though I would get paid.

There was no need for her to call me to keep me posted or to give me an update regarding her father unless it was to notify me of his return home from the hospital.

She had just phoned me the day before to inform me of his whereabouts.

Today is Friday. He is still not home. It is past a couple of days. The woman was full of shit just like I knew.

This manipulative bitch must have gotten over plenty of times or is used to controlling others while using money as bait.

Well, I am not one who can be controlled or manipulated- or bought by anyone! I am used to money.

I was nowhere near rich but I grew up having money.

I am an independent woman who makes her own money. Money is something that never bothered me. So, she encountered the wrong person to trifle with.

I helped her neighbor before as she is a very kind and sweet elderly lady who needed supervision and aid in maintaining her health management.

However, trying to use my services whenever it was convenient while I have a life of my own to live and conduct, instead of just working out arrangements with other candidates and with an agency as she planned.

This woman wanted to keep me in the loop as someone she could always fall back on since I am responsible, trustworthy, and sufficient.

I am also someone who is nobody’s fool or footstool.

I refused to get caught up in her loop. The only loop that woman will obtain from me is a box of Fruit Loops without the milk for her nutty ass.

She had the nerve to let out deep sighs of disappointments on more than one occasion when she could not get her way with me, and get pushy with me in her tone of asking “Why not?” The woman did not want to take no for an answer when I would attempt to get out of her requests. Then she would effort to compromise around my availability to make it convenient for me so everything would be convenient for her.

I do not have time for any of that crap.

I know the women is seething because whatever she had in store blew up in her face.

People who think they have game do nothing but play themselves when it comes to messing around with people who they take for granted or underestimate.

I thank God for getting me out of that situation and I am curious about what is ahead.

The woman’s father likes me and enjoys me being around. I find him pleasant too, but I do not think he may be around too much longer. It is just a feeling I get. I wish him the best and will work with him as long as necessary.

It is a shame his daughter must cause interference by her hunger for greed. I just want to work in connection to her father without violating any terms within my workplace.

I was totally upfront with my supervisor because that is the way I am- my supervisor even said this woman is manipulative.

 

 

 

 

Kill Them With Kindness Or Kill Them With Truth?

 

Kindness And Truth Kills Them

Some people take kindness for weakness, thinking that they can take advantage of you.

A lady at work (at one of the places I am employed at) who wanted me to do duty on the side for her as she paid me directly in cash found out different.

She expected to use me and my time for her convenience and thought handing out money would reel me in.

I do not know where some people come from and what is going on in their minds.

I stayed quiet to let her run her mouth and set up plans so she could think she was controlling the situation while the entire time I was the one who was running the show. Now she has received a harsh blow.

I put my foot down.

My supervisor told me to tell the lady I had an additional job scheduled to prevent the lady from further acquiring my service.

However, I am not the type to lie for convenience unless it is necessary.

People lie so much in their daily lives or routine that it becomes second nature to them thinking that lies are the only way to go or to get what they want- and that may be true for those used to deception, but I prefer honesty over cowardice.

I told this conniving woman “No” more than once and told my supervisor again about the situation as the lady phoned me up today asking if I would mind working on the side for her two days this week.

I told the woman nonchalantly “No, I don’t want to”.

My supervisor said she would call the woman and speak with her as I firmly stated that I am there to do my assigned shifts and that is it!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Bold And Proud With No Apologies 🦢

 

I have no regrets in my life.

I am proud of the child that I once was, the teenager I used to be, and of the woman who I am now.

I am thankful and grateful for the divine guidance and protection that reigns over me.

God has never let or allowed negative people to win over me in any circumstance.

When I look into the past I remember that since I was a little girl all throughout my life whenever people had tried or partook in doing dirt against me they have always failed no matter how many things they did, lies they told, or delusion they upheld through their facades and false perception of projection they tried to reflect upon my life.

God has taught me, and from a young age, instilled in me during my journey- an insight, strength and confidence.

A living example of what he assembles no one can disassemble. It is also an inspiration to others of what is possible when others say what is not possible.

It upsets negative people when what would hurt or bother them does not hurt, bother, or affect you mentally or emotionally. They do not have the capacity or knowledge of higher consciousness within the spirit to know better. It is a level that they will never attain.

Whenever negative people went to strike their arrows, it was nothing to me. Idiocy can sometimes be annoying, but it is of no faze.

There are a lot of no-good people in the world. When God has a special purpose for us others can see that light, though, they might not discern what that light is. The devil comes for us the strongest, yet he has no power over us!

As I observe the present everything is running smoothly.

Of course, we all have the usual kinks that life throws at us here and there that eventually get untangled- but it is because of the fallen world that we live in and to keep us knowing that we can depend on God to see us through and to keep us thriving.

I love and appreciate the positive powerful energy around me.♥️

When Envy And Jealousy Reign

 

Jealousy is a very ugly thing.

Haters do not want to hear good things about you. They do not want you to succeed.

They want you to believe the lies they implant because they do not want to acknowledge the truths that radiate in you.

They want to cause doubt in you, they want to downplay the talent and ability within you.

They try to take away from you to give to themselves.

They want to knock you down to build themselves up.

They want the credit for what you deserve that they did not honestly earn.

Do they ever learn?

Haters hate themselves. They feel inadequate and resentful because you possess what they believe they are entitled to have, and that makes them feel small.

It eats them up how you were created to stand tall.

When you do not fall, they wonder why.

If they were in your shoes the treachery in attempts would have made them cry.

You do not need to prove to anyone what you know you already have- so go ahead and laugh.

There is nothing they can do to eliminate the shining light inside of you.

Continue to do what you do.

No matter what they endeavor to do. They will never be able to authenticate their version to resemble you.latoya lawrence 

 

 

 

 

Living Out One’s Truth: A Healthy Form Of Contentment

 

In a world where impressions matter to many, truths are what truly mattered to me.

Not projecting a facade of what is acceptable for the sake of being accepted.

I found it impossible for me to put on a disguise as I am not one to be a people pleaser.

There is a time for courtesy, professionalism, diplomacy, and respecting certain boundaries as well as a time when to justifiably cross them.

It is so important to live out one’s truth even if that genuineness and loyalty to self within self-preservation according to one’s own distinct nature causes a reproach within others due to what goes beyond their own comprehension and/or level of discernment.

I have been lied upon, misunderstood, judged for things I have never done, criticized for not being able to be controlled by others, and I have been the object of other people’s vicious gossip, envy and jealousy just like many other people of substance in life have.

All other people’s negativity did was cause me to become further resilient and despise and look down upon these individuals more than I already had beforehand.

As one who is extremely stubborn no one can make me do anything I do not want to do, and no one can stop me from doing anything that I want to do.

I have noticed an innate force within me that refused to allow me to be deterred from possessing the essential liberty that is instilled within me to express and prevail.

I was naturally inspired to continue to move forward unaffected.

Permitting others, the opportunity to dictate or restrict one’s path and future out of fear/intimidation or discouragement only prevents one’s celestial discovery, steady growth, and ultimate evolution.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We Are Not A Reflection Of What Others Reflect

 

There are people who often recognize or acknowledge some of us for who they want us to be instead of who we really are.

They form judgements or have preconceived notions based on generalized perceptions of what they believe we represent through our perceived lifestyle, words, or manner of bearing in which we conduct ourselves.

Some conclusions that others draw may be accurate, partially accurate or just plain wrong altogether.

One cannot be genuinely defined according to conjecture, hearsay, rumor, false assumption or a standard of what one is familiar with and/or accustomed to.

So many factors, shape, make up and contribute to diverse individuals and their behavior.

As soon as one behaves or responds contrary to another person’s sense of belief or reasoning, they may become shocked, disappointed, or even critical toward the other person.

This instance is not an illustration that the people or person in question necessarily did something wrong or acted out of character. It is an example of others whose expectation or notion of what they built up within their own way of thinking projecting upon the surface.

I experienced a long time ago (from my childhood on up) how people would put their own insecurities, ignorance, and negativity onto me and others who they differed from or were jealous towards.

I without a doubt knew that their judgment or lack thereof did not coincide with reality.

Their actions and behavior reflected themselves, who they truly were, and had absolutely nothing to do with me!

 

 

Poison Penises And Vicious Vaginas

 

When people think of assault or murder it is usually through the methods of stabbing, shooting, strangling, knocking one out through blunt force trauma, substance/chemical poisoning, and so on.

But voodoo/black magic/witchcraft by tampering to influence or harm people, and the intentional sexual pollutants of bodily fluids are also disgusting forms of crime inflicted on other individuals.

HIV/AIDS has come a long way since originally hitting the scene to become widely known from the late seventies to the early eighties.

There are advanced anti-viral drugs on the market to lower viral load to the point of it almost becoming undetectable or non-detectable considering intercourse with an infected person to be so-called safe sex.

There are plenty of other diseases out there that are transmitted through sexual contact and some venereal diseases that can be caught without having sexual contact with anyone at all.

The problem is not with the diseases themselves but with scandalous people who know they are infected with disease and knowingly pass them on to others freely without any concern or decency.

Some people will intentionally spread their infections out of bitterness with the attitude of “I am dying so I will take others with me”.

People have different reactions and motives for why they do things.

Some just do not care.

Some think if they spread their disease to a person or people that they give the disease to these people will have to stay with them or within their sexual circle (which fittingly does not always transpire).

Some just want others to be in their shoes so that they do not feel alone or awkward within their situation, making the circumstance less uncomfortable within their bearings.

All I can say is that this is a wild dangerous world with a lot of highly disturbed, treacherous, ruthless and just plain immoral people.

There are also plenty of highly upstanding, good-natured, trustworthy and humane people out there in our world.

If people with sense continue to love and respect themselves and be cautious to thoroughly detect who or what they let into their bodies just as one would with any stranger or foreign object that they would let into their home.

Do not let anyone enter without the proper “checks”. Do not let them check in if they do not correctly check out!

 

 

 

This Immigration And Asylum Issue

 

We already have too many people over here within this country as it is.

We have people here who do not have jobs, people who are homeless.

The government needs to take care of the people who are already here instead of allowing others to come over here to add to more problems.

Why not put effort into helping those in need here who are at risk and just lack the opportunity that can be given if permitted the chance.

But no! The government along with these self-serving politicians are just looking out for themselves to gets votes, to get recognition/prestige, to get into higher positions of power.

They do not genuinely care about us native citizens. It is all about carrying out plans that seem to progress foreigners when it is really a trade-off to further the government’s unscrupulous agendas.

The people coming over here are going to need steady employment, sufficient income, a secure place to live and etc…. Plenty of things that people here in America need and do not have.

Like I said, take care of the people already here before letting immigrants unnecessarily invade on us and cause us more trouble.

A Must See Movie For Those Who Haven’t

 

I was in the mood for cinema Saturday night, sorting through the hundreds of films in the app of my library of free movies to watch on my wide-screen television set.

I chose a movie titled “The Brave One”, and I am so glad I did.

I stayed up until 5am in the morning watching this film till the end as I had to work Sunday afternoon It was worth it though. I went to sleep afterwards- and still made it to work ahead of time.

It starred Jodie Foster and Terrence Howard. It is a realistic movie that came out in 2007 about a violent assault, murder, and a lady who works for a radio broadcast who takes it upon herself to avenge victims of crime in New York City as well as herself of her previous attackers.

The ending really stirred me, I just loved it!

The Brave One was truly an excellent, heart-felt action-thriller movie that one would not be disappointed viewing if this is their genre.

 

Men With The “Wrong Head” On Their Shoulders

 

In my younger days men always chased after me whether they were single, had girlfriends, or even wives it didn’t matter.

A lot of guys liked me, not because all were just interested in sex, they genuinely liked me as a person. They enjoyed my conversation; they were intrigued by my uniqueness.

I had male as well as female associates. Sometimes I even got along better with certain males than I did with females.

Men shared wild and intimate secrets with me. They’d have girlfriends or wives while having other women on the side and etc….

I was upfront with them letting them know that they would never get into my panties.

I had some that were glad I was the way that I was even though it was a bruise to their ego. Some were envious of me, some resented me, some didn’t care- I did not care either.

No one could take advantage of me, no one could get over on me. Everything I did was on my terms or to my advantage. I was never the emotional lovey-dovey type of female. Although I had no problem with expressing how I thought or felt.

I had some very funny and crazy experiences with guys.

There was a neighborhood guy in his fifties that was interested in me when I was in my twenties.

We were sitting in his jeep talking while a crowd of people were there hanging out, talking, enjoying the days of summer.

All of a sudden, he turned the key in the ignition, started the vehicle, and drove around the corner.

I opened the door to the jeep and hopped out as we were halfway down the block (he had not drove too fast as I was able to take a safe leap).

I knew he was going to try to rape me.

 

 

When I was out of the jeep he told me to get back in.

I told him no! “Get back into the jeep so that you can rape me and then everybody say that it was my fault for getting back into the jeep?” I spoke.

“Rape?!” He spoke.

This fifty something year old man then got out of his vehicle and literally chased me around the jeep telling me to get back in.

I purposely ran around the jeep to make an ass out of him. Then I walked back down the block to where the rest of the people were. He was nothing to worry about. He was high, hard-up, and frivolously hell-bent.

My mother and I laughed about it later when I told her what had happened “He was going to get him some ass, huh?!” She relayed back in truth and humor.

My mother acknowledged to me that I was lucky the man didn’t have power-locks in his jeep.

Rape is a serious crime and no laughing matter; however, this man was nothing to take serious in my situation I was in no further danger. I was well-known in the neighborhood; people knew him and what he was about. He definitely knew better. I was a hangout partner with his sister whom he didn’t get along too well with.

This man and I ran into one another weeks later as I were on my way to the store, he was parked on the corner and called me over to the car.

I brought up the prior incident.

“Rape?!” He said like the suggestion I made was preposterous in order to through me off. He wanted to make me feel foolish. Of course, it did not work.

“There is too much pussy out here to rape”, he added out of anger.

When I did not back down and insisted on what he aimed to do he exclaimed, “I don’t want you!”

Then he admitted that by his last words he was just trying to hurt my feelings.

“My feelings are not hurt”, I expressed. “Why would I care if you want me or not?”

“Yeah, that could be true. You women can be cold”, he expressed back in return.

I, LaToya did not understand this man’s mentality at all. I did not understand the ignorance.

When I told a male associate the story he automatically knew instinctively as he addressed to me, “He was going to rape you”.

Months later, the fifty-year-old man’s sister came to me and told me that another female came to her and told her that her brother tried to rape her too. I and this other targeted girl did not personally know one another but I had seen her in the neighborhood before.

In return, the sister told the girl that she had heard about it before (through me but she did not tell the girl where she heard about it from).

The man’s sister told me that her brother trying to rape this other woman was not relevant because of her notorious promiscuous sexual behavior.

I disagree.

As far as I am concerned, even a prostitute does not deserve to be raped even though she may be asking for it depending on her situation.

If a woman does not consent to having sex, then no man has the right to force himself on the woman regardless of her sexual history.

Rape is an act of violence and control.

 

 

 

 

Principalities Disguised Within People: The Devil’s Playground

 

Yes, there are people in this world who are actually demonic themselves, nevertheless, the devil often uses or works through negative people in order to distract us or to cause conflict and confusion.

The devil will even manifest in people who claim to be Christian or followers of God.

When we are of the light attacks will always come against us yet we have authority over evil and are equipped for the challenges.

Remember, the Lord fights our battles, and when we come up against those who are tools for the devil we are not affected.

The darkness can never overpower the light as I have said so many times before.

Liars And Jealous People Hurt No One But Themselves

 

Two things in life I could never stand are liars and jealous people.

Some people lie so much to themselves and to others that they are sick enough to believe their own lies.

 

 

 

When Unreasonable Anger Turns Violent

 

There is far too much violence within the world everywhere.

This is a sick society.

These days people are killing people over their French fries not being served hot enough, or for too much mayonnaise being put onto a sandwich.

I remember back in the eighties where there was a morbid trend of people killing people just for accidentally stepping on their new pair of sneakers.

There was even an incident where a two- or three-year-old kid shot a water pistol at a grown man, and he in return shot and killed the kid. It was the summer, it was very hot, it was just a child, it was only water splashed out from a water-gun and wet clothing would have dried up quickly in the heat- so what was the issue?

I understand anger. Anger is a completely natural and healthy emotion.

However, it is how one handles their anger.

What I mentioned above goes far beyond anger. It touches on the irrational.

People go into rages and kill over the most ridiculous things.

I can see if one has to kill in self-defense or because of something major as in rape and something else justifiable (yet we should never take the law into our own hands) but killing people for stupid shit?

 

A Serious Matter Of Thought

 

The supervisor I work for is a licensed physician who owns her own private establishment.

As one bound to confidentiality in regard to our clients I am not at liberty to divulge information about our clients.

However, I will acknowledge that as a health care professional for now, and for the last past eight and a half years whether I have worked at a facility, hospital, or residential community area I have dealt with and come across all types of people with all types of ailments.

I just have to say, those of us who are blessed with good, excellent, or fair health with no serious physical or mental disability should be thankful and grateful. Never take for granted what certain others with illness or impairment could only dream to be healed from.

I am not minimizing anyone’s struggles in life whatever they may be from time to time as we all go through things in life. All of what burdens us are significant.

Though, our problems are nothing compared to what others may be experiencing. Not only in matters of health, but also those who may not have enough food to eat, those who live in other countries without the freedom we have, and so on.

There are people within the world who have much more to complain about than we do. We live in a paradise in comparison to them. And the Lord knows that nothing in or about this world is a paradise.

 

 

Age Is No Factor When God Decides To Bless You

 

I am at the age of forty-six now. However, it did not take me to get a specific age to acquire particular knowledge.

I gained wisdom early on within my youth. I knew what life was about by the age of twelve.

I was born with spiritual and intellectual gifts that made me wise in ways that certain people did not appreciate. Those who were not on the level themselves who gave off negative energy.

I knew things outside the ordinary range, beyond the normal sensory range of contact/area. I had the faculty to perceive things or events in the past, present, and future.

The scientific name for what I was born with is extrasensory perception/clairvoyance.

I have enhanced by learning extra, but I already knew much of what I know now that many people take years to learn through age, and by their own personal experience. Through experience within things some people still do not grasp on correctly and they walk through life with false perception and misrepresentation of life factors.

I had a lot of problems with negative people growing up because I was bright.

However, I do not understand why certain people thought that because they did not know particular things when they were younger that I was not supposed to either while I was at a young age.

People have a tendency to generalize and to reflect their inadequacies or insecurities onto others, especially when the aspect is common to them.

Some people do not want to accept another person who is younger than them to know more or just as much as they do because of ego or reasons of bias.

In fact, I knew more than they did in regard to particular matters within their older age. If I tried to correct an older person when they made an error, or tried to explain where I was coming from, they would react nasty or disdainful.

Not all people reacted within this fashion toward me only a “specific type”.

When I was younger there were positive people who told me and my mother that they were nowhere near the level that we was on when they were at my age.

I have been called unique, rare, strange, brilliant, and crazy (by jealous people). I don’t care. To me, I am just a spiritual person having a human experience continuing to grow on my journey in trusting and understanding my purpose and relationship with God.

I was always ahead of my time, advanced in ways that came without anyone having to teach me.

My mother and I were able to teach ourselves as youngsters. When we went to school, we exceled in the subjects we were strong in.

School did not make us smart, though, we were already adept to begin with.

Yes. One can be self-taught within a lot of things, especially within life experience.

School does not necessarily make one bright.

Education is the process of learning, acquiring knowledge of or skill in something by study, encounter, or being taught. The setting is irrelevant when things are ascertained.

I know plenty of people who attended school who are not smart.

Intelligence is something one is born with.

Knowledge or information is gained, and comes through and within various forms.

It is whether or not one is able to grasp what they learn.

As a person, and as an adult, I have never treated one inferior just because they were younger. I never tried to use my age as a weapon.

Just because one is older does not necessarily make one wiser.

There are young people who can teach an older person something just as there are older people who can teach the young many things.

I don’t consider myself to know everything at all. And I am definitely not the smartest person in the world. I am ahead within the gifts I possess, and I have a lot of knowledge, but I don’t want to know everything. I just know I have a heightened sense and connection to a realm within life that I was always familiar with.

Acknowledging our capabilities is not an expression of conceit or an exaggerated opinion of oneself when one is level-headed and logical. God wants us to be aware of who we are and the things that he equipped within us to have and accomplish to show his glory. Within our ability is a sample of God’s incredibility.

I write this as an encouragement to those who have been mistreated by older folks that have a tendency to manipulate, corrupt, hold-back, or mislead, because they cannot stand to see a younger individual who did not mess up or get caught into the same perils of life they once did.

Instead of being an example to cheer one on, they would rather drag another down as that younger person may have been a reminder of all they could have been, or wanted to be at one time or another in life.

We are blessed with certain gifts that God bestows upon us and some of us are anointed at a very young age.

God makes no mistakes. Do not let anyone tell you what you are not, what you do not know, or what you are not capable of doing.

When God enables us for his intention no one can disable us through attempting to bring about our suspension.

 

 

 

Undesirables

When one has wisdom, and can see through others, some people do not like it.

When we do not like, or do not take to certain others, and prefer to keep our distance from them and not, or no longer associate with them they will react adversely.

It is hard for some to accept or handle the fact that they are at fault within areas that we can discern so they will accuse us or another as being crazy (usually a head- game/gaslighting) or as the one with the problem.

Some people do not think or believe that they are the ones who are trouble.

Circumstances and situations can become complicated when others are not on the level and are not within harmony, or up to par with another person’s wavelength.

Sometimes they might even believe that they are the ones on the higher level due to the denial rooted within their own lack of knowledge within particular areas of life and within themselves.

There are those who will gang up on one when they do not believe they are wrong, especially if there are others who they get along with who share their same mentality.

Often those of a similar mindset no matter how nescient (ignorant), misinformed, condescending, judgmental, or twisted in thinking they may be will get along because they can relate to their own distorted and parochial views that make sense to them.

A lot of these people are deceptive, manipulative, spiteful, petty, envious/jealous, insecure, and unreasonable.

Misery loves company and when they know we are at ease and living in peace they become even bitter.

 

 

Spiritual Communication With The Lord

The Lord is so kind. He showed me his care as he does within so many ways.

Yesterday he sent me an unexpected message, answers along with guidance and encouragement to a situation I was sure of, yet had pondered through anyway.

Let not your heart be troubled. Trust in Godand trust also in me“. -John 14: 1 was the Lord’s address to me.

The life of God’s children is not easy; however, we should not be worried or anxious in our hearts. There is no reason for any of us to be troubled if we have accepted Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior.

We are not to be intimidated or frightened by the devil or by the magnitude of the evil and negativity in this world.

God let me know as a confirmation that it was okay to justifiably erase toxic people from my life without turning back. In fact, that it was a necessary act of spiritual, mental, and emotional cleansing.

We are to rid ourselves of those who speak negativity into our lives, and who try to weigh us down.

Commit your actions to the LORD, and your plans will succeed. The LORD has made everything for his own purposes, even the wicked for a day of disaster. Proverbs 16: 3

 

Bad Intentions

People getting mad and destructive through the cellestial bestowments directed out from the great universe.

Unfortunately desiring to harm other individuals because they are blessed in ways that they aren’t – Miss LaToya

I never understood why certain individuals who were of a lower intellect and character, tried to dominate and degrade, those who were of a higher level and caliber.

It happened all the time among specific type of people who considered themselves to be up to par, yet were actually not.

The ones who’d get downgraded and downplayed were the true definition of genuine sunstance, and quality.

Imitators who aspired to duplicate within their own facades, often hunted deep to find fault within those who were just living normally, often creating a barrage of unwarranted attacks, in a mere attempt to completely subdue one.

Strange how relentless people are, and how far many of them will go, due to their own  unfathomable resentment toward the favorable advantage naturally granted upon certain others.

Mental, Emotional, And Spiritual Breakdown

Everyone who has had a breakdown of some sort is not weak, crazy, or dangerously unstable.

A breakdown is spiritual within many instances. A Yoruba priestess even acknowledged this fact to me years ago. I know firsthand as my own mother was a victim of brujeria in the early 1980’s.

I was even targeted. My aunt tried to flip me out when I was eighteen years of age by putting the hallucinogenic drug mescaline into a hot pot of black eyed peas that I had cooking over the stove.

People often use recreational “trip” drugs to increase the chance or enhance the effect of mental and chemical alterations of the brain while also performing the negative spiritual influences within black magic/voodoo/witchcraft.

My aunt went a step further in her malicious attempt by also putting tainted hiv fluids inside my food. Anyone educated would know the disease would not survive within the air and within a pot of scalding hot water.

Nevertheless, I didn’t lose my head or have a breakdown, my mind was too strong with faculty and awareness, and I didn’t, of course, become infected with aids either.

I was young, innocent, and very spiritually inclined, so divine intervention took over and protected me.

My aunt Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has been hiv positive since the 1980’s due to intravenous drug use and promiscuous behavior from the 1970’s on up and instead of using her limited time to spend changing her life around for the better, she continued to do tons of constant dirt. She and other envious and jealous ruthless dummies, whores, drug addicts, and degenerates attacked me and other family for decades.

They’ve in addition done it to others, however, when they came after my mother and I, they messed with the wrong individuals. We are people of the light and they are people of the darkness. My ancestors and orishas were ready for them all, and the universe was recording and keeping record of every notorious deed in which was repeatedly done toward us.

Tina had poisoned food of my mother’s years ago too while neighbors were working black magic/voodoo/witchcraft against her.

My grandfather was driven to mental affliction before he was killed and found dead in the Hudson river.

My aunt Charise was drugged and raped which caused her to be afflicted with mental illness.

My grandfather, mother, younger aunt, and I were targeted for manipulative breakdowns because we were all very smart, strong, and fighters who could literally kick ass if needed be. We weren’t the type to back down or be bullied by anyone, and we were all good upstanding people.

The intent for causing mental, emotional, and spiritual breakdowns are to weaken one, to render them as incredible, and to lower their self esteem and spirit.

Certain evildoers want those of us who have knowledge in which threaten their unscrupulous ways either dead or labeled as crazy.

 

 

 

Too Late For Sorry

When one tells the harsh truths about no good people fellow like-minded individuals don’t want to hear or believe it. When one tells vile lies on good people haters are eager to hear and ready to believe.

 

There are people now and for a while now who are and who have been sorry for the negativity in which they had directed toward me.

They feel stupid and regret the things that they have done and took part in yet I’d never accept their apologies and I would never forgive them. I don’t want any apology I just want them to suffer for their dumb errors.

I’d never even give them the benefit of the doubt I’m so disgusted by their ignorance and audacity to so readily believe and be so eager to falsely come up against me on account of whatever they heard from someone else’s mouth when they didn’t even know me personally. I never went around bothering anybody. People were getting mad because I didn’t want to be bothered with them and because I had no dirt on me.

If I didn’t have the strong mind and spirit in which I had where would I have been?

Fortunately I wasn’t affected or devastated by the ordeal, if anything, I was enhanced as I always continue to evolve and grow, however, I thought about other people who weren’t strong enough and had gotten destroyed through the barage of other people’s ignorance, jealousy, and lies.

I don’t care if what they were told did come from a family member or certain people who’d been around me. People lie on people every day and one can live with someone and hang around them and still don’t genuinely know the heart or mind of the individual.

People didn’t really know or understand me only smart people who were on my level or higher could see me for who I honestly was and they truly liked, loved, and respected me and they all still do they’d never listen to or go along with nonsense out of pure envy, jealousy, and idiotic misgiving, and people like them immediately earn my respect. My own mother admitted to me that she never understood everything about me because I never thought like or had the mentality of the average person.

As one born with second-sight it is very hard for me to put myself in these people’s shoes because I’ve always been able to look and see through people, things, and situations whereas other people couldn’t rationalize so I was never one to be easily deceived or one to fall for anything major. I’ve always had a mind of my own and analyzed things.

I’m so sick and tired of undesirables but here we go again. And I never cared anything about their kind though I keep getting warnings and messages about them and I am ever so grateful for the insightful revelations.

There are people who don’t use drugs who are trash and degenerate, and all people who dabbled in drugs don’t go around spreading and making up lies about their relatives, this type of behavior stems from a type of mental illness and a sickness within anyone behaving in this manner.

Most jealousy starts within the family and no one knows that better than me. There was tremendous dirt done by particular family members much too much through out the years to fit into just one post.

I unfortunately have an aunt by the name of Ernestine Lawrence and she was always extremely jealous of my mother and I along with my great grandmother Amanda Byars (who is deceased now) and uncle Willie Jr (also deceased) and all three of these individuals were junkies.

Tina has had the nerve to try to contact me through Facebook a few times a few months back I just ignored her request. I know what she’s up to I see right through her. The bitch is in trouble all of the dirt she’s done and the bitch also wants information.

It’s bad enough when one has envy and jealousy from others on the outside but when you have a few undesirable relatives deceptively conspiring along with a parade of fellow ignorant and gullible lowlifes in an effort to bring you down to the gutter level to where they are it is just despicable.

I’ve hated undesirables ever since childhood because of the way their minds operated and because they’ve always proved to be and cause nothing but trouble.

Ernestine Lawrence was so jealous of my intelligence and achievements so she went around lying saying I had no education. She was jealous of my mother’s intellect and the jobs that she was able to get so she went around saying that my mother never worked a day in her life.

Amanda Byars along with neighbors on the outside worked brujeria on my mother causing her to have a mental breakdown when I was a child then went around saying that she was crazy and that she bugged out over a man when this particular man and his sister was just mad because my mother didn’t want him or a baby by him.

They tried to do the same to me. Who puts black magic on a seven year old child on up?!

Men got mad at me because I didn’t want them too and lied and tried to give me a reputation and make me lose my mind with black magic I didn’t give a fuck about that shit couldn’t no man degrade me.

When I published my first book about the family they lied and said my mother told me what to write about when in truth my mother had no idea exactly what I was going to put in my novel. I would ask her a few questions from time to time but other than that she didn’t know, however, she knew it was autobiographical. Everything came from me and my own words as I’d been writing since the age of ten but Ernestine and Amanda didn’t know that about me as certain others who knew me did.

Unsavvy people took the word of jealous junkies who’ve committed every deed of dirt known to man and they are all paying for it now and in ways they wouldn’t recognize.

Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has had HIV since the eighties and is dying like a dog. I don’t understand why it’s taking so long for her to die. I guess she has to suffer before she goes and busts the gates of hell wide open. She’ll go out with an explosion.

My uncle was still shooting up before he died from AIDs as Amanda tried to cover it up saying he had cancer. Amanda croaked in the year 2009. They were all miserable and had messed up their lives at an early age and tried so deeply to destroy mine and my mother’s.

Nevertheless, I was protected and came out on top because right prevailed over others wrongdoings and I don’t care about any of their sorry feelings or regard. I wish them all nothing but doom.

My mother is a little more understanding, she’s not taking up for any of them but she explained to me how some people get fooled by the crafty skill of a liar and when tall tales may come from members of someone’s family others just may not know any better. She told me that I shouldn’t compare myself to them as far as being able to distinguish specific matters because my world is completely different from theirs since I was born with extrasensory perception.

She also imparted how some of the instigators and harassers were victims themselves because they didn’t really know the truth or the real deal about what was actually going on until later. And how the junky’s mind is on a totally different level than that of a logical and healthy thinking mind.

My mother is right in her words, yes many of them are sick, but still I am not giving those who fell for what they wanted to hear and act on a free pass and I’m not making allowances for any of the worthless addicts who dared to ruin my life. There were plenty who took part and knew that they were all lying and went along with the conspiracy anyway it was all part of the game. Some were so ill they believed their own delusions.

They even used black magic from time to time to get inside my mother’s head to turn her against me with fabrications. A lot of people don’t understand how voodoo/black magic/witchcraft works but I do and it will effect the people around you. It also unnaturally effects everyday happenings and the energy around one.

My mother had many times been so nice and helpful to people just for them to turn around and do her dirty. I’m glad I’ve never been as nice and helpful toward certain people, not that she did anything wrong she just was good to some people who didn’t deserve her kindness.

The universe has been good to me and allowed me to be aloof to all of the wickedness that was around me so I won’t complain.

Wendy Williams

I’ve never been a fan of Wendy Williams and I am not a frequent viewer of her talk show.

I have a relative who tunes in to her from time to time just for the hell of it and today a repeat episode of Wendy’s ran where she spoke on people home schooling their children. Wendy has stated before on her show that she is not fond of home schooling and she mentioned today how the situation in her opinion prevents socialization.

There are definitely other ways in which a child is able to mingle or socialize and grow up productively besides attending a public school with other children so she is wrong, nevertheless, this is not the matter I have with Wendy after watching the segment my issue is her criticizing some parents reasons for not wanting their children learning around conflicting environments created by the cruelty of other kids .

Now, I understand in the real world there are these same circumstances and behaviors of adult people that occur everyday and that are an unfortunate part of what goes on within society.

Early life experience does lead one to awareness, preparation, adapting, and coping methods, however, to say that everyone has been bullied and taunted with remarks that are hurtful but that the events served to makes us all out to be stronger and today’s generation are raising a bunch of wimps as if bullying or harassing and taunting behavior from others is an acceptable rite of passage.

So certain parents who don’t want their children interacting with other toxic dysfunctional fuckers contributes to being weak? I think not!

And where is Wendy William’s so strong at? She is one who has had nothing but major self esteem issues as the bitch has been heavily addicted to drugs and alcohol, lowered herself so bad to suck on mens penises, surgically blew up her breast to resemble hideous basketball titties, and married a man who she allowed to continuously use and abuse her.

Wendy Williams needs to talk about no one because her shit is all fucked up.

It’s fellow trash like her with the same ignorant mentality which promotes bullies and harassment among degenerates within the first place.

People of a specific mindset only insult, try to dominate, or attack, because they assume that it will hurt, give them control, or cause fear.

To categorize everyone as the same and take for granted that everyone will react within the same to these instances is a mistake and generalization.

I remember when I had people harassing me and trying to bring me down years ago for no reason other than “the green eyed monster”, and accused me of putting up a front because I was undisturbed by their conspiracy of spreading lies and rumors against me then having people I didn’t even know utter out insults and remarks at me in attempts to intimidate me, and I had absolutely no idea what they were talking about as I truly wasn’t fazed by their bullshit.

What the incident genuinely came down to was they themselves really didn’t have the strength and level of mentality as I did to sincerely be unaffected by the negative treatment of other people and they knew it. They would have been crushed and destroyed if it had been done to them and that is why they used that stupid shit on me yet it failed to give them the results that they were looking for. I always ignored them and their “game” as their nonsense was an honest reflection of their own bouts with inadequacy.

And, don’t stand up for yourself or speak your mind if need be, though, because you’ll just get accused of being “defensive” the psychological mind game and manipulation tactic in which assholes use in order to place their own insecurities on you when they can’t deal with accepting truth or fault.

Wendy Williams is a total idiot bullying another doesn’t make them stronger look at the poor souls who commit suicide (not that everyone who kills themself is weak because all of them were not) or become flunkies to the human asses that they kiss due to low self worth?

One has to already have strength to endure and to get even stronger that is why people try to break them.

Bullies aren’t people with real strength as their only weapon is feeding off the fear of another. Usually it is the victim who is the strong one yet doesn’t even realize it yet and if or when they eventually find their courage the bully then becomes the true wimp.

Any form of bullying is and should be unacceptable.

Why Does Every Caulbearer Expect To Be Rich Financially And Why Are They Unaltered By Negativity?

Brujeria by misslatoya

Mystic said 7 hours ago

I am wondering why every caulbearer even tho he is spiritually rich thinks also that he is going to be financially rich? Maybe because the luck that follows him, and also why he cant be changed and stays the same way even tho a lot of negativity happened around? Hmm

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In reply to Mystic.

No one can say that every person born with a Caul thinks that they are suppose to become rich financially because it simply isn’t true. Some Caulbearers are suppose to be well off and some aren’t. It all depends on their celestial design, their purpose within life, and the luck and blessings in which they are imparted.

I stated financial success within my own life because it was a part of my true destiny not just automatically because I was born with a caul. People have always been jealous of me all throughout my life and this has been well-known around my environment and among others. Certain people wanted to block me within all aspects of my life and that is a fact. I as an individual was always meant to succeed and to have a lot of money and this has not only been verified by me but other
psychics, priestesses, a babalawo, and a curandera as well.

I’ve endured quite a lot of shit within my lifetime from a very early age on up, unnecessary things that most people would not have survived, but I was born with a very strong spirit and state of mind and mentality so I wasn’t affected and I made it through intact and no one can break me. There has constantly been aspects from higher above solicitously watching over me and guiding my steps because my purpose was so strong.

The reason many of us as spiritually gifted people cannot be changed or negatively altered by negativity is because we are greatly loved, honored, and protected. We are in connection with spirit and receive communication and hidden knowledge. We are special children (and I hate to say it) sent down here by God (I’d prefer to just say a higher power because there is far more to life than what we already know), nevertheless, the darkness cannot overpower the light therefore we prevail, and evil cannot prevent the mission, or the message, that divinity places within and without our states of being. We are here in the world but we are definitely not of it, not those of us who are of the light.

I was always very smart and intelligent growing up, passed all my tests in school, got skipped through a grade for the gifted and so on. And I’ve always been ahead of my time, able to read people, communicate with the departed and spirit world, see into the present, past, and future and so on. For the knowledge and capacities that I have I should be so much farther in life than I am right now just as others who are within my league and spiritual category who’ve been unfairly held back due to envious discontented and malicious people. Yet this is not the determining factor. My blessings are still there for me to have they are just being delayed right now, however, they’re on the way. I’ve still been very successful just not at and to my full entire peak or potential.

Nevertheless, it’s not that people of the Caul feel entitled we just know what we are suppose to have and deserve because we are able to see our blessings all around us. Just as some of us can see, know, and feel things about others and what’s going on within the world is the same way some of us see, know, and feel the things about and going on within our own particular lives.

Us gifted people are here for a reason and we go through a lot. Any financial blessings are celestial rewards to aide in a more comfortable life in receipt of what we have to accomplish and endure. It is very unfair and unwise to judge every Caulbearer of being the same or thinking the same we are all our own special individuals with extra sensory power who may have similarities and who can relate to one another and support one another yet we may have our own unique journey and paths to walk along with our own set of circumstances.

And a little side note: There are fortunate people who weren’t born with Cauls or the gifts of second-sight who were born and meant to have financial wealth and success and jealous people have worked black magic/voodoo/witchcraft on them to stop and block them from succeeding in life also. One doesn’t have to be born with a caul to be destined for having a lot of money or anything else in which may bring to them specific prosperity.

Braggarts

In my opinion, there isn’t anything wrong with one who is aware of their accomplishments and capabilities and acknowledges them, it is the fashion in which one projects themself and intention behind their own recognition.

I think with certain people identifying within their attributed description, as they may also detail in regard to others, is harmless and not meant as to gloat but as a form of expression or discovery.

When arrogance becomes hubristic there is another scene bringing impact into the story.

As a child on up my mother loved and was proud of me yet she never bragged about me to anyone.

Peers would come to her boasting how their wife was this and their wife was that, their kid was this and their kid was that and from the constant proclaims my mother knew honestly their wives and children indeed weren’t shit.

Time brought out just how much the wife and kids of these braggarts had amounted up to, a figure not summed within the scale  in which they smugly dared to measure, but a scale that announced a degree of great shame and embarrassment.

One’s looked down upon arose to bud, then bloomed on to become a bouquet of sprouting flowers, ones that were once the object of disdain became the example of a noteworthy and momentous acclaim.

A Tortured Soul

My Page Turner by misslatoya

Melissa Campa said 4 hours ago

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Melissa Campa

These are lies of demonized souls, go far back as far as you can remember. The first time you felt abandoned or abused whether physically or mentally or sexually. The door was open from that day forward. You see I was just like you even suicidal, literally would negotiate with a voice telling me you’ll never see heaven you already love every day in sin (addicted to pain killers) so if you were to die and kill your self you would go to hell as you would go to hell anyways by the judgment of your sins according to your God! I cried I cut I screamed and then I remembered my dad took me and my brother to church Very young and we went up to the alter with our dad and accept Jesus as our lord and savior. I never knew exactly what I did but I knew I was more Of a threat because of it. The difference between a child of God that has a seed from a young age vs a new age follower or atheist is that the one who was brought up in a Christian home has been to church before has heard the word of God is a threat to the devil because gods word says in (Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.) you see I may not change your mind about God I’ve yelled at God when people I loved died I cursed God for allowing me to get beat my child’s father I was so mad but I still felt like who else do I have. My parents both live their lives and I had it rough growing up from being molested to watching my dad beat my mother while she never fought back and beat on us and because of my father I became so defensive always fighting and protecting the weaker individuals who I saw bullied. But if my mom or dad couldn’t do right by us as children. My dad the same man who hit me and my brother and mom took me to the living god and he placed a seed that seed is in certain chosen people. Jesus said if they hate me they’ll hate you too if the crucified me they will do it you because of ME. Jesus said but be of good cheer I have overcome the world. The devil the demons Satan comes against us threw other people who have been deceived who listened to the suggestions that God did this and its his fault. This whole world is ruled by demons look at the president! I’m not perfect I sin and I may sin again tomorrow I may say the same prayer god forgive you know how it goes but Jesus does because he knew god knew we will never ever be holy we will never get it right! If Jesus came to preach the word right now in this generation he would chose his disciples and they would be former pimps former murders former thief’s former gang members former homeless people former drug dealers and homosexuals. He never would ride around with the people of the church the holy traditional church and hypocrites. He would save the ones from what we see as the worst people he says these people are the first in the kingdom of heaven because basically people like them need more love and god sees the heart and he sees the soul has authority to cast out demons of torment of perversion, abuse and immortality etc. before you click off maybe you already did just give him a chance crawl to him say a few words and then next time maybe stand up to him say a few more words and if you ever feel like nothing is working with the new age practices you still can’t find peace you can’t find healing then run to god surrender in private take baby steps god know we can’t just change over night he knows we will never get it right. He’s not a god of suffering because the Old Testament was of the way the first living people of the world had to be obedient and this why god sent Jesus Christ his word says behold i make all things new. The new commandment I give you is to love each other. If I can suggest maybe listening to deliverance prayers on YouTube with head phones and water. Baby steps pray in private goodnight

 

In reply to Melissa Campa.

You sound like a very mentally and emotionally disturbed individual and one that isn’t intelligent enough to understand the depth of my writings.

Just because some people don’t like or agree with God and have different viewpoints or perceptions regarding him and his way does not mean that they are suffering, lost, or have been broken in some way. If anything it is quite the opposite and you need to stop being ignorant and closed- minded.

I was born a gifted child and one with the wisdom and knowledge to “see” and “discern”. I’ve experienced a lot of supernatural occurrences and ones that you have no idea exist. I was a happy child there were just some adults and relatives around me who weren’t happy within themselves but it wasn’t everyone.

I’ve never been or walked in your shoes as I’ve never been raped or sexually abused by anyone and I’ve never been mistreated by a parent. “Spiritual essence” in which constantly followed me would never have allowed those vile things to happen. I was lucky and blessed and had natural spiritual protection.

I was raised and brought up in love by a darn good mother and had lots of love given to me by my mother and solicitous attention given to me as well as from certain others that were around me. I was very well taken care of as a child on up that is partly why so many people were jealous of me.

So you’re venting to the wrong person.

I am very happy and fulfilled within myself and have a great peace of mind and what I venerate and believe in suits and serves me very well. Things are working out within my life accordingly and the universe is bringing to me the elements in which I desire.

I have been attacked all through out life by “particular” individuals-along with principalities-for being a good and unique person by those who are not of my caliber and who have a lack of knowledge into things in specific.

Yes, I do agree with one thing you’ve wrote and that is God does concern himself moreover with the negative people but it is not because they’re all sincere within their heart and deceptively mislead and all good people are not hippocrates because we don’t need or have to serve or consult with god to genuinely be of a positive nature or character by his definition.

You’re a tortured soul and you are brainwashed and people who are deeply troubled often incite to bring unnecessary problems to others. Go and get yourself some serious help.

A Truth Full Of Lies

Malicious people will call one a liar for speaking the truth.

For speaking a lie when they get caught malicious people will falsely state the truth, even sometimes expressing a tone of disdain, to cause intimidation and to deliberately give off a misleading impression with the intent to deceive.

Ill-natured people will often lie while aiming to tell what is perceived to them as truth and intentionally adapt themselves into believing their own self fulfilling lies.

 

(God) A Supernatural Bully

I am and always was blessed within many ways at the same time had to undergo unnatural encounters just because of the person that I am.

I’m glad not to be average and that I’m unique in my own right. I don’t owe anyone anything and I didn’t ask to come into this world to share within a life with other human beings with different natures and various mindsets.

The Lord did me no favor whatsoever as in my dreams when I sleep display and explain more beauty and meaning than on this earthly plane that he created.

God didn’t ask my permission in order for me to come here so I don’t need his while I have to remain here. Like I said, he didn’t do me any favor, this world isn’t a paradise that I should be ever so grateful to exist in.

The world in its dreadful condition is grotesquely overpopulated as it is with all kinds of shit. From disgusting insects to disgusting animals, disgusting principalities, and disgusting people.

Life is often times strange, unfair, and full of circumstantial misinterpretation and situations that compromise the lives of people on account of the ignorance or biases of others.

It seemed irresponsible to me to have us all here on the earth together why not keep the compatible in one section and the incompatible in other sections let everyone have their own suitable accomodating place of habitat.

Why be made to live a life or in a condition that one truly doesn’t want to be in? I loathe God, I truly do, and for more reasons than one, and I feel so insulted to be one that was created in his perverted formation of a plan.

From the beginning by designing a man and a woman to be together and to have sex, and having to have sex to have children, is all a turn off to me. Cutting up animals in the old days to atone for a sin since the wages for transgressions was death there had to be bloodshed so finally Jesus eventually came and did the ultimate sacrifice, all a bunch of sick shit to me.

But I guess I’m suppose to be crazy for not liking or agreeing with a God and within the fashion in which he made things to occur.

One thing is for certain and that is that I genuinely do love myself. When I look back on my life as a child I’ve noticed how disrespected I was by God and how I never trusted in him because I knew deep down inside that he was no good.

He disrespected me and my life one time too many by altering my destiny, using his trash to assist him, and by placing too many undesirables within my pathways, knowing the extent of my hatred toward them.

I always wondered who the fuck he thought he was as I never thought too highly of him or his reasoning. As I have the gifts to see I never saw anything special or perfect within him.

It is said that God makes no mistakes and if that is so that is a dangerous reality. At least if he made errors I could give him the benefit of the doubt but since his intentions are meant as what is suppose to be right it shows me just how wrong he is as a creator.

God is a disgrace and it clearly shows within his creation.

It seems to me I’m too headstrong for him whereas his trash caters to his demented teachings as they are twisted too.

If his words are so true why am I happier without him? If his words are so true why do I have peace of mind without him? If his words are so true why is the energy around me good without him?

I didn’t began to really live until I recognized my true love and light and separated myself from God’s oppressing grip and because I’ve broken free (years ago) and confirmed his unsavory nature he doesn’t want me to live the life that I am suppose to fully receive.

So even though he adheres to keep me stuck in a rut the rut does not adhere to stick to my spirit.

I’d rather live my life within truth, love, and strength and be cheated from what I truly deserve than to live within lies, unhappiness, and weakness just to be given an abundance of riches for being a mindless flunky only to serve and praise a God that is not worthy to be glorified.

If one could take away God’s power where would that leave him if he didn’t have all that supernatural weight to throw around and bully with? If he was void of his mighty energy to manifest how many would fear him then? -miss latoya lawrence

 

 

My Page Turner

Black Magic does all types of dirt and damage to people. It is evil and tragic, demented and traumatic.

Even though I was unaffected and protected God still allowed it to be projected so to me he will never be respected.

Life goes up and down. Going through beneath me things had pissed me off, but that sorcery shit was the last straw- never no more outrageousness will I have to endure- I turn the pages of my life forevermore.


The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly

After I came home from work yesterday I ran into one of my neighbors, an Italian woman in her seventies and she mentioned how the good people constantly have to suffer while people who are full of the devil nothing ever happens to them.

Yes, those of us that are upright tend to have to go through so much within life as the diabolical seem to get by easy, chiefly when orchestrating their dirt.

The context is absolutely backwards and definitely should be the other way around.

It’s a wicked world out there as well as the principalities who reign and influence and that venture to go against our efforts yet still and all there is a light that shines upon a great deal of us good folk one that cannot be shut off by any force of the darkness.

As it on many of occasion appears in which heinous individuals get away within their vile and foul serendipity that unjustifiably flows around to them. An unfortunate course of appalling luck outrageously bestowed by demonic intervention, that rotten satanic energy.

In the “mindful eye” it is very important to recognize that the unsavory folk are actually seized, tormented, and dissolved within their own true dimensions of hell, even if they aren’t able to perceive it.

 

 

Does Voodoo Kill?

Yes voodoo/black magic/witchcraft can kill depending on how powerful a spell is, however, at the same time we as individuals are more powerful upon not giving voodoo/black magic/witchcraft the power to actually take us out.

Find your way and do your thing!


Ignorant Black People

There is indeed racism and a lot of prejudices and bias within society against nationality as well as gender. Too much to cover in just one post so as of now I’m just going to briefly summarize on a few related issues.

Particularly, this black people thing and how when they’re insulted by someone of another race these days it’s considered being racist but what about other black folk who think, say, and feel the same way about black people as do some of the other nationalities?

And I am not taking up for any other race or ethnicity because any group of individuals can fall into their own stereotypical category and mode of description, however, I never hear about this being expressed within the media.

I as a black female grew up at a very early age in a neighborhood that was predominately white until the black people started moving in before I was born. When I was born there were mostly blacks and some Hispanics but very few whites if any left.

Nevertheless, I went to day care and kindergarten with all different type of nationalities of children then was bust out to a school district at the age of eight to a school and neighboring area predominately populated with white people and children.

There were also Japanese, Korean, Chinese, Hebrew, a few Hispanic and a few other blacks attending to the school.

It was a totally different experience and a favorable one at that also in many ways a better experience for me that was nurturing and quite beneficial to my well-being and growth due to the high level that I was on and the mentality that I shared.

All through out my life it has been white people who had treated me very well and would help to build me up to succeed whereas it was many of the other blacks that were lower than me that pursued to tear me down.

In all honesty and I don’t care who likes it or not many blacks are what a lot of white people negatively classify them as. They are trouble, they are ignorant, and they are very undesirable as a people.

I heard it said that black people in general are not as intellectually bright unless they were mixed with a percentage of other ancestry and long before that I use to hear that from my mother as well as she would tell me that I had to have had european blood in me for me to be as bright as I was.

And I do understand how DNA works it can come from way back we don’t necessarily get or have the same genetic traits or share attributes just because we’re closely related by bloodline necessarily.

And it is true. Our family has African-American, Native American, And European bloodline and it doesn’t go far back either! It stems from immediate family to grandparents and beyond on all sides of the family and I can back it all up with proof.

And I’m tired of hearing that shit about slavery. It was the blacks that sold the other blacks as slaves.

The ignorant trashy blacks they sold to the caucasian folk because they weren’t of any value or worth to them. The black folk of substance who were beneficial and capable of being doctors and of other valuable asset and so on, they kept.

Many don’t even know true history.

 

 

 

 

The “B” And “N” Word

The word bitch seems to literally touch some people in the wrong spot. The term upsets, distresses, and agitates them.

The word Bitch gets these people highly emotional and from what I’ve seen I think the response is quite ridiculous.

I never understood why so many women get riled up over the word “Bitch”.

It’s just a word that has no significant value.

Just as the word “Nigger”, individuals place so much emphasis on words that are totally without meaning, even if people base their own feelings of what they believe or define when they assert their expressions.

Many of these name calling terms have been constantly used so much within society that they just subconsciously become a repetitive habit-forming part of some people’s vocabulary.

Getting hurt or offended over these names are self-inspired.

It’s as if our society groomed and programmed individuals to become conditioned (brainwashed) to react and be affected in order to cause influence within their personal attitudes.

What is offensive to me is when one expects that I should or would get bothered by being called a bitch or a nigger.

Nevertheless, everyone doesn’t think like me.

When I use the word bitch it’s just particularly said on impulse and/or mode. So if anyone calls me a bitch it goes through one ear and out the other.

 

 

 

Go Figure

When the past comes to reflect without intent there are messages to take notice of that hint to certain information relevant to the present.

As I look at my present where what shines on me are those who share the brightness of my light.

When I look back at the darkness where there are the undesirables that came to surround me to hover and to create a permanent shadow.

In the distant past:

A female named Cherilyn Festus I had met when I was about ten she was fifteen and had moved on my block. Already Cherilyn had a reputation for sucking penis. Her nickname was “Head Hunter”.

Cherilyn’s breath smelled real bad even when she returned back to the neighborhood years later to shack up with a Jamaican guy on the block who’d constantly disrespect her and who she financially supported with the money she’d gotten through financial aid and an inheritance, I think.

Her so-called friends would use her and take advantage of her for her credit card and the little bit of money that she had.

She was supposed to be going to school to become an accountant instead she ended up with no job, no home, and a african man who she shacked up with in order to keep him in the country before he dumped her whoring bummy ass.

(The Jamaican guy before the African had been cheating on Cherilyn the entire time they were together and had a child just as old as the relationship between them that she didn’t know about and moved the mother of the children into his home not too long after Cherilyn moved out).

The recent past:

A lady that I worked with four years ago that actually was a client of mine as she suffered from depression went by the name of Rose.

Rose was the exact same age as me at the time which was forty-one. She had a twenty-one year old daughter, an eighteen year old son, an eighteen month old daughter, and a newborn daughter that was a week old.

The ex husband of her first two children came by the house where she lived asking her for money to support his new wife or girlfriend with.

Rose’s present husband had disrespected her and her oldest daughter in front of me more than once and acknowledged while I was there that her and her daughter both love babies and sex.

This husband of Rose’s had a woman on the side who was the aunt of her oldest daughter’s boyfriend’s ex girlfriend who’d both the husband and the boyfriend would visit together.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that her daughter was six or seven months pregnant.

The husband told me himself directly in front of her that he wanted the one year old child that they shared together but that he didn’t want the newborn.

“So you don’t love her?” Rose had asked.

There was a lot more going on and to this story as the couple constantly fought, too much to write about, and how she was being used and taken advantage of by her own stupidity.

What I had gotten was a close up view of looking through the unfortunate lives of these others that believe it or not thought their shit didn’t stink.

Yet people like me who’d never ended up in situations like these and more, and would never think to as that lifestyle and way of mentality was never in the cards, are discarded as the ones to look down on just because we never got fucked up.

 

 

 

 

 

Ill By Nature

Does stupidity rule?

Why is what is average considered normal within human nature just because society caters to their own description of a perceived common familiarity.

While many are born sick already through genetics or by chance, with the decades of the drug epidemic and the illegal use of drugs that many consume like the air that they breathe up these days they considerably add to the problem, breeding a new ground of dysfunction.

There are a lot of sick people in the world and they’re getting sicker by the day and at various stages and various degrees.

As a society that is willfully unreasonable against the reasonable mental illness among many seems to be the norm. People are walking around with mental illness who haven’t been diagnosed.

Has it officially come to be that insanity is classified as sanity in an insane world?

Mental illness is a serious problem and one that even the doctors cannot control.

Sufferers are prescribed drugs (even some young children are on prozac) but often times the medications do not work or are not effective enough.

When individuals come down with serious physical conditions of illness often times the worst possible outcome could foreshadow immobility (paralysis/incapacitation) or a death.

In the case of the mentally ill the situation could get so bad that death is a condition that may be actually wished upon the sufferer.

Even though these people are sick and not always responsible for or in control of their unfortunate mental affliction and/or behavior individuals within this category sometimes bring about trouble and instead of developing a sympathetic or humane approach toward them it promotes a reaction of contempt.

Of course, not everyone who suffers from mental illness is annoying, miserable or dangerous as there are so-called normal/mentally healthy people who are notoriously this way and cause a great response of aversion within many.

In the fashion that government and societal resource accommodate the drug users and abusers and ill-bred the world is launching down the welcome mat and inspiring a new generation of nuts.

Li’l Ones

I am not the emotional type and I read and watch the news all of the time without being affected in any kind of way personally. I hear others say though that they don’t even like to indulge in the media anymore because of the horrific things that are continuously taking place and that they sometimes even cry.

I know that things like this go on all of the time, however, this is really too ridiculous and out of hand how I just read last weekend that some real sick individual beat (broke every bone in the body), hung (tied it to a tree), and then shot (with a BB gun) a helpless 4 month old puppy out in a public area.

It literally brought a few tears to my eyes and that is rare for me.

Whereas I don’t feel for people in general I do and have always felt for certain puppies and dogs and those that bring vicious and unwarranted harm to these innocent and precious animals need to die a brutal and torturous death themselves.