Harassment of any nature is not limited to the workplace, of course, it can take place anywhere.
Periodically, at almost every job I ever had we had updated training.
When I worked at Sears Roebuck for four years there was continuous training for us employees to complete electronically as things were constantly changing or advancing.
Even if the subjects and activities within the lessons and testing were just a recoup of what we had already gone over beforehand.
Two weeks ago, I had to do updated training in one of my workplaces regarding sexual harassment- a subject I am very knowledgeable in, and that I have always passed with one hundred percent correctness in answers after testing whether during orientation or training.
This previous occurrence gave me an idea to write about due to the seriousness in nature on jobs where managers are not taking action when they are supposed to. Where managers may side with a perpetrator, or where managers do not take a matter gravely.
Sexual harassment or harassment of any kind should never be tolerated in the workplace.
Do not be afraid, stand up for yourself at all cost and at all means.
A supervisor/manager is supposed to give immediate attention to the employee once harassment is reported. If they do not, and one does not see any results or are not satisfied with an investigation that was carried out then report your case/complaint to The New York City Commission of Human Rights- 718 722 3131.
One can also call or contact The New York Division of Human Rights 888 392 3644.
Personally, I know from my experience when or if anyone tries to harass me in any way I go into kick- their- ass mode.
However, we must think before we instantly or automatically react.
If we do not fight back in a way that is obvious it is not that we are afraid. We just do not want to risk going to jail for assholes who are not worth wasting precious time of our lives over.
Nevertheless, no matter how a negative situation will turn out it is very important to remember that nobody in this life gets away with anything that they do- even if they ignorantly think they have.
It is alright when something is justified, but people get back what is coming to them and God does not let negative deeds/actions go unpaid.
I remind myself of the 1978 Faye Dunaway thriller/mystery “The Eyes Of Laura Mars”. It is said that art imitates life.
I have been seeing accurate visions that were confirmed or that came to be since I was a child, whether while awake or in my sleep.
I am not perfect, just a human being. I would not trust everything that is shown as we are to test the spirit.
Although things can also have dual meanings or reflections I know when to keenly sense the difference from within and between from experience.
This past Thursday night, around 10:40pm, I had a vision of a guy whose energy I have been feeling for a while who I will not name.
Usually when I feel guys’ energy in a certain manner it is because they are attracted to me, jealous of me, have animosity toward me, or whatever, and because they are no good.
I always find out that I was correct in my predictions and judgments.
Their energy can linger for as long as their feelings for me last, or for as long as I need to be aware of the circumstances taking place with and around them regarding me and my life.
In the vision that appeared while I laid awake, the guy was completely naked wearing nothing but a pair of socks.
He was in a bedroom.
I am not sure if this bedroom was located inside a hotel or somebody’s home.
A barely dressed female who appeared partially in the nude lay on a bed dazed, with her eyes barely opened about to pass out from a roofie (flunitrazepam) that was slipped in her drink.
As this girl/woman laid in the bed I could see from her slanted-eye view the guy walk across the room past the foot of the bed to observe her state of falling unconscious.
I was projected as the female at first until the vision further played on.
The guy took out his phone- and I could discern every bit of vile energy and negativity within this individual’s actions and intentions. He enjoyed what he was doing- to record and photograph this female he victimized through eventually having sex with her while incapacitated.
There was another guy who appeared inside the room, though I was not able to get a look at him.
The other guy asked with a smirk on his face in a way as to urged the guy on if he wanted to take a turn to sexually take advantage of the girl.
This guy is an awful, terrible, low life piece of shit.
I do not know if this occurrence took place Thursday night, the exact time it was revealed to me, if it happened sometime already within the past, or if will occur soon.
What I picked up from the dream is what he did to that girl is also something he would like to do to me. That is why I was initially portrayed as the girl.
I do not know the entire situation with this female I witnessed in the vision. However, I was feeling this is what this guy does when the opportunity presents itself for him to underhandedly use a form of rape on girls who otherwise refuse to give him the time or day then probably lies about it later by saying the girl was high or something to that effect- though she would have no recollection- then keep video footage and photos for himself as a trophy/souvenir to look back at, privately show other no good associates to, and gloat over. He may have even blackmailed certain girls with the footage leaving them afraid to come forward.
I cannot prove this, yet I know what I saw and felt is true.
I have been told directly when I was a teenager and during my adulthood that I was not “normal” by three people because I am very unique.
Some meant those words as an acknowledgement to me that I was uncommon to them as others have used the term toward me as an insult.
But what these few who said this to me, whether it was a harmless mention or one to intentionally hurt, did not realize is that their words were a huge compliment to me.
It made me feel good to not be categorized as being the same.
No one can drown out my voice or my existence. Though, I have always detested the existence of those who I feel should not exist.
I am one who could never conform to the so-called norm of what is considered normal- to do as others do and to think as others do.
To accept and adhere to the approved dominant set of principles, rules, or standards within the characteristics and behavior carried out by most of society.
It was never my inborn tendency to behave according to socially accepted conventions or typicality.
I often rejected, and refused to comply or go along with what went against my nature or way of thinking, being, and doing due to my unconventionality.
I prefer my original, unusual, different, so-called strange to some, out of the ordinary, original, new-fashioned disposition- because it is the real me.
I never had the desire to join in- that is why I always stood out.
I hated whenever people tried to manipulate or coerce me by subtle means trying to use psychology, head games, or their way of reasoning to undermine, challenge, or change my attitude and ways through passing unfavorable judgment upon me, downplaying me, turning against me, or underestimating me.
These actions never caused self-doubt or fear within me to surrender to just be accepted.
Oftentimes it infuriated me or caused me to pleasantly distance myself from those kinds of individuals.
My resistance has caused in many instances among those who were in opposition or who were incongruent, great friction between us.
This is why I am a leader and not a follower because I never went along with society because it was the thing to do or else, I would be an outcast or labeled or considered crazy.
I refused to be what I was not to please others and lie to myself just to get by.
I have received backlash or so-called consequences for doing things my way that others did not understand or interpreted their way as they could see no other way due to their own social conditioning and/or lack of awareness or knowledge in diversity.
Yet, all the occurrences did was make me more determined to maintain my identity and to continue to be who I am.
If anyone is to criticize me, laugh at me, call or consider me insane for sticking to my guns, then so be it.
Nothing can deter me from loving the person within me.
To me, certain others are the crazy ones.
I could just as easily criticize and laugh at them for seeing things in my own way. The way I feel is everyone has the right to be who they are and live out their life accustomed to how they are as long as they do not impose their ways on me and try to make my life difficult on account of their indifference.
I never cared or tried to force my ways on anyone but others failed to treat me in the same. Some people have a problem with control and some cannot deal with what is foreign to what they know and have been taught.
Something unheard of or unorthodox can be disturbing to them.
I am resilient within my natural purpose.
There are times, places, and situations whereas we as people do not necessarily relate to or agree with things, but we may compromise or make allowances. This is vital in life as we must conform when it is contingent upon circumstances.
Of course, there must be order and harmony within living together to humanely survive here on the earth.
However, when it comes to personal identity, I will not budge for anyone.
If more people were allowed to truly be themselves and fresh ideas were contrived in dealing with problems or situations instead of the same predictable methods that I find tiring, annoying, and of no use or affect as one who these measures does not reflect upon accordance with.
This indeed is a sick society.
A lot of what is considered normal among many is what really is abnormal, but it is accepted because abnormal in relation to normal is what is normal to them.
I am so glad to not be normal.
I choose to be a healthy individual who is not a puppet of this world. –latoya lawrence
A daughter of an elderly man I have been working on a case for left me a voicemail and text message as I was unavailable at the time, she called on Monday morning.
The woman divulged that her father was in the hospital and that she would be in touch.
Instead of phoning her back I sent her a text responding, “Okay”.
On Tuesday afternoon, the woman called me again. I answered my phone to speak with her.
She acknowledged to me that her father was still in the hospital, that he would be home in a couple of days.
Then, she went on to say that she was not aware or not, or aware of how the doctor (my supervisor) and I work out or handle situations with other clients I take on in situations where one of my cases becomes temporarily paused.
I kept silent as I knew she was just fishing for information from me to see if I would share whether I had other shifts to take on aside from and in place of her father.
Sure enough, when I did not reply she forwardly asked me If I wanted to come manage her next-door neighbor (Who she acquired my assistance for in the past before the woman was placed into a rehabilitation center after taking a fall. The woman was released last Tuesday and I spent two days of my free time helping her to adjust plus working extra paid hours for her father, and was paid two hundred and twenty-five dollars in hand for my two-day service for the neighbor) the following Thursday.
I told her no.
The woman proceeded to asked me If I was working tomorrow on Wednesday.
I told her no.
She then asked if I would come to help her neighbor again on the side. I plainly but casually told her, “No. I don’t want to”.
The woman ended the conversation with “Okay, that is alright. Enjoy your days off”.
This woman uses her father as an excuse to call when all she really wanted was to get me to come over to her neighbor’s house to use me for her own advantage even though I would get paid.
There was no need for her to call me to keep me posted or to give me an update regarding her father unless it was to notify me of his return home from the hospital.
She had just phoned me the day before to inform me of his whereabouts.
Today is Friday. He is still not home. It is past a couple of days. The woman was full of shit just like I knew.
This manipulative bitch must have gotten over plenty of times or is used to controlling others while using money as bait.
Well, I am not one who can be controlled or manipulated- or bought by anyone! I am used to money.
I was nowhere near rich but I grew up having money.
I am an independent woman who makes her own money. Money is something that never bothered me. So, she encountered the wrong person to trifle with.
I helped her neighbor before as she is a very kind and sweet elderly lady who needed supervision and aid in maintaining her health management.
However, trying to use my services whenever it was convenient while I have a life of my own to live and conduct, instead of just working out arrangements with other candidates and with an agency as she planned.
This woman wanted to keep me in the loop as someone she could always fall back on since I am responsible, trustworthy, and sufficient.
I am also someone who is nobody’s fool or footstool.
I refused to get caught up in her loop. The only loop that woman will obtain from me is a box of Fruit Loops without the milk for her nutty ass.
She had the nerve to let out deep sighs of disappointments on more than one occasion when she could not get her way with me, and get pushy with me in her tone of asking “Why not?” The woman did not want to take no for an answer when I would attempt to get out of her requests. Then she would effort to compromise around my availability to make it convenient for me so everything would be convenient for her.
I do not have time for any of that crap.
I know the women is seething because whatever she had in store blew up in her face.
People who think they have game do nothing but play themselves when it comes to messing around with people who they take for granted or underestimate.
I thank God for getting me out of that situation and I am curious about what is ahead.
The woman’s father likes me and enjoys me being around. I find him pleasant too, but I do not think he may be around too much longer. It is just a feeling I get. I wish him the best and will work with him as long as necessary.
It is a shame his daughter must cause interference by her hunger for greed. I just want to work in connection to her father without violating any terms within my workplace.
I was totally upfront with my supervisor because that is the way I am- my supervisor even said this woman is manipulative.
Some people take kindness for weakness, thinking that they can take advantage of you.
A lady at work (at one of the places I am employed at) who wanted me to do duty on the side for her as she paid me directly in cash found out different.
She expected to use me and my time for her convenience and thought handing out money would reel me in.
I do not know where some people come from and what is going on in their minds.
I stayed quiet to let her run her mouth and set up plans so she could think she was controlling the situation while the entire time I was the one who was running the show. Now she has received a harsh blow.
I put my foot down.
My supervisor told me to tell the lady I had an additional job scheduled to prevent the lady from further acquiring my service.
However, I am not the type to lie for convenience unless it is necessary.
People lie so much in their daily lives or routine that it becomes second nature to them thinking that lies are the only way to go or to get what they want- and that may be true for those used to deception, but I prefer honesty over cowardice.
I told this conniving woman “No” more than once and told my supervisor again about the situation as the lady phoned me up today asking if I would mind working on the side for her two days this week.
I told the woman nonchalantly “No, I don’t want to”.
My supervisor said she would call the woman and speak with her as I firmly stated that I am there to do my assigned shifts and that is it!
People like him want or expect people like me to be lower than what we are.
When we do not display preconceived notions of how or what they feel we should be they prefer to view us as thinking that we are better than we are, that we are purely riding on ego by having an exaggerated opinion of ourselves and/or capabilities.
I know how some people of this type of nature think, feel, and respond when it comes to people like us who are on a higher vibration, wavelength/level…
I am proud of the child that I once was, the teenager I used to be, and of the woman who I am now.
I am thankful and grateful for the divine guidance and protection that reigns over me.
God has never let or allowed negative people to win over me in any circumstance.
When I look into the past I remember that since I was a little girl all throughout my life whenever people had tried or partook in doing dirt against me they have always failed no matter how many things they did, lies they told, or delusion they upheld through their facades and false perception of projection they tried to reflect upon my life.
God has taught me, and from a young age, instilled in me during my journey- an insight, strength and confidence.
A living example of what he assembles no one can disassemble. It is also an inspiration to others of what is possible when others say what is not possible.
It upsets negative people when what would hurt or bother them does not hurt, bother, or affect you mentally or emotionally. They do not have the capacity or knowledge of higher consciousness within the spirit to know better. It is a level that they will never attain.
Whenever negative people went to strike their arrows, it was nothing to me. Idiocy can sometimes be annoying, but it is of no faze.
There are a lot of no-good people in the world. When God has a special purpose for us others can see that light, though, they might not discern what that light is. The devil comes for us the strongest, yet he has no power over us!
As I observe the present everything is running smoothly.
Of course, we all have the usual kinks that life throws at us here and there that eventually get untangled- but it is because of the fallen world that we live in and to keep us knowing that we can depend on God to see us through and to keep us thriving.
I love and appreciate the positive powerful energy around me.♥️
I came across an Article titled Do Women Need Men and what I read in this article is total bullshit!
The author is stating that if women say they do not want or need a man it is only because they have been hurt by men and that every woman loves a rock hard cock sliding in and out of their vagina and wants love and a relationship with a man.
The article also states that to a woman the love between a man and a woman is special and the most important form of love within her life.
Well, I LaToya Lawrence am a woman.
I have never loved a man, I have never cared for a man, I have never been in a romantic relationship with a man, and I have never been hurt by a man.
If I had a baby I preferred to have one on my own without the companionship of a man.
I never wanted or needed a man since my younger days on up. And, I definitely do not consider the love between a man and a woman to be the most special or meaningful.
Maybe it is to some or most, but definitely not for all.
The love between my mother and I was the best love to experience (and the love of my dog) and nothing could ever surpass that for me.
My happiness was never dependent upon a man. The reason I am happy is because I never wanted one and because I truly love myself and I love the path in life I was chosen to live without the desire or need to be with one (a man).
This article is not truthful in regard to “all women”.
I hate when those in society spread lies and misinformation. Every woman is not the same and a man is not some irresistible being that a woman suddenly does not want or need due to being hurt or disappointed by one.
A woman can “naturally” not feel any need, want, or desire for any man.
Here is a few parts from the article:
Do Women Need Men?
In today’s world, women can live a life that is completely independent of men if they choose to.
A modern woman can earn her own money, be protected by the police, justice system and media and be supported by the government.
However, regardless of how much a woman can take care of herself in the modern world, she still will always want and need a man for the following reasons:
To experience the love that can only occur between a man and a woman.
To be impregnated by a man that she loves and wants to have a family with.
To have the father of her children present to make her feel safe and to help raise the children in a more balanced way, compared to her doing it all by herself.
To be a boyfriend or a husband that she can share life experiences with, overcome challenges with and grow together over time.
So, the answer to the question, “Do women need men?” is a definite yes if a woman wants to lead a normal, happy life.
Sometimes, you might see a news story or an article online about women no longer needing men because they can go and get themselves implanted with semen from a sperm back and have their own children without the need of a man.
Lesbian women tend to do that so they can raise a children, but normal heterosexual women still have a natural desire to be impregnated by a man that they love.
After all, women love having sex just as much as men do.
Women love the feeling of a rock hard penis sliding into their little love tunnel, just as much as we men like to get in there and give it to them.
Sex is a mutually beneficial and enjoyable thing for men and women and so is love.
Regardless of the changes that happen in modern society, the love between a man and a woman always remains a very special and powerful thing that most women place the utmost of importance on in their life.
If a woman doesn’t have the love of a man in her life, she may spend a lot of time on her career and try to distract herself, but will almost always become depressed and feel like her life is wasting away on pointless work, when she really wants to be in love, be a mother and have a family.
So, if you’ve been wondering to yourself, “Do women need men?” because you don’t seem to desperately wanted by women, then you should ask yourself what the real reason is behind you asking that question.
Don’t Listen to the BS lyrics From Female Pop Singers
A guy who doesn’t understand women will often feel confused when he listens to the confident, brash, girl power lyrics of female pop singers.
Female pop singers will passionately sing lyrics like, “I don’t need a man” or “Sisters are doing it all for themselves” and act as though they don’t care if they have a man or not.
Yet, is that really the way it is? Do modern women not need men at all, or do those song lyrics simply create a smoke screen to hide what is really going on behind the scenes?
Let’s clear this up…
If a woman is saying she doesn’t need men in her life, you can bet your bottom dollar that she has recently (or repeatedly) had her heart broken and she’s still hurting, or she is lusting after the type of guys who aren’t interested in her.
With that being the case, the anti-men lyrics are nothing more than a smoke screen for insecure or emotionally bruised women.
The heartbroken female pop singer (or everyday woman) who is saying that she doesn’t need men, will cry herself to sleep over the fact that she no longer has a man in her life.
Just listen to some of the candid interviews of female pop singers and celebrities and you will see them admitting to crying their eyes out all the time. They may put on a front of being emotionally cold and independent, but it’s just a smoke screen.
Likewise, a woman who is saying that she doesn’t need men because the kind of men she wants don’t want her, will continue to try to attract their attention.
So, do women need men? Of course they do.
If women didn’t need men or want men in their life, there wouldn’t be so many “Who needs men anyway?” songs out there.
The only reason those songs exist is because single or dumped women tend stick together in a “friends forever” sort of way, so when one of their group has been dumped or let down by a guy, they all rally round to make her feel better by adopting an attitude of, “Who needs men anyway when we’ve got each other?!”
Of course, when the dust settles, they all set about helping her to find a new man ASAP.
Watch this video to understand how women really think…
A lot of people do not want to hear or accept the truth, but I am one who will speak my truth regardless.
When I worked a twelve-hour overnight shift this past Thursday at a medical rehabilitation facility, I got into a friendly discussion with a 75-year-old Polish man who happened to have lived in areas of the town I was born and raised in many years ago.
We reminisced about things then had gotten on the subject of black people who occupied residence in the area at the time and how most of them were low scale.
The neighborhood I grew up in was once an all-white neighborhood the people started to move out of the area when black people began to move in the area back then. The neighborhood was a beautiful place to live at one time.
I had heard and understood that story when my mother told it to me and other people I ran into acknowledged it.
There is prejudice among people who do not like people of certain races and ethnicities and there is a very good reason.
All black people are not bad, but most are not worth anything and this is coming from an African American female of mixed parentage/heritage.
I was not the average type of black girl/person growing up I spoke articulate and properly, I was very bright, and I did not hold the ignorant mentality that most black people had.
Just because a lot of white people do not like black people does not at all mean that they are racist. Some of them are but not all of them.
There is good and bad in every race or ethnicity, but a lot of black people do tend to be the worst.
I am black and have hated black people for the same reasons other races do. A lot of black people are a turn off- the way they look, act, think, talk. The way they present themselves, their mannerisms are off-putting.
I had problems with a lot of black people growing up because I was not one of them, I was not anything like them.
Black people are jealous of other blacks who are a better quality than they are and they try to pull them down to destroy them.
There are smart black people but rarely are they as bright as white people unless they are mixed with another bloodline. I have heard my mother who is black (with mixed parentage also) state this as well as a white person- but this fact was an obvious one to me.
Of course, I have experienced people who automatically judged me due to my brown skin but once they had gotten to know me it was a different story. It was not me personally, but the negative perception blacks have made on society.
In my life, with most people, it had always been predominantly white people and people of other races who accepted me and treated me kindly in life wanting to see me succeed.
All my life it has been black people who were extremely jealous of me and other blacks of my caliber. They have set out to tarnish our images, ruin our reputation with lies, and hamper our destiny in the most underhanded ways but because I never held their mindset, way of thinking, or essence their actions were in vain- a total waste of time- even if their severely deficient minds will never be able to grasp this reasoning.
Low-scale blacks as well as low-scale people in general like to bring people down to their level or lower.
They try to bring people down to their level because they cannot rise to our higher level of intellect, ability, character, or spiritual consciousness.
As far as I am concerned one of the only reasons Barack Obama was originally elected president is because he was biracial and because a lot of people (mostly men) did not want Hillary Clinton or a woman as president of the United States.
I am not at all insinuating that Barack was not qualified to be president, but even I would not have wanted an average black man in office.
I could be wrong but I think Michelle Obama would have had a good chance to become the first black woman president if she had wanted or decided to run.
Anyhow, for the most part, many black people are undesirable.
A lot of whites do not care when blacks kill one another because they feel they are helping to eliminate their own problem.
I just feel that it is the wrong blacks that end up dying and being killed by the hands of degenerates sometimes.
The ones that need to die are still walking around. They keep having children that should never have been born while there are good, valuable people who are unable to conceive children.
Trash people shoot out kids like crazy and they populate the earth unnecessarily with their undesirable offspring.
I could never stand living around a bunch of black people, going to school with them, or working in an environment with them. They completely turn me off. I only like certain type of blacks.
I have currently lived in a mixed neighborhood for eleven years now with Caucasians, Korean/Chinese/Japanese and others of Spanish descent. There are not too many black people in comparison- and the energy is wonderful.
As writers we can get inspired by anything- I know I do.
It is a part of our artistic, creative mode when the energy stirs us into action.
Today I read a fellow blogger’s “About Page” after I discovered her by a comment of mine that she liked.
I loved what she had to say in her introduction.
These are the sentences of the lady’s words that struck me because I have also been saying this for years.
We see the world with our eyes which have our own perception. When view doesn’t please our perception we start taking it as wrong or consider it as misfit for our calculated vision.
I responded back to her summary and shared my own accord in agreement by denoting:
Love your words that are spoken in truth.
As soon as some see or hear something that goes beyond their sense of understanding or belief, they are ready to attack or criticize instead of just accepting that we all are different and on our own path and there is so much more out there within the universe than what they may be able to grasp.
When I mention hate I am not speaking about harming, bothering anyone, or hating others because of their race, the color of their skin, sexual orientation, or other irrational reasons such as that do not make any sense.
I am talking about the normal feelings of dislike toward people, things, or matters among some of us for whatever reason due to inclines that are a natural part of this life
Everyone is different.
We all have our own points of view and ways of looking at things and all of us are not always going to agree and that is okay because we are not all wired the same.
To me hatred is a strength, and it does not stem from hurt or being hurt.
Love can hurt people, yet love is not considered a weakness or a thing to refrain from feeling.
Just like anger is a natural emotion, so is the hatred of certain things when the feeling is triggered.
There is nothing wrong with getting angry, everything lies in how we deal with, handle and direct that anger.
Emotions often fuel responses, so I never fed into the nonsense of hatred destroying a person or clouding them with mental or spiritual darkness.
People are just afraid of what some people will do to others out of hatred so they use untrue manipulating psychology to sway a person within their thinking and perception of the root in where hatred stems from or will take one.
For some people, hatred reflects their hurt and may lead them down a path of unhappiness, bitterness, or even destruction. However, this is not the case for all individuals, and I know this from experience.
Some people believe that hatred will hold one back, yet this is false- it is people that hold others back on account of not approving of attitudes or dispositions that they may hold or have.
People who do not get along with a certain group of individuals may get along just fine when they are in the company of those who they relate to or connect with.
Just as hatred can make some people furious and want to kill so can love.
Some people would kill another in vengeance if someone they loved were brutally and unjustifiably harmed, but they would not respond in the same manner in regard for someone they hated. So that person is not considered a threat in that circumstance.
I am not saying this example of explanation is necessarily acceptable, I am just stating the effect in which the emotions are apt to react.
We are all responsible for our actions when we are consciously aware. Some people are confused or misled and deserve understanding and not blame.
Nevertheless, hatred or dislike can be a feeling that people feel for others without the hatred having any negative affect in their lives or within their bearing.
Hatred can be a boost used positively and productively.
There are things and people that I strongly dislike but that does not spoil my “inner personal” joy or fulfillment. I naturally manifest good vibrational energy around my aura that I can feel because of the spirit that resides within me.
Hatred is not an issue that I spend or contend daily moments with. There is no dwelling within the feeling, just an acknowledgement of its existence.
I am rooted within the love that sustains me and nothing can overshadow that.
In life there is balance whereas a negative could be a positive or a positive could be a negative- there is not one without the other. When this reality is accepted there is no need to find a flaw as a result in how the natural alignments are weighed. –latoya lawrence
We are all made up of a life force. As a result, many of us are sensitive to other people’s energy waves.
Just as we can receive information through dreams and visions the universe also transfers awareness through spiritual communication within consciousness processed into the subconscious of connection to the universe.
Some people do not speak about things or constantly go on about things because they worry about what others may think.
I am one who never cared or feared what anyone thought. I have always been outspoken. If certain people are narrow-minded or ignorant as to what inspires or motivated me that is on them- not on me.
I know myself; I know who I am and the spirit within me will speak as it pleases through what is significant to life situations.
I do not have a problem speaking for myself or on behalf of certain others.
One of my strongest abilities has been one of an empathic being able to know/feel the energy within the universe and from people who surround me or who are around at a distance no matter how far away they are.
As a woman born with this gift, I include to pick up on men’s feelings toward me.
As women in general we cannot stop men from being attracted or interested in us.
For empathic people there is no avoiding the aspect of energy that is pointed within our direction.
When a person is thinking about us, and we are in their thoughts we can pick up on their thoughts within our minds because they are thinking about us.
This energy is transferred to us consciously and unconsciously from the other person or people.
Everyone or most are unaware that we are cognizant of their thoughts/feelings/emotions/energies etc….
We gather information from their thoughts day in and day out depending on the level of intensity or consistency of the person who exudes the energy.
It is important for us to not ignore our intuition because there is a reason why we feel their energy as time will later tell if all is not immediately or presently divulged to us at first.
Their feelings are not our feelings.
Just because we can feel that someone likes us in no way indicates that we are liking or interested in them as some who are not informed about clairsentience may misinterpret in the case of a romantic or sexual attraction from the other person just because we tend to discuss it or complain about it.
There are incidents where feelings are mutual and some may share a connection, but just because people are somehow spiritually connected does not mean their feelings are mutual.
What I have noticed is that men that I do not like and who I am repulsed by have often come into my thoughts within the past.
I would feel them constantly until their feelings for me eventually waned.
There were a few guys whose energy I had to deal with for years until they finally gave up.
These two knew that I had a gift and purposely would communicate with me telepathically. There were spiritual experiences between us all that were backed up and confirmed years ago before they left me alone.
The more I feel men’s energy who I do not like the more I get repulsed by them.
Some people tell me I should be flattered, but why?
Why do the guys who turn me off the most do not understand that I do not want them?
No matter how much they may lie or deny their feelings for me, if I do not reciprocate, I still know the truth.
Even when they admit to their feelings, they still do not want to accept that I will never like or desire them.
They sometimes act as if I am supposed to want them.
When men come into my thoughts most of the time it is a warning to beware of them and to alert me to the type of men they are. And this is a good form of confirmation as these are guys that I would not have ordinarily given the time of day anyhow.
For all my life, informative energy has come to me in my thoughts, whether it was to impart knowledge of life lesson facts- people, situations, or things.
However, I really hate and do not understand why I must be annoyed by the energy of men that I despise.
The occurrence can linger for long periods of time as they are occupied by their own thoughts or feelings towards me.
I appreciate the awareness to take heed to when they direct any sort of negativity toward me, but when they like me, I do not like to “feel” it.
Nevertheless, it is just part of a supernatural gift that I must live with.
Small-minded, ignorant, or narrow-minded people form judgements, speculations or assumptions about others or situations based on their own generalizations, speculations, insecurities or unproven conjectures.
People who are on the level or who have open minds that are broad within a wise/objective/reasoned way of analytical thought process know and respect the vast array of human distinction.
They make judgements or considerations based on another person’s own individuality. Not based on preconceived notions, the typical familiarity of common reactions, behaviors, feelings or mindsets.
Great minds are fully aware of the absolute and possibility thereof when it comes to the diversity within nature and flourishing/development within unique human beings. –latoya lawrence
Sorry, (And I am not apologetic for speaking the truth) but from my observation some so called Christians strike me as rejects who do not know how to think for themselves.
They sound like wind up dolls who repeat doctrine like hypnotized puppets/flunkies.
I believe in God and know scripture; however, I am not, never was, and never will be the type to bow down to a way of thinking, speaking, or doing by being trained from the instruction or psychology that does not relate to my knowledgeable consciousness of vibration.
My identity can never be taken away by religious, societal or familiar influence held by those who do not challenge what does not pertain to or apply to all.
Some individuals have no backbone.
I could not remain at peace if I was not able to be my true self in mind and within attitude.
In a world where impressions matter to many, truths are what truly mattered to me.
Not projecting a facade of what is acceptable for the sake of being accepted.
I found it impossible for me to put on a disguise as I am not one to be a people pleaser.
There is a time for courtesy, professionalism, diplomacy, and respecting certain boundaries as well as a time when to justifiably cross them.
It is so important to live out one’s truth even if that genuineness and loyalty to self within self-preservation according to one’s own distinct nature causes a reproach within others due to what goes beyond their own comprehension and/or level of discernment.
I have been lied upon, misunderstood, judged for things I have never done, criticized for not being able to be controlled by others, and I have been the object of other people’s vicious gossip, envy and jealousy just like many other people of substance in life have.
All other people’s negativity did was cause me to become further resilient and despise and look down upon these individuals more than I already had beforehand.
As one who is extremely stubborn no one can make me do anything I do not want to do, and no one can stop me from doing anything that I want to do.
I have noticed an innate force within me that refused to allow me to be deterred from possessing the essential liberty that is instilled within me to express and prevail.
I was naturally inspired to continue to move forward unaffected.
Permitting others, the opportunity to dictate or restrict one’s path and future out of fear/intimidation or discouragement only prevents one’s celestial discovery, steady growth, and ultimate evolution.
There are people who often recognize or acknowledge some of us for who they want us to be instead of who we really are.
They form judgements or have preconceived notions based on generalized perceptions of what they believe we represent through our perceived lifestyle, words, or manner of bearing in which we conduct ourselves.
Some conclusions that others draw may be accurate, partially accurate or just plain wrong altogether.
One cannot be genuinely defined according to conjecture, hearsay, rumor, false assumption or a standard of what one is familiar with and/or accustomed to.
So many factors, shape, make up and contribute to diverse individuals and their behavior.
As soon as one behaves or responds contrary to another person’s sense of belief or reasoning, they may become shocked, disappointed, or even critical toward the other person.
This instance is not an illustration that the people or person in question necessarily did something wrong or acted out of character. It is an example of others whose expectation or notion of what they built up within their own way of thinking projecting upon the surface.
I experienced a long time ago (from my childhood on up) how people would put their own insecurities, ignorance, and negativity onto me and others who they differed from or were jealous towards.
I without a doubt knew that their judgment or lack thereof did not coincide with reality.
Their actions and behavior reflected themselves, who they truly were, and had absolutely nothing to do with me!
When people think of assault or murder it is usually through the methods of stabbing, shooting, strangling, knocking one out through blunt force trauma, substance/chemical poisoning, and so on.
But voodoo/black magic/witchcraft by tampering to influence or harm people, and the intentional sexual pollutants of bodily fluids are also disgusting forms of crime inflicted on other individuals.
HIV/AIDS has come a long way since originally hitting the scene to become widely known from the late seventies to the early eighties.
There are advanced anti-viral drugs on the market to lower viral load to the point of it almost becoming undetectable or non-detectable considering intercourse with an infected person to be so-called safe sex.
There are plenty of other diseases out there that are transmitted through sexual contact and some venereal diseases that can be caught without having sexual contact with anyone at all.
The problem is not with the diseases themselves but with scandalous people who know they are infected with disease and knowingly pass them on to others freely without any concern or decency.
Some people will intentionally spread their infections out of bitterness with the attitude of “I am dying so I will take others with me”.
People have different reactions and motives for why they do things.
Some just do not care.
Some think if they spread their disease to a person or people that they give the disease to these people will have to stay with them or within their sexual circle (which fittingly does not always transpire).
Some just want others to be in their shoes so that they do not feel alone or awkward within their situation, making the circumstance less uncomfortable within their bearings.
All I can say is that this is a wild dangerous world with a lot of highly disturbed, treacherous, ruthless and just plain immoral people.
There are also plenty of highly upstanding, good-natured, trustworthy and humane people out there in our world.
If people with sense continue to love and respect themselves and be cautious to thoroughly detect who or what they let into their bodies just as one would with any stranger or foreign object that they would let into their home.
Do not let anyone enter without the proper “checks”. Do not let them check in if they do not correctly check out!
I am not going to mention any names but he knows who he is.
Since around Sunday on February 5, 2023 I noticed a few love/attraction/ lust spells tried to be worked upon me.
It began with acknowledgement of the man lusting after me -sexually desiring me- with the attempt to also get me to have a sexual as well as physical attraction to this guy.
Then I began to receive messages that this guy likes me very much.
In the days following, the essence of the love spell relayed to me the other feelings that are intended to sway me.
The motive is to have me like, care for, and possibly fall in love with this guy so I will be drawn to him.
I guess he thinks if he can make me feel this way that I will jump into bed with him.
He thinks that if I have sex with him because of the love spell then walk away from me afterwards that I will somehow be hurt emotionally.
This would be his way of retaliating against me for rejecting him by using an “unnatural” method (love-magic/witchcraft).
I understand that he or his ego may be hurt but witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not and never has worked on me mentally or emotionally I am far too strong for that.
I am sensitive to energy so I can pick up on the essence and the intent.
I do not understand why some guys have the mentality that they can hurt women by using them for sex.
Every woman is not the same and they do not hold the mentality of being disgraced by negative men who try to humiliate and degrade them in that manner.
There are women who use men for sex too and do not care.
He probably believes in his ignorant mind that I would be hurt the most because I am not the type who goes to bed with anyone at all. So, if he sleeps with me by doing witchcraft then talks badly about me with lies and whatever other stupid games he would be avenged.
He is sick in my opinion.
Love spells should not be done at all- but if they are done- at least people should do them with good/honest intentions instead of selfish ones that intend to hurt others just to have one’s way with them.
Aside from all that, witchcraft/black magic/voodoo is real even if certain people do not believe that it works.
The supernatural instance does not affect everyone but a lot of people do become under the influence of it. If witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not work on a person mentally, emotionally or physically it can work on them spiritually or materially- through finances and other means.
No matter what, God is always stronger than the devil that is why I am continuously kept aware. I am so grateful and thankful to the Lord for looking out and keeping me protected.
I remember years ago another guy worked a love spell on me to try to get me to love, marry him, and have babies with him.
I do not like people who do these things with ulterior motives to suit themselves, especially against another person’s will.
Why want someone who does not want you back? There is a world full of people on the planet.
What is important is that for people who are interested in relationships to find one’s who are best suited for them.
Right now, with the current guy, I find this action of his kind of exciting as I wonder how much further he will go. I even have a smile on my face at this love spell.
I am a fierce spiritual warrior and I am ready for the battle that God will take care of!
I was told twice yesterday by a mature (ninety-five year old) woman of experience that because of the way I look physically, and the way that I carry myself, I should be in movies.
This is not the first time I have been told these words and similar ones alike.
As a teen and young adult, some people would ask me if I was a model and would tell me that I could be one.
Another person told me they saw me as a movie actress type who was supposed to be writing screenplays.
Aside from other things, I could have been a lawyer or a psychologist if I had really wanted and chose to. I have both the smarts and the mindset.
The fact is, I never wanted a life in Hollywood to be broadcast on television, or to be photographed for magazines walking down the runway.
I never had the desire to be a legal representative or mental health specialist either.
Though many of us are qualified or can do or become professionals in more than one area, it does not mean this is a preferred career or path to seek.
Jobs and job labels do not define us as individuals.
Even though there are narrow-minded misinformed people who believe the higher the title or higher the income, the higher the stature.
Someone who does not have a job or who has a job that is considered low rank in comparison to high-level/high-profile jobs can have far more integrity, intelligence, ability than the one touting their so-called credentials.
They may have just not gotten the right opportunity, could have fallen into hard times, did not believe enough within themselves or did not have any support.
There are several reasons and factors for why those who could achieve great heights do not.
A lot of people who are in positions of power or who hold positions that are praised within society are not as adequate as they think they are or would like to believe.
Many of them are nothing but shit! They are as common as they come- there is nothing special about their existence.
Novel within character and mindset unlike the ordinary are what define true standing within its authenticity.
From my observations throughout the years there are so-called Christians and others alike who believe if something is not written or mentioned within the Bible then the instance is unlikely to be true or not possible- which I know for fact has never been the truth.
Something does not have to be in the Bible for it to be truthful or possible.
Everything not written in the Bible that can occur is also not always devil inspired or people inspired either.
There is credibility to many situations, circumstances, encounters that were experiences not directly included as taken place in the Bible.
Some people are stuck in their limited scope of reasoning, narrow-mindedness, ignorance, brainwashing, or influences brought on by society.
That is why it is so important to be strong-minded and confident within one’s own.
Knowing while certain others may not share an experience or a belief in no way will make another’s experience or belief less probable. There is a great possibility for their undergoing to be a reality and able to exist.
I have always been headstrong. I do not have to go through something to believe or to know it is able to be true for someone else.
Maybe because I have that insight, nevertheless, one should never let others sway their minds or raise doubt in what they hold to know or believe firmly.
Of course, we as people are liable to hold onto false or erroneous ways of being.
Anyone can misinterpret or be mistaken about things it is when they fail to accept their error once they have discovered or have been proven to be wrong in some way.
I am a very honest, straightforward person. If I say or write something it is because it is the truth, what I really think or believe, or suspect is possible.
Never do I or have I ever intentionally expressed anything under false pretense.
Some people may not understand what I mean or where I come from at times- depending on who it is- because I am a very deep, intelligent, and spiritual awake person.
Nevertheless, I speak my mind and am led by spirit to fulfill my purposes. I do know what I am talking about when I speak on things.
I am a forty-seven-year-old female who often gets mistaken for someone in her twenties or thirties. I have never really looked my age in body or in the face.
I even have a young sounding voice when I speak.
I have attracted men of all ages- young and old within the past.
When I was in my thirties eighteen-year-old guys were attracted to me, when I was in my twenties forty and fifty-year-old men were attracted to me.
It never made a difference. To each his or her own I never received any personal gratification from this attention I never wanted it.
Some men found me to be a challenge that they wanted to conquer. Some men just genuinely wanted to be with me because they liked me for my mind, and I was not like the average female once they got to know me a little.
I never placed value on myself based on whether a man approved or desired me. I have never suffered from low self-esteem and have never needed anyone to validate me or to build my assurance.
Self- confidence, self-love, and self-worth are things produced within me. No one gave it to me, and no one can take it away. Everyone should feel this way.
I have no interest in romantic relationships, I am asexual and proud.
Now I want to discuss this issue about Michael Gonzalez because I am being led to by spirit.
As I am a highly spiritually inclined individual I feel and keenly discern people’s energy.
Whenever a man, especially men who are of a negative disposition are attracted, or interested in me- I can feel them, their thoughts, and I can accurately sense things in relation to them in a timely frame.
From the first moment I laid eyes on Michael, I did not find him to be attractive.
He is not a cute guy, and he is not handsome as far as I am concerned. A friend of mine had saw a photo of him and said that he was not attractive to her also but that he seems to think that he is something. Maybe there are low-scale females who find him attractive, however, I do not and never will.
I was very insulted when Michael reflected his insecurities onto me while we worked together by entertaining the ridiculous idea that I could be attracted or interested in him.
I told Michael to his face that I could not stand him, but his inflated ego did not want to believe or accept it even though deep down inside he knew it was the truth.
He even profiled in front of me one day on the job by trying to show off his body that was not appealing to me whatsoever. He got down onto the floor to demonstrate push-ups. The incident turned me off.
The more I had got to know Michael the more I disliked him.
When some men try to impress women, push themselves on them, or try to flaunt themselves when they mistakenly assume that the female likes them, they do not realize how much they make a fool of themselves. It is very off-putting.
When I was younger there were guys (usually low-scale guys because guys of substance do not behave in this manner) who would get angry at me for not wanting them and in return tell lies about me.
There were three who were a problem.
Two lied and said I was involved with them and all three wanted people to believe that I slept with them or had feelings for them- all to make themselves appear big in the eyes of their peers. And, to also try to bring me down since I thought too highly of myself to desire or to be with anyone like them.
Neither one of these guys were desirable they were used to low-scale women such as themselves falling all over them and making a fuss over them due to their own bouts of low self-esteem.
Someone like me, who was of substance and class, added an extra blow to the bruise they received to their egos when they got hurt and rejected by me.
Of course, their efforts did not work so they joined in with the effort to work Brujeria (Black magic/Santeria) on me to try to make me look bad within the public eye, however, I was still too strong, and I successfully defeated all of them at their own game. On top of it, karma came back and destroyed all three of them. One even ended up dead years ago from his negative lifestyle.
No one can bring me down as I never cared what anybody said or thought about me.
I did not have time for that type of bullshit then, and I do not tolerate it now.
Michael is not at all drastic to that extreme his nonsense is mild in comparison, yet still an act of ridiculous nonsense.
With all the serious things going on in the world Michael is hung up on the fact that he cannot attain me.
He would rather believe that I really do have feelings for him and am just fighting it, or that I am playing hard to get, or whatever other delusional bullshit that men feed themselves instead of facing the truth over dealing with reality.
Michael needs to forget about me and realize that a woman of my level and caliber would never be interested or attracted to him.
Michael has a lot of negative energy. He has a very low vibration.
I am a positive person I exude from a very high vibration.
What I also believe is a part of Michael’s insecurities stem from his background of being morbidly obese.
Maybe after he lost weight, he feels he needs something to prove and is overcompensating.
He needs women to be interested or attracted to him to feel like a big man. I just wish he would find some other female to win over to measure or to prove his false sense of pride.
The other women he has been with are easy tramps. He feels if he can get me then he can get anybody. I should in a way take this instance as a compliment, but I am not flattered by it, I am disgusted.
To me, Michael will always be a small, unworthy, pretentious smelly fish swimming in a dirty pond.
I am not trying to be mean I just do not understand the sickness behind and within certain men and women (because there are deceitful, trouble-making women too) who cannot deal with rejection.
A healthy-minded person does not occupy themself with stupid shit like this.
Amazon is getting theirs! Not so long after I quit working for them, and they are headed for a downfall.
Amazon is laying off up to 10, 000 people starting this week. The most to be hit hard are those who work in devices, human resources, and retail. A lot of these people are going to be out of work. Amazon is also implementing a hiring freeze. I read three news articles that broke today in my alerts. Business for Amazon has not been doing too well. I also read that Jeff Bezos sold Amazon stock etc…. Well, well, well!
There was a ridiculous double standard I used to hear when I was growing up, one that I knew definitely was not true because I myself naturally did not hold this particular stance.
I used to hear how, when it came to intercourse, how, for females, it would take emotion to be involved for her to become engaged, or that, after a sexual encounter, she would become emotionally attached.
Such a bunch of sexists, insulting nonsense!
I am not saying to hop around for the hell of it for those who burn with lust or the occasional desire for some to have sex, or to have sex for the sole purpose of having a child- as I once considered just using a man to conceive a baby many years ago without any commitment or affection on my part.
What I am saying as a fact is that for a “Virgin” or a woman who is constantly sexually active, or that has been sexually active not too often, she does not necessarily have to have any interest at all in a particular man for her to be able to have sex with him.
It does not mean that she cares for him, and it definitely does not mean that she has any love for him.
Sex and love have nothing to do with one another. They are both two separate things.
Women can have sex with men without having any type of attraction or feelings for them- and without any guilt.
I definitely know this all for a fact.
Some men may not have understood or wanted to have accepted this reality because they were always stereotypically viewed as the ones who primarily used women to get what they wanted. So, it was too much of a bruise to the ego.
Truth is, as it is more out in the open these days- though there are still some with ignorant concepts- it works both ways.
There are men who become emotionally attached through sex whereas others do not, and vice-versa with certain women.
Some men or women do have to have feelings for someone before they go to bed with them.
A woman who has sex with a man who she does not love or care for does not make her a whore either, because there are many different types of circumstances that take place within situations.
Men who are whorish do not normally get called the undesirable whores that they truly are by the majority of society.
There are married couples without love within a marriage. To each his or her own.
Yes, when it comes to God, he intended for intercourse to be between couples tied together through wedlock. Anything outside of this is wrong or immoral to God. He also intended true consideration and dedication to each other. That is why marriage was not to be entered into lightly.
However, we all have our own free-will, gifts, and characteristics.
Some of us are asexual and are completely not into sex. Asexuality is not a sin. Some of us do not want to ever get married. Some want a loving, faithful, life-long relationship. Some just want to run around or have sex without strings attached.
There are possible consequences to actions sometimes, such as venereal disease, crazy people with fatal attractions, violent confrontations over cheating, unwanted pregnancies.
Some of these incidents even take place with married couples.
This is a crazy-mixed up world.
I, as a woman, personally wished that there was no such thing as sexual intercourse and that, as a woman, I would be able to conceive a child naturally on my own if I ever decided to (although I did not or would not want any children at this time in my life- but if I ever had a long time ago). I feel I should not have to share my vagina with anyone, and I know I did not ever have to, my vagina belongs to me.
A little note: There is an actual fish in creation that is by nature able to conceive offspring on its own without the fertilization from a male counterpart.
I am not the docile, soft, forgiving type. You try to fuck over me, disrespect me, rule over me, gaslight me one time- that is it!
I am glad that I am not and have never been a sensitive type of person. I have very thick skin. I am tough as nails, a fighter- a survivor.
Strength comes from inside- not silly tough talk or a rough physical demeanor, or facade.
I am not saying the entire world is this way, but there was always a ridiculous double standard when it came to men defining our actions, attitudes and manner of being when they do not fit into their lie of what a woman is supposed to be.
There are even stupid women and girls who are slaves to these false beliefs. They may be weak, needy, subservient doormats, but this is not the definition of a true woman.
When us women are fierce, aggressive, not afraid to confront a situation, speak our minds, and so on, we are considered angry, emotional, crazy, bitches (in an ignorant derogatory way), hysterical and every other negative excuse to justify the actual reason certain men cannot handle or accept our inborn power.
When a man behaves in the same manner, he is considered ambitious, strong, determined and all the other bullshit stereotypes men are defined to be.
I have always been very outspoken, blunt/direct, opinionated, controversial and I was considered a threat.
Females like me, as well as certain males who stand up for what is right or what they believe in and/or refuse to go along with the “program”, sometimes become targets.
People want to get rid of us, downplay us, or try to destroy our credibility, and so on.
None of the schemes or tactics of specific people who tried to control, manipulate, or whatever other intention they may have had in mind ever scared me or made me want to back down from being the genuine individual that I am and was born to be.
I have really appreciated people who are ” awake”, who are on the level when it comes to intelligence. I have been lucky enough to personally encounter them here within my lifetime as they could relate to me and I to them and we shared the same high mindset.
The majority of the world is lost and in trouble. They have an average or low-scale mentality and are easily influenced or brainwashed by societal culture.
I always had a mind of my own and could think for myself even if it went against the so-called “norm”.
Some of us, especially women, are judged by our outward appearance. Some will have preconceived notions about us without actually knowing us- these are the ones who have to learn the hard way that we are no one to fuck with!
I do not write for the hell of it. Yes, writing is one of my natural talents, my passion. I write because I love to do it, but it is the Holy Spirit that inspires and moves me to do so. Divine energy is the driving force.
It has to be about Amazon in some form or fashion because nothing else was going on for it to be about anything else.
The truth must have totally came out- although if it had not, that still would not have made me any less justified. It does not really matter what people think or believe; it only matters what God knows. He is the only one who holds the keys to our true destiny. I appreciate that the Lord let the truth prevail as he always does sooner or later, but we do not need others to validate what we know for a fact. Michael Gonzalez comes to my blog primarily every Friday now instead of everyday or every other day like he used to. He has been doing this for three or four weeks now. He is still unable to move on. I have that affect on assholes 😹😂.
Sometimes Michael and others try to get slick and disguise themselves through that iCloud Private Relay shit that they think is completely anonymous. In fact, Michael came to my blog last night. These people feed off negativity. They wish they could find dirt on me. However, there is none. They keep viewing my posts about the caul, voodoo, and spiritual gifts. If they are looking for a way to attack me spiritually- they had better think again! You see, I will always be ahead of people like them. I have dreams, I see visions, I get premonitions etc….
Of course, I do not reveal everything that I know and see. I was not born yesterday. I have been on this earth for forty-seven years; I have been gifted with extra sensory perception for all of my life.
When I was a child, I was not ordinary, I was extremely aware. A gift can save our lives as I could share many stories from now into the past.
But God gifted me for a reason, as he did certain others, and no one can stop his purpose for us. It is up to us in particular whether we use our spiritual gifts for good or evil.
I am African American and Native American, so I have extra power within the bloodline. My African ancestry as well as my American Indian Cherokee and Blackfoot are deeply inherent in spirituality. So, they can dig their own graves.
I left Amazon on July 19, 2022. I began work at another job a week after.
The month of August proved a better livelihood into the future.
There was no depth to or any future working at Amazon.
The position I had as a locker Hub associate was a bit fun yet there was really no substance to the role.
Aside from the job not offering any compliment to my abilities whereas I could be challenged and grow, there was no opportunity to significantly advance.
In addition, there was no guarantee of a steady concurrent schedule or any schedule at all if one was not able to successfully compete with other employees on the App Amazon had set up for workers to be on to arrange their own timetable at a designated time every weekday.
Another drawback was Amazon only allowed us employees four hours a day of work unless…
I was in the mood for cinema Saturday night, sorting through the hundreds of films in the app of my library of free movies to watch on my wide-screen television set.
I chose a movie titled “The Brave One”, and I am so glad I did.
I stayed up until 5am in the morning watching this film till the end as I had to work Sunday afternoon It was worth it though. I went to sleep afterwards- and still made it to work ahead of time.
It starred Jodie Foster and Terrence Howard. It is a realistic movie that came out in 2007 about a violent assault, murder, and a lady who works for a radio broadcast who takes it upon herself to avenge victims of crime in New York City as well as herself of her previous attackers.
The ending really stirred me, I just loved it!
The Brave One was truly an excellent, heart-felt action-thriller movie that one would not be disappointed viewing if this is their genre.
In my younger days men always chased after me whether they were single, had girlfriends, or even wives it didn’t matter.
A lot of guys liked me, not because all were just interested in sex, they genuinely liked me as a person. They enjoyed my conversation; they were intrigued by my uniqueness.
I had male as well as female associates. Sometimes I even got along better with certain males than I did with females.
Men shared wild and intimate secrets with me. They’d have girlfriends or wives while having other women on the side and etc….
I was upfront with them letting them know that they would never get into my panties.
I had some that were glad I was the way that I was even though it was a bruise to their ego. Some were envious of me, some resented me, some didn’t care- I did not care either.
No one could take advantage of me, no one could get over on me. Everything I did was on my terms or to my advantage. I was never the emotional lovey-dovey type of female. Although I had no problem with expressing how I thought or felt.
I had some very funny and crazy experiences with guys.
There was a neighborhood guy in his fifties that was interested in me when I was in my twenties.
We were sitting in his jeep talking while a crowd of people were there hanging out, talking, enjoying the days of summer.
All of a sudden, he turned the key in the ignition, started the vehicle, and drove around the corner.
I opened the door to the jeep and hopped out as we were halfway down the block (he had not drove too fast as I was able to take a safe leap).
I knew he was going to try to rape me.
When I was out of the jeep he told me to get back in.
I told him no! “Get back into the jeep so that you can rape me and then everybody say that it was my fault for getting back into the jeep?” I spoke.
“Rape?!” He spoke.
This fifty something year old man then got out of his vehicle and literally chased me around the jeep telling me to get back in.
I purposely ran around the jeep to make an ass out of him. Then I walked back down the block to where the rest of the people were. He was nothing to worry about. He was high, hard-up, and frivolously hell-bent.
My mother and I laughed about it later when I told her what had happened “He was going to get him some ass, huh?!” She relayed back in truth and humor.
My mother acknowledged to me that I was lucky the man didn’t have power-locks in his jeep.
Rape is a serious crime and no laughing matter; however, this man was nothing to take serious in my situation I was in no further danger. I was well-known in the neighborhood; people knew him and what he was about. He definitely knew better. I was a hangout partner with his sister whom he didn’t get along too well with.
This man and I ran into one another weeks later as I were on my way to the store, he was parked on the corner and called me over to the car.
I brought up the prior incident.
“Rape?!” He said like the suggestion I made was preposterous in order to through me off. He wanted to make me feel foolish. Of course, it did not work.
“There is too much pussy out here to rape”, he added out of anger.
When I did not back down and insisted on what he aimed to do he exclaimed, “I don’t want you!”
Then he admitted that by his last words he was just trying to hurt my feelings.
“My feelings are not hurt”, I expressed. “Why would I care if you want me or not?”
“Yeah, that could be true. You women can be cold”, he expressed back in return.
I, LaToya did not understand this man’s mentality at all. I did not understand the ignorance.
When I told a male associate the story he automatically knew instinctively as he addressed to me, “He was going to rape you”.
Months later, the fifty-year-old man’s sister came to me and told me that another female came to her and told her that her brother tried to rape her too. I and this other targeted girl did not personally know one another but I had seen her in the neighborhood before.
In return, the sister told the girl that she had heard about it before (through me but she did not tell the girl where she heard about it from).
The man’s sister told me that her brother trying to rape this other woman was not relevant because of her notorious promiscuous sexual behavior.
As far as I am concerned, even a prostitute does not deserve to be raped even though she may be asking for it depending on her situation.
If a woman does not consent to having sex, then no man has the right to force himself on the woman regardless of her sexual history.
All of us are not going to take to, connect with, or get along with every single person we encounter or come across within this lifetime.
Nevertheless, I have really met and dealt with some people who have treated me with sincerity, reasonableness, kindness, and generosity.
Intelligent people who I could have deep meaningful discussions with.
People who I could just chill and laugh with.
It is nice to still know with all of the fucked-up people in this society that there are and will always be others out there who are compatible with us even if we are all outnumbered by the rest of the assholes out there!
As some of us who are unique many of us are greatly misunderstood.
We’re thought of as strange. Our words are taken out of context. Some of us are even called crazy by those who don’t understand us. By those who may envy us, by those who misjudge us and by those who want to psychoanalyze us with their bullshit that really does not pertain to us at all.
Some people are just miserable and spiteful.
None of these instances ever fazed or bothered me. I was just “crazy” that way!
Like I have said times before, when there is really no legitimate basis other people’s attitudes and behavior are a reflection of themselves. It’s their problem- let them worry about it.
People do these things to just about anyone who does not fit into what they consider typical or so called “normal”.
It is really about what is “healthy” than about what is normal. Who is to actually say what is defined as normal when we have so much diversity?
I would never worry about a word like crazy as it is the dumb ones and those who are actually crazy themselves that label smart or extraordinary people in that manner.
It is not always wise to discuss our beliefs, faculties, or certain other things with just any or everyone yet never feel ashamed of who you are.
Never try to repress what you feel.
I am tired of what is average, I always have been. I welcome people and things that are rare, different and uncommon. That is what makes one special.
Never be afraid to stand out from the crowd and be the unique person that God created you to be.
If anyone calls you “crazy” take it as a compliment!