Salvation (Eternal Security)

Walking With Jesus

In my late teens, while I was having a weekly bible study, I had mentioned to my group members the trouble I was undergoing in my neighborhood with fellow teens and adults who were jealous of me for not doing and not having done the things that they were doing. I lived a totally different lifestyle than what they all did.

One lady from my bible study specifically pointed to a particular verse of scripture and then spoke it out loud to me. It read: They are puzzled that you do not continue running with them in the same decadent course of debauchery, so they speak abusively of you. 1 Peter 4:4

Although I had never indulged within the same behaviors as certain neighborhood folk, I had cut loose those who I had grown up with and refused to be bothered with others who were not of good character…

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God’s Summon

My mother and I had gone through quite a few things and challenges through life for many years, years ago, yet we would always get through those situations remarkably and victoriously.

We, of course, experienced a lot of good times too along with plenty of really nice and supernatural blessings that had indeed come from God.

Even though, I still blamed God for having to go through negativity whether it was on account of people, principalities, or just the circumstances of living within a fallen world that I felt I didn’t ask to come into.

I have to admit that I was very strong in prayer and putting effort into developing a relationship with God to the best of my ability in trying to understand his will and plans back then.

Sometimes I did still have doubts about the authenticity of God’s goodness.

Whenever I would talk against him for whatever seemed to me to be unfair, cruel, or unright within life, my mother would always say that “It is not God, it is the people”. And she would always emphasize that God was good and how he was always good to her throughout her life.

My mother’s faith in the goodness of God was very strong compared to mine.

I always knew and believed in the power that he had but started to not completely trust in him as a good God as I focused more on the things I felt he allowed to happen in our personal lives, and within the world in general.

I couldn’t grasp God as truly being this loving, caring, reasonable source of light in a world full of permitted darkness. After all, nothing can go on unless God allows it too.

I looked at God as an evil or wrathful spirit looking to readily catch people in wrong-doing with the eagerness to punish or to send them to hell. I especially, believed that he had something personally against me and eventually came to the idea that it had to be other sources of light looking out and after me because I just couldn’t fathom how God worked sometimes.

It seems very contradicting to have been born with a caul and have God be against me (not saying that God is naturally against anyone). However, my mother along with a few others had told me that I sometimes would think “backwards”.

I cannot deny in all truth how God had been exceptional in our lives. Again, I think I focused more on the bad than the good things at times.

God has made a strong and grave stance to draw me back to him recently. He wants me to come to fully know and to understand the true nature of him, his word, and his glorious plans for me.

I never actually thought I’d speak these words. I was so angry at God for allowing witchcraft to be done on me as a child on up by jealous, envious, ill-minded individuals. And I had resented how the same types of toxic and undesirable individuals seemed to constantly be placed within my paths.

God wants me to know and to understand that he genuinely does love me. He wants me to focus totally on him and to have eternal life through the truth of his word and righteousness. He doesn’t want the devil to steal away and/or kill me with lies of where the source of my foundation, maintenance and protection resides.

God wants me to acknowledge and give glory to him. He wants me to use my spiritual gifts and experiences whether extraordinary or ordinary as testimony and encouragement instead of speaking against him out of any misinterpretation.

In order for me to comply the event had to be of sincerity and a true desire from within. As an authentic individual, I wanted everything to be from the heart; because that is how I operate. The spirit is definitely within me.

God didn’t knock on my door this time-he barged on in with urgency. An urgency of love and concern, an action he did not have to do. We have such little time here on earth and he wanted me to take heed to acknowledge his sovereignty and bring me closer to him.

In putting him first, he isn’t trying to hurt me he informed. He just wants me to learn to trust him while he takes care of the rest.

God doesn’t want my soul to be in jeopardy-and certainly not over a misunderstanding of who he is. God has a way of getting our attention even if it’s through a tragedy.

God knows our true hearts and motives and may correct but not punish out of unintentional error.

It is definitely true, he never abandons his children, even when some of us shy away from him. Even when I kept away he kept near not letting me fall. He won’t let anything separate those of us who truly belong to him.

Eternal Life/The Transition

I came across this post that, to me, is ultimately beautiful. Here it is:

(https://www.epm.org/blog/2020/Jun/3/loved-ones-experiencing-heaven)

What Are My Loved Ones Experiencing in the Present Heaven?

BY RANDY ALCORN  JUNE 3, 2020

A reader wrote, “I just finished the book Heaven. Knowing Jesus, I found it inspiring and well documented. I was disappointed there wasn’t more mentioned about the immediate Heaven, the one right after we leave this earth. I just lost a loved one and would like more information and clarity about what she is experiencing. I have read three books on Heaven, read a lot about the New Earth, but little about what happens when I die.”

While my book Heaven centers on the New Earth, the eternal Heaven, a few chapters deal with the present Heaven. When a Christian dies he enters what theologians call the “intermediate state,” a transitional period between life on Earth and the future resurrection to life on the New Earth. Usually when we talk about “Heaven,” we mean the place that Christians go when they die. When we tell our children “Grandma’s now in Heaven,” we’re referring to what I prefer to call the present Heaven (the word intermediate sometimes confuses people).

Books on Heaven often fail to distinguish between the intermediate and eternal states, using the one word—Heaven—as all-inclusive. But this is an important distinction. The present Heaven is a temporary lodging, a waiting place (a delightful one!) until the return of Christ and our bodily resurrection. The eternal Heaven, the New Earth, is our true home, the place where we will live forever with our Lord and each other. The great redemptive promises of God will find their ultimate fulfillment on the New Earth, not in the present Heaven. God’s children are destined for life as resurrected beings on a resurrected Earth.

Though the present Heaven is not our final destination, it’s a wonderful place, and it’s understandable that those who have had loved ones die in Christ wonder what life is like for them there. Based on the Bible’s teaching, we know several things: the present Heaven is a real (and possibly physical) place. Those who love Jesus and trust Him for their salvation will be with Him there, together with all who have died in Christ. We will be awake and cognizant. And because we will be with Jesus, it is “better by far” than our present existence.

The Present Heaven Is a Real Place

Heaven is normally invisible to those living on Earth. For those who have trouble accepting the reality of an unseen realm, consider the perspective of researchers who embrace string theory. Scientists at Yale, Princeton, and Stanford, among others, have postulated that there are ten unobservable dimensions and likely an infinite number of imperceptible universes. If this is what some scientists believe, why should anyone feel self-conscious about believing in one unobservable dimension, a realm containing angels and Heaven and Hell?

The Bible teaches that sometimes humans are allowed to see into Heaven. When Stephen was being stoned because of his faith in Christ, he gazed into Heaven: “Stephen, full of the Holy Spirit, looked up to heaven and saw the glory of God, and ­Jesus standing at the right hand of God. ‘Look,’ he said, ‘I see heaven open and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God’” (Acts 7:55-56). Scripture tells us not that Stephen dreamed this, but that he actually saw it.

Wayne Grudem points out that Stephen “did not see mere symbols of a state of existence. It was rather that his eyes were opened to see a spiritual dimension of reality which God has hidden from us in this present age, a dimension which none the less ­really does exist in our space/time universe, and within which ­Jesus now lives in his physical resurrected body, waiting even now for a time when he will return to earth.”

I agree with Grudem that the present Heaven is a space/time universe. He may be right that it’s part of our own universe, or it may be in a different universe. It could be a universe next door that’s normally hidden but sometimes opened. In any case, I don’t think God gave Stephen a vision in order to make Heaven appear physical. Rather, He allowed Stephen to see a present Heaven that was (and is) physical.

The prophet Elisha asked God to give his servant, Gehazi, a glimpse of the invisible realm. He prayed, “‘O Lord, open his eyes so he may see.’ Then the Lord opened the servant’s eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha” (2 Kings 6:17). Acts 7 and 2 Kings 6 are narrative accounts, historical in nature, not apocalyptic or parabolic literature. The text is clear that Stephen and Gehazi saw real things.

The Present Heaven May Be a Physical Place

If we look at Scripture, we’ll see considerable evidence that the present Heaven has physical properties. We’re told there are scrolls in Heaven, elders who have faces, martyrs who wear clothes, and even people with palm branches in their hands. There are musical instruments in the present Heaven, horses coming into and out of Heaven, and an eagle flying overhead in Heaven.

Many commentators dismiss the possibility that any of these passages in Revelation should be taken literally, on the grounds that the book of Revelation is apocalyptic literature, which is known for its figures of speech. But the book of Hebrews isn’t apocalyptic, it’s epistolary. Moses was told, in building the earthly Tabernacle, “Be sure that you make everything according to the pattern I have shown you here on the mountain.” If that which was built after the pattern was physical, might it suggest the original was also physical? The book of Hebrews seems to say that we should see Earth as a derivative realm and Heaven as the source realm.

Unlike God and the angels, who are in essence spirits (John 4:24; Hebrews 1:14), human beings are by nature both spiritual and physical. God did not create Adam as a spirit and place it inside a body. Rather, He first created a body, then breathed into it a spirit. There was never a moment when a human being existed without a body. We are not essentially spirits who inhabit bodies; we are essentially as much physical as we are spiritual. We cannot be fully human without both a spirit and a body.

Given the consistent physical descriptions of the intermediate Heaven and those who dwell there, it seems possible—though this is certainly debatable—that between our earthly lives and our bodily resurrection God may grant us some temporary physical form that will allow us to function as human beings while in that unnatural state “between bodies” awaiting our bodily resurrection. If so, that would account for the repeated depictions of people now in Heaven occupying physical space, wearing clothes and crowns, carrying branches, and having body parts (for example, Lazarus’s finger in Luke 16:24).

A fundamental article of the Christian faith is that the resurrected Christ now dwells in Heaven. We are told that His resurrected body on Earth was physical and that this same, physical Jesus ascended to Heaven, from where He will one day return to Earth. It seems indisputable, then, to say that there is at least one physical body in the present Heaven. If Christ’s body in the intermediate Heaven has physical properties, it stands to reason that others in Heaven could have physical forms as well, even if only temporary ones.

To avoid misunderstanding, I need to emphasize a critical doctrinal point. According to Scripture, we do not receive resurrection bodies immediately after death. Resurrection does not happen one at a time. If we have intermediate forms in the intermediate Heaven, they will not be our true bodies, which we leave behind at death.

So if we are given material forms when we die (and I’m suggesting this possibility only because of the many Scriptures depicting physical forms in the present Heaven), they would be temporary vessels. Any understanding of people having physical forms immediately after death that would lead us to conclude that the future resurrection has already happened or is unnecessary is emphatically wrong!

We’ll Be Together with Christ and Those Who Love Him

As painful as death is, and as right as it is to grieve it (Jesus did), we on this dying Earth can also rejoice for our loved ones who are in the presence of Christ. When they die, those covered by Christ’s blood are experiencing the joy of Christ’s presence in a place so wonderful that Christ called it Paradise.

As the apostle Paul tells us, though we naturally grieve at losing loved ones, we are not “to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope” (1 Thessalonians 4:13). Our parting is not the end of our relationship, only an interruption. We have not “lost” them, because we know where they are. And one day, we’re told, in a magnificent reunion, they and we “will be with the Lord forever. Therefore encourage each other with these words” (1 Thessalonians 4:17-18).

Peter tells us, “You will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ” (2 Peter 1:11). God is the main welcomer, no doubt.  All eyes are on Jesus, the Cosmic Center, the Source of all Happiness. But wouldn’t it make sense for the secondary welcomers to be God’s people, those who touched our lives, and whose lives we touched? Wouldn’t that be a great greeting party?

Jesus said, “There is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents” (Luke 15:10). Angels probably rejoice too, but the ones living in the presence of angels Jesus refers to are likely God’s people, redeemed human beings, some of who knew and loved and prayed for the conversion of these sinners, and now are beholding the answers to their prayers. Wouldn’t such people be a natural part of the welcome committee when we enter Heaven?

I envision glorious reunions and amazing introductions, conversations and storytelling at banquets and on walks, jaws dropping and laughter long and hard, the laughter of Jesus being the most contagious.

When I enter Heaven, I look forward to being hugged by my dear mother, who I led to Christ when I was a new believer in high school. Then I picture Mom, that broad smile on her face, presenting me with my sixth grandchild. In 2013 my daughter Angie had a miscarriage. This was a very painful time for our family, but one more reason I am looking forward to Heaven. When this happens, I will look at Jesus, nodding my thanks to the One with the nail-scarred hands, and I will not let my grandchild or my mother go.

Those in the Present Heaven Are Awake and Alive

That we’ll receive “a rich welcome” necessitates that at death, we will be awake and conscious. Christ depicted Lazarus and the rich man as conscious in Heaven and Hell immediately after they died (Luke 16:22-31). Jesus told the dying thief on the cross, “Today you will be with me in paradise” (Luke 23:43). The apostle Paul said that to die was to be with Christ (Philippians 1:23), and to be absent from the body was to be present with the Lord (2 Corinthians 5:8). After their deaths, martyrs are pictured in Heaven, crying out to God to bring justice on Earth (Revelation 6:9-11).

These passages clearly teach that there is no such thing as “soul sleep,” or a long period of unconsciousness between life on Earth and life in Heaven. The phrase “fallen asleep” (in 1 Thessalonians 4:13 and similar passages) is a euphemism for death, describing the body’s outward appearance. The spirit’s departure from the body ends our existence on Earth. The physical part of us “sleeps” until the resurrection, while the spiritual part of us relocates to a conscious existence in Heaven (Daniel 12:2-3; 2 Corinthians 5:8).

Every reference in Revelation to human beings talking and worshiping in Heaven prior to the resurrection of the dead demonstrates that our spiritual beings are conscious, not sleeping, after death. (Nearly everyone who believes in soul sleep believes that souls are disembodied at death; it’s not clear how disembodied beings could sleep, because sleeping involves a physical body.)

As awake and conscious beings, those in Heaven are free to ask God questions (Revelation 6:9-11), which means they have an audience with God. It also means they can and do learn. They wouldn’t be asking questions if they already knew the answers. In Heaven, people desire understanding and pursue it. There is also time in the present Heaven. People are aware of time’s passing and are eager for the coming day of the Lord’s judgment. God answers that the martyrs must “rest a little longer.” Waiting requires the passing of time. I see no reason to believe that the realities of this passage apply only to one group of martyrs and to no one else in Heaven. We should assume that what is true of them is also true of our loved ones already there, and it will be true of us when we die.

Life in Christ’s Presence Is Better by Far

Paul says, “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.… I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far” (Philippians 1:21, 23). Life in the Heaven we go to when we die, where we’ll dwell prior to our bodily resurrection, is “better by far” than living here on Earth under the Curse, away from the direct presence of God.

Paul spoke from experience. He had actually been taken into Heaven years before writing those words (2 Corinthians 12:1–6). He knew firsthand what awaited him in Paradise. He wasn’t speculating when he called it gain. To be in the very presence of Jesus, enjoying the wonders of His being, and to be with God’s people and no longer subject to sin and suffering? “Better by far” is an understatement!

King David wrote, “In Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore” (Psalm 16:11, NKJV). In the presence of God, there’s nothing but joy. Those who live in the presence of Christ find great happiness in worshiping God and living as righteous beings in rich fellowship in a sinless environment. And because God is continuously at work on Earth, the saints watching from Heaven have a great deal to praise Him for, including God’s drawing people on Earth to Himself (Luke 15:7, 10).

Our loved ones now in Heaven live in a place where joy is the air they breathe, and nothing they see on earth can diminish their joy. Their joy doesn’t depend on ignorance, but perspective, drawn from the Christ in whose presence they live. If you’re following Jesus, no doubt your loved ones there are rejoicing over you. The great cloud of witnesses of Hebrews 12 is now up in the stands of Heaven and watching you on the same playing field they once ran on. They’re looking forward to hearing Jesus say “Well done” to you, and they may also commend you for your service of Jesus!

But those in the present Heaven are also looking forward to Christ’s return, their bodily resurrection, the final judgment, and the fashioning of the New Earth from the ruins of the old. Only then and there, in the eternal Heaven, the home Jesus is preparing for us, will all evil and suffering and sorrow be washed away by the hand of God. Only then and there will we experience the fullness of joy intended by God and purchased for us by Christ, who we will forever praise!

 

What Is The Problem?

 

A lady called into the radio station that my mother and I frequently listen to early this morning. I was asleep. My mother told me about it when I awoke. The lady was distressed and not able to cope, she was so upset the broadcasters couldn’t understand the majority of her words as she expressed her worries, and concerns.

There are people who are unable to handle or deal with the alterations within daily living due to the Covid-19 virus.

In all honesty, what is there really to handle? The circumstances have not actually reduced the quality of life. This situation is all about perception. In particular aspects, the occurrences going on within life now is better than what was taking place before.

I genuinely like the way things are at this current time and I’m definitely not alone within my feelings I am just one who is not afraid to admit to it.

 

Don’t get me wrong in terms of the devastation in which this pandemic has brought on with creating the loss of jobs, financial problems, and early deaths among the masses of people who have been affected by these happenings.

Our world and society have always been plagued by moments of periodic crisis and the spread of disease. This is not the first of events and it won’t be the last to come.

Aside from that, if anything there is to freak out about is those darn suffocating masks that we mandatorily have to wear.

Shit, if anything one shouldn’t be able to handle is constantly not being able to breathe on the regular, not the rest of what should be considered as pleasant beneficial life ajustments.

Summer In The Air: Everything Is All Good And Fair

I look forward to the summer; spring and summer are my favorite months of season (after all I was born in the spring during the month of May) when the weather is within accordance.

Yesterday was a beautiful summer-like hot day. It was tiresome as I ran around  in that heat, especially having to wear a mask.

I drank me a bottle of water while I was out, ate me two cold pints of vegan vanilla coconut milk ice-cream when I got back home, and chilled out under the fan.

I stayed up late to watch my classic Twilight Zone, Alfred Hitchcock, and Mannix episodes.

Today wasn’t so bad either, a nice breeze delightfully carried through my living room window every now and again

Hope the weather remains nice so that I can enjoy the rest of spring into the summer.

 

Its Hard For Adversaries To Accept Truth

Jealous and envious people often try to outdo or compete with those who they know they’re inadequate to, and feel threatened by.

We don’t entertain them within our minds as we live our day to day lives unconcerned about their unwanted existence. Yet, we appear upon their minds as a constant reminder of the incomparable and repetitious torture in relation to their own shortcomings, and inevitable downfalls.

For about two weeks now, adversaries have been working against me to no avail. They have made an effort through working a spell or spells to mask and block the good energy innately generated around me in an attempt to unnaturally lower my spirits and prevent further advantageous things from entering into my life.

They come to my blogs and/or get wind of my writings. They observe my peaceful and satisfying lifestyle. They resent my spiritual blessings and protections; and they are heavily disappointed at my consistency to successfully hold versatile jobs, and earn steady well-paid incomes.

I and certain members of my family were born intelligent and meant to do well no matter who or what negative source endeavored to intervene. We were always much stronger and more knowledgeable than the demonic individuals who crossed our paths.

They also come to my blog to look for clues or ideas within my writings, actually believing that I would unwittingly or tactlessly (clumsily) divulge some type of information to counteract the intangible/celestial arrangement that surrounds me.

This tug of war that adversaries delusionally hold onto is a battle in which they constantly fight on their own against themselves. I’ve never held onto the other end of their ropes as I let them fall to their defeat a long time ago due to the fact that they didn’t stand a chance at ever destroying me.

They just need to wake up, realize, and finally accept it.

The “Sleep” And The “Awoke”

Conspiracy and corruption, along with demoniac essence, goes on everywhere and in everyday life not just within the elite. They are just the traps that set up the bait.

We find quite a lot of acts and schemes played out within ruthless and determined ways for benefit or profit by ordinary people.

A lot of individuals don’t really know the depth of what is going on within this society.

Nevertheless, many of us who are genuinely spiritual inclined have always had the insight and connection to this realm, and beyond.

One of my strong and consistent faculties was being able to sense things about people that other people weren’t able to sense.

There is so much that I could get into and explain, however, I will give a brief summary of my point.

I remember through out different stages of life, I would try to tell certain people things in regard to whatever was the issue if I was confronted, and they’d refuse to listen to me then blame me for being difficult, or the one who was the trouble.

I’ve never had this problem with people who were “awoke” or on my high level/wavelength.

Now, some of this with particular people, was an attempt to gaslight me because I was no pushover and could see through them and their calculations. I was never anybody’s fool or one to be controlled and taken advantage of.

With others, it was their inability to discern through their limited view of perception as they would often come back to me later after having discovered the truth, acknowledging to me “Now I see”, or “I see what you mean”, or “You were right”.

Yet, I didn’t give a fuck what they were too late to have seen, and acknowledged, once their stupid asses rudely became aware of their errors, and then humbled by them.

Maybe I would have been kinder or more understanding if some had not been snidely injudicious. I don’t tolerate those who try to make me out to be the bad one because they have an inadequate mentality/mindset.

I never believed everything I watched on the news, read in news papers, learned in school, observed in religions, or heard from other people.

I wasn’t blinded by information just because it was handed out by those who were considered to be an authoritative figure or source.

My intuition and intelligence knew when something was not all about truth, or whereas something did not seem right. My mind was able to decipher through analysis, gut feelings, and plain common sense.

Many people are so dumb and weak-minded and easily deceived. They are mind controlled, and cemented within their own lack of knowledge and awareness-and they don’t even realize it.

A lot of people actually dimiss or reject genuine knowledge because it may go against what they have learned, heard, or was raised to believe.

I am so glad that I was never an individual who was able to be manipulated or programmed along with the masses of people who are slaves to the worldly system of government, and who are vulnerable to their propaganda and agendas.

 

Eyes Of The Soul: Sweet Reward

Many people hate or have hated god for personal reasons of their own even if they won’t admit to it.

As a true spiritual person who was definitely born with the caul, and the family lineage to back up naturally inherent occult power, I speak from experience.

When I was a young girl, even though I had a lot of advantages, fortunate luck, and blessings, I never felt that God was truly good or any sincere positive energy from him.

I have extremely intense empathic faculties, and I am usually on point. So God is not perfect and good within my definition of what a good and perfect god really is, or should be.

When I went through hard times as a youngster on up I’d often see an extremely shiny twinkle in the sign of a cross appear before me, acknowledging to me “I’m here, I’m with you, everything is going to be alright”.

Everything did turn out alright, however, what was the purpose of going through the nonsense of whatever would be the trial within the first place? All these tribulations did was cause me to resent God even more than I already had.

I was already disgusted in the way he designed certain things within creation. Then, to include me as one of the beings to inhabit a life here on this Earth filled with sick people and morbid principalities in which I have no tolerance or patience for, was a complete insult.

If I could have used my gifts to rid the world that I did not ask to come into from all of the things that turned me off I would have done it immediately. If I was able to have gotten off the Earth and into a special place where what’s going on here wasn’t permitted, and/or where certain people and things didn’t exist, the circumstance would have been even better.

Years ago, when I gave god the benefit of the doubt in regard to my perceptions of him, I was always disappointed by him and my outcomes. When I constantly put myself first is when I noticed I was the happiest and more fulfilled.

If I truly don’t like or don’t want something within my life then it is not going to work out; it has always been this way with me. I have to do it my way. I am too strong and self-willed.

I wholeheartedly love myself, my mind-the way I think, and the way I am.

Having extrasensory perception/second-sight enabled me to experience life within many extraordinary modes that I have learned and discovered quite a lot from.

Later on, when I fully became aware of my ancestors and orishas presence around me things opened up further and brought to me a clearer understanding of who really had my best interest in spirit.

God is often called a god of love, he is nothing but a disgrace to me. If God is supposed to be the true definition of love, perfection, fairness or truth I don’t want any of the perversion around me.

The devil, is often blamed for the negative effects initiated by so called inborn sin and the inequities of the world. Yet, who allows the devil to reign upon the physical/material plane? Why wasn’t he stopped at the beginning?

The devil and god are one and the same to me.

Oh so many answers and hidden truths that have been revealed to me that I’d never openly share or discuss! I just had to speak my mind.

I definitely know what love, fairness, and truth is and no god of perfection would operate within the manner in which he does.

The energy influence of god years ago was suffocating, manipulative, and unnatural.

Spiritually, I breathe free now, unbound by blockage, and I continue to flourish through the natural beauty of my surrounding essence.

 

Health And Wellness

I ate shrimp and rice for dinner the night before last. Afterwards, I drunk one or two full cups of ice-cold apple juice.

When I cook that particular meal it always comes out delicious and filling. I’ve bought and fixed shrimp quite a few times lately. It had been a while since I’ve eaten shrimp.

I don’t have a problem finding the product on the shelf. They are a little expensive compared to the other items of seafood stocked in the local supermarket, and certain people aren’t too eager to purchase these particular quality of shrimps on account of the price, even though they are worth the money.

As I sit here in my living room I decide what to prepare for dinner tonight and at the same time I have a memory enter into my mind.

The thought reflected on one of the wealthy clients I worked with for a few months a few years ago. She was a retired business attorney who practiced law for nearly 20 years at Home Box Office, specializing in satellite transactions and international partnerships with movie studios and cable companies to bring HBO abroad.

Anyway, one day we took a cab from her million-dollar rented apartment that she came to eventually own, situated in Manhattan, NY to her hair-salon that was located on the second floor of a fancy building.

While I waited for my client to get her hair colored, washed, blow-dried, and styled I killed time by going down to one of the first floor restaurants to order me some food to take back to her apartment.

I was staying at her home for nearly the entire week straight-working a double and extended day shift. Usually I’d do four days a week overnight with her, but her day caregiver was temporarily off schedule, and I covered her shifts as well as mine.

There inside the restaurant I ordered shrimp with french fries, a side of vegetables, two packages of mixed fruit, and a vegan smoothie.

I placed my order for take out; the order summed up to a little over fifty dollars.

I saved all of my food to eat later that night except for the smoothie, and one of the packages of fruit.

I sat at one of the restaurant tables and ate my delicious fruit while I sipped on my green-colored smoothie that was made purely of vegetables, fruit, and spices.

Aside from having juiced raw fruit and vegetables in my juicer years ago, I had never tasted one of these modern-day smoothies that are usually made with dairy yogurt or whatever else.

I was surprised at how very good the smoothie that I had tasted, considering the combination of the raw vegetables mixed in together. I can’t remember the entire ingredient list but the beverage did contain spinach, carrots, apples, celery and a few other nutritious edibles along with lemon and spice.

 

Comfortable Living

Today the weather is cloudy, rainy and cool. Such a quick change yet nothing out of the ordinary.

The weather was sunny and warm yesterday I went and shopped as I was finally able to buy a few bottles of rubbing alcohol from one of my favorite retail outlets. I also picked up another package of medical/surgical masks at my local discount store before I headed on to buy food/groceries.

Last week I noticed certain stores opening back up and shelves replenished with items that had been vacant for weeks at stores that had remained opened.

My family and I have everything we need, though, I still go pick up extra preferred things that we may get low on from time to time. Things should be easier to come by now that a lot of people have run out of money in which they irresponsibly exhausted from over-buying and over-spending.

I was able to get my hands on in-demand supplies a month ago because I travel to various places to get my quality products.

This pandemic has not stopped us at all from living comfortable or peaceful. There may be crisis within the world but there is no crisis within our heart and home. 

My Wednesday Words Of Wisdom: Older Is Not Always Wiser

Those who say or believe that wisdom only comes with age are those who have purely aged without true wisdom– Miss Latoya Lawrence.

When I was much younger, I had a lot on the cap and no older person was able to get over on me. Not ever!

An older person can learn things from a younger person and a younger person can learn things from an older person. Just because one is older does not make them wiser than one who is younger and this is a fact that I’ve known through experience.

I use to hate when certain people who were older than me would generalize my particular situations on account of what may have been common within society or within what had happened with or to them and others in regard to their own set of circumstances. They didn’t know what they were talking about within their opinions or point of views and had made a lot of preconceived notions in which had absolutely nothing to do with my actual situation or way of thinking.

Many people reflect their own issues, flaws, insecurities, and/or lack of knowledge in particular areas onto others. Many also don’t want to admit they’re wrong in judging what they misperceive, speculate and really know nothing about or are not too accustomed to when it comes to the diversity of character within individuals.

A lot of youngsters have had this problem with older people. Sometimes it just boils down to many older people not being on the level.  Nevertheless, those who are not on the level is not an age-related element, there are young people, of course, who are just as clueless.

Some older people have a tendency to get angry at younger people who refuse to listen to them even if the younger person is right and they are wrong; the older person through disdain becomes critical.

It’s important for younger people to hold their own when they are correct within their facts and reasonable convictions because a lot of impressionable/easily influenced younger people as well as certain older people themselves get misdirected by the misinformation or ill-intention of those who believe they know all that there is to know about life, people and occurrence.

I’m about to turn 45 years old and have never based knowledge solely on age because I always knew better, especially with having ESP (extrasensory perception). Just like I wrote in this post a while ago (https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2018/12/20/spiritual-growth-and-wisdominspiration-for-the-youth/) here is an excerpt:

One can be young and very wise and one can be old and very foolish, especially when they refuse to accept that it is not always the age of a person that serves as the determining factor.

It is about what we’ve been through, the experiences we may have encountered, the inherent skills that could have been imparted to us by birth that bring to us our own set of knowledge and wisdom and that can come at any age for some.

Our lives are a journey of various and numerous roads through pathways of travel and we never stop learning as there is always more to uncover and discover.

There are a lot of moronic and narrow-minded older people and younger people out within the world, and there are a lot of logical and open-minded older and younger people out within the world.

To me, it’s refreshing and an expansion to learn and experience things one may have never heard of, not been used to, or that is an awakening to if the development is of an interest or connection to one.

 

Intangible Peace

Luck and fortunate circumstance have never been a stranger within my life when it came to particular occurrences.

I’ve constantly been having a lot of great luck; the universe is very consistent. My family and I are blessed.

The positive energy within and around my family and I that exudes out into the atmosphere generates a magnetism to continuously reflect back accordingly.

My beloved and respected Ancestors and Orishas guard with a fierce peace, power, and protection each and every day.

In the past, we’ve had to go through so much in life due to the many unsavory and demonic people who unfortunately inhabit the earth without them being able to conquer our spirits, or the essence that shines over us.

However, when we are good/spiritual people a huge percent of us have to battle with the lost souls and principalities of the world, and beyond.

The most important element of the situation is that we successfully made it through as those of us with strong faith and foresight knew we inevitably would.

We did not fret when certain events infuriated us and brought out the inner vigilante derived from our strength.

We knew the day would come when the universe would snag the unscrupulous up into the clutches of its supernatural jaws to display for our warranted observation.

We are often allowed the privilege to satisfactorily witness the retributions of spiritual vindication granted by the powers that be.

 

Cozy Night At Home Enjoying A Classic

We have such a peaceful home and a nice, quiet life.

Last night at 8pm my mother and I watched the 1976 Stephen King classic thriller “Carrie” on Showtime.

We hadn’t seen the film in a while (even though we’ve seen it numerous times in the distant past through out the years) and we both reflected on the movie and agreed that it was such a great film. They just don’t make genuine quality horror films like that anymore.

Race With The Devil” was another great 1975 classic horror movie and one that was underrated, it is also an all time favorite of mine.

My mother and I were always fierce hanging partners. When I was a little girl she use to take me to the movie theater to see just about everything I wanted to see. We have a great relationship and still enjoy our entertainment together.

Months back on HBO we watched the last installment of Halloween (2018) with Jamie Lee Curtis who had made her return. It was a very good horror flick, not corny at all!

Medical/Surgical Masks

I made an early start out yesterday and couldn’t wait to get back home to rid myself of the mask that I had on.

Those surgical masks are annoying to constantly wear all day; they draw up heat and they are difficult to breath within.

However, we should still wear them outdoors as a precautionary measure.

 

Verizon Prepaid Wireless

Verizon Prepaid Wireless You’re The Best

When the cell phone first arrived on the market, I had always gone with the Verizon prepaid phones. I never wanted to be bound to any contract or any other hassles or whatever else that went along with the premium services in general.

I have to give a huge shout out to Verizon prepaid wireless. For the second month in a row they have offered to me another 15GB of extra free data at no charge.

I received a text message yesterday as I was on my way to actually buy a refill card to update my monthly phone plan since the local wireless store in my area has been temporarily closed down.

I have been a loyal customer of Verizon prepaid and from what I have experienced all throughout the years (nine-teen years to be exact) they have been exceptionally good to me.

They also take very good care of their customers in times of emergency. I remember during the California wildfires they gave out free data to help people out and here they are again helping out in the midst of this pandemic.

It is the thought that counts and it is such a wonderful gesture, and after all, Verizon can afford to give back on behalf of their customers.

I just wanted to commend Verizon prepaid on their continuous generosity and service to us customers who have maintained a pleasant relationship with them.

Verizon prepaid-again, you’re the best!

 

An Indulgence

I had a lovely hot shower earlier today. The water felt so good beating down on my head as I washed my hair within the process.

A shower is very therapeutic and relaxing and I always sleep even better after taking one.

Once I got dressed and ready, I went out to run a few errands. The weather was kind of nice but I still dress warm for the meanwhile. It’s not the time yet to go without a jacket or a sweater; this weather is not dependable.

When I returned back home, I snacked on some chips and granola bars. Yesterday I made two delicious non dairy milkshakes, I love my milkshakes!

I usually prepare my shakes with soymilk. I love particular ice creams that are also made with soy milk, almond, or cashew milk.

Cashews are great, I love everything cashew-cashew milk, cashew ice cream, and cashew nuts!

Cashews are even high in protein and very nutritious as most nuts tend to be. It is nice to consume things that taste good and that are good for the body. I’ve been eating cashews for years; I just don’t eat them too frequently, they are quite expensive.

Vanilla and french vanilla naturally flavored non dairy ice cream blends wonderfully with cashew, almond and, of course, vanilla soy milk.

I’m in paradise when I drink those thick rich shakes!

 

Corona Conspiracy Theory? Just A Thought That Ran Across My Mind

On the news they’ve mentioned Donald Trump and his crew not wearing any masks during this pandemic. The excuse I heard was that they all were supposed to have been tested for Corona Virus and all of them tested negative.

So, in other words, they don’t feel the need to wear masks as they’ve directed, and have been directed to do, just like everyone else has been advised to do.

I heard today, vice president Pence was caught not wearing a mask and his excuse was the same as Trump’s and their crew-because he also tested negative.

It seems to me that even though Corona Virus is said to have possibly developed from infected animals in China (according to the news/media) these politicians (Trump/Pence and others who are involved) give me the impression that the disease was especially planned out and put into operation and they all may have been injected or protected with something in which makes them all immune from catching the Corona Virus.

I’m not saying that I am absolutely right, However, it is a genuine thought that has crossed my mind.

Nevertheless, the universe is in control and as I’ve said before this circumstance of Corona Virus will all eventually come to pass. This is going on for a reason, better changes are in fruition and celestial revelations are manifested to those who are inclined.

We in particular receive the messages through our inner voice of spirit.

 

Corona Phobic: Hygienic Due To The Pandemic

Excerpt from: No One Can Ever Take Away The Beauty Of Mind And Spirit

People have also told me that I speak about a lot of things that many people think and feel, and want to say but don’t. And that I write with power and passion.

I do not usually get inspiration from other sources as mainly what I write about comes from deep within and what I’ve noticed about myself and other gifted people or people of intellectual distinction who have been in my circle at one time or another is that we often know and come up with insight and solutions far before it even hits or is even accepted by mainstream society.

For instance, certain quotes that are motivational are words that we were already aware of, experiencing and living by. Spiritual, mental and physical findings that have been discovered through research we had already been conscious of and living in accordance to years ago before it had become commercial or more well known among a large group of individuals, and so on.

Even particular clothes we were wearing before they became one of the most popular name brand items.

The thing about it is that when those who are not on the level and are only able to perceive from within the boundaries of their own limited outlook when they first hear the variety of wisdom, information and solutions as it comes from us they are quick to judge or call us crazy because we are so ahead of them within our keen sense of knowledge and comprehension yet when they as slow learners finally do get the messages they then develop and acquire a philosophy or mode of life and further understanding that results in possible expansions for those who choose and are able to grow. Read more here


I remember when I could walk into any store that sold household cleaning products and easily find bleach or Lysol without a problem-forget about rubbing alcohol!

Now these necessities are scarce to come into contact with at the same time revealing a tell-tale sign of many people’s behavioral habits and hygienic practices far prior.

Before all of this Corona Virus scare that has petrified the masses I was already living and doing what is being instructed to do in regard to social distancing, “germaphobia”, and even further.

When I’d get on the bus I rarely sat in the seats and I hated when passengers would come too close or rub up against my clothing. I’d never touch outside or even indoor things without a paper towel or other material to push elevator buttons, turn doorknobs, hold onto transportation poles (buses and trains).

At certain jobs I’d wear gloves and put my jackets in a clean plastic bag instead of laying them down or hanging them up around other people’s belongings.

I wouldn’t sit down on other people’s furniture unless I placed something under my derriere (plastic bag, towel, disposable chuck).

I cleaned my cell phone with alcohol or disinfectant wipes every day before I went out and never held the phone against my ears. When I used phones that were located within establishments, I’d wrap tissue or paper towel around the receiver to protect my ears.

I even cleaned dollars bills once in a while years ago. I never put any money bare into my pockets as money is the filthiest thing to carry around. I always wrap money in protective material. I’d sometimes just wear gloves too for use with money and handling outside activities.

I never let anyone kiss or hug me; I never eat after anybody and so on, and I was doing all of these things since I was a teenager!

Certain people would laugh at me and call me ridiculous, especially because of the way I constantly washed my hands sometimes.

Now many average people have adopted this way of life and I laugh in general because they’re doing it all primarily out of fear while I did and still do it out of instinct, even if it may seem extreme. I’m sure there were others out there in the world just like me already doing our natural precautious habits regardless of how others may have reacted toward us.

It’s funny when those of us that are ahead of our time mind-wise and/or spiritually get ridiculed until it comes out just how on point, we actually we’re from the beginning with seeing, knowing, and understanding what others couldn’t decipher.

It is deep how some people have to be driven to extreme fear before waking up and realizing particular things.

Many didn’t even know what bleach was before Corona Virus reared its lethal head. Those of us who used bleach and other sufficient products on the regular now have to hunt these items down just to use them normally.

Luckily, I was able to get some bleach at a Walgreen’s, however, rubbing alcohol is still out of reach and I refuse to pay $13.00 to $20.00 for large bottles of unknown brand alcohol at a local beauty supply store. I just bought witch hazel instead to routinely clean my ears and to soothe the body when needed.

I bet when this Corona Virus is all over and forgotten about many will go back to their old nasty, germy ways.

Homework

When I began class a while back there were also online academic tasks assigned to us students for additional study in which I took advantage of and enjoyed. Now that school was temporarily cancelled due to the circumstances befalling the world right now (Corona Virus) the available online courses are primary.

I find it a very serviceable resource to be able to utilize my studies within the comforts of home for limitless periods of time any day of the week just as long as the educational instrument is being implemented.

My teacher had phoned me and other classmates last month notifying us of a possible further online study program, I haven’t heard anything from her since. I ran into a girl who attends my class a week ago and she asked me if I know when school is going to start back up because she misses the class. We did have a wonderful environmental setting, good teacher, and sufficient preparation.

I told her that originally the teacher had informed to me back in March that we may resume about the third week of April, however, apparently after listening to governor Cuomo address that New York will not be opening up currently or any time soon, I logically assume that our attending school will be put on hold a little while longer until health risks are at a significant or absolute low.

In the meantime, I have no worries or complaints and treasure this period as a sign that has demonstrated to me luck and a transition into supplementary better things to come as one “spiritually connected/in tune”.

 

 

Usual Errands

This past Tuesday, one of my local supermarkets that was temporary closed for about two weeks due to Corona Virus reopened.

As I was aware a week ahead of time, I planned to be at the store early before 8am.

Everyone seemed to have had the same idea as when I arrived to the market by 7:50 am there was already a long line of people/customers that extended all the way around the corner and down the block.

A Hispanic lady who was last on line said to me when I stood behind her, “I said let me get here early so I’d be one of the first to get inside the store”.

We both laughed after her words.

I had told her I expected to be one of the first to get into the store also.

Apparently, everyone who got to the store extra early that had to wait had thought so too!

The doors of the supermarket opened at 8am I and the lady in front of me along with certain others didn’t enter the store until an hour and a half later and it was cold outside as we all had stood impatiently. Thank goodness it hadn’t rained down on us as the weather was predicted for rain on that particular day.

I feel sorry for the people who had arrived much earlier than a half an hour to ten minutes to eight. Imagine the line of people/customers who came after me and built up an even longer line to extend further down the block.

I made good with some groceries that I wanted and needed, yet wasn’t able to purchase everything that I had set in mind to get. The store was out of certain items and some items the store just didn’t carry all together. The manager acknowledged to me that they’d be getting a delivery either that following Thursday or Friday.

So afterwards, I called a cab and took my groceries home before heading on over to my other local supermarket (Stop &Shop) to conclude with my shopping desires as they had products in which the other market lacked.

By then the rain had come down, however, I didn’t get caught up in it. The precipitation had begun to slack off by the time I finished and went by the curb of the parking lot to wait for another cab to take me home from there.

The rest of my day had gone lovely and the next night I made a delicious, filling dinner similar to the yummy one I made last week! Read about it here: Ah, Delicious!

 

 

 

 

Fortunate Occurrences

 

I don’t stay home for the sake of staying home I go out and do what I have, need, and want to do when the time calls for it.

Though, when spirit speaks within the beauty of love, respect, and protection with the further generosity of vital welfare, I absolutely respond with the ultimate gratitude.


 

I’ve worked in retail for fourteen years and I’ve professionally worked in health care for six and a half years.

I always keep more than one job.

At the beginning of the year, when I changed my work schedule at one of my jobs to fit in with my academic course everything worked out just fine.

Then, almost a month afterward, one of my managers in the health care field asked me if I would change shifts with another employee who decided that she wanted to go back to school to enroll in some courses.

I told her no because I was in school too and wasn’t going to interfere with or jeopardize my plans to advance myself further in what I may consider to do within life. Where the hell did, she have the nerve to think I would sacrifice my studies for some other employee, and after I already had made a schedule change with her (the manager) myself to conveniently attend school on certain days.

“Oh, I didn’t know if you were still continuing with that”, she had said to me.

I had never given her any details about my course as it was none of her business yet I didn’t appreciate her calling me asking me to change my schedule as if the other person was more important than me so I quit right there on the spot over the phone and left her hanging just like that. Don’t fuck with me!

I still had another job that I could go to while I attended school. In between time, I still looked for another job as back up.

When I found one and was about to take orientation the Corona Virus shit broke out. Everything was coming to a halt, even school temporarily shut down.

Even as some jobs had put a hold on hiring, I managed to get employed at not one but with two other companies who were still in the midst of employing individuals since I was considered an “essential employee” within the health care field.

On one of the new jobs I needed an up to date physical so in March I went for my yearly physical but the doctor didn’t want to clear me for work because of the paranoia over the Corona Virus shit. She told me to stay at home.

I was pissed off because I like to make my money; so, I went home and emailed her a nasty little note telling her that I wasn’t worried about catching no Corona Virus and I asked her if she were going to pay my bills?

Then, the second new job came through where I didn’t need any medical clearance, yet a few days before work the schedule was cancelled temporarily until this Corona Virus shit dies down.

All together now I have three jobs that I haven’t been able to go to. Yet I have been blessed with means to survive without having to worry about anything. So, I had to sit back and take notice at what was staring me right in the face.

No matter how hard I tried to go out there to continue to work the universe was telling me no, not at this time of pandemic crisis and at the same time I wasn’t left hanging within any financial woes.

The powers that be didn’t want me or my family caught up in that shit going on out there.

“Spirit” literally isn’t any joke. When we genuinely and wholeheartedly walk in spirit the essence protects us and sees us through. We are carried thoroughly, supplied with our needs and wants until we are able to again carry ourselves once the coast is clear.

 

 

 

Energy And Vibration

 

A transcendental occurrence is momentously taking place.

The universe is doing a fantastic/magnificent job filtering out the atmospheric energy of extramundane impurities.

A transformation for the better is definitely in motion regardless of those who are not able to see, or recognize this specific metamorphosis.


My Connection To The Spirit World Is A Part Of My Very Nature. It Is Innate.

The purity within spirit is a beautiful anointment to be enveloped within. The love, the respect, the communication-it is immeasurable and irreplaceable.

The loyalty and dedication are not a strenuous effort or chore on either part of connection the mutual essence is an intrinsic fulfillment. Everything is all built in and deep-rooted. An inherent bestowal of lineage and veneration through preordained circumstances.

The magnetic energy that exudes is wonderful, and so far from anything demonic, which is extremely repulsive and automatically forsaken. As darkness is nowhere near as powerful as the light, any demonic vibration is unable to intensely stand up to the challenge of what ultimately surrounds me.

I adore how the more I fiercely repel evil and negativity the more goodness and positivity takes over.

I never accept or entertain the ill-will or ill-intent sent by others-that negative energy, whether through black magic/voodoo/witchcraft/, or simply just disagreeable/hostile attitudes, is undesirable and intolerable to spirit.

 

 

 

 

Intuitive Faculties

Born With Second-Sight And A Connection To The Spirit World

In regard to the authentic, distinct, and rare born of the caul/veil: 

For all of my life I’ve “known things” without anyone having to tell me. It is a gift that many have never deciphered except those who are aware of these special talents among the particular. 

Certain individuals just don’t understand how I and others who are gifted with the abilities of second-sight are able to see into the past, present, and future through instant visions and cognizance. 

They know that we are legitimate they merely don’t assimilate how our faculty works. 

When people lie to us or try to hide things from us, we still know the truth. We more than likely know what they will say or do, and the outcome of things before they even know themselves. 

Individuals often get angry at us for knowing what they want concealed. 

We in particular have these gifts because we are special. We are children of the light who have inherited the power through the lineage of our great ancestors. We are one with nature, extended forces of the universe-descendants from the other realm/worldly. 

The instance is heavy and we ourselves are deep individual beings with grave purpose. 

As certain others are very unfamiliar with our valid insight, knowledge, perception, consciousness and realizations in which they may not be apt to grasp or destined to identify with, we often become the object of attack and condemnation among those who are “celestially uninformed”. 

Nevertheless, our status is well-known within the spirit world, therefore, we have the ultimate protection, guidance, and direction. We don’t need or depend on the acceptance or approval of the blind, their attitude/frame of mind is of no significance to the highly spiritually developed. Neither are their actions of any bearing. 

I’m proud to not be ordinary!  It is a genuine compliment to be called crazy or weird by the ignorant or lower class if said by any of them.

We are an inspiration to the intelligent and to the awoke, or  to those who are on the same “wavelength”.  Even so, we are able to stand alone-not cheered or regarded by anyone. Our mere existence hold’s its own, we are self-secure/self validated!

 

 

 

 

“Masking” The Truth

 

So Stimulating!

The IRS came through promptly on April 15.

The money comes in handy for those going through the lack and loss of work until unemployment funds are available to the eligible, even though the amount may not be equivalent to the needs of some people, it’s better than nothing for the meantime.

People should aspire to spend their money wisely, however, there are always those who just want to use the funds irresponsibly.

 


I had to spend ten dollars today on ten masks that were a dollar each. Before this pandemic, and before panicky assholes went on a frenzy and bought out mostly all essential products unnecessarily, one was able to buy ten masks for a dollar.

The only reason I bought the masks are because after today they become mandatory to wear. A bus driver mentioned that without a mask starting tomorrow no one would be allowed to ride the bus.

I understand the precaution to a certain point, but much of this shit appears to me like control by the government and I don’t like it. No one takes away my freedom! The freedom to go where I want when I want; the freedom to not wear what I don’t want to wear and etc…. The only way to get a lot of individuals to obey is to manipulate by threats.

If we’re not easily persuaded then they’re ready to take away our constitutional rights and they try to do it within a way that seems crucial and within the best interest of everyone when in reality there are other ulterior motives truly involved.

 

 

 

 

The “Knowing” Power

The spiritual life is the best life, the only life I know.

Advantages Of The Caul

Someone asked me when I was in my early twenties what it felt like to have been born with a caul.

What was there to explain, really? It felt like me.

100% pure celestial energy; my natural intangible, ethereal propensity.

What came as ordinary to me was out of the ordinary to certain others.

I believe that oftentimes those us who are genuinely endowed with preternatural capacity are greatly underestimated and misunderstood, and many do not realize just how intuitive and “in touch”/in tune with the universe we actually are. Our extra sensory faculties go beyond the scope of particular reasoning.

As many are unaware of just how deeply we can see, hear, and feel into them, their lives, or within the world some take more of a notice of the circumstances in which happen around us ourselves.

They recognize our special blessings; the luck we may have-how things go well for us in ways that don’t normally work out for them, or within the odds; the basis of our unfathomable spans of preservation and unwavering elevation.

They witness these things about us; however, they do not understand why or how we are unaffected and maintained within these fashions.

The special knowledge and “knowing power” that we weren’t taught, but endowed with, allows us to be cognizant/conscious of these facts through the energy that we uncannily pick up from the vibration that exudes toward us.

We may feel the negativity whether heavy or light due to the conscious or unconscious focus displayed upon our certain advantages by others who are not so delighted by the instance.


The earliest I remember first experiencing my power it was at the age of three, and I still remember the incident to this very day.

I never shared the story with anyone other than my mother as I had told her right after it happened. In fact, she was a part of the vision I had saw just before it had taken place within our home moments afterward. As a child, I was just taking it all in having just witnessed an event in my mind’s eye to see it all unfold exactly the way it played out.

It was a natural feeling, and one that made me keep staring at my mother in wonderment when I recalled it to her.

For those in particular, our gifts are rare and they keep us ahead, and when we’re of the light we continuously receive the revelations (the hidden knowledge).

 

Extremely wise and spiritually connected:

A real person born with a caul doesn’t have to go look for answers from others. The truth lies within self through one’s own special set of circumstances and experience. Spirit speaks in distinction, a uniqueness that cannot be duplicated.

 

Stimulus Payment

 

This nigger/guy approached me yesterday afternoon on the bus. He asked me if I knew a girl named “Tammy”. 

I said “No”. 

Then he told me that I looked familiar and asked me if I was from around the neighborhood that we were in. 

I told him “Yes”. 

He muttered the word “Damn”, afterwards. Then he asked me if I smoked weed and I told him “No, never”. 

He said and asked in return “No, nothing?” 

“No”, I had said again. 

He then repeated to me, “You look familiar”, and he again muttered, “damn”. 

The nigger got off the bus at the next following stop and went about his way. 

He must of thought I looked so familiar to him since my lips were a little bit ashy yesterday-comical in a nonsense sort of way to me.

 


This week I should receive my $1,200 stimulus fund because I filed my taxes back in February and had already gotten my income tax/tax return. Some have already received their money this past Friday. My school courses that I had been taking was put on hold since March (fortunately I’m able to use this convenient time for continuous study at home), and work has been slow all due to Corona virus, though otherwise, everything is still going pleasant and I’m comfortable in this period of living in “The Twilight Zone”. I have my health, my humor; my intelligence and peace of mind, my love, my family and my spirituality. 

Nevertheless,  we all need and want our well-deserved money!

 

Undisturbed

 

Certain people are running to their god of the bible out of distress and they are in need of mental and emotional support. If they were solid in the first place, they wouldn’t be so tormented.

Those of us in particular aren’t disturbed at all. We have no reason to be.

The universe is cleaning up and many who are in a state of distinct spiritual “unconsciousness/unaware” have reactions that are typical for them right now-full of fear, panic, and worry. Those who need to die don’t want to perish and are making it bad for others who aren’t blowing this shit all out of proportion.

It’s funny watching the no good suffer, though.

Too bad the Corona virus doesn’t just strictly kill up all the large masses of people who are a waste of life, trouble, or who shouldn’t be here on the earth to begin with.

 

The Depth Of Ignorance

 

I awoke this morning to the adorable sounds of birds chirping outside my window. They always sound so cute! Their chirruping lasted for a good hour.

I also awoke to a headache that intensified two days ago; the results of adversaries working against me through black magic-when will they learn or accept that their efforts are in vain?

It doesn’t ever matter what is going on within the world they are still preoccupied with trying to overcome me. When 9/11 hit they didn’t stop, and now with this corona virus they are still at it. World events do not distract or deter them from their envies and resentment being put into action.

They are trying to communicate with me through dreams in an attempt to manipulate me into their false perception of what should be.

I have an extremely strong spirit and strong mind; I do not and have never thought the way average, or below average people do. No one can steer my mind from the truth or of my definite nature, it is impossible; yet, reason does not register with sick people.

My adversaries know who to mess with and who not to so they are just acting stupid right now. My conquering of them was, and still is, too much for them to handle. The idiocy they showed was too much for them to bear. Nevertheless, their nonsense attempts at trying to undermine the facts of their defeat is a total waste of time.

Nice Spring Day

 

I was supposed to work this weekend, but there was a change of plans (the universe protecting me), so I went out earlier today to pay my cable bill (by mail) and to do some grocery shopping.

I do what I have to essentially and healthily do as usual, and then I go on back home to relax.

The weather was completely gorgeous!

 

 

 

Keep The Faith And The Faith Will Keep You

 

This social distancing isn’t really any sort of inconvenience for me considering the fact that I was already living within those similar circumstances as far as keeping to myself and being precautionarily hygienic.

This Corona virus shit doesn’t scare me one bit; it doesn’t at all stop me from wanting to go out to work or to take care of my business. At the same time, I would never want to pose any possible risk toward any of my loved ones, yet I’m just not personally nervous or fearful about this current global situation. It has no impact on what’s going on in my life.

Everything is still normal for me at this worldly time of challenge. As a spiritual person I am here within physical form, of course, but not of or affected by any of it.

This is going on; the situation is here, it’s happening for a reason; it is tragic for some, it is a spiritual message and epiphany for some, and it is also a moment of hold up for some.

No matter whatever is gained or loss from this it will all surely come to pass in due time. Meanwhile, I continue to keep aware, and I continue to keep naturally pushing on.

Corona Virus

 

It’s sad that it took this Covid-19 virus to wake people up about being clean and thoroughly hygienic amongst themselves as well as in social settings.

Buses and trains should have already been getting disinfected on a regular basis.

I had practiced handwashing and cautious social contact within my natural daily living all throughout my early childhood on up. When I worked in retail, I use to wear gloves as a rule and as a method of common sense.

Ignorant people use to laugh at me for my so called “germophobic” ways; smart people use to praise me. Now many are trying to adapt to a mode of hygienic precaution.

Eventually this will all come to pass just like everything else in life. The universe speaks within so many ways and particular occurrences happen for a reason. I haven’t been worried at all about this Covid-19. It is a sign of the times and an unfortunate effect of the intangible impacts on nature. More people need to wake up in general.

While I do understand the gravity of this pandemic situation people have blown things way out of proportion.

There is no excuse for the manner in which people have panicked and bought out all of the toilet paper, paper towels, alcohol, and other specific items. The supermarket shelves are ridiculously abandoned of certain foods as well.

I remember how ignorant people were during and at the end of the year 1999, buying up all of the bottled water, and etc… If the world were to had come to an end at the beginning of 2000, I’m pretty sure buying out everything from the stores would have just been a complete waste of time.

 

We’re Not Family!

“Tina has been a puppet for years by fellow trash who have used her as a flunky. She has wrote, and some of them I’m sure, are pretending to be her in an effort of continued nonsense.

The world of junkies, crackheads and the like is such a torturing dark place for them yet it takes such a long time for them to die.”

You have a lot to learn about how DNA actually works, however, I’m not in the mood to educate you right now by getting into all of the details but I’ll give you an example.

There can be children from the same mother and father, and one or more of the children can have constituents that the other children don’t have, not even from one of the parents.

We can skip generations too, and so on.

Unfortunately, some of us can’t help who we’re related to but luckily some of us are born with our own distinct traits and character.

Just like I am nothing at all like my father or his side of the family. I didn’t take after any of them at all (thank goodness). You kind of people seem to think that if one has one or two trash relatives then that makes us one in the same which is ridiculous.

We come from a very good and strong family it’s just that Amanda was fucked up and Tina and Junie inherited her trash genes.

For me as a person of substance there is absolutely no attraction to trash. There never was and there never will be.

People like us don’t mix. It’s not healthy or kosher for substance to interact with trash.

I never liked trashy low-scale people-even though most of your types don’t see yourselves as so or don’t want to accept the fact of what you are-I have a whole entirely different mentality and will only deal with those who are on my advanced level.

You people are ignorant, sick, and undesireable. And, you often believe within your own lies and misconceptions.

Yes, it is a brand new year. Too bad in this new year people like you still have to exist. I don’t understand why your kind can’t understand when people don’t like you and don’t want to be bothered with you.

You people are nothing to me. I have absolutely no respect for you, I never did and I never will. You all are the dumbest people I’ve ever come across.

Life is always so much better without you people around. You all need to rot in hell together.

 

 

Tina

Love? That is so funny. You don’t know the definition of love! I don’t want anything from you. I don’t want your affection or your money, or anything else from you.

If you loved yourself you would have never done the specific things you’ve done and lived life the specific way you’ve lived.

Remember when you told me you wanted to give me funds from your pension when you die? Well, you can shove it up your ass.

You can’t buy me!

I don’t need your itty bitty shit I was born to have my own and I have been doing pretty darn well- I even do my own taxes! I have been handling my own jobs, career, and money for years now. The universe is not going to let anything happen to me.

Oh what a pathetic bitch you are, Tina, you along with others who were foolish enough to fuck with me in the first place.

Beg all you want bitch! I don’t give a fuck about you.

I’m an inevitable success story.

No matter how hard you and other undesirables tried you could not break my spirit or inhibit my drive and purpose. I prevailed, I always have, and I always will, you were all just far too dumb to see it and realize that you weren’t hurting anyone but yourselves.

You can keep making an ass out of yourself if you want, just like you have done for the majority of your life, because I have absolutely no regard for you.

The sad thing about everything is instead of being proud of having a niece of my caliber and character you were filthy jealous and destructive, especially as you admitted to me and my mother how the majority of the other neighborhood folks and youngsters were a bunch of nothings, yet you joined in with many of them (Did they know that while you were out gossiping and making up lies about my mother and I that you were coming back talking about some of them to us when you were at your lowest point? I don’t think so! They’re so stupid just like you.)

How sick can you be? I shouldn’t have asked that question because you broke the mold when it came to being twisted.

I’m happy, I have peace, I am blessed, and I have success. I also have a host of good and powerful blood related ancestors from your mother’s side of the family who’ve watched over me since my birth.

You don’t even know the beauty of our family and their history. You were too busy running the streets.

Did you know your mother had seven or eight brothers and sisters in actuality? Do you know how much family we have down south and spread about? We’ve known and met family that you don’t even know about.

I’m your only true connection to your mother also. You’ll never know what’s going on with her in the spirit world because I’d never share those revelations with you.

I’ll tell you this though, she (Catherine) is alright, so far she has been in a content sphere for a long time now.

Amanda and Junie, however, went straight to the depths leading to hell where they most definitely belong and where they suffer.

 

 

Ernestine Lawrence

Down below are links and messages from my mother’s sister, Tina, sent to me on Facebook.

This is for you, Tina, although you probably wouldn’t comprehend as logic and reasoning doesn’t register with you. And, since your HIV/Aids has probably gone to your head by now.

Since I was a child you were very jealous of me because I was very intellectually advanced and highly educational that is why you went around saying I had no education when it was actually you who had no knowledge.

You always had that low level trash mentality.

You have no high school diploma and did not graduate from high school that is why you went into the National Guards because you didn’t know anything and you wouldn’t have gotten into there if my mother hadn’t helped you out and told you what to do but you couldn’t even excel within that.

If it wasn’t for my mother Annette Theodora Cromwell wouldn’t even have gotten into college.

Now I don’t knock anyone who didn’t finish school the traditional way because I understand distinction within individuals everyone has their own way and their own calling or set of circumstances.

However, you really focused on making me out to appear like a stupid person when you didn’t even finish school yourself.

Did you know I actually skipped a grade when I was twelve? And when I was ten I passed tests that high school kids couldn’t pass. At eight years old I got an award for being one of the best readers within my entire school.

When I became an adult I got accepted into a college but I never cared about any of that shit because I wasn’t an insecure person like you.

When you were at those young ages all you achieved and was well known for was being on drugs and being a skank.

I at such a young age was gifted and passed all of my tests, received awards, and certificates in school so you and Amanda tried to interfere because I was nowhere near a dummy like you and Amanda.

You both knew I was headed for accomplishments that you both weren’t capable of gaining.

You wasted your time because I never relied on the approval of others or cared what anyone thought I’m proud of everything about myself and I have no regrets.

I was born with a caul you dumb bitch I have second-sight, I mean really, what the fuck did you think you could do? I was ahead of you. I laugh at you.

I knew just about everything you did through dreams, visions, and intuition.

You did the same to my mother because she was bright and multi-talented.

You said my mother never worked a day in her life because you couldn’t get the jobs that she could. You and Amanda were fools that people could use and abuse. Then you two were absurd enough to think that you could destroy me and my mother’s lives with voodoo/witchcraft/black magic and lies.

You conspired to give my mother a nervous breakdown and make her out to be lower than what you actually were out of pure envy, jealousy, and your own true state of mental illness.

It’s all in the past now but you still won’t leave us alone. We don’t care anything about you, we never did, and never will.

Nobody is hurt by you, you are nothing to be distressed by, you never had the power to destroy us, we just don’t like you at all.

You are an undesirable person who has done far too much dirt why would anybody of any class, intelligence, and substance want to be bothered with you.

Why don’t you go call and bother your own kind of fellow degenerates who share within the delusions of their own mentalities.

You are a pathetic piece of trash.

Go call up George Owens/Taalib Muhammad, Joanne Anderson Franks, Doritta Almodovar, Renee Blackwell, her sister Teresa Blackwell, Jeff Jemmott, Olivia Oliver and her kids and grand kids that you all talked about like a dog (remember when cookie and her kids gave you a concussion and put you in the hospital?), Spotface Pat Bush and your dyke crew, Diane Mims, Sonia, Lorraine Burwell- the bitch with the broken legs and her sister Judy Clarke, the nigger you stabbed with the knife who took a shit in your toilet before you called the cops on him, Annette Theodora Cromwell-the bitch who fucked some nigger down on Hollis at the tire shop, and all of the other sick and twisted fucks you use to run to and with.

You have no one. They don’t give a fuck about you, you stupid bitch. And look at all of the stupid unnecessary shit that you did to us for years. With your broke ass.

Go call up Amanda. Or better yet, why don’t you go join her in the grave.

Bitch, maybe you should give me a call so I could blow your mind with all of the shit that I know for someone who doesn’t have an education. I’ll teach you some life-long lesson facts.

 

Ernestine Lawrence

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Those Who May Underestimate Us Truly Resilient People

 

I took a snapshot from the newspaper a few days ago from my zodiac sign ♉ because the scenario ranged true within many instances.

This is a very true statement in general!

Ignorant people tend to judge and place an exaggerated emphasis on appearance or mannerism when it comes to the assessment of an individual’s character or temperament.

Just because one is courteous, nice, or kind, and has an innocent looking face and seemingly mild disposition does not at all indicate that they are weak and naive or passive and gullible, or docile and malleable.

Some even judge and calculate assessments merely by observing an individual’s physical size, with assumptions as to how big or small they are. If one is big, then automatically they are not to be messed with, if one is small, then they are more vulnerable or easily intimidated.

All of this stereotypical nonsense derived from those of an insufficient mindset and limited scope of knowledge, view, and experience within level, intelligence, and individuality.

Some of these aspects may be true in a percentage of people due to their own personal emotional or physical demeanors and insecurities, however, it definitely does not set the standard for all and everyone.

I myself for instance, am a soft spoken, and extremely sensible, and strong willed person, who on the exterior is far from rough looking yet on the inside is as tough and durable as they come.

I know a lot of nice and good people who others have mistaken their kindness for weakness and have tried to take advantage of them or categorized them as one’s to get over on then learned different.

I know a lot who underestimate the mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual capacity of others and then learn different.

I was never one to base logic and reasoning on superficial bullshit!

Strength, depth, dignity, confidence, knowledge and intelligence all stems and develops from within and cannot be measured by what one believes to perceive from looking on the outside.

Still in all, some don’t accept this fact of truth, and indeed have to eventually “learn the hard way!”

 

Free

I’m glad I’m not of some narcissistic energy that constantly needs to be praised and acknowledged and who threatens those to damnation for not agreeing and adhering to  circumstances that I don’t relate to, that don’t apply to me, and that don’t have anything to do with my sensible way, thought process, spiritual rotation, and so on.

I fortunately have the essence of “good light” and “energy” around me that allows and that inspires truth, love, peace, happiness, wisdom, knowledge, blessings, strength, confidence, talent, protection and the self individuality within my own authentic disposition as I am one within the essence.

It feels so good to be free. I never let anything rule me. I live a nice quiet life, I eat healthy and take care of myself, I have great spirituality, and I am blessed with great peace of mind.

I have always lived this way and I have no deep past regrets within my life.

I guess what I’m pleasantly guilty of is being extremely stubborn and set in my natural unconventional fashions.

The only thing I regret is being born into this physical realm, I deserve to be in a much better place than this twisted world, this forbidden place is beneath me.

When I was a kid I knew I didn’t belong here.

As one born with a caul I always knew things and felt things, even truths that may be considered controversial, nevertheless I didn’t care because hidden knowledge wasn’t a revelation for everyone or just anyone to know and to grasp.

I often wondered and couldn’t understand why trash we’re created and given life the instance never made any sense to me.

As a child I didn’t at all like or connect with those kinds of people within any way, I’d constantly get negative and intuitive feelings about them that would always pan out to be right or true, they were always prone to incite trouble, conflict, and disharmony as their nature and mentality was quite undesirable, and insufficient.

Many if not the majority of their type was very disturbed and ignorant in the mind even at a very young age because they are intrisnically born sick.

They also have a look about them, a way and mannerism about them, a vocal sound about them, characteristics that just don’t appeal or that don’t sit well.

There are certain people who will say that regardless they’re still one of God’s children, and that is another thing that never sat too well with me, because if God designed and put them here on the earth the instance is just another of the many numerous circumstances and factors in which goes to show and prove that there is something not at all right about god either.

One of the reasons they exist is because God uses them to carry out unwanted and unwarranted burdens of an unnatural essence upon the unconventional.

I’m not specifically referring to black magic/voodoo/witchcraft when I mention “unnatural” I am speaking in all terms of what goes against one’s own nature, propensity, or state of being just to please and appease an individual or entity who seems within a position to reign, or who wants to control.

Trash are weak-minded, easily influenced people, susceptible to be brainwashed, and who are ready and willing to accept what they perceive as a general higher authority in relation to God and/or to societal government without raising question or opposition.

They are on a certain mental level for a reason.

A low level where they are unable to come up from to decipher and to analyze from a genuinely higher intellectual or spiritual consciousness.

People who are “nothing” inspire to bring down people who are “something” with views, opinions, jealousies, and a lack of knowledge incorporated into their own limited outlooks, and limited scope into existence.

They are average low-life individuals who envy and oppose the free will and knowledge of distinctive individuals who are above them.

They in turn use their god to justify what they consider immoral or wrong in a distorted version to their own deception and misconception into the origin of who they innately are.

Others who are firm and concrete within the genuine validity of where they’re originally derived from cannot, and will not, be swayed by any means of detract, whether the intent is to minimize or to diminish the effectiveness, value or importance of someone, or to divert one altogether.

God will go to great lengths to use those who were born trash, and will turn others into trash just to get to them, or someone close to them, to manipulate and weaken them into incorporating his commands by psychological or spiritual harassment.

This technique has never worked on me as I am too strong within who I am and what I’m genuinely in correlation to within my own innate means.

No one could ever stop me from being the person who I am or from doing whatever it was that I wanted to do.

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Caul Destiny That Won’t Be Denied

Things are going my way. The universe harkens unto my voice. I live in my truth and my way harkens unto the intangible dimensions within my connection to the universe. The destiny that was designed for me, and the destiny I design, are both intertwined, and as they are both within harmony, they will not be denied.

Whereas there are a lot of good people in the world there are also plenty of negative and mediocre people inhabiting the planet and when no good people find out that they cannot use you and abuse you they do whatever it is within their power to refuse you the opportunities in which you are entitled to.

However, is not up to them or entirely in their hands to decide how far we go within life, or within our careers so to speak. It is just we live in a society governed and controlled by some people who are corrupt, and by some who are not on a certain “elevated” level and wavelength, or both.

The power is within the universe to ultimately decide, and the energy is dispelled unto not only those who are spiritually receptive, but to who it is also celestially intended.

As a spiritual person, life has consistently went better for me than the average life has went for others.

I was always meant to be successful and I have succeeded within many fashions and aspects of my life.

There are and have constantly been people, nevertheless, who’ve tried and who still take part in earnestly attempting to hold me back at reaching my highest peaks of deserved financial success.

I’ve worked jobs that I didn’t really want to do, or that I had no genuine interest in just to steadily gain a stable income to allow me to pay my bills, and to maintain the lifestyle that I frequently enjoy.

I was always able to make a good volume of money but they don’t want me to further delight in what they will never be able to have.

There is nothing they can do to stop who I am, what I’m capable of doing or achieving, or the things I was born to accomplish, they have only been able to delay certain events from taking place at a sooner period.

The time they stole and continue to steal, for the time being, until my optimum time finally arrives, is the extra time they’ll spend burning relentlessly within the lower depths of hell once they arrive to their inevitable and eternal destination. They have to suffer here, though, before they go, and a tough lesson beforehand they surely will learn.

I don’t follow the ways of the world because the world has absolutely nothing to do with me, I follow my own individual nature, preferences, and inclinations.

I have always definitely known how to live and to survive in this world, yet I am nothing of this world, and I never will be, and I am very proud of this actual fact.