Eyes Of The Soul: Sweet Reward

Many people hate or have hated god for personal reasons of their own even if they won’t admit to it.

As a true spiritual person who was definitely born with the caul, and the family lineage to back up naturally inherent occult power, I speak from experience.

When I was a young girl, even though I had a lot of advantages, fortunate luck, and blessings, I never felt that God was truly good or any sincere positive energy from him.

I have extremely intense empathic faculties, and I am usually on point. So God is not perfect and good within my definition of what a good and perfect god really is, or should be.

When I went through hard times as a youngster on up I’d often see an extremely shiny twinkle in the sign of a cross appear before me, acknowledging to me “I’m here, I’m with you, everything is going to be alright”.

Everything did turn out alright, however, what was the purpose of going through the nonsense of whatever would be the trial within the first place? All these tribulations did was cause me to resent God even more than I already had.

I was already disgusted in the way he designed certain things within creation. Then, to include me as one of the beings to inhabit a life here on this Earth filled with sick people and morbid principalities in which I have no tolerance or patience for, was a complete insult.

If I could have used my gifts to rid the world that I did not ask to come into from all of the things that turned me off I would have done it immediately. If I was able to have gotten off the Earth and into a special place where what’s going on here wasn’t permitted, and/or where certain people and things didn’t exist, the circumstance would have been even better.

Years ago, when I gave god the benefit of the doubt in regard to my perceptions of him, I was always disappointed by him and my outcomes. When I constantly put myself first is when I noticed I was the happiest and more fulfilled.

If I truly don’t like or don’t want something within my life then it is not going to work out; it has always been this way with me. I have to do it my way. I am too strong and self-willed.

I wholeheartedly love myself, my mind-the way I think, and the way I am.

Having extrasensory perception/second-sight enabled me to experience life within many extraordinary modes that I have learned and discovered quite a lot from.

Later on, when I fully became aware of my ancestors and orishas presence around me things opened up further and brought to me a clearer understanding of who really had my best interest in spirit.

God is often called a god of love, he is nothing but a disgrace to me. If God is supposed to be the true definition of love, perfection, fairness or truth I don’t want any of the perversion around me.

The devil, is often blamed for the negative effects initiated by so called inborn sin and the inequities of the world. Yet, who allows the devil to reign upon the physical/material plane? Why wasn’t he stopped at the beginning?

The devil and god are one and the same to me.

Oh so many answers and hidden truths that have been revealed to me that I’d never openly share or discuss! I just had to speak my mind.

I definitely know what love, fairness, and truth is and no god of perfection would operate within the manner in which he does.

The energy influence of god years ago was suffocating, manipulative, and unnatural.

Spiritually, I breathe free now, unbound by blockage, and I continue to flourish through the natural beauty of my surrounding essence.

 

My Wednesday Words Of Wisdom: Older Is Not Always Wiser

Those who say or believe that wisdom only comes with age are those who have purely aged without true wisdom– Miss Latoya Lawrence.

When I was much younger, I had a lot on the cap and no older person was able to get over on me. Not ever!

An older person can learn things from a younger person and a younger person can learn things from an older person. Just because one is older does not make them wiser than one who is younger and this is a fact that I’ve known through experience.

I use to hate when certain people who were older than me would generalize my particular situations on account of what may have been common within society or within what had happened with or to them and others in regard to their own set of circumstances. They didn’t know what they were talking about within their opinions or point of views and had made a lot of preconceived notions in which had absolutely nothing to do with my actual situation or way of thinking.

Many people reflect their own issues, flaws, insecurities, and/or lack of knowledge in particular areas onto others. Many also don’t want to admit they’re wrong in judging what they misperceive, speculate and really know nothing about or are not too accustomed to when it comes to the diversity of character within individuals.

A lot of youngsters have had this problem with older people. Sometimes it just boils down to many older people not being on the level.  Nevertheless, those who are not on the level is not an age-related element, there are young people, of course, who are just as clueless.

Some older people have a tendency to get angry at younger people who refuse to listen to them even if the younger person is right and they are wrong; the older person through disdain becomes critical.

It’s important for younger people to hold their own when they are correct within their facts and reasonable convictions because a lot of impressionable/easily influenced younger people as well as certain older people themselves get misdirected by the misinformation or ill-intention of those who believe they know all that there is to know about life, people and occurrence.

I’m about to turn 45 years old and have never based knowledge solely on age because I always knew better, especially with having ESP (extrasensory perception). Just like I wrote in this post a while ago (https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2018/12/20/spiritual-growth-and-wisdominspiration-for-the-youth/) here is an excerpt:

One can be young and very wise and one can be old and very foolish, especially when they refuse to accept that it is not always the age of a person that serves as the determining factor.

It is about what we’ve been through, the experiences we may have encountered, the inherent skills that could have been imparted to us by birth that bring to us our own set of knowledge and wisdom and that can come at any age for some.

Our lives are a journey of various and numerous roads through pathways of travel and we never stop learning as there is always more to uncover and discover.

There are a lot of moronic and narrow-minded older people and younger people out within the world, and there are a lot of logical and open-minded older and younger people out within the world.

To me, it’s refreshing and an expansion to learn and experience things one may have never heard of, not been used to, or that is an awakening to if the development is of an interest or connection to one.

 

Intangible Peace

Luck and fortunate circumstance have never been a stranger within my life when it came to particular occurrences.

I’ve constantly been having a lot of great luck; the universe is very consistent. My family and I are blessed.

The positive energy within and around my family and I that exudes out into the atmosphere generates a magnetism to continuously reflect back accordingly.

My beloved and respected Ancestors and Orishas guard with a fierce peace, power, and protection each and every day.

In the past, we’ve had to go through so much in life due to the many unsavory and demonic people who unfortunately inhabit the earth without them being able to conquer our spirits, or the essence that shines over us.

However, when we are good/spiritual people a huge percent of us have to battle with the lost souls and principalities of the world, and beyond.

The most important element of the situation is that we successfully made it through as those of us with strong faith and foresight knew we inevitably would.

We did not fret when certain events infuriated us and brought out the inner vigilante derived from our strength.

We knew the day would come when the universe would snag the unscrupulous up into the clutches of its supernatural jaws to display for our warranted observation.

We are often allowed the privilege to satisfactorily witness the retributions of spiritual vindication granted by the powers that be.

 

Cozy Night At Home Enjoying A Classic

We have such a peaceful home and a nice, quiet life.

Last night at 8pm my mother and I watched the 1976 Stephen King classic thriller “Carrie” on Showtime.

We hadn’t seen the film in a while (even though we’ve seen it numerous times in the distant past through out the years) and we both reflected on the movie and agreed that it was such a great film. They just don’t make genuine quality horror films like that anymore.

Race With The Devil” was another great 1975 classic horror movie and one that was underrated, it is also an all time favorite of mine.

My mother and I were always fierce hanging partners. When I was a little girl she use to take me to the movie theater to see just about everything I wanted to see. We have a great relationship and still enjoy our entertainment together.

Months back on HBO we watched the last installment of Halloween (2018) with Jamie Lee Curtis who had made her return. It was a very good horror flick, not corny at all!

Intuitive Faculties

Born With Second-Sight And A Connection To The Spirit World

In regard to the authentic, distinct, and rare born of the caul/veil: 

For all of my life I’ve “known things” without anyone having to tell me. It is a gift that many have never deciphered except those who are aware of these special talents among the particular. 

Certain individuals just don’t understand how I and others who are gifted with the abilities of second-sight are able to see into the past, present, and future through instant visions and cognizance. 

They know that we are legitimate they merely don’t assimilate how our faculty works. 

When people lie to us or try to hide things from us, we still know the truth. We more than likely know what they will say or do, and the outcome of things before they even know themselves. 

Individuals often get angry at us for knowing what they want concealed. 

We in particular have these gifts because we are special. We are children of the light who have inherited the power through the lineage of our great ancestors. We are one with nature, extended forces of the universe-descendants from the other realm/worldly. 

The instance is heavy and we ourselves are deep individual beings with grave purpose. 

As certain others are very unfamiliar with our valid insight, knowledge, perception, consciousness and realizations in which they may not be apt to grasp or destined to identify with, we often become the object of attack and condemnation among those who are “celestially uninformed”. 

Nevertheless, our status is well-known within the spirit world, therefore, we have the ultimate protection, guidance, and direction. We don’t need or depend on the acceptance or approval of the blind, their attitude/frame of mind is of no significance to the highly spiritually developed. Neither are their actions of any bearing. 

I’m proud to not be ordinary!  It is a genuine compliment to be called crazy or weird by the ignorant or lower class if said by any of them.

We are an inspiration to the intelligent and to the awoke, or  to those who are on the same “wavelength”.  Even so, we are able to stand alone-not cheered or regarded by anyone. Our mere existence hold’s its own, we are self-secure/self validated!

 

 

 

 

Corona Virus

 

It’s sad that it took this Covid-19 virus to wake people up about being clean and thoroughly hygienic amongst themselves as well as in social settings.

Buses and trains should have already been getting disinfected on a regular basis.

I had practiced handwashing and cautious social contact within my natural daily living all throughout my early childhood on up. When I worked in retail, I use to wear gloves as a rule and as a method of common sense.

Ignorant people use to laugh at me for my so called “germophobic” ways; smart people use to praise me. Now many are trying to adapt to a mode of hygienic precaution.

Eventually this will all come to pass just like everything else in life. The universe speaks within so many ways and particular occurrences happen for a reason. I haven’t been worried at all about this Covid-19. It is a sign of the times and an unfortunate effect of the intangible impacts on nature. More people need to wake up in general.

While I do understand the gravity of this pandemic situation people have blown things way out of proportion.

There is no excuse for the manner in which people have panicked and bought out all of the toilet paper, paper towels, alcohol, and other specific items. The supermarket shelves are ridiculously abandoned of certain foods as well.

I remember how ignorant people were during and at the end of the year 1999, buying up all of the bottled water, and etc… If the world were to had come to an end at the beginning of 2000, I’m pretty sure buying out everything from the stores would have just been a complete waste of time.

 

Ernestine Lawrence

Down below are links and messages from my mother’s sister, Tina, sent to me on Facebook.

This is for you, Tina, although you probably wouldn’t comprehend as logic and reasoning doesn’t register with you. And, since your HIV/Aids has probably gone to your head by now.

Since I was a child you were very jealous of me because I was very intellectually advanced and highly educational that is why you went around saying I had no education when it was actually you who had no knowledge.

You always had that low level trash mentality.

You have no high school diploma and did not graduate from high school that is why you went into the National Guards because you didn’t know anything and you wouldn’t have gotten into there if my mother hadn’t helped you out and told you what to do but you couldn’t even excel within that.

If it wasn’t for my mother Annette Theodora Cromwell wouldn’t even have gotten into college.

Now I don’t knock anyone who didn’t finish school the traditional way because I understand distinction within individuals everyone has their own way and their own calling or set of circumstances.

However, you really focused on making me out to appear like a stupid person when you didn’t even finish school yourself.

Did you know I actually skipped a grade when I was twelve? And when I was ten I passed tests that high school kids couldn’t pass. At eight years old I got an award for being one of the best readers within my entire school.

When I became an adult I got accepted into a college but I never cared about any of that shit because I wasn’t an insecure person like you.

When you were at those young ages all you achieved and was well known for was being on drugs and being a skank.

I at such a young age was gifted and passed all of my tests, received awards, and certificates in school so you and Amanda tried to interfere because I was nowhere near a dummy like you and Amanda.

You both knew I was headed for accomplishments that you both weren’t capable of gaining.

You wasted your time because I never relied on the approval of others or cared what anyone thought I’m proud of everything about myself and I have no regrets.

I was born with a caul you dumb bitch I have second-sight, I mean really, what the fuck did you think you could do? I was ahead of you. I laugh at you.

I knew just about everything you did through dreams, visions, and intuition.

You did the same to my mother because she was bright and multi-talented.

You said my mother never worked a day in her life because you couldn’t get the jobs that she could. You and Amanda were fools that people could use and abuse. Then you two were absurd enough to think that you could destroy me and my mother’s lives with voodoo/witchcraft/black magic and lies.

You conspired to give my mother a nervous breakdown and make her out to be lower than what you actually were out of pure envy, jealousy, and your own true state of mental illness.

It’s all in the past now but you still won’t leave us alone. We don’t care anything about you, we never did, and never will.

Nobody is hurt by you, you are nothing to be distressed by, you never had the power to destroy us, we just don’t like you at all.

You are an undesirable person who has done far too much dirt why would anybody of any class, intelligence, and substance want to be bothered with you.

Why don’t you go call and bother your own kind of fellow degenerates who share within the delusions of their own mentalities.

You are a pathetic piece of trash.

Go call up George Owens/Taalib Muhammad, Joanne Anderson Franks, Doritta Almodovar, Renee Blackwell, her sister Teresa Blackwell, Jeff Jemmott, Olivia Oliver and her kids and grand kids that you all talked about like a dog (remember when cookie and her kids gave you a concussion and put you in the hospital?), Spotface Pat Bush and your dyke crew, Diane Mims, Sonia, Lorraine Burwell- the bitch with the broken legs and her sister Judy Clarke, the nigger you stabbed with the knife who took a shit in your toilet before you called the cops on him, Annette Theodora Cromwell-the bitch who fucked some nigger down on Hollis at the tire shop, and all of the other sick and twisted fucks you use to run to and with.

You have no one. They don’t give a fuck about you, you stupid bitch. And look at all of the stupid unnecessary shit that you did to us for years. With your broke ass.

Go call up Amanda. Or better yet, why don’t you go join her in the grave.

Bitch, maybe you should give me a call so I could blow your mind with all of the shit that I know for someone who doesn’t have an education. I’ll teach you some life-long lesson facts.

 

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A Caul Destiny That Won’t Be Denied

Things are going my way. The universe harkens unto my voice. I live in my truth and my way harkens unto the intangible dimensions within my connection to the universe. The destiny that was designed for me, and the destiny I design, are both intertwined, and as they are both within harmony, they will not be denied.

Whereas there are a lot of good people in the world there are also plenty of negative and mediocre people inhabiting the planet and when no good people find out that they cannot use you and abuse you they do whatever it is within their power to refuse you the opportunities in which you are entitled to.

However, is not up to them or entirely in their hands to decide how far we go within life, or within our careers so to speak. It is just we live in a society governed and controlled by some people who are corrupt, and by some who are not on a certain “elevated” level and wavelength, or both.

The power is within the universe to ultimately decide, and the energy is dispelled unto not only those who are spiritually receptive, but to who it is also celestially intended.

As a spiritual person, life has consistently went better for me than the average life has went for others.

I was always meant to be successful and I have succeeded within many fashions and aspects of my life.

There are and have constantly been people, nevertheless, who’ve tried and who still take part in earnestly attempting to hold me back at reaching my highest peaks of deserved financial success.

I’ve worked jobs that I didn’t really want to do, or that I had no genuine interest in just to steadily gain a stable income to allow me to pay my bills, and to maintain the lifestyle that I frequently enjoy.

I was always able to make a good volume of money but they don’t want me to further delight in what they will never be able to have.

There is nothing they can do to stop who I am, what I’m capable of doing or achieving, or the things I was born to accomplish, they have only been able to delay certain events from taking place at a sooner period.

The time they stole and continue to steal, for the time being, until my optimum time finally arrives, is the extra time they’ll spend burning relentlessly within the lower depths of hell once they arrive to their inevitable and eternal destination. They have to suffer here, though, before they go, and a tough lesson beforehand they surely will learn.

I don’t follow the ways of the world because the world has absolutely nothing to do with me, I follow my own individual nature, preferences, and inclinations.

I have always definitely known how to live and to survive in this world, yet I am nothing of this world, and I never will be, and I am very proud of this actual fact.

Mental, Emotional, And Spiritual Breakdown

Everyone who has had a breakdown of some sort is not weak, crazy, or dangerously unstable.

A breakdown is spiritual within many instances. A Yoruba priestess even acknowledged this fact to me years ago. I know firsthand as my own mother was a victim of brujeria in the early 1980’s.

I was even targeted. My aunt tried to flip me out when I was eighteen years of age by putting the hallucinogenic drug mescaline into a hot pot of black eyed peas that I had cooking over the stove.

People often use recreational “trip” drugs to increase the chance or enhance the effect of mental and chemical alterations of the brain while also performing the negative spiritual influences within black magic/voodoo/witchcraft.

My aunt went a step further in her malicious attempt by also putting tainted hiv fluids inside my food. Anyone educated would know the disease would not survive within the air and within a pot of scalding hot water.

Nevertheless, I didn’t lose my head or have a breakdown, my mind was too strong with faculty and awareness, and I didn’t, of course, become infected with aids either.

I was young, innocent, and very spiritually inclined, so divine intervention took over and protected me.

My aunt Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has been hiv positive since the 1980’s due to intravenous drug use and promiscuous behavior from the 1970’s on up and instead of using her limited time to spend changing her life around for the better, she continued to do tons of constant dirt. She and other envious and jealous ruthless dummies, whores, drug addicts, and degenerates attacked me and other family for decades.

They’ve in addition done it to others, however, when they came after my mother and I, they messed with the wrong individuals. We are people of the light and they are people of the darkness. My ancestors and orishas were ready for them all, and the universe was recording and keeping record of every notorious deed in which was repeatedly done toward us.

Tina had poisoned food of my mother’s years ago too while neighbors were working black magic/voodoo/witchcraft against her.

My grandfather was driven to mental affliction before he was killed and found dead in the Hudson river.

My aunt Charise was drugged and raped which caused her to be afflicted with mental illness.

My grandfather, mother, younger aunt, and I were targeted for manipulative breakdowns because we were all very smart, strong, and fighters who could literally kick ass if needed be. We weren’t the type to back down or be bullied by anyone, and we were all good upstanding people.

The intent for causing mental, emotional, and spiritual breakdowns are to weaken one, to render them as incredible, and to lower their self esteem and spirit.

Certain evildoers want those of us who have knowledge in which threaten their unscrupulous ways either dead or labeled as crazy.

 

 

 

Blocked Witchcraft Attempt

As a child I wasn’t sheltered. I’d seen and heard a lot and encountered numerous types of people and situations while at the same time not being negatively influenced within my own behavior by incorporating undesirable habits or lifestyle choices, yet informed, as I had a mind of my own.

I had firsthand experience without having to personally indulge in order to know and since I was spiritually inclined I was able to clearly discern things that were hidden under the surface and I definitely knew what appealed to me and what turned me off and what I wanted to avoid as I grew up in life.

One of my strongest points is my excellent communication skills and comprehension. What I lack though is a sympathetic nature toward people and the world in general. I do love the hell out of puppies and dogs, though, they just steal my heart. They’re so innocent, sincere, and lovable those little adorable fuckers.

Since I nipped that “Think Of Me Spell” in the bud last week another corresponding negative technique was put in motion to run its trifling course. It’s definitely witchcraft yet all it has done is give me a off and on headache.

The motive is to drain me of my good energy and luck to render me vulnerable to the effects of whatever negativity and negative energy in which they gear toward me as they have failed so badly with endeavoring to bring me down and to destroy me.

These idiots are continuing to further ruin themselves through attempting to cause my demise. I am a very good and blessed person and I am and will constantly be guided and protected by divine intervention.

Adversaries are actually hurt because I am not at all hurt or affected by the negativity and dirt they’ve directed toward me within the past and by the negativity and dirt in which some of them still continue to direct toward me now.

They are infuriated by the love I have for myself, my high self esteem, the love and respect I have around me, and the fact that they are unable to stop me from living my life and speaking the truth.

I am a writer by nature, I have a gift, and I am naturally motioned by spirit to utilize and exercise creatively, honestly, and productively whenever inspired. There is power in the universe to those of us who are endowed.

It deeply frustrates them how they cannot get to me emotionally or mentally. And I can “feel” their upsets within my body through intense empathic ability. So they couldn’t deny it even if they wanted to. Feeling and being able to perceive other peoples emotions has always been one of my dominant faculties as a highly spiritually inclined person.

They’re going to drive themselves crazy with trying to hurt or thwart me with things and circumstances in which do not faze me. I’m not the average person. I’ve always been on a entirely different level and will never be hurt by their words, lies, jealousies, ignorant thinking, malicious deeds and etc…

Of course, when somebody comes up against me I will take up for myself or fight back as I am a very feisty and strong individual. And I definitely will correct anyone who comes at me with the wrong approach. One doesn’t have to be hurt to retaliate out of hatred, vengeance, or justification these instances have absolutely nothing to do with being hurt within certain types of people. Everyone is different and does not act out for the same reasons or under the same intention.

Although I do realize many of my adversaries have been hurt by me as I have not been too friendly or receptive to their kind (as I’ve never been fond of their type and those with similar traits and mindsets) yet they hurt themselves by ignorantly making assumptions and adhering to preconceived notions while really knowing the real deal then proceeding to carry out nonsense due to pure spite and resentment.

Seeing Into View: The Third Eye

I know that nothing bad is ever going to happen to me as it never has. Although I may sometimes have to go through bad things I go through these particular incidents if or when they arise without any serious worry or dismay.

Certain people never understood how I handled what is considered to them as a tribulation so well and nonchalantly.

It is just a natural reaction of peace and ease from my own personal experience with my spirituality and the momentous encounters throughout my life. And frankly, it is sometimes just my cold attitude of not giving a damn.

Nevertheless, I am monitored and protected by spirit.

It’s sad when others plan negative designs upon me and others in specific with the genuine “knowing power” then have or assume successful expectations to come into fruition as I know all along how things will inevitably work out and go within my favor.

Even if it is just a regular periodic hard seemingly time in which may happen as an up and down part of life or celestial test. I know that I will make it through alright without a doubt because that is just me and the way it is within my life condition.

People endeavor and attempt to do dirt out of spite or greed or whatever else and I always know what the outcome will be.

It’s a pure waste of time on the perpetrator’s part, however, they don’t know this or they’re too arrogant within their ignorance to understand and realize this fact.

As I am born with Extra Sensory Perception I know what scheme people will calculate against me before they do themselves and I know how the situation will eventually turn out.

Bequeathed

 

I was told my robust spirituality comes from my long line of native american ancestry and I agree as I already came to the conclusion about it decades ago. It was so obvious to me.

The mixture within my african american roots serve to make the foundation even more intense through the combination of tribal culture.

The european blood within my veins is french.

I’d never deny my inherent african power as the africans have a natural flair to wistfully attract desires. All they have to do is wish for something and it comes to them without the use of any magic. I’ve done it for years.

Too Late For Sorry

When one tells the harsh truths about no good people fellow like-minded individuals don’t want to hear or believe it. When one tells vile lies on good people haters are eager to hear and ready to believe.

 

There are people now and for a while now who are and who have been sorry for the negativity in which they had directed toward me.

They feel stupid and regret the things that they have done and took part in yet I’d never accept their apologies and I would never forgive them. I don’t want any apology I just want them to suffer for their dumb errors.

I’d never even give them the benefit of the doubt I’m so disgusted by their ignorance and audacity to so readily believe and be so eager to falsely come up against me on account of whatever they heard from someone else’s mouth when they didn’t even know me personally. I never went around bothering anybody. People were getting mad because I didn’t want to be bothered with them and because I had no dirt on me.

If I didn’t have the strong mind and spirit in which I had where would I have been?

Fortunately I wasn’t affected or devastated by the ordeal, if anything, I was enhanced as I always continue to evolve and grow, however, I thought about other people who weren’t strong enough and had gotten destroyed through the barage of other people’s ignorance, jealousy, and lies.

I don’t care if what they were told did come from a family member or certain people who’d been around me. People lie on people every day and one can live with someone and hang around them and still don’t genuinely know the heart or mind of the individual.

People didn’t really know or understand me only smart people who were on my level or higher could see me for who I honestly was and they truly liked, loved, and respected me and they all still do they’d never listen to or go along with nonsense out of pure envy, jealousy, and idiotic misgiving, and people like them immediately earn my respect. My own mother admitted to me that she never understood everything about me because I never thought like or had the mentality of the average person.

As one born with second-sight it is very hard for me to put myself in these people’s shoes because I’ve always been able to look and see through people, things, and situations whereas other people couldn’t rationalize so I was never one to be easily deceived or one to fall for anything major. I’ve always had a mind of my own and analyzed things.

I’m so sick and tired of undesirables but here we go again. And I never cared anything about their kind though I keep getting warnings and messages about them and I am ever so grateful for the insightful revelations.

There are people who don’t use drugs who are trash and degenerate, and all people who dabbled in drugs don’t go around spreading and making up lies about their relatives, this type of behavior stems from a type of mental illness and a sickness within anyone behaving in this manner.

Most jealousy starts within the family and no one knows that better than me. There was tremendous dirt done by particular family members much too much through out the years to fit into just one post.

I unfortunately have an aunt by the name of Ernestine Lawrence and she was always extremely jealous of my mother and I along with my great grandmother Amanda Byars (who is deceased now) and uncle Willie Jr (also deceased) and all three of these individuals were junkies.

Tina has had the nerve to try to contact me through Facebook a few times a few months back I just ignored her request. I know what she’s up to I see right through her. The bitch is in trouble all of the dirt she’s done and the bitch also wants information.

It’s bad enough when one has envy and jealousy from others on the outside but when you have a few undesirable relatives deceptively conspiring along with a parade of fellow ignorant and gullible lowlifes in an effort to bring you down to the gutter level to where they are it is just despicable.

I’ve hated undesirables ever since childhood because of the way their minds operated and because they’ve always proved to be and cause nothing but trouble.

Ernestine Lawrence was so jealous of my intelligence and achievements so she went around lying saying I had no education. She was jealous of my mother’s intellect and the jobs that she was able to get so she went around saying that my mother never worked a day in her life.

Amanda Byars along with neighbors on the outside worked brujeria on my mother causing her to have a mental breakdown when I was a child then went around saying that she was crazy and that she bugged out over a man when this particular man and his sister was just mad because my mother didn’t want him or a baby by him.

They tried to do the same to me. Who puts black magic on a seven year old child on up?!

Men got mad at me because I didn’t want them too and lied and tried to give me a reputation and make me lose my mind with black magic I didn’t give a fuck about that shit couldn’t no man degrade me.

When I published my first book about the family they lied and said my mother told me what to write about when in truth my mother had no idea exactly what I was going to put in my novel. I would ask her a few questions from time to time but other than that she didn’t know, however, she knew it was autobiographical. Everything came from me and my own words as I’d been writing since the age of ten but Ernestine and Amanda didn’t know that about me as certain others who knew me did.

Unsavvy people took the word of jealous junkies who’ve committed every deed of dirt known to man and they are all paying for it now and in ways they wouldn’t recognize.

Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has had HIV since the eighties and is dying like a dog. I don’t understand why it’s taking so long for her to die. I guess she has to suffer before she goes and busts the gates of hell wide open. She’ll go out with an explosion.

My uncle was still shooting up before he died from AIDs as Amanda tried to cover it up saying he had cancer. Amanda croaked in the year 2009. They were all miserable and had messed up their lives at an early age and tried so deeply to destroy mine and my mother’s.

Nevertheless, I was protected and came out on top because right prevailed over others wrongdoings and I don’t care about any of their sorry feelings or regard. I wish them all nothing but doom.

My mother is a little more understanding, she’s not taking up for any of them but she explained to me how some people get fooled by the crafty skill of a liar and when tall tales may come from members of someone’s family others just may not know any better. She told me that I shouldn’t compare myself to them as far as being able to distinguish specific matters because my world is completely different from theirs since I was born with extrasensory perception.

She also imparted how some of the instigators and harassers were victims themselves because they didn’t really know the truth or the real deal about what was actually going on until later. And how the junky’s mind is on a totally different level than that of a logical and healthy thinking mind.

My mother is right in her words, yes many of them are sick, but still I am not giving those who fell for what they wanted to hear and act on a free pass and I’m not making allowances for any of the worthless addicts who dared to ruin my life. There were plenty who took part and knew that they were all lying and went along with the conspiracy anyway it was all part of the game. Some were so ill they believed their own delusions.

They even used black magic from time to time to get inside my mother’s head to turn her against me with fabrications. A lot of people don’t understand how voodoo/black magic/witchcraft works but I do and it will effect the people around you. It also unnaturally effects everyday happenings and the energy around one.

My mother had many times been so nice and helpful to people just for them to turn around and do her dirty. I’m glad I’ve never been as nice and helpful toward certain people, not that she did anything wrong she just was good to some people who didn’t deserve her kindness.

The universe has been good to me and allowed me to be aloof to all of the wickedness that was around me so I won’t complain.

Wendy Williams

I’ve never been a fan of Wendy Williams and I am not a frequent viewer of her talk show.

I have a relative who tunes in to her from time to time just for the hell of it and today a repeat episode of Wendy’s ran where she spoke on people home schooling their children. Wendy has stated before on her show that she is not fond of home schooling and she mentioned today how the situation in her opinion prevents socialization.

There are definitely other ways in which a child is able to mingle or socialize and grow up productively besides attending a public school with other children so she is wrong, nevertheless, this is not the matter I have with Wendy after watching the segment my issue is her criticizing some parents reasons for not wanting their children learning around conflicting environments created by the cruelty of other kids .

Now, I understand in the real world there are these same circumstances and behaviors of adult people that occur everyday and that are an unfortunate part of what goes on within society.

Early life experience does lead one to awareness, preparation, adapting, and coping methods, however, to say that everyone has been bullied and taunted with remarks that are hurtful but that the events served to makes us all out to be stronger and today’s generation are raising a bunch of wimps as if bullying or harassing and taunting behavior from others is an acceptable rite of passage.

So certain parents who don’t want their children interacting with other toxic dysfunctional fuckers contributes to being weak? I think not!

And where is Wendy William’s so strong at? She is one who has had nothing but major self esteem issues as the bitch has been heavily addicted to drugs and alcohol, lowered herself so bad to suck on mens penises, surgically blew up her breast to resemble hideous basketball titties, and married a man who she allowed to continuously use and abuse her.

Wendy Williams needs to talk about no one because her shit is all fucked up.

It’s fellow trash like her with the same ignorant mentality which promotes bullies and harassment among degenerates within the first place.

People of a specific mindset only insult, try to dominate, or attack, because they assume that it will hurt, give them control, or cause fear.

To categorize everyone as the same and take for granted that everyone will react within the same to these instances is a mistake and generalization.

I remember when I had people harassing me and trying to bring me down years ago for no reason other than “the green eyed monster”, and accused me of putting up a front because I was undisturbed by their conspiracy of spreading lies and rumors against me then having people I didn’t even know utter out insults and remarks at me in attempts to intimidate me, and I had absolutely no idea what they were talking about as I truly wasn’t fazed by their bullshit.

What the incident genuinely came down to was they themselves really didn’t have the strength and level of mentality as I did to sincerely be unaffected by the negative treatment of other people and they knew it. They would have been crushed and destroyed if it had been done to them and that is why they used that stupid shit on me yet it failed to give them the results that they were looking for. I always ignored them and their “game” as their nonsense was an honest reflection of their own bouts with inadequacy.

And, don’t stand up for yourself or speak your mind if need be, though, because you’ll just get accused of being “defensive” the psychological mind game and manipulation tactic in which assholes use in order to place their own insecurities on you when they can’t deal with accepting truth or fault.

Wendy Williams is a total idiot bullying another doesn’t make them stronger look at the poor souls who commit suicide (not that everyone who kills themself is weak because all of them were not) or become flunkies to the human asses that they kiss due to low self worth?

One has to already have strength to endure and to get even stronger that is why people try to break them.

Bullies aren’t people with real strength as their only weapon is feeding off the fear of another. Usually it is the victim who is the strong one yet doesn’t even realize it yet and if or when they eventually find their courage the bully then becomes the true wimp.

Any form of bullying is and should be unacceptable.

Why Does Every Caulbearer Expect To Be Rich Financially And Why Are They Unaltered By Negativity?

Brujeria by misslatoya

Mystic said 7 hours ago

I am wondering why every caulbearer even tho he is spiritually rich thinks also that he is going to be financially rich? Maybe because the luck that follows him, and also why he cant be changed and stays the same way even tho a lot of negativity happened around? Hmm

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In reply to Mystic.

No one can say that every person born with a Caul thinks that they are suppose to become rich financially because it simply isn’t true. Some Caulbearers are suppose to be well off and some aren’t. It all depends on their celestial design, their purpose within life, and the luck and blessings in which they are imparted.

I stated financial success within my own life because it was a part of my true destiny not just automatically because I was born with a caul. People have always been jealous of me all throughout my life and this has been well-known around my environment and among others. Certain people wanted to block me within all aspects of my life and that is a fact. I as an individual was always meant to succeed and to have a lot of money and this has not only been verified by me but other
psychics, priestesses, a babalawo, and a curandera as well.

I’ve endured quite a lot of shit within my lifetime from a very early age on up, unnecessary things that most people would not have survived, but I was born with a very strong spirit and state of mind and mentality so I wasn’t affected and I made it through intact and no one can break me. There has constantly been aspects from higher above solicitously watching over me and guiding my steps because my purpose was so strong.

The reason many of us as spiritually gifted people cannot be changed or negatively altered by negativity is because we are greatly loved, honored, and protected. We are in connection with spirit and receive communication and hidden knowledge. We are special children (and I hate to say it) sent down here by God (I’d prefer to just say a higher power because there is far more to life than what we already know), nevertheless, the darkness cannot overpower the light therefore we prevail, and evil cannot prevent the mission, or the message, that divinity places within and without our states of being. We are here in the world but we are definitely not of it, not those of us who are of the light.

I was always very smart and intelligent growing up, passed all my tests in school, got skipped through a grade for the gifted and so on. And I’ve always been ahead of my time, able to read people, communicate with the departed and spirit world, see into the present, past, and future and so on. For the knowledge and capacities that I have I should be so much farther in life than I am right now just as others who are within my league and spiritual category who’ve been unfairly held back due to envious discontented and malicious people. Yet this is not the determining factor. My blessings are still there for me to have they are just being delayed right now, however, they’re on the way. I’ve still been very successful just not at and to my full entire peak or potential.

Nevertheless, it’s not that people of the Caul feel entitled we just know what we are suppose to have and deserve because we are able to see our blessings all around us. Just as some of us can see, know, and feel things about others and what’s going on within the world is the same way some of us see, know, and feel the things about and going on within our own particular lives.

Us gifted people are here for a reason and we go through a lot. Any financial blessings are celestial rewards to aide in a more comfortable life in receipt of what we have to accomplish and endure. It is very unfair and unwise to judge every Caulbearer of being the same or thinking the same we are all our own special individuals with extra sensory power who may have similarities and who can relate to one another and support one another yet we may have our own unique journey and paths to walk along with our own set of circumstances.

And a little side note: There are fortunate people who weren’t born with Cauls or the gifts of second-sight who were born and meant to have financial wealth and success and jealous people have worked black magic/voodoo/witchcraft on them to stop and block them from succeeding in life also. One doesn’t have to be born with a caul to be destined for having a lot of money or anything else in which may bring to them specific prosperity.

Intelligence/Experience/Talent/Education

Gifted people come in all varieties. We as individuals can do anything that is within what we are capable of doing.

When I was in my early twenties an associate of my mother’s had met with me in person for the first time and heard me speak and hold a conversation and responded later to my mother by addressing “I was nowhere near the level that she’s on at that age. I thought she was in college”.

I wondered to myself “What does college have to do with intellect and mentality?”

Even a professional who I wrote an essay for when I got accepted at a college years ago which I decided not to attend asked me “How do you know how to write so good if you’ve never been to a college?” I didn’t get it because I’ve never associated intelligence and talents with professional training. To me, everything depends on ones own individual capacity.

This person didn’t mean any harm (my mother’s associate), of course, his words were actually a compliment and acknowledged that just because someone is in college doesn’t make them smarter than someone who is not.

I was never one to believe that school actually made one smart and I was never intimidated by anyone’s degree as I could attain the same achievement or higher if I chose to. School is just a tool of enhancement to progress an already intelligent and capable mind. However, learning comes within all fashions and within all places it is whether one is able to fully grasp what is being taught to them.

I remember back in the day how left back students attending high schools who didn’t have a satisfactory grade level of reading skills were eventually promoted out of school and allowed to graduate just because administration was tired, frustrated, or just didn’t want to deal with the problem anymore and decided to get rid of them instead.

When I was ten years old I took and passed tests high school children were unable to complete and pass without a problem. I even had an opportunity to get published by a mainstream publisher for short stories that I wrote back then.

Now I’m hearing in this day and age kindergarten children are getting left back. Some of it is the parents fault as they may have messed their children up with drugs and alcohol or are just not putting in the extra effort or time to help and teach their children. Even some parents themselves don’t have the knowledge to properly raise and guide their children

Don’t get me wrong, though, school is a positive and constructive resource, however, education is just the incorporation of particular knowledge which can be learned within any setting to the individual who has the right development and equipment.

I already knew how to read and write before I ever began school as a youngster and when I got older I was skipped a grade into a class for the gifted. Yet, school never held my interest as I was bored.

I didn’t have a problem with school itself but it was the individuals and the environment in which I had to attend school with. I liked it better learning one on one with a sufficient older person or within the presence of a specific group of other like-minded adolescents.

When I became fully grown and totally came into my own I liked partaking within classes better since I was not a child who didn’t have the control around my situations as children are oftentimes not taken as seriously within maturity and allowed the partiality of making their own fair judgments among other adults in certain situations.

Some are naturally born with communication skills and have the faculty to problem solve as I was.

I know people who’ve attended school and higher education who are still in school and they are definitely not too bright, especially within the area of common sense. And some people do cheat their way out.

I know some people who battle with low self esteem, ignorance, a complex of some sort and use their credentials as a badge of authority toward others. I don’t cater to people like that I don’t consider people experts soley depending on a course they’ve took or a certificate they’ve recieved I have too much of an open mind as well as common sense and too much experience to know that knowledge or brilliance is not packaged strictly in standard wrappings there is also the papers that come decorated in all styles and design.

Braggarts

In my opinion, there isn’t anything wrong with one who is aware of their accomplishments and capabilities and acknowledges them, it is the fashion in which one projects themself and intention behind their own recognition.

I think with certain people identifying within their attributed description, as they may also detail in regard to others, is harmless and not meant as to gloat but as a form of expression or discovery.

When arrogance becomes hubristic there is another scene bringing impact into the story.

As a child on up my mother loved and was proud of me yet she never bragged about me to anyone.

Peers would come to her boasting how their wife was this and their wife was that, their kid was this and their kid was that and from the constant proclaims my mother knew honestly their wives and children indeed weren’t shit.

Time brought out just how much the wife and kids of these braggarts had amounted up to, a figure not summed within the scale  in which they smugly dared to measure, but a scale that announced a degree of great shame and embarrassment.

One’s looked down upon arose to bud, then bloomed on to become a bouquet of sprouting flowers, ones that were once the object of disdain became the example of a noteworthy and momentous acclaim.

A Tortured Soul

My Page Turner by misslatoya

Melissa Campa said 4 hours ago

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Melissa Campa

These are lies of demonized souls, go far back as far as you can remember. The first time you felt abandoned or abused whether physically or mentally or sexually. The door was open from that day forward. You see I was just like you even suicidal, literally would negotiate with a voice telling me you’ll never see heaven you already love every day in sin (addicted to pain killers) so if you were to die and kill your self you would go to hell as you would go to hell anyways by the judgment of your sins according to your God! I cried I cut I screamed and then I remembered my dad took me and my brother to church Very young and we went up to the alter with our dad and accept Jesus as our lord and savior. I never knew exactly what I did but I knew I was more Of a threat because of it. The difference between a child of God that has a seed from a young age vs a new age follower or atheist is that the one who was brought up in a Christian home has been to church before has heard the word of God is a threat to the devil because gods word says in (Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.) you see I may not change your mind about God I’ve yelled at God when people I loved died I cursed God for allowing me to get beat my child’s father I was so mad but I still felt like who else do I have. My parents both live their lives and I had it rough growing up from being molested to watching my dad beat my mother while she never fought back and beat on us and because of my father I became so defensive always fighting and protecting the weaker individuals who I saw bullied. But if my mom or dad couldn’t do right by us as children. My dad the same man who hit me and my brother and mom took me to the living god and he placed a seed that seed is in certain chosen people. Jesus said if they hate me they’ll hate you too if the crucified me they will do it you because of ME. Jesus said but be of good cheer I have overcome the world. The devil the demons Satan comes against us threw other people who have been deceived who listened to the suggestions that God did this and its his fault. This whole world is ruled by demons look at the president! I’m not perfect I sin and I may sin again tomorrow I may say the same prayer god forgive you know how it goes but Jesus does because he knew god knew we will never ever be holy we will never get it right! If Jesus came to preach the word right now in this generation he would chose his disciples and they would be former pimps former murders former thief’s former gang members former homeless people former drug dealers and homosexuals. He never would ride around with the people of the church the holy traditional church and hypocrites. He would save the ones from what we see as the worst people he says these people are the first in the kingdom of heaven because basically people like them need more love and god sees the heart and he sees the soul has authority to cast out demons of torment of perversion, abuse and immortality etc. before you click off maybe you already did just give him a chance crawl to him say a few words and then next time maybe stand up to him say a few more words and if you ever feel like nothing is working with the new age practices you still can’t find peace you can’t find healing then run to god surrender in private take baby steps god know we can’t just change over night he knows we will never get it right. He’s not a god of suffering because the Old Testament was of the way the first living people of the world had to be obedient and this why god sent Jesus Christ his word says behold i make all things new. The new commandment I give you is to love each other. If I can suggest maybe listening to deliverance prayers on YouTube with head phones and water. Baby steps pray in private goodnight

 

In reply to Melissa Campa.

You sound like a very mentally and emotionally disturbed individual and one that isn’t intelligent enough to understand the depth of my writings.

Just because some people don’t like or agree with God and have different viewpoints or perceptions regarding him and his way does not mean that they are suffering, lost, or have been broken in some way. If anything it is quite the opposite and you need to stop being ignorant and closed- minded.

I was born a gifted child and one with the wisdom and knowledge to “see” and “discern”. I’ve experienced a lot of supernatural occurrences and ones that you have no idea exist. I was a happy child there were just some adults and relatives around me who weren’t happy within themselves but it wasn’t everyone.

I’ve never been or walked in your shoes as I’ve never been raped or sexually abused by anyone and I’ve never been mistreated by a parent. “Spiritual essence” in which constantly followed me would never have allowed those vile things to happen. I was lucky and blessed and had natural spiritual protection.

I was raised and brought up in love by a darn good mother and had lots of love given to me by my mother and solicitous attention given to me as well as from certain others that were around me. I was very well taken care of as a child on up that is partly why so many people were jealous of me.

So you’re venting to the wrong person.

I am very happy and fulfilled within myself and have a great peace of mind and what I venerate and believe in suits and serves me very well. Things are working out within my life accordingly and the universe is bringing to me the elements in which I desire.

I have been attacked all through out life by “particular” individuals-along with principalities-for being a good and unique person by those who are not of my caliber and who have a lack of knowledge into things in specific.

Yes, I do agree with one thing you’ve wrote and that is God does concern himself moreover with the negative people but it is not because they’re all sincere within their heart and deceptively mislead and all good people are not hippocrates because we don’t need or have to serve or consult with god to genuinely be of a positive nature or character by his definition.

You’re a tortured soul and you are brainwashed and people who are deeply troubled often incite to bring unnecessary problems to others. Go and get yourself some serious help.

(God) A Supernatural Bully

I am and always was blessed within many ways at the same time had to undergo unnatural encounters just because of the person that I am.

I’m glad not to be average and that I’m unique in my own right. I don’t owe anyone anything and I didn’t ask to come into this world to share within a life with other human beings with different natures and various mindsets.

The Lord did me no favor whatsoever as in my dreams when I sleep display and explain more beauty and meaning than on this earthly plane that he created.

God didn’t ask my permission in order for me to come here so I don’t need his while I have to remain here. Like I said, he didn’t do me any favor, this world isn’t a paradise that I should be ever so grateful to exist in.

The world in its dreadful condition is grotesquely overpopulated as it is with all kinds of shit. From disgusting insects to disgusting animals, disgusting principalities, and disgusting people.

Life is often times strange, unfair, and full of circumstantial misinterpretation and situations that compromise the lives of people on account of the ignorance or biases of others.

It seemed irresponsible to me to have us all here on the earth together why not keep the compatible in one section and the incompatible in other sections let everyone have their own suitable accomodating place of habitat.

Why be made to live a life or in a condition that one truly doesn’t want to be in? I loathe God, I truly do, and for more reasons than one, and I feel so insulted to be one that was created in his perverted formation of a plan.

From the beginning by designing a man and a woman to be together and to have sex, and having to have sex to have children, is all a turn off to me. Cutting up animals in the old days to atone for a sin since the wages for transgressions was death there had to be bloodshed so finally Jesus eventually came and did the ultimate sacrifice, all a bunch of sick shit to me.

But I guess I’m suppose to be crazy for not liking or agreeing with a God and within the fashion in which he made things to occur.

One thing is for certain and that is that I genuinely do love myself. When I look back on my life as a child I’ve noticed how disrespected I was by God and how I never trusted in him because I knew deep down inside that he was no good.

He disrespected me and my life one time too many by altering my destiny, using his trash to assist him, and by placing too many undesirables within my pathways, knowing the extent of my hatred toward them.

I always wondered who the fuck he thought he was as I never thought too highly of him or his reasoning. As I have the gifts to see I never saw anything special or perfect within him.

It is said that God makes no mistakes and if that is so that is a dangerous reality. At least if he made errors I could give him the benefit of the doubt but since his intentions are meant as what is suppose to be right it shows me just how wrong he is as a creator.

God is a disgrace and it clearly shows within his creation.

It seems to me I’m too headstrong for him whereas his trash caters to his demented teachings as they are twisted too.

If his words are so true why am I happier without him? If his words are so true why do I have peace of mind without him? If his words are so true why is the energy around me good without him?

I didn’t began to really live until I recognized my true love and light and separated myself from God’s oppressing grip and because I’ve broken free (years ago) and confirmed his unsavory nature he doesn’t want me to live the life that I am suppose to fully receive.

So even though he adheres to keep me stuck in a rut the rut does not adhere to stick to my spirit.

I’d rather live my life within truth, love, and strength and be cheated from what I truly deserve than to live within lies, unhappiness, and weakness just to be given an abundance of riches for being a mindless flunky only to serve and praise a God that is not worthy to be glorified.

If one could take away God’s power where would that leave him if he didn’t have all that supernatural weight to throw around and bully with? If he was void of his mighty energy to manifest how many would fear him then? -miss latoya lawrence

 

 

My Page Turner

Black Magic does all types of dirt and damage to people. It is evil and tragic, demented and traumatic.

Even though I was unaffected and protected God still allowed it to be projected so to me he will never be respected.

Life goes up and down. Going through beneath me things had pissed me off, but that sorcery shit was the last straw- never no more outrageousness will I have to endure- I turn the pages of my life forevermore.


Happy Birthday To Me

I don’t officially celebrate my birthday yet I do acknowledge the occasion

Forty-four years ago I was born on this earth. My birthday always falls right after mother’s day.

When we are a lot younger it seems as if our life goes by kind of slow then once we get measurably older and reminisce back it kind of seems as if life ran by us so fast.

I’ve been on this planet for a very long time yet I am still considered young and it is true to a point but it is funny how when people describe being married for forty years, living in a house for forty years, owning an item for forty years and etc… It is all looked upon as being a long period of duration compared to the actual age of a person.

Nevertheless, I am very content within my life at the present moment and am proud of my age, I have no major regrets throughout my journey here, and I have a whole bunch of great memories to glance back at with a beautiful sense of nostalgia.

I love being forty-four as I feel really good inside and continue to welcome the distinct progressions that my unique experience has to offer.

Ignorant Black People

There is indeed racism and a lot of prejudices and bias within society against nationality as well as gender. Too much to cover in just one post so as of now I’m just going to briefly summarize on a few related issues.

Particularly, this black people thing and how when they’re insulted by someone of another race these days it’s considered being racist but what about other black folk who think, say, and feel the same way about black people as do some of the other nationalities?

And I am not taking up for any other race or ethnicity because any group of individuals can fall into their own stereotypical category and mode of description, however, I never hear about this being expressed within the media.

I as a black female grew up at a very early age in a neighborhood that was predominately white until the black people started moving in before I was born. When I was born there were mostly blacks and some Hispanics but very few whites if any left.

Nevertheless, I went to day care and kindergarten with all different type of nationalities of children then was bust out to a school district at the age of eight to a school and neighboring area predominately populated with white people and children.

There were also Japanese, Korean, Chinese, Hebrew, a few Hispanic and a few other blacks attending to the school.

It was a totally different experience and a favorable one at that also in many ways a better experience for me that was nurturing and quite beneficial to my well-being and growth due to the high level that I was on and the mentality that I shared.

All through out my life it has been white people who had treated me very well and would help to build me up to succeed whereas it was many of the other blacks that were lower than me that pursued to tear me down.

In all honesty and I don’t care who likes it or not many blacks are what a lot of white people negatively classify them as. They are trouble, they are ignorant, and they are very undesirable as a people.

I heard it said that black people in general are not as intellectually bright unless they were mixed with a percentage of other ancestry and long before that I use to hear that from my mother as well as she would tell me that I had to have had european blood in me for me to be as bright as I was.

And I do understand how DNA works it can come from way back we don’t necessarily get or have the same genetic traits or share attributes just because we’re closely related by bloodline necessarily.

And it is true. Our family has African-American, Native American, And European bloodline and it doesn’t go far back either! It stems from immediate family to grandparents and beyond on all sides of the family and I can back it all up with proof.

And I’m tired of hearing that shit about slavery. It was the blacks that sold the other blacks as slaves.

The ignorant trashy blacks they sold to the caucasian folk because they weren’t of any value or worth to them. The black folk of substance who were beneficial and capable of being doctors and of other valuable asset and so on, they kept.

Many don’t even know true history.

 

 

 

 

Oldies But Goodies

I just love those old black and white movies from the 1940’s on up there are so many and too many to mention but just to name a very small few such as Mildred Pierce and Straight-Jacket with Joan Crawford.

Dark Passage, In A Lonely place, and They Drive By Night with Humphrey Bogart.

Framed, The Big Heat and Gilda with Glen Ford.

Sorry Wrong Number with Barbara Stanwyck.

The movies and stars are countless as the list goes on and on I’ve been watching these flicks since I was a teen and am loving the ones that I didn’t get a chance to see back then now as every week I get to view those suspenseful noir.

A lot of these classics hold up today and are not corny many were ahead of their time, especially Alfred Hitchcock and his old entertaining series, along with One Step Beyond and Rod Sterling’s The Twilight Zone.

I also loved the private detective and cop series 77 Sunset Strip and Decoy. Whether these old classics were films or television shows from the past either in black and white or in color they are phenomenal to watch and enjoy still!

 

A Classic

As a youngster I had the durable Barbie townhouse that included an elevator that rode my dolls up and down the floors of their multiple shared home.

When my mother was a youngster she had the original Barbie dream house which wonderfully and temporarily came back on the market through Mattel.

The item was priced at 100.00 which in my opinion is a reasonable amount for a top quality 1962 reproduction that includes a version of the vintage Barbie doll.

My mother had shared with me years ago the details of the fun she had playing with the dream house that was made of thick strong cardboard and that folded into a suitcase for convenient storage.

Now I actually get to experience a piece of that nostalgia for a collector’s item as I anticipated purchasing me the classic “Barbie Dream House” from the online Mattel website after discovering its availability last year.

When I recently went to finally buy the product from Mattel the item no longer was available luckily I was able to order the 1962 Dream house from Toys R Us online website and it will be arriving to my home within a few days!

The product is also available at Wal-Mart online for  $99.99

 

 

 

Kin Folk (My Lovely Family)

I love my mother’s side of the family people like them don’t come around so often. I am so proud of them, to be related to them, and that I am of them and that they are of me as we all have our own unique identities that also draws within us our connection.

Knowing where you come from is so very important and interesting. And as a person of the caul it has by nature been detrimental that I not interact with certain types of individuals and things as they are not of my specific essence.

All of my good relatives outweigh the very few that I partially grew up with within my home that had resulted from the union of my grandmother (Catherine) and grandfather (Willie Sr).

My mother’s mother Catherine came from an extremely large family that originated in Virginia. They were very tight and close-knit just the way a real family should be they were good people and would always keep in contact with her when she moved to New York. I remember how they would regularly call her on the phone.

Some of her relatives eventually moved up from Virginia to all places such as parts of New Jersey and other states and boroughs of New York as well.

Census Records
1-40 of the members of my family

When My mother was a little girl her and her siblings would go down south and visit their grandmother and grandfather (Catherine’s parents) on the farm that they owned and where they would produce and sell their very own goods/products. My mother had two aunts and four uncles altogether and all members of the family cooperated and played a significant part in making the family business a success.

My great grandmother (Catherine’s mother) use to make homemade soaps and foods and etc…I have other relatives that owned their own funeral home that was still doing business in the 1980’s I don’t know if some of them expanded or still have the same business running currently.

On the farm our family had lots of animals including dogs. They had cows that my mother would milk, horses, mules, pigs, chickens-one of the mules had kicked my young uncle in the head once.

My mother had a lot of fun down there and was shown and given much love just as she did with me. I always had love and security around me that contribute to the strong person that I am today my real family from Virginia all stuck together and there were and still are many of us.

Even though many have passed on they are definitely not forgotten and their being deceased makes them no less of relevant to me as opposed to those that are actually living. They continue to be here with me in spirit and one would be a fool to fuck with me with all of the ancestors that I have lingering around loving and protecting me and my loved ones.

Census Records
41-80 members also included in my family

As I have communicated with them and gotten to also know them on another level “home is truly where the heart is” and no one can break that bond. Our love is a house homed by our energy.

One day as time went by Catherine just didn’t have time for her family anymore as she was more preoccupied with hanging out with the neighborhood trash within the area we weren’t even suppose to be living in that area she was originally set to move into a corner two family home over in another part of queens. She didn’t want to know her family again until she got ill from having a stroke back in the early 1980’s.

How could she forget where she came from to go down to the lowest forms of disgust?

I could and would never be so inauthentic and disloyal to my nature to be turned around when tested by negativity.

Nevertheless, here and there runts do run through our family trees that is why it is so important to not intermix genetically with certain lines of individuals even though what may have been done before our time we to certain extents have no control over.

I found a census that dates back to 1940 recorded of eighty members of my family, there are so many more of them not listed, however, a cousin of mine that is on the list acknowledged how my grandparents had another house other than the one that my mother and her siblings use to visit a bigger and beautiful home that they shared when she’d visit. Wow, I just can’t get over how much family we have and my mother remembers a lot of them I even remember some!

 

 

Collector’s Items

There is a man that periodically comes into the store where I work at and he prefers that the boxes of his merchandise be within perfect condition as he is a avid collector of a specific toy item.

There are many of us that have a fancy for certain things whether we plan on retaining them for their value later on in life or just for a personal delight and pastime or both.

Whenever I collected items like my Archie comic books-that I still order till this day-it was never with the intent to ever gain any money from them but to always have to keep and to enjoy reading whenever I felt in the mood to.

Photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package

When I use to work at JC Penney department store out in Garden City at the Roosevelt field mall about ten or eleven years ago and I use to off an on run to KB toy store and Toys r Us on my meal-break before I’d eat at my favorite restaurants I had purchased over fifty brand new Barbie dolls.

Currently I own well over a hundred of them including the ones that I like from the “Fashionista” selection.

Some of my lovely Barbies that I’ve collected still remain unopened within their boxes until I move into my new and bigger home in the near future where I will make a special gorgeous room to display them all in.

Another photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package

I haven’t bought any dolls lately it’s been two months I think now since I haven’t found any in particular that have caught my eye it is one of such of my fabulous hobbies that I enjoy though.

Two of the biggest loves of my youth-Puppies/Dogs and Barbie are still the loves that I share to this very today.

Full photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package

My very first full breed German Shepherd puppy that was named “Brownie” that I didn’t have for very long didn’t touch any of my toys but my second baby “Brandie” my beautiful mixed Shepherd/Collie breed that was seven to eight weeks old at the time tore up all of my Barbies and bit up the wire to my Atari set and certain other toys as little puppies often love to chew on things, the little sneak had waited until I went to sleep before she went to town on my playthings, nevertheless, I loved my puppy madly!

 

Very Special, Lucky Babies

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teapotConnie said 6 days ago

I was wondering if you knew, or anyone knows, what the odds are of me being a mother of identical twin girls, and having one of them deliver an en caul baby? Yes, the baby, (she) was born in her entire amniotic sac just a couple of days ago. And, just for kidding around, do you think I should play the next biggest lottery available? Honestly, I am very intrigued by the whole phenomenon.
Any information would be greatly appreciated,
Thank you,
Connie

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basket-of-applesA child born with the caul strictly over its face and a child born entirely within the amniotic sac are two different instances and are not to be classified within the same signification although a child born en caul can still have psychic capability even with full fledged abilities.

I’ve never met anyone within my personal life that was born en caul. I and certain others that I know along with family members were born with the caul over our faces at birth yet my family comes from the south and I have heard of the stories from others of some who were born within the amniotic sac and that were psychic and that could tell people their future.

Nevertheless, a child born with the caul over their face is definitely no superstitious nonsense and should be taken very seriously. I am forty-one years of age now and my earliest memories of noticing and experiencing my gifts were at the age of three and my abilities get even stronger as I continue to age gracefully.

When I was at a certain age I stopped going to school because I could not be within the same environment of specific types of people and other children that were demonic and that were of a negative energy it was not healthy for me to be around them it was very intolerable they ruined and dulled the atmosphere (https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/04/stages-of-a-caulbearer/). I was nothing like these people and I still am nowhere near like average within manner of bearing and within manner of thinking.

Entering into my teenage years I gained more insight and enlightenment and the natural power to build a shield around myself with connection and understanding with the universe to protect my energy field yet it is still repulsing and intolerable for me to keep within the company of undesirables yet I am unaffected by their actions and vibrations. I am able to work and interact around them on a professional and social level though I still have to keep my distance from them on a personal level as my spirit will absolutely not take to them.

As children of the caul we are very spiritual, intellectual and influential (some of us are even genuinely extremely magical) and we are often very misunderstood, misjudged and targeted by certain groups of diverse people who lack information and/or that are not on the same particular wavelength as we.

In general, true caul births are rare and we differ hugely from others yet as we all come from different backgrounds and walks of life with similar traits and characteristics we all have our own unique experiences and valid stories to tell.

To Elude The Truth?

felineIsn’t it something when sick people who are extremely jealous and envious of us try to relentlessly stop us within life then attempt to blames us when or if difficulty occurs knowing all along that they were behind the sabotage to begin with?

As they deliberately try to cause damage for us through their duplicitous methods of intervention whether by lies and/or manipulation of circumstance they actually believe that we ourselves are suppose to be the scapegoat?

It was often so strange to me how these type of people considered themselves to be clever within their ominous ventures as their undertakings have always appeared and proved to be rather transparent within the keenly focused mind’s eye especially when the subject of their scheme was well aware of their own obvious talents and skill and logical reasoning of natural probability for success.

The red flag is automatically raised when particular essence according to bestowal does not properly go into fruition, so who is the genuine culpable fool?

“The New Craze?!”

eggAbout a little bit more than a month ago or maybe two months by now the department store where I work at received a shipment of “Hatchimals” the latest kid fad that had sold out immediately.

Everyday people continue to come into the establishment asking about these furry toy animals that eventually hatch out of a large size egg and I wondered was that all that this source of entertainment actually did, was hatch out of a decorated egg without doing anything else because that is what it appeared like to me as I watched a clip of advertisement regarding the Hatchimals on the news a while back.

When I first saw the product and the box that it came in up close and within person I didn’t see or understand what all of the fuss was about as the item really didn’t attract my attention then after witnessing a more attentive observation over the broadcast my opinion of the toy went even lower.

I cannot see purchasing over fifty dollars for this item or running around in a frenzy trying to gain possession of it the way people have been doing for their children, to me it is not worth the effort.

Every time we get a new shipment of Hatchimals people are standing outside the store before it opens to be the first one to beat out another since they sell out so quickly.

Just today when I left out from work this morning after doing an overnight shift before the store opened a lady was pacing back an forth in front of the store out in the freezing cold (the weather is very brisk here in New York right now) questioning me about these Hatchimals and informing to me that she has been there every morning waiting for the opportunity to get her hands on one of those “surprise hatch” toys as the buyer doesn’t know what selection of animal/fowl is going to come out from that egg!

So when I got home I finally went onto the Hatchimal website just to get a bigger picture of what this shit was all about all the while knowing that it couldn’t exactly be anything that spectacular as the hype was making it out to be. Okay, I found out that this item is an interactive toy and I watched the video on the site as to how the Hatchimal functions and I burst into laughter at this phenomenon.

eggsNow I could see if the children were making such a fuss over “Georgie The Interactive Puppy” as he is cute and cuddly and actually responds to twelve commands and over one-hundred interactions within a pup-like manner, even the “Calico Critters” are cute as they have been out for years and they don’t do anything but not this nonsense.

Georgie also cost over one hundred dollars but is often on sale yet I would purchase that interactive puppy before I would ever dream of wasting money on that Hatchimal crap, however, every generation has its craze. For me it was Barbie back then and to me she and all of her accessories was well worth it and when I was coming up back in the day it was the Cabbage Patch Kids that was driving everyone crazy, I had seven of them dolls when I was a child.

Lovely Mementos

It is nice to look back and reminisce from the old days.

For the most part I come from a high class family with the exception of my father’s side. A few bad apples don’t spoil the whole entire family of generations and I am very proud of my lineage of strong and independent women and strong hardworking men yet I wasn’t able to post my grandmother’s large size fabulous family of relatives from Virginia so for now I’ll just post some of the beautiful memories of my grandfather’s before a few of the bad apples (his mother, his son when he got older, and his other daughter that I didn’t bother to post) became rotten.

LaToyaBrandieMe and my dog Brandie when we were both still babies she was such a cute pup!

My Mamma when she was pregnant with me she was so adorable

My Mamma when she was pregnant with me she was so adorable

AmandaFamily 2My great-grandmother holding my mother when she was a baby and my great-grandmother holding my mother and her brother when they were still baby youngsters..

Grandfather 2My grandfather and his dog when they were both still babies.

 

Sabette 1Sabette 2My great-aunt when she was young and old (My great grandmother’s sister).

Sabette 3

My grandmother, grandfather, mother, uncle and family.Family 1

My mother and her brother.Family 3

My grandfather with a colleague in the army.Grandfather 1

My great-grandmother and her sister (They actually come from a family of nine brothers and sisters).Amanda and Sabette

And my aunt Charise.Charise 1Charise 2

A Caulbearer That Bears No Apology Unto Being “Unlike”

roses and paper bagTo others some of us unique individuals are considered strange or not normal and mainly because many of us that are within the rare category do not do the same things that everyone else does, nor do we think, feel or react within the same fashion as the ordinary.

As we are very unlike the average and strongly linked to the supernatural we are found to be quite mysterious and interesting as people learn from us and then sometimes even try to copy/duplicate us I’ve experienced this all throughout life.

I have never considered myself to be weird within any of my differences that were innate and that had come natural to me. To me, I was completely normal within my own right, and I was, and still am.

I consistently felt secure and proud within my distinction.

People often look at us as strange human beings because we do not fit into the usual mode of the majority yet what others never seemed to understand is that we may also often look at them as the ones who are ‘bizarre’ as they do not fit into the usual mode of our uncommon minority.

Targeted (Part One)

stems daisyAs good people in the world we will become targeted at times by the demonic.

Like I have expressed before there are a combination of reasons why my enemies who are known and who are unknown to me through out the years have worked and have attempted to work black magic on me and also on my family aside from the obvious envy and jealousy but another reason they had came after me aside for me knowing things through clairvoyance/extrasensory perception was for what I had divulged through a book that I had written mentioning dirt that was done by some of them.

The only people within life that I have ever had any problems out of were junkies and other types of trash as they all operate and function on such a very low level of intellectual comprehension and spiritual vibration. There are some that are within a category all by themselves and that are exceptions; however the majority of them are fixed and stationary.

As a person of higher consciousness I was able to connect or adapt to all types of universal channels, people and situations accept those in which were incongruous with my state of essence as well as existence. I was never meant or destined to intermingle or associate with these types of individuals yet through unnatural circumstances  and certain life detouring events I had to make acquaintance just like so many of us unintentionally have done only to be protected and unaffected by the grace around us due to the fact that instances was beyond our control and because we are a strong group of folk with grave purpose and that had vital divine influence and guidance.

There are sometimes always so much more to a story, detail, and the interpretation. It is the wise mind that analyzes weighs out the facts probabilities and possibilities as well as the never knows. Nevertheless, one does not have to cater to the ignorant mind that draws up inaccurate conclusions within their undeveloped scope of view or faculty.

All that matters is to include and strive for the truth. And liars hate the truth. And one person’s fact can be another person’s fiction depending on the elements and aspects of diversity as well as wavelength. I had to figure out a long time ago as a teen why one would be accused of telling a lie when they are definitely telling the truth aside from the other person’s lack of knowledge (ignorance) and deliberate denial (intentionally lying while indeed knowing the truth).

There were enemies that wanted to shut me up, part of the reason they wanted me to go insane, figuring if I was considered crazy that I would not have any credibility but their Voodoo didn’t work back then because my mind, spirit and constitution was much stronger as I am of the light and have so much legitimate belief in what I know within the universe.

Chapter five titled “The Trip” signified the physical travel along with the mental travel that was endured in this genuine excerpt:

You see, my aunt Charise was sixteen years old in the summer of 1982. A trip to Virginia was organized by a neighbor on her block. Any of the teenagers who wanted to go had to pay a fee. Charise’s money was given up front. There would be no refunds for anyone who canceled out.

Two or three days prior to the trip, Charise and one of the other girls scheduled to go got into a fist fight. Charise beat the girl’s ass. But long before that incident, Charise had decided not to go to Virginia.

“Look, you are going”, Catherine hollered. “After I done spent my money!”

Charise had no choice whether she liked it or not she would have to go on account of her mother.

The trip lasted for a week. When it was over and the teenagers had returned, Pat received a phone call. “Charise is sick”, said Mrs. Boatwright, the neighbor who’d organized the trip.

“She’s sick?” Pat asked

“Yes”, I am going to bring her home”.

When Mrs. Boatwright brought Charise to the house she wasn’t sick in the way Pat thought she would be. Pat figured maybe it was a stomach ache, but it was quite the contrary. Charise was sick out of her mind.

“What happened?” Pat exclaimed.

“I don’t know”, said Mrs. Boatwright.

Charise walked up and down the street talking to herself she was very hyperactive, like she was on a trip.

 

Targeted (Part Two):( https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/08/26/targeted-part-two/ ‎)

 

No One Can Ever Take Away The Beauty Of The Mind And Spirit

Telling the truthThese quotes that I have posted are testimonials to the way I have lived and believed in since I was a young child and someone had to indeed experience these reflections in order to produce them as many of us can honestly relate as it takes strength, confidence and authenticity within character.

I’ve been told myself by those who have read my blogs that a lot of the sentences within my original writings can be used and turned into quotes and when I had looked over and examined my literature and even my modes of speech-because the people who actually know me have always told me that- “I write just like I talk.” I have to admit that these people were correct within their assessments (maybe one day I’ll publish my very own quotes professionally but only if spirit moves me to when the time is right).

People have also told me that I speak about a lot of things that many people think and feel, and want to say but don’t. And that I write with power and passion.

FreedomI do not usually get inspiration from other sources as mainly what I write about comes from deep within and what I’ve noticed about myself and other gifted people or people of intellectual distinction who have been in my circle at one time or another is that we often know and come up with insight and solutions far before it even hits or is even accepted by mainstream society.

For instance certain quotes that are motivational are words that we were already aware of, experiencing and living by. Spiritual, mental and physical findings that have been discovered through research we had already been conscious of and living in accordance to years ago before it had become commercial or more well known among a large group of individuals, and so on.

truth against liesEven particular clothes we were wearing before they became one of the most popular name brand items.

The thing about it is that when those who are not on the level and are only able to perceive from within the boundaries of their own limited outlook when they first hear the variety of wisdom, information and solutions as it comes from us they are quick to judge or call us crazy because we are so ahead of them within our keen sense of knowledge and comprehension yet when they as slow learners finally do get the messages they then develop and acquire a philosophy or mode of life and further understanding that results in possible expansions for those who choose and are able to grow.truth and lies

 

Beautiful Darlings! And A Sweet Reminisce

Little sheltie (shetland sheepdog) so darn cute!!! I could just eat up this pooch!baby collie

The collie family is one of the most beautiful breed of dog that is within existence.

Anyway, I had a great weekend I laughed so hard watching some of my favorite comedy movies.

Last week during my off days besides going out to the mall to get some delicious take out and aside from taking care of some business I watched some good action flicks including the Al Pacino classic “Scarface” which, to me, never gets old, I remember how my mother and I sat for six whole hours inside the movie theater watching that three hour movie twice when I was a kid (I was about eight or nine years old), in fact, none of the audience members got up to leave there everyone present had remained within their seats to catch another viewing of the film.

Back then the movie theaters use to play double features and audience members were also allowed to stay and watch the movies again without paying an extra movie ticket fee so we actually was in that theater for about seven hours and over thirty minutes because there was another picture that was also playing while we waited to see Scarface, and it was a boring movie I remember, but it was worth sitting through, those were the good ole days. Scarface really rocked in the early eighties and it still rocks now till this day it is completely superb!

rough collie

Serene

 

lamp outI had a wonderful evening late last night as I prepared and ate a lovely dinner and relaxed in my bed within the comforts of home indulging in the entertainments of my favorite television programs that lasted up until after one a.m. this morning as I finally surrendered to the sleep that had softly crept upon me.

While I was in the midst of my enjoyment I felt the exact aura of serenity that had surrounded me during my childhood, teenage years, and early adulthood. The same casts of vibe and composure still following within me now all through out my span of maintenance, a priceless grace that I by nature was lucky to have come into contact with and an honor that no one can destroy or take away from me not even through the perils of any evil and deceptive form of witchcraft.

I realize that while I have maintained the purity of my spirit by never losing the identity of my individuality I have retained all of the blessings that have came along with living within authentic distinction. No ones gossip or rumor, envy or jealousy, opinion or judgment has ever served as a distraction or has ever had the ability to extinguish out the flames that ignite the purpose of my life force and state of well being no matter how strenuous within the efforts and attacks that were made against me in the past and that were derived from the certainty of malice and ignorance.

I have beat the statistics, banished those long time ago conjectures and have smoothly escaped the physical and spiritual hands of the mischievously corrupt, the element of an uncontaminated innocence is enough to make any demonic soul resentful, and full of admires.

I know that my enemies are terribly disappointed that I am not walking in their same torn up, and worn out shoes; I could feel it from deeply within me as I reveled in placidity last night.

What gets to them and what bothers them the most is that my mind is not at all guilty of regret or troubled by any type of vexation and there will never be any concrete reason for me to feel within any other manner otherwise.

My enemies want me to undergo a lifetime of aggravation in the mind the way that they constantly do. They endure the pain and reminders of their past and present deeds that linger around to perpetually haunt them.

They cannot genuinely laugh within the exact gaiety that I experience and they will never ever share the peace that I have embedded within myself.