As a sojourner I continue to listen to God over listening and trusting in the world
I will never stop learning, growing and being made into the individual that he created me to be.
We who live in spirit should constantly beware and be wise.
I was always careful who I associated myself with.
I had no desire to be bothered or to allow just anyone into my circle.
Of course, everyone who comes into our lives are not meant to stay, they do not always have our best interest.
Some who mean us well are not always meant to stay either yet God may allow them to cross our paths as stones to step upon.
I have known these truths early on within life and it had done me a great service to heed warnings, to recognize red flags, and to appreciate whatever enlightenment there was to receive or uncover upon my journey.
As some of us who are unique many of us are greatly misunderstood.
We’re thought of as strange. Our words are taken out of context. Some of us are even called crazy by those who don’t understand us. By those who may envy us, by those who misjudge us and by those who want to psychoanalyze us with their bullshit that really does not pertain to us at all.
Some people are just miserable and spiteful.
None of these instances ever fazed or bothered me. I was just “crazy” that way!
Like I have said times before, when there is really no legitimate basis other people’s attitudes and behavior are a reflection of themselves. It’s their problem- let them worry about it.
People do these things to just about anyone who does not fit into what they consider typical or so called “normal”.
It is really about what is “healthy” than about what is normal. Who is to actually say what is defined as normal when we have so much diversity?
I would never worry about a word like crazy as it is the dumb ones and those who are actually crazy themselves that label smart or extraordinary people in that manner.
It is not always wise to discuss our beliefs, faculties, or certain other things with just any or everyone yet never feel ashamed of who you are.
Never try to repress what you feel.
I am tired of what is average, I always have been. I welcome people and things that are rare, different and uncommon. That is what makes one special.
Never be afraid to stand out from the crowd and be the unique person that God created you to be.
If anyone calls you “crazy” take it as a compliment!
Michael is camouflaging with and through someone online (I have proof) due to the fact that he could put his job in jeopardy by further retaliating against me (so he is doing it in public secretly). They have even tried to contact me on this blog with nonsense (I have proof).
He is not slick at all.
He is trying to provoke me psychologically by continuing to tell lies about me.
He falsely states that I was fired (along with some other nonsense) when it is documented that I indeed quit working for Amazon and I have a written statement from Amazon that I voluntarily left the company so I don’t understand why this moron thinks that I will play into his silly, obnoxious game.
My blogs are a vehicle to exercise and to utilize my talents, to share my knowledge and experience to inform and to inspire. To use my freedom of self-expression within all truth.
I am a writer and I love and enjoy my natural craft. I don’t have to explain anything to anybody and I have no apologies. God has given me many gifts, talents and ability, and I will continue to use and be blessed by them.
I am moved and led totally by spirit. The energy is wonderful and amazing.
My blog is not a platform to trifle back and forth to with idiots who have nothing better to do with their lives than to try to vainly sabotage those who have positive things going on for themselves.
The attempt is actually pathetic, comical, and a waste of time.
I have no interest. I have better and more important things to do.
When one has peace within themself, love, and self-value their heart and mind is set on what is high.
I am a highly “in tune” spiritual person and have a connection with the intangible. The extramundane is nothing to fool around with.
God is in control of everything and I have a deep fulfillment.
I encourage those who it applies to always stand up for what you believe in.
Never let anyone intimidate you or discourage you from doing what is right or from accomplishing your goals.
Have no fear.
Be bold, be courageous, be true to yourself.
Trust in God. Always put him first and watch him move mountains on your behalf.
Always remember that a strong faith sees the invisible, believes the impossible, and receives the incredible!
This is what I walked into the day I started my shift hours before I quit working for Amazon (photos are aside and down below).
I was doing mid shift while Jazsity was still there barely finishing her morning shift.
The Amazon Locker Hub was left tacky and unkept as a result of their incompetent employees.
Steven Ellmore the new dim-witted manager that had taken over my team was very insecure, and eager to impress the corporate office or higher ups there at Amazon. When I first met Steven, I knew that he was trouble and that he wasn’t on the level intellectually.
He was in the same category as the certain other undesirables- a nobody trying to be more than what he was while at the same time trying to downgrade another person of substance to make him feel better about himself.
Trash always joins together in an attempt to subdue or remove those who they are inferior to. They do it out of jealousy, maliciousness, or lack of faculty. Many of them are just plain sick.
Steven claimed he had to come all the way over to the Locker Hub because I relayed the words to Jazsity “I am a grown woman. You don’t tell me what to do”, when she as one in the same customer associate position as I was gave me an order (being bossy). Steven classified the insignificant event as an “incident” (nothing but a bullshit head game).
If he came all the way there for my words and not due to the mess all over the floor then he needed a mental evaluation. He knew what he really came there for, but that is what trash do they scheme, they manipulate the situation, and try to lie their way out of a circumstance by scapegoating their target. The only thing these people are professional in is being devious.
Many of them are unable to succeed honestly and resort to underhanded tactics in order to obtain or maintain their desires. It aggravates and makes them uncomfortable to observe those with true capability who could go far within life naturally.
I am sure Jazsity poured it on with her fabrications and exaggerations as to the reason she stepped away and left me to attend to busy crowds of customers.
Steven claimed she stepped away to call him. When I called him, I continued on with my work. She sat on her nasty fat ass until he brought his useless ass over to the Hub. Oh-but I am sure Jazsity had good reason since she was avoiding an imaginary confrontation as they planned to label me as the bad one.
These people know what they are doing and are aware when they have been exposed nevertheless, they of course deny their actions and pretend they are not at fault to those who are in the dark or to those who are not sharp enough to perceive.
I don’t give a fuck what people think I never have. I don’t have to put on a show I live in reality.
I am an expert with people of this nature I know all about them and how they operate.
The thing about it is- is that I have a gift.
So, no one can play with my mind. I will always be steps ahead of people like them watching them get caught up into the traps that they set out for others.
P.S. There are some good, functional employees who work there at Amazon, just like anywhere else, however, the negative ones tend to fuck up things for others wherever they go.
Amazon is desperate for reviews so here is mine as one who knows firsthand.
Amazon will hire anyone including the most shitty and corrupt people.
I worked at an Amazon Locker Hub for ten months. I just quit today because I was tired of the bullshit going on.
I have always been a leader, not a follower. I don’t kiss anyone’s ass and I am brutally honest. I have a very strong personality. I was born under the zodiac sign Taurus and people should know better than to mess with good, upstanding people like us.
We are kind and down to earth, but we are not pushovers and we have ferocious tempers when provoked.
Today was an interesting day.
After I quit working at an Amazon Locker my manager informed to me that someone at the Whole Foods where one of the Locker Hubs is located at suspected me of possibly stealing items when I actually paid for them, and I still have my two receipts to show for it.
It is all the most ridiculous and laughable bullshit!
However, I expected the other bullshit that went down that dealt with an ugly, fat, dumb whore bitch by the name of Jazsity Rose Lanzot. I couldn’t stand this silly bitch the first day I met her when she began to work at Amazon, but I remained polite for the time being.
She and another low-scale dyke bitch named Ramcy are both no good and were in cahoots and use to gossip about me with Michael Gonzalez.
I reported this guy Michael who is within a lead position at Amazon. This low-scale piece of trash is very jealous and intimidated by me. I never liked him the first time I met him either.
He had been trying to retaliate against me to get me fired because I could see right through him. He was also mad because I did not want him. He was attracted to me and didn’t want to accept that the delusion he had of me ever being interested in him would never exist.
Everybody who knows me knows that I am Asexual and have never desired any man and I never will. If I were interested in guys Michael is the last person on earth that I would give the time of day. He is repulsive in every way, shape, and form.
Michael tries to be more than what he is when he is a nobody. He is an egotistical, presumptuous narcissist who is a womanizer (he sleeps with prostitutes) and a drug user. I heard that he also has a permanent venereal disease. It may be herpes. He talked about having a girlfriend but I don’t understand who would want him.
Michael is ugly and very undesirable only another low-scale piece of trash would lay down and be with a degenerate like him.
Jazsity and Michael are both liars. They are very sneaky, very deceptive. I know all about them. No one wants their stink asses. Michael also has these pitted holes on the sides of his face that bleed from time to time and Jazsity’s face is fucked up too!
People like Michael and Jazsity are worthless individuals who cannot go anywhere else within life. They are the types who have a lot of dirt on them and are threatened by people like me who are better than them and who are not afraid of them.
I only truly respect people of substance.
I was always an individual who was very smart/intelligent, strong and extremely gifted spiritually. I read people immediately!
Certain others were always very envious and jealous of my character throughout my life so I can spot people of this nature ten miles away!
I have a lot of life experience.
I told Jazsity to her face today exactly what I know her to be as she was running off with her mouth about me. She got her feelings hurt bad as I spoke the truth.
Jazsity tried to strike back with talking about my mother but she wasted her time. These young, dumb, male and female bitches cannot bother or affect me with their idle utterances. I am far too above and ahead of their level, intellectually and spiritually.
They are not even on the level.
I really am glad to not be at Amazon anymore. They are not a good company to work for. They do not appreciate quality employees with backbone or integrity.
I started work for Amazon in September of 2021. It wasn’t a job that I needed to survive with because I was already employed, however, it was a job that I wanted.
Within the past, I have worked for JC Penney, Bloomingdale’s, Sears, Macy’s, Toys R Us, Burlington Coat Factory, FedEx, I even got hired at a Walmart but it was too far out for me to travel to.
Aside from retail, I am a published author and a health care professional.
So, my Amazon job position was one that I am over qualified for and one that I could do far better than with the capabilities that I have, but it was one that I enjoyed. A position that I had fun doing.
What I observed while working as an Amazon Hub Locker Associate is that the company is more concerned about gathering customer reviews than they are about the true welfare of their employees.
Amazon does not even care about the type of people they employ just as long as they serve the purpose of maintaining a certain quota for them through their metrics system.
Amazon does not care about the talent or ability a good worker brings into the environment.
One can be a poor worker just as long as they put on a show for the customer.
As I’ve mentioned, I have witnessed a shitty, lazy, unprofessional, lead (Michael Gonzalez) who is not too bright- as well as certain other coworkers who are not sufficient-yet they may just put on a facade to gain positive reviews for themselves.
Amazon uses these ignorant employees without them realizing that Amazon is just using them to promote and advance the company.
It is a psychological strategy I discerned and never fell for.
Management now offers rewards to encourage team members to gain as many reviews as possible by asking customers to take surveys for the service they receive.
At 6:15 pm throughout the weekday, every Hub Locker Employee has to be on the A-to-Z app to compete for a shift that will complete their flexible work schedule. If one is not quick enough, or if their page doesn’t refresh in enough time, they will miss out on receiving their desired shift.
The entire ordeal is ludicrous and the many changes going on at Amazon are for the worst instead of for the better.
I don’t know most of the people who work within the Human Resource department and I definitely cannot speak for all of them, but I definitely can say that Amazon needs better management, and better decision-making.
Amazon needs to better screen and evaluate employees regardless of their positions whether higher or lower. Amazon also needs to stop regarding the customer as being more valuable than the employee because without the employee there would be no one to serve the customer.
I have enhanced by learning extra, but I already knew much of what I know now that many people take years to learn through age, and by their own personal experience. Through experience within things some people still do not grasp on correctly and they walk through life with false perception and misrepresentation of life factors.
I had a lot of problems with negative people growing up because I was bright.
However, I do not understand why certain people thought that because they did not know particular things when they were younger that I was not supposed to either while I was at a young age.
People have a tendency to generalize and to reflect their inadequacies or insecurities onto others, especially when the aspect is common to them.
Some people do not want to accept another person who is younger than them to know more or just as much as they do because of ego or reasons of bias.
In fact, I knew more than they did in regard to particular matters within their older age. If I tried to correct an older person when they made an error, or tried to explain where I was coming from, they would react nasty or disdainful.
Not all people reacted within this fashion toward me only a “specific type”.
When I was younger there were positive people who told me and my mother that they were nowhere near the level that we was on when they were at my age.
I have been called unique, rare, strange, brilliant, and crazy (by jealous people). I don’t care. To me, I am just a spiritual person having a human experience continuing to grow on my journey in trusting and understanding my purpose and relationship with God.
I was always ahead of my time, advanced in ways that came without anyone having to teach me.
My mother and I were able to teach ourselves as youngsters. When we went to school, we exceled in the subjects we were strong in.
School did not make us smart, though, we were already adept to begin with.
Yes. One can be self-taught within a lot of things, especially within life experience.
School does not necessarily make one bright.
Education is the process of learning, acquiring knowledge of or skill in something by study, encounter, or being taught. The setting is irrelevant when things are ascertained.
I know plenty of people who attended school who are not smart.
Intelligence is something one is born with.
Knowledge or information is gained, and comes through and within various forms.
It is whether or not one is able to grasp what they learn.
As a person, and as an adult, I have never treated one inferior just because they were younger. I never tried to use my age as a weapon.
Just because one is older does not necessarily make one wiser.
There are young people who can teach an older person something just as there are older people who can teach the young many things.
I don’t consider myself to know everything at all. And I am definitely not the smartest person in the world. I am ahead within the gifts I possess, and I have a lot of knowledge, but I don’t want to know everything. I just know I have a heightened sense and connection to a realm within life that I was always familiar with.
Acknowledging our capabilities is not an expression of conceit or an exaggerated opinion of oneself when one is level-headed and logical. God wants us to be aware of who we are and the things that he equipped within us to have and accomplish to show his glory. Within our ability is a sample of God’s incredibility.
I write this as an encouragement to those who have been mistreated by older folks that have a tendency to manipulate, corrupt, hold-back, or mislead, because they cannot stand to see a younger individual who did not mess up or get caught into the same perils of life they once did.
Instead of being an example to cheer one on, they would rather drag another down as that younger person may have been a reminder of all they could have been, or wanted to be at one time or another in life.
We are blessed with certain gifts that God bestows upon us and some of us are anointed at a very young age.
God makes no mistakes. Do not let anyone tell you what you are not, what you do not know, or what you are not capable of doing.
When God enables us for his intention no one can disable us through attempting to bring about our suspension.
When one has wisdom, and can see through others, some people do not like it.
When we do not like, or do not take to certain others, and prefer to keep our distance from them and not, or no longer associate with them they will react adversely.
It is hard for some to accept or handle the fact that they are at fault within areas that we can discern so they will accuse us or another as being crazy (usually a head- game/gaslighting) or as the one with the problem.
Some people do not think or believe that they are the ones who are trouble.
Circumstances and situations can become complicated when others are not on the level and are not within harmony, or up to par with another person’s wavelength.
Sometimes they might even believe that they are the ones on the higher level due to the denial rooted within their own lack of knowledge within particular areas of life and within themselves.
There are those who will gang up on one when they do not believe they are wrong, especially if there are others who they get along with who share their same mentality.
Often those of a similar mindset no matter how nescient (ignorant), misinformed, condescending, judgmental, or twisted in thinking they may be will get along because they can relate to their own distorted and parochial views that make sense to them.
A lot of these people are deceptive, manipulative, spiteful, petty, envious/jealous, insecure, and unreasonable.
Misery loves company and when they know we are at ease and living in peace they become even bitter.
As one genuinely born with second-sight, the inherited gift of extrasensory perception, I am far from a dummy and I have never been anyone’s fool.
One of my strongest gifts from the Lord is sensing things about people in areas that others cannot sense or pick up right away.
I know who to trust and who not to trust, I am an authentic, truthful person, one who is not given to tell lies. I do not appreciate liars, I never have, and I do not entertain such behavior.
The “knowing power”, of wisdom, knowledge, and discernment along with other special spiritual ability, is a gift and blessing bestowed upon me from the Lord to carry out, and to fulfill my purpose for the wonderful plan he always had set before me.
No one can stop the arrangement of God he has the final word in all things.
I fear nothing and no one, the Lord is my protection and shield, he has proven this to me all throughout my life, regardless of the times in the past when I was angry at him for personal reasons of my own.
When people unjustifiably come after me, attempt to do me wrong, tell lies or whatever, God takes care of them every time, so I do not have to fret. God does not let people get away with trying to hinder or harm his children. I leave everything within his mighty hands.
I have never considered myself a failure and I am not, and never will be. None of us who are called by the Lord are. We are conquerors here to partake in our mission whatever that may be, we are not defined by the world’s standard or view of what prosperity and success is.
So to all who walk in the light of the spirit, keep moving forward, God is in control.
Whatever the Lord/Holy Spirit puts in your heart to do carry it out delightfully without hesitation. God is right there beside us all the way. Just believe, pray, listen, and let the Lord continue to lead.
At that moment their eyes were opened, and they suddenly felt shame at their nakedness. So they sewed fig leaves together to cover themselves. When the cool evening breezes were blowing, the man and his wife heard the LORD God walking about in the garden. So they hid from the LORD God among the trees. Then the LORD God called to the man, “Where are you?” He replied, “I heard you walking in the garden, so I hid. I was afraid because I was naked.” “Who told you that you were naked?” the LORD God asked. “Have you eaten from the tree whose fruit I commanded you not to eat?” -Genesis 3:7-11
And to the man he said, “Since you listened to your wife and ate from the tree whose fruit I commanded you not to eat, the ground is cursed because of you. All your life you will struggle to scratch a living from it. -Genesis 3:17
Sin is a reproach to God. It goes against everything that he is. God is not only love, but God is holy. God cannot tolerate anything unjust or corrupt.
When he tells us not to sin it is for our own good and not to harm us or keep us from enjoyment.
It is sometimes so hard for us to break away from certain sins of the world because we were born into error and it is natural for us to be incline to what is inherently familiar to our environment and surroundings.
In our lives we’ve done things we didn’t even recognize or think of as sin because of our innate proneness.
Whether one struggles with anger, selfishness, pride, hate, envy, jealousy, lying, stealing, gossiping and etc….
Our Lord in heaven understands our shortcomings and inability to uphold to his standards. He does not condemn us he wants to help each and every one of us who call out to him.
God knows there are things we cannot do on our own and that we need his holy spirit to enable us to be more like Christ.
Everyone is an individual with their own different set of circumstances or personal battles. No one is the same and we all have distinct ways of looking at things, and ways of feeling about things.
So, no one should go around to assume what is going on with a person, what they are going through, and/or why.
God does not want us to carry the heavy load of stress, guilt, unworthiness, depression, sadness or anything else disheartening we are to lay all of our burdens, cares and worries on him. Then we must trust in him enough to see us through.
It is not possible for us to do anything without God. Only with God are all things possible!
Encountering difficulty and people who are trouble is an inevitable part of life. We unfortunately cannot avoid this problem. We live in a broken world full of torn ligaments and dislocated parts.
This culture is shattered now more than it ever has been.
Many of us will have or have had trouble brought into our lives by other people.
Other individuals will not always line up with what we believe in or where we stand on certain things and they will not necessarily believe in everything we say even though we speak the truth.
We must learn to continuously trust in the Lord our God to always carry us through every difficult situation that may arise.
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever. –Hebrews 13:8
We are to hold firm onto the faith that we will make it through whatever problems happen to come our way just as God has delivered us so many times before.
The righteous person faces many troubles, but the LORD comes to the rescue each time. –Psalms 34:19
The Lord consistently gives us his comfort and peace within a way that is incomprehensible to others as we are unaffected by the circumstances and events that would otherwise upset or tear them apart.
God gives us wisdom, strength, and confidence because we personally know him and he knows us extremely well! He lives inside of us and we are in him and nothing can ever separate us from our Lord Jesus Christ. My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. -John 10:27
Even if we wander for a while, we will eventually return again to our heavenly father due to the fact that he comes looking for his children to bring them safely back to the fold.
For this is what the Sovereign LORD says: I myself will search and find my sheep. -Ezekiel 34:11
“If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them gets lost, what will he do? Won’t he leave the ninety-nine others in the wilderness and go to search for the one that is lost until he finds it? Luke 15:4
I speak all from what I truly know firsthand!
Some people cause their own problems, their troubles are often a result of their own deeds. Some accept their faults and attempt to improve and learn from the errors of their ways. Some others, instead, continue on not taking any responsibility or just don’t care of their destructive actions.
We in particular know that when we walk with God and stand for Jesus, we will especially have discord among specific people. It is being made clear those who are adhering to the Lord and those who are deserting him.
Jesus himself acknowledged that we would have conflicts in our lives and he wanted us to be prepared for them. “Don’t imagine that I came to bring peace to the earth! I came not to bring peace, but a sword. -Matthew 10:34
He knew that some would be divided when it came to choosing him, living, and being not of this fallen world.
Back during the spring, I prayed to God to find me a good church that was right and compatible for me to attend. One that was Christian and that preached straight out of the bible.
God answered my prayer and delivered.
I found a nice church that I like with a Pastor who is authentic and studies the bible with me one on one every week.
My church gives Communion, has prayer group meetings, teaching and learning, outreach and service, discipleship and community and is dedicated to complete fellowship with God.
No church is perfect (as far as members who gossip, who are judgmental, and who put on airs in general) but I found my place of worship and I’m content with the church that the Lord led me to.
Going to church every Sunday, reading the bible regularly, and doing good works doesn’t mean one is saved. It is doing those things along with having a close personal relationship with our heavenly father. What is the purpose in going to church, reading the bible and doing good if one doesn’t truly know God/Jesus? It never hurts to do good will regardless out of one’s heart, but we are not saved by any good works, bible reading or church attending. We are saved through faith and belief in our lord and savior with a true desire to want to give our life to him.
As long as we who are genuinely sincere, dedicated, and striving our best to live and stay connected to God we will be okay.
Do This In Remembrance Of Me
Then he took a cup of wine and gave thanks to God for it. Then he said, “Take this and share it among yourselves.For I will not drink wine again until the Kingdom of God has come.”
He took some bread and gave thanks to God for it. Then he broke it in pieces and gave it to the disciples, saying, “This is my body, which is given for you. Do this in remembrance of me.”
After supper he took another cup of wine and said, “This cup is the new covenant between God and his people—an agreement confirmed with my blood, which is poured out as a sacrifice for you. –Luke 22: 17-20
In my late teens, while I was having a weekly bible study, I had mentioned to my group members the trouble I was undergoing in my neighborhood with fellow teens and adults who were jealous of me for not doing and not having done the things that they were doing. I lived a totally different lifestyle than what they all did.
One lady from my bible study specifically pointed to a particular verse of scripture and then spoke it out loud to me. It read: They are puzzled that you do not continue running with them in the same decadent course of debauchery, so they speak abusively of you. 1 Peter 4:4
Although I had never indulged within the same behaviors as certain neighborhood folk, I had cut loose those who I had grown up with and refused to be bothered with others who were not of good character…
Love? That is so funny. You don’t know the definition of love! I don’t want anything from you. I don’t want your affection or your money, or anything else from you.
If you loved yourself you would have never done the specific things you’ve done and lived life the specific way you’ve lived.
Remember when you told me you wanted to give me funds from your pension when you die? Well, you can shove it up your ass.
You can’t buy me!
I don’t need your itty bitty shit I was born to have my own and I have been doing pretty darn well- I even do my own taxes! I have been handling my own jobs, career, and money for years now. The universe is not going to let anything happen to me.
Oh what a pathetic bitch you are, Tina, you along with others who were foolish enough to fuck with me in the first place.
Beg all you want bitch! I don’t give a fuck about you.
I’m an inevitable success story.
No matter how hard you and other undesirables tried you could not break my spirit or inhibit my drive and purpose. I prevailed, I always have, and I always will, you were all just far too dumb to see it and realize that you weren’t hurting anyone but yourselves.
You can keep making an ass out of yourself if you want, just like you have done for the majority of your life, because I have absolutely no regard for you.
The sad thing about everything is instead of being proud of having a niece of my caliber and character you were filthy jealous and destructive, especially as you admitted to me and my mother how the majority of the other neighborhood folks and youngsters were a bunch of nothings, yet you joined in with many of them (Did they know that while you were out gossiping and making up lies about my mother and I that you were coming back talking about some of them to us when you were at your lowest point? I don’t think so! They’re so stupid just like you.)
How sick can you be? I shouldn’t have asked that question because you broke the mold when it came to being twisted.
I’m happy, I have peace, I am blessed, and I have success. I also have a host of good and powerful blood related ancestors from your mother’s side of the family who’ve watched over me since my birth.
You don’t even know the beauty of our family and their history. You were too busy running the streets.
Did you know your mother had seven or eight brothers and sisters in actuality? Do you know how much family we have down south and spread about? We’ve known and met family that you don’t even know about.
I’m your only true connection to your mother also. You’ll never know what’s going on with her in the spirit world because I’d never share those revelations with you.
I’ll tell you this though, she (Catherine) is alright, so far she has been in a content sphere for a long time now.
Amanda and Junie, however, went straight to the depths leading to hell where they most definitely belong and where they suffer.
Down below are links and messages from my mother’s sister, Tina, sent to me on Facebook.
This is for you, Tina, although you probably wouldn’t comprehend as logic and reasoning doesn’t register with you. And, since your HIV/Aids has probably gone to your head by now.
Since I was a child you were very jealous of me because I was very intellectually advanced and highly educational that is why you went around saying I had no education when it was actually you who had no knowledge.
You always had that low level trash mentality.
You have no high school diploma and did not graduate from high school that is why you went into the National Guards because you didn’t know anything and you wouldn’t have gotten into there if my mother hadn’t helped you out and told you what to do but you couldn’t even excel within that.
If it wasn’t for my mother Annette Theodora Cromwell wouldn’t even have gotten into college.
Now I don’t knock anyone who didn’t finish school the traditional way because I understand distinction within individuals everyone has their own way and their own calling or set of circumstances.
However, you really focused on making me out to appear like a stupid person when you didn’t even finish school yourself.
Did you know I actually skipped a grade when I was twelve? And when I was ten I passed tests that high school kids couldn’t pass. At eight years old I got an award for being one of the best readers within my entire school.
When I became an adult I got accepted into a college but I never cared about any of that shit because I wasn’t an insecure person like you.
When you were at those young ages all you achieved and was well known for was being on drugs and being a skank.
I at such a young age was gifted and passed all of my tests, received awards, and certificates in school so you and Amanda tried to interfere because I was nowhere near a dummy like you and Amanda.
You both knew I was headed for accomplishments that you both weren’t capable of gaining.
You wasted your time because I never relied on the approval of others or cared what anyone thought I’m proud of everything about myself and I have no regrets.
I was born with a caul you dumb bitch I have second-sight, I mean really, what the fuck did you think you could do? I was ahead of you. I laugh at you.
I knew just about everything you did through dreams, visions, and intuition.
You did the same to my mother because she was bright and multi-talented.
You said my mother never worked a day in her life because you couldn’t get the jobs that she could. You and Amanda were fools that people could use and abuse. Then you two were absurd enough to think that you could destroy me and my mother’s lives with voodoo/witchcraft/black magic and lies.
You conspired to give my mother a nervous breakdown and make her out to be lower than what you actually were out of pure envy, jealousy, and your own true state of mental illness.
It’s all in the past now but you still won’t leave us alone. We don’t care anything about you, we never did, and never will.
Nobody is hurt by you, you are nothing to be distressed by, you never had the power to destroy us, we just don’t like you at all.
You are an undesirable person who has done far too much dirt why would anybody of any class, intelligence, and substance want to be bothered with you.
Why don’t you go call and bother your own kind of fellow degenerates who share within the delusions of their own mentalities.
You are a pathetic piece of trash.
Go call up George Owens/Taalib Muhammad, Joanne Anderson Franks, Doritta Almodovar, Renee Blackwell, her sister Teresa Blackwell, Jeff Jemmott, Olivia Oliver and her kids and grand kids that you all talked about like a dog (remember when cookie and her kids gave you a concussion and put you in the hospital?), Spotface Pat Bush and your dyke crew, Diane Mims, Sonia, Lorraine Burwell- the bitch with the broken legs and her sister Judy Clarke, the nigger you stabbed with the knife who took a shit in your toilet before you called the cops on him, Annette Theodora Cromwell-the bitch who fucked some nigger down on Hollis at the tire shop, and all of the other sick and twisted fucks you use to run to and with.
You have no one. They don’t give a fuck about you, you stupid bitch. And look at all of the stupid unnecessary shit that you did to us for years. With your broke ass.
Go call up Amanda. Or better yet, why don’t you go join her in the grave.
Bitch, maybe you should give me a call so I could blow your mind with all of the shit that I know for someone who doesn’t have an education. I’ll teach you some life-long lesson facts.
Things are going my way. The universe harkens unto my voice. I live in my truth and my way harkens unto the intangible dimensions within my connection to the universe. The destiny that was designed for me, and the destiny I design, are both intertwined, and as they are both within harmony, they will not be denied.
Whereas there are a lot of good people in the world there are also plenty of negative and mediocre people inhabiting the planet and when no good people find out that they cannot use you and abuse you they do whatever it is within their power to refuse you the opportunities in which you are entitled to.
However, is not up to them or entirely in their hands to decide how far we go within life, or within our careers so to speak. It is just we live in a society governed and controlled by some people who are corrupt, and by some who are not on a certain “elevated” level and wavelength, or both.
The power is within the universe to ultimately decide, and the energy is dispelled unto not only those who are spiritually receptive, but to who it is also celestially intended.
As a spiritual person, life has consistently went better for me than the average life has went for others.
I was always meant to be successful and I have succeeded within many fashions and aspects of my life.
There are and have constantly been people, nevertheless, who’ve tried and who still take part in earnestly attempting to hold me back at reaching my highest peaks of deserved financial success.
I’ve worked jobs that I didn’t really want to do, or that I had no genuine interest in just to steadily gain a stable income to allow me to pay my bills, and to maintain the lifestyle that I frequently enjoy.
I was always able to make a good volume of money but they don’t want me to further delight in what they will never be able to have.
There is nothing they can do to stop who I am, what I’m capable of doing or achieving, or the things I was born to accomplish, they have only been able to delay certain events from taking place at a sooner period.
The time they stole and continue to steal, for the time being, until my optimum time finally arrives, is the extra time they’ll spend burning relentlessly within the lower depths of hell once they arrive to their inevitable and eternal destination. They have to suffer here, though, before they go, and a tough lesson beforehand they surely will learn.
I don’t follow the ways of the world because the world has absolutely nothing to do with me, I follow my own individual nature, preferences, and inclinations.
I have always definitely known how to live and to survive in this world, yet I am nothing of this world, and I never will be, and I am very proud of this actual fact.
People getting mad and destructive through the cellestial bestowments directed out from the great universe.
Unfortunately desiring to harm other individuals because they are blessed in ways that they aren’t – Miss LaToya
I never understood why certain individuals who were of a lower intellect and character, tried to dominate and degrade, those who were of a higher level and caliber.
It happened all the time among specific type of people who considered themselves to be up to par, yet were actually not.
The ones who’d get downgraded and downplayed were the true definition of genuine sunstance, and quality.
Imitators who aspired to duplicate within their own facades, often hunted deep to find fault within those who were just living normally, often creating a barrage of unwarranted attacks, in a mere attempt to completely subdue one.
Strange how relentless people are, and how far many of them will go, due to their own unfathomable resentment toward the favorable advantage naturally granted upon certain others.
Fiends put themselves into a sleep, as they can’t cope because life is just too deep. -miss latoya
I wonder what was in that heroin to incite a lot of junkies to believe they were experts on everything.
They have a delusion in where they are smart and everyone else is dumb.
Within their false assumptions, distorted points of view, and severely altered mind state, they are in tune to various illusion in which blows away the most keen individual toward a hysterical fit of laughter.
Their reasoning is outrageous, and their logic is quite ludicrous.
I guess those of us within a healthy and productive mindset, and bestowing extra sensory capacity, have a lot to learn by not adapting to what is not reality.
Once one begins to regularly deliberate within fallacy, they’ll be just as bright and informed as the junkie, and also agreeably welcomed, and suitably joined, into the fool’s comfortably inadequate paradise.
Everyone who has had a breakdown of some sort is not weak, crazy, or dangerously unstable.
A breakdown is spiritual within many instances. A Yoruba priestess even acknowledged this fact to me years ago. I know firsthand as my own mother was a victim of brujeria in the early 1980’s.
I was even targeted. My aunt tried to flip me out when I was eighteen years of age by putting the hallucinogenic drug mescaline into a hot pot of black eyed peas that I had cooking over the stove.
People often use recreational “trip” drugs to increase the chance or enhance the effect of mental and chemical alterations of the brain while also performing the negative spiritual influences within black magic/voodoo/witchcraft.
My aunt went a step further in her malicious attempt by also putting tainted hiv fluids inside my food. Anyone educated would know the disease would not survive within the air and within a pot of scalding hot water.
Nevertheless, I didn’t lose my head or have a breakdown, my mind was too strong with faculty and awareness, and I didn’t, of course, become infected with aids either.
I was young, innocent, and very spiritually inclined, so divine intervention took over and protected me.
My aunt Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has been hiv positive since the 1980’s due to intravenous drug use and promiscuous behavior from the 1970’s on up and instead of using her limited time to spend changing her life around for the better, she continued to do tons of constant dirt. She and other envious and jealous ruthless dummies, whores, drug addicts, and degenerates attacked me and other family for decades.
They’ve in addition done it to others, however, when they came after my mother and I, they messed with the wrong individuals. We are people of the light and they are people of the darkness. My ancestors and orishas were ready for them all, and the universe was recording and keeping record of every notorious deed in which was repeatedly done toward us.
Tina had poisoned food of my mother’s years ago too while neighbors were working black magic/voodoo/witchcraft against her.
My grandfather was driven to mental affliction before he was killed and found dead in the Hudson river.
My aunt Charise was drugged and raped which caused her to be afflicted with mental illness.
My grandfather, mother, younger aunt, and I were targeted for manipulative breakdowns because we were all very smart, strong, and fighters who could literally kick ass if needed be. We weren’t the type to back down or be bullied by anyone, and we were all good upstanding people.
The intent for causing mental, emotional, and spiritual breakdowns are to weaken one, to render them as incredible, and to lower their self esteem and spirit.
Certain evildoers want those of us who have knowledge in which threaten their unscrupulous ways either dead or labeled as crazy.
Nevertheless, I am a very intelligent and logical open-minded woman who knows there are a lot of females who are interested in men and sex, or who may just use men for sex whether they want to have a child or they may just want to get their kicks off.
I can still elaborate common sense to a subject in which makes no sense.
I don’t care what anyone does with their lives or with their bodies as it is of no concern to me, in spite of that fact, as a societal issue and as a woman/lady myself I am inspired to express on this subject.
I’m not at all saying that attitudes will ever change, but that I, and I am quite sure many others, absolutely do not…
As a child I wasn’t sheltered. I’d seen and heard a lot and encountered numerous types of people and situations while at the same time not being negatively influenced within my own behavior by incorporating undesirable habits or lifestyle choices, yet informed, as I had a mind of my own.
I had firsthand experience without having to personally indulge in order to know and since I was spiritually inclined I was able to clearly discern things that were hidden under the surface and I definitely knew what appealed to me and what turned me off and what I wanted to avoid as I grew up in life.
One of my strongest points is my excellent communication skills and comprehension. What I lack though is a sympathetic nature toward people and the world in general. I do love the hell out of puppies and dogs, though, they just steal my heart. They’re so innocent, sincere, and lovable those little adorable fuckers.
Since I nipped that “Think Of Me Spell” in the bud last week another corresponding negative technique was put in motion to run its trifling course. It’s definitely witchcraft yet all it has done is give me a off and on headache.
The motive is to drain me of my good energy and luck to render me vulnerable to the effects of whatever negativity and negative energy in which they gear toward me as they have failed so badly with endeavoring to bring me down and to destroy me.
These idiots are continuing to further ruin themselves through attempting to cause my demise. I am a very good and blessed person and I am and will constantly be guided and protected by divine intervention.
Adversaries are actually hurt because I am not at all hurt or affected by the negativity and dirt they’ve directed toward me within the past and by the negativity and dirt in which some of them still continue to direct toward me now.
They are infuriated by the love I have for myself, my high self esteem, the love and respect I have around me, and the fact that they are unable to stop me from living my life and speaking the truth.
I am a writer by nature, I have a gift, and I am naturally motioned by spirit to utilize and exercise creatively, honestly, and productively whenever inspired. There is power in the universe to those of us who are endowed.
It deeply frustrates them how they cannot get to me emotionally or mentally. And I can “feel” their upsets within my body through intense empathic ability. So they couldn’t deny it even if they wanted to. Feeling and being able to perceive other peoples emotions has always been one of my dominant faculties as a highly spiritually inclined person.
They’re going to drive themselves crazy with trying to hurt or thwart me with things and circumstances in which do not faze me. I’m not the average person. I’ve always been on a entirely different level and will never be hurt by their words, lies, jealousies, ignorant thinking, malicious deeds and etc…
Of course, when somebody comes up against me I will take up for myself or fight back as I am a very feisty and strong individual. And I definitely will correct anyone who comes at me with the wrong approach. One doesn’t have to be hurt to retaliate out of hatred, vengeance, or justification these instances have absolutely nothing to do with being hurt within certain types of people. Everyone is different and does not act out for the same reasons or under the same intention.
Although I do realize many of my adversaries have been hurt by me as I have not been too friendly or receptive to their kind (as I’ve never been fond of their type and those with similar traits and mindsets) yet they hurt themselves by ignorantly making assumptions and adhering to preconceived notions while really knowing the real deal then proceeding to carry out nonsense due to pure spite and resentment.
I know that nothing bad is ever going to happen to me as it never has. Although I may sometimes have to go through bad things I go through these particular incidents if or when they arise without any serious worry or dismay.
Certain people never understood how I handled what is considered to them as a tribulation so well and nonchalantly.
It is just a natural reaction of peace and ease from my own personal experience with my spirituality and the momentous encounters throughout my life. And frankly, it is sometimes just my cold attitude of not giving a damn.
Nevertheless, I am monitored and protected by spirit.
It’s sad when others plan negative designs upon me and others in specific with the genuine “knowing power” then have or assume successful expectations to come into fruition as I know all along how things will inevitably work out and go within my favor.
Even if it is just a regular periodic hard seemingly time in which may happen as an up and down part of life or celestial test. I know that I will make it through alright without a doubt because that is just me and the way it is within my life condition.
People endeavor and attempt to do dirt out of spite or greed or whatever else and I always know what the outcome will be.
It’s a pure waste of time on the perpetrator’s part, however, they don’t know this or they’re too arrogant within their ignorance to understand and realize this fact.
As I am born with Extra Sensory Perception I know what scheme people will calculate against me before they do themselves and I know how the situation will eventually turn out.
When one tells the harsh truths about no good people fellow like-minded individuals don’t want to hear or believe it. When one tells vile lies on good people haters are eager to hear and ready to believe.
There are people now and for a while now who are and who have been sorry for the negativity in which they had directed toward me.
They feel stupid and regret the things that they have done and took part in yet I’d never accept their apologies and I would never forgive them. I don’t want any apology I just want them to suffer for their dumb errors.
I’d never even give them the benefit of the doubt I’m so disgusted by their ignorance and audacity to so readily believe and be so eager to falsely come up against me on account of whatever they heard from someone else’s mouth when they didn’t even know me personally. I never went around bothering anybody. People were getting mad because I didn’t want to be bothered with them and because I had no dirt on me.
If I didn’t have the strong mind and spirit in which I had where would I have been?
Fortunately I wasn’t affected or devastated by the ordeal, if anything, I was enhanced as I always continue to evolve and grow, however, I thought about other people who weren’t strong enough and had gotten destroyed through the barage of other people’s ignorance, jealousy, and lies.
I don’t care if what they were told did come from a family member or certain people who’d been around me. People lie on people every day and one can live with someone and hang around them and still don’t genuinely know the heart or mind of the individual.
People didn’t really know or understand me only smart people who were on my level or higher could see me for who I honestly was and they truly liked, loved, and respected me and they all still do they’d never listen to or go along with nonsense out of pure envy, jealousy, and idiotic misgiving, and people like them immediately earn my respect. My own mother admitted to me that she never understood everything about me because I never thought like or had the mentality of the average person.
As one born with second-sight it is very hard for me to put myself in these people’s shoes because I’ve always been able to look and see through people, things, and situations whereas other people couldn’t rationalize so I was never one to be easily deceived or one to fall for anything major. I’ve always had a mind of my own and analyzed things.
I’m so sick and tired of undesirables but here we go again. And I never cared anything about their kind though I keep getting warnings and messages about them and I am ever so grateful for the insightful revelations.
There are people who don’t use drugs who are trash and degenerate, and all people who dabbled in drugs don’t go around spreading and making up lies about their relatives, this type of behavior stems from a type of mental illness and a sickness within anyone behaving in this manner.
Most jealousy starts within the family and no one knows that better than me. There was tremendous dirt done by particular family members much too much through out the years to fit into just one post.
I unfortunately have an aunt by the name of Ernestine Lawrence and she was always extremely jealous of my mother and I along with my great grandmother Amanda Byars (who is deceased now) and uncle Willie Jr (also deceased) and all three of these individuals were junkies.
Tina has had the nerve to try to contact me through Facebook a few times a few months back I just ignored her request. I know what she’s up to I see right through her. The bitch is in trouble all of the dirt she’s done and the bitch also wants information.
It’s bad enough when one has envy and jealousy from others on the outside but when you have a few undesirable relatives deceptively conspiring along with a parade of fellow ignorant and gullible lowlifes in an effort to bring you down to the gutter level to where they are it is just despicable.
I’ve hated undesirables ever since childhood because of the way their minds operated and because they’ve always proved to be and cause nothing but trouble.
Ernestine Lawrence was so jealous of my intelligence and achievements so she went around lying saying I had no education. She was jealous of my mother’s intellect and the jobs that she was able to get so she went around saying that my mother never worked a day in her life.
Amanda Byars along with neighbors on the outside worked brujeria on my mother causing her to have a mental breakdown when I was a child then went around saying that she was crazy and that she bugged out over a man when this particular man and his sister was just mad because my mother didn’t want him or a baby by him.
They tried to do the same to me. Who puts black magic on a seven year old child on up?!
Men got mad at me because I didn’t want them too and lied and tried to give me a reputation and make me lose my mind with black magic I didn’t give a fuck about that shit couldn’t no man degrade me.
When I published my first book about the family they lied and said my mother told me what to write about when in truth my mother had no idea exactly what I was going to put in my novel. I would ask her a few questions from time to time but other than that she didn’t know, however, she knew it was autobiographical. Everything came from me and my own words as I’d been writing since the age of ten but Ernestine and Amanda didn’t know that about me as certain others who knew me did.
Unsavvy people took the word of jealous junkies who’ve committed every deed of dirt known to man and they are all paying for it now and in ways they wouldn’t recognize.
Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has had HIV since the eighties and is dying like a dog. I don’t understand why it’s taking so long for her to die. I guess she has to suffer before she goes and busts the gates of hell wide open. She’ll go out with an explosion.
My uncle was still shooting up before he died from AIDs as Amanda tried to cover it up saying he had cancer. Amanda croaked in the year 2009. They were all miserable and had messed up their lives at an early age and tried so deeply to destroy mine and my mother’s.
Nevertheless, I was protected and came out on top because right prevailed over others wrongdoings and I don’t care about any of their sorry feelings or regard. I wish them all nothing but doom.
My mother is a little more understanding, she’s not taking up for any of them but she explained to me how some people get fooled by the crafty skill of a liar and when tall tales may come from members of someone’s family others just may not know any better. She told me that I shouldn’t compare myself to them as far as being able to distinguish specific matters because my world is completely different from theirs since I was born with extrasensory perception.
She also imparted how some of the instigators and harassers were victims themselves because they didn’t really know the truth or the real deal about what was actually going on until later. And how the junky’s mind is on a totally different level than that of a logical and healthy thinking mind.
My mother is right in her words, yes many of them are sick, but still I am not giving those who fell for what they wanted to hear and act on a free pass and I’m not making allowances for any of the worthless addicts who dared to ruin my life. There were plenty who took part and knew that they were all lying and went along with the conspiracy anyway it was all part of the game. Some were so ill they believed their own delusions.
They even used black magic from time to time to get inside my mother’s head to turn her against me with fabrications. A lot of people don’t understand how voodoo/black magic/witchcraft works but I do and it will effect the people around you. It also unnaturally effects everyday happenings and the energy around one.
My mother had many times been so nice and helpful to people just for them to turn around and do her dirty. I’m glad I’ve never been as nice and helpful toward certain people, not that she did anything wrong she just was good to some people who didn’t deserve her kindness.
The universe has been good to me and allowed me to be aloof to all of the wickedness that was around me so I won’t complain.
I’ve never been a fan of Wendy Williams and I am not a frequent viewer of her talk show.
I have a relative who tunes in to her from time to time just for the hell of it and today a repeat episode of Wendy’s ran where she spoke on people home schooling their children. Wendy has stated before on her show that she is not fond of home schooling and she mentioned today how the situation in her opinion prevents socialization.
There are definitely other ways in which a child is able to mingle or socialize and grow up productively besides attending a public school with other children so she is wrong, nevertheless, this is not the matter I have with Wendy after watching the segment my issue is her criticizing some parents reasons for not wanting their children learning around conflicting environments created by the cruelty of other kids .
Now, I understand in the real world there are these same circumstances and behaviors of adult people that occur everyday and that are an unfortunate part of what goes on within society.
Early life experience does lead one to awareness, preparation, adapting, and coping methods, however, to say that everyone has been bullied and taunted with remarks that are hurtful but that the events served to makes us all out to be stronger and today’s generation are raising a bunch of wimps as if bullying or harassing and taunting behavior from others is an acceptable rite of passage.
So certain parents who don’t want their children interacting with other toxic dysfunctional fuckers contributes to being weak? I think not!
And where is Wendy William’s so strong at? She is one who has had nothing but major self esteem issues as the bitch has been heavily addicted to drugs and alcohol, lowered herself so bad to suck on mens penises, surgically blew up her breast to resemble hideous basketball titties, and married a man who she allowed to continuously use and abuse her.
Wendy Williams needs to talk about no one because her shit is all fucked up.
It’s fellow trash like her with the same ignorant mentality which promotes bullies and harassment among degenerates within the first place.
People of a specific mindset only insult, try to dominate, or attack, because they assume that it will hurt, give them control, or cause fear.
To categorize everyone as the same and take for granted that everyone will react within the same to these instances is a mistake and generalization.
I remember when I had people harassing me and trying to bring me down years ago for no reason other than “the green eyed monster”, and accused me of putting up a front because I was undisturbed by their conspiracy of spreading lies and rumors against me then having people I didn’t even know utter out insults and remarks at me in attempts to intimidate me, and I had absolutely no idea what they were talking about as I truly wasn’t fazed by their bullshit.
What the incident genuinely came down to was they themselves really didn’t have the strength and level of mentality as I did to sincerely be unaffected by the negative treatment of other people and they knew it. They would have been crushed and destroyed if it had been done to them and that is why they used that stupid shit on me yet it failed to give them the results that they were looking for. I always ignored them and their “game” as their nonsense was an honest reflection of their own bouts with inadequacy.
And, don’t stand up for yourself or speak your mind if need be, though, because you’ll just get accused of being “defensive” the psychological mind game and manipulation tactic in which assholes use in order to place their own insecurities on you when they can’t deal with accepting truth or fault.
Wendy Williams is a total idiot bullying another doesn’t make them stronger look at the poor souls who commit suicide (not that everyone who kills themself is weak because all of them were not) or become flunkies to the human asses that they kiss due to low self worth?
One has to already have strength to endure and to get even stronger that is why people try to break them.
Bullies aren’t people with real strength as their only weapon is feeding off the fear of another. Usually it is the victim who is the strong one yet doesn’t even realize it yet and if or when they eventually find their courage the bully then becomes the true wimp.
Any form of bullying is and should be unacceptable.
No one can manipulate me into thinking within a fashion that is not of my nature and no one can manipulate me into acting within accordance to what is not of my innate state of being.
When one refuses to bow down to another just to get along with certain others they are considered being negative.
When one doesn’t like or want to be bothered with specific kinds of people they are considered being negative.
When one has a mind of their own which cannot be swayed and isn’t easily influenced by others and one doesn’t follow a crowd to fit in they are considered being negative.
When one isn’t afraid to stand up for what they know or believe in they are considered being negative.
When one tells a truth in which certain others don’t like or agree with they are considered being negative.
When others lie on one or does some type of malicious deed against them and one justifiably takes up for themself they are considered being negative.
When one doesn’t allow others to walk all over them and get over on them for their own benefit or through manipulative tactics they are considered being negative.
When one can sense and perceive unfavorable things about individuals that others are unable to see, process, or recognize for themself they are considered being negative.
Everything is being negative when it comes to the convenience of the actual negative people themselves. Anything to unscrupulously control an instance or provoke a situation in which to better suit their own ulterior motives and design.
And many unknowing and unsavvy people fall for their schemes as there are many who are oblivious to the artful guile of others in particular, or who share within the same mentality, or who just have a similar mode of calculating mindset.
Individuals who are in the right are often told that their own so called “negative behavior” will just create more negativity along down the line as to blame the intended target of unfairness for the trouble that is deliberately or primarily caused by others, a coercive statement which is lent to further manipulate one into submitting to and accepting the mischievous treatment and behavior of certain others, and to also permit them to freely get away with continuing on in their malicious deeds and actions within the future.
It is indeed a cunning and deceptive measure of audacity to acknowledge, a persuasive approach of nonsense talk which I have never listened to, as in reality, people of this nature inevitably create a vicious loop of negativity to spiral back at themselves when it comes to an individual as in tune as I am.
A lot of people don’t like other people who are too smart and who are too strong within the mind and within character especially those of us that by nature and instinct will fiercely tussle back when necessary.
The more these type of “sick” (as I call them) or unethical (if one wants to call them) people act out within their wrongdoings whether perceived to them as such, or not, the more they become disreputable and detestable to me.
In my opinion, there isn’t anything wrong with one who is aware of their accomplishments and capabilities and acknowledges them, it is the fashion in which one projects themself and intention behind their own recognition.
I think with certain people identifying within their attributed description, as they may also detail in regard to others, is harmless and not meant as to gloat but as a form of expression or discovery.
When arrogance becomes hubristic there is another scene bringing impact into the story.
As a child on up my mother loved and was proud of me yet she never bragged about me to anyone.
Peers would come to her boasting how their wife was this and their wife was that, their kid was this and their kid was that and from the constant proclaims my mother knew honestly their wives and children indeed weren’t shit.
Time brought out just how much the wife and kids of these braggarts had amounted up to, a figure not summed within the scale in which they smugly dared to measure, but a scale that announced a degree of great shame and embarrassment.
One’s looked down upon arose to bud, then bloomed on to become a bouquet of sprouting flowers, ones that were once the object of disdain became the example of a noteworthy and momentous acclaim.
Malicious people will call one a liar for speaking the truth.
For speaking a lie when they get caught malicious people will falsely state the truth, even sometimes expressing a tone of disdain, to cause intimidation and to deliberately give off a misleading impression with the intent to deceive.
Ill-natured people will often lie while aiming to tell what is perceived to them as truth and intentionally adapt themselves into believing their own self fulfilling lies.
Ever since I was a young child I knew that if there was something that I didn’t want within my life then the situation was not going to work out.
Only the things that I preferred and under the circumstances in which I truly desired would instances turn out favorably and long lasting to my concordance.
I was never the type of female that ever hoped to one day get married and have children. I didn’t initially yearn to be a mother, when the idea later on within young adulthood came into mind to have a child it was with the intention of being a single parent, yet I eventually changed my mind about having a baby altogether and it was the right choice for me.
If I did have a child though it definitely would have been on my own without a man involved in the picture.
I fortunately grew up in a home without my father present and that is the way I liked it as I grew up strong, confident, independent and liberated-not implying that females that are raised in homes with their father’s can’t turn out that way-it was just an advantage that served a great purpose for me.
When I was little I never wished for or thought about having a dad around and when I saw other children that parents were married or together as a couple it was a situation that I didn’t require to be in I was very content and accustomed to my family order with me and my mom.
I wasn’t alone either there were other kids like me whose mothers raised them without a father it was normal to us. I can’t speak on how they actually felt about the matter, however, everything suited me just fine.
My mother never had any problems out of me I was a good child.
One thing I hated though was when guys were attracted to me or interested in me whether their intentions were good or bad I didn’t care, I wasn’t flattered by any of the attention I was genuinely turned off by it.
And it feels so good that I don’t have to go through undesirable and unsavory individuals who use to send to me the annoying invasions of mind transference through voodoo/black magic.
They had been doing it within many ways for many years within different techniques but with the same motives and that was to bring me down to their level. Whether it was to attempt to lower my self esteem or to get me to have feelings for a man they worked hard at it and failed miserably.
These people were jealous and resentful because I’d never been hurt or dogged out by a man as so many of them had even the guys were envious and jealous of me they all figured if I was in the same predicament as they were I couldn’t or wouldn’t think that I was better than any of them.
They were also jealous and envious of my intelligence and knowledge and where I could go within life if and when the opportunity arose.
They had such a warped sense of mindset that didn’t correspond with mine in the least if they had succeeded in their designs I’d still be the person who I am today with the same mentality no man could ever break me or kill my spirit. I wasn’t built within that fashion.
If I were interested in men I’d be able to get a good man and would only deal with one that was on my level, however, I’m proudly asexual and am fulfilled and complete as a woman and an individual.
There is indeed racism and a lot of prejudices and bias within society against nationality as well as gender. Too much to cover in just one post so as of now I’m just going to briefly summarize on a few related issues.
Particularly, this black people thing and how when they’re insulted by someone of another race these days it’s considered being racist but what about other black folk who think, say, and feel the same way about black people as do some of the other nationalities?
And I am not taking up for any other race or ethnicity because any group of individuals can fall into their own stereotypical category and mode of description, however, I never hear about this being expressed within the media.
I as a black female grew up at a very early age in a neighborhood that was predominately white until the black people started moving in before I was born. When I was born there were mostly blacks and some Hispanics but very few whites if any left.
Nevertheless, I went to day care and kindergarten with all different type of nationalities of children then was bust out to a school district at the age of eight to a school and neighboring area predominately populated with white people and children.
There were also Japanese, Korean, Chinese, Hebrew, a few Hispanic and a few other blacks attending to the school.
It was a totally different experience and a favorable one at that also in many ways a better experience for me that was nurturing and quite beneficial to my well-being and growth due to the high level that I was on and the mentality that I shared.
All through out my life it has been white people who had treated me very well and would help to build me up to succeed whereas it was many of the other blacks that were lower than me that pursued to tear me down.
In all honesty and I don’t care who likes it or not many blacks are what a lot of white people negatively classify them as. They are trouble, they are ignorant, and they are very undesirable as a people.
I heard it said that black people in general are not as intellectually bright unless they were mixed with a percentage of other ancestry and long before that I use to hear that from my mother as well as she would tell me that I had to have had european blood in me for me to be as bright as I was.
And I do understand how DNA works it can come from way back we don’t necessarily get or have the same genetic traits or share attributes just because we’re closely related by bloodline necessarily.
And it is true. Our family has African-American, Native American, And European bloodline and it doesn’t go far back either! It stems from immediate family to grandparents and beyond on all sides of the family and I can back it all up with proof.
And I’m tired of hearing that shit about slavery. It was the blacks that sold the other blacks as slaves.
The ignorant trashy blacks they sold to the caucasian folk because they weren’t of any value or worth to them. The black folk of substance who were beneficial and capable of being doctors and of other valuable asset and so on, they kept.
This past Friday on January 25, 2019 I was out in the field doing a ten hour fill in shift at the Brandywine assisted living facility located in queens (which is an undesirable place to work as it is kind of torn down in my opinion compared to the more luxurious facilities that I have continuously worked at) and ran into a knucklehead that use to work in the same department as I did when I worked at Sears seven years ago.
I don’t remember the correct spelling of her name but to give the closest examples of it “Madulla”, “Madrulla” or “Mahudrulla” something to the style of that but everyone called her Liz and I worked at Sears before she had come along as she had against the rules got the job there because she was dating and screwing the team lead manager of our department. She never did any real work, however, she use to follow along with bullshit in trying to harass me with false made up rumors due to ignorance and jealousy.
Well, this dumb tramp happened to be working at Brandywine and called my name when she saw me as I ignored security whom didn’t want me to enter the dining room to attend to a client while I was wearing gloves.
When I returned to the lobby I told Liz “You have the nerve to call my name after all of the stupid shit that you use to do at Sears?”
I told her to talk all of that shit now! I told her that I’d beat her ass. I told her that she was a bitch and a slut and to step to me outside!
All Liz did was keep quiet and put her head down.
People with a lot of dirt on them like to do dirt to others who haven’t done anything and that haven’t done anything to them in attempts to bring them down out of envy and because they get intimidated-the bitch didn’t even know me-then they think it is all suppose to be forgotten about.
Don’t fuck with me and then get friendly I don’t care how long ago it is or was.
I kept cool back then because I knew the certain ones that took part in that nonsense were sick, jealous, and beneath me and, they weren’t worth losing my job over by retaliating verbally or physically as they were looking for responses from me anyway as in their warped mentality they probably would have thought they were getting to me but they weren’t.
I’m just a passionate person that is full of fire born under the sign of the bull (Taurus zodiac) and I don’t take any shit from anybody especially worthless trash.
The energy around me serenaded my actions as I was justified and glorified-this opportunity was meant to take place. I hate that stinking cunt!
Another new year is about to come in and things are going my way and working in my favor as I continue to elevate and advance even further mentally and spiritually as usual as I was always ahead of my time.
When I look back at how all the jealous people had tried to interfere and bring me down within my life since childhood on up with lies, mind games, manipulations, black magic/voodoo/witchcraft and so on I just don’t understand why they all wasted their time yet one cannot explain logic and reason to deeply sick and disturbed individuals that redefine the true meaning of what being morbidly twisted actually represents.
They couldn’t take away my self-love, they couldn’t take away my high self-esteem, they couldn’t take away my intelligence, they couldn’t take away my strength, they couldn’t take away my confidence, they couldn’t take away my gifts and talents so what was the purpose?
They also definitely couldn’t take away the intense and genuine love, protection, respect, distinction and blessings that surround within my energetic field as they so desperately wanted that beauty and wellness for themselves but would never receive such an honor as the privilege and specialness was never meant for those of an inadequate and degenerate nature.
I was never happy within the way the world is and I never will be as I am not and never will be a part of this world.
I continue to want no part of it but I am so happy with my self and genuinely have so much love, peace, and security that steadfastly resides from within.
I am ever so grateful to the universe for being on point and constantly delivering I have faith in what to expect due to the loyalty though I never take anything for granted as I accept appreciatively.
What is around me you never cease to amaze me, truly awesome! – latoya lawrence
My mother listens to the radio station from time to time in the morning and Steve Harvey comes on, always running his mouth and talking about God. This man has done so much dirt within his life and has the nerve to give advice and continues on to express his corny and ineffective opinions and unrealistic soliloquies.
Today he mentioned the subject of hatred and how time consuming that it is to hate and about people that write on blogs expressing the hate that they feel as they talk about other people and things.
While I do understand that there are plenty that have and that have had negative things to say about him online and plenty in general that write about or that mention their dislike of others publicly as well as privately it definitely is not time consuming or a waste of energy.
Anger and hatred Is healthy and normal it is just how the anger and hatred is handled depending on circumstance.
And I myself am not talking about speaking petty nonsense or unjustifiable lies as so many unfortunately do I’m talking about the power of truth and self expression.
One thing that is pathetic-and that is the ignorant mind-people need to just speak for themselves and stop placing their insecurities and personal notions and generalizations as a universal truth because it is indeed not.
I’ve heard those that are on a particular level in the past go around saying how they may have went hating certain people for years, inferring that the object of their contempt wasn’t always aware of their disdain or that while they were resenting that individual they on the other hand were going on with their lives smiling and cheerful or whatever, making them feel stupid or defeated and that may be the case with some people but so what?
What does that signify? Abosolutely nothing! It all depends on an individual’s own mentality as to why they feel the way they do and how it benefits or doesn’t benefit them. Everyone doesn’t see things within the same view and everyone doesn’t feel and experience within the same outcome.
There are people that hate me out of their own envy and jealousy and because I am a strong and intelligent person that doesn’t care or for whatever else and I don’t give a fuck.
Hatred is not a burden or a negativity for everyone. Hatred is no different than love as it is just a description of a feeling it is just that acting on hatred can produce what others view as negative incidents or results and some are fearful of that.
However, no one ever really complains too much when someone does a nice gesture out of love. Why isn’t that considered time consuming and a waste of time and energy especially when the one on the receiving end doesn’t care or isn’t appreciative?
People have liked, loved, and cared for me and I wasn’t touched or moved by it. I didn’t like, love, or care about them or have any consideration for their feelings because I didn’t take to them within that way whether it was just friendly or amorously by hopeful aquaintances, associates, or even relatives.
So all that I am saying is that every one that hates does not go around miserable everyday or every second dwelling and pondering over and about who they don’t like and we don’t care whether they are aware of it or not (It’s not a psychological competition it is just a natural feeling of intense dislike for another for whatever personal or general reason), in fact, we hate who we hate like what we like and genuinely enjoy ourselves as we go on and live our daily lives.
My accurate premonition came to be rather swiftly as “I hit the nail on the head” as usual.
Cathy/Catherine Barge the bitch that I wrote about here (https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2018/03/29/i-catch-them-every-time/) came into work Wednesday morning on April 4, 2018 and called me “A stupid bitch” in an attempt to provoke me while proceeding on with a lie to use against me in a malicious effort to try to get me fired from my job.
Cathy called up the agency stating that the lady that we work for was on the floor crawling after falling off the bed. Number one, I had just checked in on the lady and she was asleep. Number two, the lady lays on a mattress that leans straight up against the floor she’s not balanced on any type of railing it would’ve been impossible for her to fall out of a bed that is actually right near floor level. And the woman is not any type of invalid.
If the lady really rolled to the floor shouldn’t Cathy had rushed to her aid to help her up instead of coming toward my direction to start a fight?
Cathy couldn’t even get her lies straight she hadn’t planned the treacherous incident very well (What set her off is that she saw a fresh cup of coffee sitting on the floor by the lady a cup of coffee that she was suppose to make. Me fixing the lady a cup of coffee that she asked for interrupted Cathy’s obsessive compulsive tendencies and she just blew the fuck up. If she’d known that was actually the third cup of coffee that I’d made for the lady Cathy really would have flipped her lid) I said to myself this sick, lying, jealous bitch.
I went into the lady’s bedroom who had awoke and that was now sitting up on the bed and acknowledged to her the lie that Cathy had just told because she didn’t know what was going on as she had just waken up.
“Don’t argue back with her” the woman told me. “I like the both of you”.
Cathy is on the phone with the agency telling them “She’s crazy, I told you she was crazy!”
And what had I done? Absolutely nothing!
Cathy told me that I was jealous of her because she is white and “under privileged”. Did she realize what she was saying?
She also told me that I speak illiterate (I’ve never ever heard that one before) and that I am skinny with bad skin. I had to laugh inside at this neurotic psychopathic bitch she had told on herself in so many ways.
Cathy is very jealous of me as well as others I doubt that I am the only one and of the way in how I carry myself. She is high strung and extremely insecure. She is intimidated by the fact that I am a very intelligent and attractive female of color (black/African american) that doesn’t fit into the negative stereotypes that many prejudice other races perceive that we should be or classify us as.
Whoever used her to come after me- because I know she is a part of a link from my sick and jealous enemies- knew that she was stupid.
Cathy is nothing but a low scale piece of trash that cannot deal with the fact that I exceed her within character and mentality she is nowhere near the high level that I am on even though that she is a white italian that probably needs to believe that she is superior especially over a black American person who just couldn’t be exceptional as a lot of us truly are.
Well, I didn’t get fired and Cathy was livid I could feel all of her negative energy directly in the pit of my stomach. Since she didn’t get over with her lies I bet at her next attempt among others she will try to turn the lady that we work for against me.
I don’t care I go to work to do my job and will continue to keep everything professional without feeding into anything I refuse to even mention Cathy because she has nothing to do with me yet if she keeps mentioning me to start conflict that is totally on her.
Cathy/Catherine Barge is so pitiful, predictable and transparent.
The devil is always busy and his flunkies are running as hot as the hell that they are all scheduled to burn in within due time. Us good folk have nothing to worry about our further blessings are on the way.
We reign as the darkness will never overpower the light.