I have two more sets each of census records (again of my mother’s mother side of the family) both listed from 1-80 as there are 1-35 pages (too many to post I’d be here all day that I gathered from Ancestry.com) each of family members that were recorded back in the year of 1940 (many family that are known to us and some that are not because we never met everybody within our lineage) and it is not a constantly repeated list of the same relatives they’re a list of different blood related people branched from the roots of our extremely large family tree there were literally thousands of us! There may be millions now with all of the possible children, grand, and great-grand children and so on.
It is so nice to communicate with our loved ones especially when we’re not even expecting it, they come at times to encourage, enlighten, acknowledge, inspire and protect.
I just had a dream the night before of one of my elder female relatives that came to give me a message of confirmation regarding how my aunt “Tina” Ernestine Lawrence was the one that originally initiated slander against my mother from the beginning years ago and how no one else within the family (on Catherine’s side of the family) had ever set out or even thought about doing anything of that nature as everyone of our other good relatives had nothing against my mother or any negative thoughts or intentions toward her we were just a normal regular family and it had made no sense. My mother knew that though, that it was all Tina from the get go and that other family had no part of that disgust. Tina was always an undesirable that was never well acquainted with the family she never even knew who most of the relatives were!
She was warm and completely honest in her connection with me as a reminder of how they all stick together (our unit) and how they’ll always have my back.
My elder relative just wanted me to know the truth in details-as they share with me so often concerning different circumstances and situations- out of love and benevolence because they are proud that I am naturally and genuinely carrying the torch for our family, a burning flame of authenticity and loyalty from through out the generations of those of us that are and that were innately set apart.
When I was a baby my great grandmother Amanda Byars knew that I was gifted and that my mother had a power too aside from her being intelligent and multi talented and found out through one of the readers that she use to go to what I was going to grow up to become and got insanely jealous.
Any other normal relative would be happy and proud of and for the other members of the family.
She with the help of other undesirables went to have my mother and I crossed up in an attempt to change our destiny, the beautiful destiny that was fated for us. She wanted my mother labeled as crazy and wanted me to be just another statistic all to happen within a unnatural fashion through the black magic/brujeria done unto us.
Much to her disappointment my mother was one of the most competent and best mothers a daughter could have and she helped a lot of people that didn’t deserve to be helped.
She helped a bitch by the name of Annette Cromwell get into college years ago if it weren’t for my mother and her connections (because my mother knew a lot of people) she would not have been able to have the necessary documents filled out correctly and authorized, she helped a neighbor contact his long lost relatives through digging up files in the library, and she helped another neighbor get her disable son to collect disability benefits for the rest of his life, and that is just a very few of the things that my mother did for people who didn’t know how to go about doing these things on their own and for themselves.
I had a dream of my deceased great grandmother a few nights ago about how she was unable to get what she wanted. My life did not at all turn out to be the disaster that she wanted it to be and she is rotting in hell for all that she has done and tried to do to my mother and I.
My life hasn’t exactly went accordingly in order as to how it was suppose to go as far as career level is concerned as I was a long time ago suppose to have already become prominently established in all of the areas of field that I was originally to excel and prosper in.
My mother also should have come so much farther in life with all of the knowledge, smarts, talent and capability that she had and still has today.
I meanwhile instead had to take detours that still resulted into successful ventures yet never the directions in which I was meant to take although the journey to reach a portion of my destined peak currently is in it’s availability for me to someday eventually grab a hold of as no one could ever utterly take my blessings away and all this interference as a result from the damage that was done from the blockages and burdens of past black magic/brujeria.
When my blessings do come to me as designed I won’t get them in the ways that it would have come initially this time it will be even better and more meaningful as I have come to know the details of my existence more profoundly.
When I went to certain readers many years ago in my younger days I didn’t tell them that I was born with a caul I let them tell me as that was what they were suppose to do. I was lucky enough to find quite a few real legitimate readers that gave accurate readings.
Aside from the psychics ability to hit the nail on the head about a lot of the occurrences within my life they all had predicted the same things about me being very successful, having my own business and so on, that I was always meant for success but constantly had too much jealousy around me coming from other people.
I was born to have money and fame that money would never be a problem and told that I was going to be on television one day. I do admit that I don’t mind the money as my family never went without to begin with but I never wanted fame.
I’ve even dreamed many times of my future and the things meant to come for me as well as the actions of others so I knew that it was true as much has come to be and much has been blocked or delayed from me in receiving.
So it was interesting years ago when my great grandmother was alive back in the early 2000’s when her and the neighborhood trash were in the midst of working their brujeria uttered to me over the phone “I thought you were going to grow up to be somebody. I thought you were going to be on TV”.
Now where did she get that from? I never spoke to her or anyone else about what the psychics informed to me years before that. It is because she already knew my future as well as others did and spitefully said those words as if to say “I fixed you”, without knowing she was giving herself away.
“I never wanted to be on TV”, I told her. And that was the truth. “And I already am somebody”. I then expressed to her that I knew what she was doing and that her words weren’t hurting me as she wasn’t on the level intellectually or spiritually to understand where my head was at and where I was coming from and that really her words were just an honest reflection of herself and other unfortunate undesirables who were bitter and hurt through their own inferiority.
I’ll never understand why my grandmother Catherine dealt with and then married my grandfather, not that he was a bad man, because he was extremely smart and gifted but because that would bring a piece of trash like Amanda into our lives. It wasn’t his fault he had a mother of that nature but Catherine didn’t come from people like that. Too bad my grandfather didn’t know his father-where I strongly suspect he got his good qualities from, Amanda also didn’t have the same biological father as her other brothers and sisters, her mother was a gifted woman though and her other siblings weren’t trouble like she was.
Once Catherine did start raising a family with her husband I wish that she had of stopped having children after having my mother because the other three spawned their genetic trashiness from Amanda’s side and a lot of unnecessary bullshit-erupting from their envy, sickness, and jealousy along with associates of their kind- never would have escalated to the extent that it had.
Hey Georgie, Georgie Jose can’t get it up! Mrs. Perez had said. But you got it up didn’t you “Georgie boy” (and caught something big-the big A) even though you said her daughter was stupid and that you didn’t like white meat. I have an excellent memory! When I was fifteen years of age do you remember telling me that slut bitch Joanne Anderson slept/fucked two of her brothers? I bet you’d deny it but I remember! You just loved to run your mouth but you ran it once too many!
George liked to listen so much to Tina’s (my jealous low-life aunt) lies as she was and still is a drug addict that has been on everything and as it was what he wanted to hear because he was just as much trash as she was he was so hard up he probably fucked the bitch and caught another strain of HIV.
Response To A Comment Written To Me About Lizette:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/03/31/in-response-to-a-comment-written-to-me-about-lizette/)
I could have posted this Clark Hardcastle link-originating where the silly and obvious alias came from because George thinks that he’s such a genius but he is just a sick and twisted jealous/envious male gossipy bitch-last year but I knew the sick mother fucker would have just deleted the link of him being sloppy just as he changed his number to private years ago after he got caught and felt stupid for crank calls to my home and to an associate of the family at the time.
He use to have so much to say about me when I was a little girl on up and I was one of the best children, he talked about everybody and he was never shit. When his ex wife dogged him out who did he call? My mother, to tell his long and drawn out story, she was glad he got dogged out she thought it was good for his no good ass.
He negatively predicted what my future was going to turn out to be because I was a good girl and wasn’t doing the dirt that everyone else was doing. Well I’m the only clairvoyant around here and I am the daughter that good mothers only dream about and I am spectacular and turned out exceptional when everybody else’s children around the area wasn’t shit and turned out to be nothing. George would tell nothing but lies on me and my mother but I got a whole lot of truths on him that he’ll never know about!:
Clue of the day:(Hardcastle/Owens or Muhammad/Anderson or Franks/I’ll keep all of the rest to myself I don’t want to be a party pooper)-George Owens aka Clark Hardcastle(https://www.facebook.com/clark.hardcastle?fref=pb&hc_location=friends_tab&pnref=friends.all)
George is Clark and they both are Taalib! He never was too bright even though he thinks that he’s the smartest thing in the universe yet never knew what he was actually talking about. He thinks that he’s so intelligent and that is so funny as he is nowhere as intelligent or bright as me or my mother. If he was so smart why did he sleep with a woman who had AIDs? We knew the woman had it back in the day before it had got out to everyone! We knew one day he was going to get his! Nigger use to call my home back in the nineties every Saturday and Thursday then hang up, what a sick fuck! We saw him on our ID caller plus we had *69 him (when the feature first came out he had no clue about it) and got his answering machine with his voice and name yet he still denied it and we weren’t the only one’s he had done it to. He’s such a big liar and not a very good one only the dumb ones he can fool! Stupid ass George also got arrested for tax evasion/fraud (http://queensda.org/Press%20Releases/2001%20Press%20Releases/03-March/03-21-2001.htm
When I tidy up from time to time I come across things as we usually do when we clean and/or make room for other things and to also throw out things that we no longer have use for. While in the midst I came across a lot of my old pay stubs and realized that I’ve worked a lot of jobs between retail and within the health care field. I even came across an old report card from when I was a youngster marked with A grades and few B ones along with some certificates for achievement.
I am so proud of all of the accomplishments that I have made through out the years.
Two weeks ago a client at one of my jobs called up the private company that I work for acknowledging to my superiors that I was giving exceptional service and that she wanted me working more frequent days and I had accepted the offer when the company phoned me up with the news. This client also told me that I was too smart to be working the job, and I always get this same remark from people, “Why are you here, you’re too smart to be at this job whether it is in retail and the such.
Without going into certain details I expressed to the lady that phoned up my job about the jealousy from others and how within the past up until now how many had tried to interfere with my life yet I still succeeded but that how when I was a child I had the opportunity to be published by a mainstream publisher but that I mistakenly refused the offer due to my anger at what was going on in life at the time and at the trouble it would have caused during that time from a few envious/ jealous disturbed family members and outsiders that were working with them and etc… but that writing was my nature and where my heart truly was.
“Well no one can stand in your way now”, she told me. And she is correct.
She took down my full name and number wanting to keep in contact with me stating, “I want your full name because I know that you’re going to be a writer, well you are a writer”.
I told her, “I know what you mean, recognition”.
“Exactly”, she said I can tell and hear it in your voice that you’re a writer”. She has no doubt that I’ll eventually make it even further and neither do I!
No matter how many people have tried to hold me back through out my life I have managed to become very successful regardless in all of the things that I had set out to do. When anyone tries to stop me it just makes me hate them even more and makes me more determined to get what I want.
I remember when this guy by the name of George Owens (who always thought he was the smartest thing in the world and that he knew everything but was nothing but a dumb ignorant undesirable fuck who didn’t know what he was talking about who’d constantly gossip about everyone then go smile in their face) said “She can’t even do this”, talking about me doing the annual account for my mother who was conservator over my grandmother’s affairs years ago as my mother would ask him to do it once a year (he didn’t even know me personally or well enough to know what my capabilities were but I knew him as I could read him like a book and knew that one day he would get his and he sure has gotten his! I won’t mention what it is though as I have already discreetly mentioned it in a post last year).
And I thought that was interesting since the lawyer over my mother and another professional woman had stated that he didn’t know what he was doing as he kept getting it wrong every year. The annual account didn’t start getting done accurately until I became the one to complete it from then on and it was documented, we didn’t need him. The stupid ass George Owens even got arrested for tax evasion (http://queensda.org/Press%20Releases/2001%20Press%20Releases/03-March/03-21-2001.htm) he goes by a muslim name now. I’ve always filed and done my taxes completely on my own without the help of anyone every year. I’ll tell you, jealousy is a bitch.
As good people no matter what the circumstances we are the ones to come out on top when we are strong.
I don’t understand why people tried me within the first place and thought that they would get away with it. I was born under the zodiacal sign Taurus and one can’t mess with the bull without getting murdered or seriously injured.
When I got hired at Burlington it wasn’t for the position that I had initially applied for (just like at Toys R Us nobody really wanted to do that job) the desperate bitch manager named Ruth explained to me that she was going to put me in the fitting room to work because none of the other previous fitting room attendants were able to meet audit for an entire year so I was suppose to be the new slave to put to the test and use? I don’t think so!
I wasn’t like the other worthless trashy flunky bitches (Marilyn Bartnick, Johanna Jackson and Latima Hall) that needed to be there. And I am darn sure not anybody’s ass kisser. All three of those inferior bitches tried to start trouble with me yet I ignored them as Ruth had stated “LaToya, your working with a bunch of women, just keep your mouth shut”.
I do understand that “average” jealous women do get catty and petty but not “real” women-“classy women” of intelligence and purpose don’t have time for nonsense. All we care about is being happy and taking great care of ourselves and optimistically preparing different things for our pleasant futures.
Johanna got mad because I expressed to Marilyn how I caught her sad and obvious attempt to sabotage my work-not that working in a fitting room is serious duty-however to people of that nature they don’t know what real work is so Johanna failed at her intention to make me look incompetent at a job that I was far overqualified for.
It reminded me of when I was one of the top workers at Sears about five years ago and after having working there for four years straight a few envious employees tried to mess up my work to get me into trouble, little did the stupid asses know that there were hidden cameras back there in the storage room where I was in charge of, and they were the ones that the head manager penalized. They had to clean up everything that they had intentionally unorganized.
Ruth told me that she knew I was doing everything that I was suppose to do (because she claimed she could see from afar, hidden cameras I assumed, because security also claimed that they knew everything going on within the area too) but that I just needed to speed up on my task of overloaded volumes of clothing that were being returned back to the store on a day to day basis and at the same time organize clothes to go back onto the sales floor while cleaning out and up after the fitting room as customers were nasty and constantly stacking up extra clothing. She wanted me to do all that shit within a short time every day so that she could make audit and take credit? That bitch must have been out of her fucking mind!
The real truth of it all is that they were always backed up due to the fact that they were too cheap to hire other people to fill out other positions I had heard other employees complaining of the excess areas of work that were being stacked upon them (one person bombarded with the impossible unless one was going to fuck up the work just to get it done within a hurry).
Latima, a literally bald headed bitch with no hair that was barely on the scalp, had the nerve to come to work with a thick long weave the next day after sporting her natural no hair style. This girl is so hideous looking as those are usually the ones to start conflict and she knew that she was ugly because she’d come to work with globs of make up on and still looked bad she got mad at me for doing work that another employee told me to do that she claimed she was going to do then accused me of lying about being told by the other worker to do so.
It was all a set up, silly shit that I ignored, and she made a scene because I would not give her the reaction that she was looking for I never understood why trash thought people should fear them they need to get off of their insecurities as they are absolutely nothing to fear. A customer was even disgusted by her and told me to report her as she was so unprofessional.
The next day Latima didn’t come into work so I told the woman named Karen who was in on the lie that “I come here to work and not for no bullshit” then she got scared and started kissing my ass because she knew she was guilty.
The day after that Ruth calls me into her office because she was disappointed because after a little over a month employed there I wasn’t being the flunky that she hoped and planned that I would be by working me like a damn dog and getting me to do what she wanted when she wanted and said to me “If you don’t speed it up in two more weeks then you’re out the door”.
I said to her, “Will you give me another position in the store since things are not happening fast enough for you?”
“No”, Ruth said.
“I’m leaving now because I’m an excellent worker”, I told her as I refuse to let anyone control me by threats of any kind just to keep a job. I can find work anywhere unlike the others that she had stranded there and wrapped around her finger.
“Okay”, Ruth got mad and said. “I’m going to terminate you out the system right now”. However she lied because she didn’t terminate me right then and there. She hadn’t expected me to come out with what I did. I have too much self esteem and self confidence to stay and tolerate bullshit-she thought she was a bitch-she didn’t know me very well because I can ultimately be the definition of a real bitch!
Instead of actually terminating me within the system I received a new hire benefits bullshit sent to my email later that day:
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Dear LaToya Lawrence ,
This is a formal letter regarding your lack of attendance at work. As of the date of this today, you have failed to come to work for at least three consecutive shifts. We have made several attempts to contact you directly about this matter to no avail. These unexcused absences were not requested nor previously approved.
As we have no way of determining if you plan to return to work, we have no choice but to assume you have abandoned your position with us. Thus, in accordance with the company’s policy on attendance and job abandonment, we are accepting your resignation regarding your position effective as of 06/27/2017 .
If there are extenuating circumstances regarding this matter that you want us to know, you must notify your direct Supervisor/Manager immediately, but no later than 7 days from receipt of this letter. Otherwise, we will assume you accept the terms of this letter.
Store Management Team
Words of caution: In trying to hurt the good people the no good only hurt themselves we are fiercely protected in every way by a higher power. And we are in no way whatsoever effected by the small traffic scattered down below we ride above on bigger planes heading in clear view.
Life is no joke and I have said many times that logic cannot be explained to sick people and I have seen life teach these kinds of people the most harsh lessons when their times called for it.
I have to honestly say that my life is doing very well I am truly happy within myself and it never took me a long time to get there I’ve always been secure within my state of being since at a very early age so I don’t relate when I’ve heard others say “it takes a long time to get there” as they speak only for themselves while generalizing within their own personal life and/or experience.
I have so much peace I have all of the things that I need, I laugh every day, I am doing very well on my job as usual and I am shocked that my boss recently revealed high praise and compliments to me regarding my work and performance as I and a few others didn’t think that he seemed to appreciate us.
Some have already waken up but what some folk still don’t seem to understand is that you can’t go around messing with spiritual people and not eventually reap the consequences.
A message came to me a few weeks ago that I got the best of all of my enemies and that they feel that it is just no use in getting the results that they want. It also came to me how they wish that I was and how they want me to become trash and that was never a secret to me because they always envied my character.
As a person genuinely born with a caul there is not really too much that anyone can do around me without me knowing about it especially when it caters to me and my life it has always been that way that is just something that certain people like me are naturally inherited with by birth and something that we are very blessed with, and it is nothing to take lightly or for us to take for granted.
When we keep quiet about or do not mention certain things it does not mean that we’re not aware of those situations and/or happenings.
It is no secret that individuals often get angry at us for “knowing things” and for being wise in ways that they definitely do not appreciate, however, that is absolutely not my problem.
I woke up again this morning after having a dream about Danielle and how some of the affiliated people around her (no one of any importance just her lame personal associates as she is a flunky) are on the internet trying to pose as me in posting and commenting online ( or just making up shit or both) as a way to get back at me for speaking the truth about her and Bibi on the job in the recent past. And as disappointing to them as this may sound it is really useless if they think or feel that this nonsense will have any effect or impact within my life if anything it is really more enlightening.
People of trash have always been jealous and envious of me ever since I was a little girl and have always told lies on me and it has never affected me or stopped me from being happy within myself or succeeding in whatever it was that I wanted to do, of course, that is why witchcraft was used for so long within the past to attempt to make me look bad within the public eye, to cause blockages within all aspects of my life and to destroy me as that is usually what pathetic people resort to against others that have something wonderful going on for them within life.
Yet they cannot use their witchcraft anymore as an aide in seeking the illusions and delusions of deceit to appear as a false reality in order to manipulate circumstance and the perceptions that others have upon their targets.
That witchcraft shit never worked on me. And now they’re totally on their own even though they still try to work spells and bring the witchcraft back but it is to no avail I am much more powerful and certainly much stronger within spirit and personality my enemies are all weak that is why they cannot move on, band together, and continue on.
Why would an army of garbage have to come up against one or two people for so many years unless that individual was a threat and why would it take so many to come up against one person? It is all explanatory within itself. It is not easy to take down individuals like me.
And what is really absurd is all of this went on through word of mouth none of these people ever met me, sat down and had a conversation with me, and it is so strange how they tried to ruin someone who never did anything to them yet that is what evil does-attack the good.
Trash have gotten away with bringing good people down for so many years through their underhanded tactics that they have finally come across one that they could not get over on.
It only adds extra credence to the fact that these types of individuals are innately incapable of elevating within the mind only to remain within that tremendously low level of function and understanding and their actions are a sincere reflection of themselves.
It is constantly the same things with them: talking about and lying about other people-who cares? The shit is tired! All this shows is that this is what bothers them and what brings them down in return they use this method on others assuming that they would be hurt in the same fashion that they themselves feel wounded.
No, I am sorry it does not work like that with me and those of us that are not of that nature and insufficient mentality. Yes, we are aware and we do watch our backs but we do not sit around thinking or worrying about the lies that ignorant and sick people spread about us and we damn sure don’t care about what any of them may have to say.
That is surly a dark place to be in what a miserable world that my enemies live in where they have no true self esteem where gossip rules and reigns within their world where the thoughts and actions of others either make or break them where what is important to them in their fallacy is bullshit within our own genuine reality.
See, they don’t even realize what they constantly show this is not shit that will harm us but this is the kind of shit that they actually show others in which in how to destroy them.
They are ridiculous within every sense of the word.
We live and are rooted within truth and can see above and beyond the scope as we are in tune to nature and to our surroundings we are productive beings serving our purpose, survivors climbing to higher planes, adventurers who welcome challenge and winners that thrive within the universe.
We are not confined or limited, we do not fear, and we are definitely not afraid to be authentic within our selves.