Harassment of any nature is not limited to the workplace, of course, it can take place anywhere.
Periodically, at almost every job I ever had we had updated training.
When I worked at Sears Roebuck for four years there was continuous training for us employees to complete electronically as things were constantly changing or advancing.
Even if the subjects and activities within the lessons and testing were just a recoup of what we had already gone over beforehand.
Two weeks ago, I had to do updated training in one of my workplaces regarding sexual harassment- a subject I am very knowledgeable in, and that I have always passed with one hundred percent correctness in answers after testing whether during orientation or training.
This previous occurrence gave me an idea to write about due to the seriousness in nature on jobs where managers are not taking action when they are supposed to. Where managers may side with a perpetrator, or where managers do not take a matter gravely.
Sexual harassment or harassment of any kind should never be tolerated in the workplace.
Do not be afraid, stand up for yourself at all cost and at all means.
A supervisor/manager is supposed to give immediate attention to the employee once harassment is reported. If they do not, and one does not see any results or are not satisfied with an investigation that was carried out then report your case/complaint to The New York City Commission of Human Rights- 718 722 3131.
One can also call or contact The New York Division of Human Rights 888 392 3644.
Personally, I know from my experience when or if anyone tries to harass me in any way I go into kick- their- ass mode.
However, we must think before we instantly or automatically react.
If we do not fight back in a way that is obvious it is not that we are afraid. We just do not want to risk going to jail for assholes who are not worth wasting precious time of our lives over.
Nevertheless, no matter how a negative situation will turn out it is very important to remember that nobody in this life gets away with anything that they do- even if they ignorantly think they have.
It is alright when something is justified, but people get back what is coming to them and God does not let negative deeds/actions go unpaid.
I remind myself of the 1978 Faye Dunaway thriller/mystery “The Eyes Of Laura Mars”. It is said that art imitates life.
I have been seeing accurate visions that were confirmed or that came to be since I was a child, whether while awake or in my sleep.
I am not perfect, just a human being. I would not trust everything that is shown as we are to test the spirit.
Although things can also have dual meanings or reflections I know when to keenly sense the difference from within and between from experience.
This past Thursday night, around 10:40pm, I had a vision of a guy whose energy I have been feeling for a while who I will not name.
Usually when I feel guys’ energy in a certain manner it is because they are attracted to me, jealous of me, have animosity toward me, or whatever, and because they are no good.
I always find out that I was correct in my predictions and judgments.
Their energy can linger for as long as their feelings for me last, or for as long as I need to be aware of the circumstances taking place with and around them regarding me and my life.
In the vision that appeared while I laid awake, the guy was completely naked wearing nothing but a pair of socks.
He was in a bedroom.
I am not sure if this bedroom was located inside a hotel or somebody’s home.
A barely dressed female who appeared partially in the nude lay on a bed dazed, with her eyes barely opened about to pass out from a roofie (flunitrazepam) that was slipped in her drink.
As this girl/woman laid in the bed I could see from her slanted-eye view the guy walk across the room past the foot of the bed to observe her state of falling unconscious.
I was projected as the female at first until the vision further played on.
The guy took out his phone- and I could discern every bit of vile energy and negativity within this individual’s actions and intentions. He enjoyed what he was doing- to record and photograph this female he victimized through eventually having sex with her while incapacitated.
There was another guy who appeared inside the room, though I was not able to get a look at him.
The other guy asked with a smirk on his face in a way as to urged the guy on if he wanted to take a turn to sexually take advantage of the girl.
This guy is an awful, terrible, low life piece of shit.
I do not know if this occurrence took place Thursday night, the exact time it was revealed to me, if it happened sometime already within the past, or if will occur soon.
What I picked up from the dream is what he did to that girl is also something he would like to do to me. That is why I was initially portrayed as the girl.
I do not know the entire situation with this female I witnessed in the vision. However, I was feeling this is what this guy does when the opportunity presents itself for him to underhandedly use a form of rape on girls who otherwise refuse to give him the time or day then probably lies about it later by saying the girl was high or something to that effect- though she would have no recollection- then keep video footage and photos for himself as a trophy/souvenir to look back at, privately show other no good associates to, and gloat over. He may have even blackmailed certain girls with the footage leaving them afraid to come forward.
I cannot prove this, yet I know what I saw and felt is true.
None of us are one hundred percent all the time. We can mistake one thing for another, and so on.
There are times when we are unsure or just do not know. And even when we doubt, we can still be correct in what we may have slightly felt. We can even be wrong in things we strongly feel.
For the most part, aside from logic and reasoning from an ordinary standpoint, my clairvoyant abilities have always been very intuitive and on point. There have been people who have admitted to me or told on themselves unintentionally when I confronted them on matters. Either that or the truth would in time reveal itself to confirm things.
When I write I do not plan. Messages come to me to write themselves as ideas manifest and urge to be put forth for which I know not to question when the drive is strong.
I am a vessel where information transmits- a messenger sort to speak from a spiritual perspective- relaying what needs to be said and heard for whatever purpose relayed unto me as one who knows firsthand.
Extra Sensory Perception is a legitimate gift/faculty that some of us have and are born with.
It may be something that everyone cannot talk about with everybody due to misunderstandings and diversity in beliefs, yet it makes the instance no less of a real occurrence and the gift is nothing to be ashamed of or hidden.
Extra Sensory Perception can save one’s life.
One thing about us people who are in-tune is that we are keenly perceptive at picking up on the slightest things that others may not notice or spot as significant.
Oftentimes, or at times when we are on to things or on to someone with evil intentions, schemes, or motives- those who know they have been discovered or those who are naive to the areas of paranormal ability and how it naturally works within the nature of energy, vision, and vibration, will try to cover up their actions or justify their ignorance by calling one paranoid. It is the oldest trick in the book.
We may falsely get accused of saying or thinking that everyone is against us when that notion is totally absurd.
How could, and why would everyone be against us? Everyone does not know us or even care to be against us.
We know who and what to pinpoint and why and if we are not sure we are specific until we later get clarification.
There will always be people in life at times that we may possibly encounter either through feelings of jealousy, revenge, conflict, pettiness, ignorance, or animosity or whatever ignites incentive within them depending on the circumstance and their disposition who will come up against us in some form or fashion.
The devil exists and he uses people as well as principalities.
The only difference is that not everyone is always aware of what is going on in the situation, the depth of what may go on, or to what extent, the reason behind it, or the measures involved.
We are given these extra sensory abilities which are an extraordinary extended form of intuition, discernment, and second sight as a protection and awareness throughout life to heed, learn from, and grow on the path of our journey.
I would not have had the faith I have today without it due to the many encounters of account from early life experiences to the present.
It has been a constant occurrence- an irrevocable part of one’s make up given by God as an example of his power manifest unto the universe linked in connection to those who are endowed.
This does not mean everyone with the ability is up to good or is good-natured. It just means they have a supernatural attribute that testifies to the powers that exist and that are in effect in this physical world.
And whether a person is good-natured or negative-natured with the ability to see into the unseen does not foreshow their gifts of perception into events as paranoia.
I have been told directly when I was a teenager and during my adulthood that I was not “normal” by three people because I am very unique.
Some meant those words as an acknowledgement to me that I was uncommon to them as others have used the term toward me as an insult.
But what these few who said this to me, whether it was a harmless mention or one to intentionally hurt, did not realize is that their words were a huge compliment to me.
It made me feel good to not be categorized as being the same.
No one can drown out my voice or my existence. Though, I have always detested the existence of those who I feel should not exist.
I am one who could never conform to the so-called norm of what is considered normal- to do as others do and to think as others do.
To accept and adhere to the approved dominant set of principles, rules, or standards within the characteristics and behavior carried out by most of society.
It was never my inborn tendency to behave according to socially accepted conventions or typicality.
I often rejected, and refused to comply or go along with what went against my nature or way of thinking, being, and doing due to my unconventionality.
I prefer my original, unusual, different, so-called strange to some, out of the ordinary, original, new-fashioned disposition- because it is the real me.
I never had the desire to join in- that is why I always stood out.
I hated whenever people tried to manipulate or coerce me by subtle means trying to use psychology, head games, or their way of reasoning to undermine, challenge, or change my attitude and ways through passing unfavorable judgment upon me, downplaying me, turning against me, or underestimating me.
These actions never caused self-doubt or fear within me to surrender to just be accepted.
Oftentimes it infuriated me or caused me to pleasantly distance myself from those kinds of individuals.
My resistance has caused in many instances among those who were in opposition or who were incongruent, great friction between us.
This is why I am a leader and not a follower because I never went along with society because it was the thing to do or else, I would be an outcast or labeled or considered crazy.
I refused to be what I was not to please others and lie to myself just to get by.
I have received backlash or so-called consequences for doing things my way that others did not understand or interpreted their way as they could see no other way due to their own social conditioning and/or lack of awareness or knowledge in diversity.
Yet, all the occurrences did was make me more determined to maintain my identity and to continue to be who I am.
If anyone is to criticize me, laugh at me, call or consider me insane for sticking to my guns, then so be it.
Nothing can deter me from loving the person within me.
To me, certain others are the crazy ones.
I could just as easily criticize and laugh at them for seeing things in my own way. The way I feel is everyone has the right to be who they are and live out their life accustomed to how they are as long as they do not impose their ways on me and try to make my life difficult on account of their indifference.
I never cared or tried to force my ways on anyone but others failed to treat me in the same. Some people have a problem with control and some cannot deal with what is foreign to what they know and have been taught.
Something unheard of or unorthodox can be disturbing to them.
I am resilient within my natural purpose.
There are times, places, and situations whereas we as people do not necessarily relate to or agree with things, but we may compromise or make allowances. This is vital in life as we must conform when it is contingent upon circumstances.
Of course, there must be order and harmony within living together to humanely survive here on the earth.
However, when it comes to personal identity, I will not budge for anyone.
If more people were allowed to truly be themselves and fresh ideas were contrived in dealing with problems or situations instead of the same predictable methods that I find tiring, annoying, and of no use or affect as one who these measures does not reflect upon accordance with.
This indeed is a sick society.
A lot of what is considered normal among many is what really is abnormal, but it is accepted because abnormal in relation to normal is what is normal to them.
I am so glad to not be normal.
I choose to be a healthy individual who is not a puppet of this world. –latoya lawrence
A daughter of an elderly man I have been working on a case for left me a voicemail and text message as I was unavailable at the time, she called on Monday morning.
The woman divulged that her father was in the hospital and that she would be in touch.
Instead of phoning her back I sent her a text responding, “Okay”.
On Tuesday afternoon, the woman called me again. I answered my phone to speak with her.
She acknowledged to me that her father was still in the hospital, that he would be home in a couple of days.
Then, she went on to say that she was not aware or not, or aware of how the doctor (my supervisor) and I work out or handle situations with other clients I take on in situations where one of my cases becomes temporarily paused.
I kept silent as I knew she was just fishing for information from me to see if I would share whether I had other shifts to take on aside from and in place of her father.
Sure enough, when I did not reply she forwardly asked me If I wanted to come manage her next-door neighbor (Who she acquired my assistance for in the past before the woman was placed into a rehabilitation center after taking a fall. The woman was released last Tuesday and I spent two days of my free time helping her to adjust plus working extra paid hours for her father, and was paid two hundred and twenty-five dollars in hand for my two-day service for the neighbor) the following Thursday.
I told her no.
The woman proceeded to asked me If I was working tomorrow on Wednesday.
I told her no.
She then asked if I would come to help her neighbor again on the side. I plainly but casually told her, “No. I don’t want to”.
The woman ended the conversation with “Okay, that is alright. Enjoy your days off”.
This woman uses her father as an excuse to call when all she really wanted was to get me to come over to her neighbor’s house to use me for her own advantage even though I would get paid.
There was no need for her to call me to keep me posted or to give me an update regarding her father unless it was to notify me of his return home from the hospital.
She had just phoned me the day before to inform me of his whereabouts.
Today is Friday. He is still not home. It is past a couple of days. The woman was full of shit just like I knew.
This manipulative bitch must have gotten over plenty of times or is used to controlling others while using money as bait.
Well, I am not one who can be controlled or manipulated- or bought by anyone! I am used to money.
I was nowhere near rich but I grew up having money.
I am an independent woman who makes her own money. Money is something that never bothered me. So, she encountered the wrong person to trifle with.
I helped her neighbor before as she is a very kind and sweet elderly lady who needed supervision and aid in maintaining her health management.
However, trying to use my services whenever it was convenient while I have a life of my own to live and conduct, instead of just working out arrangements with other candidates and with an agency as she planned.
This woman wanted to keep me in the loop as someone she could always fall back on since I am responsible, trustworthy, and sufficient.
I am also someone who is nobody’s fool or footstool.
I refused to get caught up in her loop. The only loop that woman will obtain from me is a box of Fruit Loops without the milk for her nutty ass.
She had the nerve to let out deep sighs of disappointments on more than one occasion when she could not get her way with me, and get pushy with me in her tone of asking “Why not?” The woman did not want to take no for an answer when I would attempt to get out of her requests. Then she would effort to compromise around my availability to make it convenient for me so everything would be convenient for her.
I do not have time for any of that crap.
I know the women is seething because whatever she had in store blew up in her face.
People who think they have game do nothing but play themselves when it comes to messing around with people who they take for granted or underestimate.
I thank God for getting me out of that situation and I am curious about what is ahead.
The woman’s father likes me and enjoys me being around. I find him pleasant too, but I do not think he may be around too much longer. It is just a feeling I get. I wish him the best and will work with him as long as necessary.
It is a shame his daughter must cause interference by her hunger for greed. I just want to work in connection to her father without violating any terms within my workplace.
I was totally upfront with my supervisor because that is the way I am- my supervisor even said this woman is manipulative.
As we who live in our moments thankful for what we already have continue to enjoy the alignment with the universe as things run in concordance to the harmony within our own distinct balance of existence.
There may be other blessings looked forward to through other wants or desires.
While our needs are first priority- grateful in that they are constantly met through grace- there still may be inward hopes of a particular change in affairs, situation, or circumstance.
Sometimes adjustments can be made, or things are able to happen quickly.
In other instances what is hoped upon may come in due course.
Then there are simply periods when nothing seems to be happening in accordance- just a feeling of being stuck in a wait or a condition where feeling one will never get to what they would like to experience.
In hope, sometimes it may seem like there is no hope. Yet in the relentless steadfastness of the spirit within determination of the heart, mind, and soul- even in the face of standstill- we still may not budge.
I know there is a burning fire inside of me that refuses to give up as the flame inside that was lit no one can blow out. That fire will burn until all is consumed, leaving all scorched through a fervency that eventually incites an inevitable, ineluctable, release unto me that is irrevocable.
It is hard to remain still in any long stage of delay when one is eager or ready to get out and about to hop into the right now.
We do not too often appreciate interruption pause, or intermission. It interferes with our plans and/or causes an unwanted disturbance to our present.
Despite our discomfort and disappointment for being annoyingly or sadly inconvenienced by whatever it may bring, these reactions depending on the diversity of our nature, disposition, and matter of personal bearings.
God asks us to be still even though we do not always care to hear this request.
He has a message that comes along with it for all who can relate- I myself know this notification is true.
And that is- what he has done for us in the past as it had come to past, he will unhesitatingly undoubtedly do again for us to look back to once it goes to pass.
Most of us may not like to wait but in the wait, we gain “weight”. A weight that enables us to carry the heaviness of life without tumbling to crumble down.
Our weight builds up each time we wait as what we undergo through the wait bends and lifts us until we are flexible enough to withstand the treadmills of life that await us ahead.
Only then are we fully prepared to receive and properly handle what is given or bestowed to us in a timely fashion for us to whole-heartedly enjoy and accept great responsibility for.
God knows that we need to be equipped before he gives us the tools and resources to handle in carrying out anything he is entrusting to us.
So, we should listen carefully when he summons and keep up the training in the seasonal times of waiting because in the long run everything will pay off in ways incredibly unimaginable for those who are able to recognize. – latoya lawrence
Some people take kindness for weakness, thinking that they can take advantage of you.
A lady at work (at one of the places I am employed at) who wanted me to do duty on the side for her as she paid me directly in cash found out different.
She expected to use me and my time for her convenience and thought handing out money would reel me in.
I do not know where some people come from and what is going on in their minds.
I stayed quiet to let her run her mouth and set up plans so she could think she was controlling the situation while the entire time I was the one who was running the show. Now she has received a harsh blow.
I put my foot down.
My supervisor told me to tell the lady I had an additional job scheduled to prevent the lady from further acquiring my service.
However, I am not the type to lie for convenience unless it is necessary.
People lie so much in their daily lives or routine that it becomes second nature to them thinking that lies are the only way to go or to get what they want- and that may be true for those used to deception, but I prefer honesty over cowardice.
I told this conniving woman “No” more than once and told my supervisor again about the situation as the lady phoned me up today asking if I would mind working on the side for her two days this week.
I told the woman nonchalantly “No, I don’t want to”.
My supervisor said she would call the woman and speak with her as I firmly stated that I am there to do my assigned shifts and that is it!
There was no mistake at me getting hired by and working for Amazon in 2021.
I knew in hindsight that the relatively short ten months spent there I was never meant to stay. It was just another steppingstone for me to step upon and to pass through.
It was not a mistake that I encountered and met Michael Gonzalez either.
People like him want or expect people like me to be lower than what we are.
When we do not display preconceived notions of how or what they feel we should be they prefer to view us as thinking that we are better than we are, that we are purely riding on ego by having an exaggerated opinion of ourselves and/or capabilities.
I know how some people of this type of nature think, feel, and respond when it comes to people like us who are on a higher vibration, wavelength/level…
I am proud of the child that I once was, the teenager I used to be, and of the woman who I am now.
I am thankful and grateful for the divine guidance and protection that reigns over me.
God has never let or allowed negative people to win over me in any circumstance.
When I look into the past I remember that since I was a little girl all throughout my life whenever people had tried or partook in doing dirt against me they have always failed no matter how many things they did, lies they told, or delusion they upheld through their facades and false perception of projection they tried to reflect upon my life.
God has taught me, and from a young age, instilled in me during my journey- an insight, strength and confidence.
A living example of what he assembles no one can disassemble. It is also an inspiration to others of what is possible when others say what is not possible.
It upsets negative people when what would hurt or bother them does not hurt, bother, or affect you mentally or emotionally. They do not have the capacity or knowledge of higher consciousness within the spirit to know better. It is a level that they will never attain.
Whenever negative people went to strike their arrows, it was nothing to me. Idiocy can sometimes be annoying, but it is of no faze.
There are a lot of no-good people in the world. When God has a special purpose for us others can see that light, though, they might not discern what that light is. The devil comes for us the strongest, yet he has no power over us!
As I observe the present everything is running smoothly.
Of course, we all have the usual kinks that life throws at us here and there that eventually get untangled- but it is because of the fallen world that we live in and to keep us knowing that we can depend on God to see us through and to keep us thriving.
I love and appreciate the positive powerful energy around me.♥️
I came across an Article titled Do Women Need Men and what I read in this article is total bullshit!
The author is stating that if women say they do not want or need a man it is only because they have been hurt by men and that every woman loves a rock hard cock sliding in and out of their vagina and wants love and a relationship with a man.
The article also states that to a woman the love between a man and a woman is special and the most important form of love within her life.
Well, I LaToya Lawrence am a woman.
I have never loved a man, I have never cared for a man, I have never been in a romantic relationship with a man, and I have never been hurt by a man.
If I had a baby I preferred to have one on my own without the companionship of a man.
I never wanted or needed a man since my younger days on up. And, I definitely do not consider the love between a man and a woman to be the most special or meaningful.
Maybe it is to some or most, but definitely not for all.
The love between my mother and I was the best love to experience (and the love of my dog) and nothing could ever surpass that for me.
My happiness was never dependent upon a man. The reason I am happy is because I never wanted one and because I truly love myself and I love the path in life I was chosen to live without the desire or need to be with one (a man).
This article is not truthful in regard to “all women”.
I hate when those in society spread lies and misinformation. Every woman is not the same and a man is not some irresistible being that a woman suddenly does not want or need due to being hurt or disappointed by one.
A woman can “naturally” not feel any need, want, or desire for any man.
Here is a few parts from the article:
Do Women Need Men?
In today’s world, women can live a life that is completely independent of men if they choose to.
A modern woman can earn her own money, be protected by the police, justice system and media and be supported by the government.
However, regardless of how much a woman can take care of herself in the modern world, she still will always want and need a man for the following reasons:
To experience the love that can only occur between a man and a woman.
To be impregnated by a man that she loves and wants to have a family with.
To have the father of her children present to make her feel safe and to help raise the children in a more balanced way, compared to her doing it all by herself.
To be a boyfriend or a husband that she can share life experiences with, overcome challenges with and grow together over time.
So, the answer to the question, “Do women need men?” is a definite yes if a woman wants to lead a normal, happy life.
Sometimes, you might see a news story or an article online about women no longer needing men because they can go and get themselves implanted with semen from a sperm back and have their own children without the need of a man.
Lesbian women tend to do that so they can raise a children, but normal heterosexual women still have a natural desire to be impregnated by a man that they love.
After all, women love having sex just as much as men do.
Women love the feeling of a rock hard penis sliding into their little love tunnel, just as much as we men like to get in there and give it to them.
Sex is a mutually beneficial and enjoyable thing for men and women and so is love.
Regardless of the changes that happen in modern society, the love between a man and a woman always remains a very special and powerful thing that most women place the utmost of importance on in their life.
If a woman doesn’t have the love of a man in her life, she may spend a lot of time on her career and try to distract herself, but will almost always become depressed and feel like her life is wasting away on pointless work, when she really wants to be in love, be a mother and have a family.
So, if you’ve been wondering to yourself, “Do women need men?” because you don’t seem to desperately wanted by women, then you should ask yourself what the real reason is behind you asking that question.
Don’t Listen to the BS lyrics From Female Pop Singers
A guy who doesn’t understand women will often feel confused when he listens to the confident, brash, girl power lyrics of female pop singers.
Female pop singers will passionately sing lyrics like, “I don’t need a man” or “Sisters are doing it all for themselves” and act as though they don’t care if they have a man or not.
Yet, is that really the way it is? Do modern women not need men at all, or do those song lyrics simply create a smoke screen to hide what is really going on behind the scenes?
Let’s clear this up…
If a woman is saying she doesn’t need men in her life, you can bet your bottom dollar that she has recently (or repeatedly) had her heart broken and she’s still hurting, or she is lusting after the type of guys who aren’t interested in her.
With that being the case, the anti-men lyrics are nothing more than a smoke screen for insecure or emotionally bruised women.
The heartbroken female pop singer (or everyday woman) who is saying that she doesn’t need men, will cry herself to sleep over the fact that she no longer has a man in her life.
Just listen to some of the candid interviews of female pop singers and celebrities and you will see them admitting to crying their eyes out all the time. They may put on a front of being emotionally cold and independent, but it’s just a smoke screen.
Likewise, a woman who is saying that she doesn’t need men because the kind of men she wants don’t want her, will continue to try to attract their attention.
So, do women need men? Of course they do.
If women didn’t need men or want men in their life, there wouldn’t be so many “Who needs men anyway?” songs out there.
The only reason those songs exist is because single or dumped women tend stick together in a “friends forever” sort of way, so when one of their group has been dumped or let down by a guy, they all rally round to make her feel better by adopting an attitude of, “Who needs men anyway when we’ve got each other?!”
Of course, when the dust settles, they all set about helping her to find a new man ASAP.
Watch this video to understand how women really think…
A lot of people do not want to hear or accept the truth, but I am one who will speak my truth regardless.
When I worked a twelve-hour overnight shift this past Thursday at a medical rehabilitation facility, I got into a friendly discussion with a 75-year-old Polish man who happened to have lived in areas of the town I was born and raised in many years ago.
We reminisced about things then had gotten on the subject of black people who occupied residence in the area at the time and how most of them were low scale.
The neighborhood I grew up in was once an all-white neighborhood the people started to move out of the area when black people began to move in the area back then. The neighborhood was a beautiful place to live at one time.
I had heard and understood that story when my mother told it to me and other people I ran into acknowledged it.
There is prejudice among people who do not like people of certain races and ethnicities and there is a very good reason.
All black people are not bad, but most are not worth anything and this is coming from an African American female of mixed parentage/heritage.
I was not the average type of black girl/person growing up I spoke articulate and properly, I was very bright, and I did not hold the ignorant mentality that most black people had.
Just because a lot of white people do not like black people does not at all mean that they are racist. Some of them are but not all of them.
There is good and bad in every race or ethnicity, but a lot of black people do tend to be the worst.
I am black and have hated black people for the same reasons other races do. A lot of black people are a turn off- the way they look, act, think, talk. The way they present themselves, their mannerisms are off-putting.
I had problems with a lot of black people growing up because I was not one of them, I was not anything like them.
Black people are jealous of other blacks who are a better quality than they are and they try to pull them down to destroy them.
There are smart black people but rarely are they as bright as white people unless they are mixed with another bloodline. I have heard my mother who is black (with mixed parentage also) state this as well as a white person- but this fact was an obvious one to me.
Of course, I have experienced people who automatically judged me due to my brown skin but once they had gotten to know me it was a different story. It was not me personally, but the negative perception blacks have made on society.
In my life, with most people, it had always been predominantly white people and people of other races who accepted me and treated me kindly in life wanting to see me succeed.
All my life it has been black people who were extremely jealous of me and other blacks of my caliber. They have set out to tarnish our images, ruin our reputation with lies, and hamper our destiny in the most underhanded ways but because I never held their mindset, way of thinking, or essence their actions were in vain- a total waste of time- even if their severely deficient minds will never be able to grasp this reasoning.
Low-scale blacks as well as low-scale people in general like to bring people down to their level or lower.
They try to bring people down to their level because they cannot rise to our higher level of intellect, ability, character, or spiritual consciousness.
As far as I am concerned one of the only reasons Barack Obama was originally elected president is because he was biracial and because a lot of people (mostly men) did not want Hillary Clinton or a woman as president of the United States.
I am not at all insinuating that Barack was not qualified to be president, but even I would not have wanted an average black man in office.
I could be wrong but I think Michelle Obama would have had a good chance to become the first black woman president if she had wanted or decided to run.
Anyhow, for the most part, many black people are undesirable.
A lot of whites do not care when blacks kill one another because they feel they are helping to eliminate their own problem.
I just feel that it is the wrong blacks that end up dying and being killed by the hands of degenerates sometimes.
The ones that need to die are still walking around. They keep having children that should never have been born while there are good, valuable people who are unable to conceive children.
Trash people shoot out kids like crazy and they populate the earth unnecessarily with their undesirable offspring.
I could never stand living around a bunch of black people, going to school with them, or working in an environment with them. They completely turn me off. I only like certain type of blacks.
I have currently lived in a mixed neighborhood for eleven years now with Caucasians, Korean/Chinese/Japanese and others of Spanish descent. There are not too many black people in comparison- and the energy is wonderful.
Isn’t it something when people tell you the pros about something, but not the cons?
It is a total misrepresentation of whatever it is that is being addressed or called into question.
That is why it is good to have a sharp mind.
Depend on those strong hunches within intuition, count on your own knowledge, and dig deeper to find answers that you are looking for.
Do your own investigation if necessary.
Make them spill the beans by exploring every detail of a matter or situation to have whoever it is regarding the circumstance acknowledge key points and vital information according to your liking.
Do not let anyone sell you a dream/bullshit or tell you half the truth by not divulging what they should have made known to begin with.
As writers we can get inspired by anything- I know I do.
It is a part of our artistic, creative mode when the energy stirs us into action.
Today I read a fellow blogger’s “About Page” after I discovered her by a comment of mine that she liked.
I loved what she had to say in her introduction.
These are the sentences of the lady’s words that struck me because I have also been saying this for years.
She wrote:
We see the world with our eyes which have our own perception. When view doesn’t please our perception we start taking it as wrong or consider it as misfit for our calculated vision.
I responded back to her summary and shared my own accord in agreement by denoting:
Love your words that are spoken in truth.
As soon as some see or hear something that goes beyond their sense of understanding or belief, they are ready to attack or criticize instead of just accepting that we all are different and on our own path and there is so much more out there within the universe than what they may be able to grasp.
When I mention hate I am not speaking about harming, bothering anyone, or hating others because of their race, the color of their skin, sexual orientation, or other irrational reasons such as that do not make any sense.
I am talking about the normal feelings of dislike toward people, things, or matters among some of us for whatever reason due to inclines that are a natural part of this life
Everyone is different.
We all have our own points of view and ways of looking at things and all of us are not always going to agree and that is okay because we are not all wired the same.
To me hatred is a strength, and it does not stem from hurt or being hurt.
Love can hurt people, yet love is not considered a weakness or a thing to refrain from feeling.
Just like anger is a natural emotion, so is the hatred of certain things when the feeling is triggered.
There is nothing wrong with getting angry, everything lies in how we deal with, handle and direct that anger.
Emotions often fuel responses, so I never fed into the nonsense of hatred destroying a person or clouding them with mental or spiritual darkness.
People are just afraid of what some people will do to others out of hatred so they use untrue manipulating psychology to sway a person within their thinking and perception of the root in where hatred stems from or will take one.
For some people, hatred reflects their hurt and may lead them down a path of unhappiness, bitterness, or even destruction. However, this is not the case for all individuals, and I know this from experience.
Some people believe that hatred will hold one back, yet this is false- it is people that hold others back on account of not approving of attitudes or dispositions that they may hold or have.
People who do not get along with a certain group of individuals may get along just fine when they are in the company of those who they relate to or connect with.
Just as hatred can make some people furious and want to kill so can love.
Some people would kill another in vengeance if someone they loved were brutally and unjustifiably harmed, but they would not respond in the same manner in regard for someone they hated. So that person is not considered a threat in that circumstance.
I am not saying this example of explanation is necessarily acceptable, I am just stating the effect in which the emotions are apt to react.
We are all responsible for our actions when we are consciously aware. Some people are confused or misled and deserve understanding and not blame.
Nevertheless, hatred or dislike can be a feeling that people feel for others without the hatred having any negative affect in their lives or within their bearing.
Hatred can be a boost used positively and productively.
There are things and people that I strongly dislike but that does not spoil my “inner personal” joy or fulfillment. I naturally manifest good vibrational energy around my aura that I can feel because of the spirit that resides within me.
Hatred is not an issue that I spend or contend daily moments with. There is no dwelling within the feeling, just an acknowledgement of its existence.
I am rooted within the love that sustains me and nothing can overshadow that.
In life there is balance whereas a negative could be a positive or a positive could be a negative- there is not one without the other. When this reality is accepted there is no need to find a flaw as a result in how the natural alignments are weighed. –latoya lawrence
We are all made up of a life force. As a result, many of us are sensitive to other people’s energy waves.
Just as we can receive information through dreams and visions the universe also transfers awareness through spiritual communication within consciousness processed into the subconscious of connection to the universe.
Some people do not speak about things or constantly go on about things because they worry about what others may think.
I am one who never cared or feared what anyone thought. I have always been outspoken. If certain people are narrow-minded or ignorant as to what inspires or motivated me that is on them- not on me.
I know myself; I know who I am and the spirit within me will speak as it pleases through what is significant to life situations.
I do not have a problem speaking for myself or on behalf of certain others.
One of my strongest abilities has been one of an empathic being able to know/feel the energy within the universe and from people who surround me or who are around at a distance no matter how far away they are.
As a woman born with this gift, I include to pick up on men’s feelings toward me.
As women in general we cannot stop men from being attracted or interested in us.
For empathic people there is no avoiding the aspect of energy that is pointed within our direction.
When a person is thinking about us, and we are in their thoughts we can pick up on their thoughts within our minds because they are thinking about us.
This energy is transferred to us consciously and unconsciously from the other person or people.
Everyone or most are unaware that we are cognizant of their thoughts/feelings/emotions/energies etc….
We gather information from their thoughts day in and day out depending on the level of intensity or consistency of the person who exudes the energy.
It is important for us to not ignore our intuition because there is a reason why we feel their energy as time will later tell if all is not immediately or presently divulged to us at first.
Their feelings are not our feelings.
Just because we can feel that someone likes us in no way indicates that we are liking or interested in them as some who are not informed about clairsentience may misinterpret in the case of a romantic or sexual attraction from the other person just because we tend to discuss it or complain about it.
There are incidents where feelings are mutual and some may share a connection, but just because people are somehow spiritually connected does not mean their feelings are mutual.
What I have noticed is that men that I do not like and who I am repulsed by have often come into my thoughts within the past.
I would feel them constantly until their feelings for me eventually waned.
There were a few guys whose energy I had to deal with for years until they finally gave up.
These two knew that I had a gift and purposely would communicate with me telepathically. There were spiritual experiences between us all that were backed up and confirmed years ago before they left me alone.
The more I feel men’s energy who I do not like the more I get repulsed by them.
Some people tell me I should be flattered, but why?
Why do the guys who turn me off the most do not understand that I do not want them?
No matter how much they may lie or deny their feelings for me, if I do not reciprocate, I still know the truth.
Even when they admit to their feelings, they still do not want to accept that I will never like or desire them.
They sometimes act as if I am supposed to want them.
When men come into my thoughts most of the time it is a warning to beware of them and to alert me to the type of men they are. And this is a good form of confirmation as these are guys that I would not have ordinarily given the time of day anyhow.
For all my life, informative energy has come to me in my thoughts, whether it was to impart knowledge of life lesson facts- people, situations, or things.
However, I really hate and do not understand why I must be annoyed by the energy of men that I despise.
The occurrence can linger for long periods of time as they are occupied by their own thoughts or feelings towards me.
I appreciate the awareness to take heed to when they direct any sort of negativity toward me, but when they like me, I do not like to “feel” it.
Nevertheless, it is just part of a supernatural gift that I must live with.
Haters do not want to hear good things about you. They do not want you to succeed.
They want you to believe the lies they implant because they do not want to acknowledge the truths that radiate in you.
They want to cause doubt in you, they want to downplay the talent and ability within you.
They try to take away from you to give to themselves.
They want to knock you down to build themselves up.
They want the credit for what you deserve that they did not honestly earn.
Do they ever learn?
Haters hate themselves. They feel inadequate and resentful because you possess what they believe they are entitled to have, and that makes them feel small.
It eats them up how you were created to stand tall.
When you do not fall, they wonder why.
If they were in your shoes the treachery in attempts would have made them cry.
You do not need to prove to anyone what you know you already have- so go ahead and laugh.
There is nothing they can do to eliminate the shining light inside of you.
Continue to do what you do.
No matter what they endeavor to do. They will never be able to authenticate their version to resemble you. –latoya lawrence
Small-minded, ignorant, or narrow-minded people form judgements, speculations or assumptions about others or situations based on their own generalizations, speculations, insecurities or unproven conjectures.
People who are on the level or who have open minds that are broad within a wise/objective/reasoned way of analytical thought process know and respect the vast array of human distinction.
They make judgements or considerations based on another person’s own individuality. Not based on preconceived notions, the typical familiarity of common reactions, behaviors, feelings or mindsets.
Great minds are fully aware of the absolute and possibility thereof when it comes to the diversity within nature and flourishing/development within unique human beings. –latoya lawrence
I remember in my teenage years and in my early adulthood how I viewed life as nothing.
To me, it still is nothing but at the same time it is something meaningful that means nothing.
I spend and have spent days/years just killing time as I never cared about this world, yet I have had to always keep going on account of a God that has me here for purposes of his own that I do not delight in at all.
Yes, I have no problem coping with or managing this life as my life has shown and proved that I can handle anything. The problem is this life in the present world is unnatural to a natural way that life should be.
A lot of what is deemed normal is not normal.
Why did this plan have to include me? With all the people God created why drag me into this ridiculous shit that has nothing to do with me?
I have been blessed but these certain anointings have never been enough to make living here in the world with all the dumb shit and shit I could care less about worth my while.
I was always ahead of my time and pissed off because God put me here- feeling that I did not belong here and deserved better.
God claims to love but what kind of love would bring me to a place that I despise?
He gave me and gave certain others knowledge but what is the purpose of knowing things when we have no real control over anything and no guarantees in life but to one day die?
Are we just to know that no matter what we have experienced and possess through seasons of happiness and hardships we are still just mere dust that can be blown away at any time?
When I look back at a lot of life that has passed by, I really do not see the point or the purpose in the things I have gone through or encountered.
Most of the things I know now I already knew back when I was much younger.
Many things that excite and that are looked upon as significant to others are not appealing or anything relevant to me.
I did not need to witness or observe accounts of what I considered to be sick shit among other people -or to be successfully delivered through undesirable trials and tribulations- to know or to understand God’s power as I have.
To me, God’s force was always evident. But I was made to be an individual put into a world just like everyone else to undergo inevitable life situations.
What is the point of being in the world if one is truly not of it even if they are born into imperfection?
My resentment in the past for God came from my perceived view of his character and I still hold a little resentment toward him as I do not appreciate things about him that I do not understand as to his reasons why he lets things in life be.
Nevertheless, it is what it is.
I have been tired of this fucked up world since my teenage years yet still strong enough to endure every moment of it.
Sorry, (And I am not apologetic for speaking the truth) but from my observation some so called Christians strike me as rejects who do not know how to think for themselves.
They sound like wind up dolls who repeat doctrine like hypnotized puppets/flunkies.
I believe in God and know scripture; however, I am not, never was, and never will be the type to bow down to a way of thinking, speaking, or doing by being trained from the instruction or psychology that does not relate to my knowledgeable consciousness of vibration.
My identity can never be taken away by religious, societal or familiar influence held by those who do not challenge what does not pertain to or apply to all.
Some individuals have no backbone.
I could not remain at peace if I was not able to be my true self in mind and within attitude.
In a world where impressions matter to many, truths are what truly mattered to me.
Not projecting a facade of what is acceptable for the sake of being accepted.
I found it impossible for me to put on a disguise as I am not one to be a people pleaser.
There is a time for courtesy, professionalism, diplomacy, and respecting certain boundaries as well as a time when to justifiably cross them.
It is so important to live out one’s truth even if that genuineness and loyalty to self within self-preservation according to one’s own distinct nature causes a reproach within others due to what goes beyond their own comprehension and/or level of discernment.
I have been lied upon, misunderstood, judged for things I have never done, criticized for not being able to be controlled by others, and I have been the object of other people’s vicious gossip, envy and jealousy just like many other people of substance in life have.
All other people’s negativity did was cause me to become further resilient and despise and look down upon these individuals more than I already had beforehand.
As one who is extremely stubborn no one can make me do anything I do not want to do, and no one can stop me from doing anything that I want to do.
I have noticed an innate force within me that refused to allow me to be deterred from possessing the essential liberty that is instilled within me to express and prevail.
I was naturally inspired to continue to move forward unaffected.
Permitting others, the opportunity to dictate or restrict one’s path and future out of fear/intimidation or discouragement only prevents one’s celestial discovery, steady growth, and ultimate evolution.
There are people who often recognize or acknowledge some of us for who they want us to be instead of who we really are.
They form judgements or have preconceived notions based on generalized perceptions of what they believe we represent through our perceived lifestyle, words, or manner of bearing in which we conduct ourselves.
Some conclusions that others draw may be accurate, partially accurate or just plain wrong altogether.
One cannot be genuinely defined according to conjecture, hearsay, rumor, false assumption or a standard of what one is familiar with and/or accustomed to.
So many factors, shape, make up and contribute to diverse individuals and their behavior.
As soon as one behaves or responds contrary to another person’s sense of belief or reasoning, they may become shocked, disappointed, or even critical toward the other person.
This instance is not an illustration that the people or person in question necessarily did something wrong or acted out of character. It is an example of others whose expectation or notion of what they built up within their own way of thinking projecting upon the surface.
I experienced a long time ago (from my childhood on up) how people would put their own insecurities, ignorance, and negativity onto me and others who they differed from or were jealous towards.
I without a doubt knew that their judgment or lack thereof did not coincide with reality.
Their actions and behavior reflected themselves, who they truly were, and had absolutely nothing to do with me!
I am not going to mention any names but he knows who he is.
Since around Sunday on February 5, 2023 I noticed a few love/attraction/ lust spells tried to be worked upon me.
It began with acknowledgement of the man lusting after me -sexually desiring me- with the attempt to also get me to have a sexual as well as physical attraction to this guy.
Then I began to receive messages that this guy likes me very much.
In the days following, the essence of the love spell relayed to me the other feelings that are intended to sway me.
The motive is to have me like, care for, and possibly fall in love with this guy so I will be drawn to him.
I guess he thinks if he can make me feel this way that I will jump into bed with him.
He thinks that if I have sex with him because of the love spell then walk away from me afterwards that I will somehow be hurt emotionally.
This would be his way of retaliating against me for rejecting him by using an “unnatural” method (love-magic/witchcraft).
I understand that he or his ego may be hurt but witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not and never has worked on me mentally or emotionally I am far too strong for that.
I am sensitive to energy so I can pick up on the essence and the intent.
I do not understand why some guys have the mentality that they can hurt women by using them for sex.
Every woman is not the same and they do not hold the mentality of being disgraced by negative men who try to humiliate and degrade them in that manner.
There are women who use men for sex too and do not care.
He probably believes in his ignorant mind that I would be hurt the most because I am not the type who goes to bed with anyone at all. So, if he sleeps with me by doing witchcraft then talks badly about me with lies and whatever other stupid games he would be avenged.
He is sick in my opinion.
Love spells should not be done at all- but if they are done- at least people should do them with good/honest intentions instead of selfish ones that intend to hurt others just to have one’s way with them.
Aside from all that, witchcraft/black magic/voodoo is real even if certain people do not believe that it works.
The supernatural instance does not affect everyone but a lot of people do become under the influence of it. If witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not work on a person mentally, emotionally or physically it can work on them spiritually or materially- through finances and other means.
No matter what, God is always stronger than the devil that is why I am continuously kept aware. I am so grateful and thankful to the Lord for looking out and keeping me protected.
I remember years ago another guy worked a love spell on me to try to get me to love, marry him, and have babies with him.
I do not like people who do these things with ulterior motives to suit themselves, especially against another person’s will.
Why want someone who does not want you back? There is a world full of people on the planet.
What is important is that for people who are interested in relationships to find one’s who are best suited for them.
Right now, with the current guy, I find this action of his kind of exciting as I wonder how much further he will go. I even have a smile on my face at this love spell.
I am a fierce spiritual warrior and I am ready for the battle that God will take care of!
I was told twice yesterday by a mature (ninety-five year old) woman of experience that because of the way I look physically, and the way that I carry myself, I should be in movies.
This is not the first time I have been told these words and similar ones alike.
As a teen and young adult, some people would ask me if I was a model and would tell me that I could be one.
Another person told me they saw me as a movie actress type who was supposed to be writing screenplays.
Aside from other things, I could have been a lawyer or a psychologist if I had really wanted and chose to. I have both the smarts and the mindset.
The fact is, I never wanted a life in Hollywood to be broadcast on television, or to be photographed for magazines walking down the runway.
I never had the desire to be a legal representative or mental health specialist either.
Though many of us are qualified or can do or become professionals in more than one area, it does not mean this is a preferred career or path to seek.
Jobs and job labels do not define us as individuals.
Even though there are narrow-minded misinformed people who believe the higher the title or higher the income, the higher the stature.
Someone who does not have a job or who has a job that is considered low rank in comparison to high-level/high-profile jobs can have far more integrity, intelligence, ability than the one touting their so-called credentials.
They may have just not gotten the right opportunity, could have fallen into hard times, did not believe enough within themselves or did not have any support.
There are several reasons and factors for why those who could achieve great heights do not.
A lot of people who are in positions of power or who hold positions that are praised within society are not as adequate as they think they are or would like to believe.
Many of them are nothing but shit! They are as common as they come- there is nothing special about their existence.
Novel within character and mindset unlike the ordinary are what define true standing within its authenticity.
I have noticed since my early youth that if there was something in life that I did not want then the circumstance was not going to work out for the best- or at all.
I cannot have anyone, or any situation persuaded, or forced upon me.
I am too headstrong to be influenced by what others may try to impose on me.
When things in life I desired were granted to me or attained by my own accomplishing the circumstance always worked out favorably with long-lasting rewards.
I determine my happiness not what other people define what happiness is according to their standards or perception of what meets the requirements of a happy or content life condition.
Only I know the true source and components needed to define the attributes of my own fulfillment.
From my observations throughout the years there are so-called Christians and others alike who believe if something is not written or mentioned within the Bible then the instance is unlikely to be true or not possible- which I know for fact has never been the truth.
Something does not have to be in the Bible for it to be truthful or possible.
Everything not written in the Bible that can occur is also not always devil inspired or people inspired either.
There is credibility to many situations, circumstances, encounters that were experiences not directly included as taken place in the Bible.
Some people are stuck in their limited scope of reasoning, narrow-mindedness, ignorance, brainwashing, or influences brought on by society.
That is why it is so important to be strong-minded and confident within one’s own.
Knowing while certain others may not share an experience or a belief in no way will make another’s experience or belief less probable. There is a great possibility for their undergoing to be a reality and able to exist.
I have always been headstrong. I do not have to go through something to believe or to know it is able to be true for someone else.
Maybe because I have that insight, nevertheless, one should never let others sway their minds or raise doubt in what they hold to know or believe firmly.
Of course, we as people are liable to hold onto false or erroneous ways of being.
Anyone can misinterpret or be mistaken about things it is when they fail to accept their error once they have discovered or have been proven to be wrong in some way.
I tape recorded my mother’s voicemail message as I mentioned I would in the previous post I wrote. The tape recorder I purchased seemed to be defective, the box that it came in was not in the best shape either. The tape recorder ate up one of my cassettes. The item was sold and shipped by Amazon. Amazon is no stranger to handing out products that have been used then re-shipped out to other buyers/customers who are looking to receive brand new items. I called up Amazon customer service to request a refund for the tape recorder and the damaged cassette tape. Amazon acknowledged that I would receive my refund for both products within 7-10 business days without having to return the items.
I was grateful and asked to be sent a confirmation email for proof in case I do not receive my refund on time. I should have just purchased the Sony brand digital recorder at PC Richard’s on Tuesday when I was there at the store, but I did not want to spend sixty dollars on something I was not going to use regularly. Nevertheless, I gave the idea a second thought. The digital recorder would come in handy to keep on hand nowadays. Of course, there are other options to record by other means. However, these objects/gadgets do not last forever. At least with cassette tapes, they can be stored away for a longtime to be used again. I have cassette tapes that are still in good condition for over twenty years now.
I stopped celebrating Christmas, Thanksgiving, and even my birthday when I was twelve years of age.
My reason for doing so had absolutely nothing to do with any religious belief or outside influence, they were done purely out of personal feelings and rationalizations.
Many events in this society are commercialized or set within following traditions.
I have always been an unconventional individual, doing and behaving on my own terms according to my own nature and distinct mindset.
I do not, never have, and never will let society dictate what my values should be, how I conduct myself, or how I live my life.
I am not one to just go along with the program.
I still can and do, of course, acknowledge and respect the celebration of holidays and birthdays regarding others as I send out and accept cards or gifts from those who matter or who show kindness.
The thing is, I do not need one day out of a year to express love, the existence of life, appreciation for things, or the beauty of togetherness with those near and dear.
I send out cards, have given gifts, shown gratitude and spent meaningful time with loved ones as an ongoing periodic all year around basis.
To me, every day is a day to be grateful, to celebrate life, to share moments with those we love or care for, and so on.
I am not inspired by tradition because tradition does not inspire who I am.
I am a very honest, straightforward person. If I say or write something it is because it is the truth, what I really think or believe, or suspect is possible.
Never do I or have I ever intentionally expressed anything under false pretense.
Some people may not understand what I mean or where I come from at times- depending on who it is- because I am a very deep, intelligent, and spiritual awake person.
Nevertheless, I speak my mind and am led by spirit to fulfill my purposes. I do know what I am talking about when I speak on things.
I am a forty-seven-year-old female who often gets mistaken for someone in her twenties or thirties. I have never really looked my age in body or in the face.
I even have a young sounding voice when I speak.
I have attracted men of all ages- young and old within the past.
When I was in my thirties eighteen-year-old guys were attracted to me, when I was in my twenties forty and fifty-year-old men were attracted to me.
It never made a difference. To each his or her own I never received any personal gratification from this attention I never wanted it.
Some men found me to be a challenge that they wanted to conquer. Some men just genuinely wanted to be with me because they liked me for my mind, and I was not like the average female once they got to know me a little.
I never placed value on myself based on whether a man approved or desired me. I have never suffered from low self-esteem and have never needed anyone to validate me or to build my assurance.
Self- confidence, self-love, and self-worth are things produced within me. No one gave it to me, and no one can take it away. Everyone should feel this way.
I have no interest in romantic relationships, I am asexual and proud.
Now I want to discuss this issue about Michael Gonzalez because I am being led to by spirit.
As I am a highly spiritually inclined individual I feel and keenly discern people’s energy.
Whenever a man, especially men who are of a negative disposition are attracted, or interested in me- I can feel them, their thoughts, and I can accurately sense things in relation to them in a timely frame.
Michael is an ex-coworker of mine who had, and who still has a “crush” on me. It is nothing serious, but it is annoying.
From the first moment I laid eyes on Michael, I did not find him to be attractive.
He is not a cute guy, and he is not handsome as far as I am concerned. A friend of mine had saw a photo of him and said that he was not attractive to her also but that he seems to think that he is something. Maybe there are low-scale females who find him attractive, however, I do not and never will.
I was very insulted when Michael reflected his insecurities onto me while we worked together by entertaining the ridiculous idea that I could be attracted or interested in him.
I told Michael to his face that I could not stand him, but his inflated ego did not want to believe or accept it even though deep down inside he knew it was the truth.
He even profiled in front of me one day on the job by trying to show off his body that was not appealing to me whatsoever. He got down onto the floor to demonstrate push-ups. The incident turned me off.
The more I had got to know Michael the more I disliked him.
When some men try to impress women, push themselves on them, or try to flaunt themselves when they mistakenly assume that the female likes them, they do not realize how much they make a fool of themselves. It is very off-putting.
When I was younger there were guys (usually low-scale guys because guys of substance do not behave in this manner) who would get angry at me for not wanting them and in return tell lies about me.
There were three who were a problem.
Two lied and said I was involved with them and all three wanted people to believe that I slept with them or had feelings for them- all to make themselves appear big in the eyes of their peers. And, to also try to bring me down since I thought too highly of myself to desire or to be with anyone like them.
Neither one of these guys were desirable they were used to low-scale women such as themselves falling all over them and making a fuss over them due to their own bouts of low self-esteem.
Someone like me, who was of substance and class, added an extra blow to the bruise they received to their egos when they got hurt and rejected by me.
Of course, their efforts did not work so they joined in with the effort to work Brujeria (Black magic/Santeria) on me to try to make me look bad within the public eye, however, I was still too strong, and I successfully defeated all of them at their own game. On top of it, karma came back and destroyed all three of them. One even ended up dead years ago from his negative lifestyle.
No one can bring me down as I never cared what anybody said or thought about me.
I did not have time for that type of bullshit then, and I do not tolerate it now.
Michael is not at all drastic to that extreme his nonsense is mild in comparison, yet still an act of ridiculous nonsense.
With all the serious things going on in the world Michael is hung up on the fact that he cannot attain me.
He would rather believe that I really do have feelings for him and am just fighting it, or that I am playing hard to get, or whatever other delusional bullshit that men feed themselves instead of facing the truth over dealing with reality.
Michael needs to forget about me and realize that a woman of my level and caliber would never be interested or attracted to him.
Michael has a lot of negative energy. He has a very low vibration.
I am a positive person I exude from a very high vibration.
What I also believe is a part of Michael’s insecurities stem from his background of being morbidly obese.
Maybe after he lost weight, he feels he needs something to prove and is overcompensating.
He needs women to be interested or attracted to him to feel like a big man. I just wish he would find some other female to win over to measure or to prove his false sense of pride.
The other women he has been with are easy tramps. He feels if he can get me then he can get anybody. I should in a way take this instance as a compliment, but I am not flattered by it, I am disgusted.
To me, Michael will always be a small, unworthy, pretentious smelly fish swimming in a dirty pond.
I am not trying to be mean I just do not understand the sickness behind and within certain men and women (because there are deceitful, trouble-making women too) who cannot deal with rejection.
A healthy-minded person does not occupy themself with stupid shit like this.
I remember in my early twenties when a guy from the old neighborhood I grew up in came up behind me in the 1990’s and uttered, “You love animals more than you love people”.
This was after news had gotten back to him that I had told a small crowd of guys on a street corner one night how ugly they were.
These guys used to act silly and harass me because I would not date them, so I had to put them in check.
Anyhow, the guy who came up behind me heard about the incident and called me a bitch.
If anything, I took “bitch” as a compliment even though he meant it as an insult. I was never the average type of female anyhow. I was very unique in many aspects.
When this guy saw that I did not respond to the word bitch, he knew the reason was because I did not care.
So, the next time he approached me it was about the regard I had for animals, as he would observe the moments, he saw me share in the neighborhood with my dogs.
He was correct. In general, I did care for animals (canines) more than I cared for people- and with good reason!
My two favorite individuals in the entire world were my mother and one of my dogs named Brandie.
Dogs are easier to like or love than most people. I am one who did not love easily to begin with, as I know the true definition of love.
Love in any instance should and has to come naturally.
There is a circle of few I call and who are true friends. There are even people around me who are good and trustworthy.
However, my mother and my dog are the ones who knew me best and who I both consider my friends for life from here on earth to beyond.
There was a ridiculous double standard I used to hear when I was growing up, one that I knew definitely was not true because I myself naturally did not hold this particular stance.
I used to hear how, when it came to intercourse, how, for females, it would take emotion to be involved for her to become engaged, or that, after a sexual encounter, she would become emotionally attached.
Such a bunch of sexists, insulting nonsense!
I am not saying to hop around for the hell of it for those who burn with lust or the occasional desire for some to have sex, or to have sex for the sole purpose of having a child- as I once considered just using a man to conceive a baby many years ago without any commitment or affection on my part.
What I am saying as a fact is that for a “Virgin” or a woman who is constantly sexually active, or that has been sexually active not too often, she does not necessarily have to have any interest at all in a particular man for her to be able to have sex with him.
It does not mean that she cares for him, and it definitely does not mean that she has any love for him.
Sex and love have nothing to do with one another. They are both two separate things.
Women can have sex with men without having any type of attraction or feelings for them- and without any guilt.
I definitely know this all for a fact.
Some men may not have understood or wanted to have accepted this reality because they were always stereotypically viewed as the ones who primarily used women to get what they wanted. So, it was too much of a bruise to the ego.
Truth is, as it is more out in the open these days- though there are still some with ignorant concepts- it works both ways.
There are men who become emotionally attached through sex whereas others do not, and vice-versa with certain women.
Some men or women do have to have feelings for someone before they go to bed with them.
A woman who has sex with a man who she does not love or care for does not make her a whore either, because there are many different types of circumstances that take place within situations.
Men who are whorish do not normally get called the undesirable whores that they truly are by the majority of society.
There are married couples without love within a marriage. To each his or her own.
Yes, when it comes to God, he intended for intercourse to be between couples tied together through wedlock. Anything outside of this is wrong or immoral to God. He also intended true consideration and dedication to each other. That is why marriage was not to be entered into lightly.
However, we all have our own free-will, gifts, and characteristics.
Some of us are asexual and are completely not into sex. Asexuality is not a sin. Some of us do not want to ever get married. Some want a loving, faithful, life-long relationship. Some just want to run around or have sex without strings attached.
There are possible consequences to actions sometimes, such as venereal disease, crazy people with fatal attractions, violent confrontations over cheating, unwanted pregnancies.
Some of these incidents even take place with married couples.
This is a crazy-mixed up world.
I, as a woman, personally wished that there was no such thing as sexual intercourse and that, as a woman, I would be able to conceive a child naturally on my own if I ever decided to (although I did not or would not want any children at this time in my life- but if I ever had a long time ago). I feel I should not have to share my vagina with anyone, and I know I did not ever have to, my vagina belongs to me.
A little note: There is an actual fish in creation that is by nature able to conceive offspring on its own without the fertilization from a male counterpart.
Everyone has the right to think or believe what they choose to believe in.
Some believe in certain things, some do not, some are undecided because they honestly do not know whether or not a particular thing exists, and some really do not care one way or the other.
We all have our own nature and experience.
What is right for one person may be wrong for the next person.
Some are inclined to what draws them, a propensity toward what falls into place.
A lady was offended over a post I wrote a few days ago with regard to reincarnation (soul ties).
She got mad or was disappointed at me for stating my viewpoint on the matter.
She tried to get back at me by insinuating, because I do not agree with the notion of people coming back to earth throughout the centuries, that I must not actually be born of preternatural ability.
And, that I have a lot to learn due to my nonchalant attitude in regard to her response, which she also took as me being rude or arrogant.
I notice a lot of times people take other people’s comments/posts out of context or as coming off negatively when they do not personally know the person. Every detail, explanation, or essence of a person’s entirety cannot, will not, and should not be displayed or assumed in any single post.
I admit I did not care as her lack of knowledge is of no insult to me. No one’s thoughts or words can erase the truth or discredit someone else’s ability due to their own misconceptions or idle pettiness.
If I do not believe in reincarnation, then I don’t believe in it. I never will- and my third eye, sixth sense, extra sensory perception- whatever one wants to call it, has always been there and will remain.
God’s gifts are irrevocable even if others put labels on them or name them incorrectly. A spiritual gift of insight is the ability to extraordinarily “know, see, feel, hear, taste, smell, and think within communication.
But God will redeem me from the realm of the dead; he will surely take me to himself. -Psalms 49:15
“So it will be with the resurrection of the dead. The body that is sown is perishable, it is raised imperishable; it is sown in dishonor, it is raised in glory; it is sown in weakness, it is raised in power; it is sown a natural body, it is raised a spiritual body.” -1 Corinthians 15:42-45
“Jesus said to her, ‘I am the resurrection and the life. Those who believe in me, even though they die, will live, and everyone who lives and believes in me will never die.’ ” -John 11:25-26
I am not a mother. I had been told I would make a good mother if I had children, and I took the remark as a compliment.
Some may even consider me wife material, which can serve as a compliment or an insult, depending on what one’s idea is based on.
I never saw myself as marriage material, as I never had the desire or interest in romance or for stereotypical wifely duties-this nature was never within me.
The old barefoot, pregnant, in the kitchen, outdated image of wife-hood was definitely not a suitable way of life for me either.
Things have changed in this day and age and the definition of wife-material does not necessarily have to be a negative one.
Many secure men appreciate strong, independent women who can hold their own and who can also show love, support and maintain a healthy relationship that produces meaning and growth.
Most of us heard the saying, “You can’t turn a hoe into a housewife”.
Well, I say one cannot turn a virgin or one who is not into sex as a housewife either.
How many sexual partners one has had or not had does not determine one’s sufficiency. It is about one’s mentality and character.
I always knew that my self-esteem or self-worth/value as a female was not defined or dictated by my vagina or men I have never slept with.
Nor did my self-esteem or self-worth depend on what a man or anyone else classified as what was appropriate within their own personal or societal standards.
My vagina is not me; it is only a part of the body that belongs to me. I am the spirit within me, I am an individual having this human experience here on earth.
It is a great offense to suggest that any positive qualities a woman may have are only prized or treasured if a man prefers or desires them.
There are women who have no interest in satisfying a man.
They have no desire to marry or to be in a committed relationship.
Some women are intent on or concerned about developing their own careers, their own personal/spiritual growth, or the fulfillment of what they may want to offer or contribute to the world through their own special purpose.
These types of women do not need the acceptance or approval of a man to feel self-worth and value.
“Ask me and I will tell you remarkable secrets you do not know about things to come.” -Jeremiah 33:3 nlt
“Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.” -Jeremiah 33:3 esv
Some of us are naturally born with certain spiritual gifts/talents and some may acquire them later on through the Holy Spirit once they receive Jesus Christ as their Lord and savior.
God speaks to us in many different ways and he still sends us messages and warnings of insight through visions, dreams, thoughts and so on.
Every open door is not from God and every closed door is not from the devil/Satan.
Wisdom, discernment, and prayer will always bring truth into the light as well as mysteries that are unknown when we have our own distinct relationship with God.
“Dear friends, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world.
This is how you can recognize the Spirit of God:
Every spirit that acknowledges that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, but every spirit that does not acknowledge Jesus is not from God. This is the spirit of the antichrist, which you have heard is coming and even now is already in the world.
You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.
They are from the world and therefore speak from the viewpoint of the world, and the world listens to them.
We are from God, and whoever knows God listens to us; but whoever is not from God does not listen to us. This is how we recognize the Spirit of truth and the spirit of falsehood. -1John 4:1-6
“Very truly I tell you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be judged but has crossed over from death to life. -John 5:24
We get eternal life by putting our trust in Jesus.
The gift of being saved cannot be earned. It cannot be attained by doing good deeds, or by being what we perceive as good.
It cannot be gotten by going to church either.
It is only by truly believing in and putting all our trust in Jesus.
Eternal life does not begin once a believer dies and their soul leaves the body.
Eternal life begins immediately while we are still alive in body here on earth, the moment we genuinely accept Jesus as Lord over our lives.
When one is “truly saved”, they are always saved, even if they walk away from God for a while due to anger or misunderstanding, because if one is truly a child of God’s, they will always find their way back to him or he will eventually bring them back through his call.
God knows how to reach an individual whereas others cannot. He knows our story, he understands us, he knows our hearts, he knows us better than anyone else does- he created us as he knitted us together within our mother’s wombs. We were in his thoughts before the creation of the world.
When I was furious at God, I swore I disowned him and that I would never have anything to do with him ever again. The Lord sure showed me differently!
He did not let me go so easily or at all, for that matter. He let time go by- letting me believe I was protected by other means when it was him all along, ultimately protecting me through what I substituted. He proved to me that he had my back when I felt betrayed by him.
It took a tragedy for him to get my attention- and God did his action in such a loving and wonderful way. I am still in shock till this day- he is really awesome.
I still at times have my “God why did you bring me into this world the way that it is nowadays” and “I did not ask to come here; sin was here way before I was born, so why bring me into it?!”
God is my parent as I am still a work in progress when it comes to certain issues that involve not liking certain types of people and life circumstances in general, and so on. However, that is what he wants. For us to give everything all to him.
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. –Romans 8:38-39
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