A Guy I Will Never Want Or Desire

Michael Gonzalez and his funky armpits.

 

I am a very honest, straightforward person. If I say or write something it is because it is the truth, what I really think or believe, or suspect is possible.

Never do I or have I ever intentionally expressed anything under false pretense.

Some people may not understand what I mean or where I come from at times- depending on who it is- because I am a very deep, intelligent, and spiritual awake person.

Nevertheless, I speak my mind and am led by spirit to fulfill my purposes. I do know what I am talking about when I speak on things.

I am a forty-seven-year-old female who often gets mistaken for someone in her twenties or thirties. I have never really looked my age in body or in the face.

I even have a young sounding voice when I speak.

I have attracted men of all ages- young and old within the past.

When I was in my thirties eighteen-year-old guys were attracted to me, when I was in my twenties forty and fifty-year-old men were attracted to me.

It never made a difference. To each his or her own I never received any personal gratification from this attention I never wanted it.

Some men found me to be a challenge that they wanted to conquer. Some men just genuinely wanted to be with me because they liked me for my mind, and I was not like the average female once they got to know me a little.

I never placed value on myself based on whether a man approved or desired me. I have never suffered from low self-esteem and have never needed anyone to validate me or to build my assurance.

Self- confidence, self-love, and self-worth are things produced within me. No one gave it to me, and no one can take it away. Everyone should feel this way.

I have no interest in romantic relationships, I am asexual and proud.

Now I want to discuss this issue about Michael Gonzalez because I am being led to by spirit.

As I am a highly spiritually inclined individual I feel and keenly discern people’s energy.

Whenever a man, especially men who are of a negative disposition are attracted, or interested in me- I can feel them, their thoughts, and I can accurately sense things in relation to them in a timely frame.

Michael is an ex-coworker of mine who had, and who still has a “crush” on me. It is nothing serious, but it is annoying.

From the first moment I laid eyes on Michael, I did not find him to be attractive.

He is not a cute guy, and he is not handsome as far as I am concerned. A friend of mine had saw a photo of him and said that he was not attractive to her also but that he seems to think that he is something. Maybe there are low-scale females who find him attractive, however, I do not and never will.

I was very insulted when Michael reflected his insecurities onto me while we worked together by entertaining the ridiculous idea that I could be attracted or interested in him.

I told Michael to his face that I could not stand him, but his inflated ego did not want to believe or accept it even though deep down inside he knew it was the truth.

He even profiled in front of me one day on the job by trying to show off his body that was not appealing to me whatsoever. He got down onto the floor to demonstrate push-ups. The incident turned me off.

The more I had got to know Michael the more I disliked him.

When some men try to impress women, push themselves on them, or try to flaunt themselves when they mistakenly assume that the female likes them, they do not realize how much they make a fool of themselves. It is very off-putting.

When I was younger there were guys (usually low-scale guys because guys of substance do not behave in this manner) who would get angry at me for not wanting them and in return tell lies about me.

There were three who were a problem.

Two lied and said I was involved with them and all three wanted people to believe that I slept with them or had feelings for them- all to make themselves appear big in the eyes of their peers. And, to also try to bring me down since I thought too highly of myself to desire or to be with anyone like them.

Neither one of these guys were desirable they were used to low-scale women such as themselves falling all over them and making a fuss over them due to their own bouts of low self-esteem.

Someone like me, who was of substance and class, added an extra blow to the bruise they received to their egos when they got hurt and rejected by me.

Of course, their efforts did not work so they joined in with the effort to work Brujeria (Black magic/Santeria) on me to try to make me look bad within the public eye, however, I was still too strong, and I successfully defeated all of them at their own game. On top of it, karma came back and destroyed all three of them. One even ended up dead years ago from his negative lifestyle.

No one can bring me down as I never cared what anybody said or thought about me.

I did not have time for that type of bullshit then, and I do not tolerate it now.

Michael is not at all drastic to that extreme his nonsense is mild in comparison, yet still an act of ridiculous nonsense.

With all the serious things going on in the world Michael is hung up on the fact that he cannot attain me.

He would rather believe that I really do have feelings for him and am just fighting it, or that I am playing hard to get, or whatever other delusional bullshit that men feed themselves instead of facing the truth over dealing with reality.

Michael needs to forget about me and realize that a woman of my level and caliber would never be interested or attracted to him.

Michael has a lot of negative energy. He has a very low vibration.

I am a positive person I exude from a very high vibration.

What I also believe is a part of Michael’s insecurities stem from his background of being morbidly obese.

Maybe after he lost weight, he feels he needs something to prove and is overcompensating.

He needs women to be interested or attracted to him to feel like a big man. I just wish he would find some other female to win over to measure or to prove his false sense of pride.

The other women he has been with are easy tramps. He feels if he can get me then he can get anybody. I should in a way take this instance as a compliment, but I am not flattered by it, I am disgusted.

To me, Michael will always be a small, unworthy, pretentious smelly fish swimming in a dirty pond.

I am not trying to be mean I just do not understand the sickness behind and within certain men and women (because there are deceitful, trouble-making women too) who cannot deal with rejection.

A healthy-minded person does not occupy themself with stupid shit like this.

 

Twisted And Ignorant People: My Spirituality Is Too Strong

 

 

I do not write for the hell of it. Yes,  writing is one of my natural talents, my passion. I write because I love to do it, but it is the Holy Spirit that inspires and moves me to do so. Divine energy is the driving force.

About a week or two ago, it came to me that I was “Vindicated” in the Amazon situation.

It has to be about Amazon in some form or fashion because nothing else was going on for it to be about anything else.

The truth must have totally came out- although if it had not, that still would not have made me any less justified. 
 
It does not really matter what people think or believe; it only matters what God knows. He is the only one who holds the keys to our true destiny. 
 
I appreciate that the Lord let the truth prevail as he always does sooner or later, but we do not need others to validate what we know for a fact. 
 
Michael Gonzalez comes to my blog primarily every Friday now instead of everyday or every other day like he used to. He has been doing this for three or four weeks now. He is still unable to move on. I have that affect on assholes 😹😂.

Sometimes Michael and others try to get slick and disguise themselves through that iCloud Private Relay shit that they think is completely anonymous. In fact, Michael came to my blog last night. 
 
These people feed off negativity. They wish they could find dirt on me. However, there is none. 
 
They keep viewing my posts about the caul, voodoo, and spiritual gifts. If they are looking for a way to attack me spiritually- they had better think again! 
 
You see, I will always be ahead of people like them. I have dreams, I see visions, I get premonitions etc….

Of course, I do not reveal everything that I know and see. I was not born yesterday. I have been on this earth for forty-seven years; I have been gifted with extra sensory perception for all of my life.

When I was a child, I was not ordinary, I was extremely aware. A gift can save our lives as I could share many stories from now into the past.

But God gifted me for a reason, as he did certain others, and no one can stop his purpose for us. It is up to us in particular whether we use our spiritual gifts for good or evil.

I am African American and Native American, so I have extra power within the bloodline. My African ancestry as well as my American Indian Cherokee and Blackfoot are deeply inherent in spirituality. 
 
So, they can dig their own graves. 

 

 

 

To Be Real Is To Be Dangerously Brave

 

Phony people are a turn off. They can also be quite humorous.

They also tend to annoy with their over-acting and hard attempts to convince.

Some who are fake swear that they get over. I don’t know why they waste their time.

It is so much easier to be genuine.

I understand not revealing everything or playing the part (going along with the program even if it is not what one agrees with for the sake of harmony and etc….) within certain situations. That is not being bogus- that is just the necessary motions of flowing through society.

The sad truth, though, is that sometimes what is fake is taken as what is real by those who are deceived or who do not know any better.

What is real can also be taken as fake by those who do not believe, do not understand, or who do not give the benefit of the doubt.

A fact within life is that just because something is presented as reliable does not always give credence to the story or to the one who is telling it.

At the same time, just because something may sound far out, uncommon, or not likely does not mean that it is not so.

There are many people, many circumstances, many ideas, many preferences, many beliefs, many personalities and distinctions within character.

This is a big wide crazy world!

No matter what- always be real and true to who you are regardless of how you may appear or how things may seem.

Authenticity outweighs the limitations reflected by others, strength overtakes and endures, confidence is the power to maintain without caring about the opinions, accusations or judgments of others.latoya lawrence 

 

 

 

The Truth About Church

 

Earlier in the week, I forgot which exact day, I was standing on a long line waiting to catch a bus home.

Two young females who looked to be in their twenties were scoping out individuals who stood on the line to approach.

One of the women came up to me and directly asked, “You want to come to my church?”

I said, “No”.

She then moved on to someone else she felt comfortable enough to go up to.

I watched as the other female asked a guy down on line the same question I was asked while he also gave her a “no”.

The lady who came up to me wore a name tag just like most of those with the Church of the Latter Day Saints.

A great deal of the people who attend church in general are nothing but devils and hypocrites.

Some are even brainwashed or sick-minded.

There is nothing wrong with church itself. It is good if one is able to find a church they connect with. There is negativity and positivity in every place, however, going to church does not verify a person who has a genuine regard, relationship or loyalty toward God or spirituality.

It is about what is truly within one’s heart, mind, and soul- not where they sit at every Sunday or other day inside of a church.

A lot of us already have a natural tendency- a propensity to lean and be led toward our creator in the individual way and path directed within our own distinction. God knows how to reach those who are apt to reach back.

As many ignorantly judge others based on their own personal reflections or flaws, God and those who are enveloped by him judge by truth, and the spirit of discernment.

It can be the least one would expect who is the closest to God.

The ones who are the farthest from God can have the appearance of godliness but no godliness is within them. They are full of filth, dirt and deceit.

A church is the house of God. A house of God is not a physical building. It is an internal building that firmly houses one.- latoya lawrence

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Company One Keeps

 

As a sojourner I continue to listen to God over listening and trusting in the world

I will never stop learning, growing and being made into the individual that he created me to be.

We who live in spirit should constantly beware and be wise.

I was always careful who I associated myself with.

I had no desire to be bothered or to allow just anyone into my circle.

Of course, everyone who comes into our lives are not meant to stay, they do not always have our best interest.

Some who mean us well are not always meant to stay either yet God may allow them to cross our paths as stones to step upon.

I have known these truths early on within life and it had done me a great service to heed warnings, to recognize red flags, and to appreciate whatever enlightenment there was to receive or uncover upon my journey.

 

 

 

 

Go Away Michael, No One Is Thinking About You!

Michael is scared because he knows he is guilty.

It has been a month now. Yet Michael is still coming to my blog worried about what I write, I have proof (he is a big troublemaker).

He started with me on the job then when I quit he gets a stink bitch who has never met me to lie and say I was fired?

He can dish shit out but he cannot take it. Then wants to pretend he is a victim.

Go away and move on with your life already- but obviously you really don’t have a life. A thirty-five year old guy who is going on thirty-six this month who does nothing but sit around all day on his fluctuating fat ass playing video games- such a retard!

You are not important enough for anyone to write about- however, since this is what you are looking for here is one last post about you. Drive yourself crazy looking for it!

Farewell asshole. Don’t come back to my blog anymore.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Principalities Disguised Within People: The Devil’s Playground

 

Yes, there are people in this world who are actually demonic themselves, nevertheless, the devil often uses or works through negative people in order to distract us or to cause conflict and confusion.

The devil will even manifest in people who claim to be Christian or followers of God.

When we are of the light attacks will always come against us yet we have authority over evil and are equipped for the challenges.

Remember, the Lord fights our battles, and when we come up against those who are tools for the devil we are not affected.

The darkness can never overpower the light as I have said so many times before.

Liars And Jealous People Hurt No One But Themselves

 

Two things in life I could never stand are liars and jealous people.

Some people lie so much to themselves and to others that they are sick enough to believe their own lies.

 

 

 

Fake People Are So Easy To See Through!

 

It is hilarious how some people are in toxic relationships and pretend to be happy when they know they’re really not.

They put on a show for others, however, those of us with true insight see and know the truth.

Genuine happiness or contentment is not validated by acts of pretense for the public eye.

No one with discernment is fooled by the phony displays.

Authentic people are secure and don’t go around trying to prove to anyone the love, peace, happiness or fulfillment they have inside.

There is a big difference between sharing out of the propensity to be open and helpful, and sharing with the intent to put on airs.

 

 

Amazon: An Update

 

Michael is camouflaging with and through someone online (I have proof) due to the fact that he could put his job in jeopardy by further retaliating against me (so he is doing it in public secretly). They have even tried to contact me on this blog with nonsense (I have proof).

He is not slick at all.

He is trying to provoke me psychologically by continuing to tell lies about me.

He falsely states that I was fired (along with some other nonsense) when it is documented that I indeed quit working for Amazon and I have a written statement from Amazon that I voluntarily left the company so I don’t understand why this moron thinks that I will play into his silly, obnoxious game.

My blogs are a vehicle to exercise and to utilize my talents, to share my knowledge and experience to inform and to inspire. To use my freedom of self-expression within all truth.

I am a writer and I love and enjoy my natural craft. I don’t have to explain anything to anybody and I have no apologies. God has given me many gifts, talents and ability, and I will continue to use and be blessed by them.

I am moved and led totally by spirit. The energy is wonderful and amazing.

My blog is not a platform to trifle back and forth to with idiots who have nothing better to do with their lives than to try to vainly sabotage those who have positive things going on for themselves.

The attempt is actually pathetic, comical, and a waste of time.

I have no interest. I have better and more important things to do.

When one has peace within themself, love, and self-value their heart and mind is set on what is high.

I am a highly “in tune” spiritual person and have a connection with the intangible. The extramundane is nothing to fool around with.

God is in control of everything and I have a deep fulfillment.

I encourage those who it applies to always stand up for what you believe in.

Never let anyone intimidate you or discourage you from doing what is right or from accomplishing your goals.

Have no fear.

Be bold, be courageous, be true to yourself.

Trust in God. Always put him first and watch him move mountains on your behalf.

Always remember that a strong faith sees the invisible, believes the impossible, and receives the incredible!

Sincerely, LaToya Lawrence

 

 

Amazon: On My Last Day There

This is what I walked into the day I started my shift hours before I quit working for Amazon (photos are aside and down below).

I was doing mid shift while Jazsity was still there barely finishing her morning shift.

The Amazon Locker Hub was left tacky and unkept as a result of their incompetent employees.

Steven Ellmore the new dim-witted manager that had taken over my team was very insecure, and eager to impress the corporate office or higher ups there at Amazon. When I first met Steven, I knew that he was trouble and that he wasn’t on the level intellectually.

He was in the same category as the certain other undesirables- a nobody trying to be more than what he was while at the same time trying to downgrade another person of substance to make him feel better about himself.

Trash always joins together in an attempt to subdue or remove those who they are inferior to. They do it out of jealousy, maliciousness, or lack of faculty. Many of them are just plain sick.

Steven claimed he had to come all the way over to the Locker Hub because I relayed the words to Jazsity “I am a grown woman. You don’t tell me what to do”, when she as one in the same customer associate position as I was gave me an order (being bossy). Steven classified the insignificant event as an “incident” (nothing but a bullshit head game).

If he came all the way there for my words and not due to the mess all over the floor then he needed a mental evaluation. He knew what he really came there for, but that is what trash do they scheme, they manipulate the situation, and try to lie their way out of a circumstance by scapegoating their target. The only thing these people are professional in is being devious.

Many of them are unable to succeed honestly and resort to underhanded tactics in order to obtain or maintain their desires. It aggravates and makes them uncomfortable to observe those with true capability who could go far within life naturally.

I am sure Jazsity poured it on with her fabrications and exaggerations as to the reason she stepped away and left me to attend to busy crowds of customers.

Steven claimed she stepped away to call him. When I called him, I continued on with my work. She sat on her nasty fat ass until he brought his useless ass over to the Hub. Oh-but I am sure Jazsity had good reason since she was avoiding an imaginary confrontation as they planned to label me as the bad one.

These people know what they are doing and are aware when they have been exposed nevertheless, they of course deny their actions and pretend they are not at fault to those who are in the dark or to those who are not sharp enough to perceive.

I don’t give a fuck what people think I never have. I don’t have to put on a show I live in reality.

I am an expert with people of this nature I know all about them and how they operate.

The thing about it is- is that I have a gift.

So, no one can play with my mind. I will always be steps ahead of people like them watching them get caught up into the traps that they set out for others.

P.S. There are some good, functional employees who work there at Amazon, just like anywhere else, however, the negative ones tend to fuck up things for others wherever they go.

 

Amazon: Michael And Jazsity

Michael Gonzalez

 

Amazon is desperate for reviews so here is mine as one who knows firsthand.  

Amazon will hire anyone including the most shitty and corrupt people.  

I worked at an Amazon Locker Hub for ten months. I just quit today because I was tired of the bullshit going on.  

I have always been a leader, not a follower. I don’t kiss anyone’s ass and I am brutally honest. I have a very strong personality. I was born under the zodiac sign Taurus and people should know better than to mess with good, upstanding people like us.  

We are kind and down to earth, but we are not pushovers and we have ferocious tempers when provoked.  

Today was an interesting day.  

After I quit working at an Amazon Locker my manager informed to me that someone at the Whole Foods where one of the Locker Hubs is located at suspected me of possibly stealing items when I actually paid for them, and I still have my two receipts to show for it.  

It is all the most ridiculous and laughable bullshit!  

 

Jazsity Lanzot

 

However, I expected the other bullshit that went down that dealt with an ugly, fat, dumb whore bitch by the name of Jazsity Rose Lanzot. I couldn’t stand this silly bitch the first day I met her when she began to work at Amazon, but I remained polite for the time being.  

She and another low-scale dyke bitch named Ramcy are both no good and were in cahoots and use to gossip about me with Michael Gonzalez.  

I reported this guy Michael who is within a lead position at Amazon. This low-scale piece of trash is very jealous and intimidated by me. I never liked him the first time I met him either.  

He had been trying to retaliate against me to get me fired because I could see right through him. He was also mad because I did not want him. He was attracted to me and didn’t want to accept that the delusion he had of me ever being interested in him would never exist.  

Everybody who knows me knows that I am Asexual and have never desired any man and I never will. If I were interested in guys Michael is the last person on earth that I would give the time of day. He is repulsive in every way, shape, and form.  

Michael tries to be more than what he is when he is a nobody. He is an egotistical, presumptuous narcissist who is a womanizer (he sleeps with prostitutes) and a drug user. I heard that he also has a permanent venereal disease. It may be herpes. He talked about having a girlfriend but I don’t understand who would want him.

 

 

Michael is ugly and very undesirable only another low-scale piece of trash would lay down and be with a degenerate like him.  

Jazsity and Michael are both liars. They are very sneaky, very deceptive. I know all about them. No one wants their stink asses. Michael also has these pitted holes on the sides of his face that bleed from time to time and Jazsity’s face is fucked up too!

People like Michael and Jazsity are worthless individuals who cannot go anywhere else within life. They are the types who have a lot of dirt on them and are threatened by people like me who are better than them and who are not afraid of them.  

I only truly respect people of substance.  

I was always an individual who was very smart/intelligent, strong and extremely gifted spiritually. I read people immediately!  

Certain others were always very envious and jealous of my character throughout my life so I can spot people of this nature ten miles away!  

I have a lot of life experience. 

I told Jazsity to her face today exactly what I know her to be as she was running off with her mouth about me. She got her feelings hurt bad as I spoke the truth.  

Jazsity tried to strike back with talking about my mother but she wasted her time. These young, dumb, male and female bitches cannot bother or affect me with their idle utterances. I am far too above and ahead of their level, intellectually and spiritually.  

They are not even on the level.

 

 

I really am glad to not be at Amazon anymore. They are not a good company to work for. They do not appreciate quality employees with backbone or integrity.  

I started work for Amazon in September of 2021. It wasn’t a job that I needed to survive with because I was already employed, however, it was a job that I wanted.  

Within the past, I have worked for JC Penney, Bloomingdale’s, Sears, Macy’s, Toys R Us, Burlington Coat Factory, FedEx, I even got hired at a Walmart but it was too far out for me to travel to.  

Aside from retail, I am a published author and a health care professional.  

So, my Amazon job position was one that I am over qualified for and one that I could do far better than with the capabilities that I have, but it was one that I enjoyed. A position that I had fun doing.  

What I observed while working as an Amazon Hub Locker Associate is that the company is more concerned about gathering customer reviews than they are about the true welfare of their employees.  

Amazon does not even care about the type of people they employ just as long as they serve the purpose of maintaining a certain quota for them through their metrics system.  

Amazon does not care about the talent or ability a good worker brings into the environment.  

One can be a poor worker just as long as they put on a show for the customer.  

As I’ve mentioned, I have witnessed a shitty, lazy, unprofessional, lead (Michael Gonzalez) who is not too bright- as well as certain other coworkers who are not sufficient-yet they may just put on a facade to gain positive reviews for themselves.  

Amazon uses these ignorant employees without them realizing that Amazon is just using them to promote and advance the company.  

It is a psychological strategy I discerned and never fell for.  

Management now offers rewards to encourage team members to gain as many reviews as possible by asking customers to take surveys for the service they receive.  

At 6:15 pm throughout the weekday, every Hub Locker Employee has to be on the A-to-Z app to compete for a shift that will complete their flexible work schedule. If one is not quick enough, or if their page doesn’t refresh in enough time, they will miss out on receiving their desired shift.  

The entire ordeal is ludicrous and the many changes going on at Amazon are for the worst instead of for the better.  

I don’t know most of the people who work within the Human Resource department and I definitely cannot speak for all of them, but I definitely can say that Amazon needs better management, and better decision-making.  

Amazon needs to better screen and evaluate employees regardless of their positions whether higher or lower. Amazon also needs to stop regarding the customer as being more valuable than the employee because without the employee there would be no one to serve the customer. 

Undesirables

When one has wisdom, and can see through others, some people do not like it.

When we do not like, or do not take to certain others, and prefer to keep our distance from them and not, or no longer associate with them they will react adversely.

It is hard for some to accept or handle the fact that they are at fault within areas that we can discern so they will accuse us or another as being crazy (usually a head- game/gaslighting) or as the one with the problem.

Some people do not think or believe that they are the ones who are trouble.

Circumstances and situations can become complicated when others are not on the level and are not within harmony, or up to par with another person’s wavelength.

Sometimes they might even believe that they are the ones on the higher level due to the denial rooted within their own lack of knowledge within particular areas of life and within themselves.

There are those who will gang up on one when they do not believe they are wrong, especially if there are others who they get along with who share their same mentality.

Often those of a similar mindset no matter how nescient (ignorant), misinformed, condescending, judgmental, or twisted in thinking they may be will get along because they can relate to their own distorted and parochial views that make sense to them.

A lot of these people are deceptive, manipulative, spiteful, petty, envious/jealous, insecure, and unreasonable.

Misery loves company and when they know we are at ease and living in peace they become even bitter.

 

 

Spiritual Communication With The Lord

The Lord is so kind. He showed me his care as he does within so many ways.

Yesterday he sent me an unexpected message, answers along with guidance and encouragement to a situation I was sure of, yet had pondered through anyway.

Let not your heart be troubled. Trust in Godand trust also in me“. -John 14: 1 was the Lord’s address to me.

The life of God’s children is not easy; however, we should not be worried or anxious in our hearts. There is no reason for any of us to be troubled if we have accepted Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior.

We are not to be intimidated or frightened by the devil or by the magnitude of the evil and negativity in this world.

God let me know as a confirmation that it was okay to justifiably erase toxic people from my life without turning back. In fact, that it was a necessary act of spiritual, mental, and emotional cleansing.

We are to rid ourselves of those who speak negativity into our lives, and who try to weigh us down.

Commit your actions to the LORD, and your plans will succeed. The LORD has made everything for his own purposes, even the wicked for a day of disaster. Proverbs 16: 3

 

May God Take Care Of Our Enemies: Vengeance Belongs To Him

I have a very low-scale aunt named Tina (Ernestine Lawrence).

She had always been very jealous of my mother and I, her along with my deceased great-grandmother and uncle.

She had done a lot of dirt throughout the years. She was a drug addict (heroin and cocaine and whatever else she tried).

Tina is dying now though she is still a big liar. She is plagued by guilt yet still does not want to fully admit all the deeds she has done against my mother and I.

I do not care anything about her but she would insist on trying to push herself on me.

My mother and I wanted nothing to do with her, neither did my other aunt.

Tina had the nerve to publicize something about my mother on Facebook to gain sympathy and attention for herself from people my mother and I did not like or care to associate with.

My mother and her did not even get along.

Misery loves company.

Tina has some delusion in her mind that she has taken care of me or needs to take care of me in order to feel worthy and to look important.

I am a grown woman who has worked for sixteen years straight. I pay my own bills in addition to providing for my other aunt.

My mother was the only one in my life to have ever taken care of me as well as her having taken care of other members of our family. Tina has never taken care of anyone.

She needs to go deal with the people who she seeks and needs attention from.

She is jealous and bitter because I always have, and am still living a good, clean, pure life. I am strong, smart, and independent. She could never bring me down.

She needs to go get herself right with God.

And, I know this is not too Christian or polite but, I hope she burns in hell.

 

 

Using Our Special Talents, Gifts And Faculties

As one genuinely born with second-sight, the inherited gift of extrasensory perception, I am far from a dummy and I have never been anyone’s fool.

One of my strongest gifts from the Lord is sensing things about people in areas that others cannot sense or pick up right away.

I know who to trust and who not to trust, I am an authentic, truthful person, one who is not given to tell lies. I do not appreciate liars, I never have, and I do not entertain such behavior.

The “knowing power”, of wisdom, knowledge, and discernment along with other special spiritual ability, is a gift and blessing bestowed upon me from the Lord to carry out, and to fulfill my purpose for the wonderful plan he always had set before me.

No one can stop the arrangement of God he has the final word in all things.

I fear nothing and no one, the Lord is my protection and shield, he has proven this to me all throughout my life, regardless of the times in the past when I was angry at him for personal reasons of my own.

When people unjustifiably come after me, attempt to do me wrong, tell lies or whatever, God takes care of them every time, so I do not have to fret. God does not let people get away with trying to hinder or harm his children. I leave everything within his mighty hands.

I have never considered myself a failure and I am not, and never will be. None of us who are called by the Lord are. We are conquerors here to partake in our mission whatever that may be, we are not defined by the world’s standard or view of what prosperity and success is.

So to all who walk in the light of the spirit, keep moving forward, God is in control.

Whatever the Lord/Holy Spirit puts in your heart to do carry it out delightfully without hesitation. God is right there beside us all the way. Just believe, pray, listen, and let the Lord continue to lead.

Sincerely, Miss LaToya

Idol Worship And New Age

I am the Alpha and the Omega—the beginning and the end,” says the Lord God. “I am the one who is, who always was, and who is still to come—the Almighty One.” Revelation 1:8

so all the world from east to west will know there is no other God. I am the LORD, and there is no other. -Isaiah 45:6

As a young child I was aware of the bible’s warnings to not consult with psychics, to not engage in astrology, to not venerate any false deity, and the like.

Growing up, I didn’t see the harm within reading books on horoscopes or identifying myself with my zodiac sign, however, there was a time when I stopped in respect to what God acknowledged through the bible and out of gratitude/consideration for how he watched out for me and protected me.

There was also a time when I wouldn’t have dared to visit a fortune-teller.

What made me give these forbidden things a second thought was the fact that I had the gift of second-sight. The insight that I had had kept me ahead (knowing things I wasn’t taught), aware (discerning/sensing things about people and things that other people couldn’t sense), able to grasp (keenly perceptive), and in tune (connected to the spirit realm).

From the age of between three or five is the earliest I remember seeing visions in my mind’s eye just before they would come true. I was very advanced and my mother always told me that there was something special about me.

My mother never encouraged any kind of mystical or new age behavior she wasn’t into those type of things. It was I who had took an interest later on in life as I was very spiritually inclined.

I had met a few readers who did prove to be accurate and helpful so I wondered if all of these faculties were actually all devil-derived. I myself wasn’t satanic or naturally inspired to indulge within satanic practices. Some people have special talents/gifts that they use ethically or unethically through misguidance or through ill-intentions.

To make a long story short, there is a difference between divination and prophetic ability. One comes from the devil and the other comes from God.

The scriptures say that we must test the spirit.

I never worshipped any image as there is, of course, no life within a created item. Though I’ve used a few statues as a representation of what I came to believe as positive energy forces working in my life when I believed God was against me and I was angry at him.

By God’s utter grace and mercy, no harm ever came to me in my quest for peace and protection through means other than him. I am not making any excuse because in no way is disobedience acceptable to God, but he knows our hearts and maybe he spared me because I wasn’t doing anything out of deliberate spite and I wasn’t trying to intentionally harm anyone.

Maybe God took into consideration all I had been through as a child on up and took a gentler, compassionate approach at correcting me-I don’t know. I just know the Lord has been so forgiving and generous with his love and patience.

He gave me the opportunity to seek him again even when I hadn’t planned to return. God knows how to get our attention even if it takes a tragic situation to make us wake up and listen.

For God to love us that much is truly amazing. He could have just let me be and left me to my own solution but no real father abandons his child and leaves them to fend for themself blindly.

A true parent will ferociously run after their beloved offspring and wrestle them from any attacker’s trap/grip ardently.

I repented and turned away from such things and purely use whatever gifts the Lord gave to me for his glory. Yes, I do have spiritual gifts, however, the gifts are the abilities that God enables through me and not of myself even though I may have been born with them.

All things come through the Lord who gets all the credit. We can do nothing and are absolutely nothing without him. We are just fortunate vessels who humbly serve him.

I advise anyone into the New Age culture to immediately cease from that lifestyle and completely turn and depend on God for everything.

New Age involves and consists of Reiki Healing, Healing with Crystals, Occult Practices, Astrology Charts, Sorcery, Channeling and Invoking Spirits/Energy (which are actually just the usual demons of Satan), worshipping false deities and etc….

Special Note: Idolatry is not just about or referring to principalities and beliefs in other systems. Anything, or anyone, can turn into an idol if we set the value for that thing or person higher than our value for God. As it happens, good things can turn into idols when we consider them the utmost things in our lives. An idol is when something or someone becomes more significant to us than God.

God/Jesus is the only path that directs us to genuine knowledge and fulfillment. He is the entire truth, light and way. God/Jesus is love and life. Anything else is deceit and death.


Dear children, keep away from anything that might take God’s place in your hearts. -1 John 5:21

So put to death the sinful, earthly things lurking within you. Have nothing to do with sexual immorality, impurity, lust, and evil desires. Don’t be greedy, for a greedy person is an idolater, worshiping the things of this world. -Colossians 3:5

My Roots

Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it. -Proverbs 22:6 

I was definitely raised in a household and among certain family members who included God as first and foremost or as a great source of their belief and foundation.

Yes, my mother grew up in the church. She introduced me to God and I always believed in his sovereignty.

I was well aware that Jesus came into the world to save our souls from the consequences of sin, sacrificed himself on the cross, was buried in a tomb and rose back to life on the third day after his physical death.

My life in the beginning was rooted in God and I was led to him at an early age with the desire to know and adhere to him.

Along down the line I had gotten angry with God through my misunderstanding and misinterpretation of him and I no longer wanted to associate myself with him.

Nevertheless, the Lord didn’t give up on me and he never left my side, steady walking beside me when I thought I had walked away.

God didn’t let me out of his grasp as I was holding on to the belief I found in what I considered a kinder, loving and faithful source of “love and light”.

God was that true love and light the entire time, yet he had to get me away from venerating the false idea of what was superior to him in character and to the legitimate origin of my providence.

I never considered anything totally above The Lord in heaven (I never denied he was the creator of all things), but I believed the alternative I had come to know was more powerful as far as having my best interest and welfare.

I am so glad God didn’t let me stay in the deception of the enemy (Satan) through my anger and disappointment in him due to my false perceptions and what I had to go through in life (unwanted tribulations and trauma).

Not trusting God comes from not knowing who he truly is. I believed the lies of the devil in regard to the Lord being evil and sick- yet I wasn’t on the side of the devil either.

Nevertheless, having me doubt God’s good character was the only way that Satan could try to encourage me to reject God.

I know for sure Jesus words are true,I give them eternal life, and they will never perish. No one can snatch them away from me“. -John 10:28

I am so grateful to the Lord for lovingly guiding me back to the truth within him and showing me that he is my one and only source of everything.

My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish. No one can snatch them away from me, for my Father has given them to me, and he is more powerful than anyone else. No one can snatch them from the Father’s hand. The Father and I are one.” -John 10:27-30

 


And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. -Roman’s 8:38-39

 

Sin

At that moment their eyes were opened, and they suddenly felt shame at their nakedness. So they sewed fig leaves together to cover themselves. When the cool evening breezes were blowing, the man and his wife heard the LORD God walking about in the garden. So they hid from the LORD God among the trees. Then the LORD God called to the man, “Where are you?” He replied, “I heard you walking in the garden, so I hid. I was afraid because I was naked.” “Who told you that you were naked?” the LORD God asked. “Have you eaten from the tree whose fruit I commanded you not to eat?” -Genesis 3:7-11

And to the man he said, “Since you listened to your wife and ate from the tree whose fruit I commanded you not to eat, the ground is cursed because of you. All your life you will struggle to scratch a living from it. -Genesis 3:17


Sin is a reproach to God. It goes against everything that he is. God is not only love, but God is holy. God cannot tolerate anything unjust or corrupt.

When he tells us not to sin it is for our own good and not to harm us or keep us from enjoyment.

It is sometimes so hard for us to break away from certain sins of the world because we were born into error and it is natural for us to be incline to what is inherently familiar to our environment and surroundings.

In our lives we’ve done things we didn’t even recognize or think of as sin because of our innate proneness.

Whether one struggles with anger, selfishness, pride, hate, envy, jealousy, lying, stealing, gossiping and etc….

Our Lord in heaven understands our shortcomings and inability to uphold to his standards. He does not condemn us he wants to help each and every one of us who call out to him.

God knows there are things we cannot do on our own and that we need his holy spirit to enable us to be more like Christ.

Everyone is an individual with their own different set of circumstances or personal battles. No one is the same and we all have distinct ways of looking at things, and ways of feeling about things.

So, no one should go around to assume what is going on with a person, what they are going through, and/or why.

God does not want us to carry the heavy load of stress, guilt, unworthiness, depression, sadness or anything else disheartening we are to lay all of our burdens, cares and worries on him. Then we must trust in him enough to see us through.

It is not possible for us to do anything without God. Only with God are all things possible!

 

 

 

God’s Insight

Don’t let anyone capture you with empty philosophies and high-sounding nonsense that come from human thinking and from the spiritual powers of this world, rather than from Christ. -Colossians 2:8

 

 

Then we will no longer be immature like children. We won’t be tossed and blown about by every wind of new teaching. We will not be influenced when people try to trick us with lies so clever they sound like the truth. -Ephesians 4:14

God is always working within us keeping us open to the truth so that we know to reject the lies that are told.

Discernment is a gift that I’ve always had, especially when it came to identifying certain types of people along with circumstances, occurrences and situations.

As believers, no matter how long or how shortly they’ve been following God/Jesus they should always continue to grow within faith and to seek the true interpretations of God’s word.

Common sense tells us that we cannot believe everything we hear, or listen to just any or everyone who sets forth particular information.

We are to be cautious and carefully examine what we see, hear or believe- and this goes for anything in life.

There may be times where we observe something said in a blog post, bible study or a pastor’s sermon, that rhymes with or resembles a truth- but that is not the truth, exactly.

Anyone can understandably misinterpret a phrase or scripture erroneously. The problem is when people deliberately attempt to fool and misleads others with lies in order to deceive, which is not right.

Jesus told them, “Don’t let anyone mislead you, Matthew 24:4

And many false prophets will appear and will deceive many people. Matthew 24:11

For false messiahs and false prophets will rise up and perform great signs and wonders so as to deceive, if possible, even God’s chosen ones. Matthew 24:24

We are to pray to God for further insight into anything whenever we are not sure, unclear or troubled about something. We are supposed to test the spirit and line up everything we hear and back it up with the bible.

There are also times and things I’ve noticed that seem legitimate that the bible may not mention or speak of in life experiences, nevertheless, we must constantly take our situations to the Lord, leaning not on our own understanding.

Pay close attention to the scriptures and keep in close relationship with God and listen out for his divine messages.

Just trust and wait on the Lord.

 

 

But evil people and impostors will flourish. They will deceive others and will themselves be deceived. -2 Timothy 3:13

Now the Holy Spirit tells us clearly that in the last times some will turn away from the true faith; they will follow deceptive spirits and teachings that come from demons. These people are hypocrites and liars, and their consciences are dead. -1 Timothy 4:1-2

But I fear that somehow your pure and undivided devotion to Christ will be corrupted, just as Eve was deceived by the cunning ways of the serpent. -2 Corinthians 11:3

Honoring God With Our Gifts

The Lord designed me like no other and it was no mistake. He understands me when others don’t just like he does all of the other individuals he crafted and brought into existence.

All we have to do is go to him with any concern and talk with him. Seek his leading, guidance and achieve to stay in his word to always gain and maintain further understanding and deep faith.

He is there to love, protect and teach us his will and provide a wonderful eternal future for all who believe and accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and savior.

We don’t have to answer to anyone but God he knows everything about us- not what others lie on us about, falsely perceive about us or misinterpret about us. He knows the complete truth about us to the core.

He knows us better than we know ourselves.

God knows our hearts, intentions and entire makeup. After all, he formatted and assembled us together from the beginning before we even came into being.

God has given me quite a few unique gifts I’ve recognized since childhood, and all through out my life. Many incredible accounts of events I can give honest testimony to.

God made all of us differently, none of us are exactly the same (no one can duplicate or replace you, you are one of all his prized possessions).

God intentionally designed each of us individuals for a reason.

As he created us all uniquely, he gave to us certain natural abilities, talents and gifts.

God gave us the precise talents and gifts that he viewed suitable for us as he had a specific plan for us to carry out using the gifts that he incorporated within us.

Through our distinct God-given faculties, we can tremendously reach other people in such a diverse number of ways and direct them toward our heavenly father.

What are your talents, abilities and gifts, and how is God inspiring you to use them?

Our Lord doesn’t want us to compare ourselves to anyone else or to try to measure up to anyone else. He just wants us to be sincere and work with what he enabled within us and shine that light on behalf of him in honor of him.

Without the Lord operating through us we wouldn’t be capable of doing anything.

God will be there the entire time helping and encouraging us to continue in the race.

 

 

 

The Sweet Truth That Leaves A Bitter Taste

Encountering difficulty and people who are trouble is an inevitable part of life. We unfortunately cannot avoid this problem. We live in a broken world full of torn ligaments and dislocated parts.

This culture is shattered now more than it ever has been.

Many of us will have or have had trouble brought into our lives by other people.

Other individuals will not always line up with what we believe in or where we stand on certain things and they will not necessarily believe in everything we say even though we speak the truth.

We must learn to continuously trust in the Lord our God to always carry us through every difficult situation that may arise.

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever. –Hebrews 13:8

We are to hold firm onto the faith that we will make it through whatever problems happen to come our way just as God has delivered us so many times before.

The righteous person faces many troubles, but the LORD comes to the rescue each time. –Psalms 34:19

The Lord consistently gives us his comfort and peace within a way that is incomprehensible to others as we are unaffected by the circumstances and events that would otherwise upset or tear them apart.

God gives us wisdom, strength, and confidence because we personally know him and he knows us extremely well! He lives inside of us and we are in him and nothing can ever separate us from our Lord Jesus Christ. My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. -John 10:27

Even if we wander for a while, we will eventually return again to our heavenly father due to the fact that he comes looking for his children to bring them safely back to the fold.

For this is what the Sovereign LORD says: I myself will search and find my sheep. -Ezekiel 34:11

If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them gets lost, what will he do? Won’t he leave the ninety-nine others in the wilderness and go to search for the one that is lost until he finds it? Luke 15:4

I speak all from what I truly know firsthand!

Some people cause their own problems, their troubles are often a result of their own deeds. Some accept their faults and attempt to improve and learn from the errors of their ways. Some others, instead, continue on not taking any responsibility or just don’t care of their destructive actions.

We in particular know that when we walk with God and stand for Jesus, we will especially have discord among specific people. It is being made clear those who are adhering to the Lord and those who are deserting him.

Jesus himself acknowledged that we would have conflicts in our lives and he wanted us to be prepared for them.Don’t imagine that I came to bring peace to the earth! I came not to bring peace, but a sword. -Matthew 10:34

He knew that some would be divided when it came to choosing him, living, and being not of this fallen world.

The “Sleep” And The “Awoke”

Conspiracy and corruption, along with demoniac essence, goes on everywhere and in everyday life not just within the elite. They are just the traps that set up the bait.

We find quite a lot of acts and schemes played out within ruthless and determined ways for benefit or profit by ordinary people.

A lot of individuals don’t really know the depth of what is going on within this society.

Nevertheless, many of us who are genuinely spiritual inclined have always had the insight and connection to this realm, and beyond.

One of my strong and consistent faculties was being able to sense things about people that other people weren’t able to sense.

There is so much that I could get into and explain, however, I will give a brief summary of my point.

I remember through out different stages of life, I would try to tell certain people things in regard to whatever was the issue if I was confronted, and they’d refuse to listen to me then blame me for being difficult, or the one who was the trouble.

I’ve never had this problem with people who were “awoke” or on my high level/wavelength.

Now, some of this with particular people, was an attempt to gaslight me because I was no pushover and could see through them and their calculations. I was never anybody’s fool or one to be controlled and taken advantage of.

With others, it was their inability to discern through their limited view of perception as they would often come back to me later after having discovered the truth, acknowledging to me “Now I see”, or “I see what you mean”, or “You were right”.

Yet, I didn’t give a fuck what they were too late to have seen, and acknowledged, once their stupid asses rudely became aware of their errors, and then humbled by them.

Maybe I would have been kinder or more understanding if some had not been snidely injudicious. I don’t tolerate those who try to make me out to be the bad one because they have an inadequate mentality/mindset.

I never believed everything I watched on the news, read in news papers, learned in school, observed in religions, or heard from other people.

I wasn’t blinded by information just because it was handed out by those who were considered to be an authoritative figure or source.

My intuition and intelligence knew when something was not all about truth, or whereas something did not seem right. My mind was able to decipher through analysis, gut feelings, and plain common sense.

Many people are so dumb and weak-minded and easily deceived. They are mind controlled, and cemented within their own lack of knowledge and awareness-and they don’t even realize it.

A lot of people actually dimiss or reject genuine knowledge because it may go against what they have learned, heard, or was raised to believe.

I am so glad that I was never an individual who was able to be manipulated or programmed along with the masses of people who are slaves to the worldly system of government, and who are vulnerable to their propaganda and agendas.

 

Eyes Of The Soul: Sweet Reward

Many people hate or have hated god for personal reasons of their own even if they won’t admit to it.

As a true spiritual person who was definitely born with the caul, and the family lineage to back up naturally inherent occult power, I speak from experience.

When I was a young girl, even though I had a lot of advantages, fortunate luck, and blessings, I never felt that God was truly good or any sincere positive energy from him.

I have extremely intense empathic faculties, and I am usually on point. So God is not perfect and good within my definition of what a good and perfect god really is, or should be.

When I went through hard times as a youngster on up I’d often see an extremely shiny twinkle in the sign of a cross appear before me, acknowledging to me “I’m here, I’m with you, everything is going to be alright”.

Everything did turn out alright, however, what was the purpose of going through the nonsense of whatever would be the trial within the first place? All these tribulations did was cause me to resent God even more than I already had.

I was already disgusted in the way he designed certain things within creation. Then, to include me as one of the beings to inhabit a life here on this Earth filled with sick people and morbid principalities in which I have no tolerance or patience for, was a complete insult.

If I could have used my gifts to rid the world that I did not ask to come into from all of the things that turned me off I would have done it immediately. If I was able to have gotten off the Earth and into a special place where what’s going on here wasn’t permitted, and/or where certain people and things didn’t exist, the circumstance would have been even better.

Years ago, when I gave god the benefit of the doubt in regard to my perceptions of him, I was always disappointed by him and my outcomes. When I constantly put myself first is when I noticed I was the happiest and more fulfilled.

If I truly don’t like or don’t want something within my life then it is not going to work out; it has always been this way with me. I have to do it my way. I am too strong and self-willed.

I wholeheartedly love myself, my mind-the way I think, and the way I am.

Having extrasensory perception/second-sight enabled me to experience life within many extraordinary modes that I have learned and discovered quite a lot from.

Later on, when I fully became aware of my ancestors and orishas presence around me things opened up further and brought to me a clearer understanding of who really had my best interest in spirit.

God is often called a god of love, he is nothing but a disgrace to me. If God is supposed to be the true definition of love, perfection, fairness or truth I don’t want any of the perversion around me.

The devil, is often blamed for the negative effects initiated by so called inborn sin and the inequities of the world. Yet, who allows the devil to reign upon the physical/material plane? Why wasn’t he stopped at the beginning?

The devil and god are one and the same to me.

Oh so many answers and hidden truths that have been revealed to me that I’d never openly share or discuss! I just had to speak my mind.

I definitely know what love, fairness, and truth is and no god of perfection would operate within the manner in which he does.

The energy influence of god years ago was suffocating, manipulative, and unnatural.

Spiritually, I breathe free now, unbound by blockage, and I continue to flourish through the natural beauty of my surrounding essence.

 

My Wednesday Words Of Wisdom: Older Is Not Always Wiser

Those who say or believe that wisdom only comes with age are those who have purely aged without true wisdom– Miss Latoya Lawrence.

When I was much younger, I had a lot on the cap and no older person was able to get over on me. Not ever!

An older person can learn things from a younger person and a younger person can learn things from an older person. Just because one is older does not make them wiser than one who is younger and this is a fact that I’ve known through experience.

I use to hate when certain people who were older than me would generalize my particular situations on account of what may have been common within society or within what had happened with or to them and others in regard to their own set of circumstances. They didn’t know what they were talking about within their opinions or point of views and had made a lot of preconceived notions in which had absolutely nothing to do with my actual situation or way of thinking.

Many people reflect their own issues, flaws, insecurities, and/or lack of knowledge in particular areas onto others. Many also don’t want to admit they’re wrong in judging what they misperceive, speculate and really know nothing about or are not too accustomed to when it comes to the diversity of character within individuals.

A lot of youngsters have had this problem with older people. Sometimes it just boils down to many older people not being on the level.  Nevertheless, those who are not on the level is not an age-related element, there are young people, of course, who are just as clueless.

Some older people have a tendency to get angry at younger people who refuse to listen to them even if the younger person is right and they are wrong; the older person through disdain becomes critical.

It’s important for younger people to hold their own when they are correct within their facts and reasonable convictions because a lot of impressionable/easily influenced younger people as well as certain older people themselves get misdirected by the misinformation or ill-intention of those who believe they know all that there is to know about life, people and occurrence.

I’m about to turn 45 years old and have never based knowledge solely on age because I always knew better, especially with having ESP (extrasensory perception). Just like I wrote in this post a while ago (https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2018/12/20/spiritual-growth-and-wisdominspiration-for-the-youth/) here is an excerpt:

One can be young and very wise and one can be old and very foolish, especially when they refuse to accept that it is not always the age of a person that serves as the determining factor.

It is about what we’ve been through, the experiences we may have encountered, the inherent skills that could have been imparted to us by birth that bring to us our own set of knowledge and wisdom and that can come at any age for some.

Our lives are a journey of various and numerous roads through pathways of travel and we never stop learning as there is always more to uncover and discover.

There are a lot of moronic and narrow-minded older people and younger people out within the world, and there are a lot of logical and open-minded older and younger people out within the world.

To me, it’s refreshing and an expansion to learn and experience things one may have never heard of, not been used to, or that is an awakening to if the development is of an interest or connection to one.

 

The Depth Of Ignorance

 

I awoke this morning to the adorable sounds of birds chirping outside my window. They always sound so cute! Their chirruping lasted for a good hour.

I also awoke to a headache that intensified two days ago; the results of adversaries working against me through black magic-when will they learn or accept that their efforts are in vain?

It doesn’t ever matter what is going on within the world they are still preoccupied with trying to overcome me. When 9/11 hit they didn’t stop, and now with this corona virus they are still at it. World events do not distract or deter them from their envies and resentment being put into action.

They are trying to communicate with me through dreams in an attempt to manipulate me into their false perception of what should be.

I have an extremely strong spirit and strong mind; I do not and have never thought the way average, or below average people do. No one can steer my mind from the truth or of my definite nature, it is impossible; yet, reason does not register with sick people.

My adversaries know who to mess with and who not to so they are just acting stupid right now. My conquering of them was, and still is, too much for them to handle. The idiocy they showed was too much for them to bear. Nevertheless, their nonsense attempts at trying to undermine the facts of their defeat is a total waste of time.

Tina

Love? That is so funny. You don’t know the definition of love! I don’t want anything from you. I don’t want your affection or your money, or anything else from you.

If you loved yourself you would have never done the specific things you’ve done and lived life the specific way you’ve lived.

Remember when you told me you wanted to give me funds from your pension when you die? Well, you can shove it up your ass.

You can’t buy me!

I don’t need your itty bitty shit I was born to have my own and I have been doing pretty darn well- I even do my own taxes! I have been handling my own jobs, career, and money for years now. The universe is not going to let anything happen to me.

Oh what a pathetic bitch you are, Tina, you along with others who were foolish enough to fuck with me in the first place.

Beg all you want bitch! I don’t give a fuck about you.

I’m an inevitable success story.

No matter how hard you and other undesirables tried you could not break my spirit or inhibit my drive and purpose. I prevailed, I always have, and I always will, you were all just far too dumb to see it and realize that you weren’t hurting anyone but yourselves.

You can keep making an ass out of yourself if you want, just like you have done for the majority of your life, because I have absolutely no regard for you.

The sad thing about everything is instead of being proud of having a niece of my caliber and character you were filthy jealous and destructive, especially as you admitted to me and my mother how the majority of the other neighborhood folks and youngsters were a bunch of nothings, yet you joined in with many of them (Did they know that while you were out gossiping and making up lies about my mother and I that you were coming back talking about some of them to us when you were at your lowest point? I don’t think so! They’re so stupid just like you.)

How sick can you be? I shouldn’t have asked that question because you broke the mold when it came to being twisted.

I’m happy, I have peace, I am blessed, and I have success. I also have a host of good and powerful blood related ancestors from your mother’s side of the family who’ve watched over me since my birth.

You don’t even know the beauty of our family and their history. You were too busy running the streets.

Did you know your mother had seven or eight brothers and sisters in actuality? Do you know how much family we have down south and spread about? We’ve known and met family that you don’t even know about.

I’m your only true connection to your mother also. You’ll never know what’s going on with her in the spirit world because I’d never share those revelations with you.

I’ll tell you this though, she (Catherine) is alright, so far she has been in a content sphere for a long time now.

Amanda and Junie, however, went straight to the depths leading to hell where they most definitely belong and where they suffer.

 

 

Ernestine Lawrence

Down below are links and messages from my mother’s sister, Tina, sent to me on Facebook.

This is for you, Tina, although you probably wouldn’t comprehend as logic and reasoning doesn’t register with you. And, since your HIV/Aids has probably gone to your head by now.

Since I was a child you were very jealous of me because I was very intellectually advanced and highly educational that is why you went around saying I had no education when it was actually you who had no knowledge.

You always had that low level trash mentality.

You have no high school diploma and did not graduate from high school that is why you went into the National Guards because you didn’t know anything and you wouldn’t have gotten into there if my mother hadn’t helped you out and told you what to do but you couldn’t even excel within that.

If it wasn’t for my mother Annette Theodora Cromwell wouldn’t even have gotten into college.

Now I don’t knock anyone who didn’t finish school the traditional way because I understand distinction within individuals everyone has their own way and their own calling or set of circumstances.

However, you really focused on making me out to appear like a stupid person when you didn’t even finish school yourself.

Did you know I actually skipped a grade when I was twelve? And when I was ten I passed tests that high school kids couldn’t pass. At eight years old I got an award for being one of the best readers within my entire school.

When I became an adult I got accepted into a college but I never cared about any of that shit because I wasn’t an insecure person like you.

When you were at those young ages all you achieved and was well known for was being on drugs and being a skank.

I at such a young age was gifted and passed all of my tests, received awards, and certificates in school so you and Amanda tried to interfere because I was nowhere near a dummy like you and Amanda.

You both knew I was headed for accomplishments that you both weren’t capable of gaining.

You wasted your time because I never relied on the approval of others or cared what anyone thought I’m proud of everything about myself and I have no regrets.

I was born with a caul you dumb bitch I have second-sight, I mean really, what the fuck did you think you could do? I was ahead of you. I laugh at you.

I knew just about everything you did through dreams, visions, and intuition.

You did the same to my mother because she was bright and multi-talented.

You said my mother never worked a day in her life because you couldn’t get the jobs that she could. You and Amanda were fools that people could use and abuse. Then you two were absurd enough to think that you could destroy me and my mother’s lives with voodoo/witchcraft/black magic and lies.

You conspired to give my mother a nervous breakdown and make her out to be lower than what you actually were out of pure envy, jealousy, and your own true state of mental illness.

It’s all in the past now but you still won’t leave us alone. We don’t care anything about you, we never did, and never will.

Nobody is hurt by you, you are nothing to be distressed by, you never had the power to destroy us, we just don’t like you at all.

You are an undesirable person who has done far too much dirt why would anybody of any class, intelligence, and substance want to be bothered with you.

Why don’t you go call and bother your own kind of fellow degenerates who share within the delusions of their own mentalities.

You are a pathetic piece of trash.

Go call up George Owens/Taalib Muhammad, Joanne Anderson Franks, Doritta Almodovar, Renee Blackwell, her sister Teresa Blackwell, Jeff Jemmott, Olivia Oliver and her kids and grand kids that you all talked about like a dog (remember when cookie and her kids gave you a concussion and put you in the hospital?), Spotface Pat Bush and your dyke crew, Diane Mims, Sonia, Lorraine Burwell- the bitch with the broken legs and her sister Judy Clarke, the nigger you stabbed with the knife who took a shit in your toilet before you called the cops on him, Annette Theodora Cromwell-the bitch who fucked some nigger down on Hollis at the tire shop, and all of the other sick and twisted fucks you use to run to and with.

You have no one. They don’t give a fuck about you, you stupid bitch. And look at all of the stupid unnecessary shit that you did to us for years. With your broke ass.

Go call up Amanda. Or better yet, why don’t you go join her in the grave.

Bitch, maybe you should give me a call so I could blow your mind with all of the shit that I know for someone who doesn’t have an education. I’ll teach you some life-long lesson facts.

 

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I’m glad I’m not of some narcissistic energy that constantly needs to be praised and acknowledged and who threatens those to damnation for not agreeing and adhering to  circumstances that I don’t relate to, that don’t apply to me, and that don’t have anything to do with my sensible way, thought process, spiritual rotation, and so on.

I fortunately have the essence of “good light” and “energy” around me that allows and that inspires truth, love, peace, happiness, wisdom, knowledge, blessings, strength, confidence, talent, protection and the self individuality within my own authentic disposition as I am one within the essence.

It feels so good to be free. I never let anything rule me. I live a nice quiet life, I eat healthy and take care of myself, I have great spirituality, and I am blessed with great peace of mind.

I have always lived this way and I have no deep past regrets within my life.

I guess what I’m pleasantly guilty of is being extremely stubborn and set in my natural unconventional fashions.

The only thing I regret is being born into this physical realm, I deserve to be in a much better place than this twisted world, this forbidden place is beneath me.

When I was a kid I knew I didn’t belong here.

As one born with a caul I always knew things and felt things, even truths that may be considered controversial, nevertheless I didn’t care because hidden knowledge wasn’t a revelation for everyone or just anyone to know and to grasp.

I often wondered and couldn’t understand why trash we’re created and given life the instance never made any sense to me.

As a child I didn’t at all like or connect with those kinds of people within any way, I’d constantly get negative and intuitive feelings about them that would always pan out to be right or true, they were always prone to incite trouble, conflict, and disharmony as their nature and mentality was quite undesirable, and insufficient.

Many if not the majority of their type was very disturbed and ignorant in the mind even at a very young age because they are intrisnically born sick.

They also have a look about them, a way and mannerism about them, a vocal sound about them, characteristics that just don’t appeal or that don’t sit well.

There are certain people who will say that regardless they’re still one of God’s children, and that is another thing that never sat too well with me, because if God designed and put them here on the earth the instance is just another of the many numerous circumstances and factors in which goes to show and prove that there is something not at all right about god either.

One of the reasons they exist is because God uses them to carry out unwanted and unwarranted burdens of an unnatural essence upon the unconventional.

I’m not specifically referring to black magic/voodoo/witchcraft when I mention “unnatural” I am speaking in all terms of what goes against one’s own nature, propensity, or state of being just to please and appease an individual or entity who seems within a position to reign, or who wants to control.

Trash are weak-minded, easily influenced people, susceptible to be brainwashed, and who are ready and willing to accept what they perceive as a general higher authority in relation to God and/or to societal government without raising question or opposition.

They are on a certain mental level for a reason.

A low level where they are unable to come up from to decipher and to analyze from a genuinely higher intellectual or spiritual consciousness.

People who are “nothing” inspire to bring down people who are “something” with views, opinions, jealousies, and a lack of knowledge incorporated into their own limited outlooks, and limited scope into existence.

They are average low-life individuals who envy and oppose the free will and knowledge of distinctive individuals who are above them.

They in turn use their god to justify what they consider immoral or wrong in a distorted version to their own deception and misconception into the origin of who they innately are.

Others who are firm and concrete within the genuine validity of where they’re originally derived from cannot, and will not, be swayed by any means of detract, whether the intent is to minimize or to diminish the effectiveness, value or importance of someone, or to divert one altogether.

God will go to great lengths to use those who were born trash, and will turn others into trash just to get to them, or someone close to them, to manipulate and weaken them into incorporating his commands by psychological or spiritual harassment.

This technique has never worked on me as I am too strong within who I am and what I’m genuinely in correlation to within my own innate means.

No one could ever stop me from being the person who I am or from doing whatever it was that I wanted to do.

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Caul Destiny That Won’t Be Denied

Things are going my way. The universe harkens unto my voice. I live in my truth and my way harkens unto the intangible dimensions within my connection to the universe. The destiny that was designed for me, and the destiny I design, are both intertwined, and as they are both within harmony, they will not be denied.

Whereas there are a lot of good people in the world there are also plenty of negative and mediocre people inhabiting the planet and when no good people find out that they cannot use you and abuse you they do whatever it is within their power to refuse you the opportunities in which you are entitled to.

However, is not up to them or entirely in their hands to decide how far we go within life, or within our careers so to speak. It is just we live in a society governed and controlled by some people who are corrupt, and by some who are not on a certain “elevated” level and wavelength, or both.

The power is within the universe to ultimately decide, and the energy is dispelled unto not only those who are spiritually receptive, but to who it is also celestially intended.

As a spiritual person, life has consistently went better for me than the average life has went for others.

I was always meant to be successful and I have succeeded within many fashions and aspects of my life.

There are and have constantly been people, nevertheless, who’ve tried and who still take part in earnestly attempting to hold me back at reaching my highest peaks of deserved financial success.

I’ve worked jobs that I didn’t really want to do, or that I had no genuine interest in just to steadily gain a stable income to allow me to pay my bills, and to maintain the lifestyle that I frequently enjoy.

I was always able to make a good volume of money but they don’t want me to further delight in what they will never be able to have.

There is nothing they can do to stop who I am, what I’m capable of doing or achieving, or the things I was born to accomplish, they have only been able to delay certain events from taking place at a sooner period.

The time they stole and continue to steal, for the time being, until my optimum time finally arrives, is the extra time they’ll spend burning relentlessly within the lower depths of hell once they arrive to their inevitable and eternal destination. They have to suffer here, though, before they go, and a tough lesson beforehand they surely will learn.

I don’t follow the ways of the world because the world has absolutely nothing to do with me, I follow my own individual nature, preferences, and inclinations.

I have always definitely known how to live and to survive in this world, yet I am nothing of this world, and I never will be, and I am very proud of this actual fact.

Bad Intentions

People getting mad and destructive through the cellestial bestowments directed out from the great universe.

Unfortunately desiring to harm other individuals because they are blessed in ways that they aren’t – Miss LaToya

I never understood why certain individuals who were of a lower intellect and character, tried to dominate and degrade, those who were of a higher level and caliber.

It happened all the time among specific type of people who considered themselves to be up to par, yet were actually not.

The ones who’d get downgraded and downplayed were the true definition of genuine sunstance, and quality.

Imitators who aspired to duplicate within their own facades, often hunted deep to find fault within those who were just living normally, often creating a barrage of unwarranted attacks, in a mere attempt to completely subdue one.

Strange how relentless people are, and how far many of them will go, due to their own  unfathomable resentment toward the favorable advantage naturally granted upon certain others.

Funny Facts: Dope Lesson For Dummies

Dope is for dopes, a dead high just to get by.

Fiends put themselves into a sleep, as they can’t cope because life is just too deep. -miss latoya

I wonder what was in that heroin to incite a lot of junkies to believe they were experts on everything.

They have a delusion in where they are smart and everyone else is dumb.

Within their false assumptions, distorted points of view, and severely altered mind state, they are in tune to various illusion in which blows away the most keen individual toward a hysterical fit of laughter.

Their reasoning is outrageous, and their logic is quite ludicrous.

I guess those of us within a healthy and productive mindset, and bestowing extra sensory capacity, have a lot to learn by not adapting to what is not reality.

Once one begins to regularly deliberate within fallacy, they’ll be just as bright and informed as the junkie, and also agreeably welcomed, and suitably joined, into the fool’s comfortably inadequate paradise.

Mental, Emotional, And Spiritual Breakdown

Everyone who has had a breakdown of some sort is not weak, crazy, or dangerously unstable.

A breakdown is spiritual within many instances. A Yoruba priestess even acknowledged this fact to me years ago. I know firsthand as my own mother was a victim of brujeria in the early 1980’s.

I was even targeted. My aunt tried to flip me out when I was eighteen years of age by putting the hallucinogenic drug mescaline into a hot pot of black eyed peas that I had cooking over the stove.

People often use recreational “trip” drugs to increase the chance or enhance the effect of mental and chemical alterations of the brain while also performing the negative spiritual influences within black magic/voodoo/witchcraft.

My aunt went a step further in her malicious attempt by also putting tainted hiv fluids inside my food. Anyone educated would know the disease would not survive within the air and within a pot of scalding hot water.

Nevertheless, I didn’t lose my head or have a breakdown, my mind was too strong with faculty and awareness, and I didn’t, of course, become infected with aids either.

I was young, innocent, and very spiritually inclined, so divine intervention took over and protected me.

My aunt Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has been hiv positive since the 1980’s due to intravenous drug use and promiscuous behavior from the 1970’s on up and instead of using her limited time to spend changing her life around for the better, she continued to do tons of constant dirt. She and other envious and jealous ruthless dummies, whores, drug addicts, and degenerates attacked me and other family for decades.

They’ve in addition done it to others, however, when they came after my mother and I, they messed with the wrong individuals. We are people of the light and they are people of the darkness. My ancestors and orishas were ready for them all, and the universe was recording and keeping record of every notorious deed in which was repeatedly done toward us.

Tina had poisoned food of my mother’s years ago too while neighbors were working black magic/voodoo/witchcraft against her.

My grandfather was driven to mental affliction before he was killed and found dead in the Hudson river.

My aunt Charise was drugged and raped which caused her to be afflicted with mental illness.

My grandfather, mother, younger aunt, and I were targeted for manipulative breakdowns because we were all very smart, strong, and fighters who could literally kick ass if needed be. We weren’t the type to back down or be bullied by anyone, and we were all good upstanding people.

The intent for causing mental, emotional, and spiritual breakdowns are to weaken one, to render them as incredible, and to lower their self esteem and spirit.

Certain evildoers want those of us who have knowledge in which threaten their unscrupulous ways either dead or labeled as crazy.

 

 

 

Blocked Witchcraft Attempt

As a child I wasn’t sheltered. I’d seen and heard a lot and encountered numerous types of people and situations while at the same time not being negatively influenced within my own behavior by incorporating undesirable habits or lifestyle choices, yet informed, as I had a mind of my own.

I had firsthand experience without having to personally indulge in order to know and since I was spiritually inclined I was able to clearly discern things that were hidden under the surface and I definitely knew what appealed to me and what turned me off and what I wanted to avoid as I grew up in life.

One of my strongest points is my excellent communication skills and comprehension. What I lack though is a sympathetic nature toward people and the world in general. I do love the hell out of puppies and dogs, though, they just steal my heart. They’re so innocent, sincere, and lovable those little adorable fuckers.

Since I nipped that “Think Of Me Spell” in the bud last week another corresponding negative technique was put in motion to run its trifling course. It’s definitely witchcraft yet all it has done is give me a off and on headache.

The motive is to drain me of my good energy and luck to render me vulnerable to the effects of whatever negativity and negative energy in which they gear toward me as they have failed so badly with endeavoring to bring me down and to destroy me.

These idiots are continuing to further ruin themselves through attempting to cause my demise. I am a very good and blessed person and I am and will constantly be guided and protected by divine intervention.

Adversaries are actually hurt because I am not at all hurt or affected by the negativity and dirt they’ve directed toward me within the past and by the negativity and dirt in which some of them still continue to direct toward me now.

They are infuriated by the love I have for myself, my high self esteem, the love and respect I have around me, and the fact that they are unable to stop me from living my life and speaking the truth.

I am a writer by nature, I have a gift, and I am naturally motioned by spirit to utilize and exercise creatively, honestly, and productively whenever inspired. There is power in the universe to those of us who are endowed.

It deeply frustrates them how they cannot get to me emotionally or mentally. And I can “feel” their upsets within my body through intense empathic ability. So they couldn’t deny it even if they wanted to. Feeling and being able to perceive other peoples emotions has always been one of my dominant faculties as a highly spiritually inclined person.

They’re going to drive themselves crazy with trying to hurt or thwart me with things and circumstances in which do not faze me. I’m not the average person. I’ve always been on a entirely different level and will never be hurt by their words, lies, jealousies, ignorant thinking, malicious deeds and etc…

Of course, when somebody comes up against me I will take up for myself or fight back as I am a very feisty and strong individual. And I definitely will correct anyone who comes at me with the wrong approach. One doesn’t have to be hurt to retaliate out of hatred, vengeance, or justification these instances have absolutely nothing to do with being hurt within certain types of people. Everyone is different and does not act out for the same reasons or under the same intention.

Although I do realize many of my adversaries have been hurt by me as I have not been too friendly or receptive to their kind (as I’ve never been fond of their type and those with similar traits and mindsets) yet they hurt themselves by ignorantly making assumptions and adhering to preconceived notions while really knowing the real deal then proceeding to carry out nonsense due to pure spite and resentment.

Seeing Into View: The Third Eye

I know that nothing bad is ever going to happen to me as it never has. Although I may sometimes have to go through bad things I go through these particular incidents if or when they arise without any serious worry or dismay.

Certain people never understood how I handled what is considered to them as a tribulation so well and nonchalantly.

It is just a natural reaction of peace and ease from my own personal experience with my spirituality and the momentous encounters throughout my life. And frankly, it is sometimes just my cold attitude of not giving a damn.

Nevertheless, I am monitored and protected by spirit.

It’s sad when others plan negative designs upon me and others in specific with the genuine “knowing power” then have or assume successful expectations to come into fruition as I know all along how things will inevitably work out and go within my favor.

Even if it is just a regular periodic hard seemingly time in which may happen as an up and down part of life or celestial test. I know that I will make it through alright without a doubt because that is just me and the way it is within my life condition.

People endeavor and attempt to do dirt out of spite or greed or whatever else and I always know what the outcome will be.

It’s a pure waste of time on the perpetrator’s part, however, they don’t know this or they’re too arrogant within their ignorance to understand and realize this fact.

As I am born with Extra Sensory Perception I know what scheme people will calculate against me before they do themselves and I know how the situation will eventually turn out.

My Words Of Truth And Encouragement To Those Who Are “Rare” In This Day And Age

 

One doesn’t have to be born with a “Caul/Veil” to be “different” and to be remarkably set apart from others.

There are a very small number of people out there in comparison to the large amount of inhabitants within society who have exceptional or rare quality and train of thought.

Wisdom doesn’t come with age for everybody.

There are plenty of narrow-minded people who go through life and who have went through life actually believing that, they know, and knew, everything that there is to know when they acquired nothing legitimate at all but what they have misconstrued or exaggerated through their own restricted boundaries.

And these same people teach their own children and others their same dumb ways and beliefs. Fortunately there are some children who are born and that come out smarter than their parents.

One should definitely not permit oneself to be defined by other people’s ignorance, misconceptions, and generalizations as most who are of an ordinary mindset have a limited range of view and comprehension.

This world is full of weak-minded individuals who are easily influenced. I’ve always been a leader, not a follower.

These individuals are only able to discern within the scope in which their minds will completely allow.

When other people may accuse those of us who are on a particular wavelength and who are at an advanced level of consciousness, mentality, and intellect, of not being logical, realistic, or even moral, it is because they are lacking within specific true knowledge as their minds have in addition been socially and spiritually conditioned to incorporate and accept the mental, emotional, and psychological degrees of rationalization among the majority in who it typically pertains and applies to.

It is very important to remain strong and to not lose one’s self and one’s own distinct identity and genuine nature due to the false conceptions of what others may interpret within our behaviors and expressions because most people are unlike us and don’t know anything other than what they are familiar with and have been accustomed to.

A lot of people put their own insecurities on us all of the time because it makes them feel better as they don’t want to be alone (set apart) within their own tendencies, personal flaws, shortcomings, or inadequacies.

Some people don’t want to willingly acknowledge a rarity or major uniqueness in certain others if they themselves don’t also hold and encounter those uncommon attributes. And some just trifle to tick us off.

Instead of just recognizing how there are other individuals who are “beyond their own capacities to understand” they, nevertheless, proceed to judge us by the ways in which they personally are, how they personally feel, and the innate or orthodox reasoning in which they are able to grasp within themselves upon occurrence, situation, and circumstance.

Their doubts or opposing reactions, if any, is purely a reflection of themselves and their own insecurity and lack of particular knowledge and/or experience.

Everyone, of course, is not and does not act out of these natures, however, for those of them who are, and who do act out, they need to be dismissed from our essence and presence.

It is never appropriate to let anyone make one feel confused or uncertain about who they are, the things they know, and where they stand.

I’ve been one who has always had a strong sense of self in which no one could deter and I am extremely firm within my beliefs and within my facts and I will stand up to anyone who dares to challenge my truths and experience whether it be the mundane or extraordinary.

I as an individual never cared what anyone said or thought about me. I am authentic within self and nobody knows me better than I do, and I don’t have to explain myself to anybody, and I have no apologies. –latoya lawrence

Too Late For Sorry

When one tells the harsh truths about no good people fellow like-minded individuals don’t want to hear or believe it. When one tells vile lies on good people haters are eager to hear and ready to believe.

 

There are people now and for a while now who are and who have been sorry for the negativity in which they had directed toward me.

They feel stupid and regret the things that they have done and took part in yet I’d never accept their apologies and I would never forgive them. I don’t want any apology I just want them to suffer for their dumb errors.

I’d never even give them the benefit of the doubt I’m so disgusted by their ignorance and audacity to so readily believe and be so eager to falsely come up against me on account of whatever they heard from someone else’s mouth when they didn’t even know me personally. I never went around bothering anybody. People were getting mad because I didn’t want to be bothered with them and because I had no dirt on me.

If I didn’t have the strong mind and spirit in which I had where would I have been?

Fortunately I wasn’t affected or devastated by the ordeal, if anything, I was enhanced as I always continue to evolve and grow, however, I thought about other people who weren’t strong enough and had gotten destroyed through the barage of other people’s ignorance, jealousy, and lies.

I don’t care if what they were told did come from a family member or certain people who’d been around me. People lie on people every day and one can live with someone and hang around them and still don’t genuinely know the heart or mind of the individual.

People didn’t really know or understand me only smart people who were on my level or higher could see me for who I honestly was and they truly liked, loved, and respected me and they all still do they’d never listen to or go along with nonsense out of pure envy, jealousy, and idiotic misgiving, and people like them immediately earn my respect. My own mother admitted to me that she never understood everything about me because I never thought like or had the mentality of the average person.

As one born with second-sight it is very hard for me to put myself in these people’s shoes because I’ve always been able to look and see through people, things, and situations whereas other people couldn’t rationalize so I was never one to be easily deceived or one to fall for anything major. I’ve always had a mind of my own and analyzed things.

I’m so sick and tired of undesirables but here we go again. And I never cared anything about their kind though I keep getting warnings and messages about them and I am ever so grateful for the insightful revelations.

There are people who don’t use drugs who are trash and degenerate, and all people who dabbled in drugs don’t go around spreading and making up lies about their relatives, this type of behavior stems from a type of mental illness and a sickness within anyone behaving in this manner.

Most jealousy starts within the family and no one knows that better than me. There was tremendous dirt done by particular family members much too much through out the years to fit into just one post.

I unfortunately have an aunt by the name of Ernestine Lawrence and she was always extremely jealous of my mother and I along with my great grandmother Amanda Byars (who is deceased now) and uncle Willie Jr (also deceased) and all three of these individuals were junkies.

Tina has had the nerve to try to contact me through Facebook a few times a few months back I just ignored her request. I know what she’s up to I see right through her. The bitch is in trouble all of the dirt she’s done and the bitch also wants information.

It’s bad enough when one has envy and jealousy from others on the outside but when you have a few undesirable relatives deceptively conspiring along with a parade of fellow ignorant and gullible lowlifes in an effort to bring you down to the gutter level to where they are it is just despicable.

I’ve hated undesirables ever since childhood because of the way their minds operated and because they’ve always proved to be and cause nothing but trouble.

Ernestine Lawrence was so jealous of my intelligence and achievements so she went around lying saying I had no education. She was jealous of my mother’s intellect and the jobs that she was able to get so she went around saying that my mother never worked a day in her life.

Amanda Byars along with neighbors on the outside worked brujeria on my mother causing her to have a mental breakdown when I was a child then went around saying that she was crazy and that she bugged out over a man when this particular man and his sister was just mad because my mother didn’t want him or a baby by him.

They tried to do the same to me. Who puts black magic on a seven year old child on up?!

Men got mad at me because I didn’t want them too and lied and tried to give me a reputation and make me lose my mind with black magic I didn’t give a fuck about that shit couldn’t no man degrade me.

When I published my first book about the family they lied and said my mother told me what to write about when in truth my mother had no idea exactly what I was going to put in my novel. I would ask her a few questions from time to time but other than that she didn’t know, however, she knew it was autobiographical. Everything came from me and my own words as I’d been writing since the age of ten but Ernestine and Amanda didn’t know that about me as certain others who knew me did.

Unsavvy people took the word of jealous junkies who’ve committed every deed of dirt known to man and they are all paying for it now and in ways they wouldn’t recognize.

Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has had HIV since the eighties and is dying like a dog. I don’t understand why it’s taking so long for her to die. I guess she has to suffer before she goes and busts the gates of hell wide open. She’ll go out with an explosion.

My uncle was still shooting up before he died from AIDs as Amanda tried to cover it up saying he had cancer. Amanda croaked in the year 2009. They were all miserable and had messed up their lives at an early age and tried so deeply to destroy mine and my mother’s.

Nevertheless, I was protected and came out on top because right prevailed over others wrongdoings and I don’t care about any of their sorry feelings or regard. I wish them all nothing but doom.

My mother is a little more understanding, she’s not taking up for any of them but she explained to me how some people get fooled by the crafty skill of a liar and when tall tales may come from members of someone’s family others just may not know any better. She told me that I shouldn’t compare myself to them as far as being able to distinguish specific matters because my world is completely different from theirs since I was born with extrasensory perception.

She also imparted how some of the instigators and harassers were victims themselves because they didn’t really know the truth or the real deal about what was actually going on until later. And how the junky’s mind is on a totally different level than that of a logical and healthy thinking mind.

My mother is right in her words, yes many of them are sick, but still I am not giving those who fell for what they wanted to hear and act on a free pass and I’m not making allowances for any of the worthless addicts who dared to ruin my life. There were plenty who took part and knew that they were all lying and went along with the conspiracy anyway it was all part of the game. Some were so ill they believed their own delusions.

They even used black magic from time to time to get inside my mother’s head to turn her against me with fabrications. A lot of people don’t understand how voodoo/black magic/witchcraft works but I do and it will effect the people around you. It also unnaturally effects everyday happenings and the energy around one.

My mother had many times been so nice and helpful to people just for them to turn around and do her dirty. I’m glad I’ve never been as nice and helpful toward certain people, not that she did anything wrong she just was good to some people who didn’t deserve her kindness.

The universe has been good to me and allowed me to be aloof to all of the wickedness that was around me so I won’t complain.