Category Archives: Love

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Spirit is and has constantly been there for me. Spirit has never let me down and that is so amazing to me. And it is so astonishing because although that I have tremendous faith in what I know and believe still I never take anything for granted and I think that is why I continue to be carried so securely by spirit.

The celestial support that I unceasingly receive is very touching and so much appreciated and it is also additionally grounding. I naturally and genuinely treasure what is surrounding me and as I am in harmony and in balance with the quintessence of my existence, the alignment of my dimensional position within the universe that is in relation to inclination, I thrive.

The peace that is around me is so wonderful.

I was always a positive individual that exuded positive energy and I always knew what was going to work for me and what wasn’t going to work out from a very early age because I always had a very strong sense of self. And as my energy was always good it was always the negative energies of others that would constantly interfere.

Just the simple condition of not being within the presence of certain types of people (especially undesirables) is so rejuvenating and liberating, and oh so very healthy for the mind, aura and spirit. That circumstance has consistently been a major factor to my happiness and well-being as a highly spiritual individual.

Everything is so clear, clean, and beautiful living in the compatible arrangement of my own preordained nature. A nature of authentic serenity that some of us are blessed with when we continue to choose and remain on the paths that are correct for us.

When we hear and listen to that inner voice of spirit it never guides us in the wrong direction we become one within distinction and within the truths of our lives and where we’re going.

Spirit helps us to make important decisions, gives us the confidence and courage to take risks and to make the most vital of changes that prove to all turn out for the better and I am a living testimony!

Love is so durable and I feel it all around me and I just love the love. Love makes us strong, love makes us powerful, and love makes us who we are! Love is not corny yet it is often underestimated and it is why spirit has us within the first place.

Without the love, care, and protection of the specific energies around those of us in particular we’d be lost and alone as long as we have the loves of the light we will prevail.

 

A Family Affair

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I have two more sets each of census  records (again of my mother’s mother side of the family) both listed from 1-80 as there are 1-35 pages (too many to post I’d be here all day that I gathered from Ancestry.com) each of family members that were recorded back in the year of 1940 (many family that are known to us and some that are not because we never met everybody within our lineage) and it is not a constantly repeated list of the same relatives they’re a list of different blood related people branched from the roots of our extremely large family tree there were literally thousands of us! There may be millions now with all of the possible children, grand, and great-grand children and so on.

It is so nice to communicate with our loved ones especially when we’re not even expecting it, they come at times to encourage, enlighten, acknowledge, inspire and protect.

I just had a dream the night before of one of my elder female relatives that came to give me a message of confirmation regarding how my aunt “Tina” Ernestine Lawrence was the one that originally initiated slander against my mother from the beginning years ago and how no one else within the family (on Catherine’s side of the family) had ever set out or even thought about doing anything of that nature as everyone of our other good relatives had nothing against my mother or any negative thoughts or intentions toward her we were just a normal regular family and it had made no sense. My mother knew that though, that it was all Tina from the get go and that other family had no part of that disgust. Tina was always an undesirable that was never well acquainted with the family she never even knew who most of the relatives were!

She was warm and completely honest in her connection with me as a reminder of how they all stick together (our unit) and how they’ll always have my back.

My elder relative just wanted me to know the truth in details-as they share with me so often concerning different circumstances and situations- out of love and benevolence because they are proud that I am naturally and genuinely carrying the torch for our family, a burning flame of authenticity and loyalty from through out the generations of those of us that are and that were innately set apart.

Second set of 1-40 of my relatives.

Second set of Census Records 41-80 of my relatives.

Third set of Census Records of 1-40 more of my relatives.

Third set of Census Records of 41-to 80 more of my family members.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Kin Folk (My Lovely Family)

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I love my mother’s side of the family people like them don’t come around so often. I am so proud of them, to be related to them, and that I am of them and that they are of me as we all have our own unique identities that also draws within us our connection.

Knowing where you come from is so very important and interesting. And as a person of the caul it has by nature been detrimental that I not interact with certain types of individuals and things as they are not of my specific essence.

All of my good relatives outweigh the very few that I partially grew up with within my home that had resulted from the union of my grandmother (Catherine) and grandfather (Willie Sr).

My mother’s mother Catherine came from an extremely large family that originated in Virginia. They were very tight and close-knit just the way a real family should be they were good people and would always keep in contact with her when she moved to New York. I remember how they would regularly call her on the phone.

Some of her relatives eventually moved up from Virginia to all places such as parts of New Jersey and other states and boroughs of New York as well.

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1-40 of the members of my family

When My mother was a little girl her and her siblings would go down south and visit their grandmother and grandfather (Catherine’s parents) on the farm that they owned and where they would produce and sell their very own goods/products. My mother had two aunts and four uncles altogether and all members of the family cooperated and played a significant part in making the family business a success.

My great grandmother (Catherine’s mother) use to make homemade soaps and foods and etc…I have other relatives that owned their own funeral home that was still doing business in the 1980’s I don’t know if some of them expanded or still have the same business running currently.

On the farm our family had lots of animals including dogs. They had cows that my mother would milk, horses, mules, pigs, chickens-one of the mules had kicked my young uncle in the head once.

My mother had a lot of fun down there and was shown and given much love just as she did with me. I always had love and security around me that contribute to the strong person that I am today my real family from Virginia all stuck together and there were and still are many of us.

Even though many have passed on they are definitely not forgotten and their being deceased makes them no less of relevant to me as opposed to those that are actually living. They continue to be here with me in spirit and one would be a fool to fuck with me with all of the ancestors that I have lingering around loving and protecting me and my loved ones.

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41-80 members also included in my family

As I have communicated with them and gotten to also know them on another level “home is truly where the heart is” and no one can break that bond. Our love is a house homed by our energy.

One day as time went by Catherine just didn’t have time for her family anymore as she was more preoccupied with hanging out with the neighborhood trash within the area we weren’t even suppose to be living in that area she was originally set to move into a corner two family home over in another part of queens. She didn’t want to know her family again until she got ill from having a stroke back in the early 1980’s.

How could she forget where she came from to go down to the lowest forms of disgust?

I could and would never be so inauthentic and disloyal to my nature to be turned around when tested by negativity.

Nevertheless, here and there runts do run through our family trees that is why it is so important to not intermix genetically with certain lines of individuals even though what may have been done before our time we to certain extents have no control over.

I found a census that dates back to 1940 recorded of eighty members of my family, there are so many more of them not listed, however, a cousin of mine that is on the list acknowledged how my grandparents had another house other than the one that my mother and her siblings use to visit a bigger and beautiful home that they shared when she’d visit. Wow, I just can’t get over how much family we have and my mother remembers a lot of them I even remember some!

 

 

Us Caulbearers Never Walk Alone

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bosomYes, by nature I have always been a very strong individual mentally, emotionally, and even physically. I have also always been a loner yet I have never been and have never actually walked alone.

I have always been very well-liked by others and I was always able to make friends very easily yet never desired to associate with undesirables who became fond of me only those of my class or level would I choose to allow into my circle if I were amicable enough toward them or interested, however, I was never the type that wanted or needed to be around a crowd as I always found confidence and contentment within myself and within my surroundings no matter where I went.

I held my own ground and had preferred the solitary style of my own nature.

Those who I did become sociable with, depending on exactly who it was because different personalities can also bring about the innate variety that is within ourselves, we had stayed in touch but didn’t have to constantly make contact with one another, although, others do often tend to reach out more to me because they are attracted to my aura and find that they can communicate with me in many ways that they are unable to communicate within others in specific and because I am a fun person to be around but for the most part because I am genuine and unique.

I appreciate people who think ‘big’ and that are able to exchange significant and challenging ideas with me, individuals that are not afraid to climb that ‘higher ladder’ unto infinity, reaching that anomalous spectrum unbounded by restriction, those that have that natural drive and enthusiasm because I am not just a talker or a thinker but I am a doer, a person who makes and demands change.

Like I have said before, I’ve always had people who truly cared for me and that had looked out for me other than family and some who have even went out of their way for me because I was indeed worth it yet the majority of them who weren’t on the level never really knew me for the individual that I actually was as I was never one that was average or ordinary.

Just because people spend time hanging around our presence does not at all mean that they exactly know us all that well.

Insecure individuals as well as those lacking within particular knowledge would rather define us for who they want us to be instead of accepting us for who we authentically are as human beings personality that distinguishes character, ability and all.

Some if not most people in general take for granted and assume what others are like under certain circumstances due to their own limited view of perception and experience within the inner or outer scope of things.

Nothing counts more than self awareness and discovery, the realization of the reality that is around the very structure of one’s very own foundation and direct source of information.

First hand experience is the best hand to learn from, not only to undergo but to properly interpret what we come to know.

As children born of the caul or children that are very spiritually inclined and “in tune” with the universe around us we have a radar that is very well within and beyond the range of frequency, allowing our ‘spiritual antennas’ to receive and transmit energy to the highest and magnificent of degree.

Except for ourselves, other individuals looking at us from the outside cannot see what we are surrounded by around ourselves.

I’ll say it again, I have never been and have never walked alone even when I did not know it, my ancestors and spirit guides have always been there beside me watching over me and providing for me through fashions of arcane communication and relation.

I can recall so many accounts of occurrence, times when I was in the midst of danger and they had come to save my life and/or had prevented serious injury and harm from being done unto me.

One that I’ll end with, though, pertains to the night my dining room was filled with the presence of a large group of my deceased relatives (the place where I had kept one of my altars at the time) and the strong bond that was felt there between us all along with the love and the security. They were all there gathered together in my home all able to visit and to spend moments of vital family union. Only the good members of the brood were allowed to come through.

Later on that night, after they all had left, one of my other deceased relatives had arrived to an empty setting and I was able to see him clearly and a voice had said to me “That’s Uncle Lee”.

I had said to myself, “Oh maybe that’s just a made up reference”, because sometimes foreign entities will come through or those that I am not familiar with to say things that I can’t put together or that just have no purpose that I am not immediately cognizant of, however, this was no foreign spirit messaging me that night I later found out.

I happened to mention the incident to my mother, what I had heard, and the description of the apparition that I saw, and she acknowledged to me that the man’s name was indeed “Lee” (a name that I’ll use instead of his real name because I am very protective and respectful toward my ancestors and I don’t share certain things that are sacred between us), he was her uncle, her mother’s brother and that he would always arrive to gatherings late after everything was over and after everyone had already gone.

Everything that my mother had described to me about my great uncle from his physical demeanor down to his character traits in which I had visioned and had felt within him through my own sight had astonishingly coincided with what my mother had told me and I had never seen this man before and we had never discussed him.

One thing that I know is that I am so proud to have him as a part of the family along with the others who are around me and who all will never let me ever walk here on this earth alone or without their love, guidance and protection.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I Feel So Flattered!!!

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Aw, my enemies are so jealous that I had such a great mother and that she has such a great daughter!kiss

I’m Forty-One Years Young Today!

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 My horns are up and I’m ready to dig my heels deep into the dusts of the dirt to head off and take charge like a true bull in motion“. -latoya lawrence

Many people who come into contact with me usually think that I am younger than what I am when in actuality I am the one who is older than what they are.

And a few of these young and old ones alike find much of their self esteem heavily drenched in tones of foundation and excessive make-up thinking that they look good when in fact they do not, it is all inside of their heads, and then some people lying to them inspiring them to believe that they do indeed look good. It is funny and at the same time so sad to me.

I do not understand people of that nature because as I continue to get older I do not even care about my age and I don’t even focus on my looks because I am a natural beauty with a lot of confidence and ability who has never felt the need to artificially prolong my youth or the desire to cover myself up with the disgusting globs of any type of cosmetics.

For me it has consistently been about living pure and staying real, having peace and being happy and where there is a love and security from within there is a solid basis and an effervescence that will conclude from the essence that is without.

Spring and summer are my favorite type of year and season. I hate the winter and the fall. Not only do I love the spring but I was born in the spring.

It is very hard for me to believe the fact that I just turned forty-one considering the fact that I do not appear anything of such physically.

Mentally, though, I’ve always been and felt much older than within my ever present years.

In person, I still have that youthful and very attractive face-not saying that as one gets older that they are no longer pretty (some get even better with age some just get worse) but it is all in how one takes care of themselves along with the attribution of the genetic pool.

I still appear young and beautiful without even trying to be and I have the body that is both the combination of a little girl in between to a teenager and I love being naturally manufactured within that petite fashion.

My mother is an April Taurus and she had enjoyed her recent birthday we had spent the entire day out (she doesn’t look her age either).

birthdayAnd aside from the very few bits of trash-my late uncle, aunt, late great-grand mother and father’s side- that were unfortunately connected within the family we all age extremely well and have a great family lineage.

I am a May Taurus and what was so coincidental and harmonic was that one of my late pets “Brandie” was also a Taurus who had been born during the zodiacal structure of April as I had first gotten her six or seven weeks after her birth decades ago I had accurately calculated what her astrological sign was.

I long ago stopped celebrating my birthday at the age of twelve it became just another ordinary day to me.

I did not have to take a special day of the year to celebrate the significance of my being born when I could honor that event as a celebration of any time within my life.

And, also because I didn’t ask to come into a world that I did not at all agree with and also into a world that I had to share with other certain types of people who I had constantly hated and who I didn’t feel should have been given the breaths of life by being brought into any kind of existence to begin with (at least I was born with a gift to compensate for the inconvenience) yet it is another excuse to treat myself to some lovely extra self pampering around or on that specific day of the month when the moment does arrive if I occasionally get into that mood.

Happy Birthday Taurus:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2013/05/09/happy-birthday-taurus/)

What I Want For The Holidays:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/19/what-i-want-for-the-holidays/)

The Perils Of Substance Abuse:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/02/the-perils-of-substance-abuse/)

Blood, Money And Dirt:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/04/blood-money-and-dirt/)

Into The New Year:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/01/into-the-new-year/)

 

 

Innovative Style

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Live, love, laugh and be full of your own distinctive joy, an exhilaration that no one can steal or take away from you, and your abundant spirit.

Life itself is a deep experience and knowledge and understanding is a deep advancement, intangible stimulation that delivers a powerful elevation – truth in my own words because I am living proof of what “divinity” can reveal and accomplish.

Exhibiting authenticity within a world full of many fakes and cowards takes a fierce character, one that is combined with a natural strength and confidence that manifests within to then inevitably exude without.

A genuine soul can take on any challenge that arises with a cool ease and vile tenacity.

Upon reasonable circumstance an honest person will not back down from what they may believe in or stand up for.

Why fear to express oneself within thought and ideas especially when reflection and vision may not be so common or within the norm? A unique view and perspective suggests more valuable notability and change compared to the same useless repetitive unfruitful solutions that are bias and foreign to the vast array of distinct individuals. I could never be stuck within someone else’s rut! I am about productivity.- Preview Innovative Style,

“The occupational career section is coming soon”, the page that focuses on our job life and how we (those of us who it pertains to) successfully balance within the daily activities of our home place and social life and workplace life-naturally keeping those two or three circumstances separate because work should stay at work and home should stay at home-I never understood how some people bring work home with them because once I get home all of that occupational duty or whatever that may have went on there is completely forgotten about! All I want to do is to eat and relax, and then go sleep.