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Us Caulbearers Never Walk Alone

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bosomYes, by nature I have always been a very strong individual mentally, emotionally, and even physically. I have also always been a loner yet I have never been and have never actually walked alone.

I have always been very well-liked by others and I was always able to make friends very easily yet never desired to associate with undesirables who became fond of me only those of my class or level would I choose to allow into my circle if I were amicable enough toward them or interested, however, I was never the type that wanted or needed to be around a crowd as I always found confidence and contentment within myself and within my surroundings no matter where I went.

I held my own ground and had preferred the solitary style of my own nature.

Those who I did become sociable with, depending on exactly who it was because different personalities can also bring about the innate variety that is within ourselves, we had stayed in touch but didn’t have to constantly make contact with one another, although, others do often tend to reach out more to me because they are attracted to my aura and find that they can communicate with me in many ways that they are unable to communicate within others in specific and because I am a fun person to be around but for the most part because I am genuine and unique.

I appreciate people who think ‘big’ and that are able to exchange significant and challenging ideas with me, individuals that are not afraid to climb that ‘higher ladder’ unto infinity, reaching that anomalous spectrum unbounded by restriction, those that have that natural drive and enthusiasm because I am not just a talker or a thinker but I am a doer, a person who makes and demands change.

Like I have said before, I’ve always had people who truly cared for me and that had looked out for me other than family and some who have even went out of their way for me because I was indeed worth it yet the majority of them who weren’t on the level never really knew me for the individual that I actually was as I was never one that was average or ordinary.

Just because people spend time hanging around our presence does not at all mean that they exactly know us all that well.

Insecure individuals as well as those lacking within particular knowledge would rather define us for who they want us to be instead of accepting us for who we authentically are as human beings personality that distinguishes character, ability and all.

Some if not most people in general take for granted and assume what others are like under certain circumstances due to their own limited view of perception and experience within the inner or outer scope of things.

Nothing counts more than self awareness and discovery, the realization of the reality that is around the very structure of one’s very own foundation and direct source of information.

First hand experience is the best hand to learn from, not only to undergo but to properly interpret what we come to know.

As children born of the caul or children that are very spiritually inclined and “in tune” with the universe around us we have a radar that is very well within and beyond the range of frequency, allowing our ‘spiritual antennas’ to receive and transmit energy to the highest and magnificent of degree.

Except for ourselves, other individuals looking at us from the outside cannot see what we are surrounded by around ourselves.

I’ll say it again, I have never been and have never walked alone even when I did not know it, my ancestors and spirit guides have always been there beside me watching over me and providing for me through fashions of arcane communication and relation.

I can recall so many accounts of occurrence, times when I was in the midst of danger and they had come to save my life and/or had prevented serious injury and harm from being done unto me.

One that I’ll end with, though, pertains to the night my dining room was filled with the presence of a large group of my deceased relatives (the place where I had kept one of my altars at the time) and the strong bond that was felt there between us all along with the love and the security. They were all there gathered together in my home all able to visit and to spend moments of vital family union. Only the good members of the brood were allowed to come through.

Later on that night, after they all had left, one of my other deceased relatives had arrived to an empty setting and I was able to see him clearly and a voice had said to me “That’s Uncle Lee”.

I had said to myself, “Oh maybe that’s just a made up reference”, because sometimes foreign entities will come through or those that I am not familiar with to say things that I can’t put together or that just have no purpose that I am not immediately cognizant of, however, this was no foreign spirit messaging me that night I later found out.

I happened to mention the incident to my mother, what I had heard, and the description of the apparition that I saw, and she acknowledged to me that the man’s name was indeed “Lee” (a name that I’ll use instead of his real name because I am very protective and respectful toward my ancestors and I don’t share certain things that are sacred between us), he was her uncle, her mother’s brother and that he would always arrive to gatherings late after everything was over and after everyone had already gone.

Everything that my mother had described to me about my great uncle from his physical demeanor down to his character traits in which I had visioned and had felt within him through my own sight had astonishingly coincided with what my mother had told me and I had never seen this man before and we had never discussed him.

One thing that I know is that I am so proud to have him as a part of the family along with the others who are around me and who all will never let me ever walk here on this earth alone or without their love, guidance and protection.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I Feel So Flattered!!!

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Aw, my enemies are so jealous that I had such a great mother and that she has such a great daughter!kiss

I’m Forty-One Years Young Today!

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 My horns are up and I’m ready to dig my heels deep into the dusts of the dirt to head off and take charge like a true bull in motion“. -latoya lawrence

Many people who come into contact with me usually think that I am younger than what I am when in actuality I am the one who is older than what they are.

And a few of these young and old ones alike find much of their self esteem heavily drenched in tones of foundation and excessive make-up thinking that they look good when in fact they do not, it is all inside of their heads, and then some people lying to them inspiring them to believe that they do indeed look good. It is funny and at the same time so sad to me.

I do not understand people of that nature because as I continue to get older I do not even care about my age and I don’t even focus on my looks because I am a natural beauty with a lot of confidence and ability who has never felt the need to artificially prolong my youth or the desire to cover myself up with the disgusting globs of any type of cosmetics.

For me it has consistently been about living pure and staying real, having peace and being happy and where there is a love and security from within there is a solid basis and an effervescence that will conclude from the essence that is without.

Spring and summer are my favorite type of year and season. I hate the winter and the fall. Not only do I love the spring but I was born in the spring.

It is very hard for me to believe the fact that I just turned forty-one considering the fact that I do not appear anything of such physically.

Mentally, though, I’ve always been and felt much older than within my ever present years.

In person, I still have that youthful and very attractive face-not saying that as one gets older that they are no longer pretty (some get even better with age some just get worse) but it is all in how one takes care of themselves along with the attribution of the genetic pool.

I still appear young and beautiful without even trying to be and I have the body that is both the combination of a little girl in between to a teenager and I love being naturally manufactured within that petite fashion.

My mother is an April Taurus and she had enjoyed her recent birthday we had spent the entire day out (she doesn’t look her age either).

birthdayAnd aside from the very few bits of trash-my late uncle, aunt, late great-grand mother and father’s side- that were unfortunately connected within the family we all age extremely well and have a great family lineage.

I am a May Taurus and what was so coincidental and harmonic was that one of my late pets “Brandie” was also a Taurus who had been born during the zodiacal structure of April as I had first gotten her six or seven weeks after her birth decades ago I had accurately calculated what her astrological sign was.

I long ago stopped celebrating my birthday at the age of twelve it became just another ordinary day to me.

I did not have to take a special day of the year to celebrate the significance of my being born when I could honor that event as a celebration of any time within my life.

And, also because I didn’t ask to come into a world that I did not at all agree with and also into a world that I had to share with other certain types of people who I had constantly hated and who I didn’t feel should have been given the breaths of life by being brought into any kind of existence to begin with (at least I was born with a gift to compensate for the inconvenience) yet it is another excuse to treat myself to some lovely extra self pampering around or on that specific day of the month when the moment does arrive if I occasionally get into that mood.

Happy Birthday Taurus:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2013/05/09/happy-birthday-taurus/)

What I Want For The Holidays:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/19/what-i-want-for-the-holidays/)

The Perils Of Substance Abuse:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/02/the-perils-of-substance-abuse/)

Blood, Money And Dirt:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/04/blood-money-and-dirt/)

Into The New Year:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/01/into-the-new-year/)

 

 

Innovative Style

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Excerpt:

Live, love, laugh and be full of your own distinctive joy, an exhilaration that no one can steal or take away from you, and your abundant spirit.

Life itself is a deep experience and knowledge and understanding is a deep advancement, intangible stimulation that delivers a powerful elevation – truth in my own words because I am living proof of what “divinity” can reveal and accomplish.

Exhibiting authenticity within a world full of many fakes and cowards takes a fierce character, one that is combined with a natural strength and confidence that manifests within to then inevitably exude without.

A genuine soul can take on any challenge that arises with a cool ease and vile tenacity.

Upon reasonable circumstance an honest person will not back down from what they may believe in or stand up for.

Why fear to express oneself within thought and ideas especially when reflection and vision may not be so common or within the norm? A unique view and perspective suggests more valuable notability and change compared to the same useless repetitive unfruitful solutions that are bias and foreign to the vast array of distinct individuals. I could never be stuck within someone else’s rut! I am about productivity.- Preview Innovative Style,

“The occupational career section is coming soon”, the page that focuses on our job life and how we (those of us who it pertains to) successfully balance within the daily activities of our home place and social life and workplace life-naturally keeping those two or three circumstances separate because work should stay at work and home should stay at home-I never understood how some people bring work home with them because once I get home all of that occupational duty or whatever that may have went on there is completely forgotten about! All I want to do is to eat and relax, and then go sleep.

Extramundane

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sweet momentNothing in life is definitely promised to any of us yet there are happenings that are meant to be (to come into fruition) and that will not or cannot be interceded within.

It can all be over for us within a split second, minute, hour, day, week, month and year, and so on. In spite of all that there is faith, and we build upon and receive faith through the continuous trust that is gathered upon us once loyalty has been shown to us through or by whatever means on a basis that is primarily consistent.

When we have complete trust within something because of it’s reliability then we know that we are able to depend on that in further period to come and within our most trying times of need. Now that does not at all indicate to take the circumstance for granted but to realize one is able to believe if an instance appears to seem impossible.

dearer momentI have always been loved and had love within and all around me, real love, not an imitation or what some may falsely perceive as love because love has to come natural it is not something that one can just turn off and on but it is an intense affection that can disappear at chance, and that is also a natural aspect and factor.

As I have been a very particular individual by nature I have never loved anyone easily certain people have been more prone to have a “fondness” for me compared to me of them but I genuinely do “like”, recognize and respect sincerely good people and I love what is personally within relation to and around me.

When some people are “without” or do not “have as much” (not all, just some or a lot of people, because everyone is unique) of that endearment they are apt to harbor resentment due to the fact that they have to go outside of their habitat in order to find the love that they lack through the acceptance of other people-even in the midst of strangers and that is all too sad.

Through having had love and encouragement there is a tremendous gain of strength and confidence and no one can ever take that self respect and security away and that principal cannot be substituted for within any other absolute fashion.

dear momentIt feels so good to feel “safe”, to have that “spiritual umbrella” hovering over to follow one throughout their every step along with the “universal shield of concurrent energy flow” structured into the day to day activity and environment.

There is nothing more comforting and settling to the mind and soul other than to know that one along with their additional loved one’s are being shown authentic natural affection and care in the wonderful forms of extramundane preservation.

 

Preservation: (https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/20/preservation/)

Into The New Year

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holiday partyMy mother has never been a drunk or anything of the such she would drink some beer here and there and some champagne on occasion. I have fond cute memories of “once in a blue moon” when I was a little girl how my mother would pour me a petite glass of Lancer’s white wine that came in a medium size green bottle and we’d sit across the table from one another drinking out of the little fancy wine glasses chatting lovingly and talking about things going on in life.

My mother altogether cut out drinking she has not had any alcohol at all for a very long time now, over a little more than a decade in fact, and not even on occasion. However, this New Year she decided to buy a bottle of Moet a month ahead of time to open at midnight after the eve and as she did we sat and talked.

I’ve never been a drinker of any type of alcoholic beverage not even on particular events or instances so I didn’t share in this special one time occasion with her, I had already ate me a good meal and we had our specific delicious foods prepared also for the next day so all was nice and good.

My mother expressed to me how much she loved me last night and we discussed a lot of things just like we usually have and usually did but there was something important about last night. We even went over how our foes (the conspiring degenerates) tried to turn her against me in the past with their evil voodoo/black magic manipulation and vicious and obscene lie tactics.

She imparted how she would never “in reality” ever go against me for anyone.

We covered a lot of ground that is not necessary for me to reveal in detail through out this post but I’ve always said I’d be in jail if I had to continuously be around undesirables. I hated being within their company I hated being enveloped in a world occupied by them life just genuinely feels so “good” and “whole” when they are not anywhere around or to be found.

I’d be in jail for brutal and ruthless murder charges that is why I keep away from them because if they push me in the wrong direction I will not be responsible for any of my actions. My violence will indeed be justified. And I have always been and felt that way that is why as a little girl I use to constantly kick their asses when the moments called for it and I never lost a fight because I was in the right.

That fierce spiritual “energy” that harmoniously resides and burns inside of me cannot make any promises about inhibiting that automatic response.

Hey, in not so many words, we could have had certain family members “taken out” who had perpetuated much of this shit before it got out of hand decades ago if we wanted to, but most people cannot keep quiet about such things of that nature.  Specific kind of people may eventually talk or brag.

I on the other hand am not that way that is not the type of genes and “spirit” that I hold. I come from backbone where we will kill for one another and definitely keep quiet about it. It is even better now because I have my own “spiritual crew”, my blood related family on the other side and they do not risk capture and penalty they are judge, jury, and executioners and I love and respect them all dearly the females and the males. They see and know everything going on within and around me and have been and will continue on with taking care of business.

holiday dessertsI do not make New Years resolutions I never did once I decide to do something in general I just do it with no turning back if I am truly serious about it.

If there are New Years wishes though I’d wish for every beginning, middle and end, all year around, for all of the trash to disappear completely from the face of the earth forever. If all of the garbage were permanently removed the world would truly be a much better place to live, arrange, and enjoy.

The trash “kill” me in which how some of them actually think that they are supposed to be regarded and treated with so much respect. Those are the delusional ones that create a false illusion of their own estimated status or self worth.

The garbage has never been something to me, they aren’t shit, they weren’t born to be anything, and they never will become relevant within my domain and universe. They’ll never get any sincere respect or regard from me at all (my common courtesy should not be taken as a gesture of any esteem toward them) and respect or regard from them unto me absolutely would not hold any significance upon me.

I remember within the past when trash would surrender then try to “kiss my ass” I still did not want to even patronize them, I never liked the way that they looked, talked, behaved and thought.

When they endeavor to walk all over or to get over on one who is more superior to them (intellectual and/or character-wise) and then that person stands up for them self with logic and plausibility that is called and deemed as being disrespectful inside their twisted minds and eyes. I never gave any merit or put in any listening to their own state of “confusion” I refused to feed into that bull-crap.

 

In Response To: “What I Want For The Holidays!”

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diwakar
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When we last faith on people naturally we go for fine creatures like puppies which show their gratitude , faithfulness and love towards us.

 

 

misslatoya
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In reply to diwakar.Everything is not about losing faith within people. Some people in general do choose puppies/dogs over people do to being hurt, disappointed, or whatever their circumstances or situation may be but that has absolutely nothing to do with me and my case at all.

I had my very first puppy at the age of seven and I have always been attracted to them and have cared for them way more than I have cared for people and I had never ever been hurt or disappointed or lost faith within anybody (people turn me off with their ignorance), I by nature just had taken to certain puppies/dogs much better than I have with people and it is much more about and has much more to do about with their magnetism.

I never loved anyone easily I am not the type I am very particular because love has to come naturally and I have never within my forty years found too many people that I have felt that emotion for and I am proud of that because If somebody like me loves one that means that person has got to really be something.

I have genuine family within my life that have in the past as well as still up until now to this day that have shown me nothing but fierce and genuine gratitude, faithfulness and love yet I do not need that from anyone to thrive as I already have that within myself. I do not need any substitute through the animals.