Category Archives: Memories

Kin Folk (My Lovely Family)

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I love my mother’s side of the family people like them don’t come around so often. I am so proud of them, to be related to them, and that I am of them and that they are of me as we all have our own unique identities that also draws within us our connection.

Knowing where you come from is so very important and interesting. And as a person of the caul it has by nature been detrimental that I not interact with certain types of individuals and things as they are not of my specific essence.

All of my good relatives outweigh the very few that I partially grew up with within my home that had resulted from the union of my grandmother (Catherine) and grandfather (Willie Sr).

My mother’s mother Catherine came from an extremely large family that originated in Virginia. They were very tight and close-knit just the way a real family should be they were good people and would always keep in contact with her when she moved to New York. I remember how they would regularly call her on the phone.

Some of her relatives eventually moved up from Virginia to all places such as parts of New Jersey and other states and boroughs of New York as well.

Census Records
1-40 of the members of my family

When My mother was a little girl her and her siblings would go down south and visit their grandmother and grandfather (Catherine’s parents) on the farm that they owned and where they would produce and sell their very own goods/products. My mother had two aunts and four uncles altogether and all members of the family cooperated and played a significant part in making the family business a success.

My great grandmother (Catherine’s mother) use to make homemade soaps and foods and etc…I have other relatives that owned their own funeral home that was still doing business in the 1980’s I don’t know if some of them expanded or still have the same business running currently.

On the farm our family had lots of animals including dogs. They had cows that my mother would milk, horses, mules, pigs, chickens-one of the mules had kicked my young uncle in the head once.

My mother had a lot of fun down there and was shown and given much love just as she did with me. I always had love and security around me that contribute to the strong person that I am today my real family from Virginia all stuck together and there were and still are many of us.

Even though many have passed on they are definitely not forgotten and their being deceased makes them no less of relevant to me as opposed to those that are actually living. They continue to be here with me in spirit and one would be a fool to fuck with me with all of the ancestors that I have lingering around loving and protecting me and my loved ones.

Census Records
41-80 members also included in my family

As I have communicated with them and gotten to also know them on another level “home is truly where the heart is” and no one can break that bond. Our love is a house homed by our energy.

One day as time went by Catherine just didn’t have time for her family anymore as she was more preoccupied with hanging out with the neighborhood trash within the area we weren’t even suppose to be living in that area she was originally set to move into a corner two family home over in another part of queens. She didn’t want to know her family again until she got ill from having a stroke back in the early 1980’s.

How could she forget where she came from to go down to the lowest forms of disgust?

I could and would never be so inauthentic and disloyal to my nature to be turned around when tested by negativity.

Nevertheless, here and there runts do run through our family trees that is why it is so important to not intermix genetically with certain lines of individuals even though what may have been done before our time we to certain extents have no control over.

I found a census that dates back to 1940 recorded of eighty members of my family, there are so many more of them not listed, however, a cousin of mine that is on the list acknowledged how my grandparents had another house other than the one that my mother and her siblings use to visit a bigger and beautiful home that they shared when she’d visit. Wow, I just can’t get over how much family we have and my mother remembers a lot of them I even remember some!

 

 

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Souvenirs

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A lot of my pay stubs from working at Sears for four whole years.

When I tidy up from time to time I come across things as we usually do when we clean and/or make room for other things and to also throw out things that we no longer have use for.  While in the midst I came across a lot of my old pay stubs and realized that I’ve worked a lot of jobs between retail and within the health care field. I even came across an old report card from when I was a youngster marked with A grades and few B ones along with some certificates for achievement.

One of my pay stubs from working the hosiery department at JC Penney for an entire year

I am so proud of all of the accomplishments that I have made through out the years.

Two weeks ago a client at one of my jobs called up the private company that I work for acknowledging to my superiors that I was giving exceptional service and that she wanted me working more frequent days and I had accepted the offer when the company phoned me up with the news. This client also told me that I was too smart to be working the job, and I always get this same remark from people, “Why are you here, you’re too smart to be at this job whether it is in retail and the such.

One of my pay stubs from working at Bloomingdale’s for three years

Without going into certain details I expressed to the lady that phoned up my job about the jealousy from others and how within the past up until now how many had tried to interfere with my life yet I still succeeded but that how when I was a child I had the opportunity to be published by a mainstream publisher but that I mistakenly refused the offer due to my anger at what was going on in life at the time and at the trouble it would have caused during that time from a few envious/ jealous disturbed family members and outsiders that were working with them and etc… but that writing was my nature and where my heart truly was.

One of my schedules from Toys R Us

“Well no one can stand in your way now”, she told me. And she is correct.

She took down my full name and number wanting to keep in contact with me stating, “I want your full name because I know that you’re going to be a writer, well you are a writer”.

I told her, “I know what you mean, recognition”.

One of my schedules from Burlington

“Exactly”, she said I can tell and hear it in your voice that you’re a writer”. She has no doubt that I’ll eventually make it even further and neither do I!

No matter how many people have tried to hold me back through out my life I have managed to become very successful regardless in all of the things that I had set out to do. When anyone tries to stop me it just makes me hate them even more and makes me more determined to get what I want.

Free supplies notice I received when I adopted a new female Labrador Retriever in the year 2011

I remember when this guy by the name of George Owens (who always thought he was the smartest thing in the world and that he knew everything but was nothing but a dumb ignorant undesirable fuck who didn’t know what he was talking about who’d constantly gossip about everyone then go smile in their face) said “She can’t even do this”, talking about me doing the annual account for my mother who was conservator over my grandmother’s affairs years ago as my mother would ask him to do it once a year (he didn’t even know me personally or well enough to know what my capabilities were but I knew him as I could read him like a book and knew that one day he would get his and he sure has gotten his! I won’t mention what it is though as I have already discreetly mentioned it in a post last year).

And I thought that was interesting since the lawyer over my mother and another professional woman had stated that he didn’t know what he was doing as he kept getting it wrong every year. The annual account didn’t start getting done accurately until I became the one to complete it from then on and it was documented, we didn’t need him. The stupid ass George Owens even got arrested for tax evasion (http://queensda.org/Press%20Releases/2001%20Press%20Releases/03-March/03-21-2001.htm) he goes by a muslim name now. I’ve always filed and done my taxes completely on my own without the help of anyone every year. I’ll tell you, jealousy is a bitch.

As good people no matter what the circumstances we are the ones to come out on top when we are strong.

I don’t understand why people tried me within the first place and thought that they would get away with it. I was born under the zodiacal sign Taurus and one can’t mess with the bull without getting murdered or seriously injured.

 

 

Collector’s Items

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There is a man that periodically comes into the store where I work at and he prefers that the boxes of his merchandise be within perfect condition as he is a avid collector of a specific toy item.

There are many of us that have a fancy for certain things whether we plan on retaining them for their value later on in life or just for a personal delight and pastime or both.

Whenever I collected items like my Archie comic books-that I still order till this day-it was never with the intent to ever gain any money from them but to always have to keep and to enjoy reading whenever I felt in the mood to.

Photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package

When I use to work at JC Penney department store out in Garden City at the Roosevelt field mall about ten or eleven years ago and I use to off an on run to KB toy store and Toys r Us on my meal-break before I’d eat at my favorite restaurants I had purchased over fifty brand new Barbie dolls.

Currently I own well over a hundred of them including the ones that I like from the “Fashionista” selection.

Some of my lovely Barbies that I’ve collected still remain unopened within their boxes until I move into my new and bigger home in the near future where I will make a special gorgeous room to display them all in.

Another photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package

I haven’t bought any dolls lately it’s been two months I think now since I haven’t found any in particular that have caught my eye it is one of such of my fabulous hobbies that I enjoy though.

Two of the biggest loves of my youth-Puppies/Dogs and Barbie are still the loves that I share to this very today.

Full photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package

My very first full breed German Shepherd puppy that was named “Brownie” that I didn’t have for very long didn’t touch any of my toys but my second baby “Brandie” my beautiful mixed Shepherd/Collie breed that was seven to eight weeks old at the time tore up all of my Barbies and bit up the wire to my Atari set and certain other toys as little puppies often love to chew on things, the little sneak had waited until I went to sleep before she went to town on my playthings, nevertheless, I loved my puppy madly!

 

Bless The One Who Has Their Own

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retreivers“You know, a lot of people are jealous of you and your mother”, a woman acquaintance who visited my home from the old neighborhood told me to my face years ago.

I was at the age of ten at the time and she had come to sit and visit with my grandmother when she acknowledged this revelation to me as we sat next to one another on the couch.

I didn’t say anything in return as I listened and took the message in then relayed the information back to my mother when she had arrived home later in the day.

The news wasn’t anything that was foreign or that my mother hadn’t already known within her own knowledge and intuition as to the negative emotions of certain others especially of those who’d gossip and/or spread false rumor just to let out their apparent insecurities and resentments to be openly identified by those who could thoroughly analyze and recognize them.

The lady’s communication was just a confirmation to a validation.

So pathetic how the jealousy and envy had followed us for decades up until now with circumstance rubbing their noses into the fact that my mother was a more competent parent within intelligence and capability and that their children were incapable of ever measuring up to the caliber of what I have and am able to further achieve within faculty and accomplishment.

To Elude The Truth?

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felineIsn’t it something when sick people who are extremely jealous and envious of us try to relentlessly stop us within life then attempt to blames us when or if difficulty occurs knowing all along that they were behind the sabotage to begin with?

As they deliberately try to cause damage for us through their duplicitous methods of intervention whether by lies and/or manipulation of circumstance they actually believe that we ourselves are suppose to be the scapegoat?

It was often so strange to me how these type of people considered themselves to be clever within their ominous ventures as their undertakings have always appeared and proved to be rather transparent within the keenly focused mind’s eye especially when the subject of their scheme was well aware of their own obvious talents and skill and logical reasoning of natural probability for success.

The red flag is automatically raised when particular essence according to bestowal does not properly go into fruition, so who is the genuine culpable fool?

“The New Craze?!”

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eggAbout a little bit more than a month ago or maybe two months by now the department store where I work at received a shipment of “Hatchimals” the latest kid fad that had sold out immediately.

Everyday people continue to come into the establishment asking about these furry toy animals that eventually hatch out of a large size egg and I wondered was that all that this source of entertainment actually did, was hatch out of a decorated egg without doing anything else because that is what it appeared like to me as I watched a clip of advertisement regarding the Hatchimals on the news a while back.

When I first saw the product and the box that it came in up close and within person I didn’t see or understand what all of the fuss was about as the item really didn’t attract my attention then after witnessing a more attentive observation over the broadcast my opinion of the toy went even lower.

I cannot see purchasing over fifty dollars for this item or running around in a frenzy trying to gain possession of it the way people have been doing for their children, to me it is not worth the effort.

Every time we get a new shipment of Hatchimals people are standing outside the store before it opens to be the first one to beat out another since they sell out so quickly.

Just today when I left out from work this morning after doing an overnight shift before the store opened a lady was pacing back an forth in front of the store out in the freezing cold (the weather is very brisk here in New York right now) questioning me about these Hatchimals and informing to me that she has been there every morning waiting for the opportunity to get her hands on one of those “surprise hatch” toys as the buyer doesn’t know what selection of animal/fowl is going to come out from that egg!

So when I got home I finally went onto the Hatchimal website just to get a bigger picture of what this shit was all about all the while knowing that it couldn’t exactly be anything that spectacular as the hype was making it out to be. Okay, I found out that this item is an interactive toy and I watched the video on the site as to how the Hatchimal functions and I burst into laughter at this phenomenon.

eggsNow I could see if the children were making such a fuss over “Georgie The Interactive Puppy” as he is cute and cuddly and actually responds to twelve commands and over one-hundred interactions within a pup-like manner, even the “Calico Critters” are cute as they have been out for years and they don’t do anything but not this nonsense.

Georgie also cost over one hundred dollars but is often on sale yet I would purchase that interactive puppy before I would ever dream of wasting money on that Hatchimal crap, however, every generation has its craze. For me it was Barbie back then and to me she and all of her accessories was well worth it and when I was coming up back in the day it was the Cabbage Patch Kids that was driving everyone crazy, I had seven of them dolls when I was a child.

Lovely Mementos

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It is nice to look back and reminisce from the old days.

For the most part I come from a high class family with the exception of my father’s side. A few bad apples don’t spoil the whole entire family of generations and I am very proud of my lineage of strong and independent women and strong hardworking men yet I wasn’t able to post my grandmother’s large size fabulous family of relatives from Virginia so for now I’ll just post some of the beautiful memories of my grandfather’s before a few of the bad apples (his mother, his son when he got older, and his other daughter that I didn’t bother to post) became rotten.

LaToyaBrandieMe and my dog Brandie when we were both still babies she was such a cute pup!

My Mamma when she was pregnant with me she was so adorable

My Mamma when she was pregnant with me she was so adorable

AmandaFamily 2My great-grandmother holding my mother when she was a baby and my great-grandmother holding my mother and her brother when they were still baby youngsters..

Grandfather 2My grandfather and his dog when they were both still babies.

 

Sabette 1Sabette 2My great-aunt when she was young and old (My great grandmother’s sister).

Sabette 3

My grandmother, grandfather, mother, uncle and family.Family 1

My mother and her brother.Family 3

My grandfather with a colleague in the army.Grandfather 1

My great-grandmother and her sister (They actually come from a family of nine brothers and sisters).Amanda and Sabette

And my aunt Charise.Charise 1Charise 2