Age Is No Factor When God Decides To Bless You

I am at the age of forty-six now. However, it did not take me to get a specific age to acquire particular knowledge.

I gained wisdom early on within my youth. I knew what life was about by the age of twelve.

I was born with spiritual and intellectual gifts that made me wise in ways that certain people did not appreciate. Those who were not on the level themselves who gave off negative energy.

I knew things outside the ordinary range, beyond the normal sensory range of contact/area. I had the faculty to perceive things or events in the past, present, and future.

The scientific name for what I was born with is extrasensory perception/clairvoyance.

I have enhanced by learning extra, but I already knew much of what I know now that many people take years to learn through age, and by their own personal experience. Through experience within things some people still do not grasp on correctly and they walk through life with false perception and misrepresentation of life factors.

I had a lot of problems with negative people growing up because I was bright.

However, I do not understand why certain people thought that because they did not know particular things when they were younger that I was not supposed to either while I was at a young age.

People have a tendency to generalize and to reflect their inadequacies or insecurities onto others, especially when the aspect is common to them.

Some people do not want to accept another person who is younger than them to know more or just as much as they do because of ego or reasons of bias.

In fact, I knew more than they did in regard to particular matters within their older age. If I tried to correct an older person when they made an error, or tried to explain where I was coming from, they would react nasty or disdainful.

Not all people reacted within this fashion toward me only a “specific type”.

When I was younger there were positive people who told me and my mother that they were nowhere near the level that we was on when they were at my age.

I have been called unique, rare, strange, brilliant, and crazy (by jealous people). I don’t care. To me, I am just a spiritual person having a human experience continuing to grow on my journey in trusting and understanding my purpose and relationship with God.

I was always ahead of my time, advanced in ways that came without anyone having to teach me.

My mother and I were able to teach ourselves as youngsters. When we went to school, we exceled in the subjects we were strong in.

School did not make us smart, though, we were already adept to begin with.

Yes. One can be self-taught within a lot of things, especially within life experience.

School does not necessarily make one bright.

Education is the process of learning, acquiring knowledge of or skill in something by study, encounter, or being taught. The setting is irrelevant when things are ascertained.

I know plenty of people who attended school who are not smart.

Intelligence is something one is born with.

Knowledge or information is gained, and comes through and within various forms.

It is whether or not one is able to grasp what they learn.

As a person, and as an adult, I have never treated one inferior just because they were younger. I never tried to use my age as a weapon.

Just because one is older does not necessarily make one wiser.

There are young people who can teach an older person something just as there are older people who can teach the young many things.

I don’t consider myself to know everything at all. And I am definitely not the smartest person in the world. I am ahead within the gifts I possess, and I have a lot of knowledge, but I don’t want to know everything. I just know I have a heightened sense and connection to a realm within life that I was always familiar with.

Acknowledging our capabilities is not an expression of conceit or an exaggerated opinion of oneself when one is level-headed and logical. God wants us to be aware of who we are and the things that he equipped within us to have and accomplish to show his glory. Within our ability is a sample of God’s incredibility.

I write this as an encouragement to those who have been mistreated by older folks that have a tendency to manipulate, corrupt, hold-back, or mislead, because they cannot stand to see a younger individual who did not mess up or get caught into the same perils of life they once did.

Instead of being an example to cheer one on, they would rather drag another down as that younger person may have been a reminder of all they could have been, or wanted to be at one time or another in life.

We are blessed with certain gifts that God bestows upon us and some of us are anointed at a very young age.

God makes no mistakes. Do not let anyone tell you what you are not, what you do not know, or what you are not capable of doing.

When God enables us for his intention no one can disable us through attempting to bring about our suspension.

 

 

 

My True Source Of Help

The Lord is my best friend. He is the one I go to for help.

Aside from my mother, I would depend on him before I would depend on anyone else.

God was always ready, willing, and able to help me even when I did not know that he had already taken charge of my situation ahead of time.

Isn’t he a mighty rock in the nick of time?!  

There are people we interact with and who help us out in life such as, parents, doctors, teachers, and so on, but none of them can bring aid or relief to us in the way that God does.

From my own personal experience, it has always been God who was able to fix and to correct my situation because he is the only one who truly knew every core of my inner being and where to operate.

I never needed a counselor, therapist, or shoulder to cry on (aside from my mother), ever in my life. All I needed was a spiritual advisor, and I speak the truth!

Only a higher power was able to solve my specific problem, conflict, or difficulty. Whatever it was that was missing only God could replace it for me.

It is still this way today.

A force to prevent me to seek help from where there is no requirement unto what would not be understood.

When my circumstance does occasionally arise, the affairs are derived mostly from a spiritual aspect that connects to my physical elemental situation.

God comprehends in the ultimate way that others cannot.

I lift up my eyes to the mountains where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth! -Psalms 121: 1-2

 

 

 

What God Inspired Me To Say Today

I felt good as I mostly do when I awoke this morning and the Holy Spirit put something on my heart to write. God sometimes uses our own experience to inspire others. Maybe someone needs to hear this message:

As I have said before within the past which still holds true for me today.

There is so much for me to be grateful and thankful for. I am very blessed.

I thank God for waking me up in the morning until the day he finally calls me home to be united with him, and to be reunited with certain loved ones who I know made it there on the celestial plane to rejoice with him.

I am thankful for my good health, peace of mind, spirituality, confidence, strength, and jobs that allow me to provide and to take care of myself. I do not have to depend on anyone. I am also grateful and thankful for all the other blessings granted to me by God.

I am one who has always been able to handle anything that came my way in life.

No matter what type of adversity I was always able to endure.

I was always able to deal with whatever it was that I had to walk through with faith. I did not have to rely on anybody.

I was never the type to run to anyone for help, or to be needy.

God had constantly given me everything that I needed to survive in this world.

Even when I have had to experience really tough, challenging times he was always there to see me through.

Satan himself might bring trouble into our lives, he especially likes to work through people, however, I am one able to stand against the schemes of the evil one.

As children of God, he has given us everything that we require to be victorious. God wants us to prevail.

If some may not feel that they have what it takes to overcome or to defeat one has to Go by what God says and not by what their shifting emotions tell them.

The Lord delivers us and he empowers us.

We believe as we enjoy our happy times therefore, we must believe when we go through our difficult times.

We are here to live for God not for this negative world around us and he has our backs time and time again.

Do not lose faith and do not lose heart. If there are times that one feels hopeless or alone do not be discouraged.

If one grows tired, or weary, do not be discouraged.

The Lord is always with us. He is always there within and beside us cheering us on.

God will absolutely protect us from anything directed toward us from the devil.

God prepares and equips his children to stand against the storms, tactics, and temptations of the evil one.

So, remain strong, and remain assured within oneself as well as holding on to that confidence in God.

Enjoy peace, comfort, love, and happiness given to us by the Lord. His power is within us all. All who belong to him. And, as children of our God we are ultimately powerful!

Remember all of the Lord’s promises and his day to day providence within our lives.

 

 

Our Needs Will Always Be Met

I do not take anything for granted. I am always thankful and grateful within the ways that I am blessed.

All throughout my life I have noticed how God has taken very good cared of me. He has been constant and extremely consistent.

I look at some people who are unfortunate in their situations, life is uncertain and we never know what predicament may come upon us. It is rational to wonder and to think ahead, especially with so many unpredictable things that often take place. However, we are not to worry, and we are not to compare ourselves to others using their circumstance as a maybe of what can happen to us- even though things do sometimes happen.

Yet, many things that seem tragic do not necessarily promote a negative outcome. When a door closes a window opens and sometimes it is just time to move on to a higher path upon our journey. The Lord does bring good out of the bad events that occur within our lives.

Things come along to refine us, enhance our growth, and to makes us even stronger to accomplish what we are put here to do on earth until we return to our final eternal home.

We are to always put our hope and faith in God.

My inner-voice of spirit speaks to me whenever in doubt, or within concern about something. It lets me know that everything is going to be okay. From experience I have no choice but to accept this truth and to keep moving forward. There is no other option.

The Lord fulfills on his promises to never leave, abandon, or fail to provide.

I have a strong relationship with God, one with a long history of incredible things received beyond expectation.

With the Lord there within me, beside me, and everywhere around me I am safe and secure knowing that my future and more is already being worked out for my preparation and advancement into a greater intention.

I have a happiness when there should be sadness. I have peace and relaxation when there should be worry or anxiety. I have entertainment and enjoyment when I should have boredom and disgust.

Why? Because I am supposed to as a human creature who is in this world but definitely not of it!

I learned years ago from my encounters that a strong faith sees the invisible, believes the impossible, and receives the incredible.

Life can be hard and discouraging at times and within moments, nevertheless we have the comforter who holds all things together then motivates us into action so that we can keep running this race with endurance.

 

 

Using Our Special Talents, Gifts And Faculties

As one genuinely born with second-sight, the inherited gift of extrasensory perception, I am far from a dummy and I have never been anyone’s fool.

One of my strongest gifts from the Lord is sensing things about people in areas that others cannot sense or pick up right away.

I know who to trust and who not to trust, I am an authentic, truthful person, one who is not given to tell lies. I do not appreciate liars, I never have, and I do not entertain such behavior.

The “knowing power”, of wisdom, knowledge, and discernment along with other special spiritual ability, is a gift and blessing bestowed upon me from the Lord to carry out, and to fulfill my purpose for the wonderful plan he always had set before me.

No one can stop the arrangement of God he has the final word in all things.

I fear nothing and no one, the Lord is my protection and shield, he has proven this to me all throughout my life, regardless of the times in the past when I was angry at him for personal reasons of my own.

When people unjustifiably come after me, attempt to do me wrong, tell lies or whatever, God takes care of them every time, so I do not have to fret. God does not let people get away with trying to hinder or harm his children. I leave everything within his mighty hands.

I have never considered myself a failure and I am not, and never will be. None of us who are called by the Lord are. We are conquerors here to partake in our mission whatever that may be, we are not defined by the world’s standard or view of what prosperity and success is.

So to all who walk in the light of the spirit, keep moving forward, God is in control.

Whatever the Lord/Holy Spirit puts in your heart to do carry it out delightfully without hesitation. God is right there beside us all the way. Just believe, pray, listen, and let the Lord continue to lead.

Sincerely, Miss LaToya

A Long Time Ago

I remember the classic telephones during my youth, the push button as well as the rotary. I also recall how we had to dial zero to speak with an operator or to call the police.

Television was also different back then. Broadcast station networks did not stay on all night long, twenty-four hours a day. After midnight or one a.m. I think it was, the channels would play the star-spangled banner right before they went off the air until the start of the day.

Walkman’s were a popular item in the 1980’s. We played our favorite cassette tapes in them and walked around conveniently listening to our favorite tunes. We played our albums on record players.

The bus only costed sixty-five cents to ride then the fare went up to seventy-five. We only had to pay two dollars to see a movie at the theater, sometimes they’d even show double-flicks for that price.

 

Down Memory Lane

I remember a few years ago my mother and I looked at quite a few old family photos and after we went through them all we both enjoyed the time spent doing so.

The photos inspired us to reminisce and discuss moments of past events with laughter, further input, and togetherness.

While we as people don’t have to dwell into the past it is nice to periodically take a walk down memory lane to appreciate the fun, wonderful, meaningful, and life-teaching experiences and encounters that helped to shape and carry us to our present.

Even some of the bad things we may have endured is a testimony to what we were able to overcome, rise above, and triumph from.

We can look back and be thankful for the times we have shared with others and the benefits that was brought into our lives. The beauty of it all allows us to look ahead at what was left behind then take forward everything preciously gathered.

Looking Back

I remember the department stores of my youth such as May’s and Alexander’s. These were great places to shop to pick up anything one needed and great places to get all back-to-school items for the start of each new term.

I use to love Woolworth’s. It was one of the best five & dime stores on our planet. There was one in Manhattan, New York located on Broadway and Amsterdam avenue during the 1980’s.

My mother and I would walk up there from my great-grandmother’s brownstone apartment. They sold the teddy bear hamsters my great-grandmother once purchased for me and the paper dolls my mother and her often bought for me along with other convenient, useful and desirable products.

Those were great memories to look back on and cherish.

A Change Of Heart

I have heard stories of how Jesus transformed prostitutes, drug addicts, murderers, and so on. I have never been any of those things, but for the Lord to actually impact the lives of specific individuals who once lived within the grips of that type of lifestyle is truly inspiring and phenomenal.

I can testify to how God transformed my heart from hatred toward him to amicable. I believe aside for his great purpose for me the Lord also wants to use me as an example and inspiration to others.

If he could rededicate a believer of him since childhood who turned away from him in animosity during adulthood that is a story worth telling within itself- no matter how minor it may seem.

Returning back to the arms of God, surrendering completely to his plan, and having a hunger for reading the word and connecting deeper to his spirit is hardly anything insignificant to the Lord.

The event is a cause for celebration in the heavens. There is nothing more important on earth than having an intimate partnership with God.

True To The Heart

When I write sometimes I do not know where it will completely lead to. What I write practically writes itself. This is how it has mainly been as one being led by the spirit. I just let it go and let the spirit get out whatever message it wants to speak in those certain moments. Well, here goes:

I remember a few years ago some girl by the name of Melissa left me a comment. She had the nerve to think or believe that she was actually schooling me about God based on her preconceived notions of what she ignorantly gathered from reading an article that I wrote.

One cannot know a person’s life or entire life story just by reading a few detailed posts from a blog. My mother was solid in her Christian/Baptist faith she attended church regularly as a child, had gotten me christened/anointed/blessed at four months in a catholic church, and introduced me to God at a very early age.

I had always believed in the Lord, was gifted with second-sight, and was led to him and by him. God’s favor was on me since the beginning of my journey here on earth as a little infant. My mother and I shared countless instance of the Lord’s providence.

During my teenage years up into my early adulthood I had a very strong relationship with God and was in communication with him consistently through prayer and would constantly reap his generosity.

I was no stranger to the Lord, and he was not someone who was a stranger to me. Due to my aversion toward negative situations and circumstances brought on by undesirables (jealous/envious/miserable people) and the certain inevitable trials of life, in general, I was fed up and tired and very resentful at God for what I had to go through from childhood on up.

It happens. Nonetheless, the Lord called me back to him after my distancing myself from him for so long even though he never distanced himself from me.

The whole time God was still there taking really great care of me. I was furious at the Lord for various reasons, yet he did not punish me. Instead, he showed me compassion, mercy, and grace. He also extended an invitation to rekindle our fellowship so that I could get to know him more genuinely and intimately within a way that I never knew or understood him beforehand.

I accepted Jesus Christ between the age of ten, eleven, or twelve. It was so long ago I don’t remember exactly but it was before I entered into my teen years.

My great-grandmother criticized me over the telephone when I was about fifteen telling me that I wasn’t normal because I wasn’t doing and acting the way other teenagers were at the time.

According to her, I should have been hanging out, partying, having sex, and whatever else she hoped since she had gotten pregnant at fourteen, would get drunk and possibly do drugs as well as associate with the wrong type of people who used and abused her.

Any other great-grandmother who was truly a Christian at heart would have been proud and recognized that it was God’s holy spirit within me claiming me as one of his very own children.

I was never of this world.

I did not judge my great-grandmother or care about what she did in life. All of her regrets and downfalls she took out on certain members of the family out of jealousy. She and my eldest aunt tried their best to destroy my mother and I years ago. My mother and I were not like the rest of the immediate family. We were unique and spiritually inclined.

Insight was a gift that ran in the family but my mother and I were different than them in character and personality, we were cut from different cloths (not of the same nature).

God knows us all. It does not matter what other people think or what other people say. God is the true judge, soul-seeker, and examiner of the heart and our intentions. None of us have to explain ourselves to anyone and we are not to be a pleaser to those who do not understand or accept us. We are to be pleasers and expressers of God.

For the Lord knows us better than we know ourselves and only he can reach us in the places where he is able to search and find us.

I Just Love It!

 

It is after one in the afternoon as I write this and the snow has not yet stopped. It has been coming down continuously all morning long.

Anyhow, last Monday or Tuesday night, I caught the classic 1946 flick “The Postman Always Rings Twice” starring Lana Turner and John Garfield on the Turner Classic Movie Network.

I loved this film. I remembered hearing about it from my youth but I do not recall ever seeing it before. It was probably one I either I totally forgot or never paid any attention to back then. I had intended to view the movie at a more previous time but did not get around to it because I was preoccupied.

I loved Lana Turner in the 1966 flick Madame X which also starred John Forsythe, Constance Bennett, and Ricardo Montalban. This wonderful, sad, and touching film had genuinely brought tears to my eyes. My mother and I had watched the heartbreaking drama years ago.

I am an old soul who still loves her a great classic every now and then whether it is an old series, film, or whatever. Many of these programs, shows, and flicks are far from corny, well-made, are relevant, and have interesting storyline. It also takes us back to memorable times of enjoyment and nostalgia.

 

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Looking Into View

The snow that fell yesterday did not last for very long and the flakes did not stick. It is still cold and cloudy as for today.

Yesterday, a little after 4PM, I watched the Alfred Hitchcock flick “Rearview Window” cast with James Stewart, Grace Kelly, Thelma Ritter, Wendell Corey and Raymond Burr. This classic was entertaining. I enjoy old-time crafty, tasteful suspense.

A lot of film these days are filled with garbage, poorly made having no real depth. It is nice to innocently and adventurously escape into the creativity of well scripted cinema designed in fashionable settings that fit into an engaging interest. The contribution is a great enhancement for the audience that it suits.

As I look into the rearview window of my life, the nostalgic mirror of time reflects a host of good memories past events that will never be replaced but fondly remembered.

I never considered the world my home. I am just a sojourner passing through until I fulfill my purpose. Nevertheless, while here, I am consistently blessed with divine essence which imparts to me moments of ease and pleasure to comfort upon my journey.

Looking back, I have no detrimental life regrets I am filled with peace. Moving forward, I take the love inside that was built and nurtured within me from an infant into the path that will lead unto infinity.

 

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Bible Study

 

I always loved and enjoyed bible study. I like it even more now than I did years ago. There is a purity and serenity that comes along from reading and engaging in the scriptures. When I read my bible and devotionals, I feel a genuine spiritual connection.

God’s word is food for the soul, true life sustaining nourishment that incites me to hunger for more.

When I get into the passages, delving into the lives of specific characters they strike me not as strangers but more like family members. Though I never knew any of them on a personal level the affection, endearment and relation are there.

The bible is so relevant today just as it was back then many years ago.

I get wrapped into my reading sometimes for three or five hours straight when I have the time. However, there is not a day that goes by that I miss reading a piece of scripture or my devotionals.

I am into the word every day whether I spends hours or just a half an hour.

I also have discipleship and one on one bible study with my pastor once a week in addition and it is just never too much of spending time with the lord.

A God Who Answers Our Prayers

And we will receive from him whatever we ask because we obey him and do the things that please him. -1 John 3:22

I was the target of other people’s witchcraft from a very early age.

As I always had a strong mind there were things my envious and jealous adversaries just couldn’t get me to falsely accept, such as the negative and deceitful thoughts they attempted to place inside my head.

During my teenage years, when trying to manipulate my mind didn’t produce their desired results, they’d try to manipulate my emotions.

One day I just had gotten completely tired as the feelings my adversaries were transmitting through Satanic measures were overwhelmingly annoying. So, I called out to Jesus and expressed my vexation. The Lord responded to me by taking away those demonic influenced interruptions and those particular manipulative feelings never came back again.

I noticed in my early adulthood that God was granting me most of the things I asked him for. The things I didn’t receive, I didn’t need because he only gives us what is best for us.

I also noticed that nothing was too small for God in my requests. Things I may have wanted since childhood he gave to me during my latter years he sets his own perfect time to provide certain things for our benefit.

The Lord gave me things to help me and to make life a little bit more comfortable, expressing his goodness in a fallen world.

I was very strong in prayer and when I look back on how God never ceased at answering me, I realize that I must have developed a close and solid relationship with him. I use to talk to him all of the time.

All of us in Christ need to get into the habit of regularly and continuously talking to God. Not just for things that we may desire but for our vital need for him in our lives.

Talk to him about everything. Share all thoughts (even though God already knows everything about us and what is happening in our lives), concerns and activities. Ask for his direction and help in all things, and never forget to acknowledge how thankful you are for all that he does and continues to do.

In everything we reference to the Lord let it come from sincerity. If you have any doubts and/or fears let him know specifically. Be upfront and ask for his help.


You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. -John 14:13

Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. -Matthew 7:7

 

Idol Worship And New Age

I am the Alpha and the Omega—the beginning and the end,” says the Lord God. “I am the one who is, who always was, and who is still to come—the Almighty One.” Revelation 1:8

so all the world from east to west will know there is no other God. I am the LORD, and there is no other. -Isaiah 45:6

As a young child I was aware of the bible’s warnings to not consult with psychics, to not engage in astrology, to not venerate any false deity, and the like.

Growing up, I didn’t see the harm within reading books on horoscopes or identifying myself with my zodiac sign, however, there was a time when I stopped in respect to what God acknowledged through the bible and out of gratitude/consideration for how he watched out for me and protected me.

There was also a time when I wouldn’t have dared to visit a fortune-teller.

What made me give these forbidden things a second thought was the fact that I had the gift of second-sight. The insight that I had had kept me ahead (knowing things I wasn’t taught), aware (discerning/sensing things about people and things that other people couldn’t sense), able to grasp (keenly perceptive), and in tune (connected to the spirit realm).

From the age of between three or five is the earliest I remember seeing visions in my mind’s eye just before they would come true. I was very advanced and my mother always told me that there was something special about me.

My mother never encouraged any kind of mystical or new age behavior she wasn’t into those type of things. It was I who had took an interest later on in life as I was very spiritually inclined.

I had met a few readers who did prove to be accurate and helpful so I wondered if all of these faculties were actually all devil-derived. I myself wasn’t satanic or naturally inspired to indulge within satanic practices. Some people have special talents/gifts that they use ethically or unethically through misguidance or through ill-intentions.

To make a long story short, there is a difference between divination and prophetic ability. One comes from the devil and the other comes from God.

The scriptures say that we must test the spirit.

I never worshipped any image as there is, of course, no life within a created item. Though I’ve used a few statues as a representation of what I came to believe as positive energy forces working in my life when I believed God was against me and I was angry at him.

By God’s utter grace and mercy, no harm ever came to me in my quest for peace and protection through means other than him. I am not making any excuse because in no way is disobedience acceptable to God, but he knows our hearts and maybe he spared me because I wasn’t doing anything out of deliberate spite and I wasn’t trying to intentionally harm anyone.

Maybe God took into consideration all I had been through as a child on up and took a gentler, compassionate approach at correcting me-I don’t know. I just know the Lord has been so forgiving and generous with his love and patience.

He gave me the opportunity to seek him again even when I hadn’t planned to return. God knows how to get our attention even if it takes a tragic situation to make us wake up and listen.

For God to love us that much is truly amazing. He could have just let me be and left me to my own solution but no real father abandons his child and leaves them to fend for themself blindly.

A true parent will ferociously run after their beloved offspring and wrestle them from any attacker’s trap/grip ardently.

I repented and turned away from such things and purely use whatever gifts the Lord gave to me for his glory. Yes, I do have spiritual gifts, however, the gifts are the abilities that God enables through me and not of myself even though I may have been born with them.

All things come through the Lord who gets all the credit. We can do nothing and are absolutely nothing without him. We are just fortunate vessels who humbly serve him.

I advise anyone into the New Age culture to immediately cease from that lifestyle and completely turn and depend on God for everything.

New Age involves and consists of Reiki Healing, Healing with Crystals, Occult Practices, Astrology Charts, Sorcery, Channeling and Invoking Spirits/Energy (which are actually just the usual demons of Satan), worshipping false deities and etc….

Special Note: Idolatry is not just about or referring to principalities and beliefs in other systems. Anything, or anyone, can turn into an idol if we set the value for that thing or person higher than our value for God. As it happens, good things can turn into idols when we consider them the utmost things in our lives. An idol is when something or someone becomes more significant to us than God.

God/Jesus is the only path that directs us to genuine knowledge and fulfillment. He is the entire truth, light and way. God/Jesus is love and life. Anything else is deceit and death.


Dear children, keep away from anything that might take God’s place in your hearts. -1 John 5:21

So put to death the sinful, earthly things lurking within you. Have nothing to do with sexual immorality, impurity, lust, and evil desires. Don’t be greedy, for a greedy person is an idolater, worshiping the things of this world. -Colossians 3:5

My Roots

Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it. -Proverbs 22:6 

I was definitely raised in a household and among certain family members who included God as first and foremost or as a great source of their belief and foundation.

Yes, my mother grew up in the church. She introduced me to God and I always believed in his sovereignty.

I was well aware that Jesus came into the world to save our souls from the consequences of sin, sacrificed himself on the cross, was buried in a tomb and rose back to life on the third day after his physical death.

My life in the beginning was rooted in God and I was led to him at an early age with the desire to know and adhere to him.

Along down the line I had gotten angry with God through my misunderstanding and misinterpretation of him and I no longer wanted to associate myself with him.

Nevertheless, the Lord didn’t give up on me and he never left my side, steady walking beside me when I thought I had walked away.

God didn’t let me out of his grasp as I was holding on to the belief I found in what I considered a kinder, loving and faithful source of “love and light”.

God was that true love and light the entire time, yet he had to get me away from venerating the false idea of what was superior to him in character and to the legitimate origin of my providence.

I never considered anything totally above The Lord in heaven (I never denied he was the creator of all things), but I believed the alternative I had come to know was more powerful as far as having my best interest and welfare.

I am so glad God didn’t let me stay in the deception of the enemy (Satan) through my anger and disappointment in him due to my false perceptions and what I had to go through in life (unwanted tribulations and trauma).

Not trusting God comes from not knowing who he truly is. I believed the lies of the devil in regard to the Lord being evil and sick- yet I wasn’t on the side of the devil either.

Nevertheless, having me doubt God’s good character was the only way that Satan could try to encourage me to reject God.

I know for sure Jesus words are true,I give them eternal life, and they will never perish. No one can snatch them away from me“. -John 10:28

I am so grateful to the Lord for lovingly guiding me back to the truth within him and showing me that he is my one and only source of everything.

My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish. No one can snatch them away from me, for my Father has given them to me, and he is more powerful than anyone else. No one can snatch them from the Father’s hand. The Father and I are one.” -John 10:27-30

 


And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. -Roman’s 8:38-39

 

An Honor: The Holy Spirit

I remember as a child reading through the scriptures (the bible) and coming across 1 Corinthians 6:19 where it says, Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself.

I was looking through my “New King James” version and “Living” bible text at the time which were worded different but conveying the same message.

The verses in the passage had significance to me as I was trying to come into understanding God’s word.

I didn’t comprehend the total depth of the Holy Spirit dwelling within us who are the children of God as I do now. However, I did take the matter seriously and wanted to respect the fact by keeping myself pure through him.

In my adulthood, and where I am at today, having experienced God’s Holy Spirit for years without even realizing the work and glory that it was producing in me, I can honestly say that it is a privilege indeed.

To have God actually living inside of us is sacred. It is an honor. We are one with our Lord as he is in us, and we are in him.

It is one of the most beautiful expressions of his love, promises and faithfulness.

Having God literally reside within our spirit should urge us even more to rejoice in our surrender to his comfort, guidance and authority.

We are truly blessed by grace to be intimately united with God and to have a close, personal relationship with him through Jesus Christ who bridged the gap of separation between us and our heavenly father.

Amazing Love

Everyone has their own genuine experience of true love or lack thereof.

The love I received began in the womb.

My mother loved me while she carried me within her belly, and adored me completely once I was born.

As a very young child I remember the deep, intense unconditional love I felt for my mother also.

Even though it was evident and always within her actions my mother expressed to me that she loved me “madly”.

My mother gave me nothing but pure honest love all throughout my life and everyone around us knew and could see how much affection she had for me.

Love made me secure and confident. I didn’t need to go out to look for love, assurance, or acceptance from others or the outside world. My validation and self-worth came from within. I was nurtured by love in the home (my mother and family presence) and love in the spirit (God’s grace, guidance and protection).

The love I have and feel for my mother is dear and endless.

I don’t use the word love lightly because it has to genuinely come from a place of truth for me.

I never loved anything in this world the way I love my mother and dog Brandie.

In fact, they are the only two beings I truly ever loved wholeheartedly. And they carried the same utter endearment toward me. So, I indeed know what real love is and what it feels like.

Love is wonderful and beautiful. It is the best thing in life.

Our father in heaven is described to love us even more than our own parents do. He is said to love the ones who we love far more than we could ever fathom, or love them.

Isn’t this reality astounding?

I could never imagine anyone loving me above the unlimited measurement of my mother. Yet God does!

What an amazing love the Lord, our father in heaven, has for his children and all creation.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Unwed

I knew ever since childhood that I would never grow up to get married. The desire was never within my heart.

I didn’t even want to have a boyfriend. I still don’t, and I never will.

I don’t believe that marriage and intimate sexual relationship is for everybody.

I do believe as I always have that there are men who don’t have sex until they are married and men who don’t- and have never cheated on their wives.

Some may believe that is a naive view to hold, but in reality, it is not. The majority of men may not fit into this category, though, there are far too many men in the world for them all to be sexually promiscuous and cheaters.

People seek out marriage for many different reasons depending on culture and personal values. I just never saw a purpose for the undertaking in my life.

I never felt the need for a man to make me happy. I never believed happiness came from a man. I always found happiness from within my spirit. I never felt the need for a man to complete me (which I don’t understand the void in certain women who do feel this way.) I naturally felt whole and complete within myself as an individual.

I’ve never even understood the concept of falling in love with a man. I’ve fell in love with a puppy before, but never a man. I don’t have those feelings or sexual desires and I am perfectly happy that way.

When I read in the bible as a youngster of Paul’s statements in regard to it being “better not to marry” in 1 Corinthians 7:40 I could identify with his words and considered it a gift indeed to not have any sexual or romantic need.

In a world where I was considered not normal for not wanting to get married or to have sex, I was proud and unbothered.

Yes, each of you should remain as you were when God called you.

God paid a high price for you, so don’t be enslaved by the world. Each of you, dear brothers and sisters, should remain as you were when God first called you.

Now regarding your question about the young women who are not yet married. I do not have a command from the Lord for them. But the Lord in his mercy has given me wisdom that can be trusted, and I will share it with you. Because of the present crisis, I think it is best to remain as you are.

I want you to be free from the concerns of this life. An unmarried man can spend his time doing the Lord’s work and thinking how to please him. But a married man has to think about his earthly responsibilities and how to please his wife. His interests are divided. In the same way, a woman who is no longer married or has never been married can be devoted to the Lord and holy in body and in spirit. But a married woman has to think about her earthly responsibilities and how to please her husband. I am saying this for your benefit, not to place restrictions on you. I want you to do whatever will help you serve the Lord best, with as few distractions as possible.

But in my opinion it would be better for her to stay single, and I think I am giving you counsel from God’s Spirit when I say this. -1 Corinthians 7:20-40

Yes, and also as a woman, and a human being, I am so glad that not having a desire for marriage is not a sin. If I was interested, I would have had a very hard time obeying any man and having him as head over me within my personal life. I was never the subservient type and too independent.

I enjoy the single life where I am just fully committed and aligned with being fully obedient to God. –latoya lawrence

Babies

He does not punish us for all our sins; he does not deal harshly with us, as we deserve. For his unfailing love toward those who fear him is as great as the height of the heavens above the earth. He has removed our sins as far from us as the east is from the west. The LORD is like a father to his children, tender and compassionate to those who fear him. For he knows how weak we are; he remembers we are only dust. -Psalms 103:10-14


A baby is a blessing whether born inside or outside of wedlock and psalms 139:13-16 pertains to children conceived under both circumstances.

I played with dolls as a child with no desire to have a baby when I had gotten older.

Then, for a period of time in early adulthood, I considered having one.

The only problem was I wanted a baby/child without having a husband.

I didn’t want to get married. I wanted to be a single mother. I wanted to have a daughter of my own just like I cherished the close and loving relationship shared between my mother and I in a single parent home raised with the rest of our family.

I didn’t have the money needed for invitro fertilization at a sperm bank and I didn’t want any continuous sexual relationship or commitment.

I had been acknowledging during my teenage years to those who inquired why I didn’t have a boyfriend or didn’t want a husband that, “The only reason I would ever have sex is to conceive a child”.

I was a virgin and content. Even within a marriage I didn’t want to be sexually intimate. I knew I was asexual and there is no sin in asexuality.

I had no intention to have sex unless it was to make a baby and I sincerely wished as a woman I didn’t have to have intercourse in order to have a baby.

Now, we all know there is sin according to God when it comes to premarital sex. I thought it was unfair to have to be with a man to get pregnant.

A lot of people thought my feelings and thoughts were strange, many had never heard of young ladies speaking in that fashion. The majority of girls were interested in guys and sex. My statement was not common I was even told that I was rare.

As I look back, I am so grateful to God that it never happened and I didn’t bring a child into the world. I really didn’t need one, it was just a passing fancy.

The circumstance went against his plan anyhow as I wanted to do things my way with having a child out of wedlock. I absolutely refused the idea of marriage.

I wouldn’t had truly wanted any precious baby of mine being born into this evil and cruel, sick world.

But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness. -1 John 1:9

Excellent Classic Cinema

Two of my favorite childhood movies of all time based on scripture are The Ten Commandments with Charlton Heston and Jesus Of Nazareth with Robert Powell.

Whenever I read my bible or think of Moses Charlton Heston and the 1956 film automatically comes to mind. I actually see Charlton as Moses he played the role so well.

The Ten Commandments was a beautifully and wonderfully made depiction of the book of Exodus.

Every year on ABC from my childhood on up the television station would air the three-hour movie for the Easter holiday and I would eagerly and joyfully watch it every year. I remember during one of my teenage years it had come on at midnight and my eyes were glued to the screen as I was snuggled comfortably in my bed with the lights out.

It’s best to view the Ten Commandments uncut in its entirety. Back when I was growing up in the 1980’s we had VCRS (video cassette recorders) where we rented or purchased VHS or Beta tapes for movie watching. These days we have DVD’S and DVD players.

Jesus of Nazareth was another outstanding and beautifully created film that I first originally seen when I was about nine or ten. It was released in 1976 or 1977, however I didn’t get to see it until the 80’s. I was glued to my television set back when the mini-series aired too, I couldn’t stop talking about it afterwards.

In my opinion these two movies based on biblical history are the ultimate best ever made, and they will always be my favorites. They both hold a special place in my heart.

The Ten Commandments and Jesus Of Nazareth had major impact and they were cast so excellently with the perfect actors and actresses.

 

Thankful

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. –Thessalonians 5:16-18

Thanksgiving day arrives next week, though, to me every day is a day to be thankful just as everday is a day for mothers other than just the one day each year celebration of Mother’s day. I just can’t express it enough as that was always my view on those special occasions.

I’m thankful for just the little things which are really big things because they are the most important. I’m thankful, and we should all be thankful to God for waking us up in the morning, for having a roof over our head, for having food to eat, for having our loved ones and kind friends or associates share in our lives.

These are all the things that count and matter. There are a lot of people in the world who don’t have these precious things.

Without God there to give us guidance and to watch over our daily lives we don’t have anything. We need him first and foremost everything we have is owed to God and his generosity.

“Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing. -John 15:5

There is so much to be thankful for and nothing is too small.

I thank God for the wonderful mother he gave to me from birth and the dog he gave to me throughout my childhood, how I love them so. Love never dies and it is God’s love that sustains us.

And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. -John 4:16

 

The Serenity Prayer

My mother taught me the Bedtime prayer and Serenity prayer when I was a little girl. Neither one of the prayers are in the bible (biblical), however, they have truths derived and that can be applied from a scriptural nature.

The Serenity prayer was hung up above her bed professionally written on a large canvas print material designed with a drawing of  praying hands during the late seventies and/or early eighties.  

A lot of the times the things that cannot be changed are the things that we may have wished could be changed the most. I know I did as I grew up, yet unfortunately we just had and have to accept the way things are and the way some things were created. 


Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray to the lord my soul to keep. If I die before I awake, I pray to the Lord for my soul to take.

 

 Jesus is the way the truth and the life. No one comes to the father, of course, except through him.

Salvation (Eternal Security)

Walking With Jesus

In my late teens, while I was having a weekly bible study, I had mentioned to my group members the trouble I was undergoing in my neighborhood with fellow teens and adults who were jealous of me for not doing and not having done the things that they were doing. I lived a totally different lifestyle than what they all did.

One lady from my bible study specifically pointed to a particular verse of scripture and then spoke it out loud to me. It read: They are puzzled that you do not continue running with them in the same decadent course of debauchery, so they speak abusively of you. 1 Peter 4:4

Although I had never indulged within the same behaviors as certain neighborhood folk, I had cut loose those who I had grown up with and refused to be bothered with others who were not of good character…

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Eyes Of The Soul: Sweet Reward

Many people hate or have hated god for personal reasons of their own even if they won’t admit to it.

As a true spiritual person who was definitely born with the caul, and the family lineage to back up naturally inherent occult power, I speak from experience.

When I was a young girl, even though I had a lot of advantages, fortunate luck, and blessings, I never felt that God was truly good or any sincere positive energy from him.

I have extremely intense empathic faculties, and I am usually on point. So God is not perfect and good within my definition of what a good and perfect god really is, or should be.

When I went through hard times as a youngster on up I’d often see an extremely shiny twinkle in the sign of a cross appear before me, acknowledging to me “I’m here, I’m with you, everything is going to be alright”.

Everything did turn out alright, however, what was the purpose of going through the nonsense of whatever would be the trial within the first place? All these tribulations did was cause me to resent God even more than I already had.

I was already disgusted in the way he designed certain things within creation. Then, to include me as one of the beings to inhabit a life here on this Earth filled with sick people and morbid principalities in which I have no tolerance or patience for, was a complete insult.

If I could have used my gifts to rid the world that I did not ask to come into from all of the things that turned me off I would have done it immediately. If I was able to have gotten off the Earth and into a special place where what’s going on here wasn’t permitted, and/or where certain people and things didn’t exist, the circumstance would have been even better.

Years ago, when I gave god the benefit of the doubt in regard to my perceptions of him, I was always disappointed by him and my outcomes. When I constantly put myself first is when I noticed I was the happiest and more fulfilled.

If I truly don’t like or don’t want something within my life then it is not going to work out; it has always been this way with me. I have to do it my way. I am too strong and self-willed.

I wholeheartedly love myself, my mind-the way I think, and the way I am.

Having extrasensory perception/second-sight enabled me to experience life within many extraordinary modes that I have learned and discovered quite a lot from.

Later on, when I fully became aware of my ancestors and orishas presence around me things opened up further and brought to me a clearer understanding of who really had my best interest in spirit.

God is often called a god of love, he is nothing but a disgrace to me. If God is supposed to be the true definition of love, perfection, fairness or truth I don’t want any of the perversion around me.

The devil, is often blamed for the negative effects initiated by so called inborn sin and the inequities of the world. Yet, who allows the devil to reign upon the physical/material plane? Why wasn’t he stopped at the beginning?

The devil and god are one and the same to me.

Oh so many answers and hidden truths that have been revealed to me that I’d never openly share or discuss! I just had to speak my mind.

I definitely know what love, fairness, and truth is and no god of perfection would operate within the manner in which he does.

The energy influence of god years ago was suffocating, manipulative, and unnatural.

Spiritually, I breathe free now, unbound by blockage, and I continue to flourish through the natural beauty of my surrounding essence.

 

Health And Wellness

I ate shrimp and rice for dinner the night before last. Afterwards, I drunk one or two full cups of ice-cold apple juice.

When I cook that particular meal it always comes out delicious and filling. I’ve bought and fixed shrimp quite a few times lately. It had been a while since I’ve eaten shrimp.

I don’t have a problem finding the product on the shelf. They are a little expensive compared to the other items of seafood stocked in the local supermarket, and certain people aren’t too eager to purchase these particular quality of shrimps on account of the price, even though they are worth the money.

As I sit here in my living room I decide what to prepare for dinner tonight and at the same time I have a memory enter into my mind.

The thought reflected on one of the wealthy clients I worked with for a few months a few years ago. She was a retired business attorney who practiced law for nearly 20 years at Home Box Office, specializing in satellite transactions and international partnerships with movie studios and cable companies to bring HBO abroad.

Anyway, one day we took a cab from her million-dollar rented apartment that she came to eventually own, situated in Manhattan, NY to her hair-salon that was located on the second floor of a fancy building.

While I waited for my client to get her hair colored, washed, blow-dried, and styled I killed time by going down to one of the first floor restaurants to order me some food to take back to her apartment.

I was staying at her home for nearly the entire week straight-working a double and extended day shift. Usually I’d do four days a week overnight with her, but her day caregiver was temporarily off schedule, and I covered her shifts as well as mine.

There inside the restaurant I ordered shrimp with french fries, a side of vegetables, two packages of mixed fruit, and a vegan smoothie.

I placed my order for take out; the order summed up to a little over fifty dollars.

I saved all of my food to eat later that night except for the smoothie, and one of the packages of fruit.

I sat at one of the restaurant tables and ate my delicious fruit while I sipped on my green-colored smoothie that was made purely of vegetables, fruit, and spices.

Aside from having juiced raw fruit and vegetables in my juicer years ago, I had never tasted one of these modern-day smoothies that are usually made with dairy yogurt or whatever else.

I was surprised at how very good the smoothie that I had tasted, considering the combination of the raw vegetables mixed in together. I can’t remember the entire ingredient list but the beverage did contain spinach, carrots, apples, celery and a few other nutritious edibles along with lemon and spice.

 

Intuitive Faculties

Born With Second-Sight And A Connection To The Spirit World

In regard to the authentic, distinct, and rare born of the caul/veil: 

For all of my life I’ve “known things” without anyone having to tell me. It is a gift that many have never deciphered except those who are aware of these special talents among the particular. 

Certain individuals just don’t understand how I and others who are gifted with the abilities of second-sight are able to see into the past, present, and future through instant visions and cognizance. 

They know that we are legitimate they merely don’t assimilate how our faculty works. 

When people lie to us or try to hide things from us, we still know the truth. We more than likely know what they will say or do, and the outcome of things before they even know themselves. 

Individuals often get angry at us for knowing what they want concealed. 

We in particular have these gifts because we are special. We are children of the light who have inherited the power through the lineage of our great ancestors. We are one with nature, extended forces of the universe-descendants from the other realm/worldly. 

The instance is heavy and we ourselves are deep individual beings with grave purpose. 

As certain others are very unfamiliar with our valid insight, knowledge, perception, consciousness and realizations in which they may not be apt to grasp or destined to identify with, we often become the object of attack and condemnation among those who are “celestially uninformed”. 

Nevertheless, our status is well-known within the spirit world, therefore, we have the ultimate protection, guidance, and direction. We don’t need or depend on the acceptance or approval of the blind, their attitude/frame of mind is of no significance to the highly spiritually developed. Neither are their actions of any bearing. 

I’m proud to not be ordinary!  It is a genuine compliment to be called crazy or weird by the ignorant or lower class if said by any of them.

We are an inspiration to the intelligent and to the awoke, or  to those who are on the same “wavelength”.  Even so, we are able to stand alone-not cheered or regarded by anyone. Our mere existence hold’s its own, we are self-secure/self validated!

 

 

 

 

The “Knowing” Power

The spiritual life is the best life, the only life I know.

Advantages Of The Caul

Someone asked me when I was in my early twenties what it felt like to have been born with a caul.

What was there to explain, really? It felt like me.

100% pure celestial energy; my natural intangible, ethereal propensity.

What came as ordinary to me was out of the ordinary to certain others.

I believe that oftentimes those us who are genuinely endowed with preternatural capacity are greatly underestimated and misunderstood, and many do not realize just how intuitive and “in touch”/in tune with the universe we actually are. Our extra sensory faculties go beyond the scope of particular reasoning.

As many are unaware of just how deeply we can see, hear, and feel into them, their lives, or within the world some take more of a notice of the circumstances in which happen around us ourselves.

They recognize our special blessings; the luck we may have-how things go well for us in ways that don’t normally work out for them, or within the odds; the basis of our unfathomable spans of preservation and unwavering elevation.

They witness these things about us; however, they do not understand why or how we are unaffected and maintained within these fashions.

The special knowledge and “knowing power” that we weren’t taught, but endowed with, allows us to be cognizant/conscious of these facts through the energy that we uncannily pick up from the vibration that exudes toward us.

We may feel the negativity whether heavy or light due to the conscious or unconscious focus displayed upon our certain advantages by others who are not so delighted by the instance.


The earliest I remember first experiencing my power it was at the age of three, and I still remember the incident to this very day.

I never shared the story with anyone other than my mother as I had told her right after it happened. In fact, she was a part of the vision I had saw just before it had taken place within our home moments afterward. As a child, I was just taking it all in having just witnessed an event in my mind’s eye to see it all unfold exactly the way it played out.

It was a natural feeling, and one that made me keep staring at my mother in wonderment when I recalled it to her.

For those in particular, our gifts are rare and they keep us ahead, and when we’re of the light we continuously receive the revelations (the hidden knowledge).

 

Extremely wise and spiritually connected:

A real person born with a caul doesn’t have to go look for answers from others. The truth lies within self through one’s own special set of circumstances and experience. Spirit speaks in distinction, a uniqueness that cannot be duplicated.

 

Tina

Love? That is so funny. You don’t know the definition of love! I don’t want anything from you. I don’t want your affection or your money, or anything else from you.

If you loved yourself you would have never done the specific things you’ve done and lived life the specific way you’ve lived.

Remember when you told me you wanted to give me funds from your pension when you die? Well, you can shove it up your ass.

You can’t buy me!

I don’t need your itty bitty shit I was born to have my own and I have been doing pretty darn well- I even do my own taxes! I have been handling my own jobs, career, and money for years now. The universe is not going to let anything happen to me.

Oh what a pathetic bitch you are, Tina, you along with others who were foolish enough to fuck with me in the first place.

Beg all you want bitch! I don’t give a fuck about you.

I’m an inevitable success story.

No matter how hard you and other undesirables tried you could not break my spirit or inhibit my drive and purpose. I prevailed, I always have, and I always will, you were all just far too dumb to see it and realize that you weren’t hurting anyone but yourselves.

You can keep making an ass out of yourself if you want, just like you have done for the majority of your life, because I have absolutely no regard for you.

The sad thing about everything is instead of being proud of having a niece of my caliber and character you were filthy jealous and destructive, especially as you admitted to me and my mother how the majority of the other neighborhood folks and youngsters were a bunch of nothings, yet you joined in with many of them (Did they know that while you were out gossiping and making up lies about my mother and I that you were coming back talking about some of them to us when you were at your lowest point? I don’t think so! They’re so stupid just like you.)

How sick can you be? I shouldn’t have asked that question because you broke the mold when it came to being twisted.

I’m happy, I have peace, I am blessed, and I have success. I also have a host of good and powerful blood related ancestors from your mother’s side of the family who’ve watched over me since my birth.

You don’t even know the beauty of our family and their history. You were too busy running the streets.

Did you know your mother had seven or eight brothers and sisters in actuality? Do you know how much family we have down south and spread about? We’ve known and met family that you don’t even know about.

I’m your only true connection to your mother also. You’ll never know what’s going on with her in the spirit world because I’d never share those revelations with you.

I’ll tell you this though, she (Catherine) is alright, so far she has been in a content sphere for a long time now.

Amanda and Junie, however, went straight to the depths leading to hell where they most definitely belong and where they suffer.

 

 

Ernestine Lawrence

Down below are links and messages from my mother’s sister, Tina, sent to me on Facebook.

This is for you, Tina, although you probably wouldn’t comprehend as logic and reasoning doesn’t register with you. And, since your HIV/Aids has probably gone to your head by now.

Since I was a child you were very jealous of me because I was very intellectually advanced and highly educational that is why you went around saying I had no education when it was actually you who had no knowledge.

You always had that low level trash mentality.

You have no high school diploma and did not graduate from high school that is why you went into the National Guards because you didn’t know anything and you wouldn’t have gotten into there if my mother hadn’t helped you out and told you what to do but you couldn’t even excel within that.

If it wasn’t for my mother Annette Theodora Cromwell wouldn’t even have gotten into college.

Now I don’t knock anyone who didn’t finish school the traditional way because I understand distinction within individuals everyone has their own way and their own calling or set of circumstances.

However, you really focused on making me out to appear like a stupid person when you didn’t even finish school yourself.

Did you know I actually skipped a grade when I was twelve? And when I was ten I passed tests that high school kids couldn’t pass. At eight years old I got an award for being one of the best readers within my entire school.

When I became an adult I got accepted into a college but I never cared about any of that shit because I wasn’t an insecure person like you.

When you were at those young ages all you achieved and was well known for was being on drugs and being a skank.

I at such a young age was gifted and passed all of my tests, received awards, and certificates in school so you and Amanda tried to interfere because I was nowhere near a dummy like you and Amanda.

You both knew I was headed for accomplishments that you both weren’t capable of gaining.

You wasted your time because I never relied on the approval of others or cared what anyone thought I’m proud of everything about myself and I have no regrets.

I was born with a caul you dumb bitch I have second-sight, I mean really, what the fuck did you think you could do? I was ahead of you. I laugh at you.

I knew just about everything you did through dreams, visions, and intuition.

You did the same to my mother because she was bright and multi-talented.

You said my mother never worked a day in her life because you couldn’t get the jobs that she could. You and Amanda were fools that people could use and abuse. Then you two were absurd enough to think that you could destroy me and my mother’s lives with voodoo/witchcraft/black magic and lies.

You conspired to give my mother a nervous breakdown and make her out to be lower than what you actually were out of pure envy, jealousy, and your own true state of mental illness.

It’s all in the past now but you still won’t leave us alone. We don’t care anything about you, we never did, and never will.

Nobody is hurt by you, you are nothing to be distressed by, you never had the power to destroy us, we just don’t like you at all.

You are an undesirable person who has done far too much dirt why would anybody of any class, intelligence, and substance want to be bothered with you.

Why don’t you go call and bother your own kind of fellow degenerates who share within the delusions of their own mentalities.

You are a pathetic piece of trash.

Go call up George Owens/Taalib Muhammad, Joanne Anderson Franks, Doritta Almodovar, Renee Blackwell, her sister Teresa Blackwell, Jeff Jemmott, Olivia Oliver and her kids and grand kids that you all talked about like a dog (remember when cookie and her kids gave you a concussion and put you in the hospital?), Spotface Pat Bush and your dyke crew, Diane Mims, Sonia, Lorraine Burwell- the bitch with the broken legs and her sister Judy Clarke, the nigger you stabbed with the knife who took a shit in your toilet before you called the cops on him, Annette Theodora Cromwell-the bitch who fucked some nigger down on Hollis at the tire shop, and all of the other sick and twisted fucks you use to run to and with.

You have no one. They don’t give a fuck about you, you stupid bitch. And look at all of the stupid unnecessary shit that you did to us for years. With your broke ass.

Go call up Amanda. Or better yet, why don’t you go join her in the grave.

Bitch, maybe you should give me a call so I could blow your mind with all of the shit that I know for someone who doesn’t have an education. I’ll teach you some life-long lesson facts.

 

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Bad Intentions

People getting mad and destructive through the cellestial bestowments directed out from the great universe.

Unfortunately desiring to harm other individuals because they are blessed in ways that they aren’t – Miss LaToya

I never understood why certain individuals who were of a lower intellect and character, tried to dominate and degrade, those who were of a higher level and caliber.

It happened all the time among specific type of people who considered themselves to be up to par, yet were actually not.

The ones who’d get downgraded and downplayed were the true definition of genuine sunstance, and quality.

Imitators who aspired to duplicate within their own facades, often hunted deep to find fault within those who were just living normally, often creating a barrage of unwarranted attacks, in a mere attempt to completely subdue one.

Strange how relentless people are, and how far many of them will go, due to their own  unfathomable resentment toward the favorable advantage naturally granted upon certain others.

Mental, Emotional, And Spiritual Breakdown

Everyone who has had a breakdown of some sort is not weak, crazy, or dangerously unstable.

A breakdown is spiritual within many instances. A Yoruba priestess even acknowledged this fact to me years ago. I know firsthand as my own mother was a victim of brujeria in the early 1980’s.

I was even targeted. My aunt tried to flip me out when I was eighteen years of age by putting the hallucinogenic drug mescaline into a hot pot of black eyed peas that I had cooking over the stove.

People often use recreational “trip” drugs to increase the chance or enhance the effect of mental and chemical alterations of the brain while also performing the negative spiritual influences within black magic/voodoo/witchcraft.

My aunt went a step further in her malicious attempt by also putting tainted hiv fluids inside my food. Anyone educated would know the disease would not survive within the air and within a pot of scalding hot water.

Nevertheless, I didn’t lose my head or have a breakdown, my mind was too strong with faculty and awareness, and I didn’t, of course, become infected with aids either.

I was young, innocent, and very spiritually inclined, so divine intervention took over and protected me.

My aunt Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has been hiv positive since the 1980’s due to intravenous drug use and promiscuous behavior from the 1970’s on up and instead of using her limited time to spend changing her life around for the better, she continued to do tons of constant dirt. She and other envious and jealous ruthless dummies, whores, drug addicts, and degenerates attacked me and other family for decades.

They’ve in addition done it to others, however, when they came after my mother and I, they messed with the wrong individuals. We are people of the light and they are people of the darkness. My ancestors and orishas were ready for them all, and the universe was recording and keeping record of every notorious deed in which was repeatedly done toward us.

Tina had poisoned food of my mother’s years ago too while neighbors were working black magic/voodoo/witchcraft against her.

My grandfather was driven to mental affliction before he was killed and found dead in the Hudson river.

My aunt Charise was drugged and raped which caused her to be afflicted with mental illness.

My grandfather, mother, younger aunt, and I were targeted for manipulative breakdowns because we were all very smart, strong, and fighters who could literally kick ass if needed be. We weren’t the type to back down or be bullied by anyone, and we were all good upstanding people.

The intent for causing mental, emotional, and spiritual breakdowns are to weaken one, to render them as incredible, and to lower their self esteem and spirit.

Certain evildoers want those of us who have knowledge in which threaten their unscrupulous ways either dead or labeled as crazy.

 

 

 

Jealousy

On one of my blogs titled Working Woman, I’ve talked a bit about my mother, and the good relationship we’ve had during my childhood on up.

Ignorant adversaries, however, seem to constantly assume for some reason that if they intervene it would cause some type of uproar or inconvenience within my life.

My mother is not and has never been some crutch or resource that I need to lean on or to survive by.

I don’t understand why these idiotic degenerates continue to attempt to play on her mind through black magic. Since she’s had a history of having a breakdown they prey on what they consider her vulnerability.

The other night, I heard, as I am Clairaudient, the discussion of inciting conflict between my mother and I. Adversaries from time to time want to use her, and speak through her, in order to get to me psychology with bullshit.

These utterances are to actually come from her mouth while they manipulate her mind and emotions, and I am supposed to succumb to the ploy.

My mother does have some personal issues yet I have absolutely no attachment to that whatsoever.

When a person is sick or gets sick they are not in their original mindset, not their usual self, or thinking within their general pattern.

The circumstance has no bearing on my life, just because we have had good memories, and experiences together, doesn’t mean it’s dependent upon my present or future happiness.

Plenty of children and parents have fond recollections and get along. It doesn’t mean we are unable to separate one from the other. If discord was to arise it’s logical to move on with living a healthy life, and at a distance if necessary, all depending on the state of the relationship.

The situation is definitely not normal and I don’t understand our adversaries distorted perception of the relationship between my mother and I and how they assume it would affect my life.

Nevertheless, trying to play on one’s mental illness to perpetuate delusion is expressing the deep mental illness in which they most definitely possess themselves.

It’s all a waste of time and energy as I am ahead and unfazed.

It is really insane how they pathetically and absurdly keep this nonsense going periodically, and this very morbid attachment in which they have to me and my life that they refuse to let go of.

Well, they can sadly hang on by themselves.

 

 

A Meal And A Few Movies

The weather has simmered down to a more comfortable temperature I wish it could stay like this all year around.

I prepared and had a lovely vegetarian meal of yellow rice and spices last night.

In addition, I cooked green peas and corn in a separate pot. I steamed broccoli which I added curry spice to and blended it in with the rice and other vegetables after both dishes were done.

My food came out so delicious. I loved every bite of it!

Afterwards, I sat down to watch a few movies. About three weeks ago, I got to catch a favorite classic of mine titled “I Wake Up Screaming” starring Betty Grable, Victor Mature, and Carol Landis.

I know this movie has been on many times over the years just not at periods where I was able to catch it. Anyhow, I first saw this film as a young teenager yet this was another film I had never got to see within its entirety. I’d usually come in on the middle of it just like at my original discovery of the flick.

So just recently I viewed this noir from the very beginning to the end and enjoyed it once all over again at more detail.

I also discovered there is a remake called “Vicky” in reference to one of the murdered characters in the movie.

I’ve missed it the few times it has aired, however, I’ll catch it soon to give it a try and determine whether or not I like the version.

A few nights ago I watched a 1954 movie titled “Black Widow” which starred Ginger Rogers, Van Heflin, Gene Tierney, and George Raft. It was a great film.

Towards the end, I had gotten the feeling that I’d seen this movie before but it was probably so long ago that none of the scenes were spoiled for me because either I didn’t remember it all or hadn’t seen it all back then whenever I had initially viewed it the first time around.

 

Blocked Witchcraft Attempt

As a child I wasn’t sheltered. I’d seen and heard a lot and encountered numerous types of people and situations while at the same time not being negatively influenced within my own behavior by incorporating undesirable habits or lifestyle choices, yet informed, as I had a mind of my own.

I had firsthand experience without having to personally indulge in order to know and since I was spiritually inclined I was able to clearly discern things that were hidden under the surface and I definitely knew what appealed to me and what turned me off and what I wanted to avoid as I grew up in life.

One of my strongest points is my excellent communication skills and comprehension. What I lack though is a sympathetic nature toward people and the world in general. I do love the hell out of puppies and dogs, though, they just steal my heart. They’re so innocent, sincere, and lovable those little adorable fuckers.

Since I nipped that “Think Of Me Spell” in the bud last week another corresponding negative technique was put in motion to run its trifling course. It’s definitely witchcraft yet all it has done is give me a off and on headache.

The motive is to drain me of my good energy and luck to render me vulnerable to the effects of whatever negativity and negative energy in which they gear toward me as they have failed so badly with endeavoring to bring me down and to destroy me.

These idiots are continuing to further ruin themselves through attempting to cause my demise. I am a very good and blessed person and I am and will constantly be guided and protected by divine intervention.

Adversaries are actually hurt because I am not at all hurt or affected by the negativity and dirt they’ve directed toward me within the past and by the negativity and dirt in which some of them still continue to direct toward me now.

They are infuriated by the love I have for myself, my high self esteem, the love and respect I have around me, and the fact that they are unable to stop me from living my life and speaking the truth.

I am a writer by nature, I have a gift, and I am naturally motioned by spirit to utilize and exercise creatively, honestly, and productively whenever inspired. There is power in the universe to those of us who are endowed.

It deeply frustrates them how they cannot get to me emotionally or mentally. And I can “feel” their upsets within my body through intense empathic ability. So they couldn’t deny it even if they wanted to. Feeling and being able to perceive other peoples emotions has always been one of my dominant faculties as a highly spiritually inclined person.

They’re going to drive themselves crazy with trying to hurt or thwart me with things and circumstances in which do not faze me. I’m not the average person. I’ve always been on a entirely different level and will never be hurt by their words, lies, jealousies, ignorant thinking, malicious deeds and etc…

Of course, when somebody comes up against me I will take up for myself or fight back as I am a very feisty and strong individual. And I definitely will correct anyone who comes at me with the wrong approach. One doesn’t have to be hurt to retaliate out of hatred, vengeance, or justification these instances have absolutely nothing to do with being hurt within certain types of people. Everyone is different and does not act out for the same reasons or under the same intention.

Although I do realize many of my adversaries have been hurt by me as I have not been too friendly or receptive to their kind (as I’ve never been fond of their type and those with similar traits and mindsets) yet they hurt themselves by ignorantly making assumptions and adhering to preconceived notions while really knowing the real deal then proceeding to carry out nonsense due to pure spite and resentment.

Seeing Into View: The Third Eye

I know that nothing bad is ever going to happen to me as it never has. Although I may sometimes have to go through bad things I go through these particular incidents if or when they arise without any serious worry or dismay.

Certain people never understood how I handled what is considered to them as a tribulation so well and nonchalantly.

It is just a natural reaction of peace and ease from my own personal experience with my spirituality and the momentous encounters throughout my life. And frankly, it is sometimes just my cold attitude of not giving a damn.

Nevertheless, I am monitored and protected by spirit.

It’s sad when others plan negative designs upon me and others in specific with the genuine “knowing power” then have or assume successful expectations to come into fruition as I know all along how things will inevitably work out and go within my favor.

Even if it is just a regular periodic hard seemingly time in which may happen as an up and down part of life or celestial test. I know that I will make it through alright without a doubt because that is just me and the way it is within my life condition.

People endeavor and attempt to do dirt out of spite or greed or whatever else and I always know what the outcome will be.

It’s a pure waste of time on the perpetrator’s part, however, they don’t know this or they’re too arrogant within their ignorance to understand and realize this fact.

As I am born with Extra Sensory Perception I know what scheme people will calculate against me before they do themselves and I know how the situation will eventually turn out.

Bequeathed

 

I was told my robust spirituality comes from my long line of native american ancestry and I agree as I already came to the conclusion about it decades ago. It was so obvious to me.

The mixture within my african american roots serve to make the foundation even more intense through the combination of tribal culture.

The european blood within my veins is french.

I’d never deny my inherent african power as the africans have a natural flair to wistfully attract desires. All they have to do is wish for something and it comes to them without the use of any magic. I’ve done it for years.