My True Source Of Help

The Lord is my best friend. He is the one I go to for help.

Aside from my mother, I would depend on him before I would depend on anyone else.

God was always ready, willing, and able to help me even when I did not know that he had already taken charge of my situation ahead of time.

Isn’t he a mighty rock in the nick of time?!  

There are people we interact with and who help us out in life such as, parents, doctors, teachers, and so on, but none of them can bring aid or relief to us in the way that God does.

From my own personal experience, it has always been God who was able to fix and to correct my situation because he is the only one who truly knew every core of my inner being and where to operate.

I never needed a counselor, therapist, or shoulder to cry on (aside from my mother), ever in my life. All I needed was a spiritual advisor, and I speak the truth!

Only a higher power was able to solve my specific problem, conflict, or difficulty. Whatever it was that was missing only God could replace it for me.

It is still this way today.

A force to prevent me to seek help from where there is no requirement unto what would not be understood.

When my circumstance does occasionally arise, the affairs are derived mostly from a spiritual aspect that connects to my physical elemental situation.

God comprehends in the ultimate way that others cannot.

I lift up my eyes to the mountains where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth! -Psalms 121: 1-2

 

 

 

Spiritual Communication With The Lord

The Lord is so kind. He showed me his care as he does within so many ways.

Yesterday he sent me an unexpected message, answers along with guidance and encouragement to a situation I was sure of, yet had pondered through anyway.

Let not your heart be troubled. Trust in Godand trust also in me“. -John 14: 1 was the Lord’s address to me.

The life of God’s children is not easy; however, we should not be worried or anxious in our hearts. There is no reason for any of us to be troubled if we have accepted Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior.

We are not to be intimidated or frightened by the devil or by the magnitude of the evil and negativity in this world.

God let me know as a confirmation that it was okay to justifiably erase toxic people from my life without turning back. In fact, that it was a necessary act of spiritual, mental, and emotional cleansing.

We are to rid ourselves of those who speak negativity into our lives, and who try to weigh us down.

Commit your actions to the LORD, and your plans will succeed. The LORD has made everything for his own purposes, even the wicked for a day of disaster. Proverbs 16: 3

 

Down Memory Lane

I remember a few years ago my mother and I looked at quite a few old family photos and after we went through them all we both enjoyed the time spent doing so.

The photos inspired us to reminisce and discuss moments of past events with laughter, further input, and togetherness.

While we as people don’t have to dwell into the past it is nice to periodically take a walk down memory lane to appreciate the fun, wonderful, meaningful, and life-teaching experiences and encounters that helped to shape and carry us to our present.

Even some of the bad things we may have endured is a testimony to what we were able to overcome, rise above, and triumph from.

We can look back and be thankful for the times we have shared with others and the benefits that was brought into our lives. The beauty of it all allows us to look ahead at what was left behind then take forward everything preciously gathered.

A Change Of Heart

I have heard stories of how Jesus transformed prostitutes, drug addicts, murderers, and so on. I have never been any of those things, but for the Lord to actually impact the lives of specific individuals who once lived within the grips of that type of lifestyle is truly inspiring and phenomenal.

I can testify to how God transformed my heart from hatred toward him to amicable. I believe aside for his great purpose for me the Lord also wants to use me as an example and inspiration to others.

If he could rededicate a believer of him since childhood who turned away from him in animosity during adulthood that is a story worth telling within itself- no matter how minor it may seem.

Returning back to the arms of God, surrendering completely to his plan, and having a hunger for reading the word and connecting deeper to his spirit is hardly anything insignificant to the Lord.

The event is a cause for celebration in the heavens. There is nothing more important on earth than having an intimate partnership with God.

True To The Heart

When I write sometimes I do not know where it will completely lead to. What I write practically writes itself. This is how it has mainly been as one being led by the spirit. I just let it go and let the spirit get out whatever message it wants to speak in those certain moments. Well, here goes:

I remember a few years ago some girl by the name of Melissa left me a comment. She had the nerve to think or believe that she was actually schooling me about God based on her preconceived notions of what she ignorantly gathered from reading an article that I wrote.

One cannot know a person’s life or entire life story just by reading a few detailed posts from a blog. My mother was solid in her Christian/Baptist faith she attended church regularly as a child, had gotten me christened/anointed/blessed at four months in a catholic church, and introduced me to God at a very early age.

I had always believed in the Lord, was gifted with second-sight, and was led to him and by him. God’s favor was on me since the beginning of my journey here on earth as a little infant. My mother and I shared countless instance of the Lord’s providence.

During my teenage years up into my early adulthood I had a very strong relationship with God and was in communication with him consistently through prayer and would constantly reap his generosity.

I was no stranger to the Lord, and he was not someone who was a stranger to me. Due to my aversion toward negative situations and circumstances brought on by undesirables (jealous/envious/miserable people) and the certain inevitable trials of life, in general, I was fed up and tired and very resentful at God for what I had to go through from childhood on up.

It happens. Nonetheless, the Lord called me back to him after my distancing myself from him for so long even though he never distanced himself from me.

The whole time God was still there taking really great care of me. I was furious at the Lord for various reasons, yet he did not punish me. Instead, he showed me compassion, mercy, and grace. He also extended an invitation to rekindle our fellowship so that I could get to know him more genuinely and intimately within a way that I never knew or understood him beforehand.

I accepted Jesus Christ between the age of ten, eleven, or twelve. It was so long ago I don’t remember exactly but it was before I entered into my teen years.

My great-grandmother criticized me over the telephone when I was about fifteen telling me that I wasn’t normal because I wasn’t doing and acting the way other teenagers were at the time.

According to her, I should have been hanging out, partying, having sex, and whatever else she hoped since she had gotten pregnant at fourteen, would get drunk and possibly do drugs as well as associate with the wrong type of people who used and abused her.

Any other great-grandmother who was truly a Christian at heart would have been proud and recognized that it was God’s holy spirit within me claiming me as one of his very own children.

I was never of this world.

I did not judge my great-grandmother or care about what she did in life. All of her regrets and downfalls she took out on certain members of the family out of jealousy. She and my eldest aunt tried their best to destroy my mother and I years ago. My mother and I were not like the rest of the immediate family. We were unique and spiritually inclined.

Insight was a gift that ran in the family but my mother and I were different than them in character and personality, we were cut from different cloths (not of the same nature).

God knows us all. It does not matter what other people think or what other people say. God is the true judge, soul-seeker, and examiner of the heart and our intentions. None of us have to explain ourselves to anyone and we are not to be a pleaser to those who do not understand or accept us. We are to be pleasers and expressers of God.

For the Lord knows us better than we know ourselves and only he can reach us in the places where he is able to search and find us.

Bible Study

 

I always loved and enjoyed bible study. I like it even more now than I did years ago. There is a purity and serenity that comes along from reading and engaging in the scriptures. When I read my bible and devotionals, I feel a genuine spiritual connection.

God’s word is food for the soul, true life sustaining nourishment that incites me to hunger for more.

When I get into the passages, delving into the lives of specific characters they strike me not as strangers but more like family members. Though I never knew any of them on a personal level the affection, endearment and relation are there.

The bible is so relevant today just as it was back then many years ago.

I get wrapped into my reading sometimes for three or five hours straight when I have the time. However, there is not a day that goes by that I miss reading a piece of scripture or my devotionals.

I am into the word every day whether I spends hours or just a half an hour.

I also have discipleship and one on one bible study with my pastor once a week in addition and it is just never too much of spending time with the lord.

Let’s Talk About The Good News!

I am no stranger to the spirit. It is a great inspirer and motivator. Through the fruit of the spirit, along with the natural and supernatural talents bestowed upon us for his glory, God will speak and shine his light- to steadily flow through us.

As an ambassador of Jesus Christ, I have no problem sharing and spreading his wonderful message of truth and warnings. It is vital information that affects everyone’s future now unto eternity.

This world is not going to last, we are all going to die one day and while we are here God is giving us time by extending his grace. Once this time period is over it will be too late.

In whichever way God stimulates his spirit within you take courage and let him be your guide. For those of us filled with the “anointed essence” of the joy (excitement) we have no obstacle to hold us back from exercising the word through our special talents and abilities.

We are not, and don’t have to be perfect in what we do. Our Lord meets us where we’re at and uses our experiences and testimonies to bear witness to his truth, power, and glory. All we have to do is be sincere, then trust and believe in the work God is perfecting within his purpose for us.

Reach out to those around you who may not yet know our Lord in the way that you do. Let them know that the only way to heaven is through Jesus Christ even if what you express brings a discomfort.

A tough situation and talk about the beauty of Jesus and the consequences of rejecting him is utterly worth the everlasting gift of residing in the house of the Lord for all eternity.

It’s our job to reaffirm and to continuously make known the Gospel of Jesus Christ and why he came here to the earth.

He came so that we could once again have a close personal relationship with God the father by sacrificing himself so that we would be saved from our sins and able to escape damnation- which is eternal separation from God in hell after death.

We can explain and help others to the correct path, however, we cannot force them to walk down the narrow lane. The final outcome is up to them whether or not they attempt to embrace and surrender to the only way, truth, and life- which is no other than God’s one and only begotten son Jesus Christ who died so that we could live.

 

 

 

Dedicated To The Lord

I always believed in God and was led to him by spirit at an early age. Between the time I was ten years old to twelve is when I first gave myself to Jesus Christ.

Seven months ago, I resubmitted to God and reaffirmed my trust, obedience, and love with a better understanding of getting to know the Lord through all of my past experiences of his faithfulness, grace, mercy, and unwavering providence.

It is truly a blessing and honor to pick up the development and continuation of a long-lasting relationship that I began long ago. A connection regained with an even stronger and deeper foundation that is rooted in genuine purpose.

The best move I could make in my life was to rededicate myself to the Lord at his generous, kind, and thoughtful summon.

The greatest step anyone can take is to ultimately choose and decide to believe in, accept, and follow/surrender to Jesus.

If you haven’t already, do it immediately!

Jesus offers all of us, who the father knew, -far beforehand- would not deny his precious gift to come to him for salvation.

We are no longer separated from God through the sacrifice Jesus Christ made for us.

The Kingdom is yours if you put your trust and faith in the one who promises to one day put a complete end to all bad things. Our Lord is in total control and he is working everything out for the good of his divine plan.

A God Who Answers Our Prayers

And we will receive from him whatever we ask because we obey him and do the things that please him. -1 John 3:22

I was the target of other people’s witchcraft from a very early age.

As I always had a strong mind there were things my envious and jealous adversaries just couldn’t get me to falsely accept, such as the negative and deceitful thoughts they attempted to place inside my head.

During my teenage years, when trying to manipulate my mind didn’t produce their desired results, they’d try to manipulate my emotions.

One day I just had gotten completely tired as the feelings my adversaries were transmitting through Satanic measures were overwhelmingly annoying. So, I called out to Jesus and expressed my vexation. The Lord responded to me by taking away those demonic influenced interruptions and those particular manipulative feelings never came back again.

I noticed in my early adulthood that God was granting me most of the things I asked him for. The things I didn’t receive, I didn’t need because he only gives us what is best for us.

I also noticed that nothing was too small for God in my requests. Things I may have wanted since childhood he gave to me during my latter years he sets his own perfect time to provide certain things for our benefit.

The Lord gave me things to help me and to make life a little bit more comfortable, expressing his goodness in a fallen world.

I was very strong in prayer and when I look back on how God never ceased at answering me, I realize that I must have developed a close and solid relationship with him. I use to talk to him all of the time.

All of us in Christ need to get into the habit of regularly and continuously talking to God. Not just for things that we may desire but for our vital need for him in our lives.

Talk to him about everything. Share all thoughts (even though God already knows everything about us and what is happening in our lives), concerns and activities. Ask for his direction and help in all things, and never forget to acknowledge how thankful you are for all that he does and continues to do.

In everything we reference to the Lord let it come from sincerity. If you have any doubts and/or fears let him know specifically. Be upfront and ask for his help.


You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. -John 14:13

Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. -Matthew 7:7

 

An Honor: The Holy Spirit

I remember as a child reading through the scriptures (the bible) and coming across 1 Corinthians 6:19 where it says, Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself.

I was looking through my “New King James” version and “Living” bible text at the time which were worded different but conveying the same message.

The verses in the passage had significance to me as I was trying to come into understanding God’s word.

I didn’t comprehend the total depth of the Holy Spirit dwelling within us who are the children of God as I do now. However, I did take the matter seriously and wanted to respect the fact by keeping myself pure through him.

In my adulthood, and where I am at today, having experienced God’s Holy Spirit for years without even realizing the work and glory that it was producing in me, I can honestly say that it is a privilege indeed.

To have God actually living inside of us is sacred. It is an honor. We are one with our Lord as he is in us, and we are in him.

It is one of the most beautiful expressions of his love, promises and faithfulness.

Having God literally reside within our spirit should urge us even more to rejoice in our surrender to his comfort, guidance and authority.

We are truly blessed by grace to be intimately united with God and to have a close, personal relationship with him through Jesus Christ who bridged the gap of separation between us and our heavenly father.

Amazing Love

Everyone has their own genuine experience of true love or lack thereof.

The love I received began in the womb.

My mother loved me while she carried me within her belly, and adored me completely once I was born.

As a very young child I remember the deep, intense unconditional love I felt for my mother also.

Even though it was evident and always within her actions my mother expressed to me that she loved me “madly”.

My mother gave me nothing but pure honest love all throughout my life and everyone around us knew and could see how much affection she had for me.

Love made me secure and confident. I didn’t need to go out to look for love, assurance, or acceptance from others or the outside world. My validation and self-worth came from within. I was nurtured by love in the home (my mother and family presence) and love in the spirit (God’s grace, guidance and protection).

The love I have and feel for my mother is dear and endless.

I don’t use the word love lightly because it has to genuinely come from a place of truth for me.

I never loved anything in this world the way I love my mother and dog Brandie.

In fact, they are the only two beings I truly ever loved wholeheartedly. And they carried the same utter endearment toward me. So, I indeed know what real love is and what it feels like.

Love is wonderful and beautiful. It is the best thing in life.

Our father in heaven is described to love us even more than our own parents do. He is said to love the ones who we love far more than we could ever fathom, or love them.

Isn’t this reality astounding?

I could never imagine anyone loving me above the unlimited measurement of my mother. Yet God does!

What an amazing love the Lord, our father in heaven, has for his children and all creation.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Unwed

I knew ever since childhood that I would never grow up to get married. The desire was never within my heart.

I didn’t even want to have a boyfriend. I still don’t, and I never will.

I don’t believe that marriage and intimate sexual relationship is for everybody.

I do believe as I always have that there are men who don’t have sex until they are married and men who don’t- and have never cheated on their wives.

Some may believe that is a naive view to hold, but in reality, it is not. The majority of men may not fit into this category, though, there are far too many men in the world for them all to be sexually promiscuous and cheaters.

People seek out marriage for many different reasons depending on culture and personal values. I just never saw a purpose for the undertaking in my life.

I never felt the need for a man to make me happy. I never believed happiness came from a man. I always found happiness from within my spirit. I never felt the need for a man to complete me (which I don’t understand the void in certain women who do feel this way.) I naturally felt whole and complete within myself as an individual.

I’ve never even understood the concept of falling in love with a man. I’ve fell in love with a puppy before, but never a man. I don’t have those feelings or sexual desires and I am perfectly happy that way.

When I read in the bible as a youngster of Paul’s statements in regard to it being “better not to marry” in 1 Corinthians 7:40 I could identify with his words and considered it a gift indeed to not have any sexual or romantic need.

In a world where I was considered not normal for not wanting to get married or to have sex, I was proud and unbothered.

Yes, each of you should remain as you were when God called you.

God paid a high price for you, so don’t be enslaved by the world. Each of you, dear brothers and sisters, should remain as you were when God first called you.

Now regarding your question about the young women who are not yet married. I do not have a command from the Lord for them. But the Lord in his mercy has given me wisdom that can be trusted, and I will share it with you. Because of the present crisis, I think it is best to remain as you are.

I want you to be free from the concerns of this life. An unmarried man can spend his time doing the Lord’s work and thinking how to please him. But a married man has to think about his earthly responsibilities and how to please his wife. His interests are divided. In the same way, a woman who is no longer married or has never been married can be devoted to the Lord and holy in body and in spirit. But a married woman has to think about her earthly responsibilities and how to please her husband. I am saying this for your benefit, not to place restrictions on you. I want you to do whatever will help you serve the Lord best, with as few distractions as possible.

But in my opinion it would be better for her to stay single, and I think I am giving you counsel from God’s Spirit when I say this. -1 Corinthians 7:20-40

Yes, and also as a woman, and a human being, I am so glad that not having a desire for marriage is not a sin. If I was interested, I would have had a very hard time obeying any man and having him as head over me within my personal life. I was never the subservient type and too independent.

I enjoy the single life where I am just fully committed and aligned with being fully obedient to God. –latoya lawrence

Sex

Run from sexual sin! No other sin so clearly affects the body as this one does. For sexual immorality is a sin against your own body. -1 Corinthians 6:18

Fornication has for years run rampant and it is definitely classified as immoral behavior within the bible.

I am not at all being judgmental when I say this, but I never understood why sex was so out of control in society.

Sex is overly advertised and heavily encouraged. It has always been a thing craved, and tempted by.

I understand God created intercourse to be an enjoyable way for people who are married to express their passion and to reproduce, but the nature of it and the act itself has always been something that turned me off.

I was repulsed at an early age even by animals engaging in the act.

From my perspective I just don’t understand why sex captured the world so popularly.

People hopping from one person to another for a sensation is plain nasty.

To me, a tongue kiss is even disgusting.

Marriage

And further, submit to one another out of reverence for Christ. For wives, this means submit to your husbands as to the Lord. For a husband is the head of his wife as Christ is the head of the church. He is the Savior of his body, the church. As the church submits to Christ, so you wives should submit to your husbands in everything. For husbands, this means love your wives, just as Christ loved the church. He gave up his life for her to make her holy and clean, washed by the cleansing of God’s word. He did this to present her to himself as a glorious church without a spot or wrinkle or any other blemish. Instead, she will be holy and without fault. In the same way, husbands ought to love their wives as they love their own bodies. For a man who loves his wife actually shows love for himself. No one hates his own body but feeds and cares for it, just as Christ cares for the church. And we are members of his body. As the Scriptures say, “A man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one.” This is a great mystery, but it is an illustration of the way Christ and the church are one. So again I say, each man must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband. -Ephesians 5:21-33


God originally designed the first couple to be the perfect union between a man and a woman to form the beautiful foundation of the family.

They were meant to love one another purely, and to live in utter peace, blessing and happiness to honor God.

When the fall came the sanctity of the union and its elements became tainted.

In a world full of sin -totally contrary to how life was divinely arranged- people do what they want to do and live how they want live, however, God’s standards haven’t changed.

What is called “marriage” today is still intended to be the loving, unselfish, respectful, God-honoring union between a man and a woman. It is the covenant in which sexual intercourse and the conception of offspring should only take place within.

The only difference, and huge problem now, compared to the beginning of creation is that we no longer live within an ultimate state of glory. Our world is cursed and as a people we are far from perfect. So, there will always be discord, incompatibility, disappointment, acts of volition and etc…. in all walks of life within all situations.

Marriage is hard work. Yet, it is still considered a wonderful institution to those who are truly dedicated to each other and who take their relationship seriously.

God made certain instructions to live by in order to keep us safe and healthy because he loves us. Nevertheless, the same kind of sin goes on within certain marriages that goes on outside of marriage.

There are married couples who decide to proceed with abortions if they don’t want or no longer desire to have any more children.

There are married couples who commit adultery regularly or who have had an affair some time or another.

Marriage doesn’t prevent couples from getting venereal diseases, and it doesn’t guarantee people to be spared of any other repercussion or action that others do outside of wedlock.

It is about putting God first by surrendering to his authority and obeying his guidance for our lives that make circumstances and situations turn out more favorable. In doing what God advises we are able to avoid many unnecessary troubles and complications.

We are always going to have difficulties in this world but if we let God lead and take control things work out for the best, according to his plan.

 

Good And Sweet People

 

Scripture leaves no doubt about it: There’s nobody living right, not even one, nobody who knows the score, nobody alert for God. They’ve all taken the wrong turn; they’ve all wandered down blind alleys. No one’s living right; I can’t find a single one. Their throats are gaping graves, their tongues slick as mudslides. Every word they speak is tinged with poison. They open their mouths and pollute the air. They race for the honor of sinner-of-the-year, litter the land with heartbreak and ruin, Don’t know the first thing about living with others. They never give God the time of day. This makes it clear, doesn’t it, that whatever is written in these Scriptures is not what God says about others but to us to whom these Scriptures were addressed in the first place! And it’s clear enough, isn’t it, that we’re sinners, every one of us, in the same sinking boat with everybody else? Our involvement with God’s revelation doesn’t put us right with God. What it does is force us to face our complicity in everyone else’s sin. But in our time something new has been added. What Moses and the prophets witnessed to all those years has happened. The God-setting-things-right that we read about has become Jesus-setting-things-right for us. And not only for us, but for everyone who believes in him. For there is no difference between us and them in this. Since we’ve compiled this long and sorry record as sinners (both us and them) and proved that we are utterly incapable of living the glorious lives God wills for us, God did it for us. Out of sheer generosity he put us in right standing with himself. A pure gift. He got us out of the mess we’re in and restored us to where he always wanted us to be. And he did it by means of Jesus Christ. God sacrificed Jesus on the altar of the world to clear that world of sin. Having faith in him sets us in the clear. God decided on this course of action in full view of the public—to set the world in the clear with himself through the sacrifice of Jesus, finally taking care of the sins he had so patiently endured. This is not only clear, but it’s now—this is current history! God sets things right. He also makes it possible for us to live in his rightness. So where does that leave our proud Jewish insider claims and counterclaims? Canceled? Yes, canceled. What we’ve learned is this: God does not respond to what we do; we respond to what God does. We’ve finally figured it out. Our lives get in step with God and all others by letting him set the pace, not by proudly or anxiously trying to run the parade. –Romans 3:10-28


 

We are not to assume, or entertain the thought that everyone who is or was considered to be a good person, will reside in heaven after they die. Only those who are saved.

I’ve met and come across some very nice people who have treated me ever so kindly, and we all had gotten along pleasantly well.

Many of us interact or have interacted with people of upstanding character, hospitable dispositions, and generous hearts. The only thing is they may have ongoing lifestyle acts, choices, or beliefs that do not coincide with the will of our heavenly father.

We may say to ourselves, “That person is so nice, so good. They should be able to go to heaven or have eternal life in the new kingdom on earth”. We look at their favorable attitudes and personalities, not necessarily caring about what they do or what they have done within their personal lives as long as they are decent citizens and not hurting anybody.

However, it is just not possible according to the scriptures. My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the LORD. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts. –Isaiah 55:8-9

Particular things in life that may not matter heavily to us or that we may disagree with have great significance and righteousness to God. Yes, some of those things do seem very unfair because I’ll be the first to say that I didn’t ask to come here into the world why should I have to be subject to certain aspects that I didn’t have anything to do with in the first place?

One thing I don’t like is Jesus commanding us all to love one another (in a perfect world that would be logical). That is a very hard one for me. Love has to come natural for me and I wouldn’t even want to love just anyone, especially an undesirable person. Who wants to love a trouble-maker and the like? It may be easy for God to love them because he designed them but I didn’t create them so why should I have to even like them? There are many believers/born again Christians who struggle with this one. I can be civil, polite, and reasonable with them but I don’t want to love them and I genuinely don’t. At the same time, I don’t hold any animosity.

I am a genuinely honest person, I can’t help but tell the truth about the way I feel, it is very therapeutic for me to express my self sincerely.

You have heard the law that says, ‘Love your neighbor’ and hate your enemy. But I say, love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you! In that way, you will be acting as true children of your Father in heaven. For he gives his sunlight to both the evil and the good, and he sends rain on the just and the unjust alike. If you love only those who love you, what reward is there for that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. If you are kind only to your friends, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect. –Matthew 5:43-48

But to you who are willing to listen, I say, love your enemies! Do good to those who hate you. Bless those who curse you. Pray for those who hurt you. –Luke 6:27-28

 

Now back to what I was addressing about people who we deem as good who don’t fit in with the standards of the Lord. We may have friends, relatives or associates who we like, love and have compassion for who are homosexual, are pro-choice about abortion, or who live with their partners outside of marriage. These circumstances are inexcusable to God. He doesn’t penalize the ones who accept him and are trying to break free from what they are doing as his holy spirit will work within one to gradually heal and deliver them from their sin.

On the other hand those who don’t want or don’t have a desire to change and want to continue on with behaviors and attitudes, knowing that it goes against the Lord’s will- no matter how nice and good they are to us- won’t be accepted into heaven or enter into eternal life.

Don’t you realize that those who do wrong will not inherit the Kingdom of God? Don’t fool yourselves. Those who indulge in sexual sin, or who worship idols, or commit adultery, or are male prostitutes, or practice homosexuality, or are thieves, or greedy people, or drunkards, or are abusive, or cheat people—none of these will inherit the Kingdom of God. Some of you were once like that. But you were cleansed; you were made holy; you were made right with God by calling on the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God. –1 Corinthians 6:9-11

So called Christian’s also need to be heedful as we must not deceive ourselves to think we are following Jesus Christ/God when we actually are not.

Jesus warns us, On judgment day many will say to me, ‘Lord! Lord! We prophesied in your name and cast out demons in your name and performed many miracles in your name.’ But I will reply, ‘I never knew you. Get away from me, you who break God’s laws.’ –Matthew 7:22-23

Whatever the case upon any individual is between them and our father in heaven. We must never be quick to suggest who is or who may be going or have went to heaven or hell based solely on what we see or perceive. We don’t know their hearts and mind or whether or not God reached them or they went to Jesus in or before their last moments.

The most important thing for us to do is to remain focused on the core facts of the New Testament that we can without a doubt rely on. Stay into the word of God as he gives us this time to surrender/follow him, trust in him, and be filled with hope and anticipation for the expectation of his return.

 

 

Thankful

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. –Thessalonians 5:16-18

Thanksgiving day arrives next week, though, to me every day is a day to be thankful just as everday is a day for mothers other than just the one day each year celebration of Mother’s day. I just can’t express it enough as that was always my view on those special occasions.

I’m thankful for just the little things which are really big things because they are the most important. I’m thankful, and we should all be thankful to God for waking us up in the morning, for having a roof over our head, for having food to eat, for having our loved ones and kind friends or associates share in our lives.

These are all the things that count and matter. There are a lot of people in the world who don’t have these precious things.

Without God there to give us guidance and to watch over our daily lives we don’t have anything. We need him first and foremost everything we have is owed to God and his generosity.

“Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing. -John 15:5

There is so much to be thankful for and nothing is too small.

I thank God for the wonderful mother he gave to me from birth and the dog he gave to me throughout my childhood, how I love them so. Love never dies and it is God’s love that sustains us.

And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. -John 4:16

 

Prayer

I remember in my early adulthood I was very strong in prayer and the Lord would answer me and bless me.

The Holy Spirit Speaks to us and guides us into the correct direction.

It is so important to stay in touch with God, to put him first, and include him in everything we do.

There are no special or fancy words to recite just speak to God with your heart. He knows our every need and seeks for us to talk to him as he is very concerned about our feelings and welfare.

Thank God and praise him during the day, afternoon and night for all that he does for you in your life. The Lord protects us within ways we don’t even know or realize he is so passionate within his love for us.

Let us love him back and honor him with our gratitude and that we have the privilege to utterly rely on our heavenly father and not on ourselves.

Thank you, father, that I can come to you for all of my matters and concerns, but above all I can come to you as a daughter who wants to spend quality time enjoying your company. In your precious son Jesus Christ name, Amen. your child LaToya

 

Church

Back during the spring, I prayed to God to find me a good church that was right and compatible for me to attend. One that was Christian and that preached straight out of the bible.

God answered my prayer and delivered.

I found a nice church that I like with a Pastor who is authentic and studies the bible with me one on one every week.

My church gives Communion, has prayer group meetings, teaching and learning, outreach and service, discipleship and community and is dedicated to complete fellowship with God.

No church is perfect (as far as members who gossip, who are judgmental, and who put on airs in general) but I found my place of worship and I’m content with the church that the Lord led me to.

Going to church every Sunday, reading the bible regularly, and doing good works doesn’t mean one is saved. It is doing those things along with having a close personal relationship with our heavenly father. What is the purpose in going to church, reading the bible and doing good if one doesn’t truly know God/Jesus?  It never hurts to do good will regardless out of one’s heart, but we are not saved by any good works, bible reading or church attending. We are saved through faith and belief in our lord and savior with a true desire to want to give our life to him.

As long as we who are genuinely sincere, dedicated, and striving our best to live and stay connected to God we will be okay.

Jesus said:

Do This In Remembrance Of Me

 Then he took a cup of wine and gave thanks to God for it. Then he said, “Take this and share it among yourselves. For I will not drink wine again until the Kingdom of God has come.”

He took some bread and gave thanks to God for it. Then he broke it in pieces and gave it to the disciples, saying, “This is my body, which is given for you. Do this in remembrance of me.”
After supper he took another cup of wine and said, “This cup is the new covenant between God and his people—an agreement confirmed with my blood, which is poured out as a sacrifice for you. –Luke 22: 17-20

The Elect

For many are called, but few are chosen.” Matthew 22:14

God loves us all and he wants no one to perish, but he already knew before we were created those of us who would accept him and those of us who would deny him.

God knew that I would listen to no one but him as no one knows me better than him.

 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 
 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; 
    your works are wonderful, 
    I know that full well. 
 My frame was not hidden from you 
    when I was made in the secret place, 
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. 
 Your eyes saw my unformed body; 
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book 
    before one of them came to be. -Psalm 139: 13-16

God draws back those who are his. Once you were like sheep who wandered away. But now you have turned to your Shepherd, the Guardian of your souls. – 1 Peter 2:25 

Not all those who wander are lost and I am living proof.

 For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will- to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. – Ephesians 1:4-6

Jesus said: For no one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws them to me, and at the last day I will raise them up. John 6:44 

My message for those who don’t believe and or who don’t know Christ, Jesus says “Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with me“. – Revelation 3:20

The most important decision to make in your life is to completely surrender yourself to Jesus and sincerely follow him. Jesus turns no one away he wants you to know him,  love him and trust him.

 

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God’s Love

The very first time I ever asked and accepted Jesus Christ into my life as my Lord and Savior I was between the age of ten or twelve. I was always led and drawn to God. 

I had along down the line become angry with God for reasons of my own. I was so convinced of his evilness, twistedness and unfairness. I had developed the impression of the Lord being a harsh and unreasonable strict father who was fixated on being obeyed and on un-repented sins eager and ready to condemn and discipline with an angry vengeance at the crack of a whip.  

Nevertheless, and to make a long story short, God was able to get my attention some months back. No one else could do it but him himself along with the influence of my mother’s faith and wisdom that I had grown up with.  

The moment the Lord gained my full attention I was instantly ready and willing to yield to him.  

Prior to feeling resentment toward the Lord, I had a good history with him. One that had brought a faith of my own that could never be denied and because of this faith through many incredible experiences I knew that I could put my trust in him again just like that. 

God allowed and invited me to get to know him within a way that I never knew or understood about him before. He cared enough about me to reveal the truth of who he really is so that I would have the fair opportunity to realize his truth and to get into a deeper personal relationship with him. A relationship stronger and more intimate than years ago before. 

What I noticed also is that God didn’t at all punish me during the entire time I distanced myself from him. He never left me and he kept on protecting me and looking after me regardless. He extended his grace and mercy on me.  

The Lord’s actions reminded me of Paul in 1 Timothy 1:13 when he said, “Even though I used to blaspheme the name of Christ. In my insolence, I persecuted his people. But God had mercy on me because I did it in ignorance and unbelief”  

When I read that passage it had spoken to me. God knew my heart. Even though I was wrong in my thoughts and actions toward him nothing was done out of cruel intent or spite it was out of my own eventual ignorance and unbelief in his goodness that resulted after years of going through trials and tribulations. 

My error was instead of focusing primarily on the unwanted trials and tribulations that we all go through I should have focused on how God had always successfully brought me through and out of them. 

If one is truly a child of God; they will always belong to him. God has always shown favor upon my mother and I.  

God has truly been extremely good to me and he is continuing to bestow upon me his mercy and grace (The Lord has been so kind and compassionate) and I will spend the rest of my days living my life for Jesus and glorifying God through his holy spirit and cooperating with his word to the best of my ability. 

 

 

 

Cozy Night At Home Enjoying A Classic

We have such a peaceful home and a nice, quiet life.

Last night at 8pm my mother and I watched the 1976 Stephen King classic thriller “Carrie” on Showtime.

We hadn’t seen the film in a while (even though we’ve seen it numerous times in the distant past through out the years) and we both reflected on the movie and agreed that it was such a great film. They just don’t make genuine quality horror films like that anymore.

Race With The Devil” was another great 1975 classic horror movie and one that was underrated, it is also an all time favorite of mine.

My mother and I were always fierce hanging partners. When I was a little girl she use to take me to the movie theater to see just about everything I wanted to see. We have a great relationship and still enjoy our entertainment together.

Months back on HBO we watched the last installment of Halloween (2018) with Jamie Lee Curtis who had made her return. It was a very good horror flick, not corny at all!

Mother, And I

My mother and I went out and had a wonderful time today as we always enjoy one another’s company.

We don’t allow outside influence to interfere within our contentment we have no tolerance for anyone’s negativity.

No one can turn us against each other under no circumstance. I am her daughter, she is my mother, what kind of obnoxious and outrageous shit is that?

Those who have no bond of loyalty and love between a relative, or relatives, hate to see others experience the joy and beauty of authentic unity.

We have a pleasant life, we have great peace of mind, and we are truly happy inside, especially not having any undesirable people around us.

We only accept those flying on an exceptional vibe, full of positive energy, and no bullshit!

 

Jealousy

On one of my blogs titled Working Woman, I’ve talked a bit about my mother, and the good relationship we’ve had during my childhood on up.

Ignorant adversaries, however, seem to constantly assume for some reason that if they intervene it would cause some type of uproar or inconvenience within my life.

My mother is not and has never been some crutch or resource that I need to lean on or to survive by.

I don’t understand why these idiotic degenerates continue to attempt to play on her mind through black magic. Since she’s had a history of having a breakdown they prey on what they consider her vulnerability.

The other night, I heard, as I am Clairaudient, the discussion of inciting conflict between my mother and I. Adversaries from time to time want to use her, and speak through her, in order to get to me psychology with bullshit.

These utterances are to actually come from her mouth while they manipulate her mind and emotions, and I am supposed to succumb to the ploy.

My mother does have some personal issues yet I have absolutely no attachment to that whatsoever.

When a person is sick or gets sick they are not in their original mindset, not their usual self, or thinking within their general pattern.

The circumstance has no bearing on my life, just because we have had good memories, and experiences together, doesn’t mean it’s dependent upon my present or future happiness.

Plenty of children and parents have fond recollections and get along. It doesn’t mean we are unable to separate one from the other. If discord was to arise it’s logical to move on with living a healthy life, and at a distance if necessary, all depending on the state of the relationship.

The situation is definitely not normal and I don’t understand our adversaries distorted perception of the relationship between my mother and I and how they assume it would affect my life.

Nevertheless, trying to play on one’s mental illness to perpetuate delusion is expressing the deep mental illness in which they most definitely possess themselves.

It’s all a waste of time and energy as I am ahead and unfazed.

It is really insane how they pathetically and absurdly keep this nonsense going periodically, and this very morbid attachment in which they have to me and my life that they refuse to let go of.

Well, they can sadly hang on by themselves.

 

 

A “Lady” Is Not “Truly” Defined By Her Sexual History

Daily Living, By Miss LaToya

In my opinion, sexual intercourse is a stupid act as I consider a man and his penis totally undesirable.

Nevertheless, I am a very intelligent and logical open-minded woman who knows there are a lot of females who are interested in men and sex, or who may just use men for sex whether they want to have a child or they may just want to get their kicks off.

I can still elaborate common sense to a subject in which makes no sense.

I don’t care what anyone does with their lives or with their bodies as it is of no concern to me, in spite of that fact, as a societal issue and as a woman/lady myself I am inspired to express on this subject.

I’m not at all saying that attitudes will ever change, but that I, and I am quite sure many others, absolutely do not…

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My Words Of Truth And Encouragement To Those Who Are “Rare” In This Day And Age

 

One doesn’t have to be born with a “Caul/Veil” to be “different” and to be remarkably set apart from others.

There are a very small number of people out there in comparison to the large amount of inhabitants within society who have exceptional or rare quality and train of thought.

Wisdom doesn’t come with age for everybody.

There are plenty of narrow-minded people who go through life and who have went through life actually believing that, they know, and knew, everything that there is to know when they acquired nothing legitimate at all but what they have misconstrued or exaggerated through their own restricted boundaries.

And these same people teach their own children and others their same dumb ways and beliefs. Fortunately there are some children who are born and that come out smarter than their parents.

One should definitely not permit oneself to be defined by other people’s ignorance, misconceptions, and generalizations as most who are of an ordinary mindset have a limited range of view and comprehension.

This world is full of weak-minded individuals who are easily influenced. I’ve always been a leader, not a follower.

These individuals are only able to discern within the scope in which their minds will completely allow.

When other people may accuse those of us who are on a particular wavelength and who are at an advanced level of consciousness, mentality, and intellect, of not being logical, realistic, or even moral, it is because they are lacking within specific true knowledge as their minds have in addition been socially and spiritually conditioned to incorporate and accept the mental, emotional, and psychological degrees of rationalization among the majority in who it typically pertains and applies to.

It is very important to remain strong and to not lose one’s self and one’s own distinct identity and genuine nature due to the false conceptions of what others may interpret within our behaviors and expressions because most people are unlike us and don’t know anything other than what they are familiar with and have been accustomed to.

A lot of people put their own insecurities on us all of the time because it makes them feel better as they don’t want to be alone (set apart) within their own tendencies, personal flaws, shortcomings, or inadequacies.

Some people don’t want to willingly acknowledge a rarity or major uniqueness in certain others if they themselves don’t also hold and encounter those uncommon attributes. And some just trifle to tick us off.

Instead of just recognizing how there are other individuals who are “beyond their own capacities to understand” they, nevertheless, proceed to judge us by the ways in which they personally are, how they personally feel, and the innate or orthodox reasoning in which they are able to grasp within themselves upon occurrence, situation, and circumstance.

Their doubts or opposing reactions, if any, is purely a reflection of themselves and their own insecurity and lack of particular knowledge and/or experience.

Everyone, of course, is not and does not act out of these natures, however, for those of them who are, and who do act out, they need to be dismissed from our essence and presence.

It is never appropriate to let anyone make one feel confused or uncertain about who they are, the things they know, and where they stand.

I’ve been one who has always had a strong sense of self in which no one could deter and I am extremely firm within my beliefs and within my facts and I will stand up to anyone who dares to challenge my truths and experience whether it be the mundane or extraordinary.

I as an individual never cared what anyone said or thought about me. I am authentic within self and nobody knows me better than I do, and I don’t have to explain myself to anybody, and I have no apologies. –latoya lawrence

Natural

Ever since I was a young child I knew that if there was something that I didn’t want within my life then the situation was not going to work out.

Only the things that I preferred and under the circumstances in which I truly desired would instances turn out favorably and long lasting to my concordance.

I was never the type of female that ever hoped to one day get married and have children. I didn’t initially yearn to be a mother, when the idea later on within young adulthood came into mind to have a child it was with the intention of being a single parent, yet I eventually changed my mind about having a baby altogether and it was the right choice for me.

If I did have a child though it definitely would have been on my own without a man involved in the picture.

I fortunately grew up in a home without my father present and that is the way I liked it as I grew up strong, confident, independent and liberated-not implying that females that are raised in homes with their father’s can’t turn out that way-it was just an advantage that served a great purpose for me.

When I was little I never wished for or thought about having a dad around and when I saw other children that parents were married or together as a couple it was a situation that I didn’t require to be in I was very content and accustomed to my family order with me and my mom.

I wasn’t alone either there were other kids like me whose mothers raised them without a father it was normal to us. I can’t speak on how they actually felt about the matter, however, everything suited me just fine.

My mother never had any problems out of me I was a good child.

One thing I hated though was when guys were attracted to me or interested in me whether their intentions were good or bad I didn’t care, I wasn’t flattered by any of the attention I was genuinely turned off by it.

And it feels so good that I don’t have to go through undesirable and unsavory individuals who use to send to me the annoying invasions of mind transference through voodoo/black magic.

They had been doing it within many ways for many years within different techniques but with the same motives and that was to bring me down to their level. Whether it was to attempt to lower my self esteem or to get me to have feelings for a man they worked hard at it and failed miserably.

These people were jealous and resentful because I’d never been hurt or dogged out by a man as so many of them had even the guys were envious and jealous of me they all figured if I was in the same predicament as they were I couldn’t or wouldn’t think that I was better than any of them.

They were also jealous and envious of my intelligence and knowledge and where I could go within life if and when the opportunity arose.

They had such a warped sense of mindset that didn’t correspond with mine in the least if they had succeeded in their designs I’d still be the person who I am today with the same mentality no man could ever break me or kill my spirit. I wasn’t built within that fashion.

If I were interested in men I’d be able to get a good man and would only deal with one that was on my level, however, I’m proudly asexual and am fulfilled and complete as a woman and an individual.

 

Every Day Is Mother’s Day And Thanks Giving

Mother’s Day And Thanksgiving

They’re celebrated once a year on specific days yet isn’t every day a day to be thankful for something and to appreciate a good mom?

Of, course, so!

A mother’s love is priceless and cannot ever be replaced. A real mother should be celebrated everyday and within every way that is appropriate to one’s own meaningful  demonstrative expression.

One doesn’t have to actually give birth to become a mother, either, just because a woman has a baby does not automatically qualify or certify her as a genuine or capable parent.

Its about what is in the heart and mind of a person as well as their intentions and deed.

There are some that choose to adopt children which do or that do not have any biological connection to them or within their families, there are also some that take on the role of caregiver, bestowing solicitous attention to others whether personally or on a professional level.

And don’t forget many of us that are pet parents! We raise, nurture, protect, teach and adore our canines as well, the instance and position is a legitimate one.

There is so much to be grateful, thankful, or mindful of all the time even if it’s just something minor.

So to me, gratitude is a constant everlasting event to be observed and celebrated with the things and the people that truly count.

Loner

There are people who wanted to come into my life and be around me but I didn’t want to be bothered with them at all. I was civil, however, I didn’t want to be their friend or to maintain any connection to them.

Some people I just don’t like and I don’t have the patience or tolerance to make allowances.

Those that I’m compatible with intellectually and/or personality wise who I easily get along with and have great communication and rapport with keep in contact and then we go our separate ways.

I prefer intervals rather than to constant association periodic encounters suit me just fine.

I deal with and come into contact with many people through work and local travel yet I have no desire to develop a personal relationship with anyone.

I love being a loner it brings to me satisfaction.

I don’t need to be among a crowd of others to have fun or to have a really good time. I don’t need to lean on others for advice or support.

I’ve always been this way and this mode of life has been fulfilling to me under my circumstances as an individual with preternatural nature and unconventional outlooks.

To each his or her own and I’m certainly doing my own terms within my own way.

Go Figure

When the past comes to reflect without intent there are messages to take notice of that hint to certain information relevant to the present.

As I look at my present where what shines on me are those who share the brightness of my light.

When I look back at the darkness where there are the undesirables that came to surround me to hover and to create a permanent shadow.

In the distant past:

A female named Cherilyn Festus I had met when I was about ten she was fifteen and had moved on my block. Already Cherilyn had a reputation for sucking penis. Her nickname was “Head Hunter”.

Cherilyn’s breath smelled real bad even when she returned back to the neighborhood years later to shack up with a Jamaican guy on the block who’d constantly disrespect her and who she financially supported with the money she’d gotten through financial aid and an inheritance, I think.

Her so-called friends would use her and take advantage of her for her credit card and the little bit of money that she had.

She was supposed to be going to school to become an accountant instead she ended up with no job, no home, and a african man who she shacked up with in order to keep him in the country before he dumped her whoring bummy ass.

(The Jamaican guy before the African had been cheating on Cherilyn the entire time they were together and had a child just as old as the relationship between them that she didn’t know about and moved the mother of the children into his home not too long after Cherilyn moved out).

The recent past:

A lady that I worked with four years ago that actually was a client of mine as she suffered from depression went by the name of Rose.

Rose was the exact same age as me at the time which was forty-one. She had a twenty-one year old daughter, an eighteen year old son, an eighteen month old daughter, and a newborn daughter that was a week old.

The ex husband of her first two children came by the house where she lived asking her for money to support his new wife or girlfriend with.

Rose’s present husband had disrespected her and her oldest daughter in front of me more than once and acknowledged while I was there that her and her daughter both love babies and sex.

This husband of Rose’s had a woman on the side who was the aunt of her oldest daughter’s boyfriend’s ex girlfriend who’d both the husband and the boyfriend would visit together.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that her daughter was six or seven months pregnant.

The husband told me himself directly in front of her that he wanted the one year old child that they shared together but that he didn’t want the newborn.

“So you don’t love her?” Rose had asked.

There was a lot more going on and to this story as the couple constantly fought, too much to write about, and how she was being used and taken advantage of by her own stupidity.

What I had gotten was a close up view of looking through the unfortunate lives of these others that believe it or not thought their shit didn’t stink.

Yet people like me who’d never ended up in situations like these and more, and would never think to as that lifestyle and way of mentality was never in the cards, are discarded as the ones to look down on just because we never got fucked up.

 

 

 

 

 

Mother’s Day/My Birthday

My birthday fell on Mother’s day this year as I turned forty-three last Sunday and I spent the day at the movies with my mother since she planned earlier within that week for us to go see the thriller “Breaking In” starring Gabrielle Union.

The film was of very good quality with plenty of action, fantastic movie!

 

Kin Folk (My Lovely Family)

I love my mother’s side of the family people like them don’t come around so often. I am so proud of them, to be related to them, and that I am of them and that they are of me as we all have our own unique identities that also draws within us our connection.

Knowing where you come from is so very important and interesting. And as a person of the caul it has by nature been detrimental that I not interact with certain types of individuals and things as they are not of my specific essence.

All of my good relatives outweigh the very few that I partially grew up with within my home that had resulted from the union of my grandmother (Catherine) and grandfather (Willie Sr).

My mother’s mother Catherine came from an extremely large family that originated in Virginia. They were very tight and close-knit just the way a real family should be they were good people and would always keep in contact with her when she moved to New York. I remember how they would regularly call her on the phone.

Some of her relatives eventually moved up from Virginia to all places such as parts of New Jersey and other states and boroughs of New York as well.

Census Records
1-40 of the members of my family

When My mother was a little girl her and her siblings would go down south and visit their grandmother and grandfather (Catherine’s parents) on the farm that they owned and where they would produce and sell their very own goods/products. My mother had two aunts and four uncles altogether and all members of the family cooperated and played a significant part in making the family business a success.

My great grandmother (Catherine’s mother) use to make homemade soaps and foods and etc…I have other relatives that owned their own funeral home that was still doing business in the 1980’s I don’t know if some of them expanded or still have the same business running currently.

On the farm our family had lots of animals including dogs. They had cows that my mother would milk, horses, mules, pigs, chickens-one of the mules had kicked my young uncle in the head once.

My mother had a lot of fun down there and was shown and given much love just as she did with me. I always had love and security around me that contribute to the strong person that I am today my real family from Virginia all stuck together and there were and still are many of us.

Even though many have passed on they are definitely not forgotten and their being deceased makes them no less of relevant to me as opposed to those that are actually living. They continue to be here with me in spirit and one would be a fool to fuck with me with all of the ancestors that I have lingering around loving and protecting me and my loved ones.

Census Records
41-80 members also included in my family

As I have communicated with them and gotten to also know them on another level “home is truly where the heart is” and no one can break that bond. Our love is a house homed by our energy.

One day as time went by Catherine just didn’t have time for her family anymore as she was more preoccupied with hanging out with the neighborhood trash within the area we weren’t even suppose to be living in that area she was originally set to move into a corner two family home over in another part of queens. She didn’t want to know her family again until she got ill from having a stroke back in the early 1980’s.

How could she forget where she came from to go down to the lowest forms of disgust?

I could and would never be so inauthentic and disloyal to my nature to be turned around when tested by negativity.

Nevertheless, here and there runts do run through our family trees that is why it is so important to not intermix genetically with certain lines of individuals even though what may have been done before our time we to certain extents have no control over.

I found a census that dates back to 1940 recorded of eighty members of my family, there are so many more of them not listed, however, a cousin of mine that is on the list acknowledged how my grandparents had another house other than the one that my mother and her siblings use to visit a bigger and beautiful home that they shared when she’d visit. Wow, I just can’t get over how much family we have and my mother remembers a lot of them I even remember some!

 

 

To Elude The Truth?

felineIsn’t it something when sick people who are extremely jealous and envious of us try to relentlessly stop us within life then attempt to blames us when or if difficulty occurs knowing all along that they were behind the sabotage to begin with?

As they deliberately try to cause damage for us through their duplicitous methods of intervention whether by lies and/or manipulation of circumstance they actually believe that we ourselves are suppose to be the scapegoat?

It was often so strange to me how these type of people considered themselves to be clever within their ominous ventures as their undertakings have always appeared and proved to be rather transparent within the keenly focused mind’s eye especially when the subject of their scheme was well aware of their own obvious talents and skill and logical reasoning of natural probability for success.

The red flag is automatically raised when particular essence according to bestowal does not properly go into fruition, so who is the genuine culpable fool?

Eleggua

coconutsI stay close to Elegba as we have a special bond that no one can break, he is one of my African soldiers, the chief among the others yet all of them maintaining their high roles, whether it is my Goddess Oshun, right hand man Ogun, grandfather Orunmila or backup man Ochosi.

I love Elegba, he is and has been so good to me, and it is unbelievable.

Never have I been able to trust so loyally within a divine spirit to do right by me than he and my other specific Orishas that reside within and around my life and upon the universe, not to mention all of the truth , guidance,  love and respect that they have all expressed to me.

I am still amazed whenever Elegba occasionally shows and let’s me know when his powerful spirit is surrounding me by giving me signs, whether he turned on the light bulb that was screwed into a fixture of my old house that wasn’t at all functioning to turning on the television set of my current home after I had turned it off among other astonishing yet plausible things.

I remember when Ogun use to unlock the lock to the front door of my old home on occasion a few days shortly after I’d correspond to him within ritual.

There are many genuine tales of testimony that I could share on behalf of the congenial relations between my Orishas and I along with my beautiful and loving ancestors.

I feel so honored to have been born into the lineage that naturally incorporated these special Deities into my life, where would I have been without the necessary properties of the caul that imparted me with the ability of extra sensory perception to acknowledge and to communicate with those intangible beings, vibrations, energies and forces that have been looking out for and watching over me long before I had even come to know about it?

They all had been with me since I was a baby, especially my ancestors.

coconut-and-spiceWhere would I be without their direction and protection aside from the nature of my very own birthright?

I just cannot believe how they have not failed me, they are so real, so sincere, they are so within accordance and within correlation to the individual that I am and within vibration and within our connections within the universe.

 

 

 

Lovely Mementos

It is nice to look back and reminisce from the old days.

For the most part I come from a high class family with the exception of my father’s side. A few bad apples don’t spoil the whole entire family of generations and I am very proud of my lineage of strong and independent women and strong hardworking men yet I wasn’t able to post my grandmother’s large size fabulous family of relatives from Virginia so for now I’ll just post some of the beautiful memories of my grandfather’s before a few of the bad apples (his mother, his son when he got older, and his other daughter that I didn’t bother to post) became rotten.

LaToyaBrandieMe and my dog Brandie when we were both still babies she was such a cute pup!

My Mamma when she was pregnant with me she was so adorable
My Mamma when she was pregnant with me she was so adorable

AmandaFamily 2My great-grandmother holding my mother when she was a baby and my great-grandmother holding my mother and her brother when they were still baby youngsters..

Grandfather 2My grandfather and his dog when they were both still babies.

 

Sabette 1Sabette 2My great-aunt when she was young and old (My great grandmother’s sister).

Sabette 3

My grandmother, grandfather, mother, uncle and family.Family 1

My mother and her brother.Family 3

My grandfather with a colleague in the army.Grandfather 1

My great-grandmother and her sister (They actually come from a family of nine brothers and sisters).Amanda and Sabette

And my aunt Charise.Charise 1Charise 2

Us Caulbearers Never Walk Alone

bosomYes, by nature I have always been a very strong individual mentally, emotionally, and even physically. I have also always been a loner yet I have never been and have never actually walked alone.

I have always been very well-liked by others and I was always able to make friends very easily yet never desired to associate with undesirables who became fond of me only those of my class or level would I choose to allow into my circle if I were amicable enough toward them or interested, however, I was never the type that wanted or needed to be around a crowd as I always found confidence and contentment within myself and within my surroundings no matter where I went.

I held my own ground and had preferred the solitary style of my own nature.

Those who I did become sociable with, depending on exactly who it was because different personalities can also bring about the innate variety that is within ourselves, we had stayed in touch but didn’t have to constantly make contact with one another, although, others do often tend to reach out more to me because they are attracted to my aura and find that they can communicate with me in many ways that they are unable to communicate within others in specific and because I am a fun person to be around but for the most part because I am genuine and unique.

I appreciate people who think ‘big’ and that are able to exchange significant and challenging ideas with me, individuals that are not afraid to climb that ‘higher ladder’ unto infinity, reaching that anomalous spectrum unbounded by restriction, those that have that natural drive and enthusiasm because I am not just a talker or a thinker but I am a doer, a person who makes and demands change.

Like I have said before, I’ve always had people who truly cared for me and that had looked out for me other than family and some who have even went out of their way for me because I was indeed worth it yet the majority of them who weren’t on the level never really knew me for the individual that I actually was as I was never one that was average or ordinary.

Just because people spend time hanging around our presence does not at all mean that they exactly know us all that well.

Insecure individuals as well as those lacking within particular knowledge would rather define us for who they want us to be instead of accepting us for who we authentically are as human beings personality that distinguishes character, ability and all.

Some if not most people in general take for granted and assume what others are like under certain circumstances due to their own limited view of perception and experience within the inner or outer scope of things.

Nothing counts more than self awareness and discovery, the realization of the reality that is around the very structure of one’s very own foundation and direct source of information.

First hand experience is the best hand to learn from, not only to undergo but to properly interpret what we come to know.

As children born of the caul or children that are very spiritually inclined and “in tune” with the universe around us we have a radar that is very well within and beyond the range of frequency, allowing our ‘spiritual antennas’ to receive and transmit energy to the highest and magnificent of degree.

Except for ourselves, other individuals looking at us from the outside cannot see what we are surrounded by around ourselves.

I’ll say it again, I have never been and have never walked alone even when I did not know it, my ancestors and spirit guides have always been there beside me watching over me and providing for me through fashions of arcane communication and relation.

I can recall so many accounts of occurrence, times when I was in the midst of danger and they had come to save my life and/or had prevented serious injury and harm from being done unto me.

One that I’ll end with, though, pertains to the night my dining room was filled with the presence of a large group of my deceased relatives (the place where I had kept one of my altars at the time) and the strong bond that was felt there between us all along with the love and the security. They were all there gathered together in my home all able to visit and to spend moments of vital family union. Only the good members of the brood were allowed to come through.

Later on that night, after they all had left, one of my other deceased relatives had arrived to an empty setting and I was able to see him clearly and a voice had said to me “That’s Uncle Lee”.

I had said to myself, “Oh maybe that’s just a made up reference”, because sometimes foreign entities will come through or those that I am not familiar with to say things that I can’t put together or that just have no purpose that I am not immediately cognizant of, however, this was no foreign spirit messaging me that night I later found out.

I happened to mention the incident to my mother, what I had heard, and the description of the apparition that I saw, and she acknowledged to me that the man’s name was indeed “Lee” (a name that I’ll use instead of his real name because I am very protective and respectful toward my ancestors and I don’t share certain things that are sacred between us), he was her uncle, her mother’s brother and that he would always arrive to gatherings late after everything was over and after everyone had already gone.

Everything that my mother had described to me about my great uncle from his physical demeanor down to his character traits in which I had visioned and had felt within him through my own sight had astonishingly coincided with what my mother had told me and I had never seen this man before and we had never discussed him.

One thing that I know is that I am so proud to have him as a part of the family along with the others who are around me and who all will never let me ever walk here on this earth alone or without their love, guidance and protection.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Not So Strange To Me But True

mushrooms in the forestWhen I enter into one of my female resident’s room she frequently tells me how very pretty I am and that I must have a lot of boyfriends and a lot of sex.

And I asked her why does she say that and she answered to me because that is all that attractive people do and I found that comment awful strange considering the fact that looks don’t seem to have any bearing on how much sexual activity one gets.

I’ve seen plenty of ugly men and women with girlfriends and boyfriends and so many of them with children just look around everywhere you go, and they had to have had sex in order to have gotten those kids, I highly doubt that the majority of them went to sperm banks.

I told her no that I don’t have a lot of boyfriends just admirers and that I do not desire to have a boyfriend. So she asked me if I was a lesbian and I told her no that I was asexual that I don’t like men or women and that the human penis turns me off. She told me that she liked the penis and that she use to love to have sex and to not tell everybody how I felt because people would think that I was crazy and I told her that she was a very smart lady.

I had been told that before by another older woman to not tell nobody that I never had any feelings for a man and that if I did get involved with one at that time I would just use him to conceive a child but she wasn’t telling me to not say anything out of people thinking that I was crazy but because it would cause animosity toward me with certain men and even ignorant judgmental women.

She just didn’t want me to have to go through anymore unnecessary problems with undesirables than I was already going through and I understood but at that time I had already proudly let the cat out of the bag about how I felt even though some things I guess are better left unsaid and kept quiet just to keep the peace.

In spite of that I have to be free regardless and I don’t have any regrets in revealing the truth.

For all of my life since I was a child I have honestly never cared what anyone ever said or thought about me and it had always showed within my state of being and I know that is rare with most people in this day and age because a lot of individuals are bothered and affected by the thoughts and actions of others toward them.

Nevertheless, within my extreme uniqueness and creativity within thought, personality, and character I have been called a “far from crazy” individual with “exceptional sense” straight to my face by those who felt the need to express what they had observed through my presence and by my talent and knowledge.

mushroom sproutYet my knowledge, talents and presence have not always been appreciated by some, especially the undesirables-but who actually cares-I know that I don’t! That fact is not going to stop me from breathing and surviving, it is not what is feeding me, clothing me or paying my bills. And it is definitely not something that I need to support my peace and happiness!

We all have opinions though and all of our views, of course, are not going to be agreed upon or accepted by others and our opinions and perspectives may even seem or make us appear to be crazy to certain others and vise versa but a wide range of diversity is what makes the world go round even though there is much unneeded and unwanted variety and assortment that the world can do without.

One topic that I do not understand is when it comes to the penis, what is so alluring about it among so many? I always thought that the male organ was such an unpleasant thing to see testicals and all.

I would not even bring up the subject, however, I couldn’t help it because every time I’d assist one of my male residents with a urinal, catheter or diaper I couldn’t help be reminded to think “This is what women go crazy over?!”. “This is what so many women need and desire?!”

The sight of a penis actually makes me want to puke and that nasty shit that spurts out from it (the ejaculations and discharges) I wouldn’t want that going up inside of me constantly or continuously.

It is unfortunately a part of how we come into the world and I am plenty aware that there is so much to human biology that is absolutely amazing but the fact that the soul is the actual sustaining life force and the body is just the temporary living shell gives me comfort in knowing that I am so much more than part of a male’s DNA.

And we can be partially made up of an individual without having any of their traits (https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/09/10/go-figure-food-for-thought/), thank goodness!

As a young girl and as a woman I had always actually wished that life was made up within a different fashion I wished it could be that if I as a female had to reproduce that I would be able to get pregnant on my own without any sperm just by a more pure method and natural independent process. I know that I am not the only woman/girl who feels or who has felt this way it is a huge world that we live in and whatever I may think or feel there is always someone else out there who has had that same thought and feeling. This particular issue may not be that common, but it is so.

mushroomTo me, the only beautiful thing that I read in the bible was Mary getting pregnant by the holy spirit, why couldn’t it had been that way in general getting pregnant without having to have sex and having to incorporate semen?

I do not have any children and I am glad that I don’t. I don’t want any child of mine coming here into the world the way that it is today.

To me sex is sick, and it is also a mind thing, because what is so necessary about having another human being on top of you intertwined thrusting back and forth-that is just my honest opinion.

And that is all it is my opinion!