Category Archives: Self-Esteem

Kin Folk (My Lovely Family)

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I love my mother’s side of the family people like them don’t come around so often. I am so proud of them, to be related to them, and that I am of them and that they are of me as we all have our own unique identities that also draws within us our connection.

Knowing where you come from is so very important and interesting. And as a person of the caul it has by nature been detrimental that I not interact with certain types of individuals and things as they are not of my specific essence.

All of my good relatives outweigh the very few that I partially grew up with within my home that had resulted from the union of my grandmother (Catherine) and grandfather (Willie Sr).

My mother’s mother Catherine came from an extremely large family that originated in Virginia. They were very tight and close-knit just the way a real family should be they were good people and would always keep in contact with her when she moved to New York. I remember how they would regularly call her on the phone.

Some of her relatives eventually moved up from Virginia to all places such as parts of New Jersey and other states and boroughs of New York as well.

Census Records
1-40 of the members of my family

When My mother was a little girl her and her siblings would go down south and visit their grandmother and grandfather (Catherine’s parents) on the farm that they owned and where they would produce and sell their very own goods/products. My mother had two aunts and four uncles altogether and all members of the family cooperated and played a significant part in making the family business a success.

My great grandmother (Catherine’s mother) use to make homemade soaps and foods and etc…I have other relatives that owned their own funeral home that was still doing business in the 1980’s I don’t know if some of them expanded or still have the same business running currently.

On the farm our family had lots of animals including dogs. They had cows that my mother would milk, horses, mules, pigs, chickens-one of the mules had kicked my young uncle in the head once.

My mother had a lot of fun down there and was shown and given much love just as she did with me. I always had love and security around me that contribute to the strong person that I am today my real family from Virginia all stuck together and there were and still are many of us.

Even though many have passed on they are definitely not forgotten and their being deceased makes them no less of relevant to me as opposed to those that are actually living. They continue to be here with me in spirit and one would be a fool to fuck with me with all of the ancestors that I have lingering around loving and protecting me and my loved ones.

Census Records
41-80 members also included in my family

As I have communicated with them and gotten to also know them on another level “home is truly where the heart is” and no one can break that bond. Our love is a house homed by our energy.

One day as time went by Catherine just didn’t have time for her family anymore as she was more preoccupied with hanging out with the neighborhood trash within the area we weren’t even suppose to be living in that area she was originally set to move into a corner two family home over in another part of queens. She didn’t want to know her family again until she got ill from having a stroke back in the early 1980’s.

How could she forget where she came from to go down to the lowest forms of disgust?

I could and would never be so inauthentic and disloyal to my nature to be turned around when tested by negativity.

Nevertheless, here and there runts do run through our family trees that is why it is so important to not intermix genetically with certain lines of individuals even though what may have been done before our time we to certain extents have no control over.

I found a census that dates back to 1940 recorded of eighty members of my family, there are so many more of them not listed, however, a cousin of mine that is on the list acknowledged how my grandparents had another house other than the one that my mother and her siblings use to visit a bigger and beautiful home that they shared when she’d visit. Wow, I just can’t get over how much family we have and my mother remembers a lot of them I even remember some!

 

 

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A Day In The Life Of A Working Lady

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When I finally left Toy R Us back in May of this year as I told a representative at the corporate office that I wanted to resign I had already had another job working at Burlington Coat Factory.

When I got hired at Burlington it wasn’t for the position that I had initially applied for (just like at Toys R Us nobody really wanted to do that job) the desperate bitch manager named Ruth explained to me that she was going to put me in the fitting room to work because none of the other previous fitting room attendants were able to meet audit for an entire year so I was suppose to be the new slave to put to the test and use? I don’t think so!

I wasn’t like the other worthless trashy flunky bitches (Marilyn Bartnick, Johanna Jackson and Latima Hall) that needed to be there. And I am darn sure not anybody’s ass kisser. All three of those inferior bitches tried to start trouble with me yet I ignored them as Ruth had stated “LaToya, your working with a bunch of women, just keep your mouth shut”.

I do understand that “average” jealous women do get catty and petty but not “real” women-“classy women” of intelligence and purpose don’t have time for nonsense. All we care about is being happy and taking great care of ourselves and optimistically preparing different things for our pleasant futures.

Johanna got mad because I expressed to Marilyn how I caught her sad and obvious attempt to sabotage my work-not that working in a fitting room is serious duty-however to people of that nature they don’t know what real work is so Johanna failed at her intention to make me look incompetent at a job that I was far overqualified for.

It reminded me of when I was one of the top workers at Sears about five years ago and after having working there for four years straight a few envious employees tried to mess up my work to get me into trouble, little did the stupid asses know that there were hidden cameras back there in the storage room where I was in charge of, and they were the ones that the head manager penalized. They had to clean up everything that they had intentionally unorganized.

Ruth told me that she knew I was doing everything that I was suppose to do (because she claimed she could see from afar, hidden cameras I assumed, because security also claimed that they knew everything going on within the area too) but that I just needed to speed up on my task of overloaded volumes of clothing that were being returned back to the store on a day to day basis and at the same time organize clothes to go back onto the sales floor while cleaning out and up after the fitting room as customers were nasty and constantly stacking up extra clothing. She wanted me to do all that shit within a short time every day so that she could make audit and take credit? That bitch must have been out of her fucking mind!

The real truth of it all is that they were always backed up due to the fact that they were too cheap to hire other people to fill out other positions I had heard other employees complaining of the excess areas of work that were being stacked upon them (one person bombarded with the impossible unless one was going to fuck up the work just to get it done within a hurry).

Latima, a literally bald headed bitch with no hair that was barely on the scalp, had the nerve to come to work with a thick long weave the next day after sporting her natural no hair style. This girl is so hideous looking as those are usually the ones to start conflict and she knew that she was ugly because she’d come to work with globs of make up on and still looked bad she got mad at me for doing work that another employee told me to do that she claimed she was going to do then accused me of lying about being told by the other worker to do so.

It was all a set up, silly shit that I ignored, and she made a scene because I would not give her the reaction that she was looking for I never understood why trash thought people should fear them they need to get off of their insecurities as they are absolutely nothing to fear. A customer was even disgusted by her and told me to report her as she was so unprofessional.

The next day Latima didn’t come into work so I told the woman named Karen who was in on the lie that “I come here to work and not for no bullshit” then she got scared and started kissing my ass because she knew she was guilty.

The day after that Ruth calls me into her office because she was disappointed because after a little over a month employed there I wasn’t being the flunky that she hoped and planned that I would be by working me like a damn dog and getting me to do what she wanted when she wanted and said to me “If you don’t speed it up in two more weeks then you’re out the door”.

I said to her, “Will you give me another position in the store since things are not happening fast enough for you?”

“No”, Ruth said.

“I’m leaving now because I’m an excellent worker”, I told her as I refuse to let anyone control me by threats of any kind just to keep a job. I can find work anywhere unlike the others that she had stranded there and wrapped around her finger.

“Okay”, Ruth got mad and said. “I’m going to terminate you out the system right now”. However she lied because she didn’t terminate me right then and there. She hadn’t expected me to come out with what I did. I have too much self esteem and self confidence to stay and tolerate bullshit-she thought she was a bitch-she didn’t know me very well because I can ultimately be the definition of a real bitch!

Instead of actually terminating me within the system I received a new hire benefits bullshit sent to my email later that day:

Ignited By Inspiration

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Warning/Beware by misslatoya

Justmoon said 1 day ago

Love love love your words I read at a a true juncture of almost self doubt and self determination. Thank you

You said 2 hours ago

Bravo to you! When it comes down to genuine determination there is absolutely no doubt within self as far as I am concerned that would be a contradiction within itself.

Stay encouraged, stay confident, and most of all stay fierce.

Warning/Beware

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Words of caution: In trying to hurt the good people the no good only hurt themselves we are fiercely protected in every way by a higher power. And we are in no way whatsoever effected by the small traffic scattered down below we ride above on bigger planes heading in clear view.

Life is no joke and I have said many times that logic cannot be explained to sick people and I have seen life teach these kinds of people the most harsh lessons when their times called for it.

I have to honestly say that my life is doing very well I am truly happy within myself and it never took me a long time to get there I’ve always been secure within my state of being since at a very early age so I don’t relate when I’ve heard others say “it takes a long time to get there” as they speak only for themselves while generalizing within their own personal life and/or experience.

I have so much peace I have all of the things that I need, I laugh every day, I am doing very well on my job as usual and I am shocked that my boss recently revealed high praise and compliments to me regarding my work and performance as I and a few others didn’t think that he seemed to appreciate us.

Some have already waken up but what some folk still don’t seem to understand is that you can’t go around messing with spiritual people and not eventually reap the consequences.

A message came to me a few weeks ago that I got the best of all of my enemies and that they feel that it is just no use in getting the results that they want. It also came to me how they wish that I was and how they want me to become trash and that was never a secret to me because they always envied my character.

As a person genuinely born with a caul there is not really too much that anyone can do around me without me knowing about it especially when it caters to me and my life it has always been that way that is just something that certain people like me are naturally inherited with by birth and something that we are very blessed with, and it is nothing to take lightly or for us to take for granted.

When we keep quiet about or do not mention certain things it does not mean that we’re not aware of those situations and/or happenings.

It is no secret that individuals often get angry at us for “knowing things” and for being wise in ways that they definitely do not appreciate, however, that is absolutely not my problem.

I woke up again this morning after having a dream about Danielle and how some of the affiliated people around her (no one of any importance just her lame personal associates as she is a flunky) are on the internet trying to pose as me in posting and commenting online ( or just making up shit or both) as a way to get back at me for speaking the truth about her and Bibi on the job in the recent past. And as disappointing to them as this may sound it is really useless if they think or feel that this nonsense will have any effect or impact within my life if anything it is really more enlightening.

People of trash have always been jealous and envious of me ever since I was a little girl and have always told lies on me and it has never affected me or stopped me from being happy within myself or succeeding in whatever it was that I wanted to do, of course, that is why witchcraft was used for so long within the past to attempt to make me look bad within the public eye, to cause blockages within all aspects of my life and to destroy me as that is usually what pathetic people resort to against others that have something wonderful going on for them within life.

Yet they cannot use their witchcraft anymore as an aide in seeking the illusions and delusions of deceit to appear as a false reality in order to manipulate circumstance and the perceptions that others have upon their targets.

That witchcraft shit never worked on me. And now they’re totally on their own even though they still try to work spells and bring the witchcraft back but it is to no avail I am much more powerful and certainly much stronger within spirit and personality my enemies are all weak that is why they cannot move on, band together, and continue on.

Why would an army of garbage have to come up against one or two people for so many years unless that individual was a threat and why would it take so many to come up against one person? It is all explanatory within itself. It is not easy to take down individuals like me.

And what is really absurd is all of this went on through word of mouth none of these people ever met me, sat down and had a conversation with me, and it is so strange how they tried to ruin someone who never did anything to them yet that is what evil does-attack the good.

Trash have gotten away with bringing good people down for so many years through their underhanded tactics that they have finally come across one that they could not get over on.

It only adds extra credence to the fact that these types of individuals are innately incapable of elevating within the mind only to remain within that tremendously low level of function and understanding and their actions are a sincere reflection of themselves.

It is constantly the same things with them: talking about and lying about other people-who cares? The shit is tired! All this shows is that this is what bothers them and what brings them down in return they use this method on others assuming that they would be hurt in the same fashion that they themselves feel wounded.

No, I am sorry it does not work like that with me and those of us that are not of that nature and insufficient mentality. Yes, we are aware and we do watch our backs but we do not sit around thinking or worrying about the lies that ignorant and sick people spread about us and we damn sure don’t care about what any of them may have to say.

That is surly a dark place to be in what a miserable world that my enemies live in where they have no true self esteem where gossip rules and reigns within their world where the thoughts and actions of others either make or break them where what is important to them in their fallacy is bullshit within our own genuine reality.

See, they don’t even realize what they constantly show this is not shit that will harm us but this is the kind of shit that they actually show others in which in how to destroy them.

They are ridiculous within every sense of the word.

We live and are rooted within truth and can see above and beyond the scope as we are in tune to nature and to our surroundings we are productive beings serving our purpose, survivors climbing to higher planes, adventurers who welcome challenge and winners that thrive within the universe.

We are not confined or limited, we do not fear, and we are definitely not afraid to be authentic within our selves.

 

Calm, Cool, “Caul” And Collected

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teddy-bearsAs an individual by nature I was always quite composed and sure of myself, never having any serious doubts yet thorough within analyzing any circumstance or possibility because I am someone who is fair and very open-minded and that doesn’t generalize or impetuously jump to final conclusions.

Though born with second-sight and having that sharp “eye” to see and perceive beyond the ordinary scope of what is considered normal I and we as “sensitives”, “clairvoyants” and “mediums” instantly read, feel and communicate energy, vibration, and situation as well as people and their own personal circumstances without and sometimes even with intention.

It is interesting how people with our faculty come across many individuals that constantly lie to us and attempt to hide things from us while all along we know the truth and can automatically view what they want and try to keep concealed as they’re not fooling anyone but themselves, we may even laugh and shake our heads at them.

Many individuals don’t understand how our paranormal abilities work as we all operate within distinct modes, some within similar fashions while others within the unusual or idiosyncratic, and often underestimate or downplay our capacity.

Many get angry at us for being able to supernaturally detect an instance and they fear us because they do not understand how we can know the things that we do without having to be physically present or personally aware by someone of an event or occurrence while it may take place as others have to tell them of those things for them to know and to hear about it, things that they find out on television or by reading a news paper we could beforehand already have had a vision, message, or dream about.

Often sometimes among certain individuals they believe that if they’ve never experienced something of a paranormal nature then it isn’t possible for it to come about or that is does not exist or that it is mistaken for something else.

Sometimes it is even envy or jealousy that comes into play as some people don’t want another to have an attribute that they do not have even though deep down inside they do know and believe within the obvious yet go into denial due to not wanting to accept and will raise questions to find a reason to doubt.

Even if particular individuals are aware of things we have to remember that it is just hard for them to “accept” certain truths in general.

I’ve been told that my psychic abilities are very intuitive by others who also have the “power” and also by those that do not but that are able to recognize or observe an aptitude within another individual’s presence and I have been greatly resented by some for being able to sense and to recognize things about others that the average human being could not detect just like quite a few of us have throughout our lifetime.

teddiesWe all go through things in life, however, we should never regret or be ashamed to acknowledge who we are and what we are about no matter how uncommon or unacceptable or “supernatural” that it is within society because if we do we are denying and repressing ourselves and that is not healthy or moral. As long as we are living productively and not bothering anyone why be afraid to self express and/or self identify?

I don’t know how to be anyone else but me and I wouldn’t want to camouflage just to avoid ridicule or confrontation.

We come out much better taking on the challenge yet I do understand those in particular who often have to play it safe due to their own set of circumstances and the vileness of others so we have to live and do what is within our personal best interest.

 

 

 

My Epithet

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islandWriting is my first love and one of the career advancements that I continue to do and head for within the present as well as toward the future but I am a woman of many talents and enterprise so I don’t limit myself to just one or two things.

I achieve to accomplish all of what I have celestially been permitted through divine guidance, opportunity and advantage.

We must never be misdirected from our path of destiny and we must truly know and believe within ourselves to maintain and deliver.

When the time to reach one’s entire peak arrives it will come and it will be in the most unexpected of fashion just be prepared and ready for the responsibility and diligently learn during this preparation period that is selected by “our higher power”.

When what is ordained begins to manifest we will ultimately go into the rewards of fruition.

I am an inventor a visionary, the lead in a play, the artistic mind power behind the big idea or the singer in the band (although I don’t sing), I always shine.

I am sociable by nature with an eye for the electric. Others are drawn to me and they admire me.

I am especially attracted to the art world and I thrive out in the world and appreciate being surrounded by other people the only exception to this is when I am working on something artistic, where I can find myself completely engrossed in a project for hours at a time.

I am a leader, I am competitive, I am unconventional, I am creative, I am confident, I am intuitive and I am process oriented.

I work best when my environment gives me authority over my creative process, offers a combination of autonomy and teamwork is fast paced and sustains open-mindedness.

I work well with inventors who share my creative mind and my ability to work in a sometimes chaotic work environment. When I get together with my inventor colleagues the ideas start to flow, and I feel inspired by putting our minds together.

I also appreciate working with Planner colleagues because as the person who brings “big ideas”, I rely on someone to take care of and remember the details. I and my Planner coworkers make the perfect team, working in tandem to cover all aspects of a project.

As a natural leader and an easygoing person, I am fortunate in that I work well with all types of colleagues. However, I may find that if there are too many other visionaries on my team, I get the feeling that there are “too many other cooks in the kitchen”.

This can be frustrating for me and those on my team as they may be confused about whom to follow. I may find that I have to adjust my leadership style a bit for my action-taker colleagues who prefer solitary work.

I am a team and people oriented person, yet it can be good to remember that there are those types of people who work best alone as I often also do myself.

 

 

Only The Strong Survive And Only The Wise Surpass

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tea for twoLife within this physical world in general is not always such a very pleasant experience to undergo.

However, those of us who are shaped for endurance and that are able to withstand many of the turbulent of trials and tribulations that have been caused or brought on by other unsavory individuals as well as by the negative and inevitable forces that rotate and that vibrate amid the universe and which that inhabit the planet instinctively come to recognize how to sustain even within the most unimaginable of circumstances.

How many times have those of us in particular went and got through something that we didn’t think or know that we could actually handle just to look back and declare that we didn’t understand how we had indeed done it?

In actuality though, we do understand how we stood, maintained, and overcame due to our state of “consciousness” if we are truly awake and if we are grounded and have a stable foundation. And we know that again when the time comes we will still be able to bravely face and bear whatever it is that is ready to take us on.

Each period of and during our challenges we grow and become even more confident and courageous knowing and believing that no matter what the situation may turn out to be whether it is expected or unexpected that it will work out for our benefit instead of within our failure.

It is within the strength and the way of the elevated mind and the spirit, having a genuine peace of mind and peace within spirit also allows one to tolerate and persevere with an ease and unaffected state of being that others whom are “asleep” would not understand and/or not be able to do.

I’ve been told how good of a person that I am and I know that I am that is why I have gotten attacked from an early age and why most people that are good by nature have it hard by others.

It is only when you are truly good and there is not so many of us out there anymore yet we cannot define ourselves by how others see us because good to us can mean bad to someone else but that would not exactly make us bad people. We are just reminders to the bad how bad they really are that is why they have to try too hard to make us look so bad.

No one is obligated, nevertheless, the good need to look out for the good and I have helped so many people all over the world without even intending to and without even realizing it just by staying real, expressing myself, and sharing my experiences!

magicSymptoms Of Voodoo/Black Magic by misslatoya

kindu said 6 days ago

Hello Miss latoya,
I am so thankful to you for enlightening me.
When i feel sad about what i went thru, then i suddenly want revenge. At the bottom of my heart i feel i should wait and see how god will punish them. But sometimes i get impatient.
I will need more time to feel comfortable about it.
If you don’t mind, may i send you my ex-bf and my cousin sister’s picture? If you could tell me why they are after me, and what are they up to? Kindly send me your email id please.

I have never meet a person like you online. So far all the people i meet didn’t bother to answer my questions. You are a very kind person. I feel very comfortable to share my problems with you. Thanks alot.

Thks
Kindu

You said 6 days ago

Whether you feel sad or angry about the things that you were wrongly and unnecessarily put through your thoughts and feelings in regard to wanting revenge are very normal and justifiable, and it is nothing at all for you to feel guilty or ashamed about.

It is very logical and understandable.

And you deciding within your heart to wait for a higher power within it’s own time to take care of your enemies and work on your behalf and on the behalf of anyone else that these people may have wronged just shows that you are a person of good-nature who wants to go about doing things the right way as you see fit to how you see is right through your own morals or state of well-being and that is very commendable.

You will be blessed.

You’re just a person of upstanding character with positive intentions who wants to see the people get back what they deserve and believe me they will even though it probably doesn’t seem like it because it often seems as if the evil people get away with everything while the good people continue to be put through many different unwanted challenges but it just makes us even stronger and much wiser than we already are.

We grow while the negative people remain stagnant and headed straight to their eventual doom. Believe me, those kind of people are not happy.

If you never feel comfortable about seeking out help to do a ritual for your enemies demise with the help of the universes supernatural energies that is alright do not worry about it let the matter take care of itself naturally.

I am sorry about your experiences with other people online and other spiritual advisers that you may have consulted. It is sad but most are not truly out to help or to relate to one’s situation and circumstances they are not very trustworthy and are just worried and primarily concerned about money and financially profiting/gain most of them don’t even have gifts of insight and if they do their powers are not really that strong or accurate because they are not grounded within depth of purpose and authenticity.

And they are not on the correct side of the podium, meaning that on the outside they display a following of the light when indeed they are just followers of the darkness. Don’t trust too many people out there and don’t believe in many of these so called psychics they are not real they are just liars and manipulators. Don’t give out your money to nobody!

I really hope for you the best and you can email me and I’ll see what I can find out for you.spiritualworkbylatoya@verizon.net