Into Me ❤

 

I am into myself. I have always been into myself.

I have learned by naturally being this way I can never be swayed or psychologically manipulated by anyone or by the world. 

I Do Not Want To Be What The World Considers Normal❤

 

I have been told directly when I was a teenager and during my adulthood that I was not “normal” by three people because I am very unique.

Some meant those words as an acknowledgement to me that I was uncommon to them as others have used the term toward me as an insult.

But what these few who said this to me, whether it was a harmless mention or one to intentionally hurt, did not realize is that their words were a huge compliment to me.

It made me feel good to not be categorized as being the same.

No one can drown out my voice or my existence. Though, I have always detested the existence of those who I feel should not exist.

I am one who could never conform to the so-called norm of what is considered normal- to do as others do and to think as others do.

To accept and adhere to the approved dominant set of principles, rules, or standards within the characteristics and behavior carried out by most of society.

It was never my inborn tendency to behave according to socially accepted conventions or typicality.

I often rejected, and refused to comply or go along with what went against my nature or way of thinking, being, and doing due to my unconventionality.

I prefer my original, unusual, different, so-called strange to some, out of the ordinary, original, new-fashioned disposition- because it is the real me.

I never had the desire to join in- that is why I always stood out.

I hated whenever people tried to manipulate or coerce me by subtle means trying to use psychology, head games, or their way of reasoning to undermine, challenge, or change my attitude and ways through passing unfavorable judgment upon me, downplaying me, turning against me, or underestimating me.

These actions never caused self-doubt or fear within me to surrender to just be accepted.

Oftentimes it infuriated me or caused me to pleasantly distance myself from those kinds of individuals.

My resistance has caused in many instances among those who were in opposition or who were incongruent, great friction between us.

This is why I am a leader and not a follower because I never went along with society because it was the thing to do or else, I would be an outcast or labeled or considered crazy.

I refused to be what I was not to please others and lie to myself just to get by.

I have received backlash or so-called consequences for doing things my way that others did not understand or interpreted their way as they could see no other way due to their own social conditioning and/or lack of awareness or knowledge in diversity.

Yet, all the occurrences did was make me more determined to maintain my identity and to continue to be who I am.

If anyone is to criticize me, laugh at me, call or consider me insane for sticking to my guns, then so be it.

Nothing can deter me from loving the person within me.

To me, certain others are the crazy ones.

I could just as easily criticize and laugh at them for seeing things in my own way. The way I feel is everyone has the right to be who they are and live out their life accustomed to how they are as long as they do not impose their ways on me and try to make my life difficult on account of their indifference.

I never cared or tried to force my ways on anyone but others failed to treat me in the same. Some people have a problem with control and some cannot deal with what is foreign to what they know and have been taught.

Something unheard of or unorthodox can be disturbing to them.

I am resilient within my natural purpose.

There are times, places, and situations whereas we as people do not necessarily relate to or agree with things, but we may compromise or make allowances. This is vital in life as we must conform when it is contingent upon circumstances.

Of course, there must be order and harmony within living together to humanely survive here on the earth.

However, when it comes to personal identity, I will not budge for anyone.

If more people were allowed to truly be themselves and fresh ideas were contrived in dealing with problems or situations instead of the same predictable methods that I find tiring, annoying, and of no use or affect as one who these measures does not reflect upon accordance with.

This indeed is a sick society.

A lot of what is considered normal among many is what really is abnormal, but it is accepted because abnormal in relation to normal is what is normal to them.

I am so glad to not be normal.

I choose to be a healthy individual who is not a puppet of this world. –latoya lawrence 

 

Bold And Proud With No Apologies 🦢

 

I have no regrets in my life.

I am proud of the child that I once was, the teenager I used to be, and of the woman who I am now.

I am thankful and grateful for the divine guidance and protection that reigns over me.

God has never let or allowed negative people to win over me in any circumstance.

When I look into the past I remember that since I was a little girl all throughout my life whenever people had tried or partook in doing dirt against me they have always failed no matter how many things they did, lies they told, or delusion they upheld through their facades and false perception of projection they tried to reflect upon my life.

God has taught me, and from a young age, instilled in me during my journey- an insight, strength and confidence.

A living example of what he assembles no one can disassemble. It is also an inspiration to others of what is possible when others say what is not possible.

It upsets negative people when what would hurt or bother them does not hurt, bother, or affect you mentally or emotionally. They do not have the capacity or knowledge of higher consciousness within the spirit to know better. It is a level that they will never attain.

Whenever negative people went to strike their arrows, it was nothing to me. Idiocy can sometimes be annoying, but it is of no faze.

There are a lot of no-good people in the world. When God has a special purpose for us others can see that light, though, they might not discern what that light is. The devil comes for us the strongest, yet he has no power over us!

As I observe the present everything is running smoothly.

Of course, we all have the usual kinks that life throws at us here and there that eventually get untangled- but it is because of the fallen world that we live in and to keep us knowing that we can depend on God to see us through and to keep us thriving.

I love and appreciate the positive powerful energy around me.♥️

This Man Thing Is Ridiculous!

 

I came across an Article titled Do Women Need Men and what I read in this article is total bullshit!

The author is stating that if women say they do not want or need a man it is only because they have been hurt by men and that every woman loves a rock hard cock sliding in and out of their vagina and wants love and a relationship with a man.

The article also states that to a woman the love between a man and a woman is special and the most important form of love within her life.

Well, I LaToya Lawrence am a woman.

I have never loved a man, I have never cared for a man, I have never been in a romantic relationship with a man, and I have never been hurt by a man.

If I had a baby I preferred to have one on my own without the companionship of a man.

I never wanted or needed a man since my younger days on up. And, I definitely do not consider the love between a man and a woman to be the most special or meaningful.

Maybe it is to some or most, but definitely not for all.

The love between my mother and I was the best love to experience (and the love of my dog) and nothing could ever surpass that for me.

My happiness was never dependent upon a man. The reason I am happy is because I never wanted one and because I truly love myself and I love the path in life I was chosen to live without the desire or need to be with one (a man).

This article is not truthful in regard to “all women”.

I hate when those in society spread lies and misinformation. Every woman is not the same and a man is not some irresistible being that a woman suddenly does not want or need due to being hurt or disappointed by one.

A woman can “naturally” not feel any need, want, or desire for any man.

Here is a few parts from the article:

 

Do Women Need Men?

In today’s world, women can live a life that is completely independent of men if they choose to.

A modern woman can earn her own money, be protected by the police, justice system and media and be supported by the government.

However, regardless of how much a woman can take care of herself in the modern world, she still will always want and need a man for the following reasons:

1. To experience the love that can only occur between a man and a woman.
2. To be impregnated by a man that she loves and wants to have a family with.
3. To have the father of her children present to make her feel safe and to help raise the children in a more balanced way, compared to her doing it all by herself.
4. To be a boyfriend or a husband that she can share life experiences with, overcome challenges with and grow together over time.

So, the answer to the question, “Do women need men?” is a definite yes if a woman wants to lead a normal, happy life.

Sometimes, you might see a news story or an article online about women no longer needing men because they can go and get themselves implanted with semen from a sperm back and have their own children without the need of a man.

Lesbian women tend to do that so they can raise a children, but normal heterosexual women still have a natural desire to be impregnated by a man that they love.

After all, women love having sex just as much as men do.

Women love the feeling of a rock hard penis sliding into their little love tunnel, just as much as we men like to get in there and give it to them.

Sex is a mutually beneficial and enjoyable thing for men and women and so is love.

Regardless of the changes that happen in modern society, the love between a man and a woman always remains a very special and powerful thing that most women place the utmost of importance on in their life.

If a woman doesn’t have the love of a man in her life, she may spend a lot of time on her career and try to distract herself, but will almost always become depressed and feel like her life is wasting away on pointless work, when she really wants to be in love, be a mother and have a family.

So, if you’ve been wondering to yourself, “Do women need men?” because you don’t seem to desperately wanted by women, then you should ask yourself what the real reason is behind you asking that question.

Don’t Listen to the BS lyrics From Female Pop Singers

A guy who doesn’t understand women will often feel confused when he listens to the confident, brash, girl power lyrics of female pop singers.

Female pop singers will passionately sing lyrics like, “I don’t need a man” or “Sisters are doing it all for themselves” and act as though they don’t care if they have a man or not.

Yet, is that really the way it is? Do modern women not need men at all, or do those song lyrics simply create a smoke screen to hide what is really going on behind the scenes?

Let’s clear this up…

If a woman is saying she doesn’t need men in her life, you can bet your bottom dollar that she has recently (or repeatedly) had her heart broken and she’s still hurting, or she is lusting after the type of guys who aren’t interested in her.

With that being the case, the anti-men lyrics are nothing more than a smoke screen for insecure or emotionally bruised women.

The heartbroken female pop singer (or everyday woman) who is saying that she doesn’t need men, will cry herself to sleep over the fact that she no longer has a man in her life.

Just listen to some of the candid interviews of female pop singers and celebrities and you will see them admitting to crying their eyes out all the time. They may put on a front of being emotionally cold and independent, but it’s just a smoke screen.

Likewise, a woman who is saying that she doesn’t need men because the kind of men she wants don’t want her, will continue to try to attract their attention.

So, do women need men? Of course they do.

If women didn’t need men or want men in their life, there wouldn’t be so many “Who needs men anyway?” songs out there.

The only reason those songs exist is because single or dumped women tend stick together in a “friends forever” sort of way, so when one of their group has been dumped or let down by a guy, they all rally round to make her feel better by adopting an attitude of, “Who needs men anyway when we’ve got each other?!”

Of course, when the dust settles, they all set about helping her to find a new man ASAP.

Watch this video to understand how women really think…

(https://www.themodernman.com/blog/do-women-need-men.html)

 

 

 

Eye Of The Beholder❤

 

I do not like anything that diverts from my natural beauty.

I am not and have never been into or fond of fake hair, fake nails, false eyelashes, piercings, tattoos or make-up.

With me, what you see is what you get- a lady who is comfortable in her own skin without feeling the need or desire to change anything about herself.

I would never change myself to please anyone or to be accepted by anyone’s standards.

I am happy just the way I am. Truly loving, respecting, and believing in oneself is one of the most powerful things.

 

Nobody Can Walk In My Shoes The Way I Have

 

 

I like the shoes that I walk in. They fit me just fine.  Sure, there are other pairs on display I can try on, but they would eventually get raggedy to wear out as they all come a dime a dozen.

The shoes on my feet are especially made for me. There are no other duplicates for anyone else to see. These shoes stand the test of time, they are worth much more than a cheap dime.

They are waterproof, hole-proof, and heel-proof. The proof is in the damage-proof that proved the resiliency in my walk.

I have come a long way in my shoes.

No matter whatever came to be I always kept moving forward never to slide back. The motor in my body never allowed me to be immobile.

The sole of the fabric tells it all, my foot imprinted.

I made a mark- nobody can walk in my shoes as I have without the scratches, scrapes and shitloads of crap not showing upon the surface.

Hell, my shoes still look brand new!

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Guy I Will Never Want Or Desire

Michael Gonzalez and his funky armpits.

 

I am a very honest, straightforward person. If I say or write something it is because it is the truth, what I really think or believe, or suspect is possible.

Never do I or have I ever intentionally expressed anything under false pretense.

Some people may not understand what I mean or where I come from at times- depending on who it is- because I am a very deep, intelligent, and spiritual awake person.

Nevertheless, I speak my mind and am led by spirit to fulfill my purposes. I do know what I am talking about when I speak on things.

I am a forty-seven-year-old female who often gets mistaken for someone in her twenties or thirties. I have never really looked my age in body or in the face.

I even have a young sounding voice when I speak.

I have attracted men of all ages- young and old within the past.

When I was in my thirties eighteen-year-old guys were attracted to me, when I was in my twenties forty and fifty-year-old men were attracted to me.

It never made a difference. To each his or her own I never received any personal gratification from this attention I never wanted it.

Some men found me to be a challenge that they wanted to conquer. Some men just genuinely wanted to be with me because they liked me for my mind, and I was not like the average female once they got to know me a little.

I never placed value on myself based on whether a man approved or desired me. I have never suffered from low self-esteem and have never needed anyone to validate me or to build my assurance.

Self- confidence, self-love, and self-worth are things produced within me. No one gave it to me, and no one can take it away. Everyone should feel this way.

I have no interest in romantic relationships, I am asexual and proud.

Now I want to discuss this issue about Michael Gonzalez because I am being led to by spirit.

As I am a highly spiritually inclined individual I feel and keenly discern people’s energy.

Whenever a man, especially men who are of a negative disposition are attracted, or interested in me- I can feel them, their thoughts, and I can accurately sense things in relation to them in a timely frame.

Michael is an ex-coworker of mine who had, and who still has a “crush” on me. It is nothing serious, but it is annoying.

From the first moment I laid eyes on Michael, I did not find him to be attractive.

He is not a cute guy, and he is not handsome as far as I am concerned. A friend of mine had saw a photo of him and said that he was not attractive to her also but that he seems to think that he is something. Maybe there are low-scale females who find him attractive, however, I do not and never will.

I was very insulted when Michael reflected his insecurities onto me while we worked together by entertaining the ridiculous idea that I could be attracted or interested in him.

I told Michael to his face that I could not stand him, but his inflated ego did not want to believe or accept it even though deep down inside he knew it was the truth.

He even profiled in front of me one day on the job by trying to show off his body that was not appealing to me whatsoever. He got down onto the floor to demonstrate push-ups. The incident turned me off.

The more I had got to know Michael the more I disliked him.

When some men try to impress women, push themselves on them, or try to flaunt themselves when they mistakenly assume that the female likes them, they do not realize how much they make a fool of themselves. It is very off-putting.

When I was younger there were guys (usually low-scale guys because guys of substance do not behave in this manner) who would get angry at me for not wanting them and in return tell lies about me.

There were three who were a problem.

Two lied and said I was involved with them and all three wanted people to believe that I slept with them or had feelings for them- all to make themselves appear big in the eyes of their peers. And, to also try to bring me down since I thought too highly of myself to desire or to be with anyone like them.

Neither one of these guys were desirable they were used to low-scale women such as themselves falling all over them and making a fuss over them due to their own bouts of low self-esteem.

Someone like me, who was of substance and class, added an extra blow to the bruise they received to their egos when they got hurt and rejected by me.

Of course, their efforts did not work so they joined in with the effort to work Brujeria (Black magic/Santeria) on me to try to make me look bad within the public eye, however, I was still too strong, and I successfully defeated all of them at their own game. On top of it, karma came back and destroyed all three of them. One even ended up dead years ago from his negative lifestyle.

No one can bring me down as I never cared what anybody said or thought about me.

I did not have time for that type of bullshit then, and I do not tolerate it now.

Michael is not at all drastic to that extreme his nonsense is mild in comparison, yet still an act of ridiculous nonsense.

With all the serious things going on in the world Michael is hung up on the fact that he cannot attain me.

He would rather believe that I really do have feelings for him and am just fighting it, or that I am playing hard to get, or whatever other delusional bullshit that men feed themselves instead of facing the truth over dealing with reality.

Michael needs to forget about me and realize that a woman of my level and caliber would never be interested or attracted to him.

Michael has a lot of negative energy. He has a very low vibration.

I am a positive person I exude from a very high vibration.

What I also believe is a part of Michael’s insecurities stem from his background of being morbidly obese.

Maybe after he lost weight, he feels he needs something to prove and is overcompensating.

He needs women to be interested or attracted to him to feel like a big man. I just wish he would find some other female to win over to measure or to prove his false sense of pride.

The other women he has been with are easy tramps. He feels if he can get me then he can get anybody. I should in a way take this instance as a compliment, but I am not flattered by it, I am disgusted.

To me, Michael will always be a small, unworthy, pretentious smelly fish swimming in a dirty pond.

I am not trying to be mean I just do not understand the sickness behind and within certain men and women (because there are deceitful, trouble-making women too) who cannot deal with rejection.

A healthy-minded person does not occupy themself with stupid shit like this.

 

As A Woman I Am My Own Distinct Material

 

I am not a mother. I had been told I would make a good mother if I had children, and I took the remark as a compliment.

Some may even consider me wife material, which can serve as a compliment or an insult, depending on what one’s idea is based on.

I never saw myself as marriage material, as I never had the desire or interest in romance or for stereotypical wifely duties-this nature was never within me.

The old barefoot, pregnant, in the kitchen, outdated image of wife-hood was definitely not a suitable way of life for me either.

Things have changed in this day and age and the definition of wife-material does not necessarily have to be a negative one.

Many secure men appreciate strong, independent women who can hold their own and who can also show love, support and maintain a healthy relationship that produces meaning and growth.

Most of us heard the saying, “You can’t turn a hoe into a housewife”.

Well, I say one cannot turn a virgin or one who is not into sex as a housewife either.

How many sexual partners one has had or not had does not determine one’s sufficiency. It is about one’s mentality and character.

I always knew that my self-esteem or self-worth/value as a female was not defined or dictated by my vagina or men I have never slept with.

Nor did my self-esteem or self-worth depend on what a man or anyone else classified as what was appropriate within their own personal or societal standards.

My vagina is not me; it is only a part of the body that belongs to me. I am the spirit within me, I am an individual having this human experience here on earth.

It is a great offense to suggest that any positive qualities a woman may have are only prized or treasured if a man prefers or desires them.

There are women who have no interest in satisfying a man.

They have no desire to marry or to be in a committed relationship.

Some women are intent on or concerned about developing their own careers, their own personal/spiritual growth, or the fulfillment of what they may want to offer or contribute to the world through their own special purpose.

These types of women do not need the acceptance or approval of a man to feel self-worth and value.

 

 

Pathetic People: Stupid Type Of Men And Women

 

I never understood why some women fight over men. Especially when the men do not look like anything.

A man is nothing to fight over and a man is nothing to get hurt over. Yet not everyone shares my mentality, self-love, confidence, strength, self-worth or natural disinterest in men.

There are men who purposely try to make women jealous to gain attention for themselves. It strokes this type of man’s ego for a sign that the woman cares, is attracted, or has feelings for him.

There can be a woman who does not even want the man and he will use another woman who is interested in him to start trouble with the woman who does not want anything to do with him.

Men who behave within this manner are ignorant and immature.

When certain men cheat on women instead of the women getting angry at and/or attacking the other woman they should go after the man responsible for creating whatever drama.

Some individuals are so backward and twisted.

There were men who liked me, would get jealous over another man being around me and, I did not want either one of them.

I did not find the jealousy flattering at all- it was a complete turn off!

 

 

 

All Natural, Natural Beauty

 

Everything about me is authentic, pure, and natural- from my mind, to my body, to my spirit.

I was never one to wear cosmetics. No one within my immediate family were into cosmetics either- and I loved that about them!

My grandmother sometimes wore lipstick, and my great-grandmother wore her lipstick from time to time but nothing dramatic or commonly done.

I used to play in my great-grandmother’s make-up once in a while as a child when I would play dress-up yet that is as far as it went.

I do not like cosmetics at all, I never did as I grew up.

I am totally natural- no foundations, no skin creams, no nothing but soap and water go on my skin.

I nurture my skin and body from the inside out with the proper nutrition and vitamin supplements.

I always had a high self-esteem. I love myself for who I am not for what a standard of beauty is projected to be.

I never cared what others thought of my appearance my opinion is all that genuinely mattered to me. I have always been confident within myself in that way because my spirituality rules me. Not any religious belief- but strength of character and purpose.

I prefer to not be made up by make-up as I was divinely made real by my creator.

When I see certain women or girls, they look so much better without wearing cosmetics. It is a shame how some are brainwashed or influenced by what society deems as beautiful. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

I have seen unattractive people called beautiful and attractive people called ugly.

In the same, often cute or pretty girls/women and guys think or consider themselves unattractive while unattractive girls/women think they are the most beautiful thing in the world.

What is true beauty? True beauty is self-love, self-worth, self-respect and a humane regard toward others.

When one truly has those depths instilled all else is irrelevant.

Sure, there are beautiful women and handsome men who were born into my family with nice grades of hair, tones of skin, and figures/physiques.

However, my family was not fazed by those attributes. They knew what they possessed but what they possessed did not possess them.

I myself am blessed with my fair share of attributes. Everybody tells me how lucky I am to still “look and sound like a baby” at the age of forty-seven.

 

 

 

 

 

To Be Real Is To Be Dangerously Brave

 

Phony people are a turn off. They can also be quite humorous.

They also tend to annoy with their over-acting and hard attempts to convince.

Some who are fake swear that they get over. I don’t know why they waste their time.

It is so much easier to be genuine.

I understand not revealing everything or playing the part (going along with the program even if it is not what one agrees with for the sake of harmony and etc….) within certain situations. That is not being bogus- that is just the necessary motions of flowing through society.

The sad truth, though, is that sometimes what is fake is taken as what is real by those who are deceived or who do not know any better.

What is real can also be taken as fake by those who do not believe, do not understand, or who do not give the benefit of the doubt.

A fact within life is that just because something is presented as reliable does not always give credence to the story or to the one who is telling it.

At the same time, just because something may sound far out, uncommon, or not likely does not mean that it is not so.

There are many people, many circumstances, many ideas, many preferences, many beliefs, many personalities and distinctions within character.

This is a big wide crazy world!

No matter what- always be real and true to who you are regardless of how you may appear or how things may seem.

Authenticity outweighs the limitations reflected by others, strength overtakes and endures, confidence is the power to maintain without caring about the opinions, accusations or judgments of others.– latoya lawrence 

 

 

 

Happy To Be Single

 

Some people act as if marriage is a badge of honor.

Marriage is an institution I never admired or desired.

I knew since childhood I was not ever going to get married.

The idea of having a boyfriend or lover did not appeal to me either.

I did not want any man sitting up underneath me every day- and I still don’t.

I do not like kissing or cuddling with the opposite sex.

I do not need attention, affection, or support from the opposite sex- I never have. The thought is inconceivable to me.

A romantic relationship with anyone is out of the question there is no chance of it ever happening.

The other person would just be left hurt, disappointed, scorned and/or defeated by their inability to get a rise out of me heart-wise or psychologically if their rejection or hurt initiated them to retaliate against me within any way.

I know this for a fact.

 

 

I have already been through this situation many years ago with men who got mad at me for not wanting them. I was a heart-breaker without a conscious and without even trying to be.

I was not a monster I just do not understand the certain feelings of others that I myself do not have. Nor do I want to understand them when it comes to love relationships.

And- forget about sex! The human penis has always been a huge turn off to me.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. What may look good to one person may not look good to another.

I never cared what anyone thought about the way I looked. I was always considered very attractive but what mattered was that I truly like the way that I looked even if no one else in the world did.

My self-esteem was never built on the judgment of others.

I value myself and I am very self-confident. I value one’s character over anything.

I was born to be single as far as I am concerned.

I am single yet romantically unavailable, I would not have myself any other way.

Self-Love, Confidence  And Fulfillment  Comes From Within

 

Out Of The Ordinary

As some of us who are unique many of us are greatly misunderstood.

We’re thought of as strange. Our words are taken out of context. Some of us are even called crazy by those who don’t understand us. By those who may envy us, by those who misjudge us and by those who want to psychoanalyze us with their bullshit that really does not pertain to us at all.

Some people are just miserable and spiteful.

None of these instances ever fazed or bothered me. I was just “crazy” that way!

Like I have said times before, when there is really no legitimate basis other people’s attitudes and behavior are a reflection of themselves. It’s their problem-  let them worry about it.

People do these things to just about anyone who does not fit into what they consider typical or so called “normal”.

It is really about what is “healthy” than about what is normal. Who is to actually say what is defined as normal when we have so much diversity?

I would never worry about a word like crazy as it is the dumb ones and those who are actually crazy themselves that label smart or extraordinary people in that manner.

It is not always wise to discuss our beliefs, faculties, or certain other things with just any or everyone yet never feel ashamed of who you are.

Never try to repress what you feel.

I am tired of what is average, I always have been. I welcome people and things that are rare, different and uncommon. That is what makes one special.

Never be afraid to stand out from the crowd and be the unique person that God created you to be.

If anyone calls you “crazy” take it as a compliment!

 

 

 

 

 

 

The True Beauty And Power Of Love

 

 

I have loved and been loved unconditionally.

The term love is often used loosely by many. Genuine love is powerful.

Some who don’t receive affection in the home become jealous of others who do. They then go out to search for love in all the wrong places only to later be disappointed.

Love cannot be persuaded or forced love has to come naturally.

When one has truly experienced love, they have experienced a beauty that no one can ever take away.

 

 

Real Women

 

I am proud to be a woman.

I don’t know where it ever came from where women in general were classified to be weak.

I come from a family of strong independent women and I know and have come across many other strong women within my lifetime.

My mother raised me strong as strength was already engraved within my nature to begin with.

When it comes to weaknesses and strengths it is not a gender thing it is a people thing.

There are some men who are strong, some men who are weak, and some men who are in between. The same goes for women.

Yes, us women (even though there are some exceptions) are not built the same within physical build in comparison to a man yet when it comes to mental, emotional and spiritual vigor a lot of us are able to weather any type of storm in any type of environment.

We women can have babies if we choose to. We pay our own bills. We own our own businesses and homes. We are able to do whatever we put our minds to.

 

 

LaToya: Truly Happy And Unique!

 

I have never been jealous of anybody; however, people have always been jealous of me.

I always had high self-esteem, never influenced or altered by society and its ways.

I was never a part of this world along with the many sick people that inhabit the earth. Thank goodness for that!

Not many people naturally operate within this fashion. I don’t get hurt or affected mentally and emotionally the way average people do because I am too spiritually incline. I am on a higher plane.

A lot of people don’t understand me because I am too deep for them to understand. – latoya lawrence 

LaToya: Blessed, Never Stressed!

 

I am so blessed. Everything within my life is going so well.

I have all of the things that I need, I am not lacking for anything, and I have particular loyal and wonderful people around me who are genuine.

Ever since I was a little girl, I have noticed the luck and protection I continuously have which is really just a result of the high favor that is bestowed upon me by my creator.

I am the daughter of the highest and no one can touch me.

The knowledge, wisdom, confidence and strength that I carry is fierce!

I love myself dearly, I respect myself highly. I am very proud of the individual that I am.

I have lived a clean, meaningful life. I am a good person. I always possessed energy that generated and that radiated at a high vibration.

I have an authentic purity that no one can contaminate or destroy.

I never cared about what people thought or said. I have a mind of my own, no one can control me and no one can stop me from doing anything that I want to do or put my mind to.

I know that I am a very rare and unique individual, I always was and that is what makes me so special and why people who are close to me love me so much.

However, I never needed the acceptance or approval of others to feel good about myself. I have that inner self-assurance and foundation within my true identity as one who is highly gifted.

I never worry about anything.

Everything is always going to turn out okay as it always has because God is the one who is in control and he fights all of my battles. No one on this earth gets away with the negativity they put out.

They will answer for it one way or another whether it is in this life or when they enter into the next (when they die).

We can absolutely take up for ourselves, fight for what we believe in, and express our truths but when it comes to revenge no one will handle it better than the Lord!

Leave it all to God.

We have to laugh at ignorant people and people who do dirt because all they are doing is setting themselves up for their own downfalls. So, continue to be happy, enjoy the peace and authority the Lord gives over us and don’t follow the perversity of this sick world.– latoya lawrence.

Age Is No Factor When God Decides To Bless You

 

I am at the age of forty-six now. However, it did not take me to get a specific age to acquire particular knowledge.

I gained wisdom early on within my youth. I knew what life was about by the age of twelve.

I was born with spiritual and intellectual gifts that made me wise in ways that certain people did not appreciate. Those who were not on the level themselves who gave off negative energy.

I knew things outside the ordinary range, beyond the normal sensory range of contact/area. I had the faculty to perceive things or events in the past, present, and future.

The scientific name for what I was born with is extrasensory perception/clairvoyance.

I have enhanced by learning extra, but I already knew much of what I know now that many people take years to learn through age, and by their own personal experience. Through experience within things some people still do not grasp on correctly and they walk through life with false perception and misrepresentation of life factors.

I had a lot of problems with negative people growing up because I was bright.

However, I do not understand why certain people thought that because they did not know particular things when they were younger that I was not supposed to either while I was at a young age.

People have a tendency to generalize and to reflect their inadequacies or insecurities onto others, especially when the aspect is common to them.

Some people do not want to accept another person who is younger than them to know more or just as much as they do because of ego or reasons of bias.

In fact, I knew more than they did in regard to particular matters within their older age. If I tried to correct an older person when they made an error, or tried to explain where I was coming from, they would react nasty or disdainful.

Not all people reacted within this fashion toward me only a “specific type”.

When I was younger there were positive people who told me and my mother that they were nowhere near the level that we was on when they were at my age.

I have been called unique, rare, strange, brilliant, and crazy (by jealous people). I don’t care. To me, I am just a spiritual person having a human experience continuing to grow on my journey in trusting and understanding my purpose and relationship with God.

I was always ahead of my time, advanced in ways that came without anyone having to teach me.

My mother and I were able to teach ourselves as youngsters. When we went to school, we exceled in the subjects we were strong in.

School did not make us smart, though, we were already adept to begin with.

Yes. One can be self-taught within a lot of things, especially within life experience.

School does not necessarily make one bright.

Education is the process of learning, acquiring knowledge of or skill in something by study, encounter, or being taught. The setting is irrelevant when things are ascertained.

I know plenty of people who attended school who are not smart.

Intelligence is something one is born with.

Knowledge or information is gained, and comes through and within various forms.

It is whether or not one is able to grasp what they learn.

As a person, and as an adult, I have never treated one inferior just because they were younger. I never tried to use my age as a weapon.

Just because one is older does not necessarily make one wiser.

There are young people who can teach an older person something just as there are older people who can teach the young many things.

I don’t consider myself to know everything at all. And I am definitely not the smartest person in the world. I am ahead within the gifts I possess, and I have a lot of knowledge, but I don’t want to know everything. I just know I have a heightened sense and connection to a realm within life that I was always familiar with.

Acknowledging our capabilities is not an expression of conceit or an exaggerated opinion of oneself when one is level-headed and logical. God wants us to be aware of who we are and the things that he equipped within us to have and accomplish to show his glory. Within our ability is a sample of God’s incredibility.

I write this as an encouragement to those who have been mistreated by older folks that have a tendency to manipulate, corrupt, hold-back, or mislead, because they cannot stand to see a younger individual who did not mess up or get caught into the same perils of life they once did.

Instead of being an example to cheer one on, they would rather drag another down as that younger person may have been a reminder of all they could have been, or wanted to be at one time or another in life.

We are blessed with certain gifts that God bestows upon us and some of us are anointed at a very young age.

God makes no mistakes. Do not let anyone tell you what you are not, what you do not know, or what you are not capable of doing.

When God enables us for his intention no one can disable us through attempting to bring about our suspension.

 

 

 

Using Our Special Talents, Gifts And Faculties

As one genuinely born with second-sight, the inherited gift of extrasensory perception, I am far from a dummy and I have never been anyone’s fool.

One of my strongest gifts from the Lord is sensing things about people in areas that others cannot sense or pick up right away.

I know who to trust and who not to trust, I am an authentic, truthful person, one who is not given to tell lies. I do not appreciate liars, I never have, and I do not entertain such behavior.

The “knowing power”, of wisdom, knowledge, and discernment along with other special spiritual ability, is a gift and blessing bestowed upon me from the Lord to carry out, and to fulfill my purpose for the wonderful plan he always had set before me.

No one can stop the arrangement of God he has the final word in all things.

I fear nothing and no one, the Lord is my protection and shield, he has proven this to me all throughout my life, regardless of the times in the past when I was angry at him for personal reasons of my own.

When people unjustifiably come after me, attempt to do me wrong, tell lies or whatever, God takes care of them every time, so I do not have to fret. God does not let people get away with trying to hinder or harm his children. I leave everything within his mighty hands.

I have never considered myself a failure and I am not, and never will be. None of us who are called by the Lord are. We are conquerors here to partake in our mission whatever that may be, we are not defined by the world’s standard or view of what prosperity and success is.

So to all who walk in the light of the spirit, keep moving forward, God is in control.

Whatever the Lord/Holy Spirit puts in your heart to do carry it out delightfully without hesitation. God is right there beside us all the way. Just believe, pray, listen, and let the Lord continue to lead.

Sincerely, Miss LaToya

A Humble Spirit

I have never been a pushover for no one and I never will be. I have always been very strong-willed and tenacious.

One can know their value and self-worth and still be humble. Humility is not low self-esteem or poor self image.

We can be secure with ourselves and confident in our faculties and still be meek.

The state of being humble just means genuinely not having an exaggerated opinion of one’s self and/or abilities. Not exhibiting a lofty attitude; not being overly proud in one’s own achievements and carried away by their obtained accomplishments.

We should love, respect, and healthily estimate ourselves, and know what we are actually capable of doing or not doing.

Inasmuch, we should also recognize that we cannot take any credit for our bestowment of gifts, talents or special traits. All recognition and praise go to the creator who created within us the forte of our entire being. Everything we do and are able to do is entirely through God almighty.

We are a mere small example of his power. So yes, we are confident, bold, and valuable within our identity in Jesus Christ. Aside from that, we are not anything at all.

As long as we know, desire, and rejoice in always wanting to turn to the Lord for help and direction we truly show our humility and meekness.

We do not bow down to or give in to anyone but to the authority of God.

Amazing Love

Everyone has their own genuine experience of true love or lack thereof.

The love I received began in the womb.

My mother loved me while she carried me within her belly, and adored me completely once I was born.

As a very young child I remember the deep, intense unconditional love I felt for my mother also.

Even though it was evident and always within her actions my mother expressed to me that she loved me “madly”.

My mother gave me nothing but pure honest love all throughout my life and everyone around us knew and could see how much affection she had for me.

Love made me secure and confident. I didn’t need to go out to look for love, assurance, or acceptance from others or the outside world. My validation and self-worth came from within. I was nurtured by love in the home (my mother and family presence) and love in the spirit (God’s grace, guidance and protection).

The love I have and feel for my mother is dear and endless.

I don’t use the word love lightly because it has to genuinely come from a place of truth for me.

I never loved anything in this world the way I love my mother and dog Brandie.

In fact, they are the only two beings I truly ever loved wholeheartedly. And they carried the same utter endearment toward me. So, I indeed know what real love is and what it feels like.

Love is wonderful and beautiful. It is the best thing in life.

Our father in heaven is described to love us even more than our own parents do. He is said to love the ones who we love far more than we could ever fathom, or love them.

Isn’t this reality astounding?

I could never imagine anyone loving me above the unlimited measurement of my mother. Yet God does!

What an amazing love the Lord, our father in heaven, has for his children and all creation.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Unwed

I knew ever since childhood that I would never grow up to get married. The desire was never within my heart.

I didn’t even want to have a boyfriend. I still don’t, and I never will.

I don’t believe that marriage and intimate sexual relationship is for everybody.

I do believe as I always have that there are men who don’t have sex until they are married and men who don’t- and have never cheated on their wives.

Some may believe that is a naive view to hold, but in reality, it is not. The majority of men may not fit into this category, though, there are far too many men in the world for them all to be sexually promiscuous and cheaters.

People seek out marriage for many different reasons depending on culture and personal values. I just never saw a purpose for the undertaking in my life.

I never felt the need for a man to make me happy. I never believed happiness came from a man. I always found happiness from within my spirit. I never felt the need for a man to complete me (which I don’t understand the void in certain women who do feel this way.) I naturally felt whole and complete within myself as an individual.

I’ve never even understood the concept of falling in love with a man. I’ve fell in love with a puppy before, but never a man. I don’t have those feelings or sexual desires and I am perfectly happy that way.

When I read in the bible as a youngster of Paul’s statements in regard to it being “better not to marry” in 1 Corinthians 7:40 I could identify with his words and considered it a gift indeed to not have any sexual or romantic need.

In a world where I was considered not normal for not wanting to get married or to have sex, I was proud and unbothered.

Yes, each of you should remain as you were when God called you.

God paid a high price for you, so don’t be enslaved by the world. Each of you, dear brothers and sisters, should remain as you were when God first called you.

Now regarding your question about the young women who are not yet married. I do not have a command from the Lord for them. But the Lord in his mercy has given me wisdom that can be trusted, and I will share it with you. Because of the present crisis, I think it is best to remain as you are.

I want you to be free from the concerns of this life. An unmarried man can spend his time doing the Lord’s work and thinking how to please him. But a married man has to think about his earthly responsibilities and how to please his wife. His interests are divided. In the same way, a woman who is no longer married or has never been married can be devoted to the Lord and holy in body and in spirit. But a married woman has to think about her earthly responsibilities and how to please her husband. I am saying this for your benefit, not to place restrictions on you. I want you to do whatever will help you serve the Lord best, with as few distractions as possible.

But in my opinion it would be better for her to stay single, and I think I am giving you counsel from God’s Spirit when I say this. -1 Corinthians 7:20-40

Yes, and also as a woman, and a human being, I am so glad that not having a desire for marriage is not a sin. If I was interested, I would have had a very hard time obeying any man and having him as head over me within my personal life. I was never the subservient type and too independent.

I enjoy the single life where I am just fully committed and aligned with being fully obedient to God. –latoya lawrence

Sex

Run from sexual sin! No other sin so clearly affects the body as this one does. For sexual immorality is a sin against your own body. -1 Corinthians 6:18

Fornication has for years run rampant and it is definitely classified as immoral behavior within the bible.

I am not at all being judgmental when I say this, but I never understood why sex was so out of control in society.

Sex is overly advertised and heavily encouraged. It has always been a thing craved, and tempted by.

I understand God created intercourse to be an enjoyable way for people who are married to express their passion and to reproduce, but the nature of it and the act itself has always been something that turned me off.

I was repulsed at an early age even by animals engaging in the act.

From my perspective I just don’t understand why sex captured the world so popularly.

People hopping from one person to another for a sensation is plain nasty.

To me, a tongue kiss is even disgusting.

Marriage

And further, submit to one another out of reverence for Christ. For wives, this means submit to your husbands as to the Lord. For a husband is the head of his wife as Christ is the head of the church. He is the Savior of his body, the church. As the church submits to Christ, so you wives should submit to your husbands in everything. For husbands, this means love your wives, just as Christ loved the church. He gave up his life for her to make her holy and clean, washed by the cleansing of God’s word. He did this to present her to himself as a glorious church without a spot or wrinkle or any other blemish. Instead, she will be holy and without fault. In the same way, husbands ought to love their wives as they love their own bodies. For a man who loves his wife actually shows love for himself. No one hates his own body but feeds and cares for it, just as Christ cares for the church. And we are members of his body. As the Scriptures say, “A man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one.” This is a great mystery, but it is an illustration of the way Christ and the church are one. So again I say, each man must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband. -Ephesians 5:21-33

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God originally designed the first couple to be the perfect union between a man and a woman to form the beautiful foundation of the family.

They were meant to love one another purely, and to live in utter peace, blessing and happiness to honor God.

When the fall came the sanctity of the union and its elements became tainted.

In a world full of sin -totally contrary to how life was divinely arranged- people do what they want to do and live how they want live, however, God’s standards haven’t changed.

What is called “marriage” today is still intended to be the loving, unselfish, respectful, God-honoring union between a man and a woman. It is the covenant in which sexual intercourse and the conception of offspring should only take place within.

The only difference, and huge problem now, compared to the beginning of creation is that we no longer live within an ultimate state of glory. Our world is cursed and as a people we are far from perfect. So, there will always be discord, incompatibility, disappointment, acts of volition and etc…. in all walks of life within all situations.

Marriage is hard work. Yet, it is still considered a wonderful institution to those who are truly dedicated to each other and who take their relationship seriously.

God made certain instructions to live by in order to keep us safe and healthy because he loves us. Nevertheless, the same kind of sin goes on within certain marriages that goes on outside of marriage.

There are married couples who decide to proceed with abortions if they don’t want or no longer desire to have any more children.

There are married couples who commit adultery regularly or who have had an affair some time or another.

Marriage doesn’t prevent couples from getting venereal diseases, and it doesn’t guarantee people to be spared of any other repercussion or action that others do outside of wedlock.

It is about putting God first by surrendering to his authority and obeying his guidance for our lives that make circumstances and situations turn out more favorable. In doing what God advises we are able to avoid many unnecessary troubles and complications.

We are always going to have difficulties in this world but if we let God lead and take control things work out for the best, according to his plan.

 

Honoring God With Our Gifts

The Lord designed me like no other and it was no mistake. He understands me when others don’t just like he does all of the other individuals he crafted and brought into existence.

All we have to do is go to him with any concern and talk with him. Seek his leading, guidance and achieve to stay in his word to always gain and maintain further understanding and deep faith.

He is there to love, protect and teach us his will and provide a wonderful eternal future for all who believe and accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and savior.

We don’t have to answer to anyone but God he knows everything about us- not what others lie on us about, falsely perceive about us or misinterpret about us. He knows the complete truth about us to the core.

He knows us better than we know ourselves.

God knows our hearts, intentions and entire makeup. After all, he formatted and assembled us together from the beginning before we even came into being.

God has given me quite a few unique gifts I’ve recognized since childhood, and all through out my life. Many incredible accounts of events I can give honest testimony to.

God made all of us differently, none of us are exactly the same (no one can duplicate or replace you, you are one of all his prized possessions).

God intentionally designed each of us individuals for a reason.

As he created us all uniquely, he gave to us certain natural abilities, talents and gifts.

God gave us the precise talents and gifts that he viewed suitable for us as he had a specific plan for us to carry out using the gifts that he incorporated within us.

Through our distinct God-given faculties, we can tremendously reach other people in such a diverse number of ways and direct them toward our heavenly father.

What are your talents, abilities and gifts, and how is God inspiring you to use them?

Our Lord doesn’t want us to compare ourselves to anyone else or to try to measure up to anyone else. He just wants us to be sincere and work with what he enabled within us and shine that light on behalf of him in honor of him.

Without the Lord operating through us we wouldn’t be capable of doing anything.

God will be there the entire time helping and encouraging us to continue in the race.

 

 

 

Salvation (Eternal Security)

Walking With Jesus

In my late teens, while I was having a weekly bible study, I had mentioned to my group members the trouble I was undergoing in my neighborhood with fellow teens and adults who were jealous of me for not doing and not having done the things that they were doing. I lived a totally different lifestyle than what they all did.

One lady from my bible study specifically pointed to a particular verse of scripture and then spoke it out loud to me. It read: They are puzzled that you do not continue running with them in the same decadent course of debauchery, so they speak abusively of you. 1 Peter 4:4

Although I had never indulged within the same behaviors as certain neighborhood folk, I had cut loose those who I had grown up with and refused to be bothered with others who were not of good character…

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Eyes Of The Soul: Sweet Reward

Many people hate or have hated god for personal reasons of their own even if they won’t admit to it.

As a true spiritual person who was definitely born with the caul, and the family lineage to back up naturally inherent occult power, I speak from experience.

When I was a young girl, even though I had a lot of advantages, fortunate luck, and blessings, I never felt that God was truly good or any sincere positive energy from him.

I have extremely intense empathic faculties, and I am usually on point. So God is not perfect and good within my definition of what a good and perfect god really is, or should be.

When I went through hard times as a youngster on up I’d often see an extremely shiny twinkle in the sign of a cross appear before me, acknowledging to me “I’m here, I’m with you, everything is going to be alright”.

Everything did turn out alright, however, what was the purpose of going through the nonsense of whatever would be the trial within the first place? All these tribulations did was cause me to resent God even more than I already had.

I was already disgusted in the way he designed certain things within creation. Then, to include me as one of the beings to inhabit a life here on this Earth filled with sick people and morbid principalities in which I have no tolerance or patience for, was a complete insult.

If I could have used my gifts to rid the world that I did not ask to come into from all of the things that turned me off I would have done it immediately. If I was able to have gotten off the Earth and into a special place where what’s going on here wasn’t permitted, and/or where certain people and things didn’t exist, the circumstance would have been even better.

Years ago, when I gave god the benefit of the doubt in regard to my perceptions of him, I was always disappointed by him and my outcomes. When I constantly put myself first is when I noticed I was the happiest and more fulfilled.

If I truly don’t like or don’t want something within my life then it is not going to work out; it has always been this way with me. I have to do it my way. I am too strong and self-willed.

I wholeheartedly love myself, my mind-the way I think, and the way I am.

Having extrasensory perception/second-sight enabled me to experience life within many extraordinary modes that I have learned and discovered quite a lot from.

Later on, when I fully became aware of my ancestors and orishas presence around me things opened up further and brought to me a clearer understanding of who really had my best interest in spirit.

God is often called a god of love, he is nothing but a disgrace to me. If God is supposed to be the true definition of love, perfection, fairness or truth I don’t want any of the perversion around me.

The devil, is often blamed for the negative effects initiated by so called inborn sin and the inequities of the world. Yet, who allows the devil to reign upon the physical/material plane? Why wasn’t he stopped at the beginning?

The devil and god are one and the same to me.

Oh so many answers and hidden truths that have been revealed to me that I’d never openly share or discuss! I just had to speak my mind.

I definitely know what love, fairness, and truth is and no god of perfection would operate within the manner in which he does.

The energy influence of god years ago was suffocating, manipulative, and unnatural.

Spiritually, I breathe free now, unbound by blockage, and I continue to flourish through the natural beauty of my surrounding essence.

 

My Wednesday Words Of Wisdom: Older Is Not Always Wiser

Those who say or believe that wisdom only comes with age are those who have purely aged without true wisdom– Miss Latoya Lawrence.

When I was much younger, I had a lot on the cap and no older person was able to get over on me. Not ever!

An older person can learn things from a younger person and a younger person can learn things from an older person. Just because one is older does not make them wiser than one who is younger and this is a fact that I’ve known through experience.

I use to hate when certain people who were older than me would generalize my particular situations on account of what may have been common within society or within what had happened with or to them and others in regard to their own set of circumstances. They didn’t know what they were talking about within their opinions or point of views and had made a lot of preconceived notions in which had absolutely nothing to do with my actual situation or way of thinking.

Many people reflect their own issues, flaws, insecurities, and/or lack of knowledge in particular areas onto others. Many also don’t want to admit they’re wrong in judging what they misperceive, speculate and really know nothing about or are not too accustomed to when it comes to the diversity of character within individuals.

A lot of youngsters have had this problem with older people. Sometimes it just boils down to many older people not being on the level.  Nevertheless, those who are not on the level is not an age-related element, there are young people, of course, who are just as clueless.

Some older people have a tendency to get angry at younger people who refuse to listen to them even if the younger person is right and they are wrong; the older person through disdain becomes critical.

It’s important for younger people to hold their own when they are correct within their facts and reasonable convictions because a lot of impressionable/easily influenced younger people as well as certain older people themselves get misdirected by the misinformation or ill-intention of those who believe they know all that there is to know about life, people and occurrence.

I’m about to turn 45 years old and have never based knowledge solely on age because I always knew better, especially with having ESP (extrasensory perception). Just like I wrote in this post a while ago (https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2018/12/20/spiritual-growth-and-wisdominspiration-for-the-youth/) here is an excerpt:

One can be young and very wise and one can be old and very foolish, especially when they refuse to accept that it is not always the age of a person that serves as the determining factor.

It is about what we’ve been through, the experiences we may have encountered, the inherent skills that could have been imparted to us by birth that bring to us our own set of knowledge and wisdom and that can come at any age for some.

Our lives are a journey of various and numerous roads through pathways of travel and we never stop learning as there is always more to uncover and discover.

There are a lot of moronic and narrow-minded older people and younger people out within the world, and there are a lot of logical and open-minded older and younger people out within the world.

To me, it’s refreshing and an expansion to learn and experience things one may have never heard of, not been used to, or that is an awakening to if the development is of an interest or connection to one.

 

Corona Phobic: Hygienic Due To The Pandemic

Excerpt from: No One Can Ever Take Away The Beauty Of Mind And Spirit

People have also told me that I speak about a lot of things that many people think and feel, and want to say but don’t. And that I write with power and passion.

I do not usually get inspiration from other sources as mainly what I write about comes from deep within and what I’ve noticed about myself and other gifted people or people of intellectual distinction who have been in my circle at one time or another is that we often know and come up with insight and solutions far before it even hits or is even accepted by mainstream society.

For instance, certain quotes that are motivational are words that we were already aware of, experiencing and living by. Spiritual, mental and physical findings that have been discovered through research we had already been conscious of and living in accordance to years ago before it had become commercial or more well known among a large group of individuals, and so on.

Even particular clothes we were wearing before they became one of the most popular name brand items.

The thing about it is that when those who are not on the level and are only able to perceive from within the boundaries of their own limited outlook when they first hear the variety of wisdom, information and solutions as it comes from us they are quick to judge or call us crazy because we are so ahead of them within our keen sense of knowledge and comprehension yet when they as slow learners finally do get the messages they then develop and acquire a philosophy or mode of life and further understanding that results in possible expansions for those who choose and are able to grow. Read more here

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I remember when I could walk into any store that sold household cleaning products and easily find bleach or Lysol without a problem-forget about rubbing alcohol!

Now these necessities are scarce to come into contact with at the same time revealing a tell-tale sign of many people’s behavioral habits and hygienic practices far prior.

Before all of this Corona Virus scare that has petrified the masses I was already living and doing what is being instructed to do in regard to social distancing, “germaphobia”, and even further.

When I’d get on the bus I rarely sat in the seats and I hated when passengers would come too close or rub up against my clothing. I’d never touch outside or even indoor things without a paper towel or other material to push elevator buttons, turn doorknobs, hold onto transportation poles (buses and trains).

At certain jobs I’d wear gloves and put my jackets in a clean plastic bag instead of laying them down or hanging them up around other people’s belongings.

I wouldn’t sit down on other people’s furniture unless I placed something under my derriere (plastic bag, towel, disposable chuck).

I cleaned my cell phone with alcohol or disinfectant wipes every day before I went out and never held the phone against my ears. When I used phones that were located within establishments, I’d wrap tissue or paper towel around the receiver to protect my ears.

I even cleaned dollars bills once in a while years ago. I never put any money bare into my pockets as money is the filthiest thing to carry around. I always wrap money in protective material. I’d sometimes just wear gloves too for use with money and handling outside activities.

I never let anyone kiss or hug me; I never eat after anybody and so on, and I was doing all of these things since I was a teenager!

Certain people would laugh at me and call me ridiculous, especially because of the way I constantly washed my hands sometimes.

Now many average people have adopted this way of life and I laugh in general because they’re doing it all primarily out of fear while I did and still do it out of instinct, even if it may seem extreme. I’m sure there were others out there in the world just like me already doing our natural precautious habits regardless of how others may have reacted toward us.

It’s funny when those of us that are ahead of our time mind-wise and/or spiritually get ridiculed until it comes out just how on point, we actually we’re from the beginning with seeing, knowing, and understanding what others couldn’t decipher.

It is deep how some people have to be driven to extreme fear before waking up and realizing particular things.

Many didn’t even know what bleach was before Corona Virus reared its lethal head. Those of us who used bleach and other sufficient products on the regular now have to hunt these items down just to use them normally.

Luckily, I was able to get some bleach at a Walgreen’s, however, rubbing alcohol is still out of reach and I refuse to pay $13.00 to $20.00 for large bottles of unknown brand alcohol at a local beauty supply store. I just bought witch hazel instead to routinely clean my ears and to soothe the body when needed.

I bet when this Corona Virus is all over and forgotten about many will go back to their old nasty, germy ways.

Tina

Love? That is so funny. You don’t know the definition of love! I don’t want anything from you. I don’t want your affection or your money, or anything else from you.

If you loved yourself you would have never done the specific things you’ve done and lived life the specific way you’ve lived.

Remember when you told me you wanted to give me funds from your pension when you die? Well, you can shove it up your ass.

You can’t buy me!

I don’t need your itty bitty shit I was born to have my own and I have been doing pretty darn well- I even do my own taxes! I have been handling my own jobs, career, and money for years now. The universe is not going to let anything happen to me.

Oh what a pathetic bitch you are, Tina, you along with others who were foolish enough to fuck with me in the first place.

Beg all you want bitch! I don’t give a fuck about you.

I’m an inevitable success story.

No matter how hard you and other undesirables tried you could not break my spirit or inhibit my drive and purpose. I prevailed, I always have, and I always will, you were all just far too dumb to see it and realize that you weren’t hurting anyone but yourselves.

You can keep making an ass out of yourself if you want, just like you have done for the majority of your life, because I have absolutely no regard for you.

The sad thing about everything is instead of being proud of having a niece of my caliber and character you were filthy jealous and destructive, especially as you admitted to me and my mother how the majority of the other neighborhood folks and youngsters were a bunch of nothings, yet you joined in with many of them (Did they know that while you were out gossiping and making up lies about my mother and I that you were coming back talking about some of them to us when you were at your lowest point? I don’t think so! They’re so stupid just like you.)

How sick can you be? I shouldn’t have asked that question because you broke the mold when it came to being twisted.

I’m happy, I have peace, I am blessed, and I have success. I also have a host of good and powerful blood related ancestors from your mother’s side of the family who’ve watched over me since my birth.

You don’t even know the beauty of our family and their history. You were too busy running the streets.

Did you know your mother had seven or eight brothers and sisters in actuality? Do you know how much family we have down south and spread about? We’ve known and met family that you don’t even know about.

I’m your only true connection to your mother also. You’ll never know what’s going on with her in the spirit world because I’d never share those revelations with you.

I’ll tell you this though, she (Catherine) is alright, so far she has been in a content sphere for a long time now.

Amanda and Junie, however, went straight to the depths leading to hell where they most definitely belong and where they suffer.

 

 

Ernestine Lawrence

Down below are links and messages from my mother’s sister, Tina, sent to me on Facebook.

This is for you, Tina, although you probably wouldn’t comprehend as logic and reasoning doesn’t register with you. And, since your HIV/Aids has probably gone to your head by now.

Since I was a child you were very jealous of me because I was very intellectually advanced and highly educational that is why you went around saying I had no education when it was actually you who had no knowledge.

You always had that low level trash mentality.

You have no high school diploma and did not graduate from high school that is why you went into the National Guards because you didn’t know anything and you wouldn’t have gotten into there if my mother hadn’t helped you out and told you what to do but you couldn’t even excel within that.

If it wasn’t for my mother Annette Theodora Cromwell wouldn’t even have gotten into college.

Now I don’t knock anyone who didn’t finish school the traditional way because I understand distinction within individuals everyone has their own way and their own calling or set of circumstances.

However, you really focused on making me out to appear like a stupid person when you didn’t even finish school yourself.

Did you know I actually skipped a grade when I was twelve? And when I was ten I passed tests that high school kids couldn’t pass. At eight years old I got an award for being one of the best readers within my entire school.

When I became an adult I got accepted into a college but I never cared about any of that shit because I wasn’t an insecure person like you.

When you were at those young ages all you achieved and was well known for was being on drugs and being a skank.

I at such a young age was gifted and passed all of my tests, received awards, and certificates in school so you and Amanda tried to interfere because I was nowhere near a dummy like you and Amanda.

You both knew I was headed for accomplishments that you both weren’t capable of gaining.

You wasted your time because I never relied on the approval of others or cared what anyone thought I’m proud of everything about myself and I have no regrets.

I was born with a caul you dumb bitch I have second-sight, I mean really, what the fuck did you think you could do? I was ahead of you. I laugh at you.

I knew just about everything you did through dreams, visions, and intuition.

You did the same to my mother because she was bright and multi-talented.

You said my mother never worked a day in her life because you couldn’t get the jobs that she could. You and Amanda were fools that people could use and abuse. Then you two were absurd enough to think that you could destroy me and my mother’s lives with voodoo/witchcraft/black magic and lies.

You conspired to give my mother a nervous breakdown and make her out to be lower than what you actually were out of pure envy, jealousy, and your own true state of mental illness.

It’s all in the past now but you still won’t leave us alone. We don’t care anything about you, we never did, and never will.

Nobody is hurt by you, you are nothing to be distressed by, you never had the power to destroy us, we just don’t like you at all.

You are an undesirable person who has done far too much dirt why would anybody of any class, intelligence, and substance want to be bothered with you.

Why don’t you go call and bother your own kind of fellow degenerates who share within the delusions of their own mentalities.

You are a pathetic piece of trash.

Go call up George Owens/Taalib Muhammad, Joanne Anderson Franks, Doritta Almodovar, Renee Blackwell, her sister Teresa Blackwell, Jeff Jemmott, Olivia Oliver and her kids and grand kids that you all talked about like a dog (remember when cookie and her kids gave you a concussion and put you in the hospital?), Spotface Pat Bush and your dyke crew, Diane Mims, Sonia, Lorraine Burwell- the bitch with the broken legs and her sister Judy Clarke, the nigger you stabbed with the knife who took a shit in your toilet before you called the cops on him, Annette Theodora Cromwell-the bitch who fucked some nigger down on Hollis at the tire shop, and all of the other sick and twisted fucks you use to run to and with.

You have no one. They don’t give a fuck about you, you stupid bitch. And look at all of the stupid unnecessary shit that you did to us for years. With your broke ass.

Go call up Amanda. Or better yet, why don’t you go join her in the grave.

Bitch, maybe you should give me a call so I could blow your mind with all of the shit that I know for someone who doesn’t have an education. I’ll teach you some life-long lesson facts.

 

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Latoya this Tina your aunt call me

Latoya this is Tina 7186472653

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I’ve been trying to a find y’all for a long time now

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Free

I’m glad I’m not of some narcissistic energy that constantly needs to be praised and acknowledged and who threatens those to damnation for not agreeing and adhering to  circumstances that I don’t relate to, that don’t apply to me, and that don’t have anything to do with my sensible way, thought process, spiritual rotation, and so on.

I fortunately have the essence of “good light” and “energy” around me that allows and that inspires truth, love, peace, happiness, wisdom, knowledge, blessings, strength, confidence, talent, protection and the self individuality within my own authentic disposition as I am one within the essence.

It feels so good to be free. I never let anything rule me. I live a nice quiet life, I eat healthy and take care of myself, I have great spirituality, and I am blessed with great peace of mind.

I have always lived this way and I have no deep past regrets within my life.

I guess what I’m pleasantly guilty of is being extremely stubborn and set in my natural unconventional fashions.

The only thing I regret is being born into this physical realm, I deserve to be in a much better place than this twisted world, this forbidden place is beneath me.

When I was a kid I knew I didn’t belong here.

As one born with a caul I always knew things and felt things, even truths that may be considered controversial, nevertheless I didn’t care because hidden knowledge wasn’t a revelation for everyone or just anyone to know and to grasp.

I often wondered and couldn’t understand why trash we’re created and given life the instance never made any sense to me.

As a child I didn’t at all like or connect with those kinds of people within any way, I’d constantly get negative and intuitive feelings about them that would always pan out to be right or true, they were always prone to incite trouble, conflict, and disharmony as their nature and mentality was quite undesirable, and insufficient.

Many if not the majority of their type was very disturbed and ignorant in the mind even at a very young age because they are intrisnically born sick.

They also have a look about them, a way and mannerism about them, a vocal sound about them, characteristics that just don’t appeal or that don’t sit well.

There are certain people who will say that regardless they’re still one of God’s children, and that is another thing that never sat too well with me, because if God designed and put them here on the earth the instance is just another of the many numerous circumstances and factors in which goes to show and prove that there is something not at all right about god either.

One of the reasons they exist is because God uses them to carry out unwanted and unwarranted burdens of an unnatural essence upon the unconventional.

I’m not specifically referring to black magic/voodoo/witchcraft when I mention “unnatural” I am speaking in all terms of what goes against one’s own nature, propensity, or state of being just to please and appease an individual or entity who seems within a position to reign, or who wants to control.

Trash are weak-minded, easily influenced people, susceptible to be brainwashed, and who are ready and willing to accept what they perceive as a general higher authority in relation to God and/or to societal government without raising question or opposition.

They are on a certain mental level for a reason.

A low level where they are unable to come up from to decipher and to analyze from a genuinely higher intellectual or spiritual consciousness.

People who are “nothing” inspire to bring down people who are “something” with views, opinions, jealousies, and a lack of knowledge incorporated into their own limited outlooks, and limited scope into existence.

They are average low-life individuals who envy and oppose the free will and knowledge of distinctive individuals who are above them.

They in turn use their god to justify what they consider immoral or wrong in a distorted version to their own deception and misconception into the origin of who they innately are.

Others who are firm and concrete within the genuine validity of where they’re originally derived from cannot, and will not, be swayed by any means of detract, whether the intent is to minimize or to diminish the effectiveness, value or importance of someone, or to divert one altogether.

God will go to great lengths to use those who were born trash, and will turn others into trash just to get to them, or someone close to them, to manipulate and weaken them into incorporating his commands by psychological or spiritual harassment.

This technique has never worked on me as I am too strong within who I am and what I’m genuinely in correlation to within my own innate means.

No one could ever stop me from being the person who I am or from doing whatever it was that I wanted to do.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Insecure People

Daily Living, By Miss LaToya

It all starts within the home.

I had and was given so much love and attention at home that I never sort out to find love elsewhere.

Love made me confident, love made me strong, love made me secure, and no one can take away what was instilled in me from the beginning.

I have a very high self esteem and I am very sure of myself I have never desired, needed, or looked for social acceptance or validation from anyone.

I don’t understand people who do.

I don’t like people who reflect their own insecurities and negativities onto me, and onto others who exude a genuine and a positive self image, and attitude.

Those whose self esteem is so low that they interpret self assurance and strong sense of self as being full of oneself is all too self-telling.

It seems that some who are unable to reach a…

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Mental, Emotional, And Spiritual Breakdown

Everyone who has had a breakdown of some sort is not weak, crazy, or dangerously unstable.

A breakdown is spiritual within many instances. A Yoruba priestess even acknowledged this fact to me years ago. I know firsthand as my own mother was a victim of brujeria in the early 1980’s.

I was even targeted. My aunt tried to flip me out when I was eighteen years of age by putting the hallucinogenic drug mescaline into a hot pot of black eyed peas that I had cooking over the stove.

People often use recreational “trip” drugs to increase the chance or enhance the effect of mental and chemical alterations of the brain while also performing the negative spiritual influences within black magic/voodoo/witchcraft.

My aunt went a step further in her malicious attempt by also putting tainted hiv fluids inside my food. Anyone educated would know the disease would not survive within the air and within a pot of scalding hot water.

Nevertheless, I didn’t lose my head or have a breakdown, my mind was too strong with faculty and awareness, and I didn’t, of course, become infected with aids either.

I was young, innocent, and very spiritually inclined, so divine intervention took over and protected me.

My aunt Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has been hiv positive since the 1980’s due to intravenous drug use and promiscuous behavior from the 1970’s on up and instead of using her limited time to spend changing her life around for the better, she continued to do tons of constant dirt. She and other envious and jealous ruthless dummies, whores, drug addicts, and degenerates attacked me and other family for decades.

They’ve in addition done it to others, however, when they came after my mother and I, they messed with the wrong individuals. We are people of the light and they are people of the darkness. My ancestors and orishas were ready for them all, and the universe was recording and keeping record of every notorious deed in which was repeatedly done toward us.

Tina had poisoned food of my mother’s years ago too while neighbors were working black magic/voodoo/witchcraft against her.

My grandfather was driven to mental affliction before he was killed and found dead in the Hudson river.

My aunt Charise was drugged and raped which caused her to be afflicted with mental illness.

My grandfather, mother, younger aunt, and I were targeted for manipulative breakdowns because we were all very smart, strong, and fighters who could literally kick ass if needed be. We weren’t the type to back down or be bullied by anyone, and we were all good upstanding people.

The intent for causing mental, emotional, and spiritual breakdowns are to weaken one, to render them as incredible, and to lower their self esteem and spirit.

Certain evildoers want those of us who have knowledge in which threaten their unscrupulous ways either dead or labeled as crazy.

 

 

 

Life

My life continues to run smooth. I am at a place of constant alignment.

My peace of mind never wavers, and my natural spirited attitude stays in tact, not ever being swayed away by any occurrence.

Environment and surroundings are so very important, however, when one has a deep personal fulfillment stored from inside it doesn’t matter what atmosphere we’re caught up in, pleasurable internal conditions sail us throughout each specific area, and position.

I genuinely have a deep peace of mind, fulfillment, and happiness, rooted from within.

No matter what goes on around me I am undisturbed and unaffected by it.

A lot of individuals are not truly content in their lives for personal or professional reasons of their very own. I always felt success and achievement meant different things to different people, and depended upon an individual definition of whatever the accomplishments meant to them, and unto their own fulfillment.

My contentment never centered around other people, marriage, or having children.

My happiness centered around well-being, healthy living for the mind, body, and spirit, something which inspired me all throughout my life from my early days, and what has kept me motivated till this day.

The results have been satisfactory.

I’m glad I don’t associate myself within the company of those whom I have no desire to be around, I’m glad I never wanted to get married, and I’m glad I don’t have any children. I am complete within my personal self.

Professionally I’ve done very well.

I had interactions with employers who’ve tried to take advantage of me because I was a good worker, and certain coworkers who were envious of my self confidence and abilities, but that’s everyday life for many.

Within career, I should be so much further ahead, yet I don’t really care. I am more concerned and delighted in the person who I am, and how I lived my life. That is what makes me the most proud, not a job, because I know the high extent of my capabilities, whatever else is meant to be will come in due time.

Right now, I’m enjoying the rewards of the blessings in which kept me preserved and which keeps me sustained.

I feel so very lucky, and fortunate, at how spirit and the universe loved me enough to consistently respect me and my life.

 

 

 

 

A “Lady” Is Not “Truly” Defined By Her Sexual History

Daily Living, By Miss LaToya

In my opinion, sexual intercourse is a stupid act as I consider a man and his penis totally undesirable.

Nevertheless, I am a very intelligent and logical open-minded woman who knows there are a lot of females who are interested in men and sex, or who may just use men for sex whether they want to have a child or they may just want to get their kicks off.

I can still elaborate common sense to a subject in which makes no sense.

I don’t care what anyone does with their lives or with their bodies as it is of no concern to me, in spite of that fact, as a societal issue and as a woman/lady myself I am inspired to express on this subject.

I’m not at all saying that attitudes will ever change, but that I, and I am quite sure many others, absolutely do not…

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Blocked Witchcraft Attempt

As a child I wasn’t sheltered. I’d seen and heard a lot and encountered numerous types of people and situations while at the same time not being negatively influenced within my own behavior by incorporating undesirable habits or lifestyle choices, yet informed, as I had a mind of my own.

I had firsthand experience without having to personally indulge in order to know and since I was spiritually inclined I was able to clearly discern things that were hidden under the surface and I definitely knew what appealed to me and what turned me off and what I wanted to avoid as I grew up in life.

One of my strongest points is my excellent communication skills and comprehension. What I lack though is a sympathetic nature toward people and the world in general. I do love the hell out of puppies and dogs, though, they just steal my heart. They’re so innocent, sincere, and lovable those little adorable fuckers.

Since I nipped that “Think Of Me Spell” in the bud last week another corresponding negative technique was put in motion to run its trifling course. It’s definitely witchcraft yet all it has done is give me a off and on headache.

The motive is to drain me of my good energy and luck to render me vulnerable to the effects of whatever negativity and negative energy in which they gear toward me as they have failed so badly with endeavoring to bring me down and to destroy me.

These idiots are continuing to further ruin themselves through attempting to cause my demise. I am a very good and blessed person and I am and will constantly be guided and protected by divine intervention.

Adversaries are actually hurt because I am not at all hurt or affected by the negativity and dirt they’ve directed toward me within the past and by the negativity and dirt in which some of them still continue to direct toward me now.

They are infuriated by the love I have for myself, my high self esteem, the love and respect I have around me, and the fact that they are unable to stop me from living my life and speaking the truth.

I am a writer by nature, I have a gift, and I am naturally motioned by spirit to utilize and exercise creatively, honestly, and productively whenever inspired. There is power in the universe to those of us who are endowed.

It deeply frustrates them how they cannot get to me emotionally or mentally. And I can “feel” their upsets within my body through intense empathic ability. So they couldn’t deny it even if they wanted to. Feeling and being able to perceive other peoples emotions has always been one of my dominant faculties as a highly spiritually inclined person.

They’re going to drive themselves crazy with trying to hurt or thwart me with things and circumstances in which do not faze me. I’m not the average person. I’ve always been on a entirely different level and will never be hurt by their words, lies, jealousies, ignorant thinking, malicious deeds and etc…

Of course, when somebody comes up against me I will take up for myself or fight back as I am a very feisty and strong individual. And I definitely will correct anyone who comes at me with the wrong approach. One doesn’t have to be hurt to retaliate out of hatred, vengeance, or justification these instances have absolutely nothing to do with being hurt within certain types of people. Everyone is different and does not act out for the same reasons or under the same intention.

Although I do realize many of my adversaries have been hurt by me as I have not been too friendly or receptive to their kind (as I’ve never been fond of their type and those with similar traits and mindsets) yet they hurt themselves by ignorantly making assumptions and adhering to preconceived notions while really knowing the real deal then proceeding to carry out nonsense due to pure spite and resentment.