Salvation (Eternal Security)

Walking With Jesus

In my late teens, while I was having a weekly bible study, I had mentioned to my group members the trouble I was undergoing in my neighborhood with fellow teens and adults who were jealous of me for not doing and not having done the things that they were doing. I lived a totally different lifestyle than what they all did.

One lady from my bible study specifically pointed to a particular verse of scripture and then spoke it out loud to me. It read: They are puzzled that you do not continue running with them in the same decadent course of debauchery, so they speak abusively of you. 1 Peter 4:4

Although I had never indulged within the same behaviors as certain neighborhood folk, I had cut loose those who I had grown up with and refused to be bothered with others who were not of good character…

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God’s Summon

My mother and I had gone through quite a few things and challenges through life for many years, years ago, yet we would always get through those situations remarkably and victoriously.

We, of course, experienced a lot of good times too along with plenty of really nice and supernatural blessings that had indeed come from God.

Even though, I still blamed God for having to go through negativity whether it was on account of people, principalities, or just the circumstances of living within a fallen world that I felt I didn’t ask to come into.

I have to admit that I was very strong in prayer and putting effort into developing a relationship with God to the best of my ability in trying to understand his will and plans back then.

Sometimes I did still have doubts about the authenticity of God’s goodness.

Whenever I would talk against him for whatever seemed to me to be unfair, cruel, or unright within life, my mother would always say that “It is not God, it is the people”. And she would always emphasize that God was good and how he was always good to her throughout her life.

My mother’s faith in the goodness of God was very strong compared to mine.

I always knew and believed in the power that he had but started to not completely trust in him as a good God as I focused more on the things I felt he allowed to happen in our personal lives, and within the world in general.

I couldn’t grasp God as truly being this loving, caring, reasonable source of light in a world full of permitted darkness. After all, nothing can go on unless God allows it too.

I looked at God as an evil or wrathful spirit looking to readily catch people in wrong-doing with the eagerness to punish or to send them to hell. I especially, believed that he had something personally against me and eventually came to the idea that it had to be other sources of light looking out and after me because I just couldn’t fathom how God worked sometimes.

It seems very contradicting to have been born with a caul and have God be against me (not saying that God is naturally against anyone). However, my mother along with a few others had told me that I sometimes would think “backwards”.

I cannot deny in all truth how God had been exceptional in our lives. Again, I think I focused more on the bad than the good things at times.

God has made a strong and grave stance to draw me back to him recently. He wants me to come to fully know and to understand the true nature of him, his word, and his glorious plans for me.

I never actually thought I’d speak these words. I was so angry at God for allowing witchcraft to be done on me as a child on up by jealous, envious, ill-minded individuals. And I had resented how the same types of toxic and undesirable individuals seemed to constantly be placed within my paths.

God wants me to know and to understand that he genuinely does love me. He wants me to focus totally on him and to have eternal life through the truth of his word and righteousness. He doesn’t want the devil to steal away and/or kill me with lies of where the source of my foundation, maintenance and protection resides.

God wants me to acknowledge and give glory to him. He wants me to use my spiritual gifts and experiences whether extraordinary or ordinary as testimony and encouragement instead of speaking against him out of any misinterpretation.

In order for me to comply the event had to be of sincerity and a true desire from within. As an authentic individual, I wanted everything to be from the heart; because that is how I operate. The spirit is definitely within me.

God didn’t knock on my door this time-he barged on in with urgency. An urgency of love and concern, an action he did not have to do. We have such little time here on earth and he wanted me to take heed to acknowledge his sovereignty and bring me closer to him.

In putting him first, he isn’t trying to hurt me he informed. He just wants me to learn to trust him while he takes care of the rest.

God doesn’t want my soul to be in jeopardy-and certainly not over a misunderstanding of who he is. God has a way of getting our attention even if it’s through a tragedy.

God knows our true hearts and motives and may correct but not punish out of unintentional error.

It is definitely true, he never abandons his children, even when some of us shy away from him. Even when I kept away he kept near not letting me fall. He won’t let anything separate those of us who truly belong to him.

Eternal Life/The Transition

I came across this post that, to me, is ultimately beautiful. Here it is:

(https://www.epm.org/blog/2020/Jun/3/loved-ones-experiencing-heaven)

What Are My Loved Ones Experiencing in the Present Heaven?

BY RANDY ALCORN  JUNE 3, 2020

A reader wrote, “I just finished the book Heaven. Knowing Jesus, I found it inspiring and well documented. I was disappointed there wasn’t more mentioned about the immediate Heaven, the one right after we leave this earth. I just lost a loved one and would like more information and clarity about what she is experiencing. I have read three books on Heaven, read a lot about the New Earth, but little about what happens when I die.”

While my book Heaven centers on the New Earth, the eternal Heaven, a few chapters deal with the present Heaven. When a Christian dies he enters what theologians call the “intermediate state,” a transitional period between life on Earth and the future resurrection to life on the New Earth. Usually when we talk about “Heaven,” we mean the place that Christians go when they die. When we tell our children “Grandma’s now in Heaven,” we’re referring to what I prefer to call the present Heaven (the word intermediate sometimes confuses people).

Books on Heaven often fail to distinguish between the intermediate and eternal states, using the one word—Heaven—as all-inclusive. But this is an important distinction. The present Heaven is a temporary lodging, a waiting place (a delightful one!) until the return of Christ and our bodily resurrection. The eternal Heaven, the New Earth, is our true home, the place where we will live forever with our Lord and each other. The great redemptive promises of God will find their ultimate fulfillment on the New Earth, not in the present Heaven. God’s children are destined for life as resurrected beings on a resurrected Earth.

Though the present Heaven is not our final destination, it’s a wonderful place, and it’s understandable that those who have had loved ones die in Christ wonder what life is like for them there. Based on the Bible’s teaching, we know several things: the present Heaven is a real (and possibly physical) place. Those who love Jesus and trust Him for their salvation will be with Him there, together with all who have died in Christ. We will be awake and cognizant. And because we will be with Jesus, it is “better by far” than our present existence.

The Present Heaven Is a Real Place

Heaven is normally invisible to those living on Earth. For those who have trouble accepting the reality of an unseen realm, consider the perspective of researchers who embrace string theory. Scientists at Yale, Princeton, and Stanford, among others, have postulated that there are ten unobservable dimensions and likely an infinite number of imperceptible universes. If this is what some scientists believe, why should anyone feel self-conscious about believing in one unobservable dimension, a realm containing angels and Heaven and Hell?

The Bible teaches that sometimes humans are allowed to see into Heaven. When Stephen was being stoned because of his faith in Christ, he gazed into Heaven: “Stephen, full of the Holy Spirit, looked up to heaven and saw the glory of God, and ­Jesus standing at the right hand of God. ‘Look,’ he said, ‘I see heaven open and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God’” (Acts 7:55-56). Scripture tells us not that Stephen dreamed this, but that he actually saw it.

Wayne Grudem points out that Stephen “did not see mere symbols of a state of existence. It was rather that his eyes were opened to see a spiritual dimension of reality which God has hidden from us in this present age, a dimension which none the less ­really does exist in our space/time universe, and within which ­Jesus now lives in his physical resurrected body, waiting even now for a time when he will return to earth.”

I agree with Grudem that the present Heaven is a space/time universe. He may be right that it’s part of our own universe, or it may be in a different universe. It could be a universe next door that’s normally hidden but sometimes opened. In any case, I don’t think God gave Stephen a vision in order to make Heaven appear physical. Rather, He allowed Stephen to see a present Heaven that was (and is) physical.

The prophet Elisha asked God to give his servant, Gehazi, a glimpse of the invisible realm. He prayed, “‘O Lord, open his eyes so he may see.’ Then the Lord opened the servant’s eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha” (2 Kings 6:17). Acts 7 and 2 Kings 6 are narrative accounts, historical in nature, not apocalyptic or parabolic literature. The text is clear that Stephen and Gehazi saw real things.

The Present Heaven May Be a Physical Place

If we look at Scripture, we’ll see considerable evidence that the present Heaven has physical properties. We’re told there are scrolls in Heaven, elders who have faces, martyrs who wear clothes, and even people with palm branches in their hands. There are musical instruments in the present Heaven, horses coming into and out of Heaven, and an eagle flying overhead in Heaven.

Many commentators dismiss the possibility that any of these passages in Revelation should be taken literally, on the grounds that the book of Revelation is apocalyptic literature, which is known for its figures of speech. But the book of Hebrews isn’t apocalyptic, it’s epistolary. Moses was told, in building the earthly Tabernacle, “Be sure that you make everything according to the pattern I have shown you here on the mountain.” If that which was built after the pattern was physical, might it suggest the original was also physical? The book of Hebrews seems to say that we should see Earth as a derivative realm and Heaven as the source realm.

Unlike God and the angels, who are in essence spirits (John 4:24; Hebrews 1:14), human beings are by nature both spiritual and physical. God did not create Adam as a spirit and place it inside a body. Rather, He first created a body, then breathed into it a spirit. There was never a moment when a human being existed without a body. We are not essentially spirits who inhabit bodies; we are essentially as much physical as we are spiritual. We cannot be fully human without both a spirit and a body.

Given the consistent physical descriptions of the intermediate Heaven and those who dwell there, it seems possible—though this is certainly debatable—that between our earthly lives and our bodily resurrection God may grant us some temporary physical form that will allow us to function as human beings while in that unnatural state “between bodies” awaiting our bodily resurrection. If so, that would account for the repeated depictions of people now in Heaven occupying physical space, wearing clothes and crowns, carrying branches, and having body parts (for example, Lazarus’s finger in Luke 16:24).

A fundamental article of the Christian faith is that the resurrected Christ now dwells in Heaven. We are told that His resurrected body on Earth was physical and that this same, physical Jesus ascended to Heaven, from where He will one day return to Earth. It seems indisputable, then, to say that there is at least one physical body in the present Heaven. If Christ’s body in the intermediate Heaven has physical properties, it stands to reason that others in Heaven could have physical forms as well, even if only temporary ones.

To avoid misunderstanding, I need to emphasize a critical doctrinal point. According to Scripture, we do not receive resurrection bodies immediately after death. Resurrection does not happen one at a time. If we have intermediate forms in the intermediate Heaven, they will not be our true bodies, which we leave behind at death.

So if we are given material forms when we die (and I’m suggesting this possibility only because of the many Scriptures depicting physical forms in the present Heaven), they would be temporary vessels. Any understanding of people having physical forms immediately after death that would lead us to conclude that the future resurrection has already happened or is unnecessary is emphatically wrong!

We’ll Be Together with Christ and Those Who Love Him

As painful as death is, and as right as it is to grieve it (Jesus did), we on this dying Earth can also rejoice for our loved ones who are in the presence of Christ. When they die, those covered by Christ’s blood are experiencing the joy of Christ’s presence in a place so wonderful that Christ called it Paradise.

As the apostle Paul tells us, though we naturally grieve at losing loved ones, we are not “to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope” (1 Thessalonians 4:13). Our parting is not the end of our relationship, only an interruption. We have not “lost” them, because we know where they are. And one day, we’re told, in a magnificent reunion, they and we “will be with the Lord forever. Therefore encourage each other with these words” (1 Thessalonians 4:17-18).

Peter tells us, “You will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ” (2 Peter 1:11). God is the main welcomer, no doubt.  All eyes are on Jesus, the Cosmic Center, the Source of all Happiness. But wouldn’t it make sense for the secondary welcomers to be God’s people, those who touched our lives, and whose lives we touched? Wouldn’t that be a great greeting party?

Jesus said, “There is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents” (Luke 15:10). Angels probably rejoice too, but the ones living in the presence of angels Jesus refers to are likely God’s people, redeemed human beings, some of who knew and loved and prayed for the conversion of these sinners, and now are beholding the answers to their prayers. Wouldn’t such people be a natural part of the welcome committee when we enter Heaven?

I envision glorious reunions and amazing introductions, conversations and storytelling at banquets and on walks, jaws dropping and laughter long and hard, the laughter of Jesus being the most contagious.

When I enter Heaven, I look forward to being hugged by my dear mother, who I led to Christ when I was a new believer in high school. Then I picture Mom, that broad smile on her face, presenting me with my sixth grandchild. In 2013 my daughter Angie had a miscarriage. This was a very painful time for our family, but one more reason I am looking forward to Heaven. When this happens, I will look at Jesus, nodding my thanks to the One with the nail-scarred hands, and I will not let my grandchild or my mother go.

Those in the Present Heaven Are Awake and Alive

That we’ll receive “a rich welcome” necessitates that at death, we will be awake and conscious. Christ depicted Lazarus and the rich man as conscious in Heaven and Hell immediately after they died (Luke 16:22-31). Jesus told the dying thief on the cross, “Today you will be with me in paradise” (Luke 23:43). The apostle Paul said that to die was to be with Christ (Philippians 1:23), and to be absent from the body was to be present with the Lord (2 Corinthians 5:8). After their deaths, martyrs are pictured in Heaven, crying out to God to bring justice on Earth (Revelation 6:9-11).

These passages clearly teach that there is no such thing as “soul sleep,” or a long period of unconsciousness between life on Earth and life in Heaven. The phrase “fallen asleep” (in 1 Thessalonians 4:13 and similar passages) is a euphemism for death, describing the body’s outward appearance. The spirit’s departure from the body ends our existence on Earth. The physical part of us “sleeps” until the resurrection, while the spiritual part of us relocates to a conscious existence in Heaven (Daniel 12:2-3; 2 Corinthians 5:8).

Every reference in Revelation to human beings talking and worshiping in Heaven prior to the resurrection of the dead demonstrates that our spiritual beings are conscious, not sleeping, after death. (Nearly everyone who believes in soul sleep believes that souls are disembodied at death; it’s not clear how disembodied beings could sleep, because sleeping involves a physical body.)

As awake and conscious beings, those in Heaven are free to ask God questions (Revelation 6:9-11), which means they have an audience with God. It also means they can and do learn. They wouldn’t be asking questions if they already knew the answers. In Heaven, people desire understanding and pursue it. There is also time in the present Heaven. People are aware of time’s passing and are eager for the coming day of the Lord’s judgment. God answers that the martyrs must “rest a little longer.” Waiting requires the passing of time. I see no reason to believe that the realities of this passage apply only to one group of martyrs and to no one else in Heaven. We should assume that what is true of them is also true of our loved ones already there, and it will be true of us when we die.

Life in Christ’s Presence Is Better by Far

Paul says, “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.… I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far” (Philippians 1:21, 23). Life in the Heaven we go to when we die, where we’ll dwell prior to our bodily resurrection, is “better by far” than living here on Earth under the Curse, away from the direct presence of God.

Paul spoke from experience. He had actually been taken into Heaven years before writing those words (2 Corinthians 12:1–6). He knew firsthand what awaited him in Paradise. He wasn’t speculating when he called it gain. To be in the very presence of Jesus, enjoying the wonders of His being, and to be with God’s people and no longer subject to sin and suffering? “Better by far” is an understatement!

King David wrote, “In Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore” (Psalm 16:11, NKJV). In the presence of God, there’s nothing but joy. Those who live in the presence of Christ find great happiness in worshiping God and living as righteous beings in rich fellowship in a sinless environment. And because God is continuously at work on Earth, the saints watching from Heaven have a great deal to praise Him for, including God’s drawing people on Earth to Himself (Luke 15:7, 10).

Our loved ones now in Heaven live in a place where joy is the air they breathe, and nothing they see on earth can diminish their joy. Their joy doesn’t depend on ignorance, but perspective, drawn from the Christ in whose presence they live. If you’re following Jesus, no doubt your loved ones there are rejoicing over you. The great cloud of witnesses of Hebrews 12 is now up in the stands of Heaven and watching you on the same playing field they once ran on. They’re looking forward to hearing Jesus say “Well done” to you, and they may also commend you for your service of Jesus!

But those in the present Heaven are also looking forward to Christ’s return, their bodily resurrection, the final judgment, and the fashioning of the New Earth from the ruins of the old. Only then and there, in the eternal Heaven, the home Jesus is preparing for us, will all evil and suffering and sorrow be washed away by the hand of God. Only then and there will we experience the fullness of joy intended by God and purchased for us by Christ, who we will forever praise!

 

Its Hard For Adversaries To Accept Truth

Jealous and envious people often try to outdo or compete with those who they know they’re inadequate to, and feel threatened by.

We don’t entertain them within our minds as we live our day to day lives unconcerned about their unwanted existence. Yet, we appear upon their minds as a constant reminder of the incomparable and repetitious torture in relation to their own shortcomings, and inevitable downfalls.

For about two weeks now, adversaries have been working against me to no avail. They have made an effort through working a spell or spells to mask and block the good energy innately generated around me in an attempt to unnaturally lower my spirits and prevent further advantageous things from entering into my life.

They come to my blogs and/or get wind of my writings. They observe my peaceful and satisfying lifestyle. They resent my spiritual blessings and protections; and they are heavily disappointed at my consistency to successfully hold versatile jobs, and earn steady well-paid incomes.

I and certain members of my family were born intelligent and meant to do well no matter who or what negative source endeavored to intervene. We were always much stronger and more knowledgeable than the demonic individuals who crossed our paths.

They also come to my blog to look for clues or ideas within my writings, actually believing that I would unwittingly or tactlessly (clumsily) divulge some type of information to counteract the intangible/celestial arrangement that surrounds me.

This tug of war that adversaries delusionally hold onto is a battle in which they constantly fight on their own against themselves. I’ve never held onto the other end of their ropes as I let them fall to their defeat a long time ago due to the fact that they didn’t stand a chance at ever destroying me.

They just need to wake up, realize, and finally accept it.

The “Sleep” And The “Awoke”

Conspiracy and corruption, along with demoniac essence, goes on everywhere and in everyday life not just within the elite. They are just the traps that set up the bait.

We find quite a lot of acts and schemes played out within ruthless and determined ways for benefit or profit by ordinary people.

A lot of individuals don’t really know the depth of what is going on within this society.

Nevertheless, many of us who are genuinely spiritual inclined have always had the insight and connection to this realm, and beyond.

One of my strong and consistent faculties was being able to sense things about people that other people weren’t able to sense.

There is so much that I could get into and explain, however, I will give a brief summary of my point.

I remember through out different stages of life, I would try to tell certain people things in regard to whatever was the issue if I was confronted, and they’d refuse to listen to me then blame me for being difficult, or the one who was the trouble.

I’ve never had this problem with people who were “awoke” or on my high level/wavelength.

Now, some of this with particular people, was an attempt to gaslight me because I was no pushover and could see through them and their calculations. I was never anybody’s fool or one to be controlled and taken advantage of.

With others, it was their inability to discern through their limited view of perception as they would often come back to me later after having discovered the truth, acknowledging to me “Now I see”, or “I see what you mean”, or “You were right”.

Yet, I didn’t give a fuck what they were too late to have seen, and acknowledged, once their stupid asses rudely became aware of their errors, and then humbled by them.

Maybe I would have been kinder or more understanding if some had not been snidely injudicious. I don’t tolerate those who try to make me out to be the bad one because they have an inadequate mentality/mindset.

I never believed everything I watched on the news, read in news papers, learned in school, observed in religions, or heard from other people.

I wasn’t blinded by information just because it was handed out by those who were considered to be an authoritative figure or source.

My intuition and intelligence knew when something was not all about truth, or whereas something did not seem right. My mind was able to decipher through analysis, gut feelings, and plain common sense.

Many people are so dumb and weak-minded and easily deceived. They are mind controlled, and cemented within their own lack of knowledge and awareness-and they don’t even realize it.

A lot of people actually dimiss or reject genuine knowledge because it may go against what they have learned, heard, or was raised to believe.

I am so glad that I was never an individual who was able to be manipulated or programmed along with the masses of people who are slaves to the worldly system of government, and who are vulnerable to their propaganda and agendas.

 

Eyes Of The Soul: Sweet Reward

Many people hate or have hated god for personal reasons of their own even if they won’t admit to it.

As a true spiritual person who was definitely born with the caul, and the family lineage to back up naturally inherent occult power, I speak from experience.

When I was a young girl, even though I had a lot of advantages, fortunate luck, and blessings, I never felt that God was truly good or any sincere positive energy from him.

I have extremely intense empathic faculties, and I am usually on point. So God is not perfect and good within my definition of what a good and perfect god really is, or should be.

When I went through hard times as a youngster on up I’d often see an extremely shiny twinkle in the sign of a cross appear before me, acknowledging to me “I’m here, I’m with you, everything is going to be alright”.

Everything did turn out alright, however, what was the purpose of going through the nonsense of whatever would be the trial within the first place? All these tribulations did was cause me to resent God even more than I already had.

I was already disgusted in the way he designed certain things within creation. Then, to include me as one of the beings to inhabit a life here on this Earth filled with sick people and morbid principalities in which I have no tolerance or patience for, was a complete insult.

If I could have used my gifts to rid the world that I did not ask to come into from all of the things that turned me off I would have done it immediately. If I was able to have gotten off the Earth and into a special place where what’s going on here wasn’t permitted, and/or where certain people and things didn’t exist, the circumstance would have been even better.

Years ago, when I gave god the benefit of the doubt in regard to my perceptions of him, I was always disappointed by him and my outcomes. When I constantly put myself first is when I noticed I was the happiest and more fulfilled.

If I truly don’t like or don’t want something within my life then it is not going to work out; it has always been this way with me. I have to do it my way. I am too strong and self-willed.

I wholeheartedly love myself, my mind-the way I think, and the way I am.

Having extrasensory perception/second-sight enabled me to experience life within many extraordinary modes that I have learned and discovered quite a lot from.

Later on, when I fully became aware of my ancestors and orishas presence around me things opened up further and brought to me a clearer understanding of who really had my best interest in spirit.

God is often called a god of love, he is nothing but a disgrace to me. If God is supposed to be the true definition of love, perfection, fairness or truth I don’t want any of the perversion around me.

The devil, is often blamed for the negative effects initiated by so called inborn sin and the inequities of the world. Yet, who allows the devil to reign upon the physical/material plane? Why wasn’t he stopped at the beginning?

The devil and god are one and the same to me.

Oh so many answers and hidden truths that have been revealed to me that I’d never openly share or discuss! I just had to speak my mind.

I definitely know what love, fairness, and truth is and no god of perfection would operate within the manner in which he does.

The energy influence of god years ago was suffocating, manipulative, and unnatural.

Spiritually, I breathe free now, unbound by blockage, and I continue to flourish through the natural beauty of my surrounding essence.

 

Intangible Peace

Luck and fortunate circumstance have never been a stranger within my life when it came to particular occurrences.

I’ve constantly been having a lot of great luck; the universe is very consistent. My family and I are blessed.

The positive energy within and around my family and I that exudes out into the atmosphere generates a magnetism to continuously reflect back accordingly.

My beloved and respected Ancestors and Orishas guard with a fierce peace, power, and protection each and every day.

In the past, we’ve had to go through so much in life due to the many unsavory and demonic people who unfortunately inhabit the earth without them being able to conquer our spirits, or the essence that shines over us.

However, when we are good/spiritual people a huge percent of us have to battle with the lost souls and principalities of the world, and beyond.

The most important element of the situation is that we successfully made it through as those of us with strong faith and foresight knew we inevitably would.

We did not fret when certain events infuriated us and brought out the inner vigilante derived from our strength.

We knew the day would come when the universe would snag the unscrupulous up into the clutches of its supernatural jaws to display for our warranted observation.

We are often allowed the privilege to satisfactorily witness the retributions of spiritual vindication granted by the powers that be.

 

Corona Conspiracy Theory? Just A Thought That Ran Across My Mind

On the news they’ve mentioned Donald Trump and his crew not wearing any masks during this pandemic. The excuse I heard was that they all were supposed to have been tested for Corona Virus and all of them tested negative.

So, in other words, they don’t feel the need to wear masks as they’ve directed, and have been directed to do, just like everyone else has been advised to do.

I heard today, vice president Pence was caught not wearing a mask and his excuse was the same as Trump’s and their crew-because he also tested negative.

It seems to me that even though Corona Virus is said to have possibly developed from infected animals in China (according to the news/media) these politicians (Trump/Pence and others who are involved) give me the impression that the disease was especially planned out and put into operation and they all may have been injected or protected with something in which makes them all immune from catching the Corona Virus.

I’m not saying that I am absolutely right, However, it is a genuine thought that has crossed my mind.

Nevertheless, the universe is in control and as I’ve said before this circumstance of Corona Virus will all eventually come to pass. This is going on for a reason, better changes are in fruition and celestial revelations are manifested to those who are inclined.

We in particular receive the messages through our inner voice of spirit.

 

Homework

When I began class a while back there were also online academic tasks assigned to us students for additional study in which I took advantage of and enjoyed. Now that school was temporarily cancelled due to the circumstances befalling the world right now (Corona Virus) the available online courses are primary.

I find it a very serviceable resource to be able to utilize my studies within the comforts of home for limitless periods of time any day of the week just as long as the educational instrument is being implemented.

My teacher had phoned me and other classmates last month notifying us of a possible further online study program, I haven’t heard anything from her since. I ran into a girl who attends my class a week ago and she asked me if I know when school is going to start back up because she misses the class. We did have a wonderful environmental setting, good teacher, and sufficient preparation.

I told her that originally the teacher had informed to me back in March that we may resume about the third week of April, however, apparently after listening to governor Cuomo address that New York will not be opening up currently or any time soon, I logically assume that our attending school will be put on hold a little while longer until health risks are at a significant or absolute low.

In the meantime, I have no worries or complaints and treasure this period as a sign that has demonstrated to me luck and a transition into supplementary better things to come as one “spiritually connected/in tune”.

 

 

Fortunate Occurrences

 

I don’t stay home for the sake of staying home I go out and do what I have, need, and want to do when the time calls for it.

Though, when spirit speaks within the beauty of love, respect, and protection with the further generosity of vital welfare, I absolutely respond with the ultimate gratitude.


 

I’ve worked in retail for fourteen years and I’ve professionally worked in health care for six and a half years.

I always keep more than one job.

At the beginning of the year, when I changed my work schedule at one of my jobs to fit in with my academic course everything worked out just fine.

Then, almost a month afterward, one of my managers in the health care field asked me if I would change shifts with another employee who decided that she wanted to go back to school to enroll in some courses.

I told her no because I was in school too and wasn’t going to interfere with or jeopardize my plans to advance myself further in what I may consider to do within life. Where the hell did, she have the nerve to think I would sacrifice my studies for some other employee, and after I already had made a schedule change with her (the manager) myself to conveniently attend school on certain days.

“Oh, I didn’t know if you were still continuing with that”, she had said to me.

I had never given her any details about my course as it was none of her business yet I didn’t appreciate her calling me asking me to change my schedule as if the other person was more important than me so I quit right there on the spot over the phone and left her hanging just like that. Don’t fuck with me!

I still had another job that I could go to while I attended school. In between time, I still looked for another job as back up.

When I found one and was about to take orientation the Corona Virus shit broke out. Everything was coming to a halt, even school temporarily shut down.

Even as some jobs had put a hold on hiring, I managed to get employed at not one but with two other companies who were still in the midst of employing individuals since I was considered an “essential employee” within the health care field.

On one of the new jobs I needed an up to date physical so in March I went for my yearly physical but the doctor didn’t want to clear me for work because of the paranoia over the Corona Virus shit. She told me to stay at home.

I was pissed off because I like to make my money; so, I went home and emailed her a nasty little note telling her that I wasn’t worried about catching no Corona Virus and I asked her if she were going to pay my bills?

Then, the second new job came through where I didn’t need any medical clearance, yet a few days before work the schedule was cancelled temporarily until this Corona Virus shit dies down.

All together now I have three jobs that I haven’t been able to go to. Yet I have been blessed with means to survive without having to worry about anything. So, I had to sit back and take notice at what was staring me right in the face.

No matter how hard I tried to go out there to continue to work the universe was telling me no, not at this time of pandemic crisis and at the same time I wasn’t left hanging within any financial woes.

The powers that be didn’t want me or my family caught up in that shit going on out there.

“Spirit” literally isn’t any joke. When we genuinely and wholeheartedly walk in spirit the essence protects us and sees us through. We are carried thoroughly, supplied with our needs and wants until we are able to again carry ourselves once the coast is clear.

 

 

 

Energy And Vibration

 

A transcendental occurrence is momentously taking place.

The universe is doing a fantastic/magnificent job filtering out the atmospheric energy of extramundane impurities.

A transformation for the better is definitely in motion regardless of those who are not able to see, or recognize this specific metamorphosis.


My Connection To The Spirit World Is A Part Of My Very Nature. It Is Innate.

The purity within spirit is a beautiful anointment to be enveloped within. The love, the respect, the communication-it is immeasurable and irreplaceable.

The loyalty and dedication are not a strenuous effort or chore on either part of connection the mutual essence is an intrinsic fulfillment. Everything is all built in and deep-rooted. An inherent bestowal of lineage and veneration through preordained circumstances.

The magnetic energy that exudes is wonderful, and so far from anything demonic, which is extremely repulsive and automatically forsaken. As darkness is nowhere near as powerful as the light, any demonic vibration is unable to intensely stand up to the challenge of what ultimately surrounds me.

I adore how the more I fiercely repel evil and negativity the more goodness and positivity takes over.

I never accept or entertain the ill-will or ill-intent sent by others-that negative energy, whether through black magic/voodoo/witchcraft/, or simply just disagreeable/hostile attitudes, is undesirable and intolerable to spirit.

 

 

 

 

Intuitive Faculties

Born With Second-Sight And A Connection To The Spirit World

In regard to the authentic, distinct, and rare born of the caul/veil: 

For all of my life I’ve “known things” without anyone having to tell me. It is a gift that many have never deciphered except those who are aware of these special talents among the particular. 

Certain individuals just don’t understand how I and others who are gifted with the abilities of second-sight are able to see into the past, present, and future through instant visions and cognizance. 

They know that we are legitimate they merely don’t assimilate how our faculty works. 

When people lie to us or try to hide things from us, we still know the truth. We more than likely know what they will say or do, and the outcome of things before they even know themselves. 

Individuals often get angry at us for knowing what they want concealed. 

We in particular have these gifts because we are special. We are children of the light who have inherited the power through the lineage of our great ancestors. We are one with nature, extended forces of the universe-descendants from the other realm/worldly. 

The instance is heavy and we ourselves are deep individual beings with grave purpose. 

As certain others are very unfamiliar with our valid insight, knowledge, perception, consciousness and realizations in which they may not be apt to grasp or destined to identify with, we often become the object of attack and condemnation among those who are “celestially uninformed”. 

Nevertheless, our status is well-known within the spirit world, therefore, we have the ultimate protection, guidance, and direction. We don’t need or depend on the acceptance or approval of the blind, their attitude/frame of mind is of no significance to the highly spiritually developed. Neither are their actions of any bearing. 

I’m proud to not be ordinary!  It is a genuine compliment to be called crazy or weird by the ignorant or lower class if said by any of them.

We are an inspiration to the intelligent and to the awoke, or  to those who are on the same “wavelength”.  Even so, we are able to stand alone-not cheered or regarded by anyone. Our mere existence hold’s its own, we are self-secure/self validated!

 

 

 

 

The “Knowing” Power

The spiritual life is the best life, the only life I know.

Advantages Of The Caul

Someone asked me when I was in my early twenties what it felt like to have been born with a caul.

What was there to explain, really? It felt like me.

100% pure celestial energy; my natural intangible, ethereal propensity.

What came as ordinary to me was out of the ordinary to certain others.

I believe that oftentimes those us who are genuinely endowed with preternatural capacity are greatly underestimated and misunderstood, and many do not realize just how intuitive and “in touch”/in tune with the universe we actually are. Our extra sensory faculties go beyond the scope of particular reasoning.

As many are unaware of just how deeply we can see, hear, and feel into them, their lives, or within the world some take more of a notice of the circumstances in which happen around us ourselves.

They recognize our special blessings; the luck we may have-how things go well for us in ways that don’t normally work out for them, or within the odds; the basis of our unfathomable spans of preservation and unwavering elevation.

They witness these things about us; however, they do not understand why or how we are unaffected and maintained within these fashions.

The special knowledge and “knowing power” that we weren’t taught, but endowed with, allows us to be cognizant/conscious of these facts through the energy that we uncannily pick up from the vibration that exudes toward us.

We may feel the negativity whether heavy or light due to the conscious or unconscious focus displayed upon our certain advantages by others who are not so delighted by the instance.


The earliest I remember first experiencing my power it was at the age of three, and I still remember the incident to this very day.

I never shared the story with anyone other than my mother as I had told her right after it happened. In fact, she was a part of the vision I had saw just before it had taken place within our home moments afterward. As a child, I was just taking it all in having just witnessed an event in my mind’s eye to see it all unfold exactly the way it played out.

It was a natural feeling, and one that made me keep staring at my mother in wonderment when I recalled it to her.

For those in particular, our gifts are rare and they keep us ahead, and when we’re of the light we continuously receive the revelations (the hidden knowledge).

 

Extremely wise and spiritually connected:

A real person born with a caul doesn’t have to go look for answers from others. The truth lies within self through one’s own special set of circumstances and experience. Spirit speaks in distinction, a uniqueness that cannot be duplicated.

 

Undisturbed

 

Certain people are running to their god of the bible out of distress and they are in need of mental and emotional support. If they were solid in the first place, they wouldn’t be so tormented.

Those of us in particular aren’t disturbed at all. We have no reason to be.

The universe is cleaning up and many who are in a state of distinct spiritual “unconsciousness/unaware” have reactions that are typical for them right now-full of fear, panic, and worry. Those who need to die don’t want to perish and are making it bad for others who aren’t blowing this shit all out of proportion.

It’s funny watching the no good suffer, though.

Too bad the Corona virus doesn’t just strictly kill up all the large masses of people who are a waste of life, trouble, or who shouldn’t be here on the earth to begin with.

 

The Depth Of Ignorance

 

I awoke this morning to the adorable sounds of birds chirping outside my window. They always sound so cute! Their chirruping lasted for a good hour.

I also awoke to a headache that intensified two days ago; the results of adversaries working against me through black magic-when will they learn or accept that their efforts are in vain?

It doesn’t ever matter what is going on within the world they are still preoccupied with trying to overcome me. When 9/11 hit they didn’t stop, and now with this corona virus they are still at it. World events do not distract or deter them from their envies and resentment being put into action.

They are trying to communicate with me through dreams in an attempt to manipulate me into their false perception of what should be.

I have an extremely strong spirit and strong mind; I do not and have never thought the way average, or below average people do. No one can steer my mind from the truth or of my definite nature, it is impossible; yet, reason does not register with sick people.

My adversaries know who to mess with and who not to so they are just acting stupid right now. My conquering of them was, and still is, too much for them to handle. The idiocy they showed was too much for them to bear. Nevertheless, their nonsense attempts at trying to undermine the facts of their defeat is a total waste of time.

Nice Spring Day

 

I was supposed to work this weekend, but there was a change of plans (the universe protecting me), so I went out earlier today to pay my cable bill (by mail) and to do some grocery shopping.

I do what I have to essentially and healthily do as usual, and then I go on back home to relax.

The weather was completely gorgeous!

 

 

 

Tina

Love? That is so funny. You don’t know the definition of love! I don’t want anything from you. I don’t want your affection or your money, or anything else from you.

If you loved yourself you would have never done the specific things you’ve done and lived life the specific way you’ve lived.

Remember when you told me you wanted to give me funds from your pension when you die? Well, you can shove it up your ass.

You can’t buy me!

I don’t need your itty bitty shit I was born to have my own and I have been doing pretty darn well- I even do my own taxes! I have been handling my own jobs, career, and money for years now. The universe is not going to let anything happen to me.

Oh what a pathetic bitch you are, Tina, you along with others who were foolish enough to fuck with me in the first place.

Beg all you want bitch! I don’t give a fuck about you.

I’m an inevitable success story.

No matter how hard you and other undesirables tried you could not break my spirit or inhibit my drive and purpose. I prevailed, I always have, and I always will, you were all just far too dumb to see it and realize that you weren’t hurting anyone but yourselves.

You can keep making an ass out of yourself if you want, just like you have done for the majority of your life, because I have absolutely no regard for you.

The sad thing about everything is instead of being proud of having a niece of my caliber and character you were filthy jealous and destructive, especially as you admitted to me and my mother how the majority of the other neighborhood folks and youngsters were a bunch of nothings, yet you joined in with many of them (Did they know that while you were out gossiping and making up lies about my mother and I that you were coming back talking about some of them to us when you were at your lowest point? I don’t think so! They’re so stupid just like you.)

How sick can you be? I shouldn’t have asked that question because you broke the mold when it came to being twisted.

I’m happy, I have peace, I am blessed, and I have success. I also have a host of good and powerful blood related ancestors from your mother’s side of the family who’ve watched over me since my birth.

You don’t even know the beauty of our family and their history. You were too busy running the streets.

Did you know your mother had seven or eight brothers and sisters in actuality? Do you know how much family we have down south and spread about? We’ve known and met family that you don’t even know about.

I’m your only true connection to your mother also. You’ll never know what’s going on with her in the spirit world because I’d never share those revelations with you.

I’ll tell you this though, she (Catherine) is alright, so far she has been in a content sphere for a long time now.

Amanda and Junie, however, went straight to the depths leading to hell where they most definitely belong and where they suffer.

 

 

Ernestine Lawrence

Down below are links and messages from my mother’s sister, Tina, sent to me on Facebook.

This is for you, Tina, although you probably wouldn’t comprehend as logic and reasoning doesn’t register with you. And, since your HIV/Aids has probably gone to your head by now.

Since I was a child you were very jealous of me because I was very intellectually advanced and highly educational that is why you went around saying I had no education when it was actually you who had no knowledge.

You always had that low level trash mentality.

You have no high school diploma and did not graduate from high school that is why you went into the National Guards because you didn’t know anything and you wouldn’t have gotten into there if my mother hadn’t helped you out and told you what to do but you couldn’t even excel within that.

If it wasn’t for my mother Annette Theodora Cromwell wouldn’t even have gotten into college.

Now I don’t knock anyone who didn’t finish school the traditional way because I understand distinction within individuals everyone has their own way and their own calling or set of circumstances.

However, you really focused on making me out to appear like a stupid person when you didn’t even finish school yourself.

Did you know I actually skipped a grade when I was twelve? And when I was ten I passed tests that high school kids couldn’t pass. At eight years old I got an award for being one of the best readers within my entire school.

When I became an adult I got accepted into a college but I never cared about any of that shit because I wasn’t an insecure person like you.

When you were at those young ages all you achieved and was well known for was being on drugs and being a skank.

I at such a young age was gifted and passed all of my tests, received awards, and certificates in school so you and Amanda tried to interfere because I was nowhere near a dummy like you and Amanda.

You both knew I was headed for accomplishments that you both weren’t capable of gaining.

You wasted your time because I never relied on the approval of others or cared what anyone thought I’m proud of everything about myself and I have no regrets.

I was born with a caul you dumb bitch I have second-sight, I mean really, what the fuck did you think you could do? I was ahead of you. I laugh at you.

I knew just about everything you did through dreams, visions, and intuition.

You did the same to my mother because she was bright and multi-talented.

You said my mother never worked a day in her life because you couldn’t get the jobs that she could. You and Amanda were fools that people could use and abuse. Then you two were absurd enough to think that you could destroy me and my mother’s lives with voodoo/witchcraft/black magic and lies.

You conspired to give my mother a nervous breakdown and make her out to be lower than what you actually were out of pure envy, jealousy, and your own true state of mental illness.

It’s all in the past now but you still won’t leave us alone. We don’t care anything about you, we never did, and never will.

Nobody is hurt by you, you are nothing to be distressed by, you never had the power to destroy us, we just don’t like you at all.

You are an undesirable person who has done far too much dirt why would anybody of any class, intelligence, and substance want to be bothered with you.

Why don’t you go call and bother your own kind of fellow degenerates who share within the delusions of their own mentalities.

You are a pathetic piece of trash.

Go call up George Owens/Taalib Muhammad, Joanne Anderson Franks, Doritta Almodovar, Renee Blackwell, her sister Teresa Blackwell, Jeff Jemmott, Olivia Oliver and her kids and grand kids that you all talked about like a dog (remember when cookie and her kids gave you a concussion and put you in the hospital?), Spotface Pat Bush and your dyke crew, Diane Mims, Sonia, Lorraine Burwell- the bitch with the broken legs and her sister Judy Clarke, the nigger you stabbed with the knife who took a shit in your toilet before you called the cops on him, Annette Theodora Cromwell-the bitch who fucked some nigger down on Hollis at the tire shop, and all of the other sick and twisted fucks you use to run to and with.

You have no one. They don’t give a fuck about you, you stupid bitch. And look at all of the stupid unnecessary shit that you did to us for years. With your broke ass.

Go call up Amanda. Or better yet, why don’t you go join her in the grave.

Bitch, maybe you should give me a call so I could blow your mind with all of the shit that I know for someone who doesn’t have an education. I’ll teach you some life-long lesson facts.

 

Ernestine Lawrence

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Those Who May Underestimate Us Truly Resilient People

 

I took a snapshot from the newspaper a few days ago from my zodiac sign ♉ because the scenario ranged true within many instances.

This is a very true statement in general!

Ignorant people tend to judge and place an exaggerated emphasis on appearance or mannerism when it comes to the assessment of an individual’s character or temperament.

Just because one is courteous, nice, or kind, and has an innocent looking face and seemingly mild disposition does not at all indicate that they are weak and naive or passive and gullible, or docile and malleable.

Some even judge and calculate assessments merely by observing an individual’s physical size, with assumptions as to how big or small they are. If one is big, then automatically they are not to be messed with, if one is small, then they are more vulnerable or easily intimidated.

All of this stereotypical nonsense derived from those of an insufficient mindset and limited scope of knowledge, view, and experience within level, intelligence, and individuality.

Some of these aspects may be true in a percentage of people due to their own personal emotional or physical demeanors and insecurities, however, it definitely does not set the standard for all and everyone.

I myself for instance, am a soft spoken, and extremely sensible, and strong willed person, who on the exterior is far from rough looking yet on the inside is as tough and durable as they come.

I know a lot of nice and good people who others have mistaken their kindness for weakness and have tried to take advantage of them or categorized them as one’s to get over on then learned different.

I know a lot who underestimate the mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual capacity of others and then learn different.

I was never one to base logic and reasoning on superficial bullshit!

Strength, depth, dignity, confidence, knowledge and intelligence all stems and develops from within and cannot be measured by what one believes to perceive from looking on the outside.

Still in all, some don’t accept this fact of truth, and indeed have to eventually “learn the hard way!”

 

Free

I’m glad I’m not of some narcissistic energy that constantly needs to be praised and acknowledged and who threatens those to damnation for not agreeing and adhering to  circumstances that I don’t relate to, that don’t apply to me, and that don’t have anything to do with my sensible way, thought process, spiritual rotation, and so on.

I fortunately have the essence of “good light” and “energy” around me that allows and that inspires truth, love, peace, happiness, wisdom, knowledge, blessings, strength, confidence, talent, protection and the self individuality within my own authentic disposition as I am one within the essence.

It feels so good to be free. I never let anything rule me. I live a nice quiet life, I eat healthy and take care of myself, I have great spirituality, and I am blessed with great peace of mind.

I have always lived this way and I have no deep past regrets within my life.

I guess what I’m pleasantly guilty of is being extremely stubborn and set in my natural unconventional fashions.

The only thing I regret is being born into this physical realm, I deserve to be in a much better place than this twisted world, this forbidden place is beneath me.

When I was a kid I knew I didn’t belong here.

As one born with a caul I always knew things and felt things, even truths that may be considered controversial, nevertheless I didn’t care because hidden knowledge wasn’t a revelation for everyone or just anyone to know and to grasp.

I often wondered and couldn’t understand why trash we’re created and given life the instance never made any sense to me.

As a child I didn’t at all like or connect with those kinds of people within any way, I’d constantly get negative and intuitive feelings about them that would always pan out to be right or true, they were always prone to incite trouble, conflict, and disharmony as their nature and mentality was quite undesirable, and insufficient.

Many if not the majority of their type was very disturbed and ignorant in the mind even at a very young age because they are intrisnically born sick.

They also have a look about them, a way and mannerism about them, a vocal sound about them, characteristics that just don’t appeal or that don’t sit well.

There are certain people who will say that regardless they’re still one of God’s children, and that is another thing that never sat too well with me, because if God designed and put them here on the earth the instance is just another of the many numerous circumstances and factors in which goes to show and prove that there is something not at all right about god either.

One of the reasons they exist is because God uses them to carry out unwanted and unwarranted burdens of an unnatural essence upon the unconventional.

I’m not specifically referring to black magic/voodoo/witchcraft when I mention “unnatural” I am speaking in all terms of what goes against one’s own nature, propensity, or state of being just to please and appease an individual or entity who seems within a position to reign, or who wants to control.

Trash are weak-minded, easily influenced people, susceptible to be brainwashed, and who are ready and willing to accept what they perceive as a general higher authority in relation to God and/or to societal government without raising question or opposition.

They are on a certain mental level for a reason.

A low level where they are unable to come up from to decipher and to analyze from a genuinely higher intellectual or spiritual consciousness.

People who are “nothing” inspire to bring down people who are “something” with views, opinions, jealousies, and a lack of knowledge incorporated into their own limited outlooks, and limited scope into existence.

They are average low-life individuals who envy and oppose the free will and knowledge of distinctive individuals who are above them.

They in turn use their god to justify what they consider immoral or wrong in a distorted version to their own deception and misconception into the origin of who they innately are.

Others who are firm and concrete within the genuine validity of where they’re originally derived from cannot, and will not, be swayed by any means of detract, whether the intent is to minimize or to diminish the effectiveness, value or importance of someone, or to divert one altogether.

God will go to great lengths to use those who were born trash, and will turn others into trash just to get to them, or someone close to them, to manipulate and weaken them into incorporating his commands by psychological or spiritual harassment.

This technique has never worked on me as I am too strong within who I am and what I’m genuinely in correlation to within my own innate means.

No one could ever stop me from being the person who I am or from doing whatever it was that I wanted to do.

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Caul Destiny That Won’t Be Denied

Things are going my way. The universe harkens unto my voice. I live in my truth and my way harkens unto the intangible dimensions within my connection to the universe. The destiny that was designed for me, and the destiny I design, are both intertwined, and as they are both within harmony, they will not be denied.

Whereas there are a lot of good people in the world there are also plenty of negative and mediocre people inhabiting the planet and when no good people find out that they cannot use you and abuse you they do whatever it is within their power to refuse you the opportunities in which you are entitled to.

However, is not up to them or entirely in their hands to decide how far we go within life, or within our careers so to speak. It is just we live in a society governed and controlled by some people who are corrupt, and by some who are not on a certain “elevated” level and wavelength, or both.

The power is within the universe to ultimately decide, and the energy is dispelled unto not only those who are spiritually receptive, but to who it is also celestially intended.

As a spiritual person, life has consistently went better for me than the average life has went for others.

I was always meant to be successful and I have succeeded within many fashions and aspects of my life.

There are and have constantly been people, nevertheless, who’ve tried and who still take part in earnestly attempting to hold me back at reaching my highest peaks of deserved financial success.

I’ve worked jobs that I didn’t really want to do, or that I had no genuine interest in just to steadily gain a stable income to allow me to pay my bills, and to maintain the lifestyle that I frequently enjoy.

I was always able to make a good volume of money but they don’t want me to further delight in what they will never be able to have.

There is nothing they can do to stop who I am, what I’m capable of doing or achieving, or the things I was born to accomplish, they have only been able to delay certain events from taking place at a sooner period.

The time they stole and continue to steal, for the time being, until my optimum time finally arrives, is the extra time they’ll spend burning relentlessly within the lower depths of hell once they arrive to their inevitable and eternal destination. They have to suffer here, though, before they go, and a tough lesson beforehand they surely will learn.

I don’t follow the ways of the world because the world has absolutely nothing to do with me, I follow my own individual nature, preferences, and inclinations.

I have always definitely known how to live and to survive in this world, yet I am nothing of this world, and I never will be, and I am very proud of this actual fact.

Bad Intentions

People getting mad and destructive through the cellestial bestowments directed out from the great universe.

Unfortunately desiring to harm other individuals because they are blessed in ways that they aren’t – Miss LaToya

I never understood why certain individuals who were of a lower intellect and character, tried to dominate and degrade, those who were of a higher level and caliber.

It happened all the time among specific type of people who considered themselves to be up to par, yet were actually not.

The ones who’d get downgraded and downplayed were the true definition of genuine sunstance, and quality.

Imitators who aspired to duplicate within their own facades, often hunted deep to find fault within those who were just living normally, often creating a barrage of unwarranted attacks, in a mere attempt to completely subdue one.

Strange how relentless people are, and how far many of them will go, due to their own  unfathomable resentment toward the favorable advantage naturally granted upon certain others.

Mental, Emotional, And Spiritual Breakdown

Everyone who has had a breakdown of some sort is not weak, crazy, or dangerously unstable.

A breakdown is spiritual within many instances. A Yoruba priestess even acknowledged this fact to me years ago. I know firsthand as my own mother was a victim of brujeria in the early 1980’s.

I was even targeted. My aunt tried to flip me out when I was eighteen years of age by putting the hallucinogenic drug mescaline into a hot pot of black eyed peas that I had cooking over the stove.

People often use recreational “trip” drugs to increase the chance or enhance the effect of mental and chemical alterations of the brain while also performing the negative spiritual influences within black magic/voodoo/witchcraft.

My aunt went a step further in her malicious attempt by also putting tainted hiv fluids inside my food. Anyone educated would know the disease would not survive within the air and within a pot of scalding hot water.

Nevertheless, I didn’t lose my head or have a breakdown, my mind was too strong with faculty and awareness, and I didn’t, of course, become infected with aids either.

I was young, innocent, and very spiritually inclined, so divine intervention took over and protected me.

My aunt Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has been hiv positive since the 1980’s due to intravenous drug use and promiscuous behavior from the 1970’s on up and instead of using her limited time to spend changing her life around for the better, she continued to do tons of constant dirt. She and other envious and jealous ruthless dummies, whores, drug addicts, and degenerates attacked me and other family for decades.

They’ve in addition done it to others, however, when they came after my mother and I, they messed with the wrong individuals. We are people of the light and they are people of the darkness. My ancestors and orishas were ready for them all, and the universe was recording and keeping record of every notorious deed in which was repeatedly done toward us.

Tina had poisoned food of my mother’s years ago too while neighbors were working black magic/voodoo/witchcraft against her.

My grandfather was driven to mental affliction before he was killed and found dead in the Hudson river.

My aunt Charise was drugged and raped which caused her to be afflicted with mental illness.

My grandfather, mother, younger aunt, and I were targeted for manipulative breakdowns because we were all very smart, strong, and fighters who could literally kick ass if needed be. We weren’t the type to back down or be bullied by anyone, and we were all good upstanding people.

The intent for causing mental, emotional, and spiritual breakdowns are to weaken one, to render them as incredible, and to lower their self esteem and spirit.

Certain evildoers want those of us who have knowledge in which threaten their unscrupulous ways either dead or labeled as crazy.

 

 

 

Mother, And I

My mother and I went out and had a wonderful time today as we always enjoy one another’s company.

We don’t allow outside influence to interfere within our contentment we have no tolerance for anyone’s negativity.

No one can turn us against each other under no circumstance. I am her daughter, she is my mother, what kind of obnoxious and outrageous shit is that?

Those who have no bond of loyalty and love between a relative, or relatives, hate to see others experience the joy and beauty of authentic unity.

We have a pleasant life, we have great peace of mind, and we are truly happy inside, especially not having any undesirable people around us.

We only accept those flying on an exceptional vibe, full of positive energy, and no bullshit!

 

Jealousy

On one of my blogs titled Working Woman, I’ve talked a bit about my mother, and the good relationship we’ve had during my childhood on up.

Ignorant adversaries, however, seem to constantly assume for some reason that if they intervene it would cause some type of uproar or inconvenience within my life.

My mother is not and has never been some crutch or resource that I need to lean on or to survive by.

I don’t understand why these idiotic degenerates continue to attempt to play on her mind through black magic. Since she’s had a history of having a breakdown they prey on what they consider her vulnerability.

The other night, I heard, as I am Clairaudient, the discussion of inciting conflict between my mother and I. Adversaries from time to time want to use her, and speak through her, in order to get to me psychology with bullshit.

These utterances are to actually come from her mouth while they manipulate her mind and emotions, and I am supposed to succumb to the ploy.

My mother does have some personal issues yet I have absolutely no attachment to that whatsoever.

When a person is sick or gets sick they are not in their original mindset, not their usual self, or thinking within their general pattern.

The circumstance has no bearing on my life, just because we have had good memories, and experiences together, doesn’t mean it’s dependent upon my present or future happiness.

Plenty of children and parents have fond recollections and get along. It doesn’t mean we are unable to separate one from the other. If discord was to arise it’s logical to move on with living a healthy life, and at a distance if necessary, all depending on the state of the relationship.

The situation is definitely not normal and I don’t understand our adversaries distorted perception of the relationship between my mother and I and how they assume it would affect my life.

Nevertheless, trying to play on one’s mental illness to perpetuate delusion is expressing the deep mental illness in which they most definitely possess themselves.

It’s all a waste of time and energy as I am ahead and unfazed.

It is really insane how they pathetically and absurdly keep this nonsense going periodically, and this very morbid attachment in which they have to me and my life that they refuse to let go of.

Well, they can sadly hang on by themselves.

 

 

Blocked Witchcraft Attempt

As a child I wasn’t sheltered. I’d seen and heard a lot and encountered numerous types of people and situations while at the same time not being negatively influenced within my own behavior by incorporating undesirable habits or lifestyle choices, yet informed, as I had a mind of my own.

I had firsthand experience without having to personally indulge in order to know and since I was spiritually inclined I was able to clearly discern things that were hidden under the surface and I definitely knew what appealed to me and what turned me off and what I wanted to avoid as I grew up in life.

One of my strongest points is my excellent communication skills and comprehension. What I lack though is a sympathetic nature toward people and the world in general. I do love the hell out of puppies and dogs, though, they just steal my heart. They’re so innocent, sincere, and lovable those little adorable fuckers.

Since I nipped that “Think Of Me Spell” in the bud last week another corresponding negative technique was put in motion to run its trifling course. It’s definitely witchcraft yet all it has done is give me a off and on headache.

The motive is to drain me of my good energy and luck to render me vulnerable to the effects of whatever negativity and negative energy in which they gear toward me as they have failed so badly with endeavoring to bring me down and to destroy me.

These idiots are continuing to further ruin themselves through attempting to cause my demise. I am a very good and blessed person and I am and will constantly be guided and protected by divine intervention.

Adversaries are actually hurt because I am not at all hurt or affected by the negativity and dirt they’ve directed toward me within the past and by the negativity and dirt in which some of them still continue to direct toward me now.

They are infuriated by the love I have for myself, my high self esteem, the love and respect I have around me, and the fact that they are unable to stop me from living my life and speaking the truth.

I am a writer by nature, I have a gift, and I am naturally motioned by spirit to utilize and exercise creatively, honestly, and productively whenever inspired. There is power in the universe to those of us who are endowed.

It deeply frustrates them how they cannot get to me emotionally or mentally. And I can “feel” their upsets within my body through intense empathic ability. So they couldn’t deny it even if they wanted to. Feeling and being able to perceive other peoples emotions has always been one of my dominant faculties as a highly spiritually inclined person.

They’re going to drive themselves crazy with trying to hurt or thwart me with things and circumstances in which do not faze me. I’m not the average person. I’ve always been on a entirely different level and will never be hurt by their words, lies, jealousies, ignorant thinking, malicious deeds and etc…

Of course, when somebody comes up against me I will take up for myself or fight back as I am a very feisty and strong individual. And I definitely will correct anyone who comes at me with the wrong approach. One doesn’t have to be hurt to retaliate out of hatred, vengeance, or justification these instances have absolutely nothing to do with being hurt within certain types of people. Everyone is different and does not act out for the same reasons or under the same intention.

Although I do realize many of my adversaries have been hurt by me as I have not been too friendly or receptive to their kind (as I’ve never been fond of their type and those with similar traits and mindsets) yet they hurt themselves by ignorantly making assumptions and adhering to preconceived notions while really knowing the real deal then proceeding to carry out nonsense due to pure spite and resentment.

My Words Of Truth And Encouragement To Those Who Are “Rare” In This Day And Age

 

One doesn’t have to be born with a “Caul/Veil” to be “different” and to be remarkably set apart from others.

There are a very small number of people out there in comparison to the large amount of inhabitants within society who have exceptional or rare quality and train of thought.

Wisdom doesn’t come with age for everybody.

There are plenty of narrow-minded people who go through life and who have went through life actually believing that, they know, and knew, everything that there is to know when they acquired nothing legitimate at all but what they have misconstrued or exaggerated through their own restricted boundaries.

And these same people teach their own children and others their same dumb ways and beliefs. Fortunately there are some children who are born and that come out smarter than their parents.

One should definitely not permit oneself to be defined by other people’s ignorance, misconceptions, and generalizations as most who are of an ordinary mindset have a limited range of view and comprehension.

This world is full of weak-minded individuals who are easily influenced. I’ve always been a leader, not a follower.

These individuals are only able to discern within the scope in which their minds will completely allow.

When other people may accuse those of us who are on a particular wavelength and who are at an advanced level of consciousness, mentality, and intellect, of not being logical, realistic, or even moral, it is because they are lacking within specific true knowledge as their minds have in addition been socially and spiritually conditioned to incorporate and accept the mental, emotional, and psychological degrees of rationalization among the majority in who it typically pertains and applies to.

It is very important to remain strong and to not lose one’s self and one’s own distinct identity and genuine nature due to the false conceptions of what others may interpret within our behaviors and expressions because most people are unlike us and don’t know anything other than what they are familiar with and have been accustomed to.

A lot of people put their own insecurities on us all of the time because it makes them feel better as they don’t want to be alone (set apart) within their own tendencies, personal flaws, shortcomings, or inadequacies.

Some people don’t want to willingly acknowledge a rarity or major uniqueness in certain others if they themselves don’t also hold and encounter those uncommon attributes. And some just trifle to tick us off.

Instead of just recognizing how there are other individuals who are “beyond their own capacities to understand” they, nevertheless, proceed to judge us by the ways in which they personally are, how they personally feel, and the innate or orthodox reasoning in which they are able to grasp within themselves upon occurrence, situation, and circumstance.

Their doubts or opposing reactions, if any, is purely a reflection of themselves and their own insecurity and lack of particular knowledge and/or experience.

Everyone, of course, is not and does not act out of these natures, however, for those of them who are, and who do act out, they need to be dismissed from our essence and presence.

It is never appropriate to let anyone make one feel confused or uncertain about who they are, the things they know, and where they stand.

I’ve been one who has always had a strong sense of self in which no one could deter and I am extremely firm within my beliefs and within my facts and I will stand up to anyone who dares to challenge my truths and experience whether it be the mundane or extraordinary.

I as an individual never cared what anyone said or thought about me. I am authentic within self and nobody knows me better than I do, and I don’t have to explain myself to anybody, and I have no apologies. –latoya lawrence

Bequeathed

 

I was told my robust spirituality comes from my long line of native american ancestry and I agree as I already came to the conclusion about it decades ago. It was so obvious to me.

The mixture within my african american roots serve to make the foundation even more intense through the combination of tribal culture.

The european blood within my veins is french.

I’d never deny my inherent african power as the africans have a natural flair to wistfully attract desires. All they have to do is wish for something and it comes to them without the use of any magic. I’ve done it for years.

A Babalawo I Had A Session With

I can be moody once in a while but for the most part I am kind and soft-spoken with a very pleasant attitude yet I am nowhere near soft within personality or character.

As one born under the zodiac sign Taurus I am the true definition of stubbornness, strength, and a vile temper when provoked.

I am also one who believes in revenge without apology it is within my instinctive nature. No one unjustifiably messes around with me and gets away with it. I’ll do my shit out in the open or on the sneak tip as I have the advantage and none who are without the consciousness of paranormal recognition would be the wiser.

Years ago I had a genuine Babalawo (Yoruba) who gave me an extremely accurate reading and who desired to fiercely undertake retribution against all of the people who conspired to indulge within Brujeria against me and payback was exactly what I had wanted.

The spiritual work also included removing all blockages, allowing my destiny of money and preordained success to fully unleash, a special protection shield, and the ultimate channeling of my innate divination skills.

“You need to retaliate”, the Babalawo had urged.

His words were like sweet music harmonizing through out my ears. “That’s what I want to do”, I had told him in return.

This man was the real deal, however, I wasn’t so quick to jump up and receive his services even though he offered them to me at a very reasonable price. I am a person who gazes deeper into what selectively appears upon the surface.

I’ve had many offers of help from other spiritually inclined individuals but I don’t trust so easily I was never one to act before the proper time and everyone is not legitimate. Yes, I could have gotten what I wanted a long time ago and at the rate of time wherein I preferred but at what life altering cost?

I take into consideration all aspects in which surround me and the possible effects or consequences when collaborating with sources of force which may not be in correspondence to my own alignment. I am proud of personal spiritual bestowal and respect my balance within the universe and the inheritance within dimension.

I have protections, my extra sensory gifts are intact, I’m doing well making a decent living, I am granted the necessary things I require and desire, and I proceed to fight back viciously although I am very thorough and logical and use my faculties wisely.

I decided it was best for me to completely use and generate my own magnetic energy and stay robust incorporating my own celestial aptitude within my own endowment of distinguished spiritual arrangement.

My choice was within accordance to balance as all elemental instance fell into their exact position within the range of location to circumstance and eventhough time may now and then play a factor in the gain of specific conditions there is a measure of intangible attentiveness performing within operation to assemble the most convenient and appropriate span for restore and delivery.

I learned I was more powerful within ability than those who claimed or believed they could actually help me and I reaped more benefits from the original work done on my own and with the natural spirituality of my own beloved ancestors and orishas than I would’ve ever imagined to be possible.

I don’t do animal sacrifice as the Babalawo did and as certain others often do, I never have, I don’t need to do things of that nature it is too sick and unclean to me. And I don’t work with just any and every orisha, I have my own personal ones assigned through lineage by attribution and compatibility.

I work purely of spirit, energy, and other distinct vibration of force in revelation to the essence of my own true and unique state of being.

Why Does Every Caulbearer Expect To Be Rich Financially And Why Are They Unaltered By Negativity?

Brujeria by misslatoya

Mystic said 7 hours ago

I am wondering why every caulbearer even tho he is spiritually rich thinks also that he is going to be financially rich? Maybe because the luck that follows him, and also why he cant be changed and stays the same way even tho a lot of negativity happened around? Hmm

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misslatoya
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In reply to Mystic.

No one can say that every person born with a Caul thinks that they are suppose to become rich financially because it simply isn’t true. Some Caulbearers are suppose to be well off and some aren’t. It all depends on their celestial design, their purpose within life, and the luck and blessings in which they are imparted.

I stated financial success within my own life because it was a part of my true destiny not just automatically because I was born with a caul. People have always been jealous of me all throughout my life and this has been well-known around my environment and among others. Certain people wanted to block me within all aspects of my life and that is a fact. I as an individual was always meant to succeed and to have a lot of money and this has not only been verified by me but other
psychics, priestesses, a babalawo, and a curandera as well.

I’ve endured quite a lot of shit within my lifetime from a very early age on up, unnecessary things that most people would not have survived, but I was born with a very strong spirit and state of mind and mentality so I wasn’t affected and I made it through intact and no one can break me. There has constantly been aspects from higher above solicitously watching over me and guiding my steps because my purpose was so strong.

The reason many of us as spiritually gifted people cannot be changed or negatively altered by negativity is because we are greatly loved, honored, and protected. We are in connection with spirit and receive communication and hidden knowledge. We are special children (and I hate to say it) sent down here by God (I’d prefer to just say a higher power because there is far more to life than what we already know), nevertheless, the darkness cannot overpower the light therefore we prevail, and evil cannot prevent the mission, or the message, that divinity places within and without our states of being. We are here in the world but we are definitely not of it, not those of us who are of the light.

I was always very smart and intelligent growing up, passed all my tests in school, got skipped through a grade for the gifted and so on. And I’ve always been ahead of my time, able to read people, communicate with the departed and spirit world, see into the present, past, and future and so on. For the knowledge and capacities that I have I should be so much farther in life than I am right now just as others who are within my league and spiritual category who’ve been unfairly held back due to envious discontented and malicious people. Yet this is not the determining factor. My blessings are still there for me to have they are just being delayed right now, however, they’re on the way. I’ve still been very successful just not at and to my full entire peak or potential.

Nevertheless, it’s not that people of the Caul feel entitled we just know what we are suppose to have and deserve because we are able to see our blessings all around us. Just as some of us can see, know, and feel things about others and what’s going on within the world is the same way some of us see, know, and feel the things about and going on within our own particular lives.

Us gifted people are here for a reason and we go through a lot. Any financial blessings are celestial rewards to aide in a more comfortable life in receipt of what we have to accomplish and endure. It is very unfair and unwise to judge every Caulbearer of being the same or thinking the same we are all our own special individuals with extra sensory power who may have similarities and who can relate to one another and support one another yet we may have our own unique journey and paths to walk along with our own set of circumstances.

And a little side note: There are fortunate people who weren’t born with Cauls or the gifts of second-sight who were born and meant to have financial wealth and success and jealous people have worked black magic/voodoo/witchcraft on them to stop and block them from succeeding in life also. One doesn’t have to be born with a caul to be destined for having a lot of money or anything else in which may bring to them specific prosperity.

Wishes Well Granted

I noticed years and years ago that I had a natural talent to draw to me the things in life that I wanted.

Even if I wanted and wished for certain other people to go away they would end up disappearing by leaving or moving somewhere to another location or area of place, or just not returning back into my presence at all.

I may even have been placed in an environment where I didn’t have to come into contact with them.

The power of desire is real and when one has the energy and capacity to intangibly connect within the universe anything is possible.

I was always strong in prayer. If a desire comes up in my thoughts it will eventually get answered and become my reality. My needs and requires are constantly met as a priority.

Its a wonderful and beautiful condition to be imparted with and one of sincere gravity.

 

 

 

This Sunday Evening

The radio is playing some good old tunes from the seventies and eighties, jam after jam, back to back!

The rain was coming down here in Queens, New York, its finishing up right about now as the sun is partially back into view.

I made a dinner of rice pilaf and shrimp It was delicious. I plan on watching some good old black and white suspense movies later on tonight before I head off to bed.

Tomorrow I’ll spend my scheduled Memorial Day working a holiday shift that I took on and don’t mind doing.

Its all going nice and good I’m genuinely enjoying my day.

 

A Tortured Soul

My Page Turner by misslatoya

Melissa Campa said 4 hours ago

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Melissa Campa

These are lies of demonized souls, go far back as far as you can remember. The first time you felt abandoned or abused whether physically or mentally or sexually. The door was open from that day forward. You see I was just like you even suicidal, literally would negotiate with a voice telling me you’ll never see heaven you already love every day in sin (addicted to pain killers) so if you were to die and kill your self you would go to hell as you would go to hell anyways by the judgment of your sins according to your God! I cried I cut I screamed and then I remembered my dad took me and my brother to church Very young and we went up to the alter with our dad and accept Jesus as our lord and savior. I never knew exactly what I did but I knew I was more Of a threat because of it. The difference between a child of God that has a seed from a young age vs a new age follower or atheist is that the one who was brought up in a Christian home has been to church before has heard the word of God is a threat to the devil because gods word says in (Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.) you see I may not change your mind about God I’ve yelled at God when people I loved died I cursed God for allowing me to get beat my child’s father I was so mad but I still felt like who else do I have. My parents both live their lives and I had it rough growing up from being molested to watching my dad beat my mother while she never fought back and beat on us and because of my father I became so defensive always fighting and protecting the weaker individuals who I saw bullied. But if my mom or dad couldn’t do right by us as children. My dad the same man who hit me and my brother and mom took me to the living god and he placed a seed that seed is in certain chosen people. Jesus said if they hate me they’ll hate you too if the crucified me they will do it you because of ME. Jesus said but be of good cheer I have overcome the world. The devil the demons Satan comes against us threw other people who have been deceived who listened to the suggestions that God did this and its his fault. This whole world is ruled by demons look at the president! I’m not perfect I sin and I may sin again tomorrow I may say the same prayer god forgive you know how it goes but Jesus does because he knew god knew we will never ever be holy we will never get it right! If Jesus came to preach the word right now in this generation he would chose his disciples and they would be former pimps former murders former thief’s former gang members former homeless people former drug dealers and homosexuals. He never would ride around with the people of the church the holy traditional church and hypocrites. He would save the ones from what we see as the worst people he says these people are the first in the kingdom of heaven because basically people like them need more love and god sees the heart and he sees the soul has authority to cast out demons of torment of perversion, abuse and immortality etc. before you click off maybe you already did just give him a chance crawl to him say a few words and then next time maybe stand up to him say a few more words and if you ever feel like nothing is working with the new age practices you still can’t find peace you can’t find healing then run to god surrender in private take baby steps god know we can’t just change over night he knows we will never get it right. He’s not a god of suffering because the Old Testament was of the way the first living people of the world had to be obedient and this why god sent Jesus Christ his word says behold i make all things new. The new commandment I give you is to love each other. If I can suggest maybe listening to deliverance prayers on YouTube with head phones and water. Baby steps pray in private goodnight

 

In reply to Melissa Campa.

You sound like a very mentally and emotionally disturbed individual and one that isn’t intelligent enough to understand the depth of my writings.

Just because some people don’t like or agree with God and have different viewpoints or perceptions regarding him and his way does not mean that they are suffering, lost, or have been broken in some way. If anything it is quite the opposite and you need to stop being ignorant and closed- minded.

I was born a gifted child and one with the wisdom and knowledge to “see” and “discern”. I’ve experienced a lot of supernatural occurrences and ones that you have no idea exist. I was a happy child there were just some adults and relatives around me who weren’t happy within themselves but it wasn’t everyone.

I’ve never been or walked in your shoes as I’ve never been raped or sexually abused by anyone and I’ve never been mistreated by a parent. “Spiritual essence” in which constantly followed me would never have allowed those vile things to happen. I was lucky and blessed and had natural spiritual protection.

I was raised and brought up in love by a darn good mother and had lots of love given to me by my mother and solicitous attention given to me as well as from certain others that were around me. I was very well taken care of as a child on up that is partly why so many people were jealous of me.

So you’re venting to the wrong person.

I am very happy and fulfilled within myself and have a great peace of mind and what I venerate and believe in suits and serves me very well. Things are working out within my life accordingly and the universe is bringing to me the elements in which I desire.

I have been attacked all through out life by “particular” individuals-along with principalities-for being a good and unique person by those who are not of my caliber and who have a lack of knowledge into things in specific.

Yes, I do agree with one thing you’ve wrote and that is God does concern himself moreover with the negative people but it is not because they’re all sincere within their heart and deceptively mislead and all good people are not hippocrates because we don’t need or have to serve or consult with god to genuinely be of a positive nature or character by his definition.

You’re a tortured soul and you are brainwashed and people who are deeply troubled often incite to bring unnecessary problems to others. Go and get yourself some serious help.

Concurrent Tidings

One person’s happiness is another person’s sadness and one person’s pain is another person’s pleasure.

At this very moment as I write in the tranquility of my environment there is someone out within the world experiencing upset and misfortune.

There is someone who has died, someone who is suffering from injury and someone who is suffering from illness.

There is also many who are being born, being killed, being raped, being evicted, being fired from their job, being the victims or receptor of abuse, accidents, crimes and so on, right now at this second.

The simultaneous occurrence of these daily events are common knowledge to the conscious thinker yet escape within our thoughts as we often are not constantly focused on what is not happening around us in regards to the people we don’t personally know and are not cognizant about.

We’re usually too preoccupied with the occurrences taking place wthin our own daily lives to garner any attention toward the instances affecting others as well as the elements which affect our atmosphere as activity goes on everyday.

It is sometimes not until unfortunate situations hit us in the face directly or at a distance that we come to recognize how deep circumstances actually get.

Once we view a television report, read a newspaper article, or encounter an episode of drama in person, then we realize and feel the weight or consideration of another’s reality that could just as easily have been one of us if fate had decided.

We often are thankful to not have one of those predicaments claim any one of our recent days of the week and hope to never have a run in with such a display or event.

Though we’re prompted to help out in certain situations when motivated by instinct to aid someone or something to comfort and safety if we are present and witness an aspect as many would also desire to be rescued or tended to during a serious time of incident or need.

When I watch a true crime show, read a true crime novel, or review a news alert of any kind and notice a date I may look back at what I was doing in my life around that time and say “Wow, while I was sitting in the comfort of my home or out having fun this very negative thing (whatever the dilemma) was going on”, and it sometimes just makes you think.

Us people with second-sight often see things all of the time within our third eye/minds eye and it is real and we can also feel sensations wherein the things we’re being spiritually made aware about.

However, depending what type of energy/connection we have upon individual accounts and the information we receive in specific to point and time can vary or be misinterpreted compared to observing and listening to the entire full spectrum of a clarified story, so the impact falls within the range of where its thrown if it serves to move us somehow.

(God) A Supernatural Bully

I am and always was blessed within many ways at the same time had to undergo unnatural encounters just because of the person that I am.

I’m glad not to be average and that I’m unique in my own right. I don’t owe anyone anything and I didn’t ask to come into this world to share within a life with other human beings with different natures and various mindsets.

The Lord did me no favor whatsoever as in my dreams when I sleep display and explain more beauty and meaning than on this earthly plane that he created.

God didn’t ask my permission in order for me to come here so I don’t need his while I have to remain here. Like I said, he didn’t do me any favor, this world isn’t a paradise that I should be ever so grateful to exist in.

The world in its dreadful condition is grotesquely overpopulated as it is with all kinds of shit. From disgusting insects to disgusting animals, disgusting principalities, and disgusting people.

Life is often times strange, unfair, and full of circumstantial misinterpretation and situations that compromise the lives of people on account of the ignorance or biases of others.

It seemed irresponsible to me to have us all here on the earth together why not keep the compatible in one section and the incompatible in other sections let everyone have their own suitable accomodating place of habitat.

Why be made to live a life or in a condition that one truly doesn’t want to be in? I loathe God, I truly do, and for more reasons than one, and I feel so insulted to be one that was created in his perverted formation of a plan.

From the beginning by designing a man and a woman to be together and to have sex, and having to have sex to have children, is all a turn off to me. Cutting up animals in the old days to atone for a sin since the wages for transgressions was death there had to be bloodshed so finally Jesus eventually came and did the ultimate sacrifice, all a bunch of sick shit to me.

But I guess I’m suppose to be crazy for not liking or agreeing with a God and within the fashion in which he made things to occur.

One thing is for certain and that is that I genuinely do love myself. When I look back on my life as a child I’ve noticed how disrespected I was by God and how I never trusted in him because I knew deep down inside that he was no good.

He disrespected me and my life one time too many by altering my destiny, using his trash to assist him, and by placing too many undesirables within my pathways, knowing the extent of my hatred toward them.

I always wondered who the fuck he thought he was as I never thought too highly of him or his reasoning. As I have the gifts to see I never saw anything special or perfect within him.

It is said that God makes no mistakes and if that is so that is a dangerous reality. At least if he made errors I could give him the benefit of the doubt but since his intentions are meant as what is suppose to be right it shows me just how wrong he is as a creator.

God is a disgrace and it clearly shows within his creation.

It seems to me I’m too headstrong for him whereas his trash caters to his demented teachings as they are twisted too.

If his words are so true why am I happier without him? If his words are so true why do I have peace of mind without him? If his words are so true why is the energy around me good without him?

I didn’t began to really live until I recognized my true love and light and separated myself from God’s oppressing grip and because I’ve broken free (years ago) and confirmed his unsavory nature he doesn’t want me to live the life that I am suppose to fully receive.

So even though he adheres to keep me stuck in a rut the rut does not adhere to stick to my spirit.

I’d rather live my life within truth, love, and strength and be cheated from what I truly deserve than to live within lies, unhappiness, and weakness just to be given an abundance of riches for being a mindless flunky only to serve and praise a God that is not worthy to be glorified.

If one could take away God’s power where would that leave him if he didn’t have all that supernatural weight to throw around and bully with? If he was void of his mighty energy to manifest how many would fear him then? -miss latoya lawrence

 

 

My Page Turner

Black Magic does all types of dirt and damage to people. It is evil and tragic, demented and traumatic.

Even though I was unaffected and protected God still allowed it to be projected so to me he will never be respected.

Life goes up and down. Going through beneath me things had pissed me off, but that sorcery shit was the last straw- never no more outrageousness will I have to endure- I turn the pages of my life forevermore.