I remember in my teenage years and in my early adulthood how I viewed life as nothing.
To me, it still is nothing but at the same time it is something meaningful that means nothing.
I spend and have spent days/years just killing time as I never cared about this world, yet I have had to always keep going on account of a God that has me here for purposes of his own that I do not delight in at all.
Yes, I have no problem coping with or managing this life as my life has shown and proved that I can handle anything. The problem is this life in the present world is unnatural to a natural way that life should be.
A lot of what is deemed normal is not normal.
Why did this plan have to include me? With all the people God created why drag me into this ridiculous shit that has nothing to do with me?
I have been blessed but these certain anointings have never been enough to make living here in the world with all the dumb shit and shit I could care less about worth my while.
I was always ahead of my time and pissed off because God put me here- feeling that I did not belong here and deserved better.
God claims to love but what kind of love would bring me to a place that I despise?
He gave me and gave certain others knowledge but what is the purpose of knowing things when we have no real control over anything and no guarantees in life but to one day die?
Are we just to know that no matter what we have experienced and possess through seasons of happiness and hardships we are still just mere dust that can be blown away at any time?
When I look back at a lot of life that has passed by, I really do not see the point or the purpose in the things I have gone through or encountered.
Most of the things I know now I already knew back when I was much younger.
Many things that excite and that are looked upon as significant to others are not appealing or anything relevant to me.
I did not need to witness or observe accounts of what I considered to be sick shit among other people -or to be successfully delivered through undesirable trials and tribulations- to know or to understand God’s power as I have.
To me, God’s force was always evident. But I was made to be an individual put into a world just like everyone else to undergo inevitable life situations.
What is the point of being in the world if one is truly not of it even if they are born into imperfection?
My resentment in the past for God came from my perceived view of his character and I still hold a little resentment toward him as I do not appreciate things about him that I do not understand as to his reasons why he lets things in life be.
Nevertheless, it is what it is.
I have been tired of this fucked up world since my teenage years yet still strong enough to endure every moment of it.
Sorry, (And I am not apologetic for speaking the truth) but from my observation some so called Christians strike me as rejects who do not know how to think for themselves.
They sound like wind up dolls who repeat doctrine like hypnotized puppets/flunkies.
I believe in God and know scripture; however, I am not, never was, and never will be the type to bow down to a way of thinking, speaking, or doing by being trained from the instruction or psychology that does not relate to my knowledgeable consciousness of vibration.
My identity can never be taken away by religious, societal or familiar influence held by those who do not challenge what does not pertain to or apply to all.
Some individuals have no backbone.
I could not remain at peace if I was not able to be my true self in mind and within attitude.
Asshole still will not move on. He is such a pathetic piece of trash/shit.
And while there are women out there who are indeed whores sex is not a tool or action that can be used against a woman to determine her worth or lower her value.
As he is only able to obtain skanks and shack up with his main skank do not get mad at me for loving myself and having high standards.
This Latin nigger is funny. He think he can drive me crazy with burning candles and shit.
He is very lucky I do not call upon my Orishas anymore. Elegba, Ogun, Orunmila, Oshun and Ochosi would have destroyed his ass!
Asshole did not know I was born with the power of a priestess.
I leave everything to God. Give people enough rope they eventually hang themselves.
Why do I attract some of the most ill fuckers who should have known beforehand that they never stood a chance with me?
They could have saved themselves the wasted effort and self-humiliation of being exposed by one who can literally “read” them.
Voodoo/Black Magic/WitchcraftDoes Not Work On Me! The Negativity Does Not Take Affect! My Mind Cannot Be Influenced Or Manipulated By Bullshit. Get That Through Your Fucking Head- Retard!
I have never been hurt mentally or emotionally by any man and I never will be.
To me, a man is nothing to get hurt over.
I am not and never have been the type of girl/lady/woman/female that a man could use or take advantage of I was not wired that way.
I was never weak, docile or naive when it came to men.
I was born with that extra sensory perception, strong spirit of discernment and unconventional individuality that made me unique in my own way.
Of course, anyone can lie and make up stories to tarnish or downgrade someone’s reputation, but no one can ruin anyone unless they allow them to.
Women who share my likeness know when a man means absolutely nothing to her that their petty words and tall tales will not do shit to disturb or affect her.
A reputation is only what people think or believe one to be- character is what truly defines one.
There were and are negative people with a low-mindset- till this day- still jealous of me because I have never been dogged out by any man.
If I were to have had sex with anyone it would have been on my terms and not because of any smooth talk or whatever “game” a man thought he had to use to pull or play a woman.
Like I have said many times before there are women who use men just like some of them use women- they just use one another with no attachment or feelings involved.
There are women who use men for sperm, and it is not about the sex. I know personally a man could never do anything for me sexually.
Unfortunately, sex is the only way to make a baby unless one has the thousands of dollars it takes to go through numerous procedures of invitro fertilization.
A woman does not need a man for sexual pleasure. Women have clitorises they can stimulate and climax with. The instance is perfectly normal and healthy for them to self-explore and know their body.
Of course, every man is not out to hurt, use, deceive, or disgrace a woman when she does not cater to his ego.
There are good, mature, men out there with sense who do not even entertain or possess these certain mindsets/attitudes.
A lot of narcissistic men have deep-rooted psychological and insecurity issues.
Many of them are the way they are on account of their mothers fucking their heads up in the process while they were being raised.
Some of them were not correctly informed by mommy about the diversity within life or some of them were spoiled by mommy in a bad way.
Mommy enabled them and boosted them up in an unrealistic fashion that when they enter the real world to encounter women of substance they cannot cope with the reality.
In other circumstances mommy did not give some of them the love and attention they needed.
In a world where impressions matter to many, truths are what truly mattered to me.
Not projecting a facade of what is acceptable for the sake of being accepted.
I found it impossible for me to put on a disguise as I am not one to be a people pleaser.
There is a time for courtesy, professionalism, diplomacy, and respecting certain boundaries as well as a time when to justifiably cross them.
It is so important to live out one’s truth even if that genuineness and loyalty to self within self-preservation according to one’s own distinct nature causes a reproach within others due to what goes beyond their own comprehension and/or level of discernment.
I have been lied upon, misunderstood, judged for things I have never done, criticized for not being able to be controlled by others, and I have been the object of other people’s vicious gossip, envy and jealousy just like many other people of substance in life have.
All other people’s negativity did was cause me to become further resilient and despise and look down upon these individuals more than I already had beforehand.
As one who is extremely stubborn no one can make me do anything I do not want to do, and no one can stop me from doing anything that I want to do.
I have noticed an innate force within me that refused to allow me to be deterred from possessing the essential liberty that is instilled within me to express and prevail.
I was naturally inspired to continue to move forward unaffected.
Permitting others, the opportunity to dictate or restrict one’s path and future out of fear/intimidation or discouragement only prevents one’s celestial discovery, steady growth, and ultimate evolution.
There are people who often recognize or acknowledge some of us for who they want us to be instead of who we really are.
They form judgements or have preconceived notions based on generalized perceptions of what they believe we represent through our perceived lifestyle, words, or manner of bearing in which we conduct ourselves.
Some conclusions that others draw may be accurate, partially accurate or just plain wrong altogether.
One cannot be genuinely defined according to conjecture, hearsay, rumor, false assumption or a standard of what one is familiar with and/or accustomed to.
So many factors, shape, make up and contribute to diverse individuals and their behavior.
As soon as one behaves or responds contrary to another person’s sense of belief or reasoning, they may become shocked, disappointed, or even critical toward the other person.
This instance is not an illustration that the people or person in question necessarily did something wrong or acted out of character. It is an example of others whose expectation or notion of what they built up within their own way of thinking projecting upon the surface.
I experienced a long time ago (from my childhood on up) how people would put their own insecurities, ignorance, and negativity onto me and others who they differed from or were jealous towards.
I without a doubt knew that their judgment or lack thereof did not coincide with reality.
Their actions and behavior reflected themselves, who they truly were, and had absolutely nothing to do with me!
I had seen previews for Lee Daniels 2023 BET horror/thriller movie “The Reading” starring Mo’Nique last week.
The first time I saw one of the coming attractions I did not think much of the film- not really paying too much attention to it.
The second time I saw a commercial for The Reading it struck me as eerily spooky.
The BET television premiere for the film is set to air on March 14, 2023, but I did not want to wait that long.
So, after midnight this morning I watched The Reading on Amazon Prime- and I was not at all disappointed.
I loved the way the movie started off. It was intense and did not waste a moment to delve into the story.
Around the middle of the film there was a shocking, unexpected twist that threw me off.
I thought it was going to be a spirit haunting type of movie with something going wrong through the spirit-medium who gave the chilling psychic readings.
I was ready to lightheartedly fear what I thought may come about. Everything was getting so freaky and exciting!
Even though the film went in another direction it was still entertaining.
The Reading was action-packed, full of suspense, and ruthlessly gore with Mo’Nique’s character.
I loved that the movie depicted an African American girl with genuine clairvoyant/psychic ability (the woman played her part well as well as all the other actors and actresses) because we do exist, and we are out here in the world.
Race or ethnicity has nothing to do with one being born with preternatural ability, yet we rarely see people of color who possess these gifts shown in the media unless it is a portrayal of some stereotypical voodoo shit!
I am not going to mention any names but he knows who he is.
Since around Sunday on February 5, 2023 I noticed a few love/attraction/ lust spells tried to be worked upon me.
It began with acknowledgement of the man lusting after me -sexually desiring me- with the attempt to also get me to have a sexual as well as physical attraction to this guy.
Then I began to receive messages that this guy likes me very much.
In the days following, the essence of the love spell relayed to me the other feelings that are intended to sway me.
The motive is to have me like, care for, and possibly fall in love with this guy so I will be drawn to him.
I guess he thinks if he can make me feel this way that I will jump into bed with him.
He thinks that if I have sex with him because of the love spell then walk away from me afterwards that I will somehow be hurt emotionally.
This would be his way of retaliating against me for rejecting him by using an “unnatural” method (love-magic/witchcraft).
I understand that he or his ego may be hurt but witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not and never has worked on me mentally or emotionally I am far too strong for that.
I am sensitive to energy so I can pick up on the essence and the intent.
I do not understand why some guys have the mentality that they can hurt women by using them for sex.
Every woman is not the same and they do not hold the mentality of being disgraced by negative men who try to humiliate and degrade them in that manner.
There are women who use men for sex too and do not care.
He probably believes in his ignorant mind that I would be hurt the most because I am not the type who goes to bed with anyone at all. So, if he sleeps with me by doing witchcraft then talks badly about me with lies and whatever other stupid games he would be avenged.
He is sick in my opinion.
Love spells should not be done at all- but if they are done- at least people should do them with good/honest intentions instead of selfish ones that intend to hurt others just to have one’s way with them.
Aside from all that, witchcraft/black magic/voodoo is real even if certain people do not believe that it works.
The supernatural instance does not affect everyone but a lot of people do become under the influence of it. If witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not work on a person mentally, emotionally or physically it can work on them spiritually or materially- through finances and other means.
No matter what, God is always stronger than the devil that is why I am continuously kept aware. I am so grateful and thankful to the Lord for looking out and keeping me protected.
I remember years ago another guy worked a love spell on me to try to get me to love, marry him, and have babies with him.
I do not like people who do these things with ulterior motives to suit themselves, especially against another person’s will.
Why want someone who does not want you back? There is a world full of people on the planet.
What is important is that for people who are interested in relationships to find one’s who are best suited for them.
Right now, with the current guy, I find this action of his kind of exciting as I wonder how much further he will go. I even have a smile on my face at this love spell.
I am a fierce spiritual warrior and I am ready for the battle that God will take care of!
This past Thursday night I stayed up longer than usual knowing I had to head out the next day.
I stayed up until the wee hours around 3am.
When I awoke later Friday morning, I awakened an hour later than usual due to oversleeping- which was natural due to being tired and needing my rest during the short sleep I took.
When I made it to work, I arrived an extra hour early.
Even though I started my day off a little later than I normally do I still got to my job early doing my natural routines before I leave the house. I did not rush through with anything.
I like the shoes that I walk in. They fit me just fine. Sure, there are other pairs on display I can try on, but they would eventually get raggedy to wear out as they all come a dime a dozen.
The shoes on my feet are especially made for me. There are no other duplicates for anyone else to see. These shoes stand the test of time, they are worth much more than a cheap dime.
They are waterproof, hole-proof, and heel-proof. The proof is in the damage-proof that proved the resiliency in my walk.
I have come a long way in my shoes.
No matter whatever came to be I always kept moving forward never to slide back. The motor in my body never allowed me to be immobile.
The sole of the fabric tells it all, my foot imprinted.
I made a mark- nobody can walk in my shoes as I have without the scratches, scrapes and shitloads of crap not showing upon the surface.
I do not like the way life/the world is in its imperfect state as it is- I never have.
The atmosphere is not my true origin or dwelling.
Life within itself is a beautiful design along with a lot of wonderful things within creation.
It should be what it temporarily could not be.
Aside from my dislike of this undesirable world and many of its undesirable people and its ways of derogatory lifestyle I do like the life that I have.
I am happy with myself, I love the way I live my life, I love myself, I am content with my job, and I am overjoyed living a life natured and nurtured by spirit.
We all have our ups and downs here and there depending on what each of us individuals consider or define as minor or major bumps in the road of our journey here on earth.
But for the most part life has treated me kindly. I have been fortunate in many areas of travel throughout the interesting ride of this physical plane.
Fortunately, peace of mind cannot be purchased because if so then it could just as easily be stolen.
Some people search for peace of mind through the presence of other people or through the gaining of material assets and worldly pleasures- none of which are the true origin of where peace of mind lays.
My peace of mind always originated within my spirituality, the person I am, the mentality I hold- the essence that beholds. Inner depth of foundation.
My peace of mind is not contingent upon circumstance or chance.
During a wild storm of a hectic life season, I remain cool and calm because what appears hectic to another is a tidal wave that I ride like a breeze.
I have noticed since my early youth that if there was something in life that I did not want then the circumstance was not going to work out for the best- or at all.
I cannot have anyone, or any situation persuaded, or forced upon me.
I am too headstrong to be influenced by what others may try to impose on me.
When things in life I desired were granted to me or attained by my own accomplishing the circumstance always worked out favorably with long-lasting rewards.
I determine my happiness not what other people define what happiness is according to their standards or perception of what meets the requirements of a happy or content life condition.
Only I know the true source and components needed to define the attributes of my own fulfillment.
It is wonderful to have spiritual gifts. To be able to see and feel in to the unknown.
To have accurate dreams and visions of beyond where I preternaturally interact within the supernatural.
It is what I am.
By birth, I have one footstep here into this physical plane while my other foot is stepped out inside the spiritual realm.
I am partially experiencing both worlds and whole-heartedly Intune to both.
I am here, but not here.
There have been mysteries revealed to me, spiritual essences revealed to me, revelations revealed to me.
I have a lot of wisdom, knowledge, and understanding flowing around inside of me.
God my creator remains with me.
I can tell God anything. He totally understands me. I am completely straight with him; I always have been.
The good, the bad, and the ugly- I have never been shy or afraid to speak my words of truth to God.
No matter what. God always comes through for me. He speaks back to me in so many ways including through nature.
Everything is made up of energy. We are all energy. The energy made up by my nature is the way that God designed me to be.
Whether I have a complaint, or just feeling my joy, God is there with his open-arms, extraordinary comprehension and incredible forces of power to aid, advise, and to protect.
No matter what may go on or happen in general in life- may it be through unexpected events or whatever else- I know that everything will be alright and will turn out in my favor as it always has since the days of my youth.
From my observations throughout the years there are so-called Christians and others alike who believe if something is not written or mentioned within the Bible then the instance is unlikely to be true or not possible- which I know for fact has never been the truth.
Something does not have to be in the Bible for it to be truthful or possible.
Everything not written in the Bible that can occur is also not always devil inspired or people inspired either.
There is credibility to many situations, circumstances, encounters that were experiences not directly included as taken place in the Bible.
Some people are stuck in their limited scope of reasoning, narrow-mindedness, ignorance, brainwashing, or influences brought on by society.
That is why it is so important to be strong-minded and confident within one’s own.
Knowing while certain others may not share an experience or a belief in no way will make another’s experience or belief less probable. There is a great possibility for their undergoing to be a reality and able to exist.
I have always been headstrong. I do not have to go through something to believe or to know it is able to be true for someone else.
Maybe because I have that insight, nevertheless, one should never let others sway their minds or raise doubt in what they hold to know or believe firmly.
Of course, we as people are liable to hold onto false or erroneous ways of being.
Anyone can misinterpret or be mistaken about things it is when they fail to accept their error once they have discovered or have been proven to be wrong in some way.
I received Christmas gifts from managers when I worked in retail.
In my field of health care, I have had appreciative clients for no special occasion who had slipped me money for their appreciation of the work I did for them.
Before I left work late yesterday afternoon, one of my client’s relatives handed me a Christmas card with money.
I remember years ago when another client’s daughter handed me a Christmas card with two hundred dollars because she appreciated the work I did.
I have encountered nice people who were not just generous with their money but with their time and other acts of kindness and concern toward me.
The thoughts coming from these people are enough for me as I rarely accept money or gifts when asked what it is that I want- even from family or friends.
If people really want to give me something they will have to do it without consulting with me first because I do not ever want anything no matter how odd that may sound.
I have always been this way.
My mother would tell anybody that as she knew firsthand. She used to sometimes innocently fight with me as she did not understand the reason I did not take advantage of items she wanted to buy me when I was a teenager.
It is beautiful though when people give from their heart to show gratitude, love, or just because it is within their nature to be thoughtful or nice.
The true meaning of Christmas itself is to celebrate the birth and life of Jesus Christ, but there is nothing wrong with attributing this day with merriment and gift-giving.
Still and all, the most precious gifts in life cannot be bought or sold wrapped up and used to eventually be thrown away. Some material possessions do last a lifetime, but people and connected relationships last forever.
The best gifts on earth we have are each other (the one or ones that you love and who sincerely love you whether it is a pet, a genuine friend, or a treasured family member.)
Whether one believes this or not, even if there is no one in your corner, all one truly needs is God as he will provide and secure your future as well as maintain your strength and character.
When we accept Jesus, we receive the most significant (vital) gift of all- eternity.
I am a very honest, straightforward person. If I say or write something it is because it is the truth, what I really think or believe, or suspect is possible.
Never do I or have I ever intentionally expressed anything under false pretense.
Some people may not understand what I mean or where I come from at times- depending on who it is- because I am a very deep, intelligent, and spiritual awake person.
Nevertheless, I speak my mind and am led by spirit to fulfill my purposes. I do know what I am talking about when I speak on things.
I am a forty-seven-year-old female who often gets mistaken for someone in her twenties or thirties. I have never really looked my age in body or in the face.
I even have a young sounding voice when I speak.
I have attracted men of all ages- young and old within the past.
When I was in my thirties eighteen-year-old guys were attracted to me, when I was in my twenties forty and fifty-year-old men were attracted to me.
It never made a difference. To each his or her own I never received any personal gratification from this attention I never wanted it.
Some men found me to be a challenge that they wanted to conquer. Some men just genuinely wanted to be with me because they liked me for my mind, and I was not like the average female once they got to know me a little.
I never placed value on myself based on whether a man approved or desired me. I have never suffered from low self-esteem and have never needed anyone to validate me or to build my assurance.
Self- confidence, self-love, and self-worth are things produced within me. No one gave it to me, and no one can take it away. Everyone should feel this way.
I have no interest in romantic relationships, I am asexual and proud.
Now I want to discuss this issue about Michael Gonzalez because I am being led to by spirit.
As I am a highly spiritually inclined individual I feel and keenly discern people’s energy.
Whenever a man, especially men who are of a negative disposition are attracted, or interested in me- I can feel them, their thoughts, and I can accurately sense things in relation to them in a timely frame.
Michael is an ex-coworker of mine who had, and who still has a “crush” on me. It is nothing serious, but it is annoying.
From the first moment I laid eyes on Michael, I did not find him to be attractive.
He is not a cute guy, and he is not handsome as far as I am concerned. A friend of mine had saw a photo of him and said that he was not attractive to her also but that he seems to think that he is something. Maybe there are low-scale females who find him attractive, however, I do not and never will.
I was very insulted when Michael reflected his insecurities onto me while we worked together by entertaining the ridiculous idea that I could be attracted or interested in him.
I told Michael to his face that I could not stand him, but his inflated ego did not want to believe or accept it even though deep down inside he knew it was the truth.
He even profiled in front of me one day on the job by trying to show off his body that was not appealing to me whatsoever. He got down onto the floor to demonstrate push-ups. The incident turned me off.
The more I had got to know Michael the more I disliked him.
When some men try to impress women, push themselves on them, or try to flaunt themselves when they mistakenly assume that the female likes them, they do not realize how much they make a fool of themselves. It is very off-putting.
When I was younger there were guys (usually low-scale guys because guys of substance do not behave in this manner) who would get angry at me for not wanting them and in return tell lies about me.
There were three who were a problem.
Two lied and said I was involved with them and all three wanted people to believe that I slept with them or had feelings for them- all to make themselves appear big in the eyes of their peers. And, to also try to bring me down since I thought too highly of myself to desire or to be with anyone like them.
Neither one of these guys were desirable they were used to low-scale women such as themselves falling all over them and making a fuss over them due to their own bouts of low self-esteem.
Someone like me, who was of substance and class, added an extra blow to the bruise they received to their egos when they got hurt and rejected by me.
Of course, their efforts did not work so they joined in with the effort to work Brujeria (Black magic/Santeria) on me to try to make me look bad within the public eye, however, I was still too strong, and I successfully defeated all of them at their own game. On top of it, karma came back and destroyed all three of them. One even ended up dead years ago from his negative lifestyle.
No one can bring me down as I never cared what anybody said or thought about me.
I did not have time for that type of bullshit then, and I do not tolerate it now.
Michael is not at all drastic to that extreme his nonsense is mild in comparison, yet still an act of ridiculous nonsense.
With all the serious things going on in the world Michael is hung up on the fact that he cannot attain me.
He would rather believe that I really do have feelings for him and am just fighting it, or that I am playing hard to get, or whatever other delusional bullshit that men feed themselves instead of facing the truth over dealing with reality.
Michael needs to forget about me and realize that a woman of my level and caliber would never be interested or attracted to him.
Michael has a lot of negative energy. He has a very low vibration.
I am a positive person I exude from a very high vibration.
What I also believe is a part of Michael’s insecurities stem from his background of being morbidly obese.
Maybe after he lost weight, he feels he needs something to prove and is overcompensating.
He needs women to be interested or attracted to him to feel like a big man. I just wish he would find some other female to win over to measure or to prove his false sense of pride.
The other women he has been with are easy tramps. He feels if he can get me then he can get anybody. I should in a way take this instance as a compliment, but I am not flattered by it, I am disgusted.
To me, Michael will always be a small, unworthy, pretentious smelly fish swimming in a dirty pond.
I am not trying to be mean I just do not understand the sickness behind and within certain men and women (because there are deceitful, trouble-making women too) who cannot deal with rejection.
A healthy-minded person does not occupy themself with stupid shit like this.
Even though I work constantly and am busy throughout the week I still find the time to write here and there.
When the energy is manifest, there is no way to stop what we are meant and inspired to do.
Nothing can ever get me down or out where I cannot write.
Time periods where I do not write for a while are natural intermission modes waved by spirit.
Everything needs a break or wrap-up as the season ends, begins, then restarts.
We never know where this journey in life may take us but whatever keeps us healthy and happy if it is just a small thing serves as a big outlet given to us by utilizing the purpose set before us.
The almighty has ways of making notice the power of his presence known to those of us who are highly spiritually inclined.
I remember the wonderful reflective vision of reality I had years ago of three beautiful white doves rapidly flapping their wings above my head.
A sign of peace, purity, and protection bestowed upon me graciously by thee.
There are types of dove birds, yet white doves are gorgeous, and were the ones shown to me supernaturally in a divine expression of what was around me.
In this life of unpredictability, we sometimes know what to expect while oftentimes we experience the unexpected.
Once it seems that everything is under control and running smoothly another thing may pop up. Sometimes to the extent that will make one ask “What’s next?!”
When situations or circumstances seem to come at you all at once just give it to God.
When particular occurrences appear to be an overload or too much of a burden- let it go.
Why stress when we can rest our significant matters into the hands of the Lord?
I have noticed at the most troublesome of times there was no actual distress caused to me as I was not troubled by the happenings around me.
In the same, when I did become concerned about events, I was still able to genuinely laugh, be at peace, and persevere with an uncanny strength and confidence although I dreaded going through the undesirable seasons due to being tired of periodic trials.
When we continue to look and seek beyond instead of what gives the impression of an unfavorable condition that stands directly in front of us, we can endeavor to surpass through the aid of the one who has the power to bypass every storm of the weather.
There are wonderful puppies and dogs that come in a variety of breeds, shades, and sizes.
However, I was one who preferred large dogs over smaller ones.
The only small dogs I ever owned was a Poodle and a Chihuahua, and I did not keep the Chihuahua too long. I was not crazy about the tan puppy I named “Peaches”
If I was to get a small breed of dog it would be the Beagle and the Shetland Sheep dog (Shetland’s are in the Collie family).
A gorgeous-looking stray Beagle with blue eyes wandered to the front of my yard years ago when I still lived within the home I grew up at.
I was in my thirties and I would have taken her in, but I did not know where she came from and if she was free of disease. I did not want to take the risk.
My next-door neighbor ended up taking her in and I regretted not being the first to scoop her up as one day she came over to me and ignored my neighbor who was calling her to come back.
I had to pick the Beagle up and hand her over to my neighbor. That is the only way she departed from me.
I do not understand people who claim that it hurts to talk about a relative who died. I love and enjoy speaking and reminiscing about the times we shared.
If the death of someone ever caused you pain, it is only because of the love you had for them. The more you loved them, the more it hurt, and that hurt feels so good!
Within that pain lies beauty. Beauty is the strength of that love. Love is the most beautiful thing in the world. I thank God for gifting me with such a strong spirit.
Our loved ones who died in Christ are not actually dead. They are alive and living well. In fact, they are doing far much better than we are! Yes, we love them, and we miss them. However, we should be very happy for them. They, by the grace of God, made it home to Jesus! That is a cause for celebration. They are residing in the peace and comfort of divine love.
The love we have for our dear ones could never compare to the love that God has for them. When we truly love them, we can willingly let them go, and that gives us such beautiful peace knowing them in such wonderful state of bliss. No more troubles in this perishing world they must endure. The most phenomenal thing we as believers and children of God recognize is that our deceased relatives are not people who are from our past. They are people who we know we will look forward to sharing the rest of our future in eternity with once we finally cross over. –latoya lawrence
The German Shepherd/Collie mix love of my life has been gone for twenty years now.
Time has no bearing when it comes to love as I still think about my precious baby every single day. I always loved her so much from the moment her little body was placed in my young arms at the animal shelter.
Brandie is long gone but she will never be forgotten, and I surely hope to see her one day as many of us whose pets have passed on do.
There will indeed be dogs and other animals when God brings heaven down to earth for our eternity.
Unfortunately, there is no mention of the Bible stating that we will ever see our pets again as we will our deceased relatives.
Nevertheless, although there is no guarantee, we can hold out hope.
God is the almighty creator and ruler. He can do anything that he pleases, and he may surprise us one day.
I really hope to reunite with Brandie again. I do not want to imagine never seeing or being with her again.
There was a ridiculous double standard I used to hear when I was growing up, one that I knew definitely was not true because I myself naturally did not hold this particular stance.
I used to hear how, when it came to intercourse, how, for females, it would take emotion to be involved for her to become engaged, or that, after a sexual encounter, she would become emotionally attached.
Such a bunch of sexists, insulting nonsense!
I am not saying to hop around for the hell of it for those who burn with lust or the occasional desire for some to have sex, or to have sex for the sole purpose of having a child- as I once considered just using a man to conceive a baby many years ago without any commitment or affection on my part.
What I am saying as a fact is that for a “Virgin” or a woman who is constantly sexually active, or that has been sexually active not too often, she does not necessarily have to have any interest at all in a particular man for her to be able to have sex with him.
It does not mean that she cares for him, and it definitely does not mean that she has any love for him.
Sex and love have nothing to do with one another. They are both two separate things.
Women can have sex with men without having any type of attraction or feelings for them- and without any guilt.
I definitely know this all for a fact.
Some men may not have understood or wanted to have accepted this reality because they were always stereotypically viewed as the ones who primarily used women to get what they wanted. So, it was too much of a bruise to the ego.
Truth is, as it is more out in the open these days- though there are still some with ignorant concepts- it works both ways.
There are men who become emotionally attached through sex whereas others do not, and vice-versa with certain women.
Some men or women do have to have feelings for someone before they go to bed with them.
A woman who has sex with a man who she does not love or care for does not make her a whore either, because there are many different types of circumstances that take place within situations.
Men who are whorish do not normally get called the undesirable whores that they truly are by the majority of society.
There are married couples without love within a marriage. To each his or her own.
Yes, when it comes to God, he intended for intercourse to be between couples tied together through wedlock. Anything outside of this is wrong or immoral to God. He also intended true consideration and dedication to each other. That is why marriage was not to be entered into lightly.
However, we all have our own free-will, gifts, and characteristics.
Some of us are asexual and are completely not into sex. Asexuality is not a sin. Some of us do not want to ever get married. Some want a loving, faithful, life-long relationship. Some just want to run around or have sex without strings attached.
There are possible consequences to actions sometimes, such as venereal disease, crazy people with fatal attractions, violent confrontations over cheating, unwanted pregnancies.
Some of these incidents even take place with married couples.
This is a crazy-mixed up world.
I, as a woman, personally wished that there was no such thing as sexual intercourse and that, as a woman, I would be able to conceive a child naturally on my own if I ever decided to (although I did not or would not want any children at this time in my life- but if I ever had a long time ago). I feel I should not have to share my vagina with anyone, and I know I did not ever have to, my vagina belongs to me.
A little note: There is an actual fish in creation that is by nature able to conceive offspring on its own without the fertilization from a male counterpart.
I was so filled with happiness and contentment yesterday that I wanted to cry tears of joy. I was so touched by the granting of a situation I hoped for, desired, and needed as it became tangible. A few days ago, it was relayed to me. Now it has been applied as I made connection to my request. All bestowed to me through faith, prayer, and the Lord’s continuing hand to watch over my life in ways that surpass what we may ask or understand. It is the little things that count with me. They are big blessings because God handled and took heed as I just trusted and waited for an outcome. It is not all about what the Lord constantly does for us, but the love, concern, and value that he places on us that motivates his actions. Even at times when situations in life seem or appear to go wrong, God is making everything right. In my circumstances, I could have just settled for a particular area of something that I didn’t find suitable to my liking or well-being.
However, I humbly looked at the one who could and would decide best according to what was befitting. And, I just had to give open thanks and praise!
Everyone has the right to think or believe what they choose to believe in.
Some believe in certain things, some do not, some are undecided because they honestly do not know whether or not a particular thing exists, and some really do not care one way or the other.
We all have our own nature and experience.
What is right for one person may be wrong for the next person.
Some are inclined to what draws them, a propensity toward what falls into place.
A lady was offended over a post I wrote a few days ago with regard to reincarnation (soul ties).
She got mad or was disappointed at me for stating my viewpoint on the matter.
She tried to get back at me by insinuating, because I do not agree with the notion of people coming back to earth throughout the centuries, that I must not actually be born of preternatural ability.
And, that I have a lot to learn due to my nonchalant attitude in regard to her response, which she also took as me being rude or arrogant.
I notice a lot of times people take other people’s comments/posts out of context or as coming off negatively when they do not personally know the person. Every detail, explanation, or essence of a person’s entirety cannot, will not, and should not be displayed or assumed in any single post.
I admit I did not care as her lack of knowledge is of no insult to me. No one’s thoughts or words can erase the truth or discredit someone else’s ability due to their own misconceptions or idle pettiness.
If I do not believe in reincarnation, then I don’t believe in it. I never will- and my third eye, sixth sense, extra sensory perception- whatever one wants to call it, has always been there and will remain.
God’s gifts are irrevocable even if others put labels on them or name them incorrectly. A spiritual gift of insight is the ability to extraordinarily “know, see, feel, hear, taste, smell, and think within communication.
But God will redeem me from the realm of the dead; he will surely take me to himself. -Psalms 49:15
“So it will be with the resurrection of the dead. The body that is sown is perishable, it is raised imperishable; it is sown in dishonor, it is raised in glory; it is sown in weakness, it is raised in power; it is sown a natural body, it is raised a spiritual body.” -1 Corinthians 15:42-45
“Jesus said to her, ‘I am the resurrection and the life. Those who believe in me, even though they die, will live, and everyone who lives and believes in me will never die.’ ” -John 11:25-26
And just as each person is destined to die once and after that comes judgment, so also Christ was offered once for all time as a sacrifice to take away the sins of many people. He will come again, not to deal with our sins, but to bring salvation to all who are eagerly waiting for him. -Hebrews 9:27-28
I did not need the Bible or a verse to indicate to me that reincarnation was not a course of purpose in life.
I never believed in the idea of having lived past lives over and again, not even as a child or teen (though attitudes and beliefs may sometimes change as we evolve) did I think reincarnation sounded right. The notion made no sense to me.
I do not care how many people claim to remember living previous lives before, or the so-called scientific proof behind it.
I am not at all saying that some of these people are not being honest. I just believe there is another explanation.
They may have either had a vision, or visions, of someone else’s life from another timeline, possibly confusing it with a connection to their own.
Their mind could be playing tricks on them as memory can at times be unreliable.
Satan can also be at play, as he and his demons have the ability to masquerade and take on the appearance of people, places and events through false representation.
I do not have all the answers. I do not know everything, and I don’t claim to, or want to.
Nevertheless, I walk by faith and not by sight. I believe in what I cannot see because I am spiritually “awake”. I have always been aware. I have had many encounters of witnessing God’s power, even when I was full of doubt in regard to particular situations.
When the spirits of Moses and Elijah appeared and were witnessed, they were in their original likeness after they had long passed away, having lived only one life on this earth.
I personally am glad there is no coming back and forth into this imperfect, fallen world. Who in their right mind would want to keep repeatedly living in this world full of ruin? Why would God send Jesus to die for us if this was so?
I like God’s version of the truth better. Once I die, the only next life I will enter along with other believers by God’s grace is eternity in the afterlife with my creator.
Six days later Jesus took Peter and the two brothers, James and John, and led them up a high mountain to be alone.
As the men watched, Jesus’ appearance was transformed so that his face shone like the sun, and his clothes became as white as light.
Suddenly, Moses and Elijah appeared and began talking with Jesus.
Peter exclaimed, “Lord, it’s wonderful for us to be here! If you want, I’ll make three shelters as memorials —one for you, one for Moses, and one for Elijah.”
But even as he spoke, a bright cloud overshadowed them, and a voice from the cloud said, “This is my dearly loved Son, who brings me great joy. Listen to him.”
The disciples were terrified and fell face down on the ground.
Then Jesus came over and touched them. “Get up,” he said. “Don’t be afraid.”
And when they looked up, Moses and Elijah were gone, and they saw only Jesus. -Matthew 17:1-8
And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4:19
It might seem that it is easier said than done. However, I know from experience, though it may be hard for some to “be still”.
To completely let go, step out on faith, and let God lead. It might even appear to be a risk- but it is the best risk one can take. Who better to trust with one’s life than putting it into the hand of God’s?
I am inspired to share this example of good news as a source of encouragement and inspiration with credit to the most-high.
Something happened to me today that I did not expect at all.
In the days prior, I was held by God’s peace and had a vibe of security/assured. Still, not knowing what exactly would turn out.
I received wonderful news.
God is truly unbelievable. I still cannot believe what was revealed to me as real.
No matter how many times I get a blessing, I am still amazed.
God knows our needs and indeed delivers to those of us who continue to believe.
He comes through in ways unimaginable.
I take nothing for granted.
No matter what one may go through in life, worries, or concerns- God is there and he seriously cares.
The Lord is faithful in working it out beyond what we portend or anticipate.
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. -Romans 8:28
I am not a mother. I had been told I would make a good mother if I had children, and I took the remark as a compliment.
Some may even consider me wife material, which can serve as a compliment or an insult, depending on what one’s idea is based on.
I never saw myself as marriage material, as I never had the desire or interest in romance or for stereotypical wifely duties-this nature was never within me.
The old barefoot, pregnant, in the kitchen, outdated image of wife-hood was definitely not a suitable way of life for me either.
Things have changed in this day and age and the definition of wife-material does not necessarily have to be a negative one.
Many secure men appreciate strong, independent women who can hold their own and who can also show love, support and maintain a healthy relationship that produces meaning and growth.
Most of us heard the saying, “You can’t turn a hoe into a housewife”.
Well, I say one cannot turn a virgin or one who is not into sex as a housewife either.
How many sexual partners one has had or not had does not determine one’s sufficiency. It is about one’s mentality and character.
I always knew that my self-esteem or self-worth/value as a female was not defined or dictated by my vagina or men I have never slept with.
Nor did my self-esteem or self-worth depend on what a man or anyone else classified as what was appropriate within their own personal or societal standards.
My vagina is not me; it is only a part of the body that belongs to me. I am the spirit within me, I am an individual having this human experience here on earth.
It is a great offense to suggest that any positive qualities a woman may have are only prized or treasured if a man prefers or desires them.
There are women who have no interest in satisfying a man.
They have no desire to marry or to be in a committed relationship.
Some women are intent on or concerned about developing their own careers, their own personal/spiritual growth, or the fulfillment of what they may want to offer or contribute to the world through their own special purpose.
These types of women do not need the acceptance or approval of a man to feel self-worth and value.
“Ask me and I will tell you remarkable secrets you do not know about things to come.” -Jeremiah 33:3 nlt
“Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.” -Jeremiah 33:3 esv
Some of us are naturally born with certain spiritual gifts/talents and some may acquire them later on through the Holy Spirit once they receive Jesus Christ as their Lord and savior.
God speaks to us in many different ways and he still sends us messages and warnings of insight through visions, dreams, thoughts and so on.
Every open door is not from God and every closed door is not from the devil/Satan.
Wisdom, discernment, and prayer will always bring truth into the light as well as mysteries that are unknown when we have our own distinct relationship with God.
“Dear friends, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world.
This is how you can recognize the Spirit of God:
Every spirit that acknowledges that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, but every spirit that does not acknowledge Jesus is not from God. This is the spirit of the antichrist, which you have heard is coming and even now is already in the world.
You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.
They are from the world and therefore speak from the viewpoint of the world, and the world listens to them.
We are from God, and whoever knows God listens to us; but whoever is not from God does not listen to us. This is how we recognize the Spirit of truth and the spirit of falsehood. -1John 4:1-6
“Very truly I tell you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be judged but has crossed over from death to life. -John 5:24
We get eternal life by putting our trust in Jesus.
The gift of being saved cannot be earned. It cannot be attained by doing good deeds, or by being what we perceive as good.
It cannot be gotten by going to church either.
It is only by truly believing in and putting all our trust in Jesus.
Eternal life does not begin once a believer dies and their soul leaves the body.
Eternal life begins immediately while we are still alive in body here on earth, the moment we genuinely accept Jesus as Lord over our lives.
When one is “truly saved”, they are always saved, even if they walk away from God for a while due to anger or misunderstanding, because if one is truly a child of God’s, they will always find their way back to him or he will eventually bring them back through his call.
God knows how to reach an individual whereas others cannot. He knows our story, he understands us, he knows our hearts, he knows us better than anyone else does- he created us as he knitted us together within our mother’s wombs. We were in his thoughts before the creation of the world.
When I was furious at God, I swore I disowned him and that I would never have anything to do with him ever again. The Lord sure showed me differently!
He did not let me go so easily or at all, for that matter. He let time go by- letting me believe I was protected by other means when it was him all along, ultimately protecting me through what I substituted. He proved to me that he had my back when I felt betrayed by him.
It took a tragedy for him to get my attention- and God did his action in such a loving and wonderful way. I am still in shock till this day- he is really awesome.
I still at times have my “God why did you bring me into this world the way that it is nowadays” and “I did not ask to come here; sin was here way before I was born, so why bring me into it?!”
God is my parent as I am still a work in progress when it comes to certain issues that involve not liking certain types of people and life circumstances in general, and so on. However, that is what he wants. For us to give everything all to him.
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. –Romans 8:38-39
I grew up in a home where God was strongly acknowledged.
I was raised by a mother who always believed in God. She grew up attending church as a child and had a love for God.
My mother’s side of the family were strong believers in God. They maintained faith and included God within their lives.
It was not about religion, but having a relationship with God.
My mother introduced me to God at an early age. From the start, everything came naturally. I readily believed and knew God and his story was real, yet I did not fully understand everything as I was still very young.
I was very spiritual, so I already had a connection to God. Certain members of my family were innately spiritual with gifts of the spirit.
There was a time I was consistently angry at God. I was frustrated at circumstances that were not my doing but done unto me and my mother during childhood on up by jealous/envious undesirables and etc….
In addition to other particular unsavory situations in life, I doubted God’s character and felt I could not trust him even though I had seen him do incredible, wonderful things in my life. I never doubted what God could do, but I doubted his goodness and motives/intentions.
God never punished or stopped blessing me when I kept my distance from him. My positive lifestyle did not change, but my attitude toward God and who I wanted to follow did for a while.
Instead of showing anger toward me, God approached me with gentleness and understanding of my misunderstanding of him.
God invited me to come to know him in a deeper and more transparent way than before.
He wanted me to know the real him, not through those who profess him only to show something different, not by misinterpretation- but through my past experiences of faith and what he has done for me and my family before.
By what he has done for me in the present. By what his word says and how his word acts and directs within my life.
God is walking with me every step of the way on my journey here as he promised and will take his time continuing to guide and provide with his ultimate divinity.
I do not write for the hell of it. Yes, writing is one of my natural talents, my passion. I write because I love to do it, but it is the Holy Spirit that inspires and moves me to do so. Divine energy is the driving force.
It has to be about Amazon in some form or fashion because nothing else was going on for it to be about anything else.
The truth must have totally came out- although if it had not, that still would not have made me any less justified. It does not really matter what people think or believe; it only matters what God knows. He is the only one who holds the keys to our true destiny. I appreciate that the Lord let the truth prevail as he always does sooner or later, but we do not need others to validate what we know for a fact. Michael Gonzalez comes to my blog primarily every Friday now instead of everyday or every other day like he used to. He has been doing this for three or four weeks now. He is still unable to move on. I have that affect on assholes 😹😂.
Sometimes Michael and others try to get slick and disguise themselves through that iCloud Private Relay shit that they think is completely anonymous. In fact, Michael came to my blog last night. These people feed off negativity. They wish they could find dirt on me. However, there is none. They keep viewing my posts about the caul, voodoo, and spiritual gifts. If they are looking for a way to attack me spiritually- they had better think again! You see, I will always be ahead of people like them. I have dreams, I see visions, I get premonitions etc….
Of course, I do not reveal everything that I know and see. I was not born yesterday. I have been on this earth for forty-seven years; I have been gifted with extra sensory perception for all of my life.
When I was a child, I was not ordinary, I was extremely aware. A gift can save our lives as I could share many stories from now into the past.
But God gifted me for a reason, as he did certain others, and no one can stop his purpose for us. It is up to us in particular whether we use our spiritual gifts for good or evil.
I am African American and Native American, so I have extra power within the bloodline. My African ancestry as well as my American Indian Cherokee and Blackfoot are deeply inherent in spirituality. So, they can dig their own graves.
I was not one of those little girls who wanted to get married or have kids as an adult.
If I decided to have a child, I did not ever plan to get married, hook up with a boyfriend or commit to a relationship of any kind.
I did not need or desire companionship or sexual relations at all.
When I was in my twenties, I contemplated the idea of having two daughters, however, I am so glad it never happened for more reasons than one.
I was right from the very beginning of my young life.
I would have made a phenomenal mother but I do not think I was meant to have children.
I would not want to come into this world the way that it is today, yesterday, and the way it will be tomorrow. I definitely do not want any child of mine to be born into this society.
Aside from that, I do not want to be bothered. I love being single, I love being free without any connection to a child.
I am glad to not have adult children either.
I am fully grown, established, and very content with the way I am personally. I absolutely have no regrets.
It is great for those who want or have children as it may suit them.
I as an individual feel blessed and fortunate not to have any.
I remember when I told my mother three years ago how I wanted to get an apartment and get a puppy. She said to me, “A baby taking care of another baby”.
My mother was correct. I am a woman who is wise, responsible, strong, and experienced in life though I have this natural childlike innocence within my aura.
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