Harassment of any nature is not limited to the workplace, of course, it can take place anywhere.
Periodically, at almost every job I ever had we had updated training.
When I worked at Sears Roebuck for four years there was continuous training for us employees to complete electronically as things were constantly changing or advancing.
Even if the subjects and activities within the lessons and testing were just a recoup of what we had already gone over beforehand.
Two weeks ago, I had to do updated training in one of my workplaces regarding sexual harassment- a subject I am very knowledgeable in, and that I have always passed with one hundred percent correctness in answers after testing whether during orientation or training.
This previous occurrence gave me an idea to write about due to the seriousness in nature on jobs where managers are not taking action when they are supposed to. Where managers may side with a perpetrator, or where managers do not take a matter gravely.
Sexual harassment or harassment of any kind should never be tolerated in the workplace.
Do not be afraid, stand up for yourself at all cost and at all means.
A supervisor/manager is supposed to give immediate attention to the employee once harassment is reported. If they do not, and one does not see any results or are not satisfied with an investigation that was carried out then report your case/complaint to The New York City Commission of Human Rights- 718 722 3131.
One can also call or contact The New York Division of Human Rights 888 392 3644.
Personally, I know from my experience when or if anyone tries to harass me in any way I go into kick- their- ass mode.
However, we must think before we instantly or automatically react.
If we do not fight back in a way that is obvious it is not that we are afraid. We just do not want to risk going to jail for assholes who are not worth wasting precious time of our lives over.
Nevertheless, no matter how a negative situation will turn out it is very important to remember that nobody in this life gets away with anything that they do- even if they ignorantly think they have.
It is alright when something is justified, but people get back what is coming to them and God does not let negative deeds/actions go unpaid.
I remind myself of the 1978 Faye Dunaway thriller/mystery “The Eyes Of Laura Mars”. It is said that art imitates life.
I have been seeing accurate visions that were confirmed or that came to be since I was a child, whether while awake or in my sleep.
I am not perfect, just a human being. I would not trust everything that is shown as we are to test the spirit.
Although things can also have dual meanings or reflections I know when to keenly sense the difference from within and between from experience.
This past Thursday night, around 10:40pm, I had a vision of a guy whose energy I have been feeling for a while who I will not name.
Usually when I feel guys’ energy in a certain manner it is because they are attracted to me, jealous of me, have animosity toward me, or whatever, and because they are no good.
I always find out that I was correct in my predictions and judgments.
Their energy can linger for as long as their feelings for me last, or for as long as I need to be aware of the circumstances taking place with and around them regarding me and my life.
In the vision that appeared while I laid awake, the guy was completely naked wearing nothing but a pair of socks.
He was in a bedroom.
I am not sure if this bedroom was located inside a hotel or somebody’s home.
A barely dressed female who appeared partially in the nude lay on a bed dazed, with her eyes barely opened about to pass out from a roofie (flunitrazepam) that was slipped in her drink.
As this girl/woman laid in the bed I could see from her slanted-eye view the guy walk across the room past the foot of the bed to observe her state of falling unconscious.
I was projected as the female at first until the vision further played on.
The guy took out his phone- and I could discern every bit of vile energy and negativity within this individual’s actions and intentions. He enjoyed what he was doing- to record and photograph this female he victimized through eventually having sex with her while incapacitated.
There was another guy who appeared inside the room, though I was not able to get a look at him.
The other guy asked with a smirk on his face in a way as to urged the guy on if he wanted to take a turn to sexually take advantage of the girl.
This guy is an awful, terrible, low life piece of shit.
I do not know if this occurrence took place Thursday night, the exact time it was revealed to me, if it happened sometime already within the past, or if will occur soon.
What I picked up from the dream is what he did to that girl is also something he would like to do to me. That is why I was initially portrayed as the girl.
I do not know the entire situation with this female I witnessed in the vision. However, I was feeling this is what this guy does when the opportunity presents itself for him to underhandedly use a form of rape on girls who otherwise refuse to give him the time or day then probably lies about it later by saying the girl was high or something to that effect- though she would have no recollection- then keep video footage and photos for himself as a trophy/souvenir to look back at, privately show other no good associates to, and gloat over. He may have even blackmailed certain girls with the footage leaving them afraid to come forward.
I cannot prove this, yet I know what I saw and felt is true.
None of us are one hundred percent all the time. We can mistake one thing for another, and so on.
There are times when we are unsure or just do not know. And even when we doubt, we can still be correct in what we may have slightly felt. We can even be wrong in things we strongly feel.
For the most part, aside from logic and reasoning from an ordinary standpoint, my clairvoyant abilities have always been very intuitive and on point. There have been people who have admitted to me or told on themselves unintentionally when I confronted them on matters. Either that or the truth would in time reveal itself to confirm things.
When I write I do not plan. Messages come to me to write themselves as ideas manifest and urge to be put forth for which I know not to question when the drive is strong.
I am a vessel where information transmits- a messenger sort to speak from a spiritual perspective- relaying what needs to be said and heard for whatever purpose relayed unto me as one who knows firsthand.
Extra Sensory Perception is a legitimate gift/faculty that some of us have and are born with.
It may be something that everyone cannot talk about with everybody due to misunderstandings and diversity in beliefs, yet it makes the instance no less of a real occurrence and the gift is nothing to be ashamed of or hidden.
Extra Sensory Perception can save one’s life.
One thing about us people who are in-tune is that we are keenly perceptive at picking up on the slightest things that others may not notice or spot as significant.
Oftentimes, or at times when we are on to things or on to someone with evil intentions, schemes, or motives- those who know they have been discovered or those who are naive to the areas of paranormal ability and how it naturally works within the nature of energy, vision, and vibration, will try to cover up their actions or justify their ignorance by calling one paranoid. It is the oldest trick in the book.
We may falsely get accused of saying or thinking that everyone is against us when that notion is totally absurd.
How could, and why would everyone be against us? Everyone does not know us or even care to be against us.
We know who and what to pinpoint and why and if we are not sure we are specific until we later get clarification.
There will always be people in life at times that we may possibly encounter either through feelings of jealousy, revenge, conflict, pettiness, ignorance, or animosity or whatever ignites incentive within them depending on the circumstance and their disposition who will come up against us in some form or fashion.
The devil exists and he uses people as well as principalities.
The only difference is that not everyone is always aware of what is going on in the situation, the depth of what may go on, or to what extent, the reason behind it, or the measures involved.
We are given these extra sensory abilities which are an extraordinary extended form of intuition, discernment, and second sight as a protection and awareness throughout life to heed, learn from, and grow on the path of our journey.
I would not have had the faith I have today without it due to the many encounters of account from early life experiences to the present.
It has been a constant occurrence- an irrevocable part of one’s make up given by God as an example of his power manifest unto the universe linked in connection to those who are endowed.
This does not mean everyone with the ability is up to good or is good-natured. It just means they have a supernatural attribute that testifies to the powers that exist and that are in effect in this physical world.
And whether a person is good-natured or negative-natured with the ability to see into the unseen does not foreshow their gifts of perception into events as paranoia.
I have been told directly when I was a teenager and during my adulthood that I was not “normal” by three people because I am very unique.
Some meant those words as an acknowledgement to me that I was uncommon to them as others have used the term toward me as an insult.
But what these few who said this to me, whether it was a harmless mention or one to intentionally hurt, did not realize is that their words were a huge compliment to me.
It made me feel good to not be categorized as being the same.
No one can drown out my voice or my existence. Though, I have always detested the existence of those who I feel should not exist.
I am one who could never conform to the so-called norm of what is considered normal- to do as others do and to think as others do.
To accept and adhere to the approved dominant set of principles, rules, or standards within the characteristics and behavior carried out by most of society.
It was never my inborn tendency to behave according to socially accepted conventions or typicality.
I often rejected, and refused to comply or go along with what went against my nature or way of thinking, being, and doing due to my unconventionality.
I prefer my original, unusual, different, so-called strange to some, out of the ordinary, original, new-fashioned disposition- because it is the real me.
I never had the desire to join in- that is why I always stood out.
I hated whenever people tried to manipulate or coerce me by subtle means trying to use psychology, head games, or their way of reasoning to undermine, challenge, or change my attitude and ways through passing unfavorable judgment upon me, downplaying me, turning against me, or underestimating me.
These actions never caused self-doubt or fear within me to surrender to just be accepted.
Oftentimes it infuriated me or caused me to pleasantly distance myself from those kinds of individuals.
My resistance has caused in many instances among those who were in opposition or who were incongruent, great friction between us.
This is why I am a leader and not a follower because I never went along with society because it was the thing to do or else, I would be an outcast or labeled or considered crazy.
I refused to be what I was not to please others and lie to myself just to get by.
I have received backlash or so-called consequences for doing things my way that others did not understand or interpreted their way as they could see no other way due to their own social conditioning and/or lack of awareness or knowledge in diversity.
Yet, all the occurrences did was make me more determined to maintain my identity and to continue to be who I am.
If anyone is to criticize me, laugh at me, call or consider me insane for sticking to my guns, then so be it.
Nothing can deter me from loving the person within me.
To me, certain others are the crazy ones.
I could just as easily criticize and laugh at them for seeing things in my own way. The way I feel is everyone has the right to be who they are and live out their life accustomed to how they are as long as they do not impose their ways on me and try to make my life difficult on account of their indifference.
I never cared or tried to force my ways on anyone but others failed to treat me in the same. Some people have a problem with control and some cannot deal with what is foreign to what they know and have been taught.
Something unheard of or unorthodox can be disturbing to them.
I am resilient within my natural purpose.
There are times, places, and situations whereas we as people do not necessarily relate to or agree with things, but we may compromise or make allowances. This is vital in life as we must conform when it is contingent upon circumstances.
Of course, there must be order and harmony within living together to humanely survive here on the earth.
However, when it comes to personal identity, I will not budge for anyone.
If more people were allowed to truly be themselves and fresh ideas were contrived in dealing with problems or situations instead of the same predictable methods that I find tiring, annoying, and of no use or affect as one who these measures does not reflect upon accordance with.
This indeed is a sick society.
A lot of what is considered normal among many is what really is abnormal, but it is accepted because abnormal in relation to normal is what is normal to them.
I am so glad to not be normal.
I choose to be a healthy individual who is not a puppet of this world. –latoya lawrence
Some people take kindness for weakness, thinking that they can take advantage of you.
A lady at work (at one of the places I am employed at) who wanted me to do duty on the side for her as she paid me directly in cash found out different.
She expected to use me and my time for her convenience and thought handing out money would reel me in.
I do not know where some people come from and what is going on in their minds.
I stayed quiet to let her run her mouth and set up plans so she could think she was controlling the situation while the entire time I was the one who was running the show. Now she has received a harsh blow.
I put my foot down.
My supervisor told me to tell the lady I had an additional job scheduled to prevent the lady from further acquiring my service.
However, I am not the type to lie for convenience unless it is necessary.
People lie so much in their daily lives or routine that it becomes second nature to them thinking that lies are the only way to go or to get what they want- and that may be true for those used to deception, but I prefer honesty over cowardice.
I told this conniving woman “No” more than once and told my supervisor again about the situation as the lady phoned me up today asking if I would mind working on the side for her two days this week.
I told the woman nonchalantly “No, I don’t want to”.
My supervisor said she would call the woman and speak with her as I firmly stated that I am there to do my assigned shifts and that is it!
I came across an Article titled Do Women Need Men and what I read in this article is total bullshit!
The author is stating that if women say they do not want or need a man it is only because they have been hurt by men and that every woman loves a rock hard cock sliding in and out of their vagina and wants love and a relationship with a man.
The article also states that to a woman the love between a man and a woman is special and the most important form of love within her life.
Well, I LaToya Lawrence am a woman.
I have never loved a man, I have never cared for a man, I have never been in a romantic relationship with a man, and I have never been hurt by a man.
If I had a baby I preferred to have one on my own without the companionship of a man.
I never wanted or needed a man since my younger days on up. And, I definitely do not consider the love between a man and a woman to be the most special or meaningful.
Maybe it is to some or most, but definitely not for all.
The love between my mother and I was the best love to experience (and the love of my dog) and nothing could ever surpass that for me.
My happiness was never dependent upon a man. The reason I am happy is because I never wanted one and because I truly love myself and I love the path in life I was chosen to live without the desire or need to be with one (a man).
This article is not truthful in regard to “all women”.
I hate when those in society spread lies and misinformation. Every woman is not the same and a man is not some irresistible being that a woman suddenly does not want or need due to being hurt or disappointed by one.
A woman can “naturally” not feel any need, want, or desire for any man.
Here is a few parts from the article:
Do Women Need Men?
In today’s world, women can live a life that is completely independent of men if they choose to.
A modern woman can earn her own money, be protected by the police, justice system and media and be supported by the government.
However, regardless of how much a woman can take care of herself in the modern world, she still will always want and need a man for the following reasons:
To experience the love that can only occur between a man and a woman.
To be impregnated by a man that she loves and wants to have a family with.
To have the father of her children present to make her feel safe and to help raise the children in a more balanced way, compared to her doing it all by herself.
To be a boyfriend or a husband that she can share life experiences with, overcome challenges with and grow together over time.
So, the answer to the question, “Do women need men?” is a definite yes if a woman wants to lead a normal, happy life.
Sometimes, you might see a news story or an article online about women no longer needing men because they can go and get themselves implanted with semen from a sperm back and have their own children without the need of a man.
Lesbian women tend to do that so they can raise a children, but normal heterosexual women still have a natural desire to be impregnated by a man that they love.
After all, women love having sex just as much as men do.
Women love the feeling of a rock hard penis sliding into their little love tunnel, just as much as we men like to get in there and give it to them.
Sex is a mutually beneficial and enjoyable thing for men and women and so is love.
Regardless of the changes that happen in modern society, the love between a man and a woman always remains a very special and powerful thing that most women place the utmost of importance on in their life.
If a woman doesn’t have the love of a man in her life, she may spend a lot of time on her career and try to distract herself, but will almost always become depressed and feel like her life is wasting away on pointless work, when she really wants to be in love, be a mother and have a family.
So, if you’ve been wondering to yourself, “Do women need men?” because you don’t seem to desperately wanted by women, then you should ask yourself what the real reason is behind you asking that question.
Don’t Listen to the BS lyrics From Female Pop Singers
A guy who doesn’t understand women will often feel confused when he listens to the confident, brash, girl power lyrics of female pop singers.
Female pop singers will passionately sing lyrics like, “I don’t need a man” or “Sisters are doing it all for themselves” and act as though they don’t care if they have a man or not.
Yet, is that really the way it is? Do modern women not need men at all, or do those song lyrics simply create a smoke screen to hide what is really going on behind the scenes?
Let’s clear this up…
If a woman is saying she doesn’t need men in her life, you can bet your bottom dollar that she has recently (or repeatedly) had her heart broken and she’s still hurting, or she is lusting after the type of guys who aren’t interested in her.
With that being the case, the anti-men lyrics are nothing more than a smoke screen for insecure or emotionally bruised women.
The heartbroken female pop singer (or everyday woman) who is saying that she doesn’t need men, will cry herself to sleep over the fact that she no longer has a man in her life.
Just listen to some of the candid interviews of female pop singers and celebrities and you will see them admitting to crying their eyes out all the time. They may put on a front of being emotionally cold and independent, but it’s just a smoke screen.
Likewise, a woman who is saying that she doesn’t need men because the kind of men she wants don’t want her, will continue to try to attract their attention.
So, do women need men? Of course they do.
If women didn’t need men or want men in their life, there wouldn’t be so many “Who needs men anyway?” songs out there.
The only reason those songs exist is because single or dumped women tend stick together in a “friends forever” sort of way, so when one of their group has been dumped or let down by a guy, they all rally round to make her feel better by adopting an attitude of, “Who needs men anyway when we’ve got each other?!”
Of course, when the dust settles, they all set about helping her to find a new man ASAP.
Watch this video to understand how women really think…
A lot of people do not want to hear or accept the truth, but I am one who will speak my truth regardless.
When I worked a twelve-hour overnight shift this past Thursday at a medical rehabilitation facility, I got into a friendly discussion with a 75-year-old Polish man who happened to have lived in areas of the town I was born and raised in many years ago.
We reminisced about things then had gotten on the subject of black people who occupied residence in the area at the time and how most of them were low scale.
The neighborhood I grew up in was once an all-white neighborhood the people started to move out of the area when black people began to move in the area back then. The neighborhood was a beautiful place to live at one time.
I had heard and understood that story when my mother told it to me and other people I ran into acknowledged it.
There is prejudice among people who do not like people of certain races and ethnicities and there is a very good reason.
All black people are not bad, but most are not worth anything and this is coming from an African American female of mixed parentage/heritage.
I was not the average type of black girl/person growing up I spoke articulate and properly, I was very bright, and I did not hold the ignorant mentality that most black people had.
Just because a lot of white people do not like black people does not at all mean that they are racist. Some of them are but not all of them.
There is good and bad in every race or ethnicity, but a lot of black people do tend to be the worst.
I am black and have hated black people for the same reasons other races do. A lot of black people are a turn off- the way they look, act, think, talk. The way they present themselves, their mannerisms are off-putting.
I had problems with a lot of black people growing up because I was not one of them, I was not anything like them.
Black people are jealous of other blacks who are a better quality than they are and they try to pull them down to destroy them.
There are smart black people but rarely are they as bright as white people unless they are mixed with another bloodline. I have heard my mother who is black (with mixed parentage also) state this as well as a white person- but this fact was an obvious one to me.
Of course, I have experienced people who automatically judged me due to my brown skin but once they had gotten to know me it was a different story. It was not me personally, but the negative perception blacks have made on society.
In my life, with most people, it had always been predominantly white people and people of other races who accepted me and treated me kindly in life wanting to see me succeed.
All my life it has been black people who were extremely jealous of me and other blacks of my caliber. They have set out to tarnish our images, ruin our reputation with lies, and hamper our destiny in the most underhanded ways but because I never held their mindset, way of thinking, or essence their actions were in vain- a total waste of time- even if their severely deficient minds will never be able to grasp this reasoning.
Low-scale blacks as well as low-scale people in general like to bring people down to their level or lower.
They try to bring people down to their level because they cannot rise to our higher level of intellect, ability, character, or spiritual consciousness.
As far as I am concerned one of the only reasons Barack Obama was originally elected president is because he was biracial and because a lot of people (mostly men) did not want Hillary Clinton or a woman as president of the United States.
I am not at all insinuating that Barack was not qualified to be president, but even I would not have wanted an average black man in office.
I could be wrong but I think Michelle Obama would have had a good chance to become the first black woman president if she had wanted or decided to run.
Anyhow, for the most part, many black people are undesirable.
A lot of whites do not care when blacks kill one another because they feel they are helping to eliminate their own problem.
I just feel that it is the wrong blacks that end up dying and being killed by the hands of degenerates sometimes.
The ones that need to die are still walking around. They keep having children that should never have been born while there are good, valuable people who are unable to conceive children.
Trash people shoot out kids like crazy and they populate the earth unnecessarily with their undesirable offspring.
I could never stand living around a bunch of black people, going to school with them, or working in an environment with them. They completely turn me off. I only like certain type of blacks.
I have currently lived in a mixed neighborhood for eleven years now with Caucasians, Korean/Chinese/Japanese and others of Spanish descent. There are not too many black people in comparison- and the energy is wonderful.
I have never considered myself a religious person even though some in my past have viewed me in that manner
I am spiritual.
Some people get the two mixed up when in relation to as they have their own differential aspects that may sometimes connect in similarity.
It seems like just another ongoing repetitive event that transpires year after year with the holidays. Most celebrations have lost the spark they used to have at igniting true festivity or merriment.
Everything has just been about experiencing the tradition instead of feeling any of the mood the holiday is supposed to bring.
I remember as a kid almost every Easter Sunday getting dressed up to go out in the town with family and friends.
However, Easter will always have the significance as a reminder of the resurrection of Jesus and what he did on the cross.
So that according to God’s nature and plan those who accept him could look forward to having everlasting peace, life, and love in his presence- even if for the reason why since the beginning of creation everything had to play out the way that it did- goes beyond our comprehension.
Isn’t it something when people tell you the pros about something, but not the cons?
It is a total misrepresentation of whatever it is that is being addressed or called into question.
That is why it is good to have a sharp mind.
Depend on those strong hunches within intuition, count on your own knowledge, and dig deeper to find answers that you are looking for.
Do your own investigation if necessary.
Make them spill the beans by exploring every detail of a matter or situation to have whoever it is regarding the circumstance acknowledge key points and vital information according to your liking.
Do not let anyone sell you a dream/bullshit or tell you half the truth by not divulging what they should have made known to begin with.
As writers we can get inspired by anything- I know I do.
It is a part of our artistic, creative mode when the energy stirs us into action.
Today I read a fellow blogger’s “About Page” after I discovered her by a comment of mine that she liked.
I loved what she had to say in her introduction.
These are the sentences of the lady’s words that struck me because I have also been saying this for years.
She wrote:
We see the world with our eyes which have our own perception. When view doesn’t please our perception we start taking it as wrong or consider it as misfit for our calculated vision.
I responded back to her summary and shared my own accord in agreement by denoting:
Love your words that are spoken in truth.
As soon as some see or hear something that goes beyond their sense of understanding or belief, they are ready to attack or criticize instead of just accepting that we all are different and on our own path and there is so much more out there within the universe than what they may be able to grasp.
When I mention hate I am not speaking about harming, bothering anyone, or hating others because of their race, the color of their skin, sexual orientation, or other irrational reasons such as that do not make any sense.
I am talking about the normal feelings of dislike toward people, things, or matters among some of us for whatever reason due to inclines that are a natural part of this life
Everyone is different.
We all have our own points of view and ways of looking at things and all of us are not always going to agree and that is okay because we are not all wired the same.
To me hatred is a strength, and it does not stem from hurt or being hurt.
Love can hurt people, yet love is not considered a weakness or a thing to refrain from feeling.
Just like anger is a natural emotion, so is the hatred of certain things when the feeling is triggered.
There is nothing wrong with getting angry, everything lies in how we deal with, handle and direct that anger.
Emotions often fuel responses, so I never fed into the nonsense of hatred destroying a person or clouding them with mental or spiritual darkness.
People are just afraid of what some people will do to others out of hatred so they use untrue manipulating psychology to sway a person within their thinking and perception of the root in where hatred stems from or will take one.
For some people, hatred reflects their hurt and may lead them down a path of unhappiness, bitterness, or even destruction. However, this is not the case for all individuals, and I know this from experience.
Some people believe that hatred will hold one back, yet this is false- it is people that hold others back on account of not approving of attitudes or dispositions that they may hold or have.
People who do not get along with a certain group of individuals may get along just fine when they are in the company of those who they relate to or connect with.
Just as hatred can make some people furious and want to kill so can love.
Some people would kill another in vengeance if someone they loved were brutally and unjustifiably harmed, but they would not respond in the same manner in regard for someone they hated. So that person is not considered a threat in that circumstance.
I am not saying this example of explanation is necessarily acceptable, I am just stating the effect in which the emotions are apt to react.
We are all responsible for our actions when we are consciously aware. Some people are confused or misled and deserve understanding and not blame.
Nevertheless, hatred or dislike can be a feeling that people feel for others without the hatred having any negative affect in their lives or within their bearing.
Hatred can be a boost used positively and productively.
There are things and people that I strongly dislike but that does not spoil my “inner personal” joy or fulfillment. I naturally manifest good vibrational energy around my aura that I can feel because of the spirit that resides within me.
Hatred is not an issue that I spend or contend daily moments with. There is no dwelling within the feeling, just an acknowledgement of its existence.
I am rooted within the love that sustains me and nothing can overshadow that.
In life there is balance whereas a negative could be a positive or a positive could be a negative- there is not one without the other. When this reality is accepted there is no need to find a flaw as a result in how the natural alignments are weighed. –latoya lawrence
We are all made up of a life force. As a result, many of us are sensitive to other people’s energy waves.
Just as we can receive information through dreams and visions the universe also transfers awareness through spiritual communication within consciousness processed into the subconscious of connection to the universe.
Some people do not speak about things or constantly go on about things because they worry about what others may think.
I am one who never cared or feared what anyone thought. I have always been outspoken. If certain people are narrow-minded or ignorant as to what inspires or motivated me that is on them- not on me.
I know myself; I know who I am and the spirit within me will speak as it pleases through what is significant to life situations.
I do not have a problem speaking for myself or on behalf of certain others.
One of my strongest abilities has been one of an empathic being able to know/feel the energy within the universe and from people who surround me or who are around at a distance no matter how far away they are.
As a woman born with this gift, I include to pick up on men’s feelings toward me.
As women in general we cannot stop men from being attracted or interested in us.
For empathic people there is no avoiding the aspect of energy that is pointed within our direction.
When a person is thinking about us, and we are in their thoughts we can pick up on their thoughts within our minds because they are thinking about us.
This energy is transferred to us consciously and unconsciously from the other person or people.
Everyone or most are unaware that we are cognizant of their thoughts/feelings/emotions/energies etc….
We gather information from their thoughts day in and day out depending on the level of intensity or consistency of the person who exudes the energy.
It is important for us to not ignore our intuition because there is a reason why we feel their energy as time will later tell if all is not immediately or presently divulged to us at first.
Their feelings are not our feelings.
Just because we can feel that someone likes us in no way indicates that we are liking or interested in them as some who are not informed about clairsentience may misinterpret in the case of a romantic or sexual attraction from the other person just because we tend to discuss it or complain about it.
There are incidents where feelings are mutual and some may share a connection, but just because people are somehow spiritually connected does not mean their feelings are mutual.
What I have noticed is that men that I do not like and who I am repulsed by have often come into my thoughts within the past.
I would feel them constantly until their feelings for me eventually waned.
There were a few guys whose energy I had to deal with for years until they finally gave up.
These two knew that I had a gift and purposely would communicate with me telepathically. There were spiritual experiences between us all that were backed up and confirmed years ago before they left me alone.
The more I feel men’s energy who I do not like the more I get repulsed by them.
Some people tell me I should be flattered, but why?
Why do the guys who turn me off the most do not understand that I do not want them?
No matter how much they may lie or deny their feelings for me, if I do not reciprocate, I still know the truth.
Even when they admit to their feelings, they still do not want to accept that I will never like or desire them.
They sometimes act as if I am supposed to want them.
When men come into my thoughts most of the time it is a warning to beware of them and to alert me to the type of men they are. And this is a good form of confirmation as these are guys that I would not have ordinarily given the time of day anyhow.
For all my life, informative energy has come to me in my thoughts, whether it was to impart knowledge of life lesson facts- people, situations, or things.
However, I really hate and do not understand why I must be annoyed by the energy of men that I despise.
The occurrence can linger for long periods of time as they are occupied by their own thoughts or feelings towards me.
I appreciate the awareness to take heed to when they direct any sort of negativity toward me, but when they like me, I do not like to “feel” it.
Nevertheless, it is just part of a supernatural gift that I must live with.
Haters do not want to hear good things about you. They do not want you to succeed.
They want you to believe the lies they implant because they do not want to acknowledge the truths that radiate in you.
They want to cause doubt in you, they want to downplay the talent and ability within you.
They try to take away from you to give to themselves.
They want to knock you down to build themselves up.
They want the credit for what you deserve that they did not honestly earn.
Do they ever learn?
Haters hate themselves. They feel inadequate and resentful because you possess what they believe they are entitled to have, and that makes them feel small.
It eats them up how you were created to stand tall.
When you do not fall, they wonder why.
If they were in your shoes the treachery in attempts would have made them cry.
You do not need to prove to anyone what you know you already have- so go ahead and laugh.
There is nothing they can do to eliminate the shining light inside of you.
Continue to do what you do.
No matter what they endeavor to do. They will never be able to authenticate their version to resemble you. –latoya lawrence
Small-minded, ignorant, or narrow-minded people form judgements, speculations or assumptions about others or situations based on their own generalizations, speculations, insecurities or unproven conjectures.
People who are on the level or who have open minds that are broad within a wise/objective/reasoned way of analytical thought process know and respect the vast array of human distinction.
They make judgements or considerations based on another person’s own individuality. Not based on preconceived notions, the typical familiarity of common reactions, behaviors, feelings or mindsets.
Great minds are fully aware of the absolute and possibility thereof when it comes to the diversity within nature and flourishing/development within unique human beings. –latoya lawrence
Sorry, (And I am not apologetic for speaking the truth) but from my observation some so called Christians strike me as rejects who do not know how to think for themselves.
They sound like wind up dolls who repeat doctrine like hypnotized puppets/flunkies.
I believe in God and know scripture; however, I am not, never was, and never will be the type to bow down to a way of thinking, speaking, or doing by being trained from the instruction or psychology that does not relate to my knowledgeable consciousness of vibration.
My identity can never be taken away by religious, societal or familiar influence held by those who do not challenge what does not pertain to or apply to all.
Some individuals have no backbone.
I could not remain at peace if I was not able to be my true self in mind and within attitude.
Asshole still will not move on. He is such a pathetic piece of trash/shit.
And while there are women out there who are indeed whores sex is not a tool or action that can be used against a woman to determine her worth or lower her value.
As he is only able to obtain skanks and shack up with his main skank do not get mad at me for loving myself and having high standards.
This Latin nigger is funny. He think he can drive me crazy with burning candles and shit.
He is very lucky I do not call upon my Orishas anymore. Elegba, Ogun, Orunmila, Oshun and Ochosi would have destroyed his ass!
Asshole did not know I was born with the power of a priestess.
I leave everything to God. Give people enough rope they eventually hang themselves.
Why do I attract some of the most ill fuckers who should have known beforehand that they never stood a chance with me?
They could have saved themselves the wasted effort and self-humiliation of being exposed by one who can literally “read” them.
Voodoo/Black Magic/WitchcraftDoes Not Work On Me! The Negativity Does Not Take Affect! My Mind Cannot Be Influenced Or Manipulated By Bullshit. Get That Through Your Fucking Head- Retard!
I have never been hurt mentally or emotionally by any man and I never will be.
To me, a man is nothing to get hurt over.
I am not and never have been the type of girl/lady/woman/female that a man could use or take advantage of I was not wired that way.
I was never weak, docile or naive when it came to men.
I was born with that extra sensory perception, strong spirit of discernment and unconventional individuality that made me unique in my own way.
Of course, anyone can lie and make up stories to tarnish or downgrade someone’s reputation, but no one can ruin anyone unless they allow them to.
Women who share my likeness know when a man means absolutely nothing to her that their petty words and tall tales will not do shit to disturb or affect her.
A reputation is only what people think or believe one to be- character is what truly defines one.
There were and are negative people with a low-mindset- till this day- still jealous of me because I have never been dogged out by any man.
If I were to have had sex with anyone it would have been on my terms and not because of any smooth talk or whatever “game” a man thought he had to use to pull or play a woman.
Like I have said many times before there are women who use men just like some of them use women- they just use one another with no attachment or feelings involved.
There are women who use men for sperm, and it is not about the sex. I know personally a man could never do anything for me sexually.
Unfortunately, sex is the only way to make a baby unless one has the thousands of dollars it takes to go through numerous procedures of invitro fertilization.
A woman does not need a man for sexual pleasure. Women have clitorises they can stimulate and climax with. The instance is perfectly normal and healthy for them to self-explore and know their body.
Of course, every man is not out to hurt, use, deceive, or disgrace a woman when she does not cater to his ego.
There are good, mature, men out there with sense who do not even entertain or possess these certain mindsets/attitudes.
A lot of narcissistic men have deep-rooted psychological and insecurity issues.
Many of them are the way they are on account of their mothers fucking their heads up in the process while they were being raised.
Some of them were not correctly informed by mommy about the diversity within life or some of them were spoiled by mommy in a bad way.
Mommy enabled them and boosted them up in an unrealistic fashion that when they enter the real world to encounter women of substance they cannot cope with the reality.
In other circumstances mommy did not give some of them the love and attention they needed.
In a world where impressions matter to many, truths are what truly mattered to me.
Not projecting a facade of what is acceptable for the sake of being accepted.
I found it impossible for me to put on a disguise as I am not one to be a people pleaser.
There is a time for courtesy, professionalism, diplomacy, and respecting certain boundaries as well as a time when to justifiably cross them.
It is so important to live out one’s truth even if that genuineness and loyalty to self within self-preservation according to one’s own distinct nature causes a reproach within others due to what goes beyond their own comprehension and/or level of discernment.
I have been lied upon, misunderstood, judged for things I have never done, criticized for not being able to be controlled by others, and I have been the object of other people’s vicious gossip, envy and jealousy just like many other people of substance in life have.
All other people’s negativity did was cause me to become further resilient and despise and look down upon these individuals more than I already had beforehand.
As one who is extremely stubborn no one can make me do anything I do not want to do, and no one can stop me from doing anything that I want to do.
I have noticed an innate force within me that refused to allow me to be deterred from possessing the essential liberty that is instilled within me to express and prevail.
I was naturally inspired to continue to move forward unaffected.
Permitting others, the opportunity to dictate or restrict one’s path and future out of fear/intimidation or discouragement only prevents one’s celestial discovery, steady growth, and ultimate evolution.
There are people who often recognize or acknowledge some of us for who they want us to be instead of who we really are.
They form judgements or have preconceived notions based on generalized perceptions of what they believe we represent through our perceived lifestyle, words, or manner of bearing in which we conduct ourselves.
Some conclusions that others draw may be accurate, partially accurate or just plain wrong altogether.
One cannot be genuinely defined according to conjecture, hearsay, rumor, false assumption or a standard of what one is familiar with and/or accustomed to.
So many factors, shape, make up and contribute to diverse individuals and their behavior.
As soon as one behaves or responds contrary to another person’s sense of belief or reasoning, they may become shocked, disappointed, or even critical toward the other person.
This instance is not an illustration that the people or person in question necessarily did something wrong or acted out of character. It is an example of others whose expectation or notion of what they built up within their own way of thinking projecting upon the surface.
I experienced a long time ago (from my childhood on up) how people would put their own insecurities, ignorance, and negativity onto me and others who they differed from or were jealous towards.
I without a doubt knew that their judgment or lack thereof did not coincide with reality.
Their actions and behavior reflected themselves, who they truly were, and had absolutely nothing to do with me!
I had seen previews for Lee Daniels 2023 BET horror/thriller movie “The Reading” starring Mo’Nique last week.
The first time I saw one of the coming attractions I did not think much of the film- not really paying too much attention to it.
The second time I saw a commercial for The Reading it struck me as eerily spooky.
The BET television premiere for the film is set to air on March 14, 2023, but I did not want to wait that long.
So, after midnight this morning I watched The Reading on Amazon Prime- and I was not at all disappointed.
I loved the way the movie started off. It was intense and did not waste a moment to delve into the story.
Around the middle of the film there was a shocking, unexpected twist that threw me off.
I thought it was going to be a spirit haunting type of movie with something going wrong through the spirit-medium who gave the chilling psychic readings.
I was ready to lightheartedly fear what I thought may come about. Everything was getting so freaky and exciting!
Even though the film went in another direction it was still entertaining.
The Reading was action-packed, full of suspense, and ruthlessly gore with Mo’Nique’s character.
I loved that the movie depicted an African American girl with genuine clairvoyant/psychic ability (the woman played her part well as well as all the other actors and actresses) because we do exist, and we are out here in the world.
Race or ethnicity has nothing to do with one being born with preternatural ability, yet we rarely see people of color who possess these gifts shown in the media unless it is a portrayal of some stereotypical voodoo shit!
When people think of assault or murder it is usually through the methods of stabbing, shooting, strangling, knocking one out through blunt force trauma, substance/chemical poisoning, and so on.
But voodoo/black magic/witchcraft by tampering to influence or harm people, and the intentional sexual pollutants of bodily fluids are also disgusting forms of crime inflicted on other individuals.
HIV/AIDS has come a long way since originally hitting the scene to become widely known from the late seventies to the early eighties.
There are advanced anti-viral drugs on the market to lower viral load to the point of it almost becoming undetectable or non-detectable considering intercourse with an infected person to be so-called safe sex.
There are plenty of other diseases out there that are transmitted through sexual contact and some venereal diseases that can be caught without having sexual contact with anyone at all.
The problem is not with the diseases themselves but with scandalous people who know they are infected with disease and knowingly pass them on to others freely without any concern or decency.
Some people will intentionally spread their infections out of bitterness with the attitude of “I am dying so I will take others with me”.
People have different reactions and motives for why they do things.
Some just do not care.
Some think if they spread their disease to a person or people that they give the disease to these people will have to stay with them or within their sexual circle (which fittingly does not always transpire).
Some just want others to be in their shoes so that they do not feel alone or awkward within their situation, making the circumstance less uncomfortable within their bearings.
All I can say is that this is a wild dangerous world with a lot of highly disturbed, treacherous, ruthless and just plain immoral people.
There are also plenty of highly upstanding, good-natured, trustworthy and humane people out there in our world.
If people with sense continue to love and respect themselves and be cautious to thoroughly detect who or what they let into their bodies just as one would with any stranger or foreign object that they would let into their home.
Do not let anyone enter without the proper “checks”. Do not let them check in if they do not correctly check out!
The home decor style of the 60’s and 70’s were not just for hippies and gypsy fortune tellers.
Whether one called them door beads or beaded curtains- bead adornments that decorated the entrances of doorway rooms in the home and within establishments offered a cozy and enchanting ambience to settings that a lot of individuals could appreciate.
I remember as a young child during the late seventies and early eighties, walking through the clear-colored beads that hung from my home, clasping them open, loving the sounds they made while they hit up against one another.
People had many a variety of these beaded curtains.
Some of the people in my neighborhood (next door, across the street, down the block, and blocks away neighbors) had the attractive wooden kind.
Some had bright multicolored ones, and some had ones that were designed in diamond/oval shapes.
Door beads/beaded curtains are a creative way to add character and beauty into a place of residence or business.
The thought also brings to me a wonderful sense of nostalgia to what once was.
There are modern door beads and beaded curtains to decorate our homes with nowadays, but nothing will compare to the essence that held at a time when this style expressed the decade.
I am not going to mention any names but he knows who he is.
Since around Sunday on February 5, 2023 I noticed a few love/attraction/ lust spells tried to be worked upon me.
It began with acknowledgement of the man lusting after me -sexually desiring me- with the attempt to also get me to have a sexual as well as physical attraction to this guy.
Then I began to receive messages that this guy likes me very much.
In the days following, the essence of the love spell relayed to me the other feelings that are intended to sway me.
The motive is to have me like, care for, and possibly fall in love with this guy so I will be drawn to him.
I guess he thinks if he can make me feel this way that I will jump into bed with him.
He thinks that if I have sex with him because of the love spell then walk away from me afterwards that I will somehow be hurt emotionally.
This would be his way of retaliating against me for rejecting him by using an “unnatural” method (love-magic/witchcraft).
I understand that he or his ego may be hurt but witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not and never has worked on me mentally or emotionally I am far too strong for that.
I am sensitive to energy so I can pick up on the essence and the intent.
I do not understand why some guys have the mentality that they can hurt women by using them for sex.
Every woman is not the same and they do not hold the mentality of being disgraced by negative men who try to humiliate and degrade them in that manner.
There are women who use men for sex too and do not care.
He probably believes in his ignorant mind that I would be hurt the most because I am not the type who goes to bed with anyone at all. So, if he sleeps with me by doing witchcraft then talks badly about me with lies and whatever other stupid games he would be avenged.
He is sick in my opinion.
Love spells should not be done at all- but if they are done- at least people should do them with good/honest intentions instead of selfish ones that intend to hurt others just to have one’s way with them.
Aside from all that, witchcraft/black magic/voodoo is real even if certain people do not believe that it works.
The supernatural instance does not affect everyone but a lot of people do become under the influence of it. If witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not work on a person mentally, emotionally or physically it can work on them spiritually or materially- through finances and other means.
No matter what, God is always stronger than the devil that is why I am continuously kept aware. I am so grateful and thankful to the Lord for looking out and keeping me protected.
I remember years ago another guy worked a love spell on me to try to get me to love, marry him, and have babies with him.
I do not like people who do these things with ulterior motives to suit themselves, especially against another person’s will.
Why want someone who does not want you back? There is a world full of people on the planet.
What is important is that for people who are interested in relationships to find one’s who are best suited for them.
Right now, with the current guy, I find this action of his kind of exciting as I wonder how much further he will go. I even have a smile on my face at this love spell.
I am a fierce spiritual warrior and I am ready for the battle that God will take care of!
On Saturday, I watched a classic black and white movie titled “Impact”.
It was a 1949 film that starred Brian Donlevy, Ella Raines, Helen Walker, and Charles Coburn.
When I first read the synopsis, my interest was struck, but the movie turned out better to my liking than I had first imagined.
So many old films or films alike with these types of plots are predictable though this story took a pleasingly different little turn.
I enjoyed this movie from beginning to end.
I also liked the cinematography and the script for that era of time.
The film was about a woman.
She had a man who truly loved her- he thought the world of her. But she was just using him for his money and the luxurious things he could get for her.
The woman had a lover on the side.
One that she incorporated for the scheme in the murder of her unsuspecting husband.
Without giving away the entire storyline- Everything seemed to have gone as planned, however, what was planned did not at all go as it had seemed.
There is a detective on the scene who is on the style of Alfred Hitchcock within characteristics while distinguishing a style of his very own in solving this case of a death that is not what it appears.
Throughout, the viewer (us watching the movie) gets to see how things proceed and how they unfold with another sweet piece of entertainment that develops in the storyline with the supposedly deceased character.
What angered me about the film was how the wife had such a faithful, loving husband, who cared about her and thoroughly provided for her regardless of her snooty attitude toward him at times. He treated her like a princess- in return she sets him up to get killed. She was ruthless throughout the story.
It is just a reminder of how dirty people can be just like Patrick Swayze’s character in the movie “Ghost” was set up by someone who was supposed to be his friend to get robbed then all went wrong resulting in his murder.
The thing I appreciated about “Impact” was the killer got what he deserved not realizing he was unsuccessful within his intended fatal venture.
I was told twice yesterday by a mature (ninety-five year old) woman of experience that because of the way I look physically, and the way that I carry myself, I should be in movies.
This is not the first time I have been told these words and similar ones alike.
As a teen and young adult, some people would ask me if I was a model and would tell me that I could be one.
Another person told me they saw me as a movie actress type who was supposed to be writing screenplays.
Aside from other things, I could have been a lawyer or a psychologist if I had really wanted and chose to. I have both the smarts and the mindset.
The fact is, I never wanted a life in Hollywood to be broadcast on television, or to be photographed for magazines walking down the runway.
I never had the desire to be a legal representative or mental health specialist either.
Though many of us are qualified or can do or become professionals in more than one area, it does not mean this is a preferred career or path to seek.
Jobs and job labels do not define us as individuals.
Even though there are narrow-minded misinformed people who believe the higher the title or higher the income, the higher the stature.
Someone who does not have a job or who has a job that is considered low rank in comparison to high-level/high-profile jobs can have far more integrity, intelligence, ability than the one touting their so-called credentials.
They may have just not gotten the right opportunity, could have fallen into hard times, did not believe enough within themselves or did not have any support.
There are several reasons and factors for why those who could achieve great heights do not.
A lot of people who are in positions of power or who hold positions that are praised within society are not as adequate as they think they are or would like to believe.
Many of them are nothing but shit! They are as common as they come- there is nothing special about their existence.
Novel within character and mindset unlike the ordinary are what define true standing within its authenticity.
We all have our ups and downs here and there depending on what each of us individuals consider or define as minor or major bumps in the road of our journey here on earth.
But for the most part life has treated me kindly. I have been fortunate in many areas of travel throughout the interesting ride of this physical plane.
I have noticed since my early youth that if there was something in life that I did not want then the circumstance was not going to work out for the best- or at all.
I cannot have anyone, or any situation persuaded, or forced upon me.
I am too headstrong to be influenced by what others may try to impose on me.
When things in life I desired were granted to me or attained by my own accomplishing the circumstance always worked out favorably with long-lasting rewards.
I determine my happiness not what other people define what happiness is according to their standards or perception of what meets the requirements of a happy or content life condition.
Only I know the true source and components needed to define the attributes of my own fulfillment.
From my observations throughout the years there are so-called Christians and others alike who believe if something is not written or mentioned within the Bible then the instance is unlikely to be true or not possible- which I know for fact has never been the truth.
Something does not have to be in the Bible for it to be truthful or possible.
Everything not written in the Bible that can occur is also not always devil inspired or people inspired either.
There is credibility to many situations, circumstances, encounters that were experiences not directly included as taken place in the Bible.
Some people are stuck in their limited scope of reasoning, narrow-mindedness, ignorance, brainwashing, or influences brought on by society.
That is why it is so important to be strong-minded and confident within one’s own.
Knowing while certain others may not share an experience or a belief in no way will make another’s experience or belief less probable. There is a great possibility for their undergoing to be a reality and able to exist.
I have always been headstrong. I do not have to go through something to believe or to know it is able to be true for someone else.
Maybe because I have that insight, nevertheless, one should never let others sway their minds or raise doubt in what they hold to know or believe firmly.
Of course, we as people are liable to hold onto false or erroneous ways of being.
Anyone can misinterpret or be mistaken about things it is when they fail to accept their error once they have discovered or have been proven to be wrong in some way.
This past Sunday on January 22, 2023, I was looking through the category log of my television app.
I was in the mood to look at classic suspense/crime/mystery films for the day.
I came across a title called “Witness to Murder (a film I had never seen before) starring one of my favorite old-time actresses- Barbara Stanwyck.
I really liked this black and white movie.
In the opening scene, Barbara’s character wakes up from her sleep to see a man in an apartment window straight across from her bedroom window in the act of murdering a woman.
Without giving too much of the story away, Barbara phones up the police but when they arrive on the scene there is no evidence of any crime having been committed.
When the killer discovers that Barbara’s character is aware of what he did, he cunningly tries his best to make her appear to be crazy and harassing, in effort to throw everybody off to the truth at hand.
Barbara Stanwyck was such a talent in her time here on earth.
One of my other favorite suspense films of hers is one that I saw a long time ago called “Sorry, Wrong Number“.
Afterwards, I watched another film that I never saw starring Barbara Stanwyck titled “Crime of Passion”. Raymond Burr also starred in this entertaining flick.
I stopped celebrating Christmas, Thanksgiving, and even my birthday when I was twelve years of age.
My reason for doing so had absolutely nothing to do with any religious belief or outside influence, they were done purely out of personal feelings and rationalizations.
Many events in this society are commercialized or set within following traditions.
I have always been an unconventional individual, doing and behaving on my own terms according to my own nature and distinct mindset.
I do not, never have, and never will let society dictate what my values should be, how I conduct myself, or how I live my life.
I am not one to just go along with the program.
I still can and do, of course, acknowledge and respect the celebration of holidays and birthdays regarding others as I send out and accept cards or gifts from those who matter or who show kindness.
The thing is, I do not need one day out of a year to express love, the existence of life, appreciation for things, or the beauty of togetherness with those near and dear.
I send out cards, have given gifts, shown gratitude and spent meaningful time with loved ones as an ongoing periodic all year around basis.
To me, every day is a day to be grateful, to celebrate life, to share moments with those we love or care for, and so on.
I am not inspired by tradition because tradition does not inspire who I am.
The true meaning of Christmas itself is to celebrate the birth and life of Jesus Christ, but there is nothing wrong with attributing this day with merriment and gift-giving.
Still and all, the most precious gifts in life cannot be bought or sold wrapped up and used to eventually be thrown away. Some material possessions do last a lifetime, but people and connected relationships last forever.
The best gifts on earth we have are each other (the one or ones that you love and who sincerely love you whether it is a pet, a genuine friend, or a treasured family member.)
Whether one believes this or not, even if there is no one in your corner, all one truly needs is God as he will provide and secure your future as well as maintain your strength and character.
When we accept Jesus, we receive the most significant (vital) gift of all- eternity.
I am a very honest, straightforward person. If I say or write something it is because it is the truth, what I really think or believe, or suspect is possible.
Never do I or have I ever intentionally expressed anything under false pretense.
Some people may not understand what I mean or where I come from at times- depending on who it is- because I am a very deep, intelligent, and spiritual awake person.
Nevertheless, I speak my mind and am led by spirit to fulfill my purposes. I do know what I am talking about when I speak on things.
I am a forty-seven-year-old female who often gets mistaken for someone in her twenties or thirties. I have never really looked my age in body or in the face.
I even have a young sounding voice when I speak.
I have attracted men of all ages- young and old within the past.
When I was in my thirties eighteen-year-old guys were attracted to me, when I was in my twenties forty and fifty-year-old men were attracted to me.
It never made a difference. To each his or her own I never received any personal gratification from this attention I never wanted it.
Some men found me to be a challenge that they wanted to conquer. Some men just genuinely wanted to be with me because they liked me for my mind, and I was not like the average female once they got to know me a little.
I never placed value on myself based on whether a man approved or desired me. I have never suffered from low self-esteem and have never needed anyone to validate me or to build my assurance.
Self- confidence, self-love, and self-worth are things produced within me. No one gave it to me, and no one can take it away. Everyone should feel this way.
I have no interest in romantic relationships, I am asexual and proud.
Now I want to discuss this issue about Michael Gonzalez because I am being led to by spirit.
As I am a highly spiritually inclined individual I feel and keenly discern people’s energy.
Whenever a man, especially men who are of a negative disposition are attracted, or interested in me- I can feel them, their thoughts, and I can accurately sense things in relation to them in a timely frame.
Michael is an ex-coworker of mine who had, and who still has a “crush” on me. It is nothing serious, but it is annoying.
From the first moment I laid eyes on Michael, I did not find him to be attractive.
He is not a cute guy, and he is not handsome as far as I am concerned. A friend of mine had saw a photo of him and said that he was not attractive to her also but that he seems to think that he is something. Maybe there are low-scale females who find him attractive, however, I do not and never will.
I was very insulted when Michael reflected his insecurities onto me while we worked together by entertaining the ridiculous idea that I could be attracted or interested in him.
I told Michael to his face that I could not stand him, but his inflated ego did not want to believe or accept it even though deep down inside he knew it was the truth.
He even profiled in front of me one day on the job by trying to show off his body that was not appealing to me whatsoever. He got down onto the floor to demonstrate push-ups. The incident turned me off.
The more I had got to know Michael the more I disliked him.
When some men try to impress women, push themselves on them, or try to flaunt themselves when they mistakenly assume that the female likes them, they do not realize how much they make a fool of themselves. It is very off-putting.
When I was younger there were guys (usually low-scale guys because guys of substance do not behave in this manner) who would get angry at me for not wanting them and in return tell lies about me.
There were three who were a problem.
Two lied and said I was involved with them and all three wanted people to believe that I slept with them or had feelings for them- all to make themselves appear big in the eyes of their peers. And, to also try to bring me down since I thought too highly of myself to desire or to be with anyone like them.
Neither one of these guys were desirable they were used to low-scale women such as themselves falling all over them and making a fuss over them due to their own bouts of low self-esteem.
Someone like me, who was of substance and class, added an extra blow to the bruise they received to their egos when they got hurt and rejected by me.
Of course, their efforts did not work so they joined in with the effort to work Brujeria (Black magic/Santeria) on me to try to make me look bad within the public eye, however, I was still too strong, and I successfully defeated all of them at their own game. On top of it, karma came back and destroyed all three of them. One even ended up dead years ago from his negative lifestyle.
No one can bring me down as I never cared what anybody said or thought about me.
I did not have time for that type of bullshit then, and I do not tolerate it now.
Michael is not at all drastic to that extreme his nonsense is mild in comparison, yet still an act of ridiculous nonsense.
With all the serious things going on in the world Michael is hung up on the fact that he cannot attain me.
He would rather believe that I really do have feelings for him and am just fighting it, or that I am playing hard to get, or whatever other delusional bullshit that men feed themselves instead of facing the truth over dealing with reality.
Michael needs to forget about me and realize that a woman of my level and caliber would never be interested or attracted to him.
Michael has a lot of negative energy. He has a very low vibration.
I am a positive person I exude from a very high vibration.
What I also believe is a part of Michael’s insecurities stem from his background of being morbidly obese.
Maybe after he lost weight, he feels he needs something to prove and is overcompensating.
He needs women to be interested or attracted to him to feel like a big man. I just wish he would find some other female to win over to measure or to prove his false sense of pride.
The other women he has been with are easy tramps. He feels if he can get me then he can get anybody. I should in a way take this instance as a compliment, but I am not flattered by it, I am disgusted.
To me, Michael will always be a small, unworthy, pretentious smelly fish swimming in a dirty pond.
I am not trying to be mean I just do not understand the sickness behind and within certain men and women (because there are deceitful, trouble-making women too) who cannot deal with rejection.
A healthy-minded person does not occupy themself with stupid shit like this.
In 1986 a man was going door to door on the block of my neighborhood looking for potential customers for the cable TV service that he worked for or represented.
I was ten or eleven at the time, excited at the chance to have the opportunity to watch a selection of cable channels as I was a huge young movie and television buff back then.
I called out to my mother after answering the door. She came downstairs and we both listened to his pitch.
The representative showed us a brochure of the service he promoted, offering us a choice of bundles along with prices.
My mother decided to purchase a cable plan.
The name of the service was BQ Cable- which stood for Brooklyn and Queens.
Later in the years- I do not remember exactly what year- BQ Cable was called Time Warner Cable.
Then later, after further years, to the current, the name of the service was changed to Spectrum Cable.
This instance reminds me of two other establishments from the past to the present.
When I was a little girl there was a bank titled Manufacturer Hanover.
This bank was later changed to Chemical Bank which now is called Chase.
There was also a telephone company called New York Telephone that eventually changed to NYNEX.
Afterwards, NYNEX became Bell Atlantic which is now called Verizon.
I know all this history for a fact because I and my family were with these companies (long time customers from the beginning) through their entire change of ownership and whatever else took place when these establishments expanded or advanced.
I remember in my early twenties when a guy from the old neighborhood I grew up in came up behind me in the 1990’s and uttered, “You love animals more than you love people”.
This was after news had gotten back to him that I had told a small crowd of guys on a street corner one night how ugly they were.
These guys used to act silly and harass me because I would not date them, so I had to put them in check.
Anyhow, the guy who came up behind me heard about the incident and called me a bitch.
If anything, I took “bitch” as a compliment even though he meant it as an insult. I was never the average type of female anyhow. I was very unique in many aspects.
When this guy saw that I did not respond to the word bitch, he knew the reason was because I did not care.
So, the next time he approached me it was about the regard I had for animals, as he would observe the moments, he saw me share in the neighborhood with my dogs.
He was correct. In general, I did care for animals (canines) more than I cared for people- and with good reason!
My two favorite individuals in the entire world were my mother and one of my dogs named Brandie.
Dogs are easier to like or love than most people. I am one who did not love easily to begin with, as I know the true definition of love.
Love in any instance should and has to come naturally.
There is a circle of few I call and who are true friends. There are even people around me who are good and trustworthy.
However, my mother and my dog are the ones who knew me best and who I both consider my friends for life from here on earth to beyond.
There was a ridiculous double standard I used to hear when I was growing up, one that I knew definitely was not true because I myself naturally did not hold this particular stance.
I used to hear how, when it came to intercourse, how, for females, it would take emotion to be involved for her to become engaged, or that, after a sexual encounter, she would become emotionally attached.
Such a bunch of sexists, insulting nonsense!
I am not saying to hop around for the hell of it for those who burn with lust or the occasional desire for some to have sex, or to have sex for the sole purpose of having a child- as I once considered just using a man to conceive a baby many years ago without any commitment or affection on my part.
What I am saying as a fact is that for a “Virgin” or a woman who is constantly sexually active, or that has been sexually active not too often, she does not necessarily have to have any interest at all in a particular man for her to be able to have sex with him.
It does not mean that she cares for him, and it definitely does not mean that she has any love for him.
Sex and love have nothing to do with one another. They are both two separate things.
Women can have sex with men without having any type of attraction or feelings for them- and without any guilt.
I definitely know this all for a fact.
Some men may not have understood or wanted to have accepted this reality because they were always stereotypically viewed as the ones who primarily used women to get what they wanted. So, it was too much of a bruise to the ego.
Truth is, as it is more out in the open these days- though there are still some with ignorant concepts- it works both ways.
There are men who become emotionally attached through sex whereas others do not, and vice-versa with certain women.
Some men or women do have to have feelings for someone before they go to bed with them.
A woman who has sex with a man who she does not love or care for does not make her a whore either, because there are many different types of circumstances that take place within situations.
Men who are whorish do not normally get called the undesirable whores that they truly are by the majority of society.
There are married couples without love within a marriage. To each his or her own.
Yes, when it comes to God, he intended for intercourse to be between couples tied together through wedlock. Anything outside of this is wrong or immoral to God. He also intended true consideration and dedication to each other. That is why marriage was not to be entered into lightly.
However, we all have our own free-will, gifts, and characteristics.
Some of us are asexual and are completely not into sex. Asexuality is not a sin. Some of us do not want to ever get married. Some want a loving, faithful, life-long relationship. Some just want to run around or have sex without strings attached.
There are possible consequences to actions sometimes, such as venereal disease, crazy people with fatal attractions, violent confrontations over cheating, unwanted pregnancies.
Some of these incidents even take place with married couples.
This is a crazy-mixed up world.
I, as a woman, personally wished that there was no such thing as sexual intercourse and that, as a woman, I would be able to conceive a child naturally on my own if I ever decided to (although I did not or would not want any children at this time in my life- but if I ever had a long time ago). I feel I should not have to share my vagina with anyone, and I know I did not ever have to, my vagina belongs to me.
A little note: There is an actual fish in creation that is by nature able to conceive offspring on its own without the fertilization from a male counterpart.
"My Voice" Weblog By Miss LaToya Lawrence 