I’m glad I’m not of some narcissistic energy that constantly needs to be praised and acknowledged and who threatens those to damnation for not agreeing and adhering to circumstances that I don’t relate to, that don’t apply to me, and that don’t have anything to do with my sensible way, thought process, spiritual rotation, and so on.
I fortunately have the essence of “good light” and “energy” around me that allows and that inspires truth, love, peace, happiness, wisdom, knowledge, blessings, strength, confidence, talent, protection and the self individuality within my own authentic disposition as I am one within the essence.
It feels so good to be free. I never let anything rule me. I live a nice quiet life, I eat healthy and take care of myself, I have great spirituality, and I am blessed with great peace of mind.
I have always lived this way and I have no deep past regrets within my life.
I guess what I’m pleasantly guilty of is being extremely stubborn and set in my natural unconventional fashions.
The only thing I regret is being born into this physical realm, I deserve to be in a much better place than this twisted world, this forbidden place is beneath me.
When I was a kid I knew I didn’t belong here.
As one born with a caul I always knew things and felt things, even truths that may be considered controversial, nevertheless I didn’t care because hidden knowledge wasn’t a revelation for everyone or just anyone to know and to grasp.
I often wondered and couldn’t understand why trash we’re created and given life the instance never made any sense to me.
As a child I didn’t at all like or connect with those kinds of people within any way, I’d constantly get negative and intuitive feelings about them that would always pan out to be right or true, they were always prone to incite trouble, conflict, and disharmony as their nature and mentality was quite undesirable, and insufficient.
Many if not the majority of their type was very disturbed and ignorant in the mind even at a very young age because they are intrisnically born sick.
They also have a look about them, a way and mannerism about them, a vocal sound about them, characteristics that just don’t appeal or that don’t sit well.
There are certain people who will say that regardless they’re still one of God’s children, and that is another thing that never sat too well with me, because if God designed and put them here on the earth the instance is just another of the many numerous circumstances and factors in which goes to show and prove that there is something not at all right about god either.
One of the reasons they exist is because God uses them to carry out unwanted and unwarranted burdens of an unnatural essence upon the unconventional.
I’m not specifically referring to black magic/voodoo/witchcraft when I mention “unnatural” I am speaking in all terms of what goes against one’s own nature, propensity, or state of being just to please and appease an individual or entity who seems within a position to reign, or who wants to control.
Trash are weak-minded, easily influenced people, susceptible to be brainwashed, and who are ready and willing to accept what they perceive as a general higher authority in relation to God and/or to societal government without raising question or opposition.
They are on a certain mental level for a reason.
A low level where they are unable to come up from to decipher and to analyze from a genuinely higher intellectual or spiritual consciousness.
People who are “nothing” inspire to bring down people who are “something” with views, opinions, jealousies, and a lack of knowledge incorporated into their own limited outlooks, and limited scope into existence.
They are average low-life individuals who envy and oppose the free will and knowledge of distinctive individuals who are above them.
They in turn use their god to justify what they consider immoral or wrong in a distorted version to their own deception and misconception into the origin of who they innately are.
Others who are firm and concrete within the genuine validity of where they’re originally derived from cannot, and will not, be swayed by any means of detract, whether the intent is to minimize or to diminish the effectiveness, value or importance of someone, or to divert one altogether.
God will go to great lengths to use those who were born trash, and will turn others into trash just to get to them, or someone close to them, to manipulate and weaken them into incorporating his commands by psychological or spiritual harassment.
This technique has never worked on me as I am too strong within who I am and what I’m genuinely in correlation to within my own innate means.
No one could ever stop me from being the person who I am or from doing whatever it was that I wanted to do.
These are lies of demonized souls, go far back as far as you can remember. The first time you felt abandoned or abused whether physically or mentally or sexually. The door was open from that day forward. You see I was just like you even suicidal, literally would negotiate with a voice telling me you’ll never see heaven you already love every day in sin (addicted to pain killers) so if you were to die and kill your self you would go to hell as you would go to hell anyways by the judgment of your sins according to your God! I cried I cut I screamed and then I remembered my dad took me and my brother to church Very young and we went up to the alter with our dad and accept Jesus as our lord and savior. I never knew exactly what I did but I knew I was more Of a threat because of it. The difference between a child of God that has a seed from a young age vs a new age follower or atheist is that the one who was brought up in a Christian home has been to church before has heard the word of God is a threat to the devil because gods word says in (Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.) you see I may not change your mind about God I’ve yelled at God when people I loved died I cursed God for allowing me to get beat my child’s father I was so mad but I still felt like who else do I have. My parents both live their lives and I had it rough growing up from being molested to watching my dad beat my mother while she never fought back and beat on us and because of my father I became so defensive always fighting and protecting the weaker individuals who I saw bullied. But if my mom or dad couldn’t do right by us as children. My dad the same man who hit me and my brother and mom took me to the living god and he placed a seed that seed is in certain chosen people. Jesus said if they hate me they’ll hate you too if the crucified me they will do it you because of ME. Jesus said but be of good cheer I have overcome the world. The devil the demons Satan comes against us threw other people who have been deceived who listened to the suggestions that God did this and its his fault. This whole world is ruled by demons look at the president! I’m not perfect I sin and I may sin again tomorrow I may say the same prayer god forgive you know how it goes but Jesus does because he knew god knew we will never ever be holy we will never get it right! If Jesus came to preach the word right now in this generation he would chose his disciples and they would be former pimps former murders former thief’s former gang members former homeless people former drug dealers and homosexuals. He never would ride around with the people of the church the holy traditional church and hypocrites. He would save the ones from what we see as the worst people he says these people are the first in the kingdom of heaven because basically people like them need more love and god sees the heart and he sees the soul has authority to cast out demons of torment of perversion, abuse and immortality etc. before you click off maybe you already did just give him a chance crawl to him say a few words and then next time maybe stand up to him say a few more words and if you ever feel like nothing is working with the new age practices you still can’t find peace you can’t find healing then run to god surrender in private take baby steps god know we can’t just change over night he knows we will never get it right. He’s not a god of suffering because the Old Testament was of the way the first living people of the world had to be obedient and this why god sent Jesus Christ his word says behold i make all things new. The new commandment I give you is to love each other. If I can suggest maybe listening to deliverance prayers on YouTube with head phones and water. Baby steps pray in private goodnight