What Is The Problem?

 

A lady called into the radio station that my mother and I frequently listen to early this morning. I was asleep. My mother told me about it when I awoke. The lady was distressed and not able to cope, she was so upset the broadcasters couldn’t understand the majority of her words as she expressed her worries, and concerns.

There are people who are unable to handle or deal with the alterations within daily living due to the Covid-19 virus.

In all honesty, what is there really to handle? The circumstances have not actually reduced the quality of life. This situation is all about perception. In particular aspects, the occurrences going on within life now is better than what was taking place before.

I genuinely like the way things are at this current time and I’m definitely not alone within my feelings I am just one who is not afraid to admit to it.

 

Don’t get me wrong in terms of the devastation in which this pandemic has brought on with creating the loss of jobs, financial problems, and early deaths among the masses of people who have been affected by these happenings.

Our world and society have always been plagued by moments of periodic crisis and the spread of disease. This is not the first of events and it won’t be the last to come.

Aside from that, if anything there is to freak out about is those darn suffocating masks that we mandatorily have to wear.

Shit, if anything one shouldn’t be able to handle is constantly not being able to breathe on the regular, not the rest of what should be considered as pleasant beneficial life ajustments.

Comfortable Living

Today the weather is cloudy, rainy and cool. Such a quick change yet nothing out of the ordinary.

The weather was sunny and warm yesterday I went and shopped as I was finally able to buy a few bottles of rubbing alcohol from one of my favorite retail outlets. I also picked up another package of medical/surgical masks at my local discount store before I headed on to buy food/groceries.

Last week I noticed certain stores opening back up and shelves replenished with items that had been vacant for weeks at stores that had remained opened.

My family and I have everything we need, though, I still go pick up extra preferred things that we may get low on from time to time. Things should be easier to come by now that a lot of people have run out of money in which they irresponsibly exhausted from over-buying and over-spending.

I was able to get my hands on in-demand supplies a month ago because I travel to various places to get my quality products.

This pandemic has not stopped us at all from living comfortable or peaceful. There may be crisis within the world but there is no crisis within our heart and home. 

My Wednesday Words Of Wisdom: Older Is Not Always Wiser

Those who say or believe that wisdom only comes with age are those who have purely aged without true wisdom– Miss Latoya Lawrence.

When I was much younger, I had a lot on the cap and no older person was able to get over on me. Not ever!

An older person can learn things from a younger person and a younger person can learn things from an older person. Just because one is older does not make them wiser than one who is younger and this is a fact that I’ve known through experience.

I use to hate when certain people who were older than me would generalize my particular situations on account of what may have been common within society or within what had happened with or to them and others in regard to their own set of circumstances. They didn’t know what they were talking about within their opinions or point of views and had made a lot of preconceived notions in which had absolutely nothing to do with my actual situation or way of thinking.

Many people reflect their own issues, flaws, insecurities, and/or lack of knowledge in particular areas onto others. Many also don’t want to admit they’re wrong in judging what they misperceive, speculate and really know nothing about or are not too accustomed to when it comes to the diversity of character within individuals.

A lot of youngsters have had this problem with older people. Sometimes it just boils down to many older people not being on the level.  Nevertheless, those who are not on the level is not an age-related element, there are young people, of course, who are just as clueless.

Some older people have a tendency to get angry at younger people who refuse to listen to them even if the younger person is right and they are wrong; the older person through disdain becomes critical.

It’s important for younger people to hold their own when they are correct within their facts and reasonable convictions because a lot of impressionable/easily influenced younger people as well as certain older people themselves get misdirected by the misinformation or ill-intention of those who believe they know all that there is to know about life, people and occurrence.

I’m about to turn 45 years old and have never based knowledge solely on age because I always knew better, especially with having ESP (extrasensory perception). Just like I wrote in this post a while ago (https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2018/12/20/spiritual-growth-and-wisdominspiration-for-the-youth/) here is an excerpt:

One can be young and very wise and one can be old and very foolish, especially when they refuse to accept that it is not always the age of a person that serves as the determining factor.

It is about what we’ve been through, the experiences we may have encountered, the inherent skills that could have been imparted to us by birth that bring to us our own set of knowledge and wisdom and that can come at any age for some.

Our lives are a journey of various and numerous roads through pathways of travel and we never stop learning as there is always more to uncover and discover.

There are a lot of moronic and narrow-minded older people and younger people out within the world, and there are a lot of logical and open-minded older and younger people out within the world.

To me, it’s refreshing and an expansion to learn and experience things one may have never heard of, not been used to, or that is an awakening to if the development is of an interest or connection to one.

 

Cozy Night At Home Enjoying A Classic

We have such a peaceful home and a nice, quiet life.

Last night at 8pm my mother and I watched the 1976 Stephen King classic thriller “Carrie” on Showtime.

We hadn’t seen the film in a while (even though we’ve seen it numerous times in the distant past through out the years) and we both reflected on the movie and agreed that it was such a great film. They just don’t make genuine quality horror films like that anymore.

Race With The Devil” was another great 1975 classic horror movie and one that was underrated, it is also an all time favorite of mine.

My mother and I were always fierce hanging partners. When I was a little girl she use to take me to the movie theater to see just about everything I wanted to see. We have a great relationship and still enjoy our entertainment together.

Months back on HBO we watched the last installment of Halloween (2018) with Jamie Lee Curtis who had made her return. It was a very good horror flick, not corny at all!

Medical/Surgical Masks

I made an early start out yesterday and couldn’t wait to get back home to rid myself of the mask that I had on.

Those surgical masks are annoying to constantly wear all day; they draw up heat and they are difficult to breath within.

However, we should still wear them outdoors as a precautionary measure.

 

An Indulgence

I had a lovely hot shower earlier today. The water felt so good beating down on my head as I washed my hair within the process.

A shower is very therapeutic and relaxing and I always sleep even better after taking one.

Once I got dressed and ready, I went out to run a few errands. The weather was kind of nice but I still dress warm for the meanwhile. It’s not the time yet to go without a jacket or a sweater; this weather is not dependable.

When I returned back home, I snacked on some chips and granola bars. Yesterday I made two delicious non dairy milkshakes, I love my milkshakes!

I usually prepare my shakes with soymilk. I love particular ice creams that are also made with soy milk, almond, or cashew milk.

Cashews are great, I love everything cashew-cashew milk, cashew ice cream, and cashew nuts!

Cashews are even high in protein and very nutritious as most nuts tend to be. It is nice to consume things that taste good and that are good for the body. I’ve been eating cashews for years; I just don’t eat them too frequently, they are quite expensive.

Vanilla and french vanilla naturally flavored non dairy ice cream blends wonderfully with cashew, almond and, of course, vanilla soy milk.

I’m in paradise when I drink those thick rich shakes!

 

Corona Phobic: Hygienic Due To The Pandemic

Excerpt from: No One Can Ever Take Away The Beauty Of Mind And Spirit

People have also told me that I speak about a lot of things that many people think and feel, and want to say but don’t. And that I write with power and passion.

I do not usually get inspiration from other sources as mainly what I write about comes from deep within and what I’ve noticed about myself and other gifted people or people of intellectual distinction who have been in my circle at one time or another is that we often know and come up with insight and solutions far before it even hits or is even accepted by mainstream society.

For instance, certain quotes that are motivational are words that we were already aware of, experiencing and living by. Spiritual, mental and physical findings that have been discovered through research we had already been conscious of and living in accordance to years ago before it had become commercial or more well known among a large group of individuals, and so on.

Even particular clothes we were wearing before they became one of the most popular name brand items.

The thing about it is that when those who are not on the level and are only able to perceive from within the boundaries of their own limited outlook when they first hear the variety of wisdom, information and solutions as it comes from us they are quick to judge or call us crazy because we are so ahead of them within our keen sense of knowledge and comprehension yet when they as slow learners finally do get the messages they then develop and acquire a philosophy or mode of life and further understanding that results in possible expansions for those who choose and are able to grow. Read more here


I remember when I could walk into any store that sold household cleaning products and easily find bleach or Lysol without a problem-forget about rubbing alcohol!

Now these necessities are scarce to come into contact with at the same time revealing a tell-tale sign of many people’s behavioral habits and hygienic practices far prior.

Before all of this Corona Virus scare that has petrified the masses I was already living and doing what is being instructed to do in regard to social distancing, “germaphobia”, and even further.

When I’d get on the bus I rarely sat in the seats and I hated when passengers would come too close or rub up against my clothing. I’d never touch outside or even indoor things without a paper towel or other material to push elevator buttons, turn doorknobs, hold onto transportation poles (buses and trains).

At certain jobs I’d wear gloves and put my jackets in a clean plastic bag instead of laying them down or hanging them up around other people’s belongings.

I wouldn’t sit down on other people’s furniture unless I placed something under my derriere (plastic bag, towel, disposable chuck).

I cleaned my cell phone with alcohol or disinfectant wipes every day before I went out and never held the phone against my ears. When I used phones that were located within establishments, I’d wrap tissue or paper towel around the receiver to protect my ears.

I even cleaned dollars bills once in a while years ago. I never put any money bare into my pockets as money is the filthiest thing to carry around. I always wrap money in protective material. I’d sometimes just wear gloves too for use with money and handling outside activities.

I never let anyone kiss or hug me; I never eat after anybody and so on, and I was doing all of these things since I was a teenager!

Certain people would laugh at me and call me ridiculous, especially because of the way I constantly washed my hands sometimes.

Now many average people have adopted this way of life and I laugh in general because they’re doing it all primarily out of fear while I did and still do it out of instinct, even if it may seem extreme. I’m sure there were others out there in the world just like me already doing our natural precautious habits regardless of how others may have reacted toward us.

It’s funny when those of us that are ahead of our time mind-wise and/or spiritually get ridiculed until it comes out just how on point, we actually we’re from the beginning with seeing, knowing, and understanding what others couldn’t decipher.

It is deep how some people have to be driven to extreme fear before waking up and realizing particular things.

Many didn’t even know what bleach was before Corona Virus reared its lethal head. Those of us who used bleach and other sufficient products on the regular now have to hunt these items down just to use them normally.

Luckily, I was able to get some bleach at a Walgreen’s, however, rubbing alcohol is still out of reach and I refuse to pay $13.00 to $20.00 for large bottles of unknown brand alcohol at a local beauty supply store. I just bought witch hazel instead to routinely clean my ears and to soothe the body when needed.

I bet when this Corona Virus is all over and forgotten about many will go back to their old nasty, germy ways.

Homework

When I began class a while back there were also online academic tasks assigned to us students for additional study in which I took advantage of and enjoyed. Now that school was temporarily cancelled due to the circumstances befalling the world right now (Corona Virus) the available online courses are primary.

I find it a very serviceable resource to be able to utilize my studies within the comforts of home for limitless periods of time any day of the week just as long as the educational instrument is being implemented.

My teacher had phoned me and other classmates last month notifying us of a possible further online study program, I haven’t heard anything from her since. I ran into a girl who attends my class a week ago and she asked me if I know when school is going to start back up because she misses the class. We did have a wonderful environmental setting, good teacher, and sufficient preparation.

I told her that originally the teacher had informed to me back in March that we may resume about the third week of April, however, apparently after listening to governor Cuomo address that New York will not be opening up currently or any time soon, I logically assume that our attending school will be put on hold a little while longer until health risks are at a significant or absolute low.

In the meantime, I have no worries or complaints and treasure this period as a sign that has demonstrated to me luck and a transition into supplementary better things to come as one “spiritually connected/in tune”.

 

 

Nice Spring Day

 

I was supposed to work this weekend, but there was a change of plans (the universe protecting me), so I went out earlier today to pay my cable bill (by mail) and to do some grocery shopping.

I do what I have to essentially and healthily do as usual, and then I go on back home to relax.

The weather was completely gorgeous!

 

 

 

Keep The Faith And The Faith Will Keep You

 

This social distancing isn’t really any sort of inconvenience for me considering the fact that I was already living within those similar circumstances as far as keeping to myself and being precautionarily hygienic.

This Corona virus shit doesn’t scare me one bit; it doesn’t at all stop me from wanting to go out to work or to take care of my business. At the same time, I would never want to pose any possible risk toward any of my loved ones, yet I’m just not personally nervous or fearful about this current global situation. It has no impact on what’s going on in my life.

Everything is still normal for me at this worldly time of challenge. As a spiritual person I am here within physical form, of course, but not of or affected by any of it.

This is going on; the situation is here, it’s happening for a reason; it is tragic for some, it is a spiritual message and epiphany for some, and it is also a moment of hold up for some.

No matter whatever is gained or loss from this it will all surely come to pass in due time. Meanwhile, I continue to keep aware, and I continue to keep naturally pushing on.

A Caul Destiny That Won’t Be Denied

Things are going my way. The universe harkens unto my voice. I live in my truth and my way harkens unto the intangible dimensions within my connection to the universe. The destiny that was designed for me, and the destiny I design, are both intertwined, and as they are both within harmony, they will not be denied.

Whereas there are a lot of good people in the world there are also plenty of negative and mediocre people inhabiting the planet and when no good people find out that they cannot use you and abuse you they do whatever it is within their power to refuse you the opportunities in which you are entitled to.

However, is not up to them or entirely in their hands to decide how far we go within life, or within our careers so to speak. It is just we live in a society governed and controlled by some people who are corrupt, and by some who are not on a certain “elevated” level and wavelength, or both.

The power is within the universe to ultimately decide, and the energy is dispelled unto not only those who are spiritually receptive, but to who it is also celestially intended.

As a spiritual person, life has consistently went better for me than the average life has went for others.

I was always meant to be successful and I have succeeded within many fashions and aspects of my life.

There are and have constantly been people, nevertheless, who’ve tried and who still take part in earnestly attempting to hold me back at reaching my highest peaks of deserved financial success.

I’ve worked jobs that I didn’t really want to do, or that I had no genuine interest in just to steadily gain a stable income to allow me to pay my bills, and to maintain the lifestyle that I frequently enjoy.

I was always able to make a good volume of money but they don’t want me to further delight in what they will never be able to have.

There is nothing they can do to stop who I am, what I’m capable of doing or achieving, or the things I was born to accomplish, they have only been able to delay certain events from taking place at a sooner period.

The time they stole and continue to steal, for the time being, until my optimum time finally arrives, is the extra time they’ll spend burning relentlessly within the lower depths of hell once they arrive to their inevitable and eternal destination. They have to suffer here, though, before they go, and a tough lesson beforehand they surely will learn.

I don’t follow the ways of the world because the world has absolutely nothing to do with me, I follow my own individual nature, preferences, and inclinations.

I have always definitely known how to live and to survive in this world, yet I am nothing of this world, and I never will be, and I am very proud of this actual fact.

Bad Intentions

People getting mad and destructive through the cellestial bestowments directed out from the great universe.

Unfortunately desiring to harm other individuals because they are blessed in ways that they aren’t – Miss LaToya

I never understood why certain individuals who were of a lower intellect and character, tried to dominate and degrade, those who were of a higher level and caliber.

It happened all the time among specific type of people who considered themselves to be up to par, yet were actually not.

The ones who’d get downgraded and downplayed were the true definition of genuine sunstance, and quality.

Imitators who aspired to duplicate within their own facades, often hunted deep to find fault within those who were just living normally, often creating a barrage of unwarranted attacks, in a mere attempt to completely subdue one.

Strange how relentless people are, and how far many of them will go, due to their own  unfathomable resentment toward the favorable advantage naturally granted upon certain others.

Late Night Entertainment

I spent last weekend catching up on and enjoying my favorite television programs and entertaining movies. I stayed up almost all night. I retired when nothing else was on that interested me.

Then, there was a night in which I had various sets of great programs lined up for me to watch yet I was too tired to view them all. I tried my best, however, sleep creeped upon me and I had to go to bed.

Last night, I was at it again, starting off my weekend ready for more television.

After watching an action packed crime show, and a old 1980’s two episode comedy show, I viewed the old classic Alfred Hitchcock flick Dial M For Murder. I had actually never seen that movie even though I have been aware of it for years through advertisements. It was such a great film, but most of Hitchcock’s presentations are anyway.

Mother, And I

My mother and I went out and had a wonderful time today as we always enjoy one another’s company.

We don’t allow outside influence to interfere within our contentment we have no tolerance for anyone’s negativity.

No one can turn us against each other under no circumstance. I am her daughter, she is my mother, what kind of obnoxious and outrageous shit is that?

Those who have no bond of loyalty and love between a relative, or relatives, hate to see others experience the joy and beauty of authentic unity.

We have a pleasant life, we have great peace of mind, and we are truly happy inside, especially not having any undesirable people around us.

We only accept those flying on an exceptional vibe, full of positive energy, and no bullshit!

 

Life

My life continues to run smooth. I am at a place of constant alignment.

My peace of mind never wavers, and my natural spirited attitude stays in tact, not ever being swayed away by any occurrence.

Environment and surroundings are so very important, however, when one has a deep personal fulfillment stored from inside it doesn’t matter what atmosphere we’re caught up in, pleasurable internal conditions sail us throughout each specific area, and position.

I genuinely have a deep peace of mind, fulfillment, and happiness, rooted from within.

No matter what goes on around me I am undisturbed and unaffected by it.

A lot of individuals are not truly content in their lives for personal or professional reasons of their very own. I always felt success and achievement meant different things to different people, and depended upon an individual definition of whatever the accomplishments meant to them, and unto their own fulfillment.

My contentment never centered around other people, marriage, or having children.

My happiness centered around well-being, healthy living for the mind, body, and spirit, something which inspired me all throughout my life from my early days, and what has kept me motivated till this day.

The results have been satisfactory.

I’m glad I don’t associate myself within the company of those whom I have no desire to be around, I’m glad I never wanted to get married, and I’m glad I don’t have any children. I am complete within my personal self.

Professionally I’ve done very well.

I had interactions with employers who’ve tried to take advantage of me because I was a good worker, and certain coworkers who were envious of my self confidence and abilities, but that’s everyday life for many.

Within career, I should be so much further ahead, yet I don’t really care. I am more concerned and delighted in the person who I am, and how I lived my life. That is what makes me the most proud, not a job, because I know the high extent of my capabilities, whatever else is meant to be will come in due time.

Right now, I’m enjoying the rewards of the blessings in which kept me preserved and which keeps me sustained.

I feel so very lucky, and fortunate, at how spirit and the universe loved me enough to consistently respect me and my life.

 

 

 

 

Jealousy

On one of my blogs titled Working Woman, I’ve talked a bit about my mother, and the good relationship we’ve had during my childhood on up.

Ignorant adversaries, however, seem to constantly assume for some reason that if they intervene it would cause some type of uproar or inconvenience within my life.

My mother is not and has never been some crutch or resource that I need to lean on or to survive by.

I don’t understand why these idiotic degenerates continue to attempt to play on her mind through black magic. Since she’s had a history of having a breakdown they prey on what they consider her vulnerability.

The other night, I heard, as I am Clairaudient, the discussion of inciting conflict between my mother and I. Adversaries from time to time want to use her, and speak through her, in order to get to me psychology with bullshit.

These utterances are to actually come from her mouth while they manipulate her mind and emotions, and I am supposed to succumb to the ploy.

My mother does have some personal issues yet I have absolutely no attachment to that whatsoever.

When a person is sick or gets sick they are not in their original mindset, not their usual self, or thinking within their general pattern.

The circumstance has no bearing on my life, just because we have had good memories, and experiences together, doesn’t mean it’s dependent upon my present or future happiness.

Plenty of children and parents have fond recollections and get along. It doesn’t mean we are unable to separate one from the other. If discord was to arise it’s logical to move on with living a healthy life, and at a distance if necessary, all depending on the state of the relationship.

The situation is definitely not normal and I don’t understand our adversaries distorted perception of the relationship between my mother and I and how they assume it would affect my life.

Nevertheless, trying to play on one’s mental illness to perpetuate delusion is expressing the deep mental illness in which they most definitely possess themselves.

It’s all a waste of time and energy as I am ahead and unfazed.

It is really insane how they pathetically and absurdly keep this nonsense going periodically, and this very morbid attachment in which they have to me and my life that they refuse to let go of.

Well, they can sadly hang on by themselves.

 

 

Ill People, Ill World

The mind is a powerful tool when it functions correctly and within accordance to one’s own healthy nature and distinction.

It is also powerful how one’s mind works and doesn’t work, and often how one thinks and operates, which causes action or reaction to what they accurately or inaccurately conclude.

I’ve been around a lot of people with mental illness and emotional problems both personally and professionally, the ordeal hasn’t at all made me compassionate toward any of their circumstances, many of them prove to be nothing but a burden and much trouble.

It is different when I have worked in an environment with those having mental affliction as it was a job in which I got paid for and I did not have to live with them or interact with any of them on a personal level.

I don’t have the patience or tolerance for sick people.

There are many type of mental illness that effect people and that stem from drug use, psychological disorders, chemical imbalances, unreasonable mentalities and irrational ignorance, aside from some already being born sick.

There are many who do not consider themselves mentally ill since there may be others in the majority who may share their same ideas, thought patterns, habits, desires and modes of living.

Sick people and their rise into society have become so widespread and acceptable that their influence has inspired a definition of what is now the “normal”. Anything challenging or opposing this long time outrageous process is in return described as being ill or off balance.

I know as a truly well person that I have to be vigilant and careful as this world continues to change for the worse in specific matters. My common sense, logic, intelligence, and truth, will eventually just be looked upon as nonsense as more and more of those without the proper sense take over within everyday life.

Its happening in government to such an extent and within political events, slyly escorting the gifted or adroit out and welcoming the typical in.

I genuinely believe that is the plan anyway.

To get rid of the certain strong, smart, and sane individuals who have a mind of their own and who can’t be manipulated or controlled to cater to the more susceptible and ordinary who can easily be persuaded.

A lot of weak people give in, and some just play along, I refuse to give in or to play along. I am not intimidated by the backlash for holding my own, and not following along with the deceptions and corruptions in society, not even at the cost of those who’ll attempt to ruin me with lies as a payback.

They’ve done it before, and guess what? I’m far from ruined!

I’d just say bring it on as I’m nowhere near afraid and I won’t back down.

Lies cannot destroy the truth. Truth is reality, lies are just fantasy to build up facades.

As I live and look back I realize just how strong and astute in the mind I really am and no one will ever take that fact away from me.

I’m one of the strongest people that I know.

A “Lady” Is Not “Truly” Defined By Her Sexual History

Working Woman By Miss LaToya

In my opinion, sexual intercourse is a stupid act as I consider a man and his penis totally undesirable.

Nevertheless, I am a very intelligent and logical open-minded woman who knows there are a lot of females who are interested in men and sex, or who may just use men for sex whether they want to have a child or they may just want to get their kicks off.

I can still elaborate common sense to a subject in which makes no sense.

I don’t care what anyone does with their lives or with their bodies as it is of no concern to me, in spite of that fact, as a societal issue and as a woman/lady myself I am inspired to express on this subject.

I’m not at all saying that attitudes will ever change, but that I, and I am quite sure many others, absolutely do not…

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My Blogs

Writing is such a fantastic talent and gift to have and I am consumed with the natural energy to write through spirit whenever I’m moved to create and express.

When I write, it’s not about getting people to read, I don’t care if nobody ever read my literature, I will always continue to write and speak my truths and experiences regardless, it’s genuinely about a driven force within me carrying out what I was born to do and the universe allowing me to do so within my connection unto it.

And, I understand the vibration completely and it is intangible.

It is mysterious how spirit and destiny works.

I Love All of my blogs:

My Second,

A Caulbearer’s Journey (LaToya The Writer: The Clairvoyant/Medium)

 

My Third,

Authentic Expression (LaToya’s Health And Wellness Lifestyle Blog

 

My Fourth,

Working WomanWorking Woman By Miss LaToya

 

A Meal And A Few Movies

The weather has simmered down to a more comfortable temperature I wish it could stay like this all year around.

I prepared and had a lovely vegetarian meal of yellow rice and spices last night.

In addition, I cooked green peas and corn in a separate pot. I steamed broccoli which I added curry spice to and blended it in with the rice and other vegetables after both dishes were done.

My food came out so delicious. I loved every bite of it!

Afterwards, I sat down to watch a few movies. About three weeks ago, I got to catch a favorite classic of mine titled “I Wake Up Screaming” starring Betty Grable, Victor Mature, and Carol Landis.

I know this movie has been on many times over the years just not at periods where I was able to catch it. Anyhow, I first saw this film as a young teenager yet this was another film I had never got to see within its entirety. I’d usually come in on the middle of it just like at my original discovery of the flick.

So just recently I viewed this noir from the very beginning to the end and enjoyed it once all over again at more detail.

I also discovered there is a remake called “Vicky” in reference to one of the murdered characters in the movie.

I’ve missed it the few times it has aired, however, I’ll catch it soon to give it a try and determine whether or not I like the version.

A few nights ago I watched a 1954 movie titled “Black Widow” which starred Ginger Rogers, Van Heflin, Gene Tierney, and George Raft. It was a great film.

Towards the end, I had gotten the feeling that I’d seen this movie before but it was probably so long ago that none of the scenes were spoiled for me because either I didn’t remember it all or hadn’t seen it all back then whenever I had initially viewed it the first time around.

 

My Words Of Truth And Encouragement To Those Who Are “Rare” In This Day And Age

 

One doesn’t have to be born with a “Caul/Veil” to be “different” and to be remarkably set apart from others.

There are a very small number of people out there in comparison to the large amount of inhabitants within society who have exceptional or rare quality and train of thought.

Wisdom doesn’t come with age for everybody.

There are plenty of narrow-minded people who go through life and who have went through life actually believing that, they know, and knew, everything that there is to know when they acquired nothing legitimate at all but what they have misconstrued or exaggerated through their own restricted boundaries.

And these same people teach their own children and others their same dumb ways and beliefs. Fortunately there are some children who are born and that come out smarter than their parents.

One should definitely not permit oneself to be defined by other people’s ignorance, misconceptions, and generalizations as most who are of an ordinary mindset have a limited range of view and comprehension.

This world is full of weak-minded individuals who are easily influenced. I’ve always been a leader, not a follower.

These individuals are only able to discern within the scope in which their minds will completely allow.

When other people may accuse those of us who are on a particular wavelength and who are at an advanced level of consciousness, mentality, and intellect, of not being logical, realistic, or even moral, it is because they are lacking within specific true knowledge as their minds have in addition been socially and spiritually conditioned to incorporate and accept the mental, emotional, and psychological degrees of rationalization among the majority in who it typically pertains and applies to.

It is very important to remain strong and to not lose one’s self and one’s own distinct identity and genuine nature due to the false conceptions of what others may interpret within our behaviors and expressions because most people are unlike us and don’t know anything other than what they are familiar with and have been accustomed to.

A lot of people put their own insecurities on us all of the time because it makes them feel better as they don’t want to be alone (set apart) within their own tendencies, personal flaws, shortcomings, or inadequacies.

Some people don’t want to willingly acknowledge a rarity or major uniqueness in certain others if they themselves don’t also hold and encounter those uncommon attributes. And some just trifle to tick us off.

Instead of just recognizing how there are other individuals who are “beyond their own capacities to understand” they, nevertheless, proceed to judge us by the ways in which they personally are, how they personally feel, and the innate or orthodox reasoning in which they are able to grasp within themselves upon occurrence, situation, and circumstance.

Their doubts or opposing reactions, if any, is purely a reflection of themselves and their own insecurity and lack of particular knowledge and/or experience.

Everyone, of course, is not and does not act out of these natures, however, for those of them who are, and who do act out, they need to be dismissed from our essence and presence.

It is never appropriate to let anyone make one feel confused or uncertain about who they are, the things they know, and where they stand.

I’ve been one who has always had a strong sense of self in which no one could deter and I am extremely firm within my beliefs and within my facts and I will stand up to anyone who dares to challenge my truths and experience whether it be the mundane or extraordinary.

I as an individual never cared what anyone said or thought about me. I am authentic within self and nobody knows me better than I do, and I don’t have to explain myself to anybody, and I have no apologies. –latoya lawrence

Classics Galore!

I viewed some more good old black and white noirs last night up until the early morning around 3am I just love the ambience and scenery in which many of these good flicks project.

I can be entertained by them anytime of the day, nevertheless, I like those times during the evening, with the lights out quiet in the dark or dim lit, with my full attention focused on the suspense, thrill, and fun anticipation, and I reflect with a great appreciation for the era and creativity from back in the day.

First, I watched a film titled “The House On Telegraph Hill”, which I really enjoyed, it starred Valentina Cortese along with William Lundigan, Fay Baker, Richard Basehart, and Gordon Gebert.

Then, I checked out “Out Of The Past”, which starred Robert Mitchum, Jane Greer, and Kirk Douglas.

A few weeks ago I watched “Possessed” with Joan Crawford, Van Heflin, Raymond Massey, and Geraldine Brooks. “Clash By Night” with Barbara Stanwyck, Marilyn Monroe, Paul Douglas, Robert Ryan, and Keith Andes. “Born To Kill” with Claire Trevor, Lawrence Tierney, Audrey Long, Phillip Terry and Walter Slezak.

There was another two black and white movies a few months ago I kept missing while I just glimpsed at bits and pieces of them while I was in the midst of doing something around my home. I can’t wait to catch up with these two films in their entirety when they are featured back on.

 

People Who Call Us Positive People Negative When They Are The Negative Ones

No one can manipulate me into thinking within a fashion that is not of my nature and no one can manipulate me into acting within accordance to what is not of my innate state of being.

When one refuses to bow down to another just to get along with certain others they are considered being negative.

When one doesn’t like or want to be bothered with specific kinds of people they are considered being negative.

When one has a mind of their own which cannot be swayed and isn’t easily influenced by others and one doesn’t follow a crowd to fit in they are considered being negative.

When one isn’t afraid to stand up for what they know or believe in they are considered being negative.

When one tells a truth in which certain others don’t like or agree with they are considered being negative.

When others lie on one or does some type of malicious deed against them and one justifiably takes up for themself they are considered being negative.

When one doesn’t allow others to walk all over them and get over on them for their own benefit or through manipulative tactics they are considered being negative.

When one can sense and perceive unfavorable things about individuals that others are unable to see, process, or recognize for themself they are considered being negative.

Everything is being negative when it comes to the convenience of the actual negative people themselves. Anything to unscrupulously control an instance or provoke a situation in which to better suit their own ulterior motives and design.

And many unknowing and unsavvy people fall for their schemes as there are many who are oblivious to the artful guile of others in particular, or who share within the same mentality, or who just have a similar mode of calculating mindset.

Individuals who are in the right are often told that their own so called “negative behavior” will just create more negativity along down the line as to blame the intended target of unfairness for the trouble that is deliberately or primarily caused by others, a coercive statement which is lent to further manipulate one into submitting to and accepting the mischievous treatment and behavior of certain others, and to also permit them to freely get away with continuing on in their malicious deeds and actions within the future.

It is indeed a cunning and deceptive measure of audacity to acknowledge, a persuasive approach of nonsense talk which I have never listened to, as in reality, people of this nature inevitably create a vicious loop of negativity to spiral back at themselves when it comes to an individual as in tune as I am.

A lot of people don’t like other people who are too smart and who are too strong within the mind and within character especially those of us that by nature and instinct will fiercely tussle back when necessary.

The more these type of “sick” (as I call them) or unethical (if one wants to call them) people act out within their wrongdoings whether perceived to them as such, or not, the more they become disreputable and detestable to me.

Intelligence/Experience/Talent/Education

Gifted people come in all varieties. We as individuals can do anything that is within what we are capable of doing.

When I was in my early twenties an associate of my mother’s had met with me in person for the first time and heard me speak and hold a conversation and responded later to my mother by addressing “I was nowhere near the level that she’s on at that age. I thought she was in college”.

I wondered to myself “What does college have to do with intellect and mentality?”

Even a professional who I wrote an essay for when I got accepted at a college years ago which I decided not to attend asked me “How do you know how to write so good if you’ve never been to a college?” I didn’t get it because I’ve never associated intelligence and talents with professional training. To me, everything depends on ones own individual capacity.

This person didn’t mean any harm (my mother’s associate), of course, his words were actually a compliment and acknowledged that just because someone is in college doesn’t make them smarter than someone who is not.

I was never one to believe that school actually made one smart and I was never intimidated by anyone’s degree as I could attain the same achievement or higher if I chose to. School is just a tool of enhancement to progress an already intelligent and capable mind. However, learning comes within all fashions and within all places it is whether one is able to fully grasp what is being taught to them.

I remember back in the day how left back students attending high schools who didn’t have a satisfactory grade level of reading skills were eventually promoted out of school and allowed to graduate just because administration was tired, frustrated, or just didn’t want to deal with the problem anymore and decided to get rid of them instead.

When I was ten years old I took and passed tests high school children were unable to complete and pass without a problem. I even had an opportunity to get published by a mainstream publisher for short stories that I wrote back then.

Now I’m hearing in this day and age kindergarten children are getting left back. Some of it is the parents fault as they may have messed their children up with drugs and alcohol or are just not putting in the extra effort or time to help and teach their children. Even some parents themselves don’t have the knowledge to properly raise and guide their children

Don’t get me wrong, though, school is a positive and constructive resource, however, education is just the incorporation of particular knowledge which can be learned within any setting to the individual who has the right development and equipment.

I already knew how to read and write before I ever began school as a youngster and when I got older I was skipped a grade into a class for the gifted. Yet, school never held my interest as I was bored.

I didn’t have a problem with school itself but it was the individuals and the environment in which I had to attend school with. I liked it better learning one on one with a sufficient older person or within the presence of a specific group of other like-minded adolescents.

When I became fully grown and totally came into my own I liked partaking within classes better since I was not a child who didn’t have the control around my situations as children are oftentimes not taken as seriously within maturity and allowed the partiality of making their own fair judgments among other adults in certain situations.

Some are naturally born with communication skills and have the faculty to problem solve as I was.

I know people who’ve attended school and higher education who are still in school and they are definitely not too bright, especially within the area of common sense. And some people do cheat their way out.

I know some people who battle with low self esteem, ignorance, a complex of some sort and use their credentials as a badge of authority toward others. I don’t cater to people like that I don’t consider people experts soley depending on a course they’ve took or a certificate they’ve recieved I have too much of an open mind as well as common sense and too much experience to know that knowledge or brilliance is not packaged strictly in standard wrappings there is also the papers that come decorated in all styles and design.

Braggarts

In my opinion, there isn’t anything wrong with one who is aware of their accomplishments and capabilities and acknowledges them, it is the fashion in which one projects themself and intention behind their own recognition.

I think with certain people identifying within their attributed description, as they may also detail in regard to others, is harmless and not meant as to gloat but as a form of expression or discovery.

When arrogance becomes hubristic there is another scene bringing impact into the story.

As a child on up my mother loved and was proud of me yet she never bragged about me to anyone.

Peers would come to her boasting how their wife was this and their wife was that, their kid was this and their kid was that and from the constant proclaims my mother knew honestly their wives and children indeed weren’t shit.

Time brought out just how much the wife and kids of these braggarts had amounted up to, a figure not summed within the scale  in which they smugly dared to measure, but a scale that announced a degree of great shame and embarrassment.

One’s looked down upon arose to bud, then bloomed on to become a bouquet of sprouting flowers, ones that were once the object of disdain became the example of a noteworthy and momentous acclaim.

Sunday Clouds

Now its completely cloudy again outside but the rain has not yet returned so far. It was beautiful outside earlier today.

I like spending certain days inside while the weather has precipitation it makes the environment distinctly cozy indoors with the blinds slanted and slightly raised with dim lighting shadowing the place.

I need this day of rest and relaxation as I’m constantly on the go with my job so I’m taking the time out to delight within the mix. I worked straight all last week with no weekend off but I had this weekend to make up for it.

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This Sunday Evening

The radio is playing some good old tunes from the seventies and eighties, jam after jam, back to back!

The rain was coming down here in Queens, New York, its finishing up right about now as the sun is partially back into view.

I made a dinner of rice pilaf and shrimp It was delicious. I plan on watching some good old black and white suspense movies later on tonight before I head off to bed.

Tomorrow I’ll spend my scheduled Memorial Day working a holiday shift that I took on and don’t mind doing.

Its all going nice and good I’m genuinely enjoying my day.

 

A Tortured Soul

My Page Turner by misslatoya

Melissa Campa said 4 hours ago

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Melissa Campa

These are lies of demonized souls, go far back as far as you can remember. The first time you felt abandoned or abused whether physically or mentally or sexually. The door was open from that day forward. You see I was just like you even suicidal, literally would negotiate with a voice telling me you’ll never see heaven you already love every day in sin (addicted to pain killers) so if you were to die and kill your self you would go to hell as you would go to hell anyways by the judgment of your sins according to your God! I cried I cut I screamed and then I remembered my dad took me and my brother to church Very young and we went up to the alter with our dad and accept Jesus as our lord and savior. I never knew exactly what I did but I knew I was more Of a threat because of it. The difference between a child of God that has a seed from a young age vs a new age follower or atheist is that the one who was brought up in a Christian home has been to church before has heard the word of God is a threat to the devil because gods word says in (Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.) you see I may not change your mind about God I’ve yelled at God when people I loved died I cursed God for allowing me to get beat my child’s father I was so mad but I still felt like who else do I have. My parents both live their lives and I had it rough growing up from being molested to watching my dad beat my mother while she never fought back and beat on us and because of my father I became so defensive always fighting and protecting the weaker individuals who I saw bullied. But if my mom or dad couldn’t do right by us as children. My dad the same man who hit me and my brother and mom took me to the living god and he placed a seed that seed is in certain chosen people. Jesus said if they hate me they’ll hate you too if the crucified me they will do it you because of ME. Jesus said but be of good cheer I have overcome the world. The devil the demons Satan comes against us threw other people who have been deceived who listened to the suggestions that God did this and its his fault. This whole world is ruled by demons look at the president! I’m not perfect I sin and I may sin again tomorrow I may say the same prayer god forgive you know how it goes but Jesus does because he knew god knew we will never ever be holy we will never get it right! If Jesus came to preach the word right now in this generation he would chose his disciples and they would be former pimps former murders former thief’s former gang members former homeless people former drug dealers and homosexuals. He never would ride around with the people of the church the holy traditional church and hypocrites. He would save the ones from what we see as the worst people he says these people are the first in the kingdom of heaven because basically people like them need more love and god sees the heart and he sees the soul has authority to cast out demons of torment of perversion, abuse and immortality etc. before you click off maybe you already did just give him a chance crawl to him say a few words and then next time maybe stand up to him say a few more words and if you ever feel like nothing is working with the new age practices you still can’t find peace you can’t find healing then run to god surrender in private take baby steps god know we can’t just change over night he knows we will never get it right. He’s not a god of suffering because the Old Testament was of the way the first living people of the world had to be obedient and this why god sent Jesus Christ his word says behold i make all things new. The new commandment I give you is to love each other. If I can suggest maybe listening to deliverance prayers on YouTube with head phones and water. Baby steps pray in private goodnight

 

In reply to Melissa Campa.

You sound like a very mentally and emotionally disturbed individual and one that isn’t intelligent enough to understand the depth of my writings.

Just because some people don’t like or agree with God and have different viewpoints or perceptions regarding him and his way does not mean that they are suffering, lost, or have been broken in some way. If anything it is quite the opposite and you need to stop being ignorant and closed- minded.

I was born a gifted child and one with the wisdom and knowledge to “see” and “discern”. I’ve experienced a lot of supernatural occurrences and ones that you have no idea exist. I was a happy child there were just some adults and relatives around me who weren’t happy within themselves but it wasn’t everyone.

I’ve never been or walked in your shoes as I’ve never been raped or sexually abused by anyone and I’ve never been mistreated by a parent. “Spiritual essence” in which constantly followed me would never have allowed those vile things to happen. I was lucky and blessed and had natural spiritual protection.

I was raised and brought up in love by a darn good mother and had lots of love given to me by my mother and solicitous attention given to me as well as from certain others that were around me. I was very well taken care of as a child on up that is partly why so many people were jealous of me.

So you’re venting to the wrong person.

I am very happy and fulfilled within myself and have a great peace of mind and what I venerate and believe in suits and serves me very well. Things are working out within my life accordingly and the universe is bringing to me the elements in which I desire.

I have been attacked all through out life by “particular” individuals-along with principalities-for being a good and unique person by those who are not of my caliber and who have a lack of knowledge into things in specific.

Yes, I do agree with one thing you’ve wrote and that is God does concern himself moreover with the negative people but it is not because they’re all sincere within their heart and deceptively mislead and all good people are not hippocrates because we don’t need or have to serve or consult with god to genuinely be of a positive nature or character by his definition.

You’re a tortured soul and you are brainwashed and people who are deeply troubled often incite to bring unnecessary problems to others. Go and get yourself some serious help.

Spontaneous Energy

Writing is an art and a talent, a gift to inspire, and to be inspired by.

When inspiration unexpectedly strikes it will happen anywhere and at any given period. There is not a set time for creative skill to rise into focus. Vision and wit is promoted by energy and drive expression and invention is contrived through originality.

Once all of the faculties range within motion the flair of province instinctively goes into coordination.

I dive on in as I enter the wonderful world of writing!

 

 

 

 

A Truth Full Of Lies

Malicious people will call one a liar for speaking the truth.

For speaking a lie when they get caught malicious people will falsely state the truth, even sometimes expressing a tone of disdain, to cause intimidation and to deliberately give off a misleading impression with the intent to deceive.

Ill-natured people will often lie while aiming to tell what is perceived to them as truth and intentionally adapt themselves into believing their own self fulfilling lies.

 

Concurrent Tidings

One person’s happiness is another person’s sadness and one person’s pain is another person’s pleasure.

At this very moment as I write in the tranquility of my environment there is someone out within the world experiencing upset and misfortune.

There is someone who has died, someone who is suffering from injury and someone who is suffering from illness.

There is also many who are being born, being killed, being raped, being evicted, being fired from their job, being the victims or receptor of abuse, accidents, crimes and so on, right now at this second.

The simultaneous occurrence of these daily events are common knowledge to the conscious thinker yet escape within our thoughts as we often are not constantly focused on what is not happening around us in regards to the people we don’t personally know and are not cognizant about.

We’re usually too preoccupied with the occurrences taking place wthin our own daily lives to garner any attention toward the instances affecting others as well as the elements which affect our atmosphere as activity goes on everyday.

It is sometimes not until unfortunate situations hit us in the face directly or at a distance that we come to recognize how deep circumstances actually get.

Once we view a television report, read a newspaper article, or encounter an episode of drama in person, then we realize and feel the weight or consideration of another’s reality that could just as easily have been one of us if fate had decided.

We often are thankful to not have one of those predicaments claim any one of our recent days of the week and hope to never have a run in with such a display or event.

Though we’re prompted to help out in certain situations when motivated by instinct to aid someone or something to comfort and safety if we are present and witness an aspect as many would also desire to be rescued or tended to during a serious time of incident or need.

When I watch a true crime show, read a true crime novel, or review a news alert of any kind and notice a date I may look back at what I was doing in my life around that time and say “Wow, while I was sitting in the comfort of my home or out having fun this very negative thing (whatever the dilemma) was going on”, and it sometimes just makes you think.

Us people with second-sight often see things all of the time within our third eye/minds eye and it is real and we can also feel sensations wherein the things we’re being spiritually made aware about.

However, depending what type of energy/connection we have upon individual accounts and the information we receive in specific to point and time can vary or be misinterpreted compared to observing and listening to the entire full spectrum of a clarified story, so the impact falls within the range of where its thrown if it serves to move us somehow.

(God) A Supernatural Bully

I am and always was blessed within many ways at the same time had to undergo unnatural encounters just because of the person that I am.

I’m glad not to be average and that I’m unique in my own right. I don’t owe anyone anything and I didn’t ask to come into this world to share within a life with other human beings with different natures and various mindsets.

The Lord did me no favor whatsoever as in my dreams when I sleep display and explain more beauty and meaning than on this earthly plane that he created.

God didn’t ask my permission in order for me to come here so I don’t need his while I have to remain here. Like I said, he didn’t do me any favor, this world isn’t a paradise that I should be ever so grateful to exist in.

The world in its dreadful condition is grotesquely overpopulated as it is with all kinds of shit. From disgusting insects to disgusting animals, disgusting principalities, and disgusting people.

Life is often times strange, unfair, and full of circumstantial misinterpretation and situations that compromise the lives of people on account of the ignorance or biases of others.

It seemed irresponsible to me to have us all here on the earth together why not keep the compatible in one section and the incompatible in other sections let everyone have their own suitable accomodating place of habitat.

Why be made to live a life or in a condition that one truly doesn’t want to be in? I loathe God, I truly do, and for more reasons than one, and I feel so insulted to be one that was created in his perverted formation of a plan.

From the beginning by designing a man and a woman to be together and to have sex, and having to have sex to have children, is all a turn off to me. Cutting up animals in the old days to atone for a sin since the wages for transgressions was death there had to be bloodshed so finally Jesus eventually came and did the ultimate sacrifice, all a bunch of sick shit to me.

But I guess I’m suppose to be crazy for not liking or agreeing with a God and within the fashion in which he made things to occur.

One thing is for certain and that is that I genuinely do love myself. When I look back on my life as a child I’ve noticed how disrespected I was by God and how I never trusted in him because I knew deep down inside that he was no good.

He disrespected me and my life one time too many by altering my destiny, using his trash to assist him, and by placing too many undesirables within my pathways, knowing the extent of my hatred toward them.

I always wondered who the fuck he thought he was as I never thought too highly of him or his reasoning. As I have the gifts to see I never saw anything special or perfect within him.

It is said that God makes no mistakes and if that is so that is a dangerous reality. At least if he made errors I could give him the benefit of the doubt but since his intentions are meant as what is suppose to be right it shows me just how wrong he is as a creator.

God is a disgrace and it clearly shows within his creation.

It seems to me I’m too headstrong for him whereas his trash caters to his demented teachings as they are twisted too.

If his words are so true why am I happier without him? If his words are so true why do I have peace of mind without him? If his words are so true why is the energy around me good without him?

I didn’t began to really live until I recognized my true love and light and separated myself from God’s oppressing grip and because I’ve broken free (years ago) and confirmed his unsavory nature he doesn’t want me to live the life that I am suppose to fully receive.

So even though he adheres to keep me stuck in a rut the rut does not adhere to stick to my spirit.

I’d rather live my life within truth, love, and strength and be cheated from what I truly deserve than to live within lies, unhappiness, and weakness just to be given an abundance of riches for being a mindless flunky only to serve and praise a God that is not worthy to be glorified.

If one could take away God’s power where would that leave him if he didn’t have all that supernatural weight to throw around and bully with? If he was void of his mighty energy to manifest how many would fear him then? -miss latoya lawrence

 

 

Natural

Ever since I was a young child I knew that if there was something that I didn’t want within my life then the situation was not going to work out.

Only the things that I preferred and under the circumstances in which I truly desired would instances turn out favorably and long lasting to my concordance.

I was never the type of female that ever hoped to one day get married and have children. I didn’t initially yearn to be a mother, when the idea later on within young adulthood came into mind to have a child it was with the intention of being a single parent, yet I eventually changed my mind about having a baby altogether and it was the right choice for me.

If I did have a child though it definitely would have been on my own without a man involved in the picture.

I fortunately grew up in a home without my father present and that is the way I liked it as I grew up strong, confident, independent and liberated-not implying that females that are raised in homes with their father’s can’t turn out that way-it was just an advantage that served a great purpose for me.

When I was little I never wished for or thought about having a dad around and when I saw other children that parents were married or together as a couple it was a situation that I didn’t require to be in I was very content and accustomed to my family order with me and my mom.

I wasn’t alone either there were other kids like me whose mothers raised them without a father it was normal to us. I can’t speak on how they actually felt about the matter, however, everything suited me just fine.

My mother never had any problems out of me I was a good child.

One thing I hated though was when guys were attracted to me or interested in me whether their intentions were good or bad I didn’t care, I wasn’t flattered by any of the attention I was genuinely turned off by it.

And it feels so good that I don’t have to go through undesirable and unsavory individuals who use to send to me the annoying invasions of mind transference through voodoo/black magic.

They had been doing it within many ways for many years within different techniques but with the same motives and that was to bring me down to their level. Whether it was to attempt to lower my self esteem or to get me to have feelings for a man they worked hard at it and failed miserably.

These people were jealous and resentful because I’d never been hurt or dogged out by a man as so many of them had even the guys were envious and jealous of me they all figured if I was in the same predicament as they were I couldn’t or wouldn’t think that I was better than any of them.

They were also jealous and envious of my intelligence and knowledge and where I could go within life if and when the opportunity arose.

They had such a warped sense of mindset that didn’t correspond with mine in the least if they had succeeded in their designs I’d still be the person who I am today with the same mentality no man could ever break me or kill my spirit. I wasn’t built within that fashion.

If I were interested in men I’d be able to get a good man and would only deal with one that was on my level, however, I’m proudly asexual and am fulfilled and complete as a woman and an individual.

 

Happy Birthday To Me

I don’t officially celebrate my birthday yet I do acknowledge the occasion

Forty-four years ago I was born on this earth. My birthday always falls right after mother’s day.

When we are a lot younger it seems as if our life goes by kind of slow then once we get measurably older and reminisce back it kind of seems as if life ran by us so fast.

I’ve been on this planet for a very long time yet I am still considered young and it is true to a point but it is funny how when people describe being married for forty years, living in a house for forty years, owning an item for forty years and etc… It is all looked upon as being a long period of duration compared to the actual age of a person.

Nevertheless, I am very content within my life at the present moment and am proud of my age, I have no major regrets throughout my journey here, and I have a whole bunch of great memories to glance back at with a beautiful sense of nostalgia.

I love being forty-four as I feel really good inside and continue to welcome the distinct progressions that my unique experience has to offer.

The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly

After I came home from work yesterday I ran into one of my neighbors, an Italian woman in her seventies and she mentioned how the good people constantly have to suffer while people who are full of the devil nothing ever happens to them.

Yes, those of us that are upright tend to have to go through so much within life as the diabolical seem to get by easy, chiefly when orchestrating their dirt.

The context is absolutely backwards and definitely should be the other way around.

It’s a wicked world out there as well as the principalities who reign and influence and that venture to go against our efforts yet still and all there is a light that shines upon a great deal of us good folk one that cannot be shut off by any force of the darkness.

As it on many of occasion appears in which heinous individuals get away within their vile and foul serendipity that unjustifiably flows around to them. An unfortunate course of appalling luck outrageously bestowed by demonic intervention, that rotten satanic energy.

In the “mindful eye” it is very important to recognize that the unsavory folk are actually seized, tormented, and dissolved within their own true dimensions of hell, even if they aren’t able to perceive it.

 

 

Go Figure

When the past comes to reflect without intent there are messages to take notice of that hint to certain information relevant to the present.

As I look at my present where what shines on me are those who share the brightness of my light.

When I look back at the darkness where there are the undesirables that came to surround me to hover and to create a permanent shadow.

In the distant past:

A female named Cherilyn Festus I had met when I was about ten she was fifteen and had moved on my block. Already Cherilyn had a reputation for sucking penis. Her nickname was “Head Hunter”.

Cherilyn’s breath smelled real bad even when she returned back to the neighborhood years later to shack up with a Jamaican guy on the block who’d constantly disrespect her and who she financially supported with the money she’d gotten through financial aid and an inheritance, I think.

Her so-called friends would use her and take advantage of her for her credit card and the little bit of money that she had.

She was supposed to be going to school to become an accountant instead she ended up with no job, no home, and a african man who she shacked up with in order to keep him in the country before he dumped her whoring bummy ass.

(The Jamaican guy before the African had been cheating on Cherilyn the entire time they were together and had a child just as old as the relationship between them that she didn’t know about and moved the mother of the children into his home not too long after Cherilyn moved out).

The recent past:

A lady that I worked with four years ago that actually was a client of mine as she suffered from depression went by the name of Rose.

Rose was the exact same age as me at the time which was forty-one. She had a twenty-one year old daughter, an eighteen year old son, an eighteen month old daughter, and a newborn daughter that was a week old.

The ex husband of her first two children came by the house where she lived asking her for money to support his new wife or girlfriend with.

Rose’s present husband had disrespected her and her oldest daughter in front of me more than once and acknowledged while I was there that her and her daughter both love babies and sex.

This husband of Rose’s had a woman on the side who was the aunt of her oldest daughter’s boyfriend’s ex girlfriend who’d both the husband and the boyfriend would visit together.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that her daughter was six or seven months pregnant.

The husband told me himself directly in front of her that he wanted the one year old child that they shared together but that he didn’t want the newborn.

“So you don’t love her?” Rose had asked.

There was a lot more going on and to this story as the couple constantly fought, too much to write about, and how she was being used and taken advantage of by her own stupidity.

What I had gotten was a close up view of looking through the unfortunate lives of these others that believe it or not thought their shit didn’t stink.

Yet people like me who’d never ended up in situations like these and more, and would never think to as that lifestyle and way of mentality was never in the cards, are discarded as the ones to look down on just because we never got fucked up.