I Have A Few Real, Genuine, True Friends❤

 

I am not one to, or one who, ever ran around in a crowd. I was mostly a loner who was particular in who I chose to be around.

I received a happy belated birthday card with a token of money this past week from someone who was determined to show their regard.

They had told me my card was on the way last month before my birthday had arrived.

I told them not to worry, that there is no rush, and to take their time as well as with the other things in their life.

We all may go through periods of not getting to something done or intended to toward a specific time frame for whatever reason.

I also added that anyone can give someone a card or material possession that really means nothing. What really counts is when things come from the heart.

When people care about you, give of themselves- spend quality time talking with you, or being there for you if there is ever a time you may need them, truly believing in you, encouraging you and having your back when a moment calls for it.

People who are like this and do these things because they like, love, or appreciate you- not because they feel they must or should react or respond that way, but because they really want to- shows a true friend or person that is genuinely in one’s corner.

This person I speak of has known me literally for all my life and is a real person.

We even share a lot in common such as writing, having spiritual abilities, and so on.

She is a very smart person too who is on the level just like me.

I was always lucky to have, and be blessed with, certain people in my life.

We are more like family than friends.

 

You Are The Toast Of My Town🧸❤

 

You are the first person I ever met, someone who I will never forget.

You held me close, looked out for me the most- you deserve a toast.

You gave me courage and inspired me; you encouraged the person I aspired to be.

You comforted me in my moments of dread, always made sure that I was clothed and fed.

You were so engrossed –you deserve a toast.  

You combed and brushed my hair, you put me to bed and taught me prayer.

You were my greatest host- you deserve a toast.  

You had so much style, I have not seen you in a while- I really miss your smile.

I thought we would live to see old-age here wherever, as you were one who had it all together.

I had no idea you were going to depart- only to tear my world apart.

Something has held me up- as you went on your way up– to the upper-place without a trace.

I am still running my race; I cannot wait to see your face.

I hope you are finally at peace that faith inside at least gives me some ease.

I always loved you so much, your memory still touches my heart.

I wish I could have given you so much more, you deserve the beauty that God has for you in store.

I do not mean to brag or to boast, but my mother deserves the greatest toast.  

Cheers to you, I am forever endeared to you. – latoya lawrence

 

 

🕊🕊🕊Dear Mother, Happy Mother’s Day🧸❤

 

Yesterday was my birthday. I turned 48. I generously received cards and unexpected gifts the day before from the small circle of those in my life who count.

I spent the afternoon honoring and paying tribute to my mother. Afterwards, I went out to eat and have dessert!

I had originally written a beautiful post in lovely detail about the wonderful experience of the day that I intended to publish.

However, when I went to copy my notes, they accidentally went to paste and my entire writings got deleted.

I was so pissed off.

Usually if this occasionally happens, I will end up rewriting an accurate version of events only to have my material turn out even better as if energy was enhancing what I write.

I knew what I had written and was going to post yesterday could not be replaced. It was so perfect in the way I expressed, giving respect to my mother on the day I was born and the fantastic interactions that went on during everything that took place.

So, the only thing I could gather was maybe this special moment was not meant to be publicly shared.

Some things are only meant to be kept private. And, I really knew beforehand that maybe this was not for the world’s eyes to view.

I had asked God beforehand should I share this because I do not normally have the desire to broadcast my happy- yet sacred things.

So, I gather it was the Lord’s way of giving me an answer. Those beautiful moments for and dedicated to mom that were also captured in photos that I shared with two close personal trustworthy lifelong friends (who also knew my mom) were meant to stay just between us.

Above and below are snapshots of the fresh flowers and balloons I purchased for my mother yesterday. I always buy her fresh white roses with additional sorted bouquets of flowers.

The roses smelled so clean, pure, and sweet.

Peace, love, purity, and respect always goes out to my mom.❤❤🕊🕊🕊❤❤

 

My Additional Flowers Purchased For Mom🧸❤

A Job Well Done: Mutual Respect In The Workplace

 

Last week was a good week for me. This week started off good as well- as I had expected it to.

I see how respected and appreciated I am at my workplace as I was recently rewarded for extended duty on behalf of the request of one whom I work with.

I do not mind helping good people who I feel comfortable with and who treat me right.

We are not always as fortunate to work in compatible environments with agreeable (in harmony with) people.

Whenever I work with the right type of people there is professionalism and mutual regard.

Unfortunately, we cannot always work in healthy environments or suitable ones that surround the wrong people, but that is life.

So, I consider it a blessing whenever I am lucky enough to work and interact with decent people.

 

This Man Thing Is Ridiculous!

 

I came across an Article titled Do Women Need Men and what I read in this article is total bullshit!

The author is stating that if women say they do not want or need a man it is only because they have been hurt by men and that every woman loves a rock hard cock sliding in and out of their vagina and wants love and a relationship with a man.

The article also states that to a woman the love between a man and a woman is special and the most important form of love within her life.

Well, I LaToya Lawrence am a woman.

I have never loved a man, I have never cared for a man, I have never been in a romantic relationship with a man, and I have never been hurt by a man.

If I had a baby I preferred to have one on my own without the companionship of a man.

I never wanted or needed a man since my younger days on up. And, I definitely do not consider the love between a man and a woman to be the most special or meaningful.

Maybe it is to some or most, but definitely not for all.

The love between my mother and I was the best love to experience (and the love of my dog) and nothing could ever surpass that for me.

My happiness was never dependent upon a man. The reason I am happy is because I never wanted one and because I truly love myself and I love the path in life I was chosen to live without the desire or need to be with one (a man).

This article is not truthful in regard to “all women”.

I hate when those in society spread lies and misinformation. Every woman is not the same and a man is not some irresistible being that a woman suddenly does not want or need due to being hurt or disappointed by one.

A woman can “naturally” not feel any need, want, or desire for any man.

Here is a few parts from the article:

 

Do Women Need Men?

In today’s world, women can live a life that is completely independent of men if they choose to.

A modern woman can earn her own money, be protected by the police, justice system and media and be supported by the government.

However, regardless of how much a woman can take care of herself in the modern world, she still will always want and need a man for the following reasons:

1. To experience the love that can only occur between a man and a woman.
2. To be impregnated by a man that she loves and wants to have a family with.
3. To have the father of her children present to make her feel safe and to help raise the children in a more balanced way, compared to her doing it all by herself.
4. To be a boyfriend or a husband that she can share life experiences with, overcome challenges with and grow together over time.

So, the answer to the question, “Do women need men?” is a definite yes if a woman wants to lead a normal, happy life.

Sometimes, you might see a news story or an article online about women no longer needing men because they can go and get themselves implanted with semen from a sperm back and have their own children without the need of a man.

Lesbian women tend to do that so they can raise a children, but normal heterosexual women still have a natural desire to be impregnated by a man that they love.

After all, women love having sex just as much as men do.

Women love the feeling of a rock hard penis sliding into their little love tunnel, just as much as we men like to get in there and give it to them.

Sex is a mutually beneficial and enjoyable thing for men and women and so is love.

Regardless of the changes that happen in modern society, the love between a man and a woman always remains a very special and powerful thing that most women place the utmost of importance on in their life.

If a woman doesn’t have the love of a man in her life, she may spend a lot of time on her career and try to distract herself, but will almost always become depressed and feel like her life is wasting away on pointless work, when she really wants to be in love, be a mother and have a family.

So, if you’ve been wondering to yourself, “Do women need men?” because you don’t seem to desperately wanted by women, then you should ask yourself what the real reason is behind you asking that question.

Don’t Listen to the BS lyrics From Female Pop Singers

A guy who doesn’t understand women will often feel confused when he listens to the confident, brash, girl power lyrics of female pop singers.

Female pop singers will passionately sing lyrics like, “I don’t need a man” or “Sisters are doing it all for themselves” and act as though they don’t care if they have a man or not.

Yet, is that really the way it is? Do modern women not need men at all, or do those song lyrics simply create a smoke screen to hide what is really going on behind the scenes?

Let’s clear this up…

If a woman is saying she doesn’t need men in her life, you can bet your bottom dollar that she has recently (or repeatedly) had her heart broken and she’s still hurting, or she is lusting after the type of guys who aren’t interested in her.

With that being the case, the anti-men lyrics are nothing more than a smoke screen for insecure or emotionally bruised women.

The heartbroken female pop singer (or everyday woman) who is saying that she doesn’t need men, will cry herself to sleep over the fact that she no longer has a man in her life.

Just listen to some of the candid interviews of female pop singers and celebrities and you will see them admitting to crying their eyes out all the time. They may put on a front of being emotionally cold and independent, but it’s just a smoke screen.

Likewise, a woman who is saying that she doesn’t need men because the kind of men she wants don’t want her, will continue to try to attract their attention.

So, do women need men? Of course they do.

If women didn’t need men or want men in their life, there wouldn’t be so many “Who needs men anyway?” songs out there.

The only reason those songs exist is because single or dumped women tend stick together in a “friends forever” sort of way, so when one of their group has been dumped or let down by a guy, they all rally round to make her feel better by adopting an attitude of, “Who needs men anyway when we’ve got each other?!”

Of course, when the dust settles, they all set about helping her to find a new man ASAP.

Watch this video to understand how women really think…

(https://www.themodernman.com/blog/do-women-need-men.html)

 

 

 

The True Nature Of Celebration

 

 

I stopped celebrating Christmas, Thanksgiving, and even my birthday when I was twelve years of age.

My reason for doing so had absolutely nothing to do with any religious belief or outside influence, they were done purely out of personal feelings and rationalizations.

Many events in this society are commercialized or set within following traditions.

I have always been an unconventional individual, doing and behaving on my own terms according to my own nature and distinct mindset.

I do not, never have, and never will let society dictate what my values should be, how I conduct myself, or how I live my life.

I am not one to just go along with the program.

I still can and do, of course, acknowledge and respect the celebration of holidays and birthdays regarding others as I send out and accept cards or gifts from those who matter or who show kindness.

The thing is, I do not need one day out of a year to express love, the existence of life, appreciation for things, or the beauty of togetherness with those near and dear.

I send out cards, have given gifts, shown gratitude and spent meaningful time with loved ones as an ongoing periodic all year around basis.

To me, every day is a day to be grateful, to celebrate life, to share moments with those we love or care for, and so on.

I am not inspired by tradition because tradition does not inspire who I am.

 

 

 

The Best Gifts For Every Season

 

The true meaning of Christmas itself is to celebrate the birth and life of Jesus Christ, but there is nothing wrong with attributing this day with merriment and gift-giving.

Still and all, the most precious gifts in life cannot be bought or sold wrapped up and used to eventually be thrown away. Some material possessions do last a lifetime, but people and connected relationships last forever.

The best gifts on earth we have are each other (the one or ones that you love and who sincerely love you whether it is a pet, a genuine friend, or a treasured family member.)

Whether one believes this or not, even if there is no one in your corner, all one truly needs is God as he will provide and secure your future as well as maintain your strength and character.

When we accept Jesus, we receive the most significant (vital) gift of all- eternity.

 

 

 

We’ll Be Together Again One Day ❤

 

I do not understand people who claim that it hurts to talk about a relative who died. I love and enjoy speaking and reminiscing about the times we shared.

If the death of someone ever caused you pain, it is only because of the love you had for them. The more you loved them, the more it hurt, and that hurt feels so good!

Within that pain lies beauty. Beauty is the strength of that love. Love is the most beautiful thing in the world. I thank God for gifting me with such a strong spirit.

Our loved ones who died in Christ are not actually dead. 
 
They are alive and living well. In fact, they are doing far much better than we are! 
 
Yes, we love them, and we miss them. However, we should be very happy for them. 
 
They, by the grace of God, made it home to Jesus! That is a cause for celebration. 
 
They are residing in the peace and comfort of divine love. 

The love we have for our dear ones could never compare to the love that God has for them. 
 
When we truly love them, we can willingly let them go, and that gives us such beautiful peace knowing them in such wonderful state of bliss. 
 
No more troubles in this perishing world they must endure. 
 
The most phenomenal thing we as believers and children of God recognize is that our deceased relatives are not people who are from our past. 
 
They are people who we know we will look forward to sharing the rest of our future in eternity with once we finally cross over. –latoya lawrence 
 

Friends For Life ❤🐕

 

The German Shepherd/Collie mix love of my life has been gone for twenty years now.

Time has no bearing when it comes to love as I still think about my precious baby every single day. I always loved her so much from the moment her little body was placed in my young arms at the animal shelter.

Brandie is long gone but she will never be forgotten, and I surely hope to see her one day as many of us whose pets have passed on do.

 

 

There will indeed be dogs and other animals when God brings heaven down to earth for our eternity.

Unfortunately, there is no mention of the Bible stating that we will ever see our pets again as we will our deceased relatives.

Nevertheless, although there is no guarantee, we can hold out hope.

God is the almighty creator and ruler. He can do anything that he pleases, and he may surprise us one day.

I really hope to reunite with Brandie again. I do not want to imagine never seeing or being with her again.

 

 

What Does Love Have To Do With It?

 

There was a ridiculous double standard I used to hear when I was growing up, one that I knew definitely was not true because I myself naturally did not hold this particular stance.

I used to hear how, when it came to intercourse, how, for females, it would take emotion to be involved for her to become engaged, or that, after a sexual encounter, she would become emotionally attached.

Such a bunch of sexists, insulting nonsense!

I am not saying to hop around for the hell of it for those who burn with lust or the occasional desire for some to have sex, or to have sex for the sole purpose of having a child- as I once considered just using a man to conceive a baby many years ago without any commitment or affection on my part.

What I am saying as a fact is that for a “Virgin” or a woman who is constantly sexually active, or that has been sexually active not too often, she does not necessarily have to have any interest at all in a particular man for her to be able to have sex with him.

It does not mean that she cares for him, and it definitely does not mean that she has any love for him.

Sex and love have nothing to do with one another. They are both two separate things.

Women can have sex with men without having any type of attraction or feelings for them- and without any guilt.

I definitely know this all for a fact.

Some men may not have understood or wanted to have accepted this reality because they were always stereotypically viewed as the ones who primarily used women to get what they wanted. So, it was too much of a bruise to the ego.

Truth is, as it is more out in the open these days- though there are still some with ignorant concepts- it works both ways.

There are men who become emotionally attached through sex whereas others do not, and vice-versa with certain women.

Some men or women do have to have feelings for someone before they go to bed with them.

A woman who has sex with a man who she does not love or care for does not make her a whore either, because there are many different types of circumstances that take place within situations.

Men who are whorish do not normally get called the undesirable whores that they truly are by the majority of society.

There are married couples without love within a marriage. To each his or her own.

Yes, when it comes to God, he intended for intercourse to be between couples tied together through wedlock. Anything outside of this is wrong or immoral to God. He also intended true consideration and dedication to each other. That is why marriage was not to be entered into lightly.

However, we all have our own free-will, gifts, and characteristics.

Some of us are asexual and are completely not into sex. Asexuality is not a sin. Some of us do not want to ever get married. Some want a loving, faithful, life-long relationship. Some just want to run around or have sex without strings attached.

There are possible consequences to actions sometimes, such as venereal disease, crazy people with fatal attractions, violent confrontations over cheating, unwanted pregnancies.

Some of these incidents even take place with married couples.

This is a crazy-mixed up world.

I, as a woman, personally wished that there was no such thing as sexual intercourse and that, as a woman, I would be able to conceive a child naturally on my own if I ever decided to (although I did not or would not want any children at this time in my life- but if I ever had a long time ago). I feel I should not have to share my vagina with anyone, and I know I did not ever have to, my vagina belongs to me.

A little note: There is an actual fish in creation that is by nature able to conceive offspring on its own without the fertilization from a male counterpart.

 

As A Woman I Am My Own Distinct Material

 

I am not a mother. I had been told I would make a good mother if I had children, and I took the remark as a compliment.

Some may even consider me wife material, which can serve as a compliment or an insult, depending on what one’s idea is based on.

I never saw myself as marriage material, as I never had the desire or interest in romance or for stereotypical wifely duties-this nature was never within me.

The old barefoot, pregnant, in the kitchen, outdated image of wife-hood was definitely not a suitable way of life for me either.

Things have changed in this day and age and the definition of wife-material does not necessarily have to be a negative one.

Many secure men appreciate strong, independent women who can hold their own and who can also show love, support and maintain a healthy relationship that produces meaning and growth.

Most of us heard the saying, “You can’t turn a hoe into a housewife”.

Well, I say one cannot turn a virgin or one who is not into sex as a housewife either.

How many sexual partners one has had or not had does not determine one’s sufficiency. It is about one’s mentality and character.

I always knew that my self-esteem or self-worth/value as a female was not defined or dictated by my vagina or men I have never slept with.

Nor did my self-esteem or self-worth depend on what a man or anyone else classified as what was appropriate within their own personal or societal standards.

My vagina is not me; it is only a part of the body that belongs to me. I am the spirit within me, I am an individual having this human experience here on earth.

It is a great offense to suggest that any positive qualities a woman may have are only prized or treasured if a man prefers or desires them.

There are women who have no interest in satisfying a man.

They have no desire to marry or to be in a committed relationship.

Some women are intent on or concerned about developing their own careers, their own personal/spiritual growth, or the fulfillment of what they may want to offer or contribute to the world through their own special purpose.

These types of women do not need the acceptance or approval of a man to feel self-worth and value.

 

 

Pathetic People: Stupid Type Of Men And Women

 

I never understood why some women fight over men. Especially when the men do not look like anything.

A man is nothing to fight over and a man is nothing to get hurt over. Yet not everyone shares my mentality, self-love, confidence, strength, self-worth or natural disinterest in men.

There are men who purposely try to make women jealous to gain attention for themselves. It strokes this type of man’s ego for a sign that the woman cares, is attracted, or has feelings for him.

There can be a woman who does not even want the man and he will use another woman who is interested in him to start trouble with the woman who does not want anything to do with him.

Men who behave within this manner are ignorant and immature.

When certain men cheat on women instead of the women getting angry at and/or attacking the other woman they should go after the man responsible for creating whatever drama.

Some individuals are so backward and twisted.

There were men who liked me, would get jealous over another man being around me and, I did not want either one of them.

I did not find the jealousy flattering at all- it was a complete turn off!

 

 

 

Happy To Be Single

 

Some people act as if marriage is a badge of honor.

Marriage is an institution I never admired or desired.

I knew since childhood I was not ever going to get married.

The idea of having a boyfriend or lover did not appeal to me either.

I did not want any man sitting up underneath me every day- and I still don’t.

I do not like kissing or cuddling with the opposite sex.

I do not need attention, affection, or support from the opposite sex- I never have. The thought is inconceivable to me.

A romantic relationship with anyone is out of the question there is no chance of it ever happening.

The other person would just be left hurt, disappointed, scorned and/or defeated by their inability to get a rise out of me heart-wise or psychologically if their rejection or hurt initiated them to retaliate against me within any way.

I know this for a fact.

 

 

I have already been through this situation many years ago with men who got mad at me for not wanting them. I was a heart-breaker without a conscious and without even trying to be.

I was not a monster I just do not understand the certain feelings of others that I myself do not have. Nor do I want to understand them when it comes to love relationships.

And- forget about sex! The human penis has always been a huge turn off to me.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. What may look good to one person may not look good to another.

I never cared what anyone thought about the way I looked. I was always considered very attractive but what mattered was that I truly like the way that I looked even if no one else in the world did.

My self-esteem was never built on the judgment of others.

I value myself and I am very self-confident. I value one’s character over anything.

I was born to be single as far as I am concerned.

I am single yet romantically unavailable, I would not have myself any other way.

Self-Love, Confidence  And Fulfillment  Comes From Within

 

Happy Times: Strong Family Ties

 

There are a lot of fond memories I have of life with various family members at particular times.

Yet the most favorite times was spent with my mother.

I remember when I was around five or six, and my mother and I were living in our own apartment in Long Island City, New York.

We had moved from my grandmother’s house in Queens Village.

One of my aunts had eventually moved not too far away from us into that area later on too.

 

My great grandmother lived in Manhattan. I forgot where my uncle was living at the time.

The rest of my extremely large family were all over the place from different boroughs to different states.

My mother and I shared some good times there in Queensbridge before we moved back to our family home when the neighborhood area started to get bad.

I loved the environment we were in. I loved the things we used to do together. I liked our apartment. I loved the school I went to and my little best friend whose name was Kim.

I had a wonderful early childhood of bonding, loving, learning, growing and having fun.

 

 

 

 

Fake People Are So Easy To See Through!

 

It is hilarious how some people are in toxic relationships and pretend to be happy when they know they’re really not.

They put on a show for others, however, those of us with true insight see and know the truth.

Genuine happiness or contentment is not validated by acts of pretense for the public eye.

No one with discernment is fooled by the phony displays.

Authentic people are secure and don’t go around trying to prove to anyone the love, peace, happiness or fulfillment they have inside.

There is a big difference between sharing out of the propensity to be open and helpful, and sharing with the intent to put on airs.

 

 

Marriage

And further, submit to one another out of reverence for Christ. For wives, this means submit to your husbands as to the Lord. For a husband is the head of his wife as Christ is the head of the church. He is the Savior of his body, the church. As the church submits to Christ, so you wives should submit to your husbands in everything. For husbands, this means love your wives, just as Christ loved the church. He gave up his life for her to make her holy and clean, washed by the cleansing of God’s word. He did this to present her to himself as a glorious church without a spot or wrinkle or any other blemish. Instead, she will be holy and without fault. In the same way, husbands ought to love their wives as they love their own bodies. For a man who loves his wife actually shows love for himself. No one hates his own body but feeds and cares for it, just as Christ cares for the church. And we are members of his body. As the Scriptures say, “A man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one.” This is a great mystery, but it is an illustration of the way Christ and the church are one. So again I say, each man must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband. -Ephesians 5:21-33

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God originally designed the first couple to be the perfect union between a man and a woman to form the beautiful foundation of the family.

They were meant to love one another purely, and to live in utter peace, blessing and happiness to honor God.

When the fall came the sanctity of the union and its elements became tainted.

In a world full of sin -totally contrary to how life was divinely arranged- people do what they want to do and live how they want live, however, God’s standards haven’t changed.

What is called “marriage” today is still intended to be the loving, unselfish, respectful, God-honoring union between a man and a woman. It is the covenant in which sexual intercourse and the conception of offspring should only take place within.

The only difference, and huge problem now, compared to the beginning of creation is that we no longer live within an ultimate state of glory. Our world is cursed and as a people we are far from perfect. So, there will always be discord, incompatibility, disappointment, acts of volition and etc…. in all walks of life within all situations.

Marriage is hard work. Yet, it is still considered a wonderful institution to those who are truly dedicated to each other and who take their relationship seriously.

God made certain instructions to live by in order to keep us safe and healthy because he loves us. Nevertheless, the same kind of sin goes on within certain marriages that goes on outside of marriage.

There are married couples who decide to proceed with abortions if they don’t want or no longer desire to have any more children.

There are married couples who commit adultery regularly or who have had an affair some time or another.

Marriage doesn’t prevent couples from getting venereal diseases, and it doesn’t guarantee people to be spared of any other repercussion or action that others do outside of wedlock.

It is about putting God first by surrendering to his authority and obeying his guidance for our lives that make circumstances and situations turn out more favorable. In doing what God advises we are able to avoid many unnecessary troubles and complications.

We are always going to have difficulties in this world but if we let God lead and take control things work out for the best, according to his plan.

 

Loner

There are people who wanted to come into my life and be around me but I didn’t want to be bothered with them at all. I was civil, however, I didn’t want to be their friend or to maintain any connection to them.

Some people I just don’t like and I don’t have the patience or tolerance to make allowances.

Those that I’m compatible with intellectually and/or personality wise who I easily get along with and have great communication and rapport with keep in contact and then we go our separate ways.

I prefer intervals rather than to constant association periodic encounters suit me just fine.

I deal with and come into contact with many people through work and local travel yet I have no desire to develop a personal relationship with anyone.

I love being a loner it brings to me satisfaction.

I don’t need to be among a crowd of others to have fun or to have a really good time. I don’t need to lean on others for advice or support.

I’ve always been this way and this mode of life has been fulfilling to me under my circumstances as an individual with preternatural nature and unconventional outlooks.

To each his or her own and I’m certainly doing my own terms within my own way.

Go Figure

When the past comes to reflect without intent there are messages to take notice of that hint to certain information relevant to the present.

As I look at my present where what shines on me are those who share the brightness of my light.

When I look back at the darkness where there are the undesirables that came to surround me to hover and to create a permanent shadow.

In the distant past:

A female named Cherilyn Festus I had met when I was about ten she was fifteen and had moved on my block. Already Cherilyn had a reputation for sucking penis. Her nickname was “Head Hunter”.

Cherilyn’s breath smelled real bad even when she returned back to the neighborhood years later to shack up with a Jamaican guy on the block who’d constantly disrespect her and who she financially supported with the money she’d gotten through financial aid and an inheritance, I think.

Her so-called friends would use her and take advantage of her for her credit card and the little bit of money that she had.

She was supposed to be going to school to become an accountant instead she ended up with no job, no home, and a african man who she shacked up with in order to keep him in the country before he dumped her whoring bummy ass.

(The Jamaican guy before the African had been cheating on Cherilyn the entire time they were together and had a child just as old as the relationship between them that she didn’t know about and moved the mother of the children into his home not too long after Cherilyn moved out).

The recent past:

A lady that I worked with four years ago that actually was a client of mine as she suffered from depression went by the name of Rose.

Rose was the exact same age as me at the time which was forty-one. She had a twenty-one year old daughter, an eighteen year old son, an eighteen month old daughter, and a newborn daughter that was a week old.

The ex husband of her first two children came by the house where she lived asking her for money to support his new wife or girlfriend with.

Rose’s present husband had disrespected her and her oldest daughter in front of me more than once and acknowledged while I was there that her and her daughter both love babies and sex.

This husband of Rose’s had a woman on the side who was the aunt of her oldest daughter’s boyfriend’s ex girlfriend who’d both the husband and the boyfriend would visit together.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that her daughter was six or seven months pregnant.

The husband told me himself directly in front of her that he wanted the one year old child that they shared together but that he didn’t want the newborn.

“So you don’t love her?” Rose had asked.

There was a lot more going on and to this story as the couple constantly fought, too much to write about, and how she was being used and taken advantage of by her own stupidity.

What I had gotten was a close up view of looking through the unfortunate lives of these others that believe it or not thought their shit didn’t stink.

Yet people like me who’d never ended up in situations like these and more, and would never think to as that lifestyle and way of mentality was never in the cards, are discarded as the ones to look down on just because we never got fucked up.