Love Spell? Oh No, I Don’t Think So!

 

I am not going to mention any names but he knows who he is.

Since around Sunday on February 5, 2023 I noticed a few love/attraction/ lust spells tried to be worked upon me.

It began with acknowledgement of the man lusting after me -sexually desiring me- with the attempt to also get me to have a sexual as well as physical attraction to this guy.

Then I began to receive messages that this guy likes me very much.

In the days following, the essence of the love spell relayed to me the other feelings that are intended to sway me.

The motive is to have me like, care for, and possibly fall in love with this guy so I will be drawn to him.

I guess he thinks if he can make me feel this way that I will jump into bed with him.

He thinks that if I have sex with him because of the love spell then walk away from me afterwards that I will somehow be hurt emotionally.

This would be his way of retaliating against me for rejecting him by using an “unnatural” method (love-magic/witchcraft).

I understand that he or his ego may be hurt but witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not and never has worked on me mentally or emotionally I am far too strong for that.

I am sensitive to energy so I can pick up on the essence and the intent.

I do not understand why some guys have the mentality that they can hurt women by using them for sex.

Every woman is not the same and they do not hold the mentality of being disgraced by negative men who try to humiliate and degrade them in that manner.

There are women who use men for sex too and do not care.

He probably believes in his ignorant mind that I would be hurt the most because I am not the type who goes to bed with anyone at all. So, if he sleeps with me by doing witchcraft then talks badly about me with lies and whatever other stupid games he would be avenged.

He is sick in my opinion.

Love spells should not be done at all- but if they are done- at least people should do them with good/honest intentions instead of selfish ones that intend to hurt others just to have one’s way with them.

Aside from all that, witchcraft/black magic/voodoo is real even if certain people do not believe that it works.

The supernatural instance does not affect everyone but a lot of people do become under the influence of it. If witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not work on a person mentally, emotionally or physically it can work on them spiritually or materially- through finances and other means.

No matter what, God is always stronger than the devil that is why I am continuously kept aware. I am so grateful and thankful to the Lord for looking out and keeping me protected.

I remember years ago another guy worked a love spell on me to try to get me to love, marry him, and have babies with him.

I do not like people who do these things with ulterior motives to suit themselves, especially against another person’s will.

Why want someone who does not want you back? There is a world full of people on the planet.

What is important is that for people who are interested in relationships to find one’s who are best suited for them.

Right now, with the current guy, I find this action of his kind of exciting as I wonder how much further he will go. I even have a smile on my face at this love spell.

I am a fierce spiritual warrior and I am ready for the battle that God will take care of!

 

 

 

 

Riding The Wave Of Peace: My Unwavering Peace Of Mind

 

Fortunately, peace of mind cannot be purchased because if so then it could just as easily be stolen.

Some people search for peace of mind through the presence of other people or through the gaining of material assets and worldly pleasures- none of which are the true origin of where peace of mind lays.

My peace of mind always originated within my spirituality, the person I am, the mentality I hold- the essence that beholds. Inner depth of foundation.

My peace of mind is not contingent upon circumstance or chance.

During a wild storm of a hectic life season, I remain cool and calm because what appears hectic to another is a tidal wave that I ride like a breeze.

 

 

 

 

My Spiritual Connection: Preternatural

 

 

It is wonderful to have spiritual gifts. To be able to see and feel in to the unknown.

To have accurate dreams and visions of beyond where I preternaturally interact within the supernatural.

It is what I am.

By birth, I have one footstep here into this physical plane while my other foot is stepped out inside the spiritual realm.

I am partially experiencing both worlds and whole-heartedly Intune to both.

I am here, but not here.

There have been mysteries revealed to me, spiritual essences revealed to me, revelations revealed to me.

I have a lot of wisdom, knowledge, and understanding flowing around inside of me.

God my creator remains with me.

I can tell God anything. He totally understands me. I am completely straight with him; I always have been.

The good, the bad, and the ugly- I have never been shy or afraid to speak my words of truth to God.

No matter what. God always comes through for me. He speaks back to me in so many ways including through nature.

Everything is made up of energy. We are all energy. The energy made up by my nature is the way that God designed me to be.

Whether I have a complaint, or just feeling my joy, God is there with his open-arms, extraordinary comprehension and incredible forces of power to aid, advise, and to protect.

No matter what may go on or happen in general in life- may it be through unexpected events or whatever else- I know that everything will be alright and will turn out in my favor as it always has since the days of my youth.

 

 

 

 

 

Filled With A Peace And Joy Through Grace

 

I was so filled with happiness and contentment yesterday that I wanted to cry tears of joy. 
 
I was so touched by the granting of a situation I hoped for, desired, and needed as it became tangible. A few days ago, it was relayed to me. Now it has been applied as I made connection to my request. 
 
All bestowed to me through faith, prayer, and the Lord’s continuing hand to watch over my life in ways that surpass what we may ask or understand. 
 
It is the little things that count with me. They are big blessings because God handled and took heed as I just trusted and waited for an outcome. 
 
It is not all about what the Lord constantly does for us, but the love, concern, and value that he places on us that motivates his actions. 
 
Even at times when situations in life seem or appear to go wrong, God is making everything right. 
 
In my circumstances, I could have just settled for a particular area of something that I didn’t find suitable to my liking or well-being.

However, I humbly looked at the one who could and would decide best according to what was befitting. And, I just had to give open thanks and praise! 

 

 


 
 
 
 

Twisted And Ignorant People: My Spirituality Is Too Strong

 

 

I do not write for the hell of it. Yes,  writing is one of my natural talents, my passion. I write because I love to do it, but it is the Holy Spirit that inspires and moves me to do so. Divine energy is the driving force.

About a week or two ago, it came to me that I was “Vindicated” in the Amazon situation.

It has to be about Amazon in some form or fashion because nothing else was going on for it to be about anything else.

The truth must have totally came out- although if it had not, that still would not have made me any less justified. 
 
It does not really matter what people think or believe; it only matters what God knows. He is the only one who holds the keys to our true destiny. 
 
I appreciate that the Lord let the truth prevail as he always does sooner or later, but we do not need others to validate what we know for a fact. 
 
Michael Gonzalez comes to my blog primarily every Friday now instead of everyday or every other day like he used to. He has been doing this for three or four weeks now. He is still unable to move on. I have that affect on assholes 😹😂.

Sometimes Michael and others try to get slick and disguise themselves through that iCloud Private Relay shit that they think is completely anonymous. In fact, Michael came to my blog last night. 
 
These people feed off negativity. They wish they could find dirt on me. However, there is none. 
 
They keep viewing my posts about the caul, voodoo, and spiritual gifts. If they are looking for a way to attack me spiritually- they had better think again! 
 
You see, I will always be ahead of people like them. I have dreams, I see visions, I get premonitions etc….

Of course, I do not reveal everything that I know and see. I was not born yesterday. I have been on this earth for forty-seven years; I have been gifted with extra sensory perception for all of my life.

When I was a child, I was not ordinary, I was extremely aware. A gift can save our lives as I could share many stories from now into the past.

But God gifted me for a reason, as he did certain others, and no one can stop his purpose for us. It is up to us in particular whether we use our spiritual gifts for good or evil.

I am African American and Native American, so I have extra power within the bloodline. My African ancestry as well as my American Indian Cherokee and Blackfoot are deeply inherent in spirituality. 
 
So, they can dig their own graves. 

 

 

 

The Company One Keeps

 

As a sojourner I continue to listen to God over listening and trusting in the world

I will never stop learning, growing and being made into the individual that he created me to be.

We who live in spirit should constantly beware and be wise.

I was always careful who I associated myself with.

I had no desire to be bothered or to allow just anyone into my circle.

Of course, everyone who comes into our lives are not meant to stay, they do not always have our best interest.

Some who mean us well are not always meant to stay either yet God may allow them to cross our paths as stones to step upon.

I have known these truths early on within life and it had done me a great service to heed warnings, to recognize red flags, and to appreciate whatever enlightenment there was to receive or uncover upon my journey.

 

 

 

 

Epiphanies Of A Sojourner

 

I genuinely feel good. I feel at peace. I feel free.

I am so inspired by encouraging words answered to me by the Holy Spirit.

God speaks to us in many ways if we are listening- whether if it is through scripture, a message, a person, and so on.

It is great to be led by spirit and to walk our path with divine guidance.

 

Working It

 

I have again taken on additional hours of work but not to the point in which I would get drained.

I am one who thinks ahead for the future, I always incorporate a backup plan.

I never keep just one job.

I make sure to have another lined up at all times. It has been this way for years. I will always work two jobs.

As long as there is balance and energy one can manifest what they desire with the power of the Lord.

Everything in my life will always be okay and turn out good as it usually does because God is in control of my life. He always has been even during the time period years ago when I was angry at him.

I say this not as to brag but as to encourage and inspire from my own personal experience. God is the one who has the last and only word worth listening to when it comes to how one will thrive and survive.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Principalities Disguised Within People: The Devil’s Playground

 

Yes, there are people in this world who are actually demonic themselves, nevertheless, the devil often uses or works through negative people in order to distract us or to cause conflict and confusion.

The devil will even manifest in people who claim to be Christian or followers of God.

When we are of the light attacks will always come against us yet we have authority over evil and are equipped for the challenges.

Remember, the Lord fights our battles, and when we come up against those who are tools for the devil we are not affected.

The darkness can never overpower the light as I have said so many times before.

My Words Of Insight And Wisdom

 

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone no matter how young one is.

Whether older or younger we can all go at any time with or without warning.

There are those who need to wake up to learn although some never will.

Life is too short to waste time on things that don’t really matter and that are not worth one’s energy or time.

When I look back on my life I look back in peace and without regret.

I had a wonderful mother, dog, and I have a supernatural gift that God gave to me along my journey all to prepare, show love, and quip me.

Life is a deep experience and one not to take lightly or for granted.

These encounters of life are all a test. Will each of us pass? Some will some will not only God knows for sure.

The most important things to remember while we are still here are to spend each day living wisely by valuing dear people and the time we have, developing and maintaining a sincere/genuine relationship with God, doing the best we can to live right step by step with the help and guidance of the Holy Spirit.

 

 

 

 

LaToya: Blessed, Never Stressed!

 

I am so blessed. Everything within my life is going so well.

I have all of the things that I need, I am not lacking for anything, and I have particular loyal and wonderful people around me who are genuine.

Ever since I was a little girl, I have noticed the luck and protection I continuously have which is really just a result of the high favor that is bestowed upon me by my creator.

I am the daughter of the highest and no one can touch me.

The knowledge, wisdom, confidence and strength that I carry is fierce!

I love myself dearly, I respect myself highly. I am very proud of the individual that I am.

I have lived a clean, meaningful life. I am a good person. I always possessed energy that generated and that radiated at a high vibration.

I have an authentic purity that no one can contaminate or destroy.

I never cared about what people thought or said. I have a mind of my own, no one can control me and no one can stop me from doing anything that I want to do or put my mind to.

I know that I am a very rare and unique individual, I always was and that is what makes me so special and why people who are close to me love me so much.

However, I never needed the acceptance or approval of others to feel good about myself. I have that inner self-assurance and foundation within my true identity as one who is highly gifted.

I never worry about anything.

Everything is always going to turn out okay as it always has because God is the one who is in control and he fights all of my battles. No one on this earth gets away with the negativity they put out.

They will answer for it one way or another whether it is in this life or when they enter into the next (when they die).

We can absolutely take up for ourselves, fight for what we believe in, and express our truths but when it comes to revenge no one will handle it better than the Lord!

Leave it all to God.

We have to laugh at ignorant people and people who do dirt because all they are doing is setting themselves up for their own downfalls. So, continue to be happy, enjoy the peace and authority the Lord gives over us and don’t follow the perversity of this sick world. latoya lawrence.

Age Is No Factor When God Decides To Bless You

I am at the age of forty-six now. However, it did not take me to get a specific age to acquire particular knowledge.

I gained wisdom early on within my youth. I knew what life was about by the age of twelve.

I was born with spiritual and intellectual gifts that made me wise in ways that certain people did not appreciate. Those who were not on the level themselves who gave off negative energy.

I knew things outside the ordinary range, beyond the normal sensory range of contact/area. I had the faculty to perceive things or events in the past, present, and future.

The scientific name for what I was born with is extrasensory perception/clairvoyance.

I have enhanced by learning extra, but I already knew much of what I know now that many people take years to learn through age, and by their own personal experience. Through experience within things some people still do not grasp on correctly and they walk through life with false perception and misrepresentation of life factors.

I had a lot of problems with negative people growing up because I was bright.

However, I do not understand why certain people thought that because they did not know particular things when they were younger that I was not supposed to either while I was at a young age.

People have a tendency to generalize and to reflect their inadequacies or insecurities onto others, especially when the aspect is common to them.

Some people do not want to accept another person who is younger than them to know more or just as much as they do because of ego or reasons of bias.

In fact, I knew more than they did in regard to particular matters within their older age. If I tried to correct an older person when they made an error, or tried to explain where I was coming from, they would react nasty or disdainful.

Not all people reacted within this fashion toward me only a “specific type”.

When I was younger there were positive people who told me and my mother that they were nowhere near the level that we was on when they were at my age.

I have been called unique, rare, strange, brilliant, and crazy (by jealous people). I don’t care. To me, I am just a spiritual person having a human experience continuing to grow on my journey in trusting and understanding my purpose and relationship with God.

I was always ahead of my time, advanced in ways that came without anyone having to teach me.

My mother and I were able to teach ourselves as youngsters. When we went to school, we exceled in the subjects we were strong in.

School did not make us smart, though, we were already adept to begin with.

Yes. One can be self-taught within a lot of things, especially within life experience.

School does not necessarily make one bright.

Education is the process of learning, acquiring knowledge of or skill in something by study, encounter, or being taught. The setting is irrelevant when things are ascertained.

I know plenty of people who attended school who are not smart.

Intelligence is something one is born with.

Knowledge or information is gained, and comes through and within various forms.

It is whether or not one is able to grasp what they learn.

As a person, and as an adult, I have never treated one inferior just because they were younger. I never tried to use my age as a weapon.

Just because one is older does not necessarily make one wiser.

There are young people who can teach an older person something just as there are older people who can teach the young many things.

I don’t consider myself to know everything at all. And I am definitely not the smartest person in the world. I am ahead within the gifts I possess, and I have a lot of knowledge, but I don’t want to know everything. I just know I have a heightened sense and connection to a realm within life that I was always familiar with.

Acknowledging our capabilities is not an expression of conceit or an exaggerated opinion of oneself when one is level-headed and logical. God wants us to be aware of who we are and the things that he equipped within us to have and accomplish to show his glory. Within our ability is a sample of God’s incredibility.

I write this as an encouragement to those who have been mistreated by older folks that have a tendency to manipulate, corrupt, hold-back, or mislead, because they cannot stand to see a younger individual who did not mess up or get caught into the same perils of life they once did.

Instead of being an example to cheer one on, they would rather drag another down as that younger person may have been a reminder of all they could have been, or wanted to be at one time or another in life.

We are blessed with certain gifts that God bestows upon us and some of us are anointed at a very young age.

God makes no mistakes. Do not let anyone tell you what you are not, what you do not know, or what you are not capable of doing.

When God enables us for his intention no one can disable us through attempting to bring about our suspension.

 

 

 

My True Source Of Help

The Lord is my best friend. He is the one I go to for help.

Aside from my mother, I would depend on him before I would depend on anyone else.

God was always ready, willing, and able to help me even when I did not know that he had already taken charge of my situation ahead of time.

Isn’t he a mighty rock in the nick of time?!  

There are people we interact with and who help us out in life such as, parents, doctors, teachers, and so on, but none of them can bring aid or relief to us in the way that God does.

From my own personal experience, it has always been God who was able to fix and to correct my situation because he is the only one who truly knew every core of my inner being and where to operate.

I never needed a counselor, therapist, or shoulder to cry on (aside from my mother), ever in my life. All I needed was a spiritual advisor, and I speak the truth!

Only a higher power was able to solve my specific problem, conflict, or difficulty. Whatever it was that was missing only God could replace it for me.

It is still this way today.

A force to prevent me to seek help from where there is no requirement unto what would not be understood.

When my circumstance does occasionally arise, the affairs are derived mostly from a spiritual aspect that connects to my physical elemental situation.

God comprehends in the ultimate way that others cannot.

I lift up my eyes to the mountains where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth! -Psalms 121: 1-2

 

 

 

Spiritual Communication With The Lord

The Lord is so kind. He showed me his care as he does within so many ways.

Yesterday he sent me an unexpected message, answers along with guidance and encouragement to a situation I was sure of, yet had pondered through anyway.

Let not your heart be troubled. Trust in Godand trust also in me“. -John 14: 1 was the Lord’s address to me.

The life of God’s children is not easy; however, we should not be worried or anxious in our hearts. There is no reason for any of us to be troubled if we have accepted Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior.

We are not to be intimidated or frightened by the devil or by the magnitude of the evil and negativity in this world.

God let me know as a confirmation that it was okay to justifiably erase toxic people from my life without turning back. In fact, that it was a necessary act of spiritual, mental, and emotional cleansing.

We are to rid ourselves of those who speak negativity into our lives, and who try to weigh us down.

Commit your actions to the LORD, and your plans will succeed. The LORD has made everything for his own purposes, even the wicked for a day of disaster. Proverbs 16: 3

 

Accountable Within Our Gifts

God entrusts each of us with gifts and responsibilities that we are accountable to him for.

As faithful servants we are to show good stewardship by using our gifts wisely.

We can creatively use our talents and skills in a variety of unique ways.

When we give of ourselves without wanting anything in return, we graciously touch the heart of God.

Many of us gain satisfaction in doing what we love.

When we enjoy what we do, how we spend our time, and why we continue on in our efforts we receive a celestial gratification.

It is a pleasure that is more rewarding than worldly satisfaction, or fulfillment.

Our gifts are automatically utilized for the greater benefit of all who we touch when who we touch is a benefit utilized automatically.

What God Inspired Me To Say Today

I felt good as I mostly do when I awoke this morning and the Holy Spirit put something on my heart to write. God sometimes uses our own experience to inspire others. Maybe someone needs to hear this message:

As I have said before within the past which still holds true for me today.

There is so much for me to be grateful and thankful for. I am very blessed.

I thank God for waking me up in the morning until the day he finally calls me home to be united with him, and to be reunited with certain loved ones who I know made it there on the celestial plane to rejoice with him.

I am thankful for my good health, peace of mind, spirituality, confidence, strength, and jobs that allow me to provide and to take care of myself. I do not have to depend on anyone. I am also grateful and thankful for all the other blessings granted to me by God.

I am one who has always been able to handle anything that came my way in life.

No matter what type of adversity I was always able to endure.

I was always able to deal with whatever it was that I had to walk through with faith. I did not have to rely on anybody.

I was never the type to run to anyone for help, or to be needy.

God had constantly given me everything that I needed to survive in this world.

Even when I have had to experience really tough, challenging times he was always there to see me through.

Satan himself might bring trouble into our lives, he especially likes to work through people, however, I am one able to stand against the schemes of the evil one.

As children of God, he has given us everything that we require to be victorious. God wants us to prevail.

If some may not feel that they have what it takes to overcome or to defeat one has to Go by what God says and not by what their shifting emotions tell them.

The Lord delivers us and he empowers us.

We believe as we enjoy our happy times therefore, we must believe when we go through our difficult times.

We are here to live for God not for this negative world around us and he has our backs time and time again.

Do not lose faith and do not lose heart. If there are times that one feels hopeless or alone do not be discouraged.

If one grows tired, or weary, do not be discouraged.

The Lord is always with us. He is always there within and beside us cheering us on.

God will absolutely protect us from anything directed toward us from the devil.

God prepares and equips his children to stand against the storms, tactics, and temptations of the evil one.

So, remain strong, and remain assured within oneself as well as holding on to that confidence in God.

Enjoy peace, comfort, love, and happiness given to us by the Lord. His power is within us all. All who belong to him. And, as children of our God we are ultimately powerful!

Remember all of the Lord’s promises and his day to day providence within our lives.

 

 

Supernatural Strength

No, I will not abandon you as orphans—I will come to you. -John 14:18

And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Advocate, who will never leave you. -John 14:16

I, yes I, am the one who comforts you. So why are you afraid of mere humans, who wither like the grass and disappear? -Isaiah 51:12

The LORD gives his people strength. The LORD blesses them with peace. -Psalms 29:11

I have always been an extraordinarily strong individual. One un-fazed, unbothered, and unaffected by the things that most ordinary people would not be able to handle or stay calm about.

I definitely was endowed with the peace and comfort that surpasses all understanding.

There are some that often looked at me in disbelief, wonder, and amazement.

People who genuinely knew me could detect the durable nature within me. The truth is always recognized by the wisdom of those who authentically walk in the light.

Usually when people doubt, are puzzled, shocked, or in a state of bewilderment and astonishment over the strength of another it is because they themselves do not possess that kind of emotional vigor.

People of the world are blind to the knowledge and power of the spirit and how the essence guides, provides and sustains the total state of one’s being.

Yes, I and others within the family of the spirit go through trials, hardships and difficulties, but we do not collapse, suffer, or grieve like others who walk in darkness or apart from the divine intervention that dwells from within.

I can manage anything- the invisible, the impossible, and the incredible- not because I am or have always been able, but because I am and have always been enabled through the capability of the one who manages all things.

A solid faith is a deliberate action that specially rewards us with unimaginable, inconceivable outcomes.

When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer. -Psalms 94:19

Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4:7

Now may the Lord of peace himself give you his peace at all times and in every situation. The Lord be with you all. -Thessalonians 3:16

All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. -2 Corinthians 1:3-4

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Daily Living

Like I have said before in the past the Corona Virus/Covid-19 pandemic has been a tragic situation for the world, a very unfortunate circumstance especially with the unexpected loss of loved ones that many had to suffer.

Nevertheless, life has not been an inconvenience to me at all in terms of lifestyle since this was practically my natural way of living to begin with.

There really was no major change or burden impacted on me.

I have enjoyed times and events but mostly I am a homebody who is quite comfortable in her own skin not requiring the constant presence of society.

For others who were used to frequently mingling outdoors or constantly hanging out and being very socially active I am sure the shutdown has certainly put a damper on things to say the least.

The happening is enough to drive a lot of people insane.

There is a supernatural comfort and strength the holy spirit provides in times defined by the world as tough to get through moments.

A worldly person’s hell may be a spiritual person’s haven due to the contrast in the differing life essence.

There is a beauty that shines, a light that glorifies, and a mighty power that sustains. I am so glad to be a recipient of that divine intervention.

Praise the Lord!

 

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Looking Into View

The snow that fell yesterday did not last for very long and the flakes did not stick. It is still cold and cloudy as for today.

Yesterday, a little after 4PM, I watched the Alfred Hitchcock flick “Rearview Window” cast with James Stewart, Grace Kelly, Thelma Ritter, Wendell Corey and Raymond Burr. This classic was entertaining. I enjoy old-time crafty, tasteful suspense.

A lot of film these days are filled with garbage, poorly made having no real depth. It is nice to innocently and adventurously escape into the creativity of well scripted cinema designed in fashionable settings that fit into an engaging interest. The contribution is a great enhancement for the audience that it suits.

As I look into the rearview window of my life, the nostalgic mirror of time reflects a host of good memories past events that will never be replaced but fondly remembered.

I never considered the world my home. I am just a sojourner passing through until I fulfill my purpose. Nevertheless, while here, I am consistently blessed with divine essence which imparts to me moments of ease and pleasure to comfort upon my journey.

Looking back, I have no detrimental life regrets I am filled with peace. Moving forward, I take the love inside that was built and nurtured within me from an infant into the path that will lead unto infinity.

 

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God’s Summon

My mother and I had gone through quite a few things and challenges through life for many years, years ago, yet we would always get through those situations remarkably and victoriously.

We, of course, experienced a lot of good times too along with plenty of really nice and supernatural blessings that had indeed come from God.

Even though, I still blamed God for having to go through negativity whether it was on account of people, principalities, or just the circumstances of living within a fallen world that I felt I didn’t ask to come into.

I have to admit that I was very strong in prayer and putting effort into developing a relationship with God to the best of my ability in trying to understand his will and plans back then.

Sometimes I did still have doubts about the authenticity of God’s goodness.

Whenever I would talk against him for whatever seemed to me to be unfair, cruel, or unright within life, my mother would always say that “It is not God, it is the people”. And she would always emphasize that God was good and how he was always good to her throughout her life.

My mother’s faith in the goodness of God was very strong compared to mine.

I always knew and believed in the power that he had but started to not completely trust in him as a good God as I focused more on the things I felt he allowed to happen in our personal lives, and within the world in general.

I couldn’t grasp God as truly being this loving, caring, reasonable source of light in a world full of permitted darkness. After all, nothing can go on unless God allows it too.

I looked at God as an evil or wrathful spirit looking to readily catch people in wrong-doing with the eagerness to punish or to send them to hell. I especially, believed that he had something personally against me and eventually came to the idea that it had to be other sources of light looking out and after me because I just couldn’t fathom how God worked sometimes.

It seems very contradicting to have been born with a caul and have God be against me (not saying that God is naturally against anyone). However, my mother along with a few others had told me that I sometimes would think “backwards”.

I cannot deny in all truth how God had been exceptional in our lives. Again, I think I focused more on the bad than the good things at times.

God has made a strong and grave stance to draw me back to him recently. He wants me to come to fully know and to understand the true nature of him, his word, and his glorious plans for me.

I never actually thought I’d speak these words. I was so angry at God for allowing witchcraft to be done on me as a child on up by jealous, envious, ill-minded individuals. And I had resented how the same types of toxic and undesirable individuals seemed to constantly be placed within my paths.

God wants me to know and to understand that he genuinely does love me. He wants me to focus totally on him and to have eternal life through the truth of his word and righteousness. He doesn’t want the devil to steal away and/or kill me with lies of where the source of my foundation, maintenance and protection resides.

God wants me to acknowledge and give glory to him. He wants me to use my spiritual gifts and experiences whether extraordinary or ordinary as testimony and encouragement instead of speaking against him out of any misinterpretation.

In order for me to comply the event had to be of sincerity and a true desire from within. As an authentic individual, I wanted everything to be from the heart; because that is how I operate. The spirit is definitely within me.

God didn’t knock on my door this time-he barged on in with urgency. An urgency of love and concern, an action he did not have to do. We have such little time here on earth and he wanted me to take heed to acknowledge his sovereignty and bring me closer to him.

In putting him first, he isn’t trying to hurt me he informed. He just wants me to learn to trust him while he takes care of the rest.

God doesn’t want my soul to be in jeopardy-and certainly not over a misunderstanding of who he is. God has a way of getting our attention even if it’s through a tragedy.

God knows our true hearts and motives and may correct but not punish out of unintentional error.

It is definitely true, he never abandons his children, even when some of us shy away from him. Even when I kept away he kept near not letting me fall. He won’t let anything separate those of us who truly belong to him.

Eternal Life/The Transition

I came across this post that, to me, is ultimately beautiful. Here it is:

(https://www.epm.org/blog/2020/Jun/3/loved-ones-experiencing-heaven)

What Are My Loved Ones Experiencing in the Present Heaven?

BY RANDY ALCORN  JUNE 3, 2020

A reader wrote, “I just finished the book Heaven. Knowing Jesus, I found it inspiring and well documented. I was disappointed there wasn’t more mentioned about the immediate Heaven, the one right after we leave this earth. I just lost a loved one and would like more information and clarity about what she is experiencing. I have read three books on Heaven, read a lot about the New Earth, but little about what happens when I die.”

While my book Heaven centers on the New Earth, the eternal Heaven, a few chapters deal with the present Heaven. When a Christian dies he enters what theologians call the “intermediate state,” a transitional period between life on Earth and the future resurrection to life on the New Earth. Usually when we talk about “Heaven,” we mean the place that Christians go when they die. When we tell our children “Grandma’s now in Heaven,” we’re referring to what I prefer to call the present Heaven (the word intermediate sometimes confuses people).

Books on Heaven often fail to distinguish between the intermediate and eternal states, using the one word—Heaven—as all-inclusive. But this is an important distinction. The present Heaven is a temporary lodging, a waiting place (a delightful one!) until the return of Christ and our bodily resurrection. The eternal Heaven, the New Earth, is our true home, the place where we will live forever with our Lord and each other. The great redemptive promises of God will find their ultimate fulfillment on the New Earth, not in the present Heaven. God’s children are destined for life as resurrected beings on a resurrected Earth.

Though the present Heaven is not our final destination, it’s a wonderful place, and it’s understandable that those who have had loved ones die in Christ wonder what life is like for them there. Based on the Bible’s teaching, we know several things: the present Heaven is a real (and possibly physical) place. Those who love Jesus and trust Him for their salvation will be with Him there, together with all who have died in Christ. We will be awake and cognizant. And because we will be with Jesus, it is “better by far” than our present existence.

The Present Heaven Is a Real Place

Heaven is normally invisible to those living on Earth. For those who have trouble accepting the reality of an unseen realm, consider the perspective of researchers who embrace string theory. Scientists at Yale, Princeton, and Stanford, among others, have postulated that there are ten unobservable dimensions and likely an infinite number of imperceptible universes. If this is what some scientists believe, why should anyone feel self-conscious about believing in one unobservable dimension, a realm containing angels and Heaven and Hell?

The Bible teaches that sometimes humans are allowed to see into Heaven. When Stephen was being stoned because of his faith in Christ, he gazed into Heaven: “Stephen, full of the Holy Spirit, looked up to heaven and saw the glory of God, and ­Jesus standing at the right hand of God. ‘Look,’ he said, ‘I see heaven open and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God’” (Acts 7:55-56). Scripture tells us not that Stephen dreamed this, but that he actually saw it.

Wayne Grudem points out that Stephen “did not see mere symbols of a state of existence. It was rather that his eyes were opened to see a spiritual dimension of reality which God has hidden from us in this present age, a dimension which none the less ­really does exist in our space/time universe, and within which ­Jesus now lives in his physical resurrected body, waiting even now for a time when he will return to earth.”

I agree with Grudem that the present Heaven is a space/time universe. He may be right that it’s part of our own universe, or it may be in a different universe. It could be a universe next door that’s normally hidden but sometimes opened. In any case, I don’t think God gave Stephen a vision in order to make Heaven appear physical. Rather, He allowed Stephen to see a present Heaven that was (and is) physical.

The prophet Elisha asked God to give his servant, Gehazi, a glimpse of the invisible realm. He prayed, “‘O Lord, open his eyes so he may see.’ Then the Lord opened the servant’s eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha” (2 Kings 6:17). Acts 7 and 2 Kings 6 are narrative accounts, historical in nature, not apocalyptic or parabolic literature. The text is clear that Stephen and Gehazi saw real things.

The Present Heaven May Be a Physical Place

If we look at Scripture, we’ll see considerable evidence that the present Heaven has physical properties. We’re told there are scrolls in Heaven, elders who have faces, martyrs who wear clothes, and even people with palm branches in their hands. There are musical instruments in the present Heaven, horses coming into and out of Heaven, and an eagle flying overhead in Heaven.

Many commentators dismiss the possibility that any of these passages in Revelation should be taken literally, on the grounds that the book of Revelation is apocalyptic literature, which is known for its figures of speech. But the book of Hebrews isn’t apocalyptic, it’s epistolary. Moses was told, in building the earthly Tabernacle, “Be sure that you make everything according to the pattern I have shown you here on the mountain.” If that which was built after the pattern was physical, might it suggest the original was also physical? The book of Hebrews seems to say that we should see Earth as a derivative realm and Heaven as the source realm.

Unlike God and the angels, who are in essence spirits (John 4:24; Hebrews 1:14), human beings are by nature both spiritual and physical. God did not create Adam as a spirit and place it inside a body. Rather, He first created a body, then breathed into it a spirit. There was never a moment when a human being existed without a body. We are not essentially spirits who inhabit bodies; we are essentially as much physical as we are spiritual. We cannot be fully human without both a spirit and a body.

Given the consistent physical descriptions of the intermediate Heaven and those who dwell there, it seems possible—though this is certainly debatable—that between our earthly lives and our bodily resurrection God may grant us some temporary physical form that will allow us to function as human beings while in that unnatural state “between bodies” awaiting our bodily resurrection. If so, that would account for the repeated depictions of people now in Heaven occupying physical space, wearing clothes and crowns, carrying branches, and having body parts (for example, Lazarus’s finger in Luke 16:24).

A fundamental article of the Christian faith is that the resurrected Christ now dwells in Heaven. We are told that His resurrected body on Earth was physical and that this same, physical Jesus ascended to Heaven, from where He will one day return to Earth. It seems indisputable, then, to say that there is at least one physical body in the present Heaven. If Christ’s body in the intermediate Heaven has physical properties, it stands to reason that others in Heaven could have physical forms as well, even if only temporary ones.

To avoid misunderstanding, I need to emphasize a critical doctrinal point. According to Scripture, we do not receive resurrection bodies immediately after death. Resurrection does not happen one at a time. If we have intermediate forms in the intermediate Heaven, they will not be our true bodies, which we leave behind at death.

So if we are given material forms when we die (and I’m suggesting this possibility only because of the many Scriptures depicting physical forms in the present Heaven), they would be temporary vessels. Any understanding of people having physical forms immediately after death that would lead us to conclude that the future resurrection has already happened or is unnecessary is emphatically wrong!

We’ll Be Together with Christ and Those Who Love Him

As painful as death is, and as right as it is to grieve it (Jesus did), we on this dying Earth can also rejoice for our loved ones who are in the presence of Christ. When they die, those covered by Christ’s blood are experiencing the joy of Christ’s presence in a place so wonderful that Christ called it Paradise.

As the apostle Paul tells us, though we naturally grieve at losing loved ones, we are not “to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope” (1 Thessalonians 4:13). Our parting is not the end of our relationship, only an interruption. We have not “lost” them, because we know where they are. And one day, we’re told, in a magnificent reunion, they and we “will be with the Lord forever. Therefore encourage each other with these words” (1 Thessalonians 4:17-18).

Peter tells us, “You will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ” (2 Peter 1:11). God is the main welcomer, no doubt.  All eyes are on Jesus, the Cosmic Center, the Source of all Happiness. But wouldn’t it make sense for the secondary welcomers to be God’s people, those who touched our lives, and whose lives we touched? Wouldn’t that be a great greeting party?

Jesus said, “There is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents” (Luke 15:10). Angels probably rejoice too, but the ones living in the presence of angels Jesus refers to are likely God’s people, redeemed human beings, some of who knew and loved and prayed for the conversion of these sinners, and now are beholding the answers to their prayers. Wouldn’t such people be a natural part of the welcome committee when we enter Heaven?

I envision glorious reunions and amazing introductions, conversations and storytelling at banquets and on walks, jaws dropping and laughter long and hard, the laughter of Jesus being the most contagious.

When I enter Heaven, I look forward to being hugged by my dear mother, who I led to Christ when I was a new believer in high school. Then I picture Mom, that broad smile on her face, presenting me with my sixth grandchild. In 2013 my daughter Angie had a miscarriage. This was a very painful time for our family, but one more reason I am looking forward to Heaven. When this happens, I will look at Jesus, nodding my thanks to the One with the nail-scarred hands, and I will not let my grandchild or my mother go.

Those in the Present Heaven Are Awake and Alive

That we’ll receive “a rich welcome” necessitates that at death, we will be awake and conscious. Christ depicted Lazarus and the rich man as conscious in Heaven and Hell immediately after they died (Luke 16:22-31). Jesus told the dying thief on the cross, “Today you will be with me in paradise” (Luke 23:43). The apostle Paul said that to die was to be with Christ (Philippians 1:23), and to be absent from the body was to be present with the Lord (2 Corinthians 5:8). After their deaths, martyrs are pictured in Heaven, crying out to God to bring justice on Earth (Revelation 6:9-11).

These passages clearly teach that there is no such thing as “soul sleep,” or a long period of unconsciousness between life on Earth and life in Heaven. The phrase “fallen asleep” (in 1 Thessalonians 4:13 and similar passages) is a euphemism for death, describing the body’s outward appearance. The spirit’s departure from the body ends our existence on Earth. The physical part of us “sleeps” until the resurrection, while the spiritual part of us relocates to a conscious existence in Heaven (Daniel 12:2-3; 2 Corinthians 5:8).

Every reference in Revelation to human beings talking and worshiping in Heaven prior to the resurrection of the dead demonstrates that our spiritual beings are conscious, not sleeping, after death. (Nearly everyone who believes in soul sleep believes that souls are disembodied at death; it’s not clear how disembodied beings could sleep, because sleeping involves a physical body.)

As awake and conscious beings, those in Heaven are free to ask God questions (Revelation 6:9-11), which means they have an audience with God. It also means they can and do learn. They wouldn’t be asking questions if they already knew the answers. In Heaven, people desire understanding and pursue it. There is also time in the present Heaven. People are aware of time’s passing and are eager for the coming day of the Lord’s judgment. God answers that the martyrs must “rest a little longer.” Waiting requires the passing of time. I see no reason to believe that the realities of this passage apply only to one group of martyrs and to no one else in Heaven. We should assume that what is true of them is also true of our loved ones already there, and it will be true of us when we die.

Life in Christ’s Presence Is Better by Far

Paul says, “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.… I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far” (Philippians 1:21, 23). Life in the Heaven we go to when we die, where we’ll dwell prior to our bodily resurrection, is “better by far” than living here on Earth under the Curse, away from the direct presence of God.

Paul spoke from experience. He had actually been taken into Heaven years before writing those words (2 Corinthians 12:1–6). He knew firsthand what awaited him in Paradise. He wasn’t speculating when he called it gain. To be in the very presence of Jesus, enjoying the wonders of His being, and to be with God’s people and no longer subject to sin and suffering? “Better by far” is an understatement!

King David wrote, “In Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore” (Psalm 16:11, NKJV). In the presence of God, there’s nothing but joy. Those who live in the presence of Christ find great happiness in worshiping God and living as righteous beings in rich fellowship in a sinless environment. And because God is continuously at work on Earth, the saints watching from Heaven have a great deal to praise Him for, including God’s drawing people on Earth to Himself (Luke 15:7, 10).

Our loved ones now in Heaven live in a place where joy is the air they breathe, and nothing they see on earth can diminish their joy. Their joy doesn’t depend on ignorance, but perspective, drawn from the Christ in whose presence they live. If you’re following Jesus, no doubt your loved ones there are rejoicing over you. The great cloud of witnesses of Hebrews 12 is now up in the stands of Heaven and watching you on the same playing field they once ran on. They’re looking forward to hearing Jesus say “Well done” to you, and they may also commend you for your service of Jesus!

But those in the present Heaven are also looking forward to Christ’s return, their bodily resurrection, the final judgment, and the fashioning of the New Earth from the ruins of the old. Only then and there, in the eternal Heaven, the home Jesus is preparing for us, will all evil and suffering and sorrow be washed away by the hand of God. Only then and there will we experience the fullness of joy intended by God and purchased for us by Christ, who we will forever praise!

 

Eyes Of The Soul: Sweet Reward

Many people hate or have hated god for personal reasons of their own even if they won’t admit to it.

As a true spiritual person who was definitely born with the caul, and the family lineage to back up naturally inherent occult power, I speak from experience.

When I was a young girl, even though I had a lot of advantages, fortunate luck, and blessings, I never felt that God was truly good or any sincere positive energy from him.

I have extremely intense empathic faculties, and I am usually on point. So God is not perfect and good within my definition of what a good and perfect god really is, or should be.

When I went through hard times as a youngster on up I’d often see an extremely shiny twinkle in the sign of a cross appear before me, acknowledging to me “I’m here, I’m with you, everything is going to be alright”.

Everything did turn out alright, however, what was the purpose of going through the nonsense of whatever would be the trial within the first place? All these tribulations did was cause me to resent God even more than I already had.

I was already disgusted in the way he designed certain things within creation. Then, to include me as one of the beings to inhabit a life here on this Earth filled with sick people and morbid principalities in which I have no tolerance or patience for, was a complete insult.

If I could have used my gifts to rid the world that I did not ask to come into from all of the things that turned me off I would have done it immediately. If I was able to have gotten off the Earth and into a special place where what’s going on here wasn’t permitted, and/or where certain people and things didn’t exist, the circumstance would have been even better.

Years ago, when I gave god the benefit of the doubt in regard to my perceptions of him, I was always disappointed by him and my outcomes. When I constantly put myself first is when I noticed I was the happiest and more fulfilled.

If I truly don’t like or don’t want something within my life then it is not going to work out; it has always been this way with me. I have to do it my way. I am too strong and self-willed.

I wholeheartedly love myself, my mind-the way I think, and the way I am.

Having extrasensory perception/second-sight enabled me to experience life within many extraordinary modes that I have learned and discovered quite a lot from.

Later on, when I fully became aware of my ancestors and orishas presence around me things opened up further and brought to me a clearer understanding of who really had my best interest in spirit.

God is often called a god of love, he is nothing but a disgrace to me. If God is supposed to be the true definition of love, perfection, fairness or truth I don’t want any of the perversion around me.

The devil, is often blamed for the negative effects initiated by so called inborn sin and the inequities of the world. Yet, who allows the devil to reign upon the physical/material plane? Why wasn’t he stopped at the beginning?

The devil and god are one and the same to me.

Oh so many answers and hidden truths that have been revealed to me that I’d never openly share or discuss! I just had to speak my mind.

I definitely know what love, fairness, and truth is and no god of perfection would operate within the manner in which he does.

The energy influence of god years ago was suffocating, manipulative, and unnatural.

Spiritually, I breathe free now, unbound by blockage, and I continue to flourish through the natural beauty of my surrounding essence.

 

Homework

When I began class a while back there were also online academic tasks assigned to us students for additional study in which I took advantage of and enjoyed. Now that school was temporarily cancelled due to the circumstances befalling the world right now (Corona Virus) the available online courses are primary.

I find it a very serviceable resource to be able to utilize my studies within the comforts of home for limitless periods of time any day of the week just as long as the educational instrument is being implemented.

My teacher had phoned me and other classmates last month notifying us of a possible further online study program, I haven’t heard anything from her since. I ran into a girl who attends my class a week ago and she asked me if I know when school is going to start back up because she misses the class. We did have a wonderful environmental setting, good teacher, and sufficient preparation.

I told her that originally the teacher had informed to me back in March that we may resume about the third week of April, however, apparently after listening to governor Cuomo address that New York will not be opening up currently or any time soon, I logically assume that our attending school will be put on hold a little while longer until health risks are at a significant or absolute low.

In the meantime, I have no worries or complaints and treasure this period as a sign that has demonstrated to me luck and a transition into supplementary better things to come as one “spiritually connected/in tune”.

 

 

Energy And Vibration

 

A transcendental occurrence is momentously taking place.

The universe is doing a fantastic/magnificent job filtering out the atmospheric energy of extramundane impurities.

A transformation for the better is definitely in motion regardless of those who are not able to see, or recognize this specific metamorphosis.


My Connection To The Spirit World Is A Part Of My Very Nature. It Is Innate.

The purity within spirit is a beautiful anointment to be enveloped within. The love, the respect, the communication-it is immeasurable and irreplaceable.

The loyalty and dedication are not a strenuous effort or chore on either part of connection the mutual essence is an intrinsic fulfillment. Everything is all built in and deep-rooted. An inherent bestowal of lineage and veneration through preordained circumstances.

The magnetic energy that exudes is wonderful, and so far from anything demonic, which is extremely repulsive and automatically forsaken. As darkness is nowhere near as powerful as the light, any demonic vibration is unable to intensely stand up to the challenge of what ultimately surrounds me.

I adore how the more I fiercely repel evil and negativity the more goodness and positivity takes over.

I never accept or entertain the ill-will or ill-intent sent by others-that negative energy, whether through black magic/voodoo/witchcraft/, or simply just disagreeable/hostile attitudes, is undesirable and intolerable to spirit.

 

 

 

 

Keep The Faith And The Faith Will Keep You

 

This social distancing isn’t really any sort of inconvenience for me considering the fact that I was already living within those similar circumstances as far as keeping to myself and being precautionarily hygienic.

This Corona virus shit doesn’t scare me one bit; it doesn’t at all stop me from wanting to go out to work or to take care of my business. At the same time, I would never want to pose any possible risk toward any of my loved ones, yet I’m just not personally nervous or fearful about this current global situation. It has no impact on what’s going on in my life.

Everything is still normal for me at this worldly time of challenge. As a spiritual person I am here within physical form, of course, but not of or affected by any of it.

This is going on; the situation is here, it’s happening for a reason; it is tragic for some, it is a spiritual message and epiphany for some, and it is also a moment of hold up for some.

No matter whatever is gained or loss from this it will all surely come to pass in due time. Meanwhile, I continue to keep aware, and I continue to keep naturally pushing on.

Free

I’m glad I’m not of some narcissistic energy that constantly needs to be praised and acknowledged and who threatens those to damnation for not agreeing and adhering to  circumstances that I don’t relate to, that don’t apply to me, and that don’t have anything to do with my sensible way, thought process, spiritual rotation, and so on.

I fortunately have the essence of “good light” and “energy” around me that allows and that inspires truth, love, peace, happiness, wisdom, knowledge, blessings, strength, confidence, talent, protection and the self individuality within my own authentic disposition as I am one within the essence.

It feels so good to be free. I never let anything rule me. I live a nice quiet life, I eat healthy and take care of myself, I have great spirituality, and I am blessed with great peace of mind.

I have always lived this way and I have no deep past regrets within my life.

I guess what I’m pleasantly guilty of is being extremely stubborn and set in my natural unconventional fashions.

The only thing I regret is being born into this physical realm, I deserve to be in a much better place than this twisted world, this forbidden place is beneath me.

When I was a kid I knew I didn’t belong here.

As one born with a caul I always knew things and felt things, even truths that may be considered controversial, nevertheless I didn’t care because hidden knowledge wasn’t a revelation for everyone or just anyone to know and to grasp.

I often wondered and couldn’t understand why trash we’re created and given life the instance never made any sense to me.

As a child I didn’t at all like or connect with those kinds of people within any way, I’d constantly get negative and intuitive feelings about them that would always pan out to be right or true, they were always prone to incite trouble, conflict, and disharmony as their nature and mentality was quite undesirable, and insufficient.

Many if not the majority of their type was very disturbed and ignorant in the mind even at a very young age because they are intrisnically born sick.

They also have a look about them, a way and mannerism about them, a vocal sound about them, characteristics that just don’t appeal or that don’t sit well.

There are certain people who will say that regardless they’re still one of God’s children, and that is another thing that never sat too well with me, because if God designed and put them here on the earth the instance is just another of the many numerous circumstances and factors in which goes to show and prove that there is something not at all right about god either.

One of the reasons they exist is because God uses them to carry out unwanted and unwarranted burdens of an unnatural essence upon the unconventional.

I’m not specifically referring to black magic/voodoo/witchcraft when I mention “unnatural” I am speaking in all terms of what goes against one’s own nature, propensity, or state of being just to please and appease an individual or entity who seems within a position to reign, or who wants to control.

Trash are weak-minded, easily influenced people, susceptible to be brainwashed, and who are ready and willing to accept what they perceive as a general higher authority in relation to God and/or to societal government without raising question or opposition.

They are on a certain mental level for a reason.

A low level where they are unable to come up from to decipher and to analyze from a genuinely higher intellectual or spiritual consciousness.

People who are “nothing” inspire to bring down people who are “something” with views, opinions, jealousies, and a lack of knowledge incorporated into their own limited outlooks, and limited scope into existence.

They are average low-life individuals who envy and oppose the free will and knowledge of distinctive individuals who are above them.

They in turn use their god to justify what they consider immoral or wrong in a distorted version to their own deception and misconception into the origin of who they innately are.

Others who are firm and concrete within the genuine validity of where they’re originally derived from cannot, and will not, be swayed by any means of detract, whether the intent is to minimize or to diminish the effectiveness, value or importance of someone, or to divert one altogether.

God will go to great lengths to use those who were born trash, and will turn others into trash just to get to them, or someone close to them, to manipulate and weaken them into incorporating his commands by psychological or spiritual harassment.

This technique has never worked on me as I am too strong within who I am and what I’m genuinely in correlation to within my own innate means.

No one could ever stop me from being the person who I am or from doing whatever it was that I wanted to do.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Mental, Emotional, And Spiritual Breakdown

Everyone who has had a breakdown of some sort is not weak, crazy, or dangerously unstable.

A breakdown is spiritual within many instances. A Yoruba priestess even acknowledged this fact to me years ago. I know firsthand as my own mother was a victim of brujeria in the early 1980’s.

I was even targeted. My aunt tried to flip me out when I was eighteen years of age by putting the hallucinogenic drug mescaline into a hot pot of black eyed peas that I had cooking over the stove.

People often use recreational “trip” drugs to increase the chance or enhance the effect of mental and chemical alterations of the brain while also performing the negative spiritual influences within black magic/voodoo/witchcraft.

My aunt went a step further in her malicious attempt by also putting tainted hiv fluids inside my food. Anyone educated would know the disease would not survive within the air and within a pot of scalding hot water.

Nevertheless, I didn’t lose my head or have a breakdown, my mind was too strong with faculty and awareness, and I didn’t, of course, become infected with aids either.

I was young, innocent, and very spiritually inclined, so divine intervention took over and protected me.

My aunt Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has been hiv positive since the 1980’s due to intravenous drug use and promiscuous behavior from the 1970’s on up and instead of using her limited time to spend changing her life around for the better, she continued to do tons of constant dirt. She and other envious and jealous ruthless dummies, whores, drug addicts, and degenerates attacked me and other family for decades.

They’ve in addition done it to others, however, when they came after my mother and I, they messed with the wrong individuals. We are people of the light and they are people of the darkness. My ancestors and orishas were ready for them all, and the universe was recording and keeping record of every notorious deed in which was repeatedly done toward us.

Tina had poisoned food of my mother’s years ago too while neighbors were working black magic/voodoo/witchcraft against her.

My grandfather was driven to mental affliction before he was killed and found dead in the Hudson river.

My aunt Charise was drugged and raped which caused her to be afflicted with mental illness.

My grandfather, mother, younger aunt, and I were targeted for manipulative breakdowns because we were all very smart, strong, and fighters who could literally kick ass if needed be. We weren’t the type to back down or be bullied by anyone, and we were all good upstanding people.

The intent for causing mental, emotional, and spiritual breakdowns are to weaken one, to render them as incredible, and to lower their self esteem and spirit.

Certain evildoers want those of us who have knowledge in which threaten their unscrupulous ways either dead or labeled as crazy.

 

 

 

Life

My life continues to run smooth. I am at a place of constant alignment.

My peace of mind never wavers, and my natural spirited attitude stays in tact, not ever being swayed away by any occurrence.

Environment and surroundings are so very important, however, when one has a deep personal fulfillment stored from inside it doesn’t matter what atmosphere we’re caught up in, pleasurable internal conditions sail us throughout each specific area, and position.

I genuinely have a deep peace of mind, fulfillment, and happiness, rooted from within.

No matter what goes on around me I am undisturbed and unaffected by it.

A lot of individuals are not truly content in their lives for personal or professional reasons of their very own. I always felt success and achievement meant different things to different people, and depended upon an individual definition of whatever the accomplishments meant to them, and unto their own fulfillment.

My contentment never centered around other people, marriage, or having children.

My happiness centered around well-being, healthy living for the mind, body, and spirit, something which inspired me all throughout my life from my early days, and what has kept me motivated till this day.

The results have been satisfactory.

I’m glad I don’t associate myself within the company of those whom I have no desire to be around, I’m glad I never wanted to get married, and I’m glad I don’t have any children. I am complete within my personal self.

Professionally I’ve done very well.

I had interactions with employers who’ve tried to take advantage of me because I was a good worker, and certain coworkers who were envious of my self confidence and abilities, but that’s everyday life for many.

Within career, I should be so much further ahead, yet I don’t really care. I am more concerned and delighted in the person who I am, and how I lived my life. That is what makes me the most proud, not a job, because I know the high extent of my capabilities, whatever else is meant to be will come in due time.

Right now, I’m enjoying the rewards of the blessings in which kept me preserved and which keeps me sustained.

I feel so very lucky, and fortunate, at how spirit and the universe loved me enough to consistently respect me and my life.

 

 

 

 

Bequeathed

 

I was told my robust spirituality comes from my long line of native american ancestry and I agree as I already came to the conclusion about it decades ago. It was so obvious to me.

The mixture within my african american roots serve to make the foundation even more intense through the combination of tribal culture.

The european blood within my veins is french.

I’d never deny my inherent african power as the africans have a natural flair to wistfully attract desires. All they have to do is wish for something and it comes to them without the use of any magic. I’ve done it for years.

A Babalawo I Had A Session With

I can be moody once in a while but for the most part I am kind and soft-spoken with a very pleasant attitude yet I am nowhere near soft within personality or character.

As one born under the zodiac sign Taurus I am the true definition of stubbornness, strength, and a vile temper when provoked.

I am also one who believes in revenge without apology it is within my instinctive nature. No one unjustifiably messes around with me and gets away with it. I’ll do my shit out in the open or on the sneak tip as I have the advantage and none who are without the consciousness of paranormal recognition would be the wiser.

Years ago I had a genuine Babalawo (Yoruba) who gave me an extremely accurate reading and who desired to fiercely undertake retribution against all of the people who conspired to indulge within Brujeria against me and payback was exactly what I had wanted.

The spiritual work also included removing all blockages, allowing my destiny of money and preordained success to fully unleash, a special protection shield, and the ultimate channeling of my innate divination skills.

“You need to retaliate”, the Babalawo had urged.

His words were like sweet music harmonizing through out my ears. “That’s what I want to do”, I had told him in return.

This man was the real deal, however, I wasn’t so quick to jump up and receive his services even though he offered them to me at a very reasonable price. I am a person who gazes deeper into what selectively appears upon the surface.

I’ve had many offers of help from other spiritually inclined individuals but I don’t trust so easily I was never one to act before the proper time and everyone is not legitimate. Yes, I could have gotten what I wanted a long time ago and at the rate of time wherein I preferred but at what life altering cost?

I take into consideration all aspects in which surround me and the possible effects or consequences when collaborating with sources of force which may not be in correspondence to my own alignment. I am proud of personal spiritual bestowal and respect my balance within the universe and the inheritance within dimension.

I have protections, my extra sensory gifts are intact, I’m doing well making a decent living, I am granted the necessary things I require and desire, and I proceed to fight back viciously although I am very thorough and logical and use my faculties wisely.

I decided it was best for me to completely use and generate my own magnetic energy and stay robust incorporating my own celestial aptitude within my own endowment of distinguished spiritual arrangement.

My choice was within accordance to balance as all elemental instance fell into their exact position within the range of location to circumstance and eventhough time may now and then play a factor in the gain of specific conditions there is a measure of intangible attentiveness performing within operation to assemble the most convenient and appropriate span for restore and delivery.

I learned I was more powerful within ability than those who claimed or believed they could actually help me and I reaped more benefits from the original work done on my own and with the natural spirituality of my own beloved ancestors and orishas than I would’ve ever imagined to be possible.

I don’t do animal sacrifice as the Babalawo did and as certain others often do, I never have, I don’t need to do things of that nature it is too sick and unclean to me. And I don’t work with just any and every orisha, I have my own personal ones assigned through lineage by attribution and compatibility.

I work purely of spirit, energy, and other distinct vibration of force in revelation to the essence of my own true and unique state of being.

A Tortured Soul

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Melissa Campa said 4 hours ago

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Melissa Campa

These are lies of demonized souls, go far back as far as you can remember. The first time you felt abandoned or abused whether physically or mentally or sexually. The door was open from that day forward. You see I was just like you even suicidal, literally would negotiate with a voice telling me you’ll never see heaven you already love every day in sin (addicted to pain killers) so if you were to die and kill your self you would go to hell as you would go to hell anyways by the judgment of your sins according to your God! I cried I cut I screamed and then I remembered my dad took me and my brother to church Very young and we went up to the alter with our dad and accept Jesus as our lord and savior. I never knew exactly what I did but I knew I was more Of a threat because of it. The difference between a child of God that has a seed from a young age vs a new age follower or atheist is that the one who was brought up in a Christian home has been to church before has heard the word of God is a threat to the devil because gods word says in (Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.) you see I may not change your mind about God I’ve yelled at God when people I loved died I cursed God for allowing me to get beat my child’s father I was so mad but I still felt like who else do I have. My parents both live their lives and I had it rough growing up from being molested to watching my dad beat my mother while she never fought back and beat on us and because of my father I became so defensive always fighting and protecting the weaker individuals who I saw bullied. But if my mom or dad couldn’t do right by us as children. My dad the same man who hit me and my brother and mom took me to the living god and he placed a seed that seed is in certain chosen people. Jesus said if they hate me they’ll hate you too if the crucified me they will do it you because of ME. Jesus said but be of good cheer I have overcome the world. The devil the demons Satan comes against us threw other people who have been deceived who listened to the suggestions that God did this and its his fault. This whole world is ruled by demons look at the president! I’m not perfect I sin and I may sin again tomorrow I may say the same prayer god forgive you know how it goes but Jesus does because he knew god knew we will never ever be holy we will never get it right! If Jesus came to preach the word right now in this generation he would chose his disciples and they would be former pimps former murders former thief’s former gang members former homeless people former drug dealers and homosexuals. He never would ride around with the people of the church the holy traditional church and hypocrites. He would save the ones from what we see as the worst people he says these people are the first in the kingdom of heaven because basically people like them need more love and god sees the heart and he sees the soul has authority to cast out demons of torment of perversion, abuse and immortality etc. before you click off maybe you already did just give him a chance crawl to him say a few words and then next time maybe stand up to him say a few more words and if you ever feel like nothing is working with the new age practices you still can’t find peace you can’t find healing then run to god surrender in private take baby steps god know we can’t just change over night he knows we will never get it right. He’s not a god of suffering because the Old Testament was of the way the first living people of the world had to be obedient and this why god sent Jesus Christ his word says behold i make all things new. The new commandment I give you is to love each other. If I can suggest maybe listening to deliverance prayers on YouTube with head phones and water. Baby steps pray in private goodnight

 

In reply to Melissa Campa.

You sound like a very mentally and emotionally disturbed individual and one that isn’t intelligent enough to understand the depth of my writings.

Just because some people don’t like or agree with God and have different viewpoints or perceptions regarding him and his way does not mean that they are suffering, lost, or have been broken in some way. If anything it is quite the opposite and you need to stop being ignorant and closed- minded.

I was born a gifted child and one with the wisdom and knowledge to “see” and “discern”. I’ve experienced a lot of supernatural occurrences and ones that you have no idea exist. I was a happy child there were just some adults and relatives around me who weren’t happy within themselves but it wasn’t everyone.

I’ve never been or walked in your shoes as I’ve never been raped or sexually abused by anyone and I’ve never been mistreated by a parent. “Spiritual essence” in which constantly followed me would never have allowed those vile things to happen. I was lucky and blessed and had natural spiritual protection.

I was raised and brought up in love by a darn good mother and had lots of love given to me by my mother and solicitous attention given to me as well as from certain others that were around me. I was very well taken care of as a child on up that is partly why so many people were jealous of me.

So you’re venting to the wrong person.

I am very happy and fulfilled within myself and have a great peace of mind and what I venerate and believe in suits and serves me very well. Things are working out within my life accordingly and the universe is bringing to me the elements in which I desire.

I have been attacked all through out life by “particular” individuals-along with principalities-for being a good and unique person by those who are not of my caliber and who have a lack of knowledge into things in specific.

Yes, I do agree with one thing you’ve wrote and that is God does concern himself moreover with the negative people but it is not because they’re all sincere within their heart and deceptively mislead and all good people are not hippocrates because we don’t need or have to serve or consult with god to genuinely be of a positive nature or character by his definition.

You’re a tortured soul and you are brainwashed and people who are deeply troubled often incite to bring unnecessary problems to others. Go and get yourself some serious help.

All Lit Up

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Tints are handed out to me in flashes to soothe, I’m pleasantly burned up by the spark.

Wind incites to expel the smoke from within my torch but the flames ignite and the vapors asphyxiate the waves of the air.

The universe has set me on fire and I don’t want to be put out.

The energy is generous and solicitous and effective, full of distinguishing light.

Oh what a copious adorn I blazingly wear all covered up here in the sphere.-misslatoya

 

 

Inside Out

As a African-American female I’ve never in my life felt intimidated by or inferior to any other race or to any male.

If anything, I’ve felt the complete opposite.

I have a self-confidence and self-esteem that is rooted from deep within and my self value and self-worth is not defined by anyone else’s perception or misconception of me or who I am as an individual.

I am grounded within spirit as there has most definitely been something intangible watching out for me, caring for me, loving me and just awe-inspiring me, while the accommodation remained steady to follow through out my journey here in this life.

The state of being informed, guided, directed and protected stems from an innate condition yielded by destiny yet decided by fate which both in the same provides a total difference.

I am a human being before I am female. I am female before I am African-American. I am African-American genetically dressed in  multiple ethnical flavors of culture as a decorated adornment of my soul/spirit.

 

 

 

 

 

A Career In The Medical Field, My Temporary Missionary Position?

1189561-200I had enrolled in school to become a “medical assistant” back in the year of 2006 and just when I was about to start classes a full time job came through with good enough pay for me at the time. I was making a little over twelve hundred dollars a month for the entire year at J.C. Penny with a lot of responsibility as “head of the hosiery department in sales support”.

I was a very successful associate in my own right yet working in a department store was just something planned for the time being, although it ended prematurely due to the envious jealous enemies that set me up to get fired while my managers were off one particular day (these trashy people were always coming into the store trying to keep tabs on me and trying to make me lose my job by telling lies but it never worked out because I was too sufficient of an employee).

They knew that my personal managers were never going to fire me due to previous failed incidents of set ups that they had tried within the past so they waited a day when they knew my managers weren’t going to be in and played on the policies of other store managers that were present. “I was fired on account of verbally threatening to put my perpetrators six feet under the ground!”

My personal managers had told me in advance to just continue to ignore these idiots like I had been when they would enter into the store with there ulterior motives/schemes and I had agreed, however, the rage of hatred that I felt for them got the best of me on that day since I am highly in tune and I did genuinely want to kill that ugly bitch along with her ugly daughter .

Anyway that was the past, and my point is that I had resorted back into the medical field a while back and am now still a currently certified/licensed health care worker assisting patients within assisted living facilities and within their homes and etc. I’ve done from 10 to 12 hour shifts working cases of hospice, bed-bound, stroke victims. Six to eight hour shifts of dementia patients, deaf and blind patients, psychiatric patients and so on, I’ve even worked with child care.

1483866-200I took nursing level courses and passed with high scores as an assistant. I only have one next test to pass and I can become a registered nurse. This all may sound nice and good but the reality of it is that my heart really isn’t in it.

I was always extremely naturally good in psychology (because of the extra sensory perception), I had the intelligence, spunk and confidence to become a lawyer and I have the mind, ability, and sufficiency of a business woman yet these fields were never a heated passion of mine to directly pursue. My genuine thrill and drive has always been to write even though there were other things that I could and would succeed in.

The day that I would be taking vital signs (Blood pressure/Pulse/Respiration), hygiene care (Incontinence/Bath Services), diabetic care (Skin Care/Foot Care/Meal/Medication) was far from what I ever expected. I never truly desired to but here I am.

More than one spiritual adviser told me in the past that I would become a nurse but I did not believe it. That position was something I had never portended for myself and never desired but I am capable. It is still up to me whether or not I actually decide to take that next step. I’ll have to think about it.

In all honesty, the medical field is not really where I want to be but I am a very independent woman so I have to support myself in a way that is conducive in some form or fashion. I would never go down to low scale.

I’ve had some bullshit to deal with along the way and prevailed though. One incident took place back in June this past summer, a lady at an agency that I worked for at the time got mad at me because she was caught on a “phone recording” advising me to do something that she later denied but her voice didn’t lie. From then on she had given me attitude and I sensed that she would eventually attempt to get me fired, and the bitch did write and sign papers of a false termination that I later fought through my “Union” and won later this September while I still continued to work my other health care jobs.

The agency wrote a letter of acknowledgment to my “Union” for my reinstatement for the “wrongful termination write up” there at that particular agency. I accepted, reinstated, then I resigned and then told the supervisor of personnel that she was a lying fat bitch who covered up for the ugly out of shape fat bitch who tried to unjustly get rid of me. I would never go back there!

Since then, my work has been going smoothly.

Natural Powers Of The Caul And Occult Is Nothing To Fool Around With

Death In The CardsIn October of 2007, I did one of my necessary rituals using my head Orisha’s veve to invoke his spirit along with another important undertaking that was involved regarding the certain elements in which my “natural” spell was conducted. As usual my rituals usually consist of protection, veneration, blessings and whatever else that my situation or desired needs and wants may call for which always happens to automatically fall into compliance with the universe due to my special birthrights.

I am not a person of spite but a person of definite justice. Just like what I am innately of by heritage and spirituality we do not play around. We have no time for foolishness-not to say that we do not have a lighthearted nature-we love to laugh and indeed have a great sense of humor that is often also at times sinister but we are not idle spiritual beings/individuals. We have grave/serious purpose and state of mind.

Within my ritual I had also cursed a few of my enemies and offered them as human sacrifices without me having to do any of the physical dirty work. I absolutely do not believe in doing animal sacrifices (even though my enemies have performed numerous animal sacrifices upon me), viciously and morbidly cutting up poor animals while they are alive to go through such horrendous pain (burns me the fuck up!).

That is what my ancestors and Orisha’s are here and there for they take care of my obstacles and have my back while working out and smoothing through the rough edges-especially when it comes to the troublemakers.

One of my enemies went by the name Of Mike Heyward. He was an asshole who’ve I written about in the past who had made up sexual lies about me due to the fact that I did not want him (I very coldly rejected him) and treated him with a very nasty attitude because he use to always try to push himself on me even after I had already cordially explained to him that there was never nothing that was ever going to go on between us.

Well, Mike had gotten his-and badly! It didn’t take long either. The next month Mike was killed on November 24, 2007 and I was jubilant when I first got the straight story some years ago (Between my dreams, visions, messages, feelings and other investigation). I felt he got just what he deserved because he was nothing more than a worthless piece of shit who tried to be more than what he actually was.

Grim ReaperMike was just one of the many who received a backlash through the slick and diverse techniques of the universe which can make occurrences appear ordinary and/or coincidental through whichever means that are convenient and available to fit the script.

Others who have set out to hurt me only have hurt themselves in the process and that is simply just the way that it is and how it goes. I am in no mode or fashion disturbed or affected by what I am not of and not designed for.

Even after Mike’s death I’ve at times had felt his anger and distress (still mad because I did not want and desire him-when people die they do not change, they take along everything with them within their personality) and seen his effortless rage, his spirit is not in a good place. He’s had a violent anger towards me, however, there is nothing that he or anyone else can do about it, I have tremendous power and privilege within the spirit world.

Lately it has been kind of quiet in regards to him, but last year around the time of the anniversary of his death I could feel someone trying to give his spirit an elevation of some sort to come after me yet it was all in vain. Inconsequential people are of absolute non effect. One cannot subdue the dirt and wrongdoing that multiple-times folds back unto the direction of the individuals who first embarked to begin with.

Again now, it is November and it will make about seven years since his passing.

The caul and it’s power is a very beautiful and mysterious thing that is in existence and it is a part of life that should not be taken lightly. Though whether one is born with a caul or not people should not set out to harm, ridicule/criticize, or thwart someone simply because they are unique and different in thought pattern, lifestyle, mode of being and whatever else (and especially because of the fact that they cannot get over on them or through jealousy and envy).

There is a reason why certain people possess certain attributes of spiritual power. People who have tried to interfere in my life have received mental breakdowns, strokes, heart attacks and quite a few other misfortunes on account of their negativity backfiring and I have been fortunate enough to get the opportunity to acknowledge these occurrences with these people face to face and/or intuitively then later having it verified.

Halitosis:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/halitosis/)

Dirty, Rotten And Pitiful:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2012/11/16/dirty-rotten-and-pitiful/)