I opened up my email this morning and found this message and I was like a lot of people must have liked and ordered this doll because I was one of the ones that pre-ordered ahead of time before the doll was available on August 31, 2017 and it still is on back order again!
She is a cutie with that pretty yellow dress I can’t wait to get her!
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A lot of my pay stubs from working at Sears for four whole years.
When I tidy up from time to time I come across things as we usually do when we clean and/or make room for other things and to also throw out things that we no longer have use for. While in the midst I came across a lot of my old pay stubs and realized that I’ve worked a lot of jobs between retail and within the health care field. I even came across an old report card from when I was a youngster marked with A grades and few B ones along with some certificates for achievement.
One of my pay stubs from working the hosiery department at JC Penney for an entire year
I am so proud of all of the accomplishments that I have made through out the years.
Two weeks ago a client at one of my jobs called up the private company that I work for acknowledging to my superiors that I was giving exceptional service and that she wanted me working more frequent days and I had accepted the offer when the company phoned me up with the news. This client also told me that I was too smart to be working the job, and I always get this same remark from people, “Why are you here, you’re too smart to be at this job whether it is in retail and the such.
One of my pay stubs from working at Bloomingdale’s for three years
Without going into certain details I expressed to the lady that phoned up my job about the jealousy from others and how within the past up until now how many had tried to interfere with my life yet I still succeeded but that how when I was a child I had the opportunity to be published by a mainstream publisher but that I mistakenly refused the offer due to my anger at what was going on in life at the time and at the trouble it would have caused during that time from a few envious/ jealous disturbed family members and outsiders that were working with them and etc… but that writing was my nature and where my heart truly was.
One of my schedules from Toys R Us
“Well no one can stand in your way now”, she told me. And she is correct.
She took down my full name and number wanting to keep in contact with me stating, “I want your full name because I know that you’re going to be a writer, well you are a writer”.
I told her, “I know what you mean, recognition”.
One of my schedules from Burlington
“Exactly”, she said I can tell and hear it in your voice that you’re a writer”. She has no doubt that I’ll eventually make it even further and neither do I!
No matter how many people have tried to hold me back through out my life I have managed to become very successful regardless in all of the things that I had set out to do. When anyone tries to stop me it just makes me hate them even more and makes me more determined to get what I want.
Free supplies notice I received when I adopted a new female Labrador Retriever in the year 2011
I remember when this guy by the name of George Owens (who always thought he was the smartest thing in the world and that he knew everything but was nothing but a dumb ignorant undesirable fuck who didn’t know what he was talking about who’d constantly gossip about everyone then go smile in their face) said “She can’t even do this”, talking about me doing the annual account for my mother who was conservator over my grandmother’s affairs years ago as my mother would ask him to do it once a year (he didn’t even know me personally or well enough to know what my capabilities were but I knew him as I could read him like a book and knew that one day he would get his and he sure has gotten his! I won’t mention what it is though as I have already discreetly mentioned it in a post last year).
And I thought that was interesting since the lawyer over my mother and another professional woman had stated that he didn’t know what he was doing as he kept getting it wrong every year. The annual account didn’t start getting done accurately until I became the one to complete it from then on and it was documented, we didn’t need him. The stupid ass George Owens even got arrested for tax evasion (http://queensda.org/Press%20Releases/2001%20Press%20Releases/03-March/03-21-2001.htm) he goes by a muslim name now. I’ve always filed and done my taxes completely on my own without the help of anyone every year. I’ll tell you, jealousy is a bitch.
As good people no matter what the circumstances we are the ones to come out on top when we are strong.
I don’t understand why people tried me within the first place and thought that they would get away with it. I was born under the zodiacal sign Taurus and one can’t mess with the bull without getting murdered or seriously injured.
You said 0 minutes ago
First of all, your ongoing words were not at all to me of any sort of annoyance or of a babbling content it was wonderful.
When it is necessary and proper within the alignment of instinct and tendency even for reasons that you may not be able to explain or even understand initially but know deep within your heart, mind, and soul that it is vital you have to let go and release because there is a need for our truths to be revealed from without ourselves unto the universe as we become further empowered and protected to move on to the next level.
A little side note: Have you ever noticed how people will confess and reveal to us their secrets and burdens, tell us things that they haven’t shared with anyone else, then admit to us “I don’t know why I’m telling you this?”.
That has happened to me on many of occasion. The powers of the caul will draw out information from others without us having or wanting to seek out their disclosures, even negative people that are enemies will express their guilt or discretion and even tell on their other counterparts.
Now back to what I was saying: Sharing and exchanging our words of experience and journey is very beneficial to all of us that are resourceful and conducive even to the most advanced of individuals.
We as gifted children within our own category of unique and spiritual talents that are “energetically inspired” and determined have all at one time or another had questions and have searched for answers and have wanted serious discussion from others who are “like us”. It is delightful and refreshing to come across some one who understands you and that you can trust and that genuinely has good intentions toward you within your quest for guidance or clarity.
Oftentimes in reading or hearing about another person’s story we may identify some of our own closely related issues and/or experiences and other common threads that bind or connect us together. We can take certain aspects or solutions that may apply to us or our lives and use them as stepping stones.
When we share to the very few “right” type of people whether within the presence of some one that we personally know or just in correspondence to someone that we connect with in some way or just even expressing our words and thoughts through writing and other modes of creativity it is very therapeutic and cathartic.
And some of us are ignited by divine spirit to bring forth messages through our own gifts and special talents. We are the very vessels that truth and knowledge will exercise itself through for whatever purpose that is within accordance to us and our journey.
I just want you to know that you seem to me to be a individual that is very intelligent and that is on the correct path and that has the strength, insight/knowledge and personal experience to make it through anything in order to succeed in whatever it is that is destined for you.
However, as I am sure that you already know when you are of the “light” the darkness will always attempt and try to shadow your path to hinder your walk and prevent you from arriving to where it is that you are suppose to go.
As people who are born to be leaders and not followers we value order, logic and responsibility and we are very trustworthy because we are very dependable and reliable. We are characterized by our “high thinking” and “high level of spirituality”. We have a clear manner of thinking and we pay attention to the details that other individuals overlook and negativity is not a fan of that at all.
The darkness can never overpower the light but at the same time we have to never let that “nasty wind” be strong enough to ever blow out our “beautiful sparkling flames”.
There is a man that periodically comes into the store where I work at and he prefers that the boxes of his merchandise be within perfect condition as he is a avid collector of a specific toy item.
There are many of us that have a fancy for certain things whether we plan on retaining them for their value later on in life or just for a personal delight and pastime or both.
Whenever I collected items like my Archie comic books-that I still order till this day-it was never with the intent to ever gain any money from them but to always have to keep and to enjoy reading whenever I felt in the mood to.
Photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package
When I use to work at JC Penney department store out in Garden City at the Roosevelt field mall about ten or eleven years ago and I use to off an on run to KB toy store and Toys r Us on my meal-break before I’d eat at my favorite restaurants I had purchased over fifty brand new Barbie dolls.
Currently I own well over a hundred of them including the ones that I like from the “Fashionista” selection.
Some of my lovely Barbies that I’ve collected still remain unopened within their boxes until I move into my new and bigger home in the near future where I will make a special gorgeous room to display them all in.
Another photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package
I haven’t bought any dolls lately it’s been two months I think now since I haven’t found any in particular that have caught my eye it is one of such of my fabulous hobbies that I enjoy though.
Two of the biggest loves of my youth-Puppies/Dogs and Barbie are still the loves that I share to this very today.
Full photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package
My very first full breed German Shepherd puppy that was named “Brownie” that I didn’t have for very long didn’t touch any of my toys but my second baby “Brandie” my beautiful mixed Shepherd/Collie breed that was seven to eight weeks old at the time tore up all of my Barbies and bit up the wire to my Atari set and certain other toys as little puppies often love to chew on things, the little sneak had waited until I went to sleep before she went to town on my playthings, nevertheless, I loved my puppy madly!
“You know, a lot of people are jealous of you and your mother”, a woman acquaintance who visited my home from the old neighborhood told me to my face years ago.
I was at the age of ten at the time and she had come to sit and visit with my grandmother when she acknowledged this revelation to me as we sat next to one another on the couch.
I didn’t say anything in return as I listened and took the message in then relayed the information back to my mother when she had arrived home later in the day.
The news wasn’t anything that was foreign or that my mother hadn’t already known within her own knowledge and intuition as to the negative emotions of certain others especially of those who’d gossip and/or spread false rumor just to let out their apparent insecurities and resentments to be openly identified by those who could thoroughly analyze and recognize them.
The lady’s communication was just a confirmation to a validation.
So pathetic how the jealousy and envy had followed us for decades up until now with circumstance rubbing their noses into the fact that my mother was a more competent parent within intelligence and capability and that their children were incapable of ever measuring up to the caliber of what I have and am able to further achieve within faculty and accomplishment.
Isn’t it something when sick people who are extremely jealous and envious of us try to relentlessly stop us within life then attempt to blames us when or if difficulty occurs knowing all along that they were behind the sabotage to begin with?
As they deliberately try to cause damage for us through their duplicitous methods of intervention whether by lies and/or manipulation of circumstance they actually believe that we ourselves are suppose to be the scapegoat?
It was often so strange to me how these type of people considered themselves to be clever within their ominous ventures as their undertakings have always appeared and proved to be rather transparent within the keenly focused mind’s eye especially when the subject of their scheme was well aware of their own obvious talents and skill and logical reasoning of natural probability for success.
The red flag is automatically raised when particular essence according to bestowal does not properly go into fruition, so who is the genuine culpable fool?
No matter what I have to keep my self occupied whether it is at my workplace environment, my outside environment or at my home environment.
Even while I am at rest my overactive brain is always ticking with the full force of natural productive energy.
I have a mind that I refuse to put to waste and a voice that I do not hesitate to put forward as it is not wise to hinder our talents and gifts whatever it is that they may be to us and within our capability so I go along with the celestial flow of automatic message and design.
Spirit speaks to me on so many levels using me as an instrument to harmoniously transfer the melodies of extraordinary tune.
Omar said 16 hours ago
Thank you for your reply and insights. It was very refreshing. I will be reading it more than once in order to get the full meaning! When you spoke about the negativity that we encounter serving to push us toward our intended purpose it was like a light bulb being lit. Throughout my life I have had family members and friends that I genuinely cared for that would betray my loyalty at the first opportunity that they had. It took decades before I began to force myself to see them in the light that they were showing me instead of the light that I had wanted them to have. Slowly I realized that I just wanted to have people that understood me and this put me in a situation to experience that negativity over and over again.
Now, I am beginning to consider my life and past actions more in hindsight and can see how it was necessary for me to have those relationships and experiences that were so painful at the time.
At this point in my life I am focused on being a person that God can use. I spend a lot of time alone or either with my daughter. I research all types of subjects and write down my ideas and thoughts. I get ideas in my sleep and wake up to write them down. I write poems, rhymes, short stories etc. I know that there is a purpose for my being here.
In the Bible, in multiple instances, it talks about having wise counsel. Growing up, I had always been the person in the group that was into thinking a few steps ahead of actions. Many times this would spoil plans and cause conflicts with who ever was the “leader” of the group at that time. I have always felt like I was a leader, but at those early ages, becoming the leader meant you had to be the baddest, and this was never my forte.
It seems like I am babbling, but what I am getting at is that I was attempting to be a wise counsel in those early years, but my counsel was not being appreciated because the leadership was unworthy.
Now, at this stage in my life, after my many experiences, I know that I am a leader. Even if it is only being the leader of myself, of course with Gods counsel, I must have wise people that are aware and are blessed to live outside of the scope of our everyday reality that I can hear from in times of uncertainty.
I appreciate you for your willingness to share your perspective and your spirit with me.
God Bless you Sister