The Call Of A Writer

 

One of my friends keeps telling me that she cannot wait for me to write and publish another book.

She loved the two I wrote and published years ago.

The thing about us true writers, though, is that we must wait until the energy comes upon us to make that move.

We do not just come up with the material/information instantly the material and information in detailing whatever it is that we are going to write and how we will proceed within our creative process has to materialize upon us when it is ready to reveal itself to us.

Then we can instantly and automatically vibe into the essence of our projects.

That natural energetic direction puts us into mode while it instinctively guides and provides us with stimulation.

This is why I do not rush and try to make myself come up with an idea that does not manifest, because the timing may not be right and things may not work out accordingly, just as I do with blogging. The information or ideas will naturally come to write itself.

This is how it happened when I published my very first novel along with the second one.

The ideas came to me spontaneously and the books wrote themselves and everything was successful in completion and timing.

I have an unpublished manuscript that I had copywritten twenty years ago. I am planning to work on getting this material published next until I get inspired to write and publish more books when they are meant to be.

I know one of the things I was put on this earth to do is write so when the urge hits I will be a willing vessel and participant to comply with continuing to do what I love and enjoy doing.

 

 

Pastimes To Past The Time

 

I have quite a few hobbies that I enjoy and occupy myself with from time to time when I have time or am in the mood.

I learned to crochet at nine or ten years of age. Knitting was too complicated at the time as I preferred to use only one needle to creatively loop yarn.

Crocheting was an activity I enjoyed during my teenage years too.

It is fun coming up with ideas to experiment with different patterns in addition to shopping through arts and craft stores to look over various colors, styles, and textures of yarn.

Very cute and useful household items or homemade gifts tend to result from the inventiveness brought forth by craft.

One, and many have already, can make a professional business out of designing materials made out by hand.

My mother had crocheted me a beautiful baby blanket when I was an infant. My mother also knew how to sow professionally and put together a fantastic, lovely dress she manufactured totally on her own with her sowing machine- she was a woman of multi-talent.

Till this day, I am still fond of crochet. I also love needlepoint stitchery.

 

Writing Is Very Therapeutic For Me❤

 

Aside from writing being a gift, talent, hobby that many of us share and enjoy- writing has been a lifesaver to me, an outlet.

A cathartic way for me to express my feelings, release my truths and connect to the universe on a spiritual level that is fulfilling to me.

I am truly thankful and grateful for a healthy way to utilize my writing skills as a source of inspiration as well as productivity.

My Main Luscious Delights❤

Daily writing prompt
List your top 5 favorite fruits.

 

I signed into WordPress this morning to notice this Daily Prompt- which I have seen Prompts in general as a form of motivation from time to time pop up here- yet I had never responded. This is a great spur of the moment stimulating activity!

Today, when I saw the title to list one’s five favorite fruits I was inspired to do so as I am a vegan and definite lover of fruits!

My Top Five Favorite Fruits Are:

Fresh Pineapples🍍, Watermelon 🍉, Apples 🍏(Granny Smith/Red Delicious) 🍎, Oranges/Tangerines 🍊 and Grapes 🍇

Live And Let Live🌸

As writers we can get inspired by anything- I know I do.

It is a part of our artistic, creative mode when the energy stirs us into action.

Today I read a fellow blogger’s “About Page” after I discovered her by a comment of mine that she liked.

I loved what she had to say in her introduction.

These are the sentences of the lady’s words that struck me because I have also been saying this for years.

She wrote:

We see the world with our eyes which have our own perception. When view doesn’t please our perception we start taking it as wrong or consider it as misfit for our calculated vision.

I responded back to her summary and shared my own accord in agreement by denoting:

Love your words that are spoken in truth.

As soon as some see or hear something that goes beyond their sense of understanding or belief, they are ready to attack or criticize instead of just accepting that we all are different and on our own path and there is so much more out there within the universe than what they may be able to grasp. 

 

The Reading

 

I had seen previews for Lee Daniels 2023 BET horror/thriller movie “The Reading” starring Mo’Nique last week.

The first time I saw one of the coming attractions I did not think much of the film- not really paying too much attention to it.

The second time I saw a commercial for The Reading it struck me as eerily spooky.

The BET television premiere for the film is set to air on March 14, 2023, but I did not want to wait that long.

So, after midnight this morning I watched The Reading on Amazon Prime- and I was not at all disappointed.

I loved the way the movie started off. It was intense and did not waste a moment to delve into the story.

Around the middle of the film there was a shocking, unexpected twist that threw me off.

I thought it was going to be a spirit haunting type of movie with something going wrong through the spirit-medium who gave the chilling psychic readings.

I was ready to lightheartedly fear what I thought may come about. Everything was getting so freaky and exciting!

Even though the film went in another direction it was still entertaining.

The Reading was action-packed, full of suspense, and ruthlessly gore with Mo’Nique’s character.

I loved that the movie depicted an African American girl with genuine clairvoyant/psychic ability (the woman played her part well as well as all the other actors and actresses) because we do exist, and we are out here in the world.

Race or ethnicity has nothing to do with one being born with preternatural ability, yet we rarely see people of color who possess these gifts shown in the media unless it is a portrayal of some stereotypical voodoo shit!

 

 

 

Paper Me Pretty!

 

Ask the younger people of today what paper dolls are most would not have a clue!

Paper dolls were the fad of my generation and before.

I even used to cut out fashion model images from magazines to add to the imagination of play.

It is hard to find quality punch out paper dolls currently.

I never purchased paper dolls with the daunting task of having to cut them out alongside their outlines within the pages of the books they were designed upon.

A few years ago, I came across high quality, sturdy cardboard, adorable images, and playset of paper dolls.

I even purchased some for my two older adult friends who were pleased to surprisingly receive them from me.

The price for this treasure was extremely reasonable for its excellent quality.

 

 

• Rock the red carpet with your very own fashion show! Fashion Show Play Set features 5 paper dolls (actually made of card stock), 3 fold-out scenes—dressing room, fashion show runway, and photographer’s studio—and dozens of glamorous and trendy outfits and accessories any model would love to wear!

Dress up your paper doll ”model” as a bride, in a bathing suit, in a glamorous gown, and more. When the show is over, place dolls and their outfits in the enclosed storage envelope.- excerpt from the paper doll advertisement!

 

 

Scene Of The Play

 

I remember when I was in the fourth grade. I had a teacher named Mrs. Yaffey. She was Jewish.

I attended an elementary school in Bayside, New York at the time- P.S. 203.

I wrote a play back then as an assignment in which I chose specific classmates to act out in roles I had created within my story. I even cast a student for the narration in between scenes that I had written.

This preparation took place among us all in our classroom.

I never received a low or bad grade on book reports so knew I could write well at an early age.

Reading and writing were my best subjects.

After Mrs. Yaffey was impressed by one of my book reports- she to my surprise- gave me the lead role as Robinhood for our school play called “Potpourri”.

I was not one who wanted to be in the spotlight, so I gave the part to a girl named Erica Goldstein. She had a narrator role in which I exchanged with her.

Throughout the days up until we were to perform on stage in front of an auditorium full of people we rehearsed and had to get our apparel and costumes ready.

I had to wear a white shirt, a black belt, and black tights as the narrator. “Robinhood” had to wear her cape and each other character according to their required specific wardrobe.

During opening night my mother later expressed to me that she was disappointed that I had such few lines in a small role. I don’t think she liked that I gave up the lead part to someone else.

But things like that were not a big deal to me. I was not a child who liked being the center of attention.

My mother did not mean any harm, she was just a parent who was proud of her kid.

 

A Lady Of Her Own Style

 

I am not into all of that name-brand shit as a trend- I had all of those things growing up.

As long as I am clean, my clothes are of quality, and of the taste I prefer I am completely satisfied.

My mother kept me pristine as a child and kept me decked out as I was her little baby girl.

When I rode the school bus a few girls were jealous of the fancy gear my mother had sent me off in and they made it known by their envious talk.

I was just an innocent kid wearing clothes that my loving parent bought for me- but I learned early about the green-eyed monster.

I was always attracted to beauty. I had my own sense of style, an eye for what looked good.

I could pick out stylish home decor along with everything else that had sparked an interest within me. Whatever it was it would be elegant.

I had a knack for great judgment!

When it came to the summer, I liked to wear designer shorts/capris, skirts and jumper-skirts.

I became very conservatively appareled into adulthood. I was naturally comfortable and classy. I had my own fashionable style but nowhere near old-fashioned.

I was never a high-heeled, flashy dresses-wearing girl.

I liked my slacks, jeans, t-shirts or button-down shirts.

I was never too crazy about clothes during my teenage years and as I got older, yet I always dressed nicely.

I am not, nor was I ever, a materialistic person though I had wonderful material things throughout the years since my childhood.

 

 

 

 

 

 

In Style: My Fancy And Cool Mother

 

My mother was a fashion queen. She had an exceptionally fabulous wardrobe.

My mother had an eye-catching sense of style that attracted attention ever since she was a young girl.

People admired my mother’s apparel, her flair.

Some were even jealous of the gorgeous figure she had and how her clothing fit her adoringly.

She dressed her ass off! From her jewelry, to her jackets, to her pocketbooks, to her blouses, to her jeans, to her heels, to her sneakers, to her dresses- my mother was in a style all by herself.

Fashion ran within the family.

My uncle had a large, spectacular wardrobe full of clothes too! He kept his body clean and dressed very sharply.

Other members of the family also had quality gear to their liking- and a particular few were into luxury and glamor as they had the money to splurge.

My great-grandmother had furs, her sister had lavished items, and her niece was high-class in a league of her own.

Nevertheless, my mother did not dress to impress anyone (none of us did). Nice clothes and things were just a part of her nature, good taste, and talent for design.

 

 

Hair Day: Brown-Skinned And Beautiful

 

I always had a head full of long hair since childhood.

I grew my hair down to my back almost near my derriere when I was in my twenties.

I wore my hair natural until I had gotten my first perm/relaxer at age eighteen.

A year ago, I did the big chop. I went to the barber shop and got a buzz cut that I loved. I had not permed my hair within about a year and a half before then.

I was glad to cut off all of the remains of my previously permed hair.

I had initially planned to keep my hair chopped down within a buzz cut.

I changed my mind when I saw my natural wavy-curly hair take on a life of its own!

All I do is wash my hair with Dove body wash and water. I do not put any hair grease, dressings, or sprays within my hair afterward.

 

 

My hair is strong and full of luster and elasticity.

I do not ever intend to grow it extra-long again but for now I would like to see what my hair continues to do on its own.

I do not even have to style my hair. The way it sets is the result of how I come out of the shower.

I have a combination of texture to my hair due to my mixture of African American, Native American and European heritage/bloodline. It was never the nappy/kinky type- which is just fine for those who do!

I love African American hair within its natural state. It is so versatile.

Black women come in all different beautiful shades with all different beautiful hair types.

Do not let society or anyone else tell you that you are not gorgeous because of the color of your skin or how you wear your hair!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thank You, WordPress

Wow! I was not expecting to get a WordPress announcement of my fifteenth year of blogging since I haven’t received one in a long time. It is nice for us serious bloggers to all keep track.

I just came across the notification today.

 

 

I also miss the New Year’s celebration announcements we bloggers used to get with the animation every beginning of the year and the snowfall animations around winter or December!

Thank you, WordPress I hope to fly with you for as long as possible. I love to blog!

 

 

Agreeable Lifestyle

 

Now that I left Amazon, I can put total energy back into working my prior occupation which is more rewarding financially along with continuing to write and indulge within other hobbies when I have the free time.

It is wonderful to have natural talents and to use them to create, explore, grow and inspire.

Multi-tasking through the multi-talents that one possesses can send us into pleasurable overflows. Yet, we must not overdo it by remembering to give ourselves that much needed rest and relaxation.

Always take out the time for self-love, self-care, and the joys of self-pampering.

LaToya: Truly Happy And Unique!

 

I have never been jealous of anybody; however, people have always been jealous of me.

I always had high self-esteem, never influenced or altered by society and its ways.

I was never a part of this world along with the many sick people that inhabit the earth. Thank goodness for that!

Not many people naturally operate within this fashion. I don’t get hurt or affected mentally and emotionally the way average people do because I am too spiritually incline. I am on a higher plane.

A lot of people don’t understand me because I am too deep for them to understand.latoya lawrence 

Age Is No Factor When God Decides To Bless You

 

I am at the age of forty-six now. However, it did not take me to get a specific age to acquire particular knowledge.

I gained wisdom early on within my youth. I knew what life was about by the age of twelve.

I was born with spiritual and intellectual gifts that made me wise in ways that certain people did not appreciate. Those who were not on the level themselves who gave off negative energy.

I knew things outside the ordinary range, beyond the normal sensory range of contact/area. I had the faculty to perceive things or events in the past, present, and future.

The scientific name for what I was born with is extrasensory perception/clairvoyance.

I have enhanced by learning extra, but I already knew much of what I know now that many people take years to learn through age, and by their own personal experience. Through experience within things some people still do not grasp on correctly and they walk through life with false perception and misrepresentation of life factors.

I had a lot of problems with negative people growing up because I was bright.

However, I do not understand why certain people thought that because they did not know particular things when they were younger that I was not supposed to either while I was at a young age.

People have a tendency to generalize and to reflect their inadequacies or insecurities onto others, especially when the aspect is common to them.

Some people do not want to accept another person who is younger than them to know more or just as much as they do because of ego or reasons of bias.

In fact, I knew more than they did in regard to particular matters within their older age. If I tried to correct an older person when they made an error, or tried to explain where I was coming from, they would react nasty or disdainful.

Not all people reacted within this fashion toward me only a “specific type”.

When I was younger there were positive people who told me and my mother that they were nowhere near the level that we was on when they were at my age.

I have been called unique, rare, strange, brilliant, and crazy (by jealous people). I don’t care. To me, I am just a spiritual person having a human experience continuing to grow on my journey in trusting and understanding my purpose and relationship with God.

I was always ahead of my time, advanced in ways that came without anyone having to teach me.

My mother and I were able to teach ourselves as youngsters. When we went to school, we exceled in the subjects we were strong in.

School did not make us smart, though, we were already adept to begin with.

Yes. One can be self-taught within a lot of things, especially within life experience.

School does not necessarily make one bright.

Education is the process of learning, acquiring knowledge of or skill in something by study, encounter, or being taught. The setting is irrelevant when things are ascertained.

I know plenty of people who attended school who are not smart.

Intelligence is something one is born with.

Knowledge or information is gained, and comes through and within various forms.

It is whether or not one is able to grasp what they learn.

As a person, and as an adult, I have never treated one inferior just because they were younger. I never tried to use my age as a weapon.

Just because one is older does not necessarily make one wiser.

There are young people who can teach an older person something just as there are older people who can teach the young many things.

I don’t consider myself to know everything at all. And I am definitely not the smartest person in the world. I am ahead within the gifts I possess, and I have a lot of knowledge, but I don’t want to know everything. I just know I have a heightened sense and connection to a realm within life that I was always familiar with.

Acknowledging our capabilities is not an expression of conceit or an exaggerated opinion of oneself when one is level-headed and logical. God wants us to be aware of who we are and the things that he equipped within us to have and accomplish to show his glory. Within our ability is a sample of God’s incredibility.

I write this as an encouragement to those who have been mistreated by older folks that have a tendency to manipulate, corrupt, hold-back, or mislead, because they cannot stand to see a younger individual who did not mess up or get caught into the same perils of life they once did.

Instead of being an example to cheer one on, they would rather drag another down as that younger person may have been a reminder of all they could have been, or wanted to be at one time or another in life.

We are blessed with certain gifts that God bestows upon us and some of us are anointed at a very young age.

God makes no mistakes. Do not let anyone tell you what you are not, what you do not know, or what you are not capable of doing.

When God enables us for his intention no one can disable us through attempting to bring about our suspension.

 

 

 

The Writing Hand

I love to write. I have been writing since childhood.

I do not write just to be writing. I have to be moved to write.

Whether if it is by spirit, inclination, or both, the experience is beyond me.

From time to time there is an intermission, though, the ability and performance is always there. But the essence of celestial flow has its frame of consistent exercise.

There was a rare time recently where I did not think I would be interested in writing anymore. I thought the thrill was gone but God showed me different.

For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him. –Philippians 2:13  

When we are open to let the Lord work through us to fulfill our purpose, he will generate his power and continue to lead us down the correct path.

When we may believe we are finished or have no more to offer in a particular area due to mixed feelings, the Lord will unexpectedly surprise us by showing us that he is not yet done with us.

His silence or what seemed as a stagnation was just a reformation to an elevation.latoya lawrence 

Looking Into View

The snow that fell yesterday did not last for very long and the flakes did not stick. It is still cold and cloudy as for today.

Yesterday, a little after 4PM, I watched the Alfred Hitchcock flick “Rearview Window” cast with James Stewart, Grace Kelly, Thelma Ritter, Wendell Corey and Raymond Burr. This classic was entertaining. I enjoy old-time crafty, tasteful suspense.

A lot of film these days are filled with garbage, poorly made having no real depth. It is nice to innocently and adventurously escape into the creativity of well scripted cinema designed in fashionable settings that fit into an engaging interest. The contribution is a great enhancement for the audience that it suits.

As I look into the rearview window of my life, the nostalgic mirror of time reflects a host of good memories past events that will never be replaced but fondly remembered.

I never considered the world my home. I am just a sojourner passing through until I fulfill my purpose. Nevertheless, while here, I am consistently blessed with divine essence which imparts to me moments of ease and pleasure to comfort upon my journey.

Looking back, I have no detrimental life regrets I am filled with peace. Moving forward, I take the love inside that was built and nurtured within me from an infant into the path that will lead unto infinity.

 

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Excellent Classic Cinema

Two of my favorite childhood movies of all time based on scripture are The Ten Commandments with Charlton Heston and Jesus Of Nazareth with Robert Powell.

Whenever I read my bible or think of Moses Charlton Heston and the 1956 film automatically comes to mind. I actually see Charlton as Moses he played the role so well.

The Ten Commandments was a beautifully and wonderfully made depiction of the book of Exodus.

Every year on ABC from my childhood on up the television station would air the three-hour movie for the Easter holiday and I would eagerly and joyfully watch it every year. I remember during one of my teenage years it had come on at midnight and my eyes were glued to the screen as I was snuggled comfortably in my bed with the lights out.

It’s best to view the Ten Commandments uncut in its entirety. Back when I was growing up in the 1980’s we had VCRS (video cassette recorders) where we rented or purchased VHS or Beta tapes for movie watching. These days we have DVD’S and DVD players.

Jesus of Nazareth was another outstanding and beautifully created film that I first originally seen when I was about nine or ten. It was released in 1976 or 1977, however I didn’t get to see it until the 80’s. I was glued to my television set back when the mini-series aired too, I couldn’t stop talking about it afterwards.

In my opinion these two movies based on biblical history are the ultimate best ever made, and they will always be my favorites. They both hold a special place in my heart.

The Ten Commandments and Jesus Of Nazareth had major impact and they were cast so excellently with the perfect actors and actresses.

 

My Blogs

Writing is such a fantastic talent and gift to have and I am consumed with the natural energy to write through spirit whenever I’m moved to create and express.

When I write, it’s not about getting people to read, I don’t care if nobody ever read my literature, I will always continue to write and speak my truths and experiences regardless, it’s genuinely about a driven force within me carrying out what I was born to do and the universe allowing me to do so within my connection unto it.

And, I understand the vibration completely and it is intangible.

It is mysterious how spirit and destiny works.

I Love All of my blogs:

My Second,

A Caulbearer’s Journey (LaToya The Writer: The Clairvoyant/Medium)

 

My Third,

Authentic Expression (LaToya’s Health And Wellness Lifestyle Blog

 

My Fourth,

Working WomanWorking Woman By Miss LaToya

 

A Meal And A Few Movies

The weather has simmered down to a more comfortable temperature I wish it could stay like this all year around.

I prepared and had a lovely vegetarian meal of yellow rice and spices last night.

In addition, I cooked green peas and corn in a separate pot. I steamed broccoli which I added curry spice to and blended it in with the rice and other vegetables after both dishes were done.

My food came out so delicious. I loved every bite of it!

Afterwards, I sat down to watch a few movies. About three weeks ago, I got to catch a favorite classic of mine titled “I Wake Up Screaming” starring Betty Grable, Victor Mature, and Carol Landis.

I know this movie has been on many times over the years just not at periods where I was able to catch it. Anyhow, I first saw this film as a young teenager yet this was another film I had never got to see within its entirety. I’d usually come in on the middle of it just like at my original discovery of the flick.

So just recently I viewed this noir from the very beginning to the end and enjoyed it once all over again at more detail.

I also discovered there is a remake called “Vicky” in reference to one of the murdered characters in the movie.

I’ve missed it the few times it has aired, however, I’ll catch it soon to give it a try and determine whether or not I like the version.

A few nights ago I watched a 1954 movie titled “Black Widow” which starred Ginger Rogers, Van Heflin, Gene Tierney, and George Raft. It was a great film.

Towards the end, I had gotten the feeling that I’d seen this movie before but it was probably so long ago that none of the scenes were spoiled for me because either I didn’t remember it all or hadn’t seen it all back then whenever I had initially viewed it the first time around.

 

Blocked Witchcraft Attempt

As a child I wasn’t sheltered. I’d seen and heard a lot and encountered numerous types of people and situations while at the same time not being negatively influenced within my own behavior by incorporating undesirable habits or lifestyle choices, yet informed, as I had a mind of my own.

I had firsthand experience without having to personally indulge in order to know and since I was spiritually inclined I was able to clearly discern things that were hidden under the surface and I definitely knew what appealed to me and what turned me off and what I wanted to avoid as I grew up in life.

One of my strongest points is my excellent communication skills and comprehension. What I lack though is a sympathetic nature toward people and the world in general. I do love the hell out of puppies and dogs, though, they just steal my heart. They’re so innocent, sincere, and lovable those little adorable fuckers.

Since I nipped that “Think Of Me Spell” in the bud last week another corresponding negative technique was put in motion to run its trifling course. It’s definitely witchcraft yet all it has done is give me a off and on headache.

The motive is to drain me of my good energy and luck to render me vulnerable to the effects of whatever negativity and negative energy in which they gear toward me as they have failed so badly with endeavoring to bring me down and to destroy me.

These idiots are continuing to further ruin themselves through attempting to cause my demise. I am a very good and blessed person and I am and will constantly be guided and protected by divine intervention.

Adversaries are actually hurt because I am not at all hurt or affected by the negativity and dirt they’ve directed toward me within the past and by the negativity and dirt in which some of them still continue to direct toward me now.

They are infuriated by the love I have for myself, my high self esteem, the love and respect I have around me, and the fact that they are unable to stop me from living my life and speaking the truth.

I am a writer by nature, I have a gift, and I am naturally motioned by spirit to utilize and exercise creatively, honestly, and productively whenever inspired. There is power in the universe to those of us who are endowed.

It deeply frustrates them how they cannot get to me emotionally or mentally. And I can “feel” their upsets within my body through intense empathic ability. So they couldn’t deny it even if they wanted to. Feeling and being able to perceive other peoples emotions has always been one of my dominant faculties as a highly spiritually inclined person.

They’re going to drive themselves crazy with trying to hurt or thwart me with things and circumstances in which do not faze me. I’m not the average person. I’ve always been on a entirely different level and will never be hurt by their words, lies, jealousies, ignorant thinking, malicious deeds and etc…

Of course, when somebody comes up against me I will take up for myself or fight back as I am a very feisty and strong individual. And I definitely will correct anyone who comes at me with the wrong approach. One doesn’t have to be hurt to retaliate out of hatred, vengeance, or justification these instances have absolutely nothing to do with being hurt within certain types of people. Everyone is different and does not act out for the same reasons or under the same intention.

Although I do realize many of my adversaries have been hurt by me as I have not been too friendly or receptive to their kind (as I’ve never been fond of their type and those with similar traits and mindsets) yet they hurt themselves by ignorantly making assumptions and adhering to preconceived notions while really knowing the real deal then proceeding to carry out nonsense due to pure spite and resentment.

Classics Galore!

I viewed some more good old black and white noirs last night up until the early morning around 3am I just love the ambience and scenery in which many of these good flicks project.

I can be entertained by them anytime of the day, nevertheless, I like those times during the evening, with the lights out quiet in the dark or dim lit, with my full attention focused on the suspense, thrill, and fun anticipation, and I reflect with a great appreciation for the era and creativity from back in the day.

First, I watched a film titled “The House On Telegraph Hill”, which I really enjoyed, it starred Valentina Cortese along with William Lundigan, Fay Baker, Richard Basehart, and Gordon Gebert.

Then, I checked out “Out Of The Past”, which starred Robert Mitchum, Jane Greer, and Kirk Douglas.

A few weeks ago I watched “Possessed” with Joan Crawford, Van Heflin, Raymond Massey, and Geraldine Brooks. “Clash By Night” with Barbara Stanwyck, Marilyn Monroe, Paul Douglas, Robert Ryan, and Keith Andes. “Born To Kill” with Claire Trevor, Lawrence Tierney, Audrey Long, Phillip Terry and Walter Slezak.

There was another two black and white movies a few months ago I kept missing while I just glimpsed at bits and pieces of them while I was in the midst of doing something around my home. I can’t wait to catch up with these two films in their entirety when they are featured back on.

 

Intelligence/Experience/Talent/Education

Gifted people come in all varieties. We as individuals can do anything that is within what we are capable of doing.

When I was in my early twenties an associate of my mother’s had met with me in person for the first time and heard me speak and hold a conversation and responded later to my mother by addressing “I was nowhere near the level that she’s on at that age. I thought she was in college”.

I wondered to myself “What does college have to do with intellect and mentality?”

Even a professional who I wrote an essay for when I got accepted at a college years ago which I decided not to attend asked me “How do you know how to write so good if you’ve never been to a college?” I didn’t get it because I’ve never associated intelligence and talents with professional training. To me, everything depends on ones own individual capacity.

This person didn’t mean any harm (my mother’s associate), of course, his words were actually a compliment and acknowledged that just because someone is in college doesn’t make them smarter than someone who is not.

I was never one to believe that school actually made one smart and I was never intimidated by anyone’s degree as I could attain the same achievement or higher if I chose to. School is just a tool of enhancement to progress an already intelligent and capable mind. However, learning comes within all fashions and within all places it is whether one is able to fully grasp what is being taught to them.

I remember back in the day how left back students attending high schools who didn’t have a satisfactory grade level of reading skills were eventually promoted out of school and allowed to graduate just because administration was tired, frustrated, or just didn’t want to deal with the problem anymore and decided to get rid of them instead.

When I was ten years old I took and passed tests high school children were unable to complete and pass without a problem. I even had an opportunity to get published by a mainstream publisher for short stories that I wrote back then.

Now I’m hearing in this day and age kindergarten children are getting left back. Some of it is the parents fault as they may have messed their children up with drugs and alcohol or are just not putting in the extra effort or time to help and teach their children. Even some parents themselves don’t have the knowledge to properly raise and guide their children

Don’t get me wrong, though, school is a positive and constructive resource, however, education is just the incorporation of particular knowledge which can be learned within any setting to the individual who has the right development and equipment.

I already knew how to read and write before I ever began school as a youngster and when I got older I was skipped a grade into a class for the gifted. Yet, school never held my interest as I was bored.

I didn’t have a problem with school itself but it was the individuals and the environment in which I had to attend school with. I liked it better learning one on one with a sufficient older person or within the presence of a specific group of other like-minded adolescents.

When I became fully grown and totally came into my own I liked partaking within classes better since I was not a child who didn’t have the control around my situations as children are oftentimes not taken as seriously within maturity and allowed the partiality of making their own fair judgments among other adults in certain situations.

Some are naturally born with communication skills and have the faculty to problem solve as I was.

I know people who’ve attended school and higher education who are still in school and they are definitely not too bright, especially within the area of common sense. And some people do cheat their way out.

I know some people who battle with low self esteem, ignorance, a complex of some sort and use their credentials as a badge of authority toward others. I don’t cater to people like that I don’t consider people experts soley depending on a course they’ve took or a certificate they’ve recieved I have too much of an open mind as well as common sense and too much experience to know that knowledge or brilliance is not packaged strictly in standard wrappings there is also the papers that come decorated in all styles and design.

Inspired

It’s spring yet the weather here in New York doesn’t know what it wants to do so I still dress warm hoping eventually we’ll get some pleasant steady temperature that is more aligned into the season.

We may not even have much of a summer if this keeps up.

One day it’s a little nice out the next it’s back to feeling like the winter or fall.

Nevertheless, I keep myself occupied and when I have free time I write as I am back into the mode right now.

Spirit even motivated me to create another blog, my health and food blog that expresses and promotes wellness.(https://authenticexpression.food.blog/)

Movie: Hereditary

I went to the movies earlier this afternoon and viewed the horror film titled “Hereditary”. I knew that the movie was going to be good after seeing the coming attractions last month when I went to see another film.

I had been wanting to see a good chiller film and this was indeed one of them and one for those that could get into it and understand the storyline and occult twists that are brought to a spooky head during the conclusion.

It was a very well designed horror flick and one with an ending that was hauntingly authentic within it’s creativity and one that would make me want to stay clear away from anything associated with the devil.

The film’s depth centered around other deeper issues other than the supernatural even though that aspect figured prominently, however, that tree house scene was eerie and so realistic to a satanic worship “feel” that I’d never want to indulge in.

Movie deserves all the entertainingly thrilling hype!

 

Us Barbie Collectors

Souvenirs

A lot of my pay stubs from working at Sears for four whole years.

When I tidy up from time to time I come across things as we usually do when we clean and/or make room for other things and to also throw out things that we no longer have use for.  While in the midst I came across a lot of my old pay stubs and realized that I’ve worked a lot of jobs between retail and within the health care field. I even came across an old report card from when I was a youngster marked with A grades and few B ones along with some certificates for achievement.

One of my pay stubs from working the hosiery department at JC Penney for an entire year

I am so proud of all of the accomplishments that I have made through out the years.

Two weeks ago a client at one of my jobs called up the private company that I work for acknowledging to my superiors that I was giving exceptional service and that she wanted me working more frequent days and I had accepted the offer when the company phoned me up with the news. This client also told me that I was too smart to be working the job, and I always get this same remark from people, “Why are you here, you’re too smart to be at this job whether it is in retail and the such.

One of my pay stubs from working at Bloomingdale’s for three years

Without going into certain details I expressed to the lady that phoned up my job about the jealousy from others and how within the past up until now how many had tried to interfere with my life yet I still succeeded but that how when I was a child I had the opportunity to be published by a mainstream publisher but that I mistakenly refused the offer due to my anger at what was going on in life at the time and at the trouble it would have caused during that time from a few envious/ jealous disturbed family members and outsiders that were working with them and etc… but that writing was my nature and where my heart truly was.

One of my schedules from Toys R Us

“Well no one can stand in your way now”, she told me. And she is correct.

She took down my full name and number wanting to keep in contact with me stating, “I want your full name because I know that you’re going to be a writer, well you are a writer”.

I told her, “I know what you mean, recognition”.

One of my schedules from Burlington

“Exactly”, she said I can tell and hear it in your voice that you’re a writer”. She has no doubt that I’ll eventually make it even further and neither do I!

No matter how many people have tried to hold me back through out my life I have managed to become very successful regardless in all of the things that I had set out to do. When anyone tries to stop me it just makes me hate them even more and makes me more determined to get what I want.

Free supplies notice I received when I adopted a new female Labrador Retriever in the year 2011

I remember when this guy by the name of George Owens (who always thought he was the smartest thing in the world and that he knew everything but was nothing but a dumb ignorant undesirable fuck who didn’t know what he was talking about who’d constantly gossip about everyone then go smile in their face) said “She can’t even do this”, talking about me doing the annual account for my mother who was conservator over my grandmother’s affairs years ago as my mother would ask him to do it once a year (he didn’t even know me personally or well enough to know what my capabilities were but I knew him as I could read him like a book and knew that one day he would get his and he sure has gotten his! I won’t mention what it is though as I have already discreetly mentioned it in a post last year).

And I thought that was interesting since the lawyer over my mother and another professional woman had stated that he didn’t know what he was doing as he kept getting it wrong every year. The annual account didn’t start getting done accurately until I became the one to complete it from then on and it was documented, we didn’t need him. The stupid ass George Owens even got arrested for tax evasion (http://queensda.org/Press%20Releases/2001%20Press%20Releases/03-March/03-21-2001.htm) he goes by a muslim name now. I’ve always filed and done my taxes completely on my own without the help of anyone every year. I’ll tell you, jealousy is a bitch.

As good people no matter what the circumstances we are the ones to come out on top when we are strong.

I don’t understand why people tried me within the first place and thought that they would get away with it. I was born under the zodiacal sign Taurus and one can’t mess with the bull without getting murdered or seriously injured.

 

 

Veil/Discernment

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Omar said 16 hours ago

Miss Latoya,

Thank you for your reply and insights. It was very refreshing. I will be reading it more than once in order to get the full meaning! When you spoke about the negativity that we encounter serving to push us toward our intended purpose it was like a light bulb being lit. Throughout my life I have had family members and friends that I genuinely cared for that would betray my loyalty at the first opportunity that they had. It took decades before I began to force myself to see them in the light that they were showing me instead of the light that I had wanted them to have. Slowly I realized that I just wanted to have people that understood me and this put me in a situation to experience that negativity over and over again.

Now, I am beginning to consider my life and past actions more in hindsight and can see how it was necessary for me to have those relationships and experiences that were so painful at the time.

At this point in my life I am focused on being a person that God can use. I spend a lot of time alone or either with my daughter. I research all types of subjects and write down my ideas and thoughts. I get ideas in my sleep and wake up to write them down. I write poems, rhymes, short stories etc. I know that there is a purpose for my being here.

In the Bible, in multiple instances, it talks about having wise counsel. Growing up, I had always been the person in the group that was into thinking a few steps ahead of actions. Many times this would spoil plans and cause conflicts with who ever was the “leader” of the group at that time. I have always felt like I was a leader, but at those early ages, becoming the leader meant you had to be the baddest, and this was never my forte.

It seems like I am babbling, but what I am getting at is that I was attempting to be a wise counsel in those early years, but my counsel was not being appreciated because the leadership was unworthy.

Now, at this stage in my life, after my many experiences, I know that I am a leader. Even if it is only being the leader of myself, of course with Gods counsel, I must have wise people that are aware and are blessed to live outside of the scope of our everyday reality that I can hear from in times of uncertainty.

I appreciate you for your willingness to share your perspective and your spirit with me.

God Bless you Sister

You said 0 minutes ago

First of all, your ongoing words were not at all to me of any sort of annoyance or of a babbling content it was wonderful.

When it is necessary and proper within the alignment of instinct and tendency even for reasons that you may not be able to explain or even understand initially but know deep within your heart, mind, and soul that it is vital you have to let go and release because there is a need for our truths to be revealed from without ourselves unto the universe as we become further empowered and protected to move on to the next level.

A little side note: Have you ever noticed how people will confess and reveal to us their secrets and burdens, tell us things that they haven’t shared with anyone else, then admit to us “I don’t know why I’m telling you this?”.

That has happened to me on many of occasion. The powers of the caul will draw out information from others without us having or wanting to seek out their disclosures, even negative people that are enemies will express their guilt or discretion and even tell on their other counterparts.

Now back to what I was saying: Sharing and exchanging our words of experience and journey is very beneficial to all of us that are resourceful and conducive even to the most advanced of individuals.

We as gifted children within our own category of unique and spiritual talents that are “energetically inspired” and determined have all at one time or another had questions and have searched for answers and have wanted serious discussion from others who are “like us”. It is delightful and refreshing to come across some one who understands you and that you can trust and that genuinely has good intentions toward you within your quest for guidance or clarity.

Oftentimes in reading or hearing about another person’s story we may identify some of our own closely related issues and/or experiences and other common threads that bind or connect us together. We can take certain aspects or solutions that may apply to us or our lives and use them as stepping stones.

When we share to the very few “right” type of people whether within the presence of some one that we personally know or just in correspondence to someone that we connect with in some way or just even expressing our words and thoughts through writing and other modes of creativity it is very therapeutic and cathartic.

And some of us are ignited by divine spirit to bring forth messages through our own gifts and special talents. We are the very vessels that truth and knowledge will exercise itself through for whatever purpose that is within accordance to us and our journey.

I just want you to know that you seem to me to be a individual that is very intelligent and that is on the correct path and that has the strength, insight/knowledge and personal experience to make it through anything in order to succeed in whatever it is that is destined for you.

However, as I am sure that you already know when you are of the “light” the darkness will always attempt and try to shadow your path to hinder your walk and prevent you from arriving to where it is that you are suppose to go.

As people who are born to be leaders and not followers we value order, logic and responsibility and we are very trustworthy because we are very dependable and reliable. We are characterized by our “high thinking” and “high level of spirituality”. We have a clear manner of thinking and we pay attention to the details that other individuals overlook and negativity is not a fan of that at all.

The darkness can never overpower the light but at the same time we have to never let that “nasty wind” be strong enough to ever blow out our “beautiful sparkling flames”.

Collector’s Items

There is a man that periodically comes into the store where I work at and he prefers that the boxes of his merchandise be within perfect condition as he is a avid collector of a specific toy item.

There are many of us that have a fancy for certain things whether we plan on retaining them for their value later on in life or just for a personal delight and pastime or both.

Whenever I collected items like my Archie comic books-that I still order till this day-it was never with the intent to ever gain any money from them but to always have to keep and to enjoy reading whenever I felt in the mood to.

Photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package

When I use to work at JC Penney department store out in Garden City at the Roosevelt field mall about ten or eleven years ago and I use to off an on run to KB toy store and Toys r Us on my meal-break before I’d eat at my favorite restaurants I had purchased over fifty brand new Barbie dolls.

Currently I own well over a hundred of them including the ones that I like from the “Fashionista” selection.

Some of my lovely Barbies that I’ve collected still remain unopened within their boxes until I move into my new and bigger home in the near future where I will make a special gorgeous room to display them all in.

Another photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package

I haven’t bought any dolls lately it’s been two months I think now since I haven’t found any in particular that have caught my eye it is one of such of my fabulous hobbies that I enjoy though.

Two of the biggest loves of my youth-Puppies/Dogs and Barbie are still the loves that I share to this very today.

Full photo that I took of my actual Barbie still in her package

My very first full breed German Shepherd puppy that was named “Brownie” that I didn’t have for very long didn’t touch any of my toys but my second baby “Brandie” my beautiful mixed Shepherd/Collie breed that was seven to eight weeks old at the time tore up all of my Barbies and bit up the wire to my Atari set and certain other toys as little puppies often love to chew on things, the little sneak had waited until I went to sleep before she went to town on my playthings, nevertheless, I loved my puppy madly!

 

Bless The One Who Has Their Own

retreivers“You know, a lot of people are jealous of you and your mother”, a woman acquaintance who visited my home from the old neighborhood told me to my face years ago.

I was at the age of ten at the time and she had come to sit and visit with my grandmother when she acknowledged this revelation to me as we sat next to one another on the couch.

I didn’t say anything in return as I listened and took the message in then relayed the information back to my mother when she had arrived home later in the day.

The news wasn’t anything that was foreign or that my mother hadn’t already known within her own knowledge and intuition as to the negative emotions of certain others especially of those who’d gossip and/or spread false rumor just to let out their apparent insecurities and resentments to be openly identified by those who could thoroughly analyze and recognize them.

The lady’s communication was just a confirmation to a validation.

So pathetic how the jealousy and envy had followed us for decades up until now with circumstance rubbing their noses into the fact that my mother was a more competent parent within intelligence and capability and that their children were incapable of ever measuring up to the caliber of what I have and am able to further achieve within faculty and accomplishment.

To Elude The Truth?

felineIsn’t it something when sick people who are extremely jealous and envious of us try to relentlessly stop us within life then attempt to blames us when or if difficulty occurs knowing all along that they were behind the sabotage to begin with?

As they deliberately try to cause damage for us through their duplicitous methods of intervention whether by lies and/or manipulation of circumstance they actually believe that we ourselves are suppose to be the scapegoat?

It was often so strange to me how these type of people considered themselves to be clever within their ominous ventures as their undertakings have always appeared and proved to be rather transparent within the keenly focused mind’s eye especially when the subject of their scheme was well aware of their own obvious talents and skill and logical reasoning of natural probability for success.

The red flag is automatically raised when particular essence according to bestowal does not properly go into fruition, so who is the genuine culpable fool?

Attune

serveNo matter what I have to keep my self occupied whether it is at my workplace environment, my outside environment or at my home environment.

Even while I am at rest my overactive brain is always ticking with the full force of natural productive energy.

I have a mind that I refuse to put to waste and a voice that I do not hesitate to put forward as it is not wise to hinder our talents and gifts whatever it is that they may be to us and within our capability so I go along with the celestial flow of automatic message and design.

pie slicesSpirit speaks to me on so many levels using me as an instrument to harmoniously transfer the melodies of extraordinary tune.

True Calling For This Caulbearer To Answer

Egyptian GoddessEver since I was a child there were many who never wanted to see me getting anywhere in life as they earnestly aspired to create obstacles and destruction.

They endeavored to forward my life into another direction other than where it was naturally suppose to go as they intentionally did their best to impede and to cause unnatural catastrophic occurrences.

Throughout it all, and contrary to what my foes may have wanted and expected, I have phenomenally remained unscathed.

As I continue to prevail utterly intact I am determined and entitled to reach my highest point elected celestially and I will not stop until I get what I am appointed for.

When I published my first novel years ago my envious and jealous great-grandmother Amanda was so scared about the possibility of my success after she had tried so long and desperately by utilizing the negative forces of evil black magic to attempt to drastically change my destiny around.

“How far will this go?” She had asked her nephew in regard to my book, “Will there be a movie made out of it?”

EuropeanOh, it just ate Amanda up the thought of me achieving all of what I was purposed to accomplish here on this earth just like it does all of the other of my undesirable foes who’ve tried and that have continued to provide a helping hand within trying to tame the wild winds of my violent storm of intended success that would hit them all like a vile tornado, my blast of notorious energy is a hurricane that they’d never be able to handle.

I have idiotic foes at the moment who want me to give up on what I do and want for me to believe that there is no use within me to prosper within what I was divinely designed for yet they were not celestially outlined to accomplish anything at all. It is not within any divine plan to tailor any demonic breed of trash into eminence; their only way is through selling their souls to the devil, which he already has contained.

“They are going to make a movie out of your book”, my fathers uncle had told me after he had read it back in 2001 and he was not alone within his perspective.

He wasn’t the only one who had felt that way and who could sense that, I had known that revelation too and had even been approached, it is within the past what was to take place, however, the potential was known and it was addressed.

There are other definite future prospects that are not gone and that are still available for whenever the universe decides to bring forth that connection that envelops all around me I was not meant to be just a writer alone but a professional of quite a few other significant capabilities also. I can see and feel what I am surrounded by.

“You’re going to be very successful”, I’ve been told. “And your enemies are going to be shocked and surprised when it happens”.

EgyptianWhether one is born with a caul or not there are those of us who still have a special purpose within life and that are born and meant to have and to achieve the blessings that were preordained to them.

Even though it is tiresome enduring unnecessary circumstances we still have to fight and stay alert, when anyone tries to stop me or tries to hold me back it just makes me angry and more determined to survive and to attain, an innate instinct that has gotten me as far as I am right now.

My Epithet

islandWriting is my first love and one of the career advancements that I continue to do and head for within the present as well as toward the future but I am a woman of many talents and enterprise so I don’t limit myself to just one or two things.

I achieve to accomplish all of what I have celestially been permitted through divine guidance, opportunity and advantage.

We must never be misdirected from our path of destiny and we must truly know and believe within ourselves to maintain and deliver.

When the time to reach one’s entire peak arrives it will come and it will be in the most unexpected of fashion just be prepared and ready for the responsibility and diligently learn during this preparation period that is selected by “our higher power”.

When what is ordained begins to manifest we will ultimately go into the rewards of fruition.

I am an inventor a visionary, the lead in a play, the artistic mind power behind the big idea or the singer in the band (although I don’t sing), I always shine.

I am sociable by nature with an eye for the electric. Others are drawn to me and they admire me.

I am especially attracted to the art world and I thrive out in the world and appreciate being surrounded by other people the only exception to this is when I am working on something artistic, where I can find myself completely engrossed in a project for hours at a time.

I am a leader, I am competitive, I am unconventional, I am creative, I am confident, I am intuitive and I am process oriented.

I work best when my environment gives me authority over my creative process, offers a combination of autonomy and teamwork is fast paced and sustains open-mindedness.

I work well with inventors who share my creative mind and my ability to work in a sometimes chaotic work environment. When I get together with my inventor colleagues the ideas start to flow, and I feel inspired by putting our minds together.

I also appreciate working with Planner colleagues because as the person who brings “big ideas”, I rely on someone to take care of and remember the details. I and my Planner coworkers make the perfect team, working in tandem to cover all aspects of a project.

As a natural leader and an easygoing person, I am fortunate in that I work well with all types of colleagues. However, I may find that if there are too many other visionaries on my team, I get the feeling that there are “too many other cooks in the kitchen”.

This can be frustrating for me and those on my team as they may be confused about whom to follow. I may find that I have to adjust my leadership style a bit for my action-taker colleagues who prefer solitary work.

I am a team and people oriented person, yet it can be good to remember that there are those types of people who work best alone as I often also do myself.

 

 

LaToya’s Autumn

leafIt is in all seasons to “bloom” whether it is winter, spring summer or fall.

Welcome to my world and to the chronicles of my life as an unconventional individual who is not afraid to be herself, who is not afraid to speak her mind, and most of all, who is not afraid to speak the definite truth as I continue to share my experience.

Enter into the pages of a caulbearer, enter into the pages of jealousy, enter into the pages of creativity and purpose, enter into the pages of voodoo and black magic, enter into the pages of asexuality, enter into the pages of spirituality, and enter into the pages of reality.

A reality for those in particular that may interests many of us, a reality that may surround many of us, a reality that recognizes many of us, a reality that describes many of us, a reality that inspires many of us, a reality that puts many of us not within the average category and a reality that many of us can relate to.

And it is all coming from a person (me) with firsthand experience in these circumstances and situations, and who knows that you (those in particular) are “indeed not” crazy yet living and maintaining within a crazy, outrageous world full of very sick and ignorant people, along with very malignant evil forces and unnatural energies, as well as the natural. Visit LaToya’s Autumn

Poise

 

swing againTo dwell within a state of a defined and aligned fulfillment what exactly is wrong with that superbly ordained commitment?

As I take swings back and forth beyond the shadows going to and from the mysteries that open up the many of my windows I enjoy the inexplicable nature of my ride that is out of the ordinary for anyone to most commonly describe.

The animation of my soul is not brought forth here as a source within a vessel to control, I am not created for anyone to mold.

The firm strings and board of lane through out the valley of passageway that I comfortably sway upon wherein lead me deep down into the mountains and unto the hills that from above I go therein.

So lucky to have come into contact with you, something that did not happen out of the blue, too good too be true, the things that you can do.

Oh, what I feel for you, if you only knew.

swingIt was guaranteed for us to stay I will never go away.

Too good to be true, oh the love that I have for you, never imagined it could be this way even though you promised me this day, I don’t worry about tomorrow because with you there is no sorrow, too good to be true you are my dream come new.

latoya lawrence

 

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