LaToya Lawrence At Work 2As I was unable to attend the morning meeting in honor of outstanding employee accomplishments I was later handed an award by the store manager signed by him and my supervisor as I was among a few of the workers to receive recognition for duty throughout the years and it reads:

We express our sincere appreciation to LaToya Lawrence In recognition of your personal commitment, dedication, and performance.

I’ve always received certificates and awards during school and on my jobs and told how very good I was within the things that I do, however, I was never really fazed by it but I come to see how it is such a very nice and sincere gesture of hard-work and achievements not going unnoticed by those who count. And I am very gracious for the recognition.LaToya Lawrence Award At Work 1


The Peace Within


wordsIn my own words as always:

Although a serious person I have always been one to constantly laugh and to consistently find the humor within a lot of things, even within the negativity of people I have to sarcastically mock, that is just within my nature.

We all have our deep moments here and there, however, no situation and no one have ever been able to take away the fun side of me and no one should ever let anyone or anything steal away their joy. I joke around and laugh everyday, even silently to myself sometimes as we cannot always express or demonstrate our amusement out in the open or to just any and everyone.

I’ve been in situations and circumstances in which others would have, or even have, considered being difficult periods that I would just swim on through with such ease and comfort. What may have appeared as a hardship to them was absolutely nothing to me because of my wavelength and disposition. I am as unconventional and laid-back as they come, occasionally too nonchalant.

Everything all depends on how we look at ourselves, the ethereal, the world around us, and the aspects in which that also surround within the universe. We are all distinct individuals in our own right.

white lionsI’ve been through too much far too early on in life on account of others at the age when I was totally innocent and blameless of any wrong-doing on up yet failed to lose my inborn high-spirited persona. I overcame tenaciously and was compensated gracefully.

I have too much love, knowledge and spirituality around me to not have peace and contentment inside.

Laughter keeps us healthy and love keeps us strong.

Love is found everywhere and within anything that attracts our senses gravely and valuably it is the essence of being within relation to our well-being, self love is priceless and the genuine love that is given to us does not come for sale.

Love has our backs and never lets us down and love would never allow anything to break it apart from us.

Love has many origins there is not just one source or vessel in which this intense affection stems and flows from or through.

We find and come across love in so many ways, forms and fashions the most vital thing is to cherish what mode attributed according to what shifts within harmony to our own unique states of existence.

words 2When I look at my life and where I am at and acknowledge the predicaments of others who are not as well off as me mentally, spiritually, physically and lifestyle-wise I recognize how lucky and fortunate that I am and that I never had to undergo anything within their severity.

So I just as those who have shared my experiences and that have walked in my shoes or similar ones we have a lot to appreciate, to be thankful for, and to look forward to through faith and belief in what hasn’t failed us yet. -latoya lawrence




thank youI feel so good about myself as an individual and I am so very proud of who I am and of the woman that I have genuinely become through natural development and I cannot lie or deny that fact at all. 

I truly do like, love and respect myself and I am utterly satisfied as to where I do originate from within celestial state of being and occult lineage.

The identity that I was born with and that has expanded through out vital evolution will never be lost or stolen away from my possession.

Pure energy generates from within and radiantly exudes without.


Illumination: Self Love, Self Respect:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2013/05/05/illumination-self-love-self-respect-self-enlightenment/)

The Ties That Mysteriously Bind


coffee and saucerI am not and have never been the jealous or envious type certain people, a lot in fact, have always been very jealous of me and all of this definite fact has not only been recognized by me but by many others who were cognizant of it at a time even before I myself was completely aware, they came and told me some even while I was still very young. I hadn’t even known the depth of envy and jealousy yet.

And with much experience growing up and then looking back I have examined and discerned with a “fine tooth comb” and yes it at times has burned me the fuck up how sick individuals have tried to maliciously interfere and to hold me back within life as well as they have tried and have also failed with others who were superior within their own leagues of existence.

I never dwelt on the ill will and ill intent of those who were inadequate because haters actually deep down inside hate themselves and I knew that they could never succeed within hindering me as I have always had too much fire and intelligence blazing inside of my own indestructible constitution.

I’d laugh at transparent manipulation tactics (ploys that were so obvious to me) and at the collaboration of those weak-minded souls who needed to desperately band together because by themselves they were never shit as they consistently gained their confidence (false sense of security) through the facades of their own pathetic little circles.

sweet treat heartsWhat I didn’t realize as a child as I do absolutely now is that everyone of those individuals have already and those who have accumulated along the way do reap much more worse than what they have sowed as at the first instant of dirty contemplation and deed it is “recorded” and “stored” for inevitable unbeknownst self reimbursement that automatically “tie” and “bind” here on earth and all to eternity.

Devious Contemplation:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/18/devious-contemplation/)

Evil Eye


stalkerI am able to see many beautiful things out of my “big pretty brown eyes” many wonderful things that evil and ugly people cannot tarnish from around me.

The joy and the prosperity, the peace and the protection, the love and the respect, the knowledge and the blessings. All of the precious and priceless things that belong and come to the anointed and the well deserved.

No demon nor devil can spoil my contentment I am solid.

It is said that “money” is the root of all evil yet it seems to be more the “green eyed monster”.

Those spiritual and physical “stalkers” that are too much preoccupied with the lives of others because they do not have anything productive going on within their own.

The “tab keepers” who keep a track on the movements of the “enterprising” because they have no true purpose of their very own.

Those fraudulent souls who have no authentic identity and want to “steal” and to be just as the objects that are the most envied, the most desired within their pure “jealousy”.

Yes, want to look like me, want to act like me, want to talk like me, want to think like me, want to extra sensory perceive like me, then lie on me since one cannot duplicate the real me, and seek out to destroy me because unable to become me.

Oh, what a load onto me.

A baggage of someone else that I will definitely not carry, a burden that I would sure like to bury, a problem that I’d get rid of in a hurry, a bitch that I would love to seal into a ditch.

Oh, I can see why so frustrated of not being just like me as I am so hot that I hit that spot, I am so bad that I make you mad. There will never be another “cause their ain’t no other”, that is me “LaToya” not you “Mother fucker”.

What I say toward your “Evil Eye”- Goodbye!


One of the most ugliest and morbid of bitches that I have ever seen and/or came across no wonder the whore is so infatuated with a “princess” such as me. “So severely mentally ill need to go take a pill” and then go to sleep forever please do the entire world a favor and go away for good.


Miss LaToya


2015-03-20-15-LaToyaLawrence3I was never the type to blast pictures/photos of myself over the internet ( I never thought it to be a wise idea. And I’ve never come across any pictures of myself on the internet)  or anywhere else for that matter. I’ve always been a very private yet open person.

Hell, I do not even normally take pictures although I have loads of pictures of myself during childhood.

Nevertheless, my jealous and evil black magic-doing “certain freak of nature relatives as well as certain enemies” had taken pictures of me to spread to others (when they weren’t pointing me out to people in the street)  in order to recognize me through out the years in the past while they would ineffectively harass and spread their lies in vain attempts to try to destroy me.

They all really thought that they were doing something.

All of their business and skeletons were out in the streets and they wanted to “out” me for not having any dirt so they all wanted to make up a bunch of silly shit.

2015-03-20-15-LaToyaLawrence5It eats them up so badly that they do not have anything negatively “real” on me!

That is why a lot of people “in particular” know who I am by face.

I have always been famous, a “star” within my own right without even wanting to be just through being unique, and a target for the jealous kind.

I, of course, knew what they were all up to as I have always been ahead laughing at them and at their own true torturous roads to self destruction. They never knew the depths of my knowledge, intellect, or gifts.

They never knew shit back then period. They were and are still lost and hopeless miserable souls.

They are well aware of the proficiency of my powers/talents now- because I had to show them all in not so much appropriate ways/fashions that I am also so very proud of. They’ll never know the definite heights of all that I possess and they do not need to.

It is none of their business!

2015-03-20-LaToyaLawrence4Since they love my “beautiful and youthful” face and innocent appearance so much I will be the one who truly controls the scene. I’ll air my own spotlight. I take the last photos in which “I truly own”.

I am just a very attractive unconventional solitary female what is the big fucking deal?!

This is literally me now at the age of forty earlier this year in 2015 at work doing a twelve hour three nights a week shift at the home of a retired lawyer/judge out in Massapequa, New York who was also by marriage related to a very famous well-known actress.

Doing only private duty I have come across the most beautiful homes of wealthy people.

When I tired of the home front I worked a twelve hour four nights a week shift for Dementia/Alzheimer patients at an residential assisted living facility out in Rockland county, New York that appeared more like the combination of a resort and a hotel.

2015-3-20LaToyaLawrence8I’ve worked in some very high class settings.

No matter where I’ve worked though I still have come across those “undesirable” co-workers who get intimidated by me then endeavor to make conflict.

It is mostly or usually the ugly and oogly looking beastly ones who like to fuck with me and it has been that way whether I was at work or at school or just in my own old neighborhood. Nevertheless, they are all very sick/warped minded kind of people.

No matter what I’ll always continue to strive. I’ll always continue to work. And I’ll always never give up on the professional writing and spiritual attainments that I was definitely born an meant to do and accomplish regardless of the negative energies that intend to hold me back.

I love the positive spiritual beauty and energy that is geared around me. I give praise to the good vibrations of the universe, my ancestors, orishas and special spirit guides.

LaToya Lawrence At Work











The Ultimate Respect


dessertEver since I was a little girl one thing I remember about my mother is how she would always talk to me and share. I would do the same in return. I am a person who loves to talk and indulge in conversation when I am in the mood for it.

One thing my mother had disclosed to me is how she never ever had sex while she was pregnant with me. And I believed her one hundred percent and I still do til this day in that regard.

She is telling the honest to goodness truth.

When she told me that I felt so honored and it showed me how much love and respect that I was given while developing inside of her womb/uterus.

Yes, we hear so many times from doctors and educators that while a woman is pregnant the baby is protected by the amniotic fluid in the uterus and the mucous plug located at the cervix as they serve as barriers against wandering sperm and the thrusting of a penis.

And I am clarifying my knowledge of that “what is considered fact” because any time one happens to disagree or form their own opinion to specific topics others are quick to define them as being uninformed or imparting misinformation.

In life, we are taught things whether it be in school or within other structures but all is learned through experience. If it were not for study and experience how would we know?

In general,  no one has the right to classify someone as being uneducated for having their own point of view regardless of after hearing what is suppose to be fact.
ice cream dessert“Oh, I don’t want to hear that shit!” my mother would say of the notion of sperm and jolting not affecting an unborn baby. And I would laugh because it was funny to me.

“I wasn’t going to let no man be bumping up against my baby’s head and letting semen go into my baby’s food supply. That is why a lot of these kids are born so lustful and crazy now”.

The same thing about the Shingles virus. It is said anybody who had varicella virus/chicken pox may eventually develop that nasty rash infection.

“Oh, I don’t want to hear that shit!” my mother would say in regards to the way one is able to contract the Shingles. “They just say that because they don’t want to make everybody feel bad who comes down with it”.

In other words she was saying Shingles is like an std and in reality it sort of is because it is a form of herpes but some do not believe that it can be sexually transmitted but I personally do know two or three people in the past who had contracted it that way through oral and/or AIDS related sex.

I have to admit without a doubt that I feel the same way about pregnancy.

I don’t care what anyone else does with their body that is their own choice and their own business, however, with me personally it would be out of the question.

I have no absolute desire for a man to touch me period as I am asexual but hypothetically speaking if I was a pregnant woman I would not want or allow a man to touch me!

A complete violation to the atmosphere of my child’s developmental environment and I am so glad that my mother had felt the same or similar way that I do about the situation before I was even born.

And for that, no matter what else may have been said or done through out the confusion of negative influences that may have affected my mother in the near past I give her so much credit and appreciation for having given me the most “Ultimate Respect”.










cupThis past Friday morning on my way to my job as I rode the bus I noticed a woman with white skin sitting up front by the window. It was a lovely day out and the sun beamed in on her nicely colored shoulder length blond tresses.

As we both took the bus to its last destination I stopped this female stranger on the street to ask her if that was the natural shade of her hair.

The lady who appeared to be within her fifties or maybe even sixties, hell, she could have been older than that the way a lot of people look really good for their age these days and who spoke with an accent that may have been either Jewish or Russian or something else actually explained to me that she would use highlights and the such.

We exchanged a few more words as I told her how I had watched her on the bus gazing at her strands as they shined beautifully in the light of the sun.

“Well, I just wanted to tell you how pretty the tone of your hair is”, I genuinely expressed to this women that I’d never seen before in my neighborhood.

She stood still then smiled and said thank you with true appreciation within her voice and we departed to our own further destinations.

I use to color my hair when I was in my mid twenties to early thirties now I just stay with my natural pretty dark reddish brown shade as I have no desire to dye my locks anymore. I am lucky to come from genes where we all have a very good grade of healthy and good growing hair and I have that natural luster to mine.

I wanted to go blond years ago when my hair length was hanging all the way down to my back yet I would have had to constantly bleach it if I wanted to maintain that permanent color after the new growth came in back then and I did not want to strip my hair so I just settled for other shades until I found one to stick with.

Those days are gone now and I do prefer my own tone even though I had fun with experimenting with certain different shades.

I’ve worked at JC Penney, Bloomingdale’s, Sears and Macy’s and at my current workplace I have a very important job that requires full time hours. Aside from the other important jobs that I’ve had working in retail where I was only in charge of certain departments or just working certain areas, now I am in a position where I am responsible throughout the whole entire store.

“We believe in you”, my manager addressed to me a while back. And I haven’t had any problems at all taking on this role that I enjoy and that I’ve been doing very well in and soon I’ll be overlooking others who I’ll have to assist.

My coworkers are so nice and good to me, and I to them, we’re all very professional.

I had a great day yesterday on the job full of energy and initiative as usual yet even more so.

The Holiday season is coming and we’ll be doing the yearly overnight shifts which I love even more before we’ll go back to our regular daily morning shifts. I’ve finally completely ditched the health care field as I was doing it on the side to do something that I really want and my preparations are so becoming as it gets me fully ready for the store and business of my very own that I will be venturing into and opening up one day within the future.

manyThe universe is wonderful and forever in effect granting us our wants, desires and needs, the things that we deserve and that are within our destiny all that we have to do is to believe and mine have always come sooner than expected.

I always give veneration and praise to all of my good Ancestors and Orishas as they have my back and faithfully lead my pathways.




My Cousin Dottie (Another Lovely Memento)



I last saw my cousin Dottie-who the family referred to as “Dot” her nickname like people always called me “Toy” or “Toya” for short-in person sometime in the nineties at her mothers apartment in the Bronx after she had passed away. Before then I hadn’t seen her since I was much younger aside from having talked to her over the phone once in a while.

I forgot the year in which Dottie herself passed away, however, Dottie was the glamorous type who was well off and that had lots of money and like me she never cared what anyone said or thought about her as she had many that were also jealous of her.

Dottie was one of my great-grandmothers sister’s twin daughters, the sister that is featured in my “Lovely Mementos” post and she was beautiful too. I am glad that I got to see her before she passed away as she was one who had told her aunt Amanda that she was “The worst one in their family” as the rest of us good ones shared the same view.

Dottie and one of her husbands

Dottie and one of her husbands

At one time in life at the very beginning Amanda had seemed alright yet something happened along the way, anyhow, us that had sense didn’t let those who were envious of our entire family and the things that we had as well as our character come between us and try to tear us apart as individuals-we sustained and I am proud!



Lovely Mementos


It is nice to look back and reminisce from the old days.

For the most part I come from a high class family with the exception of my father’s side. A few bad apples don’t spoil the whole entire family of generations and I am very proud of my lineage of strong and independent women and strong hardworking men yet I wasn’t able to post my grandmother’s large size fabulous family of relatives from Virginia so for now I’ll just post some of the beautiful memories of my grandfather’s before a few of the bad apples (his mother, his son when he got older, and his other daughter that I didn’t bother to post) became rotten.

LaToyaBrandieMe and my dog Brandie when we were both still babies she was such a cute pup!

My Mamma when she was pregnant with me she was so adorable

My Mamma when she was pregnant with me she was so adorable

AmandaFamily 2My great-grandmother holding my mother when she was a baby and my great-grandmother holding my mother and her brother when they were still baby youngsters..

Grandfather 2My grandfather and his dog when they were both still babies.


Sabette 1Sabette 2My great-aunt when she was young and old (My great grandmother’s sister).

Sabette 3

My grandmother, grandfather, mother, uncle and family.Family 1

My mother and her brother.Family 3

My grandfather with a colleague in the army.Grandfather 1

My great-grandmother and her sister (They actually come from a family of nine brothers and sisters).Amanda and Sabette

And my aunt Charise.Charise 1Charise 2

Spiritual Attacks


ritualOn Sunday, August 21, 2016 I woke up in the morning sometime around one or two a.m. I estimate as I did not look at the clock to turn off the fan as I had gotten a little chilly. Right after, I entered straight back into my bed to return to sleep yet I was unable to.

I was kept up by insight and warnings of a paranormal means as I often do during those occasional times whenever I am simultaneously experiencing the activity and operations that automatically notify me of circumstances through my presence itself as well as through my thoughts.

A very sick family that a long time ago lived on my old block by the last name Anderson constantly remained within my mind along with another guy that kept flickering in and out the entire time until my mind became solely occupied with precognitive thoughts of him-I don’t know his name but I’ve written about him in particular many times as he spiritually harassed me with another guy for years after he approached me in the year 2008 as I was on my way home from work one night and the other had approached me at my workplace in the year 2006 on Christmas eve. I often communicated with them two telepathically (https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/25/satanic-measures/).

“Anderson’s” is exactly what was stated as spirit acknowledged to me.

Spirit also had informed to me that the certain members of this family wanted to prevent me from continuing to write and publish posts of what I undergo, have undergone, and what I know. I in the process actually saw visions of them literally desiring and trying to interfere to no avail.

Now I have been writing ever since the age of ten and had the opportunity to get published by a mainstream publisher back then, and I have been blogging and writing on the internet for over ten years utilizing my creativity and talent along with my knowledge and ability. I will never allow anyone to stop or to manipulate me within any form or fashion whether it is verbally or spiritually. I have a celestial calling in life driven by innate and divine influence and it shall be carried out wholeheartedly regardless of who objects or who cannot handle the truth.

By succeeding and continuing to move forward we fiercely show the devil and the demonic that they are not going to win over us.

When my aunt Tina poisoned my food years ago and I was rescued by spiritual guardians(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/29/guardian-spirits/)I had received messages of all kinds including information of how Joanne (a member of the “A” brood) had took part with Tina a long time ago against my mother with indulging in voodoo. I mentioned that bitch here as initials JAF, her maiden last name and other last name by marriage toward the end of this post (https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/08/09/vain-attempt-no-one-can-bring-us-down/) she is the dope fiend junkie/prostitute that had sexual incestuous relations with two of her brothers and had slit her wrist. There is a lot of dirt on her brothers and father as well.

When revelations of the Anderson family subsided then the guy that flickered in and out became the sole preoccupation of my thoughts. He was attempting to make me become amorous and lustful by trying to send me romantic fantasies of him while later also trying to spiritually tamper with my vagina once again as he and that other guy had tried before a few years ago and I had written about here as I consistently kept a track (https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/02/22/lust-spell/).

These no-good guys wanted to have sex with me in the past and are envious and jealous along with certain others because I love and respect my self and my body, and they could not talk about me truthfully within any sexual and derogatory way.

Demonic people endeavor to take/steal away our good and positive energy because they operate on such a very low level of vibration with one another that they are unable to naturally generate energy on their own to come up to our high level of vibration so they desperately have the need to rob and to drain us of our good luck and other good attributes to use for their bad purposes. No matter what, though, by trying to get our energy will not bring them up from where they are yet we still have to fight by staying aware and unyielding to their tactics that are intended for our destruction.


A Caulbearer That Bears No Apology Unto Being “Unlike”


roses and paper bagTo others some of us unique individuals are considered strange or not normal and mainly because many of us that are within the rare category do not do the same things that everyone else does, nor do we think, feel or react within the same fashion as the ordinary.

As we are very unlike the average and strongly linked to the supernatural we are found to be quite mysterious and interesting as people learn from us and then sometimes even try to copy/duplicate us I’ve experienced this all throughout life.

I have never considered myself to be weird within any of my differences that were innate and that had come natural to me. To me, I was completely normal within my own right, and I was, and still am.

I consistently felt secure and proud within my distinction.

People often look at us as strange human beings because we do not fit into the usual mode of the majority yet what others never seemed to understand is that we may also often look at them as the ones who are ‘bizarre’ as they do not fit into the usual mode of our uncommon minority.

Targeted (Part One)


stems daisyAs good people in the world we will become targeted at times by the demonic.

Like I have expressed before there are a combination of reasons why my enemies who are known and who are unknown to me through out the years have worked and have attempted to work black magic on me and also on my family aside from the obvious envy and jealousy but another reason they had came after me aside for me knowing things through clairvoyance/extrasensory perception was for what I had divulged through a book that I had written mentioning dirt that was done by some of them.

The only people within life that I have ever had any problems out of were junkies and other types of trash as they all operate and function on such a very low level of intellectual comprehension and spiritual vibration. There are some that are within a category all by themselves and that are exceptions; however the majority of them are fixed and stationary.

As a person of higher consciousness I was able to connect or adapt to all types of universal channels, people and situations accept those in which were incongruous with my state of essence as well as existence. I was never meant or destined to intermingle or associate with these types of individuals yet through unnatural circumstances  and certain life detouring events I had to make acquaintance just like so many of us unintentionally have done only to be protected and unaffected by the grace around us due to the fact that instances was beyond our control and because we are a strong group of folk with grave purpose and that had vital divine influence and guidance.

There are sometimes always so much more to a story, detail, and the interpretation. It is the wise mind that analyzes weighs out the facts probabilities and possibilities as well as the never knows. Nevertheless, one does not have to cater to the ignorant mind that draws up inaccurate conclusions within their undeveloped scope of view or faculty.

All that matters is to include and strive for the truth. And liars hate the truth. And one person’s fact can be another person’s fiction depending on the elements and aspects of diversity as well as wavelength. I had to figure out a long time ago as a teen why one would be accused of telling a lie when they are definitely telling the truth aside from the other person’s lack of knowledge (ignorance) and deliberate denial (intentionally lying while indeed knowing the truth).

There were enemies that wanted to shut me up, part of the reason they wanted me to go insane, figuring if I was considered crazy that I would not have any credibility but their Voodoo didn’t work back then because my mind, spirit and constitution was much stronger as I am of the light and have so much legitimate belief in what I know within the universe.

Chapter five titled “The Trip” signified the physical travel along with the mental travel that was endured in this genuine excerpt:

You see, my aunt Charise was sixteen years old in the summer of 1982. A trip to Virginia was organized by a neighbor on her block. Any of the teenagers who wanted to go had to pay a fee. Charise’s money was given up front. There would be no refunds for anyone who canceled out.

Two or three days prior to the trip, Charise and one of the other girls scheduled to go got into a fist fight. Charise beat the girl’s ass. But long before that incident, Charise had decided not to go to Virginia.

“Look, you are going”, Catherine hollered. “After I done spent my money!”

Charise had no choice whether she liked it or not she would have to go on account of her mother.

The trip lasted for a week. When it was over and the teenagers had returned, Pat received a phone call. “Charise is sick”, said Mrs. Boatwright, the neighbor who’d organized the trip.

“She’s sick?” Pat asked

“Yes”, I am going to bring her home”.

When Mrs. Boatwright brought Charise to the house she wasn’t sick in the way Pat thought she would be. Pat figured maybe it was a stomach ache, but it was quite the contrary. Charise was sick out of her mind.

“What happened?” Pat exclaimed.

“I don’t know”, said Mrs. Boatwright.

Charise walked up and down the street talking to herself she was very hyperactive, like she was on a trip.


Targeted (Part Two):( https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/08/26/targeted-part-two/ ‎)