Elated

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thank youI feel so good about myself as an individual and I am so very proud of who I am and of the woman that I have genuinely become through natural development and I cannot lie or deny that fact at all. 

I truly do like, love and respect myself and I am utterly satisfied as to where I do originate from within celestial state of being and occult lineage.

The identity that I was born with and that has expanded through out vital evolution will never be lost or stolen away from my possession.

Pure energy generates from within and radiantly exudes without.

Preservation:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/20/preservation/)

Illumination: Self Love, Self Respect:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2013/05/05/illumination-self-love-self-respect-self-enlightenment/)

The Ties That Mysteriously Bind

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coffee and saucerI am not and have never been the jealous or envious type certain people, a lot in fact, have always been very jealous of me and all of this definite fact has not only been recognized by me but by many others who were cognizant of it at a time even before I myself was completely aware, they came and told me some even while I was still very young. I hadn’t even known the depth of envy and jealousy yet.

And with much experience growing up and then looking back I have examined and discerned with a “fine tooth comb” and yes it at times has burned me the fuck up how sick individuals have tried to maliciously interfere and to hold me back within life as well as they have tried and have also failed with others who were superior within their own leagues of existence.

I never dwelt on the ill will and ill intent of those who were inadequate because haters actually deep down inside hate themselves and I knew that they could never succeed within hindering me as I have always had too much fire and intelligence blazing inside of my own indestructible constitution.

I’d laugh at transparent manipulation tactics (ploys that were so obvious to me) and at the collaboration of those weak-minded souls who needed to desperately band together because by themselves they were never shit as they consistently gained their confidence (false sense of security) through the facades of their own pathetic little circles.

sweet treat heartsWhat I didn’t realize as a child as I do absolutely now is that everyone of those individuals have already and those who have accumulated along the way do reap much more worse than what they have sowed as at the first instant of dirty contemplation and deed it is “recorded” and “stored” for inevitable unbeknownst self reimbursement that automatically “tie” and “bind” here on earth and all to eternity.

Devious Contemplation:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/18/devious-contemplation/)

Evil Eye

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stalkerI am able to see many beautiful things out of my “big pretty brown eyes” many wonderful things that evil and ugly people cannot tarnish from around me.

The joy and the prosperity, the peace and the protection, the love and the respect, the knowledge and the blessings. All of the precious and priceless things that belong and come to the anointed and the well deserved.

No demon nor devil can spoil my contentment I am solid.

It is said that “money” is the root of all evil yet it seems to be more the “green eyed monster”.

Those spiritual and physical “stalkers” that are too much preoccupied with the lives of others because they do not have anything productive going on within their own.

The “tab keepers” who keep a track on the movements of the “enterprising” because they have no true purpose of their very own.

Those fraudulent souls who have no authentic identity and want to “steal” and to be just as the objects that are the most envied, the most desired within their pure “jealousy”.

Yes, want to look like me, want to act like me, want to talk like me, want to think like me, want to extra sensory perceive like me, then lie on me since one cannot duplicate the real me, and seek out to destroy me because unable to become me.

Oh, what a load onto me.

A baggage of someone else that I will definitely not carry, a burden that I would sure like to bury, a problem that I’d get rid of in a hurry, a bitch that I would love to seal into a ditch.

Oh, I can see why so frustrated of not being just like me as I am so hot that I hit that spot, I am so bad that I make you mad. There will never be another “cause their ain’t no other”, that is me “LaToya” not you “Mother fucker”.

What I say toward your “Evil Eye”- Goodbye!

Spook

One of the most ugliest and morbid of bitches that I have ever seen and/or came across no wonder the whore is so infatuated with a “princess” such as me. “So severely mentally ill need to go take a pill” and then go to sleep forever please do the entire world a favor and go away for good.

 

Miss LaToya

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2015-03-20-15-LaToyaLawrence3I was never the type to blast pictures/photos of myself over the internet ( I never thought it to be a wise idea. And I’ve never come across any pictures of myself on the internet)  or anywhere else for that matter. I’ve always been a very private yet open person.

Hell, I do not even normally take pictures although I have loads of pictures of myself during childhood.

Nevertheless, my jealous and evil black magic-doing “certain freak of nature relatives as well as certain enemies” had taken pictures of me to spread to others (when they weren’t pointing me out to people in the street)  in order to recognize me through out the years in the past while they would ineffectively harass and spread their lies in vain attempts to try to destroy me.

They all really thought that they were doing something.

All of their business and skeletons were out in the streets and they wanted to “out” me for not having any dirt so they all wanted to make up a bunch of silly shit.

2015-03-20-15-LaToyaLawrence5It eats them up so badly that they do not have anything negatively “real” on me!

That is why a lot of people “in particular” know who I am by face.

I have always been famous, a “star” within my own right without even wanting to be just through being unique, and a target for the jealous kind.

I, of course, knew what they were all up to as I have always been ahead laughing at them and at their own true torturous roads to self destruction. They never knew the depths of my knowledge, intellect, or gifts.

They never knew shit back then period. They were and are still lost and hopeless miserable souls.

They are well aware of the proficiency of my powers/talents now- because I had to show them all in not so much appropriate ways/fashions that I am also so very proud of. They’ll never know the definite heights of all that I possess and they do not need to.

It is none of their business!

2015-03-20-LaToyaLawrence4Since they love my “beautiful and youthful” face and innocent appearance so much I will be the one who truly controls the scene. I’ll air my own spotlight. I take the last photos in which “I truly own”.

I am just a very attractive unconventional solitary female what is the big fucking deal?!

This is literally me now at the age of forty earlier this year in 2015 at work doing a twelve hour three nights a week shift at the home of a retired lawyer/judge out in Massapequa, New York who was also by marriage related to a very famous well-known actress.

Doing only private duty I have come across the most beautiful homes of wealthy people.

When I tired of the home front I worked a twelve hour four nights a week shift for Dementia/Alzheimer patients at an residential assisted living facility out in Rockland county, New York that appeared more like the combination of a resort and a hotel.

2015-3-20LaToyaLawrence8I’ve worked in some very high class settings.

No matter where I’ve worked though I still have come across those “undesirable” co-workers who get intimidated by me then endeavor to make conflict.

It is mostly or usually the ugly and oogly looking beastly ones who like to fuck with me and it has been that way whether I was at work or at school or just in my own old neighborhood. Nevertheless, they are all very sick/warped minded kind of people.

No matter what I’ll always continue to strive. I’ll always continue to work. And I’ll always never give up on the professional writing and spiritual attainments that I was definitely born an meant to do and accomplish regardless of the negative energies that intend to hold me back.

I love the positive spiritual beauty and energy that is geared around me. I give praise to the good vibrations of the universe, my ancestors, orishas and special spirit guides.

LaToya Lawrence At Work

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Ultimate Respect

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dessertEver since I was a little girl one thing I remember about my mother is how she would always talk to me and share. I would do the same in return. I am a person who loves to talk and indulge in conversation when I am in the mood for it.

One thing my mother had disclosed to me is how she never ever had sex while she was pregnant with me. And I believed her one hundred percent and I still do til this day in that regard.

She is telling the honest to goodness truth.

When she told me that I felt so honored and it showed me how much love and respect that I was given while developing inside of her womb/uterus.

Yes, we hear so many times from doctors and educators that while a woman is pregnant the baby is protected by the amniotic fluid in the uterus and the mucous plug located at the cervix as they serve as barriers against wandering sperm and the thrusting of a penis.

And I am clarifying my knowledge of that “what is considered fact” because any time one happens to disagree or form their own opinion to specific topics others are quick to define them as being uninformed or imparting misinformation.

In life, we are taught things whether it be in school or within other structures but all is learned through experience. If it were not for study and experience how would we know?

In general,  no one has the right to classify someone as being uneducated for having their own point of view regardless of after hearing what is suppose to be fact.
ice cream dessert“Oh, I don’t want to hear that shit!” my mother would say of the notion of sperm and jolting not affecting an unborn baby. And I would laugh because it was funny to me.

“I wasn’t going to let no man be bumping up against my baby’s head and letting semen go into my baby’s food supply. That is why a lot of these kids are born so lustful and crazy now”.

The same thing about the Shingles virus. It is said anybody who had varicella virus/chicken pox may eventually develop that nasty rash infection.

“Oh, I don’t want to hear that shit!” my mother would say in regards to the way one is able to contract the Shingles. “They just say that because they don’t want to make everybody feel bad who comes down with it”.

In other words she was saying Shingles is like an std and in reality it sort of is because it is a form of herpes but some do not believe that it can be sexually transmitted but I personally do know two or three people in the past who had contracted it that way through oral and/or AIDS related sex.

I have to admit without a doubt that I feel the same way about pregnancy.

I don’t care what anyone else does with their body that is their own choice and their own business, however, with me personally it would be out of the question.

I have no absolute desire for a man to touch me period as I am asexual but hypothetically speaking if I was a pregnant woman I would not want or allow a man to touch me!

A complete violation to the atmosphere of my child’s developmental environment and I am so glad that my mother had felt the same or similar way that I do about the situation before I was even born.

And for that, no matter what else may have been said or done through out the confusion of negative influences that may have affected my mother in the near past I give her so much credit and appreciation for having given me the most “Ultimate Respect”.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Today Was Fantastic!

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popcornI just got back home not too long ago I’ve been gone all day long and I had such a wonderful day! The weather was beautiful.

I left home at around eleven this morning, went to a restaurant and had jumbo fried shrimp and fried chicken tenders with french fries for lunch along with a relative, then we headed to see “The Jungle Book” movie.

It was such an adorable action packed film that all of us audience members watched and enjoyed in 3D which made the movie even more exciting to view. It was so cute, a really great film.

Right after, as I had already bought the movie tickets in advance my relative and I went to see “Barber Shop 3” and that was a good movie too but not as good as Jungle Book in my opinion.

After seeing the two films I did some grocery shopping, took a cab home, and now I am going to just lay back and chill out for the rest of the night.

To top it all off I woke up this morning feeling so good with the natural energy that was around me and that was cradling me with acknowledgement and confirmation of a life well deserved. The universe continues to send and deliver to me the most positive of vibrations.

Innovative Style

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Excerpt:

Live, love, laugh and be full of your own distinctive joy, an exhilaration that no one can steal or take away from you, and your abundant spirit.

Life itself is a deep experience and knowledge and understanding is a deep advancement, intangible stimulation that delivers a powerful elevation – truth in my own words because I am living proof of what “divinity” can reveal and accomplish.

Exhibiting authenticity within a world full of many fakes and cowards takes a fierce character, one that is combined with a natural strength and confidence that manifests within to then inevitably exude without.

A genuine soul can take on any challenge that arises with a cool ease and vile tenacity.

Upon reasonable circumstance an honest person will not back down from what they may believe in or stand up for.

Why fear to express oneself within thought and ideas especially when reflection and vision may not be so common or within the norm? A unique view and perspective suggests more valuable notability and change compared to the same useless repetitive unfruitful solutions that are bias and foreign to the vast array of distinct individuals. I could never be stuck within someone else’s rut! I am about productivity.- Preview Innovative Style,

“The occupational career section is coming soon”, the page that focuses on our job life and how we (those of us who it pertains to) successfully balance within the daily activities of our home place and social life and workplace life-naturally keeping those two or three circumstances separate because work should stay at work and home should stay at home-I never understood how some people bring work home with them because once I get home all of that occupational duty or whatever that may have went on there is completely forgotten about! All I want to do is to eat and relax, and then go sleep.

LaToya’s Autumn

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leafIt is in all seasons to “bloom” whether it is winter, spring summer or fall.

Welcome to my world and to the chronicles of my life as an unconventional individual who is not afraid to be herself, who is not afraid to speak her mind, and most of all, who is not afraid to speak the definite truth as I continue to share my experience.

Enter into the pages of a caulbearer, enter into the pages of jealousy, enter into the pages of creativity and purpose, enter into the pages of voodoo and black magic, enter into the pages of asexuality, enter into the pages of spirituality, and enter into the pages of reality.

A reality for those in particular that may interests many of us, a reality that may surround many of us, a reality that recognizes many of us, a reality that describes many of us, a reality that inspires many of us, a reality that puts many of us not within the average category and a reality that many of us can relate to.

And it is all coming from a person (me) with firsthand experience in these circumstances and situations, and who knows that you (those in particular) are “indeed not” crazy yet living and maintaining within a crazy, outrageous world full of very sick and ignorant people, along with very malignant evil forces and unnatural energies, as well as the natural. Visit LaToya’s Autumn

Beautiful Darlings! And A Sweet Reminisce

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Little sheltie (shetland sheepdog) so darn cute!!! I could just eat up this pooch!baby collie

The collie family is one of the most beautiful breed of dog that is within existence.

Anyway, I had a great weekend I laughed so hard watching some of my favorite comedy movies.

Last week during my off days besides going out to the mall to get some delicious take out and aside from taking care of some business I watched some good action flicks including the Al Pacino classic “Scarface” which, to me, never gets old, I remember how my mother and I sat for six whole hours inside the movie theater watching that three hour movie twice when I was a kid (I was about eight or nine years old), in fact, none of the audience members got up to leave there everyone present had remained within their seats to catch another viewing of the film.

Back then the movie theaters use to play double features and audience members were also allowed to stay and watch the movies again without paying an extra movie ticket fee so we actually was in that theater for about seven hours and over thirty minutes because there was another picture that was also playing while we waited to see Scarface, and it was a boring movie I remember, but it was worth sitting through, those were the good ole days. Scarface really rocked in the early eighties and it still rocks now till this day it is completely superb!

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Forever Reap What Was Sowed

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Lizette the whoreLizette has been constantly visiting and sending people to my sites everyday this week even her relatives in Texas, she even took down or hid her facebook page, now that is not the actions of someone who has done nothing wrong I just love seeing this bitch buckle under.

 

My enemies are afraid they are so scared of what is ahead of them for all of the dirt that they have done and none of them will be able to lie their ways out of any of their punishment, their retribution is on the way and I do not have to do a thing but to continue to communicate with all of my powerful ancestors and Orishas because what goes around comes back around ten times worse and they are showing me the justice that none of them are able to escape.

 

This comment below came from my The Demonic Dunce Douchebags Strike Again post in where Sharon Lasitter aka Shannon Lee Wolf used these liars to gang up together in a weak and vain attempt at getting back at me on account of their bullshit:

Miss Latoya jus a sorry ol security guard at jc penny ha ha! Who she think she is da Good Lord only know. she think evry 1 is jealus of her but why who know? She jus a sorry ol bag o bones who got no life. She obsess wit evrybody who got wat she dont got an dats a good soul. Da Good Lord hav mercy on her soul amen. Time has come dat da truth finnaly come out!(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2014/07/20/update-the-demonic-dunce-douchebags-strike-again/)

darlaG | 01/07 2014 15:20

 

Anyway the reason that I am mentioning this particular bogus comment in particular is because where did it come from that I worked as a security guard at JC Penney?

To keep it real I always knew where the lie originated from I just never said anything. It came from an ex dopefiend name Raoul Lemonier who lived across the street from me on the same side of the block as Lizette and Dorita.

He took for granted that just because I had once shown him two of my certificates one for eight hour security and another for fireguard that I had received upon taking training and successfully passing a test.

So when he heard from my mother that I was working at JC Penney back in the year of 2006 he assumed that I was doing a security job but he felt stupid and got silent over the telephone when my mother had informed to him that I was head of the hosiery department there at the store because already he had spread the lie around as he loved to gossip.

I have never ever worked as a security guard and like I’ve said before there is absolutely nothing wrong with that way of making a living in that fashion if it is an interest to one, however, it was being directed toward me obviously as a put down especially since I am far capable of achieving anything in life that I want to whereas them on the other hand are not able to go any further in life due to their own shortcomings and limitations so their jealousy got the best of them for wanting to believe I had a job that was beneath my own rank.

I fixed Raoul one day though I called up his wife explaining to her how he runs his mouth too much and how he told my mother and I that their daughter Elisha was running around “selling her royal oats” and that she (his wife Lou Lou) was beating her up for her promiscuous behavior.

He was envious that his daughter was a whore and that I was not as he told me one day that he wished he had of brought her over to talk to me since I didn’t deal with men before she whored herself out but even though I knew what a lot of males were about and how they operated without having been corrupted there was really nothing that I could tell her because my situation was totally different as I was asexual.

Raoul claimed later on that Elisha was going to school to become a nurse, becoming a nurse was not going to change what she was and if I ever came into contact with her in a hospital or clinic I would not trust her to perform any medical care on me.

Now my point is if the security thing came from Raoul and was expressed by one of the illiterate assholes who left the comment what does that prove? There are links through all of these people as I have always known and said through my own intuition way beforehand and their grapevine had only consisted of blatant lies they talk about what they do not know yet claim their inaccuracies and intentional lies as fact.

So I am so sick and tired of hearing this bullshit about getting back at people who did nothing to me and why not get back at people who did something to me first by my crackhead/dopefiend/whore/ Aids infected aunt Ernestine Lawrence (Tina) who was down with the conspiracy and who is one of the most notorious liars to have walked the planet and then out of the blue years ago from someone who had lied to a cousin of mine and wanted to get the message back to my mother and I, and now it is from somebody name clark who lizette sent to my blog.

If these people were not guilty of what they have done then they would not have been able to identify themselves within the things that I definitely know and within what I have stated and how is telling the truth getting back at somebody unless it is indeed and in fact the truth that is eating away at them! These stupid asses all tell on themselves.

I would never be hurt or affected by something that was untrue (look at all of the lies that they told on me and it did not do a thing to me) I am content with myself and my life I wish that they would all just go away and perish as they are a total waste of life.

 

Dorita Almodovar

Dorita Almodovar

In Response To A Comment Written To Me About Lizette:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2016/03/31/in-response-to-a-comment-written-to-me-about-lizette/)

Brujeria:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2012/01/29/brujeria/)

They were all unable to bring me down as no one can ever bring me down it is impossible by nature my spirit is far too strong and powerful and my mind is too sufficient, and besides, undesirables are of no value within my universe.

Lizette and Dorita “Were the biggest whores of Hollis avenue and of whatever have you-indeed they had it dick, diseases and all! No good sluts who put witchcraft on good people may their tortured souls burn in hell for eternity”.

Those Brujeria Bitches along with the rest of those sick degenerates who all took part (All of them liars who deliberately and constantly told all of their outrageous lies while sulking within their own misery, envy and jealousy, cannot handle the truth.

All of them extremely ignorant, severely stupid individuals who are on the lowest of levels when it comes to intellect and mentality and who by nature could never rise up to reach extraordinary comprehension and perception, let alone, what is of standard.

All of them are deeply sick within the mind and mad because none of them were shit as they were all born to be nothing and will never amount up to being anything).

They all are doomed and so are their children as a result from their own dirt and trashy genetic “seeds” who were born ugly and many of them slow and retarded, and also stricken with Autism.

 

 

 

 

In Response To A Comment Written To Me About Lizette

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Update from post:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2012/01/29/brujeria/)

 

Lizette Roubert

Lizette Roubert

It is very interesting the term “Innocent”, well what was I? What was I guilty of?

I was guilty of not ever being on drugs or alcohol as I was never interested in that type of lifestyle I was too strong of an individual and had no absolute desire to indulge within that garbage.

I was guilty of never having a sexual history as I was asexual and never attracted to or desired to be with any type of men.

If those in particular felt that I thought that I was better than everyone else and if I did actually feel that way then that was my prerogative and who was I actually hurting in the process?

I was not going around bothering anyone yet there was someone (many in fact) who was always worried about me and what I was or was not doing when I didn’t care anything at all about what they or anyone else were doing even though I was very well aware and extremely perceptive to people, situations and things but it was my nature to be extra ordinarily intuitive.

And while I do understand that people in general do lie on other people each and everyday as that is just a part of life within this society among many inadequate human beings who are disturbed the problem that had come to be was that there was nothing derogatory that anyone could discuss when it had came to me.

So, of course, when there were certain men who were beneath me who I had rejected made up sexual lies about me the jealous and envious folk within the neighborhood eagerly up and ran with that spurious (false) gossip. And when many had heard yet did not naturally listen to the lies that were being told and spread “Brujeria” was ultimately used in an attempt to make me look bad within the public eye along with the changing of my destiny and the destruction of my life and career.

There were a numerous of reasons why witchcraft was done unto me, a combination of things, I just wanted to clarify that fact because the focus is just not on one particular issue of situation and fashion, it is just that I noticed among these people that when it came to sexual rumors and gossip they believed that as a woman I was supposed to feel crummy and degraded and become a nothing just like the rest of them and as truth be told that preconceived revelation was totally foreign within my comprehension and extremely laughable within my existence.

If I was the type to have had any sexual relations that would have been my business and that would have not made me any less than who I am as a person, what would it have taken from me? Sex does not take away a woman’s value, although, I believe that if a woman runs around with a bunch of different men or even just a few “unnecessarily” that she does not value herself.

Planting the negative energies of undesirable men into my thoughts was not going to get me interested or attracted to them so that It could look like I naturally became involved with them so that low-level minded people could talk about “the girl who thought that she was better”, because guess what, as a result of the stupidity of my enemies they showed me really how much better than them that I exactly was, and I felt, and I still feel now till this day, better over them than I have ever felt before.

And no amount of vulgar or negative thought and talk against me will ever change the high self esteem that I have within myself.

I see no man as above me and no man’s lies will ever define me I am a resilient, intelligent, proud and gifted woman who will never be afraid of any one or anything and I will never back down to challenge the truth within all of it’s forms.

Fortunately for me, with or without the aid of manipulative negative forces I honestly did not care what any of the people said or thought about me as their ignorant actions and behavior actually told more about the stories of their lives and the flaws that were within the nature of their own character than it actually did toward the bogus reflections that they were trying to create upon mine.

Now, what about me? I did not know these people who were speaking vulgar words of untruths at me for me to hear, thinking that I would be hurt over their nonsense (that I was not at all affected by to begin with as I kept on going on with my life and within my regular doings) and then lose my confidence. They followed me, sent people up to me endeavoring to intimidate me, harassing me on my job, and so on. They all need to be lucky that “spirit” held me back and that I did not murder up a couple of them because I was surely tempted to and I would have been justified within my actions but non of those pieces of garbage were worth me spending a lifetime in jail for.

vasesOne shouldn’t mess with any child of divinity or any good person adhering to live genuinely and adept to survive within this crazy world, especially one that hadn’t done anything the price to pay within the long run is vile and well properly deserved as all shall reap what they have sowed accordingly through the natural powers of the universe whether it is within this life or within the next.

They all were very stupid for underestimating me without really knowing me and knowing where my head was at because I was never a dummy and I was never a weak-minded person but them listening to other people, aside from the lies that they had also made up themselves, who claimed to know more about me than I actually did about my self since the supposed things about my personality and the things that I had supposedly done were to override the true circumstances within my own true identity and reality, the reality of a neighborhood full of sick degenerate people who were jealous and envious of an individual who differed greatly from them.

Anyone or anyone around them that is hurt now is not at all from any of my doing they all hurt themselves. If nothing was done there would not have been anything for me to write about I did not imagine or make up this whole ordeal that has taken place.

I did not personally know any of the people who came up against me if they did not like me they had every right not to but no one had the right to violate my spirit and interfere with my life through external influences or throughout the use of black magic and the circumstance burned me the fuck up because I knew what was going on and why.

A lot of bad things have happened to these people.

Some are dead now, many are dying from AIDs, and I am honestly thrilled, what they all had wished upon me may they all wholeheartedly receive and sometimes what they have done will come back on someone close to them or just effect them in some way as well. Life is unfair, they must deal with it.

They weren’t too hurt when they were parading through the streets laughing at me because they knew that they had Brujeria inflicted upon me and since they were so proud of what they had done back then they should just be proud and take credit for what they have done now and should just take my posted photos of one of the numerous of perpetrators as a contribution of recognition to the unfavorable actions that were done unto me.

What if I hadn’t stopped the evil? It would still be going on now as there are still assholes who do not want to give it up as they are too sick for their own states of well-being.

Oh poor Lizette, she doesn’t want her face shown in a truthful article that I wrote about years ago in regard to an incident that she and others had took part in, and that many others know about, yet she did not mind to expose her vagina to the array of “universal” penises all over and throughout the New York area of queens and beyond. The whore that would fuck different niggers every night for years and who was continuously having a numerous amount of abortions how in the world could her rotten ass have escaped disease I bet her nasty ass has caught every STD known to man.

If she were able to dish it out back then “baby ho” should be ready to take it much harder now!

Why does she want to hide? She once ran to live in Puerto Rico with her grandmother years ago but that move did not last for very long I guess it was too boring for her. She came back to New York stayed for a while then ran down to Raleigh, North Carolina; Bitch can’t hide from her past.

None of them are strong enough to endure what I have been through that is why I laugh at all of these drunks, crackheads and whores who need these crutches in order to survive, crutches that they thought that I was going to need to depend on as a source to cope boy did I fool them!

I am a natural born writer and I do not owe anyone an explanation as to why I accurately chronicle the experience of my life. If what I express within my creativity and talent of literature is interpreted by those in particular as a lashing back at those who have done me wrong then that is simply just all of the guilt that is entertained within those who are utterly at fault.

I am not and I have never been a liar I have spoken the truth and if the truth is too painful to endure too bad. And if anyone wants to start some shit about it bring it on!

And please do not insult my intelligence with talk that is so obviously written to me within a patronizing and manipulative fashion Mr. Clark, I am not taking down shit!

Clark Dear Miss Latoya,

I am very happy for you having found self-awareness in your personal universe. Hopefully, you are at peace. However, I must beseech you to discontinue posting photographs of other people who may not be of the level you have attained. This is a very negative act that can only perpetuate even more negative vibrations. Innocent people have been hurt by your words, accusations and postings…individuals who have done you no harm and who in fact, hardly know who you are. If you are correct in your perception that you have been wronged, committing a similarly unsavory act only brings you down to the level of those who have wronged you.

Please remove all name references and photographs of other people from you webpages. Such slander, justified or not, are not the actions of a highly spiritual individual.

I hope you realize that although you have traveled a long way to attain the level of enlightenment you have achieved, you…as all of us do…have a long way to go. Every day is a lesson. Your message has been received. Hopefully, they have learned from it and will eventually grow as you have grown.

Please remove the photos and names. it has caused great harm. A person of your insight is way above such negativeness.

Thank you.

 

A Day On The Job

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mushroomsLast week I was given a new permanent twelve hour three days a week overnight shift case assignment that I had done and completed and I was then going to be scheduled to work as a companion for a lady over at another supported living facility for nine hours a day for four days straight as a fill in but the woman had suddenly went into the hospital and it was not decided when she’d be returning back to the residence it was just determined that she would not be released for any time period soon.

So this past Saturday and Sunday I was scheduled to work two twelve hour morning shifts as another fill in.

On the Saturday assignment there was a bed-bound patient and my spirit did not take to her, as a highly sensitive spiritual person I will sometimes not operate properly when it comes down to certain types of people as my state of being temporarily goes awry (as long as I am within the presence of whatever it is that is clashing with my vibe) and it is a natural and automatic response that goes way above my tide yet very well within my reason and understanding.

This reaction, of course, does not arise within the environment when it comes to everyone just around those in which that are not healthy for me to be around and to whom my aura comes into conflict with.

As a innately good person my spirit as well as body repels and rejects any type of negativity or negative energy that generates and exudes out from other people and places making it very difficult for me to perform sufficiently as I am not inspired to and not allowed to by a spiritual means that I am not able to control.

There are some times when I cannot even go outside and this has been going on for years and these circumstances are not at all bad inconveniences they are part of the attributes and preservation that come along within my personal experience of being born with the caul. Nature will consistently open up further outlets and pathways to compensate for the even greater of opportunity if the circumstance brings about a misjudgment or an unfortunate outcome by other individuals and unearthly entities so there is never any need to worry as while something is manifested and done within a celestial fashion there will always be additional connecting pieces to the momentous puzzle.

trayThe lady noticed that I was hesitant about catering to her and she told a family member over the telephone that she had a “naive assistant” with her today. When she got off the phone I uttered to her “Did you call me naive?”

“Yes I did”, she addressed.

“I am not naive”, I told her, as I knew her kind and her ignorant train of thought.

“No, I mean naive to cleaning me up, not knowing how to do your job”, she explained to me.

First off, I had to sadly correct this woman on the definition of what the word naive truly means which in my opinion is “gullible” aside from one lacking the particular knowledge and experience of the world, types of people and so on, however she told me that being naive had nothing to do with being gullible so I just left it alone and showed her how naive that she really was. I came out and bluntly told her the truth about my behavior and she changed her entire tune.

I expressed to this lady that I do not wash nobody’s ass and that I do not clean up anybody’s house. I may assist one who is able to help them self to a point if need be but I am far too intelligent to wipe the shit off of anyone’s ass or to be anyone’s cleaning lady I am just a fill in for today on a job description that I do not usually do.

The woman told me that I should not be in this profession if I do not care because she thought that people take these sorts of jobs such as care givers whether it is nurses, nurse assistant, companion, aide or medical assistant and so on because they sincerely cared and looked forward to a lifetime journey throughout the field.

Some do, I told her, but that I was just in it for the money even though I have came across some nice people that I did enjoy giving motivation to and supervision over, and giving an important professional helping hand to, yet that this job was nothing that my heart was truly into especially for the long run.

Some patients or clients are pleasant, some are tolerable and some are just too undesirable to want to be around and this lady fit into that category as my spirit did not take to her, you see, I am a person of substance, positive energy and a clean aura, and I do not get along with any type of trash. I connect more so with people of a genuine high class nature -and naturally being high class has absolutely nothing to do with money it is an inborn state of mind, tendency and character- such as myself (those of us who are extremely intelligent, resilient and born with a significant purpose and whatever other definition that may apply in distinct to certain individuals).

 

tableThere are, of course, people who are ill and who may just get sick on account of an unfortunate circumstance of life and from living within an imperfect world.

 

Then there are the people who are incapacitated or fall ill with affliction of some sort due to all of the dirt that they have done within their lives and this woman fit into that category as she is miserable and bitter and also not too intellectually inclined. She is in her predicament and suffering as a result of negative karma that she ultimately deserves and I feel no sympathy for that degenerate at all.

I hate stupid people, people who think that if you don’t do something the way that they expect then that means to them that you do not know how to do it, or if you don’t immediately make known a knowledge or an awareness by not being affected through a situation, or if you’ve never made known something to the forefront to begin with, then that means or they assume that, you do not know anything about the issue at all. That is the typical mind state of trash.

I guess instead of hating the ignorance that many people do possess I should just continue to be glad that I am not one of them-some genuine words of fact and wisdom for me to always remember. Their ignorance is a reflection of them and definitely not me.

So I went down to the office to inform the nurse that I wanted off of this woman’s case for that day and my request was honored I was just asked to do a cluster shift in return for the remaining hours that I was scheduled there to work.