Small-minded, ignorant, or narrow-minded people form judgements, speculations or assumptions about others or situations based on their own generalizations, speculations, insecurities or unproven conjectures.
People who are on the level or who have open minds that are broad within a wise/objective/reasoned way of analytical thought process know and respect the vast array of human distinction.
They make judgements or considerations based on another person’s own individuality. Not based on preconceived notions, the typical familiarity of common reactions, behaviors, feelings or mindsets.
Great minds are fully aware of the absolute and possibility thereof when it comes to the diversity within nature and flourishing/development within unique human beings. –latoya lawrence
I remember in my teenage years and in my early adulthood how I viewed life as nothing.
To me, it still is nothing but at the same time it is something meaningful that means nothing.
I spend and have spent days/years just killing time as I never cared about this world, yet I have had to always keep going on account of a God that has me here for purposes of his own that I do not delight in at all.
Yes, I have no problem coping with or managing this life as my life has shown and proved that I can handle anything. The problem is this life in the present world is unnatural to a natural way that life should be.
A lot of what is deemed normal is not normal.
Why did this plan have to include me? With all the people God created why drag me into this ridiculous shit that has nothing to do with me?
I have been blessed but these certain anointings have never been enough to make living here in the world with all the dumb shit and shit I could care less about worth my while.
I was always ahead of my time and pissed off because God put me here- feeling that I did not belong here and deserved better.
God claims to love but what kind of love would bring me to a place that I despise?
He gave me and gave certain others knowledge but what is the purpose of knowing things when we have no real control over anything and no guarantees in life but to one day die?
Are we just to know that no matter what we have experienced and possess through seasons of happiness and hardships we are still just mere dust that can be blown away at any time?
When I look back at a lot of life that has passed by, I really do not see the point or the purpose in the things I have gone through or encountered.
Most of the things I know now I already knew back when I was much younger.
Many things that excite and that are looked upon as significant to others are not appealing or anything relevant to me.
I did not need to witness or observe accounts of what I considered to be sick shit among other people -or to be successfully delivered through undesirable trials and tribulations- to know or to understand God’s power as I have.
To me, God’s force was always evident. But I was made to be an individual put into a world just like everyone else to undergo inevitable life situations.
What is the point of being in the world if one is truly not of it even if they are born into imperfection?
My resentment in the past for God came from my perceived view of his character and I still hold a little resentment toward him as I do not appreciate things about him that I do not understand as to his reasons why he lets things in life be.
Nevertheless, it is what it is.
I have been tired of this fucked up world since my teenage years yet still strong enough to endure every moment of it.
Sorry, (And I am not apologetic for speaking the truth) but from my observation some so called Christians strike me as rejects who do not know how to think for themselves.
They sound like wind up dolls who repeat doctrine like hypnotized puppets/flunkies.
I believe in God and know scripture; however, I am not, never was, and never will be the type to bow down to a way of thinking, speaking, or doing by being trained from the instruction or psychology that does not relate to my knowledgeable consciousness of vibration.
My identity can never be taken away by religious, societal or familiar influence held by those who do not challenge what does not pertain to or apply to all.
Some individuals have no backbone.
I could not remain at peace if I was not able to be my true self in mind and within attitude.
Asshole still will not move on. He is such a pathetic piece of trash/shit.
And while there are women out there who are indeed whores sex is not a tool or action that can be used against a woman to determine her worth or lower her value.
As he is only able to obtain skanks and shack up with his main skank do not get mad at me for loving myself and having high standards.
This Latin nigger is funny. He think he can drive me crazy with burning candles and shit.
He is very lucky I do not call upon my Orishas anymore. Elegba, Ogun, Orunmila, Oshun and Ochosi would have destroyed his ass!
Asshole did not know I was born with the power of a priestess.
I leave everything to God. Give people enough rope they eventually hang themselves.
Why do I attract some of the most ill fuckers who should have known beforehand that they never stood a chance with me?
They could have saved themselves the wasted effort and self-humiliation of being exposed by one who can literally “read” them.
Voodoo/Black Magic/WitchcraftDoes Not Work On Me! The Negativity Does Not Take Affect! My Mind Cannot Be Influenced Or Manipulated By Bullshit. Get That Through Your Fucking Head- Retard!
I have never been hurt mentally or emotionally by any man and I never will be.
To me, a man is nothing to get hurt over.
I am not and never have been the type of girl/lady/woman/female that a man could use or take advantage of I was not wired that way.
I was never weak, docile or naive when it came to men.
I was born with that extra sensory perception, strong spirit of discernment and unconventional individuality that made me unique in my own way.
Of course, anyone can lie and make up stories to tarnish or downgrade someone’s reputation, but no one can ruin anyone unless they allow them to.
Women who share my likeness know when a man means absolutely nothing to her that their petty words and tall tales will not do shit to disturb or affect her.
A reputation is only what people think or believe one to be- character is what truly defines one.
There were and are negative people with a low-mindset- till this day- still jealous of me because I have never been dogged out by any man.
If I were to have had sex with anyone it would have been on my terms and not because of any smooth talk or whatever “game” a man thought he had to use to pull or play a woman.
Like I have said many times before there are women who use men just like some of them use women- they just use one another with no attachment or feelings involved.
There are women who use men for sperm, and it is not about the sex. I know personally a man could never do anything for me sexually.
Unfortunately, sex is the only way to make a baby unless one has the thousands of dollars it takes to go through numerous procedures of invitro fertilization.
A woman does not need a man for sexual pleasure. Women have clitorises they can stimulate and climax with. The instance is perfectly normal and healthy for them to self-explore and know their body.
Of course, every man is not out to hurt, use, deceive, or disgrace a woman when she does not cater to his ego.
There are good, mature, men out there with sense who do not even entertain or possess these certain mindsets/attitudes.
A lot of narcissistic men have deep-rooted psychological and insecurity issues.
Many of them are the way they are on account of their mothers fucking their heads up in the process while they were being raised.
Some of them were not correctly informed by mommy about the diversity within life or some of them were spoiled by mommy in a bad way.
Mommy enabled them and boosted them up in an unrealistic fashion that when they enter the real world to encounter women of substance they cannot cope with the reality.
In other circumstances mommy did not give some of them the love and attention they needed.
In a world where impressions matter to many, truths are what truly mattered to me.
Not projecting a facade of what is acceptable for the sake of being accepted.
I found it impossible for me to put on a disguise as I am not one to be a people pleaser.
There is a time for courtesy, professionalism, diplomacy, and respecting certain boundaries as well as a time when to justifiably cross them.
It is so important to live out one’s truth even if that genuineness and loyalty to self within self-preservation according to one’s own distinct nature causes a reproach within others due to what goes beyond their own comprehension and/or level of discernment.
I have been lied upon, misunderstood, judged for things I have never done, criticized for not being able to be controlled by others, and I have been the object of other people’s vicious gossip, envy and jealousy just like many other people of substance in life have.
All other people’s negativity did was cause me to become further resilient and despise and look down upon these individuals more than I already had beforehand.
As one who is extremely stubborn no one can make me do anything I do not want to do, and no one can stop me from doing anything that I want to do.
I have noticed an innate force within me that refused to allow me to be deterred from possessing the essential liberty that is instilled within me to express and prevail.
I was naturally inspired to continue to move forward unaffected.
Permitting others, the opportunity to dictate or restrict one’s path and future out of fear/intimidation or discouragement only prevents one’s celestial discovery, steady growth, and ultimate evolution.
There are people who often recognize or acknowledge some of us for who they want us to be instead of who we really are.
They form judgements or have preconceived notions based on generalized perceptions of what they believe we represent through our perceived lifestyle, words, or manner of bearing in which we conduct ourselves.
Some conclusions that others draw may be accurate, partially accurate or just plain wrong altogether.
One cannot be genuinely defined according to conjecture, hearsay, rumor, false assumption or a standard of what one is familiar with and/or accustomed to.
So many factors, shape, make up and contribute to diverse individuals and their behavior.
As soon as one behaves or responds contrary to another person’s sense of belief or reasoning, they may become shocked, disappointed, or even critical toward the other person.
This instance is not an illustration that the people or person in question necessarily did something wrong or acted out of character. It is an example of others whose expectation or notion of what they built up within their own way of thinking projecting upon the surface.
I experienced a long time ago (from my childhood on up) how people would put their own insecurities, ignorance, and negativity onto me and others who they differed from or were jealous towards.
I without a doubt knew that their judgment or lack thereof did not coincide with reality.
Their actions and behavior reflected themselves, who they truly were, and had absolutely nothing to do with me!
When people think of assault or murder it is usually through the methods of stabbing, shooting, strangling, knocking one out through blunt force trauma, substance/chemical poisoning, and so on.
But voodoo/black magic/witchcraft by tampering to influence or harm people, and the intentional sexual pollutants of bodily fluids are also disgusting forms of crime inflicted on other individuals.
HIV/AIDS has come a long way since originally hitting the scene to become widely known from the late seventies to the early eighties.
There are advanced anti-viral drugs on the market to lower viral load to the point of it almost becoming undetectable or non-detectable considering intercourse with an infected person to be so-called safe sex.
There are plenty of other diseases out there that are transmitted through sexual contact and some venereal diseases that can be caught without having sexual contact with anyone at all.
The problem is not with the diseases themselves but with scandalous people who know they are infected with disease and knowingly pass them on to others freely without any concern or decency.
Some people will intentionally spread their infections out of bitterness with the attitude of “I am dying so I will take others with me”.
People have different reactions and motives for why they do things.
Some just do not care.
Some think if they spread their disease to a person or people that they give the disease to these people will have to stay with them or within their sexual circle (which fittingly does not always transpire).
Some just want others to be in their shoes so that they do not feel alone or awkward within their situation, making the circumstance less uncomfortable within their bearings.
All I can say is that this is a wild dangerous world with a lot of highly disturbed, treacherous, ruthless and just plain immoral people.
There are also plenty of highly upstanding, good-natured, trustworthy and humane people out there in our world.
If people with sense continue to love and respect themselves and be cautious to thoroughly detect who or what they let into their bodies just as one would with any stranger or foreign object that they would let into their home.
Do not let anyone enter without the proper “checks”. Do not let them check in if they do not correctly check out!
I am not going to mention any names but he knows who he is.
Since around Sunday on February 5, 2023 I noticed a few love/attraction/ lust spells tried to be worked upon me.
It began with acknowledgement of the man lusting after me -sexually desiring me- with the attempt to also get me to have a sexual as well as physical attraction to this guy.
Then I began to receive messages that this guy likes me very much.
In the days following, the essence of the love spell relayed to me the other feelings that are intended to sway me.
The motive is to have me like, care for, and possibly fall in love with this guy so I will be drawn to him.
I guess he thinks if he can make me feel this way that I will jump into bed with him.
He thinks that if I have sex with him because of the love spell then walk away from me afterwards that I will somehow be hurt emotionally.
This would be his way of retaliating against me for rejecting him by using an “unnatural” method (love-magic/witchcraft).
I understand that he or his ego may be hurt but witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not and never has worked on me mentally or emotionally I am far too strong for that.
I am sensitive to energy so I can pick up on the essence and the intent.
I do not understand why some guys have the mentality that they can hurt women by using them for sex.
Every woman is not the same and they do not hold the mentality of being disgraced by negative men who try to humiliate and degrade them in that manner.
There are women who use men for sex too and do not care.
He probably believes in his ignorant mind that I would be hurt the most because I am not the type who goes to bed with anyone at all. So, if he sleeps with me by doing witchcraft then talks badly about me with lies and whatever other stupid games he would be avenged.
He is sick in my opinion.
Love spells should not be done at all- but if they are done- at least people should do them with good/honest intentions instead of selfish ones that intend to hurt others just to have one’s way with them.
Aside from all that, witchcraft/black magic/voodoo is real even if certain people do not believe that it works.
The supernatural instance does not affect everyone but a lot of people do become under the influence of it. If witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not work on a person mentally, emotionally or physically it can work on them spiritually or materially- through finances and other means.
No matter what, God is always stronger than the devil that is why I am continuously kept aware. I am so grateful and thankful to the Lord for looking out and keeping me protected.
I remember years ago another guy worked a love spell on me to try to get me to love, marry him, and have babies with him.
I do not like people who do these things with ulterior motives to suit themselves, especially against another person’s will.
Why want someone who does not want you back? There is a world full of people on the planet.
What is important is that for people who are interested in relationships to find one’s who are best suited for them.
Right now, with the current guy, I find this action of his kind of exciting as I wonder how much further he will go. I even have a smile on my face at this love spell.
I am a fierce spiritual warrior and I am ready for the battle that God will take care of!
I was told twice yesterday by a mature (ninety-five year old) woman of experience that because of the way I look physically, and the way that I carry myself, I should be in movies.
This is not the first time I have been told these words and similar ones alike.
As a teen and young adult, some people would ask me if I was a model and would tell me that I could be one.
Another person told me they saw me as a movie actress type who was supposed to be writing screenplays.
Aside from other things, I could have been a lawyer or a psychologist if I had really wanted and chose to. I have both the smarts and the mindset.
The fact is, I never wanted a life in Hollywood to be broadcast on television, or to be photographed for magazines walking down the runway.
I never had the desire to be a legal representative or mental health specialist either.
Though many of us are qualified or can do or become professionals in more than one area, it does not mean this is a preferred career or path to seek.
Jobs and job labels do not define us as individuals.
Even though there are narrow-minded misinformed people who believe the higher the title or higher the income, the higher the stature.
Someone who does not have a job or who has a job that is considered low rank in comparison to high-level/high-profile jobs can have far more integrity, intelligence, ability than the one touting their so-called credentials.
They may have just not gotten the right opportunity, could have fallen into hard times, did not believe enough within themselves or did not have any support.
There are several reasons and factors for why those who could achieve great heights do not.
A lot of people who are in positions of power or who hold positions that are praised within society are not as adequate as they think they are or would like to believe.
Many of them are nothing but shit! They are as common as they come- there is nothing special about their existence.
Novel within character and mindset unlike the ordinary are what define true standing within its authenticity.
From my observations throughout the years there are so-called Christians and others alike who believe if something is not written or mentioned within the Bible then the instance is unlikely to be true or not possible- which I know for fact has never been the truth.
Something does not have to be in the Bible for it to be truthful or possible.
Everything not written in the Bible that can occur is also not always devil inspired or people inspired either.
There is credibility to many situations, circumstances, encounters that were experiences not directly included as taken place in the Bible.
Some people are stuck in their limited scope of reasoning, narrow-mindedness, ignorance, brainwashing, or influences brought on by society.
That is why it is so important to be strong-minded and confident within one’s own.
Knowing while certain others may not share an experience or a belief in no way will make another’s experience or belief less probable. There is a great possibility for their undergoing to be a reality and able to exist.
I have always been headstrong. I do not have to go through something to believe or to know it is able to be true for someone else.
Maybe because I have that insight, nevertheless, one should never let others sway their minds or raise doubt in what they hold to know or believe firmly.
Of course, we as people are liable to hold onto false or erroneous ways of being.
Anyone can misinterpret or be mistaken about things it is when they fail to accept their error once they have discovered or have been proven to be wrong in some way.
I am a very honest, straightforward person. If I say or write something it is because it is the truth, what I really think or believe, or suspect is possible.
Never do I or have I ever intentionally expressed anything under false pretense.
Some people may not understand what I mean or where I come from at times- depending on who it is- because I am a very deep, intelligent, and spiritual awake person.
Nevertheless, I speak my mind and am led by spirit to fulfill my purposes. I do know what I am talking about when I speak on things.
I am a forty-seven-year-old female who often gets mistaken for someone in her twenties or thirties. I have never really looked my age in body or in the face.
I even have a young sounding voice when I speak.
I have attracted men of all ages- young and old within the past.
When I was in my thirties eighteen-year-old guys were attracted to me, when I was in my twenties forty and fifty-year-old men were attracted to me.
It never made a difference. To each his or her own I never received any personal gratification from this attention I never wanted it.
Some men found me to be a challenge that they wanted to conquer. Some men just genuinely wanted to be with me because they liked me for my mind, and I was not like the average female once they got to know me a little.
I never placed value on myself based on whether a man approved or desired me. I have never suffered from low self-esteem and have never needed anyone to validate me or to build my assurance.
Self- confidence, self-love, and self-worth are things produced within me. No one gave it to me, and no one can take it away. Everyone should feel this way.
I have no interest in romantic relationships, I am asexual and proud.
Now I want to discuss this issue about Michael Gonzalez because I am being led to by spirit.
As I am a highly spiritually inclined individual I feel and keenly discern people’s energy.
Whenever a man, especially men who are of a negative disposition are attracted, or interested in me- I can feel them, their thoughts, and I can accurately sense things in relation to them in a timely frame.
Michael is an ex-coworker of mine who had, and who still has a “crush” on me. It is nothing serious, but it is annoying.
From the first moment I laid eyes on Michael, I did not find him to be attractive.
He is not a cute guy, and he is not handsome as far as I am concerned. A friend of mine had saw a photo of him and said that he was not attractive to her also but that he seems to think that he is something. Maybe there are low-scale females who find him attractive, however, I do not and never will.
I was very insulted when Michael reflected his insecurities onto me while we worked together by entertaining the ridiculous idea that I could be attracted or interested in him.
I told Michael to his face that I could not stand him, but his inflated ego did not want to believe or accept it even though deep down inside he knew it was the truth.
He even profiled in front of me one day on the job by trying to show off his body that was not appealing to me whatsoever. He got down onto the floor to demonstrate push-ups. The incident turned me off.
The more I had got to know Michael the more I disliked him.
When some men try to impress women, push themselves on them, or try to flaunt themselves when they mistakenly assume that the female likes them, they do not realize how much they make a fool of themselves. It is very off-putting.
When I was younger there were guys (usually low-scale guys because guys of substance do not behave in this manner) who would get angry at me for not wanting them and in return tell lies about me.
There were three who were a problem.
Two lied and said I was involved with them and all three wanted people to believe that I slept with them or had feelings for them- all to make themselves appear big in the eyes of their peers. And, to also try to bring me down since I thought too highly of myself to desire or to be with anyone like them.
Neither one of these guys were desirable they were used to low-scale women such as themselves falling all over them and making a fuss over them due to their own bouts of low self-esteem.
Someone like me, who was of substance and class, added an extra blow to the bruise they received to their egos when they got hurt and rejected by me.
Of course, their efforts did not work so they joined in with the effort to work Brujeria (Black magic/Santeria) on me to try to make me look bad within the public eye, however, I was still too strong, and I successfully defeated all of them at their own game. On top of it, karma came back and destroyed all three of them. One even ended up dead years ago from his negative lifestyle.
No one can bring me down as I never cared what anybody said or thought about me.
I did not have time for that type of bullshit then, and I do not tolerate it now.
Michael is not at all drastic to that extreme his nonsense is mild in comparison, yet still an act of ridiculous nonsense.
With all the serious things going on in the world Michael is hung up on the fact that he cannot attain me.
He would rather believe that I really do have feelings for him and am just fighting it, or that I am playing hard to get, or whatever other delusional bullshit that men feed themselves instead of facing the truth over dealing with reality.
Michael needs to forget about me and realize that a woman of my level and caliber would never be interested or attracted to him.
Michael has a lot of negative energy. He has a very low vibration.
I am a positive person I exude from a very high vibration.
What I also believe is a part of Michael’s insecurities stem from his background of being morbidly obese.
Maybe after he lost weight, he feels he needs something to prove and is overcompensating.
He needs women to be interested or attracted to him to feel like a big man. I just wish he would find some other female to win over to measure or to prove his false sense of pride.
The other women he has been with are easy tramps. He feels if he can get me then he can get anybody. I should in a way take this instance as a compliment, but I am not flattered by it, I am disgusted.
To me, Michael will always be a small, unworthy, pretentious smelly fish swimming in a dirty pond.
I am not trying to be mean I just do not understand the sickness behind and within certain men and women (because there are deceitful, trouble-making women too) who cannot deal with rejection.
A healthy-minded person does not occupy themself with stupid shit like this.
I remember in my early twenties when a guy from the old neighborhood I grew up in came up behind me in the 1990’s and uttered, “You love animals more than you love people”.
This was after news had gotten back to him that I had told a small crowd of guys on a street corner one night how ugly they were.
These guys used to act silly and harass me because I would not date them, so I had to put them in check.
Anyhow, the guy who came up behind me heard about the incident and called me a bitch.
If anything, I took “bitch” as a compliment even though he meant it as an insult. I was never the average type of female anyhow. I was very unique in many aspects.
When this guy saw that I did not respond to the word bitch, he knew the reason was because I did not care.
So, the next time he approached me it was about the regard I had for animals, as he would observe the moments, he saw me share in the neighborhood with my dogs.
He was correct. In general, I did care for animals (canines) more than I cared for people- and with good reason!
My two favorite individuals in the entire world were my mother and one of my dogs named Brandie.
Dogs are easier to like or love than most people. I am one who did not love easily to begin with, as I know the true definition of love.
Love in any instance should and has to come naturally.
There is a circle of few I call and who are true friends. There are even people around me who are good and trustworthy.
However, my mother and my dog are the ones who knew me best and who I both consider my friends for life from here on earth to beyond.
Amazon is getting theirs! Not so long after I quit working for them, and they are headed for a downfall.
Amazon is laying off up to 10, 000 people starting this week. The most to be hit hard are those who work in devices, human resources, and retail. A lot of these people are going to be out of work. Amazon is also implementing a hiring freeze. I read three news articles that broke today in my alerts. Business for Amazon has not been doing too well. I also read that Jeff Bezos sold Amazon stock etc…. Well, well, well!
There was a ridiculous double standard I used to hear when I was growing up, one that I knew definitely was not true because I myself naturally did not hold this particular stance.
I used to hear how, when it came to intercourse, how, for females, it would take emotion to be involved for her to become engaged, or that, after a sexual encounter, she would become emotionally attached.
Such a bunch of sexists, insulting nonsense!
I am not saying to hop around for the hell of it for those who burn with lust or the occasional desire for some to have sex, or to have sex for the sole purpose of having a child- as I once considered just using a man to conceive a baby many years ago without any commitment or affection on my part.
What I am saying as a fact is that for a “Virgin” or a woman who is constantly sexually active, or that has been sexually active not too often, she does not necessarily have to have any interest at all in a particular man for her to be able to have sex with him.
It does not mean that she cares for him, and it definitely does not mean that she has any love for him.
Sex and love have nothing to do with one another. They are both two separate things.
Women can have sex with men without having any type of attraction or feelings for them- and without any guilt.
I definitely know this all for a fact.
Some men may not have understood or wanted to have accepted this reality because they were always stereotypically viewed as the ones who primarily used women to get what they wanted. So, it was too much of a bruise to the ego.
Truth is, as it is more out in the open these days- though there are still some with ignorant concepts- it works both ways.
There are men who become emotionally attached through sex whereas others do not, and vice-versa with certain women.
Some men or women do have to have feelings for someone before they go to bed with them.
A woman who has sex with a man who she does not love or care for does not make her a whore either, because there are many different types of circumstances that take place within situations.
Men who are whorish do not normally get called the undesirable whores that they truly are by the majority of society.
There are married couples without love within a marriage. To each his or her own.
Yes, when it comes to God, he intended for intercourse to be between couples tied together through wedlock. Anything outside of this is wrong or immoral to God. He also intended true consideration and dedication to each other. That is why marriage was not to be entered into lightly.
However, we all have our own free-will, gifts, and characteristics.
Some of us are asexual and are completely not into sex. Asexuality is not a sin. Some of us do not want to ever get married. Some want a loving, faithful, life-long relationship. Some just want to run around or have sex without strings attached.
There are possible consequences to actions sometimes, such as venereal disease, crazy people with fatal attractions, violent confrontations over cheating, unwanted pregnancies.
Some of these incidents even take place with married couples.
This is a crazy-mixed up world.
I, as a woman, personally wished that there was no such thing as sexual intercourse and that, as a woman, I would be able to conceive a child naturally on my own if I ever decided to (although I did not or would not want any children at this time in my life- but if I ever had a long time ago). I feel I should not have to share my vagina with anyone, and I know I did not ever have to, my vagina belongs to me.
A little note: There is an actual fish in creation that is by nature able to conceive offspring on its own without the fertilization from a male counterpart.
I am not a mother. I had been told I would make a good mother if I had children, and I took the remark as a compliment.
Some may even consider me wife material, which can serve as a compliment or an insult, depending on what one’s idea is based on.
I never saw myself as marriage material, as I never had the desire or interest in romance or for stereotypical wifely duties-this nature was never within me.
The old barefoot, pregnant, in the kitchen, outdated image of wife-hood was definitely not a suitable way of life for me either.
Things have changed in this day and age and the definition of wife-material does not necessarily have to be a negative one.
Many secure men appreciate strong, independent women who can hold their own and who can also show love, support and maintain a healthy relationship that produces meaning and growth.
Most of us heard the saying, “You can’t turn a hoe into a housewife”.
Well, I say one cannot turn a virgin or one who is not into sex as a housewife either.
How many sexual partners one has had or not had does not determine one’s sufficiency. It is about one’s mentality and character.
I always knew that my self-esteem or self-worth/value as a female was not defined or dictated by my vagina or men I have never slept with.
Nor did my self-esteem or self-worth depend on what a man or anyone else classified as what was appropriate within their own personal or societal standards.
My vagina is not me; it is only a part of the body that belongs to me. I am the spirit within me, I am an individual having this human experience here on earth.
It is a great offense to suggest that any positive qualities a woman may have are only prized or treasured if a man prefers or desires them.
There are women who have no interest in satisfying a man.
They have no desire to marry or to be in a committed relationship.
Some women are intent on or concerned about developing their own careers, their own personal/spiritual growth, or the fulfillment of what they may want to offer or contribute to the world through their own special purpose.
These types of women do not need the acceptance or approval of a man to feel self-worth and value.
“Very truly I tell you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be judged but has crossed over from death to life. -John 5:24
We get eternal life by putting our trust in Jesus.
The gift of being saved cannot be earned. It cannot be attained by doing good deeds, or by being what we perceive as good.
It cannot be gotten by going to church either.
It is only by truly believing in and putting all our trust in Jesus.
Eternal life does not begin once a believer dies and their soul leaves the body.
Eternal life begins immediately while we are still alive in body here on earth, the moment we genuinely accept Jesus as Lord over our lives.
When one is “truly saved”, they are always saved, even if they walk away from God for a while due to anger or misunderstanding, because if one is truly a child of God’s, they will always find their way back to him or he will eventually bring them back through his call.
God knows how to reach an individual whereas others cannot. He knows our story, he understands us, he knows our hearts, he knows us better than anyone else does- he created us as he knitted us together within our mother’s wombs. We were in his thoughts before the creation of the world.
When I was furious at God, I swore I disowned him and that I would never have anything to do with him ever again. The Lord sure showed me differently!
He did not let me go so easily or at all, for that matter. He let time go by- letting me believe I was protected by other means when it was him all along, ultimately protecting me through what I substituted. He proved to me that he had my back when I felt betrayed by him.
It took a tragedy for him to get my attention- and God did his action in such a loving and wonderful way. I am still in shock till this day- he is really awesome.
I still at times have my “God why did you bring me into this world the way that it is nowadays” and “I did not ask to come here; sin was here way before I was born, so why bring me into it?!”
God is my parent as I am still a work in progress when it comes to certain issues that involve not liking certain types of people and life circumstances in general, and so on. However, that is what he wants. For us to give everything all to him.
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. –Romans 8:38-39
I grew up in a home where God was strongly acknowledged.
I was raised by a mother who always believed in God. She grew up attending church as a child and had a love for God.
My mother’s side of the family were strong believers in God. They maintained faith and included God within their lives.
It was not about religion, but having a relationship with God.
My mother introduced me to God at an early age. From the start, everything came naturally. I readily believed and knew God and his story was real, yet I did not fully understand everything as I was still very young.
I was very spiritual, so I already had a connection to God. Certain members of my family were innately spiritual with gifts of the spirit.
There was a time I was consistently angry at God. I was frustrated at circumstances that were not my doing but done unto me and my mother during childhood on up by jealous/envious undesirables and etc….
In addition to other particular unsavory situations in life, I doubted God’s character and felt I could not trust him even though I had seen him do incredible, wonderful things in my life. I never doubted what God could do, but I doubted his goodness and motives/intentions.
God never punished or stopped blessing me when I kept my distance from him. My positive lifestyle did not change, but my attitude toward God and who I wanted to follow did for a while.
Instead of showing anger toward me, God approached me with gentleness and understanding of my misunderstanding of him.
God invited me to come to know him in a deeper and more transparent way than before.
He wanted me to know the real him, not through those who profess him only to show something different, not by misinterpretation- but through my past experiences of faith and what he has done for me and my family before.
By what he has done for me in the present. By what his word says and how his word acts and directs within my life.
God is walking with me every step of the way on my journey here as he promised and will take his time continuing to guide and provide with his ultimate divinity.
I am not the docile, soft, forgiving type. You try to fuck over me, disrespect me, rule over me, gaslight me one time- that is it!
I am glad that I am not and have never been a sensitive type of person. I have very thick skin. I am tough as nails, a fighter- a survivor.
Strength comes from inside- not silly tough talk or a rough physical demeanor, or facade.
I am not saying the entire world is this way, but there was always a ridiculous double standard when it came to men defining our actions, attitudes and manner of being when they do not fit into their lie of what a woman is supposed to be.
There are even stupid women and girls who are slaves to these false beliefs. They may be weak, needy, subservient doormats, but this is not the definition of a true woman.
When us women are fierce, aggressive, not afraid to confront a situation, speak our minds, and so on, we are considered angry, emotional, crazy, bitches (in an ignorant derogatory way), hysterical and every other negative excuse to justify the actual reason certain men cannot handle or accept our inborn power.
When a man behaves in the same manner, he is considered ambitious, strong, determined and all the other bullshit stereotypes men are defined to be.
I have always been very outspoken, blunt/direct, opinionated, controversial and I was considered a threat.
Females like me, as well as certain males who stand up for what is right or what they believe in and/or refuse to go along with the “program”, sometimes become targets.
People want to get rid of us, downplay us, or try to destroy our credibility, and so on.
None of the schemes or tactics of specific people who tried to control, manipulate, or whatever other intention they may have had in mind ever scared me or made me want to back down from being the genuine individual that I am and was born to be.
I have really appreciated people who are ” awake”, who are on the level when it comes to intelligence. I have been lucky enough to personally encounter them here within my lifetime as they could relate to me and I to them and we shared the same high mindset.
The majority of the world is lost and in trouble. They have an average or low-scale mentality and are easily influenced or brainwashed by societal culture.
I always had a mind of my own and could think for myself even if it went against the so-called “norm”.
Some of us, especially women, are judged by our outward appearance. Some will have preconceived notions about us without actually knowing us- these are the ones who have to learn the hard way that we are no one to fuck with!
I do not write for the hell of it. Yes, writing is one of my natural talents, my passion. I write because I love to do it, but it is the Holy Spirit that inspires and moves me to do so. Divine energy is the driving force.
It has to be about Amazon in some form or fashion because nothing else was going on for it to be about anything else.
The truth must have totally came out- although if it had not, that still would not have made me any less justified. It does not really matter what people think or believe; it only matters what God knows. He is the only one who holds the keys to our true destiny. I appreciate that the Lord let the truth prevail as he always does sooner or later, but we do not need others to validate what we know for a fact. Michael Gonzalez comes to my blog primarily every Friday now instead of everyday or every other day like he used to. He has been doing this for three or four weeks now. He is still unable to move on. I have that affect on assholes 😹😂.
Sometimes Michael and others try to get slick and disguise themselves through that iCloud Private Relay shit that they think is completely anonymous. In fact, Michael came to my blog last night. These people feed off negativity. They wish they could find dirt on me. However, there is none. They keep viewing my posts about the caul, voodoo, and spiritual gifts. If they are looking for a way to attack me spiritually- they had better think again! You see, I will always be ahead of people like them. I have dreams, I see visions, I get premonitions etc….
Of course, I do not reveal everything that I know and see. I was not born yesterday. I have been on this earth for forty-seven years; I have been gifted with extra sensory perception for all of my life.
When I was a child, I was not ordinary, I was extremely aware. A gift can save our lives as I could share many stories from now into the past.
But God gifted me for a reason, as he did certain others, and no one can stop his purpose for us. It is up to us in particular whether we use our spiritual gifts for good or evil.
I am African American and Native American, so I have extra power within the bloodline. My African ancestry as well as my American Indian Cherokee and Blackfoot are deeply inherent in spirituality. So, they can dig their own graves.
I never understood why some women fight over men. Especially when the men do not look like anything.
A man is nothing to fight over and a man is nothing to get hurt over. Yet not everyone shares my mentality, self-love, confidence, strength, self-worth or natural disinterest in men.
There are men who purposely try to make women jealous to gain attention for themselves. It strokes this type of man’s ego for a sign that the woman cares, is attracted, or has feelings for him.
There can be a woman who does not even want the man and he will use another woman who is interested in him to start trouble with the woman who does not want anything to do with him.
Men who behave within this manner are ignorant and immature.
When certain men cheat on women instead of the women getting angry at and/or attacking the other woman they should go after the man responsible for creating whatever drama.
Some individuals are so backward and twisted.
There were men who liked me, would get jealous over another man being around me and, I did not want either one of them.
I did not find the jealousy flattering at all- it was a complete turn off!
On Friday at work, the television was on. The broadcast discussed the issue of the controversy over abortion.
One of my male elderly clients asked me what my opinion was in regard to abortion.
I told him no one has a right to tell a woman what to do with her body.
He told me that he agreed, and that men need to be held accountable for getting women pregnant.
I did not mention this and- this statement alone may seem harsh or controversial- but it is my truth that I have felt since I was in my teens and will not back down on.
Some people just should have never been born to begin with. The world would be a better place if certain kinds of people did not exist.
Some people need to keep their legs closed and their genitals tamed that goes for both men and women.
Phony people are a turn off. They can also be quite humorous.
They also tend to annoy with their over-acting and hard attempts to convince.
Some who are fake swear that they get over. I don’t know why they waste their time.
It is so much easier to be genuine.
I understand not revealing everything or playing the part (going along with the program even if it is not what one agrees with for the sake of harmony and etc….) within certain situations. That is not being bogus- that is just the necessary motions of flowing through society.
The sad truth, though, is that sometimes what is fake is taken as what is real by those who are deceived or who do not know any better.
What is real can also be taken as fake by those who do not believe, do not understand, or who do not give the benefit of the doubt.
A fact within life is that just because something is presented as reliable does not always give credence to the story or to the one who is telling it.
At the same time, just because something may sound far out, uncommon, or not likely does not mean that it is not so.
There are many people, many circumstances, many ideas, many preferences, many beliefs, many personalities and distinctions within character.
This is a big wide crazy world!
No matter what- always be real and true to who you are regardless of how you may appear or how things may seem.
Authenticity outweighs the limitations reflected by others, strength overtakes and endures, confidence is the power to maintain without caring about the opinions, accusations or judgments of others.– latoya lawrence
Earlier in the week, I forgot which exact day, I was standing on a long line waiting to catch a bus home.
Two young females who looked to be in their twenties were scoping out individuals who stood on the line to approach.
One of the women came up to me and directly asked, “You want to come to my church?”
I said, “No”.
She then moved on to someone else she felt comfortable enough to go up to.
I watched as the other female asked a guy down on line the same question I was asked while he also gave her a “no”.
The lady who came up to me wore a name tag just like most of those with the Church of the Latter Day Saints.
A great deal of the people who attend church in general are nothing but devils and hypocrites.
Some are even brainwashed or sick-minded.
There is nothing wrong with church itself. It is good if one is able to find a church they connect with. There is negativity and positivity in every place, however, going to church does not verify a person who has a genuine regard, relationship or loyalty toward God or spirituality.
It is about what is truly within one’s heart, mind, and soul- not where they sit at every Sunday or other day inside of a church.
A lot of us already have a natural tendency- a propensity to lean and be led toward our creator in the individual way and path directed within our own distinction. God knows how to reach those who are apt to reach back.
As many ignorantly judge others based on their own personal reflections or flaws, God and those who are enveloped by him judge by truth, and the spirit of discernment.
It can be the least one would expect who is the closest to God.
The ones who are the farthest from God can have the appearance of godliness but no godliness is within them. They are full of filth, dirt and deceit.
A church is the house of God. A house of God is not a physical building. It is an internal building that firmly houses one.- latoya lawrence
We already have too many people over here within this country as it is.
We have people here who do not have jobs, people who are homeless.
The government needs to take care of the people who are already here instead of allowing others to come over here to add to more problems.
Why not put effort into helping those in need here who are at risk and just lack the opportunity that can be given if permitted the chance.
But no! The government along with these self-serving politicians are just looking out for themselves to gets votes, to get recognition/prestige, to get into higher positions of power.
They do not genuinely care about us native citizens. It is all about carrying out plans that seem to progress foreigners when it is really a trade-off to further the government’s unscrupulous agendas.
The people coming over here are going to need steady employment, sufficient income, a secure place to live and etc…. Plenty of things that people here in America need and do not have.
Like I said, take care of the people already here before letting immigrants unnecessarily invade on us and cause us more trouble.
Some people act as if marriage is a badge of honor.
Marriage is an institution I never admired or desired.
I knew since childhood I was not ever going to get married.
The idea of having a boyfriend or lover did not appeal to me either.
I did not want any man sitting up underneath me every day- and I still don’t.
I do not like kissing or cuddling with the opposite sex.
I do not need attention, affection, or support from the opposite sex- I never have. The thought is inconceivable to me.
A romantic relationship with anyone is out of the question there is no chance of it ever happening.
The other person would just be left hurt, disappointed, scorned and/or defeated by their inability to get a rise out of me heart-wise or psychologically if their rejection or hurt initiated them to retaliate against me within any way.
I know this for a fact.
I have already been through this situation many years ago with men who got mad at me for not wanting them. I was a heart-breaker without a conscious and without even trying to be.
I was not a monster I just do not understand the certain feelings of others that I myself do not have. Nor do I want to understand them when it comes to love relationships.
And- forget about sex! The human penis has always been a huge turn off to me.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. What may look good to one person may not look good to another.
I never cared what anyone thought about the way I looked. I was always considered very attractive but what mattered was that I truly like the way that I looked even if no one else in the world did.
My self-esteem was never built on the judgment of others.
I value myself and I am very self-confident. I value one’s character over anything.
I was born to be single as far as I am concerned.
I am single yet romantically unavailable, I would not have myself any other way.
In my younger days men always chased after me whether they were single, had girlfriends, or even wives it didn’t matter.
A lot of guys liked me, not because all were just interested in sex, they genuinely liked me as a person. They enjoyed my conversation; they were intrigued by my uniqueness.
I had male as well as female associates. Sometimes I even got along better with certain males than I did with females.
Men shared wild and intimate secrets with me. They’d have girlfriends or wives while having other women on the side and etc….
I was upfront with them letting them know that they would never get into my panties.
I had some that were glad I was the way that I was even though it was a bruise to their ego. Some were envious of me, some resented me, some didn’t care- I did not care either.
No one could take advantage of me, no one could get over on me. Everything I did was on my terms or to my advantage. I was never the emotional lovey-dovey type of female. Although I had no problem with expressing how I thought or felt.
I had some very funny and crazy experiences with guys.
There was a neighborhood guy in his fifties that was interested in me when I was in my twenties.
We were sitting in his jeep talking while a crowd of people were there hanging out, talking, enjoying the days of summer.
All of a sudden, he turned the key in the ignition, started the vehicle, and drove around the corner.
I opened the door to the jeep and hopped out as we were halfway down the block (he had not drove too fast as I was able to take a safe leap).
I knew he was going to try to rape me.
When I was out of the jeep he told me to get back in.
I told him no! “Get back into the jeep so that you can rape me and then everybody say that it was my fault for getting back into the jeep?” I spoke.
“Rape?!” He spoke.
This fifty something year old man then got out of his vehicle and literally chased me around the jeep telling me to get back in.
I purposely ran around the jeep to make an ass out of him. Then I walked back down the block to where the rest of the people were. He was nothing to worry about. He was high, hard-up, and frivolously hell-bent.
My mother and I laughed about it later when I told her what had happened “He was going to get him some ass, huh?!” She relayed back in truth and humor.
My mother acknowledged to me that I was lucky the man didn’t have power-locks in his jeep.
Rape is a serious crime and no laughing matter; however, this man was nothing to take serious in my situation I was in no further danger. I was well-known in the neighborhood; people knew him and what he was about. He definitely knew better. I was a hangout partner with his sister whom he didn’t get along too well with.
This man and I ran into one another weeks later as I were on my way to the store, he was parked on the corner and called me over to the car.
I brought up the prior incident.
“Rape?!” He said like the suggestion I made was preposterous in order to through me off. He wanted to make me feel foolish. Of course, it did not work.
“There is too much pussy out here to rape”, he added out of anger.
When I did not back down and insisted on what he aimed to do he exclaimed, “I don’t want you!”
Then he admitted that by his last words he was just trying to hurt my feelings.
“My feelings are not hurt”, I expressed. “Why would I care if you want me or not?”
“Yeah, that could be true. You women can be cold”, he expressed back in return.
I, LaToya did not understand this man’s mentality at all. I did not understand the ignorance.
When I told a male associate the story he automatically knew instinctively as he addressed to me, “He was going to rape you”.
Months later, the fifty-year-old man’s sister came to me and told me that another female came to her and told her that her brother tried to rape her too. I and this other targeted girl did not personally know one another but I had seen her in the neighborhood before.
In return, the sister told the girl that she had heard about it before (through me but she did not tell the girl where she heard about it from).
The man’s sister told me that her brother trying to rape this other woman was not relevant because of her notorious promiscuous sexual behavior.
I disagree.
As far as I am concerned, even a prostitute does not deserve to be raped even though she may be asking for it depending on her situation.
If a woman does not consent to having sex, then no man has the right to force himself on the woman regardless of her sexual history.
As a sojourner I continue to listen to God over listening and trusting in the world
I will never stop learning, growing and being made into the individual that he created me to be.
We who live in spirit should constantly beware and be wise.
I was always careful who I associated myself with.
I had no desire to be bothered or to allow just anyone into my circle.
Of course, everyone who comes into our lives are not meant to stay, they do not always have our best interest.
Some who mean us well are not always meant to stay either yet God may allow them to cross our paths as stones to step upon.
I have known these truths early on within life and it had done me a great service to heed warnings, to recognize red flags, and to appreciate whatever enlightenment there was to receive or uncover upon my journey.
All of us are not going to take to, connect with, or get along with every single person we encounter or come across within this lifetime.
Nevertheless, I have really met and dealt with some people who have treated me with sincerity, reasonableness, kindness, and generosity.
Intelligent people who I could have deep meaningful discussions with.
People who I could just chill and laugh with.
It is nice to still know with all of the fucked-up people in this society that there are and will always be others out there who are compatible with us even if we are all outnumbered by the rest of the assholes out there!
As some of us who are unique many of us are greatly misunderstood.
We’re thought of as strange. Our words are taken out of context. Some of us are even called crazy by those who don’t understand us. By those who may envy us, by those who misjudge us and by those who want to psychoanalyze us with their bullshit that really does not pertain to us at all.
Some people are just miserable and spiteful.
None of these instances ever fazed or bothered me. I was just “crazy” that way!
Like I have said times before, when there is really no legitimate basis other people’s attitudes and behavior are a reflection of themselves. It’s their problem- let them worry about it.
People do these things to just about anyone who does not fit into what they consider typical or so called “normal”.
It is really about what is “healthy” than about what is normal. Who is to actually say what is defined as normal when we have so much diversity?
I would never worry about a word like crazy as it is the dumb ones and those who are actually crazy themselves that label smart or extraordinary people in that manner.
It is not always wise to discuss our beliefs, faculties, or certain other things with just any or everyone yet never feel ashamed of who you are.
Never try to repress what you feel.
I am tired of what is average, I always have been. I welcome people and things that are rare, different and uncommon. That is what makes one special.
Never be afraid to stand out from the crowd and be the unique person that God created you to be.
If anyone calls you “crazy” take it as a compliment!
The weather was gorgeous today when I left out this morning.
Such a wonderful change from the humidity last week.
I traveled to long Island, New York as I often do from time to time. I live in a nice area of Queens, and I am not too far from beautiful parts of Nassau County.
I took in the beauty of scenery.
I ran an errand, did some shopping, then returned to rest and relax for the day I have off.
Earlier, while I was at an office I and a member of staff struck up a discussion.
The woman was around my age or older. We spoke of the world and the people within it- how things have really changed since we grew up. Life was much better then compared to now.
There are so many sick-minded people and sick things going on now more than ever, we agreed.
It was just a reminder of how grateful I am to be one who had a taste of what once was along with having remained a good, sensible person no matter whatever else changed.
We should never let the seasons of life alter our weathers. We are to weather each season to the best of our life.
This is a free country with freedom of expression. This is my blog. I write about all kinds of things. As soon as one speaks the truth it causes controversy!
I have been minding my own business as usual. I write a post today telling an ex-coworker to stop coming to my blog as he comes almost every day- I have not written anything about him anymore (only just one post recent because he keeps coming to my blog to cause trouble). What is the purpose?
They’re so ignorant probably looking for some type of violent nonsense in my blogs that don’t exist. They have the nerve. Silly people love to overreact all for nothing.
Instead of worrying about my blog why don’t they go be vigilant about the real threats and acts of violence and crime that is going on out in the world today if they want to monitor something instead of continuing to worry about a regular person like me just for speaking her mind.
And now Amazon and the rest of the spies who come to my blog just about every other day act like something really big is going on.
My goodness. They are all ridiculous. Why don’t they move on what are these assholes looking for?
It has been a month now. Yet Michael is still coming to my blog worried about what I write, I have proof (he is a big troublemaker).
He started with me on the job then when I quit he gets a stink bitch who has never met me to lie and say I was fired?
He can dish shit out but he cannot take it. Then wants to pretend he is a victim.
Go away and move on with your life already- but obviously you really don’t have a life. A thirty-five year old guy who is going on thirty-six this month who does nothing but sit around all day on his fluctuating fat ass playing video games- such a retard!
You are not important enough for anyone to write about- however, since this is what you are looking for here is one last post about you. Drive yourself crazy looking for it!
Farewell asshole. Don’t come back to my blog anymore.
Yes, there are people in this world who are actually demonic themselves, nevertheless, the devil often uses or works through negative people in order to distract us or to cause conflict and confusion.
The devil will even manifest in people who claim to be Christian or followers of God.
When we are of the light attacks will always come against us yet we have authority over evil and are equipped for the challenges.
Remember, the Lord fights our battles, and when we come up against those who are tools for the devil we are not affected.
The darkness can never overpower the light as I have said so many times before.
I am very youthful within appearance and I am soft-spoken.
Many think I am younger than what I am. Even when I was in my twenties and thirties, I was either mistaken for a teenager or other than the age that I actually was.
I turned forty-seven this past spring and I still have a young-looking face, body, and young-sounding voice.
I am not at all complaining, however, some ignorant people misjudge me by my appearance.
I don’t take it personal (it is not a reflection of me but of them and their lack of experience or diversity) yet I get tired of it.
As a younger person I was never the naive, silly or vulnerable type. I was wise beyond my years and spunky.
People were often shocked at the knowledge, strength, and understanding I had at an early age.
All young people are not dumb and all older people do not possess wisdom. And vice-versa. It all depends on the individual. I have always been an open-minded person.
I am not one to be underestimated and I am not one to be played with.
It is funny when certain people think that they can or could destroy me- I turn around to destroy their asses!
There is far too much violence within the world everywhere.
This is a sick society.
These days people are killing people over their French fries not being served hot enough, or for too much mayonnaise being put onto a sandwich.
I remember back in the eighties where there was a morbid trend of people killing people just for accidentally stepping on their new pair of sneakers.
There was even an incident where a two- or three-year-old kid shot a water pistol at a grown man, and he in return shot and killed the kid. It was the summer, it was very hot, it was just a child, it was only water splashed out from a water-gun and wet clothing would have dried up quickly in the heat- so what was the issue?
I understand anger. Anger is a completely natural and healthy emotion.
However, it is how one handles their anger.
What I mentioned above goes far beyond anger. It touches on the irrational.
People go into rages and kill over the most ridiculous things.
I can see if one has to kill in self-defense or because of something major as in rape and something else justifiable (yet we should never take the law into our own hands) but killing people for stupid shit?
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