My “Appetite” For The New Year!

milkI’d like to kick in the New Year by doing one of the things that I like to do best and that is eating.

Chilling again this New Years Eve as I did the last in the comforts of home in the cozy dim light of my bedroom snugged in bed with my favorites of foods and watching a good suspense or horror flick.

The only thing missing is a beloved pup or dog to snuggle up and hang out with but that will come in time.

I haven’t drank cows milk in two years because I now only drink soy milk ( so I’d like to have a full cup of cold and delicious “very vanilla” soy milk along with a medium-size delicious pizza pie, another thing that I have not had in a while, I haven’t eaten a pizza because I also have not touched cheese in about two years now.

pizzaI am very careful what I put inside of my body as I have been a vegan turned vegetarian for over twenty years and I will once in a while eat cheese strictly if it contains either vegetable rennet or no rennet at all and I cannot expect or depend on pizza shops in general to prepare their dishes with the same dietary restrictions that many of us have concerns about in regard to our lifestyles so I’ll just have to make my own homemade pizza with the high quality ingredients that I prefer.

yellow cake with white icingFor a delicious dessert I’d love to have a yellow cake with white icing as I haven’t baked and ate one in about a little over ten years but I have baked some great oatmeal cookies since then.

These three appetizing delights of mine would set off this New Year coming in for me with a “Bang!”


Instrumental “Tunes” Of A Caulbearer

instrumentI can without a doubt believe upon certain things and happenings in life even though I may have never experienced them yet at the same time through the specific experiences that I have had I know what is definite and what is possible.

That is why I often naturally talk through my own life and eyes because I cannot speak for anyone else but in my own personal knowing I am able to detect and make a reasonable judgment when I do come across others who are within my category or whom share a similarity.

So even If someone does not or was not to believe a situation or circumstance that one knows to have occurred that merely serves as a lesson to be taught. Just because of the doubt of another doesn’t make the outcome of a discovery any less of a reality.

I remember back in the nineties when one of my up in age cousins told my mother over the phone about how intelligent and enlightened that I was and how I kept becoming “And nothing is making her that way”, she concluded.

In other words my cousin was saying that I was not “typically” around anyone or going anywhere to learn and to pick up on these precise things that she was hearing from me at that period. She was giving me a compliment at the same time while she was astounded for me to naturally somehow be so well-informed and reasonable.

One of my mother’s friend’s had told me “I don’t know how you know the things that you know”, when I would speak to her casually about issues and/or tell her about what was going on out in the streets around my old neighborhood years ago. She was impressed with how accurate I was at reading people and situations things that other people in common only learned and discerned through their age and experience. She stated that I knew things that weren’t of a general nature things that people usually had to go through in order to know.

Yet caulbearers are old souls and we are wise in ways that people do not always appreciate.

I impart that is why I hated so many adults while I was growing up and had no respect for many of them because many of them were wrong about a lot of things and refused to hear otherwise they believed they knew more due to their age.

In reality, aside from age, awareness comes from the level that a person is on along with their experience. Many have lived yet have incorrectly evaluated most of their experiences.

instrumentalAnother cousin of mine expressed to me that after all of the things that I had been through in life how “It’s not doing anything to you”. And he was correct I wasn’t at all affected in any negative fashion in regards to the tribulations that many people in specific tried to inflict upon me. The negativity that others have thrown at and toward me is really just a true reflection of themselves and their own ignorance, insecurities and hang ups.

I did not ever let people’s bad energy envelop upon me and allow it to project around my life. A lot has to do with how one views life, what they believe in, and the type of individual they are and I never thought the way the rest of the world did. I have and am on my own wavelength.

“You’re a wizard”, one who’d known me as a child had said to me in the past. “Nobody taught you anything, you taught yourself. You have a gift, I watched you when you were a little kid”.

There are many of us who share within ourselves different forms of so called wizardry.

I am a wizard according to that person within my specific field of intellect, talent and spiritual ability, and to me, others are also wizards and masters of their own particular crafts and design and one doesn’t have to be born with a caul to hold these other kind of ingenuities. There are geniuses of technology, mathematics, science, music and so on, and nothing is too small whatever one is able to excel in.

As caulbearers of course we are mysteriously “In Tune” or “Tuned In” however one wants to phrase it. There is a link and connection not only unto the universe and spiritual realms but also unto and between divinities itself which intertwines to use us as vital instruments to manifest samples of its celestial energy.

Everyone has their own free will and how they decide to manage or utilize their talents and whichever road they are drawn to take.

Aside from the actual caul birth (facial attachment with the membrane) and the definite associated traits, there are no one complete set of rules that identity for an authentic caulbearer when it comes down to individual ability and/or behavior; however, there are very specific and unmistakable qualities that will inevitably demonstrate throughout a caulbearers life.

I have been “spotted” along with a few others by spiritual people of genuine intuitive ability yet I don’t know whether it is something that can be actually taught but rather “gathered” not everyone can make a determination so one just has to be able to “recognize” in order to detect a real person born of the caul/veil.

Stages Of A Caulbearer:

Warrior In The Midst(A Caulbearers Power):

Trance(Eyes Of A Caulbearer):





My Personal Space

cup cakeEvery “New Year” should be a step forward from the past and a new step forward into the future.

I like certain “big” things but it just takes the certain little things that make me happy, such as keeping myself clean, eating good food and keeping myself healthy mentally, physically and spiritually.

There is nothing more pleasurable to me than to be able to have my own desired and acquired essentials whatever they may be. When one is lucky and fortunate enough in the certain things that they need and want other not so important matters become too small to complain about.

With the crazy and dangerous state of the world that we are in and the rotten things that are apt to happen by others and/or circumstance many of us have a lot to be grateful for that we should not take for granted.

Another brand new year is about to come in and I still do not have any tolerance at all for any nonsense or chaos I do not care about what is going on in the life of anyone else or what they are doing I am only concerned about my life and what is going on in the world around me and for the continuance of better.

I will forever be that same laid-back and bubbly person that I’ve consistently been yet more improved with constant mental and spiritual growth. I enjoy my home life as it is filled with a distinct peace, comfort, laughter and positive energy. I enjoy writing my literature, reading books,   listening to music, watching movies and television shows, and I enjoy the relaxation of my bed as I get good nights of undisturbed rest.

As a teenager and young adult, I never went to parties or hung out recklessly and I never desired to have any close friends I preferred to stay to myself and nothing much has changed since then. That is just my thing. When I am out and about I like to conduct my activities solo.

Whenever certain others would come around and impose on my time they would spoil those precious moments. I didn’t need people around me to have a good time and I didn’t need people around me as any type of support system.

tea cookiesI had people around me who I’d call acquaintances and associates but none of whom that I’d actually cared for or cared to have as a genuine friend.

Most of the people who’d come around were nothing but trouble and we didn’t really have anything in common but living in the same area, and some believe that if one comes from, or lives within the same neighborhood then they are not too much different than what they are which is a huge misconception.

Although I do agree that most levelheaded individuals of a specific class or nature would prefer to be more situated around or within a vicinity that is more appropriate to their own category it unfortunately does not always turn out in that fashion. I currently for four years now have been able to be in an completely different and more suitable environment, and for the future I hope to be able to do even better.

If I were friendly I would have a lot of friends, in spite of that, I only truly and wholeheartedly would get along with those who are on my level or above. I had plenty of people in particular who’d get mad or disappointed at me for not wanting to be bothered with them but that is just the way that I am.

I create my own happiness and that contentment comes from within it has to be natural.

I keep work at work and I keep home at home I do not go to work to make friends, and I do not come home to bring within any type of negative energy.

What most are enthralled by within the world today means and is completely nothing to me as it stirs up no kind of interest or excitement from within me and that is a good thing in my case because I have to live and do what naturally works best for me.




Guardian Spirits

spell bibleWhenever I would offer honey to Orisha Oshun I would always taste the sweet and healing substance first as a precautionary measure due to the old tale that Oshun had once been the victim of an attempted poisoning.

My sweet Orisha of course knows that I personally would never give unto her anything that is below quality or substandard as I am considered extremely trustworthy among my spiritual connections within all forms. However, I can definitely understand as well as relate to Oshun’s leeriness in general and out of respect for this deity.

I do not regularly eat or drink from just anyone I have always been that way and not because of a past experience that I am about to share but because everyone is not always so clean and particular in their habits the way that I am.

It is not just with food either I have never let people kiss on me (and I was quite ahead of my time with that one the way so many people are now having oral sex with one another in this day and age it has become the norm and the expected with many-people who indulge can keep those lips away from me!), I never shared anyone’s comb, and so on.

I was eight-teen going on nine-teen in the year of 1994 and my aunt Tina had come to our house to visit her mother (she no longer was able to live there in the home since the beginning of the nineties due to a court order we had gotten to throw her out) and I was upstairs in my bedroom as I had a pot of black eyed peas cooking in the kitchen on the stove.

By the time my food was done Tina was gone, she had left not too long before I went to get my food.

After taking in three spoonfuls of peas my body temperature rose and I went into a daze, and instantly, and right within that exact moment, I literally “visioned” a reenactment of what took place beforehand. I heard Tina ask my grandmother if that was my pot cooking on the stove then I saw the pot over the flame of the stove and I heard the pot top slam down after having been opened.

beverageA spirit voice then came to me and told me that Tina had put “mescaline” in my pot of food and that not to worry-as I had heard the voice of Tina’s conscience admitting to it-because her actions were going to backfire and she was the one who was going to flip out

Sure enough, just a week later Tina bugged out and ended up in a psychiatric facility and was prescribed some medication. It was a neighborhood thing (part of the negativity and conspiracy) where foes used Tina as their flunky to combine voodoo and a “trip” drug by lacing my food but between my strong mind and the grace and protection of my spiritual connections I was alright. I never suffered any mental repercussions (hallucinations) or recurrences (after effects) the powers of extra sensory perception had sustained me.

How sick for those who had wanted me to lose my mind before I could even begin to live but yet they had already first came after me at the age of seven so nothing was out of bounds.

My mother had a friend one time who had attended a party and the woman had brought her five year old daughter along. While they were there at the party the mother had went into the bathroom and when she returned back to the living room her child told her that the lady who had invited her had put something in her drink. The woman took her cup then poured it down to the floor and the liquid burned a whole in the carpet.

It had turned out that the host of the party attempted to get this woman out of the way so that she could move in on her husband.

I had my guardians looking down upon me in spirit form and that woman had one of her guardians looking down on her within human form through the awareness of her baby daughter.


Desperate Measures

A Bit About LaToya

I am so tired of these phony commenters who are all within cahoots together in connection with particular jealous and envious foes. They are all sailing in the same boats that they will never ever find me riding in.

You want to talk in riddles I’ll spell it out for you:

Ratonya said 1 day ago

I am Ra’Tonya. A caulbearer, rh neg, born 4-21-1975. Real deal but not involved in anything but being there for info. You may contact me.

You said 25 minutes ago

So strange. I knew a amazon-looking crack-head street whore from back in Hollis, Queens who went by the name Venus who was very jealous of me and her blood type was RH negative and she was born April 29 (4/29/I don’t remember what year she was born) but she was way older than me at the time, she was in her forties when I was in my twenties.

Anyway, she had AIDS and one night went into the emergency room using my name, date of birth and address, but where she was stupid at is that I do not have RH negative blood type which Venus often described as monkey blood. And I did not ever go into the emergency room because I never attended that hospital.

I had found out about what she did years ago not so long after she had done that stupid shit and confronted her.

She was trying to get back at me and thought by using my name, date of birth and address at the time it would get out, hoping that someone who worked there and who may have at the same time lived in our area and who may have known me would come across her medical file about her having AIDS and think that it was me. But like I said before she was stupid because she and I do not even have the same blood type.

So her garbage failed and to her or anyone else who is jealous of me and wishes that I actually had that nasty disease or any other disease or downfall for that matter it is too bad because It is just impossible. It is not my fault that other people have fucked up their lives and I didn’t fuck up mine through sex, drugs and/or alcohol so just get over it.

And here are some more desperate measures:

In Response To: “What I Want For The Holidays!”

just chillin


When we last faith on people naturally we go for fine creatures like puppies which show their gratitude , faithfulness and love towards us.



In reply to diwakar.Everything is not about losing faith within people. Some people in general do choose puppies/dogs over people do to being hurt, disappointed, or whatever their circumstances or situation may be but that has absolutely nothing to do with me and my case at all.

I had my very first puppy at the age of seven and I have always been attracted to them and have cared for them way more than I have cared for people and I had never ever been hurt or disappointed or lost faith within anybody (people turn me off with their ignorance), I by nature just had taken to certain puppies/dogs much better than I have with people and it is much more about and has much more to do about with their magnetism.

I never loved anyone easily I am not the type I am very particular because love has to come naturally and I have never within my forty years found too many people that I have felt that emotion for and I am proud of that because If somebody like me loves one that means that person has got to really be something.

I have genuine family within my life that have in the past as well as still up until now to this day that have shown me nothing but fierce and genuine gratitude, faithfulness and love yet I do not need that from anyone to thrive as I already have that within myself. I do not need any substitute through the animals.


What I Want For The Holidays!

napI stopped celebrating Christmas as well as my birthday when I was twelve years of age it was just another day to me just like the other holidays became to me and anyway the holidays aren’t the same as the way that they use to be years ago.

I do not need certain or specific days to celebrate an event any day can be a special day of significance to me “thanks giving”, “remembrance” and so on are for an everyday sentimental or pleasurable devotion.

I define my own holiday of celebrations and one of the perfect gifts for me during any season of the year is the four-legged furry canine companions.

I just love puppies and dogs they are one of the most beautiful things in the world I always had one or more of them growing up as a child and during adulthood and I just cannot wait until the day I eventually move into my brand new gorgeous lifetime home so that I can welcome in two or three of those adorable creatures.

I just can’t deny it, I enjoy them, want to kiss them, want to hug them, want to love them, want to play with them, want to talk to them, want to have fun with them!

My favorite of the bunch though is the German Shepherd/White Shepherd, Collie and Golden Retriever, the Bugles are cute too!