I Love My Powerful Energy (Born With A Veil)

 

Born with a veil is who I am. I have never been like other people and I do not want to be.

I am so happy living within my own nature and not in the nature of others– that certain types of people and trash–for many years tried so desperately without success to force upon me with their ignorance, lies, and misperceptions.

I am proudly my own individual and nothing or no one can change me or sway my mind! -miss latoya lawrence 

I Love This Verse!

Isaiah 35:4

Say to those with fearful hearts, “Be strong, and do not fear, for your God is coming to destroy your enemies. He is coming to save you.”

I Just Published A Brand New Book ❤

A few weeks ago I mentioned publishing a manuscript I wrote over twenty years ago?

Well, I did not get to that yet- but I will eventually.

Suddenly energy came out of nowhere to inspire me to come up with new ideas/new material along with the old ones I had regarding novels I intended to put out years ago though I did not get the chance to due to jealous people trying to hold me back (it is a long story but one I triumphed over as no one could ever stop me or bring me down. I am a fighter and a survivor to the end).

I have a brand-new book I just recently published and have been busy currently in the process of writing two more for publication.

This is my time now to get back into my career as a true to the heart book writer without any interference.

Like I said before, when God has a purpose and plan for your life no one can stop it.

We may get delayed for a while but we get back on board to sail an even bigger ship! ❤

I am so happy and excited about getting back into publishing.

Hurt By What Is Supposed To Be Hurtful? Oh No, I Don’t Think So!❤

 

I am a free spirit, unabashed, and uninhibited.

I have come across ignorant, low-level/low-minded people in the past who tried to, intended to, or who thought that they were hurting me with things or circumstances that did not- and that never have fazed or mattered to me.

Even some who do not intentionally set out to hurt still have erroneous notions that what they consider hurtful is generally hurtful to mostly everyone else.

To me, this way of thinking is totally ridiculous as there are far too many people in the world for all of us to feel and/or react the same.

Why do certain people assume, think, or believe that what may hurt or bother them hurts or bothers certain others?

The concept is so strange to me and such a complete turn off.

Some people will mistake other people’s actions or reactions as stemming from hurt when it is completely the opposite simply because their minds cannot fathom other senses of reasoning.

I never thought like the majority, and I never will because I know better just by being true to who I really am.

I do not even get embarrassed by things people consider to be embarrassing. What is there really to be embarrassed about if one has their own unique convictions?

If people are unable to accept life conditions that go against, or that are unusual from what they are familiar with and accustomed to, then they really have something to learn about rare or distinct individuals.

I was never a common person in this society who went along with what is typical and I am proud of this fact.

I genuinely have my own mind, my own thoughts- way of thinking or viewing things, my own beliefs, and my own natural state of being.

I am happy, at peace, and unapologetic for being unconventional and going against the norm.

 

 

When People Are Very Jealous And Intimidated By You

 

What I have observed in the past is that some people do not understand spiritually gifted people.

I cannot speak for all, however, from my experience, spiritually gifted people do not dwell on or worry about things.

We have a heightened sense of awareness that keeps us informed about things going on even if we are not physically present in a situation or are nowhere around when occurrences are taking place. So if things rewind and playback- it is no fault or flaw of ours- it is a natural part of the extra sensory process that helps us to stay vigilant when necessary.

We can be anywhere and pick up on something that is going on somewhere else if we happen to get those vibes.

These vibes stay with us intermittently or steadily depending on the circumstances and nature of the individual and their spiritual radar.

Things that may have transpired within the past that may connect somehow to the present or future may arise as a warning, an enlightenment, or a reminder of something relevant.

A strange vibe that I get and have gotten periodically that proves to be confirmed is those whom for sick reasons of their own resent me for the person I am.

I remember during my early twenties, neighborhood people who knew of me hated the fact that I had nothing that they considered “dirt” on me.

I never understood these people’s low-level mentality.

If I did ever come to have anything that they were to consider dirt that did not mean the instance would be considered dirt to me as far as their warped minds are concerned.

They wanted something they thought they could hold over my head to bring me down to their level or lower.

When they could not do it, they worked witchcraft on me while spreading lies about me, harassing me in effort to give me a mental breakdown of some sort, and from what I heard to stop me from doing the things in life that I wanted to do.

None of them succeeded in their endeavors as my mind could not grasp the idiocy of what they were doing.

I was not affected and kept going on with my life while at the same time constantly aware of everything transpiring around me.

I knew they were not going to win because the darkness cannot overpower the light.

My father -who is trash himself- even had enough sense to admit to me that these people were wasting their time as the street-life is an entirely different life than those of us who are decent and of class, and that their head games and other off the wall nonsense was not going to work on me.

These people were determined and wanted to see my demise bad.

This originated from jealousy in the family many years ago.

None of this was normal.

Though for all this to have taken place, and these people initially coming after me when I was a seven- or eight-year-old child (when witchcraft was first placed upon me by my envious now deceased great-grandmother) I had to be very important.

Whenever an aspect keeps repeating itself in some form- and you are not the one who is entertaining it, there is some significance behind the matter.

What I have learned through my accounts is that I am a threat to certain negative people.

There is something in life that I am meant to fully accomplish only beknown to God.

Maybe part of the mission is sharing my experiences with others who may have experienced these similar things, and who were accused of being paranoid or crazy because of it or what they knew.

So many people have been destroyed, killed, and put in mental institutions because others would not believe or listen to them on account of conspiracies against them by devious, malicious people.

When God has a mission for us the devil will surely use his human minions to try to devour us.

I currently feel the resentment and animosity coming from those disappointed after all these years. I can even feel the unsettling energy from them within my body.

How I was not disturbed or ruined by the dirt that they tried to corrupt upon me.

Nothing turned out the way they planned, and they will all have to suffer consequences and answer to God for their foolishness.

Nobody bothers me at all.

And if a conflict or negativity does arise here or there as life will sometimes normally bring, I never assume or associate it with something from the past. Intuition or empathic vibe will let me know if something current is connected to someone or something from the past.

Life continues to be peaceful and normal as it should be, but there are a lot of evil, unhappy, lost people out there.

God gives us from birth the strong spirit to handle, undergo, and get through whatever it is we must forge ahead to or through.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sexual Harassment 👮‍♀️♀️👮‍♂️♂️🔒

 

Harassment of any nature is not limited to the workplace, of course, it can take place anywhere.

Periodically, at almost every job I ever had we had updated training.

When I worked at Sears Roebuck for four years there was continuous training for us employees to complete electronically as things were constantly changing or advancing.

Even if the subjects and activities within the lessons and testing were just a recoup of what we had already gone over beforehand.

Two weeks ago, I had to do updated training in one of my workplaces regarding sexual harassment- a subject I am very knowledgeable in, and that I have always passed with one hundred percent correctness in answers after testing whether during orientation or training.

This previous occurrence gave me an idea to write about due to the seriousness in nature on jobs where managers are not taking action when they are supposed to. Where managers may side with a perpetrator, or where managers do not take a matter gravely.

Sexual harassment or harassment of any kind should never be tolerated in the workplace.

Do not be afraid, stand up for yourself at all cost and at all means.

A supervisor/manager is supposed to give immediate attention to the employee once harassment is reported. If they do not, and one does not see any results or are not satisfied with an investigation that was carried out then report your case/complaint to The New York City Commission of Human Rights- 718 722 3131.

One can also call or contact The New York Division of Human Rights 888 392 3644.

Personally, I know from my experience when or if anyone tries to harass me in any way I go into kick- their- ass mode.

However, we must think before we instantly or automatically react.

If we do not fight back in a way that is obvious it is not that we are afraid. We just do not want to risk going to jail for assholes who are not worth wasting precious time of our lives over.

Nevertheless, no matter how a negative situation will turn out it is very important to remember that nobody in this life gets away with anything that they do- even if they ignorantly think they have.

It is alright when something is justified, but people get back what is coming to them and God does not let negative deeds/actions go unpaid.

 

 

Preternatural Insight Is Not Paranoia

 

None of us are one hundred percent all the time. We can mistake one thing for another, and so on.

There are times when we are unsure or just do not know. And even when we doubt, we can still be correct in what we may have slightly felt. We can even be wrong in things we strongly feel.

For the most part, aside from logic and reasoning from an ordinary standpoint, my clairvoyant abilities have always been very intuitive and on point. There have been people who have admitted to me or told on themselves unintentionally when I confronted them on matters. Either that or the truth would in time reveal itself to confirm things.

When I write I do not plan. Messages come to me to write themselves as ideas manifest and urge to be put forth for which I know not to question when the drive is strong.

I am a vessel where information transmits- a messenger sort to speak from a spiritual perspective- relaying what needs to be said and heard for whatever purpose relayed unto me as one who knows firsthand.

Extra Sensory Perception is a legitimate gift/faculty that some of us have and are born with.

It may be something that everyone cannot talk about with everybody due to misunderstandings and diversity in beliefs, yet it makes the instance no less of a real occurrence and the gift is nothing to be ashamed of or hidden.

Extra Sensory Perception can save one’s life.

One thing about us people who are in-tune is that we are keenly perceptive at picking up on the slightest things that others may not notice or spot as significant.

Oftentimes, or at times when we are on to things or on to someone with evil intentions, schemes, or motives- those who know they have been discovered or those who are naive to the areas of paranormal ability and how it naturally works within the nature of energy, vision, and vibration, will try to cover up their actions or justify their ignorance by calling one paranoid. It is the oldest trick in the book.

We may falsely get accused of saying or thinking that everyone is against us when that notion is totally absurd.

How could, and why would everyone be against us? Everyone does not know us or even care to be against us.

We know who and what to pinpoint and why and if we are not sure we are specific until we later get clarification.

There will always be people in life at times that we may possibly encounter either through feelings of jealousy, revenge, conflict, pettiness, ignorance, or animosity or whatever ignites incentive within them depending on the circumstance and their disposition who will come up against us in some form or fashion.

The devil exists and he uses people as well as principalities.

The only difference is that not everyone is always aware of what is going on in the situation, the depth of what may go on, or to what extent, the reason behind it, or the measures involved.

We are given these extra sensory abilities which are an extraordinary extended form of intuition, discernment, and second sight as a protection and awareness throughout life to heed, learn from, and grow on the path of our journey.

I would not have had the faith I have today without it due to the many encounters of account from early life experiences to the present.

It has been a constant occurrence- an irrevocable part of one’s make up given by God as an example of his power manifest unto the universe linked in connection to those who are endowed.

This does not mean everyone with the ability is up to good or is good-natured. It just means they have a supernatural attribute that testifies to the powers that exist and that are in effect in this physical world.

And whether a person is good-natured or negative-natured with the ability to see into the unseen does not foreshow their gifts of perception into events as paranoia.

 

I Do Not Want To Be What The World Considers Normal❤

 

I have been told directly when I was a teenager and during my adulthood that I was not “normal” by three people because I am very unique.

Some meant those words as an acknowledgement to me that I was uncommon to them as others have used the term toward me as an insult.

But what these few who said this to me, whether it was a harmless mention or one to intentionally hurt, did not realize is that their words were a huge compliment to me.

It made me feel good to not be categorized as being the same.

No one can drown out my voice or my existence. Though, I have always detested the existence of those who I feel should not exist.

I am one who could never conform to the so-called norm of what is considered normal- to do as others do and to think as others do.

To accept and adhere to the approved dominant set of principles, rules, or standards within the characteristics and behavior carried out by most of society.

It was never my inborn tendency to behave according to socially accepted conventions or typicality.

I often rejected, and refused to comply or go along with what went against my nature or way of thinking, being, and doing due to my unconventionality.

I prefer my original, unusual, different, so-called strange to some, out of the ordinary, original, new-fashioned disposition- because it is the real me.

I never had the desire to join in- that is why I always stood out.

I hated whenever people tried to manipulate or coerce me by subtle means trying to use psychology, head games, or their way of reasoning to undermine, challenge, or change my attitude and ways through passing unfavorable judgment upon me, downplaying me, turning against me, or underestimating me.

These actions never caused self-doubt or fear within me to surrender to just be accepted.

Oftentimes it infuriated me or caused me to pleasantly distance myself from those kinds of individuals.

My resistance has caused in many instances among those who were in opposition or who were incongruent, great friction between us.

This is why I am a leader and not a follower because I never went along with society because it was the thing to do or else, I would be an outcast or labeled or considered crazy.

I refused to be what I was not to please others and lie to myself just to get by.

I have received backlash or so-called consequences for doing things my way that others did not understand or interpreted their way as they could see no other way due to their own social conditioning and/or lack of awareness or knowledge in diversity.

Yet, all the occurrences did was make me more determined to maintain my identity and to continue to be who I am.

If anyone is to criticize me, laugh at me, call or consider me insane for sticking to my guns, then so be it.

Nothing can deter me from loving the person within me.

To me, certain others are the crazy ones.

I could just as easily criticize and laugh at them for seeing things in my own way. The way I feel is everyone has the right to be who they are and live out their life accustomed to how they are as long as they do not impose their ways on me and try to make my life difficult on account of their indifference.

I never cared or tried to force my ways on anyone but others failed to treat me in the same. Some people have a problem with control and some cannot deal with what is foreign to what they know and have been taught.

Something unheard of or unorthodox can be disturbing to them.

I am resilient within my natural purpose.

There are times, places, and situations whereas we as people do not necessarily relate to or agree with things, but we may compromise or make allowances. This is vital in life as we must conform when it is contingent upon circumstances.

Of course, there must be order and harmony within living together to humanely survive here on the earth.

However, when it comes to personal identity, I will not budge for anyone.

If more people were allowed to truly be themselves and fresh ideas were contrived in dealing with problems or situations instead of the same predictable methods that I find tiring, annoying, and of no use or affect as one who these measures does not reflect upon accordance with.

This indeed is a sick society.

A lot of what is considered normal among many is what really is abnormal, but it is accepted because abnormal in relation to normal is what is normal to them.

I am so glad to not be normal.

I choose to be a healthy individual who is not a puppet of this world. latoya lawrence 

 

Kill Them With Kindness Or Kill Them With Truth?

 

Kindness And Truth Kills Them

Some people take kindness for weakness, thinking that they can take advantage of you.

A lady at work (at one of the places I am employed at) who wanted me to do duty on the side for her as she paid me directly in cash found out different.

She expected to use me and my time for her convenience and thought handing out money would reel me in.

I do not know where some people come from and what is going on in their minds.

I stayed quiet to let her run her mouth and set up plans so she could think she was controlling the situation while the entire time I was the one who was running the show. Now she has received a harsh blow.

I put my foot down.

My supervisor told me to tell the lady I had an additional job scheduled to prevent the lady from further acquiring my service.

However, I am not the type to lie for convenience unless it is necessary.

People lie so much in their daily lives or routine that it becomes second nature to them thinking that lies are the only way to go or to get what they want- and that may be true for those used to deception, but I prefer honesty over cowardice.

I told this conniving woman “No” more than once and told my supervisor again about the situation as the lady phoned me up today asking if I would mind working on the side for her two days this week.

I told the woman nonchalantly “No, I don’t want to”.

My supervisor said she would call the woman and speak with her as I firmly stated that I am there to do my assigned shifts and that is it!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Finally Closed Chapter

Everything is not always mere coincidence. Certain things in life happen for a reason🦢

Born With Second-Sight/Extra Sensory Perception

There was no mistake at me getting hired by and working for Amazon in 2021.

I knew in hindsight that the relatively short ten months spent there I was never meant to stay. It was just another steppingstone for me to step upon and to pass through.

It was not a mistake that I encountered and met Michael Gonzalez either.

People like him want or expect people like me to be lower than what we are.

When we do not display preconceived notions of how or what they feel we should be they prefer to view us as thinking that we are better than we are, that we are purely riding on ego by having an exaggerated opinion of ourselves and/or capabilities.

I know how some people of this type of nature think, feel, and respond when it comes to people like us who are on a higher vibration, wavelength/level…

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Bold And Proud With No Apologies 🦢

 

I have no regrets in my life.

I am proud of the child that I once was, the teenager I used to be, and of the woman who I am now.

I am thankful and grateful for the divine guidance and protection that reigns over me.

God has never let or allowed negative people to win over me in any circumstance.

When I look into the past I remember that since I was a little girl all throughout my life whenever people had tried or partook in doing dirt against me they have always failed no matter how many things they did, lies they told, or delusion they upheld through their facades and false perception of projection they tried to reflect upon my life.

God has taught me, and from a young age, instilled in me during my journey- an insight, strength and confidence.

A living example of what he assembles no one can disassemble. It is also an inspiration to others of what is possible when others say what is not possible.

It upsets negative people when what would hurt or bother them does not hurt, bother, or affect you mentally or emotionally. They do not have the capacity or knowledge of higher consciousness within the spirit to know better. It is a level that they will never attain.

Whenever negative people went to strike their arrows, it was nothing to me. Idiocy can sometimes be annoying, but it is of no faze.

There are a lot of no-good people in the world. When God has a special purpose for us others can see that light, though, they might not discern what that light is. The devil comes for us the strongest, yet he has no power over us!

As I observe the present everything is running smoothly.

Of course, we all have the usual kinks that life throws at us here and there that eventually get untangled- but it is because of the fallen world that we live in and to keep us knowing that we can depend on God to see us through and to keep us thriving.

I love and appreciate the positive powerful energy around me.♥️

If Something Is Meant For You Nothing Can Stop It❤

 

I know that everyone has different viewpoints, but as far as I am concerned, no one can destroy you unless you allow them to.

I could never imagine to give anyone the power to.

And no matter how hard others try, no one can block your blessings in life or what God has in store for you- and that is a fact!

 

A Lot Of Black People Are A Serious Problem In Life

 

A lot of people do not want to hear or accept the truth, but I am one who will speak my truth regardless.

When I worked a twelve-hour overnight shift this past Thursday at a medical rehabilitation facility, I got into a friendly discussion with a 75-year-old Polish man who happened to have lived in areas of the town I was born and raised in many years ago.

We reminisced about things then had gotten on the subject of black people who occupied residence in the area at the time and how most of them were low scale.

The neighborhood I grew up in was once an all-white neighborhood the people started to move out of the area when black people began to move in the area back then. The neighborhood was a beautiful place to live at one time.

I had heard and understood that story when my mother told it to me and other people I ran into acknowledged it.

There is prejudice among people who do not like people of certain races and ethnicities and there is a very good reason.

All black people are not bad, but most are not worth anything and this is coming from an African American female of mixed parentage/heritage.

I was not the average type of black girl/person growing up I spoke articulate and properly, I was very bright, and I did not hold the ignorant mentality that most black people had.

Just because a lot of white people do not like black people does not at all mean that they are racist. Some of them are but not all of them.

There is good and bad in every race or ethnicity, but a lot of black people do tend to be the worst.

I am black and have hated black people for the same reasons other races do. A lot of black people are a turn off- the way they look, act, think, talk. The way they present themselves, their mannerisms are off-putting.

I had problems with a lot of black people growing up because I was not one of them, I was not anything like them.

Black people are jealous of other blacks who are a better quality than they are and they try to pull them down to destroy them.

There are smart black people but rarely are they as bright as white people unless they are mixed with another bloodline. I have heard my mother who is black (with mixed parentage also) state this as well as a white person- but this fact was an obvious one to me.

Of course, I have experienced people who automatically judged me due to my brown skin but once they had gotten to know me it was a different story. It was not me personally, but the negative perception blacks have made on society.

In my life, with most people, it had always been predominantly white people and people of other races who accepted me and treated me kindly in life wanting to see me succeed.

All my life it has been black people who were extremely jealous of me and other blacks of my caliber. They have set out to tarnish our images, ruin our reputation with lies, and hamper our destiny in the most underhanded ways but because I never held their mindset, way of thinking, or essence their actions were in vain- a total waste of time- even if their severely deficient minds will never be able to grasp this reasoning.

Low-scale blacks as well as low-scale people in general like to bring people down to their level or lower.

They try to bring people down to their level because they cannot rise to our higher level of intellect, ability, character, or spiritual consciousness.

As far as I am concerned one of the only reasons Barack Obama was originally elected president is because he was biracial and because a lot of people (mostly men) did not want Hillary Clinton or a woman as president of the United States.

I am not at all insinuating that Barack was not qualified to be president, but even I would not have wanted an average black man in office.

I could be wrong but I think Michelle Obama would have had a good chance to become the first black woman president if she had wanted or decided to run.

Anyhow, for the most part, many black people are undesirable.

A lot of whites do not care when blacks kill one another because they feel they are helping to eliminate their own problem.

I just feel that it is the wrong blacks that end up dying and being killed by the hands of degenerates sometimes.

The ones that need to die are still walking around. They keep having children that should never have been born while there are good, valuable people who are unable to conceive children.

Trash people shoot out kids like crazy and they populate the earth unnecessarily with their undesirable offspring.

I could never stand living around a bunch of black people, going to school with them, or working in an environment with them. They completely turn me off. I only like certain type of blacks.

I have currently lived in a mixed neighborhood  for eleven years now with Caucasians, Korean/Chinese/Japanese and others of Spanish descent. There are not too many black people in comparison- and the energy is wonderful.

 

Feeling Other People’s Energy: Knowing When We Are In Their Thoughts

 

We are all made up of a life force. As a result, many of us are sensitive to other people’s energy waves.  

Just as we can receive information through dreams and visions the universe also transfers awareness through spiritual communication within consciousness processed into the subconscious of connection to the universe. 

Some people do not speak about things or constantly go on about things because they worry about what others may think.

I am one who never cared or feared what anyone thought. I have always been outspoken. If certain people are narrow-minded or ignorant as to what inspires or motivated me that is on them- not on me.

I know myself; I know who I am and the spirit within me will speak as it pleases through what is significant to life situations.

I do not have a problem speaking for myself or on behalf of certain others.

One of my strongest abilities has been one of an empathic being able to know/feel the energy within the universe and from people who surround me or who are around at a distance no matter how far away they are.

As a woman born with this gift, I include to pick up on men’s feelings toward me.

As women in general we cannot stop men from being attracted or interested in us.

For empathic people there is no avoiding the aspect of energy that is pointed within our direction.

When a person is thinking about us, and we are in their thoughts we can pick up on their thoughts within our minds because they are thinking about us.

This energy is transferred to us consciously and unconsciously from the other person or people.

Everyone or most are unaware that we are cognizant of their thoughts/feelings/emotions/energies etc….

We gather information from their thoughts day in and day out depending on the level of intensity or consistency of the person who exudes the energy.

It is important for us to not ignore our intuition because there is a reason why we feel their energy as time will later tell if all is not immediately or presently divulged to us at first.

Their feelings are not our feelings.

Just because we can feel that someone likes us in no way indicates that we are liking or interested in them as some who are not informed about clairsentience may misinterpret in the case of a romantic or sexual attraction from the other person just because we tend to discuss it or complain about it.

There are incidents where feelings are mutual and some may share a connection, but just because people are somehow spiritually connected does not mean their feelings are mutual.

What I have noticed is that men that I do not like and who I am repulsed by have often come into my thoughts within the past.

I would feel them constantly until their feelings for me eventually waned.

There were a few guys whose energy I had to deal with for years until they finally gave up.

These two knew that I had a gift and purposely would communicate with me telepathically. There were spiritual experiences between us all that were backed up and confirmed years ago before they left me alone.

The more I feel men’s energy who I do not like the more I get repulsed by them.

Some people tell me I should be flattered, but why?

Why do the guys who turn me off the most do not understand that I do not want them?

No matter how much they may lie or deny their feelings for me, if I do not reciprocate, I still know the truth.

Even when they admit to their feelings, they still do not want to accept that I will never like or desire them.

They sometimes act as if I am supposed to want them.

When men come into my thoughts most of the time it is a warning to beware of them and to alert me to the type of men they are. And this is a good form of confirmation as these are guys that I would not have ordinarily given the time of day anyhow.

For all my life, informative energy has come to me in my thoughts, whether it was to impart knowledge of life lesson facts- people, situations, or things.  

However, I really hate and do not understand why I must be annoyed by the energy of men that I despise.  

The occurrence can linger for long periods of time as they are occupied by their own thoughts or feelings towards me.  

I appreciate the awareness to take heed to when they direct any sort of negativity toward me, but when they like me, I do not like to “feel” it. 

Nevertheless, it is just part of a supernatural gift that I must live with. 

latoya lawrence 

 

 

When Envy And Jealousy Reign

 

Jealousy is a very ugly thing.

Haters do not want to hear good things about you. They do not want you to succeed.

They want you to believe the lies they implant because they do not want to acknowledge the truths that radiate in you.

They want to cause doubt in you, they want to downplay the talent and ability within you.

They try to take away from you to give to themselves.

They want to knock you down to build themselves up.

They want the credit for what you deserve that they did not honestly earn.

Do they ever learn?

Haters hate themselves. They feel inadequate and resentful because you possess what they believe they are entitled to have, and that makes them feel small.

It eats them up how you were created to stand tall.

When you do not fall, they wonder why.

If they were in your shoes the treachery in attempts would have made them cry.

You do not need to prove to anyone what you know you already have- so go ahead and laugh.

There is nothing they can do to eliminate the shining light inside of you.

Continue to do what you do.

No matter what they endeavor to do. They will never be able to authenticate their version to resemble you.latoya lawrence 

 

 

 

 

Michael Is Mad Because I Never Been Dogged Out By A Man🙀😂😹😁😸

 

 

Asshole still will not move on. He is such a pathetic piece of trash/shit.

And while there are women out there who are indeed whores sex is not a tool or action that can be used against a woman to determine her worth or lower her value.

As he is only able to obtain skanks and shack up with his main skank do not get mad at me for loving myself and having high standards.

Asshole needs to give up with his tired black magic attempts at trying to take away my confidence, strength and dignity as he cannot defeat me. If anything, I am the one who can destroy him spiritually.

This Latin nigger is funny. He think he can drive me crazy with burning candles and shit.

He is very lucky I do not call upon my Orishas anymore. Elegba, Ogun, Orunmila, Oshun and Ochosi would have destroyed his ass!

Asshole did not know I was born with the power of a priestess.

I leave everything to God. Give people enough rope they eventually hang themselves.

Why do I attract some of the most ill fuckers who should have known beforehand that they never stood a chance with me?

They could have saved themselves the wasted effort and self-humiliation of being exposed by one who can literally “read” them.

Voodoo/Black Magic/Witchcraft Does Not Work On Me! The Negativity Does Not Take Affect! My Mind Cannot Be Influenced Or Manipulated By Bullshit. Get That Through Your Fucking Head- Retard!

I have never been hurt mentally or emotionally by any man and I never will be.

To me, a man is nothing to get hurt over.

I am not and never have been the type of girl/lady/woman/female that a man could use or take advantage of I was not wired that way.

I was never weak, docile or naive when it came to men.

I was born with that extra sensory perception, strong spirit of discernment and unconventional individuality that made me unique in my own way.

Of course, anyone can lie and make up stories to tarnish or downgrade someone’s reputation, but no one can ruin anyone unless they allow them to.

Women who share my likeness know when a man means absolutely nothing to her that their petty words and tall tales will not do shit to disturb or affect her.

A reputation is only what people think or believe one to be- character is what truly defines one.

There were and are negative people with a low-mindset- till this day- still jealous of me because I have never been dogged out by any man.

If I were to have had sex with anyone it would have been on my terms and not because of any smooth talk or whatever “game” a man thought he had to use to pull or play a woman.

Like I have said many times before there are women who use men just like some of them use women- they just use one another with no attachment or feelings involved.

There are women who use men for sperm, and it is not about the sex. I know personally a man could never do anything for me sexually.

Unfortunately, sex is the only way to make a baby unless one has the thousands of dollars it takes to go through numerous procedures of invitro fertilization.

A woman does not need a man for sexual pleasure. Women have clitorises they can stimulate and climax with. The instance is perfectly normal and healthy for them to self-explore and know their body.

Of course, every man is not out to hurt, use, deceive, or disgrace a woman when she does not cater to his ego.

There are good, mature, men out there with sense who do not even entertain or possess these certain mindsets/attitudes.

A lot of narcissistic men have deep-rooted psychological and insecurity issues.

Many of them are the way they are on account of their mothers fucking their heads up in the process while they were being raised.

Some of them were not correctly informed by mommy about the diversity within life or some of them were spoiled by mommy in a bad way.

Mommy enabled them and boosted them up in an unrealistic fashion that when they enter the real world to encounter women of substance they cannot cope with the reality.

In other circumstances mommy did not give some of them the love and attention they needed.

 

 

Living Out One’s Truth: A Healthy Form Of Contentment

 

In a world where impressions matter to many, truths are what truly mattered to me.

Not projecting a facade of what is acceptable for the sake of being accepted.

I found it impossible for me to put on a disguise as I am not one to be a people pleaser.

There is a time for courtesy, professionalism, diplomacy, and respecting certain boundaries as well as a time when to justifiably cross them.

It is so important to live out one’s truth even if that genuineness and loyalty to self within self-preservation according to one’s own distinct nature causes a reproach within others due to what goes beyond their own comprehension and/or level of discernment.

I have been lied upon, misunderstood, judged for things I have never done, criticized for not being able to be controlled by others, and I have been the object of other people’s vicious gossip, envy and jealousy just like many other people of substance in life have.

All other people’s negativity did was cause me to become further resilient and despise and look down upon these individuals more than I already had beforehand.

As one who is extremely stubborn no one can make me do anything I do not want to do, and no one can stop me from doing anything that I want to do.

I have noticed an innate force within me that refused to allow me to be deterred from possessing the essential liberty that is instilled within me to express and prevail.

I was naturally inspired to continue to move forward unaffected.

Permitting others, the opportunity to dictate or restrict one’s path and future out of fear/intimidation or discouragement only prevents one’s celestial discovery, steady growth, and ultimate evolution.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We Are Not A Reflection Of What Others Reflect

 

There are people who often recognize or acknowledge some of us for who they want us to be instead of who we really are.

They form judgements or have preconceived notions based on generalized perceptions of what they believe we represent through our perceived lifestyle, words, or manner of bearing in which we conduct ourselves.

Some conclusions that others draw may be accurate, partially accurate or just plain wrong altogether.

One cannot be genuinely defined according to conjecture, hearsay, rumor, false assumption or a standard of what one is familiar with and/or accustomed to.

So many factors, shape, make up and contribute to diverse individuals and their behavior.

As soon as one behaves or responds contrary to another person’s sense of belief or reasoning, they may become shocked, disappointed, or even critical toward the other person.

This instance is not an illustration that the people or person in question necessarily did something wrong or acted out of character. It is an example of others whose expectation or notion of what they built up within their own way of thinking projecting upon the surface.

I experienced a long time ago (from my childhood on up) how people would put their own insecurities, ignorance, and negativity onto me and others who they differed from or were jealous towards.

I without a doubt knew that their judgment or lack thereof did not coincide with reality.

Their actions and behavior reflected themselves, who they truly were, and had absolutely nothing to do with me!

 

 

Poison Penises And Vicious Vaginas

 

When people think of assault or murder it is usually through the methods of stabbing, shooting, strangling, knocking one out through blunt force trauma, substance/chemical poisoning, and so on.

But voodoo/black magic/witchcraft by tampering to influence or harm people, and the intentional sexual pollutants of bodily fluids are also disgusting forms of crime inflicted on other individuals.

HIV/AIDS has come a long way since originally hitting the scene to become widely known from the late seventies to the early eighties.

There are advanced anti-viral drugs on the market to lower viral load to the point of it almost becoming undetectable or non-detectable considering intercourse with an infected person to be so-called safe sex.

There are plenty of other diseases out there that are transmitted through sexual contact and some venereal diseases that can be caught without having sexual contact with anyone at all.

The problem is not with the diseases themselves but with scandalous people who know they are infected with disease and knowingly pass them on to others freely without any concern or decency.

Some people will intentionally spread their infections out of bitterness with the attitude of “I am dying so I will take others with me”.

People have different reactions and motives for why they do things.

Some just do not care.

Some think if they spread their disease to a person or people that they give the disease to these people will have to stay with them or within their sexual circle (which fittingly does not always transpire).

Some just want others to be in their shoes so that they do not feel alone or awkward within their situation, making the circumstance less uncomfortable within their bearings.

All I can say is that this is a wild dangerous world with a lot of highly disturbed, treacherous, ruthless and just plain immoral people.

There are also plenty of highly upstanding, good-natured, trustworthy and humane people out there in our world.

If people with sense continue to love and respect themselves and be cautious to thoroughly detect who or what they let into their bodies just as one would with any stranger or foreign object that they would let into their home.

Do not let anyone enter without the proper “checks”. Do not let them check in if they do not correctly check out!

 

 

 

Love Spell? Oh No, I Don’t Think So!

 

I am not going to mention any names but he knows who he is.

Since around Sunday on February 5, 2023 I noticed a few love/attraction/ lust spells tried to be worked upon me.

It began with acknowledgement of the man lusting after me -sexually desiring me- with the attempt to also get me to have a sexual as well as physical attraction to this guy.

Then I began to receive messages that this guy likes me very much.

In the days following, the essence of the love spell relayed to me the other feelings that are intended to sway me.

The motive is to have me like, care for, and possibly fall in love with this guy so I will be drawn to him.

I guess he thinks if he can make me feel this way that I will jump into bed with him.

He thinks that if I have sex with him because of the love spell then walk away from me afterwards that I will somehow be hurt emotionally.

This would be his way of retaliating against me for rejecting him by using an “unnatural” method (love-magic/witchcraft).

I understand that he or his ego may be hurt but witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not and never has worked on me mentally or emotionally I am far too strong for that.

I am sensitive to energy so I can pick up on the essence and the intent.

I do not understand why some guys have the mentality that they can hurt women by using them for sex.

Every woman is not the same and they do not hold the mentality of being disgraced by negative men who try to humiliate and degrade them in that manner.

There are women who use men for sex too and do not care.

He probably believes in his ignorant mind that I would be hurt the most because I am not the type who goes to bed with anyone at all. So, if he sleeps with me by doing witchcraft then talks badly about me with lies and whatever other stupid games he would be avenged.

He is sick in my opinion.

Love spells should not be done at all- but if they are done- at least people should do them with good/honest intentions instead of selfish ones that intend to hurt others just to have one’s way with them.

Aside from all that, witchcraft/black magic/voodoo is real even if certain people do not believe that it works.

The supernatural instance does not affect everyone but a lot of people do become under the influence of it. If witchcraft/black magic/voodoo does not work on a person mentally, emotionally or physically it can work on them spiritually or materially- through finances and other means.

No matter what, God is always stronger than the devil that is why I am continuously kept aware. I am so grateful and thankful to the Lord for looking out and keeping me protected.

I remember years ago another guy worked a love spell on me to try to get me to love, marry him, and have babies with him.

I do not like people who do these things with ulterior motives to suit themselves, especially against another person’s will.

Why want someone who does not want you back? There is a world full of people on the planet.

What is important is that for people who are interested in relationships to find one’s who are best suited for them.

Right now, with the current guy, I find this action of his kind of exciting as I wonder how much further he will go. I even have a smile on my face at this love spell.

I am a fierce spiritual warrior and I am ready for the battle that God will take care of!

 

 

 

 

A Job Does Not Define One’s Worth

 

I was told twice yesterday by a mature (ninety-five year old) woman of experience that because of the way I look physically, and the way that I carry myself, I should be in movies.

This is not the first time I have been told these words and similar ones alike.

As a teen and young adult, some people would ask me if I was a model and would tell me that I could be one.

Another person told me they saw me as a movie actress type who was supposed to be writing screenplays.

Aside from other things, I could have been a lawyer or a psychologist if I had really wanted and chose to. I have both the smarts and the mindset.

The fact is, I never wanted a life in Hollywood to be broadcast on television, or to be photographed for magazines walking down the runway.

I never had the desire to be a legal representative or mental health specialist either.

Though many of us are qualified or can do or become professionals in more than one area, it does not mean this is a preferred career or path to seek.

Jobs and job labels do not define us as individuals.

Even though there are narrow-minded misinformed people who believe the higher the title or higher the income, the higher the stature.

Someone who does not have a job or who has a job that is considered low rank in comparison to high-level/high-profile jobs can have far more integrity, intelligence, ability than the one touting their so-called credentials.

They may have just not gotten the right opportunity, could have fallen into hard times, did not believe enough within themselves or did not have any support.

There are several reasons and factors for why those who could achieve great heights do not.

A lot of people who are in positions of power or who hold positions that are praised within society are not as adequate as they think they are or would like to believe.

Many of them are nothing but shit! They are as common as they come- there is nothing special about their existence.

Novel within character and mindset unlike the ordinary are what define true standing within its authenticity.

 

 

 

A Guy I Will Never Want Or Desire

Michael Gonzalez and his funky armpits.

 

I am a very honest, straightforward person. If I say or write something it is because it is the truth, what I really think or believe, or suspect is possible.

Never do I or have I ever intentionally expressed anything under false pretense.

Some people may not understand what I mean or where I come from at times- depending on who it is- because I am a very deep, intelligent, and spiritual awake person.

Nevertheless, I speak my mind and am led by spirit to fulfill my purposes. I do know what I am talking about when I speak on things.

I am a forty-seven-year-old female who often gets mistaken for someone in her twenties or thirties. I have never really looked my age in body or in the face.

I even have a young sounding voice when I speak.

I have attracted men of all ages- young and old within the past.

When I was in my thirties eighteen-year-old guys were attracted to me, when I was in my twenties forty and fifty-year-old men were attracted to me.

It never made a difference. To each his or her own I never received any personal gratification from this attention I never wanted it.

Some men found me to be a challenge that they wanted to conquer. Some men just genuinely wanted to be with me because they liked me for my mind, and I was not like the average female once they got to know me a little.

I never placed value on myself based on whether a man approved or desired me. I have never suffered from low self-esteem and have never needed anyone to validate me or to build my assurance.

Self- confidence, self-love, and self-worth are things produced within me. No one gave it to me, and no one can take it away. Everyone should feel this way.

I have no interest in romantic relationships, I am asexual and proud.

Now I want to discuss this issue about Michael Gonzalez because I am being led to by spirit.

As I am a highly spiritually inclined individual I feel and keenly discern people’s energy.

Whenever a man, especially men who are of a negative disposition are attracted, or interested in me- I can feel them, their thoughts, and I can accurately sense things in relation to them in a timely frame.

Michael is an ex-coworker of mine who had, and who still has a “crush” on me. It is nothing serious, but it is annoying.

From the first moment I laid eyes on Michael, I did not find him to be attractive.

He is not a cute guy, and he is not handsome as far as I am concerned. A friend of mine had saw a photo of him and said that he was not attractive to her also but that he seems to think that he is something. Maybe there are low-scale females who find him attractive, however, I do not and never will.

I was very insulted when Michael reflected his insecurities onto me while we worked together by entertaining the ridiculous idea that I could be attracted or interested in him.

I told Michael to his face that I could not stand him, but his inflated ego did not want to believe or accept it even though deep down inside he knew it was the truth.

He even profiled in front of me one day on the job by trying to show off his body that was not appealing to me whatsoever. He got down onto the floor to demonstrate push-ups. The incident turned me off.

The more I had got to know Michael the more I disliked him.

When some men try to impress women, push themselves on them, or try to flaunt themselves when they mistakenly assume that the female likes them, they do not realize how much they make a fool of themselves. It is very off-putting.

When I was younger there were guys (usually low-scale guys because guys of substance do not behave in this manner) who would get angry at me for not wanting them and in return tell lies about me.

There were three who were a problem.

Two lied and said I was involved with them and all three wanted people to believe that I slept with them or had feelings for them- all to make themselves appear big in the eyes of their peers. And, to also try to bring me down since I thought too highly of myself to desire or to be with anyone like them.

Neither one of these guys were desirable they were used to low-scale women such as themselves falling all over them and making a fuss over them due to their own bouts of low self-esteem.

Someone like me, who was of substance and class, added an extra blow to the bruise they received to their egos when they got hurt and rejected by me.

Of course, their efforts did not work so they joined in with the effort to work Brujeria (Black magic/Santeria) on me to try to make me look bad within the public eye, however, I was still too strong, and I successfully defeated all of them at their own game. On top of it, karma came back and destroyed all three of them. One even ended up dead years ago from his negative lifestyle.

No one can bring me down as I never cared what anybody said or thought about me.

I did not have time for that type of bullshit then, and I do not tolerate it now.

Michael is not at all drastic to that extreme his nonsense is mild in comparison, yet still an act of ridiculous nonsense.

With all the serious things going on in the world Michael is hung up on the fact that he cannot attain me.

He would rather believe that I really do have feelings for him and am just fighting it, or that I am playing hard to get, or whatever other delusional bullshit that men feed themselves instead of facing the truth over dealing with reality.

Michael needs to forget about me and realize that a woman of my level and caliber would never be interested or attracted to him.

Michael has a lot of negative energy. He has a very low vibration.

I am a positive person I exude from a very high vibration.

What I also believe is a part of Michael’s insecurities stem from his background of being morbidly obese.

Maybe after he lost weight, he feels he needs something to prove and is overcompensating.

He needs women to be interested or attracted to him to feel like a big man. I just wish he would find some other female to win over to measure or to prove his false sense of pride.

The other women he has been with are easy tramps. He feels if he can get me then he can get anybody. I should in a way take this instance as a compliment, but I am not flattered by it, I am disgusted.

To me, Michael will always be a small, unworthy, pretentious smelly fish swimming in a dirty pond.

I am not trying to be mean I just do not understand the sickness behind and within certain men and women (because there are deceitful, trouble-making women too) who cannot deal with rejection.

A healthy-minded person does not occupy themself with stupid shit like this.

 

I Am In A Relationship That Will Last Forever

 

I grew up in a home where God was strongly acknowledged.

I was raised by a mother who always believed in God. She grew up attending church as a child and had a love for God.

My mother’s side of the family were strong believers in God. They maintained faith and included God within their lives.

It was not about religion, but having a relationship with God.

My mother introduced me to God at an early age. From the start, everything came naturally. I readily believed and knew God and his story was real, yet I did not fully understand everything as I was still very young.

I was very spiritual, so I already had a connection to God. Certain members of my family were innately spiritual with gifts of the spirit.

There was a time I was consistently angry at God. I was frustrated at circumstances that were not my doing but done unto me and my mother during childhood on up by jealous/envious undesirables and etc….

In addition to other particular unsavory situations in life, I doubted God’s character and felt I could not trust him even though I had seen him do incredible, wonderful things in my life. I never doubted what God could do, but I doubted his goodness and motives/intentions.

God never punished or stopped blessing me when I kept my distance from him. My positive lifestyle did not change, but my attitude toward God and who I wanted to follow did for a while.

Instead of showing anger toward me, God approached me with gentleness and understanding of my misunderstanding of him.

God invited me to come to know him in a deeper and more transparent way than before.

He wanted me to know the real him, not through those who profess him only to show something different, not by misinterpretation- but through my past experiences of faith and what he has done for me and my family before.

By what he has done for me in the present. By what his word says and how his word acts and directs within my life.

God is walking with me every step of the way on my journey here as he promised and will take his time continuing to guide and provide with his ultimate divinity.

 

Twisted And Ignorant People: My Spirituality Is Too Strong

 

 

I do not write for the hell of it. Yes,  writing is one of my natural talents, my passion. I write because I love to do it, but it is the Holy Spirit that inspires and moves me to do so. Divine energy is the driving force.

About a week or two ago, it came to me that I was “Vindicated” in the Amazon situation.

It has to be about Amazon in some form or fashion because nothing else was going on for it to be about anything else.

The truth must have totally came out- although if it had not, that still would not have made me any less justified. 
 
It does not really matter what people think or believe; it only matters what God knows. He is the only one who holds the keys to our true destiny. 
 
I appreciate that the Lord let the truth prevail as he always does sooner or later, but we do not need others to validate what we know for a fact. 
 
Michael Gonzalez comes to my blog primarily every Friday now instead of everyday or every other day like he used to. He has been doing this for three or four weeks now. He is still unable to move on. I have that affect on assholes 😹😂.

Sometimes Michael and others try to get slick and disguise themselves through that iCloud Private Relay shit that they think is completely anonymous. In fact, Michael came to my blog last night. 
 
These people feed off negativity. They wish they could find dirt on me. However, there is none. 
 
They keep viewing my posts about the caul, voodoo, and spiritual gifts. If they are looking for a way to attack me spiritually- they had better think again! 
 
You see, I will always be ahead of people like them. I have dreams, I see visions, I get premonitions etc….

Of course, I do not reveal everything that I know and see. I was not born yesterday. I have been on this earth for forty-seven years; I have been gifted with extra sensory perception for all of my life.

When I was a child, I was not ordinary, I was extremely aware. A gift can save our lives as I could share many stories from now into the past.

But God gifted me for a reason, as he did certain others, and no one can stop his purpose for us. It is up to us in particular whether we use our spiritual gifts for good or evil.

I am African American and Native American, so I have extra power within the bloodline. My African ancestry as well as my American Indian Cherokee and Blackfoot are deeply inherent in spirituality. 
 
So, they can dig their own graves. 

 

 

 

A Lady Of Her Own Style

 

I am not into all of that name-brand shit as a trend- I had all of those things growing up.

As long as I am clean, my clothes are of quality, and of the taste I prefer I am completely satisfied.

My mother kept me pristine as a child and kept me decked out as I was her little baby girl.

When I rode the school bus a few girls were jealous of the fancy gear my mother had sent me off in and they made it known by their envious talk.

I was just an innocent kid wearing clothes that my loving parent bought for me- but I learned early about the green-eyed monster.

I was always attracted to beauty. I had my own sense of style, an eye for what looked good.

I could pick out stylish home decor along with everything else that had sparked an interest within me. Whatever it was it would be elegant.

I had a knack for great judgment!

When it came to the summer, I liked to wear designer shorts/capris, skirts and jumper-skirts.

I became very conservatively appareled into adulthood. I was naturally comfortable and classy. I had my own fashionable style but nowhere near old-fashioned.

I was never a high-heeled, flashy dresses-wearing girl.

I liked my slacks, jeans, t-shirts or button-down shirts.

I was never too crazy about clothes during my teenage years and as I got older, yet I always dressed nicely.

I am not, nor was I ever, a materialistic person though I had wonderful material things throughout the years since my childhood.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Leaving Amazon Was A Blessing

Daily Living, By Miss LaToya

I left Amazon on July 19, 2022. I began work at another job a week after.

The month of August proved a better livelihood into the future.

There was no depth to or any future working at Amazon.

The position I had as a locker Hub associate was a bit fun yet there was really no substance to the role.

Aside from the job not offering any compliment to my abilities whereas I could be challenged and grow, there was no opportunity to significantly advance.

In addition, there was no guarantee of a steady concurrent schedule or any schedule at all if one was not able to successfully compete with other employees on the App Amazon had set up for workers to be on to arrange their own timetable at a designated time every weekday.

Another drawback was Amazon only allowed us employees four hours a day of work unless…

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Men With The “Wrong Head” On Their Shoulders

 

In my younger days men always chased after me whether they were single, had girlfriends, or even wives it didn’t matter.

A lot of guys liked me, not because all were just interested in sex, they genuinely liked me as a person. They enjoyed my conversation; they were intrigued by my uniqueness.

I had male as well as female associates. Sometimes I even got along better with certain males than I did with females.

Men shared wild and intimate secrets with me. They’d have girlfriends or wives while having other women on the side and etc….

I was upfront with them letting them know that they would never get into my panties.

I had some that were glad I was the way that I was even though it was a bruise to their ego. Some were envious of me, some resented me, some didn’t care- I did not care either.

No one could take advantage of me, no one could get over on me. Everything I did was on my terms or to my advantage. I was never the emotional lovey-dovey type of female. Although I had no problem with expressing how I thought or felt.

I had some very funny and crazy experiences with guys.

There was a neighborhood guy in his fifties that was interested in me when I was in my twenties.

We were sitting in his jeep talking while a crowd of people were there hanging out, talking, enjoying the days of summer.

All of a sudden, he turned the key in the ignition, started the vehicle, and drove around the corner.

I opened the door to the jeep and hopped out as we were halfway down the block (he had not drove too fast as I was able to take a safe leap).

I knew he was going to try to rape me.

 

 

When I was out of the jeep he told me to get back in.

I told him no! “Get back into the jeep so that you can rape me and then everybody say that it was my fault for getting back into the jeep?” I spoke.

“Rape?!” He spoke.

This fifty something year old man then got out of his vehicle and literally chased me around the jeep telling me to get back in.

I purposely ran around the jeep to make an ass out of him. Then I walked back down the block to where the rest of the people were. He was nothing to worry about. He was high, hard-up, and frivolously hell-bent.

My mother and I laughed about it later when I told her what had happened “He was going to get him some ass, huh?!” She relayed back in truth and humor.

My mother acknowledged to me that I was lucky the man didn’t have power-locks in his jeep.

Rape is a serious crime and no laughing matter; however, this man was nothing to take serious in my situation I was in no further danger. I was well-known in the neighborhood; people knew him and what he was about. He definitely knew better. I was a hangout partner with his sister whom he didn’t get along too well with.

This man and I ran into one another weeks later as I were on my way to the store, he was parked on the corner and called me over to the car.

I brought up the prior incident.

“Rape?!” He said like the suggestion I made was preposterous in order to through me off. He wanted to make me feel foolish. Of course, it did not work.

“There is too much pussy out here to rape”, he added out of anger.

When I did not back down and insisted on what he aimed to do he exclaimed, “I don’t want you!”

Then he admitted that by his last words he was just trying to hurt my feelings.

“My feelings are not hurt”, I expressed. “Why would I care if you want me or not?”

“Yeah, that could be true. You women can be cold”, he expressed back in return.

I, LaToya did not understand this man’s mentality at all. I did not understand the ignorance.

When I told a male associate the story he automatically knew instinctively as he addressed to me, “He was going to rape you”.

Months later, the fifty-year-old man’s sister came to me and told me that another female came to her and told her that her brother tried to rape her too. I and this other targeted girl did not personally know one another but I had seen her in the neighborhood before.

In return, the sister told the girl that she had heard about it before (through me but she did not tell the girl where she heard about it from).

The man’s sister told me that her brother trying to rape this other woman was not relevant because of her notorious promiscuous sexual behavior.

I disagree.

As far as I am concerned, even a prostitute does not deserve to be raped even though she may be asking for it depending on her situation.

If a woman does not consent to having sex, then no man has the right to force himself on the woman regardless of her sexual history.

Rape is an act of violence and control.

 

 

 

 

The Company One Keeps

 

As a sojourner I continue to listen to God over listening and trusting in the world

I will never stop learning, growing and being made into the individual that he created me to be.

We who live in spirit should constantly beware and be wise.

I was always careful who I associated myself with.

I had no desire to be bothered or to allow just anyone into my circle.

Of course, everyone who comes into our lives are not meant to stay, they do not always have our best interest.

Some who mean us well are not always meant to stay either yet God may allow them to cross our paths as stones to step upon.

I have known these truths early on within life and it had done me a great service to heed warnings, to recognize red flags, and to appreciate whatever enlightenment there was to receive or uncover upon my journey.

 

 

 

 

Really Good People Are Hard To Come By: I Have Been Lucky To Be In The Company Of The Well-Suited From Time To Time

 

This is a huge world with all types of people.

All of us are not going to take to, connect with, or get along with every single person we encounter or come across within this lifetime.

Nevertheless, I have really met and dealt with some people who have treated me with sincerity, reasonableness, kindness, and generosity.

Intelligent people who I could have deep meaningful discussions with.

People who I could just chill and laugh with.

It is nice to still know with all of the fucked-up people in this society that there are and will always be others out there who are compatible with us even if we are all outnumbered by the rest of the assholes out there!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Out Of The Ordinary

As some of us who are unique many of us are greatly misunderstood.

We’re thought of as strange. Our words are taken out of context. Some of us are even called crazy by those who don’t understand us. By those who may envy us, by those who misjudge us and by those who want to psychoanalyze us with their bullshit that really does not pertain to us at all.

Some people are just miserable and spiteful.

None of these instances ever fazed or bothered me. I was just “crazy” that way!

Like I have said times before, when there is really no legitimate basis other people’s attitudes and behavior are a reflection of themselves. It’s their problem-  let them worry about it.

People do these things to just about anyone who does not fit into what they consider typical or so called “normal”.

It is really about what is “healthy” than about what is normal. Who is to actually say what is defined as normal when we have so much diversity?

I would never worry about a word like crazy as it is the dumb ones and those who are actually crazy themselves that label smart or extraordinary people in that manner.

It is not always wise to discuss our beliefs, faculties, or certain other things with just any or everyone yet never feel ashamed of who you are.

Never try to repress what you feel.

I am tired of what is average, I always have been. I welcome people and things that are rare, different and uncommon. That is what makes one special.

Never be afraid to stand out from the crowd and be the unique person that God created you to be.

If anyone calls you “crazy” take it as a compliment!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Go Away Michael, No One Is Thinking About You!

Michael is scared because he knows he is guilty.

It has been a month now. Yet Michael is still coming to my blog worried about what I write, I have proof (he is a big troublemaker).

He started with me on the job then when I quit he gets a stink bitch who has never met me to lie and say I was fired?

He can dish shit out but he cannot take it. Then wants to pretend he is a victim.

Go away and move on with your life already- but obviously you really don’t have a life. A thirty-five year old guy who is going on thirty-six this month who does nothing but sit around all day on his fluctuating fat ass playing video games- such a retard!

You are not important enough for anyone to write about- however, since this is what you are looking for here is one last post about you. Drive yourself crazy looking for it!

Farewell asshole. Don’t come back to my blog anymore.

Whore Bitch

Tiffany is a ugly dopefiend-looking bitch.

This skanky whore needed her ass kicked for lying on me. With her smelly crotch/funky coochie.

 

 

 

 

Principalities Disguised Within People: The Devil’s Playground

 

Yes, there are people in this world who are actually demonic themselves, nevertheless, the devil often uses or works through negative people in order to distract us or to cause conflict and confusion.

The devil will even manifest in people who claim to be Christian or followers of God.

When we are of the light attacks will always come against us yet we have authority over evil and are equipped for the challenges.

Remember, the Lord fights our battles, and when we come up against those who are tools for the devil we are not affected.

The darkness can never overpower the light as I have said so many times before.

Don’t Judge A Book By The Cover: Looks Can Be Deceiving

 

I am very youthful within appearance and I am soft-spoken.

Many think I am younger than what I am. Even when I was in my twenties and thirties, I was either mistaken for a teenager or other than the age that I actually was.

I turned forty-seven this past spring and I still have a young-looking face, body, and young-sounding voice.

I am not at all complaining, however, some ignorant people misjudge me by my appearance.

I don’t take it personal (it is not a reflection of me but of them and their lack of experience or diversity) yet I get tired of it.

As a younger person I was never the naive, silly or vulnerable type. I was wise beyond my years and spunky.

People were often shocked at the knowledge, strength, and understanding I had at an early age.

All young people are not dumb and all older people do not possess wisdom. And vice-versa. It all depends on the individual. I have always been an open-minded person.

I am not one to be underestimated and I am not one to be played with.

It is funny when certain people think that they can or could destroy me- I turn around to destroy their asses!

 

Liars And Jealous People Hurt No One But Themselves

 

Two things in life I could never stand are liars and jealous people.

Some people lie so much to themselves and to others that they are sick enough to believe their own lies.

 

 

 

My Vagina

 

Some may find me to be a bore since I never was a whore.

I have never smoked, I have never drunk alcohol, I have never done drugs, and I have never been arrested.

I was classified as a good girl growing up and just about everyone in my neighborhood was aware of me being unlike the majority.

Many were very jealous of me, some were proud of me, admired me, and were inspired by me- yet I was just me.

Unafraid, unabashed and uninfluenced by this society.

I was never promiscuous or interested in sex.

There were a lot of men and women who found me to be pretty and/or sexy, however, their projection had nothing to do with my affection.

I was always classy and a bit sassy but really just high-spirited.

I never had sexual intercourse as a teenager. I wasn’t having sex during my twenties. I didn’t have sex in my thirties, and I still don’t have sex now that I am in my forties and to me, I am exciting!

It is exciting to stand out from the crowd. It is exciting to be unlike the world.

It is exciting to live pure within spirit.

I have never been lustful. I think it is disgusting the way this society constantly promotes sex.

I find pleasure and satisfaction in love, knowledge, spiritual endowment and spiritual empowerment.

We don’t have to take our clothes off to have a good time. My moments of ecstasy and climax have all been while I was fully dressed in the beauty of the things that bring to me my true joy and fulfillment.

(https://latoyalawrenceblog.wordpress.com/2021/10/20/sex-doing-it-or-not/)

P.S. I am not condoning or promoting abortion. However, when it comes to a woman’s body and whether or not she chooses to be intimate or not, or whether she decides to have a child or not it is completely her choice. This is a control issue and the government has no right to decide what we do with our own bodies. People who consider it a moral issue need to mind their business as that is between the individual and God. We will all answer for our actions one day. God knows a person’s heart and situation he is the only true judge.

 

 

 

 

The True Beauty And Power Of Love

 

 

I have loved and been loved unconditionally.

The term love is often used loosely by many. Genuine love is powerful.

Some who don’t receive affection in the home become jealous of others who do. They then go out to search for love in all the wrong places only to later be disappointed.

Love cannot be persuaded or forced love has to come naturally.

When one has truly experienced love, they have experienced a beauty that no one can ever take away.

 

 

When Unreasonable Anger Turns Violent

 

There is far too much violence within the world everywhere.

This is a sick society.

These days people are killing people over their French fries not being served hot enough, or for too much mayonnaise being put onto a sandwich.

I remember back in the eighties where there was a morbid trend of people killing people just for accidentally stepping on their new pair of sneakers.

There was even an incident where a two- or three-year-old kid shot a water pistol at a grown man, and he in return shot and killed the kid. It was the summer, it was very hot, it was just a child, it was only water splashed out from a water-gun and wet clothing would have dried up quickly in the heat- so what was the issue?

I understand anger. Anger is a completely natural and healthy emotion.

However, it is how one handles their anger.

What I mentioned above goes far beyond anger. It touches on the irrational.

People go into rages and kill over the most ridiculous things.

I can see if one has to kill in self-defense or because of something major as in rape and something else justifiable (yet we should never take the law into our own hands) but killing people for stupid shit?