shelfThis past Wednesday I worked a twelve hour overnight shift into Thursday morning.

When my task was complete I traveled on home, changed my clothes then sat and chatted a while with a relative then headed back out the door to do some grocery shopping.

When I got back home I took off my clothes for good this time helped to put the food away then relaxed comfortably in my bed, ordered some dinner from a restaurant because I did not feel like cooking, watched a horror flick then by a quarter to one Friday morning I went on to sleep.

I’d been up for a little over twenty-four hours where do I get the energy?

I’ve done worse than that in the past as I have actually stayed up for thirty-six hours straight with a tiny bit of dozing off here and there on free time doing a three day in a row twelve hour night shift work assignment due to the fact of how far that I had to travel back and forth to work during that period. By the time I would arrive home in the morning there was only two hours worth of sleep that I could get before the travel from New York back through New Jersey so I just stayed up.

Then every following Friday I’d do one more overnight twelve hour shift rounding the entire total to forty-eight hours a week but the last day was not a consecutive day as my days were Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and then Friday, I will not be doing that anymore so far away from home. I need to get my rest I did that for three months straight.

No coffee (I am not a coffee drinker), no nothing just pure energy and determination.

When I use to work in retail some of my fellow employees called me “the energizer bunny”.

I once worked at Sears and Bloomingdale’s at the same time going to long island to Sears from 11 am to 5 pm then heading on over to Manhattan to Bloomingdale’s from 10 pm to 6 am doing overnight invoice, merchandise handling and packaging for delivery while the store was closed after hours.

I do believe there are energies that surround us and that aide us within stamina and endurance because where there is a “will” there definitely is a “way” and we get plenty of divine help when we are eager about helping ourselves but when I look back on my life and the things that I have been through and accomplished I do not at all know how I’ve done it.

Stones To Step Upon

writing lifeAs some people who come into our lives at one point or another that are not meant to stay but to just “pass by” in a reason for us to learn by and/or through and to help us grow and to aspire it is the same within various elements and opportunity.

From personal experience whenever I received or had something that worked out for me that was of a positive and suitable nature and that gain did not last for very long due to the interference or other distinctive negativity of another something else would eventually come around not so long after that determined to be a much “better” arrangement within life than what I had going on beforehand.

No matter how many times the cycle went on to repeat itself each new circumstance that I became involved in and thought I had unfairly lost out at or on actually turned into a great fortunate and extra advantage, the experience and progression to further measurement had taught me a lot.

Even within the beneficial things that I had not figuratively lost out on but that had improved and that had elevated me specifically in regard to the physical and spiritual maintenance of vitality on a consistent basis would just get better and better, and whenever I would think that it was not possible to get anymore better it would just keep getting better, “What is this?” I’d say in delightful enthusiasm.

It was the momentum of life that when a “door closes a window opens” account, constantly.

In general, for the sincerely upright individual when the “forces of nature” or the deliberate intentions of others are directed out to cause the misfortune or hurt of another “divinity” then in return supernaturally “charges” and “exchanges” that slight and deed around into a source of genuine help and success, a “Stepping Stone” without limited pathway and luminous stairs to momentously tread upon.


Insight Into Influence

scholarIt is vital to have a substantial amount of spiritual smarts, street smarts and book smarts not just one but a little bit of all and I have always encompassed these three essential ingredients for guidance and longevity.

When I was in my teens and early twenties a lot of my mother’s friends and associates had “took to me” (had a fondness toward my personality) they considered me to be a very bright and unique individual who was very insightful and analytical which some thought to be rare at my age because most young people weren’t as strong minded or confident enough within their own understanding to thoroughly think things through into specific that were of value and/or importance and significance as they are more so within the same .

In the regard to certain peers that were around and within my vicinity back then one of my mother’s female friends had stated out to me directly to my face “They are scared of you, they are jealous of you, they want to be like you”.

Another female who was an associate of my mother had told me the same exact words in the same exact order with the same exact flow of certainty, and these two women both did not know one another, had never met never crossed paths and did not even live within the same state as each other. “They are scared of you, they are jealous of you; they want to be like you”.

Some time had passed when I asked the first woman over the telephone after hearing the revelation from the second woman “What made you say that to me?”

“I don’t know”, she had informed honestly. “It just came out”. “Spirit” and “knowledge” had spoke through her she believed in the power of “spiritual messages”.

Ever since I was a child on up others indeed did learn many specific things from me either by being within my company or by the observance of my actions, as I had gotten older others have even come to me in confidence because I accurately and consistently knew the things that I spoke of when there were others around who did not exactly know what they were talking about when it came down to particular fact.

contemplationI’ve never intended to teach by deliberate motive but my ways and genuine faculties have proven to be quite influential and inspiring through my direct contact with people and through the joys that come out from my gifts of “automatic writing” as I was told on numerous occasion that one of my life purposes was to help and to motivate others through my leadership yet I had never set out or desired to do so.

I have in the past as well as today had an effect on individuals so much that they went as far as to “copy” me and would try to make my “style” the identity of their very own. It is said that imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, however, there were always two things in particular that I found very unflattering and that was “jealousy” and “emulation”.

There is nothing wrong with harmless admiration having a positive influence on someone or inspiring someone but when another individual tries to “mirror” my image, disposition and ability that is a complete turn off.

(Now there are billions and zillions of people out there in the world and many of us can come up with similar ideas or similar modes of expression that are honestly just mere coincidence. A whole lot of us are the same in our certain ways and in the way that we do things).

Inadequate individuals often tend to lie to themselves as well as to others and they want so badly to believe within their own lies as they cannot handle and/or accept truth in any forms that intimidate the points of their own well-being (their comfortable state of ignorance). They are not resilient people as they need the support from others in order to build and to hold them up within their cope to maintain, and sustain.

A genuinely strong individual is able to survive on their own and do not require or depend on the foundations of others within the process to compose of their own self management.

A lot of people fear what they do not know and they fear the depth of what they do not understand although the outside of what they “see” can be quite threatening, intriguing and desirous as it illuminates as an example it is the underlying component that incorporates all of the elusive unfaltering documentation.



moonThis past Monday I went to bed early around 8 p.m. because I had to get up early the next morning to go to work. As I slept during the night into the wee hours I saw three visions in my dreams they all had meaning that I had discerned, and even one that had played out at work later that day, however, another out of the trio was quite a bit disturbing to me-rather strange and all so very sick.

Years ago, about fifteen, a young female singer was killed in a tragic accident and back then shortly after the incident had taken place I noticed how I became harmlessly preoccupied with her death, watching the news and television reports and reading the news paper and I didn’t understand why my attention had suddenly focused on and turned to this famous R&B singer as I didn’t have anything against her personally (she had made some good music songs that were appealing) yet I wasn’t really a fan.

I remember one night how I had lay awoke in bed and had a vision of how rapidly her spirit had departed from her body instantly after the violent impact of the deadly event, her spirit was in transparent mode (not human likeness just a large size clear solid flickering blur) and with sort of a circular form within it’s appearance fluttering and moving swiftly through out the area of the accident.

I could be wrong but what I had gotten from the scene of vision was that her spirit was knocked out of the body so quickly and unexpectedly that it was rattled and disoriented within it’s roam around the vicinity.

Then it had also come to me within the energy that this young deceased singer had wanted her life back I could definitely sense and feel that she was dismayed and adrift during the initial exit out of this world the experience had actually took me back to the setting under the paranormal terms.

Later that year, about two to three months after the reflections and vision I went down to South Carolina and stayed a week with my father’s side of the family (I discovered two reasons for my journey that were meant to occur while I should not have gone within the first place but everything happens for a reason and I did make it back home safely and with indeed purpose) and aside from other explanations of my visit another revelation had arisen to the surface.

I unwittingly asked one of my cousins about the famous singer who had passed away and he came out and told me that her grandmother lived just a short distance behind their land and that when she would come down there to visit her grandmother riding in a vehicle (it was so long ago I do not remember or not whether he mentioned the super star was traveling in a limousine or what) that she’d wave to them all out from the car window the people who had recognized her and knew who she was related to there down in South Carolina.

I also asked other relatives and they verified and confirmed the story and they also gave me detail about the attitude of the singer’s mother toward a neighbor once as people in the area were mostly well acquainted with one another.

So there was the connection between me and the situation and circumstance not to mention that my father’s own grandmother had “well-known” extra sensory perception within the family no one could do anything without her knowing about it when she was alive, and I have this gift on both sides of my family, and then some, that is why I have a “double veil”.

handAnyway, back into this past Tuesday morning of the wee hours of as I slept, that weird yet factual dilemma in regard to one of the visions observed within my dreams catered once again to this famous female singer who had died fatally. In the extremely vivid scene she laid on her backside dead with her eyes closed,  the cognition allowing me to acknowledge her identity, while someone was in the process of trying to perform a “Resurrection” ritual.

Someone actually attempted to revive her spirit into my body and suck out my animated spirit. They intended for her and I to switch places.

I am not vulnerable in my sleep I have 24 hour natural spiritual protection every time the ritual tried to literally extract my spirit from my body I would jerk simultaneously in resistance and it would automatically wake me up and every time this incident occurred for the undisclosed period (me falling asleep them waking back up) that it lasted I would see the singer’s lifeless face, eyes closed, on her backside.

I noticed that this didn’t happen until I wrote my two last recent posts this past saturday but as “energy” and “spirit” inspires and provokes me to write, a gift and a significant purpose that is beyond my head and control at the same time within my talents and unpremeditated missions of sharing through my own knowledge and personal experience “divinity” will in no way intentionally expose me to any danger through what I may reveal but as “spiritual vessels” we type of people in specific are and do become targets, nevertheless, whenever a “higher plan” is scheduled into effect there is no deactivation.

Second Sight/Living With Real Paranormal Abilities:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2013/02/20/second-sightliving-with-real-paranormal-abilities/)



Old Souls

teddy bearShortly after my grandfather (my mother’s father) passed away in the year of 1977 his dead spirit had appeared before my three year old young eyes inside the apartment of where his mother resided.

My mother was there present with me and bore witness to this event as the occurrence had gave her a bit of a scare as she was unable to see what I had clearly witnessed, her father standing by the back window of my great grandmother’s bedroom, and I pointing and asking her “Who’s that?”

She had questioned me, puzzled, “Who?”

“Right there”, I had went on, motioning toward the unidentified apparition in mystery.

My mother was so frightened at the scene that she gathered up our jackets and headed straight for the front door but just as we were on our way out of the apartment my great grandmother was in unison entering inside.

“What’s wrong?” My great grandmother had asked, noticing the upset within her granddaughter.

“Toya just saw something that I couldn’t see”, my mother explained.

“Oh, don’t worry”, my great grandmother had insisted and assured. “It’s just your father that she saw”.

As healthy children we have all I’m sure played with “other imaginary people”, imaginary people who we’d pretend were right there within our surroundings. I use to imitate as I was a teacher with all of my dolls or with the “invisible children” as the occupants of my classroom in my bedroom as well as playing cashier on the kitchen table with all of my invisible customers, and so on, very normal kiddie behavior in general.

So normal in fact that when particular children are really talking and interacting with a entity that is actually invisible within the appearance to others it is taken merely as a part of the wild imagination of any ordinary child.

cuteOn occasion many people have and still do unfortunately even under hostility continue to underestimate the knowledge and understanding of a child or young one during their inexperienced learning stages of development.

There are those old youngster souls, though, the ones that are highly in tune and that have been here in this world before and beyond even so they may not have total or any recollection at all of the previous encounters of their existence they do have the subconscious remnants and the present capacity of invocation and unaccountable nature along with the exceptional advantages of sharp-wittedness.

I’ve come across a few of these type of children personally myself and they have tickled me with their “brightness” and “carriage” it was so cute and I advocate the wisdom that is found within “the power of the particular”.

I have to admit myself that at a very young age I knew and felt too many of the things that I was way too young to know and to perceive yet I was absolutely “conscious” of life and specific details regardless that is why I am able to speak upon the issue. At ten years of age I laid my hand upon my grandmother’s (my mother’s mother) hands while she was in the hospital due to a stroke and had “woke her up” from her months at remaining in a comatose state.

A family associate suggested that I be brought to the hospital to perform a “child’s touch”, and what do you know it worked!

All of those little “tea parties” and “make-believe” friendships are not always derived from the innocence of a kid’s creative mind-set sometimes it is none other than the manifestation of an innately acquired skill to communicate with the other-worldly.


Young Ones:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/23/young-ones/)



The Resourceful

coffee on the porchAs a health care worker I work within assisted living facilities heeding to the vital attention of client welfare and in the workplace we have periodic conference and recently we had one of our meetings that revolve around updates, procedures and so on, the usual important employee discussion and feedback.

It was a pleasant long day of significant communication and understanding in relation to the goals, responsibility and expansion of our profession.

We were provided with self-served tasty and healthy refreshments that had came and that were delivered straight from a restaurant for during the morning and noon time intermission while the company food provisions had also helped to compliment the already delightful  mood.

I have been on other jobs in different fields of work whereas on behalf of the company they’d supply meals and treats as a courtesy to their employees it is a very considerate gesture of hospitality and appreciation.

While within group session I encountered some new faces who shared quite the similar experience and agreeable like-mindedness in the terms of our interactions with other jealous and/or difficult coworkers from the past who were intimidated by us.

Another female and I in specific had concurred that we both arrive to our occupations to perform and to complete our duties and not to make friends, and that we do not have to tolerate any of the trivial juvenile behavior geared from small-minded “so called adult” individuals (with the minds of children) toward our positive job intention and attainment.

chocolate chips and coffeeMy fellow co workers and I were assured though by the higher ups that there would be no bias or the taking of any sides against another if a situation that was in accordance was to arise and that we would get fair investigative treatment compared to whatever we may have experienced elsewhere on other occasions.

Who has time for garbage? I know that I do not I never did all I am concerned about is the “beauty” (wonderful lifestyle and blessings) that I have going on within my surroundings, the never-ending broadened growth and development of accomplishment and change.

What high-minded person would “inconsequentially” entertain an idiots jabber and action? I’d keep maintaining the productivity that I was doing they aren’t about anything and they surely aren’t going anywhere, if so, they would lack the “vacuous” nature and behavioral effects that dominate them.

So pathetic to those who are permanently stagnant and resentful of the “various enterprising” who are absolute “seekers” and “achievers” and who consistently strive for the betterment and contentment within life.

Unhappy Campers Don’t Spoil My Joy:(https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2015/11/28/unhappy-campers-dont-spoil-my-joy/)


A Day Late And A Dollar Short:(https://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2015/12/01/a-day-late-and-a-dollar-short/)


sweet momentNothing in life is definitely promised to any of us yet there are happenings that are meant to be (to come into fruition) and that will not or cannot be interceded within.

It can all be over for us within a split second, minute, hour, day, week, month and year, and so on. In spite of all that there is faith, and we build upon and receive faith through the continuous trust that is gathered upon us once loyalty has been shown to us through or by whatever means on a basis that is primarily consistent.

When we have complete trust within something because of it’s reliability then we know that we are able to depend on that in further period to come and within our most trying times of need. Now that does not at all indicate to take the circumstance for granted but to realize one is able to believe if an instance appears to seem impossible.

dearer momentI have always been loved and had love within and all around me, real love, not an imitation or what some may falsely perceive as love because love has to come natural it is not something that one can just turn off and on but it is an intense affection that can disappear at chance, and that is also a natural aspect and factor.

As I have been a very particular individual by nature I have never loved anyone easily certain people have been more prone to have a “fondness” for me compared to me of them but I genuinely do “like”, recognize and respect sincerely good people and I love what is personally within relation to and around me.

When some people are “without” or do not “have as much” (not all, just some or a lot of people, because everyone is unique) of that endearment they are apt to harbor resentment due to the fact that they have to go outside of their habitat in order to find the love that they lack through the acceptance of other people-even in the midst of strangers and that is all too sad.

Through having had love and encouragement there is a tremendous gain of strength and confidence and no one can ever take that self respect and security away and that principal cannot be substituted for within any other absolute fashion.

dear momentIt feels so good to feel “safe”, to have that “spiritual umbrella” hovering over to follow one throughout their every step along with the “universal shield of concurrent energy flow” structured into the day to day activity and environment.

There is nothing more comforting and settling to the mind and soul other than to know that one along with their additional loved one’s are being shown authentic natural affection and care in the wonderful forms of extramundane preservation.


Preservation: (https://ladylatoya.wordpress.com/2016/01/20/preservation/)