My mother told me a long time ago not to tell people that I do not care what others think because they will think something is wrong with me.
I know my mother meant well, but to be honest, quite a few things about the way I think and feel I am sure certain- not all- people would think something is wrong with me anyway, so I do not really care one way or the other.
I am not afraid to be myself or to express myself. I cannot help how others will perceive. Oftentimes ordinary perception does not indicate reality it is just a personal opinion or notion formed into one’s mind by conjecture or an impression they received whether it be true or false.
I think most people do care what others think, that is why when people who genuinely profess not to care others may not truly believe them even though they are being totally honest.
However, we are out there, we do exist, and we are authentic- and we surely without a doubt do not care what other people think❤.
What I have observed in the past is that some people do not understand spiritually gifted people.
I cannot speak for all, however, from my experience, spiritually gifted people do not dwell on or worry about things.
We have a heightened sense of awareness that keeps us informed about things going on even if we are not physically present in a situation or are nowhere around when occurrences are taking place. So if things rewind and playback- it is no fault or flaw of ours- it is a natural part of the extra sensory process that helps us to stay vigilant when necessary.
We can be anywhere and pick up on something that is going on somewhere else if we happen to get those vibes.
These vibes stay with us intermittently or steadily depending on the circumstances and nature of the individual and their spiritual radar.
Things that may have transpired within the past that may connect somehow to the present or future may arise as a warning, an enlightenment, or a reminder of something relevant.
A strange vibe that I get and have gotten periodically that proves to be confirmed is those whom for sick reasons of their own resent me for the person I am.
I remember during my early twenties, neighborhood people who knew of me hated the fact that I had nothing that they considered “dirt” on me.
I never understood these people’s low-level mentality.
If I did ever come to have anything that they were to consider dirt that did not mean the instance would be considered dirt to me as far as their warped minds are concerned.
They wanted something they thought they could hold over my head to bring me down to their level or lower.
When they could not do it, they worked witchcraft on me while spreading lies about me, harassing me in effort to give me a mental breakdown of some sort, and from what I heard to stop me from doing the things in life that I wanted to do.
None of them succeeded in their endeavors as my mind could not grasp the idiocy of what they were doing.
I was not affected and kept going on with my life while at the same time constantly aware of everything transpiring around me.
I knew they were not going to win because the darkness cannot overpower the light.
My father -who is trash himself- even had enough sense to admit to me that these people were wasting their time as the street-life is an entirely different life than those of us who are decent and of class, and that their head games and other off the wall nonsense was not going to work on me.
These people were determined and wanted to see my demise bad.
This originated from jealousy in the family many years ago.
None of this was normal.
Though for all this to have taken place, and these people initially coming after me when I was a seven- or eight-year-old child (when witchcraft was first placed upon me by my envious now deceased great-grandmother) I had to be very important.
Whenever an aspect keeps repeating itself in some form- and you are not the one who is entertaining it, there is some significance behind the matter.
What I have learned through my accounts is that I am a threat to certain negative people.
There is something in life that I am meant to fully accomplish only beknown to God.
Maybe part of the mission is sharing my experiences with others who may have experienced these similar things, and who were accused of being paranoid or crazy because of it or what they knew.
So many people have been destroyed, killed, and put in mental institutions because others would not believe or listen to them on account of conspiracies against them by devious, malicious people.
When God has a mission for us the devil will surely use his human minions to try to devour us.
I currently feel the resentment and animosity coming from those disappointed after all these years. I can even feel the unsettling energy from them within my body.
How I was not disturbed or ruined by the dirt that they tried to corrupt upon me.
Nothing turned out the way they planned, and they will all have to suffer consequences and answer to God for their foolishness.
Nobody bothers me at all.
And if a conflict or negativity does arise here or there as life will sometimes normally bring, I never assume or associate it with something from the past. Intuition or empathic vibe will let me know if something current is connected to someone or something from the past.
Life continues to be peaceful and normal as it should be, but there are a lot of evil, unhappy, lost people out there.
God gives us from birth the strong spirit to handle, undergo, and get through whatever it is we must forge ahead to or through.
There was no mistake at me getting hired by and working for Amazon in 2021.
I knew in hindsight that the relatively short ten months spent there I was never meant to stay. It was just another steppingstone for me to step upon and to pass through.
It was not a mistake that I encountered and met Michael Gonzalez either.
People like him want or expect people like me to be lower than what we are.
When we do not display preconceived notions of how or what they feel we should be they prefer to view us as thinking that we are better than we are, that we are purely riding on ego by having an exaggerated opinion of ourselves and/or capabilities.
I know how some people of this type of nature think, feel, and respond when it comes to people like us who are on a higher vibration, wavelength/level…
I am proud of the child that I once was, the teenager I used to be, and of the woman who I am now.
I am thankful and grateful for the divine guidance and protection that reigns over me.
God has never let or allowed negative people to win over me in any circumstance.
When I look into the past I remember that since I was a little girl all throughout my life whenever people had tried or partook in doing dirt against me they have always failed no matter how many things they did, lies they told, or delusion they upheld through their facades and false perception of projection they tried to reflect upon my life.
God has taught me, and from a young age, instilled in me during my journey- an insight, strength and confidence.
A living example of what he assembles no one can disassemble. It is also an inspiration to others of what is possible when others say what is not possible.
It upsets negative people when what would hurt or bother them does not hurt, bother, or affect you mentally or emotionally. They do not have the capacity or knowledge of higher consciousness within the spirit to know better. It is a level that they will never attain.
Whenever negative people went to strike their arrows, it was nothing to me. Idiocy can sometimes be annoying, but it is of no faze.
There are a lot of no-good people in the world. When God has a special purpose for us others can see that light, though, they might not discern what that light is. The devil comes for us the strongest, yet he has no power over us!
As I observe the present everything is running smoothly.
Of course, we all have the usual kinks that life throws at us here and there that eventually get untangled- but it is because of the fallen world that we live in and to keep us knowing that we can depend on God to see us through and to keep us thriving.
I love and appreciate the positive powerful energy around me.♥️
A lot of people do not want to hear or accept the truth, but I am one who will speak my truth regardless.
When I worked a twelve-hour overnight shift this past Thursday at a medical rehabilitation facility, I got into a friendly discussion with a 75-year-old Polish man who happened to have lived in areas of the town I was born and raised in many years ago.
We reminisced about things then had gotten on the subject of black people who occupied residence in the area at the time and how most of them were low scale.
The neighborhood I grew up in was once an all-white neighborhood the people started to move out of the area when black people began to move in the area back then. The neighborhood was a beautiful place to live at one time.
I had heard and understood that story when my mother told it to me and other people I ran into acknowledged it.
There is prejudice among people who do not like people of certain races and ethnicities and there is a very good reason.
All black people are not bad, but most are not worth anything and this is coming from an African American female of mixed parentage/heritage.
I was not the average type of black girl/person growing up I spoke articulate and properly, I was very bright, and I did not hold the ignorant mentality that most black people had.
Just because a lot of white people do not like black people does not at all mean that they are racist. Some of them are but not all of them.
There is good and bad in every race or ethnicity, but a lot of black people do tend to be the worst.
I am black and have hated black people for the same reasons other races do. A lot of black people are a turn off- the way they look, act, think, talk. The way they present themselves, their mannerisms are off-putting.
I had problems with a lot of black people growing up because I was not one of them, I was not anything like them.
Black people are jealous of other blacks who are a better quality than they are and they try to pull them down to destroy them.
There are smart black people but rarely are they as bright as white people unless they are mixed with another bloodline. I have heard my mother who is black (with mixed parentage also) state this as well as a white person- but this fact was an obvious one to me.
Of course, I have experienced people who automatically judged me due to my brown skin but once they had gotten to know me it was a different story. It was not me personally, but the negative perception blacks have made on society.
In my life, with most people, it had always been predominantly white people and people of other races who accepted me and treated me kindly in life wanting to see me succeed.
All my life it has been black people who were extremely jealous of me and other blacks of my caliber. They have set out to tarnish our images, ruin our reputation with lies, and hamper our destiny in the most underhanded ways but because I never held their mindset, way of thinking, or essence their actions were in vain- a total waste of time- even if their severely deficient minds will never be able to grasp this reasoning.
Low-scale blacks as well as low-scale people in general like to bring people down to their level or lower.
They try to bring people down to their level because they cannot rise to our higher level of intellect, ability, character, or spiritual consciousness.
As far as I am concerned one of the only reasons Barack Obama was originally elected president is because he was biracial and because a lot of people (mostly men) did not want Hillary Clinton or a woman as president of the United States.
I am not at all insinuating that Barack was not qualified to be president, but even I would not have wanted an average black man in office.
I could be wrong but I think Michelle Obama would have had a good chance to become the first black woman president if she had wanted or decided to run.
Anyhow, for the most part, many black people are undesirable.
A lot of whites do not care when blacks kill one another because they feel they are helping to eliminate their own problem.
I just feel that it is the wrong blacks that end up dying and being killed by the hands of degenerates sometimes.
The ones that need to die are still walking around. They keep having children that should never have been born while there are good, valuable people who are unable to conceive children.
Trash people shoot out kids like crazy and they populate the earth unnecessarily with their undesirable offspring.
I could never stand living around a bunch of black people, going to school with them, or working in an environment with them. They completely turn me off. I only like certain type of blacks.
I have currently lived in a mixed neighborhood for eleven years now with Caucasians, Korean/Chinese/Japanese and others of Spanish descent. There are not too many black people in comparison- and the energy is wonderful.
Haters do not want to hear good things about you. They do not want you to succeed.
They want you to believe the lies they implant because they do not want to acknowledge the truths that radiate in you.
They want to cause doubt in you, they want to downplay the talent and ability within you.
They try to take away from you to give to themselves.
They want to knock you down to build themselves up.
They want the credit for what you deserve that they did not honestly earn.
Do they ever learn?
Haters hate themselves. They feel inadequate and resentful because you possess what they believe they are entitled to have, and that makes them feel small.
It eats them up how you were created to stand tall.
When you do not fall, they wonder why.
If they were in your shoes the treachery in attempts would have made them cry.
You do not need to prove to anyone what you know you already have- so go ahead and laugh.
There is nothing they can do to eliminate the shining light inside of you.
Continue to do what you do.
No matter what they endeavor to do. They will never be able to authenticate their version to resemble you. –latoya lawrence
Asshole still will not move on. He is such a pathetic piece of trash/shit.
And while there are women out there who are indeed whores sex is not a tool or action that can be used against a woman to determine her worth or lower her value.
As he is only able to obtain skanks and shack up with his main skank do not get mad at me for loving myself and having high standards.
This Latin nigger is funny. He think he can drive me crazy with burning candles and shit.
He is very lucky I do not call upon my Orishas anymore. Elegba, Ogun, Orunmila, Oshun and Ochosi would have destroyed his ass!
Asshole did not know I was born with the power of a priestess.
I leave everything to God. Give people enough rope they eventually hang themselves.
Why do I attract some of the most ill fuckers who should have known beforehand that they never stood a chance with me?
They could have saved themselves the wasted effort and self-humiliation of being exposed by one who can literally “read” them.
Voodoo/Black Magic/WitchcraftDoes Not Work On Me! The Negativity Does Not Take Affect! My Mind Cannot Be Influenced Or Manipulated By Bullshit. Get That Through Your Fucking Head- Retard!
I have never been hurt mentally or emotionally by any man and I never will be.
To me, a man is nothing to get hurt over.
I am not and never have been the type of girl/lady/woman/female that a man could use or take advantage of I was not wired that way.
I was never weak, docile or naive when it came to men.
I was born with that extra sensory perception, strong spirit of discernment and unconventional individuality that made me unique in my own way.
Of course, anyone can lie and make up stories to tarnish or downgrade someone’s reputation, but no one can ruin anyone unless they allow them to.
Women who share my likeness know when a man means absolutely nothing to her that their petty words and tall tales will not do shit to disturb or affect her.
A reputation is only what people think or believe one to be- character is what truly defines one.
There were and are negative people with a low-mindset- till this day- still jealous of me because I have never been dogged out by any man.
If I were to have had sex with anyone it would have been on my terms and not because of any smooth talk or whatever “game” a man thought he had to use to pull or play a woman.
Like I have said many times before there are women who use men just like some of them use women- they just use one another with no attachment or feelings involved.
There are women who use men for sperm, and it is not about the sex. I know personally a man could never do anything for me sexually.
Unfortunately, sex is the only way to make a baby unless one has the thousands of dollars it takes to go through numerous procedures of invitro fertilization.
A woman does not need a man for sexual pleasure. Women have clitorises they can stimulate and climax with. The instance is perfectly normal and healthy for them to self-explore and know their body.
Of course, every man is not out to hurt, use, deceive, or disgrace a woman when she does not cater to his ego.
There are good, mature, men out there with sense who do not even entertain or possess these certain mindsets/attitudes.
A lot of narcissistic men have deep-rooted psychological and insecurity issues.
Many of them are the way they are on account of their mothers fucking their heads up in the process while they were being raised.
Some of them were not correctly informed by mommy about the diversity within life or some of them were spoiled by mommy in a bad way.
Mommy enabled them and boosted them up in an unrealistic fashion that when they enter the real world to encounter women of substance they cannot cope with the reality.
In other circumstances mommy did not give some of them the love and attention they needed.
In a world where impressions matter to many, truths are what truly mattered to me.
Not projecting a facade of what is acceptable for the sake of being accepted.
I found it impossible for me to put on a disguise as I am not one to be a people pleaser.
There is a time for courtesy, professionalism, diplomacy, and respecting certain boundaries as well as a time when to justifiably cross them.
It is so important to live out one’s truth even if that genuineness and loyalty to self within self-preservation according to one’s own distinct nature causes a reproach within others due to what goes beyond their own comprehension and/or level of discernment.
I have been lied upon, misunderstood, judged for things I have never done, criticized for not being able to be controlled by others, and I have been the object of other people’s vicious gossip, envy and jealousy just like many other people of substance in life have.
All other people’s negativity did was cause me to become further resilient and despise and look down upon these individuals more than I already had beforehand.
As one who is extremely stubborn no one can make me do anything I do not want to do, and no one can stop me from doing anything that I want to do.
I have noticed an innate force within me that refused to allow me to be deterred from possessing the essential liberty that is instilled within me to express and prevail.
I was naturally inspired to continue to move forward unaffected.
Permitting others, the opportunity to dictate or restrict one’s path and future out of fear/intimidation or discouragement only prevents one’s celestial discovery, steady growth, and ultimate evolution.
There are people who often recognize or acknowledge some of us for who they want us to be instead of who we really are.
They form judgements or have preconceived notions based on generalized perceptions of what they believe we represent through our perceived lifestyle, words, or manner of bearing in which we conduct ourselves.
Some conclusions that others draw may be accurate, partially accurate or just plain wrong altogether.
One cannot be genuinely defined according to conjecture, hearsay, rumor, false assumption or a standard of what one is familiar with and/or accustomed to.
So many factors, shape, make up and contribute to diverse individuals and their behavior.
As soon as one behaves or responds contrary to another person’s sense of belief or reasoning, they may become shocked, disappointed, or even critical toward the other person.
This instance is not an illustration that the people or person in question necessarily did something wrong or acted out of character. It is an example of others whose expectation or notion of what they built up within their own way of thinking projecting upon the surface.
I experienced a long time ago (from my childhood on up) how people would put their own insecurities, ignorance, and negativity onto me and others who they differed from or were jealous towards.
I without a doubt knew that their judgment or lack thereof did not coincide with reality.
Their actions and behavior reflected themselves, who they truly were, and had absolutely nothing to do with me!
I am a very honest, straightforward person. If I say or write something it is because it is the truth, what I really think or believe, or suspect is possible.
Never do I or have I ever intentionally expressed anything under false pretense.
Some people may not understand what I mean or where I come from at times- depending on who it is- because I am a very deep, intelligent, and spiritual awake person.
Nevertheless, I speak my mind and am led by spirit to fulfill my purposes. I do know what I am talking about when I speak on things.
I am a forty-seven-year-old female who often gets mistaken for someone in her twenties or thirties. I have never really looked my age in body or in the face.
I even have a young sounding voice when I speak.
I have attracted men of all ages- young and old within the past.
When I was in my thirties eighteen-year-old guys were attracted to me, when I was in my twenties forty and fifty-year-old men were attracted to me.
It never made a difference. To each his or her own I never received any personal gratification from this attention I never wanted it.
Some men found me to be a challenge that they wanted to conquer. Some men just genuinely wanted to be with me because they liked me for my mind, and I was not like the average female once they got to know me a little.
I never placed value on myself based on whether a man approved or desired me. I have never suffered from low self-esteem and have never needed anyone to validate me or to build my assurance.
Self- confidence, self-love, and self-worth are things produced within me. No one gave it to me, and no one can take it away. Everyone should feel this way.
I have no interest in romantic relationships, I am asexual and proud.
Now I want to discuss this issue about Michael Gonzalez because I am being led to by spirit.
As I am a highly spiritually inclined individual I feel and keenly discern people’s energy.
Whenever a man, especially men who are of a negative disposition are attracted, or interested in me- I can feel them, their thoughts, and I can accurately sense things in relation to them in a timely frame.
Michael is an ex-coworker of mine who had, and who still has a “crush” on me. It is nothing serious, but it is annoying.
From the first moment I laid eyes on Michael, I did not find him to be attractive.
He is not a cute guy, and he is not handsome as far as I am concerned. A friend of mine had saw a photo of him and said that he was not attractive to her also but that he seems to think that he is something. Maybe there are low-scale females who find him attractive, however, I do not and never will.
I was very insulted when Michael reflected his insecurities onto me while we worked together by entertaining the ridiculous idea that I could be attracted or interested in him.
I told Michael to his face that I could not stand him, but his inflated ego did not want to believe or accept it even though deep down inside he knew it was the truth.
He even profiled in front of me one day on the job by trying to show off his body that was not appealing to me whatsoever. He got down onto the floor to demonstrate push-ups. The incident turned me off.
The more I had got to know Michael the more I disliked him.
When some men try to impress women, push themselves on them, or try to flaunt themselves when they mistakenly assume that the female likes them, they do not realize how much they make a fool of themselves. It is very off-putting.
When I was younger there were guys (usually low-scale guys because guys of substance do not behave in this manner) who would get angry at me for not wanting them and in return tell lies about me.
There were three who were a problem.
Two lied and said I was involved with them and all three wanted people to believe that I slept with them or had feelings for them- all to make themselves appear big in the eyes of their peers. And, to also try to bring me down since I thought too highly of myself to desire or to be with anyone like them.
Neither one of these guys were desirable they were used to low-scale women such as themselves falling all over them and making a fuss over them due to their own bouts of low self-esteem.
Someone like me, who was of substance and class, added an extra blow to the bruise they received to their egos when they got hurt and rejected by me.
Of course, their efforts did not work so they joined in with the effort to work Brujeria (Black magic/Santeria) on me to try to make me look bad within the public eye, however, I was still too strong, and I successfully defeated all of them at their own game. On top of it, karma came back and destroyed all three of them. One even ended up dead years ago from his negative lifestyle.
No one can bring me down as I never cared what anybody said or thought about me.
I did not have time for that type of bullshit then, and I do not tolerate it now.
Michael is not at all drastic to that extreme his nonsense is mild in comparison, yet still an act of ridiculous nonsense.
With all the serious things going on in the world Michael is hung up on the fact that he cannot attain me.
He would rather believe that I really do have feelings for him and am just fighting it, or that I am playing hard to get, or whatever other delusional bullshit that men feed themselves instead of facing the truth over dealing with reality.
Michael needs to forget about me and realize that a woman of my level and caliber would never be interested or attracted to him.
Michael has a lot of negative energy. He has a very low vibration.
I am a positive person I exude from a very high vibration.
What I also believe is a part of Michael’s insecurities stem from his background of being morbidly obese.
Maybe after he lost weight, he feels he needs something to prove and is overcompensating.
He needs women to be interested or attracted to him to feel like a big man. I just wish he would find some other female to win over to measure or to prove his false sense of pride.
The other women he has been with are easy tramps. He feels if he can get me then he can get anybody. I should in a way take this instance as a compliment, but I am not flattered by it, I am disgusted.
To me, Michael will always be a small, unworthy, pretentious smelly fish swimming in a dirty pond.
I am not trying to be mean I just do not understand the sickness behind and within certain men and women (because there are deceitful, trouble-making women too) who cannot deal with rejection.
A healthy-minded person does not occupy themself with stupid shit like this.
As a sojourner I continue to listen to God over listening and trusting in the world
I will never stop learning, growing and being made into the individual that he created me to be.
We who live in spirit should constantly beware and be wise.
I was always careful who I associated myself with.
I had no desire to be bothered or to allow just anyone into my circle.
Of course, everyone who comes into our lives are not meant to stay, they do not always have our best interest.
Some who mean us well are not always meant to stay either yet God may allow them to cross our paths as stones to step upon.
I have known these truths early on within life and it had done me a great service to heed warnings, to recognize red flags, and to appreciate whatever enlightenment there was to receive or uncover upon my journey.
As some of us who are unique many of us are greatly misunderstood.
We’re thought of as strange. Our words are taken out of context. Some of us are even called crazy by those who don’t understand us. By those who may envy us, by those who misjudge us and by those who want to psychoanalyze us with their bullshit that really does not pertain to us at all.
Some people are just miserable and spiteful.
None of these instances ever fazed or bothered me. I was just “crazy” that way!
Like I have said times before, when there is really no legitimate basis other people’s attitudes and behavior are a reflection of themselves. It’s their problem- let them worry about it.
People do these things to just about anyone who does not fit into what they consider typical or so called “normal”.
It is really about what is “healthy” than about what is normal. Who is to actually say what is defined as normal when we have so much diversity?
I would never worry about a word like crazy as it is the dumb ones and those who are actually crazy themselves that label smart or extraordinary people in that manner.
It is not always wise to discuss our beliefs, faculties, or certain other things with just any or everyone yet never feel ashamed of who you are.
Never try to repress what you feel.
I am tired of what is average, I always have been. I welcome people and things that are rare, different and uncommon. That is what makes one special.
Never be afraid to stand out from the crowd and be the unique person that God created you to be.
If anyone calls you “crazy” take it as a compliment!
Michael is camouflaging with and through someone online (I have proof) due to the fact that he could put his job in jeopardy by further retaliating against me (so he is doing it in public secretly). They have even tried to contact me on this blog with nonsense (I have proof).
He is not slick at all.
He is trying to provoke me psychologically by continuing to tell lies about me.
He falsely states that I was fired (along with some other nonsense) when it is documented that I indeed quit working for Amazon and I have a written statement from Amazon that I voluntarily left the company so I don’t understand why this moron thinks that I will play into his silly, obnoxious game.
My blogs are a vehicle to exercise and to utilize my talents, to share my knowledge and experience to inform and to inspire. To use my freedom of self-expression within all truth.
I am a writer and I love and enjoy my natural craft. I don’t have to explain anything to anybody and I have no apologies. God has given me many gifts, talents and ability, and I will continue to use and be blessed by them.
I am moved and led totally by spirit. The energy is wonderful and amazing.
My blog is not a platform to trifle back and forth to with idiots who have nothing better to do with their lives than to try to vainly sabotage those who have positive things going on for themselves.
The attempt is actually pathetic, comical, and a waste of time.
I have no interest. I have better and more important things to do.
When one has peace within themself, love, and self-value their heart and mind is set on what is high.
I am a highly “in tune” spiritual person and have a connection with the intangible. The extramundane is nothing to fool around with.
God is in control of everything and I have a deep fulfillment.
I encourage those who it applies to always stand up for what you believe in.
Never let anyone intimidate you or discourage you from doing what is right or from accomplishing your goals.
Have no fear.
Be bold, be courageous, be true to yourself.
Trust in God. Always put him first and watch him move mountains on your behalf.
Always remember that a strong faith sees the invisible, believes the impossible, and receives the incredible!
This is what I walked into the day I started my shift hours before I quit working for Amazon (photos are aside and down below).
I was doing mid shift while Jazsity was still there barely finishing her morning shift.
The Amazon Locker Hub was left tacky and unkept as a result of their incompetent employees.
Steven Ellmore the new dim-witted manager that had taken over my team was very insecure, and eager to impress the corporate office or higher ups there at Amazon. When I first met Steven, I knew that he was trouble and that he wasn’t on the level intellectually.
He was in the same category as the certain other undesirables- a nobody trying to be more than what he was while at the same time trying to downgrade another person of substance to make him feel better about himself.
Trash always joins together in an attempt to subdue or remove those who they are inferior to. They do it out of jealousy, maliciousness, or lack of faculty. Many of them are just plain sick.
Steven claimed he had to come all the way over to the Locker Hub because I relayed the words to Jazsity “I am a grown woman. You don’t tell me what to do”, when she as one in the same customer associate position as I was gave me an order (being bossy). Steven classified the insignificant event as an “incident” (nothing but a bullshit head game).
If he came all the way there for my words and not due to the mess all over the floor then he needed a mental evaluation. He knew what he really came there for, but that is what trash do they scheme, they manipulate the situation, and try to lie their way out of a circumstance by scapegoating their target. The only thing these people are professional in is being devious.
Many of them are unable to succeed honestly and resort to underhanded tactics in order to obtain or maintain their desires. It aggravates and makes them uncomfortable to observe those with true capability who could go far within life naturally.
I am sure Jazsity poured it on with her fabrications and exaggerations as to the reason she stepped away and left me to attend to busy crowds of customers.
Steven claimed she stepped away to call him. When I called him, I continued on with my work. She sat on her nasty fat ass until he brought his useless ass over to the Hub. Oh-but I am sure Jazsity had good reason since she was avoiding an imaginary confrontation as they planned to label me as the bad one.
These people know what they are doing and are aware when they have been exposed nevertheless, they of course deny their actions and pretend they are not at fault to those who are in the dark or to those who are not sharp enough to perceive.
I don’t give a fuck what people think I never have. I don’t have to put on a show I live in reality.
I am an expert with people of this nature I know all about them and how they operate.
The thing about it is- is that I have a gift.
So, no one can play with my mind. I will always be steps ahead of people like them watching them get caught up into the traps that they set out for others.
P.S. There are some good, functional employees who work there at Amazon, just like anywhere else, however, the negative ones tend to fuck up things for others wherever they go.
I have never been jealous of anybody; however, people have always been jealous of me.
I always had high self-esteem, never influenced or altered by society and its ways.
I was never a part of this world along with the many sick people that inhabit the earth. Thank goodness for that!
Not many people naturally operate within this fashion. I don’t get hurt or affected mentally and emotionally the way average people do because I am too spiritually incline. I am on a higher plane.
A lot of people don’t understand me because I am too deep for them to understand. – latoya lawrence
I am at the age of forty-six now. However, it did not take me to get a specific age to acquire particular knowledge.
I gained wisdom early on within my youth. I knew what life was about by the age of twelve.
I was born with spiritual and intellectual gifts that made me wise in ways that certain people did not appreciate. Those who were not on the level themselves who gave off negative energy.
I knew things outside the ordinary range, beyond the normal sensory range of contact/area. I had the faculty to perceive things or events in the past, present, and future.
I have enhanced by learning extra, but I already knew much of what I know now that many people take years to learn through age, and by their own personal experience. Through experience within things some people still do not grasp on correctly and they walk through life with false perception and misrepresentation of life factors.
I had a lot of problems with negative people growing up because I was bright.
However, I do not understand why certain people thought that because they did not know particular things when they were younger that I was not supposed to either while I was at a young age.
People have a tendency to generalize and to reflect their inadequacies or insecurities onto others, especially when the aspect is common to them.
Some people do not want to accept another person who is younger than them to know more or just as much as they do because of ego or reasons of bias.
In fact, I knew more than they did in regard to particular matters within their older age. If I tried to correct an older person when they made an error, or tried to explain where I was coming from, they would react nasty or disdainful.
Not all people reacted within this fashion toward me only a “specific type”.
When I was younger there were positive people who told me and my mother that they were nowhere near the level that we was on when they were at my age.
I have been called unique, rare, strange, brilliant, and crazy (by jealous people). I don’t care. To me, I am just a spiritual person having a human experience continuing to grow on my journey in trusting and understanding my purpose and relationship with God.
I was always ahead of my time, advanced in ways that came without anyone having to teach me.
My mother and I were able to teach ourselves as youngsters. When we went to school, we exceled in the subjects we were strong in.
School did not make us smart, though, we were already adept to begin with.
Yes. One can be self-taught within a lot of things, especially within life experience.
School does not necessarily make one bright.
Education is the process of learning, acquiring knowledge of or skill in something by study, encounter, or being taught. The setting is irrelevant when things are ascertained.
I know plenty of people who attended school who are not smart.
Intelligence is something one is born with.
Knowledge or information is gained, and comes through and within various forms.
It is whether or not one is able to grasp what they learn.
As a person, and as an adult, I have never treated one inferior just because they were younger. I never tried to use my age as a weapon.
Just because one is older does not necessarily make one wiser.
There are young people who can teach an older person something just as there are older people who can teach the young many things.
I don’t consider myself to know everything at all. And I am definitely not the smartest person in the world. I am ahead within the gifts I possess, and I have a lot of knowledge, but I don’t want to know everything. I just know I have a heightened sense and connection to a realm within life that I was always familiar with.
Acknowledging our capabilities is not an expression of conceit or an exaggerated opinion of oneself when one is level-headed and logical. God wants us to be aware of who we are and the things that he equipped within us to have and accomplish to show his glory. Within our ability is a sample of God’s incredibility.
I write this as an encouragement to those who have been mistreated by older folks that have a tendency to manipulate, corrupt, hold-back, or mislead, because they cannot stand to see a younger individual who did not mess up or get caught into the same perils of life they once did.
Instead of being an example to cheer one on, they would rather drag another down as that younger person may have been a reminder of all they could have been, or wanted to be at one time or another in life.
We are blessed with certain gifts that God bestows upon us and some of us are anointed at a very young age.
God makes no mistakes. Do not let anyone tell you what you are not, what you do not know, or what you are not capable of doing.
When God enables us for his intention no one can disable us through attempting to bring about our suspension.
When one has wisdom, and can see through others, some people do not like it.
When we do not like, or do not take to certain others, and prefer to keep our distance from them and not, or no longer associate with them they will react adversely.
It is hard for some to accept or handle the fact that they are at fault within areas that we can discern so they will accuse us or another as being crazy (usually a head- game/gaslighting) or as the one with the problem.
Some people do not think or believe that they are the ones who are trouble.
Circumstances and situations can become complicated when others are not on the level and are not within harmony, or up to par with another person’s wavelength.
Sometimes they might even believe that they are the ones on the higher level due to the denial rooted within their own lack of knowledge within particular areas of life and within themselves.
There are those who will gang up on one when they do not believe they are wrong, especially if there are others who they get along with who share their same mentality.
Often those of a similar mindset no matter how nescient (ignorant), misinformed, condescending, judgmental, or twisted in thinking they may be will get along because they can relate to their own distorted and parochial views that make sense to them.
A lot of these people are deceptive, manipulative, spiteful, petty, envious/jealous, insecure, and unreasonable.
Misery loves company and when they know we are at ease and living in peace they become even bitter.
The Lord is so kind. He showed me his care as he does within so many ways.
Yesterday he sent me an unexpected message, answers along with guidance and encouragement to a situation I was sure of, yet had pondered through anyway.
“Let not your heart be troubled.Trust in God, and trust also in me“.-John 14: 1 was the Lord’s address to me.
The life of God’s children is not easy; however, we should not be worried or anxious in our hearts. There is no reason for any of us to be troubled if we have accepted Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior.
We are not to be intimidated or frightened by the devil or by the magnitude of the evil and negativity in this world.
God let me know as a confirmation that it was okay to justifiably erase toxic people from my life without turning back. In fact, that it was a necessary act of spiritual, mental, and emotional cleansing.
We are to rid ourselves of those who speak negativity into our lives, and who try to weigh us down.
Commit your actions to the LORD, and your plans will succeed. The LORD has made everything for his own purposes, even the wicked for a day of disaster.–Proverbs 16: 3–4
I have a very low-scale aunt named Tina (Ernestine Lawrence).
She had always been very jealous of my mother and I, her along with my deceased great-grandmother and uncle.
She had done a lot of dirt throughout the years. She was a drug addict (heroin and cocaine and whatever else she tried).
Tina is dying now though she is still a big liar. She is plagued by guilt yet still does not want to fully admit all the deeds she has done against my mother and I.
I do not care anything about her but she would insist on trying to push herself on me.
My mother and I wanted nothing to do with her, neither did my other aunt.
Tina had the nerve to publicize something about my mother on Facebook to gain sympathy and attention for herself from people my mother and I did not like or care to associate with.
My mother and her did not even get along.
Misery loves company.
Tina has some delusion in her mind that she has taken care of me or needs to take care of me in order to feel worthy and to look important.
I am a grown woman who has worked for sixteen years straight. I pay my own bills in addition to providing for my other aunt.
My mother was the only one in my life to have ever taken care of me as well as her having taken care of other members of our family. Tina has never taken care of anyone.
She needs to go deal with the people who she seeks and needs attention from.
She is jealous and bitter because I always have, and am still living a good, clean, pure life. I am strong, smart, and independent. She could never bring me down.
She needs to go get herself right with God.
And, I know this is not too Christian or polite but, I hope she burns in hell.
As one genuinely born with second-sight, the inherited gift of extrasensory perception, I am far from a dummy and I have never been anyone’s fool.
One of my strongest gifts from the Lord is sensing things about people in areas that others cannot sense or pick up right away.
I know who to trust and who not to trust, I am an authentic, truthful person, one who is not given to tell lies. I do not appreciate liars, I never have, and I do not entertain such behavior.
The “knowing power”, of wisdom, knowledge, and discernment along with other special spiritual ability, is a gift and blessing bestowed upon me from the Lord to carry out, and to fulfill my purpose for the wonderful plan he always had set before me.
No one can stop the arrangement of God he has the final word in all things.
I fear nothing and no one, the Lord is my protection and shield, he has proven this to me all throughout my life, regardless of the times in the past when I was angry at him for personal reasons of my own.
When people unjustifiably come after me, attempt to do me wrong, tell lies or whatever, God takes care of them every time, so I do not have to fret. God does not let people get away with trying to hinder or harm his children. I leave everything within his mighty hands.
I have never considered myself a failure and I am not, and never will be. None of us who are called by the Lord are. We are conquerors here to partake in our mission whatever that may be, we are not defined by the world’s standard or view of what prosperity and success is.
So to all who walk in the light of the spirit, keep moving forward, God is in control.
Whatever the Lord/Holy Spirit puts in your heart to do carry it out delightfully without hesitation. God is right there beside us all the way. Just believe, pray, listen, and let the Lord continue to lead.
The Lord designed me like no other and it was no mistake. He understands me when others don’t just like he does all of the other individuals he crafted and brought into existence.
All we have to do is go to him with any concern and talk with him. Seek his leading, guidance and achieve to stay in his word to always gain and maintain further understanding and deep faith.
He is there to love, protect and teach us his will and provide a wonderful eternal future for all who believe and accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and savior.
We don’t have to answer to anyone but God he knows everything about us- not what others lie on us about, falsely perceive about us or misinterpret about us. He knows the complete truth about us to the core.
He knows us better than we know ourselves.
God knows our hearts, intentions and entire makeup. After all, he formatted and assembled us together from the beginning before we even came into being.
God has given me quite a few unique gifts I’ve recognized since childhood, and all through out my life. Many incredible accounts of events I can give honest testimony to.
God made all of us differently, none of us are exactly the same (no one can duplicate or replace you, you are one of all his prized possessions).
God intentionally designed each of us individuals for a reason.
As he created us all uniquely, he gave to us certain natural abilities, talents and gifts.
God gave us the precise talents and gifts that he viewed suitable for us as he had a specific plan for us to carry out using the gifts that he incorporated within us.
Through our distinct God-given faculties, we can tremendously reach other people in such a diverse number of ways and direct them toward our heavenly father.
What are your talents, abilities and gifts, and how is God inspiring you to use them?
Our Lord doesn’t want us to compare ourselves to anyone else or to try to measure up to anyone else. He just wants us to be sincere and work with what he enabled within us and shine that light on behalf of him in honor of him.
Encountering difficulty and people who are trouble is an inevitable part of life. We unfortunately cannot avoid this problem. We live in a broken world full of torn ligaments and dislocated parts.
This culture is shattered now more than it ever has been.
Many of us will have or have had trouble brought into our lives by other people.
Other individuals will not always line up with what we believe in or where we stand on certain things and they will not necessarily believe in everything we say even though we speak the truth.
We must learn to continuously trust in the Lord our God to always carry us through every difficult situation that may arise.
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever. –Hebrews 13:8
We are to hold firm onto the faith that we will make it through whatever problems happen to come our way just as God has delivered us so many times before.
The righteous person faces many troubles, but the LORD comes to the rescue each time. –Psalms 34:19
The Lord consistently gives us his comfort and peace within a way that is incomprehensible to others as we are unaffected by the circumstances and events that would otherwise upset or tear them apart.
God gives us wisdom, strength, and confidence because we personally know him and he knows us extremely well! He lives inside of us and we are in him and nothing can ever separate us from our Lord Jesus Christ. My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. -John 10:27
Even if we wander for a while, we will eventually return again to our heavenly father due to the fact that he comes looking for his children to bring them safely back to the fold.
For this is what the Sovereign LORD says: I myself will search and find my sheep. -Ezekiel 34:11
“If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them gets lost, what will he do? Won’t he leave the ninety-nine others in the wilderness and go to search for the one that is lost until he finds it? Luke 15:4
I speak all from what I truly know firsthand!
Some people cause their own problems, their troubles are often a result of their own deeds. Some accept their faults and attempt to improve and learn from the errors of their ways. Some others, instead, continue on not taking any responsibility or just don’t care of their destructive actions.
We in particular know that when we walk with God and stand for Jesus, we will especially have discord among specific people. It is being made clear those who are adhering to the Lord and those who are deserting him.
Jesus himself acknowledged that we would have conflicts in our lives and he wanted us to be prepared for them. “Don’t imagine that I came to bring peace to the earth! I came not to bring peace, but a sword. -Matthew 10:34
He knew that some would be divided when it came to choosing him, living, and being not of this fallen world.
Love? That is so funny. You don’t know the definition of love! I don’t want anything from you. I don’t want your affection or your money, or anything else from you.
If you loved yourself you would have never done the specific things you’ve done and lived life the specific way you’ve lived.
Remember when you told me you wanted to give me funds from your pension when you die? Well, you can shove it up your ass.
You can’t buy me!
I don’t need your itty bitty shit I was born to have my own and I have been doing pretty darn well- I even do my own taxes! I have been handling my own jobs, career, and money for years now. The universe is not going to let anything happen to me.
Oh what a pathetic bitch you are, Tina, you along with others who were foolish enough to fuck with me in the first place.
Beg all you want bitch! I don’t give a fuck about you.
I’m an inevitable success story.
No matter how hard you and other undesirables tried you could not break my spirit or inhibit my drive and purpose. I prevailed, I always have, and I always will, you were all just far too dumb to see it and realize that you weren’t hurting anyone but yourselves.
You can keep making an ass out of yourself if you want, just like you have done for the majority of your life, because I have absolutely no regard for you.
The sad thing about everything is instead of being proud of having a niece of my caliber and character you were filthy jealous and destructive, especially as you admitted to me and my mother how the majority of the other neighborhood folks and youngsters were a bunch of nothings, yet you joined in with many of them (Did they know that while you were out gossiping and making up lies about my mother and I that you were coming back talking about some of them to us when you were at your lowest point? I don’t think so! They’re so stupid just like you.)
How sick can you be? I shouldn’t have asked that question because you broke the mold when it came to being twisted.
I’m happy, I have peace, I am blessed, and I have success. I also have a host of good and powerful blood related ancestors from your mother’s side of the family who’ve watched over me since my birth.
You don’t even know the beauty of our family and their history. You were too busy running the streets.
Did you know your mother had seven or eight brothers and sisters in actuality? Do you know how much family we have down south and spread about? We’ve known and met family that you don’t even know about.
I’m your only true connection to your mother also. You’ll never know what’s going on with her in the spirit world because I’d never share those revelations with you.
I’ll tell you this though, she (Catherine) is alright, so far she has been in a content sphere for a long time now.
Amanda and Junie, however, went straight to the depths leading to hell where they most definitely belong and where they suffer.
Down below are links and messages from my mother’s sister, Tina, sent to me on Facebook.
This is for you, Tina, although you probably wouldn’t comprehend as logic and reasoning doesn’t register with you. And, since your HIV/Aids has probably gone to your head by now.
Since I was a child you were very jealous of me because I was very intellectually advanced and highly educational that is why you went around saying I had no education when it was actually you who had no knowledge.
You always had that low level trash mentality.
You have no high school diploma and did not graduate from high school that is why you went into the National Guards because you didn’t know anything and you wouldn’t have gotten into there if my mother hadn’t helped you out and told you what to do but you couldn’t even excel within that.
If it wasn’t for my mother Annette Theodora Cromwell wouldn’t even have gotten into college.
Now I don’t knock anyone who didn’t finish school the traditional way because I understand distinction within individuals everyone has their own way and their own calling or set of circumstances.
However, you really focused on making me out to appear like a stupid person when you didn’t even finish school yourself.
Did you know I actually skipped a grade when I was twelve? And when I was ten I passed tests that high school kids couldn’t pass. At eight years old I got an award for being one of the best readers within my entire school.
When I became an adult I got accepted into a college but I never cared about any of that shit because I wasn’t an insecure person like you.
When you were at those young ages all you achieved and was well known for was being on drugs and being a skank.
I at such a young age was gifted and passed all of my tests, received awards, and certificates in school so you and Amanda tried to interfere because I was nowhere near a dummy like you and Amanda.
You both knew I was headed for accomplishments that you both weren’t capable of gaining.
You wasted your time because I never relied on the approval of others or cared what anyone thought I’m proud of everything about myself and I have no regrets.
I was born with a caul you dumb bitch I have second-sight, I mean really, what the fuck did you think you could do? I was ahead of you. I laugh at you.
I knew just about everything you did through dreams, visions, and intuition.
You did the same to my mother because she was bright and multi-talented.
You said my mother never worked a day in her life because you couldn’t get the jobs that she could. You and Amanda were fools that people could use and abuse. Then you two were absurd enough to think that you could destroy me and my mother’s lives with voodoo/witchcraft/black magic and lies.
You conspired to give my mother a nervous breakdown and make her out to be lower than what you actually were out of pure envy, jealousy, and your own true state of mental illness.
It’s all in the past now but you still won’t leave us alone. We don’t care anything about you, we never did, and never will.
Nobody is hurt by you, you are nothing to be distressed by, you never had the power to destroy us, we just don’t like you at all.
You are an undesirable person who has done far too much dirt why would anybody of any class, intelligence, and substance want to be bothered with you.
Why don’t you go call and bother your own kind of fellow degenerates who share within the delusions of their own mentalities.
You are a pathetic piece of trash.
Go call up George Owens/Taalib Muhammad, Joanne Anderson Franks, Doritta Almodovar, Renee Blackwell, her sister Teresa Blackwell, Jeff Jemmott, Olivia Oliver and her kids and grand kids that you all talked about like a dog (remember when cookie and her kids gave you a concussion and put you in the hospital?), Spotface Pat Bush and your dyke crew, Diane Mims, Sonia, Lorraine Burwell- the bitch with the broken legs and her sister Judy Clarke, the nigger you stabbed with the knife who took a shit in your toilet before you called the cops on him, Annette Theodora Cromwell-the bitch who fucked some nigger down on Hollis at the tire shop, and all of the other sick and twisted fucks you use to run to and with.
You have no one. They don’t give a fuck about you, you stupid bitch. And look at all of the stupid unnecessary shit that you did to us for years. With your broke ass.
Go call up Amanda. Or better yet, why don’t you go join her in the grave.
Bitch, maybe you should give me a call so I could blow your mind with all of the shit that I know for someone who doesn’t have an education. I’ll teach you some life-long lesson facts.
Things are going my way. The universe harkens unto my voice. I live in my truth and my way harkens unto the intangible dimensions within my connection to the universe. The destiny that was designed for me, and the destiny I design, are both intertwined, and as they are both within harmony, they will not be denied.
Whereas there are a lot of good people in the world there are also plenty of negative and mediocre people inhabiting the planet and when no good people find out that they cannot use you and abuse you they do whatever it is within their power to refuse you the opportunities in which you are entitled to.
However, is not up to them or entirely in their hands to decide how far we go within life, or within our careers so to speak. It is just we live in a society governed and controlled by some people who are corrupt, and by some who are not on a certain “elevated” level and wavelength, or both.
The power is within the universe to ultimately decide, and the energy is dispelled unto not only those who are spiritually receptive, but to who it is also celestially intended.
As a spiritual person, life has consistently went better for me than the average life has went for others.
I was always meant to be successful and I have succeeded within many fashions and aspects of my life.
There are and have constantly been people, nevertheless, who’ve tried and who still take part in earnestly attempting to hold me back at reaching my highest peaks of deserved financial success.
I’ve worked jobs that I didn’t really want to do, or that I had no genuine interest in just to steadily gain a stable income to allow me to pay my bills, and to maintain the lifestyle that I frequently enjoy.
I was always able to make a good volume of money but they don’t want me to further delight in what they will never be able to have.
There is nothing they can do to stop who I am, what I’m capable of doing or achieving, or the things I was born to accomplish, they have only been able to delay certain events from taking place at a sooner period.
The time they stole and continue to steal, for the time being, until my optimum time finally arrives, is the extra time they’ll spend burning relentlessly within the lower depths of hell once they arrive to their inevitable and eternal destination. They have to suffer here, though, before they go, and a tough lesson beforehand they surely will learn.
I don’t follow the ways of the world because the world has absolutely nothing to do with me, I follow my own individual nature, preferences, and inclinations.
I have always definitely known how to live and to survive in this world, yet I am nothing of this world, and I never will be, and I am very proud of this actual fact.
People getting mad and destructive through the cellestial bestowments directed out from the great universe.
Unfortunately desiring to harm other individuals because they are blessed in ways that they aren’t – Miss LaToya
I never understood why certain individuals who were of a lower intellect and character, tried to dominate and degrade, those who were of a higher level and caliber.
It happened all the time among specific type of people who considered themselves to be up to par, yet were actually not.
The ones who’d get downgraded and downplayed were the true definition of genuine sunstance, and quality.
Imitators who aspired to duplicate within their own facades, often hunted deep to find fault within those who were just living normally, often creating a barrage of unwarranted attacks, in a mere attempt to completely subdue one.
Strange how relentless people are, and how far many of them will go, due to their own unfathomable resentment toward the favorable advantage naturally granted upon certain others.
Fiends put themselves into a sleep, as they can’t cope because life is just too deep. -miss latoya
I wonder what was in that heroin to incite a lot of junkies to believe they were experts on everything.
They have a delusion in where they are smart and everyone else is dumb.
Within their false assumptions, distorted points of view, and severely altered mind state, they are in tune to various illusion in which blows away the most keen individual toward a hysterical fit of laughter.
Their reasoning is outrageous, and their logic is quite ludicrous.
I guess those of us within a healthy and productive mindset, and bestowing extra sensory capacity, have a lot to learn by not adapting to what is not reality.
Once one begins to regularly deliberate within fallacy, they’ll be just as bright and informed as the junkie, and also agreeably welcomed, and suitably joined, into the fool’s comfortably inadequate paradise.
Everyone who has had a breakdown of some sort is not weak, crazy, or dangerously unstable.
A breakdown is spiritual within many instances. A Yoruba priestess even acknowledged this fact to me years ago. I know firsthand as my own mother was a victim of brujeria in the early 1980’s.
I was even targeted. My aunt tried to flip me out when I was eighteen years of age by putting the hallucinogenic drug mescaline into a hot pot of black eyed peas that I had cooking over the stove.
People often use recreational “trip” drugs to increase the chance or enhance the effect of mental and chemical alterations of the brain while also performing the negative spiritual influences within black magic/voodoo/witchcraft.
My aunt went a step further in her malicious attempt by also putting tainted hiv fluids inside my food. Anyone educated would know the disease would not survive within the air and within a pot of scalding hot water.
Nevertheless, I didn’t lose my head or have a breakdown, my mind was too strong with faculty and awareness, and I didn’t, of course, become infected with aids either.
I was young, innocent, and very spiritually inclined, so divine intervention took over and protected me.
My aunt Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has been hiv positive since the 1980’s due to intravenous drug use and promiscuous behavior from the 1970’s on up and instead of using her limited time to spend changing her life around for the better, she continued to do tons of constant dirt. She and other envious and jealous ruthless dummies, whores, drug addicts, and degenerates attacked me and other family for decades.
They’ve in addition done it to others, however, when they came after my mother and I, they messed with the wrong individuals. We are people of the light and they are people of the darkness. My ancestors and orishas were ready for them all, and the universe was recording and keeping record of every notorious deed in which was repeatedly done toward us.
Tina had poisoned food of my mother’s years ago too while neighbors were working black magic/voodoo/witchcraft against her.
My grandfather was driven to mental affliction before he was killed and found dead in the Hudson river.
My aunt Charise was drugged and raped which caused her to be afflicted with mental illness.
My grandfather, mother, younger aunt, and I were targeted for manipulative breakdowns because we were all very smart, strong, and fighters who could literally kick ass if needed be. We weren’t the type to back down or be bullied by anyone, and we were all good upstanding people.
The intent for causing mental, emotional, and spiritual breakdowns are to weaken one, to render them as incredible, and to lower their self esteem and spirit.
Certain evildoers want those of us who have knowledge in which threaten their unscrupulous ways either dead or labeled as crazy.
In my opinion, sexual intercourse is a stupid act as I consider a man and his penis totally undesirable.
Nevertheless, I am a very intelligent and logical open-minded woman who knows there are a lot of females who are interested in men and sex, or who may just use men for sex whether they want to have a child or they may just want to get their kicks off.
I can still elaborate common sense to a subject in which makes no sense.
I don’t care what anyone does with their lives or with their bodies as it is of no concern to me, in spite of that fact, as a societal issue and as a woman/lady myself I am inspired to express on this subject.
I’m not at all saying that attitudes will ever change, but that I, and I am quite sure many others, absolutely do not…
As a child I wasn’t sheltered. I’d seen and heard a lot and encountered numerous types of people and situations while at the same time not being negatively influenced within my own behavior by incorporating undesirable habits or lifestyle choices, yet informed, as I had a mind of my own.
I had firsthand experience without having to personally indulge in order to know and since I was spiritually inclined I was able to clearly discern things that were hidden under the surface and I definitely knew what appealed to me and what turned me off and what I wanted to avoid as I grew up in life.
One of my strongest points is my excellent communication skills and comprehension. What I lack though is a sympathetic nature toward people and the world in general. I do love the hell out of puppies and dogs, though, they just steal my heart. They’re so innocent, sincere, and lovable those little adorable fuckers.
Since I nipped that “Think Of Me Spell” in the bud last week another corresponding negative technique was put in motion to run its trifling course. It’s definitely witchcraft yet all it has done is give me a off and on headache.
The motive is to drain me of my good energy and luck to render me vulnerable to the effects of whatever negativity and negative energy in which they gear toward me as they have failed so badly with endeavoring to bring me down and to destroy me.
These idiots are continuing to further ruin themselves through attempting to cause my demise. I am a very good and blessed person and I am and will constantly be guided and protected by divine intervention.
Adversaries are actually hurt because I am not at all hurt or affected by the negativity and dirt they’ve directed toward me within the past and by the negativity and dirt in which some of them still continue to direct toward me now.
They are infuriated by the love I have for myself, my high self esteem, the love and respect I have around me, and the fact that they are unable to stop me from living my life and speaking the truth.
I am a writer by nature, I have a gift, and I am naturally motioned by spirit to utilize and exercise creatively, honestly, and productively whenever inspired. There is power in the universe to those of us who are endowed.
It deeply frustrates them how they cannot get to me emotionally or mentally. And I can “feel” their upsets within my body through intense empathic ability. So they couldn’t deny it even if they wanted to. Feeling and being able to perceive other peoples emotions has always been one of my dominant faculties as a highly spiritually inclined person.
They’re going to drive themselves crazy with trying to hurt or thwart me with things and circumstances in which do not faze me. I’m not the average person. I’ve always been on a entirely different level and will never be hurt by their words, lies, jealousies, ignorant thinking, malicious deeds and etc…
Of course, when somebody comes up against me I will take up for myself or fight back as I am a very feisty and strong individual. And I definitely will correct anyone who comes at me with the wrong approach. One doesn’t have to be hurt to retaliate out of hatred, vengeance, or justification these instances have absolutely nothing to do with being hurt within certain types of people. Everyone is different and does not act out for the same reasons or under the same intention.
Although I do realize many of my adversaries have been hurt by me as I have not been too friendly or receptive to their kind (as I’ve never been fond of their type and those with similar traits and mindsets) yet they hurt themselves by ignorantly making assumptions and adhering to preconceived notions while really knowing the real deal then proceeding to carry out nonsense due to pure spite and resentment.
I know that nothing bad is ever going to happen to me as it never has. Although I may sometimes have to go through bad things I go through these particular incidents if or when they arise without any serious worry or dismay.
Certain people never understood how I handled what is considered to them as a tribulation so well and nonchalantly.
It is just a natural reaction of peace and ease from my own personal experience with my spirituality and the momentous encounters throughout my life. And frankly, it is sometimes just my cold attitude of not giving a damn.
Nevertheless, I am monitored and protected by spirit.
It’s sad when others plan negative designs upon me and others in specific with the genuine “knowing power” then have or assume successful expectations to come into fruition as I know all along how things will inevitably work out and go within my favor.
Even if it is just a regular periodic hard seemingly time in which may happen as an up and down part of life or celestial test. I know that I will make it through alright without a doubt because that is just me and the way it is within my life condition.
People endeavor and attempt to do dirt out of spite or greed or whatever else and I always know what the outcome will be.
It’s a pure waste of time on the perpetrator’s part, however, they don’t know this or they’re too arrogant within their ignorance to understand and realize this fact.
As I am born with Extra Sensory Perception I know what scheme people will calculate against me before they do themselves and I know how the situation will eventually turn out.
One doesn’t have to be born with a “Caul/Veil” to be “different” and to be remarkably set apart from others.
There are a very small number of people out there in comparison to the large amount of inhabitants within society who have exceptional or rare quality and train of thought.
Wisdom doesn’t come with age for everybody.
There are plenty of narrow-minded people who go through life and who have went through life actually believing that, they know, and knew, everything that there is to know when they acquired nothing legitimate at all but what they have misconstrued or exaggerated through their own restricted boundaries.
And these same people teach their own children and others their same dumb ways and beliefs. Fortunately there are some children who are born and that come out smarter than their parents.
One should definitely not permit oneself to be defined by other people’s ignorance, misconceptions, and generalizations as most who are of an ordinary mindset have a limited range of view and comprehension.
This world is full of weak-minded individuals who are easily influenced. I’ve always been a leader, not a follower.
These individuals are only able to discern within the scope in which their minds will completely allow.
When other people may accuse those of us who are on a particular wavelength and who are at an advanced level of consciousness, mentality, and intellect, of not being logical, realistic, or even moral, it is because they are lacking within specific true knowledge as their minds have in addition been socially and spiritually conditioned to incorporate and accept the mental, emotional, and psychological degrees of rationalization among the majority in who it typically pertains and applies to.
It is very important to remain strong and to not lose one’s self and one’s own distinct identity and genuine nature due to the false conceptions of what others may interpret within our behaviors and expressions because most people are unlike us and don’t know anything other than what they are familiar with and have been accustomed to.
A lot of people put their own insecurities on us all of the time because it makes them feel better as they don’t want to be alone (set apart) within their own tendencies, personal flaws, shortcomings, or inadequacies.
Some people don’t want to willingly acknowledge a rarity or major uniqueness in certain others if they themselves don’t also hold and encounter those uncommon attributes. And some just trifle to tick us off.
Instead of just recognizing how there are other individuals who are “beyond their own capacities to understand” they, nevertheless, proceed to judge us by the ways in which they personally are, how they personally feel, and the innate or orthodox reasoning in which they are able to grasp within themselves upon occurrence, situation, and circumstance.
Their doubts or opposing reactions, if any, is purely a reflection of themselves and their own insecurity and lack of particular knowledge and/or experience.
Everyone, of course, is not and does not act out of these natures, however, for those of them who are, and who do act out, they need to be dismissed from our essence and presence.
It is never appropriate to let anyone make one feel confused or uncertain about who they are, the things they know, and where they stand.
I’ve been one who has always had a strong sense of self in which no one could deter and I am extremely firm within my beliefs and within my facts and I will stand up to anyone who dares to challenge my truths and experience whether it be the mundane or extraordinary.
I as an individual never cared what anyone said or thought about me. I am authentic within self and nobody knows me better than I do, and I don’t have to explain myself to anybody, and I have no apologies. –latoya lawrence
When one tells the harsh truths about no good people fellow like-minded individuals don’t want to hear or believe it. When one tells vile lies on good people haters are eager to hear and ready to believe.
There are people now and for a while now who are and who have been sorry for the negativity in which they had directed toward me.
They feel stupid and regret the things that they have done and took part in yet I’d never accept their apologies and I would never forgive them. I don’t want any apology I just want them to suffer for their dumb errors.
I’d never even give them the benefit of the doubt I’m so disgusted by their ignorance and audacity to so readily believe and be so eager to falsely come up against me on account of whatever they heard from someone else’s mouth when they didn’t even know me personally. I never went around bothering anybody. People were getting mad because I didn’t want to be bothered with them and because I had no dirt on me.
If I didn’t have the strong mind and spirit in which I had where would I have been?
Fortunately I wasn’t affected or devastated by the ordeal, if anything, I was enhanced as I always continue to evolve and grow, however, I thought about other people who weren’t strong enough and had gotten destroyed through the barage of other people’s ignorance, jealousy, and lies.
I don’t care if what they were told did come from a family member or certain people who’d been around me. People lie on people every day and one can live with someone and hang around them and still don’t genuinely know the heart or mind of the individual.
People didn’t really know or understand me only smart people who were on my level or higher could see me for who I honestly was and they truly liked, loved, and respected me and they all still do they’d never listen to or go along with nonsense out of pure envy, jealousy, and idiotic misgiving, and people like them immediately earn my respect. My own mother admitted to me that she never understood everything about me because I never thought like or had the mentality of the average person.
As one born with second-sight it is very hard for me to put myself in these people’s shoes because I’ve always been able to look and see through people, things, and situations whereas other people couldn’t rationalize so I was never one to be easily deceived or one to fall for anything major. I’ve always had a mind of my own and analyzed things.
I’m so sick and tired of undesirables but here we go again. And I never cared anything about their kind though I keep getting warnings and messages about them and I am ever so grateful for the insightful revelations.
There are people who don’t use drugs who are trash and degenerate, and all people who dabbled in drugs don’t go around spreading and making up lies about their relatives, this type of behavior stems from a type of mental illness and a sickness within anyone behaving in this manner.
Most jealousy starts within the family and no one knows that better than me. There was tremendous dirt done by particular family members much too much through out the years to fit into just one post.
I unfortunately have an aunt by the name of Ernestine Lawrence and she was always extremely jealous of my mother and I along with my great grandmother Amanda Byars (who is deceased now) and uncle Willie Jr (also deceased) and all three of these individuals were junkies.
Tina has had the nerve to try to contact me through Facebook a few times a few months back I just ignored her request. I know what she’s up to I see right through her. The bitch is in trouble all of the dirt she’s done and the bitch also wants information.
It’s bad enough when one has envy and jealousy from others on the outside but when you have a few undesirable relatives deceptively conspiring along with a parade of fellow ignorant and gullible lowlifes in an effort to bring you down to the gutter level to where they are it is just despicable.
I’ve hated undesirables ever since childhood because of the way their minds operated and because they’ve always proved to be and cause nothing but trouble.
Ernestine Lawrence was so jealous of my intelligence and achievements so she went around lying saying I had no education. She was jealous of my mother’s intellect and the jobs that she was able to get so she went around saying that my mother never worked a day in her life.
Amanda Byars along with neighbors on the outside worked brujeria on my mother causing her to have a mental breakdown when I was a child then went around saying that she was crazy and that she bugged out over a man when this particular man and his sister was just mad because my mother didn’t want him or a baby by him.
They tried to do the same to me. Who puts black magic on a seven year old child on up?!
Men got mad at me because I didn’t want them too and lied and tried to give me a reputation and make me lose my mind with black magic I didn’t give a fuck about that shit couldn’t no man degrade me.
When I published my first book about the family they lied and said my mother told me what to write about when in truth my mother had no idea exactly what I was going to put in my novel. I would ask her a few questions from time to time but other than that she didn’t know, however, she knew it was autobiographical. Everything came from me and my own words as I’d been writing since the age of ten but Ernestine and Amanda didn’t know that about me as certain others who knew me did.
Unsavvy people took the word of jealous junkies who’ve committed every deed of dirt known to man and they are all paying for it now and in ways they wouldn’t recognize.
Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has had HIV since the eighties and is dying like a dog. I don’t understand why it’s taking so long for her to die. I guess she has to suffer before she goes and busts the gates of hell wide open. She’ll go out with an explosion.
My uncle was still shooting up before he died from AIDs as Amanda tried to cover it up saying he had cancer. Amanda croaked in the year 2009. They were all miserable and had messed up their lives at an early age and tried so deeply to destroy mine and my mother’s.
Nevertheless, I was protected and came out on top because right prevailed over others wrongdoings and I don’t care about any of their sorry feelings or regard. I wish them all nothing but doom.
My mother is a little more understanding, she’s not taking up for any of them but she explained to me how some people get fooled by the crafty skill of a liar and when tall tales may come from members of someone’s family others just may not know any better. She told me that I shouldn’t compare myself to them as far as being able to distinguish specific matters because my world is completely different from theirs since I was born with extrasensory perception.
She also imparted how some of the instigators and harassers were victims themselves because they didn’t really know the truth or the real deal about what was actually going on until later. And how the junky’s mind is on a totally different level than that of a logical and healthy thinking mind.
My mother is right in her words, yes many of them are sick, but still I am not giving those who fell for what they wanted to hear and act on a free pass and I’m not making allowances for any of the worthless addicts who dared to ruin my life. There were plenty who took part and knew that they were all lying and went along with the conspiracy anyway it was all part of the game. Some were so ill they believed their own delusions.
They even used black magic from time to time to get inside my mother’s head to turn her against me with fabrications. A lot of people don’t understand how voodoo/black magic/witchcraft works but I do and it will effect the people around you. It also unnaturally effects everyday happenings and the energy around one.
My mother had many times been so nice and helpful to people just for them to turn around and do her dirty. I’m glad I’ve never been as nice and helpful toward certain people, not that she did anything wrong she just was good to some people who didn’t deserve her kindness.
The universe has been good to me and allowed me to be aloof to all of the wickedness that was around me so I won’t complain.
I’ve never been a fan of Wendy Williams and I am not a frequent viewer of her talk show.
I have a relative who tunes in to her from time to time just for the hell of it and today a repeat episode of Wendy’s ran where she spoke on people home schooling their children. Wendy has stated before on her show that she is not fond of home schooling and she mentioned today how the situation in her opinion prevents socialization.
There are definitely other ways in which a child is able to mingle or socialize and grow up productively besides attending a public school with other children so she is wrong, nevertheless, this is not the matter I have with Wendy after watching the segment my issue is her criticizing some parents reasons for not wanting their children learning around conflicting environments created by the cruelty of other kids .
Now, I understand in the real world there are these same circumstances and behaviors of adult people that occur everyday and that are an unfortunate part of what goes on within society.
Early life experience does lead one to awareness, preparation, adapting, and coping methods, however, to say that everyone has been bullied and taunted with remarks that are hurtful but that the events served to makes us all out to be stronger and today’s generation are raising a bunch of wimps as if bullying or harassing and taunting behavior from others is an acceptable rite of passage.
So certain parents who don’t want their children interacting with other toxic dysfunctional fuckers contributes to being weak? I think not!
And where is Wendy William’s so strong at? She is one who has had nothing but major self esteem issues as the bitch has been heavily addicted to drugs and alcohol, lowered herself so bad to suck on mens penises, surgically blew up her breast to resemble hideous basketball titties, and married a man who she allowed to continuously use and abuse her.
Wendy Williams needs to talk about no one because her shit is all fucked up.
It’s fellow trash like her with the same ignorant mentality which promotes bullies and harassment among degenerates within the first place.
People of a specific mindset only insult, try to dominate, or attack, because they assume that it will hurt, give them control, or cause fear.
To categorize everyone as the same and take for granted that everyone will react within the same to these instances is a mistake and generalization.
I remember when I had people harassing me and trying to bring me down years ago for no reason other than “the green eyed monster”, and accused me of putting up a front because I was undisturbed by their conspiracy of spreading lies and rumors against me then having people I didn’t even know utter out insults and remarks at me in attempts to intimidate me, and I had absolutely no idea what they were talking about as I truly wasn’t fazed by their bullshit.
What the incident genuinely came down to was they themselves really didn’t have the strength and level of mentality as I did to sincerely be unaffected by the negative treatment of other people and they knew it. They would have been crushed and destroyed if it had been done to them and that is why they used that stupid shit on me yet it failed to give them the results that they were looking for. I always ignored them and their “game” as their nonsense was an honest reflection of their own bouts with inadequacy.
And, don’t stand up for yourself or speak your mind if need be, though, because you’ll just get accused of being “defensive” the psychological mind game and manipulation tactic in which assholes use in order to place their own insecurities on you when they can’t deal with accepting truth or fault.
Wendy Williams is a total idiot bullying another doesn’t make them stronger look at the poor souls who commit suicide (not that everyone who kills themself is weak because all of them were not) or become flunkies to the human asses that they kiss due to low self worth?
One has to already have strength to endure and to get even stronger that is why people try to break them.
Bullies aren’t people with real strength as their only weapon is feeding off the fear of another. Usually it is the victim who is the strong one yet doesn’t even realize it yet and if or when they eventually find their courage the bully then becomes the true wimp.
Any form of bullying is and should be unacceptable.
No one can manipulate me into thinking within a fashion that is not of my nature and no one can manipulate me into acting within accordance to what is not of my innate state of being.
When one refuses to bow down to another just to get along with certain others they are considered being negative.
When one doesn’t like or want to be bothered with specific kinds of people they are considered being negative.
When one has a mind of their own which cannot be swayed and isn’t easily influenced by others and one doesn’t follow a crowd to fit in they are considered being negative.
When one isn’t afraid to stand up for what they know or believe in they are considered being negative.
When one tells a truth in which certain others don’t like or agree with they are considered being negative.
When others lie on one or does some type of malicious deed against them and one justifiably takes up for themself they are considered being negative.
When one doesn’t allow others to walk all over them and get over on them for their own benefit or through manipulative tactics they are considered being negative.
When one can sense and perceive unfavorable things about individuals that others are unable to see, process, or recognize for themself they are considered being negative.
Everything is being negative when it comes to the convenience of the actual negative people themselves. Anything to unscrupulously control an instance or provoke a situation in which to better suit their own ulterior motives and design.
And many unknowing and unsavvy people fall for their schemes as there are many who are oblivious to the artful guile of others in particular, or who share within the same mentality, or who just have a similar mode of calculating mindset.
Individuals who are in the right are often told that their own so called “negative behavior” will just create more negativity along down the line as to blame the intended target of unfairness for the trouble that is deliberately or primarily caused by others, a coercive statement which is lent to further manipulate one into submitting to and accepting the mischievous treatment and behavior of certain others, and to also permit them to freely get away with continuing on in their malicious deeds and actions within the future.
It is indeed a cunning and deceptive measure of audacity to acknowledge, a persuasive approach of nonsense talk which I have never listened to, as in reality, people of this nature inevitably create a vicious loop of negativity to spiral back at themselves when it comes to an individual as in tune as I am.
A lot of people don’t like other people who are too smart and who are too strong within the mind and within character especially those of us that by nature and instinct will fiercely tussle back when necessary.
The more these type of “sick” (as I call them) or unethical (if one wants to call them) people act out within their wrongdoings whether perceived to them as such, or not, the more they become disreputable and detestable to me.
In my opinion, there isn’t anything wrong with one who is aware of their accomplishments and capabilities and acknowledges them, it is the fashion in which one projects themself and intention behind their own recognition.
I think with certain people identifying within their attributed description, as they may also detail in regard to others, is harmless and not meant as to gloat but as a form of expression or discovery.
When arrogance becomes hubristic there is another scene bringing impact into the story.
As a child on up my mother loved and was proud of me yet she never bragged about me to anyone.
Peers would come to her boasting how their wife was this and their wife was that, their kid was this and their kid was that and from the constant proclaims my mother knew honestly their wives and children indeed weren’t shit.
Time brought out just how much the wife and kids of these braggarts had amounted up to, a figure not summed within the scale in which they smugly dared to measure, but a scale that announced a degree of great shame and embarrassment.
One’s looked down upon arose to bud, then bloomed on to become a bouquet of sprouting flowers, ones that were once the object of disdain became the example of a noteworthy and momentous acclaim.
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